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I (15F) and my Older sister Eli (22F) have gotten along for most of my childhood, I remember her as my hero and Shield for helping me and my younger sister Luz (12F) to not get grounded. But over the past few years I can see how she changed as a person, for context, I was her first course of help and advise before my parents because I was well known for knowing more than a 30 year old person, I was the first one to know when she decided to get married at the age of 18 with her now ex Vincent (21M). I was her Bridesmaids and the one that helped her thought the whole thing, like choices of dresses and Make-up, as well as Hair, basically her right hand.
Not long after the marriage Vincent came to my parents house, asking if we've seen her wife, apparently, they got into a fight over some texts on Eli's phone during a party, Vincent was mad, as he had a right to be, his mother was on his side as my mom and dad called Eli with no response. This happened one day before my 13th birthday, I was upset as to why she had runned away and not told me anything as she did always. The next day Eli came to my parents house for some clothes, she looked miserable, she told my dad she was staying over her Grandparents (me and her are only related thanks to my father), my father got mad at her, and she cried in me and now Luz' room for at least an hour, I said nothing because my father told me to.
For months we lost contact with her, and we didn't knew were or with who she was. Until she actually reached out to us, se tried to fix her relationship with Us over gifts, visits and even calls, my mom and dad Helped Eli thought the whole divorce process, everything was okay until we lost contact with her once again. My mom was pissed but said nothing, as well as my dad. Some months later we come to contact again, she told us she had some problems with her partner (who I just had the chance to meet like five times), but everything was okay now. Until her partner died from Blood cancer, she was devastated and she slept with us for a few days, during those few days I stayed up all night to watch over her (me and my sisters slept in the same room and bed), as she talked and moved during her sleep, I bought a night lamp so she could fell secure as she was now scared of darkness, and my mother noticed, she thanked me for taking care of Eli and Luz during sleep.
Our relationship grew, until she found another partner, and left her old MIL's house. Her partner was really chill, overall a great guy, but I never got to meet him fully. They broke up at least 2 times and got back before actually breaking up because the guy cheated. Not a month latter Eli got another partner, During that time as she lived in my parents house, she got into a Fight/Chat with my mom, I was present to whole thing where she claimed she had Depression, anxiety and other problems I can't recall, she never actually went to therapy so she was self diagnosing herself (I hate when people do that). During the fight she claimed that no one cares about her and she had to endure everything alone basically forgetting how I stayed up at night watching over her, helping her to distract herself on other stuff, taking her side at most fights etcetera. I told her "You have a family who cares about you, if you can't see that, is your problem because you're so selfish and Mentally unstable" She looked at me with shocked eyes as I was always a person to keep silent during fights, she told me to not get into the fight as it wasn't none of my business, I told her to suck it up because it was the truth and I went to sleep.
She became distant of me and I didn't mind, I had my friends to distract myself from my family problems. She had at least 2 or 3 other relationships after the during fight guy. She got with a guy who I don't like in any way a few months ago, she now lives with him. She had at least fought with him over 5 times, everytime she "Broke up" with him she would go with me and my mom, Telling us how she will not come back with him because of how he and his mother treats her, at one point my mom got mad, and my dad had to give Eli a long talk as he always did when something wrong happened.
1 month ago my dad died from a heart attack and blood cancer related. I was the one to maintain my composure for more long, i basically helped the rest of my family during the whole funeral, watching over my sister and mother when they slept. Eli cried, saying how she didn't said she loved my dad enough, or that she had a lot to things to apologize for, she hugged the box for the longest as my mother cried uncontrollably, mainly my two sisters and mom cried in my shoulders and chest as I only let some tears go.
We became more closer with my sister, only two days later Eli told us that her MIL told her to suck up her pain as my dad was already dead and another stuff (she sent us an audio of her MIL saying this). I obviously got mad and I told her to tell her MIL to f off.
In the 9th day of my dad's passing (as my dad's family is very religious) they made a praying, I didn't felt good and Eli took me outside, I talked to her and I cried so hard on her shoulder, my eyes where swollen and I could barely Oppen them. She told me that I could rely on her anytime I wanted, going to the beach, for a walk, anytime I wished. Everything went well until her birthday a few weeks ago. We visited and cleaned my dads grave, she told us how her partner called her all sorts of hurtful names because the guy saw her with another dude on a bike (her best friends boyfriend), she told us how her MIL called her name's and made her the bay guy, Bethen other things. She told us she was not going to get back with him, two days latter she went out with her friend, she didn't came Back until 9am the next day, apparently she went back with her "ex" over some cute words he told her, and that was it. Shes now on a business trip, she's posting stuff with her boyfriend and cute stuff that I now find disgusting realising how toxic that couple is.
I realised that Eli can't be without a man, I don't know what to do or what to tell her so she could realize that he's not the one as she said in her WhatsApp status. I can't let her live like this, i really care about her, i suggested therapy but she brushed it off, my mother told me to let her go, but I don't want Eli to end in the streets, or something to happen to her. She's my sister and I care about her, but anytime I want to talk to her privately my mother tells me to not do it and that is not worth it.
So, AITAH for wanting to slap some common sense into my sister?

I'm at my wit's end, hopefully someone can help me resolve this issue. I apologize for the deluge of text you're about to read.
My laptop is an Acer ConceptD 7 Ezel CC715-71, running Windows 11 Pro. I got it late 2020 I believe, and aside from the sound no longer working a few months in and the finger print sensor saying it can't recognize my fingerprint after like a handful of uses until I reset/re-register the fingerprints and anew, only for the process to repeat yet again, it's been perfect.
(I was living in Canada at the time and imported it from the States, so after all the hassle with customs, it wasn't worth jumping through all those hoops to send it back again, even if it was ridiculous that the sound and fingerprint sensor stopped working just a few months in for such an expensive device.)
Fast forward four years to yesterday, and it was working fine, but I went to the bathroom and came back, and suddenly the WiFi wasn't working. It was fine on every other device/phone/laptop/Steam Deck, but no matter what I did, the WiFi refused to connect.
In the past, I've had issues with this laptop being the only device to not connect to the WiFi network in this building, but now it's not detecting any networks. It claims the WiFi is on, but checking in the settings show it isn't. Clicking it on refuses to engage, either failing to do so, or looking like it complies before immediately turning itself off.
Then the WiFi icon/option would disappear entirely, and the Bluetooth did the same. I would find the Bluetooth setting in the Device Manager window when I enable "Show Hidden Devices", but I don't know how or why it was hidden.
My Network Adapter (Intel (R) Wi-Fi 6 AX201160MHz, I believe) would be disabled, and checking the Event tab in the Properties would say things like "Device not started (Netwtw10)" and "Device configured (oem91.inf)" and things like that.
I would try updating, downloading the latest drivers from Acer for my laptop using my phone and transfer it to my phone and try to install them, and sometimes it would say it installed and works, but other times it would say it detected the drivers I wanted to install but failed to install them.
I've tried disabling and enabling the driver, uninstalling and reinstalling it, deleting it and restarting the laptop to automatically get it again (not sure how it did so without the internet, but it would be there, every time), and doing the same for the Bluetooth driver.
Sometimes the WiFi would work for like all of a minute or two, before it would become disabled and find no networks and there would be an error with the driver and the event log saying things like the Device didn't start, and once or twice I think I saw it say "WiFi Device Cannot Start (code 10)".
At this point I was ready to give up and just use my phone as a hotspot for my laptop to connect to and call it a day until I could care enough again, but even that wasn't applicable, because that option for Mobile Hotspot was grayed out and said something about how I couldn't connect it no Ethernet or Wifi device connected. (Specifically, it says "We can't set up mobile hotspot because your PC doesn't have an Ethernet, Wi-Fi, or cellular data connection.)
All through this, my laptop started being fucking weird in that if I clicked "restart", it wouldn't turn itself back on. I'd have to press the power button to do so, and even then, it often wouldn't. I've tried power cycling like three fucking trillion times, and it would never work consistently or turn on after I've let the lights blink several times or waited 30 seconds or 60 seconds or longer.
(Aaaaaaaand I suspected my WiFi would be a bitch again and so I tried to send what I've typed out on the laptop to my phone via Telegram (because typing all this on my phone was getting tedious), but of course, the WiFi went out the SECOND I tried. I was using the Mobile Hotspot option immediately just in case my normal WiFi network went out, but it still disabled itself and wouldn't stay online via Mobile HotSpot when the option was available/not grayed out like it is now.
So I'm going to have to save this wall of text as a text document or something and manually transfer it to my phone.)
I finally decided to do a system restore, selecting one from May 26th, and it took like 30 - 45+ minutes, and of course it didn't restart itself, but when I finally managed to find the right power cycle attempt to get it to turn on, my laptop said the system restore was a success.
Huzzah! It was working. For 30 minutes.
😐
So I tried to download MalwareBytes on my phone, and it downloaded then I transferred it to my laptop, and of course it needed to connect to the internet to download the rest of itself, so it wasn't conducive to anything in this situation.
I tried uninstalling and reinstalling the driver and I (foolishly) thought I had solved my WiFi/Bluetooth issues last night and was even feeling galvanized to try and open up the bottom of my laptop and see if the sound issue I've been avoiding dealing with/coping by using Bluetooth earbuds/headphones for the past four years was as simple as something being unplugged, so I went to get my strebito kit, which I see everywhere around me and in my vicinity, except of course (you guessed it) the one time in four years that I actually genuinely needed it :))))))))))))))))
I also got a BSOD today, and I think I glimpsed it saying something like "ACPI block management", but it was very quick so I can't be sure. I tried to google that, but the only ACPI answers I could see in relation to googling it for reddit solutions (lol I love that everyone has had a problem before and that there is invariably a reddit thread with that exact problem, situation, and solution) were in relation to ACPI BIOS errors, so it may have been that.
I tried accessing the BIOS (which took a lot and trial of error in power cycling because of how inconsistent it is that my laptop has been with turning on since yesterday). Of course, I had apparently previously set a BIOS password when trying to allow my laptop to boot into Batocera like a year or so ago, and I apparently am not intelligent enough to have had the foresight to write it down in a note or document on my phone, despite me knowing my ADHD/memory is garbagio, so I always make it a POINT to do so, because I don't trust my powers of recollection (and apparently, as evidenced by this instance, with good fucking reason!).
Of course, I forgot to mention that now my laptop freezes, including when I was writing up a majority of this thread in the aforementioned notepad, so now I can't even transfer it and have to re-type what few paragraphs I see (I had JUST scrolled down to make more distance between the bottom of the text and the document because I hate not having that visual buffer between the text and the bottom of the window, it makes me feel like the text is running out or more difficult to see/continue) on my phone anyways, so that was yet another obstacle. 🙃
So, to summarize:

1. Laptop's WiFi/Bluetooth keep disabling themselves and the Bluetooth keeps hiding itself, so not even the icon is visible. The WiFi can't find any networks, and refuses to turn on (even though it says it does when I toggle it), and when it's like this, I cannot connect via Mobile Hotspot either.
   
2. The laptop is being very peculiar about it restarting, only does so if I press the power again after it shuts down (despite me selecting restart), and even then, only sometimes. I keep having to power cycle it to try and find the perfect sweet spot to let go and have it actually turn on.
   
3. The laptop now freezes within 20 or so minutes, and stays that way until I restart the laptop.
   
4. Sometimes it tells me that a driver reinstall works, other times it says it doesn't.
   
5. The driver events say that the device did not start, and error 10.
   
6. The laptop showed a Blue Screen of Death today, and the error said "ACPI" followed by (what I think it was) "block management" or (what it probably was) "BIOS error".
   
7. I set a BIOS password that I do not remember.
   
8. I do not have access to my Strebito toolkit to open up the laptop, nor do I have money to take it to BestBuy Geek Squad or wherever does laptop repair.
   
9. My laptop speakers do not work, despite sound apparently playing based on the animation/sound waves playing in the sound settings when media is active, and stops when nothing is playing, leading me to believe maybe something has been unplugged for like 4 years internally.
   
10. (I have many a time tried to uninstall, reinstall, download, and update Realtek drivers, but no sound comes from my speakers.)
    
11. I managed to run MalwareBytes, and it said it found a Neshta virus in a CEMU/WiiU emulator I downloaded literally years ago in the CEMUHOOK.DLL file), which I assume was present even in the system restore done yesterday backed up from 6 days ago. Apparently there was also Yontoo adware. I have since quarantined them.
    
12. (I should perhaps also note I rarely if ever use CEMU, and certainly haven't within the past two years, if not longer. I just like having access should I do desire on a whim to play.)
    
13. The problems (aside from the missing sound) started just yesterday, when I was away from the computer briefly, so it's even more vexing because I wasn't there at the onset of the issue or saw what caused it.
    

Either the universe or my own hubris and ineptitude keep trying to humble me, so I require patience and assistance. Please. And thank you. 😭 Whatever steps, whatever instructions, as long as they're clear and step by step, I can provide whatever you might need to deduce what the issue is and what a solution might be.

I’ve been back and forth with this so many times but I just can’t tell what I am. I’ve done a lot of research over the years but it only has me more confused. Basically, I would like someone else’s view and opinion.
I’m female and I like feminine things. I learned about being gay in 5th grade when I moved to a different town. Before that, I had a crush on a boy. In 5th grade, I thought I was bi, but ended up dating this one boy for a couple days. Then I had another crush on a boy in 6-7th grade. In 8th grade, I online dated a genderfluid person who presented feminine for a month or two. I’m a sophomore now, but ever since freshman year, I would fantasize about dating this one girl. I did have a “hallway crush” on this one guy, but honestly I think it was more of me wanting to look like him.
I know with the amount of boys I have in my history I would most likely be bi, but I’m not sure if i actually liked them or wanted their attention. I don’t know how to explain it, but I find myself wanting attention from boys I would never date. I shudder at the thought of kissing a masculine man. Even a feminine man I’m not very attracted to. It’s hard for me to find some men attractive, but I find all women attractive.
When I think I’m lesbian, I think of my future and feel bad that I won’t be able to give birth and give my mom a blood related grandkid. My grandma would often say “husband.. or wife” when talking about my future, and I feel bad when she says wife. When I first thought I was probably lesbian, I remember commenting about how I didn’t like the word “lesbian”. I’m still not sure why exactly I felt that way, but I no longer do. I had someone tell me it’s internalized homophobia, which I can kind of see.
Typing everything out makes me think I am lesbian and just worried about the future, but I’m worried if I label myself gay then I’ll miss out on dating a nice man or something.
Sorry this is so messy, but in conclusion I can’t tell if I’m lesbian with fomo, lesbian with internalized homophobia, bisexual with a preference for women, or just plain bisexual.

I have a friend (25F) which i like alot. We have been good friends for 7 years. In first year of my college days i told her that i like her. But due to shyness and ego problem with me, i started to act differently which subsequently leads to more fights and no from her to me. As when i asked her , she told that she is not ready for a relationship and she thinks me like a friend. For 7 years, we became friends for some time, then again fight due to some reason. And whenever i brings topic of relationship between her and me, she tell me again that we are just friends. This happened alot of times, like we became friends, then fight happen then no talking for months and all.
I want to forget her and want to start a new life with someone else. I didn't find the sparks that i find with her in other girls, due to which my heart always find way to be with her even if she already told me that we are just friends.
Currently we became friends, and this time our talks are become more deep. We met couple of times alone (which was not possible earlier and whenever i asked her out she always denies, saying for friends group meetup instead of meeting alone) in cafe's and other places. And this time i hold her hands many times while talking and its felt amazing.
Recently in one of the meetup, she told me that she got into love with some of his friend who already got gf. She told me that ,she recently met with an accident and the first person she called was him. And after this incident she started liking him and on the same day, she told him that she like him. But after that she felt guilty as he already have a gf. Guy, denied her saying that he already have gf, but proposed her for a physical relationship due to which they eventually stopped talking.(This was secret that she shared only to me)
While narrating this to me, i felt like , its been 6 years still i was not able to make a place in her heart and felts really heart broken that time and in cafe she felt that felt bad too and she gave me a hug.
After that, we were again with our routine talk and its going good till now. We connect daily on calls and talks for hours , and its been upgraded to video calls where we talk until she fell for sleep.
I don't know how to proceed with this and she is the only person with whom i feel comfortable and with these recents actions by her i think she like me.
But I don't want to break my heart again. Don't know what to do.

Well this is two years ago and I still think about it regularly. Sometimes I turns me on, sometimes I’m ashamed and disgusted but here it goes. I was walking home after going out one night feeling drunk and excited about a great night behind me and quite horny. I walked home alone and there was some old dude, maybe 60ish, clearly drunk and a bit fat and generally not attractive at all catcalling me. Normally I would’ve just changed the side of the street or walked faster but nope - this time I just thought, you know what? Let’s see what happens. I wore a super short skirt and a skimpy top and I went straight to the guy and ask what he wanted. He said he’d wanna fuck me and made horrible faces. I just said OK - and we went into the backyard of some building and then let him have me against the wall. He liked my face and my tongue and I had his hand all over me. He couldn’t believe his luck and he came inside me (my biggest regret). Afterwards he smiled and laughed as if he made a million dollars in the lottery and I went home. I woke up the next morning having all kinds of weird feelings still smelling the guy all over me and I never told anyone the story, and I never will.

Hey guys, my Canadian PR application has been approved and I have to travel to Canada to activate my PR status. I also got selected in the H1B lottery last year and have yet to get the stamp. I was thinking of booking H1B appointment in Canada and get the visa stamp and my PR activated in the same trip.
But if I book H1B appointment right now, I'll have to book as an Indian citizen and might not get early dates. However, I'm assuming that once I travel and get my official PR status in Canada, I would have priority in booking visa dates and might get early dates.
TLDR; Need help deciding whether (1) I should try to do this in one trip (so booking H1B appointment as an Indian citizen) (2) or two trips - first trip to get my Canadian PR, use AVR to re-enter the US, and then book h1b appointment as Canadian resident to get early dates.

Hey everyone. It’s my first time talking shit abt my ex to anyone and I thought it’s abt damn time that i share my my stupid ass ex. I’m sorry it’s long and excuse my language. For context, I live in Japan and I go to uni in Japan and this happened 2 years ago when I was 19.
Two years ago, when I was a freshman in uni, I had a group of friends that I was pretty close with and one of them posted a picture of me and her on her instagram. She tagged me in tho photo and I liked it and didn’t think much of it. Until one day I got a dm from this guy in my school and he told me he was a friend of my friend(the ig girl) and he thought I was super pretty. I know what ur thinking, this girl is so stupid to fall for such an obvious trap and clearly this dude is trynna hit. But mind u, I went to an all-girls high school and I was not used to being around men, especially not used to being complimented by one. Anyways, I was kinda surprised and happy to get compliments from such a good looking guy. NO JOKE he looked like Heeseung from ENHYPEN (maybe his nose wasn’t sharp as his) but as a Heeseung Stan I was like is this my y/n moment?? Anyways Heeseung (we’ll call him that now) asked me out and I said yes. Fast forward, we went on couple of dates and he was so nice and sweet, I genuinely started to like him. After maybe three months of talking, he asked me out in front of my friends. Now that I think about it, that was kinda manipulative cus he’s basically not giving me a choice to say no. But at that time, why should I say no so he and I started to go out. But here’s when it gets weird. I knew for a fact that he like those kawaii girls that wears frilly clothes and acts very cute since he followed many underground idols of such. (If u don’t know, pls google underground idols of Japan and you’ll know what I’m talking abt). Me on the other hand, I dress like a middle school skater boy and wears very tomboyish clothing and I’m very blunt. So I asked him, I’m very far from his type, was he sure he wanted to date me? And ofc he said yes, and said that he liked me for being who I am and his types are his fantasies and fantasies aren’t real. However, whenever we go out, we’ll go to Harajuku where it’s very famous for selling clothes that are very hyperfeminine and cute and he’ll point at the clothes and be like “I wish u would dress like this”. This was already pretty irritating but what’s more annoying is that when I told him I’ll wear if he bought it for me, he’ll get mad and tell me I just want his money and leave in the middle of the date. This happened multiple times but as a dumbass that I am, I let it happen. Another thing is, he was a horrible drinker. He would drink whenever and wherever and he was a sloppy drunk. He’ll call me in the middle of the night telling me to pick him up and if I refuse he’ll yell at me and throw up while being connected on the phone. He will also snatch my phone away and look thru everything but when I try to touch his phone he will suddenly start throwing tantrums about how I don’t trust him and things like that. IN PUBLIC!!! But this wasn’t the worse of it. The worse part is, he had a childhood girl best friend who was EXACTLY his type. Like she was short (150cm or smth and I’m 165cm) and loved to dress in basically Lolita clothing. Now I didn’t really mind that cus I have bunch of male friends too but I only treat them as my friends and nothing more. However, whenever he was drunk or we got into a little fight, he will talk abt his best friend nonstop. One time, we got into a huge fight abt intimacy. As I said before, I went to an all-girls high school and I was not comfortable with physical touch with men because I have been SAed before, and when we first started dating I told him that and he said he was willing to wait. We’ve been improving but never gotten to the actual deed. Then he got pissed at me telling me that I need to get over the fear of men and it’s not a big deal. I told him that it doesn’t just go away overnight and it was also during final weeks and we should be focusing on our studies. But we kept arguing and finally I told him, we’ll talk about this once the finals are done in a week. I’ll focus on my studies and u do this same. Not even a week later, I hear from my friends that he went into a love hotel (it’s a hotel for mainly having intimacy) near our school. Not once but twice!!! HE WAS SEEN TWICE!! I mean how stupid can u be, going to a love hotel near our school and being seen twice????? And guess who the girl is. ITS HIS GIRL BEST FRIEND!!!! I am not pathetic bitch so the moment I found out, I told him we need to talk. The day we talked, we went to a coffee shop and I confronted him with all the evidence and told him I’m not gonna date a fboy who just happened to have a pretty face. I was so mad at myself for being so blind so I left right after that, leaving more than enough money to cover my bills but as I was abt to leave, he grabbed me and started WAILING. not sobbing, full on ugly crying in a very quiet coffee shop. I was so damn embarrassed I tried to run but he ran after me. And he was begging me not to go and we can talk. I was so ready to punch him but the waiter from the coffee shop came out running and told us we haven’t paid the bills. I told him I already left the money and he will be paying for the rest and left. Thank god for the waiter came cus if he didn’t I would’ve been arrested for assault. Anyways I cut all contact after that and haven’t dated since! Moral of the story: fuck men and girls, don’t date handsome guys just because. Thank u for reading and sorry for the foul language lmfao.

I had doubts about her having a friend that was formerly a romantic partner, but I've had friends like that, and I wanted to be a trusting boyfriend, so I never raised an issue. However, I was uneasy about it. They hung out, he never wanted to meet me, they would text all the time. I had an initial moment of suspicion when he gave her a gift of a backpack. I was open with my feelings about them when he offered to pick her up for work. I asked if I had anything to be concerned about with him. She said no. I trusted her.
We went on trips. She met my family and had plans to join me to stay with family up north. She saw as I struggled with my mental health and struggles with my job. She was there supporting me.
And then one day I saw a message on accident when her phone was open.
Her- "I'm playing housewife today"
Him- "But I want you to be my housewife"
I've never had reason before to check a girlfriend's phone. I never wanted to be that type of guy. But I couldn't get the thought of it out of my head. So while she was sleeping I looked at her phone. And it was everything I feared. Months of cheating. Sex, videos, pictures, talk of being together. I woke her up and confronted her. She confessed immediately, saying it was after a bad fight we had where we almost broke up. I've never been so upset at a girlfriend. I moved out 2 days later.
I've got a new place, few friends, and a job that I don't like. I am actually very lucky as an individual in a lot of ways, it's just easy to overlook it and feel sorry for myself. Right now I am trying to go climb more and dance more. Think I will stay off the dating apps and just focus on making friends.

Hello, I’m losing sleep over this. I don’t think I did a good enough job explaining to the officer what happened so I want to share my story and see what you guys think…
I was involved in a car accident yesterday. I was in the right hand lane wanting to switch to the left hand lane. We were about 50 yards from a stoplight/intersection when I turned my blinker on indicating the lane switch. I wanted to switch lanes because there was a bus stopped directly on the other side of the stoplight/intersection at the bus stop. Several cars in front of me had made the lane switch. My car has blind spot detectors that chime at me when it is unsafe to change lanes. About 40 yards from the stoplight/intersection, my blinker chimed. There was a black sedan speeding up, ultimately not letting me over. I let them pass, blinker still on, not chiming anymore. I check my rear view mirror and left side mirror. I see a black SUV in my rear view and barely in my left side mirror. Assuming it is safe to switch because of how far back the SUV was, I start making the change about 25 yards from the stoplight/intersection. At this point, the several cars that have made the lane switch in front of me has backed up traffic a bit since we are essentially down to one lane with the bus stopped in the right lane. I start pressing on the brakes about halfway through my lane change because the car that originally did not let me switch lanes has started to slow down and I did not want to hit them. I am looking in my left side mirror while traffic is slowing down, watching this black SUV get closer and closer. At this point, I am pretty much completely in the left lane, just needed to straighten out. Traffic starts to flow a little better and as I am getting ready to straighten out, my blinker started to chime again. The SUV behind me, notices I am now in the left lane and swerves to the left, but not soon enough. The front right of his bumper hits the back left of my bumper. I watched the entire thing happen in my left side mirror. I was going to honk at him to make him aware but I couldn’t quite tell if he was slowing down or speeding up and I didn’t want to startle my Uber passenger. I also had enough time to verbally say “oh he’s not stopping he’s going to hit us.” We went from going the speed limit (40mph) down to about 15-20mph with the congestion, and I believe back up to about 30mph when the collision happened.
The first thing he says to me when I get out of my car is, “I’m sorry, I didn’t see you.” Which to me, indicates that he was distracted while driving. There was a “witness” that stopped with us and immediately started pointing fingers (at me). He said the same thing happened to him last month and it didn’t go his way so he wanted to stay and make sure the guy driving the SUV “didn’t go down for this.”🙄 (this “witness” was a jerk to me the entire time and made me cry but that’s a different story) Then, we were discussing if we were going to have an investigator come out or just exchange information. While having this conversation, he was telling me it’d be easier to just go to a body shop and not get anyone else involved. He also said he was kind of in a hurry to get somewhere and didn’t want to wait around. That threw up red flags for me.. I decided to call someone to the scene. I told him I will take a photo of his license and insurance, damages, and license plate if he really needs to go but I will still be waiting for the investigator. He ignored me while I took a photo of his license plate. During our wait, I was on the phone with my dad in my car while the two guys were waiting on the curb (couldn’t stand to be near the “witness” anymore). I had my door cracked so I could hear them and was watching them the whole time. They created a video as fabricated “proof” that I merged INTO him as I watched him zoom into a rusted part of his running board, saying that that’s where I made contact first.. Then I heard them talking about how he was in my blind spot and I merged INTO him because I couldn’t see him. Reminder, I have blind spot detectors and literally watched him bump into me…
About half way through our wait, the “witness” calls to see if they’re sending someone out because we had been waiting for an hour and they told him we can file a report online as long as we exchange information and it’s alright if we leave. They both wanted to leave so I asked for the other driver’s license and insurance again (while secretly recording his face in case he decided to take off). He told me I can’t have his information so I informed him that he could get up to 90 days for not giving it to me before he leaves. He said he wasn’t leaving anymore because I hadn’t filed a claim yet and he thought I was going to try and lie about what happened. I told him I had never been in an accident before and didn’t file a claim yet because I wanted to speak to the investigator to make sure my claim was correct.
Long story short about our wait, the investigator shows up. We talk, all 4 of us together. Then she talks to the “witness” by himself. Who knows what he said🙄. I receive an “Unlawful Lane Usage” violation while the guy in the SUV receives violations for not having his driver’s license (I believe she said it was revoked?) and not having insurance. His vehicle registration was also 2 years expired but that apparently didn’t have anything to do with the situation so she let it slide. I’m not sure if he had received any other violations.
Of course his damage is far less than mine and I’m using my insurance, waiting for an appraisal. But, what do you guys think? I feel like with being able to fully explain my self and have time to think about and assess the situation, this is 90% his fault 10% my fault. Even though I guess I was deemed at fault. Him most likely being on his phone and not paying attention, not having insurance and I believe a revoked license, me for not honking to let him know I was there. With his current status, he shouldn’t have been in a car PERIOD.
Okay time to go to sleep, gotta make extra cash for the repairs, UGH! Thanks for reading😀

i understand why you’d love me. why you’d like me. i can’t understand why i’d love you. why id like you. i just want to watch the stars with someone. i just want to walk on a field with someone where it felt right. it’s never felt right. but you know nathan. it felt nice to walk around with you those nights. maybe it was the darkness. but i think that was the nicest walks. because even though you probably didn’t love me. i liked that you liked me for me for awhile. and maybe if things never got sexual, it would’ve made us really good friends. i probably would’ve fell in love with you. but that’s not what would’ve happened. because it didn’t. that’s not how it went. and nate, im sorry i never posted you. i’m sorry i never took you seriously. i’m sure i hurt you a lot. but i was the nicest to you. and to nathan. you two really just liked me for me for awhile. it was good until whatever it was that happened. that’s how i know when it’s real. i know you loved me nate. but you know what you did really hurt. it was hurtful. because i never tried to talk against you. i felt so loved by you. i still think about you because you really did love me and i know it. but god damn did you screw me over. but so did i. it hurt. maybe i hurt you. i wasn’t in the right headspace until nathan. unfortunately. but towards the end of even him, i just didn’t think i was the one for him. it didn’t seem like it. turned out to be true i think. i’ve met good guys. i’ve met some worse. am i the bad girl? or are we all just humans. complicated.

It’s a very long story but please bear with me as it’s something I really need to get off my chest, I’ll really appreciate advice, I can’t get it out of my head. I’m 21M in college.
My friends have always been girls or gay guys and I’ve only ever had 2 straight guy friends my whole life and even then we weren’t too close. I’ve always been a sensitive kid and my interests never were “masculine”, so where some guys either dabbed in sports or video games or cars, my interests actually were anything but those things. Because of this, I felt outcasted by most guys at my school for not having any connections.
I met a guy my first year of college who I quickly befriended despite us not having really anything in common. This was the year that social distancing rules were being lifted, and I hadn’t made any friends at my college so I was desperate to make friends. But this one was different, I felt myself becoming obsessed with him. I wanted to be his only friend, the person he’d want to see the most and talk about the most. I did so many things for him cuz I held on this pedestal. I was very shocked by this feeling and kind of embarrassed. I wasn’t attracted to him sexually nor romantically, but I felt like I couldn’t be having this obsession if that wasn’t true. I was questioning if I really was gay. Later on, he met other guy friends, ones with actual things in common with him, and out of jealousy/fear he’d leave, I left him first.
Now since this event, I’ve realized the abandonment issues within the situation, but on top of that, I exposed the underlying reason for my obsession to be my own insecurity. I held him on this pedestal because he was everything I wish I was. I never explicitly had this thought when I met him. I never even knew I hated myself till I met him. I always said I was happy being different from other guys. The typical man only had hobbies that were athletic or lazing around in a gaming chair, missing these kinda attitudes is what made me feel left out, and that “masculinity” was something I was missing. I’m aware of toxic masculinity and know that I won’t change myself for others, but I felt like I had a lot of pent-up rage towards men in general for making me feel bad about myself as if I’m alone in this world because I’m nothing like them.
Having this realization helped me understand that I wasn’t loving myself enough. And I’ve known this for a while and THOUGHT I was working on it up until recently. I think I’ve started to hate myself more than ever and I never knew it.
I met a guy online this year (I use online chat rooms when I’m bored), and I ended up finding out he was bisexual and went to the same school as me. We started talking but the way we talked felt flirtatious. I’m straight but I do like flirting for fun even if I’m not attracted. I started to feel that the obsession I had with the first guy started to come up, but I must specify: I didn’t grow this obsession, it started right when I learned that he was athletic and on top of that an academic weapon with several hobbies. I started to want his attention more and was (as embarrassing as it is to admit), I wanted him to want me. I hated that feeling of validation that I craved, and I feel like it makes me an awful person wanting to seduce a bisexual man knowing I have no interest in being with him. But I felt obsessed with wanting that validation. Eventually, I realized I was doing too much and started pushing him away. But that feeling/craving for validation was still there, so I started to use someone else to fill in that gap.
I feel like it makes me an awful person just continuing on, but there’s this gay man in my club who I began to obsess with because I wanted to be a friend. And just like the last guy, I also wanted him to want me. But when I wondered “why him”, I realized that he had a very youthful look, and an innocent charm I feel like I used to have, he’s very popular in our club and known for being the “cute but shy” guy in our club.
Coming to look back at this history, I’ve found that validation is still something I crave due to my insecurity in my looks and personality. And this has been the saddest relaxation that pushed me to make this post. I thought I was happy, but I’ve started to feel myself grow emotionally numb, I don’t feel much that often, and in all honesty, when I see an attractive man it ruins my day. When I meet a guy who’s charming, it makes me upset. I hate that I think this way, and honestly I never actually caught this mindset until today. I didn’t know I hated myself that much because I didn’t actively nor explicitly put myself down. But I see that my head has been unconsciously just comparing myself to every man I see. I still stick by not wanting to change for anyone. But I wish I wasn’t me sometimes.
I wish I had looks I was more confident in. I wish I was more charming. I wish I was more “masculine”. I wish people were naturally attracted to me. I wish I was more popular. I wish I liked the things I’m supposed to like. And on that note, I wish there weren’t things I’m “supposed” to like. I wish I didn’t attach myself to people, because I always hoped their aura would just rub off on me. Like if I just was around them for long enough, then I can be more like them. I feel like a loser for saying that but there’s so many people I wish I could just be, and for that reason their attention is validation cause if they like me then maybe that could only prove that I’m just as good as them.
And yes, I know I need to practice self-love. But I seriously thought I was, I always leave time for myself, and buy myself gifts, and daily affirmations. But honestly while writing this all out, I think I see what it is. I wish people treated me better. I think I want people to see me the way I see them (but I don’t what that means) their aura? I think it’s just the charm overall.
I think the way people perceive these guys that I mentioned judge how they’re attracted to them. I just wish I had that compelling personality. I wish I could be a star, someone people look up to because I’m beautiful inside and out. And yes I know that loving myself is the major important and all that matters. But I wish that I could feel that important to people. That sounds really greedy saying it out loud, and maybe that does make me a bad person. But it hurts feeling worthless. What do I do when self-love isn’t enough? I don’t want to want others' validation, but it’s just how I feel. What do I do when I want more than I can ask for? How do I stop obsessing over people I wish I was? Self love doesn’t work for me, I need to know people want me. That sucks.
That’s all. Honestly, a huge thank you if you read this all and are willing to help. This has been something I’ve been struggling with practically my whole life and have only now been able to put into words. I’ll take advice please be as detailed as you’d like I need a major psycho-analysis and can’t afford a therapist ….

Looking at getting a two tone sub and despite looking through every post I could in the sub history I still cannot come to a solid conclusion.
I’m looking at getting a 126613 but cannot decide between the two factories.
On one hand VSF has better movement + crystal but apparently the gold colour is very cheddary, though I’ve seen some people post theirs after using Silvo and they look very good.
On the other hand, it looks like clean has a really good stock gold colour that looks much closer to gen.
How much better is the VSF movement? I’d love for the movement to be reliable but at the same time would love for the colour to be closest to gen, unfortunately it looks like I can’t have my cake and eat it too.
What would you guys do? Is it worth going with VSF despite the colour issues? Is the CF movement reliable enough that I won’t notice a difference between the two?

my ex and i dated for 2 years, we traveled the world together, did everything together. not even two weeks ago they told me how im the most perfect partner they could imagine and how much they want to be with me. we’ve had a bunch of fights through our relationship but we always made it through. about a week ago they broke up with me and i told them i would respect that and would like to still be friends and they agreed. they wrote me the kindest letter explaining how they needed to be with themselves and dropped it off at my apartment with flowers not even two days later they told me that they were dating again and said the name of the guy. and when i read the name i almost had a panic attack. it was a guy who id known about for a year or two who’s been accused by multiple women of sexual assault and my roomate knows one of them well. when i told my ex that they were in disgust and we met up and we held hands again(ik ik its like im trying to hurt myself). it felt so good and like we might figure it out but by the next day they told me they talked to him and some other people and it seems like there’s no actual proof so they’re just gonna proceed with caution talking to him. well tonight i decided i couldn’t handle being friends because i knew they were gonna start dating so i wrote a note saying that i loved them and want to be with them but need to go no contact. and when i showed up to drop it off it looks like his car is at their house. this feels like the biggest betrayal of all time and i feel like such shit.

Hey guys,
So I recently went on a massive upgrade and purchased a new CPU, motherboard, RAM and so on. The PSU I bought wasn't working correctly so I went ahead and replaced it with a new one and changed the water cooler from 240 to 360 (since the temperature was getting quite high). On doing so I started getting a C5 error code that I wasn't getting before, and troubleshooting I realized that I can only use one of the two 32GB RAM that I have.
They were initially on slots 2 and 4 (A2 1st and B2 1st) which was the recommended configuration, but tried them in several ways but still get the C5 code when turning on the PC. I tried updating the BIOS, changed a few configs but still get the C5 code. The only way I got my PC to actually start was using just one of the sticks (currently on slot 2 A.K.A. A2 1st).
Any ideas of why this could be? Both memory sticks are DDR5 32GB (ea) T-CREATE EXPERT 6000Mhz
Everything helps at this point, I've been trying to get this new PC to work properly for days now and I'm getting quite frustrated so anything helps. Thank you!

If Wilfred is just a part of Ryans mind, then this raises a question in season 3 episode 3. Ryan is babysitting Jeoffry for Kristen who is going on a date with a guy named Michael who’s a Doctor. After Ryan meets Michael, Kristen and Michael go to dinner. Wilfred later says to Ryan that Michael smelt of a womens nether regions. After the two come back from their date, Michael admits he did indeed visit a patient earlier in the night who was suffering from an infection of the nether regions.
If Wilfred is only a part of Ryan’s mind, how could Wilfred (Ryan) have known that Michael had the scent of a woman’s nether regions upon him?
I know it’s just a small loophole in the theory, but it’s really the only one I can find. Love to hear opinions, or if anyone has discovered other loopholes.

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Part 2 The child.
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“Uhm. I’m not sure what you mean, kid. I don’t know who your parents are.”
“C’mon! I watched you come out of that crypt! Maybe if I tell you their names it’ll spark your memory! My dad’s name was James Luceniel, and my mother’s was Talma Luceniel. Don’t you remember them?”
Internally, I groan. I never caught the name of that female elf, but one of the males was definitely named James. I can’t have this ten-year-old just wander into that crypt and find one of her parents brutalized by some monster. I need a distraction.
I notice the faint grip of the child release, and she backs away. I can see the blood from my robe mixing with the dirt already caught in her dress.
“Oh. I never thought you could get dirty, Mr. Reaper! I guess it makes sense given who you are, but the thought never crossed my mind! Would you like some help cleaning your cloak before you take me to see my parents?”
“Oh. Sure,” I say, confused and perturbed by this child’s readiness to just help a bloodstained stranger.
“We’ll get you all nice and cleaned up Mr. Reaper. Then you can help me!” She says as she begins leading me out of the graveyard.
“So, why do you keep calling me ‘Mr. Reaper’?”
“Because that’s what we’ve always called you. Is that wrong?”
“Yes. That’s not my name. My name is… Uhm…”
“Go on, I’d love to call you by your actual name! I didn’t realize I’d been using the wrong one!”
“I… Huh. I can’t remember.”
As we step out into the town proper, I can’t help but think that it looks terrible. Most of the buildings have collapsed, and the few buildings left standing are massively overgrown with various climbing plants. There aren’t many people in the street either.
“That’s okay. I’m sure you’ll remember eventually. You might want to turn down this alley though. People probably won’t like seeing you out in the middle of the street.”
“I suppose you’re right.”
As she leads me through the back alleys, I can’t help but stare at some of the cobblestone buildings we pass. I notice that where the stones would normally be held together with mortar, there are thick, dark green vines binding the stones together. It almost looks like the vines are moving. Yet, despite the strangeness of their construction, I can’t shake the feeling that I’ve been here before. Everything seems so eerily familiar, yet nothing concrete. Hesitantly, I ask, “So, what is the story of this place? I thought elves mostly stuck to treetop fortresses. Never knew you guys to build with stone.”
“Oh. Well, we didn’t build this place. We moved in a very long time ago. The Ancient Oak told me that the village was made by some creatures called ‘Hai-oo-mans.’ I don’t really know what those are, but apparently, they were really, really good at building stuff. I guess they all died off at some point. Don’t really know how, but when the Beastkin decided they were gonna fight us and we ran away, the Ancient Oak knew about this place and helped us move in and rebuild a bit.”
Hai-oo-mans… Does she mean Humans?
“Wait. You don’t know what humans are?”
“Not really. Why? Are there a lot of them where you’re from?”
“I mean… yeah?”
“Oh. Was it a lot of work for you when they died? I bet it was, Mr. Reaper.”
There she goes again with that moniker.
“I don’t think I ever asked your name, kid. What is it?”
“Oh. Sorry. I had assumed you already knew it. I’m Namaski! Namaski Luceniel. May I ask you another question?”
“Sure.”
“How did my parents die.”
Shit. Oh shit. Shit. Fuck. Shit. Shit. How’d she find out!
“What do you mean?” I ask, begging this to be some massive misunderstanding.
“I’m not sure how else to phrase it. I watched my mom and dad be set in the ground when I was fifteen. Nobody really explained it to me at the time, and people still refuse to tell me what exactly happened.”
“When you were fifteen?”
“Yeah. That would’ve been… six years ago.”
Oh thank Toyl. Wait… “You barely look ten years old!”
“Excuse me? I am not a toddler.”
“Toddler? At ten? I know I never interacted with elves much, but by Toyl you people take forever to develop.”
“Toyl? I don’t think I’ve heard of that god. Is he some sort of death god?”
“Death god? Why would… No. She’s my god.”
“How can she be your god, but not a death god, Mr. Reaper?”
“Why do you think I would worship a death god?”
“Worship? I thought you were the Grim Reaper. You know… Faithful servant and manifested embodiment of Death. Seemed pretty clear from your frame and complexion why some people thought you were a skeleton.”
“No. I’m… I’m just a human.”
“Oh. I get it. This is some weird death joke. You might want to work on that sense of humor of yours, Mr. Reaper. Anyway, we’re here!”
“It’s not… Whatever.”
What stands before us is quite possibly the shoddiest house in the entire town. I stand outside of the doorframe for almost a full minute wondering how the building hasn’t collapsed yet.
“Feel free to come in whenever you feel like it!”
Right. “I’m coming in!” I shout as I step through the doorframe.
Immediately, a wad of items is shoved into my arms.
“Sorry, I don’t have a tub, but here’s a towel, washrag, and some soap. There’s a secret section of the river just a few hundred meters out the back door. Also, there’s a set of my dad’s old clothes in there. I think they might fit you. Once you’re done, I’ll take those rags you’re wearing and clean them. Maybe try mending some of the tears too.”
“Thanks, but you really don’t have to do all of that.”
“It’s no problem! I like helping!”
Maybe I should just leave all this stuff just outside the door. Sneak away before she notices. I really don’t want to take advantage of some poor kid. Besides, what am I gonna do when her aunt, uncle, grandparent, or whoever is taking care of her shows up? It’s best that I just leave now.
But… For some reason, I don’t want to.
“What’s the matter, Mr. Reaper?” She pouts. “Is it not good enough? I’m sorry! I can get better soap! Soap that actually smells nice if that’s what you want! Or is it my dad’s clothes? Are they not your style? Why do you look so sad? What can I do better?”
“Please, calm down.”
“I’m calm! I promise!”
“It’s just that I don’t want to impose on you, and also I’m pretty sure your grandmother or aunt or whoever probably doesn’t want you inviting a stranger into your house and giving them your things.”
“You don’t have to worry about that! I’m the matron of this household! The only person I have to listen to is The Ancient Oak! Besides, you aren’t taking advantage of me! I offered!”
“But-”
“No buts! Now get yours in that river and start scrubbing,” she shouts as she begins to try and shove me out of the back door.
With a small chuckle, I let out a “Yes Ma’am.” and allow her to push me out of the door.
What a weird kid. She seems like a good one though. If only she wasn’t so trusting.
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Author’s Note: Sorry for the long delay! Apparently all it took was a tornado ripping through my house to get me motivated again! Don’t worry, everyone is fine, and this is a nice distraction from the destruction. As always, thanks for reading, and I hope to see y’all again.

P.S. Feel free to join my Discord server here for stuff like shoddy character drawings and periodic updates!

Okay so just tonight I went to do my laundry at the laundry mat, thankfully this guy I’m talking to went with me. It’s only my second time here so I’m not used the the environment etc. most are creepy at night. But as we are doing laundry sitting and waiting. I see this guy walk in, he was wearing durable shoes black and yellow, almost looked like they had a steel toe. When he came him he was holding a fuzzy blanket, and he had gloves on, the kind doctors wear. He kept bringing in more blankets and things. The wierd thing is he wouldn’t put them all in one washer. He completely separated everything. One blanket for each washer. Super wierd. Now what he washed. He had two big fuzzy blankets, two maybe twin sized fitted sheets that had a mattress looking top and then two bags that had almost like fitted sheets for cots. If you don’t know what a cot is it’s like a kid bed that’s literally just made out of plastic nun comfy. It had the rubber band elastics on them. The laundry bags he washed as well so when he took the stuff out of the dryer he closed the bag before taking it out. Anyway, the other 2 blankets and 2 fitted white sheets wherent bagged up, but the other ones were dark blue. Anyway the whole time he was wearing gloves and he was using his elbows and feet to open and clothes washer and dryers. A older couple told me and my friend that he had the cops called on him last week because he was saying creepy things to there daughter and someone else’s daughter. They also said they saw red on one of the sheets. Idk if that’s true I only know what I saw. And when he came back to get the clothes his shoes were different, tennis shoes and durable but didn’t look like steel toes. Anyway. Something just seemed off about his whole persona. His lisence plate I wrote down. Anyway my immediate thought is a secx trafficker. Or idk maybe he kidnaps people. But anyway, what yall think.

So my mental health is thin anyways. I've known this.
Everyone I love is fighting. So one of my closest friends from another Church, her husband ran away with someone else from the Church.
I lost my brother to cancer a few years ago. There was no reason for him to have cancer. Then my Mom got breast cancer two years ago. It came back. But she's clear now. My best friend's mom has stage 4 cancer. So many people have died lately. Mire than this. And sick. My aunt is in the hospital. Umm yeah. I feel like the more I talk about all this the more crazy I feel.
If you can think of an area of life where you would have pressure. I have it.
I started missing sleep last summer I think it was. Well maybe before that. The itching started. On and off at night. I couldn't sleep. I itched like crazy. I got up and would put lotion on. I started waiting to take my allergy medicine with supper.
After a while I figured it was psychological. Umm.. I have this one stuffed animal my Mom bought me as a suprise recently. Weirdly if I can purmt my arms around that at night, the itching goes away. Most times.
This year the sleeplessness got worse. Umm early spring I think. I just literally couldn't sleep. It was miserable. It wasn't just the itchiness either. I was exhausted. My body craved sleep, but it would not shut off when I went to lay down. Melatonin wouldn't help.
I'm depressed I think. Undiagnosed. I told my Dad that I don't feel happiness anymore. I feel like I'm in panic mode waiting for the next bad thing to happen.
I feel like everything is an act.I don't do things to bring me joy. I'm not lazy. I can't stand to see people hurting and nothing I can do. I want to help other people. I can't scrub an entire bathroom with a toothbrush. But for me I don't care. When I'm feeling good enough where I do something for me I do them to distract me.
But I told him that I prayed about it and that God had been giving me good thoughts lately. I felt like my mind was being flooded with good things. Good memories.
I didnt tell him this, but I had been feeling like I'm on autopilot. Just stopped living. Waiting to get to heaven to see my brother again. I was thinking thag this wast right. And God was helping me. But I was feeling better for a bit.
Then he started preaching about how God told us to be happy. And choosing happiness. And not wallowing in self pity. Every Sunday. And praying in public that we wouldn't proud be sorry slobs wallowing in self pity. Yet he denies it was about me.
So I get migraines every Sunday. And I'm not sleeping again and he knows it so probably he is going to preach on that today.
But in the midst of all this I found some friends online in gaming, and a guy that liked me, and we started spending time together. I started staying up late to play with him, and I thought the staying up late reset my sleep schedule. I could sleep again. We got close for a while. It wasn't serious but it was a friend I needed.
Well then in the midst of all this he started liking my friend better than me. She threw herself at him. I suspected, for a bit. Then confirmed. And I found them online together.
Anyways after this I started losing time. In the day. Like my bracelet broke. I came back to fix it the next night and it was repaired. I went into McDonald's and the cashier told me exactly what I wanted to order, and asked me if it was for here or to go. It scared me. I had no memory of telling him that.
Then I started not staying up so late, and my mind got better. But now I'm back to not sleeping good. I wake up at 3 am and lay awake. So I took melatonin, and it helped. I like took it 3 times over two weeks. 10mg.
Umm . . . Also I just wanted to sleep. And sometimes when it is working, like just before I fall to sleep, it almost feels like it kicks the serotonin in and I feel normal. I wanted that.
But then two nights ago I took it again. And I did not sleep. The next day man I was groggy. Confused. Like is my hand on the table or beside me. I could snap out of it, but I struggle. Then I got a good night's sleep, and felt a little normal. Then I started to write an email, and I was talking about my brother's death. I didn't want to.
Either my brain was still tired, or the melatonin is still in my system, but I got feeling confused again.
I'm awake at 1 am again. I still don't feel right in the head.