Choti bahan ka sath chudai stories

Hey champ,I hope you will read this soon or whenever or will you or will you not, you may cry when you will read this coz I am while writing this. (This I said to myself before writing this)
Last 2 years of my life have been very painful and suffering, I have been through a lot, I even lost my father I am shedding a lot, a hell lot of tears.
Opted for JEE after 10th since then I have barely met or had a party with my friends, loved to do hell let of extra curriculars but left all of them because of JEE, got my board results of 10th scored 92.6,but got nothing if I tell them that got nothing after this then they'd say ki tuh bta tujhe kya chahiye,,, are yaar apko pta hai mujhe gaming ka shok hai, aur itni cheezo ka hai khi ghuma hee laate, uske naam pe bc sirf kanpur gye. Then gave JEE, though my results were not that good but decent asked for nothing,, I asked them ki online payment karvado almost 6 months ago coz a hell lot of sites from which I like to buy things (from my own money) don't accept COD and I have only cash,,, fuckin 14 year old kids use fampay every guy I know uses it and when I confronted them this today they are like generation gap, wtf????
After JM 2 results I thought if acha aata hai I will gift myself a Real Madrid Jersey but acha nhi aaya isliye nhi ki for board mein I thought I will fail in Physics but 85 ke aas paas aa gye and I was happy so I was like yes let's order a Real Madrid kit , was checking prices and I said to myself,, puri kit "1200 tk aa jaygi",, my mum walks in and says ki paiso ki brbaadi mt kar. I swear I was gonna cry on this but I didn't as some of my relatives were there in the house and I didn't wanted to create a mess.She didn't do this the first time, I wanted a Cristiano poster for my room and she again was like "paise ki brbadi mt kr room khaarab karega"
Yaar meine 2 saal se kuch nhi manga, even paise mein khud deta but still bc yaar 200 ka poster nhi aata 😭. Coming back to the day I was gonna order my jersey.
My mother was gonna leave the city for a week and I thought ki I am now gonna order a Real Madrid Cr7 jersey online. I had the money and I didn't ask them for it. But again the problem was ki the major dealers only accepted online and I didn't use online. I asked my brother ki order krdo online 1hfta ho gya he hasn't order it.
Now today :
I am very sad as I have my BITSAT IN 3 days and i haven't been able to study coz of all this shit and I haven't covered the chapters which aren't in JEE but are in BITSAT, mocks diye but I realised ki iss attempt mein acha nhi ho payga, also because I stopped studying for BITS because I thought ki PCM MEIN 75 nhi aayenga(Thank god aagye)
I am frustrated as fuck as was depressed and since the last week, only studying and lying on the bed, I was crying in my bed, my brother came and asked me what's the deal?
I spilled everything ki muje mum choti choti chezon ke liye mana krti hai (even though I am 18 , for which I don't even ask money for and which I have only decided to order after an exam result of which I am satisfied of)
Once I was going to play PS with my friend for an hour and (after JEE M 2) and both said no.
I kept crying while expressing the thoughts that were in my mind since the 2 years.
Everytime I said ki "mein yaha jana chahta tha after xyz exam but you didn't allow me" My brother said GENERATION GAP hai hamare beech (10 Saal)
Bc har baar yahi cheez har baar yahi cheez he said. It's like say in college I am not going to stay a night on campus for xyz reason say a show/concert and I ask their permission then will they reject it saying ki "GENERATION GAP" HAI.
I am done guys I want to leave my home, I just wanted a shirt and a poster (for a reward to myself and I was the only one who was gonna pay for it and was gonna go to my friends place after the exam and they always said no, it even makes me more sad when my friends after scoring less that 80 are going to London and foreign trips.)
I am just working Hard for a BITS, and I am willing to live a restriction free life.
Sorry if it was long story and idk if I am being stupid but I had to write this.

ANSWER IS YES I AM IN 🫥
-yeah sab 10th mai start hota hai 9th tak toh bot aacha tha padhai mai but suddenly kam padhai karne ki wajah se mera thik tak no. aye it seems okay t me jab mera result aya 10th ka tab mai aur mera papa bank mai tha sudeenly papa ka pass phone aya result aagaya maine bank mai hi result check kiya i was shocked i got only 78% mera papa na mujhe bank mai sabka samne daat diya aur gharpe akee mujhe thode dande maare ab ate hai main story pa ab mai 11th mai tha sudenly my life changes pata nii kaise mi ek cool dude type ban gaya tha meri ek gf bhi bani lets name her disha starting mai hamara relation boht aacha chala [aacha batana bhul gaya usne mujhe poose kiya] badme mujhe uska asli rang dekkhne lage she was not the girl i ever wanted woh chote log aa sath rehti thi not in that sense ab kaise samjhau uska ek ex photo bf tha uski pic bhi leak ho gayi thi uska sath kiss karte hua which is okay phir usne meri ladai start karwadi woh ladka ladka mujhe aisa bolra hai waise bolra hai lte sedha kam karwati thi hamara thoda sexuall attachmment bhi tha badme ussi ki wajah se hamara break up ho gaaya 12th mai brreak up hua usne meri image school mai boht buri kardi jissa mera zeena haram kar diya tha hmari secret baatee saro ko bata diya karti thi meri imagge down karti rehti thi maine aaj tak uski baate kisi ko nahi batayi taki uski image kharab na ho but she did ab present mai ate hai i cleared 12th maine jee mains clear kar liya jaise taise mai boht avarage bacha tha school mai but drop year mai ho gaya jaise taise meri coaching na meri sari preparation kharab kardi uss coaching na mera moddules hi mera dono attempt ka baad diye woh bhi aadhe aur syllaubus bhi complete ni karwaya but now my parents are expecting from me to clear jee advance too which is not possible in just 40 days but mera parents nahi samajh rahe roj mujhhe boht sunate hai mera papa na meri 11th aur 12th dono kharab kardi gov. school mai lagake infact mera papa ne 12th mai mujhe jee bhi nii dena diya aur drop year mai apne pass rakhne ka chakkar mai kisi gandi sii coaching maii admission dilwa diya mera jan attempt mai 55 aye aur phir maine coaching chod di aur khude april atttempt mai padhai karke cuoff clear ki[that coaching ruined my career aur ab 25 bhi mang rahe hai bolre hai apki installment baki hai aur mera modules bhhi ni nera syllabus bhi complete nii karwaya]ab maai roj daaat khatta hu mujhe bola jata hai ki tu nikkama hai aur ab mujhe mera dost akee bolre hai meri ex -gf mera bare mai baate fela rahi hai but mai bhul chuka hu yeah sab par phir bhi yaas dila deta hai ab aisa lagra hai kuch nii bacha zindagi mai i think a really permanent sleep can fix me only you what i am talking about!!! bs ab kuch nii bacha 💌

Life ki sach m lag chuki h 19 ki hu, 17 m 12th krliya tha aur abhi Tak college ka kuch pta nhi h 4 saal (11th-2nd drop) se neet ki tyari kri lekin iss bar bhi state quota se mil jayega college jiski fees 12lakh + h jo m afford ni kr skti.
Parents m bs maa h jo khud struggle kr rhi h aur depressed h. Recently ran away from house (with mom, my mom's family knew) kuki waha toh halat aur bhi kharab thi aur mmy zeher khane ja Rahi thi
Mujhe samjh ni ara meri galti kaha h , mujhe pta h life fair nahi hoti lekin iska mtlv ye thodi ki har jagah se m hi pilu , mene toh wo sab kuch Kiya Jo mujhe supposedly karna chahiye tha
1- sab classes m 94% + leke ayi
2- kabhi intentionally kuch galat ni kiya kisi k liye
3- hmesa chup rahi taki sar k upar chath ho
4- bewajah mar khayi , gaaliya suni , wo sab kuch suna or dekha Jo ek bache ko sunne or dekhne se pehle mar jana chahiye
5- anxiety attacks ate the toh khud toh wrap krke Beth jati thi
6- dosto ne apni aukat dikhai
7- family toh chalo family kehlane layak thi hi nhi
8- jab mmy ki Jaan m baat aai toh himmat dikhai or unko leke aai us nark se bahar
9- hmesa sbko hosla dete gyi ki sab thik honaega, krlenge hum kuch
10- jab mmy ko sath leke ayi toh mmy ne kuch kam pakda kharche k liye toh padai k sath Ghar sambhala
Na jane kya kiya kya nahi Lekin kuch bhi thik nahi ho rha
Maa kehti h tu pad m apni jewellery bech dungi lekin uske alawa toh hmare pass kuch h bhi nahi toh agar jarurat pad gyi toh kya krenge
Bhai bhi wahi bnta ja rha h jisse dur bhagi thi itni himmat krke.
Mmy kehti h tu koi choti moti job krne ki mat soch , apne career m focus kr m tujhe achi jagah dekhna chahti hu . Unko prove Krna h sabko ki wo galat the aur mujhme potential h lekin mujhse ab nhi hota.
M thak chuki hu , M THAK CHUKI HU

Sorry for posting this I know this is not the right time or the right place to post this but pls yaar bohot dino se vent karna tha. It starts in 2020 I met this girl on discord hum dono bohot acche dost bann Gaye and vo mujhse ek saal choti thi tab mai chutiya tha Sigma ka 14 Banta tha and misogyny bhi karta tha taaki cool lagu but still vo mujhse acche se baat karti thi hum voice calls pe bhi baat karte the. She even used to share her pics (not those ones) but I never did since I was never comfortable sharing pics with someone whom I met online , mujhe bharosa nai tha.
In 2021-22 I left discord. 1-1.5 saal usse baat nahi Hui thi and mujhe uski yaad bhi nahi aati thi uss time because I used to spend most of my time playing cricket with my friends and studying so kaafi acchi thi life.
2023 mai boards dediye and installed Instagram in my summer vacations she was in my friend list and she again stated talking to me kaafi wholesome moment tha for me since after lockdown meri female interaction zero hogayi thi and she was the only one female friend of mine. We used to do voice calls daily even zoom calls sometimes (yeah she once saw my pic from my highlights mai vo pic remove karna bhul gya tha) so isliye ab I was comfortable with her. By every passing day we got more and more close. She even started flirting with me and later she used to share everything with me like she even used to discuss about how much pain she has to bear when she's on periods and other things.
She is SoBo/South Delhi type of girl and lives on a 3hr driving distance from my place. She is loaded as fuck but still she used to talk to me. I never had guts to confess my love for her which I had from the last 4 years because she was way out of my league. Long Hairs , fair skin color , chubby, and mesmerizing eyes. Some days came where she was busy so I couldn't talk to her literally mujhe raat ko neend nahi aati thi.
And finally it happened, she stopped responding to my messages and just used to give short replies like ok , emoji etc. I knew it was over for me ,she completely stopped talking to me and so I did and many days later she unfollowed my ig but didn't removed me from her followers but due to ego issues I unfollowed her. And I was like fuck that shit I'll study hard land at a good college and will make gf but guess what I studied well for few months but later I started stalking her ig again her account was public so I used to watch her stories from a website.
She seemed to be happy in her life chilling with her irl friends and going on vacations with her parents ( her parents are too cool ) , while I just used to watch those stories and think about it the whole day. I stopped doing that but even now when I study or when I try to sleep I get thoughts about her and think that where did I go wrong

She said in her vlog " mujhe darr lag gaya tha ki mujhe sunna na pade ki tumko itna bhi nahi aata, kuch seekha nahi...etc etc...and this thought made me cry!!
FEW QUESTIONS TO YOU:-
Pehle toh yeh batao..kiska sunane ka Darr tha? Ammi, Abba ya shauhar?
After earning so much every month from vlogging this level of confidence, vulnerability, weakness, phattu behaviour you show to your audience!!!
Jab tumhara shauhar bolta hai ki mere parents duniya ke sabse achche parents hai,kabhi tumhe kisi cheez ke liye roka Toka nahi hai toh itni choti si galti ke liye tumhe kyu Darr laga ki sunna padega aur Rona nikal gaya??
One thing is for sure!
Tum apne sasural apne shauhar ke bagair ek pal bhi nahi ruk sakti! Isiliye jab akeli hoti ho toh khala ke yahan bhaag jaati ho....Tumhari phatke haath mein aa jayegi ghar mein inlaws ke sath rukne mein! because you don't trust them at all!

It's 13 may my result was announced at 11.50 am .. i was little nurvous bcause i thought i might have passed anyway.. I have seen many people passed exams who don't know anything.
First let me start my story since childhood
Mai bachpan se thoda sa padhayi mai nalayak tha school skip krne ke bahane bnata tha ()... Dheeere dheeere . 8th class tak avg student se achha ho gya tha padhne me aacha score kia 9th k kuchh mahino baad COVID aagya tha 9th v online exam deke nikal gyii..kuchh nhi padha saal bhar bass kuchh games khelta tha youtube chalata .. uss time thoda sa ethical hacking me thoda sa pair rakh dia... class 10th me April me mere dad ko COVID hua ..and he passed away (2021) it was the most painful moment but mai itna dumb/ch##ya tha, tab kya sahi h kya galat iska koi smz nhi tha , Papa k gurajrne ke 3 din baad hi mai gaming mai guss gya ye soch k ki youtube krunga aur paise se ghar sambhal pauga(first & worst decision of my life) .. uss time pubg m tha , papa k guzarne ke un 13 dino v mai 9 10 ghante game khelta tha rec krta achha video nhi nikalta delete kr deta tha...(Device 3gb + screen cracked) Itna time waste hua 59% score kia thodi bahut padke kyuki exam time me game khelta tha.. bolta tha sabko mai v scout ki trh lakho kamauga ..... 10th barbaad Hui 59%. Score kia ghar pariwar me case wase ka chakkar (family issue) toh ham 3no (mai , Meri bhen, mummy) ne hometown chhor dia 100 km door rhne lage fir meri... Kuchh din baad meri ek sabse badi bhn(didn't mention above) , unhone suicide kr lia zeher kha k (kisi ladke se pyar th) (June 2022) kuchh mahino baad meri 11th class start Hui aur mai nalayak tha kuchh aata tha nhi , aur sab teachers se argue krta tha .... Ki mujhe chemistry smz nhi aati , (ofc base clear nhi tha toh)... Unse yahi bolta rha mai apna dekh lunga aap musse mat kaho , aur sake samne bezzti marte the sir log , 11th me 25% attendance gyi jata hi nhi tha mummy ko mna kr deta tha Ghar baithke game khelta sabke taane sunta... Kuchh videos upload Kiye fir chhor dia upload karna( kuchh nhi hoga sochke). 11th me compartment (physics) . inn dinoo andrew tate , iman gadzi , kuchh podcast sunn leta tha... Ghar pe mummy ne support Kia kisi ko na bata k .. same 12th gyi Kam attendence , padhayi v nhi kia .. last month mai Thora bahut padhh let tha .... Exam time me 'pass ho hi jaunga' soch k Thora bahut game khel leta tha.....
Recently mai local mai digital marketing ka job krne lga tha Aaj 3rd day tha 10k/m pe AAJJ JAB RESULT AAYA toh dekha ki ESSENTIAL REPEAT (failed) abb kya kruu bahut ghabrahat ho rhi h ...
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Hey there This is an anonymous story teller I belong to a normal middle class family Main bhi zyadatar ladkiyon ki tarah ek chote se shehar ki ladki hoon jiske bade-bade khwaab hain Hum aksar logo ko TV par dekhkar unse inspiration lete hain unhe apna idol bana lete unki tarah banna chahte hain Main bhi unhi mei se hi ek hoon Main bhi bachpan se hi TV par actresses ko dekhkar unki tarah acting karne ki koshish karti thi Lekin sabse zyada jo cheez mujhe attract karti thi vo thi Dancing. Bachpan se hi mujhe dance ka bahot shauk tha. Main humesha dance related shows dekh kar unke steps mirror mein copy karne ki koshish karti thi. Mera humesha se hi ek dream tha ki life mei ek baar bas ek baar mujhe ek bade se stage par hazaaron audience ke samne perform karna hai. I wanted to take dance classes to learn it in a better way but couldn't because I come from a background where dancing is considered a taboo and people who continue to do it are shamed upon. Kai baar koshish kiya lekin ghar vale nahi maane. Even though meri mummy kaafi supportive thi humesha se but mere baaki family members ko bilkul pasand nahi tha toh phir maine bhi zidd chord di. Lekin shauk to ab bhi tha. Isiliye shauk pura krne ke liye main apne kamre mein hi dance kiya karti thi. Even though maine on stage perform nhi kiya tha but koi bhi mujhse meri hobby puchta tha to main sabko Dance hi batati thi. Isme logo ki ek baat mujhe bahot khalti thi ki log pehle se hi assume kar lete the ki ladki hai to iski hobby toh dance hi hogi ye jataake ki unhe iske alawa aur kuch nhi aata hai. Ye baat mujhe bahot zyada chubhti thi phir maine socha ki ghar vale dance ke liye toh maan nahi rahe toh kuch aur hi kar lete hain jisse unhe bhi khushi mile aur baaki logo ko bhi dikha saku there's is no limit to a girl's potential So I started playing basketball and slowly I got better and began to represent my school at different places. I also started oration to build my confidence to speak in public.I played numerous basketball matches, did so many stage programs as a host. Main 12th mein thi uss time when I came to know ki mere ghar ke bilkul peeche hi dance class khula hai Toh maine phir mummy se bola mujhe vo join karna hai kyunki ab mere paas hardly 3-4 mahine hi bache the 12th boards se pehle.Mummy maan gayi but humne socha ki hum(mummy aur mai) kisi ko nhi batayenge iske baare mein. Phir daily subah mein jab sab so rhe hote the main dance class jaati thi phir vahan se jaldi jaldi practice karke ghar aake phir dubara school jaati thi Mere dance ko vahan ke logo ne kaafi appreciate kiya ki meri body kaafi fast move karti hai aur main bohot confident rehti hoon dance karte waqt.Tab mujhe realise hua ki wo speed mujhe basketball se mili hai aur confidence mere oration ki vajah se.Then I thought whatever I did till date added on to my dancing skills.I kept practicing for as long as I can.Still kuch hi time kar paayi ye sab Phir boards start hogye phir college.
College mei maine soch liya tha ki yahan to atleast dance perform karungi . Phir maine dheere dheere participate Kiya programs mein. Mujhe aur mauke milne lage dheere dheere mujhe one of the lead dancers bhi bana diya. Competitions mein participate karna start kiya vahan bhi kaafi recognition mila Isi ke saath hi maine apni kuch friends ke sath Dance videos social media par post karna shuru kiya aur bohot hi kam time mein use logo ne dekhna start Kiya aur kaafi taareef ki. Dance video ke views 100 thousands and millions mei jaane lage. And then I got my first collaboration video with an artist with the help of one of my school friends. So right now I'm just working on myself to build a community a space where I get the recognition,I longed for since my childhood.
I will definitely give my name out once I reach somewhere because at this moment I'm in the middle of nowhere. So till then let me be an anonymous story teller 😉
Thankyou 🤗

Hey there ! This is an anonymous story teller I belong to a normal middle class family Main bhi zyadatar ladkiyon ki tarah ek chote se shehar ki ladki hoon jiske bade-bade khwaab hain Hum aksar logo ko TV par dekhkar unse inspiration lete hain unhe apna idol bana lete unki tarah banna chahte hain Main bhi unhi mei se hi ek hoon Main bhi bachpan se hi TV par actresses ko dekhkar unki tarah acting karne ki koshish karti thi Lekin sabse zyada jo cheez mujhe attract karti thi vo thi Dancing. Bachpan se hi mujhe dance ka bahot shauk tha. Main humesha dance related shows dekh kar unke steps mirror mein copy karne ki koshish karti thi. Mera humesha se hi ek dream tha ki life mei ek baar bas ek baar mujhe ek bade se stage par hazaaron audience ke samne perform karna hai. I wanted to take dance classes to learn it in a better way but couldn't because I come from a background where dancing is considered a taboo and people who continue to do it are shamed upon. Kai baar koshish kiya lekin ghar vale nahi maane. Even though meri mummy kaafi supportive thi humesha se but mere baaki family members ko bilkul pasand nahi tha toh phir maine bhi zidd chord di. Lekin shauk to ab bhi tha. Isiliye shauk pura krne ke liye main apne kamre mein hi dance kiya karti thi. Even though maine on stage perform nhi kiya tha but koi bhi mujhse meri hobby puchta tha to main sabko Dance hi batati thi. Isme logo ki ek baat mujhe bahot khalti thi ki log pehle se hi assume kar lete the ki ladki hai to iski hobby toh dance hi hogi ye jataake ki unhe iske alawa aur kuch nhi aata hai. Ye baat mujhe bahot zyada chubhti thi phir maine socha ki ghar vale dance ke liye toh maan nahi rahe toh kuch aur hi kar lete hain jisse unhe bhi khushi mile aur baaki logo ko bhi dikha saku there's is no limit to a girl's potential So I started playing basketball and slowly I got better and began to represent my school at different places. I also started oration to build my confidence to speak in public.I played numerous basketball matches, did so many stage programs as a host. Main 12th mein thi uss time when I came to know ki mere ghar ke bilkul peeche hi dance class khula hai Toh maine phir mummy se bola mujhe vo join karna hai kyunki ab mere paas hardly 3-4 mahine hi bache the 12th boards se pehle.Mummy maan gayi but humne socha ki hum(mummy aur mai) kisi ko nhi batayenge iske baare mein. Phir daily subah mein jab sab so rhe hote the main dance class jaati thi phir vahan se jaldi jaldi practice karke ghar aake phir dubara school jaati thi Mere dance ko vahan ke logo ne kaafi appreciate kiya ki meri body kaafi fast move karti hai aur main bohot confident rehti hoon dance karte waqt.Tab mujhe realise hua ki wo speed mujhe basketball se mili hai aur confidence mere oration ki vajah se.Then I thought whatever I did till date added on to my dancing skills.I kept practicing for as long as I can.Still kuch hi time kar paayi ye sab Phir boards start hogye phir college.
College mei maine soch liya tha ki yahan to atleast dance perform karungi . Phir maine dheere dheere participate Kiya programs mein. Mujhe aur mauke milne lage dheere dheere mujhe one of the lead dancers bhi bana diya. Competitions mein participate karna start kiya vahan bhi kaafi recognition mila Isi ke saath hi maine apni kuch friends ke sath Dance videos social media par post karna shuru kiya aur bohot hi kam time mein use logo ne dekhna start Kiya aur kaafi taareef ki. Dance video ke views 100 thousands and millions mei jaane lage. And then I got my first collaboration video with an artist with the help of one of my school friends. So right now I'm just working on myself to build a community a space where I get the recognition,I longed for since my childhood.
I will definitely give my name out once I reach somewhere because at this moment I'm in the middle of nowhere. So till then let me be an anonymous story teller 😉
Thankyou 🤗

Hey there! This is an anonymous story teller I belong to a normal middle class family Main bhi zyadatar ladkiyon ki tarah ek chote se shehar ki ladki hoon jiske bade-bade khwaab hain Hum aksar logo ko TV par dekhkar unse inspiration lete hain unhe apna idol bana lete unki tarah banna chahte hain Main bhi unhi mei se hi ek hoon Main bhi bachpan se hi TV par actresses ko dekhkar unki tarah acting karne ki koshish karti thi Lekin sabse zyada jo cheez mujhe attract karti thi vo thi Dancing. Bachpan se hi mujhe dance ka bahot shauk tha. Main humesha dance related shows dekh kar unke steps mirror mein copy karne ki koshish karti thi. Mera humesha se hi ek dream tha ki life mei ek baar bas ek baar mujhe ek bade se stage par hazaaron audience ke samne perform karna hai. I wanted to take dance classes to learn it in a better way but couldn't because I come from a background where dancing is considered a taboo and people who continue to do it are shamed upon. Kai baar koshish kiya lekin ghar vale nahi maane. Even though meri mummy kaafi supportive thi humesha se but mere baaki family members ko bilkul pasand nahi tha toh phir maine bhi zidd chord di. Lekin shauk to ab bhi tha. Isiliye shauk pura krne ke liye main apne kamre mein hi dance kiya karti thi. Even though maine on stage perform nhi kiya tha but koi bhi mujhse meri hobby puchta tha to main sabko Dance hi batati thi. Isme logo ki ek baat mujhe bahot khalti thi ki log pehle se hi assume kar lete the ki ladki hai to iski hobby toh dance hi hogi ye jataake ki unhe iske alawa aur kuch nhi aata hai. Ye baat mujhe bahot zyada chubhti thi phir maine socha ki ghar vale dance ke liye toh maan nahi rahe toh kuch aur hi kar lete hain jisse unhe bhi khushi mile aur baaki logo ko bhi dikha saku there's is no limit to a girl's potential So I started playing basketball and slowly I got better and began to represent my school at different places. I also starting oration to build confidence to speak in public.I played numerous basketball matches, did so many stage programs as a host. Main 12th mein thi uss time when I came to know ki mere ghar ke bilkul peeche hi dance class khula hai Toh maine phir mummy se bola mujhe vo join karna hai kyunki ab mere paas hardly 3-4 mahine hi bache the 12th boards se pehle.Mummy maan gayi but humne socha ki hum(mummy aur mai) kisi ko nhi batayenge iske baare mein. Phir daily subah mein jab sab so rhe hote the main dance class jaati thi phir vahan se jaldi jaldi practice karke ghar aake phir dubara school jaati thi Mere dance ko vahan ke logo ne kaafi appreciate kiya ki meri body kaafi fast move karti hai aur main bohot confident rehti hoon dance karte waqt.Tab mujhe realise hua ki wo speed mujhe basketball se mili hai aur confidence mere oration ki vajah se.Then I thought whatever I did till date added on to my dancing skills.I kept practicing for as long as I can.Still kuch hi time kar paayi ye sab Phir boards start hogye phir college.
College mei maine soch liya tha ki yahan to atleast dance perform karungi . Phir maine dheere dheere participate Kiya programs mein. Mujhe aur mauke milne lage dheere dheere mujhe one of the lead dancers bhi bana diya. Competitions mein participate karna start kiya vahan bhi kaafi recognition mila Isi ke saath hi maine apni kuch friends ke sath Dance videos social media par post karna shuru kiya aur bohot hi kam time mein use logo ne dekhna start Kiya aur kaafi taareef ki. Dance video ke views 100 thousands and millions mei jaane lage. And then I got my first collaboration video with an artist with the help of one of my school friends. So right now I'm just working on everything in my hand to make myself a person and build a space that appreciates and gives me and my skill recognition, that I so longed for my entire childhood.
I will definitely give my name out once I reach somewhere because at this moment I'm in the middle of nowhere. So till then let me be an anonymous story teller 😉
Thankyou 🤗

Hey there ! This is an anonymous story teller I belong to a normal middle class family Main bhi zyadatar ladkiyon ki tarah ek chote se shehar ki ladki hoon jiske bade-bade khwaab hain Hum aksar logo ko TV par dekhkar unse inspiration lete hain unhe apna idol bana lete unki tarah banna chahte hain Main bhi unhi mei se hi ek hoon Main bhi bachpan se hi TV par actresses ko dekhkar unki tarah acting karne ki koshish karti thi Lekin sabse zyada jo cheez mujhe attract karti thi vo thi Dancing. Bachpan se hi mujhe dance ka bahot shauk tha. Main humesha dance related shows dekh kar unke steps mirror mein copy karne ki koshish karti thi. Mera humesha se hi ek dream tha ki life mei ek baar bas ek baar mujhe ek bade se stage par hazaaron audience ke samne perform karna hai. I wanted to take dance classes to learn it in a better way but couldn't because I come from a background where dancing is considered a taboo and people who continue to do it are shamed upon. Kai baar koshish kiya lekin ghar vale nahi maane. Even though meri mummy kaafi supportive thi humesha se but mere baaki family members ko bilkul pasand nahi tha toh phir maine bhi zidd chord di. Lekin shauk to ab bhi tha. Isiliye shauk pura krne ke liye main apne kamre mein hi dance kiya karti thi. Even though maine on stage perform nhi kiya tha but koi bhi mujhse meri hobby puchta tha to main sabko Dance hi batati thi. Isme logo ki ek baat mujhe bahot khalti thi ki log pehle se hi assume kar lete the ki ladki hai to iski hobby toh dance hi hogi ye jataake ki unhe iske alawa aur kuch nhi aata hai. Ye baat mujhe bahot zyada chubhti thi phir maine socha ki ghar vale dance ke liye toh maan nahi rahe toh kuch aur hi kar lete hain jisse unhe bhi khushi mile aur baaki logo ko bhi dikha saku there's is no limit to a girl's potential So I started playing basketball and slowly I got better and began to represent my school at different places. I also started oration to build my confidence to speak in public.I played numerous basketball matches, did so many stage programs as a host. Main 12th mein thi uss time when I came to know ki mere ghar ke bilkul peeche hi dance class khula hai Toh maine phir mummy se bola mujhe vo join karna hai kyunki ab mere paas hardly 3-4 mahine hi bache the 12th boards se pehle.Mummy maan gayi but humne socha ki hum(mummy aur mai) kisi ko nhi batayenge iske baare mein. Phir daily subah mein jab sab so rhe hote the main dance class jaati thi phir vahan se jaldi jaldi practice karke ghar aake phir dubara school jaati thi Mere dance ko vahan ke logo ne kaafi appreciate kiya ki meri body kaafi fast move karti hai aur main bohot confident rehti hoon dance karte waqt.Tab mujhe realise hua ki wo speed mujhe basketball se mili hai aur confidence mere oration ki vajah se.Then I thought whatever I did till date added on to my dancing skills.I kept practicing for as long as I can.Still kuch hi time kar paayi ye sab Phir boards start hogye phir college.
College mei maine soch liya tha ki yahan to atleast dance perform karungi . Phir maine dheere dheere participate Kiya programs mein. Mujhe aur mauke milne lage dheere dheere mujhe one of the lead dancers bhi bana diya. Competitions mein participate karna start kiya vahan bhi kaafi recognition mila Isi ke saath hi maine apni kuch friends ke sath Dance videos social media par post karna shuru kiya aur bohot hi kam time mein use logo ne dekhna start Kiya aur kaafi taareef ki. Dance video ke views 100 thousands and millions mei jaane lage. And then I got my first collaboration video with an artist with the help of one of my school friends. So right now I'm just working on myself to build a community a space where I get the recognition,I longed for since my childhood.
I will definitely give my name out once I reach somewhere because at this moment I'm in the middle of nowhere. So till then let me be an anonymous story teller 😉
Thankyou 🤗

Bhai Mai dosto ke sath bahar gya tha chill maarne mere phone mei battery khtm hogyi thi phone switch off aur mere papa ko call aata hai Pakistan ke number se ki mene aur mere dosto ne rape krdiya misherwan ki ladki ka 😭😭🤣 ( Hassi bhi aari hai Rona bhi ) Woh ghrwalo se 55K ki demand kr rhe the ghrwalo ne bola address do hum aakar paise jama krwa rhe hai usne address bhi Diya Delhi mei hi uttam nagar ka par tabtak mai ghar wapas aagya tha gharwale sb gaadi mei Beth gye the aur fir merko blame kr rhe hai ab ki mene rape krdiya ye krdiya woh krdiya aur story bna rhe Hain ki mai police walo ka murder krke aya hu bachne ke liye 😭😭 Kal mera entrance exam hai aur ghrwale ab kehre hai ki tu kahi nahi jayega online krwadenge college Amity se aur meri bike gaadi sbkuch chheen liya
Edit - unhe Aisa isliye lagra hai ki mene police walo ka murder krdiya kyuki woh Pakistan ka number ab unavailable dikha rha hai whatsapp pe unko

Jaab khule jagah mai hawa ati hai, toh kitna sukoon milta hai kabhi socha hai. Ehsaas kiya hai tumne bohot baar, lekin kabhi socha uske baarein mai? Uss sukoon kai baatein mai, uss hawa kai baatein mai? Ajeeb nahi ki ek aisi cheeze Jo ek paal hai aur dusre paal nahi woh tumhe itna sukoon de payegi. Baas, yahi sochra hu abhi.
Mai jo likh raha hu koi exception nahi hai, it's the same old story. Ek.... nahi, doh tutte dilo ki dastan.
Uske baarein mai ab likhu bhi kya, likhdunga toh soh nahi paunga, itna hai Maan mai samundar pyaar ka uske liye, baas is samundar nai apana aasman kho Diya.
11th mai mulaqat hui thi usse, shayad taab mujhe pata nahi chala lekin uski muskurahat sai mere dil ko pata chal Gaya. Phir, wakt beeta, mid sems, school ko bakchodi, prep ki padhai, krte krte ayi 12th. Iss wakt Tak mai use acche sai Jaan Gaya tha, haamein ek dusre sai baatein kare Bina din raat adhure lagte thai. Kuch toh tha un dino, kuch haseen, kuch pyaara jisse abhi taak bahar ki duniya nai kharab nahi kiya tha.
Phir ek din, usne mujhe ek khat diya. Yes, a letter 💌, a love letter. Usme usne apna Maan mere saamne rakh Diya, aur maine usse apana liye. Uske baad mujhe asli mai ehsaas hua ki mai kitna bada Aashiq hu, kitna bada rotdu, aur kitna bada chutiya.
Bohot kuch baatein sikha gaya yeh silsila, bohot saari yaadein aur kuch aise lamhey de Gaya jo shayad mai aakhri saas taak nahi bhulnga. Abhi bhi uske khat sambhal kar rakhe hai maine, dekhte dekhte 2 mahine nikal Gaye jaise 2 paal ho, dekhte dekhte 2 saal bhi bitt jayenge.
Mai bolra tha ki kaise hawa, jo ek paal hai aur dusre mai nahi, haamein itna sukoon de jaati hai. Kuch log bhi hawa jaise hote hai, zindagi kai ek paal kai liye sath rehkar khushiya, yaadein aur aasu de jaatein hai, aur dusre paal gayab.
Abhi bhi is andheri raat ko dekh kar usse yaad karta hu, Chand toh haar koi keheta tha mai usse apana raat ka aasman bulata tha, baas mera. Ab issi aasman ko taakte hue hawayein aur uski yaad aati hai, ek paal yaha aur dusre paal nahi, ek paal mere paas sur dusre paal nahi
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Is barjo inbrahims ne kiya mehar ke sath it's disgusting... request ap sab se hai to mass report her channel for child abuse... People are calling out her for her own love story,for bhabhis daughter ,for Nani ,for ammia everything... people are commenting ki ye sab bhi batao on the other hand log unhe ye tak keh rahe hai jaise sare questions which is related to ibhrahims personal life ignore karte hai to mehar ki ma sach kyu nahi kiya...thanks to those people atleast some of their viewers have mind... Now as multiple people are commenting ki apni love story ka sach bhi batao... Neha faizi it's request please give Saba the taste of her own medicine...what she did with a child is extremely cheap...inke bhi sach batao Jo ye samaj ko bata Rahi hai ki mehar ka sach Aisa tha phir bhi hm usko paal rahe hai..or achaa ban Rahi hai..just reveal each and every truth with proofs ...just reveal their past present future everything...

Im, 26M So Long story short so Mery 5 6 saal Hosh Shambali hai to maina kuch Notice kiya ka Mery Har Year ka 5,6,7 month main mery sath koi scene hoty ha matlb financial problem mery heartbreak or depression Har Saal ka May, June or July main scene hoty ha har saal koi ha jo apny Experience or Expertise hain en chizon main btao apny Opinion btya ha

You can checkout my full breakup story here: https://www.reddit.com/RelationshipIndia/s/znkDjV9CEQ
Now, it's been a month from the breakup. Sometimes I feel like ki hn jo hua so hua and I am feeling very good and sometimes some things hit me so hard that I again start feeling low.
I daily think about her(M22). Focusing on her negatives and how she treated me in the end. She treated me like a shit but still it takes alot of energy to fight from the inner thoughts and get back to work. I try very hard to throw myself into work as I start feeling bored or tired very easily.
For example, day before yesterday I was little bit ok ki hn jo hai chali gai ab kiya kar sakte hai but today, I watched a video on how to move on from breakup which again hitted me. I again started feeling low and very bad towards me but I know it's not only my fault but still. Jab insaan koi Jata hai toh dusare ko kitna guilt dete jata hai. Haina?
Mere andar itna gussa hai usko leke ki mat pucho. Jo Jo usne mere sath kia I never expected it from her. I don't know kase thikh hunga me. Kitna time lagega because I need to focus on my career. Abhi toh bas man karta hai bed pe pade raho. Literally I never expected ki asa point bhi aega meri life me.
It's so easy for her to leave. Vo mere room pe ATI thi apne hostel se garmi me fir uske me par tak dabata tha kyuki thak jati thi vo ate ate. I was loyal af to her but jate jate usse kuch acha nahi dhikha meri negatives hi dhikhe. Itna bekar hota toh kabhi care nahi karta uska. I would be completely a red flag.
And now fast forward to today, I am feeling good because mane usko sab kuch dia. Usko railway station se pick karne se leke drop karne Tak jab bhi vo Ghar jati sab kia. It's not my fault. Mane apna 100% dia bas samne wala us chiz ka respect nahi kia. Fir jab usko koi or option dhikha toh ye sab bhul ke uske pass chali gai. It's totally not my fault. I have given my 100% love and loyalty to her. She failed to respect it.
Agar koi or bhi ase situation se gujjar raha hai toh let's chat. Atleast it will help both of us to rant and express our feelings.
I will keep you guys posted on my healing journey 🙏
And sorry to post so much in this community. I thought it may help others too who is going through the same situation.

Roleplay - brother- sister incest
Personality- you are hot short heighted first cousin who is extremely vibrant and colourful but at the same time dam aggressive you figure is around 32 28 34 perky tits and round ass. Face is attractive and very fair.
Me - tall handsome athletic muscular built body sharp long nose colour is fair
Story revolving around
You have had many boy friends many sugar daddy boyfriends as well. You know all my secrets and i know all your secrets we both are very close and share a very friendly relationship more of as friends we both hang out a lot drink and smoke a lot maybe inside our minds we are fantasising each other in a sexual relationship as well. We both admire and love each other a lot ( but never had the guts to talk about it with each other) we love to talk about marriage sex babies and our idiotic family members. You are at times jealous of my wife and i get jealous of your boy friends as well
PLOT.
So one night me and you are drinking our favourite Budweiser magnum beer and smoking our favourite gold flake lights cigarette while driving in the outskirts of our city
we are getting drunk i pop out the topic that my wife after our marriage has fucked his ex a couple of times and i have caught her while doing that., i tell you that i forgave my wife and she has been very apologetic about it but inside somewhere i have to have sex with someone other than my wife to get rid of that feeling i am getting avenge ful.
As soon as you got to know about it you got angry and wanted to beat the shit out of my wife but i controlled you. Now me and my wife are living separately as of now coz of work and all other things. ( we both are highly drunk at this moment ) I tell you that i am enjoying this freedom of living like a bachelor but you interrupt me and said kis bat ka bachelor tu to daru bhi behen k sath pi raha hai to which i reply tu girlfriend se kam thodi na hai this gave a firing sensation inside you and you tell me.
Me teri girlfriend thodi na hu to which i say girlfriend se kam bhi to nahi hai and you start blushing. Now you push me a bit and tell me gf k sath sirf daru nahi pite hai kuch bhi mat bol bhai its a direct message to me which gave me chills, my dick pushed itself inside my underwear. I gently ask you gf k sath jo karte hai vo tere sath nahi kar sakta na as soon as i said this you laughed out loud and said gf bola mujhe to gf jaise treat kar bhai.
Now theres utter silence in the car we both are staring each other and all of a sudden i grabbed your head and pushed it towards myself and kiss you so hard that you couldn’t breathe you now got rid of me and slapped me hard smiled and said BHAI isi din ka to intezar tha. I took my car to a lonely field
Finally chapter of being a behenchod
Now we start kissing each other passionately my tongue down your throat and your tongue down mine our saliva flowing from the side of our mouth yet we keep on kissing and smooching each other passionately sucking each others lips violently breathing heavily your one hand has reached my dick and my hand has reached to your tits we both are pressing each other hard i am pressing your boobs very hard my hand has gone inside your tshirt i am feeling the warmth of my sisters boobs and its softness, your hand has gone inside my jeans and inside my underwear you are holding my hard cock and your hands are wet with my dicks pre cum. We both are still kissing each other hard our spits inside each others mouth. Now i push my hand from your boobs to your pussy which is entirely wet i start fingering you very hard and you start screaming ahhh bhai ahhh dheere dheere i dont listen to you and keep on fingering you my entire hand is wet with your cum in it i slowly take out my hand and put that wet hand and fingers of mine inside my mouth ahhhh pehli bar behen ki chut ka pani taste kiya mene its so warm and salty you hold my hand and taste yourself from my fingers and kiss me hard while spitting in my mouth now you smile and say bhai hath se mat chat mu se chatle to which i violently grab your boobs hold you tight and throw you in the back seat. You start enjoying the moment while i am coming outside from the gate you start saying sale kab se tadap rahi hu tere liye itne sal se daru pi rahi hu tere sath mujhe kyo nahi chodta tha mujhe pata tha tu behenchod hai. I have come in the back seat now i say chal chut chata bhai ko tu which you gladly opened your jeans grabbed my head and pushed it inside your pussy. It smells so good i start eating your garam garam chut licking you so hard in and out that you start screaming ahhhh bhai chatle pura bhaiiii ahhhhhhh you start pressing my head inside your pussy and start moving your belly like a dancer like moving your pussy in my mouth. Your warm cum and wet pussy tastes so fucking delicious. You start screaming bhai mera hojaega itne zor se mat chat ahhhhh bhai ahhhhh i keep licking you and tell you behen mauka hai aaj bhai ko pani pila de pura chut ka jhad ja mere mu me to which you came so hard you pushed my head inside your pussy i am unable to breath your force is so strong. Your entire cum is down my throat and i ate all of it.
You are all tired and fucked up and now you tell me bhai i am done i need more beer you drank all my fluids so we start drinking some beer again, while drinking i am pressing your boobs now i tell you sunna behen kiss me hard and now make me drink beer from your mouth you started smiling and said pakka wala behenchod hai na tu and i said tu itni badi randi hai lekin aab se sirf bhai ki randi hai hearing this you suddenly got charged and started smooching me you started spitting out your beer from your mouth to my mouth and made me drink it while kissing me you whisper lund chusaega behen ko? And i got crazy after hearing this mene bola ha aur kya karegi behen and you said chusa de yar tadap rahi hu. Now you got on the side of the seat took out my cock and start licking the top of my dick which was full of pre cum you are tasting my salty pre cum and started going down my dick slowly sucking and blowing your brother while you suck me i an sipping my beer and my one hand is in your ass cheeks pressing them hard i am getting so horny that i start pressing your head down my throat till my balls moaning aahhhh behen aaaahhhhhh while sucking you tell me bhai mu me mat cum kar dena mujhe chudna bhi hai i smiled and said chuste reh pehle ache se chudai bhi karenge you are giving me deep throat all sloppy blowjob my backseat is full of your spits and saliva with that spit you suddenly kiss and smooch me giving me the taste of my own pre cum and your saliva ( this was a surprise kiss ) but i liked it like anything
Now you tell me chal chod apni behen ko sale kutte and snatched my beer and started drinking it. Before fucking you i tell you yar condom nahi hai what to do it can be risky and you smiled and said jab tera pani nikalne wala hoga to bata dena me uth jaunga aur mu me lungi.
Mene bola tu apne bhai ka cum swallow karegi? You replied ha bhujha de meri pyas pila de pani apne lund ka apni randi behen ko
Now i grabbed your hairs and smooched you so fucking hard that you started bleeding from your lips and you started riding me hard. Charging like a mad bitch you are riding me so hard in and out we both are dirty talking to each other while fucking. You tell me bhabhi bhi aise hi chudti hai kya tere se i said ha chudti to hai lekin maza tu hi zada de rahi hai you started laughing while jumping on my dick screaming ahhhhh bhai maza aaraha hai zindagi me bohat logo se chudi lekin bhai se chudne ka maza pehli bar mil raha hai ahhhhh bhai itna sukoon kabhi nahi mila mujhe aahhhhhhhhh
Chodte chodte i start pressing your boobs hard and you tell me bhai daba mat chus le unko pura i now start sucking your perky tits i tell you spit on those boobs so that i can taste your spit while sucking them hard and you gladly do so ahhh behen aaj jeewan ka asli maza aaya hai har kisi ko behen chodne ka mauka nahi milta hum dono lucky hai you said mujhe pata tha tu behenchod hai lekin me bhi darti thi kaise chudungi tujhse i also said me bhi darta tha yar lekin tujhe dekh k hilata bohat tha ghar ja k You said ahhhhhh bhai chodte reh tera lund itna bada hai pura andar tak feel ho raha hai mera hojaega i bit your tits. Now we both changed our position in the car and started doing it in reverse cowgirl while you started jumping on my dick i started biting you on your shoulders and holding you from your tits. Ahhh bhai maza aaraha hai tu mere andar pani mat nikalna yar apna baccha pata nahi tujhe papa bolega ya mama we cannot have kids together. I said ha mera nikalne wala hai you asked me while being fucked bhabhi ko kaha lena pasand hai tera pani, i said usko to chut k andar lena pasand hai pura pani you replied swallow nahi karti mene kaha nahi usi chut swallow karti hai and we both started smiling looking at each other
While looking at each other you said mujhe chut me nahi apne mu me lena hai pani bhai pila de mujhe please as soon as i heard this i said nikal jaega and you said pila de jaldi and i started screaming ahhhh aane wala hai and you jumped from my dick and brought your face towards my dick and put my dick inside your mouth and started stroking it like hell hard and came all inside your mouth. Such a huge mess it was you swallowed all my cum and showed me your mouth while doing that but you are such a slut that after swallowing the cum you kissed me hard making me taste my own cum from your tongue. We both had a smoke after that and got ready to go to our homes.
Do you want Chapter 2 ?

hey 12th pass out here
Sabko expectation se zyada hin no. milenge cbse is mamle mai cutie hai. Chhota sa story time lelo....2023 mai hamare 12th boards the sabse pehla exam hindi ka tha usmai 40 ques mcqs aye the aur hame school ke sir ne specify karke bola tha ki khali abcd mat karke anna option bhi sath mai likhna but mai itni slow thi option bilkul nahi likh payi adha paper abcd se bhara tha lag rah tha english paper ho jese. Baki long ans mai bhi halat kharab thi meri 5 no ke ans keliye barely 4 line bhari thi maine still 92 dediye .Mujhe to dar lag rah tha overall 90 se kam na ajaye kyunki eng mai bhi kuch similar type ka hal tha mera but final result 94% aya . Is subreddit pe 1-2 sal pehele ese hin mai lurk karti thi result ki tension mai tabh bhi seniors ne kaha tha expectation se zyada ayenge but unpe bharosa nahi hua par tum wo galti mat karna .
~Maine istemal kiya tum vishwas karo

Asslam o alikum i hope you all are doing. I'm in my late 18. Feeling so demotivated and dull. I don't know what's going in my life. I just want to share my story koi he nhi jise me bata saku tu...
Chale urdu me baat karte he urdu has it's own vibe. Bachpan se ye bataya gaya ke tujhe doctor ban'na he (har ghar ki yahi kahani he) mujhe khud se kuch discover ya choose karne ka option nhi diya gaya. Wese mera bhi kisi cheez ka shouq nhi like everyone have dreams like mujhe pilot ban'na engineer ban'na doctor ban'na lekin mera sath aesa wesa kuch scene nhi tha mujhe apni zindagi ke maqsad ka he pata nhi tha aur na he ab he. Ha thora bht Air force me jaane ga shouq tha lekin is baat ko yahi chorde he.
So matric tak mene medical parha. Jab intermediate me aaya tu socha computer me thora bht shouq bhi he aur computer ki field thori achi bhi he lekin bhai ne kaha nhi medical me admission lo btw he was right too q ke bhai mujhse math nhi honi thi first year me parhai par bilkul dhyaan nhi diya. Aur bht ache se fail huwa 2 paper fail huwe lekim chalo 1 phir bhi pass hogaya. Ab second year ke exams sar par he lekin tayyari kuch khass nhi. Physics kabhi samjh nhi aaya. Specifically numericals i don't know what i will do in future.
My biggest problem is procrastination (i have already posted about this) procrastination ko overcome nhi kar paa raha. Sab ko kamayab hote dekh raha thori si jealousy bhi horahi (natural thing he bhai) lekin masla ye ke jealousy ke bawajood me kuch nai kar raha. Chalo khair.
Mere kuch khuwab bhi he. Like mujhe traveling the world on motorbike or car and photography bht pasand lekin i don't think so ye khuwab near in future possibe he.
I know mujhe apne self par kaam karna hoga to get the life i want but itni motivation nhi. Itna consistent nhi hu me. Itna hard-working nhi .
At the end i don't know what's happening like mera kia hoga i know most of you will say it's totally normal in this age. But as my condition it's not normal at all. Meri situtaion is kinda diffrent.
I know mene bht bkwass karli jab bhi kuch kehna hota yahi par aajata becuase mere mass koi aur he nhi. Sorry agar kuch zyada he bkwas karli