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(Sorry, I know, ass totally, I’m bad at titling things)
I just needed to rant/vent and I didn’t know where to do it so I decided to go to Reddit (which may or may not be the best idea) I don’t even know if anyone will see this and I might take it down at one point.
I’m only 16 years old and I honestly usually consider my parents on the better side of the stereotypical “Asian parent” but I will say my mom does have a short temper sometimes and I’ve witnessed it quite a few times.
There’s a lot of backstory but I’ll just skip it cause this is just a rant about something that happened not even half an hour ago, and I just feel too isolated to tell this to anyone irl. I also feel like I don’t want to ruin the reputation of my mom in their mind because she always treats my friends decently.
So prom is coming up for me and my dress just came. I tried it on, I’ll say that I didn’t feel great. The dress was too puffy and to me, too big, all the dresses I’ve seen from my friends were tighter dresses and dresses that weren’t so big. I also was afraid that I might’ve gotten a size too big cause it just looked weird to me.
I’ve never had the highest self esteem, which I know could be me, but I feel like sometimes it could be the amount of times I’m told to “lose weight” “stop eating” and this is about parents but my younger brother has a very short temper and he has told his friends my weight and he know VERY well that I’m extremely uncomfortable and unconfident. He’s witnessed the amount of time my parents (my mom-straightforward, my dad-behind my back, complaining to my mom) basically fat shame me. I remember I was on a walk with my family (my brother was there and his friends walk by and suddenly they start calling my fat. I ran home crying. Just a week or two ago, I heard my brother on a call talking to his friend, and I came up and spoke with him and his friend, being silly, and suddenly his friend’s like “should I tell her what you told me about her?” And I was confused for a bit and my brother told his friend not to and his friend just said something along the lines of “he told me you’re fat/overweight/_insert weight_”. I tried to play it off this time but I walked away not feeling great obvious. I know part of this my brothers fault and how his short temper makes him act on impulse when he’s mad at me, but I also think it connects back to my parents because they always tell me “to stop doing this and stop doing that or your brother will learn from you” and my parents are the one who first started commenting on my weight, telling me to workout, lose weight, stop eating, and tell them my weight so I could “stop feeling so insecure”, and I think that it has rubbed off on my brother.
Sorry, that was a long tangent from the prom dress story. Anyways, I wasn’t feeling great about the dress so I texted my mom just panicking, not knowing what to do cause proms in like 2 weeks and I probably can’t get another dress now. She arrived home a couple minutes later from work and told me to she her the dress. I reluctantly did, afraid that she’d judge me and I couldn’t really tell if she was because she always has the same face when she looks at me. She kept assuring me (in a very dry unconvincing way) that “it was fine, it’s not bad”. I kept being like “I don’t know, I think it’s really bad, it’s too long and blah blah blah” and we stared at it for a while longer and then she just brought up an idea, she said “straighten your back” and I have a relatively big chest and I said “no it makes my chest look awkwardly big (imo) then after a couple moments, she said“why don’t I try it? We can see if it the dresses problem or just you” and I knew immediately she was referring to how she thinks I look and how she thinks that I’m fat and etc. I felt kinda sad, should I feel this way? I’m not sure. Moving on, she went to try the dress on and I sat there waiting feeling sad about her backhanded comment. She came out and started talking about the multiple ways I could try to fix the dress. I was looking at the dress on her and thought maybe it looks weird from the narrow mirror and my angle. She turned her side to me and said “see a good posture makes a big different and it make it better” and I repeated why I don’t like doing that and she was like “yeah it’s just cause your shoulders look wide and big, like your a guy.” And honestly the comments she makes might not seem as bad on their own but knowing all the other things she has brought up over and over and over again makes this comment more like the tipping point. Anyways after a couple minutes sitting there crying quietly and just having tears run down my face watching her talk about possible ways to fix the dress. She turns to me after she finishes and I just burst out crying. I just start talking about what she said to me and how that makes feel so sad and I wish she was so mean to me. She always uses the classic excuse of “I’m not being mean, I’m just telling you the truth/being strict/helping you” this time she brings up how “if you don’t like you’re body, then fix it.” I tell her that’s not the point and that the point is all the things she says to me. She walks off quietly as i continue to cry my eyes out. She went to change out of the dress and I ran off up to my room. I did yell at her while running up the stairs. She later came up to my locked door and yelled at me, telling me the usual things about stuff (I won’t touch on it) and she calls me baby and to just cry about it.
Then I opened my phone and started furiously typing, so fast that my keyboard is loading slower than the speed I’m typing at. Wow that was a big rant. But yep. That’s it. I mostly wanted to rant but I guess people reply. Thanks for reading the monstrosity, it’s quite long and I’m not going to reread it so excuse the mistakes.

So a week or two ago I posted about how I wanted to quit my new job one month in because it was too much and I miss being a SAHM etc. Some Redditors gave me the idea of asking to go part time, so I figured what the hell I’ll ask, nothing to lose. When I told my supervisor I didn’t know if I could do this and gave my reasoning of struggling and overwhelmed at finding good work/life a balance (3 kids at home- was a SAHM for 9 years) she mentioned that she’d try to ask for part time. Well because I’m grant funded position I guess it’s not possible but they said I can be part time until a full time position is filled in my place. And I asked how long that typically takes and they said “well it took a year to find you”.
So they had me write a resignation letter stating my desire to switch from full time to part time until a full time positions filled. They’re basically going to keep me until the job is filled and when a full-time position is fulfilled, does that mean I’m being fired? I’m wondering if this has happened with others before or what went down… it sounds sketch to me. They don’t see nothing wrong with it I think and nothings changed. They said they like me on the team so willing to do part time (for now…I guess?). But maybe I should be glad I can make money in the meantime and at a level I’m comfortable with (part time).
Ahhhh it’s so hard. Idk how you full time working parents x2 do it. Hats off you guys.

I'm in my early 30's, and have chosen to take the past six months off to not work due to severe depression that left me incapable of working...
I've been through tons of traumatic things in life and haven't progressed into a career... i worked a more substantial job six months ago as a Front Desk Agent at a hotel, and was soon fired because I wasn't learning quickly... part of that is probably due to emotional trauma making me slower mentally.
I'm a perfectly competent, healthy person.. i just feel depressed often lately and it's tough to focus at work.
I'm also horrible at making decisions... there is a mall security job hiring, and also chipotle...
Chipotle makes me FEEL more excited to work there, because at my interview i really liked the people that work there... they seem welcoming and kind, and it's nice to be around people because I get lonely outside of work often... but at the same time, i'm an introvert and like my space.. and being around too many people too often may stress me out.
The mall security, it feels a little painful because they play loud pop music and it reminds me of painful things... so the environment is not the greatest... but i do get to be by myself and walk around, and have my space... and also feel like i'm helpig people... and there's variety... i'll be walking around the mall, learning dispatch, and also driving the car around the mall.
they both pay the same and offer the same hours, and both said they have opportunities to potentially take on a Supervisor position.
What do you think is a better job for me that will be emotionally healthy for me, and also good career-wise?

Hi-
I need some advice on how to handle a family member who is possibly sabotaging my soon to be wedding. This may be a long post but just stay with me. See below for more context…
I am a soon bride to be and I will be having my wedding with family and friends and of course the wedding planning is getting to me but more than ever, I have a member of my family who is possibly sabotaging my wedding.
The backstory:
A family member of mine is upset that I didn’t include them as a bridesmaids. I have a valid reason..here is the reason: They are not 100% of me getting married and I didn’t want them to be in wedding if they are not for our happiness. They feel like my fiancé is not the right person for me. More financial then anything (My fiancé doesn’t make a lot of money but he does work and I know this and he has always supported me through good and bad times and I have done the same as well).
This issue started because he proposed to me and didn’t circle back around to certain people because he got the vibe that they was against him. He has done nothing wrong to anyone in my family and I told him that the only person he needed validation and approval from is my mother (my mother passed last year and before she died she told my soon to be husband that she wants him to take care of me and he responded “I will do more than that, I will marry her and continue to love her”. Months go by and he proposed to me a week before his birthday.
Fast forward, I spoke with the other family members who didn’t agree with the proposal and put them in their place because they all were dead wrong for how they handle my special day (being proposed too) and made me upset. They have no valid reasons because he never disrespected anyone in my family. They only care about money and appearances. (My friends and other family members who are happy for us knows that what certain people in my family was DEAD Wrong and knows my fiancé will never do anything disrespectful to them or me.
Currently taking place:
Now, within the months leading up to the new year, I still wasn’t okay with how that went down and have taken everyday with an open mind with my guard up to see if they would come around and actually be happy for me. And to be honest, what happened showed they HAVE NOT changed.
I wanted certain family members to be escorted down the isle at my wedding on both side and for my side the person was all for it. Then I told my family member who would be walking down the aisle with them that I wanted them to wear a certain color for the wedding and instead of responding to me directly, they decided to have a private discussion without me knowing to were the other family member calls me and tells me who said what I sent them in a private conversation and said “ I don’t feel comfortable walking down the isle because of a personal issue they are currently experiencing.” I knew this experience ahead of time and told them “I understand and that’s fine” we proceeded to talk about other things and the call ended. I noticed that after the conversation with the family member all of a sudden, they change their mind of walking down the aisle. I put two and two together and realized that this was planned to ruin my special day! A later message was sent “Summary: Now that so &so is out of the wedding, let me know if there is something else I can do”.
I am just at a loss for words and honestly just hurt about all of it. I don’t know how to respond to any of this even if I want to say anything.
Advice would be great. What you guys think? 🤔

I wanted to share with you guys our journey with DMDD. It’s been 3 years since our son’s behaviors started and he was diagnosed- it took a long time for us to understand what DMDD is and to get him help… but it’s getting better as he grows older and his brain matures.
When our son turned 8 he had an extra special birthday party. He always wanted to ride in a limo and he saved his own money to get one to pick them up from school and take them to an amusement facility that has laser tags and bumper cars and etc. It was Awsome. The end of that week he got his first ever office referral for being disruptive in class and having to be removed and be in in school suspension for the day due to him scaring the other kids by acting out. The next week it was 3 days. The next week was his first OSS day for hitting a staff member and destroying other kids artwork. It snowballed and continued for the next two month until school was done. We managed to get him an IEP meeting for disability after he was diagnosed with DMDD and anxiety but we didn’t know why. One week before the end of school he finally told us- a kid who didn’t make the cut for his party the next day threatened to kill him on the playground. At first I was mad because I thought he was lying trying to avoid consequences- then they found the video at the day time and place he said it happened if him being approached by another kid and then staring and not playing the rest of recess that day.
We transferred schools- surely that would help. Nope. For the next year and a half he was in the office almost everyday getting ISS for absconding from the grounds, disrupting class, hitting others, threatening himself, destroying others property or damaging school items. The school tried so hard to work with him. Finally we agreed to let him be transferred to a school in our district that specializes in behavioral issues and helping teach kids how to identify and manage their triggers and actions. He’s seen a psychiatrist and been on an antidepressant/anti-anxiety drug and ADHD medication and saw a therapist for over a year and a half until he “graduated” from her care.
He still has his days. They are infrequent and usually no where near the scale as before- but at times he threatens self harm or acts like he will do so to get attention, or hits and screams when he preceives something is unfair. That has been a huge trigger for him because he has an acute idea of fair or unfair and cannot handle when others get “special privileges” (which happens a lot at his school). He has finally started to transition back to a regular class environment doing 2/3 of the day at the behavioral program and 1/3 at a normal class. He is set to move to half days next week in preparation for middle school next year.
I just want to acknowledge as a parent it’s hard. Our boy before DMDD was the poster child of the most caring and loving individual you could ever know so when he started hurting others for seemingly no reason it was hard to swallow because that wasn’t my son. My advice is this: get them help early, remind them constantly you support and care about them, don’t focus on negative behaviors but go crazy over the top in rewarding good behavior. Accept rx and therapy treatment (I fought it for too long for him). And don’t give up. So much is still unknown about DMDD but more and more research shows as the child ages and mentally matures with proper support they “recover” to normal expected behavior. And then you can focus on whatever other things they have going on. We love our boy- and he will excel and grow as a person out of this. Hopefully with continued support and treatment one day he will forgive and manage to deal with the trauma of the event that started out whirlwind story… and hopefully he will be a happy person at peace with the world then. He’s already grown so much and is back to (most of the time) being the happy and caring kiddo he was before.

My mom was diagnosed with cancer pretty much immediately after my brother and SIL got married. I was one of two bridesmaids. I was obviously very involved in the wedding. There was a little bit of drama surrounding the bachelorette party but I got over it pretty quick and just tried to focus on getting ready for the big day.
Then my mom’s illness became paramount and all I really cared about. At some point about a month into the diagnosis, I noticed that my SIL had been very distant, when I had thought she’d be the opposite given the circumstances. I had tried reaching out a couple of times but it felt embarrassingly unreciprocated. She had moved with my brother to NYC so that explained at least some of the silence, but I was confused as to why she just wasn’t reaching out at all. Still my mom was top priority and occupied so much of my headspace. so I wasn’t exactly sitting and stewing about her not communicating, but it started to get to me.
I asked my brother about it when he came to visit last fall and the reason he gave was that “she doesn’t like the way you treat me”. He was referencing some of the fights and tensions we’d had that year, with the most recent ones related to my mom’s illness, either directly or tangentially. He literally said that with the move they were “relieved to get away from me.” This of course, was about one of the hardest things to hear. By no means had we had a 100% peaceful relationship (my brother and her and I) but we were not at each other’s throats— especially me and her. There was no reason to be. Also, I had spent the entire first half of the year grieving my cat Sofia, and prepping for the wedding. We’d had visits in between and I had thought we were getting along fine.
I reached out to her via text after my brother said this and said I was kind of hurt that she’d gone AWOL since moving and that I just wanted us to communicate more, especially since my mom was sick and I was constantly terrified and anxious. I also said I just wanted to reconnect with her and talk more, because I saw her as a sister, and neither of us had ever had one. She apologized over text and seemed to get what I was saying, and agreed that she’d reach out more, but nothing changed. I felt like I gave her an opportunity to step up when it mattered and it never happened.
My mom went to the ER on the day of my SIL’s birthday. I was terrified because of her dire state (I had moved in with them, so I was around to see her get sicker and sicker). I still made an effort to wish her a happy bday over text.
My mom continued to decline until her passing at home on Saturday. The time leading up to it as deeply painful and traumatic for all of us, but mostly her. She was in severe pain and I will never forget the agonized expressions on her face and knowing I could do nothing to make it better. Anyway, obviously during this time all I could focus on and think about was my mom. Nothing else mattered. All conflict between my brother and dad and I stopped. There was no time or place for it. We had to support each other, and we were all exhausted.
Later on, after my mom’s death, it hit me that not once had she checked in with me. She was calling my brother but not me or my dad. I thought about why and could not come up with a valid excuse. I just assumed she would be more present and involved with the whole family given the situation. I was wrong.
Obviously I can’t force a relationship with someone who doesn’t want one. Just know that we go back about 10 years and our relationship was not always so strained. In the past couple years we’ve grown apart I think due to the tensions of other griefs (we each lost our cats), wedding stress, and their move away. But as I said, here was never a big blowout or fight. None of the conflicts I had with my brother were ever even about her.
I genuinely don’t understand how anyone can justify this behavior of totally ignoring their husband’s family during this time of deep grief. If it were reversed and her mom was terminally ill, I can see myself doing everything I could to support her, checking in constantly, and not giving a shit what happened before. It’s basic compassion and after the wedding we became family. I’ve had SO much love and empathy and kindness flowing in from other close friends, extended family, colleagues current and former, even random acquaintances I hadn’t talked to in years. All of these people have helped me cope. But radio silence from her. No text, call, nothing.
I’m preparing to address this with my brother tonight and am not sure how to go about it. I am really hurt, he gets so defensive so quickly, we are both sensitive and Both grieving our mom. I would talk to my SIL directly but I don’t feel like the onus should be on me to reach out.
Of course this isn’t the entire detailed history of everything, that would take way too long to recount. But I can guarantee you that nothing ever happened that merits this selfishness and lack of empathy. I feel abandoned by someone who I wanted to be like a sister to, during the lowest point in my life.
How should I approach this? Can someone see something I can’t? Please help. Thank you.

It's me! I'm the under qualified bozo! But I have more ideas than inhibitions so I'm gifting you all these proposed balance changes even though I have zero game design experience.
Light is in a really weird place right now. It really feels like a class without a proper niche for experienced players, and newer players can feel a lot of frustration surrounding the class both playing as and against it.
So I'd like to play Game Dev and talk about what I think can help the class fit in a healthier spot than it is now. I'd also love to hear your ideas too!
Starting off big with Cloak. The specialization you see in the VAST majority of pubs, the thorn in countless sides, and what many have grown so see as a crutch. As much as I have grown to love the ability and the feeling of being a sneaky devil I don't think that it works as a specialization. With it being so on demand the only balance options are charge and visibility. So to make it easier on less experienced players Embark has made it less spammable and more easy to spot. But this leaves Cloak players to feel as though their favorite toy becomes worthless against more experienced players. At the end of the day I think invisibility has it's place, but that place is with the Vanish Bomb as a more moderated, more team oriented version.
So what do we replace it with? Well first we need to ask what makes cloak good? In short, it provides Light to pick their fights and only take advantageous interactions. Additionally cloaks strength lies in how On Demand it is and how reliable it is that you will have it. A good light can manage their charge to always have it when they need it most and even less experienced players can more often than not use it to open a fight and if they're halfway lucky to exit one too.
So we're looking for something that allows an advantage to picking fights, has the on demand reliability that cloak has, but also doesn't feel so unfair to fight against for newer players while retaining a high skill ceiling of use for more experienced players.
What if Light got the Zoomies? (Called the Zoomies cause if I just called it speed I'd want to make way too many bad jokes about the movie/drug)
An on demand ability activated from one pool that recharges when not in use just like cloak does now that gives a +33% (initially I wanted +50% it that feels excessive) boost to walk/run speed.
Light is based largely on its mobility, so why not focus one of its abilities to making basic mobility better? This would allow faster flanking to not keep your team fighting a 2v3 as long. Provide that little bit extra you need to make that close escape from a bad fight, get the cash box away from the enemy team 33% faster. A player that learns the games movement will be able to do wonders with it while a newer player would still be able to have fun just running around at the speed of sound. Meanwhile newbies fighting it will be able to see the light coming if they're aware and not feel like there is an army of insivibie rat people out to get them.
Also moving fast in games is just plain ol FUN.
But this isn't all that light needs, frankly the ease at which they die is the other half of Lights problem. I'm not the first to suggest it but if Light is EVER going to be the hit and run punisher class then they DESPERATELY need a faster health regen. Barely escaping a fight with your life should be rewarded, and currently needing to sit in a corner crying and sucking your thumb for the amount of time it takes right now feels like more of a punishment not just for the light player, but their team as well.
Others have also talked at length that Light could really use a faster interact speed for Revives/Steals and I 100% agree with these sentiments. Cause right now it just makes more sense that a Heavy always be the one to steal since their big hunky bodies can soak up bullets for so much longer giving a better chance of pulling it off.
Also Grappling Hook deserves 2 charges. It's a CRIME that an ability THIS FUN makes me wait THIS LONG to use it again
TLDR: Swap Cloak for a funny Speed Boost and let it Regen hp faster.
Thank you all for coming to my TED Talk, I'd love to hear your ideas too!

So, I have this ex. We dated and talked every day about 2 years ago. Things were great at first but then she got toxic. She cheated on me several times and never apologized, yelled at me for having emotions, got pregnant several times (not my kid obviously because we’re both women), and used drugs despite it being a trigger for me. Overall, she just didn’t seem to care about me, and when id confront her about it she’d get pissed, and then later shed act all sorry and apologize (there’s a ton more she did but that would take several paragraphs to explain). It went on for a while and I stayed because I loved her. But then I just couldn’t take it anymore and left. She has made so many attempts to come back all of them have worked but that was still a while back. About a month ago she emailed me, saying that she was sorry and has changed. She said she wanted to tell me something and I agreed. She added me on discord and Instagram and we talked, she seemed to be sorry and maybe has changed? But after a few days of talking, I just felt weird. I didn’t want anything to do with her, and I knew I didn’t want a relationship since I’m in a happy relationship currently. So I blocked her without explanation. Fast forward to now, and she messages me again. Saying how it was unfair I left without explanation and how she was so happy to have me in her life even just a little bit. I just don’t know what to say. Was it unfair that I did that? Did she change? I just don’t know what to do.

Hello,
I graduated university last year and a lot has changed since then. Many of my friends moved away to a different city, and while I do my best to keep in touch with them, I know things will not be the same.
Also, I have realized that some of my friendships with others have run its course. I no longer have the bandwidth to tolerate their behaviour after all these years. I did try my best to support them the best I could but I don’t think I can keep up with it too much longer.
It makes me feel really sad that certain friendships have to come to an end. And I don’t really know how to move forward. I know it’s okay to choose myself in the end, but it’s just so hard and lonely at times.
I’m fortunate enough to have a stable job, be in good health and a roof over my head. I should focus on the positive things but I just wanna cry sometimes.
Could anyone please give some advice on how to move past this? That would be very much appreciated, thank you.

I bought Mercedes from CarMax and got the MaxCare warranty after reading about how great it is on Reddit.
I am having an issue with the car and I took it to the dealership. I was under the impression that I would just pay the $500 deductible and that’s it. The guy at the dealership told me MaxCare may have a ceiling on how much they will pay for a repair and if it goes over, I am on the hook for it. And there is a $300 diagnostic fee up front so if it turns out that MaxCare doesn’t care everything and I go somewhere else, I still have to pay the $300.
Does this sound normal?
Should I be taking it to CarMax instead? The service at CarMax isn’t the best and I didn’t enjoy dealing with their service department. Ideally I can go through the dealership but not if it’s going to be insanely expensive.

Not sure what to think right now but I just want someone to tell or have someone listen.
My closest elderly family member I had died in April 2023 from old age. Despite being hard, we were mostly prepared for this due to her being 93 and up until that point was always relatively healthy until she fell down her stairs a year prior and never fully recovered.
Slightly before my grandma passed away my father got diagnosed with ALS. We believe he either had a rare form of ALS or got diagnosed very late in its development. Regardless, I moved back into my parents house temporarily because he needed 24/7 care. He was either choking on his saliva, up at all hours of the night chasing delusions/hallucinations either from medication or health declining, or needed to have food put in his feeding tube. The last time I heard my dad’s voice was almost 2 years to the day before he passed away. He lost over 130 pounds in 10 months. He passed away in July 2023.
I never got to really know my dad’s side of the family too well. We have lived in Ohio my entire life and he was from Louisiana. They never involved themselves too much more than a phone call at birthdays or a card every now and then. However, after my dad’s diagnosis, they made an effort and we made the effort to visit and talk more. I had finally got to know the family I had always missed out on growing up and settled our differences. we took a trip down to Louisiana to bury his ashes with his late sister and father in the family mausoleum after my fathers passing. Not too long after this trip my grandmother on my dads side fell ill, was in and out of hospitals, and passed away in March 2024, just several short months after finally getting to know a woman I’ve missed my entire life without realizing it. She’s gone.
One of the family members Ive always been close with, is my cousin, Matthew. Matt was a few years older than me however I’ve always been able to identify closest with him in so many ways. In both good and bad ways. Although we grew up like Matt was one of our brothers, he unfortunately fell into heavy drug use. Several years of rehabs, reconnections, forgiveness, and understanding, he finally was accepted by everyone as a fantastic young man that overcame so many hardships and personal struggles. A healthy, sober, and happy man with his boyfriend he hid for so many years out of fear of not being accepted bought a house together and was making his way through life. We were all so happy for him. He died earlier today from relapsing and overdosing. No one knew he was struggling, no one knew he was using again. Last I saw him was on st Patrick’s day for a fish fry and he had nothing but great things to say. I guess that’s how it happens a lot of the time.
All this to say I’m just so lost right now. I wanted these stories to be out there because I don’t really have anyone outside of a few family members and a close friend or two that I speak to anymore. I’m struggling is all. Hug your friends and family while you have them. Tell them you love them. Make amends if possible.

Do you have male friends? Not sure how to feel about my buddy. I don’t have a ton of experience with this type of guy so just asking for some insight on this.
We have been friends for about a year now, met through a mutual friend and would chill and smoke, talk about business and finance stuff. I love that about him and the fact hes never hit on me because all guys do. I don’t have many friends big reason i work alot so he will literally come by once a day before he goes to work nearby to chat for 20-2 hrs some days.
However he’s mentioned before he used to have a best friend in the past that was a woman and he ended up having feelings for her and she didn’t so he doesn’t talk to him anymore. Hes 100% a fuck boy and has said some dudes will just be friends with girls just to have sex with them one day but we are “the exception” and that he would never be friends with some of the girls he talks to because its a “L”
Yesterday we were talking about relationships and pregnancy hes had like 3 scares with women getting pregnant since ive known him nd he said this fake senario if we ever had sex and i got pregnant if i would abort the baby and im like “i dont know” and he’s like “omg you are the type of girl im scared of, thank god im not attracted to you” and i was a little shocked tbh
Im a bigger girl and that’s definitely not his type, which is fine but what if i lose weight? Im trying to get a grip on my health, so if i lose weight and he becomes attracted to me then we wont be friends anymore? Or he will try to have sex with me because hes a fuck boy?
I personally don’t mind he’s not attractived to me because im not either to him but i just wonder if i should consider keeping a friendship like this? Because he says its an L to be friends with a woman then why he talking to me every day? He literally calls me once a day to say he’s coming by lol
Also I’ve been celibate for two years and I don’t know if I believe in getting an abortion unless it was from rape.. am I being sensitive? Can men and women be friends with no sexual attraction?

hello! i know quite a few people saw my post from earlier this morning about the two kittens me and my mom found (and by extension, the post she made a few hours later.) so i figured i should let everyone know the status of them.
we found a foster for them! a lovely vet not too far from us said she would be willing to take them in and get them into a loving home :] so tomorrow we will be taking them to her vet clinic. i would like to again thank everyone so much who gave us so many resources and reached out about fostering!! it really means a lot to me that they will be so loved and so cared for now.
also! about the guy we rescued them from... i honestly don't know who he is. my parents have said they've seen him before, but personally for me, it was the first time i'd ever seen the guy. hopefully though, i won't run into him again, and the apartment managers are able to deal with him as well as the police. no animal deserves that type of cruelty.
again though, i would like to say thank you. i really cannot express enough how happy it makes me ;_; we'll still be watching over them for the night and making sure theyre all happy and fed before they go off to their new home.

• The Request:

Seeking three to four players to establish a local game. We are a DM (35M) and one player (28F) forming a monthly in-person game. The location will be either privately hosted or at a game store in the area. Open to all but hoping for similar-minded people between 21-45. [POC] & [LGBTQIA+] friendly. Most of our experience has been online, including a campaign I ran for three years. My friend has hosted a few one shots and is starting her own campaign as well. We are both pretty familiar with the rules but we are willing to accept newcomers and veterans alike. We would value the opportunity to meet new people and experience a game in person.

• The DM:

I have written most of my own adventures. I have taken inspiration from established content but I have not run directly from an adventure book. My longest-running game used elements from Out of the Abyss and Ghosts of Saltmarsh along with established Forgotten Realms lore to tell an original story. I am willing to tweak aspects of the game if I believe the changes can make it more enriching. As such, I try to stick closely to RAW (rules as written) but will offer narrative adjustments to suit the story. This could mean homebrew feats or magical items to fit the story of PCs. I also use homebrew variations of monsters and challenges. My table has tended to run roleplay-heavy, but certain stints will feature difficult combat.

• The Vibe:

If I had to pin down my style, I try to bring a narrative sense to the game. I like to use music, images, and character art to set the scene for wherever the party is. I make my best effort at voices and have been able to successfully craft some identifiable NPCs. I have mostly been using Roll20 with maps I have either found or made myself using Dungeondraft. I like to press the party with moral questions and am happy for them to take whatever path they feel is right. I enjoy working with players to expand on their backstories and weaving elements together to help the PCs have reasons to stick together. I try to craft interesting puzzles using the medium available, which could be interesting if I'm able to work with players in a physical space. I also enjoy strategic combat and will throw challenges at the players that I am not sure how they will overcome. So far, it has been a balancing act where the players have always felt like they were in more danger than I have. Overall, I hope to build an immersive story but accept that we are human and will make the occasional goof. I tend to be agreeable and easy-going, and believe the table should be a fun space. I want you to laugh, I want you to cry, and sometimes even piss you off but always with narrative and not 'gotcha 'game mechanics.

• The Premise:

The world's fate has been decided.
It needs to be destroyed.
However, some stand outside of fate. How will the few change the destiny of the many?
In this campaign, the goal is for the Player Characters to step outside of the small, broken world that they know, as the threads of Fate that bind them begin to "Fray". The themes of the campaign will focus on the spiritual journey one must endure to carve their own destiny. They will seek to solve the mystery that asks; If there is a higher power, how could they let the world come to such a cataclysmic end? If there is a grand design, how will seeing its shape affect them? Will their faith continue to be the driving force to preserve their world? Or will they find the will to bend reality shifting their world from its predetermined path?

I will be using elements of The Fablemakers' Animated Tarot Guidebook to shape the game. The Major Arcana will appear as influences within the story and in shaping your characters. I will also use them as a mechanic to help drive PCs into unique environments. I plan to sample Planescape: Adventures in the Multiverse when I can. While there will be an over-arching story, I am trying for an episodic nature so that it is not too detrimental for players to miss an occasional game.
I will leave further specifics for a private conversations and then a Session 0 once we have players selected. To be clear, I AM NOT seeking a fully formed character pitch from you. Instead, if you wish to apply, please reach out to me. I will follow up with a questionnaire I have prepared and interview as many people as I can. While I am hoping to fill seats quickly, life is always changing. If you'd like, I will keep your information on reserve after the post is closed.

• Thank you for reading and I would love to hear from you.

Live in Chicago. Might pick up a Corolla SE hybrid AWD sedan next week. Currently I have the Corolla Cross AWD, it did great last winter BUT my mpg is 21-24 because ’m all city. I make too many gas station trips. And no I don’t want the Corolla Cross Hybrid.
I’m worried about how this car will do in snow and ground clearance. Any experiences out there? Please help me sleep at night, been so confused and don’t want to make another expensive mistake!!!! I had my eye on the Corolla because I like being lower to the ground and it’s compact for Chicago parking spaces and the city.

my wife (one of my players) and I (the DM) were sad we had to cancel our session tonight and won't get to play again for 3 weeks. So i suggested I will take 30 minutes and come up with as much of an adventure off of the top of my head and i could and she could create a character in that same time and we would just run with it.
this was actually insanely fun for us. so i figured I would post what i could get done in 30 minutes and have other DM's do the same challenge and post what they could up with. a little creative writing exercise.
my wife created a rogue/artificer multiclass who can speak with the dead through trinkets and who wants to get a job at the library on the radiant citadel.
here is what i came up with in 30:

The radiant citadel – a city of amazing creations, giant crystals glowing with a soft pink power hum throughout the city, some spaced just right to be a .... bus stops?
The adventure begins, the city is flooded with refugees.... the last survivors of an entire planet who worshiped the raven queen.
A guard who is clearly tired of his job is yelling, “if you are injured, were touched by any undead creature, have a parasite, have an aversion to sunlight, or any signs of undeath, go to the left to receive blessings and healings, if you had no direct contact with any of the scourge, keep to the right. If you are found to have clear markings of a struggle, we will assume you have already turned and are attempting to spread your infection and the paladins at the gate will treat you ACCORDINGLY.”
Information to the right. You notice that no beggars are in this area, either they know that no one coming in will have anything to spare, or that the risk isn’t worth it.
Several more guards are yelling similar commands breaking the groups of incoming into smaller and smaller sections to be addressed.
Get to the gate: “world of departure? World of final destination?” staying here? Good luck, this is the thinness the rations and outpourings of good will have ever been. That you know who and his war on the raven queen, things are not looking good for anyone who follows her. not as bad as last week though, last week, we expected 4 times as many, the last rescue ships came in from a planet of Selune followers..... do you have any idea, we had thousands of guards expecting undead hordes to unload at the docks..... you figure once that old vampire would have his way, just another army of followers..... but he apparently wanted to make a point..... you know how many people came off those ships? Living or dead? ..... 3..... 1 old priest and 2 children. Enough ships for thousands and thousands..... only 3 left... what an animal, we are all Surely doomed if he gets his way.”
*** disruption in the distance behind you, the gatekeeper ushers you though quickly, but you can hear maybe 10 people back, a shatter ki has turned into a vampire and is shredding the survivors and guards in line. Magical gates seal you away and seal the city from the influx, you hear the sounds of dozens of paladin oaths as the sky lights up with a holy cleansing light.

The radiant cathedral hiring process, oh a, “whisperer” well, we have a great need for your kind right now, tell me, have you yet mastered the art of communing with the dead without destroying a trinket yet.
Aaaaa, well, we still need acolytes to train up to the task. I'll have a guard bring you a trinket to prove your on the level, sorry, cannot be too careful these days, lots of imposters trying to get the a free meal, or worse, sneak in the destroy the collected knowledge contained here.
Paladin brings in a trinket, he still has blood on his hands.
“the trinket is of a shatter ki that was about to turn, she is honest about her feelings and hopes and home world.

Sections of the library –
Childrens books – here there are many adults and children from the city, it is story time and most are gathered to see a magical puppet show, it is being orchestrated by a hellish looking woman whose body itself is a marionette cage and she has 6 arms that you can see bringing the figurines inside her midsection to life with such a deft touch it is hard to believe they are not real.
Religious studies – a huge selection of every text and every history, in each section, you find that there are also disciples of those religions studying and offering information freely and any attempt to convert people to their god. Selune is astoundingly absent (can investigate to find that to protect the legacy, one of her last priests has sacrificed himself to be a trinket to hold all her teachings and prayers for a new generation of followers. In this learn that you can resurrect a god, but it is hard to do and unlikely.)
Spell theory – this is the busiest section of the library, with casters of every level and ability cramming through trying to find anything to help them advance. You see another acolyte here who is casting mending on a book that was just placed back on the shelf by a flaming familiar of some sort.
Several skulls are telepathically pulling books from the shelves, shuffling through the pages quickly and then retuning them. You notice other skulls..... some with gems for eyes and teeth.... demi-Litchs. Also, regular liches and beholders (can investigate, a demon in this section is looking at arcane workings for channeling powers into a dead god in the astral plane, is he trying to revive a dead god?)
History – what you would expect
Biology – you see several monstrous humanoids why weird animal parts grafted onto themselves here. Symic hybrids? There is a troll here, who seems to be uncannily intelligent. He has a set of pixie wings ... can learn you are what you eat from this one. Ate an genius and now he is stuck with all these weird new thoughts in his head.....
Restricted – several paladins in a plate armor constructed of the same glowing pink about the city stand guard. their faces cannot be seen behind their long over shielded helms and masks.
Engineering – dozens of gnomes, goblins, artificers, mechanical constructs are here. You find they are solving the same problems of copying information, but with their engineering and nothing occult; you find convergent evolution is fascinating.
Cooking – an ogre that is much older than any ogre you have ever heard of sits here, their culture is so brutal, it is hard to imagine one making it to such an ancient age, in fact, you remember from a book you read on these creatures, the length of their natural life span is unknown, but judging from this fellow, they must be a very hearty race.
Travel
Medical -

that's it, give it a shot and let me see what you can come up with!

What a week so far, big things have been happening everywhere around me along with friends and family. Weird times, Wonderful times, we have to look at all of them at the end of the day and learn from that observation. You have free will to think into it and break it a part further or make peace with it and let it go. Most of us living in the moment should be working in that favor of "letting go" and not holding attachment to objects, person, or feelings.
Lucky that we have time in our reality, our feelings past just like it does time. Our ego wants something to hold on to for validation and continue that cycle of misalignment with your self. Your true self. Knowing your worth is very vital to understand how you can perceive what that means for you at this current moment in your reality.Reality is just as real as the second before the next.....
Those were not my words!
I love them and then I hate them.... Do you see why?!
Why do I think like this?!
Seriously, why do I care?!..... (they're laughing right now, but I'll go back to writing.)
To seek revenge is part of the Devil's Playbook. You are here to break cycles in your own lives. Your OWN REALITY.
Does anyone really know who they are themselves?!We are being mentally stimulated and coerced into a certain way of thinking and living, then we are adapting and reacting to what we have placed into our reality. These are times we cannot compare to the past, because we are exceeding rapidly with intelligence in general. We are blessed with these revelations, we didn't just discover them. We had to go through cycles upon cycles to finally be where we are right now evolving and aligning our vibration as a species and planet. Those out there that know what I'm leaning upon, understand what I'm mentioning. A shift. Earth is physically shifting, planets are realigning, energy is being transferred and we are now moving towards growth in all areas of life. Spiritually and on the 3rd Dimension.
I hear Suz right now.....Now, when I was going through my 20's and dealing with my father passing away. You know this stuff is not really helpful to me. Suz said a lot of things and she's been right..... Sometimes, she was wrong, but that also plays into energy changing with free will and the timelines you decide to vibrate and connect with. Right before she had mentioned to me she had a brain tumor, she told me to not worry about all the scary political crap they are saying on the tv....I am a worry wart by heart and I sat in my room and focused negatively on a lot of things during that time. I was feeling very depressed and unsure about life. She helped me let go of fear in that sense just allowing myself to understand that,
"This too, Shall PASS!" She likes to emphasize her words.
"You have everything you need right now to get through this.
There is a lesson to be learned because you asked for this. So allow it to happen and teach you what you asked for. Next time be more specific in how you ask for anything else. If you don't, you will be tested to see if you will do it the same way again, or will you change how you allow your lesson to teach you what you asked for....Man, she does get confusing, but I think I kept it vague enough you can enter your own "problem" into that lesson you are currently going through. I got so mad at Suz for talking this way around me. I thought she was a psychic medium I wanted to know the cool stuff about my life. The mystical stuff..... She sounded like a therapist. She would still yap her mouth at the ghosts around us. That never went away, but she was super blunt when it came to me asking her questions about spirits. They very much communicate in the way that is understood as psychology. So she brought up her answers with that type of context. I was only around 17-25 when we were really working together on metaphysics. She never let me forget I had to put in the extra effort and look up everything I asked her about. I never figured it out that my career path was placing right where I am supposed to be. I started off on the right foot into being a service to others. I had no idea what it means to be an actual "healer". That is a topic for another post, I'll get back on track here....
She told me, before we had a body, we are a spirit. There are spiritual laws. The physical has it's own set of rules to exist and how we are able to function that foundation. Just because you don't understand it, doesn't mean it's right or wrong. That's why we are here to experience and learn those lessons.
Why make it harder on yourself and fight against it with resistance?
You're only fooling yourself, making the levels of your growth more challenging.
How do you want to enjoy your life, while you are experiencing your lessons?
That's where I hate when she is right about that realization.....
You have to focus on what is more important for your own growth and happiness.
What brings you pain, (hopefully you can still work towards having emotions along with physical pain.) What brings you pain is how you endure and react.
Do you want to repeat that cycle/situation again?
Doesn't have to be extravagant. You just need to realize and bring your attention back to something that is less enticing, but important to experience, so you grow into your "better self".
To be better, you must work towards that goal.
You can't skip past your karma, and if you try to do something to pass that energy to someone else to deal with, you will pay for it down the road.
Just depends on how you really want to work towards learning from your karma and releasing it and evolving past it. Not repeating it and staying stuck spiritually.
You should be making small steps to accomplish those traits you wish to have in you..... "IF" you were in your "higher self" and not stuck in your "Ego".
We are having a human experience and we have not so good traits and habits as part of our daily ways of going about our lives. We have basic needs as eating and sleeping, we must do to stay alive. If we were divine at all times, we wouldn't need to be here to have it easy. We must work for what we want.
Focus on the goal and the emotion you place towards it. That's your intention.If you believe you can, then you will. If you believe you will fail, then you will. It really is up to us to face our own fears and stop the self sabotaging, the same narratives and thoughts stopping us from being happy and living in our "true self" purpose.
I've been in situations, I couldn't just leave my problems, I lived with them. Abuse happened to me daily. I understand when you are angry when you hear someone tell you to "let it go", "find God", "read the Bible", "go to church" ,"get a therapist", "take some meds" ,"stop being the victim", "you're over exaggerating".
I get it....I know when it's impossible to leave because it's the person that basically raised you and allows you to have all your basic needs met. You can't just move out or find a new family.... I had no where to go and no one believed me when I needed a place to go. It wasn't a good life, even though we had a nice home, what happened on the inside wasn't worth living inside it.
So, I get it..... And..... That's why I'm also here...... It helps me more than anything, but I know there's many of you out there that have "been there" like I have. I know there are worse stories, I'm only empathizing, not comparing.
With this lesson, she's speaking to me about right now, we need to be a part of the low vibrational pulls and fight the resistance and break those patterns of frequency. We are all channels as humans, we are wired with energy. It is all around you vibrating in it's own frequency so you can feel and see it existing.
The more we focus on the present, we can shift realities and gravitational pulls from negative timelines. I rather myself have good outcomes, positive and enjoyable experiences.
Why wait for something to happen and then make the decision to change my patterns and habits?
Right now is the perfect time to practice one small goal to better your "self" and your choices, to better your "mind" and set your life on the right path to where you truly meant to be. Where your purpose lies has and always will come from within you. Don't let your "self" allow your "ego" to stop you from achieving your goals and live the life you want to feel good about living.It's all a mindset, it starts as a thought and now you must add your energy into bringing that thought to form in your life
Thank you for reading.
(That was all from my spirit mama. I'm just the messenger.)
<3
Tina,

Looked at some old pics for the first time in a while. Not childhood stuff but stuff from just over a year ago. Reminded me of how far I've come. I wanted to offer this as maybe a beacon of hope of you'd like to take it.
December of 2022, my six year long relationship was falling apart. I was hating my work as a nanny and feeling completely ashamed of my life. I was depressed. Literally on the verge of a mental breakdown. This was during the world cup era; sounds weird,but those games were the only thing keeping me going at that time.
Early 2023, the relationship ended. I started working as an administrative assistant, since at that point I had to support myself. I'd only worked a 9-5 office job once, in 2019, and lasted just shy of a year before I completely burned out and had to leave. I was sure it was just a matter of time before life on my own fell apart as well.
I also met a man online who lived in another country, and my wounded ass decided I was gonna chase after him like an idiot. I went to his country to visit him and didn't tell anyone what I was doing. Literally no regard for my own life or safety.
Luckily he wasn't crazy, just kind of an ass. I broke up with him may of 2023 and my self worth went into the toilet. At that point, weed and the writing on bathroom stalls that said "stay alive" were the only things keeping me breathing. I contemplated ending it daily. Work felt like it was killing me. My hair was falling out. I was crying myself to sleep at night.
I also slept around a bit and ended up in scary situations with toxic horrible men. I watched my younger sister enjoy marriage to an incredible man while fully believing I'd never find anybody.
December of 2023, I decided to go up on my dose of Lexapro, which helped almost immediately. January of 2024 I decided I was going to pursue a second bachelor's degree, this one in accounting (my first was in psychology and did me no good). I'm now working towards that accounting degree (loving it).
March of 2024, I met someone. Holy shit falling in love again feels like death. The triggers are INSANE. But he's stuck with me throughout all of the anxiety and a few unpretty moments too. He asks me if I'm feeling safe and secure. And best of all, I have a deep feeling that I'll be totally okay even if this doesn't work out.
Work feels so much easier than it once did. Perceived slights don't send me to the bathroom in tears anymore. I can stand up for myself (and I even weathered a conflict with a coworker a few months ago!). I owned up to a huge mistake at work and lived to see another day. I'm not terrified or dreading life on the daily. I'm looking forward to the future and I have a good feeling that it's going to turn out alright. I feel like the best is yet to come. That dreaded work burnout came close but never materialized. I made it through some hard days and I can still walk in with my head high every morning.
I am still a flawed and wounded human with many fears and weaknesses. My "secret", I guess, is that I've been in ifs therapy since long before the breakup of '23 even happened. I've taken long breaks from it, but always come back to it, And my therapist is AMAZING. I'm super grateful to her, my doctors, and my medications as well as support from my sisters and the friend I made last year (thanks to bumble BFF!).
Do with it all what you will, but I know that sometimes it helps to hear some kind of positive trajectory. It's possible. There have been so many days where I thought it was better to stop existing, and yet... It is possible to keep on living. ❤️

Honestly I prob should not have ever become a parent. I’m a loner. I’m selfish. I’m kind of lazy. Struggled with depression since I was a kid. But I’ve thrown everything I have into being better for my son. I have the support and the stability to do this forever, but I don’t want to. Even thinking about spending every waking moment of the next 15 years as a caretaker just drives me into despair. I’m 32. I’ll be almost 50 by then.
I have a supportive spouse who is a very active parent and equally shares parenting responsibilities. I have a pretty flexible work from home job. We have a great aba clinic. My son gets all the services he needs. I have it easier than many with level 3 kids who are doing this solo, but I’m just burnt out.
I had such a happy life before. Even struggling with depression, I still had hope each day.
I’m tired of never being able to go to the grocery store or go get a coffee or just watch a tv show. I feel on edge 24/7. I’m either working, or with my son, or listening to him scream and cry with my husband while I get a break. He never stops whining and crying and tantruming, it’s every 30-60 seconds all day long. He doesn’t sleep much, so even when he’s in bed, I can’t relax because there’s a 50/50 chance he will be up at 2am and won’t go back to sleep. My husband takes over night wakings just as much, but I usually can’t fall back asleep once he wakes me up crying.
We’ve seen every doctor and specialist, he has no health issues except allergies which are being controlled now.
I wear headphones almost all day to drown out the whining and tantrums. I can’t just read a book or listen to the birds chirp or watch tv ever. He constantly grabs my hand for something, even 30-60 seconds as well. It just never ends. When I try to do activities or outings I end up just getting kicked and bruised trying to keep him from eloping or hurting himself or eating something he shouldn’t.
There’s no time for dates or vacation. Anytime someone tries to watch him they call us to come back after an hour. The waitlist for respite care is 8 years long. No daycare will take him after aba finishes and preschool is only 2 hours.
There’s no real end in sight. This can’t be my life forever. I’ll go crazy. I’m losing hair from stress. I’m on medication. I see a therapist. I talk to friends. I have a supportive community of special needs families. It’s not enough.
I love my son so much. I’d die for him. I always want to make sure he’s okay and happy, but i feel like I just can’t keep going like this.

I’m in Bachelor of Arts (economics) and I’m rlly just looking for gpa boosters and getting more credits. Right now I’m enrolled in three courses looking to drop one (clas 271, arte 102, online orga 201) I’m thinking of dropping clas 271 because it’s in person and I don’t want to have two in person classes and I think it would be easier if I had one online and one in person. But I’m just worried that if I take orga it won’t be accredited towards my degree (credits wise) because I know that for some out of faculty courses it’s weird like that. So will I still receive my credits if I take orga? Also if anyone has taken orga online please let me know how difficult! I’ve heard it’s not too bad tho.