What the absolute fuck are you supposed to do here man. Housing shock is UNAVOIDABLE and UNBLOCKABLE. it also ONE SHOTS. i’ve never been this angry at a fucking video game

Good evening,
So in my online language exchange explorations of today, I recently came upon a lady from a neighboring country of mine. The conversation was brief, and I decided to confront the passive aggresiveness this time around instead of flying away (blocking her only).
She wanted help translating a short text to English and I assisted her. We spoke about martial arts. I noticed she practiced Jiu-Jitsu and mentioned this to her, she said she no longer practiced. In an innocent way I asked "oh why? why did you quit it? you could have won a gold medal for your country at the Paris Olympics" I did not expect her immediate response "this is the first time that I hear someone say quitted", politely I told her that I had just mentioned quit it, not quitted, quickly she replied "my bad, I did not understand". Conversation went for a bit further until she passively attacked again "I'm not anyone to judge, because you see my English is not good (she laughs) I think you speak English like Sofia Vergara".
Now here starts my own mind game. In the past I could have thought she was saying an innocent remark, but I know, that there is something to this person that sounds intentionally mean, like trying to harm my self-esteem. My first action is to run out of the situation and just block her. Then I keep thinking, why did she say this? It hurts me, but at the same I know that it is not true, because I did my Bachelor's degree in this language, I have studied in two continents, my English results are C2, and many people including teachers have complimented my good language skills, but it still hurts. I quickly rush to unblock her and I record a message to her "well, you learn something new every day, this is the very first time in my life that I'm told I sound like Sofia Vergara, which is rather awkward considering I have published material in this language." Then I proceeded to report her to the platform, and finally block her.
I think my second action was healthier than just blocking her right?

Good evening,
So in my online language exchange explorations of today, I recently came upon a lady from a neighboring country of mine. The conversation was brief, and I decided to confront the passive aggresiveness this time around instead of flying away (blocking her only).
She wanted help translating a short text to English and I assisted her. We spoke about martial arts. I noticed she practiced Jiu-Jitsu and mentioned this to her, she said she no longer practiced. In an innocent way I asked "oh why? why did you quit it? you could have won a gold medal for your country at the Paris Olympics" I did not expect her immediate response "this is the first time that I hear someone say quitted", politely I told her that I had just mentioned quit it, not quitted, quickly she replied "my bad, I did not understand". Conversation went for a bit further until she passively attacked again "I'm not anyone to judge, because you see my English is not good (she laughs) I think you speak English like Sofia Vergara".
Now here starts my own mind game. In the past I could have thought she was saying an innocent remark, but I know, that there is something to this person that sounds intentionally mean, like trying to harm my self-esteem. My first action is to run out of the situation and just block her. Then I keep thinking, why did she say this? It hurts me, but at the same I know that it is not true, because I did my Bachelor's degree in this language, I have studied in two continents, my English results are C2, and many people including teachers have complimented my good language skills, but it still hurts. I quickly rush to unblock her and I record a message to her "well, you learn something new every day, this is the very first time in my life that I'm told I sound like Sofia Vergara, which is rather awkward considering I have published material in this language." Then I proceeded to report her to the platform, and finally block her.
I think my second action was healthier than just blocking her right?

Are there any highly reccomended, highly compatible Unarmed Combat Mods out there that don't deviate too far from the base game?
Something with some sort of Unarmed Block or even Mods with a Dodge right?
For context I'd like to run an Unarmed Khajiit Build with Vokrii (or Ordinator) and most of the Perks that compliment Unarmed require you to not be hit by an UNBLOCKED attack... so in my head this means I HAVE to dodge (or move out of the way which is a bit sluggish) to keep these Combat bonuses via Vokrii or Ordinator.
Does Wildcat via Enaision allow dodges? This may be enough!

Story: follow the same story as the movie, 75% of gameplay would be the titan playable characters: kong, suko, Godzilla, Tiamat ( one level) the other 25% would be the humans ( Bernie, jia) also some little changes would occur in the story for gameplay purposes.
Gameplay: The game would be open world and have minor side missions aswell, kongs attacks would be using his fists for punching (R1 light attack, R2 heavy)and you can use your teeth for biting as well ( circle) X would be use for jump and double jump, dodging and rolling for circle, square would be able to use your titan senses to sense unsuspecting enemies titans. In the opening of the game when kong would use his bite on wartdogs your health would go down just slightly each time. Kong Would also have finisher attacks ( ripping wartdogs in half, stomping on their head and snapping their neck) the first level would be a chase one where kong sets off his traps. If you want their can be certain armors for kong with perks such as bone chest armors or jungle type outfit.
Common enemies hollow earth: wartdogs, warbats, hellhawks, fosphera a winged titan, red stripes, militarized heavs, weaker drownvipers, etc
Common enemies earth: military, and weaker rebelling titans for Godzilla to take care of on the surface that are made up
Bosses kong: warbat queen, wartdog leader Drownviper, skar king, shimo and skar ( hollow earth, and Rio )
Bosses Godzilla: Scylla, tiamat, kong, skar and shimo ( hollow earth, Rio)
If you haven’t guessed at certain points in the story you can switch between kong and goji.
Companion characters kong: suko,Godzilla, HEAV containing jia and co
Companion characters Godzilla: kong, mothra
Fast travel for both goji and Kong would be using hollow earth vortices ( side missions mostly)
Kong side missions: before challenging skar Kong would send suko out to spread word of a challenger of Skar to get some apes on kongs Side. Some of these helping missions would be kong helping apes with their work or slowly taking out red stripes, kong could also saved distressed hollow earth creatures, unblock dams, etc.
Godzilla side missions: save cities from titan attacks, loot nuclear power plants, break up titan fights, destroy military bases.
Godzilla move set (R1 for light slashing attacks, R2 for heavy slashing attacks, X to jump, circle to bite and if you hold circle you can use a tail whip. As for atomic breath you have to press both joysticks down and aim with the right joystick. If you want to do nuclear pulse you’d have to press both joysticks down and then press both L2 and R2.
To build up your bar for atomic breath you will have to fight in combat and loot nuclear power plants.
Rage kong: build up your fighting bar and eating more titans will build up your rage, the rage would Involve Kong going feral similar to spartan rage, you can also do a weapons rage where Kong can use both his charged axe, and beast glove.
Godzilla rage: all fours feral slashing and biting by mashing r1 and square, Godzilla will also supercharge to deal more damage.
Kong weapon move set axe: r1,r2 for light and heavy attacks. R1 would be slashing back and fourth, r2 for more damage dealing vertical axe swings. You can destroy radioactive crystals to charge up your axe to deal more damage or just fight in combat.
Kong weapon move set beast glove: r1 for light attack punch and r2 for heavy attack punch that will punch the ground and spark electricity.
I have quite a bit more ideas on kongs weapon combat, Godzilla’s combat and skill tree’s, human stuff etc. so feel free to ask in comments.

Story: follow the same story as the movie, 75% of gameplay would be the titan playable characters: kong, suko, Godzilla, Tiamat ( one level) the other 25% would be the humans ( Bernie, jia) also some little changes would occur in the story for gameplay purposes.
Gameplay: The game would be open world and have minor side missions aswell, kongs attacks would be using his fists for punching (R1 light attack, R2 heavy)and you can use your teeth for biting as well ( circle) X would be use for jump and double jump, dodging and rolling for circle, square would be able to use your titan senses to sense unsuspecting enemies titans. In the opening of the game when kong would use his bite on wartdogs your health would go down just slightly each time. Kong Would also have finisher attacks ( ripping wartdogs in half, stomping on their head and snapping their neck) the first level would be a chase one where kong sets off his traps. If you want their can be certain armors for kong with perks such as bone chest armors or jungle type outfit.
Common enemies hollow earth: wartdogs, warbats, hellhawks, fosphera a winged titan, red stripes, militarized heavs, weaker drownvipers, etc
Common enemies earth: military, and weaker rebelling titans for Godzilla to take care of on the surface that are made up
Bosses kong: warbat queen, wartdog leader Drownviper, skar king, shimo and skar ( hollow earth, and Rio )
Bosses Godzilla: Scylla, tiamat, kong, skar and shimo ( hollow earth, Rio)
If you haven’t guessed at certain points in the story you can switch between kong and goji.
Companion characters kong: suko,Godzilla, HEAV containing jia and co
Companion characters Godzilla: kong, mothra
Fast travel for both goji and Kong would be using hollow earth vortices ( side missions mostly)
Kong side missions: before challenging skar Kong would send suko out to spread word of a challenger of Skar to get some apes on kongs Side. Some of these helping missions would be kong helping apes with their work or slowly taking out red stripes, kong could also saved distressed hollow earth creatures, unblock dams, etc.
Godzilla side missions: save cities from titan attacks, loot nuclear power plants, break up titan fights, destroy military bases.
Godzilla move set (R1 for light slashing attacks, R2 for heavy slashing attacks, X to jump, circle to bite and if you hold circle you can use a tail whip. As for atomic breath you have to press both joysticks down and aim with the right joystick. If you want to do nuclear pulse you’d have to press both joysticks down and then press both L2 and R2.
To build up your bar for atomic breath you will have to fight in combat and loot nuclear power plants.
Rage kong: build up your fighting bar and eating more titans will build up your rage, the rage would Involve Kong going feral similar to spartan rage, you can also do a weapons rage where Kong can use both his charged axe, and beast glove.
Godzilla rage: all fours feral slashing and biting by mashing r1 and square, Godzilla will also supercharge to deal more damage.
Kong weapon move set axe: r1,r2 for light and heavy attacks. R1 would be slashing back and fourth, r2 for more damage dealing vertical axe swings. You can destroy radioactive crystals to charge up your axe to deal more damage or just fight in combat.
Kong weapon move set beast glove: r1 for light attack punch and r2 for heavy attack punch that will punch the ground and spark electricity.
I have quite a bit more ideas on kongs weapon combat, Godzilla’s combat and skill tree’s, human stuff etc. so feel free to ask in comments.

Story: follow the same story as the movie, 75% of gameplay would be the titan playable characters: kong, suko, Godzilla, Tiamat ( one level) the other 25% would be the humans ( Bernie, jia) also some little changes would occur in the story for gameplay purposes.
Gameplay: The game would be open world and have minor side missions aswell, kongs attacks would be using his fists for punching (R1 light attack, R2 heavy)and you can use your teeth for biting as well ( circle) X would be use for jump and double jump, dodging and rolling for circle, square would be able to use your titan senses to sense unsuspecting enemies titans. In the opening of the game when kong would use his bite on wartdogs your health would go down just slightly each time. Kong Would also have finisher attacks ( ripping wartdogs in half, stomping on their head and snapping their neck) the first level would be a chase one where kong sets off his traps. If you want their can be certain armors for kong with perks such as bone chest armors or jungle type outfit.
Common enemies hollow earth: wartdogs, warbats, hellhawks, fosphera a winged titan, red stripes, militarized heavs, weaker drownvipers, etc
Common enemies earth: military, and weaker rebelling titans for Godzilla to take care of on the surface that are made up
Bosses kong: warbat queen, wartdog leader Drownviper, skar king, shimo and skar ( hollow earth, and Rio )
Bosses Godzilla: Scylla, tiamat, kong, skar and shimo ( hollow earth, Rio)
If you haven’t guessed at certain points in the story you can switch between kong and goji.
Companion characters kong: suko,Godzilla, HEAV containing jia and co
Companion characters Godzilla: kong, mothra
Fast travel for both goji and Kong would be using hollow earth vortices ( side missions mostly)
Kong side missions: before challenging skar Kong would send suko out to spread word of a challenger of Skar to get some apes on kongs Side. Some of these helping missions would be kong helping apes with their work or slowly taking out red stripes, kong could also saved distressed hollow earth creatures, unblock dams, etc.
Godzilla side missions: save cities from titan attacks, loot nuclear power plants, break up titan fights, destroy military bases.
Godzilla move set (R1 for light slashing attacks, R2 for heavy slashing attacks, X to jump, circle to bite and if you hold circle you can use a tail whip. As for atomic breath you have to press both joysticks down and aim with the right joystick. If you want to do nuclear pulse you’d have to press both joysticks down and then press both L2 and R2.
To build up your bar for atomic breath you will have to fight in combat and loot nuclear power plants.
Rage kong: build up your fighting bar and eating more titans will build up your rage, the rage would Involve Kong going feral similar to spartan rage, you can also do a weapons rage where Kong can use both his charged axe, and beast glove.
Godzilla rage: all fours feral slashing and biting by mashing r1 and square, Godzilla will also supercharge to deal more damage.
Kong weapon move set axe: r1,r2 for light and heavy attacks. R1 would be slashing back and fourth, r2 for more damage dealing vertical axe swings. You can destroy radioactive crystals to charge up your axe to deal more damage or just fight in combat.
Kong weapon move set beast glove: r1 for light attack punch and r2 for heavy attack punch that will punch the ground and spark electricity.
I have quite a bit more ideas on kongs weapon combat, Godzilla’s combat and skill tree’s, human stuff etc. so feel free to ask in comments.

From the beginning...
Cast

Part 2, Chapter 10

The next morning dawns cold and clear. It is plain that autumn is upon the land, and with the Great Glacier just leagues to the north, winter will come soon. The party goes about their morning business, eating (everyone), checking the state of the beard and deciding whether or not to shave it off (Arthur, generally, but also Atticus as Novos doesn’t grow a beard and Zander doesn’t shave his), climbing into armor (pretty much everyone except Dillium, Felicity, and Pocky), feeding and loading horses and asses (pretty much everyone, but particularly Zander, Arthur, Atticus, and Pocky), and finally packing up the pavillionsol (Dillium). Ready for the day’s journey, the group mounts up. On cue, the guide appears, apparently having prepared well ahead. If he’s irritated that the party slept all the way until dawn, he has the good grace to keep that to himself.
Felicity speaks up. “We’ve changed our minds, actually. I don’t think there’s any particular benefit in going to Dragon’s Perch—”
“I agree.”
“—so we’re going to go to Samek instead.”
“Samek? Hmmm. Do they know you are coming? If they don’t, it will take them a while.”
“No, they don’t know we’re coming, that I am aware of.”
The guide nods once and sets out. Much of the day is uneventful, and it does warm up to a comfortable level. By late afternoon, those with tender backsides are wondering when the ride will conclude when the guide raises his hand in a universal gesture of ‘stop and shut up a minute.’ The party still hasn’t learned that gesture, but fortunately there are no giants about [1]. “We’re here,” is all he says.
“Where?” “I don’t see anything.” “What are we supposed to see?” Like tourists on vacation, they peer around in all directions. They can’t see the entrance for the hill. Or rather, the entrance to the gnomish town of Samek is so well hidden in the side of the hill that for a while, only Dillium can see the faint outline of the round doorway. One by one, Flea, Arthur, and Zander finally pick it out. Novos is absolutely certain they are playing a prank on him. Arthur is first. Knocking on the hill seems odd, but practically before he gets a third knock, a small hole opens up around waist height. Two beady little eyes peer out (at Arthur’s belt).
“What!?”
“We are here—”
“So I see.” The window closes.
Zander walks up and knocks. The same window opens, and the same beady little eyes peer out.
“What!?”
“Do you know who I am?” Zander asks.
The beady little eyes look him up and down. “No,” and the window closes.
Dillium tries next. Knock, window, eyes. “Good day. We are here to see—”
“So see.” Window shuts.
Novos walks up. “I know how to do this.” Knock, window, eyes, increasingly aggravated tone. “Let us in.”
“No.”
Felicity has had enough of this. Walking up to the door, she stands for a moment gathering her thoughts. Knock, window, eyes, aggravated tone. “Good day. I’m here on behalf of the Duke of Soravia to see the wise men of your town, or those in charge.”
“Which ones?”
“What?”
“Which ones, the wise men, or those that are in charge?”
“How about if we start with the ones in charge, and perhaps they will decide to allow us to speak with the wise ones.”
The beady little eyes peer out, look around at the party, and appear to give that some thought. “Wait here.” The window closes.
Minutes pass. Tens of minutes pass. Novos gets bored and walks up to the door. He barely gets a third knock in before the window opens. A different set of beady little eyes peers out, and a different aggravated voice says, “What do you want now?”
“We’ve been waiting for a while, and—”
“—And you’ll continue to wait!.” The window slams shut unnecessarily roughly.
“Why you—” Rough arms grab Novos from behind and pull him away before he can do something regretful.
“We’ll wait, as they’ve asked,” Felicity says. She looks around to ask the guide how long they can expect to wait, but he’s disappeared.
The evening passes. As the cold sets in, Atticus and Pocky gather enough light branches for a fire. There’s no benches or logs to sit on, so they squat or sit on the ground. Arthur has taken to pulling off portions of his armor and working on polishing and repairing the scorch marks from the lava snakes [2]. Atticus and Mar debate the relative benefits of following the letter of the law versus being merciful, though in the end, both of them seem to be arguing the same things in violent agreement. Pocky falls asleep against Modred’s side as Beaker plays with a bone left over from… Wait, where did he get that bone anyway?
Finally, the reality that the night is upon them sets in. A proper camp is set, and watches begin. Zander takes the first watch, but sees nothing of interest. He does hear the chirping of grasshoppers, the droning of the cicadas, and the baying of the hounds. Suddenly, the hounds stop. Unnerved, Zander wakes Arthur, who has the next watch. Arthur, Atticus, and Zander take a turn around the camp, but cannot see nor hear anything that sounds like dogs. Arthur agrees to start his watch a few minutes early and Zander takes Pocky inside the pavillionsol to sleep. Arthur’s, and then Dillium’s watches pass uneventfully. Novos, as normal, takes the last watch. As usual, he is so wrapped up with his puzzle box that he notices absolutely nothing.
The cold morning brings breakfast, bickering, and an irritated Novos marching up to the door to bang on it. “We’ve been here all night,” he informs the guard.
“Yes. Yes you have.” The window closes.
Knock. Window. Eyes. “When will we see—”
“When it is time.” The window closes.
Before he can knock again, Dillium grabs his wrist, pushing him back, she squares herself to the door. “When it is time, please inform us.” She says to the closed window.
The window opens and two beady little eyes peer out. A slightly irritated voice replies, “What else would we do?” The window closes.
Several hours pass as the valley warms up. Arthur, Pocky, Atticus, and Mar all work on armor, doing the necessary daily ritual of dusting, oiling, checking rivets to make sure they are still tight and sound. Polish is applied, worked into the metal, and removed. Bickering, some good natured and others not, flows. At midmorning, the guide turns up suddenly, and squats down near the fire. Minutes later, the window opens and familiar eyes peer out. Felicity quickly crosses over to the door.
“Is the council ready for us?” She asks.
“Council? You wanted to speak with those who lead.”
“Yes. I assume that would be your leadership council.” Felicity replies.
“So it is. So it is. There certainly are a lot of you. You can’t all come.” The window closes.
Felicity thinks quickly and makes a motion to Dillium. Knocking gently, she waits for the window to open. “How many of us may come?” She asks sweetly.
“Uhm… “ The window closes. A minute later it re-opens. “Three.” The gnome says.
“Fine. I agree.”
“You agree? I mean, Yes, of course you agree. Come, come!” Suddenly in a hurry, the gnome opens the door, which slides open silently.
As Felicity and Dillium take a step toward the door, the guide steps up behind them. “Where are you going?” Flea asks imperiously.
“The little ones know me.”
“Which ones?”
The guide thinks. “Mayhaps all of them?” With a slight shrug, Felicity accepts that, and they all pass into a dark room, barely tall enough to stand up in.
Dillium is the tallest of the small group, and she has to stoop over to get through the passageway. The guide bends his head down a bit, but Felicity strides forward as if she owns the place, the top of her hair only occasionally brushing the ceiling of the passage. There are guards in dark metal armor in front and behind, but the guard who let them in the door is wearing a much more colorful shirt. As their eyes grow accustomed to the darkness, they note that there are luminescent lichens on the walls, providing a dim light that casts no shadows and fails to illuminate the armored gnomes.
The corridor stretches on for ages. There are branching tunnels to either side, and once, down. Tiny faces can be seen in the dim light as word spreads of the Big’uns. Dillium’s back is screaming by the time they finally reach a room and stop. A door on one side of the room is guarded by two more of the dark-skinned, dark-armored gnomes and a small fire is burning in the middle of the room. The benches around the room are designed for shorter legs and smaller butts, so the guide simply squats down. Dillium sits and starts to work the kinks out of her back. The guards don’t speak, but every once in a while, a face peers in through the open doorway they came in. Some faces are much smaller than others, and a motherly hand frequently grabs the tot and hustles them along.
The trio waits.
***
Pocky and Zander practice sword work as Atticus watches and occasionally tosses out suggestions. Mar naps. Arthur works on removing scorch marks from his armor while Novos plays with his puzzle box and loafs. Something draws Arthur’s attention. As he looks up, he sees eyes staring at him intently peering out from a bush. Without breaking eye contact, he feels around until he grabs Novos’ head and points it at the bush. Novos stares, uncertain what he’s meant to be looking at. “Zander!” Arthur hisses. He points at the bush with too many eyes. Well, two is too many for a bush. Zander looks. He looks some more. Arthur looks away for a moment, and when he looks back, the eyes are gone. Everyone runs over and crowds around the bush. Novos sees what looks like prints—paw prints not unlike Modred’s pawprints, though Modred is being lazy over next to the pavillionsol. Novos looks around, but sees no other paw prints. The men walk around the bush looking for other tracks, but only manage to obscure everything.
***
An hour passes. The guide lounges as if he has nothing on his mind. Dillium meditates, while Felicity tries to work out what the team’s next move should be. Somewhat abruptly, a young gnome opens the door and comes through. “Ready are you?” The darkened room has only a few dim lights. An ancient gnome sits on a three-legged stool in the middle of the room, a small rod in his hand. Eight or nine other gnomes cluster around the small room, some sitting on tiny gnome-sized benches, others standing. Any whispering that might have been going on ceases when the Big’uns come into the chamber.
The eldest speaks. “Warren. Several turnings it has been since last among us you came. Tell. What is the state of the above-realm?”
“They grow bolder. I have seen them throughout the valley, and without fear. If you are to act, you might contemplate doing so soon.” The gnomes chatter amongst themselves in a foreign tongue. The elder lets it go for a few minutes, then he raps on the floor with his rod. Silence returns.
“As I have feared it is. Soon must we act. Well to see you it is. Not so long to visit should you wait.” Turning his attention to Felicity, he inquires, “Please to tell name and purpose for disturbing.”
Felicity tells who she is, and allows Dillium to introduce herself. Flea announces that war is soon to be upon the land. The Duke of Soravia needs friends and allies for the coming conflict, and wishes to include the gnomes. The gnomes chatter nervously, and some of the chatter sounds of anger or fear. Again, the elder waits several minutes and then raps his rod upon the ground.
“Aware of the duke we are, but no call to extend friendship hand we have heard. What does the duke wish of us?” The chatter now is less nervous and more fearful.
“The danger to us all is great, but the duke understands that each should contribute within their talents and means. I suggest that your greatest assistance may lie in logistics, and supply. Perhaps providing some of the greatly admired gnomish craftsmanship would help to raise funds. Any assistance that you willingly provide for the benefit of one and all is exactly enough.” The chatter and babble of the gnomes in the room sounds almost relieved, but still a touch fearful. The elder allows it to go on for several minutes before he raps on the floor once. Saying something in gnomish, he raises his hand. One by one, the gnomes lift their hands out parallel to the floor. It takes a moment or two, but finally all of them agree.
“Determine what we can contribute, we must. If any. As talk we must, a favor for us could you do.” He speaks a few words of gnomish before continuing.
***
“So what is inside that puzzle box you keep playing with?” Arthur asks. He seems more tired of the delay than curious, and is simply passing the time. Mar casts an irritated glance at Novos.
“Dunno. Perhaps a great treasure. Maybe all the misfortune in the world. Probably nothing. Dillium gave it to me months ago.” He continues manhandling it, pushing, prodding, tapping, and so on.
Zander comes over and plops down next to Novos. “Can I have a go?”
“Sure.” Novos hands the box over to Zander, who takes it gingerly in his large rough hands. After a minute or two of working with it to no avail, he hands it over to a beckoning Arthur who seems to have seen something the others missed. He didn’t. Atticus and Mar both have a go before Pocky takes a turn. In three deft moves, the box is opened, revealing an empty space in the middle, roughly large enough for three large silver coins stacked on top of each other. He shrugs as he hands it back to Novos.
With a sigh, Novos starts trying to close the box.
*** “Many generations ago, when but a babe my own great-grandsire’s great-grandsire was, did Callarduran Smoothands of a king tell us. When nigh was the time would he arise. Half of a golden crown he gave us, and a tomb of a great warrior king showed he us. When greatest was our need, take our half of the golden crown to the tomb we are to do, and with the other half reunite it. Drawing close the time is. Our enemies the tomb have discovered we fear. The other half of the crown have they stolen. Taken our birthright, they have. The other half of the crown return to us?” [3]
Dillium recognizes Callarduran Smoothands from a lecture that seemed to last forever, but probably was just before lunchtime. Callarduran is the god of the Svirfneblin, and is held in high regard—perhaps more so than the head of the gnomish pantheon, Garl Glittergold [4].
“Who are these enemies?” Felicity asks.
“Evil ones they are. From us they rob. Our people they kill. Monsters they are.”
An older gnome arrives from the darkness. He is wearing dark armor, and carrying a soft bag made of what appears to be moss. The eldest reaches into the bag and withdraws an arc of gold. It certainly appears to be what you’d expect half a tiara or head band to look like, but it is nearly entirely devoid of ornamentation or decoration. The full crown must be rather plain indeed. Dismissing the trio with a “Think on your words we will,” Felicity, Dillium, Warren (the guide), and Ser Reginald the gnome are escorted from the hall and out of Samek.
Ser Reginald greets them as friends, and chatters through much of the trek up to the surface. He says he is one of a very few remaining ‘royal escorts,’ first named soon after Callarduran Smoothands gave them their half of the crown. They have, over many many many many many many generations (he was unable to count them all), been responsible for guarding the crown and preparing for the arrival of the king. He’s fought the evil ones, and admitted to hunting and killing them in their beds, but would not give a physical description of them. He also admitted that he knew precisely where the tomb was, but had never been inside, “as the time was not yet to hand.”
Finally, they reach the doorway to the outside. With a warning to shield their eyes lest they be struck blind by the sun, Ser Reginald leads the group out to find the rest of the party scrambling to their feet. To the consternation of Ser Reginald, they take the time to break camp, saddle their beasts, and mount up. Ser Reginald wants nothing to do with the horses, so the party creeps along at gnomish walking pace. It is quite possibly the slowest escort quest ever.
Several hours later, the group approaches yet another clearing when they everyone hear a loud rumbling WHOMP! Everyone recognizes it as the sound of rocks falling inside a cave or building. Ahead, a cloud of dust pours out of a cut stone entrance into a hill. “We need to get a move on. The evil ones are already inside!” cries Ser Reginald.
Leaving the horses and asses outside, the party enters the main hall. Arthur asks Atticus to remain with Pocky and the animals, but Mar accompanies the group inside. The moderately sized room has two doorways, though both appear to have been blocked by the recent rock movement. A few minutes of contemplation leads Arthur to believe that one side would take considerable effort to unblock, while the other could be done rather quickly. As he gets to work, the others take in their surroundings. Just inside the door is a carving in an archaic form of common that says “Allies Over Enemies”. Zander notes that there is some indication that there is a test, and one of the mostly broken archways has the word ‘Wit’ carved above it. Felicity notes that according to the archaic writing, there are two tests inside. Dillium is drawn to the faded frescos, though they tend to depict war and destruction.
Soon enough Arthur has the passageway cleared well enough, and the party groups up to go into a large room. The door slides shut smoothly behind them, though there is a door on the far side. Arthur inspects it, “just in case” it is unlocked. It isn’t. The room is more or less devoid of decoration or ornamentation, but there are four columns, one each corner of the room. Novos looks at the column, but fails to note that each side has a letter on it. He does see that he can turn the column one quarter turn, so he does. Once it turns, it refuses to turn again. Members of the party spread out to try to understand the test. Someone notices that there is a small mark on the wall beside each column, but it takes everyone writing down the letters on each column before someone decides to make an effort to coordinate. Arthur suggests that since each column contains an “L”, they should turn the L’s toward the center. Novos points out that he can’t turn the column any further, but Zander turns another column easily. Mar turns another one. As Novos leans up against his column, it turns. The party realizes that the columns can be turned to spell words, and Mar identified the word that was spelled out when they entered. This gets the group going, and with some tactics employed, spell out a word that they hope will open the door. As the last column clicks into place, the door opens smoothly.
The doorway leads to a huge cavern with a five-foot wide natural stone bridge crossing what appears to be a deep, wide chasm. The cavern is pitch black, and while there might be some air movement, the ceiling is too far above and the floor of the chasm too far below to see. The party sets up a marching order with Arthur in the lead and Novos in the rear. Dillium Lights up her staff so that the humans can see and they set out. Ten or fifteen paces across, the party is surprised to come under attack by arrows and javelins. Everyone dodges out of the way of the poorly thrown darts, but one strikes home. No one can see where the javelins came from, or whether it is some sort of trap or if they were thrown. Unfortunately, no one notices that one of the party members has fallen off the stone bridge, either. At the other end of the bridge is a door that opens easily, and everyone makes it into a small foyer. Except for Felicity, who lies at the bottom of the chasm, nearly impaled by a stalagmite. [5] Novos disappears and makes his way to the bottom of the chasm where he finds Felicity and feeds her his last healing potion. Zander pulls out his Wonderous Figurine and activates it. A good-sized wyvern appears on the bridge. He tells it to go down into the chasm and bring back the human. He might have said ‘woman’ but the stone wyvern doesn’t know the difference anyway. It takes off and glides down into the chasm below, and when it finds a human, the wyvern grabs it with his sharp claws and brings it back up to Zander. Novos picks himself up, dusts himself off, and winces at the fresh puncture wounds. Zander, a little annoyed, tells the wyvern to go get the other one, and he does, fresh puncture wounds and all.
Meanwhile, Arthur, Dillium, Mar, and Ser Reginald continue on into a large room. The room is dominated by a huge stone in the middle, with some sort of gemstone embedded in. They also see a dog-like creature standing on the stone, with a piece of golden metal in one hand and a bow in the other. Ser Reginald shouts, “The evil one has the other half of the crown! Get it!” Arthur races forward and Smites the creature.
Mar snarls, “Gnolls. I should have known their stench. She manifests a Spiritual Weapon and attacks with it, then casts a Guiding Bolt. The gnoll, clearly outmatched, fires his bow (missing) and climbs down off the stone. By this time, Novos, Zander, and Felicity have come in (minus the wyvern). Novos speeds over to take a flanking position on the gnoll, but the recent puncture wounds from the wyvern still ache, and he misses entirely.
Around the same time, a larger group of gnolls, armored and armed with swords and axes, enter from the other side and take up positions. One of the larger ones raises his axe to cut down Novos, but one of the gnolls barks out something in a barking sort of bark. All of the gnolls stop and refrain from attacking. Except the one with the huge gash down his front from Arthur. He comes up with a sword and stabs at the air near Arthur. Dillium, likewise shouts for Arthur and Novos (and Mar) to stop.
“Who leads?” asks the female gnoll, as she wraps her shawl around her.
Zander raises his hand. “That would be me. I am the leader of Task Force Chimera.” He sheathes his sword and meets the female gnome in the middle of the room. “I am Zander Roaringhorn, from Cormyr. Perhaps you’ve heard of me?”
“Raa’ka. Ssand’r. Sand’r.” Her mouth doesn’t quite make all the sounds as she tries to get his name right. She tells Zander that they are here to fulfil a prophecy that tells of an Alpha Gnoll that will arise in their hour of need. Unfortunately, the crown is… not what they expected. Arthur climbs up on the stone and agrees that the gemstone in the middle seems to connect two pieces of a crown—there’s three pieces total, rather than the two that both the gnolls and gnomes thought.
“Give me the crown!” Ser Reginald cries. Mar snarls.
“I will not. Perhaps we should put the crown together, and then figure out what to do. It is obvious neither of us have the whole tale.” Ser Reginald, thoughtful, agrees.
“You put your piece in first, then.” He says.
“No you put yours in.” Raa’ka replies.
Arthur says, “How about you put them in together. At the same time,” clarifies when the gnolls seem unsure. He jumps down from the stone and gives Ser Reginald a boost up. Raa’ka needs no help.
Gently placing the two pieces of the crown in small cutouts in the stone that appear to be made exactly for their pieces. Ser Reginald and Raa’ka watch for a moment. “Now what?” The crown welds itself together before their eyes. The gem in the center pulses, then shines brightly. Then the whole crown sinks down into the stone. “NO!”
The room rumbles and shakes. The giant stone is cracked into pieces as Raa’ka and Ser Reginald leap to safety. As the dust swirls around and the rumbling fades away, all hear a booming voice.
“AT LAST I AM FREE!”

End of part 10.


[1] Unlike last chapter.
[2] in Chapter 8
[3] Modified slightly from Race for the Crown, Adventures of the Potbellied Kobold, by Jeff Stevens Games.
[4] The Gnomish Pantheon
[5] Remember, stalagmite “might” reach the ceiling, and stalactites hang on tite to the ceiling. Or, you can do the boring National Parks Service way of remembering.

Hello mga kababayan, ngayon I kukuwento ko sainyo ang aking STE story at ang title na Ito ay ang maling akala Ito ay base sa totoong storya ko.
Ako ang gumawa ng kuwento na Ito at ngayon ay grade 7 pa lamang ako huwala ako masyadong kilala SA aking mga kaklase at wala akong kaibigan subalit noong sinubukan ko uli mag roblox nakilala ko ang pinaka kaibigan ko SA roblox at yon ay si jam(Di ko na ilalagay user for privacy reason) siya ay aking isang kaibigan SA online game na Roblox Kami ay nag lalaro halos araw araw ng pet simulator X at Kami ay laging sinusubukan lumakas sa laro na yon hanggang na kamit na namin ang aming pangarap na maging mayaman at malakas sa laro na iyon. Subalit ang lahat na iyon ay huminto nuong lumakas na Kami hindi na Kami masyadong nag lalaro dahil para samin ay tapos na ang aming pangarap at nag simulang mag labo, na kaming dalawa ay mag laro at dumating sa puntong hinde ako nag Roblox Ng matagal dahil aa online class iniwan ko muna ang online games para mag aral Ng mabuti at nuong natapos na ang 2nd quarter bumalik ako sa roblox at nakita ko siyang nag lalaro kaya sumali ako pag ka join ko agad siyang nag chat Kung bakit hinde ako nag laro ng matagal, sinabi ko sakanya ang lahat, naintindihan Naman niya at nag laro Kami Ng matagal. Ngayon punta Naman tayo SA ora's na ikinasaya at ikinasira Ng buhay ko, nuong half 3rd quarter na ang aming akademya sinubukan Kong mag seen sa aming online gc na hinde ako nag chachat, at first time ko mag chat nag hi ako tapos may mga bumati saakin don ko rin nakilala si Cedi ang aking naging unang kaibigan. Dahil ako ay may depression nuon at wala akong confidence na makipag usap kahit kanino sa aking kamagag aral. Nag bago ang aking buhay nuong sinubukan ko makipag socialize sa aking mga kaklase at duon sumaya ang aking buhay nakilala ko sina Cedi,Mark, Lawrence,Aaron. naging kaibigan ko sila, Sila ang dahilan ng pagkasaya ng aking buhay subalit ang iba ay nagdulot Ng pagkasira Ng aking buhay. Ngayon punta Naman na Tayo SA recognition day dahil wala Naman importanteng nangyari SA ibang quarter na iyon, nuong pag punta namin SA recognition day nakita ko ang aking mga kaklase at may nakita akong isang magandang babae siya ay Maputi,tahimik,maganda,at siya ay napaka tahimik akala ko nuon siya ay high standards. After ng recognition pag Ka uwi chinat ko agad si Jarsen, aking kaibigan noon. Dahil alam kong siya ang maaring makakakilala sakanya at nuong Una tinanong ko sakanya Kung sino Yong Maputing naka salamin na tahimik na babae at duon ko na nalaman na ang pangalan niya ay ******* nag Ka gusto ako sakanya nuong after Ng recognition day, at lipat naman tayo sa sept 23 7:08pm nag chat ako sakanya dahil nabuo ko na ang aking confidence at nag chat back siya, ayon nag chat kami araw araw Kami nag chachat at sinabi ko kay Sha na crush ko siya at hinde ko akalain na nuong sept 27 ni block ako ni ****, at ako ay halos laging nag papa send Kay Aaron ng mga message tulad Ng Kung ano ang dahilan Ng pag block, pag sorry ko maski wala akong kasalanan,at iba pa subalit, after ilang months ng pighati nalaman ko lang na pinagkalat pala ni Sasha na crush ko siya at nag sabi siya ng mga hinde totoong impormasyon about saakin at ang mga ibang tao ay nagbago ang pag tingin saakin dahil sa pangyayaring iyon. Inakala Ng ibang tao na, nasa gc Kung Saan kinalat ni Sha na ako ay racist,homophobic,etc. Ito ay nagbigay sakin nang masaklap na insecurities, depression, lost of confidence, etc. Ako ay nagalit ng sobra nuong araw na iyon at nag chat agad ako Kay Sha noong ona tinatanggi niya. Pero nag send ako Ng MGA proofs na kinalat niya at nuong una tinuring niyang as a joke yoong ginawa niya at wala siyang pake dahil hinde niya alam kung gaano kalaki maaapektohan ang aking buhay sa kaniyang ginawa ni block ko siya at ako ay laging nag ra-rant kila Aaron at Cedi about doon sa nangyari at tinutulungan naman nila ako. Ngayon naman ay malapit na matapos ang grade 8 subalit nuong December Kami ay nagusap uli ni **** at tumagal ito Ng mahigit tatlong buwan at muntik na kami naging magkaibigan sa personal dahil sinabi ko sakanya Kung pwede ako makipag usap sakanya sa personal sapagkat siya na lang ang aking kaklase na hinde ko pa nakakausap sa personal at siya naman ay sumang ayon na gawin ko ang itong plano ko subalit hinde ko magawa-gawa ito dahil pag sinusubukan ko na kausapin siya subalit bumabalik dila ko dahil hinde ko mabuo ang confidence na makipag usap sakanya, kaya sa chat na lamang ako nakikipag usap sakanya. Subalit nuong march 3 last ko na chat at hinde ako nag chat ng march 4 at march 5 sapagkat ito ay sabado linggo at mami ay lumabas. Nuong march 5 Ng Gabi nakita ko na unavailable na ang kayang account SA akin at ibig sabihin non ay ni block niya ako ule ako, ako ay nanahimik na lamang at hinde na ako umasa uli na ako ay I unblock or kausapin uli. Sinabi ko ito kay Aaron at siya ay nabigla ren dahil maayos naman ang aming pag kakaibigan at walang impormasyon Kung bakit ulit ako ni block. Ngayon naman ay malapit na matapos ang school year 2022-2023 at hanggang ngayon hinde ko na kinausap si ******* muli at ako ay hanggang ngayon walang confidence at balak na kausapin siya sapagkat nahihiya na ako sakanya dahil SA aking nakaraan malapit na ang recognition SA tingin niyo ba may part 2?? Sa tingin ko wala pero hinde natin malalaman ang ating kinabukasan kung hinde tayo pupunta dito. At Yan ang aking grade 8 life ako ay kasulukuyan na masaya dahil SA aking mga kaibigan at hanggang ngayon may poot parin ako kay ******* dahil sa nakaraan salamat sa iyo Kung umabot Ka dito ako ay lubos na masaya dahil na labas ko na ang aking mga nararamdaman salamat ule at paalam SA iyo kababayan. Magandang Gabi kababayan, ngayon ay ako ay nasa ika-9 na baitang na. Madaming nangyari bago matapos ang recognition Ng aming ika-8 na baitang. Bago matapos ang recognition, si Jamal II, ang dati Kong kaibigan ay biglang nag open up sakin, na siya raw ay nag kaka gusto sakin, kung di niyoko kilala, ako ay isang taong hinde alam Kung paano ang gagawin ko pag may mga sitwasyong ganito. Hinde ko na lang pinansin at nanahimik na lamang ako. Sinabi ko Kay Aaron ang nangyari at tinulungan niya akong maka lipas sa problemang Ito. Ngayong pasukan, hinde ko na pinapansin si Jamal II, sapagkat ako'y nakakaramdam ng Sama Ng loob dahil nararamdaman ko na ako ay pinipilit nuong panahong iyon na magustuhan si Jamal II. 3rd week pa lng Ng aming klase, at hanggang ngayong araw hinde ko na muli kinausap si ****, itutuloy ko iyong storya na Ito hanggat sa graduation Ng junior high school. Dito ninyo malalaman lahat Ng aking pinag dadaanan SA buhay, kung pighati ba, pag mamahal, pag kakaroon Ng sama ng loob, isyu, at iba pa. Aking babasahin lahat ng Ito pag dumating na ang tamang ora's at yon lamang sa araw na ito madaming kuwento pa ang aking ibabahagi sa inyong lahat, paalam. Akoy nag babalik ulit mga kababayan ngayon may bago akong kwento, so noong sept 23 sabado biglang nag pop up Yong acc ni Arianne sa fb tapos na curious ako Kung bat nag pop up and chineck ko tapos pag Ka check ko, WTFFFFFF di na ako naka block?????£??'? Nagulat ako Ng sobra pero hinde masaya kasi sa Wednesday eh 1 year na Yong block tapos Di pa pinaabot nagalit ako ng onti that time and parang na weirdan ako dahil bakit suddenly wala na Yong block? Pero Di ko na inalam and di ko na Lng pinansin and may na alala ako habang patulog ako na biglang gumising sakin Ng sobra. Kasi noon guys nong sa alt acc niya ako nag cha-chat may na mention siya na may nag send daw Ng proofs Ng something Kaya siya na creepyhan sakin, and yon ang curious na curious ako gusto kong alamin nang sobra Kung sino yong taong yon kung totoo man sinasabi niya at yon lamang mga kababayan paalam muli pero bago tayo mag tapos para sa isang parte ng kwento na ito may gusto akong sabihin sainyo huwag kayong umaasa pag wala na talagang pag asa di ko sinasabing gusto ko si **** pero mung mangyari man sainyo ito soon wag niyo akong gagayahin dahil masisira ang buhay niyo. Tulad Ng sinabi ni Duterte "huwag mong subukan, masisira ang buhay mo". Hello mga kababayan parehas parin na araw and may nagawa akong katarantaduhan, so mag lalaro dapat kami ni emman Ng valorant at sa maling acc ko na send, hulaan niyo Kung sino, sino pa ba kung di Kay ******* tapos ang nangyari nag react siya ng laugh sa message ☠️☠️☠️ at yon ang nangyari shocking hahahaa yon lng para sa araw na ito kababayan paalam muli saludo sainyo. Magandang Gabi mga kababayan andito muli ako para may sabihin sainyo so chineck ko Yong convo namin ni Arianne kanina dahil noon nag reply siya na Mali daw react niya tapos ginawa ko eh like sinend ko tapos sinend ko Kay franz tinanong ko siya, ano Kaya mangyayari?, tapos Sabi niya possible block ulit then yon nga naka block ulit ako hahhaha Kaka check ko kanina hahahaha, yon lamang para sa gabing Ito paalam mga kababayan. What is up mga kababyan wala pa akong kwento para sa ngayon dahil naubos na ang interesting na storya na nangyari sa buhay ko, ngunit may gusto akong sabihin. Balak kong gumawa ng panibagong mga storya na nilalaman ng mga andito ren na storya ngunit ang mga maikling storya na aking gagawin ay may mga detalye na dagdag na wala dito sa aking "Best selling Novel" HQAHAHAHAHAHA at pag natapos ko na ang itong "Best selling Novel" ay ako ay gagawa ng panigabo muling kuwento at andito ang buong kwento ng aking buhay kung paano nga ba nag simula ang aking buhay simula pagkabata hanggang grade 10 gagawin ko ang storya na iyon pag nag graduate na ako at bakasyon na. Balik tayo sa mga maikling kwento na may padagdag na detalye para sa mga kwento na andito. ang mga title na aking balak ilagay ay 8:37, M.U as magulong ugnayan, martilyo, pananalikod. at madami pang iba, pangako ko sainyo mga kababayan na hinde ako mag tatapos ng aking "Best selling Novel" sapagkat ito na rin ang daan ko upang ma ilabas ko ang aking nararamdaman sa mga bagay na hinde ko sinasabi sa iba na ako man ay, nasasaktan, kinikilig, kinagagalitan, kinaiinisan, at iba pa. ngunit since gr. 5 pa ako last nagalit sapagkat ako ay nagbago nuong nag quarantine. Ito na lamang muna para sa gabing ito paalam muli mga kababayan at ako ay mag hahanda na muna para sa ibang mga storya na aking isusulat Paalam :))))). Ako'y nag babalik mga idol parehas parin na gabi at ngayon gabi ay gusto ko lng masabi ang aking mga nararamdaman. Wala pong confession dito dahil wala naman po akong crus,h almost 1 year na po akong walang crush, pero ang timeline po ng crush mo eh biglaan na lang po ako nag kaka crush sa isang babae randomly at mostly after a few years every time ako nag kaka crus. Mga anim pa lng crush ko buong buhay ko at ni isa doon di ako nag confess dahil ako yong tipong may crush pero ayaw ma crush back dahil ayoko ng relationship, since bata pa ako at hinde ko pa alam ang sarili ko pag dating sa relasyon at mga nararamdaman ko sa mga nagugustuhan ko as a crush.... pero sa ngayon ang aking hinala eh mga senior high or collage na uli ako mag kaka crush dahil wala na akong feelings na mag ka crush ulit sa ibang tao, btw may ikuwento pa ako sainyo guys, si ******* pa lamang ang aking crush na talaga kong minahal, like as in, sa lahat ng naging crush ko siya pa lamang ang nakaramdan talaga ako ng pag mamahal papunta sakanya siya pa lamang ang aking crush na talaga akong nag ka feelings at hinde lamang dahil nagandahan ako, well sa tingin ko nangyari ito since matured na ako ngayon di tulad dati, at mas na iintindhan ko na ang relasyon since ako ay isang teenager na. grabe guys itong gabi na ito andami kong nasulat dahil pag dating talaga sa feelings ko eh hinde ko na napipigilan sarili ko mag salita kapag kinakausap ko sarili ko pag dating sa mga pag kakamali ko sa buhay..... marami akong pag kakamali, pero wala na tayong magagawa doon dahil lahat ng nangyari ay may dahilan at sa huli mo malalaman.

Dear E. T. E.,
I am sorry that I wrecked our friendship by impulsively showing my true, strong feelings towards you. When I put my hand on top of yours, and told you the funny little fumble you did those slightly over 2 years ago was “Kind of cute”, I immediately regretted it, even though it is what I truly feel. When I asked if I could walk you home, what did you then think? I hope you did not suddenly think I was some creep, who wanted to force myself on you and into your home. The only reason I asked was I would love to talk for another 10-ish minutes more. I am wondering if this is truly some sort of avoidant tendency? I do not truly know the reason that you blocked me. We spent so many hours playing board games, laughing, chatting, opening up about our lives. When we reminisced about the summer courses, I told you something you had done 2 years ago that you did not quite recall for the alcohol you had drunk that evening, and you seemed to smile so genuinely and widely, even, I swear, blushing. I thought it was a good sign, so I made the move. But I think I may have been too hasty. Now I regret it. I may never see or speak to you again. You are the person I care about the most in this world, and I never had the courage to tell you that. You knew I liked you, at least 2 years ago. I thought you liked me too, which is likewise why I did what I did. Of course, you may also simply been super excited about becoming much closer friends, getting to know each other and found yourself uncomfortable and unable to do so knowing the other person had such strong seemingly romantic feelings towards you while you did not have the same towards them. And did not want to hurt their feelings. But I wish you’d be direct instead, I’d be able to take it, distance myself for a time, ride myself of these feelings and only just be a friend. Or perhaps you are angry at me for trying again even though you had told me you were not interested in dating where you were in your life at the moment, but then again that was over 2 years ago and a lot can change in that time. Including feelings, yours, if you had any, having gone too…
Remember our coffee “date” after the movie? You put your foot on top of mine, and rubbed it there. I never knew whether you thought what you had it on was the table’s foot. It was dark after all. But the smiling, blushing face I seem to recall you giving me makes me think you did in on purpose? Was it flirting? Did you like me back then? You did this for 30 minutes… before we parted ways. For the last 15 or so minutes I had suddenly pressed my leg and knee into yours. You seemed to feel it and know, but you did not remove your leg or knee. Even if the foot thing was an accident, the leg thing was definitely flirting. That’s what your old “roomie” M. told me too, when I told her of our meeting. Another reason I asked if I could walk you home, that Thursday a few weeks ago, is that I never got the chance to do so back then. I think I was too chicken? I remember it was dark, there was a light drizzle over Copenhagen, the streets illuminated by pi k and blue neon signs. You had stood up when you announced it was getting late and it was time to head home, then mentioned you had your bike but asked me if I was going home by train and bus? Many people have since told me this was your way to trying to make me ask if I could walk you home that night. I wish I had done it…
So, now you know part of the reason why I had asked. But now, I need to tell you, the reason I even was impulsive enough to make a move was that I have been in love with you for around 8 years… the first time I saw you, on that tour of the college building, in 2017, I immediately crushed hard. Your dark brown hair with its slight reddish sheen, your long dark translucent floral print skirt, tall and confidently moving around. And your eyes, with their dark green hazel-ish pupils, with its glint every time you’d smile… I was smitten on the spot! Throughout that course I only crushed harder and harder… you were so intelligent, having practically a database of TV Tropes inside of your head! I also felt we’d often steal glances at each other, in the theatre, in the dining/meeting room, and elsewhere. The kind where you’d look away when you noticed the other looking at you…
After 5 or so years of our courses, we’d gotten to know each other enough, too, for you to declare me to be the nerdiest person you knew as you teased me, with mock anger, for not having seen a particularly nerdy movie… this moment, when I told you, was that made you smile that way I really love. Both the actual moment - and the long, warm good night hug that followed - and your smile at hearing of the moment, will be moments that will stick out in my brain forever. True core memories.
You grew a little distant in the months that followed our first 1-on-1 outing, but you also had people to see you hadn’t seen in a year for COVID… I regret being pushy in my texts in this period of time… I am so sorry! The flirty moment between us, though, had me very confused, especially for the text I got the next day as I wrote to you that I liked you and would like to ask you out on a “proper” date. M. told me your reaction was probably just you being a little taken aback, perhaps scared, at what this “proper date” thing would really mean. That’s why I started thinking you may simply have an avoidant attachment style? I thought perhaps eventually, you’d trust I’d never reject you, or judge you. After all, I have been in love with you for such a long time. Now for nearly a decade. Almost a decade… even if you don’t have romantic feelings for me, even if you once did but lost them, I know I won’t be comfortable having you in my life, supporting you, getting to know you better, at all, after nearly a decade. Please, I hope if you ever read this letter that you won’t be too overwhelmed and disappear even more. I really hope that you will unblock me. In any case, we really need to talk…
I hope your imminent trip to one of your favorite Asian nation is a lovely one!
With love, L.S.

i like playing warden a lot and he has his heavy unblockable but whenever i use him against other players, they most of the time block that attack and conquerors unblockables. am i stupid and missing something or just suck at the game?

Throw away cause they both use reddit.
To preface this I need to explain some of my work. While my main job is working at a country club I picked up a lucrative side gig sitting the members pets/houses. I have a fair bit of medical debt to pay off on top of the losses from missing work during covid, an extra 3k a month for relatively little work doing overnights and day visits was a God send for debt deletion. And it brought in more than enough for extra fun money. I wouldn't be gone all the time, sometimes I'd have month stretch with nothing but day visits and very rarely get month long overnights. I'm also the bread winner and bring in ⅘’s of the money, I take care of all the bills and just ask him to chip in by buying groceries and other nick nacks for the house and he can hold onto the rest for whatever he wants and pull what he needs from my account.
For 3 years nothing was an issue, we live only 10 minutes from the front gate so we would regularly see each other and would text/call every chance we got. We had date nights twice a week during stays. Everything started about 4 months ago. First I noticed some negative personality changes on his part, mostly becoming more anxious, withdrawn and passive aggressive but at the same time more clingy about contact on the phone and my whereabouts. He started asking me for detailed play by plays of my daily activities and acting suspicious while being standoff-ish. He was now constantly talking to friends on discord, even during our time together, and it got to where I'd be watching the date night movie alone while he chatted away. I usually don't mind how much time he spends chatting, I love that he has a robust friend group and know there's some things that you only want to talk about with ‘the boys’, but he was getting obsessive about it while also becoming more secretive about it.
I got suspicious, because I had an ex that cheated act similarly. All our devices didnt have passcodes, we didn't feel the need for them, and while i'm not proud of doing it and have never done so before I tried to get on his computer to see what was happening and found it now had a passcode. So I got sneaky and dragged his old tablet out instead to see what he was doing on discord, what I found broke my heart and enraged me. There's a discord group he was a part of run by this chick about our age, I was also a member of the group but don't use discord very often so the general atmosphere of the circle and the changes that followed weren't noticeable on my end. What I gathered after the fact was that she somehow was always in the middle of whatever drama was unfolding among them and several other women left the group due to her, at any time the group was 90% male so the female exodus was pretty stark. I found messagesbetween the two in general chats aluding to him being added in channels that I specifically had no access to on my account. And while this group was at its face was for gaming, the secret channels she would let people join were essentially photoshoots of her stripping, complaining about her life, and attacking the flavor of the week (which was now mostly me.
While going through these new secret channels from his account and DM’s between the two I found out that she was constantly disparaging me. Every other paragraph would be about how I'm a bad wife and she wouldn't do those things to him, that the side gig was a lie for me to go spend time with lovers, and usually followed up with a lewd pic of her. This went on for months behind my back. The worst part for me is that he never stuck up for me or told her to stop. He would just solemnly nod in agreement and thank her for always looking out for him and being a good friend. Which she would follow up with something along the lines of ‘friends…..right winky face’ or comment on how she would be better than me. I didn't see any overt cheating behavior from him, but I did find that they would regularly move the conversation off discord to an unknown account I had no access too or cam while I wasn't home.
I confronted him about it and asked if that's how he really felt about me. He said no and that the anxiety just eats at him while I'm away. I brought out screen shots of the things said between them and told him that this makes me very uncomfortable and that I don't think she has the best intentions. He stood up for her and said she's just misunderstood and only looking out for him, which I laughed at. He said he'd talk to her about it and get her to stop. Which he did try, but she just doubled down. After that I told him that after what's been going on for months he can either take a temporary break from talking to her or we can take a permanent break from the relationship because I'm not going to stand for being disrespected like that, especially when he has no problem spending the money I make while doing that job. He said yes, would go no contact for a couple months so everything could 'die down' and I thought that would be the end of it for now at least.
It wasn't. A week in his behavior started to get even worse so I dug the tablet out again to snoop. The no contact lasted all of 48 hours. She messaged him 30 times in that span and the last one was a guilt trip saying how dare he disrespect her by not talking to her, he took the bait hook, line, and sinker. Now she was absolutely convinced of my infidelity because of how I reacted, that I'm just trying to tear them apart so he wouldn't hear the truth, that if she was in my shoes she would never dream of doing this to him, and how she wished she had a guy like him. I was livid. I didn't directly confront him this time, I dropped some leading questions to see if he'd be truthful first. He wasn't. So I just came out and said I knew they were still talking and she was just as bad as ever so at this point he had a decision to make, the same ultimatum as before but this time I want her completely blocked and no further contact ever. He blocked her then and there and said I'd never happen again, but I'll give you 3 guesses what happened.
Now to give him credit he did block her, then unblocked her but didn't talk through DM. Instead it was convos in the vent channel and 3rd parties relaying messages. Thats just on discord, Idk if he followed through on other platforms they may be on. It seems they don't really talk anymore and he's just doing this so he can remain friends with other people in the discord, but now I don't trust it. Some behavior got better but others came out. He's mourning the loss of her friendship and makes passive aggressive resentful comments to me about it. I tried to get a feel on the situation by telling him I wanted to confront her and call out what she did to see how he'd react, and he told me absolutely not and that she didn't deserve that, and whatever I had seen was blown out of proportion and completely innocent.
So, that's where we are now and I'm simply at a loss as to what to do. I know a lot of people would throw in the towel at this point but I don't want to throw away an otherwise good 5 year marriage because my husband lives his life with rose colored glasses and poor boundaries with friends. While it may not be physical cheating (besides the lewds), that I know of, it's still emotional cheating to me and makes me feel like shit to be the butt of whatever game she's playing. I don't want to drop another ultimatum about the weaselly way contact keeps happening but for my own peace I feel compelled too. We've never had to do this until now for the entire relationship and I don't know if he's just still being manipulated, purposefully obtuse, or genuinely wants her attention. I try to talk about it and he says to let sleeping dogs lie, but to me the dogs are still barking outside. Is there anything I can do to get a better understanding of the situation, find out if something more is going on? Has anyone dealt with something similar and if so how did you handle it?

You may remember or not about this post. I had spent around €2000 in MTG cards to build a giant Chrome Box which is a kind of Cubelet. It was 900-1000 cards at the time and pretty wacky, with functional quasi-clones and, well, too much of everything. Games always lasted more than 30 minutes due to different kinds of imbalance and could last more than an hour and a half in 1v1.
Now a year has passed and about 70-90 games were played. During the last couple weeks I've been spending some time sorting the whole stack and cutting off around 700 cards depending on their play rate and success. Now we're down to 350 cards, with that number not being a choice, only the result of removing and color-balancing.
Some interesting aspects of the cutting process :

• Functional lookalikes are not always good to remove. For instance I did keep Fact or Fiction and Gifts Ungiven (I did remove Truth or Tale though)
• Small French vanilla creatures do allow for some early aggro and can still make good land mid- or late-game, but they're really too boring compared to the rest of the pool. It's better to have a slightly slower pace for more exciting situations. I still kept a few of them but only if they have an ability that gives them real potential (unblockable/landwalk, deathtouch).
• 6-mana cards have to be overwhelming and 7+-mana cards have to be a win condition on their own.
• The most important thing that I believe also applies to classic BB especially with young players or newbies: my first cut pass consisted in looking very quickly at every card one by one and indiscriminately putting aside any card which rules text was 5 lines or more. Since the first creation of that Chrome Box, I've realized that I had been a firm believer in the idea that more complex situations arose from more complex cards, and that this belief was not accurately true. In fact, pleasantly complex situations do not require complex cards; you only need good cards for that. So, hear me out if you don't already know: being a combo lover does not make you a good pool builder. That process alone allowed me to take around 300 cards off the pool, and after going through all the rest, it was okay to put a few of them back in.
• Also from my stupid brain always looking for combo play: look at each card and consider it in a vacuum. If it's not a good card on its own, it doesn't make it into the list. Any card that's too situational doesn't make the cut. It took me some time to accept that. I love the game, been loving it for 30 years now, but I've never actually been good at it. So I guess I took a small step up there.
• Some cards are just too good and shouldn't be in the pool. I'm looking at you, Trepanation Blade. So many times I've been tutoring for something else and decided to take that one instead, and it was the best choice every time.

Now a game lasts 15-45 minutes, which is way better, isn't it?
I'll be posting a comment here to remind you of the rules for Chrome Box. I'd be delighted to know if someone has tested it.
Link to the list

Hello, quick question,
I would like to adds mods to my game such as weather mods which removes the fog, fps unblocked, etc.. Nothing too crazy or game breaking. Can I use this mod and have all the online features? Thanks

TW: SA, Suicide and miscarriage. Vent A guy I was talking to (21M) with for a while ended up just becoming close friends. We found out I (19F) was pregnant we spent a while back and forth on what to do and if we should keep it or not just lots of arguing with eachother but also being quite toxic to each other. After I had a big think and also saw the gender early I decided I was gonna keep the baby and also found out the gender. About a week later I found out I was miscarrying. We were both upset. He was there for me over text and call (he’s moved hours away back to his normal home) for a couple days until he kind of decided he couldn’t support me anymore as it was too much for him even though he promised no matter what he would be. But grief is grief I guess.
I was on and off suicidal which he had to deal with at times which somewhat took a toll on him. During all of this happening he had a lot of my female friends added like never met them before and all that and also added a lot of my online gaming friends too. I was more upset about the friends I have had known since I was much much younger that he was getting too close with. A group chat was made with me, him and 2 of my close female friends. As I was going through my rough time he checked in here and there and just talked normal here and there. But he was playing with the girls a lot even ignoring me to play with them.
One night I found out the girls were playing with a guy who SAd me and they knew he had done it. I got upset and blocked them as they were backing him up. I then went to my guy friend (baby daddy) to tell him I dunno if I can fully be friends with him if he supports them and what they’re doing. He sort of backed them up and in frustration I blocked him and unblocked him but never added him back. I got so upset about him adding my friends and somewhat treating me like sh*t during both my pregnancy and miscarriage (I know I wasn’t the best either) the only thing I could think of was to message his mum because I needed to apologise to her for the drama the miscarriage and pregnancy had caused but also to just ask him to stop adding all my friends (which I almost immediately deleted). I had asked him over and over again to stop but he kept saying things like “we are all friends here” or just ignoring me. Again he’s never met these people just talks to them online. He also seems quite close with one of the girls. Anyways I messaged him to let him know I had message his mum (which I had immediately regretted messaging her) and he basically told me not to talk to him or his family again I left a couple messages apologising and explaining things but I was ignored (this happened about 2 weeks ago).
According to a mutual friend which was my friend first apparently “baby daddy” (sorry couldn’t come up with a name) said a lot about me. Somethings he said was he tried to help me but he thought I didn’t think it was enough or he thought I thought he didn’t care. He also said I made him feel like sh*t, that I was mentally draining and exhausting to deal with. My mate also said he has told his friends and family about stuff about me? My mate also brought up that I was still mourning baby and baby daddy said he was too. He said to my friend apparently I had asked him (baby daddy) something along the lines of to stop getting along with my friends? No I just kept telling him to stop adding them on social media like on the game is fine but getting that close and personal with everyone in my life is quite too much for me. I also just said I couldn’t fully be friendly with him if he’s backing up bad behaviour but he didn’t care about what I said even tho I said it a million times. Another thing that was said by baby daddy was apparently he would always try to lighten up the mood but he said I would always say he’s never serious. I say that because he chooses the worse jokes and the worse time to joke around.
I showed my friend (who’s also a guy btw) almost all the chats between me and my baby daddy and he said baby daddy was in the wrong with things he was saying when we were talking. He also said that baby daddy said he still isn’t willing to talk to me about anything not even in future even tho we are both getting therapy. Instead of talking stuff out with me he’s gaming with all my friends without me pretending everything is ok and also quite flirty with them too. There was many off things said between them.
For those asking how he was toxic to me other than the friends thing 1 he made everything about him and the kid for example talking about taking the kid back to his family in another country without asking me how I felt about it 2 promising to be there for me no matter what then did the opposite 3 keeping it a secret from his family in the first place and called me toxic when I went to tell his family about it (he in the end was glad I told them until we had a fall out) 4 going out to casinos and buying alcohol while claiming he will eventually have enough money 5 when I wanted to talk out our options some of the times he would shut me down and not talk about it. Many reasons. But he was also sometimes there for me when nobody else was and I regret being a b*tch even when he was toxic because he still didn’t deserve it. The point of this post is to ask am I the asshole for being upset that he’s ignoring me and talking to my friends/ex friends? I get he’s upset but he shouldn’t be refusing to talk it out like adults and at minimal if he doesn’t wanna be friends with me A end of good terms and B stop talking to my friends while I’m not there.
I know most of you are gonna say to move on but it’s not that easy it’s really not. I could message him but it’s only been 2/3 weeks and I run the risk of him blocking me (no he hasn’t blocked me YET). I know he’s hurting but so am I. I want him to also see my good side not just my bad side. I also run the risk of him going back to my ex friends and for them to put nasty thoughts about me into his head. I know some of y’all will say he will probably never talk to u again. But what if that’s not the case? This is a big thing that happened in both our lives. I know he still cares because he told my mate he was glad I was getting therapy. He also has been watching my tik toks (that’s the only thing I have him on) but he can always message on any platform.
If I forgot anything I’ll edit this post so keep an eye out on any edits.

TW: SA, Suicide and miscarriage. Vent A guy I was talking to (21M) with for a while ended up just becoming close friends. We found out I (19F) was pregnant we spent a while back and forth on what to do and if we should keep it or not just lots of arguing with eachother but also being quite toxic to each other. After I had a big think and also saw the gender early I decided I was gonna keep the baby and also found out the gender. About a week later I found out I was miscarrying. We were both upset. He was there for me over text and call (he’s moved hours away back to his normal home) for a couple days until he kind of decided he couldn’t support me anymore as it was too much for him even though he promised no matter what he would be. But grief is grief I guess.
I was on and off suicidal which he had to deal with at times which somewhat took a toll on him. During all of this happening he had a lot of my female friends added like never met them before and all that and also added a lot of my online gaming friends too. I was more upset about the friends I have had known since I was much much younger that he was getting too close with. A group chat was made with me, him and 2 of my close female friends. As I was going through my rough time he checked in here and there and just talked normal here and there. But he was playing with the girls a lot even ignoring me to play with them.
One night I found out the girls were playing with a guy who SAd me and they knew he had done it. I got upset and blocked them as they were backing him up. I then went to my guy friend (baby daddy) to tell him I dunno if I can fully be friends with him if he supports them and what they’re doing. He sort of backed them up and in frustration I blocked him and unblocked him but never added him back. I got so upset about him adding my friends and somewhat treating me like sh*t during both my pregnancy and miscarriage (I know I wasn’t the best either) the only thing I could think of was to message his mum because I needed to apologise to her for the drama the miscarriage and pregnancy had caused but also to just ask him to stop adding all my friends (which I almost immediately deleted). I had asked him over and over again to stop but he kept saying things like “we are all friends here” or just ignoring me. Again he’s never met these people just talks to them online. He also seems quite close with one of the girls. Anyways I messaged him to let him know I had message his mum (which I had immediately regretted messaging her) and he basically told me not to talk to him or his family again I left a couple messages apologising and explaining things but I was ignored (this happened about 2 weeks ago).
According to a mutual friend which was my friend first apparently “baby daddy” (sorry couldn’t come up with a name) said a lot about me. Somethings he said was he tried to help me but he thought I didn’t think it was enough or he thought I thought he didn’t care. He also said I made him feel like sh*t, that I was mentally draining and exhausting to deal with. My mate also said he has told his friends and family about stuff about me? My mate also brought up that I was still mourning baby and baby daddy said he was too. He said to my friend apparently I had asked him (baby daddy) something along the lines of to stop getting along with my friends? No I just kept telling him to stop adding them on social media like on the game is fine but getting that close and personal with everyone in my life is quite too much for me. I also just said I couldn’t fully be friendly with him if he’s backing up bad behaviour but he didn’t care about what I said even tho I said it a million times. Another thing that was said by baby daddy was apparently he would always try to lighten up the mood but he said I would always say he’s never serious. I say that because he chooses the worse jokes and the worse time to joke around.
I showed my friend (who’s also a guy btw) almost all the chats between me and my baby daddy and he said baby daddy was in the wrong with things he was saying when we were talking. He also said that baby daddy said he still isn’t willing to talk to me about anything not even in future even tho we are both getting therapy. Instead of talking stuff out with me he’s gaming with all my friends without me pretending everything is ok and also quite flirty with them too. There was many off things said between them.
For those asking how he was toxic to me other than the friends thing 1 he made everything about him and the kid for example talking about taking the kid back to his family in another country without asking me how I felt about it 2 promising to be there for me no matter what then did the opposite 3 keeping it a secret from his family in the first place and called me toxic when I went to tell his family about it (he in the end was glad I told them until we had a fall out) 4 going out to casinos and buying alcohol while claiming he will eventually have enough money 5 when I wanted to talk out our options some of the times he would shut me down and not talk about it. Many reasons. But he was also sometimes there for me when nobody else was and I regret being a b*tch even when he was toxic because he still didn’t deserve it. The point of this post is to ask am I the asshole for being upset that he’s ignoring me and talking to my friends/ex friends? I get he’s upset but he shouldn’t be refusing to talk it out like adults and at minimal if he doesn’t wanna be friends with me A end of good terms and B stop talking to my friends while I’m not there.
I know most of you are gonna say to move on but it’s not that easy it’s really not. I could message him but it’s only been 2/3 weeks and I run the risk of him blocking me (no he hasn’t blocked me YET). I know he’s hurting but so am I. I want him to also see my good side not just my bad side. I also run the risk of him going back to my ex friends and for them to put nasty thoughts about me into his head. I know some of y’all will say he will probably never talk to u again. But what if that’s not the case? This is a big thing that happened in both our lives. I know he still cares because he told my mate he was glad I was getting therapy. He also has been watching my tik toks (that’s the only thing I have him on) but he can always message me on any platform.
If I forgot anything I’ll edit this post so keep an eye out on any edits.

TW: SA, Suicide and miscarriage. Vent A guy I was talking to (21M) with for a while ended up just becoming close friends. We found out I (19F) was pregnant we spent a while back and forth on what to do and if we should keep it or not just lots of arguing with eachother but also being quite toxic to each other. After I had a big think and also saw the gender early I decided I was gonna keep the baby and also found out the gender. About a week later I found out I was miscarrying. We were both upset. He was there for me over text and call (he’s moved hours away back to his normal home) for a couple days until he kind of decided he couldn’t support me anymore as it was too much for him even though he promised no matter what he would be. But grief is grief I guess.
I was on and off suicidal which he had to deal with at times which somewhat took a toll on him. During all of this happening he had a lot of my female friends added like never met them before and all that and also added a lot of my online gaming friends too. I was more upset about the friends I have had known since I was much much younger that he was getting too close with. A group chat was made with me, him and 2 of my close female friends. As I was going through my rough time he checked in here and there and just talked normal here and there. But he was playing with the girls a lot even ignoring me to play with them.
One night I found out the girls were playing with a guy who SAd me and they knew he had done it. I got upset and blocked them as they were backing him up. I then went to my guy friend (baby daddy) to tell him I dunno if I can fully be friends with him if he supports them and what they’re doing. He sort of backed them up and in frustration I blocked him and unblocked him but never added him back. I got so upset about him adding my friends and somewhat treating me like sh*t during both my pregnancy and miscarriage (I know I wasn’t the best either) the only thing I could think of was to message his mum because I needed to apologise to her for the drama the miscarriage and pregnancy had caused but also to just ask him to stop adding all my friends (which I almost immediately deleted). I had asked him over and over again to stop but he kept saying things like “we are all friends here” or just ignoring me. Again he’s never met these people just talks to them online. He also seems quite close with one of the girls. Anyways I messaged him to let him know I had message his mum (which I had immediately regretted messaging her) and he basically told me not to talk to him or his family again I left a couple messages apologising and explaining things but I was ignored (this happened about 2 weeks ago).
According to a mutual friend which was my friend first apparently “baby daddy” (sorry couldn’t come up with a name) said a lot about me. Somethings he said was he tried to help me but he thought I didn’t think it was enough or he thought I thought he didn’t care. He also said I made him feel like sh*t, that I was mentally draining and exhausting to deal with. My mate also said he has told his friends and family about stuff about me? My mate also brought up that I was still mourning baby and baby daddy said he was too. He said to my friend apparently I had asked him (baby daddy) something along the lines of to stop getting along with my friends? No I just kept telling him to stop adding them on social media like on the game is fine but getting that close and personal with everyone in my life is quite too much for me. I also just said I couldn’t fully be friendly with him if he’s backing up bad behaviour but he didn’t care about what I said even tho I said it a million times. Another thing that was said by baby daddy was apparently he would always try to lighten up the mood but he said I would always say he’s never serious. I say that because he chooses the worse jokes and the worse time to joke around.
I showed my friend (who’s also a guy btw) almost all the chats between me and my baby daddy and he said baby daddy was in the wrong with things he was saying when we were talking. He also said that baby daddy said he still isn’t willing to talk to me about anything not even in future even tho we are both getting therapy. Instead of talking stuff out with me he’s gaming with all my friends without me pretending everything is ok and also quite flirty with them too. There was many off things said between them.
For those asking how he was toxic to me other than the friends thing 1 he made everything about him and the kid for example talking about taking the kid back to his family in another country without asking me how I felt about it 2 promising to be there for me no matter what then did the opposite 3 keeping it a secret from his family in the first place and called me toxic when I went to tell his family about it (he in the end was glad I told them until we had a fall out) 4 going out to casinos and buying alcohol while claiming he will eventually have enough money 5 when I wanted to talk out our options some of the times he would shut me down and not talk about it. Many reasons. But he was also sometimes there for me when nobody else was and I regret being a b*tch even when he was toxic because he still didn’t deserve it. The point of this post is to ask am I the asshole for being upset that he’s ignoring me and talking to my friends/ex friends? I get he’s upset but he shouldn’t be refusing to talk it out like adults and at minimal if he doesn’t wanna be friends with me A end of good terms and B stop talking to my friends while I’m not there.
I know most of you are gonna say to move on but it’s not that easy it’s really not. I could message him but it’s only been 2/3 weeks and I run the risk of him blocking me (no he hasn’t blocked me YET). I know he’s hurting but so am I. I want him to also see my good side not just my bad side. I also run the risk of him going back to my ex friends and for them to put nasty thoughts about me into his head. I know some of y’all will say he will probably never talk to u again. But what if that’s not the case? This is a big thing that happened in both our lives. I know he still cares because he told my mate he was glad I was getting therapy. He also has been watching my tik toks (that’s the only thing I have him on) but he can always message me on any platform.
If I forgot anything I’ll edit this post so keep an eye out on any edits.

TW: SA, Suicide and miscarriage. Vent A guy I was talking to (21M) with for a while ended up just becoming close friends. We found out I (19F) was pregnant we spent a while back and forth on what to do and if we should keep it or not just lots of arguing with eachother but also being quite toxic to each other. After I had a big think and also saw the gender early I decided I was gonna keep the baby and also found out the gender. About a week later I found out I was miscarrying. We were both upset. He was there for me over text and call (he’s moved hours away back to his normal home) for a couple days until he kind of decided he couldn’t support me anymore as it was too much for him even though he promised no matter what he would be. But grief is grief I guess.
I was on and off suicidal which he had to deal with at times which somewhat took a toll on him. During all of this happening he had a lot of my female friends added like never met them before and all that and also added a lot of my online gaming friends too. I was more upset about the friends I have had known since I was much much younger that he was getting too close with. A group chat was made with me, him and 2 of my close female friends. As I was going through my rough time he checked in here and there and just talked normal here and there. But he was playing with the girls a lot even ignoring me to play with them.
One night I found out the girls were playing with a guy who SAd me and they knew he had done it. I got upset and blocked them as they were backing him up. I then went to my guy friend (baby daddy) to tell him I dunno if I can fully be friends with him if he supports them and what they’re doing. He sort of backed them up and in frustration I blocked him and unblocked him but never added him back. I got so upset about him adding my friends and somewhat treating me like sh*t during both my pregnancy and miscarriage (I know I wasn’t the best either) the only thing I could think of was to message his mum because I needed to apologise to her for the drama the miscarriage and pregnancy had caused but also to just ask him to stop adding all my friends (which I almost immediately deleted). I had asked him over and over again to stop but he kept saying things like “we are all friends here” or just ignoring me. Again he’s never met these people just talks to them online. He also seems quite close with one of the girls. Anyways I messaged him to let him know I had message his mum (which I had immediately regretted messaging her) and he basically told me not to talk to him or his family again I left a couple messages apologising and explaining things but I was ignored (this happened about 2 weeks ago).
According to a mutual friend which was my friend first apparently “baby daddy” (sorry couldn’t come up with a name) said a lot about me. Somethings he said was he tried to help me but he thought I didn’t think it was enough or he thought I thought he didn’t care. He also said I made him feel like sh*t, that I was mentally draining and exhausting to deal with. My mate also said he has told his friends and family about stuff about me? My mate also brought up that I was still mourning baby and baby daddy said he was too. He said to my friend apparently I had asked him (baby daddy) something along the lines of to stop getting along with my friends? No I just kept telling him to stop adding them on social media like on the game is fine but getting that close and personal with everyone in my life is quite too much for me. I also just said I couldn’t fully be friendly with him if he’s backing up bad behaviour but he didn’t care about what I said even tho I said it a million times. Another thing that was said by baby daddy was apparently he would always try to lighten up the mood but he said I would always say he’s never serious. I say that because he chooses the worse jokes and the worse time to joke around.
I showed my friend (who’s also a guy btw) almost all the chats between me and my baby daddy and he said baby daddy was in the wrong with things he was saying when we were talking. He also said that baby daddy said he still isn’t willing to talk to me about anything not even in future even tho we are both getting therapy. Instead of talking stuff out with me he’s gaming with all my friends without me pretending everything is ok and also quite flirty with them too. There was many off things said between them.
For those asking how he was toxic to me other than the friends thing 1 he made everything about him and the kid for example talking about taking the kid back to his family in another country without asking me how I felt about it 2 promising to be there for me no matter what then did the opposite 3 keeping it a secret from his family in the first place and called me toxic when I went to tell his family about it (he in the end was glad I told them until we had a fall out) 4 going out to casinos and buying alcohol while claiming he will eventually have enough money 5 when I wanted to talk out our options some of the times he would shut me down and not talk about it. Many reasons. But he was also sometimes there for me when nobody else was and I regret being a b*tch even when he was toxic because he still didn’t deserve it. The point of this post is to ask am I the asshole for being upset that he’s ignoring me and talking to my friends/ex friends? I get he’s upset but he shouldn’t be refusing to talk it out like adults and at minimal if he doesn’t wanna be friends with me A end of good terms and B stop talking to my friends while I’m not there.
I know most of you are gonna say to move on but it’s not that easy it’s really not. I could message him but it’s only been 2/3 weeks and I run the risk of him blocking me (no he hasn’t blocked me YET). I know he’s hurting but so am I. I want him to also see my good side not just my bad side. I also run the risk of him going back to my ex friends and for them to put nasty thoughts about me into his head. I know some of y’all will say he will probably never talk to u again. But what if that’s not the case? This is a big thing that happened in both our lives. I know he still cares because he told my mate he was glad I was getting therapy. He also has been watching my tik toks (that’s the only thing I have him on) but he can always message me on any platform.
If I forgot anything I’ll edit this post so keep an eye out on any edits.

TW: SA, Suicide and miscarriage. Vent A guy I was talking to (21M) with for a while ended up just becoming close friends. We found out I (19F) was pregnant we spent a while back and forth on what to do and if we should keep it or not just lots of arguing with eachother but also being quite toxic to each other. After I had a big think and also saw the gender early I decided I was gonna keep the baby and also found out the gender. About a week later I found out I was miscarrying. We were both upset. He was there for me over text and call (he’s moved hours away back to his normal home) for a couple days until he kind of decided he couldn’t support me anymore as it was too much for him even though he promised no matter what he would be. But grief is grief I guess.
I was on and off suicidal which he had to deal with at times which somewhat took a toll on him. During all of this happening he had a lot of my female friends added like never met them before and all that and also added a lot of my online gaming friends too. I was more upset about the friends I have had known since I was much much younger that he was getting too close with. A group chat was made with me, him and 2 of my close female friends. As I was going through my rough time he checked in here and there and just talked normal here and there. But he was playing with the girls a lot even ignoring me to play with them.
One night I found out the girls were playing with a guy who SAd me and they knew he had done it. I got upset and blocked them as they were backing him up. I then went to my guy friend (baby daddy) to tell him I dunno if I can fully be friends with him if he supports them and what they’re doing. He sort of backed them up and in frustration I blocked him and unblocked him but never added him back. I got so upset about him adding my friends and somewhat treating me like sh*t during both my pregnancy and miscarriage (I know I wasn’t the best either) the only thing I could think of was to message his mum because I needed to apologise to her for the drama the miscarriage and pregnancy had caused but also to just ask him to stop adding all my friends (which I almost immediately deleted). I had asked him over and over again to stop but he kept saying things like “we are all friends here” or just ignoring me. Again he’s never met these people just talks to them online. He also seems quite close with one of the girls. Anyways I messaged him to let him know I had message his mum (which I had immediately regretted messaging her) and he basically told me not to talk to him or his family again I left a couple messages apologising and explaining things but I was ignored (this happened about 2 weeks ago).
According to a mutual friend which was my friend first apparently “baby daddy” (sorry couldn’t come up with a name) said a lot about me. Somethings he said was he tried to help me but he thought I didn’t think it was enough or he thought I thought he didn’t care. He also said I made him feel like sh*t, that I was mentally draining and exhausting to deal with. My mate also said he has told his friends and family about stuff about me? My mate also brought up that I was still mourning baby and baby daddy said he was too. He said to my friend apparently I had asked him (baby daddy) something along the lines of to stop getting along with my friends? No I just kept telling him to stop adding them on social media like on the game is fine but getting that close and personal with everyone in my life is quite too much for me. I also just said I couldn’t fully be friendly with him if he’s backing up bad behaviour but he didn’t care about what I said even tho I said it a million times. Another thing that was said by baby daddy was apparently he would always try to lighten up the mood but he said I would always say he’s never serious. I say that because he chooses the worse jokes and the worse time to joke around.
I showed my friend (who’s also a guy btw) almost all the chats between me and my baby daddy and he said baby daddy was in the wrong with things he was saying when we were talking. He also said that baby daddy said he still isn’t willing to talk to me about anything not even in future even tho we are both getting therapy. Instead of talking stuff out with me he’s gaming with all my friends without me pretending everything is ok and also quite flirty with them too. There was many off things said between them.
For those asking how he was toxic to me other than the friends thing 1 he made everything about him and the kid for example talking about taking the kid back to his family in another country without asking me how I felt about it 2 promising to be there for me no matter what then did the opposite 3 keeping it a secret from his family in the first place and called me toxic when I went to tell his family about it (he in the end was glad I told them until we had a fall out) 4 going out to casinos and buying alcohol while claiming he will eventually have enough money 5 when I wanted to talk out our options some of the times he would shut me down and not talk about it. Many reasons. But he was also sometimes there for me when nobody else was and I regret being a b*tch even when he was toxic because he still didn’t deserve it. The point of this post is to ask am I the asshole for being upset that he’s ignoring me and talking to my friends/ex friends? I get he’s upset but he shouldn’t be refusing to talk it out like adults and at minimal if he doesn’t wanna be friends with me A end of good terms and B stop talking to my friends while I’m not there.
I know most of you are gonna say to move on but it’s not that easy it’s really not. I could message him but it’s only been 2/3 weeks and I run the risk of him blocking me (no he hasn’t blocked me YET). I know he’s hurting but so am I. I want him to also see my good side not just my bad side. I also run the risk of him going back to my ex friends and for them to put nasty thoughts about me into his head. I know some of y’all will say he will probably never talk to u again. But what if that’s not the case? This is a big thing that happened in both our lives. I know he still cares because he told my mate he was glad I was getting therapy. He also has been watching my tik toks (that’s the only thing I have him on) but he can always message me on any platform.
If I forgot anything I’ll edit this post so keep an eye out on any edits.

TW: SA, Suicide and miscarriage. Vent A guy I was talking to (21M) with for a while ended up just becoming close friends. We found out I (19F) was pregnant we spent a while back and forth on what to do and if we should keep it or not just lots of arguing with eachother but also being quite toxic to each other. After I had a big think and also saw the gender early I decided I was gonna keep the baby and also found out the gender. About a week later I found out I was miscarrying. We were both upset. He was there for me over text and call (he’s moved hours away back to his normal home) for a couple days until he kind of decided he couldn’t support me anymore as it was too much for him even though he promised no matter what he would be. But grief is grief I guess.
I was on and off suicidal which he had to deal with at times which somewhat took a toll on him. During all of this happening he had a lot of my female friends added like never met them before and all that and also added a lot of my online gaming friends too. I was more upset about the friends I have had known since I was much much younger that he was getting too close with. A group chat was made with me, him and 2 of my close female friends. As I was going through my rough time he checked in here and there and just talked normal here and there. But he was playing with the girls a lot even ignoring me to play with them.
One night I found out the girls were playing with a guy who SAd me and they knew he had done it. I got upset and blocked them as they were backing him up. I then went to my guy friend (baby daddy) to tell him I dunno if I can fully be friends with him if he supports them and what they’re doing. He sort of backed them up and in frustration I blocked him and unblocked him but never added him back. I got so upset about him adding my friends and somewhat treating me like sh*t during both my pregnancy and miscarriage (I know I wasn’t the best either) the only thing I could think of was to message his mum because I needed to apologise to her for the drama the miscarriage and pregnancy had caused but also to just ask him to stop adding all my friends (which I almost immediately deleted). I had asked him over and over again to stop but he kept saying things like “we are all friends here” or just ignoring me. Again he’s never met these people just talks to them online. He also seems quite close with one of the girls. Anyways I messaged him to let him know I had message his mum (which I had immediately regretted messaging her) and he basically told me not to talk to him or his family again I left a couple messages apologising and explaining things but I was ignored (this happened about 2 weeks ago).
According to a mutual friend which was my friend first apparently “baby daddy” (sorry couldn’t come up with a name) said a lot about me. Somethings he said was he tried to help me but he thought I didn’t think it was enough or he thought I thought he didn’t care. He also said I made him feel like sh*t, that I was mentally draining and exhausting to deal with. My mate also said he has told his friends and family about stuff about me? My mate also brought up that I was still mourning baby and baby daddy said he was too. He said to my friend apparently I had asked him (baby daddy) something along the lines of to stop getting along with my friends? No I just kept telling him to stop adding them on social media like on the game is fine but getting that close and personal with everyone in my life is quite too much for me. I also just said I couldn’t fully be friendly with him if he’s backing up bad behaviour but he didn’t care about what I said even tho I said it a million times. Another thing that was said by baby daddy was apparently he would always try to lighten up the mood but he said I would always say he’s never serious. I say that because he chooses the worse jokes and the worse time to joke around.
I showed my friend (who’s also a guy btw) almost all the chats between me and my baby daddy and he said baby daddy was in the wrong with things he was saying when we were talking. He also said that baby daddy said he still isn’t willing to talk to me about anything not even in future even tho we are both getting therapy. Instead of talking stuff out with me he’s gaming with all my friends without me pretending everything is ok and also quite flirty with them too. There was many off things said between them.
For those asking how he was toxic to me other than the friends thing 1 he made everything about him and the kid for example talking about taking the kid back to his family in another country without asking me how I felt about it 2 promising to be there for me no matter what then did the opposite 3 keeping it a secret from his family in the first place and called me toxic when I went to tell his family about it (he in the end was glad I told them until we had a fall out) 4 going out to casinos and buying alcohol while claiming he will eventually have enough money 5 when I wanted to talk out our options some of the times he would shut me down and not talk about it. Many reasons. But he was also sometimes there for me when nobody else was and I regret being a b*tch even when he was toxic because he still didn’t deserve it. The point of this post is to ask am I the asshole for being upset that he’s ignoring me and talking to my friends/ex friends? I get he’s upset but he shouldn’t be refusing to talk it out like adults and at minimal if he doesn’t wanna be friends with me A end of good terms and B stop talking to my friends while I’m not there.
I know most of you are gonna say to move on but it’s not that easy it’s really not. I could message him but it’s only been 2/3 weeks and I run the risk of him blocking me (no he hasn’t blocked me YET). I know he’s hurting but so am I. I want him to also see my good side not just my bad side. I also run the risk of him going back to my ex friends and for them to put nasty thoughts about me into his head. I know some of y’all will say he will probably never talk to u again. But what if that’s not the case? This is a big thing that happened in both our lives. I know he still cares because he told my mate he was glad I was getting therapy. He also has been watching my tik toks (that’s the only thing I have him on) but he can always message me on any platform.
If I forgot anything I’ll edit this post so keep an eye out on any edits.

So I have a friend who moved to New Zealand a couple of months ago. She had a crush on a boy and she introduced me and my bff to her crush and as soon as I met him I knew he was a bad person. My bff warned my friend that her crush was a bad person and my friend didn't care about that.. so i started to text her crush to prove her that he was a bad person. I'm not proud of myself for doing that but it was for her.. and the more I started to text him the more I started to fall for him. I know that I'm the asshole for this but I'm really trying to get rid of those feelings.. and eventually they started to date. And my bff hated him alot cause he called her short, but it's a dumb reason to hate on somebody for this... And my parents found out that I was texting a boy so they deleted all my online games. This is really a lame reason to cry but I didn't have alot of friends back then and I used those games as an escape from reality. And I started to text him more and ranted about my life. And my bff didn't know these things cause I knew these things would ruin our friendship and I also acted appropriately with my friend's bf. A few weeks ago they broke up and he was kinda depressed and I was there for him. But he was obsessed with my friend so I get why she broke up with him and ghosted him. And he was also like I'm going to die- which I was really concerned about and when I told my bff she was like let him die. He deserves to die. And also recommend me to break his trust. Which I was really mad about. And I didn't really text her after.. and my friend's ex was acting really inappropriate to me , which was really uncomfortable and it's important to know that we are minors but i don't know I think he did it for fun, After he acted really inappropriate I decided to block him and I regretted that immediately and started to cry for hours.. cause his mental health was hanging and I was the only person there for him. so I unblocked him and seems like he cried for hours too.. and my friend added him back on snapchat. So he told her that he liked me.. and he confessed to me later that day and I rejected him saying that he was like my brother. I guess i lied but I wouldn't date him since he was my friend's ex and she still liked him. I'm pretty sure he felt embarrassed after that rejection and I screwed up by showing all of his and my messages to my friend. And my idiotic friend decided to tell him that she saw all of his and my chats using my account which I didn't know anything about? And when he asked me I had to say yes, but she was using his account since she still had his password. It doesn't matter but I still betrayed his trust, and I feel really bad about that but it was the only thing that felt right at that moment. And he also started to like a new girl, like replaced me in 2 days.. even now he kinda ignores my texts and all that but I guess I deserve it. And my bff is forcing me to leave him saying that he is manipulative and many other people also agree but I feel like I'm manipulating myself.. please give me suggestions on what to do next, I'm really confused. ( my English is really bad here since I'm not really fluent ) please don't mind that. Feel free to hate me but I just need suggestions on what to do next.