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Reposting cuz I see more people online now maybe I’ll get lucky 😅
Hey I’m 22m from Palestine but I live in Europe bored and looking for ppl to talk to maybe frequently. I enjoy watching football a lot I also enjoy watching movies and tv shows like How I met your mother, b99, the blacklist, Lucifer So yeah bless me with your presence lol Text me age and something abt you and let’s be friends any age above 18 is fine

So, lately I've been obsessed with Romantic anime -- mainly because I'm lonely and I'm looking for feel-good stuff to fill the void between new episodes of "Slime" or "Level 2 Cheat Skill" each week. I've watched a ton, binging them within hours, several in a day sometimes, as many of them are only single-seasons right now. I've decided to update my list of preferred and disliked in an effort to see if anyone can recommend others I've yet to watch, hopefully to keep this emotional rollercoaster of laughter and love going for a while!
So far...
S-tier:

• Horimiya
• Kanojo Real Girl (This show promptly destroyed me and I haven't emotionally recovered yet lol)
• My Dress-Up Darling
• Fruits Basket - (quick note: this has easily the funniest episode of an anime I've ever watched -- "Cinderella-ish")

A-tier:

• Our Dating Story: The Experienced You and the Inexperienced Me
• The Angel Next Door Spoils Me Rotten
• Shikimori's Not Just a Cutie
• Komi Can't Communicate*

B-tier:

• I'm the Villainess so I'm Taming the Final Boss
• My Love Story with Yamada-kun at Lv999
• Rascal Does Not Dream of Bunny Girl Senpai

C-tier:

• Why Raeliana Ended Up at the Duke's Mansion
• 7th Time Loop: The Villainess Enjoys a Carefree Life Married to her Worst Enemy

F-tier:

• And You Thought There is Never a Girl Online?

Unfinished/Still Watching:

• Girlfriend, Girlfriend
• Kaguya-sama: Love is War
• Spice and Wolf (the newer one)
• Tomo-Chan is a Girl!

*I blasted through this manga (the first I've read in over 20 years) once I finished the show on Netflix, but as I've read more, goddammit has Tadano begun to annoy me. I also wish it focused more on their story rather than random stuff in between, but it's still good so I'm leaving it at A-tier until the manga progresses
Please let me know if anyone has any other recommendations -- I'm really into the type where they aren't afraid to actually show affection and be in-love w each other (see: Horimiya, Shikimori, etc)!!
Edit: Left a few I'd forgotten out - sorry!

So I was on Sertraline between 2015-16 and came off after experiencing what doctors diagnosed as Bipolar but since I've realised was just a one-off episode resembling certain manic traits (delusions/overvalued ideas, decreased need for sleep, overspending etc). I've never had any hypomanic/manic episodes outside of Sertraline.
I came off it at 150mg cold turkey because I couldn't handle these and other side-effects. No psychiatrist commented on the risks of going cold turkey either. Going cold turkey was definitely stupid looking back but I was 16/17 at the time.
I watched a documentary last year - Panorama: The Antidepressant Story where a psychiatrist, Dr Mark Horowitz was talking about protracted withdrawals especially in terms of SSRIs and how you're not supposed to stop them cold turkey. I've seen other doctors online also talk about this. A lot of the things discussed in the doc (Agoraphobia, panic attacks, dissociation, symptoms resembling mania, leg tremors, muscle rigidity etc) I've experienced since 2015.
What can Sertraline protracted withdrawals look like? and Could they last this long.
Sorry if this sounds like a stupid question, but if you don't ask you don't know.

Hey all! So I wanted to give a part two since I'm not high now lol, and also I wanted to clear up some things and add in some other details I left out that I just remembered. If you haven't seen the first part of this post then I suggest going to that, otherwise you'll be very confused. Also, I forgot to add this in my first post but DON'T READ if triggered by certain topics like r*ape, SA, murder, abuse, etc. Another thing is, this post is going to be a lot darker and aside from talking about what happened, I'm also looking for advice on my mental state and how to cope. So please read with caution because I'm going to be talking about what happened with B, but also about my past before him and how what happened is affecting my past trauma.
So, I'm not going to retell the whole story but I am going to be bringing up a lot of parts from it and things I didn't realize until after the incident happened. And some of the things I didn't think of until my friend brought it up. So in my first post, I was talking about how B (26M) was REALLY into Jeffrey Dahmer. Well, in the show we watched with Evan Peters, I noticed a lot of things Jeffrey did as well as already knowing a lot about him before watching it. I noticed that B was doing a lot of things similar to him. Now, I forgot to add in this part last time, but B was really 'straight phobic.' Now I'm a bi transman but I don't hate cis / straight people. In fact, a lot of my friends are cis and in straight relationships. For some reason though, he did, to a weird extent. And even though he was being respectful in the beginning, I'm starting to get a feeling he wasn't actually gay or cared about trans people. Because it seems as though ALL of his former partners were transmen. Which isn't that weird I guess, and he did tell me he tried dating a cis man before but it didn't work. After I met him in person he was telling me that he really liked his trans partners to still have sex vaginally and he liked tits. So, I was kind of confused at that. I think what was really going on was that he isn't gay but wanted to be so he could be like Jeffrey Dahmer. I know it's a bit of a stretch, but you'll see why later. So another thing is, Jeffrey would always ask his potential victims to go back to his place for drinks and to take photos, particularly sexual ones. Jeffrey would then lace the drinks and go on to do weird things to his victims while taking their pictures. And while I was trapped at his place, B kept pushing alcohol on me, A LOT. So much so, that when I kept refusing he started getting angry. However, once I pretended to take a sip it was like his whole attitude changed. He also kept joking it was laced, like EVERYTIME he offered me some. Even though I didn't actually drink any, like I said in the first post, I still got a few drops on my lips and in my mouth. After that I started to get a headache and was a bit dizzy. Also, he had told me before that he liked to take pictures of his partners in sexual poses while they held his guns. Aside from the guns, that's EXACTLY WHAT JEFFREY WOULD DO. For some reason, I didn't piece any of this together until afterwards. I guess I was too shaken up to think clearly. I said this before as well, but when I first entered his house, it was pitch black and he had black out curtains on EVERY WINDOW in his house. His bedroom, living room, kitchen, I mean his whole house made it seem like it was night outside. Another thing that is eerily similar to Jeffrey, is that B told me before I met him in person he always liked dating someone younger. I, at the time, was nineteen and he was twenty five, about to turn twenty six. I honestly don't know what was wrong with me so have not seen the BIG RED FLAGS in the beginning, but he played it off so well I didn't even notice them until after everything happened. And it isn't like me to go for older guys, I usually try to go for someone two years older or younger than me, as I don't like have a huge age gap between me and my partner. Anyway though, Jeffrey always went for younger guys, as well as sometimes KIDS. So, that's another thing similar between them, as well as the fact that B told me he was into little brother play. Where he makes his partners act like a younger brother during sex, etc. He also told me he liked for his partners to SUCK ON BINKIES. BRUHHHH, no thanks bro, I'm good. See, if it was just one of these things that he liked / was into, then I guess it would be normal. Just a guy into a weird ass kink, but all these things combined just did not sit right with me as well as how he was acting. Now, I said in my other post that basically the ENTIRE TIME I was with him, he had a weird ass expression on his face that made me uncomfortable. I wish I could explain better, but it was like constipated / confused look, like Edward from Twilight when he does those weird facial expressions. His brows were always furrowed and he looked like he was uncomfortable / anxious the whole time. He was being super sketchy. His body language was just really off-putting and made me feel weird. And the thing he kept ranting about the most was how Jeffrey Dahmer was misunderstood and just needed someone to be there for him, and then maybe he wouldn't have killed people. The thing that scared me the most was how he said he felt the same way, that he wished he could just have someone not leave him and how he had trust issues after his former partners. Especially the one I mentioned in the last post, about how his ex partner before me snuck out in the middle of the night and got his family to come get him. His family lived across the country, so it had to have been pretty bad for his ex to call his parents and tell them to come get him. Because they drove across multiple different states to come pick him up in the middle of the night so he could sneak away. I have a major feeling that B left out a lot of their fight and why his ex actually left. Not to mention while I was with him, he watched every move I made and wouldn't let me get on my phone without him seeing what I was doing / texting to people. I have a feeling if he thought I was trying to leave him he would've done something bad. Just like Jeffrey. Jeffrey wouldn't always hurt his victims (Not at first anyway) it was always when they said they had to leave that he would get angry and force them to stay. So, idk man, I could've been killed or worse. Also, I know I said I could've been killed or worse, and some of you are probably thinking what's worse than being killed? Well, to me, a lot of things he could've done would have been worse. Especially if he was trying to be like Dahmer, then I could've gotten acid injected into my brain or been r*aped. Which is exactly what I think he was trying to do, with how much alcohol he was trying to push on me. He also kept 'petting' me and touching my thighs while he told me all the ways he'd kill me 'if he was a serial killer.' I genuinely think that something bad would've happened if I didn't have one HELL of an excuse to leave. Because honestly, my mom couldn't have given a better excuse for me to go that also sounded real and not like a lie. Because, like I said before, I had told him before I met him that my mother had health issues and was always in and out of the hospital, so it was perfect that she used that as an excuse. He got really cold and wasn't speaking to me when he heard my phone call and that I had to leave, but I think if I would've tried to leave without that excuse or by giving him an obvious lie, then I might not be here. I'm also super grateful to my best friends who let me come to their place and stay late instead of going home. Me and my best friend, basically my sister, have talked about this a lot since it happened and every time we do, we try to rationalize why someone would act like that, other than being an actual serial killer / r*pist. But we can never think of a reason besides the fact that he simply is what he seems like. A really unhinged person who could've hurt me badly. Also, this was my FIRST TRUE experience in online dating and I honestly think I'm never going to try that again. I've run into so many creeps trying to date online, AND in real life. Most people who aren't trans probably don't realize or know this, but there are a lot of men that want to do really weird and fucked up things to trans people because I guess they think we are some mutant or something, or 'the best of both worlds.' I've run into them a lot, and when I met B, I thought that was over. I thought I had met an actual good person who was educated on trans topics and was respectful of my boundaries and my body. Nope. Now I'm starting to think dating, at least where I live now, is almost impossible and I think I'm going to be alone for awhile. :') Not to mention, I'm now traumatized after what happened with B, and I already had trouble trusting men, and just people in general. Before meeting him I have already been SAed before, multiple times. I guess I'm simply asking for advice on how to move on from something like this. I was trying, and doing kind of ok, moving on from things that had happened before I met B, but now after what happened with him I feel like I'm back sliding and it's making me relive all my past traumas. I basically trust no one, when it comes to sexual things, besides my two best friends I've known since childhood. I tend to over sexualize everything, even things that aren't sexual at all, and get scared around ANYONE, even family members, who I know deep down don't see me like that. I was also abused as a kid and wasn't able to get out of it until I was eighteen, and I've only just turned twenty now, so it wasn't even until two years ago I was still being abused. I feel I've fallen into the dark again and my panic attacks have gotten worse again. I feel depressed and I didn't realize until recently that I'm suicidal again. I didn't realize it until recently, because when I was younger and suicidal, I knew I was. I've tried unaliving myself before so I didn't think about it because I don't feel that way now. It's different this time. Instead of my thoughts directly wanting me to pull out a gun and, ya know, this time it's more subtle and more of a subconscious action. Like closing my eyes for a few seconds while driving. Or intrusive thoughts about ramming head first into the car in the other lane. Or going hiking and thinking of what it would feel like to step off the cliff. I'm honestly just tired. I feel like every person I meet has some kind of ulterior motive, whatever it is. I'm working at a really nice job but it seems like every time I save up money and am doing good for my future, I have to use it on something unexpected that pops into my life. I'm living with my grandparents for now because they said they weren't going to charge me rent, and I'm super grateful for that, but even still I can't keep money and I kind of just don't see my future anymore. Both my parents were drug addicts, my mother to pain pills then xans after that, my father was mainly an alcoholic but also did meth, pills, and other things. It doesn't help because when I was younger, around my early teen years (13-16) I started smoking cigs when I was 12, then I started smoking weed, which I still do, but then it got worse and I've tried xans, snorting pills I didn't even know what they were, drinking, and I've even done shrooms and LSD. I've also had some really bad trips on LSD that made my severe panic disorder worse and after that I now disassociate a lot too and have trouble knowing if I'm in reality while having a panic attack. And after what happened with B, his house and the smell (Cigs and booze) just reminded me what it was like living with my parents in that crack house looking trailer. It's like my brain won't let me let go of the past and move on. It's like I'm constantly stuck there still. And aside from dating, it's also super hard to meet people as friends where I live. I love my two best friends, one of which has been with me since we were basically fetuses and her parents and mine were friends, so her parents were also abusive drug addicts. It's nice to have someone so close and how we can relate to what we went through. We joke that we were traumatized by our parents, but also by each other's parents as well lol. Even though I'm grateful for them, you never know what's going to happen in the future and I don't want to be solely dependent on them and be able to make new friends, but I just can't. I feel so alone, and my friend I grew up with has been moved out a lot longer than me and has had time to heal, and I don't wanna keep dumping my mental problems on her because it's unfair to her. I feel like I'm just bringing her back to our past with me. When I moved out, I completely cut ties with my father, I don't even like calling him that, as he was the first person to SA me and he is, in general, and evil person. I try to think that evil people don't exist, but then I think of him and I realize they do. My mom though, is a good person when she isn't on anything. Recently though, I blocked her and haven't talked to her in over a month because she OD again on xans and amphetamines. I kind of realized recently that she is almost as bad as my father, even though I never wanted to admit that to myself. Because when I was younger, I admitted to her that he had SAed me and she kept pressuring me to tell her what happened, like, IN DETAIL. I told her no because I didn't want to relive it and think about it, even now I have a lot of repressed memories. And because I wouldn't tell her EXACTLY what happened, she doesn't believe. I think she does, deep down, but she doesn't want it to be real. And after her OD last month, she tried telling me she didn't and that it was just her BLOOD PRESSURE. LIKE OH MY GOD BITCH, WHY DO YOU LIE? She must think I'm stupid or something. Before I blocked her, I cussed her out over text and said something like "Who do you think was the first person at the hospital? Not grandma, not your husband, ME. I've always been there for you first. Who do you think told me you had OD? The doctors when I first got there!" And she still denies it, even though when me and my friend got the hospital she was lying there naked (they had to cut her clothes off to save her) with a breathing tube stuck down her throat. I've tried helping her my whole life but apparently she doesn't want help. So now I've gotten tired of her BS and I blocked her and now my grandma is pressuring me to talking to her, luckily though, my grandpa went through something similar as a kid and understands how it is so he isn't guilt tripping me into talking with her. I'm just tired of having to put into traumatic situations. My mental health just keeps getting worse. Somehow, trauma always finds me and nowadays, it seems my only friends are my demons. It used to not be like this, but now even when I'm with my two closest friends, I still feel lonely. Like they are reminding me that when I leave my friends, I'm alone again. Anyway, I know this probably isn't the right subreddit for this, but I kind of just started ranting, sorry for that.
Also, to clear some things up, no I don't use drugs, not anymore. I've never really been an addict at all in my life, somehow. I just did drugs because I wanted to escape when I was younger, and thankfully I never got addicted to any of them. Not like you can get addicted to LSD or shrooms anyway. The only thing I've got addicted to was cigarettes, which rn, is the least of my concerns. And as for weed, I used to be a major stoner but it started making my panic attacks worse so I stopped for a few years, cold turkey, and only recently started smoking it again. So, I'm not worried about weed and if anything, it's been helping now. Especially since I don't smoke it nearly as much as I used to. So, for those worried about me being or getting on drugs, don't worry I'm fine. I have made a clear boundary for myself to never do anything besides smoking my cigs and weed. Cause I've seen how drugs affect my parents and others I've known and I've sworn to myself that I won't become them. It also sucks though because I see psychedelics as something that can help a lot of people with trauma, and the first shrooms trip I ever did changed my life for the better. Now though, after my bad LSD trip, I don't know if I can every do them again. Maybe one day, but not for the foreseeable furture. Again, sorry for going on a rant. I'll probably post this to another subreddit and see if anyone can help. I'm not looking for therapy as I don't have the money or health insurance. Just looking for someone who can relate that has been able to move past similar things and find happiness. If you've read this far, thank you. Like seriously, from the bottom of my heart. It means a lot to me that someone would read about another person's problems and life experience. I hope whoever is reading this is having a great day / night wherever you are, and are living your best life. And for those reading that are going through a similar situation right now and can't get out, I promise you aren't alone. I haven't really gotten better, so I can't say things get better, but I can say it DOES get easier. All I can say is, you aren't alone in it. There are others, like me, who know your pain. Keep living, it'll be worth it. Even though I'm not doing my best and my mental problems are still with me, that doesn't mean it's all been bad. I've made a lot of amazing memories after I moved out. Keep going.

Howdy! My english bad sorry for that but are you know what mod are crashing game? When I create new world game crashes.
---- Minecraft Crash Report ----
// You're mean.
Time: 2024-05-19 04:57:47
Description: Exception in server tick loop
java.lang.BootstrapMethodError: java.lang.RuntimeException: Mixin transformation of com.simibubi.create.content.trains.entity.Train failed

`at com.simibubi.create.content.trains.GlobalRailwayManager.loadTrackData(GlobalRailwayManager.java:94)` `at com.simibubi.create.content.trains.GlobalRailwayManager.levelLoaded(GlobalRailwayManager.java:83)` `at com.simibubi.create.foundation.events.CommonEvents.onLoadWorld(CommonEvents.java:171)` `at net.fabricmc.fabric.api.event.lifecycle.v1.ServerWorldEvents.lambda$static$0(ServerWorldEvents.java:34)` `at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.redirect$coo000$fabric-lifecycle-events-v1$onLoadWorld(MinecraftServer.java:4870)` `at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.method_3786(MinecraftServer.java:360)` `at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.method_3735(MinecraftServer.java:324)` `at net.minecraft.class_1132.method_3823(class_1132.java:69)` `at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.method_29741(MinecraftServer.java:646)` `at net.minecraft.server.MinecraftServer.method_29739(MinecraftServer.java:265)` `at java.base/java.lang.Thread.run(Thread.java:833)` 

Caused by: java.lang.RuntimeException: Mixin transformation of com.simibubi.create.content.trains.entity.Train failed

`at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.getPostMixinClassByteArray(KnotClassDelegate.java:427)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.tryLoadClass(KnotClassDelegate.java:323)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.loadClass(KnotClassDelegate.java:218)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassLoader.loadClass(KnotClassLoader.java:119)` `at java.base/java.lang.ClassLoader.loadClass(ClassLoader.java:525)` `... 11 more` 

Caused by: org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.throwables.MixinTransformerError: An unexpected critical error was encountered

`at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.applyMixins(MixinProcessor.java:392)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClass(MixinTransformer.java:234)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinTransformer.transformClassBytes(MixinTransformer.java:202)` `at net.fabricmc.loader.impl.launch.knot.KnotClassDelegate.getPostMixinClassByteArray(KnotClassDelegate.java:422)` `... 15 more` 

Caused by: org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.throwables.MixinApplyError: Mixin [create_interactive.mixins.json:MixinTrain from mod create_interactive] from phase [DEFAULT] in config [create_interactive.mixins.json] FAILED during APPLY

`at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.handleMixinError(MixinProcessor.java:638)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.handleMixinApplyError(MixinProcessor.java:589)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.applyMixins(MixinProcessor.java:379)` `... 18 more` 

Caused by: org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.throwables.InvalidMixinException: u/Overwrite method findCollidingTrain in create_interactive.mixins.json:MixinTrain from mod create_interactive was not located in the target class com.simibubi.create.content.trains.entity.Train. Using refmap create_interactive-fabric-refmap.json

`at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinPreProcessorStandard.attachSpecialMethod(MixinPreProcessorStandard.java:436)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinPreProcessorStandard.attachOverwriteMethod(MixinPreProcessorStandard.java:416)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinPreProcessorStandard.attachMethods(MixinPreProcessorStandard.java:346)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinPreProcessorStandard.attach(MixinPreProcessorStandard.java:299)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinPreProcessorStandard.createContextFor(MixinPreProcessorStandard.java:277)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinInfo.createContextFor(MixinInfo.java:1289)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinApplicatorStandard.apply(MixinApplicatorStandard.java:294)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.TargetClassContext.apply(TargetClassContext.java:422)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.TargetClassContext.applyMixins(TargetClassContext.java:403)` `at org.spongepowered.asm.mixin.transformer.MixinProcessor.applyMixins(MixinProcessor.java:363)` `... 18 more` 

A detailed walkthrough of the error, its code path and all known details is as follows:
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`Minecraft Version: 1.20.1` `Minecraft Version ID: 1.20.1` `Operating System: Windows 11 (amd64) version 10.0` `Java Version: 17.0.8, Microsoft` `Java VM Version: OpenJDK 64-Bit Server VM (mixed mode), Microsoft` `Memory: 2679414400 bytes (2555 MiB) / 4932501504 bytes (4704 MiB) up to 34359738368 bytes (32768 MiB)` `CPUs: 16` `Processor Vendor: GenuineIntel` `Processor Name: 11th Gen Intel(R) Core(TM) i7-11700K @ 3.60GHz` `Identifier: Intel64 Family 6 Model 167 Stepping 1` `Microarchitecture: Rocket Lake` `Frequency (GHz): 3.60` `Number of physical packages: 1` `Number of physical CPUs: 8` `Number of logical CPUs: 16` `Graphics card #0 name: NVIDIA GeForce RTX 3080` `Graphics card #0 vendor: NVIDIA (0x10de)` `Graphics card #0 VRAM (MB): 4095.00` `Graphics card #0 deviceId: 0x2216` `Graphics card #0 versionInfo: DriverVersion=31.0.15.5212` `Memory slot #0 capacity (MB): 16384.00` `Memory slot #0 clockSpeed (GHz): 3.20` `Memory slot #0 type: DDR4` `Memory slot #1 capacity (MB): 16384.00` `Memory slot #1 clockSpeed (GHz): 3.20` `Memory slot #1 type: DDR4` `Virtual memory max (MB): 38777.41` `Virtual memory used (MB): 14516.93` `Swap memory total (MB): 6144.00` `Swap memory used (MB): 0.00` `JVM Flags: 9 total; -XX:HeapDumpPath=MojangTricksIntelDriversForPerformance_javaw.exe_minecraft.exe.heapdump -Xss1M -Xmx32G -XX:+UnlockExperimentalVMOptions -XX:+UseG1GC -XX:G1NewSizePercent=20 -XX:G1ReservePercent=20 -XX:MaxGCPauseMillis=50 -XX:G1HeapRegionSize=32M` `Fabric Mods:` `ad_astra: Ad Astra 1.15.18` `javazoom_jlayer: jlayer 1.0.1` `alloy_forgery: Alloy Forgery 2.1.2+1.20` `antique-atlas: Antique Atlas 2.7.2+1.20` `folk_sisby_kaleido-config: kaleido-config 0.1.1+1.1.0-beta.3` `surveyor: Surveyor Map Framework 0.4.3+1.20` `appleskin: AppleSkin 2.5.1+mc1.20` `archers: Archers (RPG Series) 1.2.1+1.20.1` `com_github_zsoltmolnarrr_tinyconfig: TinyConfig 2.3.2` `ranged_weapon_api: RangedWeaponAPI 1.1.0+1.20.1` `structure_pool_api: Structure Pool API 1.0+1.20.1` `architectury: Architectury 9.2.14` `artifacts: Artifacts 9.5.5` `cardinal-components-base: Cardinal Components API (base) 5.2.2` `cardinal-components-entity: Cardinal Components API (entities) 5.2.2` `expandability: ExpandAbility 9.0.4` `step-height-entity-attribute: Step Height Entity Attribute 1.2.0` `azurelibarmor: AzureLib Armor 2.0.3` `balm-fabric: Balm 7.2.2` `bclib: BCLib 3.0.14` `wunderlib: WunderLib 1.1.5` `bettercombat: Better Combat 1.8.5+1.20.1` `betterdeserttemples: YUNG's Better Desert Temples 1.20-Fabric-3.0.3` `org_reflections_reflections: reflections 0.10.2` `betterdungeons: YUNG's Better Dungeons 1.20-Fabric-4.0.4` `betterend: Better End 4.0.11` `betterendisland: YUNG's Better End Island 1.20-Fabric-2.0.6` `betterfortresses: YUNG's Better Nether Fortresses 1.20-Fabric-2.0.6` `betterjungletemples: YUNG's Better Jungle Temples 1.20-Fabric-2.0.5` `bettermineshafts: YUNG's Better Mineshafts 1.20-Fabric-4.0.4` `betternether: Better Nether 9.0.10` `betteroceanmonuments: YUNG's Better Ocean Monuments 1.20-Fabric-3.0.4` `betterwitchhuts: YUNG's Better Witch Huts 1.20-Fabric-3.0.3` `bookshelf: Bookshelf 20.1.10` `bosses_of_mass_destruction: Bosses of Mass Destruction (Beta) 1.7.5-1.20.1` `maelstrom_library: Maelstrom Library 1.6.1-1.20` `multipart_entities: MultipartEntities 1.5-1.20` `botarium: Botarium 2.3.3` `team_reborn_energy: Energy 3.0.0` `cardinal-components: Cardinal Components API 5.2.2` `cardinal-components-block: Cardinal Components API (blocks) 5.2.2` `cardinal-components-chunk: Cardinal Components API (chunks) 5.2.2` `cardinal-components-item: Cardinal Components API (items) 5.2.2` `cardinal-components-level: Cardinal Components API (world saves) 5.2.2` `cardinal-components-scoreboard: Cardinal Components API (scoreboard) 5.2.2` `cardinal-components-world: Cardinal Components API (worlds) 5.2.2` `carryon: Carry On` [`2.1.2.7`](http://2.1.2.7) `charmofundying: Charm of Undying 6.5.0+1.20.1` `spectrelib: SpectreLib 0.13.15+1.20.1` `cicada: CICADA 0.7.1+1.20.1` `cloth-config: Cloth Config v11 11.1.118` `cloth-basic-math: cloth-basic-math 0.6.1` `crawl: Crawl 0.12.0` `mm: Manningham Mills 2.3` `create: Create 0.5.1-f-build.1417+mc1.20.1` `com_electronwill_night-config_core: core 3.6.6` `com_electronwill_night-config_toml: toml 3.6.6` `com_google_code_findbugs_jsr305: jsr305 3.0.2` `flywheel: Flywheel 0.6.10-2` `forgeconfigapiport: Forge Config API Port 8.0.0` `milk: Milk Lib 1.2.60` 

dripstone_fluid_lib: Dripstone Fluid Lib 3.0.2

 `porting_lib_brewing: Porting Lib Brewing 2.3.2+1.20.1` `porting_lib_models: Porting Lib Models 2.3.2+1.20.1` 

porting_lib_model_loader: Porting Lib Model Loader 2.3.2+1.20.1

 `porting_lib_obj_loader: Porting Lib Obj Loader 2.3.2+1.20.1` `porting_lib_tags: Porting Lib Tags 3.0` `reach-entity-attributes: Reach Entity Attributes 2.4.0` `registrate-fabric: Registrate for Fabric 1.3.62-MC1.20.1` 

porting_lib_data: Porting Lib Data 2.1.1090+1.20
porting_lib_model_generators: Porting Lib Model Generators 2.1.1090+1.20
porting_lib_model_materials: Porting Lib Model Materials 2.1.1090+1.20

 `create_interactive: Create: Interactive 1.0.2-beta.2` `create_jetpack: Create Jetpack 4.2.0` `flightlib: Flight Lib 2.1.0` `createbigcannons: Create Big Cannons 0.5.4-nightly-8b9cea6` `ritchiesprojectilelib: Ritchie's Projectile Library 1.0.0-369e88d+1.20.1-fabric` 

porting_lib_utility: Porting Lib Utility 2.1.1127+1.20
porting_lib_gametest: Porting Lib GameTest 2.1.1127+1.20

 `creativecore: CreativeCore 2.11.28` `net_minecraftforge_eventbus: eventbus 6.0.3` `creeperoverhaul: Creeper Overhaul 3.0.2` `distanthorizons: Distant Horizons 2.0.4-a-dev` `do_a_barrel_roll: Do a Barrel Roll 3.5.6+1.20.1` `fabric-permissions-api-v0: fabric-permissions-api 0.2-SNAPSHOT` `mixinsquared: MixinSquared 0.1.1` `dsurround: Dynamic Surroundings 0.3.3` `org_openjdk_nashorn_nashorn-core: nashorn-core 15.4` `eatinganimationid: Eating Animation 1.20+1.9.61` `elytraslot: Elytra Slot 6.3.0+1.20.1` `endermanoverhaul: Enderman Overhaul 1.0.4` `endrem: End Remastered 5.2.4` `fabric-api: Fabric API 0.92.0+1.20.1` `fabric-api-base: Fabric API Base 0.4.31+1802ada577` `fabric-api-lookup-api-v1: Fabric API Lookup API (v1) 1.6.36+1802ada577` `fabric-biome-api-v1: Fabric Biome API (v1) 13.0.13+1802ada577` `fabric-block-api-v1: Fabric Block API (v1) 1.0.11+1802ada577` `fabric-block-view-api-v2: Fabric BlockView API (v2) 1.0.1+1802ada577` `fabric-blockrenderlayer-v1: Fabric BlockRenderLayer Registration (v1) 1.1.41+1802ada577` `fabric-client-tags-api-v1: Fabric Client Tags 1.1.2+1802ada577` `fabric-command-api-v1: Fabric Command API (v1) 1.2.34+f71b366f77` `fabric-command-api-v2: Fabric Command API (v2) 2.2.13+1802ada577` `fabric-commands-v0: Fabric Commands (v0) 0.2.51+df3654b377` `fabric-containers-v0: Fabric Containers (v0) 0.1.64+df3654b377` `fabric-content-registries-v0: Fabric Content Registries (v0) 4.0.11+1802ada577` `fabric-convention-tags-v1: Fabric Convention Tags 1.5.5+1802ada577` `fabric-crash-report-info-v1: Fabric Crash Report Info (v1) 0.2.19+1802ada577` `fabric-data-attachment-api-v1: Fabric Data Attachment API (v1) 1.0.0+de0fd6d177` `fabric-data-generation-api-v1: Fabric Data Generation API (v1) 12.3.4+1802ada577` `fabric-dimensions-v1: Fabric Dimensions API (v1) 2.1.54+1802ada577` `fabric-entity-events-v1: Fabric Entity Events (v1) 1.6.0+1c78457f77` `fabric-events-interaction-v0: Fabric Events Interaction (v0) 0.6.2+1802ada577` `fabric-events-lifecycle-v0: Fabric Events Lifecycle (v0) 0.2.63+df3654b377` `fabric-game-rule-api-v1: Fabric Game Rule API (v1) 1.0.40+1802ada577` `fabric-item-api-v1: Fabric Item API (v1) 2.1.28+1802ada577` `fabric-item-group-api-v1: Fabric Item Group API (v1) 4.0.12+1802ada577` `fabric-key-binding-api-v1: Fabric Key Binding API (v1) 1.0.37+1802ada577` `fabric-keybindings-v0: Fabric Key Bindings (v0) 0.2.35+df3654b377` `fabric-lifecycle-events-v1: Fabric Lifecycle Events (v1) 2.2.22+1802ada577` `fabric-loot-api-v2: Fabric Loot API (v2) 1.2.1+1802ada577` `fabric-loot-tables-v1: Fabric Loot Tables (v1) 1.1.45+9e7660c677` `fabric-message-api-v1: Fabric Message API (v1) 5.1.9+1802ada577` `fabric-mining-level-api-v1: Fabric Mining Level API (v1) 2.1.50+1802ada577` `fabric-model-loading-api-v1: Fabric Model Loading API (v1) 1.0.3+1802ada577` `fabric-models-v0: Fabric Models (v0) 0.4.2+9386d8a777` `fabric-networking-api-v1: Fabric Networking API (v1) 1.3.11+1802ada577` `fabric-networking-v0: Fabric Networking (v0) 0.3.51+df3654b377` `fabric-object-builder-api-v1: Fabric Object Builder API (v1) 11.1.3+1802ada577` `fabric-particles-v1: Fabric Particles (v1) 1.1.2+1802ada577` `fabric-recipe-api-v1: Fabric Recipe API (v1) 1.0.21+1802ada577` `fabric-registry-sync-v0: Fabric Registry Sync (v0) 2.3.3+1802ada577` `fabric-renderer-api-v1: Fabric Renderer API (v1) 3.2.1+1802ada577` `fabric-renderer-indigo: Fabric Renderer - Indigo 1.5.1+1802ada577` `fabric-renderer-registries-v1: Fabric Renderer Registries (v1) 3.2.46+df3654b377` `fabric-rendering-data-attachment-v1: Fabric Rendering Data Attachment (v1) 0.3.37+92a0d36777` `fabric-rendering-fluids-v1: Fabric Rendering Fluids (v1) 3.0.28+1802ada577` `fabric-rendering-v0: Fabric Rendering (v0) 1.1.49+df3654b377` `fabric-rendering-v1: Fabric Rendering (v1) 3.0.8+1802ada577` `fabric-resource-conditions-api-v1: Fabric Resource Conditions API (v1) 2.3.8+1802ada577` `fabric-resource-loader-v0: Fabric Resource Loader (v0) 0.11.10+1802ada577` `fabric-screen-api-v1: Fabric Screen API (v1) 2.0.8+1802ada577` `fabric-screen-handler-api-v1: Fabric Screen Handler API (v1) 1.3.30+1802ada577` `fabric-sound-api-v1: Fabric Sound API (v1) 1.0.13+1802ada577` `fabric-transfer-api-v1: Fabric Transfer API (v1) 3.3.4+1802ada577` `fabric-transitive-access-wideners-v1: Fabric Transitive Access Wideners (v1) 4.3.1+1802ada577` `fabric-language-kotlin: Fabric Language Kotlin 1.10.20+kotlin.1.9.24` `org_jetbrains_kotlin_kotlin-reflect: kotlin-reflect 1.9.24` `org_jetbrains_kotlin_kotlin-stdlib: kotlin-stdlib 1.9.24` `org_jetbrains_kotlin_kotlin-stdlib-jdk7: kotlin-stdlib-jdk7 1.9.24` `org_jetbrains_kotlin_kotlin-stdlib-jdk8: kotlin-stdlib-jdk8 1.9.24` `org_jetbrains_kotlinx_atomicfu-jvm: atomicfu-jvm 0.24.0` `org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-coroutines-core-jvm: kotlinx-coroutines-core-jvm 1.8.0` `org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-coroutines-jdk8: kotlinx-coroutines-jdk8 1.8.0` `org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-datetime-jvm: kotlinx-datetime-jvm 0.5.0` `org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-serialization-cbor-jvm: kotlinx-serialization-cbor-jvm 1.6.3` `org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-serialization-core-jvm: kotlinx-serialization-core-jvm 1.6.3` `org_jetbrains_kotlinx_kotlinx-serialization-json-jvm: kotlinx-serialization-json-jvm 1.6.3` `fabricloader: Fabric Loader 0.15.11` `mixinextras: MixinExtras 0.3.5` `fallingtrees: Falling Trees 0.12` `farmersdelight: Farmer's Delight 1.20.1-2.1.1+refabricated` `porting_lib_accessors: Porting Lib Accessors 2.3.4+1.20.1` `porting_lib_base: Porting Lib Base 2.3.4+1.20.1` 

porting_lib_entity: Porting Lib Entity 2.3.4+1.20.1
porting_lib_fluids: Porting Lib Fluids 2.3.4+1.20.1
porting_lib_mixin_extensions: Porting Lib Mixin Extensions 2.3.4+1.20.1
porting_lib_transfer: Porting Lib Transfer 2.3.4+1.20.1

 `porting_lib_client_events: Porting Lib Client Events 2.3.4+1.20.1` `porting_lib_config: Porting Lib Config 2.3.4+1.20.1` `porting_lib_extensions: Porting Lib Extensions 2.3.4+1.20.1` 

porting_lib_attributes: Porting Lib Attributes 2.3.4+1.20.1
porting_lib_common: Porting Lib Common 2.3.4+1.20.1

 `porting_lib_lazy_registration: Porting Lib Lazy Register 2.3.4+1.20.1` 

porting_lib_core: Porting Lib Core 2.3.4+1.20.1

 `porting_lib_loot: Porting Lib Loot 2.3.4+1.20.1` `porting_lib_networking: Porting Lib Networking 2.3.4+1.20.1` `porting_lib_recipe_book_categories: Porting Lib Recipe Book Categories 2.3.4+1.20.1` `porting_lib_registries: Porting Lib Registries 2.3.4+1.20.1` `porting_lib_tool_actions: Porting Lib Tool Actions 2.3.4+1.20.1` `figura: Figura 0.1.4+1.20.1` `com_github_figuramc_luaj_luaj-core: luaj-core 3.0.8-figura` `com_github_figuramc_luaj_luaj-jse: luaj-jse 3.0.8-figura` `com_neovisionaries_nv-websocket-client: nv-websocket-client 2.14` `firstperson: FirstPerson 2.3.4` `framework: Framework 0.6.27` `org_javassist_javassist: javassist 3.29.2-GA` `friendlyfire: FriendlyFire 18.0.6` `geckolib: GeckoLib 4 4.4.4` `com_eliotlash_mclib_mclib: mclib 20` `goblintraders: Goblin Traders 1.9.3` `graveyard: The Graveyard 3.0` `guardvillagers: GuardVillagers 2.0.9-1.20.1` `midnightlib: MidnightLib 1.4.1` `healthindicatortxf: Health Indicator TXF 1.20.1-1.2.3-fabric` `configlibtxf: ConfigLib TXF 4.2.1-fabric` `horizontal_glass_panes: Horizontal Glass Panes 2.0.0` `indium: Indium 1.0.30+mc1.20.4` `inventoryprofilesnext: Inventory Profiles Next 1.10.10` `iris: Iris 1.7.0+mc1.20.1` `io_github_douira_glsl-transformer: glsl-transformer 2.0.0-pre13` `org_anarres_jcpp: jcpp 1.4.14` `org_antlr_antlr4-runtime: antlr4-runtime 4.11.1` `irisflw: Iris Flywheel Compat 0.2.5` `ironchest: Iron Chests 2.0.2` `libgui: LibGui 8.1.1+1.20.1` 

jankson: Jankson 6.0.0+j1.2.3
blue_endless_jankson: jankson 1.2.3
libninepatch: LibNinePatch 1.2.0

 `itemphysic: ItemPhysic 1.7.1` `jade: Jade 11.9.2+fabric` `java: OpenJDK 64-Bit Server VM 17` `jei: Just Enough Items` [`15.3.0.4`](http://15.3.0.4) `jeresources: Just Enough Resources` [`1.4.0.247`](http://1.4.0.247) `jewelry: Jewelry (RPG Series) 1.3.0+1.20.1` `kiwi: Kiwi Library 11.6.2` `lambdynlights: LambDynamicLights 2.3.2+1.20.1` `pride: Pride Lib 1.2.0+1.19.4` `spruceui: SpruceUI 5.0.0+1.20` `libipn: libIPN 4.0.2` `lithium: Lithium 0.11.2` `minecraft: Minecraft 1.20.1` `mobsunscreen: Mob Sunscreen 3.1.0` `modmenu: Mod Menu 7.2.2` `mythicmounts: Mythic Mounts 1.20.1-7.4` `naturalist: Naturalist 4.0.3` `nethersdelight: Nether's Delight 1.0.0` `disable_custom_worlds_advice: Disable Custom Worlds Advice 4.1` `notenoughanimations: NotEnoughAnimations 1.7.3` `notreepunching: No Tree Punching 7.1.0` `nyfsspiders: Nyf's Spiders 2.1.1` `opf: Modern Online Picture Frames 1` `owo: oωo 0.11.1+1.20` `paladins: Paladins & Priests (RPG Series) 1.2.0+1.20.1` `pandalib: PandaLib 0.2.1` `passablefoliage: Passable Foliage 1.20.1-fabric-8.2.1` `patchouli: Patchouli 1.20.1-84-FABRIC` `fiber: fiber 0.23.0-2` `player-animator: Player Animator 1.0.2-rc1+1.20` `polymorph: Polymorph 0.49.3+1.20.1` `presencefootsteps: Presence Footsteps 1.9.4+1.20.1` `kirin: Kirin UI 1.15.6+1.20.1` `puffish_skills: Pufferfish's Skills 0.12.1` `reeses-sodium-options: Reese's Sodium Options 1.7.2+mc1.20.1-build.101` `repurposed_structures: Repurposed Structures 7.1.15+1.20.1-fabric` `resourcefulconfig: Resourcefulconfig 2.1.2` `resourcefullib: Resourceful Lib 2.1.24` `com_teamresourceful_bytecodecs: bytecodecs 1.0.2` `com_teamresourceful_yabn: yabn 1.0.3` `runes: Runes 0.9.11+1.20.1` `simplyswords: Simply Swords 1.55.0-1.20.1` `sit: Sit 1.20-24` `sliceanddice: Create Slice & Dice 3.2.1` `snowrealmagic: Snow! Real Magic! 10.4.3` `sodium: Sodium 0.5.8+mc1.20.1` `sodium-extra: Sodium Extra 0.5.4+mc1.20.1-build.115` `caffeineconfig: CaffeineConfig 1.3.0+1.17` `crowdin-translate: CrowdinTranslate 1.4+1.19.3` `spell_engine: Spell Engine 0.14.3+1.20.1` `spell_power: Spell Power Attribute 0.10.2+1.20.1` `travelersbackpack: Traveler's Backpack fabric-1.20.1-9.1.12` `travelerstitles: Traveler's Titles 1.20-Fabric-4.0.2` `trinkets: Trinkets 3.7.2` `valkyrienskies: Valkyrien Skies 2 2.3.0-beta.5` `visuality: Visuality 0.7.1+1.20` `vs_eureka: VS Eureka Mod 1.5.1-beta.3` `watching: From The Fog 1.9.2` `water-erosion: Water Erosion 1.1.6` `waterdripsound: Drip Sounds 1.19-0.3.2` `waystones: Waystones 14.1.3` `wizards: Wizards (RPG Series) 1.2.0+1.20.1` `yet_another_config_lib_v3: YetAnotherConfigLib 3.4.2+1.20.1-fabric` `com_twelvemonkeys_common_common-image: common-image 3.10.0` `com_twelvemonkeys_common_common-io: common-io 3.10.0` `com_twelvemonkeys_common_common-lang: common-lang 3.10.0` `com_twelvemonkeys_imageio_imageio-core: imageio-core 3.10.0` `com_twelvemonkeys_imageio_imageio-metadata: imageio-metadata 3.10.0` `com_twelvemonkeys_imageio_imageio-webp: imageio-webp 3.10.0` `org_quiltmc_parsers_gson: gson 0.2.1` `org_quiltmc_parsers_json: json 0.2.1` `yungsapi: YUNG's API 1.20-Fabric-4.0.5` `yungsbridges: YUNG's Bridges 1.20-Fabric-4.0.3` `yungsextras: YUNG's Extras 1.20-Fabric-4.0.3` `Loaded Shaderpack: (off)` `Flywheel Backend: GL33 Instanced Arrays` `Server Running: true` `Player Count: 0 / 8; []` `Data Packs: vanilla, fabric` `Enabled Feature Flags: minecraft:vanilla` `World Generation: Experimental` `Type: Integrated Server (map_client.txt)` `Is Modded: Definitely; Client brand changed to 'fabric'; Server brand changed to 'fabric'` `Launched Version: fabric-loader-0.15.11-1.20.1` 

I've Been Doing a Lot of Whatever the Fuck I Want Lately and I Like It
It's the day of Ayonna's Zoom court hearing so she's thinking about survivalist jailhouse makeup hacks. They've improved since women used to use scraped paint chips off their cell walls as face powder, dampened red paper as rouge, permanent markers for eyebrow pencils, Kool-Aid doubling as hair dye and blush, and M&Ms as lipstick because deprivation causes innovation for self-preservation. That and Jamahl's excruciatingly murky explanation of his 2-year wedding day gap even though he's as open a book as a text at a class final that provides no specific answers to a general essay question. It's not that he wants to delay a ceremony displaying his love for Shellfish publicly; it's about financing a befittingly royal wedding for the ghetto version of Prince Charles and the late Diana Spencer to whom the masses must bow down, and that includes the judge who simply doesn't understand the trials and tribulations of a multi-tasking single mother with behavioral problems negotiating her child's breakfast.
Court: . . . will continue matter until she can show up in court next week since we are clearly inconveniencing her. 🙄
Ayonna: I'm just a single mother with no help. You're not going to tell me I can't feed my daughter; that's never going to happen. Is it ok if I give my daughter breakfast?
Court: We are in court here. This is a court proceeding. ⚖️
Ayonna: Ok. Just be hungry. 😏
Four years probation because the judge's gnarly attitude is taking it out on me? Girl, what are you talking about? Bitch, you're gonna' tell me I can't feed my daughter? She can kiss my ass! I'm livid. Livid! 🤬
Jamahl: At the end of the day filled with dickheads, we still gotta' bite our tongues.
I'm not selfish; I've just decided that taking your feelings into consideration is too much damn work.
Keep Your Head High and Your Middle Finger Higher
For someone more accustomed to being abused than amused, Candice has said "I love you" to Andrew more times than the repetitive phrase, turn down for what, in the party anthem by DJ Snake and Lil Jon of the same name. While Andrew, true to his word, kneels and immediately proposes, Candice hesitates, and in that moment, resembles a raw double-chinned Pillsbury dough girl with an unnatural sheen, a face too sunken in its gravity to show happiness, and sad raisin eyes reflecting physical distress. But Andrew doesn't clock any of this; he's carrying out his promise to Candice's mom in a dream he made up though she has more eyes on her truck as she doubtless recalls her fond days of street racing, driving without a license, attempted stolen vehicle, felony burglary and constantly running from the police. If she were wearing cargo pants, she could stuff them with the faux Louis Vuitton handbag contents to savor as she completes her halfway house program so she can change addresses. If he could see past his own needs, he'd notice she was trying to figure where the hell he got the idea she cared. If I've cut you, it's because you handed me the scissors.
Patience: What You Have When There Are Too Many Witnesses
Joey is taking advice from Minerva, a sex columnist who looks like Chris Farley in drag who was super stoned and wandered into the backrooms of "Saturday Night Live" for a costume change and makeup refresh before rehearsing his Fellatio 101 sketch outlined on a chalkboard: Watch amateur porn for tips. Practice dirty talk. Get excited about being excited. Use both hands simultaneously and don't bogart that spit. Don't forget, steady wins the race. Freshen up before getting online and spending money for a rented motel room far away from your parents so you can have 15 minutes of precious sexy time before your monogamous lover warns you to deactivate your online profile that his friend saw. Hey, I found your nose; it was in my business.
The King Eats First
Once again, the kids are savvier than their parents. A striking Cheyenne and Nehemiah adjust their schedules to Rob's extended sentence that Tennie tries to embroider in her naïveté while every family member is worried about their displacement when Rob physically enters the picture even though he's already there in camera spirit. It's a which-came-first-the-chicken-or-the-egg question - is it a good thing the alpha male has streams-of-revenue for Tennie's shopping jones or is she shopping because she's worried about getting with an alpha male? He's a poker king like Marcelino making 6-7K a month in jail even though online playing for real money is prohibited, and I doubt his pod mates have that kind of extra cash regularly available. Any man in this day and age who can tell a woman to "sit down and be cute" must have it figured out as a lion doesn't care about a sheep's opinion. I bring too much to the table to be treated like a napkin.
Does One of Your Balls Hang Lower Than the Other?
Rick looks like a twig the wind blew off a tree or a stranded lost lamb in a field surrounded by hungry landlocked predators looking for a banquet. Sandy is sending him pictures of the reunion to remind him of her existence while 4x-married Samantha is positioning herself to long-distance bullrope and hog tie her bachelor into a ball-and-chain before he has time to think about how he's going to stretch a rigorously set pension into providing her commissary and visitation requests. His pickleball buddy, Dan, doesn't really give a damn; it's only his nieces who are rightfully tut-tutting her dictatorial attitude and snarking, "Fifth time is a charm." "Maybe I do have options," Rick muses, but then turns around and crows, "She builds me up." Sure, right after she shakes him up - like a snow globe. It ain't what you don't know that gets you in trouble; It's what you know for sure that just ain't so.

I'm just asking out of curiosity, and I'm positive I'm probably exaggerating and it's nothing out of the ordinary or medically significant, but, I was just watching a video and came a cross the subject of prosopometamorphosia, or "demon face syndrome", which sparked my interest immediately because of how bizarre that sounded and looked about it online and ended up reading some wikipedia articles whose subjects were other hallucinatory disorders, and kind of felt some similarities regarding several episodes in my life.
Night frights: This is not important now, but I just thought to share this episode in case someone sees a correlation to the following accounts. I remember when I was a child I would hallucinate stalking eyes in the wall bordering the window of my bedroom in the middle of the night, I don't remember whether I would find the experience terror inducing, but it must have been at least distressful as they wouldn't let me sleep, but that just happened sporadically, and stopped occurring growing up. I don't recall ever telling my parents, and on later analysis I just thought about it as just a case of an active imagination, being that I was a child and all.
Flashes of light: This started in my teens, and it still endures to this day, althought I never felt it called for alert, also it doesn't seem to have a uniform context in which it appears, as it happened in different situations. The first and most significant was during an afternoon when I was alone in my house, -now, it's important to mention I've dealt with chronic tooth aches during my whole life-, I wasn't having such pains at the time, but I suddenly felt tired which was weird as I had been sleeping regularly, but felt like taking a nap. During the middle of this nap, I woke up, and saw what appeared to be a very strong flash of light (like that of a flashlight) coming through the courtains; it was so strong it kind of hurt my eyes, and I shoved my face in the pillow. I looked again and the light wasn't there anymore but I was still upset about it, but tired at the same time, so I kept sleeping, and woke the next day with a terrible toothache, and I felt my vision kind of blurry, and to this day, my vision is not perfect (never checked with an ophtalmologist though, but I know I probably need glasses), but I'm not sure whether that day was the starting point of that, I just noticed it after that episode. Never had any other such weird episodes but whenever I go to sleep there's a chance I will see these strong lights through my eyelids, and sometimes they manifest in my imagination (while in bed with my eyelids closed), and in the latter case, I can make the manifestation last longer if I concentrate hard enough. Imagination or not, they hurt my eyes and makes it hard for me to fall asleep.
Face distortion: This may be the least important of these issues, but it's the most stressful for me, personally. I don't have hallucinations regarding people's faces, and I don't have trouble recognizing them or anything like that, but whenever I take a selfie I perceive the right side of my face to look completely asymmetric in relation to the left one. Now, I know faces are naturally asymmetric, but I feel in my case it is enough to be notorious and make me feel insecure about my aspect. I feel tempted to show a picture but I'd rather not doxx me or have people see my face as I mentioned it is a source of insecurity to me, but I've asked friends and they say they don't notice what I mention, but they're friends after all, so they may aswell be lying in order to not make me feel bad. This does not happen when I look at myself in the mirror.
What do you think? Sorry if there's something hard to understand, English is not my first language.

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(CW: Ableism and separation anxiety. Also prepare yourself for a wall of text)
So for an explanation if you weren't on YouTube from 2017-2019. Super Mario Logan was a channel about skits played out by puppets and Nintendo characters. One day, a video was uploaded named "Mario the Babysitter" where Mario (Basically the Squidward of SML) meets a mentally handicapped boy named Jeffy. First of all, I credit Jeffy for internalized Ableism, because going back and rewatching reuploads I can see that it absolutely ROTTED he absolute SHIT out of my maluable brain. Jeffy was basically the posterchild of SML after that and everything continued on normally. That was until a video names Jeffy's Parents was uploaded. I don't know what the actual fuck the team behind it was on but it was a pretty sizable shakeup. In the first video Jeffy appears in, it's established that he was abandoned by his parents and in this video we get to meet his mother. She comes to pick him up so she can get the money his dead father left for him when he turns 18. And this fucked me up. I think was mainly because of how much it was established that Jeffy didn't want to go with her. There are multiple scenes of him just begging not to leave and even after rewatching it years later, it still is extremely sad and acted really well. I think it established a lot of fear of being separated from my parents and just low poverty areas in general. His mother is established as being very trashy and on the lower end of society, smoking, drinking while pregnant and just generally being a piece of shit. For quite a while I was really afraid of being separated from my parents and not being with them, and I think it might have even stunted my ability to form relationships. Luckily I think I've gotten over it for the most part but it appears occasionally and blindsides me. Around 2020-2021 there was this really fucked up "trend" based around this Confessions post where this woman tried to abandon her autistic son by a river to die and I had to take a break from social media until it died down for quite a while. I don't even know why the fuck the SML team did that episode. It wasn't a goodbye or "we're taking a break" episode because the status quo is back by the end, it wasn't trying to address a serious issue because there are still a lot of jokes and Jeffy's mother does return once or twice later on, it wasn't supposed to be like a DARE PSA because... well I already don't think there was an epidemic of women abandoning their children and none of them were watching fucking Super Mario Logan. I genuinely think it was just made to fuck with kids because this was around the time Logan started to bitch about his monetization being taken away because a lot of children were watching their videos.

*** = listener speaking
Can be monetised, just please link back to either this post or my YouTube!
Gender(s) can be changed if wanted!
~~~
Sweetie!
[grab]
I’ve been looking all over for you! This isn’t your usual area, why are you cleaning up over here?
***
Oh, right, father has guests coming, doesn’t he?
Ugh, that means I’m going to have to make small talk with their daughters instead of being able to hang out with you…
[speaker sighs]
Well, it doesn’t matter right now!
Come on, come on! Let’s go hang out right now! Take a break!
***
Oh, who cares about them?
They might be in charge of the schedule, but I’m in charge of them.
If they have an issue with you taking a much-needed break at the request of the lady of the house, I’ll happily deal with them.
Okay? Now, let’s go outside and get some sunlight!
[walk outside; sit]
Ahhh, it’s always nice to have the fresh air hit your face when you come outside, isn’t it?
I wish your job would let you come outside more often. You’re going to look all washed-out if you don’t get enough sunlight!
That beautiful complexion of yours is a national treasure, it needs to be preserved!
Speaking of preserving your beauty…
[brush cheek]
You’re covered in dust and dirt!
Why do they always seem to give you all the dirtiest jobs?
***
Why should it matter that everyone else is doing the same jobs?
You’re different! You shouldn’t have to get on your hands and knees like the rest of them.
Just so you know, my offer to make you part of my personal staff still stands.
Think about it! No more dust and dirt, better standing amongst the staff, better pay - I’m sure that I could even get my father to give you better wages than the rest of them.
Plus… we’d get to be together even when you’re working.
***
Still no?
You won’t change your mind at all?
Not even a little bit?
***
…Okay.
But - also! If - for some reason - the reason is that you don’t want to work on my personal staff, I’m more than happy to get you any job within the mansion.
And like I’ve said the past fourteen times, my offer is always on the table! For whatever you want, the small promotion, or even just a pay raise!
***
Oh, right! I almost forgot why I needed to see you!
I’ve brought more gifts for you~
***
I know, I know, last time the presents I got you were too elaborate for your tastes.
In hindsight, those paintings may have been too large to hang in your room… and you likely weren’t in a position to take care of a bear cub.
These gifts are far more simple, I swear on my mother’s grave!
Can you take a look at them before you reject them? Please?
***
[happy noise; opens a box]
This one is smaller than the other one - smaller as in importance, not size, I promise! - so I’ll start with this one.
Do you like it?
***
Yes, it’s a necklace! It’s not just a regular one though - have a look at the charm!
I had it custom-made, to make it small enough to wear it under your shirt while you’re working!
***
Well… it isn’t actually my family’s emblem.
See this dove right here?
I had the blacksmith add this in order to represent you.
You’re just as important to me as my family, after all - actually, more so!
Plus, by editing it a little bit, it doesn’t matter that you’re not actually part of the family yet, so no one can tell you to take it off.
***
Okay… I may or may not have had to bribe the blacksmith to make this one.
I don’t get why both you two are hung up about the fact that it’s ‘defamatory’. It’s just an emblem!
What’s so important about a legacy? I prefer to focus on the present… especially since you’re in it.
Life must have been so dull for my ancestors since they didn’t have someone like you around to light up their life. I pity them.
…You’re still looking unsure.
Listen, if anyone says anything, even my father, tell them that I gave it to you.
Admittedly I haven’t told my father I bought it for you yet… he’s still a little upset with me for when I left the prince’s ball to watch the stars with you… but when hasn’t he come around about us before?
Don’t fret over it. …Let me put the necklace on you.
Please?
[happy noise; necklace click]
…It looks wonderful on you.
When it’s just the two of us, make sure you wear it on top of your clothes.
I want to see this sight every day for the rest of my life…
Do you like it?
***
You do? So you’ll keep it?
***
Yes! Finally, I’ve got your gift tastes all sorted!
And guess what - you’re going to like this one even better!
***
I’m glad you asked!
To start off with a little backstory - do you remember that gardener that kept picking on you? The one that kept slipping plants and bugs into your food?
***
Of course you do… sorry, I didn’t mean to ruin the mood.
This present will make up for it, I promise!
***
[speaker chuckles]
I did a little bit more than fire them.
Here - open this box.
[opens box; drops it]
Ah, careful, you don’t want to get it dirty!
Why did you drop it? Were you so happy you stopped functioning or something?
***
Mhm! It’s a heart!
I couldn’t carry all of that gardener around without people freaking out, so I thought this would be the next best option.
Plus… it’s kind of like giving you my heart, isn’t it?
Just ignore the fact that-
***
…Huh?
What do you mean? …Something’s wrong with me?
Is… is there something on my face?
***
What? Why? What’s wrong with me giving you it as a gift?
You told me how much they were bothering you!
I made sure that they would never do anything to you again!
Didn’t you want that? You kept telling me you wanted them gone!
***
Not like this? But… but…
Why don’t you like it?
[speaker starts crying]
I thought… I thought you’d really like this gift…
Would you rather a different part? A finger? A nail?
O-Or do you want me to just tell you that I’d just tell you I’d got rid of a nuisance permanently next time?
***
But if I don’t get rid of people who are cruel to you properly, they might be mean to you again…
Aren’t you worried about that?
***
No?
***
I… I’m sorry.
If you don’t like it, then… I’ll get rid of the heart.
***
Never again…?
…If I promise not to do something like this again, will you stop being mad at me?
I was only trying to do something good for you, not make you mad.
***
Okay! Okay, I promise! I’m sorry, and I promise I’ll always ask you first how you want me to deal with someone before I do anything to them!
I-Is that okay?
***
So… you’re not mad anymore?
***
Phew… thank you.
I thought my world was going to end.
***
Huh? No, don’t go yet!
[grab]
Stay a little longer! I… I want to hug!
We can’t part on a bad note!
***
It doesn’t matter if you have to get back to work, like I said before, I’ll talk to anyone who raises a complaint.
I need you to hug me so I can be 100% sure you aren’t mad at me.
Surely hugging is better than working?
A-And we can even talk about a replacement gift for the bad one! Whatever you want, no matter how big or rare or pricey!
Please… just stay with me a little bit longer.

I’ve been watching Pawn Stars a lot the past few days… never really watched it before and it’s pretty interesting. I was just wondering why tf would Rick and the Old Man would give Chum Lee so much like power over sales? I like Chum Lee he seems like a great guy and I bet he really knows his shit, but lets be real he sorta has the mind of a child. I mean no disrespect, but I would not let him have the final say on sales transactions and in charge of so much money.
I get that he’s friends with Rick’s son and after so many years he probably knows his shit, but I just don’t understand why Rick would let him run loose in that show lol he’s always up to some nutty antics I can’t believe Rick puts up with it some times. Idk how old the episodes I’ve been watching are, but is he still working at the shop? Are they still filming new episodes there? And I looked online it says the shop closes at like 9pm I believe…. Maybe 5pm I forget, but all I know is Google says the store closes. But yet on the show they said the can do sales and loans and stuff like that at like midnight if they want too. Is it really opened all night? It’s crazy they’re 24/7 can anyone here actually confirm for me if they’re open all the time late night like that? And does it get really busy at the shop? Is it common to actually get helped by the Pawn Stars stars when you go there or are they not at the counter like that?

Ok, so, I used to live in a different (southern) state during my childhood than the one I live in now (I live in the Northern US, originally born in this northern state as well). I lived in this other state from the ages of 6 until I was almost 16, and throughout the entirety of my elementary and middle school years up until the middle of 9th grade (which was at the high school, some start at 10th grade instead of 9th).
There were 2 main bullies that I dealt with starting in 1st grade/first school year after moving to this state, and as the years went on, these two girls (let's call them Marie & Clarisse) would get their friends in on bullying me. I wasn't popular by any means, but my mother always had me in sports and extracurricular activities with these girls, so I could never really escape them. It was just as bad outside of anything school related as Marie has two younger brothers that my brother was friends with, so I had to pretend to be the 'best of friends' with Marie from 1st grade up until about the end of 7th grade since our families drifted apart from being "close friends".
As far as typical bullying goes in elementary school, I dealt with constant name-calling and cruel "pranks", mostly aimed towards my weight, I wasn't fat, but I wasn't skinny either despite being in sports and was always active. However, those incidents extended to my stuff being stolen, like my notebooks I'd use for schoolwork, or my box of pencils/pens/etc., forcing me to constantly borrow from the few friends I actually had or from the teachers. I used to be in band (which started in 6th grade in that school district), and I played the clarinet, my stepdad had bought me a very nice/sturdy and somewhat expensive tote bag to put my clarinet, music stand, and music binders in for easier storage and to keep my hands free when transporting my 'equipment'. Us band kids were allowed to keep our instruments behind the curtains of the stage in the school's cafeteria (the stage was against the farthest wall from the kitchen/lunch lines), and out of the ~20 kids in band, only my expensive/sturdy tote bag was stolen within the last 2 days of 6th grade, of course suspects were Marie & Clarisse (I saw Clarisse using my tote bag that summer, as my now-smudged name had been written in permanent marker on the straps and one of the sides of the bag). I left it be because I didn't want any conflict, my stepdad bought me another one after finding out the original one was stolen in the first place.
Middle school wasn't much better as the name calling got extensively more graphic and consisted of slurs (like the F slur, as I'm proudly part of the LGBTQ+ community, specifically AgendeNon-binary), furthering the self-hurting thoughts that had started in 3rd grade. I had continuously tried to tell my mom and stepdad about it, only for my pleas for help to go unheard until one week during the winter season in 7th grade. I had gotten sick for 2 days and stayed home an extra day to recover, but during those three days, Marie, Clarisse and their friends had made an Instagram account, posting very unattractive pictures of fellow classmates (i.e. purposely taking pictures with very unflattering angles, poor lighting, etc) and blamed it on me since they put my address in the private information into that account. My mom had found the account, immediately asking about if I was the one behind it, she unfortunately didn't believe me until *after* she ripped my phone from me to look through it for "evidence" that I made the account. When I returned to school the following Thursday after recovering from the small cold, I was constantly bombarded by fellow students about the account since Marie & Clarisse were the ones that spread the obvious false rumor that I made it. By the end of the day, I had finally snapped, yelling "I didn't make that f-cking account. Why can't everyone just stop bothering me about it?" Of course, that earned plenty of attention from the teachers and students within earshot (and thanks to the tiled floors and walls, my yelling echoed throughout most of the first floor and partly into the second floor of my school), I ended up having to talk with the counselor about the whole ordeal because of my frustrated outburst, which resulted with very little help from the staff, but after a few weeks, people seemed to forget that the account even existed since it ended up deleted within a few days after my outburst.
That following school year, 8th grade, was even worse. Sure, the slurs, the other name-calling and thievery of my belongings continued (more so the slurs/name-calling), but by this year, I was almost constantly committing the self-hurting since my mother was of no help, my stepdad was sympathetic but always working and the therapist my mother found for me was basically a deadbeat with bullying situations (she didn't seem to understand or even want to actually help me with the bullying as she was more of a family therapist than anything else). For the district curriculum, we are required to take health class in 8th grade, and as we were going over the unit that encompassed depression, self-harm, and su!c!dal thoughts/actions, I constantly had to have another staff member in the back of the classroom to watch over me and take me out of the class if any of the course material triggered an episode. Thankfully the staff member was that was there for me was the school's police officer, let's call him Officer Lennox, he was like a protective older brother, especially after finding out about how consistently I was bullied. Near the end of the unit, we had to watch Ronan's Escape (it's on YouTube), and since I was going through my own version of Ronan's situation, I ended up breaking down sobbing in class, only to be laughed at by some of the boys that were close friends with Marie & Clarisse. Officer Lennox snapped at them as professionally as possible while helping me out of the classroom to go sit with the nurse to have some downtime to stop sobbing before I was allowed back to my classes.
Another situation, which is the worst of it in 8th grade, was this one girl, let's call her Ava. She thought it would be hilarious to eavesdrop into my conversations with my best friend (we'll refer to her as Raven since that was a nickname she used) throughout lunch and shared classes, only to take our conversations completely out of context in order to string up a lie that Raven and I were planning to unalive the principle. Of course, this wasn't true, the principle was an a-hole to everyone, and Raven & I would discuss that we greatly disliked him. Ava mostly got away with spreading this lie as her mom was a higher-up in the school district, forcing Raven and I to entirely change our class schedules so we weren't in any classes with Ava, as well as almost being expelled. Thanks to Officer Lennox sticking up for both of us, we only had to have in-school suspension for 3 days instead of being expelled. Sadly, Ava got very little repercussions from this, but Raven and I grew even closer as best friends after "The Incident" as we still refer to it as almost 10 years later.
Summer rolled through without a hitch, leading to 9th grade, the start of high school. I was given more freedom from my mother (she's a helicopter parent and abusive/narcissistic) to dress in clothing that I preferred in comparison to always wearing brightly colored athletic wear. I completely changed my appearance, chopped my hair from just above the small of my back to a punk pixie-styled cut, and started wearing graphic t-shirts, ripped jeans, combat boots, and leather jackets. On top of that, I started becoming more confrontational/combative towards my bullies, since they still wouldn't let up, I earned a "bad@ass/bad b!tch" reputation, made friends with other rebellious and misfit types of people in the grades above me, and just fully became more of "me" despite the disapproval from my mother of the amount of change I undergone.
Despite being 14 at the start of 9th grade, I began dating, specifically one fellow student that was a very close friend and felon, he went to jail/juvie throughout the 2nd half of 7th grade and all of 8th grade. He came to the high school 3 months after the year started, and our friendship-turned-relationship sparked right back up as if he never left. I had kept my dating life secret from my family, mostly my mother because I know how bad her reaction would've been if I told her. With him almost always by my side (excluding classes we didn't share), my brand-new appearance, and my quickly attained delinquent/rebellious reputation, most of my issues dissipated much quicker than before. In spite of that, Marie & Clarisse kept making their remarks, trying to drag down my new confidence and constantly break my felon boyfriend (let's call him Collin) and I up. They got more degrading and verbally abusive with these antics, I eventually was completely fed up with it all. In the middle of the school year, within a couple weeks after Yule (Christmas for the non-pagans) & New Years Break, Marie, Clarisse and their group of friends had stopped me in the hallway, purposely surrounding me (there was about 30 of them in total) on my way to class, continuing with their shtick as usual, I slipped the pocketknife out of my pocket, flicking it open as I finally gave in and threatened to unalive them and everyone they care for if they don't leave me the f-ck alone. They saw the opened knife and knew then & there that I was 100% serious, I turned on my heels, shoving through them only to notice the principal and school's police officer (not officer Lennox) staring at me with concerned expressions, they also noticed the knife as there was a glint from the blade due to the blindly bright lights in the hallway. Not a word was uttered as they walked away, never sending a call to my mother or stepdad about the weapon or the confrontation as they had seen my progression in attitude and the amount of f-cks I had (which was none). After that day, those girls never spoke to me again, would barely glance in my direction, would purposely take alternate routes to class if they saw me in the hallway (or would keep to the wall if they couldn't move quick enough), and if we shared any classes, they'd be on the opposite side of the room from me and would do everything they could to never be partnered/grouped with me in class projects.
Everything was smooth sailing from then on, and now I'm 22 (as of late April this year), happily living with my bio-dad, my brother and my 2-year-old kitty, Ziggy. My mother is out of the picture entirely as she refuses to change her mindset and parenting style. I'm still confrontational towards anyone that tries messing with me, especially if they're anti-LGBTQ+/racist/abusive/etc. And thanks to my continuation of my drastic change from 8th grade to 9th grade, I'm now considered both the protector and the therapist to my friends, always there for them because I grew up knowing what it was like to not have that kind of support. I hope this story of roughly half my life can provide some sort of comfort or proof that it does indeed get better, even if it doesn't seem like it in the moment.

Hi everyone! I've never been Catholic but I've lurked here for years, so let me start by telling you a bit about who I am and why I am randomly in your reddit.
I was raised in a fringe religious group (a "cult" or "new religious movement") that no longer exists in a meaningful way. I was married in the group when I was 19 and my husband and I pretty much left the day after the wedding. The group, called the Worldwide Church of God, was in severe decline at the time, so it was partly a "leaving" and partly just watching our religious group crash and burn, which was hard. We lost connection with a lot of family members and dear friends.
I eventually joined an evangelical Anglican church, which, for me, was a very progressive choice compared to where I came from. I even worked as a children's minister for several years. I ended up having really severe depression and anxiety (among other issues) as I deconstructed my faith and became the kind of agnostic seeker I am today.
I became a researcher who studies the experiences of women's religious exits. It can be a bit different for women who leave religious communities and there aren't a lot of supports out there. Lots of women go through their transitions in secret, too. "Physically in, mentally out." That's lonely, especially if you're going through a faith transition without your partner. Believe me; I've been there.
I've started a substack as a way of bringing together women who are in religious and spiritual transition of all kinds.
It's pretty new, but I'm hoping it can be a place to share stories, build community, and learn. One thing I've noticed in my research is that the women I studied went through a phase of intense learning as they transitioned, wanting to learn about religious studies, philosophy, psychology, among others. And try lots of new things along the way! I especially wish I'd had a place to talk about different kinds of experimentation in a non-judgmental way.
So if you're looking to be a part of something new and, I hope, exciting and uplifting, please join us at Sisterwild! We've got a new podcast episode every week + a newsletter on Sunday night and some exciting events, both online and in person, coming up this year!

I noticed the new episode of demon slayer is out: To Defeat Muzan Kibutsuji but I havent seen the latest movie and it doesnt appear to be online yet. Do I need to watch the movie first?

Just finished watching this episode where a rape victim's daughter (vivian) had given her son up to olivia. I honestly wish that was her kid forever. From what I recall since I am rewatching, the mother comes back in later episodes high and removes her as his guardian.. does anyone else feel like he should've been a permanent character in the show ?? I also found it extremely unfair when she did just yank her kid back

Im looking for more animes to watch the more episodes the better ill include a list of ones ive seen please dont recomend one peice ive tryed it didnt like it but im open to other ideas my favorites are isikei ones
*Fairy tail *Rave master ( same people who made fariytail *Edens zero ( also same people that made fairytail) *Grandblue fantasy *Violet evergarden *Little witch acaidamia *The riseing of the sheild hero *Attack on titan *Sword art online *Ranma 1/2 *Bleach *Full metal alcamist *Black butler *Inuyasha *Angel tales *Big o *Cowboy bebop *Dragonball series like dbz dragonball gt or dragonball super *Excel saga *Gantz *Kekkaishi *Lupin III *medabots *Naruto *Robotech *Ronin warriors *Rosario+vampire *Rurouni kenshin *Sailor moon *Seven deadly sins *Soul eater *Tenchi (any but tenchi muyo ryo ohki is the start) *Tower of druaga *Trigun *Witchblade *neon genisus evangelion *daliy life of the immortal king *i've somehow gotten stronger when i improved my farm related skills *how not to summon a demon lord *zoids *that time i got reincarnated as a slime *banished from the heros party *the world finest assassin gets reincarnated in a diffrent world as an aristocrat *black summoner *the wrong way to use healing magic *tales of wedding rings *log horizon *reincarnated as a sword *in another world with my smartphone *is it wrong to try and pick up girls in a dungeon *chilvery of a failed knight *my unique skill makes me op even at lvl 1 *bofuri i dont want to get hurt so ill max out my defence *farming life in another world *the hidden dungeon only i can enter *cyborg 009 *yu yu hakusho *zatch bell *rwby *Black clover *Hunter x hunter *Tsukimichi-moonlit fantasy- *Am i acually the strongest *Saveing 80,000 gold in another world for my retirement *Re zero starting life in another world *Didnt i say to make my abilitys advrage in the next life *Ascendance of a bookworm *how a realist hero rebuilt the kingdom *cilling in another world with level 2 super cheat powers *I Shall Survive Using Potions *I've Been Killing Slimes for 300 Years and Maxed Out My Level *The Greatest Demon Lord Is Reborn as a Typical Nobody *Mushoku Tensei *Isekai Cheat Magician *I'm Quitting Heroing *So I’m a spider so what *By the grace of gods

Watching last nights episode, Tennie sits her kids down to tell them “Daddy” won’t be home when they thought.
Why are these women, because Tennie is just the latest, I’ve seen several do this-insist on having their kids call men in jail “Daddy”? Sometimes these kids have never met these men but thru a phone call and these mothers are all Daddy this and Daddy tht-are they so desperate for this family unit that they force this title on men that 1) don’t deserve it 2) have never parented these kids?
It’s so weird to me.

TW: religious abuse, eluding to self-harm, mental health issues, transphobia, homophobia, mention of conversion therapy (but don't worry, there is a happy ending.)
In my country, there are these masses called "rainbow masses" during Pride-weeks and in some cities, like mine, a few times a year. These are held by the country's evangelical lutheran church. I went to one of these masses 5 years ago, and again a few days ago. 5 years ago it didn't feel so emotional, but now it did. I cried during and afterwards. First, because I realized how bad the religious abuse was in my youth. Second, because I felt like I had rekindled a relationship with an old friend who was very dear to me but who I had to pull away from because the people around Him were so toxic.
When I was a kid, I used to feel so safe in Christian circles. The people I talked to weren't mean, they were kind, truly, and not in a weird way, like they wanted something from you. When I was in confirmation camp, a boy there prayed for me - he didn't say that it was me, but I knew, because he looked at my wrist that day and fell silent, and he said he prayed for his classmate. I knew that I was that classmate.
It all crumbled when I realized I wasn't straight - I had a crush on someone who was the same sex as me. My parents started to go to a fundamentalist church at this time. There, a priest very openly preached about how wrong it was to be gay, and trans, and non-binary, and all other things under the rainbow, and they hated that LGBTQ+ people used the rainbow as their symbol. Suddenly, people around me, my mother included, held very casual conversations about how awful it was to be a LGBTQ+ person, how sinful it was to get married, to even want to get married, with someone of the same sex, and how weird gay men looked and acted, and how ugly lesbians were, and how trans people were deluded. Many of them believed in conversion therapy.
I prayed a lot when I was 14. I prayed to Jesus and asked, many many times, "Why is it wrong? Why is it wrong if I feel attraction to people regardless of gender? My love isn't lustful, so why is it wrong?"
I felt I got an answer. The answer was, "Is it?"
I imagined myself hugging Jesus and crying in his arms. There, he told me, "I love you as you are - no matter who you love or who you become."
And that was my truth. The foundation of my faith. My relationship with Jesus was that of love and acceptance, regardless of what I looked like or what I did in my life and with whom.
Unfortunately, my family disagreed with my views. I became a loud supporter of queer rights in our household. I have 6 siblings. I was the only one who disagreed with our mother's views. I was told that gay people go to hell. No redemption. They didn't know that it would mean that I would be going to hell.
No redemption.
I was branded as an evil person. My mom used to say that I take my little sister and brother "to the path of evil" even before I was a teenager. But it got worse.
Because I realized I was transgender at age 17. At that time, I was completely lost. My identity and my faith were at odds, according to my parents and the church they go to. Me being able to love both boys and girls was something "easy" to hide from them, because I tended to be more attracted to feminine men. After you realize you're trans, it's really hard to hide. It becomes an obsession. You think about it every night and day, until you finally say it out loud. Then the weight gets lighter, but you still feel like there is something very heavy in your heart.
I went through a terrible depressive episode. I got on antidepressants and they made me psychotic. During this psychotic episode I became confused. What was real and what was not? I thought that my consciousness would transfer into a tree and I would just watch eternity go on forever until the world ended.
I had to choose. My faith, or my sanity?
I chose my sanity. I said to myself that nothing that can be proven real, isn't real. I was 17 then. I felt my mind become stable, but a cold feeling spread in my chest. It was both comforting and sad. My old friend, my first ally, my first safe adult, my only safe parent-figure, had left my heart. I said, "I need to find who I am without you and these people who claim to speak for you."
I wanted to transition. I couldn't do so without my parents' permission, so I told my mom. It went surprisingly well. She was quiet and asked a few questions. I thought that maybe she accepted me.
I was naïve.
When me and my parents met with the doctor who was supposed to make the referral to the gender clinic, they said that they don't accept my identity because they're Christians. I felt betrayed. I thought that they were okay with it since they didn't say anything. My mom told my other siblings. My big brother had said to her, "you have to force her to stay a girl", and, according to my mom, my big sister had also said something really awful but when I asked my sister about it later she denied it. Still, her husband had said that their kids shouldn't see me because I'm trans.
My mom told me there was a therapist specialized in gender-related stuff, recommended by the priest of the church she went to. The same priest that preached about how wrong it was to be gay and trans. I knew it was conversion therapy, which isn't illegal in my country, and my father doesn't believe in forcing people, so I refused to go. Then she told me there was a woman in that church, who felt she was a man inside, but who didn't do anything about it because of her faith. My mom asked, "Why can't you be like her?"
I went to the gender clinic at 18 and moved out at 19. I started transitioning at 21. I am now 24, living as a man. I feel no regret as to how I did things.
I was 19 when I went to a rainbow mass last time. It wasn't emotional then. It was just strange.
Earlier this year, I watched Netflix's Sex Education's last season. There were queer Christians. I'm not going to spoil this if you have yet to watch it, but this season made me cry so much. I had never even seen queer Christians before. It made me think about the time 10 years ago when I prayed and prayed to Jesus to accept me... and He did. Just as He would accept me now. And then I promised myself that if I become a Christian again, I will never, ever, ever, hate myself or be ashamed of myself for who I am or go into the closet. I will never become judgmental or hateful.
I went to another rainbow mass a few days ago. I cried before and afterwards. I was emotional as soon as I stepped into the church. Someone was playing the organ, and I picked up a hymn book from the back. I sat somewhere to the side by myself. I felt a warm sensation in my heart. Like I met an old friend after so many years. He had been waiting for me. I couldn't sing half of the hymns because a lot of them just made me tear up.
I'm still unsure of many things regarding the Bible and faith and Christianity. I don't feel a need to label myself at the moment. But I love Jesus. I believe in Jesus. I believe that He is kind, open-minded and loving, and that being kind, open-minded and loving is the greatest way to show my love for Him.

Im 28 this year in September, and since around age 19 I have had fairly high levels of anxiety especially in social situations. I always found it hard to speak my mind in groups and enjoy activities without over analysing myself and others reactions toward me. I have manged before by doing hobbies I enjoy, like gardening, walking and being outdoors.
Only, over the past year or so, since watching my mother slowly pass away from a terrible illness, Motor neuron disease. I have found it incredibly difficult to manage the anxious thoughts of being a failure and also started getting quite depressed, especially through the past winter where I couldn't enjoy the sunshine and warm weather (Thanks UK, born in south africa and my body needs sun☀️)
I finally got the courage to speak to my doctor about it a few months ago and she prescribed sertraline, but after reading about the side effects online I did not take it and but the box in the cupboard and forgot about it.. but I was still really struggling to enjoy life, work and family time.
So I phoned her up again and she assured me it's worth trying, and side effects are rare. So I did... I started with 25mg for the first 5 days, then 50mg for about 6 weeks.
Initially (First 2-3weeks) the side effects where difficult and I felt alot more anxious and my mood was very erratic, feeling great some days and really low other days, that has passed and my only side effects now are feeling very foggy and tired in the mornings before getting out of bed, I've never had a very high libido so don't notice a change in that.
I REALLY noticed around 5 weeks of taking sertraline, that my mood levelled out ALOT and I felt so much more in control of my day. First thing I noticed is I wasn't stuck in my head anymore. If I want to do something or say something, I say it with confidence rather than being terrified of what others may think.
My enjoyment in life has gone up tremendously, with work and with socialising.. I feel like I can be myself without getting stuck in my head, full of worry and self doubt. I'm also sleeping very well, and found taking it at night helps with daytime sleepiness. I first took it in the morning and felt a crash around 3pm everyday, switching to nights helped with that alot.
2 days ago I decided to increase my dose to 100mg, my phsycatrist advised me to do this because I still have had some episodes of social anxiety and occasional low mood. We decided to try going up to 100mg for a few weeks and feel how it is.

So I just re-watched Commandatori, And I feel like the reason why Tony is so bitter at the end of the episode is because Annalisa represents everything he wants to be.
Tony’s biggest problem in the show is that he’s unable to deal with the various stresses in his life, so he has to see Melfi in order to talk about his problems. In season one, Tony’s stresses were a result of the combined factors of not being able to deal with the stresses of overseeing the day-to-day operations of the mob, his overbearing mother’s antics, the looming thought of potentially going to prison or being killed and the problems with his immediate family at home. But when he goes to Italy and sees Annalisa and how she lives, he becomes jealous and bitter because he can never have that.
Annalisa doesn’t have to worry about the cops because the mafia is the effective government in the part of Italy she lives in and she doesn’t have an overbearing emotionally manipulative Mother to deal with, but a senile old man who’s been reduced to just a few sentences and doesn’t know where he is.
Unlike Tony who frequently had spats with his mother due to her borderline personality disorder, Analisa‘s father‘s condition makes it easy for her to take care of and to have a positive relationship with him which is something Tony has always yearned for with his mother.
At the end of his trip to Italy, Tony’s decision not to bang Annalisa is a result of all these factors, and the fact that unlike him; she doesn’t need therapy to deal with anger issues and anxiety attacks. All Annalisa needs to deal with her stress to burn her toenail clippings and she’ll remain the confident and commanding leader she needs to be. For the first time he’s able to respect a woman enough that he’s able to see her not as an object but as an equal.
Now, obviously, Tony only sees glimpses of Annalisa’s life and doesn’t actually know what she thinks about her life, but it’s his perception of her that leads him to that bitterness at the end of the episode.

I feel bad for Hating my nephew. My nephew is 13. My family has had custody of him since January of this year. My nephew in all fairness hasn’t ever really had it easy. His father left when he was 3. His mother never remarried but became very close to an old friend, who proceeded to raise my nephew as his own. From the ages of 4 to 11 before he passed away. Granted my nephew however is not an easy child. His issues started when he was about 8 years old. Setting fires, stealing things, stealing from his school, pathologically lying, and getting violent. He used to beat his mother black and blue, and yes despite being small and young, my sister is a skinny twig, so he really packed those punches and cause she would bruise very easily. He’d call her a shit mom, tell her to fuck off, the cops had to called countless times before he was even 10. To the point the cops just stopped responding even telling my nephew “ he was a very troubled kid, and the cops wouldn’t even react if his mother flipped the switch and beat him”. Countless hours of medication and counseling seemed to only stop the fires, not the lying or stealing. He would threaten his stepdad by telling him he was not his father. Because he couldn’t attack my brother in law as he was a 6’5 250 man, he’d hurt him by destroying his dead fathers memorabilia ( his father was a pretty small town famous tattoo artist and show performer). So that was all my brother in law had left of him, and my nephew would destroy it. I’ve had to run over and help my sister and him rein my nephew back in. One night we asked him to please put the stack of clean ceramic plates away, he Argued and thought it’d be best to just raise them up and slam them down on the kitchen floor. I was not wearing shoes and got cut a bunch from the shards flying. As time went on and the more difficult my nephew got, my brother in law and sister started to drink. Not much and not all day or everyday. Talking to my brother in law privately he’d cry and be so stressed he was losing weight. He became more and more withdrawn. Finally he got incredibly sick and was given a couple months to live. The stress combined with the alcohol caused his organs to fail. I feel I share my head with 5 other people, my psychiatrist thinks it’s part of my schizophrenia. So while I consciously don’t blame my nephew for my bother in laws death, the other people in my head certainly do. My sister shutdown while still trying to deal with my nephew. She called me one morning begging me to come over while crying. I walk in to her asking my nephew to please get dressed for school, she’s tired of getting truancy letters (he’d run away before school would start, he was 10 at this point), only for him to scream at her “shut the fck up you stupid btch). He knew I didn’t play like that so as soon as he saw me albeit sobbing he put his clothes on and I walked him to the campus and watched him go in ( sometimes he’d head to school but never actually go in). When he was 12 so last year my sister really hit a new low, got a new man, who In turn gave my nephew a gaming computer, consoles and vr headsets. He’s now acting like a 26 year old computer addict.
I think my sister let it happen because she had been dealing with my nephew by herself for years, and at this point I think she didn’t care what he did as long as he wasn’t screaming, swearing, breaking things or hurting her. Like I said we’ve had him for awhile, him living with us has been hard. Food constantly goes missing, he constantly lies, or takes peoples things and won’t admit it. Some days my mother is understanding and forgiving some days she doesn’t seem to notice anything. She is 74 and doesn’t notice a lot. I’ve noticed my nephew is also a great gaslighter and manipulator. So he can convince her that he accidentally took her brand new towels and threw them away by accident, or that he doesn’t know how a broken bowl wound up underneath his bed. And most times my mom just accepts his answers while not understanding why I’m getting on him so hard. I had a breaking point a few weeks ago, I know it may seem small compared to what others think. But we had just a conversation with him about not eating peoples ice creams (that’s the biggest thing he does is takes sweets) we tell him just ask and we’ll be more than happy to share with you. I had a frozen yogurt I was saving for after my physical therapy appointment. Came home. It was gone. I asked him and he screamed and cried he didn’t take it. I found the remnants later and sent him a video to only then did he confess that he had taken it. Lately my other sister who lives with me and along with her kid can’t take it anymore. Even though it’s easy for her to block my nephew out as she has her own kid, she can’t stand the yelling when he’s on the computer or coming home and everyone’s fight with him. She is moving out this summer, and I’m planning on moving out next January. I have attachment disorder. I love hard and easily but once you screw that up it doesn’t come back to me easily.
Before my brother died I hadn’t spoken to him in 10 years after what he said to me during a depressive episode when I was 10. I didn’t like him and I wanted nothing to do with him as he himself was an alcoholic with anger issues. Point being I’m seeing my nephew the same way I see my brother. I admit I don’t like him. I admit I try to tel myself repeatedly he’s been through sh*t and he needs help but a part of me is like “ you’ve been his half parent since he was 3 and you’ve been trying to reel in his behavior since he was 8. He’s now 13. So yes it’s getting harder and harder to have sympathy for his situations. I don’t really acknowledge him anymore other than when I am giving his cat back (his cat is a kitten and can’t be left alone while he’s in school so I take care of him during the day). I noticed I don’t respond anymore when he says “ I love you”.
I am bipolar and schizophrenic. When I start to lose my shit my moms all confused as to why and I point out to her my conditions and tell her it’s been a long time coming. For a bipolar person to always keep their anger under control 24/7 for 5 months is very hard and yes sometimes my brain just spills out. Don’t worry I’m still mentally there so I understand it’s best not to have a meltdown in front of children which is why I always retreat to my room and don’t come out for the day. I’m torn because I am the family caretaker. I take care of the dogs, cats, 7 chickens, the gardening, the cleaning and the cooking and cleaning up the kitchen. As I said my mother is 74. She’s had nothing but screwed up children all her life since she was in her 30s. 5 kids and all of us ended with some mental illness or another. I know she’s tired, and I know she’s breaking down (I’m sorry I’m starting to cry). I’m scared to move out cause I’m afraid the difficulty of raising my nephew is gonna stress her out so bad she too might die sooner rather than later. She was already very physically sick last month. She’s mentally stressed out and always exhausted. My sister lost custody of my nephew as I said.
I truly believe part of the reason she refuses to fight for custody of my nephew is because she doesn’t want him and his behaviors backs. From vandalizing the school property to stealing from people, she is over it, my other sister is over it, I’m over it but trying to be strong for my mom. And my mom I think is just numb from him. We’re great at still doing what an auntie and grandmother should do. Play with him, listen to his rants, try to calm him down when he’s mad. Gently point out his mistakes, take him out to a movie or food, or the arcade. But it’s all a facade internally. I won’t even mention how a 13 year old treats female classmates or his perverted views on them. We’ve have to tried to get him admitted, we’ve tried medication, we’ve tried counseling but this child knows he can just run away and refuse. The cops have given up on doing anything with him. So for the time being, everyone has to hide they’re stuff in personal fridges in our bedrooms. Good we don’t want taken or missing. I have cameras in my room, the garage has a motion sensor light, we all have to hide out debit cards and wallets as he’s been known to steal those as well countless times. It sucks. I know deep down subconsciously I love him like a little brother. Consciously my schizophrenia does not like him. I have the type where I hear, smell or have multiple voices in my head. Like I said it’s like having 5 other people living in my head. Luckily my schizophrenia is controlled heavily by therapy, medication and as I know the difference between right and wrong, and can comprehend one’s emotional well-being so I never lash out at anyone but it doesn’t stop the voices from speaking they’re truths. Sucks watching him walk in and the voices immediately saying sht like “ yea he’s gonna end like all the screwed up men in this family” Guys he’s only 13, he’s been through stuff “Shut up OP even you’re sick of his sht, you can’t even say I love you too back when he says it”
I know I just freeze up cause emotionally I’m conflicted, I’m trying to give him the benefit of the doubt and have hope. But in that moment i don’t how to respond when he says that.
“B*tch you’re on your own, all of us have no hope”
I’m at a loss of what to do. I want my own space for my mental wellbeing. Yes having the second floor and balcony to myself is nice but I feel I need my own own space. But I’m terrified of leaving my mother alone with the animals, house and mostly my nephew. I am however forcing her to go to Barcelona for a month, so I’m hoping that’ll at least give her brain time to relax. I’ve talked to my counselor and therapist, they are kind of at a loss of what to do as well. Except increasing my dosages especially on my anxiety meds. I don’t mind it but it makes me very stoned out and that makes me fall behind in house tasks, cause I’m just tired all the time. I’m scared, I’m tired of crying, I’m tired of being angry, I’m just tired. Between the house, yard, animals, my nephew, and my mothers well-being, I’m very tired. I’m sorry for the long rant, I’ve been sitting on this for a while and I feel I can’t tell anyone. Just need it out.