Tofranil for panic attacks

It’s been two weeks since I’ve had a panic attack and I still don’t feel the same. I was doing so good for three years. The only panic attack I had prior was from smoking weed which sent me into a similar episode, but I was able to manage it by just not smoking and going to therapy, and starting a low-dose of Zoloft. I’m so tired and sick of feeling this way. I cry every single day. I throw up every single day. I can’t eat enough because of how I feel. Just two weeks ago I was my normal self. I’m feeling so lost. My mind convinces me that I’m crazy that I’m never gonna be able to find the proper help because I need to avoid medication in fear that I will start spiraling again. I think I might have OCD. Nothing takes the edge off. It’s debilitating. Will I ever go back to normal? I need some support. I just wish that there was a magical place that I could go to to make me feel better. I have my dream job. I feel like I’m just watching my life pass me by. I’m trying so hard to recover and enjoy things again.

I HAVE MY LAW EXAM IN A WEEK AND I HAVEN'T MEMORISED ANYTHING. MY TEACHER SLACKED OFF THE WHOLE YEAR, HE DIDNT TEACH US PROPERLY, DIDN'T TEST US ON ANYTHING AND NOW I AM BLANK. ITS BAD ENOUGH THAT MY PARENT'S EXPECT A LOT FROM ME AND CAN NOT AFFORD FOR ME TO GIVE A RETAKE. I CANNOT STUDY. I FEEL LIKE I AM HAVJNG A PANIC ATTACK. WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO???????

I (28F) have been on a couple of dates with this guy (27M), whom I met on a dating app. First date went great, we had a lot in common and the conversation was free flowing. There was physical contact too, and he kissed me before dropping me at my door (it was a good kiss).
He texted me right away with a little joke about making sure I got home safe, and we texted back and forth for the next couple of weeks. He asked me out again for drinks and I agreed.
The second date went really well too. He asked if I wanted to come back to his place to smoke up (euphemism for sex obviously), I said not tonight but definitely soon, once we know each other better. He didn't mind at all, and the conversation continued as normal. We talked about what we wanted from each other, and both of us were in agreement that it wasn't going to be a casual hook-up or that we were only looking for sex.
The chemistry was through the roof. We downed multiple drinks and were making out at the bar in front of everyone, all over each other basically. Our conversation got sexual and we talked about all the shit we would do to each other as soon as we got the chance.
On the cab ride home is where I fucked up. We made out, he fingered me and I unzipped his pants to return the favour. Except it was dark, I was very drunk, and... couldn't find his dick. I fumbled for a minute and he kept trying to guide me, but unfortunately an internal panic attack hit me. Intrusive thoughts such as "you're 28, still single, groping strangers in a cab" overwhelmed me and I got upset abruptly and pulled my hand away, and withdrew. I didn't tell him what I was thinking of course, but my withdrawal must have been obvious.
The cab reached my place. I mumbled goodbye, gave him a quick hug and bolted. I was so drunk I passed out as soon as I hit the bed. When I woke up the next morning there was no text from him, a contrast from the first date. I texted a long apology for my behaviour in the cab, adding that I had a really great time last night, and wanted to see him soon. I even joked about how I give better handjobs when not drunk out of my mind. He replied 24 hours later saying, "that's okay, hope you weren't hungover." I apologised again, then asked if we're good? Three days later and he still hasn't replied.
I'm confused. If he was only in it for sex, he would've been in touch because I'd already promised him that we'd get down and dirty very soon. So why the cold shoulder? Where did I go so drastically wrong that he won't even reply to me, and how should I rectify it? I really like this person. Opinions please!

I have severe anxiety, depression and OCD and have had it for over 15 years. I have had a dozen jobs, all of which have not worked out due to my conditions. I am rarely able to leave the house and can barely function. I've also had ER visits where I thought I was having a heart attack, but it was just panic attacks.
I have applied for SSI 2 times now and both times I have been denied after a hearing.
Here are the things I have done for my past applications: - Had a lawyer - Had documentation from a therapist - Had many medical records sent in - Had proof of medications I've been taking
What more can I do? My lawyer and therapist were very confident I'd get approved and yet I wasn't. Is hospitilization the only way to get approved? My conditions are crippling and I'm about to give up. I can't do this anymore.
Please any advice would he helpful.

Hi guys, here is what I'd change if I were going to improve Helldivers 2, specifically with weapon balance changes. This'll be a long post and I can only balance what I have access to so the following weapons may only receive passing mention or observation.
Arc-12 Blitzer (Weak)
Eruptor (Gutted Completely)
CB-9 Exploding Crossbow (Seen in use once, player hated it)
GP-31 Grenade Pistol (No Observation)
Plas-101 Purifier (No Observation)
P-113 Verdict (No Observation)
Obviously, these are my opinions but I'd love to hear what other people think if I have over buffed or nerfed. I may do the Stratagems not listed here as well as go over the armours if people like this, no TLDR, sorry.
BALANCING:
PRIMARIES:
AR-23 Liberator: My favourite weapon that I feel is mostly in a good place. I would up the damage slightly.
Damage: 60 70
AR-23C Liberator Concussive: I rarely see this weapon used, the concussive effect is more annoying than useful, the slow rate of fire and high recoil sucks and it doesn't deal enough damage. If weapon customization isn't coming, I would personally give this a grenade launcher attachment that fires some form of stun grenade. Another option is to have the rounds effect enemies around the target in a small radius.
Damage: 65 75
Recoil: 28 22
Fire Rate: 320 480
AR-23P Liberator Penetrator: I'm unsure why damage seems reduced so much when a weapon is given medium armour penetration. It removes any effectiveness vs. lower tier enemies and still only tickles medium armour enemies. Make it over-penetrate smaller enemies and hit targets behind them.
Damage: 45 60
AR-61 Tenderiser: Needs more stopping power as per description.
Damage: 60 75
BR-14 Adjudicator: I actually think this rifle is in a really good place.
R-63 Diligence: The two Marksman Rifles don't offer enough in general. They need high damage and higher weak-point damage. I suggest that this weapon also be 'suppressed' in some way, alerting enemies less than it's counter-part.
Damage: 125 135
Weak-point Damage: +30%
R-63CS Diligence Counter Sniper: Same as above but it should have a louder profile and over-penetrate smaller enemies.
Damage: 140 150
Weak-Point Damage +35%
MP-98 Knight: A weapon I love to use, hindered by it's capacity.
Damage: 50 45
Capacity: 50 90
Movement Buff: 5%
SMG-37 Defender: In many ways superior to the current Liberator, with the buffs to the Liberator, I would simply give this weapon a player movement buff as above.
Movement Buff: 5%
SMG-72 Pummeller: Extremely good weapon, although not my personal favourite, I would also give this the movement buff.
Movement Buff: 5%
SG-8 Punisher: I find this weapon is in a pretty good place. It should damage limbs more effectively.
SG-8S Slugger: When compared to the Punisher, this shotgun is seriously lacking. The damage is too little, the medium armour pen doesn't feel there at all. It needs to blow holes in big things and over-penetrate small things. Needs a higher body weak-point damage (Hulk Face/SpeweChargeTitan butts).
Damage: 250 400
Weak-point: 30%
SG-225 Breaker: Needs it's capacity increased.
Capacity: 13 20
SG-225IE Breaker Incendiary: Pretty well used in most games I play, I think it's in a good enough place currently.
SG-225SP Breaker Spray&Pray: This weapon is so bad it hurts. It struggles to kill even the bottom tier enemies with one shot and anything bigger than a warrior takes practically a full magazine. it's a spray and pray and as such, should reflect that.
Damage: 192 280
Recoil: 45 70
Fire Rate: 330 500
Jar-5 Dominator: Generally I think this weapon is in a good spot, I'd maybe increase the damage slightly and give it over-penetration on smaller enemies.
Damage: 275 280
SG-8P Punisher Plasma: This is an odd weapon that feels pretty flaccid when shooting. I would assume plasma would melt armoured points but it doesn't seem to do that very well either.
Damage: 250 300
Weak-point damage: 30%
Melts armoured parts of enemies.
Las-5 Scythe: I actually really enjoy this weapon and feel it needs to simply do a bit more damage to limbs.
Las-16 Sickle: Also in a really good spot.
Plas-1 Scorcher: I would have this also melt weak points on enemies after a few shots, otherwise feels fine generally. I do think that when compared to the dominator, this is practically a down grade every time so it needs something the dominator can't do like melting carapaces etc.
SECONDARIES:
P-4 Senator: Great place now it has the speed-loader. I would let it over-penetrate smaller enemies.
P-2 Peacemaker: I would increase the damage slightly as the P-4 and P-19 always feel like superior options. Damage: 75 85
P-19 Redeemer: Great weapon, no adjustments.
Las-7 Dagger: Like the Scythe, this pistol needs to deal increased limb damage but is otherwise fine in my opinion.
GRENADES:
Impact grenades need to be less strong than their timed variants. Timed grenades are rarely seen in any of the games I play, similarly Smoke, Stun and Thermite are never used.
G-3 Smoke: It's obscuring effect needs to have some effect where enemies suppress, pause, and then search, completely losing the players position unless spotted or fired upon. Currently, they have absolutely no use other grenades can't compensate for.
G-6: Frag: The radius of the fragmentation needs to be higher and the damage slightly upped, dropping off over the larger radius. It also needs to suppress enemies more who are hit.
Damage: 300 dropping down to 200 on the Outer Radius.
Outer Radius: 8 -- > 12
G-10 Incendiary: Also needs a larger radius than it's impact counter-part, I think damage is fine.
Outer Radius: 7 9
G-12 High Explosive: Again needs a larger radius than it's impact counter-part, I also think the damage could be increased due to it's larger size and perhaps a slightly higher penetration.
Damage: 400 450
Penetration: 4 5
Outer Radius: 7 8
G-13 Incendiary Impact: I feel that due to their size and nature, impact should have a smaller radius and lower damage in some cases, fire is fire so this doesn't need a lower damage. If the other incendiary is buffed, this grenade needs no changes.
G-16 Impact: Needs a slight reduction in outer radius, otherwise fine. As above, if the timed grenade is buffed, I think this would be fine.
G-23 Stun: I actually think this grenade is fine. I think this is down to the player base and people preferring to blow stuff up than stun it.
G-123 Thermite: I think this grenade needs to activate slightly quicker. I feel that when attached to an enemy, the enemy should also lose track of the player and potentially attack whatever is closest in a sense of panic or confusion. If the idea is this grenade exposes parts, it's not doing enough and if the idea is it kills heavily armoured enemies, it's also not doing enough.
SUPPORT WEAPONS:
Obviously there are no stats on these weapons however I'd like to make some suggestions on some of them, the below weapons are in a good place.
AC-8 Autocannon
RL-77 Airburst Rocket Launcher
EAT-17
GL-21 Grenade Launcher
MG-43
LAS-99 Quasar Cannon
The following need buffs or changes.
M-105 Stalwart: It feels like this should be a primary. Other than that, it's fine.
FLAM-40 Flamethrower: I would like this to drop with a backpack option so you can either chose to roll with the smaller ammo, or the larger ammo count. The tank should let you should further and for longer at the cost of potentially exploding if shot.
MG-206 Heavy Machine Gun: I'd also like to see this with a backpack ammunition option, making it belt-fed. It should also have over-penetration on smaller enemies and rip chunks off the big boys.
FAF-14 Spear: Do I need to say anything? Lock-on issues aside, it needs to one shot basically everything. I'd also like it to be able to tag player marks including smaller enemies and the environment and I'd like a 'hold-R' option to switch the missiles to airburst or standard.
GR-8 Recoilless Rifle: As above, I would like this to have a fire-option to shoot HE/Flak or AP.
APW-1 Anti-Material Rifle: Needs over-penetration on small enemies.
RS-422 Railgun: With other stratagems being buffed, there is no reason that this can't be reverted with a slightly lowered capacity from 20 12
LAS-98 Laser Cannon: Needs to melt carapace and armour to expose them to weak-points and needs higher limb damage but is otherwise fine.
ARC-3 Arc Thrower: It needs a higher damage and a stun effect on enemies hit. Enemies dying could cause a miniature EMS cloud effect in a small radius.
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Again, I KNOW, i need to talk to a therapist but appointments are hard to get so until then I need some reassurance to avoid another panic attack.
Located in USA, NJ
Last Tuesday/Wednesday, didn’t see or hear anything unusual in our home. I’m usually a light sleeper lately (last 9.5 months) since my son was born- typically wake up multiple times a night to check on him just out of habit at this point since he usually sleeps through the night.
Noticed at some point on Wednesday, not first thing in the morning, that he had two little dots on his face and looked like they had bled (later found tiny blood stains on the bed sheet). Didn’t think anything of it, babies get cuts, it happens. I was up super early that day around 4:15am to start work early - from home. Again didn’t notice anything. Around 5:30ish when I was in the bathroom next to the bedroom my son was in sleeping still, my two dogs were also in the room with him. One of the dogs barked, so i naturally yell at him because the baby is sleeping. He runs to me, i tell him to stop, he goes back in the room and barked again, then stopped. I didn’t go in to see why he was barking since my son didn’t wake up from it. Since i was up so early that day, when I got home from work i took a nap on the couch and when i woke up, my thigh was a bit itchy (if i remember correctly, now doubting myself) so i start scratching then realize there’s two little bumps. Bumps have a dot of blood on them, probably from the scratching? That’s when it hit me.
I realized what my marks look like and remembered what my sons look like and that my dog barked in the morning when he doesn’t typically bark that early or upstairs often. I looked at my husband and said ‘what if we were bit by a bat in our sleep, didn’t notice it and the dogs got to it before we could see?’ He looked at me like ‘are you serious’ - knowing that I’m petrified of bats.
We SEARCHED the house. Behind pictures on the walls (thanks google), in the attic, in the storage room, all over our room, nothing. No poop, no bat.
So my question to you all is (and please be nice as i’m very very aware of i have anxiety. It gets bad when the subject at hand is anything to do with bats) - is this scenario possible? A bat flew into our room at night, landed on our bed where we were sleeping and bit us then was able to scurry off the bed and hide without my dogs realizing until both my husband and i were out of the room, in which then caused my dog to bark. I was wearing sweatpants and using a blanket, and my son’s face (where his marks were) was next to mine. Would the bat have been able to get off the blanket? Or would its claws have gotten stuck and we would have seen or heard some sort of screeching?
If my dogs were trying to eat a bat, would we have heard screeching?
If a bat bit me through my blanket and pants, would i have holes or rips in them?
If a bat was on my son’s face biting him while next to me, would he have woken up and would i have woken?
I apologize for repetitive posts…but i have had a phobia of bats ever since i was a kid. Rabies phobia didn’t start until 8ish years ago when we woke to a bat in our room flying around and had to google what to do - thats when i learned about it.
**note, we live in the same house as when we had the bat years ago. That bat got in we believe from the chimney as we didn’t have a chimney cap at the time.
ETA: also became very nervous after a doctor looked at the marks on us and said to start PEP - it felt like a confirmation of what I explained above. Since Doctor administered HRIG again after already having it once in my life, will I now not be able to build the antibodies for rabies from the vaccines?
ETA#2: the distance between the points of my wound are 3/4inch.

I’ve seen other people vent about losing things and this is where I am right now. I visit peoples houses for my job and I’ve managed to lose the keys I keep on a lanyard to get into a few places. I’ve had the same Keys and spot for them for almost 3 years now and I’m just so mad at myself for losing them. And I worry I threw them away and didn’t notice, like 5 days ago and so now there just gone forever, crushed in a landfill. I just hate that it’s difficult to keep track of the basic things and it makes me feel so inadequate sometimes. Than I have a panic attack because I don’t know what to do. It’s just very frustrating.

i've always reckoned i prefer to sit at a window seat, but the last flight i was on was with my partner's family, his dad booked for us to sit in aisle seats. i found this helped massively with my fear of flying and usual panic attacks during takeoff. i found that sitting in the aisle helped because i could see people around me, which gave me a sense of normality. i find sat in the window seat, i feel worse because all i can see is the engine/wing, and the fact that i'm miles above the ground!! seeing people smiling and laughing, walking up and down the aisle helped me remain calm. but it's all about preference, i know some people remain calmer and happier when sat at a window seat!

I'm 27F, let's call me "Eva" for this story.
Around two weeks ago, my best friend "Stephen" (37M) was over at my place with his buddy, John (49M). They drank beer, I drank red wine, and we were just chilling, listening to music and watching videos on YT. I changed my curtains with help from Stephen, and did some other housework.
All the while, John kept saying, "Eva is so pretty, look how pretty she is. Nice butt" etc. Now, the three of us have been hanging out for about two years, and I know that John has been into me all that time. He's nice, but he's always sort of creepy towards me. But this took the cake.
Like, I was standing on a stool changing the curtains with my back against him and he incessantly pointed out how "pretty" I am, which made me uncomfortable.
Stephen left and John stayed because I was facetiming with his brother who was super nice. At some point I got super drunk and decided to go to bed. John was in the bathroom so I thought that he'd left. I got undressed (I only sleep in my panties) and climbed into bed, falling asleep probably instantly.
The next day I had a text from John, saying "it was so nice to lay next to you in your bed, it felt nice to not be alone". I found that absolutely crazy uncomfortable and texted him, saying "I thought that you had gone home, I didn't consent to you laying in my bed with me when I was almost fully naked."
I told Stephen about it this morning when we were texting, and I told him how creepy I thought it was. Dude has aspergers so he isn't the best at social cues or taking stuff seriously, and when I told him that I'm NOT gonna come over if John was there, he just said, "Boys will be boys".
I asked him if he seriously thought that it was fine. And not until then did I start wondering if John had touched me while I was sleeping, since, again, I was almost naked and he'd basically harassed me all night.
I ignored the rest of his messages and his call, and I had a panic attack and started crying. I've been through stuff like this before and it scarred me. But knowing that I was so drunk that I fell asleep and not knowing if something happened or not...
I've been on the verge of crying all day. Stephen was one of the three friends I had, but I don't think I can ever look him in the eye again. I'm just traumatized from the thought of something happening to me while I was passed out and couldn't consent. Not that I would consent to me and John doing anything in the first place.

Okay so um I wanna buy an xs spectrum outfitters binder but I have severe anxiety which makes it hard to breath even in a normal bralett sometimes (i admit that the braletts are also not my size tho...)I wanna ask people who wear binders and suffer from panic attack and or breathing problems (from anxiety or not)if they feel okay with a binder on or if they don't advise wearing one Also in the size chart it says 70-73,5 cm at the ribs and when I measured myself I inhaled as much oxygen as I could and with that it was 74 cm but I usually don't breath that much even if I'm anxious and need to breath deeply. So tbh I just need advice/reassurance on this matter Sorry for my English and thank you for reading

This is going to sound fake, but it is extremely real.
I (M21) was out getting dinner with my girlfriend at an Italian restaurant and we ordered a spinach pizza and some pasta. While we were waiting an old lady DIARRHEAED in the restaurant and the diarrhea spilled onto her shoes. Now she was walking out the store (right behind me) with a pile of diarrhea on her shoe (and a trail of diarrhea behind her). I could freaking smell it cuz she was 1 foot behind me. And this is the exact moment my pizza comes out. I refused to eat and I refused to pay as they were trying to clean up the mess, it was just too gross. I was literally about to have a panic attack. They let me leave without paying but when we left my girlfriend said I should’ve paid and she sees me differently now that I didn’t pay for what I ordered. AITAH?

I’ve seen other people vent about losing things and this is where I am right now. I visit peoples houses for my job and I’ve managed to lose the keys I keep on a lanyard to get into a few places. I’ve had the same Keys and spot for them for almost 3 years now and I’m just so mad at myself for losing them. And I worry I threw them away and didn’t notice, like 5 days ago and so now there just gone forever, crushed in a landfill. I just hate that it’s difficult to keep track of the basic things and it makes me feel so inadequate sometimes. Than I have a panic attack because I don’t know what to do. It’s just very frustrating.

Well that was fun! Here’s today’s recap, + What might come
Well that was fun. Here’s a Recap, + What might come
DISCLAIMER ⚠️ I AM NOT A FINANCIAL ADVISOR, THIS IS NOT FINANCIAL ADVISE
To any other FFIE investors with more knowledge on what’s going on right now, as well as more experience in retail investing, please feel free to correct me on, or to add onto any point in this post.
Okay - We made it. It wasn’t easy, definitely a little scary, but the market is closed (after hours are open but we will get to that later), and now we rest. But I know a lot of you crazy apes weren’t paying too much attention to every second of the day, that’s where I help out. Here’s a little recap of how today went:
After ending the day at $1.03 per share Friday, we opened up strong during today’s pre-market hours at $1.73 per share. What does this mean? Well it means a lot of you crazy little apes had orders placed, or the even crazier ones were up during pre-market placing orders in. Now that’s serious dedication 😳
Now, I know what you’re thinking. “All the other apes said today we were going to the moon! We’re still under $2! Where’s our money??” Not so fast silly little ape. Come, let me teach you about volume. 👨‍🏫
Today’s volume was a WHOPPING 677.89M.😱 What’s “today’s volume” ? Volume is the total of buys & sells of a stock in a certain time period. For a stock like FFIE, 677.89M is a BIG number. And because a lot of us HELD like we were supposed to, we finished regular market hours at +65.05% than friday evening. 👏🏼👏🏼 But why wasn’t it more? Why didn’t FFIE boom like other silly little apes promised? It’s simple, keep following me and you’ll understand, I promise. 🙂‍↕️
Because of the short ladder attack against us on Friday, the SEC gave us a hand and sanctioned a new uptick rule (see here - https://www.reddit.com/FFIE/s/nw6Rt12bmm ). This leaves the big bad suits with 2 options (paraphrased from u/Maximum-Purpose-1568 , Thank you sima’am): “ 1. They can cut their losses, and buy up the shares at current market value (this is the beginning of a cascade where the "squeezers" all get rich). Essentially, any share that a hedge fund purchases to mitigate their losses will increase the value of our shares. 2. They can continue to hold their shorted stock "loans" and hope the market drops again next week. If this is the case, you will need to continue to hold your shares until they crack (they pay a lot of money for each day they continue to short)”
So what happened? What does all this crazy talk mean!?!? Well given what happened today (a steady change in stock price throughout market hours, and very little volatility compared to recent days), this only means the Big Bad Suits chose option 2. They don’t think we’re serious and they’re doubling down. So what now? 🤔 We triple down. 😤
You see my fellow banana peelers, this was never a scam. This was never a get rich overnight scheme. This is quite literally, a fight between the rich, and the poor. The wolves in suits collectively believe we will give up, sell, and walk away, ultimately leaving them to walk away Scott free. Oh no, not this time. 👎🏼
So what do we do? Well, I can only tell you what CAN HAPPEN.
I AM NOT A FINANCIAL ADVISOR. THIS IS NOT FINANCIAL ADVISE
Right now at the rate that you crazy apes are going, we can keep FFIE above a dollar for 7 more closing nights. What would this mean? This would mean the Hedge’s have 7 days until FFIE officially can no longer be delisted from NASDAQ.👏🏼 Now because these Hedge’s betted AGAINST FFIE, this is absolutely not good news for them because they’d have to pay back the stocks they shorted, plus the interest (which all depends on how much we can make this stock rise). This is what we’re all waiting for. “The Short Squeeze.” 🍋🍋
“Big Ape! Too many words!!” Okay Okay, i’ll dumb it down for you. The smartest moves for us little guys to collectively make would be to buy, and hold. 💎🤲🏼 “But if we all buy and hold then how come there are still dips?” Because the Hedge’s will sell their shares. This causes the price of the stock to fall. They do this purposefully to make us panic, and sell. “So what do WE do about that?” Simple, we eat those shares right up. Remember, the Hedge’s are hoping we ignore these sold shares, as well as sell our owned shares, they don’t really want to lose the shares they sell. The way to genuinely stick it to them besides holding, is to buy during the dip. “How do I know its the best time to buy??” No one knows when a dip will end. The best thing to do is to go with your gut feeling and to buy when YOU feel comfortable. Remember, a dip is bound to come back up as long as we Hold and Buy, so don’t get too greedy when it comes to the best price per share. PLEASE SPREAD THE WORD
New post - https://www.reddit.com/FFIE/s/5m9YiNySoH

My limerence has been really well managed and under control for about 2 years now. I've only had very brief flashes of limerence which I've been able to deal with quickly.
However i saw my big 12 year LO at a concert this past weekend and basically had a panic attack and left the venue.
We had a really toxic on and off relationship which was super codependent and borderline abusive.
I had thought she had moved out of town wondering her was a huge shock.
I def feel I made the right choice to leave this time when I saw her. But i want to put together an action plan for what to do next time.
I def want to have zero contact with her at all due to our history.
Should I just make it my default to leave when insee her ? We like a lot of the same bands and bars. The odds of seeing her again are high if she's moved back to town.
Any advice would be helpful at this point thank you.

I'm (15f) and I genuinely don't think I can handle being close to my parents anymore for the sake of my mental health. I can't even list the amount of times they have given me panic/anxiety attacks and caused me to have a mental breakdown.
My mom is not as bad as my dad, but there are times when she just snaps and it's kind of like walking on egg shells. I wore sweatpants today at school because I kept wearing the same two pairs of jeans and sweatpants aren't against the dress code and my mom starts screaming at me about it. I understand her getting mad because being presentable is important, but the issue is her yelling constantly, that I genuinely can't stand it anymore. This sweatpants matter isn't even had, she's done stuff that's actually bad, but the main issue is that my mom doesn't know how to control her anger. I know that many of you think that she's in the right for yelling about the sweatpants and I understand, but she will yell about anything and will ignore my brother and I when we try to rationalize with her. Even when she's clearly in the erongx she refuses to listen. She also often "jokes" about me talking too much, but she's been doing it for years to the point it actually hurts my feelings.
My dad is way worse than my mom though. Even though my mom has some trouble controlling her anger and so, my dad is horrible at it. He will constantly switch from happy at one moment to angry at everybody else next, even my mom. He's cheated on my mom after she's cheated on him, but he still cheats. While I was eight, I heard him on a call with her and I thought he said he was gonna go somewhere with her, so I told my mom and she ended up telling my dad. He slapped my face hard to the point my face was stinging, then went on to yell at me and tell me to wipe my tears. He made me iron my clothes for school, then grabbed me by my shirt collar and started yelling at me again. But lo and behold, he left to go with his side chick for the night. That was the only time he physically hurt me, but he's definitely mentally abusive. He even used to be physically abusive towards my mom and ended up getting arrested for it for a day. I gave the cops a piece of info that was true that ended up leading to his arrest, and my mom said it was all my fault. She's apologized since then, but that will always stay with me. My mom and dad didn't see each other for awhile after that, but like always they forgave each other again, more like my mom forgave my dad again. He doesn't abuse her anymore, but there are so many situations I could list where he's horrible to everyone including me.
I can't take this family anymore, it's so incredibly toxic that this all seems like made up bs. Everytime they do something wrong, they do something nice afterwards and it makes me forgive them, (majority of the time my mom doesn't ask for forgiveness and my dad doesn't ask at all), but the bad stuff they do far outweighs the good stuff. Yet, I keep thinking that they're going to change and that they are just under stress. How do I somewhat distance myself from the both of them.

I've been dealing with indecisiveness anxiety for a long time and and I feel like it's getting worse. I recently got an offer to move to a new team in my company and it's a higher position with a bit more money.
I can't decide if I should take it. I love the relaxing atmosphere and freedom I have in my team right now. I'm so scare that the new team & new boss won't be as great since it's newly formed team. I hate working long hours especially in the evening and boss being difficult on granting time off. I'm terrified. I don't know what to do and the new team has been waiting for me to give the final answer. I'm so scared of making the wrong choice and things like that happened before.
I have panic attack every morning when I wake up and when I go to bed. The upper back / lower neck are is just cold, stiff, and painful. I don't know what to do and hate seeing myself like this.

After minimal improvement in my overall anxiety and still having panic attacks after being on zoloft for 4 months - I am switching to prozac.
I just wanted to say thank you for everyone that supported me and got me through the tough times on here. I wish you all the best 👍

I have devised this thread as some guidance for those people who have visited this forum and are concerned about specific symptoms that are effecting them and, in particular, those who are worried that these symptoms are an indication of neurological conditions such as Multiple Sclerosis (MS), Amyotrophic Lateral Sclerosis (ALS) & Motor Neurone Disease (MND).
The first thing that must be realised is that NOBODY on an internet forum can ever diagnose you or truly give you any reassurance that you do not have these conditions. Should anybody experience any signs or symptoms that are new to them they should ALWAYS approach their doctor in the first instance in order for these to be examined. In the vast majority of cases a GP will be able to advise you that these symptoms are benign but some doctors will often refer you to a neurologist for their opinion, if this should happen it is not value laden as regarding a possible diagnosis but rather would be the standard format for how you present to the doctor.
This thread is good news, it is good news because it has had to be written, it is good news because hundreds, maybe thousands of people have logged onto this board and countless other anxiety forums totally convinced that they are suffering from a neurological condition despite being told by health care profesionals that this is not the case. All these people ask the same questions and all these people have the exact same worries as you are having now. If this is you, if you have been to the doctor, maybe even a neuro, maybe even two neuro’s, maybe even had an MRI, maybe even two MRI’s, well, you get the picture, if you have been told by your health care profesional that you are healthy but you are struggling to believe this you may find some help from this thread.
So, you have come to an anxiety board. I guess that is because your doctor has told you that you are suffering from anxiety. Actually, my guess would be that your doctor has told you that you are suffering from ‘just’ anxiety and, if you are lucky, you may have been given some leaflets, you may have had some books recommended and you may even have been given some medication.
So, what took you to the doctor? Was it the tingling? The pins & needles? That damned annoying twitching eyelid that just won’t let up? Was it that weird thing when you keep seeing the flashing in your periphiral vision? The strange sensation in your throat where you just can’t swallow? The constant muscle aches and cramps? The constant small joint aches and cramps? Do you have that weird internal vibrating feeling? Was it the percieved weakness in all your major limbs? What about the foot drop you have been noticing, the clumsiness, finding the car keys in the fridge? Was it the chronic constant fatigue, that feeling when you wake in the morning like you haven’t actually gone to bed? What about the myclonic jerking, that bizarre moment when your whole body jerks like you have had an electric shock? Was it that constant twitching in your calf muscles that looks like you have a bag of worms under your skin? It could have been the parathesia, the feeling on your skin where one moment it feels sunburnt and the next minute it feels soaking wet? Maybe it was the atrophy, you know, the muscle loss in your bicep, your thigh that is so obvious to you but what frustratingly nobody else can see? What about………are you bored? I’m bored!
So, you have had some of those right? Maybe like me you are unlucky enough to have had every one of them…not much fun is it! When you first started getting these weird and wonderful symptoms cropping up I bet one of the first things you did was run off to the all powerful internet and consult that all knowing oracle, the good lord GOOGLE. If you did this, if you searched for your symptoms on a search engine on the internet, congratualtions, you have taken the first step on developing this weird and wonderful anxiety disorder known as Health Anxiety. The reason we Google is because of a basic human need at a time of stress, we are scared and we want reassurance, the problem is nothing you ever read on the internet will give you the reassurance you need, you will unwittingly discard the plethora of evidence that tells you that you do not have a neurological illness and instead will latch onto and inflate those things which seem ambigous, why would you do this? I suggest that at this point it may be adavantagous for you to look in the Genaralized Anxiety Disorder folder on this forum and see the negative thought processes and over generalization and catastrophising that defines GAD, it just may ring some bells for you.
So, by the time you have gone to the doctor you are pretty much resigned to the fact that it is MS or if you are really unlucky ALS. You picture yourself in a wheelchair, the kids looking at you with pity as you can’t play sports in the park with them anymore, you picture your partner standing by you and caring for you but all the while you feel the resentment, they never signed up for this, you picture the scene in four years time, confined to a hospital bed with your family and friends round you with the fruit and flowers…..BUT WAIT!
Oh joyous news, the doctor has said you don’t have MS, you don’t have ALS, what you have is anxiety, well, just anxiety….oh believe me there is a BIG difference. You have got out of jail free! The doctor has examind you thoroughly, he has taken your history, he knows the patterns, he has seen people with MS and ALS and you are not one of those. With a skip and a step you are on your way, same time next year doctor, yep, no worries…so with a happy heart and an increased vigour you are off out of the surgery door to continue with your life that had been on hold up to then. MS, ALS how could you be so silly eh?
…and then it begins! Right, the doctor said this is anxiety, I’m not anxious though, why do I still have these symptoms if I’m not anxious….something just isn’t right here. The more you think about it the more it seems obvious, hold on, I saw the doctor on Friday afternoon, I bet he was just thinking about the weekend and wanted to get rid of me. I’m sure that the doctor should have done more tests than he did you know, crikey, I’m sure when I told him the numbness was down just the one side he didn’t listen to that, that bit is crucial and he never heard it. Hold on, this freakin eye twitch is getting even worse and I’m not even anxious, where is the telephone? What is that doctors number?……welcome to the loop!
If any of the above seems familier to you, believe me, you are not alone…as strange as it may seem the fixation on being convinced you have a neurological condition after being told that you are in actual fact suffering from anxiety in very common.
Firstly, you need to realise that both MS and ALS are rare disease’s. Not only are they both rare disease’s but they also tend to effect spefic groups based on ethnicity, age and sex so we are talking about rare disease with partial excluding factors. In contrast, anxiety is an incredibly common and debilitating condtion that effects people both physically and mentally.
Anxiety is generally percieved to be a mental condition, when we are anxious we are anxious in our head and this can kick in the flight or fight syndrome which in turn causes the physical reactions. These reactions are generally thought to be a racing heart and palpitations, sweating, increased adrenaline etc etc. Now, this is all well and good but how does this fit in with those symptoms that mirror MS etc so effectivly.
I personally believe that the reason most people fail to be believe that their symptoms are being genrated by anxiety is because the concept of anxiety is never actually expalined sufficently. A large number of doctors will often expalin to you that you are suffering from ‘just’ anxety and this usage of the term ‘just’ is supposed to make us somehow feel reassured. The problem is that this has the opposite effect, how can a ‘just’ something cause all these real physical symptoms. If anxiety is effecting me mentally how can it make me twitch, buzz and go numb?
For some people anxiety will surface in the tradional panic attack, much seems to be written on this side of anxiety and this is not what we are concerned with here. For a sizable group of people when anxiety starts to manifest itself physically it is through physical sesnations that effect various aspects of our nervous system. This is why the sensations of this physical anxiety so closely mirror the symptoms of a condition such as MS, they actually effect the same part of the body, now, here is the crucial and all important difference, the symptoms of MS are caused by an organic condition which whilst treatable is irreversable and the physical sensations of anxiety are caused by the mind and are of course reversable. In short, you have to understand and accept that the mind can actually generate these physical sensations.
Whilst for many people physical anxiety can strike out of the blue, I am of the opinion that for the vast majority of people anxiety starts to become physical after whay could be many years of bad stress and anxiety management. You may not have even noticed this. We all have an anxiety threshold and the majority of people will probably never approach the blow off point, yes, a sudden and severe stressor could take someone right over the point from the baseline (think Post Traumatic Stress Disorder & Conversion Disorder etc) but most of us operate at an anxiety level that our bodies can handle. The problem is that if we stress ourselves constantly over a period of time, we do not allow our thermostat to reset and one sunny day something will happen, some stressor which can be a bad or even a good event and which we may not even realise the significance of will push us over the limit and it is at this point that our anxiety will effect us physically and more often than not impact on our nervous system.
This also happens to bring us to another crucial factor and what for many is the paradox that holds us back form accepting the anxiety diagniosis, how the hell can this be anxiety when I am not anxious? It makes no sense to me! What we need to realise is that once we have crossed the anxiety threshold no matter what we do we have to surrender ourselves to our mind and body and accept that we are now operating to a timescale that WE CANNOT CONTROL! We can think we are being as cool as Fonzie but we need to accept that the damage whilst reversible has been done and it is just a case of closing the stable door after the horse has bolted. Our body is now in control of us and the physical sensations will only stop when our body and mind are sufficently recovered.
It is at this point where we commit the ultimate folly, do we do as the experts suggest and sit back and realx and float through this stage? Of course not, we do the total opposite, we monitor our body for every twitch and interpret this as a sign of a misdiagnosis, we become hypervigilant, paranoid, self absorbed…this behaviour just creates more and more anxiety and we do not allow our body and mind the time necessary to recover….we are, in effect, pouring gasoline on the fire and expecting it to go out.
If you read this forum you will find a variety of posts that will offer you suggestions as to why you are suffering from the physical sensations of anxiety. Some people will advocate medication, some Cognitive Behaviour Therapy etc etc but what you will realise is that there is no one right way. I am truly of the belief that recovery is all about acceptance and learning to respond to fear correctly but how we do this is very much an indvidual thing. It could well be that you have issues with GAD and you can see how patterns realting to that disorder resonate with how you currently feel about your health, for example, note how both MS and ALS are diseases with which we lose control of our bodies. It could also be that you have issues with OCD, traits such as reassurance seeking and body and symptom monitoring could suggest this. There may well be suggestions that you could be sufferring from elements of depression, there is as school of thought that believes that the mind will somatise physical sensations when there are aspects of your life that your unconcious is unhappy with etc.
I hope this has helped if you have just visited here convinced you have MS etc and you are feeling scared and confused. You may have noticed I have not mentioned anything specific about MS or ALS and that is because there is no reason to...you do not have those. Your doctor has told you you are suffering from anxiety and therefore you are in the right place. Refrain from researching about diseases you do not have and instead concentrate on dealing with what you have today. Of course, what you have today doesn’t guarantee you won’t have MS or ALS tomorrow and if that thought fills you with fear use your time here wisely and believe me, it becomes a lot more bearable.

18, Male
Late March started experiencing pressure headache, brain fog and derealization. tons of anxiety could have been causing those symptoms as well im a very anxious person whenever something feels slightly off.
I go to the ER because I have a panic attack that leaves almost my entire body numb. They diagnose me with a sinus infection and give me antibiotics and tell me to take Allegra. Same day I go to my psychiatrist and I get 20mg of Prozac for my anxiety and I started taking that with anti biotics.
2 weeks goes buy I feel extremely fatigued from the prozac it makes me want to sleep all day but my head pressure is getting better. I continue taking the Allegra and the prozac but I started tapering off the prozac after about 4-5 weeks because I don’t like it I go down to 10mgs
8 days ago I start feeling some memory problems and then out of nowhere a couple days later a huge wave of anxiety and depressions hits me multiple panic attacks another one sending me to the ER. I feel like my emotions have been completely removed im completely demotivatedr from everything now one of my pupils is larger than the other one and I can’t sleep at night and I’m having heart palpitations. Can barely eat or drink to this is really freaking me out could this be withdrawal from prozac from tapering to fast? I know the side effects can be terrible but I’m worried about prions because of the insomnia and just how long I’ve felt terrible.
I have an eye doctors appointment today it’s primary care I’m just so scared right now I feel like my cognitive faculties have been so bad since the start and that’s what been freaking me out about it being prions.

This is a fear I've been carrying since childhood. I'm in my mid twenties now and throughout my life I feel like the amount of times I actually had to v* can be counted on two hands if not one. Every time I felt like it, I did my best to suppress it and it almost always worked.
Not the past Sunday evening, though. I felt nauseous around 7PM but thought it was because of gaming and ignored it. Then 10PM hit and my body forced the v* out of me. As always, I cried while it happened and the stuffed nose caused me to be even more scared because I didn't know when I could breathe again. The first load was already crappy but I felt better for 5 minutes after that, thinking it was finally over. Nope. Stomach cramps ongoing and 11PM I had to do it again. This time I don't know why but it was so humiliating that my whole body cramped up and remained stiff for long enough to get everyone worried. My mom was there all along and I told her that this can't be normal (I hadn't experienced a panic attack before this so I didn't know it was "just that") and to please call an ambulance 🥲
Long story short, they got here around 1AM and during those 2 hours waiting for them we've been on the phone with paramedics, my family stayed with me and I kept going back and forth between v*, my body cramping up and not being able to take a step without nearly fainting which was the reason they came to our place instead of us driving to the hospital. Once they got here they were able to calm me down and ensure it was probably the stomach flu and the panic attack a result of me hyperventilating (I was still breathing too fast when they got here).
The whole experience was SO bad that I realized this cannot keep making life harder than it already is. Rationally I always knew that our body is just trying to get rid of something bad but I could never work with that. But this time, the combo of v*, feeling better after it and experiencing a panic attack I never want to experience again, is (hopefully) the first step towards recovery. I'm tired of emetophobia causing me to be miserable for way longer than needed and ironically causing more suffering than what we fear we'd suffer. I promised myself to finally do something about it after this experience. I pray no one has to be pushed this far to realize we need help but honestly, being in this sub already shows we're on the right path so... Best of success to everyone ◡̈

I 29f left the home I share with my 30m husband because he started going on a rant about my family. But I’m scared I’m over reacting about my safety.
I don’t know where to begin but my mother threatened his life a few years ago during a screaming match over what she said was him disrespecting me. She refused to apologize and he has been holding on to it for years. At first he just didn’t want anything to do with my family and we would go back and forth. For the last year he has been trying to make an effort to see them but the real issue has never been addressed.
On more than one occasion he has gone on a nasty rant calling my mom names and saying he wants to hit or he wish he could have when she threatened him. And I’ve learned to just let it go so it doesn’t cause a fight. Even though it makes me sick. I know what my mom did was wrong and crazy but I can’t make her apologize and for a while he didn’t want me to try.
This time he spent all day being pretty manic, talking about my family, demanding they apologize, having deep convo about my childhood, to talking about his career, all day. He then comes home and almost immediately starts talking about how he has to have an apology and I need to tell them I’ll never speak to them again if they don’t. And it ramped up to him yelling and calling my mom every name, racial slurs, and it just scared me to the point that I felt compelled to leave. I left the house to take a walk and I was so afraid to go back. I did and he was leaving to go for a drive and said he wasn’t coming back.
I packed up my pets and my work clothes and left. But now he’s saying I over reacted and it’s not fair because he’s never hit me or did anything violent to me. Which is true. He has never put his hands on me in a serious way. I’ll admit I have been the one to try to slap him once and I’ve accidentally hit him while having a panic attack. So he says I’m the one who’s more likely to hurt him. But I just feel like this is what you hear in the news. I’m scared he could just snap. But at the same time I feel like I’m just being dramatic or sexist. My family says they’re worried about my safety.
He has never threatened his life but has confided in me about being suicidal or at least thinking about it more. That makes me scared that he might hurt himself, or hurt me too. But he has never hurt himself so I feel like I’m blowing it out of proportion.
He’s also upset that I took out pets and I don’t know if that was right but I couldn’t handle leaving them and not knowing what was happening. His mom said I was wrong for taking them and I feel terrible.