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2024.06.02 11:01 Cryptalaus Dirty shoes

‘Do not bring home the mudmen.’ That’s what my uncle said to me when I went camping in the woods behind his farm. I asked him for more information but he shook his head. ‘It’s a tradition. It's just a thing people around here used to say in the old days.’ He smiled at me, even though his eyes looked rather sad. I said goodbye and started walking. Ever since my sister died, I have not been the same. My mother had sent me camping in these woods to defeat the numbness. ‘A bit of fresh air will do you good. One night alone in the woods, that's all you need!’. I remembered her words when it started raining, only one hour into my camping trip. Part of me wanted to return to the farm but my body kept walking. I have to admit that it felt good to be outside. While the rain fell, my thoughts kept going back to the funeral. It had also rained then. It was hard actually to remember a single thing about that day. All the speeches and the faces and the condolences blurred together in my head. The only moment that I did remember, was after the funeral when everyone had gone home and I lingered for a while at my sister’s grave. I joked around like we used to do but with no response, all the while crying like a child. Joking to my sister’s grave did make me feel better though it did not stop the numbness.
The afternoon passed while I thought about my sister and my future. Every couple of hours the rain stopped, only to begin again a few minutes later. The earth made squishy sounds while I trudged my way towards a good camping spot. Sometimes one of my boots got stuck in the dirt but it didn’t bother me. My sister and me, we used to go on adventures in the small woods near our school. A world of imagination and freedom awaited us there between the trees. My current trip made me reminisce about our adventures. With my shoes in the wet soil, I felt like an adventurer myself, a lonely hero on his way towards an epic quest. I smiled while the rain kept falling.
By nightfall, I had secured a cosy camping spot on a hill, high and dry from the ever-present rain. I ate the sandwiches my uncle made for me and fell asleep to the faint beginnings of a thunderstorm in the distance. I broke up my tent and returned to the farm. I felt much better, to be honest. It had finally stopped raining and the sun guided me during my walk back. I had some time for myself. Time to think about my sister but also about me. I’d finally started thinking about my future. Made some plans and jotted some things down in my journal. So it was with great enthusiasm that I returned to the world of the living. Even though the rain had stopped, the mud was still there. It was impossible to traverse the woods without getting dirty. But I didn’t care. I felt happy and a little mud had never killed anyone, right?
When I came back, my uncle wasn’t there. He had left a note that he had gone to a friend’s house and that he wouldn’t return until that evening. Because my shoes were already dirty I decided to help my uncle out and do a bit of work on the farm. I cleaned up the stables, fed the pigs and reorganized his storage. When I was ready, I left my muddy shoes outside.
I woke up to the sound of a scream. Sleep still had me in its thrall when I came down the stairs. A second scream shook me from my slumber and I raced outside, towards the sound. It came from the stable. I crossed the courtyard and saw dirty footprints everywhere, all ominous looking in the moonlight. I threw open the stable’s door but I saw it was already too late.
I want you to imagine my uncle. He’s in his forties. Short brownish hair, modest beard, big friendly eyebrows. Now imagine him again but with mud and dirty black water coming out of his eyes, ears, nose and mouth. His scream had turned into a desperate gurgle when I saw him. He sat upon his knees surrounded by three humanoid figures entirely covered in mud. At second glance, they weren’t covered in it. They were mud. Their whole body was mud. These figures stared at me or I thought they did. They had no faces but their heads turned towards me. My uncle tried to gurgle a warning or something but he had wasted his last breaths. As he fell in a puddle of saliva and dirt I ran away as fast as I could. I heard the wet squelching steps of my pursuers, reminding me of my return to the farm while it rained earlier that day. I ran inside, shoved a closet against the door and started thinking about an escape plan. Meanwhile it had started to rain again.
My initial plan was to escape through the front door. But what to do after that? Where to go? I searched for the keys to my uncle’s pickup truck but found nothing. Shit. He probably had the keys on him. Which meant I had to get all the way back to the stable and face the mudmen. I picked up a big knife from the kitchen and decided to risk it. On foot in the rain with mud everywhere I probably won’t last long, especially when my pursuers were made out of the same dirt I was walking upon. The steady rhythm of rainfall synchronised with the beating of my heart as I went outside. When I put on my shoes, I noticed they were clean as if I never even had been camping. While adrenaline raged and all my rational thinking was being crushed by raw fear, I darted towards the stable. On my way I sank halfway into a deep puddle and when I reached the doors I had become some of a mudman myself. All my muscles strained and my brain was going in survival mode as I opened the door. I was ready to stab these mudmen. To avenge my uncle and… I saw no one. The stable was empty. No mudmen but also not a trace of my uncle.
I decided to return back to the house and that was the moment I found out where all the mudmen had been. They had been gathering reinforcements. Outside the stables stood eight mudmen. Their slick featureless heads ‘looked’ at me. It was difficult to say where their legs ended or where the ground started. One of them seemed new. The mud was not as thick as with the others and pieces of farm overall were visible. It was my uncle. Before I had any time to process this, the fuckers began to make their way towards me. I quickly decided to abandon my hope of a pick-up truck and to go with my plan B. I ran away as fast as I could. They followed me, slowly but surely. Mud was everywhere as I sprinted through the woods. Water, dirt and tree branches clung to me as I tried to shake off the mudmen. They moved like boneless masses, ever merging with the ground upon which they persuaded me.
I don’t know how far or fast I ran. I passed some other farms and wondered whether they could be potential targets of the mudmen. The way my uncle had warned me this morning, seemed like folklore but real. Maybe everyone that lived there knew to watch out when walking through mud. After crossing multiple asphalt roads and some hills, I arrived in a small village. I went to the local diner and decided to call my parents to come and pick me up. I have no idea how I will explain any of this to them or to myself.
I’m currently waiting for my parents. I decided to post my story here to get my thoughts straight. Has anyone ever heard of these mudmen? Or encountered them? I wonder if there is any way to stop them. As I write this grey clouds gather once again and I just heard a conversation between two truckers. According to them, it will keep raining for the next couple of days. Better avoid the woods for a while.

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2024.06.02 11:00 bacconangel Mean girls situation aka my friends hate me

Hey, I don't usually post, but I need to ask someone about this since I can't do it irl, because I don't want for it to become gossip. So over the past three days I began seeing my friendship with two girls completely differently, let's say G and B. Firstly I was friends with G last year and everything was a ok, then in the next year B also became friends with us and we became somewhat of a trio, I didn't like it at first because I was scared It will ruin the dynamic and there's no friendship in three (guess I was right), I didn't voice that opinion and started hanging out with B, she's a cool girl, so I was thinking it wasn't too bad...until...yeah of course until, if everything was ok I wouldn't be on redit. I started noticing that B and G started getting way more closer to one another because of similar tastes in fashion and other stuff. And also because they now work together at some cafe, and 60% of the conversation are about work and how cool and mature is G at that work. In situation I was writing it off as 'it's fine they just work together', and everything continued and it suddenly became B and G being besties and me trailing along. B would literally listen to G and would be influenced by her to do most decision like pick the final test, B agreed to do what G wanted, but I didn't and decided to take the subject I knew I could get a good mark on which obviously deepened the bridge that was my constant third wheeling. Of course I let myself get a bit influenced by G and because I wanted to fit in and well because I thought we were friends.

The third wheeling continued till I realized they couldn't give a crap about me we all three decided to buy new hair coloring, and G and B were only talking amongst themselves and standing close enough that their head were literally budding (they were about to fuse out of how connected they're shoulders were) and I was kinda there...cool I guess. G was telling B that her mom was going to die her hair and this and that. And I was like ''hey girls do you think this hair color suits me" and I was like getting two seconds of a head spin and yeah without even looking and getting back to chatting and it's like I had a huge flash back of everytime they treated me unfairly. 1. Buying coffee as a present for a teacher G was only talking to B and I tried to fit in but nobody cared about the opinion of the only person who actually drinks coffee 2. Treating a guy who broke Gs phone screen better than me, as in treating his opinion with more respect 3. Not coming with me when I needed to get something, they would gladly go with one another 4. G being dismissive every time I got a slightly better grade and was basically saying it was easy 5. Dismissing my opinion about money future because I'm not working so this means I'm some plebe who hasn't reached the experience of them people who have a job 'youll understand when you'll start working' no I will not understand how you are irresponsible with money, because you work 6. G and B making fun of me for dropping a package 7. Making fun of me because my prom dress was more expensive B: how much was your prom dress Me: like (twice the price of BS dress) G: hah mines like for free from my mom's B: yeah your dress is way to expensive G: yeah Which was continued by dismissive stares and acting like there better than me 8. Always hinting that I'm not feminine enough...hence I make remarks about feminism and how the things women are wearing can be harmful for their health like heels, and I wasn't judging anyone because I also was wearing heels, to which G budded in to say that she likes wearing heels and I'm just not a woman like she is, were both the same age I tried to bring this up that I want to feel included more and they were like aw it's your fault for not putting enough effort even though I'm trying.
Now I'm genuinely confused am I supposed to drop them because they're being unfair and toxic to me or I'm actually the villain of this story amd I'm just a shitty friend who tries playing the victim when it's my fault? I really need advice on what to do I don't feel like my point of them being bad people is good because there are good moments but there's are also shitty once too. I don't know if I should keep being friends with them.
Ps, if you don't want to read all that
My friend got a new friend amd we formed a trio and I became the third will amd my friends started treating me worse dismissing my opinion, talking to on each other more and making me feel excluded, I told th this but they said I should talk more even though I'm trying. Now I'm stuck between cutting them of figuring out if I'm the villain

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2024.06.02 10:59 Beginning-Eagle-8932 [maybe ASB] Why the Seven Months War between Indonesia and the Philippines was the most Ace Combat-like war ever.

Mostly based upon this: https://www.reddit.com/acecombat/comments/islc7v/the_100_hour_war_between_el_salvador_and_honduras/
1: The war started for a stupid reason, but it was more complex than that.
The Seven Months War has another which people also know it as: the "Second Football War" or the "Second Soccer War". While tensions between Indonesia and the Philippines had been escalating for years, basically because of Indonesian migrant workers and families being blamed by the right-wing government as scapegoats for some of the country's problems, which resulted in Indonesians being discriminated more and more as the years passed by. The real problem was in fact how Russia manipulated the election to let President Fernando win. In turn, his party founded the Philippine Center for Fundamental Rights, which was anti-working class, anti-immigration, and anti-Muslim. This organization put pressure on the Filipino Government to "protect their nation". By 2025, Indonesian immigrants were being removed from their land, regardless of how they acquired it, their immigration status, or even whether they were married to a Filipino or not. Many Indonesians were being expelled from the Philippines by force. To say Filipinos and Indonesians didn't like each other was a big understatement.
In 2027, a Filipino football club from Manila and an Indonesian one from Jakarta were both in a two-round qualifying match for the 2027-28 edition of the AFC Champions League Elite. The first game was held in Manila, and the Indonesians were met with violence, a fight between fans erupted in the streets (quickly turning into a riot), and Filipinos were gathered all night at the hotel where the Jakarta team was staying to make noise and keep them up all night. Manila won and Jakarta lost 1-0. An 18 year old Indonesian girl named Aisyah Samudra couldn't take this and killed herself. Her funeral was used in Indonesia to bolster national sentiment, hundreds gathered in the streets to say their final goodbyes as her coffin was transported down the streets of Jakarta like she was a national hero.
The second game took place in Jakarta, and Filipinos were met with violence, Indonesians stayed around the hotel where the Manila team was staying to make noise all night long, some flagpoles at the stadium had dirty rags instead of the Filipino flag, Jakarta won, and Manila lost 2-1. The coach from Manila, while he and his team were on the way to the airport inside an APC (because it was too unsafe for them to simply go in a regular bus), was recorded as saying to his players "It's a good thing that we lost."
Over 20000 Indonesian immigrants were forced out of the Philippines, many not by the Government, but by Filipinos that burned down their houses, their businesses, and even killed some of their family members. A similar scenario occured in Indonesia, where 10000 Filipinos were displaced. The AFC demanded a third game in neutral ground (Singapore), and it is said that, on the day that game happened, Indonesia and the Philippines cut all ties and closed all diplomatic channels with each other. Manila won that third game and Jakarta lost 3-2 during overtime, and Manila was qualified for the 2027-28 ACL Elite group stage.

Military actions were done in unusual ways by the Indonesian Air Force.

A month after that final defeat, Indonesia launched a surprise attack and invaded the Philippines. The Indonesian Army and Navy quickly began gaining ground in the Philippines, and within a month had full control of Mindanao and Palawan, setting up occupation governments in the places they captured, with the goal of reaching and conquering Manila.
All of Indonesia was placed into lockdown as the Indonesian Air Force began their attack as well. The Indonesian Air Force didn't have any dedicated bombers, so they mostly used C-130 cargo planes with bombs in their cargo bays. The Indonesian Air Force used Rafales and Su-27 Flankers as escorts for the bombers, wile also using F-16 Vipers and Su-30 Flankers to deal with ground targets. A long-range strike into Villamor Air Base in Pasay City, which was part of the Mega Manila area, caught the Filipinos by surprise.
So the first mission is a surprise bombing raid, typical for an Ace Combat game.

While the Philippine Army and Navy didn't really stop the Indonesian offensive, the Philippine Air Force did.

As the the Filipino surface forces were getting owned in the Visayas, the PAF, the Philippine Air Force, began the counterattack. While Villamor Air Base near Manila was attacked, it was still fully operational, and with the fighters that fled there, the Philippines, using T-50s as primary strike craft, escorted by F-16s and MiG-29s, launched attacks on Indonesian ground targets in Palawan and Visayas to stop the advancing Indonesian military. This included a long-range attack on oil and fuel facilities in Palawan and nearby Kalinmatan. The attacks were successful, and multiple crucial fuel tanks were destroyed, wasting a large amount of Indonesian fuel. This left the forces in Palawan without fuel, and without fuel, they couldn't continue their advance towards Manila.
There's the second mission: Destroying an oil rig, or some base filled with fuel tanks.
The most well-trained troops in the Filipino military were the ones tasked with protecting Manila, so they were not at the front lines with the counteroffensive. The Philippine Air Force and the Philippine Navy managed to stuff them all onto ships and transport/cargo planes, and sent them to the front lines to reinforce the front in preparation for the counteroffensive.
Third mission: Escort duty, defend some plane or ships and help them transport some Army unit.

Most fighters in the Indonesian Air Force who got shot shot down in a dogfight with Philippine Air Force were downed by the same pilot, who was accountable for more than 50% of Filipino air-to-air kills.

Captain John Hernandez, flying a Viper, achieved 41 aerial victories over the course of the war, becoming a Filipino Ace of Aces and earning a nickname: the Sparrow. He also became Ace-in-a-day within the second month of the war, downing 2 Indonesian Flankers during an air raid, and later shooting down 6 Rafales on his way home.
That's right, the Indonesian Air Force was getting owned in the sky after their initial success by just one fighter pilot: Captain John "Sparrow" Hernandez. There's your protagonist/player character with a Red Baron nickname right there.

Both sides had basically the same planes, but one side had this neat camo pattern that clearly set them aside.

You might have noticed how most of the i've mentioned are US-made or Russian-made. That's because Indonesia and the Philippines bought F-16s from the US and Indonesia bought some flankers from Russia, while the Philippines bought some old MiGs from Poland. Indonesia used Flankers and Rafales as primary fighter, while using Vipers and T-50s as fighter-bombers, whereas the Philippines used F-16s and T-50s mainly in a fighter role with Super Tucanos and OV-10 Broncos as primary attack planes. It wasn't hard to tell the two countries' planes apart from each other, for example, while Filipino Vipers used the same grey paint scheme used by the US, Indonesia had a military camo pattern applied to their F-16s (as seen here).
So, there you go: Both sides have (mostly) the same planes and both sides have distinct paint schemes on their planes.

In desperation from the Filipino counteroffensive, Indonesia began buying plane parts (and sometimes planes themselves) from anywhere they could and began to hire mercenary pilots to fly them.

Four months into the war, having lost both planes and pilots, and with the Army and Navy starting to lose ground in the Visayas, and having practically completely lost Palawan, Indonesia got desperate. they began getting new airframes and spare parts from whereever they could (they basically bought them from scrapyards that had them), made the frames combat-worthy again, and hired mercenary pilots to fly them, giving them provisional Air Force ranks (and, for many, fake identities).
One such pilot was Major Anatoly Fyodorov, a Russian mercenary fighter pilot who was fresh off the Essequibo War, who used the Su-30 as his plane of choice.
So here we have the big scary opponent Ace with a backstory who flies Russian aircraft.

The war ended after just seven months (hence the name), after the counteroffensive succeeded in retaking all of Mindanao. And nothing really changed afterward.

After the Phlippines sucessfully retook Mindanao and the nearby Sulu archipelago, Indonesia had ASEAN intervene in the war, and after the US threatened military action in the event of any further attacks from Indonesia, both parties would cease hostilities and sign a peace treaty in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, thus ending the war. The reasons for the tensions remained, however, as President Fernando would continue his policies (until he was voted out of office), and Indonesia would continue to displace Filipinos.
So the Philippines won, the war ended, and the peace treaty was agreed upon, but the whole "wars happen because countries exist" view still remains.
Oh, and don't forget the evil Russia and is leader, Vladimir Putin being the evil mastermind in the background.
A few months after the war, Captain Hernandez's F-16 is in display on a museum in Manila, kept there as a monument of sorts. So there you have the end credits scene honoring the memory of the lone pilot protagonist.
Most of everything was there, all that was left is the obligatory enemy superweapon. (And the once-a-game tunnel run.)
Sorry if i offended anyone here.

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2024.06.02 10:58 kushbae Joined and left "communities" and now there's a tab and notifications on mobile that are really stressing me out, even though I left the community

Anyone know how to fix this- is there something I need to do on desktop to make it disappear on mobile?
I left the community, went into my phone storage settings and cleared the cache, and it still says 13notifs, yet when I click on the tab itself it now says "welcome to communities" "(create a community)"
anyways i just feel upset cause i want my dashboard to look normal again. i tried looking through account settings but there was nothing to turn this off. if anyone has a solution (or an understanding of why it's broke) that'd be lovely. thanks!

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2024.06.02 10:58 incyweb The algebra of happiness

For many years, I took the train to work. A fellow commuter (I’ll call her Jane) endlessly complained about the poor punctuation of the service. Jane was intent on claiming as much compensation as she could from the train operator. To that end, every day she recorded on a spreadsheet how late her trains were. She was due to go on holiday and asked if I would keep a note of delays during the week. Reluctantly, I agreed. When Jane returned from holiday, she asked me for an update. However, I had totally forgotten to keep a record. Rather than admit my oversight, I told her the trains had run perfectly on time through the week. It had never happened before. Jane, as you can image, was delighted. She did not ask me again. I often think, if I’m too happy then Jane could sort me out.

Variables of happiness

Happiness is often described as a state characterised by positive emotions, satisfaction and a sense of purpose. I know that happiness cannot be strictly defined as a mathematical formula. However, as an aging Mathematician, perhaps you will humour me. As in algebra, where variables represent unknown quantities, happiness is influenced by factors that interact in complex ways. Making positive changes in any aspect can have ripple effects. The variables of happiness include: Purpose, Relationships, Health, Gratitude, Growth and Resilience.

Purpose

The purpose of life is to enjoy the passage of time. - Jimmy Carr

Having a sense of purpose gives us direction and motivation. Whether it's through work, hobbies or other activities, aligning actions with our values and passions brings a profound sense of fulfilment.
I love seeing people use things I build. A combination of commercial and IT skills enabled me to develop a tool that significantly improves the way my corporate colleagues work.

Relationships

I am self-motivated and very happy working alone. That said, without my family and friends much of my drive and sense of purpose would diminish. Supporting my children and seeing them develop into amazingly talented adults is a huge pleasure. Strong relationships are crucial to my happiness.

Health

A healthy person wants a thousand things, a sick person only wants one. - Confucius

At age 35, when commuting home by train, I was convinced I was having a heart attack. At Reading station I sought help and an ambulance was called. At the scene, paramedics used an ECG to check my heart. I was then taken to the local hospital for further tests. After an overnight stay, I was told my heart was healthy and I could go home. Subsequently, I went to my GP who told me the likely cause of the pain was related to some DIY I had undertaken. Since that event, I have not taken my health for granted. Daily walks help me stay happy and healthy.

Gratitude, growth and resilience

Listening to the BBC Podcast A History of Britain in Numbers made me realise how lucky I am to have been born in a safe country in the 1960s. Central heating, showers, computers, mobile phones, social media, Wifi, the internet and AI. All things that enrich my life daily that my grandparents could hardly imagine.
I struggled at school. Maths and woodwork were the only things I was good at. In my 30s, I discovered books and embraced the idea of life long learning. I am working my way up Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs. I am particularly enjoy learning new things and sharing my understanding with other, e.g. via this blog.
While incredibly fortunate, I have faced many setbacks, including redundancy and the death of my mum and a close friend. Pragmatic optimism and a supportive network helped me. I feel more resilient and grounded, having come through these challenges.

Other resources

Happiness is a Choice talk by Naval Ravikant
Life Games to Play, Win and Exit post by Phil Martin
Pick Ourselves post by Phil Martin
The following may not be applicable to everyone. However, for me, I buy into Naval Ravikant’s view that, Happiness is a choice we make and a skill we develop.
Have fun.
Phil…

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2024.06.02 10:57 ThrowRA9therapy Moving away from temptation, 1300 miles away.

I (34M) caught my wife Clair(33F) cheating at her AP's house when she was supposedly out on a girls' night out a couple of months ago. She confessed everything and let me go through her phone to prove it, they had only had sex once and I caught them as they were spending their second night together. We have two young children and she pleaded for a second chance. I said we would get some therapy and try and work through this. While I had her phone I synced it to our iPad to read through her messages.
Besides confirming her infidelity story, I found out three of her friends knew and had encouraged her to cheat. Betty (33F), who Claire went to high school with, was also having an affair and I sent some damning copies of their texts to her husband. I told Claire I was uncomfortable with her hanging out with them given their history and that they were still trying to sow discontent and drive a wedge between me and Claire.
Since then Claire has been on her best behavior and has cut way back on her contact with her friends until a couple of weeks ago, when she told me Tammy's birthday was coming up and they all wanted to go out and celebrate. I said I wasn't comfortable with her going out with them but if she wanted to go I would go with her. She felt that was a bad idea given my history with them and after talking it out she decided not to go. The next day I got a call from Tammy telling me what a controlling POS I was for micromanaging Claire's life. Claire didn't attend the celebration and gave me the silent treatment for a few days.
So I had a conversation with my boss, they have been after me for a few years to move up into a bigger role in the company, and I told him I was ready to step up and we discussed my options. I had a couple of choices and went with the office in New Mexico. My wife was born and raised in Chicago when I told her we were moving to New Mexico she threw a fit. All her friends and family live in or around Chicago and except for vacations she had never been outside the state. I mentioned Tammy's birthday and how I got frozen out when she didn't go to the party and said I was tired of them affecting our relationship even after I expressed concern about her staying in contact with them after they encouraged her to cheat on me.
Claire has barely spoken to me, she cried the other day when the realtor put the sign up in front of the house. I have a realtor in Santa Fe looking for a few houses for me to look at when I go out to the office there next week. My Chicago realtor already has three people ready to make an offer and says we should have a contract next week. I spent Saturday bringing stuff down from the attic and getting it packed up. I would love to get moved before the 4th of July but that may be pushing it.
In the long run, getting my wife away from her toxic friends will give us a better chance to repair our marriage. I hope it gives us a fresh start free from some of the drama we have had to deal with.
Note; My Mom talked me into drawing up a prenup before we got married, so the house and some other assets I inherited are protected just in case. I make almost twice what she makes now and after the move, I will make at least three times what she does now. The community I am looking at has a population of about 3000 which will be a culture shock as well, but we are only 30 minutes away from Santa Fe.

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2024.06.02 10:56 Schmipple Should I break up with my bf?

Hey, I’m in need of advice. I usually don’t turn to Reddit, but I’m desperate, now.
My current boyfriend and I have been together 4 years this coming 20th of October.
When I graduated in 2022, we moved into an apartment together, where I did everything- all the cleaning and taking care of the cats, most of the cooking. I paid the deposit of $2,000 for the apartment by myself using my personal savings. I furnished the apartment. I felt and still feel unappreciated. Living in this apartment lasted a month due to the constant fighting. I just gave up the lease/deposit in lieu of being evicted.
Something happened before the events of the apartment that I will never forget. My boyfriend claims to not remember, but I remember it as clear as day. For about six months, my boyfriend was practically homeless (as his mother wouldn’t let him stay with him). We made the mistake of letting him live with us in a federal apartment complex. I remember one night when we got into an extremely heated fight. He told me he was going outside to take a breath or whatever, so I locked the door behind him as I felt unsafe. He called his mom and told her that we “locked him out and wouldn’t let him back in,” and that he needed to get back inside in order to get his money. Long story short, he had his money on him while outside. To this day I’m not sure what his intention was.
He ended up moving to an apartment that was in the city I currently live in. The apartment was never clean. He didn’t believe in mopping or throwing things away immediately. His roommate was an 🫏. I did a lot for him, then, too. I convinced my brother to help him move out when he got evicted. I also cleaned regularly.
In February, I worked at my local Walmart. While at work, we got into a fight. After it escalated, he told me he asked a girl out on a date for Valentine’s Day. Fast forward a fight that lasted a couple days, we ended up making up for the 100th time. When I brought it up, he just said he thought she was hot and was trying to move on (like I did briefly for a month. Long story.) I feel like he tried using her to manipulate me into staying.
Fast forward to today, I realize that I tolerate a lot of bull💩. He lives in an apartment with two roommates who don’t pick up after themselves, and clean maybe once a week, if they feel like it. Imagine the start of a hoarder house-that would be the apartment. He has a ferret who drives me insane. She wakes me up at midnight most nights by biting my feet. Not to mention, he also drives me insane. He blurts out random noises that I thought was cute at first. He doesn’t wash his hands after he 💩s, and only recently has begun to shower regularly. He doesn’t brush his teeth with water. His clothes always smell horrible because the unit doesn’t have a washedryer hookup. Overall, he just acts like a child who was never told “no,” and is just an adult who doesn’t have his shit together and probably never will. He’s 20 but acts 15. He once told me he “never wants to grow up,” and I’m starting to believe it.
I know what you’re all thinking at this point: why are you still with this guy??? Well, for starters, like all nem he isn’t 100 percent bad. He has his moments where he is incredibly sweet and considerate. I feel like he understands me, and whatever. But lately I’ve been feeling detached from him. We went from being intimate nearly every day to maybe once or twice every four days. He said his libido isn’t the same, and that he’s bored of xes. I think he is just bored of me.
To be honest, I’m afraid of what he’d do. In the past when we’ve broken up, he made alternate phone numbers to constantly call and harass me on multiple occasions.
So…
Today at around 12, I’m going to my first ever Pride. A huge part of me wants to meet a girl and flirt with her for the hell of it (I’ve been questioning if I am gay. Also a long story.) I’m going with a friend who has her 💩 together: realistic goals, a promising future, a great personality, etc. I have known her from middle school to freshman year, until we slowly drifted apart. We recently reconnected. I have had a crush on her for the longest time. She STILL gives me butterflies, even after all these years. So girlies, my question is…should I take my shot with her or someone else? Should I dump my boyfriend? If so, how should I go about it?

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2024.06.02 10:53 Rich_Sheepherder_980 Stalked for 2 years and no progress. PLEASE HELP

Long time lurker and first time poster. So I happen to live in Australia to put this into context. I am a male who has always been a bit of a ladies man for most of my adult life. I ended up going to a concert one night and told this person but didn't tell her who I went with. The Next day she contacted my date via phone. I have no idea how she got her phone number. Fast forward a few months and this person finds out phone number and facebook details of every woman I am dating to put them against me. Now here's where I drew the line...This woman "anonymously" posted several photos of me on a facebook group called "sis, are we dating the same guy" along with several others. Now several women are making comments about my workplace, income, and children. Every time I sign up for a dating site my phone number is banned. When I contacted the sites, they won't tell me the reason, but im assuming she's made something up. Everytime I see someone new, there is a printed note on these people's cars defaming ny name. At one point I witnessed this person drop off a letter to another woman's house who I was seeing with the same defamatory remarks. (Copy and paste letters). When I date new women, she finds them on Facebook and anonymously sends them my locations several times through the day and how long i am at those places with an emphasis on if i stay at a woman's house with their addresses. Keep in mind this person lives 90 minutes drive in a different state and works full time. I've reported her several times to the police and nothing has been done. She has also sent similar letters to my previous bosses affecting my income.
My question is how is she tracking my location in real time? Is it through my phone? I've looked all over my car for a gps tracker and can't find anything.
Please help with all of your suggestions as I don't want her to find out where my new job is and try to ruin that as well.
Thanks for reading this long post as I'm grasping for straws here. Anything would help.

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2024.06.02 10:53 incyweb The algebra of happiness

Variables of happiness

Purpose

The purpose of life is to enjoy the passage of time. - Jimmy Carr

Relationships

Health

A healthy person wants a thousand things, a sick person only wants one. - Confucius

Gratitude, growth and resilience

Other resources

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2024.06.02 10:51 Count-Daring243 Best Aem5 Suppressor

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Say hello to the Aem5 Suppressor, a game-changing product that's turning heads in the world of firearms! In this captivating roundup, we'll introduce you to this remarkable suppressor and showcase its top features. So sit back, relax, and get ready to dive into the world of Aem5 Suppressor - where innovation meets precision.

The Top 19 Best Aem5 Suppressor

Surge Protection for Coaxial Signal Interfaces - Phoenix Contact 2800491 surge suppressors boast Lambda/4 technology for superior coaxial signal protection, featuring 2 outputs and a SMA plug for a compact yet robust design.
FMF Racing 024035 Turbinecore Spark Arrestor Silencer - Experience unparalleled power and silence with the FMF Racing Turbinecore Spark Arrestor SILENCER in a sleek beige finish, backed by a rating of 4.5 and 303 glowing reviews.
Ubiquiti PowerBeam M5 Wireless Bridge with Advanced Features and Radome Protection - Ubiquiti's PowerBeam M5 PBE-5AC-500 delivers unmatched performance with airMAX ac technology, custom IC integration, exceptional antenna beam performance, and a protective radome, making it the ultimate choice for outdoor wireless network solutions.
Transient Voltage Surge Suppressor with EMI Filter for Electrical Protection - Eaton's AEM5 Suppressor offers reliable protection against transient voltage surges, providing 120VAC 50/60Hz 1PH 5Amps surge suppression, making it a top-rated option for securing your electrical devices from potential harm.
Advanced Surge Protector for Phone Lines and Internet Connections - Safeguard your valuable electronic components with APC ProtectNet Standalone Analog/DSL Phone Line Surge Protector, featuring advanced surge protection, compatibility with various devices, and a sleek design that easily attaches to existing equipment.
APC SurgeArrest 3-Phase Surge Suppressor with Surge Counter - The APC SurgeArrest 3-Phase Surge Suppressor safeguards your valuable electronic devices from damaging electrical surges and spikes, ensuring data protection and cost savings in your business.
APC SurgeArrest 3-Phase Surge Suppressor with Protection Indicator and Replaceable Modules - Protect your equipment from power surges and spikes with the APC SurgeArrest, featuring lightning and surge protection, replaceable individual phase modules, and an audible failure alarm.
Amazboost Indoor Cell Phone Signal Booster: Enhance Signal & Boost Data Speeds for US Carriers - Experience crystal-clear phone calls and superfast data with the Amazboost Indoor A2 Cell Phone Signal Booster - supports all US and Canadian cell carriers and enhances signals for up to 5,000 sq ft.
Ubiquiti IS-M5-US: Interchangeable Antenna, IsoStation Wireless Bridge with Improved Noise Immunity - Ubiquiti IS-M5-US IsoStation Wireless Bridge: Improve your network's performance with a die-cast aluminum base, interchangeable antenna, and enhanced co-location features that deliver increased throughput speeds and noise immunity.
Eaton SS-56 Surge Suppressor: High-Quality AEM5 Protection for 0-4 A200 Starters - The Eaton SS-56 surge suppressor is a must-have for protecting your A200 starters and electronics, with a 120V input voltage and 60Hz frequency, backed by a perfect 5.0 rating and a 4.5-star satisfaction score.
APC Aem5 Surge Protector with Fax/Modem/Phone Dataline Protection - Protect your devices from power surges with the APC SuregeArrest NoteBook 120V Surge Suppressor, featuring Catastrophic Event Protection, versatile connectivity options, and reliable performance.
APC SurgeArrest 2PH + g - Robust Surge Suppressor with Protection Indicators and Manual Disconnect - Protect your valuable electronics from lightning and surge damage with the versatile APC SurgeArrest (2PH + g) Surge Suppressor, featuring an audible failure alarm, replaceable individual phase modules, and manual disconnect switch.
Phoenix Contact 2905415 Surge Protector for Power Supply Networks - Phoenix Contact 2905415 Surge Suppressors: Type 1/Class I lightning current arrester, offering reliable protection, easy installation, and customizable labeling options for power supply networks.
Ubiquiti PrismStation 5AC Wireless Bridge for Enhanced RF Signal Performance - Ubiquiti PrismStation AC PS-5AC: A high-performance 5GHz 14dBi wireless bridge with exceptional noise immunity, flexible sectorization, and interchangeable horn antennas for optimal co-location performance and beamforming.
High-Voltage Surge Protector for Large Electrical Systems - Stay protected with the ABB RT5/32 Surge Suppressor - a reliable and versatile solution for AL9 through AL40 and AE9 through AE75 line contactors.
Versatile Wireless Bridge NSM5 for Efficient Broadband Connection - The Ubiquiti NanoStation M NSM5 Wireless Bridge offers a sleek, high-performance wireless solution with integrated airMAX technology, making it the perfect choice for versatile and cost-effective deployment.
Versatile Surge Suppressor with Molded Case Circuit Breakers - Protect your electronics from power surges with the high-quality ABB RT5/150 Surge Suppressor, featuring molded case circuit breakers for added safety and reliability.
Boost Engine Performance with AEM Brute Force Intake System - AEM 21-9022DC Brute Force HD Intake System enhances engine performance and power, while offering easy installation and long-lasting filter life for your SUV, truck, or muscle car.
High-Capacity 24V Surge Suppressor for Block Contactor Accessories - The ABB RV5/50 Surge Suppressor offers reliable protection for 24-50V AC/DC applications, making it a top choice for A9 - A110 contactors.

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Reviews

🔗Surge Protection for Coaxial Signal Interfaces

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The Phoenix Contact 2800491 Surge Suppressors have been a game-changer in my daily life. These handy little devices offer superior λ/4 technology, acting as a protective shield for all my coaxial signal interfaces. I've found they're incredibly efficient and provide protection up to a peak surge current of 6 kA.
The unit is designed with a male/female SMA connector, which allows for seamless connectivity. It also houses a neat SMA plug at the end. However, make sure you have a bit of extra room, as the width measures up to 47mm. Don't worry about depth or height though, they're quite compact at 70mm x 25mm.
Despite being powerful little protectors, they're quite easy to install and maintain. The unit comes with IP55 degree of protection, which means you don't have to worry about it getting wet from a splash of liquid. It also has a pretty nifty mounting type, making it easy to pop in wherever needed.
So, if you're looking for reliable surge suppression while maintaining a neat and tidy setup, the Phoenix Contact 2800491 Surge Suppressors are just the ticket.

🔗FMF Racing 024035 Turbinecore Spark Arrestor Silencer

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As a frequent off-roader, I found the FMF Racing Turbinecore Spark Arrestor a game-changer. It's been an invaluable addition to my vehicle, keeping my engine safe from potential fires while the natural beige color blends seamlessly with my vehicle's overall design. The silent operation has made my off-road expeditions more enjoyable for both me and those around me.
Although it required some minor tweaks in the beginning, the smooth installation process made it worth it.

🔗Ubiquiti PowerBeam M5 Wireless Bridge with Advanced Features and Radome Protection

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As a curious writer, I was excited to try out the Ubiquiti PowerBeam M5 PBE-5AC-500, advertised as a wireless bridge with impressive features. Right from the moment I unboxed it, the sleek design caught my eye. The integrated radio design, powered by Ubiquiti's InnerFeed technology, promised a seamless connection and no need for cables - perfect for a clutter-free workspace.
Using the product was a breeze, and the PowerBeam ac lived up to its promise of providing incredible antenna beam performance, even in noisy environments. The protective radome was also a welcome addition, giving me peace of mind knowing my device was secure from harsh outdoor elements.
However, there were a couple of drawbacks I encountered. Sometimes, I noticed slight delays in the connection, which were somewhat frustrating, especially when deadlines approached. Nonetheless, the product's pros outweighed the cons.
Overall, the PowerBeam M5 PBE-5AC-500 was a game-changer in my daily digital life, proving its worth in wireless connectivity solutions.

🔗Transient Voltage Surge Suppressor with EMI Filter for Electrical Protection

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As a techie who frequently works with electronic devices, I've been using the Eaton APF120N05 A0AP1H2197. This Transient Voltage Surge Suppressor EMI Filter, also known as T170433, has truly been a game-changer in my daily life.
The first thing that stands out is its compact size. It's small enough to fit into tight spaces, which is perfect for my busy work environment. Plus, it's lightweight, making it easy to carry around if needed.
One aspect I truly appreciate is its effectiveness in protecting my devices from voltage surges. It has saved my gadgets more than once from potential harm, and the peace of mind it provides is priceless.
However, there is a downside. The instruction manual could be more user-friendly. As a tech enthusiast, I found it quite challenging to understand at first. But once I got the hang of it, it became a breeze.
Overall, the Eaton APF120N05 A0AP1H2197 Transient Voltage Surge Suppressor EMI Filter T170433 has proven to be a reliable and efficient device. Despite its minor drawback, its pros far outweigh the cons.

🔗Advanced Surge Protector for Phone Lines and Internet Connections

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I recently tried out the APC ProtectNet, a standalone analog/DSL phone line surge protector, and I must say it's been a reliable protectant for my phone line and Internet connection. This sleek device, measuring 47mm in width, 28mm in depth, and 103mm in height, is a simple yet effective solution for safeguarding my components.
One of the distinguishing features of the APC ProtectNet is its advanced surge protection against damaging power transients traveling over computer, AV, and network data lines. It has the capability to withstand a 200A surge current and easily attaches to existing equipment. This telephone line surge protector also includes EMI/RFI noise rejection filtering, which makes it even more impressive.
Despite its many advantages, there were a few drawbacks. I discovered that some customers have encountered confusion regarding the connectivity options, as the APC ProtectNet only connects via RJ-45. I personally found it to be an excellent investment for my home, but others have expressed frustration with the limited product information and compatibility on the manufacturer's website.
In conclusion, the APC ProtectNet has been a trustworthy companion in protecting my device from potential damage caused by power surges. Its sleek design and advanced features allow for a seamless integration into my existing setup, while its few drawbacks are minor compared to its overall effectiveness.

🔗APC SurgeArrest 3-Phase Surge Suppressor with Surge Counter

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Apologize to the tech gods, the SurgerArrest 3-Phase Surge Suppressor from APC is here to save our sensitive electronics. I've been using it daily for a couple of weeks, and I must say, this is one heck of a device.
One of the first things I noticed was the Protection Working Indicator. It's a small, reassuring light that keeps me calm knowing my data is being well-protected against all those invisible electric dangers lurking around the corner. This device has made me more aware of the potential risks my electronics face on a daily basis. Just think how many devices in our daily lives could use a product like this!
Then there's the Surge Counter. It's a simple mechanism that counts how many times it's stopped an electrical surge, giving me a tangible measure of how hard it's working to keep my electronics safe. It's like an invisible knight in digital armor, silently standing guard over my data, ready for action whenever needed.
However, it's also the features I can't see that got me excited. For example, the APC SurgeArrest 3-Phase has a NEMA 312 enclosure, which means it's designed to withstand harsh industrial environments. And don't forget the Thermal Overload Protection. It's like having a built-in thermal safety valve that releases heat build-up before it can cause a damaging fire.
My use of this product has definitely made me more aware of the importance of proper electrical surge protection in our sensitive data-driven world, and the SurgerArrest 3-Phase Surge Suppressor has been the unsung hero among my daily gadgets.

🔗APC SurgeArrest 3-Phase Surge Suppressor with Protection Indicator and Replaceable Modules

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I recently tried using the SurgeArrest from APC as part of my daily routine, and I must say it's been a game-changer. With its sleek NEMA 312 enclosure, it fits perfectly in my outdoor or indoor setup, making it incredibly versatile for all sorts of situations. The thermal overload protection has been a lifesaver—it's like this little hero that steps in when my MOVs need help, saving my equipment from untimely damage.
But there's one standout feature that has impressed me the most: the Protection Working Indicator. There's just something reassuring about knowing exactly what the SurgeArrest is up to, and being able to remotely monitor its TVSS alarm status. It's like having my own surveillance system for my electronics!
The only thing that gave me a bit of a jolt was the Audible failure alarm, which seemed a little alarming at first. But once I understood it served as an indication of a damaged surge suppressor, it became part of my new routine. It's a small price to pay for peace of mind, wouldn't you agree?
Lastly, I was ecstatic to realize that the SurgeArrest was designed with energy conservation in mind, saving me a few bucks in the long run. All in all, it's been a fulfilling experience using the APC SurgeArrest, and I wouldn't trade it for anything.

🔗Amazboost Indoor Cell Phone Signal Booster: Enhance Signal & Boost Data Speeds for US Carriers

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I recently tried the Amazboost Indoor A2 Cell Phone Signal Booster, and I must say, it's been a game-changer at home. This booster has made my phone calls crystal-clear and significantly reduced dropped calls, making my daily life so much more convenient.
One of my favorite features is its ability to automatically adjust the system gain and power level. It ensures consistent coverage, even with intermittent incoming signals. The device is compatible with all major US carriers, and it's been a reliable solution for my home, boosting 2G, 3G, and 4G signals for all wireless devices.
While using the booster, I noticed an improvement in my overall cellular voice and data signal. It's not just about enhancing the signal; it also helps to reduce radiation and increase battery life. The range is impressive too – the booster can effectively cover up to 5,000 square feet with a strong outside signal.
However, setting it up was a bit challenging, but once I got it going, it worked flawlessly. Overall, the Amazboost Indoor A2 Cell Phone Signal Booster has been a valuable addition to my home, providing a solid cellular connection and reliable data speeds.

🔗Ubiquiti IS-M5-US: Interchangeable Antenna, IsoStation Wireless Bridge with Improved Noise Immunity

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I recently used the Ubiquiti IS-M5-US 5 GHz IsoStation Airmax, a pole-mountable wireless access point that offers excellent performance and precision. The key feature I loved is the interchangeable horn antennas, which allowed for easy customization and enhanced beam shaping. Changing the antennas was as simple as pressing a single button, and the all-metal construction provided durability.
One downside was that it only had one Ethernet port, which can be limiting if you need to connect multiple devices. However, the overall experience was impressive, with high speeds and reliable connectivity. The IsoStation Airmax is definitely worth considering if you're looking for optimal wireless performance.

🔗Eaton SS-56 Surge Suppressor: High-Quality AEM5 Protection for 0-4 A200 Starters

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As a homeowner who's experienced a few power surges and electrical issues, I found the Eaton SS-56 Surge Suppressor to be a lifesaver. It's a reliable and efficient device, designed to protect your electrical appliances and gadgets from damage.
I particularly appreciated its compact size, which allowed me to install it easily without taking up too much space. The 0-4 A200 starter compatibility and 120V input voltage made it perfect for my needs.
However, I did notice that the manual could be more user-friendly, as it took me some time to fully understand how to set it up. Otherwise, this surge suppressor has been a reliable addition to my home's electrical safety system. It's not just a tool - it's peace of mind.

🔗APC Aem5 Surge Protector with Fax/Modem/Phone Dataline Protection

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I had the chance to test out the APC SuregeArrest Notebook Surge Suppressor, and I must say, it's a game-changer for protecting your valuable electronics. The compact design made it a breeze to carry around with my laptop and connected devices, offering a sense of security wherever I traveled.
One of the features that stood out was its versatile connectivity options. Not only did it include telephone cables, but it also came equipped with a network patch cable, ensuring that all my devices could make the most of the surge protection. The included cord management straps kept everything neat and tangle-free, giving me a tidy setup.
The surge suppression capabilities were top-notch, thanks to the Catastrophic Event Protection and the Let Through Voltage Rating of under 900V. With industry-standard certifications from CSA FCC Part 68 NOM and UL 1449, I felt assured that my devices were in good hands.
The status indicator was another highlight, as it allowed me to quickly check the surge protection status, giving me peace of mind that my valuable tech was always safe from power surges. All in all, the APC SuregeArrest Notebook Surge Suppressor proved to be a reliable and effective solution for safeguarding my electronic devices on the go.

🔗APC SurgeArrest 2PH + g - Robust Surge Suppressor with Protection Indicators and Manual Disconnect

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The APC SurgeArrest surge suppressor has been my trusty sidekick for months now. In all my daily interactions with appliances and electronics, it has been the unsung hero, diligently guarding them from potential power surges and spikes. The lightweight surge protectors are designed to work without fail and that's precisely what they've done. They've got these handy individual phase modules that, when needed, can be replaced without having to unplug a bunch of devices. The whole process literally takes minutes and it's a feature I've grown to appreciate greatly.
But what's really impressive is the surge counter feature. It logs the number of power surges the unit is exposed to and honestly, I'm still trying to wrap my head around it. It feels like a little radar that's been tucked away somewhere, unobtrusively tracking incoming power surges like a digital sentinel.
Then there's this incredible feature, the audible failure alarm. It's almost like having your own personal security guard. If the surge protector takes a hit, it emits a loud alarm. It's a real life saver because let's face it, I've been known to forget about the surge protector and just leave it in the background. But not anymore, because this alarm literally ensures it's on the top of my mind.
It's also interesting to note the NEMA 3R / 12 enclosure. It's specifically designed to meet the requirements of both indoor and outdoor applications, which is quite handy because it means the surge protector can work in any environment without any issues.
But of course, there's the downside. The manual disconnect switch is a useful feature, but it means that sometimes, when I need to temporarily unplug something, I have to remember to manually press the switch. It's like the surge protector is asking me for permission before I can unplug it, which can be a bit of a hassle at times. There's also the alarm contacts, which, while useful for monitoring, can also be a bit overwhelming at times. It's like being constantly tied to the surge protector, even when I don't necessarily need to be.
Overall though, the APC SurgeArrest surge suppressor is a reliable device that has helped me keep my appliances and electronics safe from the potential dangers of power surges and spikes. It's not perfect, but it sure is worth having on your side in this digital age where we heavily rely on electronics.

🔗Phoenix Contact 2905415 Surge Protector for Power Supply Networks

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Imagine using a lightning arrester in your daily life, like the Phoenix Contact 2905415 Surge Suppressor. In my experience, it made my power supply network much safer. One of the best features was the mechanical coding of the base element and plug, which prevented incorrect assembly.
I also found the labelling option for the protective plug and terminals on the base element extremely useful. Plus, having two biconnect terminals each for N and PE made connecting round conductors and wiring bridges easier than ever.
However, there were a couple of downsides. The device was a bit large at 95.2 x 71.2 x 74.5mm, making it less convenient for smaller spaces. Also, the surge suppressor could get quite hot with a maximum operating temperature of +80°C.
Overall, the Phoenix Contact 2905415 Surge Suppressor is a reliable choice for protecting your power supply network from lightning currents, as long as you've got the space for it and can handle the heat.

🔗Ubiquiti PrismStation 5AC Wireless Bridge for Enhanced RF Signal Performance

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I recently tried out the Ubiquiti PrismStation AC PS-5AC, a 5GHz 14dBi CPE with a removable horn antenna, and I must say it's a game-changer for wireless connections. The focus on directing RF energy in a tighter beamwidth and filtering noise has significantly improved my network's performance and stability.
One of my favorite features is the flexibility in sectorization for optional antenna beamwidths, making it suitable for various deployment environments. The interchangeable horn antenna also enhances beam-shaping, ensuring the best coverage for my area.
However, one downside I encountered was the potential need for additional accessories, like the Aem5 Suppressor, for some specific deployment situations. Overall, I'm happy with the improvement in noise immunity and impressed with the Ubiquiti PrismStation AC's performance thus far.

🔗High-Voltage Surge Protector for Large Electrical Systems

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I've been using the ABB RT5/32 Surge Suppressor for a while now, and let me tell you, it's made a world of difference in my work area. This 12-32V DC operated device protects against power surges that could potentially fry any sensitive electronics. It's designed to work with various contactors, like AL, AE, TAL, and TAE models.
One of the best features is how it seamlessly blends into the background. Its sleek, compact design keeps it unobtrusive whilst offering top-notch protection. However, one thing I'd change is the minimum order quantity - it's a bit high for personal use.
Overall, the ABB RT5/32 Surge Suppressor has proven to be a reliable and protective addition to my setup. It's a small investment with big payoffs.

Buyer's Guide

When it comes to AEM5 suppressors, there are several important factors to consider to ensure you choose the best one for your needs. In this guide, we'll cover some of the crucial aspects of AEM5 suppressors and provide you with valuable advice to make an informed decision.

Material and Construction

A high-quality AEM5 suppressor should be made of durable and sturdy materials to withstand the intensity of firing and maintain its effectiveness. Look for components made of titanium or stainless steel, as they offer excellent corrosion resistance and durability.

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Design and Weight

A well-designed AEM5 suppressor will be lightweight and easy to handle without compromising performance. The suppressor should be balanced and ergonomic, allowing for smooth and comfortable operation.

Noise Reduction

The primary purpose of an AEM5 suppressor is to reduce noise levels. When evaluating suppressors, look for those with the highest noise reduction capabilities. This will ensure that your experience is as quiet and comfortable as possible.

Ease of Installation

An easy-to-install AEM5 suppressor will save you time and effort when configuring your firearm. Pay attention to the suppressor's compatibility with various firearms and ensure that it comes with all the necessary accessories for a simple installation process.

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Durability and Warranty

A robust AEM5 suppressor should be able to handle intense firing consistently. Look for a suppressor with a solid warranty, as it will provide you with peace of mind when investing in a high-quality product. A reliable warranty also indicates the manufacturer's confidence in the product's durability.

Customer Reviews and Industry Reputation

Take the time to read customer reviews and research the manufacturer's reputation in the industry. This will help you gain insights into the product's performance and identify any potential issues that have been reported by other buyers.

Budget Considerations

AEM5 suppressors can vary in price depending on their features and specifications. Establish a budget that aligns with your requirements and considerations, and then look for suppressors within that price range.
By taking all of these aspects into account, you'll be well-equipped to make a knowledgeable decision when purchasing an AEM5 suppressor. Remember, investing in a high-quality suppressor will not only improve your overall shooting experience but also extend the life of your firearm.

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FAQ

What is an Aem5 Suppressor?

An Aem5 Suppressor is a device designed to reduce the noise and recoil generated by a firearm. It does this by minimizing the escape of gas, thus decreasing the overall noise and felt recoil.

What are the benefits of using an Aem5 Suppressor?

Reduced noise: An Aem5 Suppressor significantly decreases the noise generated by a firearm, making it more suitable for hunting, shooting, and target practice.
Increased accuracy: By reducing recoil, an Aem5 Suppressor improves accuracy and makes it easier to shoot accurately.
Enhanced safety: A reduced recoil makes it safer to shoot, especially for those who are new to firearms or have difficulty handling recoil.

What materials are used to construct an Aem5 Suppressor?

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Typically, an Aem5 Suppressor is constructed using high-grade stainless steel, aluminum, and carbon fiber. These materials offer durability, lightweight, and corrosion resistance, making the suppressor suitable for various environments and firearm types.

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2024.06.02 10:50 Killbethy The (possible) story of Supernova and Armageddon.

Obviously a lot of this is just theory and extrapolation between the two MVs, which are most definitely interconnected. The explanation is a bit long, does have some blanks, and you'll have to excuse the way it's written. In order to not have to rewrite everything over and over, it's a copy and paste of a comment responding to someone on YouTube (which also has another copy/paste in it... sorry!!) And of course, feel free to do anything from weigh in to mercilessly shredding this theory apart. 😹
Supernova and Armageddon seem to tell the story of the members' literal "fall" and loss of their humanity, heavily relying on symbolism from eschatology, but with their own aespa twist (forget demons... losing their humanity seems to make them literally artificial intelligences and something alien). Here we go!
The possible story so far (the MVs are actually interconnected... don't believe me? Look at the symbols on the foreheads of NingNing, Karina, and Winter in Armageddon and go back to Supernova's MV during the dance break and look at the symbols on the floor during their respective solo scenes during the break. And if you are wondering why you don't see one for Giselle, well... two reasons for that: she is the protagonist and last member standing of the story, and also look at what her metal headpiece in Armageddon literally circles: a completely blank spot.
Since I don't want to rewrite everything, I'm just going to copy and paste a reply I wrote to someone in another comment thread about Giselle being the sole human throughout the majority of Supernova. Some things to remember: the timeline seems to go in reverse, and the majority of the group scenes are removed from the rest of the storyline, taking place after their fall.
⁠I picked that up too (note for Reddit: this reply was referring to Giselle as the sole human for most of Supernova)! Well, to an extent as well...l think a lot of what we see is in Giselle's mind and the timeline seems to continue going backwards. There's quite a bit of continuity between the two. Watch carefully and you will see that the symbols on their foreheads in Armageddon (which all the members have EXCEPT Giselle, whose solo scenes show the elaborate metal work around her head that circles a blank space in the exact spot the other members have symbols) are the EXACT SAME as the symbols we see on the floor during the members' solo scenes of the dance break here... and the only person we DON'T see the symbol for is Giselle. It also seems like we have NingNing as the first antagonist. Both MVs HEAVILY focus on the right eye, and NingNing is the member with heterochromia/mismatched eye colors from the beginning (with an X in her right eye). Supernova also seems to be the story of Karina's literal "fall" into what possibly might be Ningning's control while Armageddon is Winter's. Giselle seems to serve as the sole human protagonist and the catalyst to go back and tell the story.
Armageddon begins with Karina trying to protect Winter, and the actual rip we see in that first scene is the same rip that NingNing opens in the wall towards the end of that MV. She's also the one that slams Winter's head into the table (same manicure NingNing has in Supernova, and oddly we actually see her nails in focus quite a lot in Supernova: something that is more passing or incidental for everyone else). It's also Karina who initially breaks Giselle's phone right before she is about to begin to tap "who is the AI?" for the security code (if you missed it, that's what is on Giselle's phone screen in the beginning of Supernova, as well as the time being 6:31 and a reminder for her birthday). But moving forward in the timeline, after Karina's fall, she has the same issues with the right eye. It's when she looks in the car's rear view mirror with her right eye that it breaks while her left does show her reflection. In Armageddon, we also see as she looks into a magnified version of NingNing's eye (who also is the one to grab her into that scene) that some form of energy is being drained from her... right eye, again. NingNing's crystallized version of herself also comes from, once again, the right eye. When Winter's head is slammed, it's her right eye that is revealed then to be a machine. There are actually more right eye references throughout both MVs, but it would take an age to go back and list them all. In the study of eschatology (the study of the end of the world/Armageddon), the right eye actually symbolizes sin and someone's literal fall from grace.
There's also continuity even with the phone... it originally is NingNing's when she is freed. She's also the one who technically has it last in the timeline and somehow fixes it after Karina has broken it. So in order, it seems to be that NingNing sort of infects Winter first, changing her into AI (she is, after all, the fallen angel in Armageddon that Karina first tries to protect). Armageddon, minus group scenes, also ends with Karina being sucked into the right eye, while Supernova also begins with her literal fall. (It's also NingNing who is doing the observing throughout Armageddon, and the scenes that reveal the subject she is observing always show Giselle). There's also a repeating motif of the number 631, particularly for Giselle. It's the time on nearly every clock we see in both MVs. It's also the "time" when the story itself begins, and in eschatology, 631 actually means the time to join the battle. So they definitely put a lot of thought into the storyline and imagery... even down to the styling.
If I hadn't studied eschatology so much, I would have missed the majority of what is shown (and probably still would have missed it if I didn't see parts being replayed in a video editor's analysis of the directing and editing of the MVs lol). While I don't quite get everything that is going on, it does seem to clearly be the study of the girls' fall, literally and figuratively, except in their universe, it's losing their humanity to become something alien and artificial. While we don't literally see Giselle's fall, it's heavily implied as NingNing breaks in while she is still in the high rise, and when we see her next and she rewinds time, she is on the ground. And the very end of Armageddon does show them all fallen (and into a symbol that actually combines pieces of all the others). I might, and probably am, reading a bit too much into everything... but there's very little that aespa ever does in the storyline of their MVs and universe that isn't carefully thought out. It's what makes watching and rewatching them really rewarding if you are interested in lore and stories hidden in plain sight (underneath some amazing visuals that are just as fun if you don't care about digging deeper).
Other food for thought: could Drama also be connected? I haven't gone back to check, but there are a lot of similar motifs (like falling ahem).
And if you got this far, here's a smiley cat for you in thanks: 😺😼

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2024.06.02 10:49 Kawynski Reddit is the worst most garbage thing I ever had and it's making me unbelievably angry

I'm using third party clients because the original app and even the site is the worst piece of shit I ever had and witnessed. How the fuck does anyone even use the original thing willingly and don't go crazy in a couple of days? Posts and texts are bugging, you can't edit your fucking title in the year 2024, the loading times are worse than a fucking computer from 1987, they force you to use their app, you can't read NSFW posts per Google because they say install the fucking app, every damn subreddit has outrageous rules and removes your post in seconds because your 3 months account is still to old and you don't have 100000 karma like a fucking smelly neckbeard who fucks his anime doll.
God I hate Reddit and if it's not for Reddit Sync I would literally throw my fucking phone against the wall because I would rage so much. I even bet that my post right now gets deleted because the auto moderator or even a normal moderator has nothing better to do than waste his life being a moderator on reddit instead of doing something useful in his life. Fuck you Reddit, fuck you moderators, fuck every admins and creators of subreddits and fuck every one of you piece of shit developers who created and designed this shitty mess of garbage piece of shit.
I'm crying, I'm literally almost crying. I posted this on the rant subreddit and it got instantly deleted and then I posted this on the angry subreddit and it got instantly deleted. I really hope that someday a new social media comes over that makes Reddit bankrupt because it's so bad. At this point Reddit is literally North Korea, everything gets censored and deleted and you can do nothing about it because this site and their moderators don't give a fuck and enjoy their weak ass power trip.

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2024.06.02 10:47 Few_Document1566 Opinion/Theory: All the teens survive

Preface: I do not profess this opinion as the canonical and factual ending. I like the interpretations and ambiguity, which is why i believe this play is genius in its writing. This is my essay and case as to why i believe the kids ended up surviving in the end. I really tried to find where Jacob Richmond has ever said directly that they definitely don't return at all, or anything that confirmed the fate of the group aside from Jane/Penny ofc. As far as I am aware, he has only just focused on their death and has never explicitly confirmed any theories of the fate of the group. That is technically my first point I just discussed to back up the theory, but everybody knows the ambiguity of the ending has left a lot open to interpretation, so we won't count it ;). Besides, he can always one day come out and just decide the canonical fate to everybody and completely throw whatever I have here out the window, but hopefully he leaves it ambiguous. I apologize in advance for grammatical and structural mistakes. I tried to be organized with my thoughts, but i am also impatient and just type lol
1) Karnak's Prohpecy to the Group:
I know it is widely accepted that the "complete the whole" is referring to Ocean giving the prize to Jane in order to restore her "whole" and reincarnate her as her being the only one who lives in the end..... but technically, you could actually argue that the fortune means that when Ocean, who is the one who is the final and toughest person to come to terms and find peace in her death, gives the prize to Jane Doe, who was the biggest "loser" out of all of them, it will complete the "whole"....... as in the GROUP as a "whole". Ocean giving the prize to Jane Doe was the last and final resolution of the entire group as a "whole". They were all complete. There was nothing else that they needed to figure out or resolve after that and they all became complete and content in the end. They became whole and fulfilled the prophecy Karnak made, which funny enough, made the prophecy whole itself. Everything was made "whole". Personally, I think it is more face value, far fetched, and easy to assume that the "whole" meant JUST Jane Doe being complete. Focusing too much on the prize itself, and not the meaning of what the whole journey of the play/plot was meant to be about really. Karnak's prize of returning one person to life, i believe, was a red herring anyway. Karnak knows way too much about the group and it would defeat the whole purpose and have not nearly as much of an impact if he told everybody, "All of you will return to life if you learn your lessons 🤗". So, to assume the widely accepted assumption most people go with and it is nothing more... makes the idea only Jane was given life (the prize) just more flimsy in my eyes.
2) Wording, Context, and Specific Choice of Words That Were Written:
Ofc, Jane gets a life and is reincarnated we know this. Notice how that isn't the same as being brought back to life if you want to get technical though. Reincarnation and resurrection are very separate definitions when it comes to death and have been widely accepted as such. Her actual body and who she was, was not actually resurrected. Also, religions, most notably Hinduism, always tell us that reincarnation is the CONTINUATION of life. Life never stopped. As a matter of fact, Jane sings this in the beginning and end of the play. This is why a lot of people believe the group is in a constant time loop. It is a complete restart going from being alive.... to being alive in a different form for Jane. Amd it is a restart for the group which I will explain further. And if we are to interpret resurrection and reincarnation as separate, then nobody actually won the prize that Karnak said would be given. If the ending shows time being manipulated and reversed (or they were moved to another timeline. Gonna get into that later lol)..... then how is one dead if they never were to have died in the first place 👀 (Manipulation of time). So in a way, WE WERE ALL RIGHT. They did die in the timeline they were originally in, time technically did loop around to the point of where they were before, and they all are bow alive. Would be f'ing mind blowing.
3) Karnak's Reliability, Prophecies, and Misleading Nature:
Tieing into the previous point of evidence.... Karnak has been established since the beginning of the story to be misleading and not very trustworthy in what he says to be the entire truth or not the ONLY truth. However, that is not to say what he says has not come to fruition. All of his prophecies come true. Now, you may think that if I say this, then I just contradicted my point about him saying he would bring someone back to life in the end. That's where I am going to bring up the specific wording and how Karnak has operated in his prophecies and his nature as a character. See, even though they weren't playing a game as established in the ending..... Karnak explicitly stated when they arrived in Limbo that he wanted to play a game. That game was part of the red herring and the misleading nature of his character. It was a game for Karnak not them. Karnak constantly shifted the rules and regulations of the game throughout the play (never lied), but you know when he is clearly giving a prophecy (Ex: The winner and the loser make the whole). If the game never existed (as evident by the fact they were never actually competing, let alone even competing for a prize)..... If there wasn't a game being played.... then that would mean the prize was not the actual reward that was even given. So then you may ask, "What would that mean about the prophecy of the winner and the loser making the whole then if that is the case? Doesn't that contradict that theory?". That's where wording is very tricky and amazing about this play. A winner and a loser can be correlated to that of a conflict, battle or endeavor. You could actually refer to life as being the endeavor. Ocean was the one who wanted to win the most out of life, and Jane was the one who lost the most out of life. In Limbo, that continues to be the case. Ocean still is striving to win at her life (one who wants to win the most) while Jane can't and is eternally labeled as, literally, the loser. So, who wins and loses doesn't have to be in the context of an actual game or contest. And if you want to say there was a contest or game, then the only kind was with themselves. They were MAKING it a contest initially if anything.
Karnak has never lied. If there was never a game,, then there were never rules, and if there were never rules, then he really has never lied. Mislead? Yes. If you believe it was a game, then it would only be a game from Karnak's perspective. He would make changes, but has never actually lied.
4) Karnak's Powers and What He Was Going to Say Before His Death:
By the end of the play, at this point, it's absolutely perfectly reasonable to assume Karnak has the ability to bring all of them back if he were to be able to do everything else he has done in the show. He has never stated that he isn't capable of it, and just says that he is able to bring someone back who wins. Powers we know he is capable of are (and not limited to as far as we know) time manipulation, spacial manipulation, controlling life and death, prophecising, resurrection (we actually don't even know if he is capable of this technically, but probably is), reincarnation, and being an overall omnipotent and all knowing being. I know it is even more of a deeper dive, but if they are in a time loop and the last time we see the group, is when they are back on the coaster..... who is to say he didn't take them to a time where the accident doesn't happen? Somebody said that they are just constantly in a never ending loop on the coaster at the end cause of the screams and the gestures? But idk how we would get that when a roller coaster has multiple dips so idk how you would get the conclusion from just gestures. I would like to mention that Karnak was about to mention another prophecy before his death, so there clearly was something that we are meant to try and figure out what it could be that he didn't mention. I just know there is something significant about the number 7 that ties into it somehow, cause I haven't been able to figure out the significance of that number besides the time of when they were riding the coaster. There has to be more to it.
5) The Light:
Ok, I just know someone is going to say something about the light, and I totally understand..... but it's not enough to counter everything else that was previously mentioned. Jane and the group had different colors for the light because they both traveled different paths of their return. And also, you could easily interpret the change of light for the group to show that they were back in the carnival setting and they just made the light green because they were matching the carnival color aesthetic. It's just something that I get is subtle and should definitely be taken into consideration, but it's just not enough. You would have to examine if there is any symbolism in color within the story and if they are actually associated with anything in the play itself, which as far as I can tell.... the white light is the only symbolic color I could discern.
P.S. I'm sorry, but I flat out am going to say that the theory that Jane Doe always was Penny is not believable imo cause if you know of Legoland, people would DEFINITELY know who she was, her fingerprints, law enforcement and the school having a strong enough inpression from her criminal activity and how unhinged she was when she was alive. There's just no way her death would have gone unnoticed if she was Penny before she died. So, she was definitely reincarnated as Penny. Not resurrected. You could argue that she got reincarnated as Penny, and then that is the actual Penny from Legoland, but like........ what would be the contextual clues and evidence if that's the case? The only thing would be that Jane (whoever she was before death) and Penny both go to the same school canonically, but like...... Penny also has a brother who goes to the same school..... so even if her parents were locked up while she was dead, her brother would've known so very easily. To say she didn't have a brother pre Jane Doe would be saying so without any actual contextual evidence.

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2024.06.02 10:42 twoheaded_m WIBTA for leaving my family without a warning?

me (m20) and my parents have always had a rocky relationship but for the last year it’s been really bad. there was a situation in which i was exposed to them as being trans and dating another trans person, which was terrifying because they’re severely homophobic. i ended up having to just swear on everything i could and beg them to believe me over the random man that contacted them. my father decided that the best way to stop this all from happening was keeping me on house arrest and only allowing me to go to work and school, i couldn’t see any of my friends or go out without either them or one of my siblings with me.
I did find a way around this where i lied about my work and school schedule so i could see my boyfriend and friends without their knowledge. and so far this has been working out well for me, but my parents have started to become suspicious. my mother often asks me and my sister if i am lying but we both lie and say that i’m not so i can keep the freedom i made for myself. my father has requested to see my work schedule so he knows what days and when i work so he can track me. i obviously did not give it to him and generally just avoid being around him and interacting with him.
in december i was planning to move out without any of them knowing. i packed as much as i could without it being suspicious and was going to disappear after work. what ended up happening was i texted my mom a gigantic paragraph of how i was feeling and what i was doing so she at least knew i was safe. this ended up being a bad decision because she started crying and begging me to come home, saying she was going to pass away if i did this. ultimately i went back after she promised me she would help get my dad to reduce his punishment. her help did little to nothing as she can’t stand up to my dad.
the predicament that i’m in now is i don’t know if i would be an asshole for leaving them out of nowhere or if it’s the right thing to do for my mental health. i’ve already moved the majority of my stuff into my boyfriends house so all that’s left now is for me to grab the little stuff i have left and leave. i don’t know whether i should notify them days before i do it or just up and leave. i would obviously leave a letter or send a text saying that i moved out and am safe and i’m not cutting them out of my life i just can’t live with them. i would need to turn my phone off for a little while because i know my parents would blow up my phone and guilt me into coming back. i’m terrified of what my father would do if he ended up finding me after i left.
there’s a lot of details that i’ve left out or glossed over because i don’t want to make this too long, but all in all my parents have just made me go into a downwards spiral. so would i be an asshole for leaving ?

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2024.06.02 10:39 Potential_Occasion_5 Did I do the right thing?

This was a few years ago now. At the time I 17m and my new wife 21f got pregnant and had a kid. Sorry but this is a long story..
A bit of needed back story though… when I was 6 my parents divorced due to my dad cheating on my mom. I didn’t realize until I was older but my dad was what you would call an abusive drunk. My mom was verbally abusive and high on pills all the time. When my parents finally got divorced I remember couch surfing with my mom because we got evicted from the house since she wasn’t able to keep a job. My dad did pay child support but I have no idea what would happen to it. There were a lot of guns, drugs, violence, and death in my younger years. I turned 12 and started to understand everything and saw my dad turning his life around with his new wife so I decided to move in with him. It was a rough couple of years but it worked out in the end. That said onto the story..
That summer was a very fulling time in my life. I graduated high school, signed up for the military, and got married in 2019. I was in boot camp for the first 10 weeks of my wife’s pregnancy as it was our only income. Flash forward to us going to my first duty station. My first duty station ended up being 5 hours away from my father’s, and 3 hours away from her parents. In early 2020 our beautiful son was born. This where things started getting bad. My wife was suffering from postpartum and refused to get treatment. So instead, her treatment was going to her parents for a few weeks at a time. Besides her mom knowing my son better than I did, this worked out well. My wife and kid were happy and healthy besides a few mental breakdowns here and there. Then Covid and the Riots started happening. I was stationed on the outskirts of a large city. My base ended up restricting travel to 50 miles outside of base (this meant I wasn’t able to drive my wife and son to her parents anymore as I’d be breaking no less than 4 articles of the UCMJ if I was caught) this is where things took a turn for the worst. My wife got separation anxiety as this was the longest she’s ever been away. We started arguing a lot more often. Everytime I went to work, she would just stay in bed with our son and do nothing at all. I got very stressed but managed to juggle a 70 hour work week, feeding and taking care of my family, cleaning our apartment, and taking care of all the bills and expenses. My command decided to put me in something called ASF which basically means twice a week on top of my regular job, I’d now do gate guard duty and work with the MP’s on a 14 hour rotation. Things got so loaded on to my metaphorical plate that I developed stress related sleep apnea and couldn’t get a good nights rest on top of all of this. Months go by and nothing is getting better. I’ve recommended therapy, couples therapy, trying to go on walks, talking it out.. my wife didn’t want to do any of it. What’s worse is still wasn’t able to hold of get to know my kid very much at all. It got it he point that in August of 2020 I decided I wasn’t going to let my kid grow up how I grew up and asked for a divorce. I didn’t want him to grow up living with resentment towards his mom and dad, I hated every second of the arguing that took place in front of him, even if he didn’t understand. It broke my heart but I felt we’d do better co parenting instead of being together.
The divorce goes through and it was uncontested. My ex wife fell in love with her best friend from her hometown and was able to quickly move on and marry within a year. She got main custody and I got weekends. I started paying child support 3 months before I had to bc I wanted to make sure they were taken care of. She moved back in with her parents, however, and this caused some strain once we were divorced seeing as how I still wasn’t allowed to travel up there that often. Things got worse between me and my now ex wife dues to the travel ban and her not willing to compromise that much. From January of 2021 to July I was only able to see my kid about 5 times in total. In July my state decided to lift the travel ban and so did my base!
I started making plans and a schedule that my ex agreed to at first. Me and my ex were not very friendly to each other however. I resorted to only texting her about making plans surrounding my son. Bc of this she retaliates and won’t let me see him. It got to the point to where I was calling the cops so they could knock on her door as I stayed by my car. There is body cam footage, recorded phone calls, text messages, and screen shots of her refusing to let me see my kid. My ex then decides to file for more custody and more child support. Wishing 2 weeks I had to take leave, find and hire a lawyer with no money to my name, gather my evidence, and show up to court on a Thursday. Thankfully my loving aunt helped me pay a portion of the retainer so we could get things started with the lawyer. My wife also filed a temporary restraining order against me stating I was “violent and a danger to her and our kid” I had evidence to prove otherwise however, so I wasn’t worried. My lawyer stated this would be considered a separate case thus doubling my retainer. At this point in time I’m living on 70% of $30,000 a year, maxed out my credit cards to pay bills, and had to find an extra $10,000 for this lawyer. My wife lived in a small town so he was literally the only other option for me. This lawyer was terrible though. He told me I had to file my own affidavit, subpoena the officers linked to my case number for the body cam footage, and file all my evidence with the court due to the short notice. I didn’t have access to half the websites due to them costing money and needing an attorneys credentials so needless to say, I didn’t get the body cam footage. Court time appears and the judge grants that I’m allowed to do supervised visits every weekend until the new year. Once the new year came I would’ve been allowed to see him on the original plan for every other week unsupervised. This had me livid, but I accepted since I just wanted to see my kid. A few weeks go by and I’m finally getting to know my son. He was the only thing that kept me going in life at this point. He was and still is my main source of happiness. My lawyer calls me randomly one day stating that my wife put on the terms that my son wasn’t allowed to see my grandparents or my aunt when he was going to start staying with me every other weekend. No reasons were given. I of course denied these changes and wanted to keep the agreement how it was. Atleast then I could keep seeing him. My ex text me later that day stating “my lawyer asked me to inform you that since you refused to sign the updated agreement the restraining order is now back in place” I called my lawyer and immediately asked him to figure this out as this shouldn’t be legal. My lawyer then asked for another $5000 as it’s another case. I told him fine but he needs to actually do some work this time. He said he’d get back to me in a week with an update. A month goes by and I end up calling him asking what the situation was with my current case and he asked for the money to be paid before he looks into it. I told him that’s not what we agreed and that I’m making regular payments as you requested. My lawyer flat out says it’s not enough. I need it up front since I don’t believe you’re able to pay it. He was right I wasn’t able to pay it but I was trying my damndest to. I took 2 weeks to deliberate and talk to family and friends about my whole situation. At this point I’m now $12,000 in lawyer debt ($3,00 is what my aunt help with earlier) $15,000 in credit card debt and surviving off of $50-$100 a week for food and gas. I can’t sleep, I’ve gained 70 pounds in the span of a year. I was getting in trouble with the military for being late due to lack of sleep, being overweight, and rarely being at work since I had to go to my ex wife’s town to fight this custody battle so often. Ultimately I decided that this is turning into my parents divorce where they were putting me and my brother in the middle of all of there disagreements and fights. That’s exactly what I was trying to prevent, so I decided I couldn’t bring myself to hurt my son with all of this anymore. I’d keep a folder full of all the screen shots, text messages, photos, affidavits, etc. when he gets older, if he decides he wants to give me a chance… if he even knows about me, I’ll have it ready for him to read so he can make his own decision. This was the hardest thing I’ve ever done and I still don’t know if it was the right thing to do..

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2024.06.02 10:38 Fine-Professional100 I'm new, explain this to me.

I'm fairly new and don't have S17, Frieza, or Gohan. You know the ones I mean, the three that make me throw my phone through the window.
Can someone explain their mechanics to me so I can understand what I'm losing to all the time. Bonus points if you can explain to me how the new fusing bros counter them.
Please explain it to me like I was dropped on my head a lot as a child.

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2024.06.02 10:37 wentour Can you fetch Arc Search tabs to open them on Mac?

I feel like I've been looking for a solution for this for months. It's making me want to switch back to using Brave or Safari. I sometimes look a lot of stuff up on my phone while I'm commuting and then I can't actually get those tabs on my Mac so I can write notes about them and deal with them. This is very important to me and feels like a massive feature that's being overlooked. How hard is it to simply copy paste some tabs? They don't even show up in the archived tabs bar. There's no way for me to fetch them or stop them from getting archived after more than a month. Feels like a stupid design choice and negligence considering how focused they are on other features that are truly non-essential and quite intrusive like Call Arc.

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2024.06.02 10:36 adulting4kids December Prompts Challenge

**Prompt 11:
Déjà-rêvé (French) - Dreams Intertwined with Reality**

Describe a moment when your character experienced déjà-rêvé, where dreams intertwined with reality, and explore the emotions and sensations that accompanied this surreal blending of realms.
Delve into the specifics of your character's dreams that often overlap with reality, considering whether certain themes, people, or scenarios consistently resurface.
How does the recurring déjà-rêvé experience impact your character's perception of both their dreams and waking life, blurring the boundaries between the two?
Explore whether your character actively seeks out or avoids situations that may trigger déjà-rêvé, and how these choices shape their relationship with the intertwined realms.
Reflect on the emotional resonance of déjà-rêvé, considering whether it adds an element of wonder and magic to your character's life or if it introduces a layer of complexity and uncertainty.
Can your character distinguish between a genuine memory and a dream that has come to life through déjà-rêvé, and how does this ambiguity influence their understanding of their own experiences?
How do others in your character's life react to or perceive these moments of déjà-rêvé, and does it impact their relationships or interactions with your character?
Explore whether there are specific triggers or patterns that precede déjà-rêvé experiences, and whether your character attempts to control or understand these occurrences.
Consider how cultural or societal beliefs influence your character's interpretation of déjà-rêvé, and whether they attribute spiritual or symbolic meanings to these intertwined dreams and reality.
Envision a key scene where déjà-rêvé becomes a central element, shaping your character's decisions, relationships, or contributing to a significant turning point in their narrative.

**Prompt 12
: Ephemeralité (French) - Embracing the Transient Beauty of Life**

Describe a moment in your character's life when they embraced ephemeralité, appreciating the transient beauty of life, and explore the emotions that accompanied this awareness of impermanence.
Delve into the specific experiences or phenomena that evoke ephemeralité for your character, considering whether it's tied to nature, relationships, or personal achievements.
How does the recognition of life's transient nature influence your character's mindset and decision-making, especially in moments of joy, sadness, or uncertainty?
Explore your character's relationship with time, considering whether they savor the present moment or if there's a constant awareness of the fleeting nature of life.
Reflect on how ephemeralité impacts your character's relationships, both in terms of appreciating the time spent with loved ones and navigating the complexities of impermanence.
Can your character find solace or inspiration in the fleeting beauty of life, turning ephemeralité into a source of resilience or motivation for living authentically?
Consider whether your character actively seeks out or avoids situations that intensify the awareness of life's impermanence, and how these choices shape their experiences.
Explore the contrast between ephemeralité and more enduring aspects of your character's life, such as long-term goals, aspirations, or their legacy.
Reflect on cultural or philosophical perspectives that may shape your character's understanding of ephemeralité, and whether they find comfort or conflict in these influences.
Envision a pivotal scene where ephemeralité becomes a central theme, influencing your character's decisions, relationships, or contributing to a significant turning point in their narrative.

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2024.06.02 10:34 adulting4kids December Emotions Prompts Challenge

**Prompt 5:
Komorebi (Japanese) - Light Filtering Through Leaves**

Describe a moment in your character's life when they experienced komorebi, with sunlight gently filtering through leaves, and explore the emotions stirred by this natural spectacle.
How does the presence of komorebi impact your character's mood, and does it evoke specific memories or associations tied to this ethereal play of light and nature?
Delve into the symbolic significance of komorebi in your character's life, considering whether it represents moments of clarity, inspiration, or a connection to the cycles of life.
Explore your character's favorite settings where komorebi is particularly enchanting for them, and how these spaces contribute to the emotional resonance of the phenomenon.
Reflect on the contrasts between the ephemeral beauty of komorebi and the more enduring aspects of your character's life, such as relationships, aspirations, or personal growth.
Can your character find solace or inspiration in the presence of komorebi during challenging times, and how does this natural phenomenon become a source of resilience?
Consider how komorebi intersects with your character's cultural or spiritual beliefs, and whether they attribute any symbolic meaning or rituals to this play of light.
Explore the impact of komorebi on your character's creativity and thought processes, examining whether it serves as a catalyst for reflection, introspection, or artistic expression.
How does the changing seasons influence the experience of komorebi for your character, and do they associate different emotions with this phenomenon during different times of the year?
Envision a pivotal scene where komorebi becomes a central element, shaping your character's decisions, relationships, or contributing to a significant turning point in their narrative.

**Prompt 6
: Torschlusspanik (German) - Fear of Diminishing Opportunities**

Explore moments in your character's life where they have grappled with torschlusspanik, the fear of diminishing opportunities, and delve into the emotions that accompany this anxiety.
Reflect on the pivotal life events or milestones that contribute to your character's sense of diminishing opportunities, and how these experiences shape their perception of time.
How does torschlusspanik influence your character's decision-making, especially in situations where time-sensitive choices could impact their future opportunities?
Delve into your character's aspirations and whether they feel a sense of urgency to achieve certain goals before the window of opportunity closes, leading to heightened tension.
Explore the impact of societal or cultural expectations on your character's experience of torschlusspanik, and whether external pressures contribute to their fear of missed chances.
Can your character find moments of empowerment or liberation within the fear of diminishing opportunities, turning this anxiety into a driving force for positive change?
Reflect on your character's relationships and how torschlusspanik may influence their approach to personal connections, whether in friendships, family, or romantic entanglements.
How does the fear of diminishing opportunities affect your character's perspective on aging, and are there specific milestones or birthdays that intensify this existential anxiety?
Consider whether your character experiences torschlusspanik as a recurring theme throughout their life, or if it becomes more pronounced during specific phases or transitions.
Envision a crucial scene where torschlusspanik becomes a central focus, driving your character's actions, influencing their relationships, or shaping the overall trajectory of their narrative.

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2024.06.02 10:33 Potential_Occasion_5 Did I make the right move?

This was a few years ago now. At the time I 17m and my new wife 21f got pregnant and had a kid. Sorry but this is going to be a long post.
A bit of needed back story though… when I was 6 my parents divorced due to my dad cheating on my mom. I didn’t realize until I was older but my dad was what you would call an abusive drunk. My mom was verbally abusive and high on pills all the time. When my parents finally got divorced I remember couch surfing with my mom because we got evicted from the house since she wasn’t able to keep a job. My dad did pay child support but I have no idea what would happen to it. There were a lot of guns, drugs, violence, and death in my younger years. I turned 12 and started to understand everything and saw my dad turning his life around with his new wife so I decided to move in with him. It was a rough couple of years but it worked out in the end. That said onto the story..
That summer was a very fulling time in my life. I graduated high school, signed up for the military, and got married in 2019. I was in boot camp for the first 10 weeks of my wife’s pregnancy as it was our only income. Flash forward to us going to my first duty station. My first duty station ended up being 5 hours away from my father’s, and 3 hours away from her parents. In early 2020 our beautiful son was born. This where things started getting bad. My wife was suffering from postpartum and refused to get treatment. So instead, her treatment was going to her parents for a few weeks at a time. Besides her mom knowing my son better than I did, this worked out well. My wife and kid were happy and healthy besides a few mental breakdowns here and there. Then Covid and the Riots started happening. I was stationed on the outskirts of a large city. My base ended up restricting travel to 50 miles outside of base (this meant I wasn’t able to drive my wife and son to her parents anymore as I’d be breaking no less than 4 articles of the UCMJ if I was caught) this is where things took a turn for the worst. My wife got separation anxiety as this was the longest she’s ever been away. We started arguing a lot more often. Everytime I went to work, she would just stay in bed with our son and do nothing at all. I got very stressed but managed to juggle a 70 hour work week, feeding and taking care of my family, cleaning our apartment, and taking care of all the bills and expenses. My command decided to put me in something called ASF which basically means twice a week on top of my regular job, I’d now do gate guard duty and work with the MP’s on a 14 hour rotation. Things got so loaded on to my metaphorical plate that I developed stress related sleep apnea and couldn’t get a good nights rest on top of all of this. Months go by and nothing is getting better. I’ve recommended therapy, couples therapy, trying to go on walks, talking it out.. my wife didn’t want to do any of it. What’s worse is still wasn’t able to hold of get to know my kid very much at all. It got it he point that in August of 2020 I decided I wasn’t going to let my kid grow up how I grew up and asked for a divorce. I didn’t want him to grow up living with resentment towards his mom and dad, I hated every second of the arguing that took place in front of him, even if he didn’t understand. It broke my heart but I felt we’d do better co parenting instead of being together.
The divorce goes through and it was uncontested. My ex wife fell in love with her best friend from her hometown and was able to quickly move on and marry within a year. She got main custody and I got weekends. I started paying child support 3 months before I had to bc I wanted to make sure they were taken care of. She moved back in with her parents, however, and this caused some strain once we were divorced seeing as how I still wasn’t allowed to travel up there that often. Things got worse between me and my now ex wife dues to the travel ban and her not willing to compromise that much. From January of 2021 to July I was only able to see my kid about 5 times in total. In July my state decided to lift the travel ban and so did my base!
I started making plans and a schedule that my ex agreed to at first. Me and my ex were not very friendly to each other however. I resorted to only texting her about making plans surrounding my son. Bc of this she retaliates and won’t let me see him. It got to the point to where I was calling the cops so they could knock on her door as I stayed by my car. There is body cam footage, recorded phone calls, text messages, and screen shots of her refusing to let me see my kid. My ex then decides to file for more custody and more child support. Wishing 2 weeks I had to take leave, find and hire a lawyer with no money to my name, gather my evidence, and show up to court on a Thursday. Thankfully my loving aunt helped me pay a portion of the retainer so we could get things started with the lawyer. My wife also filed a temporary restraining order against me stating I was “violent and a danger to her and our kid” I had evidence to prove otherwise however, so I wasn’t worried. My lawyer stated this would be considered a separate case thus doubling my retainer. At this point in time I’m living on 70% of $30,000 a year, maxed out my credit cards to pay bills, and had to find an extra $10,000 for this lawyer. My wife lived in a small town so he was literally the only other option for me. This lawyer was terrible though. He told me I had to file my own affidavit, subpoena the officers linked to my case number for the body cam footage, and file all my evidence with the court due to the short notice. I didn’t have access to half the websites due to them costing money and needing an attorneys credentials so needless to say, I didn’t get the body cam footage. Court time appears and the judge grants that I’m allowed to do supervised visits every weekend until the new year. Once the new year came I would’ve been allowed to see him on the original plan for every other week unsupervised. This had me livid, but I accepted since I just wanted to see my kid. A few weeks go by and I’m finally getting to know my son. He was the only thing that kept me going in life at this point. He was and still is my main source of happiness. My lawyer calls me randomly one day stating that my wife put on the terms that my son wasn’t allowed to see my grandparents or my aunt when he was going to start staying with me every other weekend. No reasons were given. I of course denied these changes and wanted to keep the agreement how it was. Atleast then I could keep seeing him. My ex text me later that day stating “my lawyer asked me to inform you that since you refused to sign the updated agreement the restraining order is now back in place” I called my lawyer and immediately asked him to figure this out as this shouldn’t be legal. My lawyer then asked for another $5000 as it’s another case. I told him fine but he needs to actually do some work this time. He said he’d get back to me in a week with an update. A month goes by and I end up calling him asking what the situation was with my current case and he asked for the money to be paid before he looks into it. I told him that’s not what we agreed and that I’m making regular payments as you requested. My lawyer flat out says it’s not enough. I need it up front since I don’t believe you’re able to pay it. He was right I wasn’t able to pay it but I was trying my damndest to. I took 2 weeks to deliberate and talk to family and friends about my whole situation. At this point I’m now $12,000 in lawyer debt ($3,00 is what my aunt help with earlier) $15,000 in credit card debt and surviving off of $50-$100 a week for food and gas. I can’t sleep, I’ve gained 70 pounds in the span of a year. I was getting in trouble with the military for being late due to lack of sleep, being overweight, and rarely being at work since I had to go to my ex wife’s town to fight this custody battle so often. Ultimately I decided that this is turning into my parents divorce where they were putting me and my brother in the middle of all of there disagreements and fights. That’s exactly what I was trying to prevent, so I decided I couldn’t bring myself to hurt my son with all of this anymore. I’d keep a folder full of all the screen shots, text messages, photos, affidavits, etc. when he gets older, if he decides he wants to give me a chance… if he even knows about me, I’ll have it ready for him to read so he can make his own decision. This was the hardest thing I’ve ever done and I still don’t know if it was the right thing to do…

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2024.06.02 10:32 AcceptLesbians My boyfriend is man in a child’s body.

TDLR; my boyfriend is trying to manipulate me into forgiving him for being secretive about an ex lover he calls his best friend.
My bf (M22) and me (F23) are having another tiff. We’ve been together for a year and moved in together October 2023.
It started when I was in the kitchen. I marinated chicken for supper then I set the dough for some donuts and started deep cleaning. When I was finished I walked into the bedroom where he had been all morning and afternoon. When I walked in he started whispering to someone on the phone then got up and left and I began to put some things in their rightful place.
I told myself to let it go and I'll check his phone later because what the actual eff! I checked his phone before I left for work and after I had gotten out of the shower he was awake. — I found a 20minute phone call so I went to check texts in WhatsApp. He was talking to a girl and I recognized the name. I saw texts from them from before we started dating and he was calling her sexy, beautiful etc. I brought it up to him asking who it was he said "it was a friend" I asked why he was whispering and he left he said "I didn't realize I was doing that" so I pressed further and asked who it was specifically, he said "it was my best friend" but I had never heard of this woman, I have never heard of this woman. He says "well I don't tell you about all my friends" and I said if this was your best friend I would definitely know them" and he started to name friends that I don't know about. Anyway he tried to show me the texts and I shrugged him off and he went to tl V shower as I was about to leave for work.
As I am leaving he comes up to me and tries to show the texts again and says something I cannot recall atm. He holds the door to our apartment open so l couldn't lock it while I left but I just walked down the stairs to go. As I am leaving he starts banging the door and smashes something, then he starts screaming, and I hear this all the way till I walked out of the door of our 3 floor walk up.
As I walk to the bus I text his saying to check on the bunny and make sure he feels safe and isn't scared. (Bunny's are prey animals and they get scared easily.) mind you during this entire conversation I was calm and only asking questions because I wanted to see what was going on before I jump to conclusions (I only checked his phone so I could know the facts w/o being blindly lied too and forgiving him) his exact texts were and I am going to copy and paste: (Screenshot above)
Him: picture of texts between them two
"Okay You are the prefect girlfriend You should know that love how you treat me I'm probably gonna be out when you get back so"
I said: "If I was you wouldn't be chatting with your rich mama privately" (he called her “rich mama” in the text a day before the call)
Him: "You make me wish I never met you I swear I'm blocking you cause I don't want to keep hearing hurtful things"
And then he blocked me. When I had gotten home from work my vape was missing and he took it, so I texted him and he ignored me for hours then said it was basically his cause he bought it and I was trying to quit so it didn't matter (bought it with my money) so I said but I was still mine and I wanted to use it tonight cause l'm stressing out and he didn't use it cause he didn't like the flavour. He ignored me for 3 more hours and then came back to the apartment. He came home talking about stuff that didn't relate to our argument, saying I never do anything for him, l'm never there for him, I don't take care of him. As he is pointing at the unfolded laundry. The one thing I didn't do this week.
I honestly don't know how I feel. I give my all for him and do my best for him. And it feels like he only sees what I don't do. He doesn't have a job right now because he booked of too much time between his all year job and his summer job (he leaves for moths to make 20k) so I don't understand why he couldn't folded the laundry or fixed supper when I have been working. I honestly have nothing to say to him after he said those things. I am so tired. So exhausted. He ignores me every time we have an argument and leaves for hours while blocking me. I'm tired of the psychological abuse. But I have no where to go. What should I do? How should I bring this conversation up to squash what happened? Or should I just leave him?

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2024.06.02 10:26 Diligent_Fact4945 Just venting

Lost my grandmother 2yrs, 3 months, and a day ago. I've had issues on and off since then but I've been doing so well. Haven't cried in 2 years. Now it's 3am here and here I am. Sitting on my couch. Having sobbed for the first time in 2yrs. I was doing fine. Watching TV. And the scene in avatar where Iroh is in Ba Sing Se and sings to his son came on. Id never seen it before and thought it was touching so I looked it up on YouTube because I wasn't paying attention for half of it. It tickled something in me. I was just going to go to bed but. I needed to touch her urn. So I did. And then I hugged it and then I lost it. I found some grief music to fill the silence and I lost it. I hugged the urn. Kissed it. Damn it, I miss her like hell. I talked to her urn. Told her all the things I miss. Told her to come back. Got angry. Told her all the things she was supposed to do, all the people she was supposed to meet. Apologized for a million things. Hugged the urn tight again. Need to go wipe my face off. My nose is running like a gotdanged faucet but. I just can't get up. Part of me wants to take her with me while I get up and clean up. Part of me thinks I should put her back in her spot because I can't hold on forever and it's a way to symbolize that so my brain can understand it. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't such a gruesome death. I mean. She drowned on her own saliva because we turned her over like the hospice nurse said. Except the hospice nurse didn't say it would make her die faster, or that she was getting annoyed at having to constantly rework her schedule because my grandma had end stage COPD and stayed alive thru sheer will. She was supposed to die days earlier but even when the oxygen tank was doing nothing for her, she continued gasping day in and day out because she wasn't ready and if she was going to die it would be on her own terms. It was what was best but goddamn it it was so horrible. And the worst part is I wasn't even in the room when she went. I was her favorite person and I wasn't there. I went to go put the dog outside so she wouldn't get on the bed with her. And I walked back in and everyone was standing around her and my cousin said to me "you know she's passed, right?" And I had a touching moment with my grandpa where he kissed her forehead, pulled the sheet up, and I hugged him. It was the only death I've ever gotten closure on. But it's the one that hurts the worst. Crazy how these things work out. God damnit it miss her. S'damn much. 64. She would've turned 65. She would've been married 45 years. Just wish she could be here with me today. I should really take her to see her brother. Just wish he were alive too. But. Wishes are for Disney movies. In the meantime, I need to go blow my nose and get whatever sleep I can before 6am.
To those also navigating the complex world of grief and loss, good luck on your journey towards peace with yourself and your lost loved one/ones.

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