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2016.11.05 05:54 Andrewk824 No take, only throw!
For when they want you to throw it, but don't want you to take it.
2024.05.29 03:25 ObeseFedoraTipper We unironically need a modernized cyber police with Mutahar as a consultant for it
I think at this point we can't really trust the existing US Federal agencies or Interpol to necessarily crack down on every rogue influencer that gets away with committing crimes while using their clout and fame as a shield, such as Keffals, Mamamax, or the Completionist. We should really consider our options as far as undercutting the ineffectiveness of existing agencies and incentivizing what works. What seems to at least work to an extent are honest, law-abiding influencers willing to use their free time to investigate matters and provide informed callouts on the criminal influencers, such as what Someordinarygamers has done. However, this alone isn't enough, especially when Muta himself attempts to rely on what are obviously broken systems in place when going after such bad actors.
So I purpose the creation of a new international agency that *actually* engages in policing social media for bad influencers like Keffals, Mamamax, or the Completionist, and not only will it not have the operational bloat of the FBI or Interpol but it would also have an "influencer-watch" board that informs all decisions. People like Mutahar, or maybe even Moist Critikal (maybe stretching it), could fill some positions on such a board and provide vital information to cases that are much in need for a serious investigation that actually gets done.
The only issue is funding it, but the influencers I have in mind are already millionaires anyways so it's probably not *that* much of an issue. Regardless, it would need something other than donations from influencer-watch board members to sustain itself, so perhaps it can use AI to compile a blacklist of people on social media platforms with objectively incorrect takes and you can pay in crypto to be removed from the blacklist. Just an idea I brainstormed for this part, but I'm sure something can be figured out.
Social media is rampant with clout-chasing thugs who break and encourage breaking the law in all jurisdictions in the modern age, and it's about time we actually catch them with an actually-functioning system in place.
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So I purpose the creation of a new international agency that *actually* engages in policing social media for bad influencers like Keffals, Mamamax, or the Completionist, and not only will it not have the operational bloat of the FBI or Interpol but it would also have an "influencer-watch" board that informs all decisions. People like Mutahar, or maybe even Moist Critikal (maybe stretching it), could fill some positions on such a board and provide vital information to cases that are much in need for a serious investigation that actually gets done.
The only issue is funding it, but the influencers I have in mind are already millionaires anyways so it's probably not *that* much of an issue. Regardless, it would need something other than donations from influencer-watch board members to sustain itself, so perhaps it can use AI to compile a blacklist of people on social media platforms with objectively incorrect takes and you can pay in crypto to be removed from the blacklist. Just an idea I brainstormed for this part, but I'm sure something can be figured out.
Social media is rampant with clout-chasing thugs who break and encourage breaking the law in all jurisdictions in the modern age, and it's about time we actually catch them with an actually-functioning system in place.
2024.05.29 03:25 Unhappy-Revenue-3903 Dyslexia reading help
My daughter is finishing up the 3rd grade. Over the summer I emailed the school district and had her tested for dyslexia. The testing started in Sept. and finished December (they drug it out). She qualifies and now has an IEP. She goes into school for services (reading, writing, and math) 4 days a week for 1.5 hours. This started in January. She still does homeschool at home. Recently they I was told that she is making improvements but she is still 2 grade levels behind. Her processing is slower, so it still takes a little more time when reading and writing things like “d &b”. I have asked what program they use (which I was told in a round about way that I wasn’t trained in it so they never told me).
We have been using “Explode the code”. While it seemed to be working at first such as the cvc words. She struggles with ccvc words. We are currently doing book 2 1/2 (and still have some of book 2 to do, but I wanted to give her more practice where she is struggling). I also have my daughter doing explode the code online. On some of the lessons online she will do really well and earn the paper airplane sticker. When it’s challenging for her, she will memorize the answers because she will have repeated it enough times. The sentences seem to be a stuggle (such as read 2 sentences and pick the correct one that matches the picture).
We have also tried nessy (online) I am not sure if I picked the wrong program, but it was too hard for her. She likes to read the Elephant and piggie books. I have her read bob’s books and decodable readers by reading street and I read to her (and her sister) every night.
Over the summer I would like to get something to focus on phonics/reading (and some light math) to help before going into this next school year.
I was debating on Recipe for reading or All about reading.
I was wondering if anyone has tried Recipe for reading? It is an Orton-Gillingham based program.
My Kindergartener is doing Explode the code as well and is currently on book 2.
Any other suggestions/ideas please send them my way.
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We have been using “Explode the code”. While it seemed to be working at first such as the cvc words. She struggles with ccvc words. We are currently doing book 2 1/2 (and still have some of book 2 to do, but I wanted to give her more practice where she is struggling). I also have my daughter doing explode the code online. On some of the lessons online she will do really well and earn the paper airplane sticker. When it’s challenging for her, she will memorize the answers because she will have repeated it enough times. The sentences seem to be a stuggle (such as read 2 sentences and pick the correct one that matches the picture).
We have also tried nessy (online) I am not sure if I picked the wrong program, but it was too hard for her. She likes to read the Elephant and piggie books. I have her read bob’s books and decodable readers by reading street and I read to her (and her sister) every night.
Over the summer I would like to get something to focus on phonics/reading (and some light math) to help before going into this next school year.
I was debating on Recipe for reading or All about reading.
I was wondering if anyone has tried Recipe for reading? It is an Orton-Gillingham based program.
My Kindergartener is doing Explode the code as well and is currently on book 2.
Any other suggestions/ideas please send them my way.
2024.05.29 03:25 No_Wedding3450 Darkpools
Kenneth Griffin Citadel was trained and friends with Bernie Madoff. It’s important to understand his past criminal behavior.
Kenneth Griffin is the ring leader of corruption what you are witnessing over the past few years.
He paid 100 million dollars to create a stealing computer algo system; it sees all the buy orders, reroutes your buy orders to dark pools never makes it to the NY stock exchange, suppresses the price of any stock chosen, payment for order flow, sniffs out options, he paid the top shrinks in the world to include mental warfare in the ticker, the system also signals to the media to send a false media article out per the script. He controls 40 percent of the entire market!
Bernie Madoff was the biggest fraudster ever seen in the history of Wallstreet! Bernie Madoff created dark pools and most of the corruption you are seeing. Kenneth Griffin just redefined it after Bernie Madoff went to prison with the help of the former Fed Chairman Ben Bernanke who works for Citadel.
Here is some of the corruption;
In response to a Freedom of Information Act (FOIA) request from Wall Street On Parade seeking information on how Citadel’s dark pool, Apogee, operates, the Securities and Exchange Commission responded in a letter dated August 12, 2014 that “we have determined to withhold records responsive to your request….”
Dark pools are the unregulated stock exchanges currently under scrutiny for potentially illegal market rigging activities. We were not asking for trade secrets or results of examinations. We simply wanted basic information on how the Apogee dark pool operates in the marketplace. Mary Jo White, Chair of the SEC, has promised greater transparency by her agency, and yet, this very basic level of information was denied.
Other dark pools like Liquidnet, Credit Suisse Crossfinder, and even the mighty Goldman Sachs’ dark pool, Sigma-X, have released their Form ATS describing the operations of their dark pools. What’s so secretive about how Citadel operates that it needs the SEC to run interference for it?
Citadel demands public scrutiny because it has been fined and/or sanctioned for market misconduct 26 times according to Financial Industry Regulatory Authority (FINRA) records. To put that number in perspective, if an individual broker had 26 violations on his public record he would have a very difficult time getting hired by a reputable firm. (Bad brokers with long histories of misconduct do sometimes get hired, unfortunately, because disciplinary records are expunged from the public record as part of settlement agreements.)
On June 25, 2014, Citadel Securities LLC, the owner of Apogee, was fined a total of $800,000 by its various regulators for serious trading misconduct. Citadel paid the fines in the typical manner, without admitting or denying the charges. This is what the New York Stock Exchange said Citadel had done:
“The firm sent multiple, periodic bursts of order messages, at 10,000 orders per second, to the exchanges. This excessive messaging activity, which involved hundreds of thousands of orders for more than 19 million shares, occurred two to three times per day.”
In addition, according to the York Stock Exchange, Citadel “erroneously sold short, on a proprietary basis, 2.75 million shares of an entity causing the share price of the entity to fall by 77 percent during an eleven minute period.”
In another instance, according to the New York Stock Exchange, Citadel’s trading resulted in “an immediate increase in the price of the security of 132 percent.”
On January 9, 2014, the New York Stock Exchange charged Citadel Securities LLC with engaging in wash sales 502,243 times using its computer algorithms. A wash sale is where the buyer and the seller are the same entity and no change in beneficial ownership occurs. (Wash sales are illegal because they can manipulate stock prices up or down. They played a major role in the rigged stock market that crashed in 1929.) Citadel paid a $115,000 fine for these 502,243 violations and walked away.
As Wall Street On Parade reported on July 28 of this year, instead of cracking down on wash sales, Wall Street’s regulators have instead watered down the rules governing this virulent form of market manipulation.
Despite the seriousness of the market violations that Citadel has committed – 26 times – no prosecution has occurred and no one has gone to jail. But if you take something from Citadel, and are young employees lacking Citadel billionaire-owner Ken Griffin’s money to hire legions of top tier law firms, you will be hounded by relentless prosecutors and very likely end up with a long prison term. (See Appellate Court Finds Misconduct by SEC and U.S. Prosecutors in Squawk Box Case; Overturns Convictions)
According to this story at Bloomberg News, Sahil Uppal and Yihao Pu, both 26 years old, have been charged by the Justice Department in connection with the removal of computer code from Citadel. According to Bloomberg, Uppal faces 10 years in prison.
The case against Uppal and Pu is all the more interesting because theft of computer code charges were thrown out by a Federal appeals court in December 2010 in a case involving Sergey Aleynikov, a gifted former programmer at Goldman Sachs.
The Aleynikov prosecution was so egregious that bestselling author, Michael Lewis, covered the case in his book, Flash Boys, about the market manipulations of dark pools and high frequency traders. Aleynikov had been working for Goldman Sachs when he received an offer to move to a hedge fund and build a system from scratch.
That was 2009. Over the past five years, Aleynikov has been arrested and jailed by the U.S. Attorney’s office in Manhattan, had his conviction overturned by the Second Circuit Appeals Court, arrested again by the Manhattan District Attorney Cyrus Vance, and now faces more prosecution over the same set of facts: namely, that he took computer code that belonged to Goldman Sachs.
The case was so devoid of statutory support that on the very same day that Kevin Marino, Aleynikov’s lawyer, gave his oral arguments to the Appeals Court, “the judges ordered Serge released, on the grounds that the laws he stood accused of breaking did not actually apply to his case,” Lewis wrote. Aleynikov had already been in prison for a year.
The Second Circuit Appeals Court ruled that Aleynikov had neither taken a tangible good from Goldman nor had he stolen a product involved in interstate commerce – noting that at oral argument the government “was unable to identify a single product that affects interstate commerce.”
Aleynikov awaits trial in New York State court.
Don’t be discouraged there are several righteous individuals and entities out there that are going to make this right in near future!
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Kenneth Griffin is the ring leader of corruption what you are witnessing over the past few years.
He paid 100 million dollars to create a stealing computer algo system; it sees all the buy orders, reroutes your buy orders to dark pools never makes it to the NY stock exchange, suppresses the price of any stock chosen, payment for order flow, sniffs out options, he paid the top shrinks in the world to include mental warfare in the ticker, the system also signals to the media to send a false media article out per the script. He controls 40 percent of the entire market!
Bernie Madoff was the biggest fraudster ever seen in the history of Wallstreet! Bernie Madoff created dark pools and most of the corruption you are seeing. Kenneth Griffin just redefined it after Bernie Madoff went to prison with the help of the former Fed Chairman Ben Bernanke who works for Citadel.
Here is some of the corruption;
In response to a Freedom of Information Act (FOIA) request from Wall Street On Parade seeking information on how Citadel’s dark pool, Apogee, operates, the Securities and Exchange Commission responded in a letter dated August 12, 2014 that “we have determined to withhold records responsive to your request….”
Dark pools are the unregulated stock exchanges currently under scrutiny for potentially illegal market rigging activities. We were not asking for trade secrets or results of examinations. We simply wanted basic information on how the Apogee dark pool operates in the marketplace. Mary Jo White, Chair of the SEC, has promised greater transparency by her agency, and yet, this very basic level of information was denied.
Other dark pools like Liquidnet, Credit Suisse Crossfinder, and even the mighty Goldman Sachs’ dark pool, Sigma-X, have released their Form ATS describing the operations of their dark pools. What’s so secretive about how Citadel operates that it needs the SEC to run interference for it?
Citadel demands public scrutiny because it has been fined and/or sanctioned for market misconduct 26 times according to Financial Industry Regulatory Authority (FINRA) records. To put that number in perspective, if an individual broker had 26 violations on his public record he would have a very difficult time getting hired by a reputable firm. (Bad brokers with long histories of misconduct do sometimes get hired, unfortunately, because disciplinary records are expunged from the public record as part of settlement agreements.)
On June 25, 2014, Citadel Securities LLC, the owner of Apogee, was fined a total of $800,000 by its various regulators for serious trading misconduct. Citadel paid the fines in the typical manner, without admitting or denying the charges. This is what the New York Stock Exchange said Citadel had done:
“The firm sent multiple, periodic bursts of order messages, at 10,000 orders per second, to the exchanges. This excessive messaging activity, which involved hundreds of thousands of orders for more than 19 million shares, occurred two to three times per day.”
In addition, according to the York Stock Exchange, Citadel “erroneously sold short, on a proprietary basis, 2.75 million shares of an entity causing the share price of the entity to fall by 77 percent during an eleven minute period.”
In another instance, according to the New York Stock Exchange, Citadel’s trading resulted in “an immediate increase in the price of the security of 132 percent.”
On January 9, 2014, the New York Stock Exchange charged Citadel Securities LLC with engaging in wash sales 502,243 times using its computer algorithms. A wash sale is where the buyer and the seller are the same entity and no change in beneficial ownership occurs. (Wash sales are illegal because they can manipulate stock prices up or down. They played a major role in the rigged stock market that crashed in 1929.) Citadel paid a $115,000 fine for these 502,243 violations and walked away.
As Wall Street On Parade reported on July 28 of this year, instead of cracking down on wash sales, Wall Street’s regulators have instead watered down the rules governing this virulent form of market manipulation.
Despite the seriousness of the market violations that Citadel has committed – 26 times – no prosecution has occurred and no one has gone to jail. But if you take something from Citadel, and are young employees lacking Citadel billionaire-owner Ken Griffin’s money to hire legions of top tier law firms, you will be hounded by relentless prosecutors and very likely end up with a long prison term. (See Appellate Court Finds Misconduct by SEC and U.S. Prosecutors in Squawk Box Case; Overturns Convictions)
According to this story at Bloomberg News, Sahil Uppal and Yihao Pu, both 26 years old, have been charged by the Justice Department in connection with the removal of computer code from Citadel. According to Bloomberg, Uppal faces 10 years in prison.
The case against Uppal and Pu is all the more interesting because theft of computer code charges were thrown out by a Federal appeals court in December 2010 in a case involving Sergey Aleynikov, a gifted former programmer at Goldman Sachs.
The Aleynikov prosecution was so egregious that bestselling author, Michael Lewis, covered the case in his book, Flash Boys, about the market manipulations of dark pools and high frequency traders. Aleynikov had been working for Goldman Sachs when he received an offer to move to a hedge fund and build a system from scratch.
That was 2009. Over the past five years, Aleynikov has been arrested and jailed by the U.S. Attorney’s office in Manhattan, had his conviction overturned by the Second Circuit Appeals Court, arrested again by the Manhattan District Attorney Cyrus Vance, and now faces more prosecution over the same set of facts: namely, that he took computer code that belonged to Goldman Sachs.
The case was so devoid of statutory support that on the very same day that Kevin Marino, Aleynikov’s lawyer, gave his oral arguments to the Appeals Court, “the judges ordered Serge released, on the grounds that the laws he stood accused of breaking did not actually apply to his case,” Lewis wrote. Aleynikov had already been in prison for a year.
The Second Circuit Appeals Court ruled that Aleynikov had neither taken a tangible good from Goldman nor had he stolen a product involved in interstate commerce – noting that at oral argument the government “was unable to identify a single product that affects interstate commerce.”
Aleynikov awaits trial in New York State court.
Don’t be discouraged there are several righteous individuals and entities out there that are going to make this right in near future!
2024.05.29 03:25 ChipmunkSpecialist27 I think my best friend (10+ years, VERY religious) is homophobic, but I (the opposite of religious) don’t know if I should. Thoughts?
Hi guys! Using a throwaway account for safety reasons, as the friend in this story knows my main account
Idk how long this will be and this is my first reddit post, so just a heads up:
Background: I (22M) was brought up in the Catholic Church during my first 18 years of my life. I never agreed with most of the teachings and always viewed religion along the lens of "play-pretend", as I felt I was lost, not understanding how everyone "knows God exists". Religion itself seems to have too many fallacies and full circle arguments to stand fully true. I could go on and on about my gripes regarding religion (specifically the Catholic Church), but the main focus that really pushes me away from it (along with individuals) is homophobia.
I didn't realize I was queer until I was 11/12. I always liked girls before this time, and all of a sudden, it switched to guys. I always grew up with a strong sense of fear and dread: will I end up alone, what if everyone decides to abandon me/doesn't support me, etc. Needless to say, this (along with other personal issues, who knows, may become their own separate posts) negatively impacted me through my pre-teen and teen years.
With all of this in mind, I began to slowly despise blatantly anti-LGBT organizations, such as Christianity (I know some Christians aren't homophobic, however, in my experience dealing with Christians from my life, they seem to be, whether it be slightly or strongly, as a result of faith). As I became older (especially around the time I turned 17-18), I became increasingly cautious over those that were Christians within my life, such as stating my gripes with Christianity and saying how I don't want to currently be a practicing Christian. *I'm saying this now to set up a few questions I will have at the end of my post.
I Topic of my post: Around the time I turned 11-12, I started to become friends with my best friend (now 20M), as we were both in families within the same neighborhood, with our families often being at the same parties as other neighborhood kids. Eventually, over the years, I'd say we both deem each other as close friends (to me, a best friend, he has said he considers me one of his best friends) as a result of hanging out together and going to school together.
My best friend has been religious (Christian) since we met. Around the time I began to explain my strong distaste for the Catholic Church/Christianity/homophobic Christians, my friend began taking his faith seriously, opting to switch from Methodist to Catholic). Because of this, I began to become afraid of coming out to him, as he was both my best friend at the time and one of the only long-term friends I have had at this point. Eventually, I did come out 3 years ago, at which point I think I was accepted, but was told "as long as you don't like me, we will be fine". I was taken aback from this, but I shoved that down because this was my bestfriend.
Idk if it's come across as such yet, maybe it's me overthinking, I tend to do so, but I might become the a\*hole now* Around this time, I started exercising to him how "I hate Christianity as I have always felt excluded, ostracizing lgbt individuals and religion seems to operate out of fear to keep people complacent". My friend and I disagree, but we both (at least, it seems from his end, but I know from my end) try to look past our differences in opinion to preserve our friendship. Also, he began to say how he doesn't agree with the "gay lifestyle" and doesn't want it "thrown in his face", saying this a couple times before not mentioning it again.
Furthermore, it should also be brought up we make gay jokes all the time towards one another, like a lot of straight guys do towards one another (except, I'm not straight). Some vague examples include him saying one time "want to see me hard?", me saying "you're turning me on" to get him to stop if he's making me irritated, us referencing one another as "who's the top and bottom" from a meme we know, along with common stuff you'd imagine straight guys making jokes to. Of course, I love my best friend, he's like a brother to me, but I could never see myself in a relationship with him, as I would never want to ruin our friendship (plus he doesn't see me like that and likewise).
Anyway, the topic of "gay lifestyle" came back up today and I can't seem to shake this feeling off my mind... he seems to convey that it's a choice and that he's "okay" with gay, as long as it's not "thrown in his face", even though I'd say religion is thrown in most people's faces when they're born, alongside heterosexuality (such ads that highly utilize the "sex appeal" to sell services to men).
Concluding thoughts and questions/advice,etc wanted:
I want to try and confront him on this, but I don't want to ruin our friendship, but I feel like this conversation might be needed. I'm afraid he'll compare it to me ostracizing him on behalf of his religion, which I guess is fair, but I'm afraid that will be his reason to defend his view on the lgbt community. Am I the asshole? Is he? Both? Should I initiate this conversation? Any advice, questions or comments you all have? I apologize if this doesn't make sense, I'm writing this right away so I don't chicken out and shove this further down. I also might delete this in the future, as I don't want this traced back to me.
Thank you to all who have read, I appreciate it!
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Idk how long this will be and this is my first reddit post, so just a heads up:
Background: I (22M) was brought up in the Catholic Church during my first 18 years of my life. I never agreed with most of the teachings and always viewed religion along the lens of "play-pretend", as I felt I was lost, not understanding how everyone "knows God exists". Religion itself seems to have too many fallacies and full circle arguments to stand fully true. I could go on and on about my gripes regarding religion (specifically the Catholic Church), but the main focus that really pushes me away from it (along with individuals) is homophobia.
I didn't realize I was queer until I was 11/12. I always liked girls before this time, and all of a sudden, it switched to guys. I always grew up with a strong sense of fear and dread: will I end up alone, what if everyone decides to abandon me/doesn't support me, etc. Needless to say, this (along with other personal issues, who knows, may become their own separate posts) negatively impacted me through my pre-teen and teen years.
With all of this in mind, I began to slowly despise blatantly anti-LGBT organizations, such as Christianity (I know some Christians aren't homophobic, however, in my experience dealing with Christians from my life, they seem to be, whether it be slightly or strongly, as a result of faith). As I became older (especially around the time I turned 17-18), I became increasingly cautious over those that were Christians within my life, such as stating my gripes with Christianity and saying how I don't want to currently be a practicing Christian. *I'm saying this now to set up a few questions I will have at the end of my post.
I Topic of my post: Around the time I turned 11-12, I started to become friends with my best friend (now 20M), as we were both in families within the same neighborhood, with our families often being at the same parties as other neighborhood kids. Eventually, over the years, I'd say we both deem each other as close friends (to me, a best friend, he has said he considers me one of his best friends) as a result of hanging out together and going to school together.
My best friend has been religious (Christian) since we met. Around the time I began to explain my strong distaste for the Catholic Church/Christianity/homophobic Christians, my friend began taking his faith seriously, opting to switch from Methodist to Catholic). Because of this, I began to become afraid of coming out to him, as he was both my best friend at the time and one of the only long-term friends I have had at this point. Eventually, I did come out 3 years ago, at which point I think I was accepted, but was told "as long as you don't like me, we will be fine". I was taken aback from this, but I shoved that down because this was my bestfriend.
Idk if it's come across as such yet, maybe it's me overthinking, I tend to do so, but I might become the a\*hole now* Around this time, I started exercising to him how "I hate Christianity as I have always felt excluded, ostracizing lgbt individuals and religion seems to operate out of fear to keep people complacent". My friend and I disagree, but we both (at least, it seems from his end, but I know from my end) try to look past our differences in opinion to preserve our friendship. Also, he began to say how he doesn't agree with the "gay lifestyle" and doesn't want it "thrown in his face", saying this a couple times before not mentioning it again.
Furthermore, it should also be brought up we make gay jokes all the time towards one another, like a lot of straight guys do towards one another (except, I'm not straight). Some vague examples include him saying one time "want to see me hard?", me saying "you're turning me on" to get him to stop if he's making me irritated, us referencing one another as "who's the top and bottom" from a meme we know, along with common stuff you'd imagine straight guys making jokes to. Of course, I love my best friend, he's like a brother to me, but I could never see myself in a relationship with him, as I would never want to ruin our friendship (plus he doesn't see me like that and likewise).
Anyway, the topic of "gay lifestyle" came back up today and I can't seem to shake this feeling off my mind... he seems to convey that it's a choice and that he's "okay" with gay, as long as it's not "thrown in his face", even though I'd say religion is thrown in most people's faces when they're born, alongside heterosexuality (such ads that highly utilize the "sex appeal" to sell services to men).
Concluding thoughts and questions/advice,etc wanted:
I want to try and confront him on this, but I don't want to ruin our friendship, but I feel like this conversation might be needed. I'm afraid he'll compare it to me ostracizing him on behalf of his religion, which I guess is fair, but I'm afraid that will be his reason to defend his view on the lgbt community. Am I the asshole? Is he? Both? Should I initiate this conversation? Any advice, questions or comments you all have? I apologize if this doesn't make sense, I'm writing this right away so I don't chicken out and shove this further down. I also might delete this in the future, as I don't want this traced back to me.
Thank you to all who have read, I appreciate it!
2024.05.29 03:23 CreativeTreat6469 I cured my vulvodynia - 9 months of pain
I was diagnosed with Vulvodynia in October 2023 after I had a BV infection that was treated incorrectly with anti fungal yeast infection creams. Then I was put on BV antibiotics for 15 days and still felt zero relief. I went to my primary care and she didn't know what to do so she tried to help me get into a gynecologist but everything was a 3 month wait. I managed to get into a gynecologist who was an old male doctor and he didn't even want to test me for infection. He told me to not wear "panties" and id be fine..
About 1 month later I was still in insane pain, unable to sleep from how bad the burning was. Couldn't get out of bed for days and couldn't find a doctor who was willing to help me. I was spending hours and hours every night looking on this exact forum trying to find a solution. This was when I finally convinced my primary care to help me get into a gynecologists office that specializes in vulvo pain. (I do not recommend this place at all, MUSC)
At my first appointment they told me "it's probably your laundry detergent and take these antihistamines. Let's also put you on birth control for your PCOS!" the antihistamines did nothing to help as it wasn't an allergic reaction. they told me no infection was present even though I had the discharge, oder, and pain all still from my previous positive BV test a month prior.
I called in a week later begging for help, or something to stop the pain as it was unbearable. They told me "you have vulvodynia which you will have forever and the only form of treatment is anxiety medication" (I was already on anxiety medication so this wasn't a treatment that was helping me for vulvodynia) They mentioned they had a doctor in office who specializes in vulvodynia so they got me an appointment but it took another 2 months to see him and in the meantime they put me on steroid cream. (highly don't recommend, this stuff burned so badly and I believe caused more issues rather than healing)
This was the worst 2 months of my life waiting for this appointment, scrolling this forum, hoping to find answers. When I showed up to the gynecologist who specializes in vulva pain, I brought my dad along with me. (obviously was NOT in the room during the appointment. But was there to help me stand up for myself to doctors. Which I highly recommend bringing a partner or family member with you to help advocate) After this doctor did a swab for infection he stepped out of the room and decided to talk to my dad while I got dressed again. This doctor talked to us in his office and said "you have vulvodynia. lets put you on an SSRI for your anxiety" I was confused because I never mentioned my anxiety, and usually for Vulvodynia you treat it with SNRIs, but he told me this SSRI would cure me. I believe he believed I only had vulvodynia from anxiety or trauma, yet I KNEW something more was going on.
When I got home I went to the MyChart website to view the notes this gynecologist put in the system and he marked me as having "high PH, not enough good bacteria, + 'her mom died when she was 14 so she's suffering from trauma" I sat there dumbfounded because at the appointment he said there was "nothing wrong" yet in the chart I had high PH and not enough good bacteria. I sent him an email and I asked him "how can I fix my PH and get more good bacteria?" because high PH, not enough good bacteria, abnormal discharge AND fishy order were all BV symptoms that I had and indicate an infection. He called me the next day and told me "haha well yeah but here's the thing. Go to college, work in a lab, and if you find the answer, let me know." then "wished" me luck. My dad heard this phone call and was so upset too.
This is where I was in pain for about 7 months. The burning hurt so badly and I could never wish that on ANYONE. I ended up taking just a generic SNRI anxiety medication that focuses on nerve pain so I could find a real cure in the mean time. Here were my symptoms and here is what I did to cure my vulvodynia. (I am not a doctor and everyone is different. its all about trying new things to help!)
I did one of those vulva microbiome tests online where you send in a swab and it tells you what bacteria are there. it showed me having 85% bad bacteria and 15% good bacteria. My recent visits to the gynecologist showed me having High PH during month 1's visit, month 3's, and month 6.
!!! I treated it by giving my body what it needed to heal. I am almost 100% positive that taking Vitamin D and K2 drops daily cured my vulvodynia which I never thought was going to be possible. !!!
I was taking Vitamin D, along with my SNRI. I only took the SNRI for 1.5 months to let my nerves calm down. I still am not sure if the SNRI did anything or if it was a placebo but I continued to take it while I healed my body.
I had tried cotton underwear because I heard it helps lower risk of infections but I found them to hurt me as they were scratchier than my no-show underwear. So instead, I wore no underwear while I was home. Only loose sweatpants/sweatshorts at home. I would wear no-show underwear if I went to town in jeans so this helped minimize friction and irritation.
When I would shower, I only used a bunch of water externally until I felt like I was clean. This was hard for me to do as I was using non-scented soap externally because I couldn't stand not feeling clean. But only using water helped wash away everything that needed to be cleaned, but would leave my body's natural oils causing the area to heal. Stripping the oils with soap felt like it was causing more problems at this time.
Long story short to anyone who just wants an answer: I believe I cured my vulvodynia with Vitamin D + Vitamin K2 drops, short term SNRI, wearing no underwear when I could, avoiding clothes that would touch the area to avoid any friction, no soap and only water!
It has been almost 2 months of me feeling NO PAIN at all. I don't take the SNRI's anymore, I can wear any clothes I want, I use soap sometimes but still try to avoid it. The only thing I still do is take Vitamin D.
I have had maybe 1 flair up within the past 2 months that lasted like 3 hours but I believe it was triggered by IC bladder pain. After drinking a bunch of water and avoiding vitamin C the pain went away! If anyone has questions I'll answer any. I had zero help and only bad experiences from gynecologist's in my area. It wasn't until I cured myself that I found an amazing gynecologist who has been so sweet so I am thankful to know I'll be able to go to her if I have any issues in the future. Trust that the universe will help guide you to the answers you need. I thought I was going to be in that terrible pain forever but trust me you will find something that helps you and it may just be on a random Tuesday when you least expect it.
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About 1 month later I was still in insane pain, unable to sleep from how bad the burning was. Couldn't get out of bed for days and couldn't find a doctor who was willing to help me. I was spending hours and hours every night looking on this exact forum trying to find a solution. This was when I finally convinced my primary care to help me get into a gynecologists office that specializes in vulvo pain. (I do not recommend this place at all, MUSC)
At my first appointment they told me "it's probably your laundry detergent and take these antihistamines. Let's also put you on birth control for your PCOS!" the antihistamines did nothing to help as it wasn't an allergic reaction. they told me no infection was present even though I had the discharge, oder, and pain all still from my previous positive BV test a month prior.
I called in a week later begging for help, or something to stop the pain as it was unbearable. They told me "you have vulvodynia which you will have forever and the only form of treatment is anxiety medication" (I was already on anxiety medication so this wasn't a treatment that was helping me for vulvodynia) They mentioned they had a doctor in office who specializes in vulvodynia so they got me an appointment but it took another 2 months to see him and in the meantime they put me on steroid cream. (highly don't recommend, this stuff burned so badly and I believe caused more issues rather than healing)
This was the worst 2 months of my life waiting for this appointment, scrolling this forum, hoping to find answers. When I showed up to the gynecologist who specializes in vulva pain, I brought my dad along with me. (obviously was NOT in the room during the appointment. But was there to help me stand up for myself to doctors. Which I highly recommend bringing a partner or family member with you to help advocate) After this doctor did a swab for infection he stepped out of the room and decided to talk to my dad while I got dressed again. This doctor talked to us in his office and said "you have vulvodynia. lets put you on an SSRI for your anxiety" I was confused because I never mentioned my anxiety, and usually for Vulvodynia you treat it with SNRIs, but he told me this SSRI would cure me. I believe he believed I only had vulvodynia from anxiety or trauma, yet I KNEW something more was going on.
When I got home I went to the MyChart website to view the notes this gynecologist put in the system and he marked me as having "high PH, not enough good bacteria, + 'her mom died when she was 14 so she's suffering from trauma" I sat there dumbfounded because at the appointment he said there was "nothing wrong" yet in the chart I had high PH and not enough good bacteria. I sent him an email and I asked him "how can I fix my PH and get more good bacteria?" because high PH, not enough good bacteria, abnormal discharge AND fishy order were all BV symptoms that I had and indicate an infection. He called me the next day and told me "haha well yeah but here's the thing. Go to college, work in a lab, and if you find the answer, let me know." then "wished" me luck. My dad heard this phone call and was so upset too.
This is where I was in pain for about 7 months. The burning hurt so badly and I could never wish that on ANYONE. I ended up taking just a generic SNRI anxiety medication that focuses on nerve pain so I could find a real cure in the mean time. Here were my symptoms and here is what I did to cure my vulvodynia. (I am not a doctor and everyone is different. its all about trying new things to help!)
I did one of those vulva microbiome tests online where you send in a swab and it tells you what bacteria are there. it showed me having 85% bad bacteria and 15% good bacteria. My recent visits to the gynecologist showed me having High PH during month 1's visit, month 3's, and month 6.
!!! I treated it by giving my body what it needed to heal. I am almost 100% positive that taking Vitamin D and K2 drops daily cured my vulvodynia which I never thought was going to be possible. !!!
I was taking Vitamin D, along with my SNRI. I only took the SNRI for 1.5 months to let my nerves calm down. I still am not sure if the SNRI did anything or if it was a placebo but I continued to take it while I healed my body.
I had tried cotton underwear because I heard it helps lower risk of infections but I found them to hurt me as they were scratchier than my no-show underwear. So instead, I wore no underwear while I was home. Only loose sweatpants/sweatshorts at home. I would wear no-show underwear if I went to town in jeans so this helped minimize friction and irritation.
When I would shower, I only used a bunch of water externally until I felt like I was clean. This was hard for me to do as I was using non-scented soap externally because I couldn't stand not feeling clean. But only using water helped wash away everything that needed to be cleaned, but would leave my body's natural oils causing the area to heal. Stripping the oils with soap felt like it was causing more problems at this time.
Long story short to anyone who just wants an answer: I believe I cured my vulvodynia with Vitamin D + Vitamin K2 drops, short term SNRI, wearing no underwear when I could, avoiding clothes that would touch the area to avoid any friction, no soap and only water!
It has been almost 2 months of me feeling NO PAIN at all. I don't take the SNRI's anymore, I can wear any clothes I want, I use soap sometimes but still try to avoid it. The only thing I still do is take Vitamin D.
I have had maybe 1 flair up within the past 2 months that lasted like 3 hours but I believe it was triggered by IC bladder pain. After drinking a bunch of water and avoiding vitamin C the pain went away! If anyone has questions I'll answer any. I had zero help and only bad experiences from gynecologist's in my area. It wasn't until I cured myself that I found an amazing gynecologist who has been so sweet so I am thankful to know I'll be able to go to her if I have any issues in the future. Trust that the universe will help guide you to the answers you need. I thought I was going to be in that terrible pain forever but trust me you will find something that helps you and it may just be on a random Tuesday when you least expect it.
2024.05.29 03:23 Agreeable-Breath-943 My family hates me so much its driving me crazy
I'm 20yo woman who happened to have the worst older sister in the world (she is 25). Even tho she was the golden child and has everything she wants, she still hates me and treat me like garbage and nothing I do made her soften toward me. One day, she got mad at me (I was 16) and I was so depressed back then, everybody noticed that, and since that time everyone around me tried to help me even my not so kind parents. Well, she "tried" to help me but when she couldn't get anything to use against me (she questioned things that might get me in trouble since I live in a religious household) she got so mad, and since there was nobody with us, she took it a lil further than I imagined, she spilled water all over me, punched me on the face till my glasses broke, dragged me by my hair and kept hitting me while I was screaming like a maniac, I told her "hit me more! Hit me more!" While crying. I don't know why I said that but the hitting must did something to me, so she kept going and going and then, she strangled me, yes, she tried to kill me. After that she kept screaming at me. and when I told my parents she said while crying "she asked me to hit her" and after that we never talked for almost a year.
Its not only her btw, after that incident, I've never been the same, I took pills to end it all but nothing happened, and my family found out about it, my dad said that I need to work harder next time and take more pills if I really wanted to take my own life, I was so shocked that I denied hearing that, thinking I was dreaming, until one day when I asked him to give me some painkillers and he told me to take as much as I want and he "wouldn't care anyways" I went crazy that day, because it was my dad, I cried and screamed and nobody dared to get near me, they all watched me, and my older sister was totally disgusted by me, she didn't try to give me a blank stare at least, no, she insisted to do that face, she made sure that I would see her rolling her eyes. , my mother said "you should'nt scare your sister like that" mind you, I was crying because I felt betrayed and hated by everybody in this house. This is nothing from what I've been experiencing, I don't really hate them, but I don't really want to stay with them anymore, I feel empty, sad, and I have no one to rely on, not a single friend would accept me because I'm not okay mentally and I'm okay with that, its just sad how I've never been close to anyone to the point I crave the hugs and light kisses so much. I was always bullied at school, and abused by my parents/sister, and I have no one to love me and hold me and accept the person I am, I lost faith in everything, love, religion and so on and I am waiting for my last day to come because I am too scared to do anything, after all I still have dreams but I am still empty, my love for the thing I do may vanish someday, and I don't think I'll be able to live after that. I feel so damn lonely it hurts so fucking much.
Sorry If everything I wrote look messy, but this is how I feel, and I'm not changing my writing since I'm just venting my pain away.
Also sorry for my bad english.
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Its not only her btw, after that incident, I've never been the same, I took pills to end it all but nothing happened, and my family found out about it, my dad said that I need to work harder next time and take more pills if I really wanted to take my own life, I was so shocked that I denied hearing that, thinking I was dreaming, until one day when I asked him to give me some painkillers and he told me to take as much as I want and he "wouldn't care anyways" I went crazy that day, because it was my dad, I cried and screamed and nobody dared to get near me, they all watched me, and my older sister was totally disgusted by me, she didn't try to give me a blank stare at least, no, she insisted to do that face, she made sure that I would see her rolling her eyes. , my mother said "you should'nt scare your sister like that" mind you, I was crying because I felt betrayed and hated by everybody in this house. This is nothing from what I've been experiencing, I don't really hate them, but I don't really want to stay with them anymore, I feel empty, sad, and I have no one to rely on, not a single friend would accept me because I'm not okay mentally and I'm okay with that, its just sad how I've never been close to anyone to the point I crave the hugs and light kisses so much. I was always bullied at school, and abused by my parents/sister, and I have no one to love me and hold me and accept the person I am, I lost faith in everything, love, religion and so on and I am waiting for my last day to come because I am too scared to do anything, after all I still have dreams but I am still empty, my love for the thing I do may vanish someday, and I don't think I'll be able to live after that. I feel so damn lonely it hurts so fucking much.
Sorry If everything I wrote look messy, but this is how I feel, and I'm not changing my writing since I'm just venting my pain away.
Also sorry for my bad english.
2024.05.29 03:23 MrsLadyZedd Wild Things (1998)
MLZ MAP (Score): 78.47 / Zedd MAP (Score): 69.10 / Score Gap: 9.37
We purchased this limited edition 4k on Arrow some time ago and finally brought it out this Memorial Day weekend.
While I know we had seen it a loooong time ago, probably a Blockbuster rental, because I am a huge Neve Campbell fan and have been since Party of Five. It did not really ring too much of a bell as we started to watch.
Roger Ebert described this film as “lurid trash”…”a softcore sex film, a soap opera and a B-grade noir” and he’s not wrong. The setting was absolutely gorgeous. When we first saw the film I had not been to Florida, nor had I put in my 14 years of living in South East Texas, where you can peel the summer air off starting in May all the way through November. The line between the haves and the have-nots is not one you cross, not back in 1998, and not now.
Kelly Van Ryan has everything she could ever want. Suzie Toller is a delinquent. They both go to school where the guidance counselor, handsome and young Sam Lambardo, works. They get into a bit of a mess, the three of them, and what exactly happened, and why it happened, remains unclear.
Detective Ray Duquette and his partner, Gloria Perez investigate the situation and try to figure out who did what to whom. The story twists, turns, and goes so many directions that by the end, you are still wondering if something else will end up coming to light.
The acting was not great, especially on the parts of the supporting cast. It was alternatively soap-opera over dramatic to as wooden as a puppet.
Filmed at Ransom Everglades High School in Coconut Grove, Miami, due to the school's architecture and scenic setting. The film also captured the natural splendor in Bill Baggs Cape Florida State Park in Key Biscayne and Oleta River State Park. The clarity and color that comes through in the 4k makes it worth the cost of the limited edition, for sure.
Zedd and I discussed the film and he noted that it was clear that the actors obviously knew what they were filming was a bit of a cinematic joke, but that they approached it with a lightness and sense of humor that is difficult to find these days, no one was taking themselves too seriously.
I agree, a teacher doing what Lombardo was accused of doing would probably not be the subject of a sexy film these days. Certainly not one with a threesome, nor so much nudity of “teen girls” in a mainstream, big release like this.
Without giving too much away, the film is fast-paced, beautifully filmed, and worth a watch. We are not by any means talking cinematic masterpiece, it’s definitely a fun way to spend an afternoon.
Zedd and I have a rule that if we add a film to the collection that has a theatrical and an extended (director’s, unrated, etc.) edition, that we watch the theatrical cut first. So we are looking forward to watching the “unrated” version later this summer, as this sure as heck feels like a hot, sultry, late summer film.
Meanwhile, after a Memorial Day weekend that included heat indexes of 116 degrees, Zedd and I will continue to Movie On through our own “hibernation period” here in South East Texas, from just about May to November, we really lean on our movie collection as it becomes entirely inhospitable outside. Peel off the air, indeed!
(If you enjoyed this, or any of my recent reviews, come check us out at 500 Movies or Bust, we’d love to see ya!)
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We purchased this limited edition 4k on Arrow some time ago and finally brought it out this Memorial Day weekend.
While I know we had seen it a loooong time ago, probably a Blockbuster rental, because I am a huge Neve Campbell fan and have been since Party of Five. It did not really ring too much of a bell as we started to watch.
Roger Ebert described this film as “lurid trash”…”a softcore sex film, a soap opera and a B-grade noir” and he’s not wrong. The setting was absolutely gorgeous. When we first saw the film I had not been to Florida, nor had I put in my 14 years of living in South East Texas, where you can peel the summer air off starting in May all the way through November. The line between the haves and the have-nots is not one you cross, not back in 1998, and not now.
Kelly Van Ryan has everything she could ever want. Suzie Toller is a delinquent. They both go to school where the guidance counselor, handsome and young Sam Lambardo, works. They get into a bit of a mess, the three of them, and what exactly happened, and why it happened, remains unclear.
Detective Ray Duquette and his partner, Gloria Perez investigate the situation and try to figure out who did what to whom. The story twists, turns, and goes so many directions that by the end, you are still wondering if something else will end up coming to light.
The acting was not great, especially on the parts of the supporting cast. It was alternatively soap-opera over dramatic to as wooden as a puppet.
Filmed at Ransom Everglades High School in Coconut Grove, Miami, due to the school's architecture and scenic setting. The film also captured the natural splendor in Bill Baggs Cape Florida State Park in Key Biscayne and Oleta River State Park. The clarity and color that comes through in the 4k makes it worth the cost of the limited edition, for sure.
Zedd and I discussed the film and he noted that it was clear that the actors obviously knew what they were filming was a bit of a cinematic joke, but that they approached it with a lightness and sense of humor that is difficult to find these days, no one was taking themselves too seriously.
I agree, a teacher doing what Lombardo was accused of doing would probably not be the subject of a sexy film these days. Certainly not one with a threesome, nor so much nudity of “teen girls” in a mainstream, big release like this.
Without giving too much away, the film is fast-paced, beautifully filmed, and worth a watch. We are not by any means talking cinematic masterpiece, it’s definitely a fun way to spend an afternoon.
Zedd and I have a rule that if we add a film to the collection that has a theatrical and an extended (director’s, unrated, etc.) edition, that we watch the theatrical cut first. So we are looking forward to watching the “unrated” version later this summer, as this sure as heck feels like a hot, sultry, late summer film.
Meanwhile, after a Memorial Day weekend that included heat indexes of 116 degrees, Zedd and I will continue to Movie On through our own “hibernation period” here in South East Texas, from just about May to November, we really lean on our movie collection as it becomes entirely inhospitable outside. Peel off the air, indeed!
(If you enjoyed this, or any of my recent reviews, come check us out at 500 Movies or Bust, we’d love to see ya!)
2024.05.29 03:22 PianoIndividual2879 Seeking Advice on Renting Out Our Basement: Renovation Costs and Legal Concerns
Good evening, dear community!
My wife and I are considering renting out our two-bedroom basement. We live in a bungalow with a spacious basement featuring high ceilings, located two hours from Toronto. Since it's just the two of us, we don’t need all that space. However, our basement currently lacks a separate entrance and some features aren't up to code. For instance, there aren't smoke detectors in every bedroom, and our furnace doesn't have a sensor to shut it off in case of smoke.
To make it rental-ready, we need to undertake major renovations, estimated to cost around 50,000 CAD. Here’s the breakdown:
Once renovated, the basement will be a compliant, separate apartment with two large bedrooms, a new kitchen, and a separate entrance. We plan to rent it out for 1,400-1,900 CAD per month, either by room or as a whole unit.
However, I’m concerned about potential tenant issues, such as those who might stop paying rent and take a year to evict. I learned that having roommates instead of tenants makes eviction easier if problems arise. To classify them as roommates, I need to share a kitchen or bathroom with them. Our basement has a large utility room housing the water heater, electrical box, and furnace. This room is big enough for a bed, desk, and chair, so I could theoretically use it as my "bedroom."
I have several questions:
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My wife and I are considering renting out our two-bedroom basement. We live in a bungalow with a spacious basement featuring high ceilings, located two hours from Toronto. Since it's just the two of us, we don’t need all that space. However, our basement currently lacks a separate entrance and some features aren't up to code. For instance, there aren't smoke detectors in every bedroom, and our furnace doesn't have a sensor to shut it off in case of smoke.
To make it rental-ready, we need to undertake major renovations, estimated to cost around 50,000 CAD. Here’s the breakdown:
- Architectural drawings: 4,000 CAD
- Separate entrance: 15,000 CAD
- Electrical and fire upgrades: 10,000 CAD
- Kitchen (10ft): 5,000 CAD
- Kitchen appliances: 4,000 CAD
- WasheDryer: 3,000 CAD
- Drywall, patching, new door, and paint for adding another bedroom: 4,000 CAD
- Unexpected expenses: 5,000 CAD
Once renovated, the basement will be a compliant, separate apartment with two large bedrooms, a new kitchen, and a separate entrance. We plan to rent it out for 1,400-1,900 CAD per month, either by room or as a whole unit.
However, I’m concerned about potential tenant issues, such as those who might stop paying rent and take a year to evict. I learned that having roommates instead of tenants makes eviction easier if problems arise. To classify them as roommates, I need to share a kitchen or bathroom with them. Our basement has a large utility room housing the water heater, electrical box, and furnace. This room is big enough for a bed, desk, and chair, so I could theoretically use it as my "bedroom."
I have several questions:
- Am I breaking any laws by living in a utility room without a window, given that I am the property owner? (The rented rooms will be code-compliant.)
- Can my tenants be considered roommates in this case?
- What do you think of our plan overall? Are we aiming for something unrealistic?
2024.05.29 03:22 MrsLadyZedd Wild Things (1998)
MLZ MAP (Score): 78.47 / Zedd MAP (Score): 69.10 / Score Gap: 9.37
We purchased this limited edition 4k on Arrow some time ago and finally brought it out this Memorial Day weekend.
While I know we had seen it a loooong time ago, probably a Blockbuster rental, because I am a huge Neve Campbell fan and have been since Party of Five. It did not really ring too much of a bell as we started to watch.
Roger Ebert described this film as “lurid trash”…”a softcore sex film, a soap opera and a B-grade noir” and he’s not wrong. The setting was absolutely gorgeous. When we first saw the film I had not been to Florida, nor had I put in my 14 years of living in South East Texas, where you can peel the summer air off starting in May all the way through November. The line between the haves and the have-nots is not one you cross, not back in 1998, and not now.
Kelly Van Ryan has everything she could ever want. Suzie Toller is a delinquent. They both go to school where the guidance counselor, handsome and young Sam Lambardo, works. They get into a bit of a mess, the three of them, and what exactly happened, and why it happened, remains unclear.
Detective Ray Duquette and his partner, Gloria Perez investigate the situation and try to figure out who did what to whom. The story twists, turns, and goes so many directions that by the end, you are still wondering if something else will end up coming to light.
The acting was not great, especially on the parts of the supporting cast. It was alternatively soap-opera over dramatic to as wooden as a puppet.
Filmed at Ransom Everglades High School in Coconut Grove, Miami, due to the school's architecture and scenic setting. The film also captured the natural splendor in Bill Baggs Cape Florida State Park in Key Biscayne and Oleta River State Park. The clarity and color that comes through in the 4k makes it worth the cost of the limited edition, for sure.
Zedd and I discussed the film and he noted that it was clear that the actors obviously knew what they were filming was a bit of a cinematic joke, but that they approached it with a lightness and sense of humor that is difficult to find these days, no one was taking themselves too seriously.
I agree, a teacher doing what Lombardo was accused of doing would probably not be the subject of a sexy film these days. Certainly not one with a threesome, nor so much nudity of “teen girls” in a mainstream, big release like this.
Without giving too much away, the film is fast-paced, beautifully filmed, and worth a watch. We are not by any means talking cinematic masterpiece, it’s definitely a fun way to spend an afternoon.
Zedd and I have a rule that if we add a film to the collection that has a theatrical and an extended (director’s, unrated, etc.) edition, that we watch the theatrical cut first. So we are looking forward to watching the “unrated” version later this summer, as this sure as heck feels like a hot, sultry, late summer film.
Meanwhile, after a Memorial Day weekend that included heat indexes of 116 degrees, Zedd and I will continue to Movie On through our own “hibernation period” here in South East Texas, from just about May to November, we really lean on our movie collection as it becomes entirely inhospitable outside. Peel off the air, indeed!
(If you enjoyed this, or any of my recent reviews, come check us out at 500 Movies or Bust, we’d love to see ya!)
submitted by MrsLadyZedd to dvdcollection [link] [comments]
We purchased this limited edition 4k on Arrow some time ago and finally brought it out this Memorial Day weekend.
While I know we had seen it a loooong time ago, probably a Blockbuster rental, because I am a huge Neve Campbell fan and have been since Party of Five. It did not really ring too much of a bell as we started to watch.
Roger Ebert described this film as “lurid trash”…”a softcore sex film, a soap opera and a B-grade noir” and he’s not wrong. The setting was absolutely gorgeous. When we first saw the film I had not been to Florida, nor had I put in my 14 years of living in South East Texas, where you can peel the summer air off starting in May all the way through November. The line between the haves and the have-nots is not one you cross, not back in 1998, and not now.
Kelly Van Ryan has everything she could ever want. Suzie Toller is a delinquent. They both go to school where the guidance counselor, handsome and young Sam Lambardo, works. They get into a bit of a mess, the three of them, and what exactly happened, and why it happened, remains unclear.
Detective Ray Duquette and his partner, Gloria Perez investigate the situation and try to figure out who did what to whom. The story twists, turns, and goes so many directions that by the end, you are still wondering if something else will end up coming to light.
The acting was not great, especially on the parts of the supporting cast. It was alternatively soap-opera over dramatic to as wooden as a puppet.
Filmed at Ransom Everglades High School in Coconut Grove, Miami, due to the school's architecture and scenic setting. The film also captured the natural splendor in Bill Baggs Cape Florida State Park in Key Biscayne and Oleta River State Park. The clarity and color that comes through in the 4k makes it worth the cost of the limited edition, for sure.
Zedd and I discussed the film and he noted that it was clear that the actors obviously knew what they were filming was a bit of a cinematic joke, but that they approached it with a lightness and sense of humor that is difficult to find these days, no one was taking themselves too seriously.
I agree, a teacher doing what Lombardo was accused of doing would probably not be the subject of a sexy film these days. Certainly not one with a threesome, nor so much nudity of “teen girls” in a mainstream, big release like this.
Without giving too much away, the film is fast-paced, beautifully filmed, and worth a watch. We are not by any means talking cinematic masterpiece, it’s definitely a fun way to spend an afternoon.
Zedd and I have a rule that if we add a film to the collection that has a theatrical and an extended (director’s, unrated, etc.) edition, that we watch the theatrical cut first. So we are looking forward to watching the “unrated” version later this summer, as this sure as heck feels like a hot, sultry, late summer film.
Meanwhile, after a Memorial Day weekend that included heat indexes of 116 degrees, Zedd and I will continue to Movie On through our own “hibernation period” here in South East Texas, from just about May to November, we really lean on our movie collection as it becomes entirely inhospitable outside. Peel off the air, indeed!
(If you enjoyed this, or any of my recent reviews, come check us out at 500 Movies or Bust, we’d love to see ya!)
2024.05.29 03:21 ErinRF States of Being: Chapter 3
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Memory Transcript: Kinet, Venlil Surveyor Captain [Standardized Human Time July 5th, 2114]:
We had arrived in-system [four days] ago, and while I was expecting to see a world ravaged by nuclear exchange, the damage to the planet was beyond what I could have ever imagined. The surface was scorched, and the air filled with ash and soot from massive continent spanning fires that must have been burning for cycles. Despite all the destruction, our scans showed some signs of life trying to take hold on the surface, but not nearly as much as there should have been.
The humans had wiped themselves out over [150 years ] in the past; it shouldn’t look like it only happened only a herd of claws ago.
Fiir was of no use. When the first glimpses of the planet came in on the viewscreen, the scruffy researcher just stared with his jaw hanging loose before stammering about something being wrong. He stormed off to his quarters, and I haven’t seen him since then.
I sighed and walked onto the bridge with my waking claw cup of tea but was immediately assaulted by the chittering of an excited sivkit, our primary communications officer.
“Captain, captain, captain!”
“Hephy, yes, I’m right here. What is it?” I looked down towards her. She barely came up to my waist in her typical quadrupedal stance, and even doing her best to stand up, she wouldn’t be able to look me in the eye. Despite her stature, her excitement demanded attention as her eyes flicked between myself and whatever data she had scrolling across her display visor.
“Right Right. Anyway, Captain, I have to show you something, it’s big.” Most people don’t pay sivkits much mind, but Hephy was a prodigy. The excitable woman could look at a waterfall plot and pick out every signal present, and even read some of them without any computer assistance. I motioned for her to follow me to the ready room and started off toward it while sipping my tea. She trotted behind me on all fours, as sivkits are wont to do, and when I sat in my chair, she hopped side to side in excitement. “The signals, when we arrived from the jump, I saw something fascinating!” “Hephy, stop bouncing and sit.” I gestured to the chair in front of my desk. She looked at me for a moment as if I had grown a set of ears at the end of my snout. After a moment, her trance broke, and she hopped into the chair. She sat on her haunches and pulled out her tablet.
“Ok so, when we jumped in, we got a ping of the area, right? Send a signal out, listen for the reply, and we see what’s out there that our eyes can’t. Standard stuff, sure, but look.” She tapped at her tablet and expanded a multidimensional spectrum plot. “The bright spots are reports, and it’s all around. Debris right? That’s what I thought but look closer!” I leaned in and looked at the impressionistic splotches of color shown on the holographic display. The blues, yellows, and oranges spattered amongst the dark gray and black of night and other known objects was appealing to the eye, but ultimately gave me little idea what Hephy was trying to communicate with me. She must have picked up on my lack of insight, because she sighed and tapped the display again. “Normally, you see the pulse pattern return and that’s pretty distinct, but this is different. Odd. I thought it was just micro-debris but if you spread it out over time there’s a pattern to it, a structure in the phase relationships that doesn’t match reflections or our interrogation pulses.” “Hephy, you know I rarely ever understand you at this level.” “Right sorry right. Captain, this isn’t the return pulse, they’re data transmissions. Multiple data transmissions all at once.”
My ears perked up, and I tilted my head to the side a bit. “How can you be sure? What would even be out there to send them?”
“I wasn’t sure myself until I looked later on in the data buffers. Almost a claw later there was another longer burst. The automated systems ignored it due to interpreting it as just more micro-debris, but it had that structure-but-not-structure, perfectly shaped noise. I also had nav and sensors run another few active pings at different frequencies, trying to rule out silly patterns seeking brain nonsense. Nothing returned. The debris cloud doesn’t exist!”
“So what does this mean for us?”
“I don’t know, but it's fascinating! They must be satellites of some kind, either too small to reflect much or made to absorb radio waves.”
“That’s worrisome. There’s only one reason you’d build something like that.”
“Weaponry?” She chirped with surprising insight I had not expected to come from her. She had never been in the space force like I, and many others, had.
“Defense platforms, yes.” I took a sip of my rapidly cooling tea to try and soothe the anxious pit growing in my stomach.
“That’s…concerning.” Her excitement waned for a moment but quickly slipped back.
“Very, thank you for bringing this to my attention, Hephy.”
“As if I could keep quiet about something like this!” She snorted with a chittering laugh. “Oh! Wait there’s one more thing. There was another signal in a higher band that sounded off around the same time as the other burst, this time from a different orbit, way further out. I traced it to an artificial satellite.”
Suddenly, a thought hit me. These things were actively communicating with something. Was there something still left on the surface?
“Hephy, do you know where those signals were going?”
“Normally the antenna is too directional for anyone but the recipient to see it or it’s hard to get a read on directionality, but I know where everything is communicating to. The middle of the smaller main ocean.”
“Hephy, that’s an incredibly important bit of information!”
“It is? Oh yeah right, that makes sense!” She wiggles her tail in an amused flicking motion.
I stood up and patted her on the shoulder. “Get us close to that artificial satellite and see what it is. I’d like to get a better idea of what we’ve just stumbled into. Report back when you have some answers and we will go from there.”
Hephy bobbed her ears and hopped off the seat. “On it, sir. Where are you going?” “I’m going to talk to Fiir. This is beyond the original mission, and he needs to know.” “Ay captain. Good luck. Guy’s a weirdo.” I simply grunted and strolled down to the auxiliary quarters where I knew the researcher to be.
>Advance record: [10 Minutes]:
Fiir had brought an entire team of researchers with him. I was told they’re all colleagues of his from the research academy that are interested in this personal project of his. This many people on board with his project did explain how he was able to offer the exorbitant sum of credits to hire me and my crew. They had been allocated a section of the ship near the front, just past the shuttle bay and under the bridge area. This let them have their privacy and set up whatever gear they brought with them.
It also meant that there was a door between them and the rest of the ship. A door that they did not hesitate to keep closed after pre-launch inspections had concluded. The researchers didn’t have anything I didn’t expect from the manifest, but I still found it rather suspicious. Were they hiding something? Perhaps it had to do with that odd power hungry computer they insisted upon. Mara had her ears tied in a knot trying to accommodate it, and still they were coy about why exactly they needed it. It didn’t do me any good to speculate, though. What mattered most was the problem of the satellites.
I finally reached the door and, being the polite man I am, I scratched at the sounding plate before grabbing the handle and trying to open it. To my surprise, it didn’t budge. I could understand locking doors to the personal quarters, but this was a main corridor in my own ship! Just as I reached over to key in the unlock code, the door made a thunk as the latch disengaged and slid open part of the way. A familiar gray fringed brown muzzle stuck out from the gap. “This is a restrict- Oh. Captain.” Fiir opened the door a little more and stood up facing me. “What is it?”
I blinked at his rather blunt question. “I just came to inform you that we’ve discovered some worrying details about the nature of the-” “The artificial satellites are not of any concern to us.” He cut me off before I could finish.
“We think they might be-”
He glanced back behind the door for a moment, his tail thrashed in agitation. “It doesn’t matter. Have you prepared the landing party yet?” My jaw tightened as my frustration with his rudeness grew. I couldn’t get much of a word in, but I needed any answers. “They’re set to depart in two claws, but with those unknown satellites, I can’t be sure of their safety! I saw you on the bridge when we arrived, you were expecting something different. As the captain of this ship, I need to know if there’s a threat to-”
“Captain.” Fiir’s gaze grew intense as he leaned in. I may have had almost a head of height on the wizened farsul, but in that moment, he felt as if he was towering over me. “I suggest you stick to the responsibilities I hired you for, Captain Kinet. There are things that you are not privy to, nor will you be made privy to in the foreseeable future. Continue with the survey as per our agreement, and you’ll get your credits. Do not bother me until the away team is en route. Good paw, Captain.” He closed and locked the door without even waiting for my response.
I just stood at the door for a long while, a feeling of anger and indignation boiling in my chest. I had only ever had cordial contact with the researcher up until now; this abrupt shift in his demeanor was unsettling, to say the least. How dare he talk down to me like that on my own ship! I sighed and took a deep breath, holding it for a moment before letting it out. Slow and controlled. Letting the tension and anger flow out with my breath.
Inhale. Hold. Release.
Inhale. Hold. Release.
After a few cycles, the burning anger was reduced to a smoldering cinder. As much as I had wanted to headbutt Fiir, it wasn’t worth risking the contract for. I turned and walked back to the bridge to prepare for the away mission. Without Fiir’s info, I needed to make sure contingencies were in place for any possible threat to the away team. The lives of my crew are paramount, even if the contract was very, very lucrative. All that aside, the planning would keep my mind away from thoughts of my rude client.
>Advance record: [Standardized Human Time July 6th, 2114]:
I woke up after my rest paw feeling groggy and unrested. The confrontation with Fiir kept playing in my mind all night, despite the claws of planning for the away mission. To say his standoffish behavior left knots in my wool would be an understatement. I wiped my snout with my paws, flicking the crust from my eyes before getting up out of bed.
I grabbed my favorite mug and fixed myself my morning cup of tea. Pulling the dried leaves and stems from the canister, I could feel my mouth water in anticipation. I had been told by many who possessed the strange appendage called a nose that the tea leaves had a strong earthy and floral scent. I often wondered what that meant. Venlil didn’t have noses, but we did have a sense of taste, which is apparently quite similar. I often wondered what it might be like to smell. Do we really miss out on so much without being able to smell?
We had to soak our foods and tea in water before we could taste it with our tongues, and even then, it’s not nearly as sensitive, which is probably why other species consider venlil cuisine to be overseasoned and overpowering.
Another reason why the stereotype of venlil being weak is nonsense, in my opinion. How strong can you be if you can’t handle a little spice?
The timer went off, chirping to tell me my tea was ready. I sifted out the leaves and brought the invigorating elixir to my lips. The hot fluid warmed me to my core and burned away the waking lyasi silk from my groggy mind.
I needed to catch up with Hephy and Mara; they should have brought in that satellite-
My thoughts were interrupted by the chiming of my pad. I picked it up and answered the call to see Hephy’s face almost filling the screen, with Mara looking over her shoulder.
“Oh good you’re awake! Captain, you must see this! It’s amazing! The satellite, it’s full of brains!”
What the speh!?
Been a hot minute, I hadn't forgotten about this. As always, comments are coveted and appreciated. What do you all think about Fiir's behavior? What do y'all think of Hephy?
Thanks to u/SpacePaladin15 for creating this setting and fostering such a delightfully passionate community! Thanks again to u/coldfireknight , Novalux, and the Foxmates for editing and helping me get this done!
Soma belongs to Frictional Games.
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Memory Transcript: Kinet, Venlil Surveyor Captain [Standardized Human Time July 5th, 2114]:
We had arrived in-system [four days] ago, and while I was expecting to see a world ravaged by nuclear exchange, the damage to the planet was beyond what I could have ever imagined. The surface was scorched, and the air filled with ash and soot from massive continent spanning fires that must have been burning for cycles. Despite all the destruction, our scans showed some signs of life trying to take hold on the surface, but not nearly as much as there should have been.
The humans had wiped themselves out over [150 years ] in the past; it shouldn’t look like it only happened only a herd of claws ago.
Fiir was of no use. When the first glimpses of the planet came in on the viewscreen, the scruffy researcher just stared with his jaw hanging loose before stammering about something being wrong. He stormed off to his quarters, and I haven’t seen him since then.
I sighed and walked onto the bridge with my waking claw cup of tea but was immediately assaulted by the chittering of an excited sivkit, our primary communications officer.
“Captain, captain, captain!”
“Hephy, yes, I’m right here. What is it?” I looked down towards her. She barely came up to my waist in her typical quadrupedal stance, and even doing her best to stand up, she wouldn’t be able to look me in the eye. Despite her stature, her excitement demanded attention as her eyes flicked between myself and whatever data she had scrolling across her display visor.
“Right Right. Anyway, Captain, I have to show you something, it’s big.” Most people don’t pay sivkits much mind, but Hephy was a prodigy. The excitable woman could look at a waterfall plot and pick out every signal present, and even read some of them without any computer assistance. I motioned for her to follow me to the ready room and started off toward it while sipping my tea. She trotted behind me on all fours, as sivkits are wont to do, and when I sat in my chair, she hopped side to side in excitement. “The signals, when we arrived from the jump, I saw something fascinating!” “Hephy, stop bouncing and sit.” I gestured to the chair in front of my desk. She looked at me for a moment as if I had grown a set of ears at the end of my snout. After a moment, her trance broke, and she hopped into the chair. She sat on her haunches and pulled out her tablet.
“Ok so, when we jumped in, we got a ping of the area, right? Send a signal out, listen for the reply, and we see what’s out there that our eyes can’t. Standard stuff, sure, but look.” She tapped at her tablet and expanded a multidimensional spectrum plot. “The bright spots are reports, and it’s all around. Debris right? That’s what I thought but look closer!” I leaned in and looked at the impressionistic splotches of color shown on the holographic display. The blues, yellows, and oranges spattered amongst the dark gray and black of night and other known objects was appealing to the eye, but ultimately gave me little idea what Hephy was trying to communicate with me. She must have picked up on my lack of insight, because she sighed and tapped the display again. “Normally, you see the pulse pattern return and that’s pretty distinct, but this is different. Odd. I thought it was just micro-debris but if you spread it out over time there’s a pattern to it, a structure in the phase relationships that doesn’t match reflections or our interrogation pulses.” “Hephy, you know I rarely ever understand you at this level.” “Right sorry right. Captain, this isn’t the return pulse, they’re data transmissions. Multiple data transmissions all at once.”
My ears perked up, and I tilted my head to the side a bit. “How can you be sure? What would even be out there to send them?”
“I wasn’t sure myself until I looked later on in the data buffers. Almost a claw later there was another longer burst. The automated systems ignored it due to interpreting it as just more micro-debris, but it had that structure-but-not-structure, perfectly shaped noise. I also had nav and sensors run another few active pings at different frequencies, trying to rule out silly patterns seeking brain nonsense. Nothing returned. The debris cloud doesn’t exist!”
“So what does this mean for us?”
“I don’t know, but it's fascinating! They must be satellites of some kind, either too small to reflect much or made to absorb radio waves.”
“That’s worrisome. There’s only one reason you’d build something like that.”
“Weaponry?” She chirped with surprising insight I had not expected to come from her. She had never been in the space force like I, and many others, had.
“Defense platforms, yes.” I took a sip of my rapidly cooling tea to try and soothe the anxious pit growing in my stomach.
“That’s…concerning.” Her excitement waned for a moment but quickly slipped back.
“Very, thank you for bringing this to my attention, Hephy.”
“As if I could keep quiet about something like this!” She snorted with a chittering laugh. “Oh! Wait there’s one more thing. There was another signal in a higher band that sounded off around the same time as the other burst, this time from a different orbit, way further out. I traced it to an artificial satellite.”
Suddenly, a thought hit me. These things were actively communicating with something. Was there something still left on the surface?
“Hephy, do you know where those signals were going?”
“Normally the antenna is too directional for anyone but the recipient to see it or it’s hard to get a read on directionality, but I know where everything is communicating to. The middle of the smaller main ocean.”
“Hephy, that’s an incredibly important bit of information!”
“It is? Oh yeah right, that makes sense!” She wiggles her tail in an amused flicking motion.
I stood up and patted her on the shoulder. “Get us close to that artificial satellite and see what it is. I’d like to get a better idea of what we’ve just stumbled into. Report back when you have some answers and we will go from there.”
Hephy bobbed her ears and hopped off the seat. “On it, sir. Where are you going?” “I’m going to talk to Fiir. This is beyond the original mission, and he needs to know.” “Ay captain. Good luck. Guy’s a weirdo.” I simply grunted and strolled down to the auxiliary quarters where I knew the researcher to be.
>Advance record: [10 Minutes]:
Fiir had brought an entire team of researchers with him. I was told they’re all colleagues of his from the research academy that are interested in this personal project of his. This many people on board with his project did explain how he was able to offer the exorbitant sum of credits to hire me and my crew. They had been allocated a section of the ship near the front, just past the shuttle bay and under the bridge area. This let them have their privacy and set up whatever gear they brought with them.
It also meant that there was a door between them and the rest of the ship. A door that they did not hesitate to keep closed after pre-launch inspections had concluded. The researchers didn’t have anything I didn’t expect from the manifest, but I still found it rather suspicious. Were they hiding something? Perhaps it had to do with that odd power hungry computer they insisted upon. Mara had her ears tied in a knot trying to accommodate it, and still they were coy about why exactly they needed it. It didn’t do me any good to speculate, though. What mattered most was the problem of the satellites.
I finally reached the door and, being the polite man I am, I scratched at the sounding plate before grabbing the handle and trying to open it. To my surprise, it didn’t budge. I could understand locking doors to the personal quarters, but this was a main corridor in my own ship! Just as I reached over to key in the unlock code, the door made a thunk as the latch disengaged and slid open part of the way. A familiar gray fringed brown muzzle stuck out from the gap. “This is a restrict- Oh. Captain.” Fiir opened the door a little more and stood up facing me. “What is it?”
I blinked at his rather blunt question. “I just came to inform you that we’ve discovered some worrying details about the nature of the-” “The artificial satellites are not of any concern to us.” He cut me off before I could finish.
“We think they might be-”
He glanced back behind the door for a moment, his tail thrashed in agitation. “It doesn’t matter. Have you prepared the landing party yet?” My jaw tightened as my frustration with his rudeness grew. I couldn’t get much of a word in, but I needed any answers. “They’re set to depart in two claws, but with those unknown satellites, I can’t be sure of their safety! I saw you on the bridge when we arrived, you were expecting something different. As the captain of this ship, I need to know if there’s a threat to-”
“Captain.” Fiir’s gaze grew intense as he leaned in. I may have had almost a head of height on the wizened farsul, but in that moment, he felt as if he was towering over me. “I suggest you stick to the responsibilities I hired you for, Captain Kinet. There are things that you are not privy to, nor will you be made privy to in the foreseeable future. Continue with the survey as per our agreement, and you’ll get your credits. Do not bother me until the away team is en route. Good paw, Captain.” He closed and locked the door without even waiting for my response.
I just stood at the door for a long while, a feeling of anger and indignation boiling in my chest. I had only ever had cordial contact with the researcher up until now; this abrupt shift in his demeanor was unsettling, to say the least. How dare he talk down to me like that on my own ship! I sighed and took a deep breath, holding it for a moment before letting it out. Slow and controlled. Letting the tension and anger flow out with my breath.
Inhale. Hold. Release.
Inhale. Hold. Release.
After a few cycles, the burning anger was reduced to a smoldering cinder. As much as I had wanted to headbutt Fiir, it wasn’t worth risking the contract for. I turned and walked back to the bridge to prepare for the away mission. Without Fiir’s info, I needed to make sure contingencies were in place for any possible threat to the away team. The lives of my crew are paramount, even if the contract was very, very lucrative. All that aside, the planning would keep my mind away from thoughts of my rude client.
>Advance record: [Standardized Human Time July 6th, 2114]:
I woke up after my rest paw feeling groggy and unrested. The confrontation with Fiir kept playing in my mind all night, despite the claws of planning for the away mission. To say his standoffish behavior left knots in my wool would be an understatement. I wiped my snout with my paws, flicking the crust from my eyes before getting up out of bed.
I grabbed my favorite mug and fixed myself my morning cup of tea. Pulling the dried leaves and stems from the canister, I could feel my mouth water in anticipation. I had been told by many who possessed the strange appendage called a nose that the tea leaves had a strong earthy and floral scent. I often wondered what that meant. Venlil didn’t have noses, but we did have a sense of taste, which is apparently quite similar. I often wondered what it might be like to smell. Do we really miss out on so much without being able to smell?
We had to soak our foods and tea in water before we could taste it with our tongues, and even then, it’s not nearly as sensitive, which is probably why other species consider venlil cuisine to be overseasoned and overpowering.
Another reason why the stereotype of venlil being weak is nonsense, in my opinion. How strong can you be if you can’t handle a little spice?
The timer went off, chirping to tell me my tea was ready. I sifted out the leaves and brought the invigorating elixir to my lips. The hot fluid warmed me to my core and burned away the waking lyasi silk from my groggy mind.
I needed to catch up with Hephy and Mara; they should have brought in that satellite-
My thoughts were interrupted by the chiming of my pad. I picked it up and answered the call to see Hephy’s face almost filling the screen, with Mara looking over her shoulder.
“Oh good you’re awake! Captain, you must see this! It’s amazing! The satellite, it’s full of brains!”
What the speh!?
Been a hot minute, I hadn't forgotten about this. As always, comments are coveted and appreciated. What do you all think about Fiir's behavior? What do y'all think of Hephy?
Thanks to u/SpacePaladin15 for creating this setting and fostering such a delightfully passionate community! Thanks again to u/coldfireknight , Novalux, and the Foxmates for editing and helping me get this done!
Soma belongs to Frictional Games.
2024.05.29 03:20 That_Car_Dude_Aus Anyone else with ADHD hate arbitrary goalposts that actually don't matter?
Pretty much the title, I'm sure we've all experienced this before.
Could be because the next stage requires training, or external certification or assessment, or theydon't actually want to promote on merit because performance targets are not actually the metric they are focusing on.
Anyone else find this? I am well aware that I am Neurospicy and I'm surrounded by a bunch of Normies.
Just frustrates me when the goalposts aren't even moved, it's like, you reach them and it becomes "ok, stand there behind the finish line so we can all cross together"
Feels like it kind of takes away the reward of working hard. Feels like the system is designed to reward mediocrity.
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"To get to [X] Level in the Role as expected of you, you have to pass Goalposts [Æ, Ç, and Ē] expected timeframe is 3-6 months with sign offs from manager"So you diligently look up what's needed, focus on those areas, make sure it's not to the detriment of your other duties, you meet the mark, as expected, with 3 months, as they set as the target, your manager is stoked, you're smashing your goals out in the team, they sign you off, pass it up the chain and it becomes:
So we actually expected you to match with your Cohort, and they are still 3-4 months away from meeting the benchmark, and although the position is ready now, you are the only candidate to meet the benchmark in this timeframe. No, we do not have any further Performance metrics we require you to meet at this time.So you end up sitting there, for months, waiting for your "peers" to catch up.
Could be because the next stage requires training, or external certification or assessment, or they
Anyone else find this? I am well aware that I am Neurospicy and I'm surrounded by a bunch of Normies.
Just frustrates me when the goalposts aren't even moved, it's like, you reach them and it becomes "ok, stand there behind the finish line so we can all cross together"
Feels like it kind of takes away the reward of working hard. Feels like the system is designed to reward mediocrity.
2024.05.29 03:20 AJ_9297 Ubisoft Strikes Again. S2 is just a rinse and repeat of S1.
New world boss, new weapons, new armor, new ship (yes, singular.. ship)
New UI style looks good, new Helm management is pretty decent and just the right depth. that is all they managed to get right.
meanwhile, they nerfed your weapons from the previous season, added new weapons - which they promote as some new awesome thing yet they demand you change your playstyle in order to use them - and they are actually no better than the weapons you had before, but since they nerfed your previous weapons, you're forced to adapt or suffer.
They also removed critical items from your warehousing without compensating you for it in silvesub-mats. (Pamphor, Shellac, Casting sand, etc)... items you now need in order to refine them for critical upgrade mats for your ships... you got all these upgrade parts and no mats to use em. I had over 100 of the aforementioned mats before the season release... now it's all gone. Ya know, if you're going to screw me, at least buy me dinner first.
They do this in every "seasonal" game they produce - such as Division 2, Rainbow 6 Siege. Nerf last seasons gear, roll out new gear that is somehow worse but they promote it to be awesome, and you grind the entire season away just to get these new things just in time for the next season (unless you bypass the grind with a season pass you buy every 3 months) at which point they nerf your shit again and roll out new nonsense that's not even worth the grind anymore for us working class people.
It's slimy, scammy, and outright schemed to make you pay money on a regular basis to be able to actually ENJOY the game outside of earning real world money to take care of your real world responsibilities.
In the end, in less than 6 months since i bought this game, it's gone from "maybe they'll get it right this time" to "yep, they fucked it up once again." Not because of the gameplay, bugs, or crashes... but simply because of how they manage their title and roll out shoddy, rinsed-and-reused mechanics/content. I thought I'd learned from how they managed Div 2, but apparently not. But the lesson is now learned. Ubisoft is nothing more than a greedy company with little to no imagination beyond what their bank accounts gain in a month.
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New UI style looks good, new Helm management is pretty decent and just the right depth. that is all they managed to get right.
meanwhile, they nerfed your weapons from the previous season, added new weapons - which they promote as some new awesome thing yet they demand you change your playstyle in order to use them - and they are actually no better than the weapons you had before, but since they nerfed your previous weapons, you're forced to adapt or suffer.
They also removed critical items from your warehousing without compensating you for it in silvesub-mats. (Pamphor, Shellac, Casting sand, etc)... items you now need in order to refine them for critical upgrade mats for your ships... you got all these upgrade parts and no mats to use em. I had over 100 of the aforementioned mats before the season release... now it's all gone. Ya know, if you're going to screw me, at least buy me dinner first.
They do this in every "seasonal" game they produce - such as Division 2, Rainbow 6 Siege. Nerf last seasons gear, roll out new gear that is somehow worse but they promote it to be awesome, and you grind the entire season away just to get these new things just in time for the next season (unless you bypass the grind with a season pass you buy every 3 months) at which point they nerf your shit again and roll out new nonsense that's not even worth the grind anymore for us working class people.
It's slimy, scammy, and outright schemed to make you pay money on a regular basis to be able to actually ENJOY the game outside of earning real world money to take care of your real world responsibilities.
In the end, in less than 6 months since i bought this game, it's gone from "maybe they'll get it right this time" to "yep, they fucked it up once again." Not because of the gameplay, bugs, or crashes... but simply because of how they manage their title and roll out shoddy, rinsed-and-reused mechanics/content. I thought I'd learned from how they managed Div 2, but apparently not. But the lesson is now learned. Ubisoft is nothing more than a greedy company with little to no imagination beyond what their bank accounts gain in a month.
2024.05.29 03:20 threetreet0wn Relationship advice
 | I asked for relationship advice submitted by threetreet0wn to Tarotpractices [link] [comments] The partner and I are currently going through a rough patch. We've been together for almost 3 years and 6 months ago, we decided to move in together. Things were difficult at first, but we got couples counseling and worked it out. Now we're working through attachment styles that reflect how we do/don't communicate and all the inner core wind and triggers that come with that and emotions have been high. We're currently on a no contact distanced break from each other and I asked my tarot deck (the moonchild tarot - beautiful deck!) for some relationship advice. I got the knight of wands, nine of wands, 2 of swords and ten of cups. Knight of wands: adventure, quest, daring. I was wondering if I should've broken things off because I was frustrated that I couldn't provide and this was a pivotal time where I step up my game and do the work and see where this goes or I just give up, not face my shortcomings and pack up and leave. I think this card is telling me to give it my all. Nine of wands: defiance. This card is telling me that I have what it takes to make this a success story. That I have everything in me to make it, to be a better, more healthy and secure version of the person I am currently. I am resilient and strong, my perseverance and inner strength is strong Two of swords: choices, crossroads. The two choices are obvious. Which path do I take? I need to plan thoroughly and acknowledge the situation head on. Don't freeze or numb out. Ten of cups: fulfillment, peace, happy ever after Happiness, all cups Are filled too the brim! Sounds like tarot is telling me to put in the work and not shy away from what's in front of me. |
2024.05.29 03:19 Minimum_Reality_667 Should I Save Myself Financially and Move Back Home?
Some general and very hard life advice is needed for me right now. Using a throwaway because people I know IRL follow my main. Using this sub because I feel like I know the answer, and this is a stupid question to ask.
Anyways, this is kind of a long post. Thank you for reading and engaging if you do. It means the world to me.
I (21F) moved away from my “home state” (wasn’t born but grew up there) about 3 years ago for college in a very populated and growing state. I was offered a decent scholarship and I was desperate to escape my tumultuous home life for something new, so I did it. However, as soon as I got there I realized not only is it very expensive to live here, but it’s also ridiculously expensive for out of state tuition.
This ended up with my single mother having to take out a parent loan for me as well as me taking out a pretty hefty loan for my freshman year. On top of this I had to work full time from the jump to pay off extra expenses. My dad isn’t in the picture financially so I basically had myself after this, as my mom couldn’t provide any more support (not that I felt entitled to that at all).
My sophomore year was better, but I still had to take a semester off to work full time to afford rent and groceries. So now I’m behind, in more debt, and can barely be granted the loans I would need in the future.
I’m presently in my junior year. I took only three classes in the fall due to costs, and one in the spring. Now I’m taking one this summer that I can’t afford (again, tuition rates). This is at a community college so I’m not sure where I’d find cheaper rates. There are online “global universities” but those don’t transfer in at my university. In any case, I’ll be graduating at least a year late due to costs and time.
So now I’m stuck. For the past month or so I’ve been comparing tuition rates and residency reqs for my home state, and out of state tuition back there is about half than it is in my current state. Further, since I have a high school diploma from that state, it sort of “fast tracks” me for in state status, so I have to wait only a semester or two. But, I do live with my S/O here and we are very close. His family has been very supportive of me emotionally and somewhat financially. I’d feel horrible just up and leaving. Besides that though, all my friends are leaving now or will leave in the next year due to them graduating, where as I will be here for a lot longer.
So, I’m not sure what to do. I can stay and accrue massive amounts of debt, or leave and be more free but screw over people I love, and potentially be very sad or even traumatized from all the change. What should I do?
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Anyways, this is kind of a long post. Thank you for reading and engaging if you do. It means the world to me.
I (21F) moved away from my “home state” (wasn’t born but grew up there) about 3 years ago for college in a very populated and growing state. I was offered a decent scholarship and I was desperate to escape my tumultuous home life for something new, so I did it. However, as soon as I got there I realized not only is it very expensive to live here, but it’s also ridiculously expensive for out of state tuition.
This ended up with my single mother having to take out a parent loan for me as well as me taking out a pretty hefty loan for my freshman year. On top of this I had to work full time from the jump to pay off extra expenses. My dad isn’t in the picture financially so I basically had myself after this, as my mom couldn’t provide any more support (not that I felt entitled to that at all).
My sophomore year was better, but I still had to take a semester off to work full time to afford rent and groceries. So now I’m behind, in more debt, and can barely be granted the loans I would need in the future.
I’m presently in my junior year. I took only three classes in the fall due to costs, and one in the spring. Now I’m taking one this summer that I can’t afford (again, tuition rates). This is at a community college so I’m not sure where I’d find cheaper rates. There are online “global universities” but those don’t transfer in at my university. In any case, I’ll be graduating at least a year late due to costs and time.
So now I’m stuck. For the past month or so I’ve been comparing tuition rates and residency reqs for my home state, and out of state tuition back there is about half than it is in my current state. Further, since I have a high school diploma from that state, it sort of “fast tracks” me for in state status, so I have to wait only a semester or two. But, I do live with my S/O here and we are very close. His family has been very supportive of me emotionally and somewhat financially. I’d feel horrible just up and leaving. Besides that though, all my friends are leaving now or will leave in the next year due to them graduating, where as I will be here for a lot longer.
So, I’m not sure what to do. I can stay and accrue massive amounts of debt, or leave and be more free but screw over people I love, and potentially be very sad or even traumatized from all the change. What should I do?
2024.05.29 03:19 CocaineTwink Boomhauer Stopped from Smashing Car Windows, Threatens Me Over It
The post about “this man is kidnapping a child” reminded me of this, because he wanted to be the big hero and got denied. It would’ve been late summeearly fall of 2016, because my twins were just a couple of months old.
I nearly had a boomer smash in my car windows because my ex had run into Walmart and left me and my infant twins in the car (which was running with AC on). The kids are finally sleeping. I’m sitting there, playing on my Gameboy. Some old man walks up, starts hollering at his wife to record because there’s babies alone in a car and he’s gonna free them, blah blah blah dumb parents leaving kids in hot cars to die. Again, running with AC on, and he never once checked the front to see if any adults were in the car.
I flew up out of the driver’s seat and told him to back the fuck away before the cops hauled him away for vandalism and child endangerment, ‘cause a couple babies don’t need glass raining on them. He called me a bitch, presumably because I ruined his big hero moment, and started in on leaving kids in hot cars and threatening me over it. Paraphrasing because the twins will be 8 soon and my memory blows, but I basically said “bro, are you too fucking stupid to realize the AC is running and the car is on with an adult in it?” He spewed some more BS and threatened to call the cops on me. For what, sitting in my car that I legally own with kids that have my name on their birth certificates and enjoying AC in a vehicle for the first time in my life? Told him go ahead, but made sure he knew my dash cam picked up audio. (For reference, my state is single party consent, so cops couldn’t have done a thing about the fact that I record everything.)
I probably took it too far when I sarcastically apologized to his wife that I wasn’t in the mood for violence that day. Paraphrasing again, but vibe was “Telling your boss some rando absolutely annihilated your brain dead husband would’ve definitely scored you a few days off work.” My ex came out around then, and boy was she pissed at me for waking up the twins. 😅
On the way home, she had my back after getting the full story and called Boomhauer some interesting names.
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I nearly had a boomer smash in my car windows because my ex had run into Walmart and left me and my infant twins in the car (which was running with AC on). The kids are finally sleeping. I’m sitting there, playing on my Gameboy. Some old man walks up, starts hollering at his wife to record because there’s babies alone in a car and he’s gonna free them, blah blah blah dumb parents leaving kids in hot cars to die. Again, running with AC on, and he never once checked the front to see if any adults were in the car.
I flew up out of the driver’s seat and told him to back the fuck away before the cops hauled him away for vandalism and child endangerment, ‘cause a couple babies don’t need glass raining on them. He called me a bitch, presumably because I ruined his big hero moment, and started in on leaving kids in hot cars and threatening me over it. Paraphrasing because the twins will be 8 soon and my memory blows, but I basically said “bro, are you too fucking stupid to realize the AC is running and the car is on with an adult in it?” He spewed some more BS and threatened to call the cops on me. For what, sitting in my car that I legally own with kids that have my name on their birth certificates and enjoying AC in a vehicle for the first time in my life? Told him go ahead, but made sure he knew my dash cam picked up audio. (For reference, my state is single party consent, so cops couldn’t have done a thing about the fact that I record everything.)
I probably took it too far when I sarcastically apologized to his wife that I wasn’t in the mood for violence that day. Paraphrasing again, but vibe was “Telling your boss some rando absolutely annihilated your brain dead husband would’ve definitely scored you a few days off work.” My ex came out around then, and boy was she pissed at me for waking up the twins. 😅
On the way home, she had my back after getting the full story and called Boomhauer some interesting names.
2024.05.29 03:19 PianoIndividual2879 Seeking Advice on Renting Out Our Basement: Renovation Costs and Legal Concerns
Good evening, dear community!
My wife and I are considering renting out our two-bedroom basement. We live in a bungalow with a spacious basement featuring high ceilings, located two hours from Toronto. Since it's just the two of us, we don’t need all that space. However, our basement currently lacks a separate entrance and some features aren't up to code. For instance, there aren't smoke detectors in every bedroom, and our furnace doesn't have a sensor to shut it off in case of smoke.
To make it rental-ready, we need to undertake major renovations, estimated to cost around 50,000 CAD. Here’s the breakdown:
Once renovated, the basement will be a compliant, separate apartment with two large bedrooms, a new kitchen, and a separate entrance. We plan to rent it out for 1,400-1,900 CAD per month, either by room or as a whole unit.
However, I’m concerned about potential tenant issues, such as those who might stop paying rent and take a year to evict. I learned that having roommates instead of tenants makes eviction easier if problems arise. To classify them as roommates, I need to share a kitchen or bathroom with them. Our basement has a large utility room housing the water heater, electrical box, and furnace. This room is big enough for a bed, desk, and chair, so I could theoretically use it as my "bedroom."
I have several questions:
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My wife and I are considering renting out our two-bedroom basement. We live in a bungalow with a spacious basement featuring high ceilings, located two hours from Toronto. Since it's just the two of us, we don’t need all that space. However, our basement currently lacks a separate entrance and some features aren't up to code. For instance, there aren't smoke detectors in every bedroom, and our furnace doesn't have a sensor to shut it off in case of smoke.
To make it rental-ready, we need to undertake major renovations, estimated to cost around 50,000 CAD. Here’s the breakdown:
- Architectural drawings: 4,000 CAD
- Separate entrance: 15,000 CAD
- Electrical and fire upgrades: 10,000 CAD
- Kitchen (10ft): 5,000 CAD
- Kitchen appliances: 4,000 CAD
- WasheDryer: 3,000 CAD
- Drywall, patching, new door, and paint for adding another bedroom: 4,000 CAD
- Unexpected expenses: 5,000 CAD
Once renovated, the basement will be a compliant, separate apartment with two large bedrooms, a new kitchen, and a separate entrance. We plan to rent it out for 1,400-1,900 CAD per month, either by room or as a whole unit.
However, I’m concerned about potential tenant issues, such as those who might stop paying rent and take a year to evict. I learned that having roommates instead of tenants makes eviction easier if problems arise. To classify them as roommates, I need to share a kitchen or bathroom with them. Our basement has a large utility room housing the water heater, electrical box, and furnace. This room is big enough for a bed, desk, and chair, so I could theoretically use it as my "bedroom."
I have several questions:
- Am I breaking any laws by living in a utility room without a window, given that I am the property owner? (The rented rooms will be code-compliant.)
- Can my tenants be considered roommates in this case?
- What do you think of our plan overall? Are we aiming for something unrealistic?
2024.05.29 03:18 DissedFunction The William Gude Diatribe a/g ZE part 2
 | This is a written transcription from a video. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_fRbLZN1pQA It features William Gude and Jessica Palmadessa, two of the most popular Los angeles YouTube Scientology protest/content creators. submitted by DissedFunction to protestingScientology [link] [comments] general timestamps are provided. 6:12 William: Do you even have a job? How you pay your bills?He was hoping Youtube would do it.I don’t think it’s going to happen now.I’m going to make sure your little f*cking,...you know I would have like helped him grow his channel.Jessica: You WERE helping him!William: I was! I was like, oh, he’s going to get up with a million, talking it up, man listen—we end that.Create a whole new, create a whole new f*cking Youtube Zach,It’s done. 6:12:16 William: ..and all because WeinLA (Ever) paid no interest in you. She did not want you . She wanted Eric. She liked Eric. Eric has talent. He plays guitar. He’s a real journalist. He’s written in Daily dot, he’s written in Rolling Stone—a real journalist. Real. He’s (referring to Zachary) like “I’m doing journalism and Scientology—no one reads it” NO ONE reads it. No one. I would never read that. And I’m like don’t read the whole thing, I’m telling you no one’s read the first paragraph, no one. That’s you Zach.Whatever drugs you were on this morning boy when you sober up your going to come off of it.. Jessica: he was on something this morning… William: .…Zach’s been on drugs. Why do you think he’s been acting like that? That first night when he went out to the Fig and sh*t, he was on drugs. You’re a ..you’re a f*cking junkie. Junkie Zach. Zach the junkie! Get off the drugs! Riding around, like who rides around like “Oh I’m a ..look look how f*cking cool I am” (garbled feed) 6:13:33 William: …always hear a lighter sparking cuz he’s always f*cking smoking crap or meth or whatever, I don’t think that’s weed. I think that sh*t is ____like geeking out. Jessica: I told you, I told you, I told the whole chat I said it was a bad idea to go against Will. William: I’ll never stop. (Agreeing with Jessica). Jessica: I said it from the beginning. I said it not because of Will or not because of me, because the chat was going to destroy you (referring to Zach) and that’s what happened. 6:14:02 William: Oh Zach. Zach Zach Zach… So when Zach comes live again (talking and giving directions to Jessica’s chat room) go on in there and troll his sh*t.Make him shut down his chat. Let him know that he’s a f*cking weirdo for being out on Fig. What investigative journalism is being done? What is he doing? He’s filming from a distance…jerking off. That’s what he’s doing. No one, he doesn’t want anybody else in the car with him, no one’s ever in a car…people have offered to come with him, no he’s got to film with his left hand and jerk off with his right hand.Zach (said with Will pointing to the camera). Zachary! He’s not in the chat but he’s watching. Jessica: for some reason it really upset him that I was waiting for you. I was like I thought you liked WeinLa, whatever. (Suggesting that maybe Zach has a crush on Jessica?) 6:15:02 William: (mocking Zach) “But nobody did anything when I was doxed.” (Referring to when Zachary was swatted at Gelsons) No, first off you’re sitting right next to the f*cking person’s car spy stalking her (referring to Koster?) That’s STALKING! (Jessica nodding strongly). No one does that! I told EVERYBODY stay the F*ck away from her car.But no, I’m going to for some reason you got to sit there four cars away and “oh I broke a story”..NO ONE cares! It means nothing. You got to sit there next time you know what his next investigative reporting, he’s going to do it from …he’s going to be hiding in the trunk of her car! —he’s going to be in the trunk of her car.—and yeah I’ surprised that when the cops came and check your car —they didn’t find a rape kit. I just figured they’d find bungee cords, zip ties, knives, ropes all that sh*t. Your Fig gear. That’s what you pack up when you take it out to Fig. We gonna to have to check and see if Zach —we need to see if there’s any missing people. ‘Cuz Zach might have bodies in his f*cking house. Jessica: Got to make sure WeinLA is okay!! (Laughing). William: Is WeinLA okay? Let’s check. I need to know! (slight pause). go to your pool with your f*cking mammories hanging to your knees. Zach’s got tits that hang to his knees!!! He can tie them tits in a knot! OH my God, who’s going to milk them! Who’s milking Zach like a f*cking cow (said making a milking motion) With those tits and he’s hanging around the pool —everybody laughs at you Zach. You look like sh*t.I’m not in the best shape you know what I’m not going to do? I’m not going to go on live in a pool like that and he’s thinking he’s “oh I’m some sexy …” you’re a WEIRDO! Everybody laughs at you. You know what happens when you go in there? (Talking about livestreams from the pool). I get screenshots like look at this guy. They laugh at you.Your neighbors laugh at you! They’re probably wondering what the f*ck is he doing in that pool? Setting up a camera while he’s in a pool. Who does that?You know who does it? Zachary Ellison—the biggest weirdo in LA. My god. 6:17:02 William:You had to run your mouth, huh?Was it worth it? (Mocking) Let’s see what you do oh then we’re going to hear about “oh man I got to get out of here it’s unsafe, it’s unsafe, Streets is out here,” that’s right. I’m going to protest you. And I’m going to come to Fig and I’m gong to find you on Fig —I’m going to tell everybody you got this f*cking weirdo over here watching you, watch out for that guy he may be a serial killer. Jessica: (driving and reading the chat) He’s in the chat? William: F*ck him! F*ck you Zach! Run your mouth against me? I’m gong to f*cking ruin you. and you know it. Bitch ass. You know what I’m going to do, I’m going to go onto Twitter later I’ going to go on Instagram on it I’m going to post videos about you with your tits hanging to your f*cking knees. 6:18:04 William:Your saggy ass titties.You think anybody, you think WeinLA (Ever) is going to look at that video and be like “oh well that looks nice” NO ONE! No one. Maybe a bull will…maybe a bull…right cuz they like you know they like them (starts making a milking a cow gesture again) Then I’m gonna f*cking when you come out there to La Poubelle I’m gonna milk you you right in front. I’m gonna get a little container together and we’re gonna get some Zach milk. We’re gonna milk your titties. Jessica: That’s hot. William: gonna have colostrum and all that sh*t. When you come to La Poubelle I’m going to get you a special bra. Special bra but for those little funnels you got. My God, run your mouth. 6:19:01 William: Zach, you can’t be me. I know you want to.“No I’m not trying to be Streets.” He literally got to have the same —he went and bought the exact same RayBans, same color, everything. And a black hoodie. Like why were you wearing hoodies? You were wearing that f*cking —you had that coat that I see little kids wear—in a winter in Wisconsin and it was like of all colors let’s make it like puke yellow. Jessica:there’s going to be a press conference tonight. William: Oh, press conference Zach. I’m going to crash your press conference. I’m going to come find you, you go live, Zach goes lives, I’m going to show up. You better do live for me at some-I’ll show up there too. Jessica: I don’t think he’s going to show his face again to be honest. Zach all you had to do was not try and you know…(voice trailing off) William: (interrupting) get off the drugs Zach. He should at least blame it on drugs. If you weren’t on drugs then.. Jessica: (interrupting) that’s what everyone, my mom (Jessica’s mom is reportedly a paid moderator in her chats) was like “Zach, just say you were hacked, that’s all you got to do is say that you were hacked but he was standing by it, he kept coming back “I’m the only one that broke the story about Francois” 6:20:13 William: No one cares about that like literally no one cares. No one. You know what matters Zach? That we shut down f*cking Scientology in LA. You had nothing to do with that. You had nothing to do with that. They don’t recruit anymore. You had nothing to do with that Zach. Nothing. You just came with your thing putting the camera in everybody’s face with your weird f*cking smile. Jessica: (reading chat and responding) Is WeinLA okay? I don’t know, you have to check Zach’s trunk (laughing) but I think she should be fine. William: You going to pop sh*t while I’m jail. you should never have said a damn thing. 6:21:00 William: I’m not even pissed off at the cops anymore, I’m focused on Zach you bitch. Jessica: you can’t be pissed so it’s just funny the downfall of himself. William: Yeah, he started feeling himself, no one’s paid Zach any attention. Ever. Like literally. Like I said, and all a sudden he starts getting a little attention on, he’s got 2-3000 followers and subscribers on YouTube.. Jessica: I don’t think he does anymore. Think that dropped a bit. William: F*ck him. That’s what he gets. Of all the people, of all the people you want to run your mouth against …boy... 6:22:00 William: He that I what did I do to get arrested, what did I do stand there filming from a distance and I deserve it? Jessica: first off he thought you were going to be held for 48 hours he was starving— William: —Zach you don’t know sh*t! What the hell do you know, listen I’m gonna tell everybody in the chat, right…Zach does not know what he’s talking about ever. Ever. We just laugh at him. I hope you guys are on with the joke.I think most of you are. Right? But no one takes him seriously. The guy know sh*t but he doesn’t know anything. Jessica: ah so he wasn’t held for 48 hours, I don’t know if you noticed.. William: You want to know why? Zach? Because they said, oh you’re a journalist we verified you’re a journalist.. Zach, if you got arrested, no one would have..are they going to be like you’re a substack —they’re going to go looking for your ..it’s. a substack. It’s a f*cking blog. It’s just a longform Twitter post. That’s all it is. Jessica: he said there’s only been like 3 journalists that’ve ever covered Scientology. I’m like first off, I consider Solomon a journalist… 6:23:01 William: yeah, everybody’s covered Scientology way better than you have Zach, what the f*ck do you know? Oh god. Jessica: you don’t get like a certificate that says journalist. William: the guy sits at La Poubelle, at a distance Jessica: smoking up a blunt William: or something. I mean maybe the blunt got something in it. Jessica: It’s got to. It’s been ever since he demanded WeInLA to go home from that ice cream shop. That’s something— William: —She didn’t want to go home. She wanted to hang out with Eric cuz he’s a cool guy to hang around. And he’s actually you know a good-looking guy unlike you. (Talking to Zach)Unlike you Zach, unlike you, you’re not a good looking guy.Zach, you’re f*cking UGLY! 6:24:00 William: You were pissed off you were f*cking had your little panties in a bunch because she (Ever) was getting attention, she was giving him attention and you weren’t getting it. So I’m going back and I’m going to cock block you guys, got to get out of here. Eric comes to these protests, Eric comes to these protests every day these protests are going on when sh*t is going off he’s not a p*ssy like you Zach. His little piece of sh*t Civic jerking off. That’s what he does. Smoking (garbled) William: How you doing Zach? It’s never going to end. You know damn well. Somebody gets in a fight with me it never ends. 6:25:00 Jessica: and last thing, it’s not dangerous at La Poubelle. That’s not why I— William: (interrupting) —La Poubelle is not dangerous. It’s freaks like you. That’s why people stop going to La Poubelle. Freaks like you Zach. That’s why it had nothing to do with danger, no one’s scared of La Poubelle, literally no one is scared, no one wants to be around a freak show like you Zach. I can’t believe you don’t you haven’t figured that out. Haven’t you noticed when you come walking up at La Poubelle people walk away from you? When I see you filming you come walking over you start talking about “oh it’s unsafe out here” everybody walks away from you like “what the f*ck are you talking about?” They clown you. Everybody laughs about, laughs about you. You started feeling yourself and taking yourself too seriously you going we had to sit there and bring you back to reality—you ain’t sh*t. Jessica: and it’s not groundbreaking that you filmed the guy in the parking lot it was or her talking to the cheeseburger guy or whatever, it was not groundbreaking. It was just creepy. Please stop filming females in a car because if I was her I would get a restraining order. 6:26:01 William: Yeah I mean she’s probably going to get, I can see her working — Jessica: I will be her (Koster, owner of La Poubelle) witness! I will be her witness! William: I can see her trying to get a restraining order cuz this guy is stalking her car at 1:00 in the morning. Who am I do defend Francois but I’ve told EVERYBODY, I’ve told everybody I’m like man this is weird, get the f*ck away from her car. It makes everybody look bad. Zach, you make everybody look bad doing that weird sh*t. It’s embarrassing. So nobody wants to be around you cuz when your restraining order coming and it’s going to be a legit one —nobody wants to be tied up with them. NO ONE. Can’t believe you run your mouth like that.Who the f*ck do you think you are? Jessica: He’s been winding up for this though. William: oh yeah. Zach’s going to go to Twitter like, I’ll film the police you know we’re going to cancel him, nobody listens to you Zach. You’re muted by everybody. Even people that follow you out of a courtesy they then mute you, no one —that’s why no one replies to your tweets. No one. The only people that reply to your Tweet are people who follow you on some of the Scientology stuff —other than that, no one. If I catch you replying to them, I’m going to block your ass. Unless it’s..juicy .I’m going to start a new channel, auditing Zach. The Zach audit. What are you going to do Zach? Zach, if everybody out here scares you, boy, everything’s dangerous. Jessica starts mumbling something William: Zach’s a bitch. Zach’s a bitch. Zach gets nothing done. No one and I mean no one in LA will doubt who’s like top not even not just activist but journalist you ask journalist —they’re not saying you Zach. I promise you.Nobody know who you are. No other journalists knows who you are. No one. F*CK YOU ZACH. Jessica: (smiling at Streets) you’re funny as shit. (Looking to camera) You guys enjoy the show? https://preview.redd.it/mnoor7kpo93d1.jpg?width=1810&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=8aab6796c7f9cd192b3d1fe4294f1d687c8d31fe |
2024.05.29 03:18 MrsLadyZedd Wild Things (1998)
MLZ MAP (Score): 78.47 / Zedd MAP (Score): 69.10 / Score Gap: 9.37
We purchased this limited edition 4k on Arrow some time ago and finally brought it out this Memorial Day weekend.
While I know we had seen it a loooong time ago, probably a Blockbuster rental, because I am a huge Neve Campbell fan and have been since Party of Five. It did not really ring too much of a bell as we started to watch.
Roger Ebert described this film as “lurid trash”…”a softcore sex film, a soap opera and a B-grade noir” and he’s not wrong. The setting was absolutely gorgeous. When we first saw the film I had not been to Florida, nor had I put in my 14 years of living in South East Texas, where you can peel the summer air off starting in May all the way through November. The line between the haves and the have-nots is not one you cross, not back in 1998, and not now.
Kelly Van Ryan has everything she could ever want. Suzie Toller is a delinquent. They both go to school where the guidance counselor, handsome and young Sam Lambardo, works. They get into a bit of a mess, the three of them, and what exactly happened, and why it happened, remains unclear.
Detective Ray Duquette and his partner, Gloria Perez investigate the situation and try to figure out who did what to whom. The story twists, turns, and goes so many directions that by the end, you are still wondering if something else will end up coming to light.
The acting was not great, especially on the parts of the supporting cast. It was alternatively soap-opera over dramatic to as wooden as a puppet.
Filmed at Ransom Everglades High School in Coconut Grove, Miami, due to the school's architecture and scenic setting. The film also captured the natural splendor in Bill Baggs Cape Florida State Park in Key Biscayne and Oleta River State Park. The clarity and color that comes through in the 4k makes it worth the cost of the limited edition, for sure.
Zedd and I discussed the film and he noted that it was clear that the actors obviously knew what they were filming was a bit of a cinematic joke, but that they approached it with a lightness and sense of humor that is difficult to find these days, no one was taking themselves too seriously.
I agree, a teacher doing what Lombardo was accused of doing would probably not be the subject of a sexy film these days. Certainly not one with a threesome, nor so much nudity of “teen girls” in a mainstream, big release like this.
Without giving too much away, the film is fast-paced, beautifully filmed, and worth a watch. We are not by any means talking cinematic masterpiece, it’s definitely a fun way to spend an afternoon.
Zedd and I have a rule that if we add a film to the collection that has a theatrical and an extended (director’s, unrated, etc.) edition, that we watch the theatrical cut first. So we are looking forward to watching the “unrated” version later this summer, as this sure as heck feels like a hot, sultry, late summer film.
Meanwhile, after a Memorial Day weekend that included heat indexes of 116 degrees, Zedd and I will continue to Movie On through our own “hibernation period” here in South East Texas, from just about May to November, we really lean on our movie collection as it becomes entirely inhospitable outside. Peel off the air, indeed!
(If you enjoyed this, or any of my recent reviews, come check us out at 500 Movies or Bust, we’d love to see ya!)
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We purchased this limited edition 4k on Arrow some time ago and finally brought it out this Memorial Day weekend.
While I know we had seen it a loooong time ago, probably a Blockbuster rental, because I am a huge Neve Campbell fan and have been since Party of Five. It did not really ring too much of a bell as we started to watch.
Roger Ebert described this film as “lurid trash”…”a softcore sex film, a soap opera and a B-grade noir” and he’s not wrong. The setting was absolutely gorgeous. When we first saw the film I had not been to Florida, nor had I put in my 14 years of living in South East Texas, where you can peel the summer air off starting in May all the way through November. The line between the haves and the have-nots is not one you cross, not back in 1998, and not now.
Kelly Van Ryan has everything she could ever want. Suzie Toller is a delinquent. They both go to school where the guidance counselor, handsome and young Sam Lambardo, works. They get into a bit of a mess, the three of them, and what exactly happened, and why it happened, remains unclear.
Detective Ray Duquette and his partner, Gloria Perez investigate the situation and try to figure out who did what to whom. The story twists, turns, and goes so many directions that by the end, you are still wondering if something else will end up coming to light.
The acting was not great, especially on the parts of the supporting cast. It was alternatively soap-opera over dramatic to as wooden as a puppet.
Filmed at Ransom Everglades High School in Coconut Grove, Miami, due to the school's architecture and scenic setting. The film also captured the natural splendor in Bill Baggs Cape Florida State Park in Key Biscayne and Oleta River State Park. The clarity and color that comes through in the 4k makes it worth the cost of the limited edition, for sure.
Zedd and I discussed the film and he noted that it was clear that the actors obviously knew what they were filming was a bit of a cinematic joke, but that they approached it with a lightness and sense of humor that is difficult to find these days, no one was taking themselves too seriously.
I agree, a teacher doing what Lombardo was accused of doing would probably not be the subject of a sexy film these days. Certainly not one with a threesome, nor so much nudity of “teen girls” in a mainstream, big release like this.
Without giving too much away, the film is fast-paced, beautifully filmed, and worth a watch. We are not by any means talking cinematic masterpiece, it’s definitely a fun way to spend an afternoon.
Zedd and I have a rule that if we add a film to the collection that has a theatrical and an extended (director’s, unrated, etc.) edition, that we watch the theatrical cut first. So we are looking forward to watching the “unrated” version later this summer, as this sure as heck feels like a hot, sultry, late summer film.
Meanwhile, after a Memorial Day weekend that included heat indexes of 116 degrees, Zedd and I will continue to Movie On through our own “hibernation period” here in South East Texas, from just about May to November, we really lean on our movie collection as it becomes entirely inhospitable outside. Peel off the air, indeed!
(If you enjoyed this, or any of my recent reviews, come check us out at 500 Movies or Bust, we’d love to see ya!)
2024.05.29 03:17 BikerJedi Rounded out year 20 today. Holy shit.
(Long one. Sorry. TL;DR; I fucking love teaching and hate my salary for it.)
It's wild to me to say that. Over 20 years, starting 21, of teaching finished up today. That's just wild to me. Why?
Well, I'm Generation X. I grew up in an era where people had a multi-decade career or two and then retired. Having a thousand jobs like me was unheard of back then. My full resume is five pages.
I had my heart set on 20+ years in the Army before I got hurt and medically discharged. I loved that shit (Embrace the Suck!) and would have done it forever if they let me. Then I worked a series of part time and full time jobs. Security. Bar tending. Door to door sales. Yard supervisor for a roofing company. I hustled darts. Bouncer and doorman (and regular) at a strip club. Security again. Some day labor, which I didn't last long at. Worked as a cashier at an "Adult" toy and DVD/VHS store. (That was a wild job) At least ten other jobs I can't remember. During this entire time, I never made more than $20,000 a year.
Eventually, I made my way into college through a VA Vocational Rehabilitation program for disabled veterans. Although the VA provided a monthly stipend and my wife was working at Western Forge and I had a (VERY fucking small) VA disability check, I still had to work a few hours a week. So during my four years in college (a bit less actually) I worked a lot of jobs, some for weeks, others for a year or more. Some where half time, some where 3/4 time, but I was always full time in school. Together, we did a bit over $40,000.
Help desk. Lab monitor in college. More help desk. Internship in IT at an airline. More help desk. More IT. More consulting and contracting. Tier I support at an internet provider, who supported PC, Macintosh and LINUX (no one else could do that. Lol. Sorry, I was good and I like to brag a bit.) Eventually I graduated. I asked for a raise and promotion at the internet provider, and they denied it, so I gave my two weeks. I had put in over a year and was GOOD at it. I deserved it, so I would look elsewhere if they couldn't give it to me. I wanted to be a network engineer.
But I also had root access to everything, so I was escorted out 15 minutes later and paid two weeks severance. On to other jobs then.
In this order starting at $55,000: Technician on the NASDAQ stock market network upgrade for MCI/Worldcom (where I got fired after I 400 others got fired after they realized they could save more money paying out lawsuits, but not our shitstain boss who got promoted) to a cutting edge VoIP company that went out of business (just like Silicon Valley from HBO) to Ryder Logistics as a Project Manager making $100,000 a year.
Six figures. One of the last private companies in America to still offer a 20 year pension. Even as a contractor, AMAZING salary and benefits. All of my hard work had paid off. The Cisco certification I worked so hard for had paid off. My networking skills that got me the interview for this job paid off. I had MADE IT. I had so much money I didn't know what to do with it given our modest lifestyle. I was going to be with Ryder Logistics forever.
Then in 2000, the "tech market" took a MASSIVE dump. Hundreds of thousands of highly paid, highly certified and educated folks like myself were laid off. I was DAYS, just fucking days, away from being brought on permanently and taken of contractor status. Yay. I knew of a guy with a PhD who was stocking shelves at 7-11. So I'm out there competing with guys and gals with more education and experience, even though I had a great resume. And I couldn't find a damn thing even approaching half my former salary. Guys like me were a dime a dozen now, the vultures could afford to be picky.
I survived and provided for my wife and son by working a shit ton of various jobs. I would get up at 0200 and deliver newspapers and finish around 0600. Then I could home, shower, change and eat. Head into my first shift at work teaching at a college. Go home, nap, go back for night classes. Deliver pizza after work. Picked up consulting jobs on the weekends. Four jobs to support a wife and keep us from living in the woods - her grandmother took us in, but we were still "homeless" in that we had no place of our besides her basement. Eventually I saved enough to move us to Florida and buy a house, where I started teaching high school.
We lost it all. I managed to sell our house for a modest profit days before the bank took it and we were homeless. I had to sell my beloved (and rare) Harley 1992 Dyna FXDC. Eventually, I missed a mortgage payment, and things snowballed. The only thing we kept in the bankruptcy was our SUV, and only because I could barely make the payments on it.
I had to start over at $28,000 as a teacher. After over 20 years, I'm up over $55,000 now. My VA disability check is a lot bigger now. I'm grateful for where I am. But it is wild to me that I make so little after 20 years. I'm literally making the same (on paper) salary now as I did over 20 years ago, and I'm providing more value to society now than then.
Hell, it's wild to me that I did one thing for over 20 years. I know I've focused on money here, but yeah - twenty fucking years doing one thing.
ALL THAT TO SAY (sorry, I'm "lubricated" tonight) that I have never held a single job for more than two years other than my four years (a bit less actually) in the Army. Ever. And today I finished 20+ years. I'm going to be dean this summer for summer school. I'm interviewing for dean (WISH ME LUCK!) full time next year in a few days. I'm excited. I have a lot of great ideas about how to make our campus even more peaceful. I haven't interviewed for a job in a forever since I've been teaching (other than lateral transfers) so I'm a bit nervous. But I believe by boss is in my corner and I have a good shot. I hope so, because I WANT this.
I don't know what else to say. I love teaching. I love these kids, even the assholes. I want to do this for a while, even as I want to retire and take it easy with the old lady. But they keep sucking me back in. Lol. (Who gets that reference?) But I've said it before, without free, public education, our society will regress badly. One very proven way you make sure that a quality free, public education is provided is to pay teachers a good salary.
20 years. Holy shit. And even if I don't get dean, I'm teaching all 6th grade next year. That makes the year INCREDIBLY easy for me. The subject matter is easy, the kids are young and easy to engage and teach. And even though they are regular ed, I'll be teaching them the Advanced curriculum just like I have done for years with my 8th graders. They can do it, you just have to push them.
And I'll be all chill about it until another dean slot opens. The other guy is close to retirement so I'll have another shot soon.
I love you all. The editor started the process on my book this weekend he says, so hopefully I'll have revisions to make soon. Thanks for being here.
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It's wild to me to say that. Over 20 years, starting 21, of teaching finished up today. That's just wild to me. Why?
Well, I'm Generation X. I grew up in an era where people had a multi-decade career or two and then retired. Having a thousand jobs like me was unheard of back then. My full resume is five pages.
I had my heart set on 20+ years in the Army before I got hurt and medically discharged. I loved that shit (Embrace the Suck!) and would have done it forever if they let me. Then I worked a series of part time and full time jobs. Security. Bar tending. Door to door sales. Yard supervisor for a roofing company. I hustled darts. Bouncer and doorman (and regular) at a strip club. Security again. Some day labor, which I didn't last long at. Worked as a cashier at an "Adult" toy and DVD/VHS store. (That was a wild job) At least ten other jobs I can't remember. During this entire time, I never made more than $20,000 a year.
Eventually, I made my way into college through a VA Vocational Rehabilitation program for disabled veterans. Although the VA provided a monthly stipend and my wife was working at Western Forge and I had a (VERY fucking small) VA disability check, I still had to work a few hours a week. So during my four years in college (a bit less actually) I worked a lot of jobs, some for weeks, others for a year or more. Some where half time, some where 3/4 time, but I was always full time in school. Together, we did a bit over $40,000.
Help desk. Lab monitor in college. More help desk. Internship in IT at an airline. More help desk. More IT. More consulting and contracting. Tier I support at an internet provider, who supported PC, Macintosh and LINUX (no one else could do that. Lol. Sorry, I was good and I like to brag a bit.) Eventually I graduated. I asked for a raise and promotion at the internet provider, and they denied it, so I gave my two weeks. I had put in over a year and was GOOD at it. I deserved it, so I would look elsewhere if they couldn't give it to me. I wanted to be a network engineer.
But I also had root access to everything, so I was escorted out 15 minutes later and paid two weeks severance. On to other jobs then.
In this order starting at $55,000: Technician on the NASDAQ stock market network upgrade for MCI/Worldcom (where I got fired after I 400 others got fired after they realized they could save more money paying out lawsuits, but not our shitstain boss who got promoted) to a cutting edge VoIP company that went out of business (just like Silicon Valley from HBO) to Ryder Logistics as a Project Manager making $100,000 a year.
Six figures. One of the last private companies in America to still offer a 20 year pension. Even as a contractor, AMAZING salary and benefits. All of my hard work had paid off. The Cisco certification I worked so hard for had paid off. My networking skills that got me the interview for this job paid off. I had MADE IT. I had so much money I didn't know what to do with it given our modest lifestyle. I was going to be with Ryder Logistics forever.
Then in 2000, the "tech market" took a MASSIVE dump. Hundreds of thousands of highly paid, highly certified and educated folks like myself were laid off. I was DAYS, just fucking days, away from being brought on permanently and taken of contractor status. Yay. I knew of a guy with a PhD who was stocking shelves at 7-11. So I'm out there competing with guys and gals with more education and experience, even though I had a great resume. And I couldn't find a damn thing even approaching half my former salary. Guys like me were a dime a dozen now, the vultures could afford to be picky.
I survived and provided for my wife and son by working a shit ton of various jobs. I would get up at 0200 and deliver newspapers and finish around 0600. Then I could home, shower, change and eat. Head into my first shift at work teaching at a college. Go home, nap, go back for night classes. Deliver pizza after work. Picked up consulting jobs on the weekends. Four jobs to support a wife and keep us from living in the woods - her grandmother took us in, but we were still "homeless" in that we had no place of our besides her basement. Eventually I saved enough to move us to Florida and buy a house, where I started teaching high school.
We lost it all. I managed to sell our house for a modest profit days before the bank took it and we were homeless. I had to sell my beloved (and rare) Harley 1992 Dyna FXDC. Eventually, I missed a mortgage payment, and things snowballed. The only thing we kept in the bankruptcy was our SUV, and only because I could barely make the payments on it.
I had to start over at $28,000 as a teacher. After over 20 years, I'm up over $55,000 now. My VA disability check is a lot bigger now. I'm grateful for where I am. But it is wild to me that I make so little after 20 years. I'm literally making the same (on paper) salary now as I did over 20 years ago, and I'm providing more value to society now than then.
Hell, it's wild to me that I did one thing for over 20 years. I know I've focused on money here, but yeah - twenty fucking years doing one thing.
ALL THAT TO SAY (sorry, I'm "lubricated" tonight) that I have never held a single job for more than two years other than my four years (a bit less actually) in the Army. Ever. And today I finished 20+ years. I'm going to be dean this summer for summer school. I'm interviewing for dean (WISH ME LUCK!) full time next year in a few days. I'm excited. I have a lot of great ideas about how to make our campus even more peaceful. I haven't interviewed for a job in a forever since I've been teaching (other than lateral transfers) so I'm a bit nervous. But I believe by boss is in my corner and I have a good shot. I hope so, because I WANT this.
I don't know what else to say. I love teaching. I love these kids, even the assholes. I want to do this for a while, even as I want to retire and take it easy with the old lady. But they keep sucking me back in. Lol. (Who gets that reference?) But I've said it before, without free, public education, our society will regress badly. One very proven way you make sure that a quality free, public education is provided is to pay teachers a good salary.
20 years. Holy shit. And even if I don't get dean, I'm teaching all 6th grade next year. That makes the year INCREDIBLY easy for me. The subject matter is easy, the kids are young and easy to engage and teach. And even though they are regular ed, I'll be teaching them the Advanced curriculum just like I have done for years with my 8th graders. They can do it, you just have to push them.
And I'll be all chill about it until another dean slot opens. The other guy is close to retirement so I'll have another shot soon.
I love you all. The editor started the process on my book this weekend he says, so hopefully I'll have revisions to make soon. Thanks for being here.
2024.05.29 03:17 AvocadoWeary7778 🚨🚨READ READ READ🚨🚨PLEASE READ IMPORTANT INFORMATION FOR ALL NEW APES, BEFORE THE BOTS ATTACK AS THEY ALWAYS DO MAKE SURE YOU HAVE A REAL UNDERSTANDING OF WHAT WE ARE TRYING TO DO AND THIS IS EXPLANATION IS A GREAT PLACE TO START !!! REMEMBER 🦍💎STRONG TOGETHER 🦍💎
‼️🚨‼️🚨‼️🚨EXPLANATION OF WHAT WE ARE TRYING TO DO HERE, THIS IS DUMBED DOWN TO EASY TERMS FOR EVERYONE EVEN PEOPLE WHO ARNT INTO STOCKS AND ARE HERE FOR FUN CAN UNDERSTAND TAKE 5 MINUTES THIS WEEKEND AND TRULY UNDERSTAND ALL OF THIS INFORMATION ‼️🚨‼️🚨‼️🚨 CREDIT: BIG BRAIN APE MAXIMUM PURPOSE
Please read this I copied and paste it from a super smart ape!!!!
Please read this I copied and paste it from a super smart ape!!!!
Alright lets get into it.
But before we do, I need to explain exactly what it means for a company to be "shorted" and as a response, be "short squeezed"
Ill explain in monkey speak first:
Imagine a store has a supply of 100 bananas for sale at 1.00 per banana.
Now, a certain animal (lets call this animal a bear) thinks that the cost per banana will drop from 1.00 dollar to 0.50 cents. They go to the store and they borrow 50 bananas promising to return them. The bear, now in debt to the store, sells those bananas at 1.00 each and collects 50 dollars. Then, the market price for a banana drops to 0.50, they go and buy back the 50 bananas (now at 0.50 cents) paying 25 dollars, then return them back to the person they bought them from. This relieves the bears from their debts and they pocket 25 dollars in the process.
This is the process of shorting a company. They will "Borrow" or "Short" a companies shares when they think it will drop. They sell those shares. The market price drops. Then they buy them back at a low price. Then return them to who they borrowed from and make some serious money.
Typically, this is done to companies who are not looking like they will have very much growth (i.e., GameStop in an increasingly electronic world. Or FFIE in a world where Chinese electric cars are being restricted from sales in the USA for foreign policy reasons.)
Now, a short squeeze happens when another animal (lets say a bull (or maybe an ape would actually be better)) decides that they don't really want the price of bananas to drop because they really really really really like bananas. So the ape goes to the store and buys all the available bananas as well as buying them from the bears. Now, since there's no more available, and bananas are in demand, the price rises up to 1.50, instead of dropping.
Now, the bears are in a dilemma. They need to return the bananas to the person they bought them from. If they don't, the person they borrowed from is going to start charging them late fees for every day that they don't return the bananas.
As you can imagine, the bears would be SUPER angry about this, and fight the apes tooth and nail to try to get them to sell. They will tell everyone (via the media) that the apes are bad. They will publish false information about the cost of bananas. They will try to borrow bananas from other people to make it seem like bananas arent worth anything.
BUT, if the apes hold onto their sweet, juicy bananas, then the bears cant get find any to buy even if they wanted to. So the apes eventually will say "I will give you my bananas back for a premium cost of 10 dollars. Now, the apes who bought all the bananas for 100 dollars will sell them back to get 1000 dollars instead.
Essentially, the apes can make the price whatever they want, because the bears are paying a late fee for every day that they don't return the original bananas. At some point, the late fee will become so expensive that they will pay whatever it takes to get the bananas back.
This is known as a short squeeze. And the apes can potentially make lots of money on those bananas.
Applying this to the market, if FFIE is being shorted, and you all decide you want to squeeze them. Then hold, your shares, the shorter will pay whatever it takes to get those shares returned.
Now, there are a few things that are required to make a short squeeze happen:
Lets see if FFIE has the requirements needed to begin a short squeeze:
Many have been screaming that the short interest of a company is only posted every 2 weeks. Which is absolutely true.
Others have been posting that the shorted volume of FFIE is at VERY high numbers. Which is also true.
For those that don't understand the market, the short interest and short volume are interchangable. That is why so many of you have been so confused.
Im here to tell you, THEY ARE NOT THE SAME.
There are very clear differences between the two numbers and their reliability, in terms of a squeeze is extremely different. Ill try to make it simple for you and put your questions and confusions to bed.
STRAP IN! THIS IS TOTALLY NOT GOING TO BE BORING!
Official definition online for short interest from the fintel website:
"collected by FINRA from brokers twice a month and distributed by the stock exchanges. So, twice a month all the brokedealers add up all the short positions held in all of their custodial accounts — that means yours, mine, and all the hedge funds — and send the totals to FINRA."
Yawn am I right?
Yeah that was literally ctrl. C then ctrl . V onto this text. Doesn't seem too intuitive does it.
What the heck does this mean? Ape speak please?
The short Interest is the number of shares shorted by all of the different hedge funds. It is a comprehensive list of all the numbers of the total number of short shares.
However, it only represents a snapshot in time. Typically, it is a snapshot in time from the day that it is required to be reported. The most recent numbers came on today (5/24).
In general, this number can be manipulated. Think of it like taking a picture. Because that number is based on a snapshot in time, and hedge funds know when the picture will be taken, they can hide the number of shorted shares during the picture, and then once the camera takes its picture, they go back to normal. It is a way that the bears can lie about the fact that they borrowed shares.
Official definition online for short VOLUME from the FINTEL website:
the accumulated trades published to the consolidated tape. Every trade that is made is published in real time to the tape. At the end of the trading day, every trading venue publishes their volume numbers, which includes both Short Volume and Total Volume.
Jesus. That was a difficult read. Are you still awake?
Okay again. Super easy to understand. Right? Right? Yeah not so much. I hate the technical terminology used but I guess I can explain.
The short VOLUME is is a more accurate measure of how a particular stock is being shorted. I think of it more like a video tape. It is a collection of all shorting trades made, and is posted every day. It is a lot of information to sort through, but the numbers speak VOLUMES to the efficiency of a possible squeeze (haha volume. Get it?)
In the end, if the VOLUME of shorted shares remains high, then the company is relying on the price of the stock to decline, or trying to hold out when a squeeze is happening in the hopes that the price of the shares drop again. This is the number we care about. This number is COMPREHENSIVE of all shorted stocks (including off-exchange/darkpool numbers and retail shorts)
DONT WORRY ILL EXPLAIN WHAT OFF EXCHANGE/DARK POOL IS LATER
Here is another explanation in terms a dumb ape would understand:
Okay so using the previous "APE vs BEAR banana in supermarket example"
Lets start where the Apes have purchased all the bananas and we think the bears have shorted banana sales.
So, lets imagine that the laws require that the Bears post publicly exactly how many bananas they borrowed from the lender. They are required to post this information every 2 weeks. They know they have to post soon. Therefore, to scare the apes into thinking they aren't actually squeezing, they take their picture of their borrowed bananas and post it. In the picture (since they had time to organize their efforts) it shows that they, in fact, didn't borrow any bananas. Now the apes would be panicked right? They have all these bananas for no reason. But a SMART ape would understand that they could use that photo to manipulate us. They obviously just quickly hid the fact that they borrowed bananas for the picture. The bears used the required "short interest picture" to scare you all into thinking your bananas were worthless, and encourage you to sell them.
Instead, its better to look at the security footage of the bears hiding their borrowed banana receipts. We'd be able to catch them red handed! Thus, we look at the "short volume" of bananas. The problem is, each bear individually posts their volume every day, and doesn't compile it in one clear video for us. Why would they? The more we know, the more we can charge for our bananas.
Plus, there are also dozens (if not hundreds) of bears all posting, accurate, but misleading, numbers. They make a united effort to throw as many confusing, and non-relevant videos into the mix to divert our attention.
This is EXACTLY what you have seen posted all week. Various people posting different volume numbers. And while each volume number they posted is accurate, they are only a partial truth.
FREE BANANA TO ANYONE WHO CAN TELL ME WHERE WE GET THE COMPILED, ACCUATE DATA.
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Well, with the report of the "snapshot" that is released every 2 weeks, we also get another bit of information. The total number of exchanged shorts "off exchange."
Are you still following? This is where it gets even more confusing.
With the report, FINTEL also publishes a number known as the "off exchange short volume"
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This number is the most accurate number to describe how many shares of a stock are currently being shorted. As we learned above, the "short interest" isn't reliable as the bears can hide their numbers during the picture.
However, at some point, some smart person (probably being super angry at how the bears could lie using short interest pictures) made a law that requires them disclose the number of currently exchanged "off market/dark pool" exchanges that were made.
An off market exchange is what happens when a bear decides to trade with another bear out of the public eye.
Why would they do this?
Back to our "ape speak" example
Okay so the bears know that they have their upcoming (2-week) picture that gets released. They want to make it seem like they don't have any owed bananas.
What do they do? How can they just lie for a picture?
The answer is in off market exchanges. You see, the bears found out that they can trade their shorts WITH EACHOTHER.
So for the picture, Mr. Black bear gives all his receipts to the polar bear. Then, when the Mr. Polar bear takes his photo, he gives them to Mr. Black bear (since he already took his photo).
These off market exchanges tend to SKYROCKET during a few times. One of which, is when hedge funds try to hide how much of an investment they have in their shorted shares.
So, over the next few days, we will see many people posting "OMG THEY ARENT EVEN SHORTING BECAUSE THE SHORT INTEREST IS DOWN FROM LAST POST"
Well, of course its lower. The last posted information, the hedge funds didn't know they would be squeezed. Therefore, they didn't feel the need to hide the short interest. Now, they need to hide it to scare you. So they create fear by lowering that number. But when that short interest number goes down, and off exchange goes up, it means they are still holding shorts, but just covering it up for their short interest reports.
Okay, so lets look at these numbers and see what it means for squeezers.
LONG STORY SHORT, THEY HAVE NOT NOT RETURNED THEIR SHORTS. They are simply trying to manipulate us into believing that they did.
In fact, they went from 36 million shorts UP to 64 million shorts (likely a bit less as this number includes transfers of shorts both ways).
But still, they have hope. Let's strip it away from them and make it KNOWN that they are manipulating. Time to HOLD and TIME TO BUY.
When you hold/buy shares, then the second requirement and third requirement for the squeeze are in our hands entirely.
Now, I know there's alot more to say, but I know people are waiting for my post so Im going to cut it short here. Ill make another post this weekend regarding the specific trading patterns we saw on the day-to-day that imply that the bears were trying to make us panic sell our shares.
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Good Luck everyone. DMs are open for questions and corrections that might be needed.
With love,
MP- guardian APE
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Please read this I copied and paste it from a super smart ape!!!!
Please read this I copied and paste it from a super smart ape!!!!
Alright lets get into it.
But before we do, I need to explain exactly what it means for a company to be "shorted" and as a response, be "short squeezed"
Ill explain in monkey speak first:
Imagine a store has a supply of 100 bananas for sale at 1.00 per banana.
Now, a certain animal (lets call this animal a bear) thinks that the cost per banana will drop from 1.00 dollar to 0.50 cents. They go to the store and they borrow 50 bananas promising to return them. The bear, now in debt to the store, sells those bananas at 1.00 each and collects 50 dollars. Then, the market price for a banana drops to 0.50, they go and buy back the 50 bananas (now at 0.50 cents) paying 25 dollars, then return them back to the person they bought them from. This relieves the bears from their debts and they pocket 25 dollars in the process.
This is the process of shorting a company. They will "Borrow" or "Short" a companies shares when they think it will drop. They sell those shares. The market price drops. Then they buy them back at a low price. Then return them to who they borrowed from and make some serious money.
Typically, this is done to companies who are not looking like they will have very much growth (i.e., GameStop in an increasingly electronic world. Or FFIE in a world where Chinese electric cars are being restricted from sales in the USA for foreign policy reasons.)
Now, a short squeeze happens when another animal (lets say a bull (or maybe an ape would actually be better)) decides that they don't really want the price of bananas to drop because they really really really really like bananas. So the ape goes to the store and buys all the available bananas as well as buying them from the bears. Now, since there's no more available, and bananas are in demand, the price rises up to 1.50, instead of dropping.
Now, the bears are in a dilemma. They need to return the bananas to the person they bought them from. If they don't, the person they borrowed from is going to start charging them late fees for every day that they don't return the bananas.
As you can imagine, the bears would be SUPER angry about this, and fight the apes tooth and nail to try to get them to sell. They will tell everyone (via the media) that the apes are bad. They will publish false information about the cost of bananas. They will try to borrow bananas from other people to make it seem like bananas arent worth anything.
BUT, if the apes hold onto their sweet, juicy bananas, then the bears cant get find any to buy even if they wanted to. So the apes eventually will say "I will give you my bananas back for a premium cost of 10 dollars. Now, the apes who bought all the bananas for 100 dollars will sell them back to get 1000 dollars instead.
Essentially, the apes can make the price whatever they want, because the bears are paying a late fee for every day that they don't return the original bananas. At some point, the late fee will become so expensive that they will pay whatever it takes to get the bananas back.
This is known as a short squeeze. And the apes can potentially make lots of money on those bananas.
Applying this to the market, if FFIE is being shorted, and you all decide you want to squeeze them. Then hold, your shares, the shorter will pay whatever it takes to get those shares returned.
Now, there are a few things that are required to make a short squeeze happen:
- There needs to be an entity (hedge funds) who shorted the stocks, betting the price would decline. Very simple to find out as it is public information.
- There needs to be an entity (You mad lads) who wants to make money off their shorts (this is a bit harder as y'all get scared of the fight back by them and sell out).
- Time investment to make the hedge funds sweat about losing money on the shares they borrowed.
Lets see if FFIE has the requirements needed to begin a short squeeze:
- The shorts. On April 30th, and in my Last Post , I showed an image that the company FFIE was absolutely being shorted. In fact, 98% of the total shares of the company were being shorted. So yes, FFIE met requirement number 1.
Many have been screaming that the short interest of a company is only posted every 2 weeks. Which is absolutely true.
Others have been posting that the shorted volume of FFIE is at VERY high numbers. Which is also true.
For those that don't understand the market, the short interest and short volume are interchangable. That is why so many of you have been so confused.
Im here to tell you, THEY ARE NOT THE SAME.
There are very clear differences between the two numbers and their reliability, in terms of a squeeze is extremely different. Ill try to make it simple for you and put your questions and confusions to bed.
STRAP IN! THIS IS TOTALLY NOT GOING TO BE BORING!
Official definition online for short interest from the fintel website:
"collected by FINRA from brokers twice a month and distributed by the stock exchanges. So, twice a month all the brokedealers add up all the short positions held in all of their custodial accounts — that means yours, mine, and all the hedge funds — and send the totals to FINRA."
Yawn am I right?
Yeah that was literally ctrl. C then ctrl . V onto this text. Doesn't seem too intuitive does it.
What the heck does this mean? Ape speak please?
The short Interest is the number of shares shorted by all of the different hedge funds. It is a comprehensive list of all the numbers of the total number of short shares.
However, it only represents a snapshot in time. Typically, it is a snapshot in time from the day that it is required to be reported. The most recent numbers came on today (5/24).
In general, this number can be manipulated. Think of it like taking a picture. Because that number is based on a snapshot in time, and hedge funds know when the picture will be taken, they can hide the number of shorted shares during the picture, and then once the camera takes its picture, they go back to normal. It is a way that the bears can lie about the fact that they borrowed shares.
Official definition online for short VOLUME from the FINTEL website:
the accumulated trades published to the consolidated tape. Every trade that is made is published in real time to the tape. At the end of the trading day, every trading venue publishes their volume numbers, which includes both Short Volume and Total Volume.
Jesus. That was a difficult read. Are you still awake?
Okay again. Super easy to understand. Right? Right? Yeah not so much. I hate the technical terminology used but I guess I can explain.
The short VOLUME is is a more accurate measure of how a particular stock is being shorted. I think of it more like a video tape. It is a collection of all shorting trades made, and is posted every day. It is a lot of information to sort through, but the numbers speak VOLUMES to the efficiency of a possible squeeze (haha volume. Get it?)
In the end, if the VOLUME of shorted shares remains high, then the company is relying on the price of the stock to decline, or trying to hold out when a squeeze is happening in the hopes that the price of the shares drop again. This is the number we care about. This number is COMPREHENSIVE of all shorted stocks (including off-exchange/darkpool numbers and retail shorts)
DONT WORRY ILL EXPLAIN WHAT OFF EXCHANGE/DARK POOL IS LATER
Here is another explanation in terms a dumb ape would understand:
Okay so using the previous "APE vs BEAR banana in supermarket example"
Lets start where the Apes have purchased all the bananas and we think the bears have shorted banana sales.
So, lets imagine that the laws require that the Bears post publicly exactly how many bananas they borrowed from the lender. They are required to post this information every 2 weeks. They know they have to post soon. Therefore, to scare the apes into thinking they aren't actually squeezing, they take their picture of their borrowed bananas and post it. In the picture (since they had time to organize their efforts) it shows that they, in fact, didn't borrow any bananas. Now the apes would be panicked right? They have all these bananas for no reason. But a SMART ape would understand that they could use that photo to manipulate us. They obviously just quickly hid the fact that they borrowed bananas for the picture. The bears used the required "short interest picture" to scare you all into thinking your bananas were worthless, and encourage you to sell them.
Instead, its better to look at the security footage of the bears hiding their borrowed banana receipts. We'd be able to catch them red handed! Thus, we look at the "short volume" of bananas. The problem is, each bear individually posts their volume every day, and doesn't compile it in one clear video for us. Why would they? The more we know, the more we can charge for our bananas.
Plus, there are also dozens (if not hundreds) of bears all posting, accurate, but misleading, numbers. They make a united effort to throw as many confusing, and non-relevant videos into the mix to divert our attention.
This is EXACTLY what you have seen posted all week. Various people posting different volume numbers. And while each volume number they posted is accurate, they are only a partial truth.
FREE BANANA TO ANYONE WHO CAN TELL ME WHERE WE GET THE COMPILED, ACCUATE DATA.
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Well, with the report of the "snapshot" that is released every 2 weeks, we also get another bit of information. The total number of exchanged shorts "off exchange."
Are you still following? This is where it gets even more confusing.
With the report, FINTEL also publishes a number known as the "off exchange short volume"
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This number is the most accurate number to describe how many shares of a stock are currently being shorted. As we learned above, the "short interest" isn't reliable as the bears can hide their numbers during the picture.
However, at some point, some smart person (probably being super angry at how the bears could lie using short interest pictures) made a law that requires them disclose the number of currently exchanged "off market/dark pool" exchanges that were made.
An off market exchange is what happens when a bear decides to trade with another bear out of the public eye.
Why would they do this?
Back to our "ape speak" example
Okay so the bears know that they have their upcoming (2-week) picture that gets released. They want to make it seem like they don't have any owed bananas.
What do they do? How can they just lie for a picture?
The answer is in off market exchanges. You see, the bears found out that they can trade their shorts WITH EACHOTHER.
So for the picture, Mr. Black bear gives all his receipts to the polar bear. Then, when the Mr. Polar bear takes his photo, he gives them to Mr. Black bear (since he already took his photo).
These off market exchanges tend to SKYROCKET during a few times. One of which, is when hedge funds try to hide how much of an investment they have in their shorted shares.
So, over the next few days, we will see many people posting "OMG THEY ARENT EVEN SHORTING BECAUSE THE SHORT INTEREST IS DOWN FROM LAST POST"
Well, of course its lower. The last posted information, the hedge funds didn't know they would be squeezed. Therefore, they didn't feel the need to hide the short interest. Now, they need to hide it to scare you. So they create fear by lowering that number. But when that short interest number goes down, and off exchange goes up, it means they are still holding shorts, but just covering it up for their short interest reports.
Okay, so lets look at these numbers and see what it means for squeezers.
LONG STORY SHORT, THEY HAVE NOT NOT RETURNED THEIR SHORTS. They are simply trying to manipulate us into believing that they did.
In fact, they went from 36 million shorts UP to 64 million shorts (likely a bit less as this number includes transfers of shorts both ways).
But still, they have hope. Let's strip it away from them and make it KNOWN that they are manipulating. Time to HOLD and TIME TO BUY.
When you hold/buy shares, then the second requirement and third requirement for the squeeze are in our hands entirely.
Now, I know there's alot more to say, but I know people are waiting for my post so Im going to cut it short here. Ill make another post this weekend regarding the specific trading patterns we saw on the day-to-day that imply that the bears were trying to make us panic sell our shares.
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Good Luck everyone. DMs are open for questions and corrections that might be needed.
With love,
MP- guardian APE
2024.05.29 03:17 luvcastles I need help m16
Been going threw depression for a little while, shifted to drinking to seeking attention until i got groomed, i got away from him in time but i ended up enjoying the gratification alot and end up failing to fullblown adults. No idea how to stop this because whenever i get in the mood i just feel like im not there until after, what can i do?
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2024.05.29 03:17 SmileJamaica23 Just venting in general About my Agoraphobia Anxiety disorders and possibly AVPD about how it Effects me mentally daily and some people just don’t understand this is a real problem for me how it effects me financially and emotionally and even interpersonally and sexually
Just Venting May 28th 2024 I Don't think People Will Ever Understand my Situation.
Which I understand.
Just Kinda Get Tired Of People Making Assumptions when they are not in my position
How is that possible to know I'm feeling on the inside of my body
GOD knows what I Feel.
Just Human Doesn't know
I have to realize some people just are negative
Doesn't mean they are bad people
But just means I can't Fully be around them
Nothing personal against them
Just some people Make some people feel worse
Not trying to separate but sometimes you have to deal with them at a distance
Because some people bring triggers
If I see people constantly gossiping about other people I don't know
Then I know I shouldn't Probably be around them
Because Gossiping is a trigger for me
If you gossiping about others
It's only going to be so long before I'm the topic to gossip about
If you are not doing it behind my back already.
Just People Be Trolling me on the Internet and social media
For I don't know how long
I'll say about 10 years
Just People Try To Tear you down or Expose me as they say
But I don't really have anything to expose?
Trying to tear me down and make me cry again.
Like I can't control people judgments
Like I be thinking people are out of their way trying to prove something isn't wrong with me
Because I heard this from some ignorant family members and people
That doesn't know how I'm feeling
I won't be surprised if they hacked my Cellphone 📱
Which Technically is Illegal to Stalk or Record people Without their Permission
Trying to find Dirt on me or something to tear me down
Because it's just negative people that don't believe my genuine feelings I have daily
It happened to my sister malware was on her phone from her ex
So it kinda made me scary or paranoid
Ask my immediate family members my brother my mom my sister which she didn't understand at first
But trying to understand
Even my stepdad the one that passed away he didn't quite understand
Until that last year in 2015 he talked to me in person
And realized this is something I really was struggling with
We made peace in 2015
Said To Me In His Bedroom " Now I understand "
Because some people thought I was seeking attention or something
But Me Seeking attention Since I was 5 years old
That's a very long time if I was seeking attention
Most attention seekers would be tired by them almost 30 years
Most attention seekers especially if they are not getting attention
Will not Keep seeking attention because they are not getting it.
Most people stop by then
I don't have friends I don't have a following
Like Some people on social media
I am not getting ad revenue
I'm not a social media influencer trying to Garner attention
Just a regular dude venting my life
I talk like this on camera which is exhausting
And off camera to my mom and to myself in my room
Thinking because I do talk to myself since I don't have friends
I don't answer my self
But speak aloud my thoughts and feelings to release tension and stress
So this just me venting on my life.
This something I been feeling Since I was like 5 years old
I kinda knew when I was 17 it was going to be even rough adulthood than childhood
Which I tried to kill myself in 2010 when I was on Gresham road
Which that Was behind the scenes at home
Only my brother and mother seen it
Just I kinda tried numerous jobs
From McDonald's to Goodwill to factories working upwards to 16 hours some days
Trying to push through but my body couldn't handle that
Like I was feeling "Flight or Fight" responses like I was Running From Being Shot at night
By My Dad in 2011
Still have nightmares about that it just doesn't go away
And more scenarios in my childhood as well I'm not going to disclose.
People don't understand I jump when I hear gunshots
I try to not look crazy around people
So I try to look normal
But every time I hear a gunshot or something my heart starts pumping
And I start feeling exhausted and sad
Like I can't control if someone shoots a gun or pops a firecracker
But I try to put on my noise cancelling headphones
Even certain songs I have to mute if I hear a gunshot sound
If I can catch it
Even movies I'm not familiar with
I try to mute sounds if a gunshot scene comes
If I can catch it
This really a big issue
But people don't see that when I have to mute my TV
They also don't see
When I have bad days
They probably don't see if I have good days
I try to get laughs in
Because laughter is natural medicine
To distract from the negative thoughts I have everyday
They don't see due to my meds
That have me very sleepy which I take at night.. but carries on to the next morning
Sometimes I wake up at 12 pm sometimes late as 5 pm
Seroquel just does that
Even I tried waking up early I end up going back to sleep
I literally have to take a pre workout supplement
Which has caffeine which makes my anxiety worse
Just to fight it the medicine
Like I workout it's the best medicine
Better than any Prescription drug I don't do recreational drugs
But it naturally gets rid of my anxiety while working out at home
Didn't work In a commercial gym.
Which this gym equipment saved my life
It really helps me
If I lose that I probably will kill myself
And I was at risk of Type 2 diabetes
And my blood work was off due to I couldn't work out since I didn't leave my house
And of Course mentally I got really depressed since I didn't have no coping mechanism
I be depressed Alot but working out helps me cope with the thoughts I have
And temporarily gets rid of my anxiety
But only last 1 hour post workout
And anxiety comes back
Some people think I'm on steroids
Which I think I'm small
But I can't keep a stable job
Plus steroids cost money
If I can barely afford food and amino acids
Which comes from protein and food
How can I afford steroids?
I never took a steroid
I don't even take creatine anymore
Because my kidneys
And I have health issues which my natural testosterone is ok
So I have no reason to take steroids and I'm not competing in bodybuilding shows
I'm not a YouTuber or social media influencer making $1000s or even 100,000$
Making money on the Internet so I don't have a reason to
Plus due to the medicine I take it effects my Kidneys
Like I hope my kidneys are ok
Because I love to workout and it really helps me
I probably would kill myself if I can't workout and build muscle anymore
I don't use steroids
Just men's vitamins and fish oil and beta alanine and protein and amino acids from protein
I eat 200 grams daily since I'm 235 right now
Just hope my kidneys get back normal
Because I take a lot of medicine
Might have to stop one of my medications
Because I take Prep Which is A HIV medicine
Because I'm so paranoid of Contracting HIV
But I Don't even have sex like that since I don't leave my house
But I just take prep because I be scared I'm going to get HIV for a Hypothetical reason
Which I know HIV medicines I don't have HIV
I understand if I had it
But I don't Have HIV I take Prep Which is a HIV Medicine to prevent Catching it
Which HIV meds is hard on the kidneys
But Weird Thing is I don't even have sex
I haven't had sex with a woman since 2022
I haven't been in a relationship since 2019
Which was my only relationship with a woman
Just I Do Have a Desire for sex like every other human being
But Masturbating is such a lonely experience
And sometimes gets depressing
And I jack off so much
That when I had real sex with a woman I couldn't orgasm
I never orgasm from Vaginal sex or oral or even anal
Which I don't like anal sex.
Just I only orgasm from my hands
And the few I can't count on 1 Hand those women would be upset
Because they thought I wasn't interested in them
Technically I am still a virgin because I never orgasm from sex
It makes me last long like hours
I think they called it "Delayed Ejaculation" opposite of "Premature Ejaculation"
But I never could Ejaculate no matter how tight or wet the woman was.
Only Orgasm with my Hand And Pornography
Which is frustrating because I didn't lose my virginity until I was 25 years old
Which due to my Agoraphobia and anxiety
And difficult time keeping a job and not having money
I didn't have many Women partners
And sometimes my agoraphobia and anxiety
Gives me erectile dysfunction issues
But people don't see that
They don't see how my disabilities effect my whole life
They don't see I don't go to clubs or malls or recreational events
If course I can't keep a job
Because most jobs want you to work atleast 4 hours
And I barely can do 1 hour
Before my body starts false flagging
Lightheaded and migraines I deal with
And dizziness and nausea and irritation in my bowels
And lightheadedness
Blurry vision
But people say I'm just making excuses
People just say I'm lazy
People say I'm sponging or using people
People say I'm a fraud
That stuff hurts
Because Jesus knows what I feel
I pray to Jesus to get me through the day
I pray to GOD as well
To help me cope in my head
But people don't understand what they don't see or feel
So I don't like people taking what I say with a grain of salt.
But people don't understand
It hurts but people don't understand
Just my life even talking on the phone
And I have to leave today to pick up a product from the store
And I'm going to walk
I'm going to be so exhausted and check my mail
And I can't drive due to my anxiety and Agoraphobia
I was shaking behind the wheel which the blurry vision
Lightheaded ness
People don't understand because most people can drive a car
I see it on the highways all the time
They don't understand how this effects my day to day life
Even my kidneys which I pray to GOD it doesn't fails on me.
I don't drink or do drugs or abuse anything
Just hope that's ok
But Anxiety sometimes raise my blood pressure
I take a beta blocker to try to manage it
Just wish people could understand
I'm not a fraud
This is my life
I been feeling this way since 5 years old I can remember
Just as I get older it effects my life
You naturally get depressed
Which I try to cope with
Loneliness makes you depressed
Not having sex makes you depressed
Not having a partner
Or feeling like a burden makes you depressed
I just try to get laughs or find a coping mechanism
Not Able to keep a job
Since most jobs want me to work 4 hours atleast
And I only can do 1 hour which is not substantial unless they pay me 200$ for that 1 hour daily
Which is unrealistic probably would say I'm unreasonable
But that's what I need to survive
Can't die over the phone
And freelance jobs no ADA protections
Since I work for myself
And the Accomodations are not reasonable
Because you have to do what is most profitable to a company or business
1 hour 200$ is not profitable
I can't work more than 1 hour
I would be able to finish the task
And if I do for one day I wouldn't be able to be consistent
Probably crash and have a panic attack
But people don't understand
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Which I understand.
Just Kinda Get Tired Of People Making Assumptions when they are not in my position
How is that possible to know I'm feeling on the inside of my body
GOD knows what I Feel.
Just Human Doesn't know
I have to realize some people just are negative
Doesn't mean they are bad people
But just means I can't Fully be around them
Nothing personal against them
Just some people Make some people feel worse
Not trying to separate but sometimes you have to deal with them at a distance
Because some people bring triggers
If I see people constantly gossiping about other people I don't know
Then I know I shouldn't Probably be around them
Because Gossiping is a trigger for me
If you gossiping about others
It's only going to be so long before I'm the topic to gossip about
If you are not doing it behind my back already.
Just People Be Trolling me on the Internet and social media
For I don't know how long
I'll say about 10 years
Just People Try To Tear you down or Expose me as they say
But I don't really have anything to expose?
Trying to tear me down and make me cry again.
Like I can't control people judgments
Like I be thinking people are out of their way trying to prove something isn't wrong with me
Because I heard this from some ignorant family members and people
That doesn't know how I'm feeling
I won't be surprised if they hacked my Cellphone 📱
Which Technically is Illegal to Stalk or Record people Without their Permission
Trying to find Dirt on me or something to tear me down
Because it's just negative people that don't believe my genuine feelings I have daily
It happened to my sister malware was on her phone from her ex
So it kinda made me scary or paranoid
Ask my immediate family members my brother my mom my sister which she didn't understand at first
But trying to understand
Even my stepdad the one that passed away he didn't quite understand
Until that last year in 2015 he talked to me in person
And realized this is something I really was struggling with
We made peace in 2015
Said To Me In His Bedroom " Now I understand "
Because some people thought I was seeking attention or something
But Me Seeking attention Since I was 5 years old
That's a very long time if I was seeking attention
Most attention seekers would be tired by them almost 30 years
Most attention seekers especially if they are not getting attention
Will not Keep seeking attention because they are not getting it.
Most people stop by then
I don't have friends I don't have a following
Like Some people on social media
I am not getting ad revenue
I'm not a social media influencer trying to Garner attention
Just a regular dude venting my life
I talk like this on camera which is exhausting
And off camera to my mom and to myself in my room
Thinking because I do talk to myself since I don't have friends
I don't answer my self
But speak aloud my thoughts and feelings to release tension and stress
So this just me venting on my life.
This something I been feeling Since I was like 5 years old
I kinda knew when I was 17 it was going to be even rough adulthood than childhood
Which I tried to kill myself in 2010 when I was on Gresham road
Which that Was behind the scenes at home
Only my brother and mother seen it
Just I kinda tried numerous jobs
From McDonald's to Goodwill to factories working upwards to 16 hours some days
Trying to push through but my body couldn't handle that
Like I was feeling "Flight or Fight" responses like I was Running From Being Shot at night
By My Dad in 2011
Still have nightmares about that it just doesn't go away
And more scenarios in my childhood as well I'm not going to disclose.
People don't understand I jump when I hear gunshots
I try to not look crazy around people
So I try to look normal
But every time I hear a gunshot or something my heart starts pumping
And I start feeling exhausted and sad
Like I can't control if someone shoots a gun or pops a firecracker
But I try to put on my noise cancelling headphones
Even certain songs I have to mute if I hear a gunshot sound
If I can catch it
Even movies I'm not familiar with
I try to mute sounds if a gunshot scene comes
If I can catch it
This really a big issue
But people don't see that when I have to mute my TV
They also don't see
When I have bad days
They probably don't see if I have good days
I try to get laughs in
Because laughter is natural medicine
To distract from the negative thoughts I have everyday
They don't see due to my meds
That have me very sleepy which I take at night.. but carries on to the next morning
Sometimes I wake up at 12 pm sometimes late as 5 pm
Seroquel just does that
Even I tried waking up early I end up going back to sleep
I literally have to take a pre workout supplement
Which has caffeine which makes my anxiety worse
Just to fight it the medicine
Like I workout it's the best medicine
Better than any Prescription drug I don't do recreational drugs
But it naturally gets rid of my anxiety while working out at home
Didn't work In a commercial gym.
Which this gym equipment saved my life
It really helps me
If I lose that I probably will kill myself
And I was at risk of Type 2 diabetes
And my blood work was off due to I couldn't work out since I didn't leave my house
And of Course mentally I got really depressed since I didn't have no coping mechanism
I be depressed Alot but working out helps me cope with the thoughts I have
And temporarily gets rid of my anxiety
But only last 1 hour post workout
And anxiety comes back
Some people think I'm on steroids
Which I think I'm small
But I can't keep a stable job
Plus steroids cost money
If I can barely afford food and amino acids
Which comes from protein and food
How can I afford steroids?
I never took a steroid
I don't even take creatine anymore
Because my kidneys
And I have health issues which my natural testosterone is ok
So I have no reason to take steroids and I'm not competing in bodybuilding shows
I'm not a YouTuber or social media influencer making $1000s or even 100,000$
Making money on the Internet so I don't have a reason to
Plus due to the medicine I take it effects my Kidneys
Like I hope my kidneys are ok
Because I love to workout and it really helps me
I probably would kill myself if I can't workout and build muscle anymore
I don't use steroids
Just men's vitamins and fish oil and beta alanine and protein and amino acids from protein
I eat 200 grams daily since I'm 235 right now
Just hope my kidneys get back normal
Because I take a lot of medicine
Might have to stop one of my medications
Because I take Prep Which is A HIV medicine
Because I'm so paranoid of Contracting HIV
But I Don't even have sex like that since I don't leave my house
But I just take prep because I be scared I'm going to get HIV for a Hypothetical reason
Which I know HIV medicines I don't have HIV
I understand if I had it
But I don't Have HIV I take Prep Which is a HIV Medicine to prevent Catching it
Which HIV meds is hard on the kidneys
But Weird Thing is I don't even have sex
I haven't had sex with a woman since 2022
I haven't been in a relationship since 2019
Which was my only relationship with a woman
Just I Do Have a Desire for sex like every other human being
But Masturbating is such a lonely experience
And sometimes gets depressing
And I jack off so much
That when I had real sex with a woman I couldn't orgasm
I never orgasm from Vaginal sex or oral or even anal
Which I don't like anal sex.
Just I only orgasm from my hands
And the few I can't count on 1 Hand those women would be upset
Because they thought I wasn't interested in them
Technically I am still a virgin because I never orgasm from sex
It makes me last long like hours
I think they called it "Delayed Ejaculation" opposite of "Premature Ejaculation"
But I never could Ejaculate no matter how tight or wet the woman was.
Only Orgasm with my Hand And Pornography
Which is frustrating because I didn't lose my virginity until I was 25 years old
Which due to my Agoraphobia and anxiety
And difficult time keeping a job and not having money
I didn't have many Women partners
And sometimes my agoraphobia and anxiety
Gives me erectile dysfunction issues
But people don't see that
They don't see how my disabilities effect my whole life
They don't see I don't go to clubs or malls or recreational events
If course I can't keep a job
Because most jobs want you to work atleast 4 hours
And I barely can do 1 hour
Before my body starts false flagging
Lightheaded and migraines I deal with
And dizziness and nausea and irritation in my bowels
And lightheadedness
Blurry vision
But people say I'm just making excuses
People just say I'm lazy
People say I'm sponging or using people
People say I'm a fraud
That stuff hurts
Because Jesus knows what I feel
I pray to Jesus to get me through the day
I pray to GOD as well
To help me cope in my head
But people don't understand what they don't see or feel
So I don't like people taking what I say with a grain of salt.
But people don't understand
It hurts but people don't understand
Just my life even talking on the phone
And I have to leave today to pick up a product from the store
And I'm going to walk
I'm going to be so exhausted and check my mail
And I can't drive due to my anxiety and Agoraphobia
I was shaking behind the wheel which the blurry vision
Lightheaded ness
People don't understand because most people can drive a car
I see it on the highways all the time
They don't understand how this effects my day to day life
Even my kidneys which I pray to GOD it doesn't fails on me.
I don't drink or do drugs or abuse anything
Just hope that's ok
But Anxiety sometimes raise my blood pressure
I take a beta blocker to try to manage it
Just wish people could understand
I'm not a fraud
This is my life
I been feeling this way since 5 years old I can remember
Just as I get older it effects my life
You naturally get depressed
Which I try to cope with
Loneliness makes you depressed
Not having sex makes you depressed
Not having a partner
Or feeling like a burden makes you depressed
I just try to get laughs or find a coping mechanism
Not Able to keep a job
Since most jobs want me to work 4 hours atleast
And I only can do 1 hour which is not substantial unless they pay me 200$ for that 1 hour daily
Which is unrealistic probably would say I'm unreasonable
But that's what I need to survive
Can't die over the phone
And freelance jobs no ADA protections
Since I work for myself
And the Accomodations are not reasonable
Because you have to do what is most profitable to a company or business
1 hour 200$ is not profitable
I can't work more than 1 hour
I would be able to finish the task
And if I do for one day I wouldn't be able to be consistent
Probably crash and have a panic attack
But people don't understand