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2015.06.15 00:58 zeekyboy Unauthorized Products That Are Less Than Spectacular

A place for your weird bootlegs, terrible copies, and obvious ripoffs. The crappier the better! Please no store brands or Oreos.
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2013.08.02 14:05 steve_nyc ApplyingToCollege

ApplyingToCollege is the premier forum for college admissions questions, advice, and discussions, from college essays and scholarships to college list help and application advice, career guidance, and more.
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2020.01.12 07:02 ShadowAlchemy confidentlyincorrect

For those times when people are way too smug about their wrong answer
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2024.06.07 21:19 SamsungGalaxyBrain Summerhall 2.0: King's Landing boogaloo

Let us imagine, my friends, that it is the 10th anniversary of Robert's reign. He and a lot of the nobles are out on a hunt when King's Landing explodes into a giant ball of green flames. Some homeless orphan, or maybe even one of Varys' little birds, goes exploring, stumbles onto one of Aerys' forgotten caches, it catches fire and triggers a chain reaction. Too bad so sad. Northmen, Dornishmen, and Iron Islanders did not have anyone of importance attending, but the rest of the Kindgoms lose many an important player in the game.
• Loras was at the hunt, but Olenna, Mace the Ace and Margaery, invited to the capital by Renly, who, being the groomer that he is decided to start the Lyanna lookalike thing young, were all toast. Willas and Garlan have weathered the storm, having stayed at home, and they were in general smart cookies, but not Queen of Thorns level smart, and nearly not as power-hungry. They just wanted to chill and grieve now.
• The Iron Islands have barely begun to recover from their last attempt at independence, but the Great Fire presented them with an opportunity like none other, and so they have made a half-arsed attempt at ploundering the Western coast of the Seven Kingdoms. In Winterfell, young Theon loses his head.
• Jon Arryn, Lysa, Sweetrobin, and Baelish were unsurprisingly in King's Landing at the time. They did not attend the hunt, and now they also were all toast. Harry was still a green boy at the time, the lords were not pleased with the prospect of a regency, many of them wanting absolute power for their own now that the main Arryn line was extinct, the Mountain Clans saw that as a good omen and went on a rampage. The Vale was in turmoil.
• Tywin and Kevan attended the feast but not the hunt, as they were visiting Cersei and her children at the time. They, too, were all toast. Jaime and Lancel could not get out of their respective Kingsguard and page duties due to Bobby B being petty for once, so they survived, but now a succession crisis in the Westerlands was also in place with the potential heirs being a grief-stricken and deeply unlikable Kingslayer with a vow of celibacy, a deeply unlikable whoremonger Imp, and a green boy.
• Edmure was also in King's Landing, visiting Lysa, and opted to visit a tavern with several other prominent Riverlands heir lads, so can you guess what they all became? You are goddamn right! Toast! So now Hoster, who was already at the first stages of his terminal illness and could not perform, only had the Blackfish, who wasstill refusing to marry, and the Stark kids for heirs. Several other houses were experiencing similar issues, but apparently while everybody else was grieving, Old Walder held a massive celebration at the Twins. Oh, and make no mistake, he will also be pushing for Genna and Emmon's kids to inherit Casterly Rock, and let us not forget about trying to put all of his daughters into newly widowed Robert's bed. How 'nice'.
• As previously mentioned, Cersei and all three of Robert's golden 'heirs' were home at the time. Tragically, so was the Mannis. Which means now Bobby's heirs were a gay pedo, a greyscale-ridden girl, and a score of bastards. Not that that was of any concern to Robert, he normally would not give a rat's arse about any of them dying. The matter in which they had died, though? Now, that is another thing entirely! Wildfire is a clear mark of the work of DRAGONSPAWN! Without Jon Arryn or dear old Ned to steady him, he declared war on the entire continent of Essos to deal with DRAGONSPAWN! for good. Screw securing his line, he can do it later. Everybody in Westeros thought this idea was bonkers and a clear sign of his own Targ ancestry coming out, and they surely had their own problems to deal with, but oh well, he was King. For now. And oh, where are the Targs by the way?
• While Dorne has rejoiced and begun discreetly gathering troops in Viserys' name, Vizzy the Mad himself and his sister were nowhere to be found. For all of his abundant mental issues, Viserys was slippery as an eel and has gotten very good at hiding in the slums of whatever Free City he was in at the time. Dozens of Robert and Illyrio's agents were out to get him, and he could not really distinguish him from Doran's agents, could he? In the end, though, Doran proved fleetingly victorious, until Vizzy got felled by a shadow demon at the docks, just as he was about to set sail for Westeros. Oh yeah. Melisandre had decided to shift her attentions to Bobby dearest, proclaiming him Azor Ahai reborn, and had managed to calm him down a little with her magical nether regions, promising and delivering on a bit more boring yet far more quicker way to get rid of the Targs. In the process, Daenerys had escaped, but had also gotten the short end of the stick by encountering the same type of wizard young Varys had, who promptly caught her and made her permanently barren, Aretuza-style. This is no maegi curse. Not even a dragon can grow a secong uterus. She may or may not get her dragons several years down the line, but her own line definitely ended with her.
• Speaking of Illyrio. With Varys having perished in the fire, he became the head of the whole fAegon operation, and started aggressively marketing the young 'King' to the Seven Kingdoms. The thing is, word of a dead Spider, one-sided letters in cypher, and word of JonCon who is easily led and could be convinced Aegon Jinglebell Frey was the son of his Silver Prince if you told him enough sentimental plattitudes, is not enough. That kid could be any random Lyseni or dragonseed. And the Golden Company's involvement only made the whole shebang more sus. It still gave them a modicum of support... until their glorious homecoming ship got caught in a storm in the Narrow Sea and drowned. fAegon, the sole survivor, was now best bros with Patchface and his namesake Jinglebell. The fiasco, however, gave many an enterprizing man on both sides of the Narrow Sea an idea, and Westeros became inundaded with dozens of various fAegons, fViseryses, fRhaenyses, fDaeneryses, and even an occasional fRhaegar and f'Dragonwolf', all claiming the same thing. The latter, however, made Catelyn a bit sus, and she wrangled the truth out of her husband.
• It did not make things better, however. You see, dearest not-so-gentlereader, instability South of the Wall made the Night King seize the opportunity a couple of years earlier, bringing terror to the Free Folk, who, in turn, came in troves and brought terror to the North. Ned Stark, unlike his son/nephew, was not one to negotiate with wildings, and young, too young Robb and Jon, both eager for glory despite being barely into their teens, snuck onto the battlefield and both died by enemy arrows.
• In the end, an unlikely Suicide S̶q̶u̶a̶d̶ Duo of Bobby B and Dany on dragons tried having their last stand against the Others but failed. Oh well. At least no future Westerosi will worry about not having an air conditioner in a heatwave now. You know we all do. Ain't that, in a way, a happy ending?
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2024.06.07 21:09 DemisexualguyHere 29 [M4F] Illinois Looking for someone like me

Hello and thank you for taking the time to read my post.
About me:
Cons:
I'm looking for someone who's:
Most people try their hardest to put on a good performance to impress others. I don't do that. Which is why my post is blunt and straight to the point. I don't believe in false advertising. I'm not a prince and honestly, I'm not a good catch either. I'm just some guy trying to find love on reddit.
I'm not clingy and I love my alone time, but I do promise to answer when you call. Just don't expect a man who's gonna be with you every second of the day. We all need space.
Sorry for being blunt, but I prefer to be upfront and honest over selling false promises.
If you're blunt, honest and know who you are and what you want, message me.
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2024.06.07 21:06 Spraty999 My mother can’t leave her abusive home due to money

My mother has lived in an abusive relationship for many years now, we live with my step dad, his two kids, me and my sister and my mum. Throughout the years my step dad has always mentally abused my mum with threats of kicking her out the house manipulating others around us and playing victim in many situations but recently he hit my mum, she was slapped around the face then pushed her against a wall and hardback sofa. The police were called and dealt with it and put him into jail for the night, when he came home the next day we all sat down and again he played victim and claimed my mum had been pestering him and was throwing his stuff, he did not take accountability and even after I asked him to say sorry to all of us he didn’t, tonight we sat down again and it kicked off once again my step brother went off on my mum saying she’s crazy and a bitch because of the way she treats my stepdad, he also went on to say my mum doesn’t pay any bills and contributes nothing to the house, but in fact my step dad was claiming universal credit in his and my mums name and keeping all the money he was using this money for paying the rent, the illegal part of this is he claims he isn’t working when in fact he is but due to him not claiming the invoices he receives from work it seems as if he is making £0 a month when in fact he makes over £5000 plus £3000 from universal credit, his kids also both get money from PIPS which they should not receive my step brother has dyslexia and step sister has autism and various mental health issues , they both get about £400 a month each, he claims my step brother doesn’t work when he does full time, and my step sister needs constant care.
The advice we are looking for is how we can leave this house my mum does not have much money and cannot receive universal credit due to my step dad claiming it all some charities offer housing but not for me (18) my sister (24) and our dog she has spoken to many women charity’s and friends from work for advice, another issue of us moving is my mums credit score has been ruined by my step dad to stop her from moving out due to this if she was to try rent a house they would most likely deny it as her rating is so low, my mum has become severely depressed due to the current circumstances and all I want to do is help her to be safe and leave as I’m only in the house 2 weeks of the month, and legal or general advice of what we can do will help, is there any law as that entitle her to the money she was not receiving I’m not too sure what to do and I know how helpful Reddit can be any help from anyone would be very appreciated
My mum has also looked into sites such as -women aid -Shelter Neither of which can fully help in the situation
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2024.06.07 21:05 Ok-Cloud4042 luxcro.com

Hey, I have this domain name, LUXCRO.COM, and I'm curious to know what you think of it. It's a 6-letter .com domain that combines the words "luxury" and "Croatia." I'm thinking of using it for a tourism or real estate website. Can you give me your honest opinion on it?
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2024.06.07 21:03 Confused_Lutrinae MIL thinks my baby is delayed (Update)

TL;DR: We had a medical emergency and are now no contact with MIL.
Empowered by the responses on here to my original post, I laid a firm but polite boundary with my MIL regarding an issue that had been going on since I was pregnant. It’s not related to the delayed conversation but it is part of the pattern of disrespect and cruelty. She tried to keep gifted baby items for a room in her house. They’ve been calling it (baby’s name) Room. Husband called her out on it in person and she doubled down. So last week after I posted on here, I text.
“Hey! (husband) mentioned that you’ve made a baby room for (baby) at your house? We don’t think that is necessary or appropriate! You probably should use it for something that will actually get used. Thank you!!”
I chose to do it because my husband was still afraid. I know tone is hard to read over text but I text exactly like I always do. However, when she came back rudely (she responded with a single “lol”), he did text her and tell her not to be rude.
She responded back a week later when we were in the pediatric emergency room because our newborn had a Covid-induced fever. My husband lost it.
Imagine your baby girl just had red disinfectant on her, various painful medical tests, she’s already been inconsolable due to her fever, and she’s cried so hard she’s vomited. Imagine your wife is comforting her, rocking her, singing. You’re sitting down crying taking space so as not to upset the baby any more than she already is. And your mother texts at that exact moment “your wife is the one being rude. Have her reread the long text she sent me. I say this lovingly as your family.”
She knew. She knew we had Covid. She knew our baby is young enough that a fever is an automatic emergency room visit. And she chose to pick the fight more.
Husband text back repeating that no she was the one being rude and she responded. “Chalk it up to the multiverse. Love you.”
And I finally got permission to explain calmly exactly how wrong she is. Husband is already pissed she doesn’t show care about our baby, just criticism, but for her to respond not even asking about her or her condition, he let me loose.
MIL and I went back and forth for a while, me letting out my anger and helplessness at having a sick baby. I was polite and stood up for us. But she caught me at the wrong time. Every single other time before, we’ve just let it go. But I could see a future with my baby exposed to her unchecked and I couldn’t stand it. Having baby be sick just hit my Mama Bear button. Some messages removed for length but here’s the important parts verbatim.
Me: Your son just had to watch his newborn crying in agony at the emergency room. And you’re angry that we think your “Baby Room” is uncomfortable? Have some compassion. Communicate with kindness. Grow up.
MIL: My husband agrees with me and thinks you were out of line. Please stop creating drama! Please stop being rude to me!
Me: Communicating how you feel is not creating drama. And it’s not rude. It’s sad you read all of that and all you could do is play the victim in response. Please reflect and actually consider what I’ve said.
MIL: You texting, out of the blue, that I should not expect to see my granddaughter is unusual. The fact that I tried to laugh at your unbelievable rudeness, is not me being a victim. I was trying to support you and not draw out your condition. Sorry for being considerate. And yes, I thought you were over the top rude for no evident reason.
Me: Are you saying you won’t see her unless we support you having an entire room for her? Draw out my condition? What are you even talking about?
MIL: Hormones or nutcase? There’s no room!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me: Wow. This is why your son can’t communicate with you. Because you respond like this. And it’s really sad. “Lol” is not support and “!!!!!!!” Is not a normal response. Take a breather if you need to. This is not the best way to handle this. You’ve got to know that on some level.
Meanwhile, husband text her again “this is really disappointing :( please be more empathetic mom.” We haven’t heard from her since.
The thing is, her gaslighting about there not being a room is so insane. Everyone in the family has heard about it. She even painted the walls and talked about having a crib. She held our crib hostage to try to put it in the room!
Husband turned to me and just said “she played that so wrong. Starting with the lol and ending with calling you a nutcase.”
So yeah, thanks to this sub and her behavior, we are no contact with her! We are still talking to SIL (she actually got us groceries when she found out our baby was sick) and will probably stay in contact with FIL. I still don’t understand MIL or her intentions and I think I could go crazy trying to work it out.
I’m absolutely refusing to see a woman who called me a nutcase without a sincere apology. And baby doesn’t go anywhere without me. So she got her projected wish. She won’t be seeing her grandchild. Honestly, I really pity her. She’s a liar with a victim complex and she’s miserable because of it.
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2024.06.07 21:00 GentlemanlyAdvice The Completely True Story of How a Filthy Gweilo Married the Most Beautiful Girl in the World

I was a damaged person. But I was on the mend.
I had a pretty traumatic break up with my childhood best friend, turned girlfriend. I had known her since we were 8 years old. We had been boyfriend and girlfriend since we were 13 and had been so for 9 years until my junior year of college when she cheated on me in a very cruel way. It came to light that she had cheated on me many times before as well.
I loved her so god damn much! I thought we were one of those stories where two souls were knitted together from eternity to eternity, or some hallmark card bullshit like that.
I was emotionally shattered and it took me a while until one day about 2 years later, I woke up and thought about her, but then realized that I hadn't thought about her at all the previous day. It was glorious and I knew then that I was on the mend. After that, my healing process sort of exponentially snowballed and I was back in the saddle as far as relationships went. I started going on dates and meeting up with women.
I was a software engineer working for a large corporation. Because I was good at my job, and because I didn't have a family, I was given the opportunity to move to Singapore and lead a project there for what would be a couple of years but turned out to be 7 years.
The great thing about Singapore is that they speak the "King's English" when they're not speaking "Singlish" (a patois of mostly English with funky grammar, but with Malay, Chinese, and Hindi thrown in). So I didn't have to learn a whole new language to fit in. I just had to learn how to translate Singlish to English, which wasn't too hard after a couple of months of trying. I even learned the lingo and it would amuse my coworkers a whole lot when I spoke Singlish. They thought it was hilarious.
I was a good looking guy (still am!!) but I really let myself go in my depression. I was a tall, muscular 210 pounds when I broke up with my ex, but I had ballooned up to over 300 pounds. I started a workout regimen and lost it all but the workout regimen became sort of an obsession. It was the one thing that grounded me. After I went to Singapore, one of my business perks was a gym membership at "Fitness First", a local gym franchise. I was down to my previous weight, but I had to practically camp out at the gym because the best thing about Singapore is the FOOD. The food is incredible! However, you WILL pack on the weight if you don't get your ass to the gym.
The meet cute
I was working out one day much later than normal due to some overtime on my project and I saw a girl on a treadmill. The treadmill was the one I usually use because it was in the back and kind of out of the way. The girl was stunning! The thing that stuck out to me was that she was had her hair in a pony tail through a ball cap, which is a look I find very attractive. I was a little nervous because, even though I was fairly confident about the way I look, I was definitely batting out of my league with this girl.
I went to her and chatted her up after she got off of the treadmill. She didn't look me in the eye and didn't really engage. I figured that I had acted like what is now known as a "gym creep" and I figured it was a "swing and a miss!" I apologized and said I wouldn't bother her anymore. I stuck out my hand and said "I'm OP, by the way. What's your name?"
She hesitated and looked at me for a bit and said "Lilly" (not her real name).
I remember this exactly because she later said that it was what intrigued her about me. At the time, she was an actress/model who had done some print/public billboard type ads, product demo booths at expos, and even a bit part in a local tv (Mediacorp) series. She had started to attract public attention because of these (mainly the TV show and the ads that were hanging all around town at that time) not just from men but from women too and it was super uncomfortable for her.
The fact that I had no idea who she was relaxed her and made her think that I was attracted to her for her and not because her face was everywhere at the time. After she told me about it, I did notice her face everywhere. But photoshop was a thing even back then, so I didn't recognize her from her ads and I really don't look at ads, tuning them out. I also didn't watch her TV show because it was in Mandarin Chinese and I don't speak or understand any Chinese, and I wasn't in a position where I was required to attend or arrange trade shows.
In the years prior to meeting me, Lilly had undergone a lot of plastic surgery (breast, eyelid, facial contouring, nose job, lipo, etc). She said it got to where she didn't recognize herself in the mirror and it disturbed and depressed her. She hadn't particularly wanted the surgery but she got the procedures done at the behest of her family who wanted her to bring in more money and the people in charge of her career development (don't know the term). It was all very expensive and she felt like she owed her family and the talent people who managed her.
Later, I found out that she hated the public recognition. Not just from men, but mostly from women who were really catty about her plastic surgery. The people in charge of her were pushing her to start singing but she didn't have a good voice and would need a bunch of training for that. She was depressed due to not recognizing herself in the mirror any more and didn't want to follow the career track that she had been on. They were pushing her to do more figure/body modeling which was why she was in the gym. She was SUPER uncomfortable with that and constantly hungry and pissed off.
She was afraid that she would do some more modeling and then get married off by her parents to some rich mainland Chinese man that she would be ambivalent about (she preferred Caucasian men) and she'd be forced to be a traditional pampered Chinese wife living in Beijing.(Doesn't sound that bad to me. Some of those Chinese businessmen live crazy luxurious lifestyles.
Since I was working a lot of overtime, I kept going to the gym later at night and we saw each other and I would wave and smile and she would smile and wave back. OK I was kinda hoping to meet her regularly. I spotted her on a couple of exercises and we began to chat with each other a bit. A couple of times I had to steady her because she was fainting from being hungry and working out at the same time. I used that as an excuse to take her out to a hawker center, which like a mall food court but with delicious local food (not chain restaurants). We chatted and got along really well. It became a regular thing until I confessed I had a crush on her. We started dating after that until it got to a point where she practically moved into my place.
She, of course, had her share of guys interested in her. She was on livejournal at the time (remember livejournal??) and she was doing that and posting pictures of herself for her career mostly, but I'm sure she did enjoy the attention. She had one guy from Belgium who was really after her. He actually bought her 800 thread count sheets, which is an oddly practical but vaguely inappropriate gift. He actually visited Singapore on business (he was a tech sales guy) and wanted to meet up with her in a public place, a hawker center. I still had trust issues from my previous "love of my life" betraying me. To this day, I cringe at my behavior at the time, but I laid down a clear boundary. She could absolutely go see and hang out with this guy if she wanted to, but if she did, she'd be doing it as a single available girl and we would be through. She said she saw my face "turn to stone" and it was clear that she would lose me if she went to meet up with that guy. That honestly gave her pause about our relationship and she really considered ending it at the time. I didn't know that until much later, though. Certainly, I'm glad that she didn't. She didn't go meet up with the guy. To this day, we call the incident "The Belgian Waffle". OK so I call it that, she thinks it's stupid.
Meeting her family
Eventually, Lilly asked if I could have dinner with her parents, saying that they wanted to meet me. I bought some gifts, basically Japanese cookies in really nice packaging, and then we met. I did the traditional thing and formally introduced myself and asked them about their family and history.
At the time, Lilly got some criticism from her extended family because I am a white guy. There was a certain stigma attached to local girls who liked white guys. They called those girls "SPGs" which stands for "Sarong Party Girls", a derogatory name for the prostitutes who would entertain British expats at after hours parties "back in the day".
Over the next few months, I won over her family mainly by eating their food and being accepting of their culture. I grew up in Texas, so pickled jalapenos were common in my house...like salt and pepper, we put them on everything. Later on, I was the kind of guy who put tabasco or sriracha on everything. So eating their spicy food was no problem for me. I remember us both going shopping at an open air market and seeing an older woman cutting up cili padi. I asked if I could try some. She looked at my pale face and then at Lilly and she said I could. I bit into one and chewed it up as the woman looked at me with an amused look on her face. She was waiting for me to jump up and down with fire shooting out of my mouth, I guess. I disappointed her, but she and Lilly were impressed. She later told her mother and she was impressed too. She wanted me to eat one for her as well. Oh well, trained monkey time I guess.
The real test came when I tried Durian for the first time. This is the same food that "defeated" Andrew Zimmern, the "Bizarre Foods" guy. I actually liked it. I had a D24 durian, which admittedly is like the "beginner version" of durians. There are like 16 different types. When you get past the smell and actually taste it, it doesn't smell that bad any more. It's very sweet and creamy. It's like the taste overwrites your disgust of the smell. I think that's what really impressed them to an extreme degree. They started calling me an "egg", because I was "white on the outside but yellow on the inside."
I would visit her grandmother with her. In true Chinese fashion, Lilly and her brother Johnny were raised by their paternal grandparents while their parents worked full time jobs, so her grandmother was like her mom. She was in an elder care facility at this point, though. She didn't like living there, but it was all they could afford. We would visit her every week and she'd be very happy. She didn't speak any English at all so she and Lilly would just chat speaking Hokkien Chinese while her grandmother would pet my hairy forearms like I was a dog. She was absolutely smitten with my hairy forearms.
Meeting my family
After a little over a year, I took her back to Texas to meet my family. It was quite the culture shock. Lilly was amazed by red barns and hay bales, black and white Holstein cows, things she saw in movies about the USA. She particularly was impressed by the cluster mailboxes lined up on country roads ("So cute, leh!") We actually had to stop the car and take pictures of her standing next to them, smiling goofily for the photo. I made sure to take her to the Texas hill country during spring, when the hills are covered with soft green grass and festooned with bluebonnets, sunflowers, indian paintbrushes, black eyed susans, daisies, etc. I had to practically hold her down to keep her from picking them. It's not illegal or anything, it's just frowned upon and tradition to leave them alone. OK, I let her pick some. Give me a break, I was in love with the girl.
Driving was also something that kind of boggled her mind. Texas is huge, and traveling from my parents' place to visit my brothers and their families was a seemingly endless trek. Driving from Houston to Austin, to Corpus Christi was crazy long, even with the stops to visit my relatives.
Lilly was practically agoraphobic at the big sky in Texas. She was used to being in a forest of tall concrete and steel buildings, with only strips of blue sky available at the top. In Texas that sky went from horizon to horizon. She was also amazed at the uncountable numbers of stars at night away from the city lights. She later told me it was like visiting Narnia or something.
In Texas, she got her share of looks from guys, especially in the bigger cities. I wasn't jealous. I've never been a jealous guy, although my experience with my ex "love of my life" really put my radar up, I still was proud that other guys were attracted to her. My attitude was "go ahead and eat your hearts out, she's with me!"
When she met my oldest brother, it was like a cultural thing with her, so she was very deferential and respectful. I knew that my oldest brother was attracted to her because he was stumbling and stuttering when he was speaking to her, looking at her but kind of avoiding looking at her. I wasn't too concerned because he was a married guy with 2 sons and not a scumbag, but it was still pretty amusing to see "Mr. Smooth-don't-let-em-know-you-want-em-kid" at a loss for words.
My parents met Lilly finally (she was super nervous but she did really well) and later my mom brought me aside and asked me if she should re-set her mother's diamond engagement ring. I thought about it a bit, and then told her "yes". My mom's eyes started sparkling with images of unborn grandchildren and she smiled bigger than I had ever seen her smile (kind of unsettling actually). My dad later brought me aside and basically told me I couldn't do any better and I would be a "god damn fool" if I let her get away from me. I agreed. My dad then told me something that remains with me to this day: "She will make your life sparkle, son." (she has).
Before our time in the US was up my mom gave me the ring and I asked Lilly to be my wife in a field of wildflowers, which had become her favorite place to be in Texas. She said yes. Looking back, that was one of the happiest days of my life. It was up there with losing my virginity to "the love of my life" (who turned out to be a duplicitous crazy person but at the time it was really special), my wedding day to Lilly, and the births of our children.
The Engagement
When we got back to Singapore we had to pretend we weren't engaged because I had to ask her parents for their daughter's hand in marriage. I spoke with them and explained how my prospects in my career were good. I told them that I loved their daughter and that my family also loved their daughter. We had to schedule a phone call between my parents and her parents.
I had clued my parents in as far as the traditions go. In Chinese culture, the groom pays for the wedding rather than the bride. The groom also has to give the bride's parents certain auspicious gifts. My parents luckily had done a tour of China a few years before and knew all of this beforehand, having befriended their local tour guide who was saving up money for his own wedding at the time. On the call, they agreed upon a pinjin, which is basically "betrothal money". We started to plan the Guo Da Li ceremony which would take place in 3 months time, and 3 months before the wedding.
Unfortunately life threw us a curve ball and Lilly's grandmother died. It was bittersweet because, while Lilly missed her, her grandmother had become very old and infirm to the point where her quality of life was pretty low. All wedding stuff was put on hiatus until the funeral was over plus 100 days for mourning.
After that, we were able to do the Guo Da Li ceremony. I gave my future in laws a red packet of money plus special cakes and 12 mandarin oranges and gold jewelry. It all went very well.
Wedding planning started in earnest. I got some money from my dad (who insisted) but the lion's share was out of my pocket. During this process I was able to meet some incredible people. The stand outs were Richard and Jimmy. Rich and Jimmy were tailors and dressmakers. They were a couple and they gave my fiancée a really good deal on a wedding dress and cocktail dress if she agreed to do some print modeling for their business. They also made me a tuxedo and a suit. I offered to model for them as well and we all had a good laugh at that prospect (OK they were doing most of the laughing - ego still hurts from that one, guys).
The venue we were using was Chijmes. It's the same one used in the move "Crazy Rich Asians". It was back when they had first started offering it up as a venue so it wasn't crazy expensive at the time. Plus, it was a smaller venue for weddings. Usually weddings are held in large hotel ballrooms and are huge affairs (this is what I was told). The families both invite everyone they've ever met to come: Neighbors, business contacts, everyone. They all bring red packets filled with cash. We opted for the "small" wedding.
The Bachelor Party
We had planned bachelobachelorette parties on the same night (separate venues). Lilly's MOH threw hers while Rich and Jimmy threw mine. My best man was my dad (because he's the best man that I know) and so cigars and brandy would have been disappointing to my work friends and my future brother in law and cousins. I don't think anyone was prepared for what happened.
We had the party at the sushi restaurant of a friend of Rich and Jimmy's. It was after hours. We had some incredible sashimi and rolls. I even tried fish sperm. Didn't like it. I asked Jimmy are you sure it's FISH, sperm?? He said of course he'd never do that to me. To be fair, it did taste and smell very fishy. I don't know how human sperm tastes like (or maybe I do now, I don't know).
After the sushi was done, it was time for the entertainment, and oh boy. Rich and Jimmy hired a trans entertainer who sang show tunes. The thing is, she had an incredible voice. She was obviously biologically male, but she really carried herself with a lot more femininity than I've seen from biological women. She sang and told jokes and roasted me pretty thoroughly. My dad was there and he thought it was funny as hell. My friends from work, especially the Aussies and Brits, thought it was great, my future BIL and most of my future cousins did too. Other cousins politely excused themselves and left. I think the free flowing booze and beer kept most people there, though.
After her thoroughly entertaining performance, it was time for the dancers. This is kind of where it went off the rails. Rich and Jimmy hired exotic dancers...but they were all male or trans. Now, to be fair, it wasn't like they didn't tell me about it beforehand. They did. Personally, I thought it would be hilarious to announce that the strippers were here and then have male dancers come out. I have a twisted sense of humor, I suppose. I certainly wasn't going to cheat on the most beautiful woman in the world mere weeks before our wedding, so prostitutes and female dancers were completely out of the question for me. They jokingly suggested male dancers it and we laughed. I thought about it a bit and I guess I'm "take-the-joke-too-far" guy so I encouraged it. Lilly knew about it and thought it was funny as well and wanted me to video tape it while it happened. ("Yeah right you just want to ogle the dancers" "Of course, lah!")
What I wasn't prepared for was the PLATOON of banana hammocks that marched out into the restaurant. Smooth greased up Asian chests everywhere! My dad was of course shocked at first and then looked at me and we started laughing and the ridiculousness of it. My dad stood up and clapped his hand on my shoulder and put a mock serious look on his face. The people immediately around me witnessed my dad telling me that he loved me and accepted my life style choice and that nothing I could say or do would ever change the fact that he and mom loved me and accepted me. Thanks, dad. I was laughing during the whole thing and my future BIL and work buddies who were around me were laughing as well. My dad excused himself and said he had to go find my mom and tell her the "bad news about her future grandchildren" and left ("Can adopt, lah! Can surrogate, meh!" Thanks for the support, guys). My future BIL laughed and said that since all of the available male dancers were at my party, there were none available to attend his sister's party, so she was "safe".
Among the highlights of the evening is that I discovered that a few of my co-workers and future cousins were in fact gay. I was told to stay out of the ladies' room no matter what. I wasn't planning on going in but thanks for the warning. I was proud that we all only vomited in the trash cans and not on the floor (what a waste of some damn good sushi....and fish sperm). Rich and Jimmy stayed next to each other all night. I even saw them holding hands and looking at each other lovingly. To my shame, I was under the common misconception that all gay men were very promiscuous and I kind of expected them to pair off with the dancers. What I saw that night was a very loving monogamous relationship.
The Wedding Day
The day of the wedding came a few days later and I had the good fortune of being the first one in my family to experience the fun and interesting experience of a groom going through a Chinese-style wedding. I say "Chinese-style" because while we did do a lot of the traditions from a Chinese wedding, we did say vows to God before a Christian minister. This was something she insisted on as her family had converted from Taoism to Christianity (but still kept the Taoist traditions and festivals).
First up was the gatecrash. I went over to the her family's apartment and the MOH and bridesmaids stood at the door refusing to let me in unless I gave them $9999.00. Nine is a significant symbol to them. It means "longevity" I think. So the whole idea is for me to haggle the price down by doing challenges and games. I had to do a handstand and walk with my hands. I had to answer trivia questions ("What is her nickname for you?" "Cranky old man" "What is your nickname for her?" "Baby"). BIL and I had to do "the worm". I haggled them down to $99 which I paid to them in a red packet. My BIL and wife chided me for not going lower but my dad was there and was in his 70s and couldn't do any feats of strength.
After I "secured" my bride, we did the traditional tea ceremony with her parents and my parents. Lilly was dressed in a traditional red silk qipao, tailor made by Rich and Jimmy. I gotta tell you people, the qipao really does it for me! Not gonna lie, it was like cupid gut punched me when I saw her dressed in it . My parents were pretty stoic throughout but my mom sympathy cried with Lilly's parents when she tearfully did the tea ceremony with her mother and father. We received red packets from each set of parents. I was told the red packet her parents gave us had most of the bride price we paid in it. Her mom gave her her grandmother's jeweled antique watch and my mom gave her a sapphire ring (sapphire is my birth stone). As we left her home to go to Chijmes, I told her "we're keeping that dress, understand me??" She laughed.
We got to Chijmes, did the photos and she walked down the aisle in a beautiful white dress with a small train behind it with sequins on it. My dad gave me the ring. He was my best man. He was my best man because he's the best man I know. After the wedding, she changed into a champagne colored strapless cocktail dress another Rich and Jimmy original. THREE wardrobe changes, people! THREE! All with different hair and make up and she did it super quick. I don't know what wizardry was invoked but we may be indebted to the hoary netherworld.
We honeymooned at the Fullerton Hotel. The old British colonial Post Office was converted to a luxury hotel in 2001. We stayed there for 3 days ordering overpriced room service ("Go to hawker center, lah! Much cheaper better food, meh!).
Emigration and Immigration
So a little bit before this time, a little event happened in New York. You might have heard about it. Anyway because some sexually repressed incels decided to murder thousands of people, USA's immigration was all jacked up. The INS went bye-bye. Then we had the BCIS for a brief moment, followed by the USCIS. I saw that my project was ending and my company helped me with her immigration. It was a pain, though. It seems like we had new forms to fill out every week while the old ones became obsolete. That's how I remember it, anyway. It was a pretty frustrating time and I almost had to leave her behind (it wouldn't have been permanent but it would be a long time). Luckily we were able to make it time.
For explanation purposes, we didn't get LEGALLY married in Singapore. We had the religious ceremony but no "government contracts" were involved. This is because, at that time at least, it was easier to bring over a fiancée than a wife, for some reason. So Lilly was a "90 Day Fiancée"!! We got married at the county courthouse when we finally were able to go to my new project. We didn't wait 90 days. We did in three (jet lag).
Unfortunately for her, we moved from Singapore, a 24 hour international class city, to a sleepy seaside town in the USA near a military base. Lots of fun was had with that. A total fish out of water story for another time (What is this "coin laundry"? Do you Americans have a place to wash your coins?).
My BIL got married to a beautiful girl and moved to Australia and opened a Bait and Tackle store in Surfer's Paradise on the east coast of Australia. He has 2 daughters. In 2012 he was caught cheating on his wife and lost everything. She moved back to Singapore with his kids, and he kind of struggled for a while. He got another bait and tackle store eventually and tries to see his daughters whenever he can. They don't have a good relationship.
Rich and Jimmy celebrated the decriminalization of homosexuality in Singapore in 2022, but they still can't get married. We still talk from time to time. Writing this, I find myself missing them. I had some really fun times because of them. I've never had better conversations in Singapore than with them while at Lilly's dress fittings (and my suit fittings).
We have been married for 21 years. She has never given up being a Singaporean citizen. She keeps her passport current. She's a "permanent resident" here in the USA. We have three kids, two boys and a girl. We are still married. She still wears her hair in a pony tail with a ball cap when she works out. She still wears that qipao on special occasions, which I try to achieve as often as possible. She's still my Baby and I'm still her Cranky Old Man.
Thanks for reading.
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2024.06.07 20:57 lukexsc [AA4A] Heir & Assassin [Part 5] - From Dying in a Ditch to Saving the Day [Assassin Listener] [Royal Speaker] [Fantasy] [Slow Burn] [Enemies to Lovers] [Political Intrigue] [Secret Identity]

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The penultimate script! And the climax of the story. We'll conclude next time with the heartfelt dénouement. Only one editing phase left. I can't wait to be done with this series, haha.
Remember that this script has two speakers, the Heir and the Contact. The Contact will show up in the last script, but only briefly.
Feel free to record, monetize, and/or modify as long as you give credit.
And any sort of constructive critique or feedback is welcome!
Wordcount: 2000
Setting: The first half is spent with the listener laying in a ditch in the streets outside the summit. Then the Contact drags them to a nearby stable. Finally, the heir's public execution in an inappropriately well-appointed garden within the summit.
Summary: There you are, bleeding in a ditch. The heir is gone. Off on a fool's errand to save the King and Queen. The Republic has outplayed you all. But someone is getting closer. And they're cursing your name in a familiar voice. Maybe there is a chance to set things right. You did not come without contingencies.
(Listener's contact rushes from the summit through the streets, getting closer)
[Contact]
[Sarcastic] Sure. Just leave me behind. That's fine. Don't worry about your fellow agent or anything. The summit fucking implodes and you up and vanish. Fantastic timing. Just—
(Sees the listener) Oh shit!
(Rushes over) Hey. Hey! Can you hear me? Are you alive?
...
Heartbeat. You lucky bastard. Left bleeding in a gutter and you pull through. Eh. Mostly.
That's a lot of bloody bandages. I guess someone took pity on you. Didn't stick around though. Whoever it was, you owe them your miserable life. But I can't afford to be nice.
Come on, wake up! Don't pull this with me. I can see your eyes are open. I know you can hear me.
Rise and fucking shine!
...
Finally. Yep, yep, can we speed up the whole delirious act? We need to move. Soldiers are looking for us.
...
Uh, no. I don't know what happened to you. Mainly because you abandoned me. Remember that? But I'm generous: water, bridge, you get it. Want to repay me? Then get over your flesh wound, stand up, and get moving. It's just a scratch. If you can't handle that, I will bail on you.
...
An arrow? Fine. That would explain all the blood. But it doesn't matter. Last I checked you were a Dominion assassin. With that injury you could march ten miles through a blizzard. Barefoot. Try harder.
But this isn't about pain, is it? This is about morale. You're at rock bottom. Not to mention exhausted. But you had your little nap. Take your second wind and get on your feet.
Grab my hand. Up you go. There. Steady. I got your arm. Here, lean on my shoulder.
You should be thankful I came back for you.
...
Why?! I'm saving your life, and you ask why? Wow. Do you not trust me? Talk about ungrateful.
Didn't I tell you before? My job is to get us—both of us—out of here alive. 'Cause when shit like this happens, we can't survive on our own. We're a team, like it or not.
Come on, there's a stable up ahead. Saw a couple horses we can steal. Just one step at a time.
...
Those bandages, that wasn't you. Remember who it was? If someone knows where we are—
...
The royal heir?! You didn't kill them?!
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You—ugh, no. You're right, it doesn't matter now. I didn't think the Republic could pull off a real coup. Nobody else did either, apparently. Doesn't make me feel less stupid.
There's some good news though. It's obvious we aren't to blame. When we get back home, our superiors probably won't have us killed. If we get home.
Wait... where's the heir then?
...
Ah... I get it. Found out our plan, huh? Considering the circumstances, you really are a lucky bastard. By all rights, you should have a lot more bloody holes. Looks like your unprofessional fondness for the target was returned.
Shame about the whole thing. The assassination plot, I mean. A job's a job. And aristocrats certainly don't deserve an exception. But this one was different. Your little royal might be the only noble I can believe is, you know, noble. 'Specially riding off to go die.
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No, I didn't see anything. Don't think I need to. Soldiers have been searching for any loose nobles. But there aren't any around here. If I were putting down money, I'd say the Republic finished their collection.
...
I didn't say dead.
Actually, things calmed down after the initial attack. They're being all... "Republic-y" about the whole thing. Acting like they're doing the Kingdom a favor. I slipped away when their newly wed was blathering on and on about the "tragic necessity of their actions". Blegh.
All that to say, they got the King and Queen chained up. The execution won't be for a while. Not until they're good and ready. But they have the heir now. The Republic may be full of windbags, but this is an opportunity they won't waste. The royal family has about a day left to live.
(Arrive at a small stable with a couple horses)
Speaking of living, we're here. Our four-hoofed tickets to freedom.
Huh. Someone must have been in a hurry; they're saddled and ready. Doesn't bode well for their owner, but good for us. Let's go. I'll help you up.
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Quit stalling. The Republic is still hunting us.
...
I'm sorry? Save who?
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No! Absolutely fucking not! We are the ones who need to be saved. And we have our exit right here. You have no obligation to rescue the heir. Your job was the exact opposite. Did you forget?
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I saved your life. You shouldn't throw it away over some bandages. Especially for someone who hates your guts now.
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You know what? I gave you three chances. I'm not staying here to die. Listen to me. We don't need to make it all the way home. Our forces are stationed nearby. All we have to do is ride 'till we reach them and then—
—What?
...
Yes, Dominion troops are still in the area. You should know that. What does it matter?
...
The plan's already gone sideways. Calling them in won't do any good. Remember, they were supposed to be the backup coup in case the Kingdom figured out the plan. But the Republic struck first. I don't see how bloodshed helps us here.
...
Wait. Are you serious? You want our military to save the Kingdom.
This is... making a disturbing amount of sense. Let me talk through this.
I call in the cavalry to free the Kingdom from the Republic. That unifies Dominion and Kingdom against the Republic despite what our leaders think. The Dominion gets the war they want, and the Kingdom gets to make peace with one of their neighbors. And the powers will balance out...
Still sounds crazy. But it's better than the Republic controlling the Kingdom.
...
There's one problem: we can only ride so fast. If the royal family dies before we return, this will all be for nothing. Even worse, we'll have a war on two fronts.
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You're staying? The blood on your chest is still wet. What are you going to do?
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(Long sigh) Fine. Save the heir. I knew you were too sentimental for this job. We need you to go all-out. If this is what it takes, do it. Cut them to ribbons.
If I run this horse ragged, I'll be back before dawn. Hopefully, with a small army in tow. That's your timeline.
...
Good luck you lunatic. You better be alive when I get back, both of you. This better be love. If I did all just for you to die tragically, I swear I'll—
I'm going, I'm going!
Do your job this time!
(Contact rides off)
... ... ...
(The heir gives a speech to the Republic forces before their execution)
[Heir]
(Indignant) Very well. If my spouse says that these are my last words, I will heed the threat.
I know my voice will fall on deaf ears. A court of Republic sycophants and Kingdom traitors is hardly worthy to witness the death of a lineage. But they will serve their purpose. As will I. Willing or not.
But know this: the Kingdom will not bow to your tricks. My people will never surrender. Take the crown and they will rip it from your head. Take the throne and they will topple it. You may think you've won but rebellion will smolder under our ashes.
You posture yourselves as "liberators", yet you would kill me in front of my parents? Your cruelty betrays your fecklessness!
(The heir's spouse hits them)
...
(Deep breaths) What's the matter, my love? Was execution insufficient? You needed to strike me yourself. Are you so thin-skinned, even in triumph? I can't believe I married someone so pathetic.
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Your words would sting if I had heart left to break. Let's finish this. I have nothing more to say to you all.
Mother, Father... I'm sorry.
...
You needn't be shy, executioner. My neck is there for the—
(The listener swoops in, subduing the heir's spouse and the executioner)
It... it's you. What are... Did you just stab my partner?
...
Not a complaint, just a question.
...
You didn't kill them, did you?
...
Good, a hostage will make this easier. However, we are surrounded by Republic soldiers. Did you have a scheme to survive the stalemate? An escape plan?
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The Dominion?! I... that's right! The papers said a company of soldiers were stationed nearby. It slipped my mind. You called them to aid us?
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How can I trust you? I will admit, you saved my life. But what's to say you aren't manipulating me again? I'm sick of being a pawn.
...
I see. The Republic hardly needs to be framed now. And coming to our aid will require your leaders to ally with us. That... I think that would work!
One moment.
(The heir addresses the crowd)
Agents of the Republic. The execution of my family will be indefinitely postponed. Before you seek to retaliate my... my guardian has my darling spouse at the point of a knife. Furthermore, you have fallen into our trap. The unified forces of the Kingdom and Dominion will soon arrive to liberate us.
I would advise you all to surrender now.
...
(Back to the listener)
What? It was only a slight exaggeration. A little fib to make this go more smoothly. See, they're cowering already. We've won. Now, keep your eye on the Republic's soon-to-be divorcée.
(Heir rushes over to their parents)
Mother, Father, are you alright? Please forgive me for returning. I know you'd prefer my escape, but I couldn't let you die. I was overwhelmed and felt like I had no one I could trust and—
...
Yes, I'm fine. Shaken, but fine. I am much better now that we are all safe. Thanks to my guardian here.
...
Correct, from the caravan. The one who escorted me home after my "escapade" in the capital.
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F-fond of them?! I—ahem—I must have given the wrong impression if you recall them as "the one I'm fond of". We don't have time for teasing. We must secure ourselves for when the Dominion forces arrive.
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How did I know? Oh... uh... well. It's a bit complicated.
(Deep breath) My guardian discovered a plot by the Dominion to kill me. It was to pit us against the Republic, but it turns out they did not need the help. The Dominion posted a reserve force nearby as a precautionary measure. Now they are being called to aid us instead. Is that sufficient?
...
Right, we'll speak afterwards. Please, take command. I'm quite spent. If you don't mind, I'll rest over here.
(The king and queen leave)
...
You have not yet assuaged all my fears of betrayal, still... thank you. I believe I treated you worse than I ought. But, to learn that you—above all others—betrayed me... and the idea of losing my parents... it was too much to bear.
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Yes, above all others. You heard what the King and Queen said. There was a reason I was so open with you on the road. And why I lied to them about your plot.
My feelings are confused and stormy. But when all of this is over, I would speak with you. I may have shielded you for now, but there is much to discuss regarding the future of our three nations.
...
Good. Now... be honest. How unbecoming would it be if I kicked my traitorous spouse?
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(Sigh) You are correct. Why must it be so hard to win with grace?
I will let justice take its course. Nothing left to do now but wait. Please, keep watch over me. I am too tired to sit patiently.
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2024.06.07 20:52 throwawaybadatrlshp I need to stop. This is the second time I’ve hit rock bottom. Think I just need to vent to people who get it…

Hi guys,
Thinking back, this is not my first Reddit post of a similar nature. I think all my life I’ve been addicted to things (weed, porn, “self help”, exercise). This is just one that’s been the most detrimental. I am a problem gambler and need help. I think I also need a place to just let it all out. Hopefully people will read and comment/resonate but I’m literally unable to concentrate at work because things are bad again. I apologize for it being long and you will all likely skip but if anyone reads, thank you.
I have a lot of trauma and am very lonely a lot of times. I had a bad experience being social and I think people pick up on my extreme awkwardness but they do not make me feel welcome, they come across judgy and I feel like I’m performing a dance begging for acceptance. So I spend even more time online (and have been like that since childhood) and don’t get much social interaction. This is relevant to how I got so sucked in so far.
Growing up, my parents were not only strict, but very strict about money. We were poor and they always told me to avoid debt but made it more about school debt (which I did avoid). They definitely talked about predatory credit card practices etc, but the one thing they did not ever instill in us was mitigating problem spending and gambling. Not just me but my mom and sister have really bad spending habits on food and unnecessary purchases…but I’m getting a bit ahead…
I didn’t get a credit card until a bit later, and didn’t have a job until about 2018-19 at 21. Even then, I barely used the CC and also barely drank. I hated gambling at a young age because I only know it as the casino in big cities with the excessive alcohol and lights and cigar smells I hated. Of course I was on my high horse at a younger age saying people were just “paying money to lose money and that made no sense”…My parents went to Vegas a lot, not weekly but every maybe 3-6 months because of comps. And us living close. I was mostly there just to watch my siblings and never went down to actually be in the casino. The vibes just always made me uncomfortable.
The one thing I did do was buy stocks. I remember briefly trying to understand the day trading stuff and I was so overwhelmed I just stuck to my traditional buying stocks and leaving them like a savings. Did good all the way until COVID, everything was down and I had to quit my job to move for school and was so burnt out from working (as “essential” while everyone else was not working) that I just took time off from work for like a year and a half. Spent all my stock market savings that was basically just all my money minus the interest made because of the COVID dip. I sold at the worst time possible but chose to do that instead of just getting work or even trying to learn about getting unemployment for my “mental health” LOL.
Right in my senior year of college I had a roommate who used a draft fantasy sports book. Never knew about money lines or anything about sports period,because I was too lazy to figure out sports rules, let alone betting line math…but I wanted to be accepted as a man and thought sports would be a good way to learn and build friendships…and “investing” money into it seemed like a worthwhile trade.
He explained oveunder props. Easy as cake. You think they’ll go over a certain line and you pick that. Even easier to upload your card and make an account. I thought it would be harmless…
I made one, did okay, but no crazy bets just $30-50 MAX like every couple of weeks. Trying to get into sports and fit in with the boys…. Didn’t care too much about losing $20 here and there and that’s my problem…
I then bring this up to a classmate in our data science class in 2022 wondering if there’s ways people can track player data…who tells me about “tailing” people who post their player picks online. Never knew about that/that there was already a market (bc I was new to sports).
He tells me about a guy he follows. Guy has a site with “the best prop data”. Clearly know this other guy is just selling his services but the service seems so beneficial. “Best hit rates in the game!” “No one has data like this”. Straight snake oil salesman tactics and I’m so aware of it, but it’s like I just didn’t care. Of course it’s just like ESPN data all on a histogram and not that revolutionary, and it’s like I already know I’m signing up for getting played but I just accept it(likely because I have settled for a lot in my life). I get a membership. I think oh I’ll make a ROI worth the cost of the membership and more! Right….
That was in about March-ish I think of last year. (Yea it was, because I specifically remember the old classmate asking me about March madness…). From March to June I had losses, but nothing super horrible, I didn’t really track it but I had never spent more than $100 max and probably only spent around $175 a month which was about the rate of all my subscriptions combined. but around this time I had also just had a very traumatic experience getting robbed and abandoned drunkenly during a party on campus. Somehow I made it back from the party to my house and allegedly my roommate helped me vomit/clean up but I woke up to my wallet and phone gone.
I felt violated, confused because I couldn’t remember certain events, sad that my “friends” didn’t even have my back at certain points. I was angry and really embarrassed and depressed and felt like I couldn’t trust ANYONE around me. Of course, them feeling second hand embarrassment from me, stopped inviting me out and our interactions got so awkward after that. I felt like now my reputation was just that drunk idiot who did god knows what while blacked out. And didn’t really have a lot of support.
My gambling got worse, but I didn’t make that much money so I also didn’t really bet that much either? It’s kind of a blur around that time now and I don’t really remember but I don’t think I was on the group chats/apps nearly as much as I am now. I also deleted them around graduation time because I needed to focus and I needed to save $$$ for my move out.
Fast forward I was in okay-ish shape: was able to get an apartment and higher paying job…but my relationship was strained with my now ex girlfriend. It was bad. I redownloaded the apps during this time. I was trying to plan out our future and she was not helping me. I was basically doing everything myself in the relationship and felt like my “investment” in our relationship wasn’t going anywhere…as she was not communicating and not helping me plan, so i began using that money for bets.
Initially it was “it’s just for fun now that I have more income! I can afford it now” then it was “oh it will be like a side hustle”.
But I got worse. I felt so disconnected and burnt out from my new job in finance, also very numb to large amounts of $$ on screens all day that I started betting hundreds daily. Then tie in disconnected from my ex and now had no friends. I was numb and needed to feel something, and alcohol was not enough. I’d drink here and there but never enough to get completely trashed like before because I was scared of that.
Now remember the subscription? This sub comes with a “chat room” FULL of a bunch of enabling children and their ring leader who makes the datasets. I used to respect what the guy does but I have so many problems with his business model: advertising slightly over 50/50 guesses as a worthwhile investment, getting his data out 5 minutes before games start (obviously so he can make his picks on his own first and then tell the followers after), calling his own patrons idiots and trying to make it sound like he’s the best gambler in the world and that if we’re losing we are just “not doing it right” when he’s really using $100,000s of dollars from subscribers to make his for fun bets while people desperately cling to some sort of “mathematical explanation” for why Alpha McThree is a better pick than Johnny Appleseeds.
I digress again. Basically there’s people around my age (20s) older (40s) and possibly younger all in these chats enabling each other to bet. You feel rushed because you have to “beat the prop bumps” when they move the lines. You feel constantly on edge and that anxiety feels good because of the potential payout, and then horrible when you’re off by one or two players and lose everything.
I became obsessed. It is probably the combination of the rush, the colors, the screen lighting in a more comfortable way to social media…the people encouraging you or congratulating you or worse bonding over shared loss, you start to feel in community.
Mind you, the community itself was toxic. I am part of the LGBT community but never disclosed, and there is so much homophobia and transphobia, sometimes even racism (I mean I get that I’m positing this to Reddit LOL) but it’s just weird to me as a POC who is part of this community to see all that stuff everyday and then say those are my people….and to pay a subscription to be apart of it…it felt like a weird digital fraternity. It felt “cool” to have a badge for my sports book, for people to recognize my nickname, to see the same names everyday, it felt like routine.
Everyday I’d wake up and bet. When I got COVID in December the amounts doubled and I was spending $500 in minutes instead of spread across days. I didn’t even care anymore. I’d keep playing and eventually lose it. Every single time like “I’m just gonna play enough to make my money back and pay off some of the debt and then delete everything!”
It never happens. I’m still $6k in debt, am -$230 overdraft and am now doing the one thing I really said would never do: ask my dad for help. I can’t concentrate on work because I’m so overwhelmed. I just got paid, still two weeks left and I have absolutely no money anywhere. And since I haven’t even paid my mom back the first time I am worried about asking again.
My dad doesn’t really reach out, but he texted me the other day. So instead of responding I just sent him a screenshot of my overdraft and told him I had to pay my apartment security deposit (which is true, technically) but it is really the stupid $600 bet that put me overdraft. I basically paid X amount on my credit card, didn’t see it post, told myself “maybe I forgot to do it” and said I had enough for the bets, lost three idiotic bets and then both the misses and the CC payment posted.
I feel like the “bending” of the truth will l start piling up and that things will stop checking out. He’s probably wondering how I’m overdraft and can connect two and two together (he’s seen my screenshots of bets when I was up, and asked me when I get paid and I’m too scared to say I got paid TWO DAYS AGO and am out -$2000) so I’m even more embarrassed and feel like I’m disappointing everyone.
I already owe my mom, and they aren’t even that rich at all so I feel horrible taking their money trying to pay myself back and then ending up back here again. But I am equally worried of them going nuclear and me being trapped back home/having to give up control of my bank account bc of it.
I feel stuck at my job because I need it to pay off my debt and save money/pay bills. I hate it so much, but need to stay here because of how bad the market is and I think dealing with the stress enables my behavior. I feel worse because I should have $20k saved up by now but instead I’m now total down -$26k. (The 20 I would’ve had saved plus my credit card).
So it’s just my lack of control and unnecessary purchase staring me in the face. Every day. While it takes me weeks to make even a dent in my debt. I literally have nothing in my fridge right now. I don’t know what I’m going to eat next week. And throughout all this my ex and I still talk, she still buys me lunch, she is a saint but our dynamic would not work
I’m meeting with my therapist today, and I contemplate either getting a new one specializing in addiction or stopping constantly one because of the cost but two because I’ll talk about it but I feel like I’m not even changing or doing the work…
I feel alone trying to get out of this hole and like this debt will follow me forever. I also wonder if I feel like I’m addicted to the wallowing too? Like now I have a reason to stay depressed.
How do I get better? Is there even any hope for me? I feel like I’m messing my life up and constantly at the mercy of something else and not myself… people around me have cars and solo apartments and I’m living check to check in debt with no purpose. How do I deal with stress?
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2024.06.07 20:52 Jealous_Tie7190 Is this job offer a scam?

I have recently completed a 6-month full stack software engineering bootcamp.I have been looking for a job and have run into a bunch of scams. I recently got an email asking me to fill out a questionnaire. I did so and received this email.
The fact that I had no real interview and that the job is offering $80 an hour and that they said they will send me a check for equipment are HUGE red flags to me. But I am desperate and would love for this to be real. Would it hurt if I provided the information they requested? Can I put a check in my bank and not cash it and see if it bounces? Will I be penalized?
"Hello Brianna,
We are pleased to extend an official offer of employment to you for the position of Web Developer (Remote) with our esteemed organization. Your extensive experience and demonstrated capabilities have led us to this decision, and we are confident that you will excel in this role as a valued member of our team.
Congratulations on your successful application! We are thrilled to welcome you to LIA, where we believe your expertise, skills, and background will greatly enhance our collective efforts and contribute significantly to the success of our company.
As part of your onboarding process, you will receive detailed instructions regarding your daily responsibilities via email. Additionally, I will be available online to provide guidance and support as you transition into your new role. Your onboarding journey will commence with a comprehensive 3 to 5-day online training session conducted via Zoom, allowing you to familiarize yourself with our processes and procedures.
The starting compensation for your position is $80 per hour, and you will have the option to receive payment on a weekly basis via check, direct deposit, or wire transfer. In addition to competitive pay, we offer a range of benefits including paid time off, a comprehensive wellness program, and health, vision, and dental insurance coverage. Furthermore, you will become eligible for additional benefits following three months of employment with us.
Upon completion of your training, you will be provided with a unique user ID, password, and access to our corporate server, along with a contact list for each department to facilitate seamless communication and collaboration.
To ensure a smooth transition, a check will be issued to cover the cost of office supplies and necessary software for setting up your workstation prior to commencing training and official duties.
Your offer letter of employment will be sent to you shortly, with the aim of expediting your onboarding process and initiating your training without delay.
In order to proceed with the necessary formalities, please promptly provide the following information to our HR department:
Please send the requested details to HR at " (i removed the email) " and kindly copy me for reference.
Once again, congratulations on your new role, and we look forward to having you on board."
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2024.06.07 20:51 Safaida How to get out of this situation

Whole list of red flags bro.
So basically ill be doing the talking about this crazy situation about my friends Mason and Hazel in regards to their one of a kind shit relationship ( in Mason’s pov)!!Anyways, they started dating last year in January. And despite their differences, they were a couple. Hazel was a lively and sociable person, eager to share her thoughts. She was affectionate and warm towards others, particularly since she began dating Mason (ignoring any previous conversations they had about it). She had panic attacks and was emotional. Mason was introverted, rarely opened up, and got jealous but never angry.
So naturally, seeing their dual personality, others found them cute. After 5 months, Mason contacted me to discuss their relationship. We were friends since we were 11. He said Hazel was a manipulative, lying girlfriend, with proof. She blackmailed and gaslighted him, making excuses during their conversations and later threatening to end the relationship. The situations gradually worsened: fat-shaming, maintaining bad habits, blaming and using Mason for money, and even hitting him - disguised as banter but causing significant harm, as he admitted. She won't change or try. Most arguments were digital, with deleted messages.
She gaslighted him, pretending to be the victim, for over 2 months, while he stayed quiet. She painted him as the villain. Whenever he hugged her, she would respond strangely, saying things like "please don't hit me!" This was odd because Mason grew up in a strict family where he was taught never to harm women, although I can't confirm that. Despite our closeness, he has support her. Eventually, they broke up, suggested by her. She is still sad over their breakup and constantly harasses him, causing him to stop coming to school.
Now, the recent situation is Hazel's ED and panic attacks. Last month, Hazel excused herself from class, feeling exhausted and weak. About to faint.After class, she stumbled towards his class,calling his name. This occurred 3-5 months post-breakup. People sought Mason's assistance for her, but he declined. After all, in his times of need no one believed him which I would believe is because he is a male, and this was Mason's first visit in a month due to a medical issue and Hazel discovered from their group chat that Mason was able to come in the next day. Now, as a result of his decision not to help her, he faces pressure from friends and others who claim that Hazel's problems are due to his actions.Is his feelings valid gng??
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2024.06.07 20:47 GoAheadMMDay Warnings of 911 in Back To The Future

Warnings of 911 in Back To The Future
Marty brings his hands to his mouth and shouts out loud, “I have to tell you about the future!”
The creators of Back To The Future said the same thing.
\"I have to tell you about the future!\"
It was known
The destruction of New York's Twin Towers on September 11, 2001 was not a surprise attack. The plan for 911 was known two decades before, as far back as the early 1980's.
Details of 911 appear in the blockbuster trilogy “Back To The Future”, the first of which was released in 1985.
I first learned that Back To The Future contained warnings of 911 from this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uPJQ-1Y8jfY.
In this post, I expand on the examples presented in that video, providing additional supporting arguments of my own. I include a few more 911 warnings I spotted myself.
So come along and enjoy this ride, as we rupture the space-time continuum and create a paradox of our own.
Terrorist attack at Twin Pines Mall
Pics 1 & 2
In the first Back To The Future movie, a terrorist attack (pic 1) takes place at the Twin Pines Mall (pic 2).
This is a warning of a future terrorist attack on the Twin Towers on 911. “Pines” represent the towers. “Twin” is… well… just plain obvious.
A terrorist attack at Twin Pines Mall - filmed 1985.
A terrorist attack at Twin Towers - happened 2001.
The numbers
Pics 3 & 4
When Marty first arrives at the mall, the clock reads 1:16, which is 911 upside down (pic 3).
When Doc shows Marty two synchronized watches, the time is 1:19, which is 911 backwards (pic 4).
911 once; 911 twice.
If you don’t like having to turn the mall clock upside down or flip the watches backwards, don’t worry. There is an even clearer reference to the numbers 911 later on - in their proper order.
Lone Pine Mall
Pics 5 & 6
When Marty returns to the mall at the end of the first movie, Twin Pines Mall (pic 5) becomes Lone Pine Mall (pic 6).
You probably already see how this foretells 911. Let’s break it down.
Pics 7 & 8
The site where the mall stands used to be owned by Old Man Peabody, who had two cherished pine trees (pic 7). When the mall was built, both pine trees were still on the property, and so the mall was named Twin Pines Mall.
When Marty travels back in time, he travels from the mall directly to Peabody’s land. Same spot, just different time period.
While trying to escape, Marty knocks down one of Peabody’s two pine trees (pic 8). Thus, two pines become a lone pine after they were crashed into.
Pics 9 & 10
This foreshadows the aftermath of 911, when the Twin Towers (pic 9) were replaced by a lone tower (pic 10) after they were crashed into.
What is more, the replacement tower is named One World Trade Center. “Lone” vs “One” – even the name is a near-perfect match. Even the name!
Looks like an airplane
Pics 11 & 12
When Peabody and his family first see the car (pic 11), Peabody describes it as “an airplane without wings”.
Later, the car was modified to fly (pic 12).
Add these details together and what do we have? A car described as a plane, which later flies, that crashes into a tree symbolizing one of New York’s Twin Towers – precisely what happened years later on 911 (pics 13-14).
Pics 13 & 14
Towers on fire
After the Twin Towers were struck on 911, they began burning. The makers of Back To The Future anticipated this and depicted it.
Pics 15 & 16
Near the end of the first movie, as the DeLorean takes Marty back to his time, the car’s tires leave two twin tracks on the road (pic 15). The twin tracks are on fire, an unmistakable depiction of the Twin Towers burning.
Doc then runs between the burning twin tracks, shrieking loudly (pic 16). As he runs from the top of the tracks to the bottom, he looks and sounds like people falling off a building - a haunting foreshadowing of 911.
Pic 17
Yet the burning twin tracks represent more than just the Twin Towers on fire. As the camera pulls out, a store sign in the shape of the number 9 comes into view on the left (pic 17). The sign and burning twin tracks together form an undeniable 911.
Notice that the placement of this store sign is perfect for indicating 911. It is not at the end of the street at the top of the twin tracks, nor is it to the right, but is perfectly placed to the left of the burning 11.
Notice too that the sign could have been a 3, or a 7, or a J, or an S, and would still have served its function of pointing to the store. But it was none of those shapes. It was a 9. And the camera pulls out enough to capture the whole 9 perfectly.
Where the earlier examples of the mall sign and watches might be too much of a stretch to suggest 911, this 911 at the plaza leaves no room for denial.
The falling towers
On 911, after the Twin Towers had burned for a time, they ultimately fell. So too in the Back To The Future movies. The first movie ended with the Twin Towers on fire. In the second movie, we see the Twin Towers falling.
Pics 18 & 19
Jennifer is on the sofa in her future home (pic 18). She looks up in astonishment. Through her look, the movie is telling us… “Pay attention to this. This is shocking.”
What is Jennifer looking at that shocks her so? She is looking at the TV.
She then exclaims, “I’m in the future!” (Pic 19). With this, they have taken us to the future - to 911. And this is what we see…
Pics 20 - 23
A moment later in this scene, we see two pine trees projected on the TV screen (pic 20). When Lorraine clicks the remote, the pine trees are replaced by New York’s Twin Towers (pic 21). This confirms our understanding that the pine trees really do represent New York’s Twin Towers.
The TV then glitches and scrolls upward (pic 22). As the frames scroll up, the towers appear to be rising.
But notice that one of the characters is upside down. Since he is the closest character to the audience, the movie is telling us to look at the TV from his perspective. And what does he see? As the TV frames scroll up, he sees the towers falling down (pic 23). He sees New York’s Twin Towers falling down.
Pic 24
All three characters are looking at the Twin Towers on TV (pic 24), just like millions of people were viewing the actual towers on their TV’s on 911.
Lorraine points directly at the towers. But notice the torch of the Statue of Liberty at the bottom of the shot. Why is the torch of the Statue of Liberty in this shot? To create the impression of being in New York City; that the characters in this scene are people in New York looking at and pointing to the Twin Towers on 911.
Talk about pointing something out! This is as pointed as it can get.
911 was staged
Yet the creators of Back To The Future might be telling us one thing more about this future terrorist attack. They might be telling us it is not a real terrorist attack at all. It might be a staged, agency operation.
Pics 25 - 27
In all three movies, as the DeLorean passes through the time barrier, it is racing toward things related to cinema... ie: the stage.
The first time the car breaks the time barrier, it is racing toward a film booth (pic 25). The second time, it is racing toward a movie theater (pic 26). In the third movie, the DeLorean breaks the time barrier while racing toward a drive-in movie screen (pic 27).
Though the Twin Towers really were tragically brought down, the creators of Back To The Future may have been telling us that the circumstances behind the disaster were - like in cinema - not what they appear to be.
(For more on the possibility that 911 was a staged pretext for war, see my other post: https://www.reddit.com/conspiracy/comments/1aghwh3/we\_are\_being\_led\_into\_world\_war\_3/).
Whether 911 was staged or not, the big question here is… Where did the creators of Back To The Future get this information? How did they know about 911 twenty years in advance?
Fortunately for us, they put that in the movie too.
Message received
Pics 28 & 29
Marty received knowledge of a specific event (pic 28). What event? A tower being struck (pic 29). The message came with an urgent plea… save the tower.
In the real world, a group of people learned that New York’s Twin Towers would be struck. They wanted to save the towers.
Message delivered
Pics 30 - 33
Marty asked Doc for his help getting back home, and delivered the message of a tower being struck (pic 30).
In the real world, the people who learned about 911 delivered their message of the Twin Towers being struck to Robert Zemeckis and Bob Gale (pic 31), asking for their help in getting the warning out.
Rob and Bob suggested making a movie about it (pic 32), to get their message out through cinema – which was worked into the movies by Doc instructing Marty to go through the movie screen (pic 33).
The message
The warning of 911 is woven throughout the movies, along with an urgent plea to avoid the disaster.
Pic 34
Marty writes in a letter to Doc: “Please take whatever precautions are necessary to prevent this terrible disaster.” (Pic 34)
Notice the letter was made fully visible in the movie. This is the message the creators of Back To The Future wanted to announce.
Notice too they used the word “disaster”. While the shooting of a man (Doc) is indeed terrible, referring to it as a disaster is a little on the strong side. In using the word “disaster”, the creators were really referring to 911, which could truly be called a disaster. The even spelled the word "Disaster" with a capital "D", even though it isn't at the beginning of a sentence.
Also note the word “please” is underlined. The creators were imploring.
The source of the message
But where did the people behind Back To The Future get their knowledge of 911? The people who contacted Rob and Bob with knowledge that the Twin Towers would be struck... Where did they get that information?
As with everything else, this too was worked into the movie… The woman in the plaza (pic 35).
Pics 35 & 36
She is the one who gave Marty the flyer about the tower (pic 36).
She is the source of that knowledge. She knows every detail about the tower, including how and when it was struck. She also gives Marty the urgent instruction to save the tower.
Pics 37 - 39
The woman is positioned directly beneath a store sign that reads “The Third Eye” (pic 37). An eye inside a pyramid is used instead of the word “eye”. This symbol is called the “all seeing eye”, and it lines-up perfectly with the woman’s forehead.
This shot replicates mysticism iconography (pic 38), where the third eye is depicted on the forehead as a symbol of enlightenment. The all-seeing-eye symbol is also used in Freemason iconography (pic 39).
Add these details together and what do we have? Marty learned of the destruction of the clock tower from a woman depicted with her forehead directly beneath the all-seeing-eye of the Freemasons. With this shot, the creators of Back To The Future are telling us they learned about the destruction of the Twin Towers from Freemasons.
911 was approved
Pics 40 & 41
Another link to the Freemasons is shown on the clock at Lone Pine Mall (pic 40). When Marty returns to the mall at the end of the first movie, the clock reads 1:33.
33 is a special number in Freemasonry (pic 41). The number 3 represents completeness, such as the 3 dimensions of the physical universe. It also denotes stability, since 3 is the minimum number of legs a table needs to remain upright. Doubling the number 3 as in 33 signifies achieving a complete and stable degree of enlightenment, which is why 33 is the highest level of membership in Freemasonry.
By placing the number 33 together with Lone Pine Mall, the creators of Back To The Future are telling us that 911 has Freemasons behind it, approved by those at the highest level.
Why so cryptic?
But why present this information about 911 in such a cryptic way, with so much symbolism? If they wanted to warn us about 911, why not just come out and tell us plainly and clearly?
To be frank, I don’t know why. All we can do is speculate.
Perhaps they were under oath. The people trying to sound the warning about 911 were likely Masons who did not agree with other Masons concerning 911. Coming out and publicly denouncing the plans of their own fraternity would have landed them in serious trouble.
Another possibility is that while the date of 911 was known so long in advance, the year was not. Consider what came immediately after 911. 911 opened the door to US invasions overseas. 911 could not be launched until the US was ready for such operations in foreign lands. The country needed to be prepared politically, economically, and militarily. Only then would the year for 911 be chosen.
So even though the plan for 911 was known as far back as the early 1980’s, not knowing the year was problematic. What could anyone do about it? Ground all flights on September 11 of every single year for decades? No one would take such a warning seriously, nor would authorities take such precautions.
Yet another possibility is to prepare people and society for planned changes, guiding people into becoming more accepting of them. "Predictive Programming", as it has come to be called, is the "theory that the government or other higher-ups are using fictional movies or books as a ... tool to make the population more accepting of planned future events." - https://u.osu.edu/vanzandt/2018/04/18/predictive-programming
Still another possibility is simply to clear their conscience. If the ones planning the disaster make their plans known ahead of time, they believe they will escape its moral and spiritual consequences, leaving them free of guilt. This is similar to a country announcing a planned attack on a city or facility through television, radio, and dropping leaflets from planes. They warn people of their planned attack, indicating its precise location, date and time, in order to escape culpability for any loss of life that may result. The idea is: "We warned you. If you are injured or killed, it is your fault, not ours." As unbelievable as it sounds, such twisted reasoning is used by governments and militaries to this day.
One final possibility I can think of is that the creators of the Back To The Future movies realized they would not be able to stop the 911 disaster, and produced the movies for posterity’s sake. They wanted people to know the truth - that it was not a surprise attack, but was a planned operation approved long in advance by people connected to powerful organizations. They wanted people to know… it was known.
As Marty often said, “That’s heavy.”
Joseph Cafariello
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2024.06.07 20:38 Maleficent-Storage44 Ahh, that one sided thing 🤦

07/08/2023
Note: I would do everything I can to never send you this writing, I promise myself.
Falling in love or something like that was what I always thought would happen to me when I expect the least and life didn't disappointed me, I did infact fell for you in the most unexpected and unknow way possible. Till the last msg we had I thought that we had some chance because I do believe in not concluding things for good but I guess life doesn't always works the way we want. As falling for you was unexpected and didn't made sense same did confessing you.
If I had ever confessed to you these would be the words I'll use. - Without even knowing who you are?, What your personality is? And How exactly your face looks my mind just fell for you to be exact with my words "my wickets were out ;p" I didn't knew what my mind was getting into this head high pride girl who was on top of everything she did was the person I saw when I first saw you but I don't know how instantly I also saw this kid who just loves to crack dumb jokes and play pranks. Their was this innocent and kind hearted girl who without even thinking about a second, tries to do the best for others sometimes even knowing that it would cost her and let me tell you this was all my first impressions:)
I think that all combined with your undeniable beauty which I can't even describe (this is kinda cringe for me hahahaha but it is what it is and needs to be said) just took me out. It was all like maybe the Eureka moment you said and I swear I was in denial a complete denial to acknowledge these feelings ;) but as I told you my wickets were out I guess and I fell in love with you. So I love you I guess <3 ;p.
Now the part about us being together :
I fell in love with you when you didn't have any idea about it and I tried my best to keep it inside but was eventually defeated to the time and had to tell you. Knowing that letting you know at that time is very wrong according to timing because I wouldn't get the chance to show you how much I loved you and what am ready to share with you, it was like I axked my own foot but I had to do it because the situation was not right and telling you was the right thing I guess. Soon after you got busy which I knew would happen and I got left with this unsettling feelings of what I had done because up until that point in my life when decisions were involved regarding my life I always took calculated descisions even with playing a backup scenario of what I would do when things go south but the descision of telling you was a wild card and for the very first time I let me feelings control the descision and that was very reason I was left with such unsettling feelings because I didn't thought about it that good, whether I should wait or move on talk with you. So there's that and how our that conversation ended where I tried to talk things out as a friend and it was said the way I had planned in my head but it all went wrong. I realised that we have different values or way of thinking which I was trying to figure out and I finally mostly found the answer.
Even though we had that good friendship and relation developing I guess we had to somehow bring a stoppage to it. So maybe this is a goodbye from me for my feelings for you. I've decided to let the time take things in hand and hang over my hopes of us working out. You are and will always be my first love, this was the first time I had felt such feelings where I didn't need to worry or think how the person is and without any thoughts trust the person and so maybe that's why I was so easy going on your stuff. Sorry I may have sometimes given you the answer you wanted to hear just because I was listening to you and not thinking about anything else. So, I'll choose to end this one with the same line and different end - I love you and I wished it would have worked out the very first time. ;)
The last one : The way falling in love with you changed me :)
I was this person who cared a lot about people but was always rational at the end and used to give what you call the rude answers but for you I unknowingly was the lesser version of that (Sorry!, Again if I ever was rude to you). I learnt what love was and what it can make you feel. From thinking all day and everyday unknowingly about you to blushing whenever I saw you (cringe.......) I changed from being this guy who just thought about what I could achieve to a the guy who not just saw future but living in the moments because moments where the only thing I had with you. Texting was never my cup of tea (maybe the reason I mistype that much) but you made me texting person :p. From completing refusing to listen to hindi romantic songs to somehow relating myself to chand baliya (hahahah) i was changed.
From never thinking about such thoughts of having someone for me to the thoughs of having someone as my bestfriend to share things with, I changed. The though of me having soft spot for someone other than my family of four never even came to me but I unknowingly had this soft spot for you, I used to find creative ways to defend you when people used to back bitch about you (ps. Creative ways because I didn't wanted it to seems like i was defending you :p)
I never thought a single text from someone could change my whole mood or vibe but guess what?, Yup my wickets were out xD. A single text from you lit me up like a led bulb.
So I guess I've to end this even though I don't want to and keep writing but it's not the way it works. The ending for this one would be - Even thought I fell for you first I always approached you as a friend and kept out relation as such because in the end I knew you needed a friend first rather than someone who would be called as your someone special. I tried my best and if I had the chance I would I kept the friendship route forever but I guess am somewhat of a human too and considering how things were going it was best to tell you. So, yes I love you A..a! (2 dots are 2 letters of her name) and always would treasure this experience you gave me (hahah, even though you didn't knew)
-11:56pm
P.S Note: I wrote this nearly 10months ago just putting it out here because I think it ending now for good and yea even though I promised myself I think I broke it here.
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2024.06.07 20:37 Efficient_Paper_5442 I(24F) am loosing feelings for my BF(24M). How should I handle this?

Hello! My boyfriend and I have been together for 4 years. And to be clear, he is not a bad person. We are usually the best of friends during platonic activities. We get along and laugh daily. We are both engineers and love to talk about technology and what we work on, and have intellectual conversations. We are both ADHD, so our bad habits mesh well together without resentment. One thing about me is that I am very direct about my feelings where he is not and never really has been. By direct, I don’t mean cruel. I just don’t do passive aggressive. But, I think carefully before I talk.
He also very much runs by the “acts of service” love language. He will do such kind things and go to such lengths to make me happy on a daily basis. He says how much he loves me all the time and will say loving things. As long as im not upset about something.
There has been a certain struggle that has been strangling our relationship. And that is conflict. I can bring something up as softly as possible and I will always get a quick and hard defensive response. Always. It has made vulnerability very hard for me. To the point that even I don’t want to talk about problems or share my feelings. Which is really not me, I’m super straight and honest. I’ve started to really struggle with emotions when he is vulnerable and really struggle with intimacy (not just sex, but intimacy in general). I’ve always done well with alone time, but I’ve come to the point that I only want to be alone. He was gone for a week and I honestly didn’t miss him.. I don’t feel close to him anymore and it’s just getting worse. I feel like a friend, and not even a best friend anymore.
The requests can be about the simplest every day activity and he’s so defensive. The other day I asked him to close the windows in the house before he leaves because I’m worried about a break in. He went on and on about how I’m wrong and it just drove me crazy with the defensiveness and I shut the windows myself. It’s literally about anything.
I have discussed this. I’ve been straight. He apologizes but honestly it just still happens every time. He gets very irritated when I suggest it happens every time. He will brush off things I say, will say his intentions were always good so who cares, will deny this happening every time. He gets angry when I suggest that his defensiveness has been a big problem, and will eventually become mean if I push too much. By mean he will start to suggest I’m a nag, that I’m annoying him, and even will insult me and call me names if I don’t end the conversation before it gets there. I’ve learned his tells by now to know when he will start to call me names and just stop the conversation before it happens. That doesn’t always work because ending the conversation can sometimes make his anger boil over and call me names anyways. He will tell me he doesn’t want to be in conversations and leave (which is fine, but still frustrating). If he does accept fault, he will get very cold to the point he’ll make me cry and he will just boil over with anger.
He will eventually apologize on his own but never in the original conversation. He has to leave and decide to apologize before he’s willing to. But to be honest the damage is already done by the time he does. This really breaks my heart because I love him so much, but I’m so lost on how to improve anything. He asked me what I think I should do to make conversations go better, and my response was honest “I don’t know. I try being soft, I try having no criticisms, and it still ends up the same.”
I’m just so lost. And it hurts to admit that I am unhappy and considering leaving very seriously. I know I have to tell him but I also don’t want to leave - but at the same time feel like I need to to be happy. I don’t see this improving at this point because I honestly don’t trust him to handle conflict well…
This background may help, but his Dad is 100% a narcissist or has some sort of cluster b disorder. I heard them argue before and listening to how manipulative his dad was once very rough for me. I’m not his biggest fan. Though I haven’t admitted that to my BF.
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2024.06.07 20:35 mashedpotatoes_purpl Dirty secrets

Oki Oki I so excited to finally type this out this idea has been on my mind for so long so I rlly rlly type this out
Ok so charlotte Herrington is born to like a crazy rich family and basically her parents neglect her alot and are mentally abusive and the only person who kinda cares abt her is her aunt who is severely depressed and basically when she was 16 her aunt took her life {she hung herself in her apartment} and charlotte was visiting her and she has an extra pair of keys to her aunts house and she unlocked the door and she saw her aunts dead body and obviously she called the police and basically it was ruled out as suicide but there was something really eerie abt her body charlotte’s family’s company’s emblem was engraved on her aunts palm and the police thought it was some weird way of leaving a suicide note before she died {since a lot of people do weird symbolic things before they take their lifes} and charlotte is super creeped out and heavily traumatised at that so basically she decides to do some research abt her family and all that and she finds out that a few missing person cases and she does some research on that cuz she’s super bored and guess what all THOES missing person cases lead back to their family emblem so blah. Blah blah blah a lot of research scenes later charlotte finds out her family is running an organ trafficking ring so yea and she was obviously even more traumatised so she decides to go to her aunts house {they didn’t sell it away cuz they thought maybe charlotte could use it} and basically all her aunts belongings are there and she was looking through an album she and her aunt made and there was a note hidden between the pages and it basically told charlotte how much she loves her and she wishes that she could adopt charlotte but sh can’t {financial reasons} and that she just loves her a lot and then she wrote that charlotte shouldn’t trust her parents and all taht and basically through clues and letters hidden throughout the room she finds out that her aunt actually found out abt her parents organ trafficking ring and she was being mentally tortured by her parents and she just couldn’t take t anymore and kills herself but before she does it she carved her family’s company’s emblem on her palm to foreshadow taht her death was charlottes parents fault and basically charlotte is extremely traumatised and she has a whole mental breakdown and she goes back to her parents house and yeah she looks really distraught and all that so her dad questions her and she keeps avoiding everything and her dad finds out that she knows the secret and basically her parents chase her down the house to get rid of her but she escapes to the police station with all the clues {and a tape recording of her parents confessing abt it} and she obviously reports them and bla blah blah the parents get sentenced to life in prison and basically charlotte is free now so but her life feels so empty and she can’t take it anymore so she kills herself but before she does it she donates everything to charity and leaves a very lengthy suicide nit thanking the world for being kind to her and all that and before the ending of the book she jumps off a building
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2024.06.07 20:33 Michael_04_22 Parents going irate because someone helped me pay for towing.

For context I'm a 20 year old male living in Canada. A couple months ago my car broke down. Someone offered to pay for a CAa membership (a towing company). I gladly accepted it. I could of paid for it myself though. Few months later my parents open a letter in the mail, that has my name on it.
The guy charge backed his credit card, so my membership is canceled. Which doesn't even matter. Because I was able to tow during the period it was active.
My parents went absolutely bonkers, and said they would disown me! They acted like i murdered someone. Like what? I got a membership for free. Why are you mad? 😂 This is so stupid.
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2024.06.07 20:33 Rachel_reddit_ if you get an offer letter that is TAN in color, offering you a job with no interview ITS A SCAM

if you get an offer letter that is TAN in color, offering you a job with no interview ITS A SCAM
if you get an offer letter that is TAN in color, offering you a job with no interview ITS A SCAM. They even tried calling this person in question from a 618 area code
From: Employee at Savvi Fashion [employee@savvifashion.shop](mailto:employee@savvifashion.shop) Subject: Offer of Employment Date: June 7, 2024 at 10:48:36 AM CDT
Hello[NAME REDACTED] Following your interview, we are glad to hire you as a Remote Photo Retoucher. Additional information can be found in the accompanying contract. If you accept this offer, please fill out the forms and email them back.
IF ANY COMPANY EVER HIRES YOU SUPER QUICKLY AND ASKS FOR YOUR BANK ACCOUNT AND SIGNATURE, DONT SIGN IT, DONT GIVE THEM YOUR BANK ACCOUNT. ITS A SCAM.
SEE HOW THERES AN ADDRESS LISTED ABOVE? GOOGLE THAT ADDRESS AND I BET IT DOESNT CORRESPOND WITH THE COMPANY WHO IS TRYING TO SCAM YOU
GO ON LINKEDIN, AND LOOK UP THIS PERSONS NAME. I BET YOU THEY DONT WORK FOR THAT COMPANY. REACH OUT TO HR TOO ON LINKED OF THAT COMPANY.
"You will be entitled to Casual/Sick Leaves: National/Festival holidays". NO ONE USES THOSE KIND OF WORDS LIKE FESTIVALS IN AMERICA WHEN DESCRIBING HOLIDAY TIME OFF.
go to whois website and lookup the domain name: [savvifashion.shop](mailto:employee@savvifashion.shop) and see that it was registered 3 days ago.
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2024.06.07 20:29 Wide_Entrepreneur928 Health & Happiness - My Journey With A Glioblastoma Diagnosis

Hi Everyone, later this month I will be 7 years out of my Glioblastoma diagnosis. I was 30 years old when I was diagnosed and am 37 years old now. Over the last 6+ years, I have been put in contact with many people battling the same diagnosis and decided to create a Word document titled "Health & Happiness", which details all of the things I have incorporated into my healing journey. Everyone is different and I am simply sharing what has worked for me. Neither me or my wife are in the medical field however we have spent a lot of time researching things to integrate into my day-to-day life which we believe are keeping me healthy. For the first 5 years of my journey I received MRI's every 8 weeks; now that I am more than 5 years out I get MRI's every 12 weeks. Below is a copy and paste of the document:
*Below there are some discount codes that I have not affiliation with and found them through IG or marketing emails and they might be outdated*
My Neurosurgeon:
Dr. Mitchel Berger - UCSF
My Neuro Oncologist:
Dr. Timothy Cloughesy - UCLA
My Naturopathic Doctor:
· Christian Gonzalez, ND
o Check out his podcast, “Heal Thy Self” – This podcast has been life-changing for my wife and I. It has provided us with assurance about the path that we have been on to keep me healthy and has opened our eyes to so many things that we thought were “good” and “healthy” when in fact we were grossly misled to a technique called “Green Washing” that a lot of companies and products use in their marketing efforts.
· Below are two links where you can find a ND in your area.
o Naturopath Oncologist Database - https://oncanp.org/directory/
o General Naturopath Doctor Database - https://www.naturopathic.org/AF_MemberDirectory.asp?version=2
CBD/THC Extracts - Cancer Protocols:
· I went through CT's full 90 day protocol back in 2017 in conjunction with radiation and chemo (Temodar). I am on CT's "maintenance" program and have been since I finished the 90 day protocol.
o https://www.constancetherapeutics.com/
o https://www.forbes.com/sites/abbierosne2019/01/24/constance-finleys-midlife-detour-to-cannabis-extraction-connoisseu#456c41bc35c6
§ The article above is from Forbes magazine on Constance and how she got started.
Books and Documentaries:
· Radical Remission. This book was the first book I read when I was diagnosed and gave me knowledge and motivation to not look at my diagnosis as a death sentence. One of the most powerful cancer books I have read and I highly recommend it for anyone that has cancer or knows someone that has cancer. 😊
· What the Health: Netflix
· Heal: Netflix
o Here are a couple ‘extras’ from “Heal” that we found very powerful and inspiring.
§ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7sxmK8A-Kco&list=PLmcZvnvGDkToo9nYIX3ugcgyLCll0NLLc&utm_content=b080891cf2ccb1c272c432873d52f9cd&utm_campaign=Don%27t+believe+you+can+change+your+destiny%3F+This+video+could+help+you+change+your+mind.&utm_source=Robly.com&utm_medium=email

§ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EeQjNRahxrw&feature=youtu.be&utm_content=eadbd6e0e0dff2d44d28e6515fa4c2a1&utm_campaign=Rob+Wergin+use+his+incredible+and+unique+gifts&utm_source=Robly.com&utm_medium=email

o The Documentary “Heal”, did so well they wrote a book as well.
· The Game Changers – A documentary on Netflix.
· Forks Over Knives - Netflix
· Cowspiracy – Netflix
· The China Study – Book outlining the most comprehensive study done on nutrition, and the links the standard American diet has to all types of diseases including cancer.
· Being In Balance - Book
· You The Healer – Book
· The Power of Now – Book
· The Celestine Prophecy – Book
· How Not To Die – Book
· The Truth About Cancer – Documentary


Supplements I am taking:
· Maca Root
· Vitamin B12
· Gaia – “Liver Health”
· Bladderwrack & Sea Moss
o We purchase these from- https://alkalineveganshop.com/
· Mushroom Supplements: Chaga, Turkey Tail, Maitake, Reishi, Cordyceps & Lion’s Mane (Real Mushrooms is the company we use.) See video and article below about the health benefits of mushrooms.
o https://www.realmushrooms.com/
o https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuL_faveAnw
o https://www.drweil.com/health-wellness/body-mind-spirit/canceturkey-tail-mushrooms-for-cancer-treatment/
o Paul Stamets is the CEO of Host Defense and his mother was diagnosed with Stage Four Breast Cancer. He gives a lot of credit to her remission from the mushroom supplements. https://hostdefense.com/also has a 10% off first time order. We order from Vitacost.com though due to their sales and free shipping.
· Agaricus Mushroom – I take it at night with my Essiac Tea (See Below)
· Kelp
· Vitamin D3
· Graviola/Soursop – (can be taken as a supplement or in Tea form)
· Ashwagandha –Benefits and study links below. In the first link below, each number found in the article is a hyper link showcasing different studies that have been conducted proving the benefits listed.
o https://www.healthline.com/nutrition/12-proven-ashwagandha-benefits#section3
o https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmed/26650066
· Vitamin B2
· Boswellia (Frankincense)
· Melatonin
· CoQ10
[· X-R Shield by LifeExtension – My ND prescribed me to take these 5 days prior to air travel, during travel and 5 days after air travel. When flying, you’re exposed to high amounts of radiation and this supplement helps to protect cell DNA damage]()
· Chaparral
o We purchase these from- https://alkalineveganshop.com/
· Liposomal Glutathione – Quicksilver Scientific
· NAC (N-Acetyl-L-Cysteine, Free-Form)
· Co-E1 NADH
· Probiotic – Klaire Labs, Ther-Biotic Complete
· Life Cykel Mushroom Tinctures
o https://us.lifecykel.com/?rfsn=3953957.f0c203&utm_source=refersion&utm_medium=affiliate&utm_campaign=3953957.f0c203
o Discount code: 0DCB4626
o Chaga, Turkey Tail, Reishi, Lions Maine, Cordyceps, Shitake
o All of the above mushrooms are harnessed in Kakadu Plum juice which is the most Vitamin C dense fruit in the world.
· We get most of our supplements from http://www.vitacost.com . They have sales all the time and free 2-day shipping.

Teas:
· Senna Tea - I drank this on the nights I took Temodar (Chemo) to prevent constipation, it's a lot easier on your body than any OTC medication.
· Essiac Tea - I drink 4 oz. of this every night before bed. People who have defeated cancer give a lot of credit to Essiac Tea.
o We purchase it in loose leaf form from https://www.starwest-botanicals.com/
· Moringa
· Dandelion
· Teas with Turmeric
[· Pique Tea – Organic, ceremonial grade, triple screened for heavy metals, mold toxins and pesticides. This is the only tea that we have been able to find that has a triple screening process for heavy metals. “Organic” does not mean free of heavy metals.]()
o Discount Code: GREENFIELD 15% off!

Other things I do:
· Meditation – Every day for 20 minute – I started off with the app called “Headspace” other people use “Calm”. Its personal preference.
o I am looking into taking a TM class (Transcendental Meditation) and will let you know once I do.
[· Minimizing EMF exposure as much as possible]()
o Sleeping with our phones in airplane mode and away from us, ideally in another room
o Turning off Wi-Fi at night, and even when not in use
o Covering Wi-Fi router and Digital Electricity Meter (outside of house) with EMF guards
§ These can be found here: https://smartmeterguard.com/
o Keeping cell phones away from our bodies as much as possible
o Not using anything wireless near our heads. This includes cell phones (always talk on speaker phone or a wired ear pod connection), air pods or any type of Bluetooth headphones, this includes Bluetooth in the car.
o Hardwiring my office so there is no need for Wi-Fi.
· When we fly, we have these blankets that we wrap around our body. This company has a lot of great products that protect you from EMF exposure.
o https://www.defendershield.com/emf-radiation-protection-blanket
· We also wear these when we fly, they are a company out of Australia
o https://radiasmart.com/emf-hat-hood/
o This is what we have: RS EMF radiation protection hood, blocking RF, EMF- Brian Coat
· Here is another company that is popular, we were not aware of it at the time of buying the other products above.
o https://getlambs.com/products/emf-proof-beanie
· Positive attitude and mindset in everything I do- link below to article explaining how thoughts can benefit or hinder your body
o https://www.huffpost.com/entry/how-your-thoughts-change-your-brain-cells-and-genes_b_9516176
· Eliminate as much stress as I possibly can from my everyday life
· Be present in my mind
· Yoga
· Spin
· Writing down 3 things that I am grateful for each night before bed
· Using Frankincense oil on my feet and pillow, every night, before bed
· Morning Routine: Body Scan Meditation, Drink a liter of water when you wake up (Your body is most dehydrated after a full night’s sleep), stretch or some type of quick 10 minute workout to get your body moving in the morning, “I Am” affirmations (I will usually do this right after I finish my morning stretching, I will typically say 5-10 things out loud to myself, for example (I am healthy, I am a loving husband, I am kind, etc…), statements of gratitude (I will mix this in with my “I Am” affirmations, for example, I am grateful for my bed, I am grateful for my home, I am grateful to have access to organic produce, etc…) I try to focus on this that I have in my life instead of things that I want, rubbing a 1-2 drops of any organic essential oil that you like in your hands in the morning and taking 4-5 deep breaths with your hands over your mouth and nose (this is very helpful in awakening your sensory functions), lastly, I listen to music when getting ready for work in the morning. Soft music in the morning taps into the creative side of your brain and research has shown that individuals that listen to soft music in the morning are more creative and productive throughout the day than those who don’t.
· Taking a walk every day to get fresh air and disconnect, normally with the dogs J
· Circuit Training
· Acupuncture / Energy Healing
· Energy Healer – Steve Montoya – Let me know if you would like his contact info. He travels all over the world healing people. He is in the LA/OC area once a quarter or so.
o https://ramonashealingjourney.wordpress.com/2015/11/04/you-shall-know-them-by-their-love/
· Keeping my body warm at all times. We learned from Traditional Chinese Medicine, that keeping the body warm protects the kidneys, which means all of the other organs can do their job and the body can heal. Also, just for example, when you have a fever, it’s your body’s way of protecting all of your vital organs so that they can do their job, as well as preventing any proliferation of bacteria and viruses.
o http://aprilcrowell.com/asian-medicine/warm-to-the-core/
· John of God – Brazil. Lauren’s cousin went down to visit him during the 4th quarter of 2018 and took a head shot of myself as well as a two-page letter sharing my story. He is a spiritual healer that helped a young man get to a state of meditation where his brain tumor shrunk to nothing. He sent back two bottles of Herbs (Ground Up Passion Flower Leaves – Actual Name: Passiflora) for me to take. There is a large portion about him in the book “Radical Remission” and he is featured in “Heal” as well.
· I brush my teeth with my less dominant hand once a day and then with my dominant hand the other two times.
o This helps stimulate parts of the brain that are not in use often. You can do this with many things, brushing your hair, using your less dominant foot in sports, washing your body with soap while showering.
· Drinking and eating out of glass vs. plastic. It’s having an effect on both men and women’s endocrine systems (hormones, fertility, etc…)
o https://www.plasticpollutioncoalition.org/pft/2017/7/26/new-endocrine-disrupting-chemicals-are-undermining-male-fertility
· This may sound like something so simple but it’s quite challenging: When moving/changing physical positions I am always present. For example, every time I sit, I tell myself I am sitting, every time I stand to walk, I tell myself I am standing. This helps me to bring my mind into a present state and focus less on the future or past.
o This was a recommendation during one of my guided meditations.
· Laughing, loving and hugging every day. This was a big take away for Lauren and I from reading the book Radical Remission. It’s important to laugh every day, love every day and receive and give hugs to people every day. I know, I know, it sounds crazy but it has worked on other folks, we practice it every day. We try to watch more comedies if we are going to watch a movie on the weekend, an easy way to incorporate laughter into your life.
· We recently added air purifiers into our home. I also have one in my office. We purchased the Molekule, but through research we found that the Air Doctor is another good option (and I believe also a little less expensive). Here is a discount code for $100 off a Molekule: MetroMD100
· IR Sauna (Infrared Saunas)
o These are great for detoxifying the body, especially after air travel. I go to Perspire (https://perspiresaunastudio.com/) here in Orange County.
· Epsom Salt Baths – Especially after air or any long car travel as well.
· Grounding/Earthing – Walk around barefoot on your backyard grass or anywhere there is a plot of “Earth”. Feel the grass between your toes or if you are at the beach, be aware of the sand between your toes. We are all energy and Earth contains energy, manifest the energy from the Earth into your body for increased healing, awareness, presence and mindfulness. I do this for about 10-15 minutes.
· Cold Showers (as cold as the shower can get) every morning and Ice Plunges. Look up the “Wim Hof Method”
o https://www.wimhofmethod.com/

Diet:
· For the past 6+ years we have followed a whole food plant-based diet (vegan without the junk food). Cancer cells feed off of Glucose (Sugar) firstly, but can also utilize glutamate as a second source of fuel (which is in all animal protein, land and sea). I have also cut out all artificial sugars from my diet. Dairy is also extremely inflammatory for your body and has been linked to cancer in many research studies.
· White Carbs and Gluten - We have eliminated these from our diet as much as we possibly can. Even for people who do not have a ‘gluten intolerance,’ gluten is very hard on the body’s digestive system. Excessive consumption can lead to a leaky gut, which causes toxins to seep out of the digestive tract into the body/blood making it hard for your immune system to work at its peak. Also, most gluten products have high levels of glyphosate, which they’ve linked to cancer. Glyphosate acts like an antibiotic to your gut (not in a good way), wiping out all of the beneficial gut flora which are there to keep your immune system working efficiently.
· Alkaline Foods and Water - Cancer cells cannot grow in an alkaline environment; we drink water with a PH level of 9.5. We recently invested in a Kangen water machine for our home. A level of 7 PH is balanced and anything below 7 is acidic. Cancer cells thrive in an acidic environment. Things that make your body acidic are alcohol, dairy, meat, processed and artificial sugars and gluten.
· I drink warm lemon water with apple cider vinegar every morning, which also helps alkalize the body and keep stomach acid levels at a great pH for food absorption.
· We practice intermittent fasting, which allows the body to not worry about processing food for a large portion of the day but rather allow its immune system to be working at its peak ability. We started out by only eating from 12 PM - 8 PM and are working toward 12 PM - 6 PM. Intermittent fasting is really important when taking Temodar (or any chemotherapy). It allows the body to protect the healthy cells while targeting cancer cells. There is so much research showing the benefits of intermittent fasting for cancer patients.
· This is a really interesting article citing a lot of different sources regarding a plant-based diet and fighting/preventing cancer:
o https://www.vivahealth.org.uk/veganhealth/dont-feed-cancer

Other Things to Research:
· Dr. Sebi – He is the doctor who put a full-page ad in the NY Post and was sued to take it down. When he went to his court hearing the judge asked him if he could prove that he healed anyone, and he furnished 70 patients of his that were healed by his treatment and the Judge declared “not guilty” on all the charges that were brought against him by the State of New York.
o The link below is a quick rundown of his life. I believe the pharmaceutical companies were heavily involved with his death in while he was imprisoned in Honduras.
o https://wakeup-world.com/2015/08/28/dr-sebi-the-man-who-cures-aids-cancer-diabetes-and-more/
· Radiation Stickers for your cell phone and laptop:
o https://www.amazon.com/Radiation-Protection-Labobbon-Household-Appliances/dp/B078SSD6QC
· We also try to use the ‘cleanest’ hygiene products we can find. There are many harmful chemicals in our everyday toothpastes, shampoos, deodorants, etc. Chemicals to avoid in hygiene products below:
o Shampoo – Sodium Lauryl Sulfate, Sodium Laureth Sulfate, basically any ‘sulfate,’ Parabens, Sodium Benzoate. Brands that we like are: 100% Pure, Acure, Alaffia
o Toothpaste – Sodium Lauryl Sulfate, Sodium Laureth Sulfate, basically any ‘sulfate’, fluoride, triclosan, DEA, Propylene Glycol, Microbeads. One of the worst toothpaste brands out there is Colgate. We use Himalaya Botanique & Nature’s Gate as well as Dr. Bronner’s All-In-One toothpaste.
o Deodorant – Aluminum, Parabens, Triclosan, DEA, Propylene Glycol. We have been testing out natural deodorants for years and our favorite (although not vegan) is from a company called Primally Pure. We’ve also started to use a brand called Joyous Organics with clean (and minimal) ingredients.
o A great website to reference for beauty product ingredients and their safety is https://www.ewg.org/
§ Skin Deep Database – This is where you will find clean products to put on your body.
· https://www.ewg.org/skindeep/

· The Clean Fifteen and Dirty Dozen
o The EWG, each year, comes out with an updated list of produce that we should be buying organic 100% of the time (Dirty Dozen), especially people like you and I who have had cancer. The Clean fifteen can be purchased conventionally if you can’t find them in an organic form and conventional is the only option
o https://www.ewg.org/foodnews/clean-fifteen.php
o https://www.ewg.org/foodnews/dirty-dozen.php

· The link below is a good read on Monsanto’s Glyphosate and the timeline for removal in home use:
o https://www.ewg.org/news-insights/news-release/2021/07/bayer-end-residential-sales-cancer-causing-weedkiller-glyphosate?utm_source=newsletter&utm_campaign=202108News&utm_medium=email&emci=9a939839-bef6-eb11-b563-501ac57b8fa7&emdi=4d3bfe91-dbf7-eb11-b563-501ac57b8fa7&ceid=2210188
These are things that we have done and have found to be successful so far with my body, and hopefully, they are helpful for you as well. I have also included some images below that show how damaging the effects of Wi-Fi radiation (and all of the radiation coming from electronics) can be.
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2024.06.07 20:18 Unusual_Trainer_2546 Feel confused/ anxious

Using a throw away for obvious reasons.
I’m feeling really confused and anxious about this, before anyone calls me stupid I know I just want a general opinion/ advice on how to get over this.
A few weeks ago I started taking to this woman (just going to refer to the person as that because that’s what I thought they were) she had a picture on her profile, comments in communities that I also follow and the account was half a year old.
We’ve been speaking for a couple of weeks just getting to know eachother, she’s been flirting and very up front about what kind of person she’s looking for which led to her sending a nude.
At the time I reverse Google searched this and there were no results found.
We’ve been talking some more and in that time I’ve seen a few pictures of her family members and some more pictures of herself, I reversed searched these and no results. She even sent me a picture of nails she had done.
I eventually sent a selfie which only contained half of my face.
We were speaking some more until our messages turned a bit sexual, nothing crazy but obviously I said some things I wish I hadn’t now.
Last night I was lying there and I decided to use a reverse image search that has Google lenses and my heart dropped when I found the picture of the nails on Pinterest, I then searched the nude and that came up also. I searched the selfies and other pictures, no results found for them though.
I called her out on this today and she said the pics are her but she doesn’t send real naughty pics as that’s not her style, I said that’s fine I wouldn’t expect you to anyway. I then asked if she’d mind writing out her username and putting her hand next to it so I can see that she’s genuine, 20 minutes later the account was gone. My friend has a Reddit account, I asked if they would look to see if the account is gone or if I have just been blocked me but the account has been deleted.
Through messages she seemed genuine, we were talking about cars I asked what colour it was and later on when she sent me a picture of her dog it was in the colour and make of the car she said she had. I also asked what she does for work, she said get gets up early and some of the messages were from 6/7am, the times she said she’d be up, there’s a lot more some of it seemed too specific to make up.
Obviously she was a catfish of some sort as she deleted the account after I asked for proof, I’m really anxious as she has some raunchy messages from me (no nudes) and has seen half of my face am I ruined because of this?
She doesn’t know any personal information like my name ect.
Obviously I have learnt from this but I’m really anxious, thank you!
Update : edit for better context
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2024.06.07 20:17 daboxghost420 i very proud of myself but i also feel kinda bad .

So i got a text from an ex on monday for the first time in 2 years, we went through the normal motions ( hey , how r u , etc) . Since we broke up on good friendly terms I thought that she was just seeing how im doing and just wanted to catch up.
This morning she started calling me by my old pet name and asked me out. I was estatic because i really do miss her alot but i rembered that im on a path of getting my life better and as my therapist says “you cant move forward by walking backwards “. so i sent her this message :
“Hey, i gotta be honest here. While i am very very happy youre reaching out and wanna start things over , I dont think its a good idea that we talk anymore.
Its not because i hate you or anything but because im still in love with you . And i dont think it would be healthy for me to get back into a relationship with you even if its friendship because youve already shown to me that at the core of everything you really dont wanna be with me in any capacity (which is fine , the heart wants what it wants ya know? ) But if i wanna grow like i want then i gotta be more protective of my heart even if it means not continuing with someone im completley crazy for . So i wish you and all the kids the best, you guys desrve to be happy . P.S. tell your oldest congrats and that im super proud of him for graduating this year.”
She responded with “ok i understand” wished me the best and that was it.
Im really proud of myself for identifying and not getting sucked back into a bad relationship cycle today because a while ago i wouldve jumped at the opportunity without a thought . But i also feel kinda shitty because i really loved and missed this person even though i know keeping this cut off was the right choice to make.
TLDR: An ex that im still in love with asked me out and i said no because i realised it wouldnt be healthy for me and now i feel bad .
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2024.06.07 20:15 Optimal_Life_1259 Copilot write me a poem about fibromyalgia

Copilot – write me a poem about Fibromyalgia. I was curious what copilot would say. For those of you that don’t know what copilot is it’s a Microsoft addition that allows you to ask questions and prompt it to write letters, poems, summarize letters, and notes etc. there’s so much more to it. I just am not that experienced. Copilot wrote the below in its entirety.
In the quiet whispers of the morning light, Lies a battle unseen, a continuous fight. Fibromyalgia, a name so complex, A condition that’s more than mere muscle pecks.
A Thief in the Night A thief in the night, it steals away ease, Leaving behind pain, a relentless tease. Muscles and fibers cry out in distress, A silent scream of the body’s duress.
The Invisible Storm An invisible storm, raging within, A tempest of aches, beneath the skin. Fatigue like waves, crashing ashore, A body’s plea, “I can bear no more.”
The Unseen Struggle The unseen struggle, day by day, A warrior’s journey in every way. Strength is found in the softest sigh, Resilience in the tear from an eye.
The Tender Touch A tender touch, a simple embrace, Can be agony in fibro’s trace. Yet, within the pain, there’s hope that glows, A spirit unbroken, as the warm wind blows.
The Silent Understanding In the eyes of another, a silent understanding, A nod to the pain, not demanding. Companionship in the quiet fight, Together in the dark, seeking the light.
The Dance of Life Fibromyalgia, a dance of life, A partner of strife, cutting like a knife. But in this dance, beauty can be found, In the strength and grace that abound.
The Endless Journey An endless journey, a path unclear, But forward we go, conquering fear. For in the heart of those who endure, Lies a love and courage, forever pure.
May this poem honor those who live with fibromyalgia, acknowledging their daily courage and strength. ��
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2024.06.07 20:15 Saca312 [FS][USA][CAN] VOUCHED SALE! SZ8.5-11! T$1 HIGH M0CHÂ, ÄJ1 ÜN10N BLK T0E, RUST, AJ4 BR3D REIM@GINED, M1L1T@RY BLK

Hey all! Got a quick sale :)! All shoes are $100 or less, plus they're brand new and deadstock. Doesn't get better than that!
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CURRENT VOUCH THREAD: https://www.reddit.com/RepVouch/comments/ntvbpw/usaca312_part_3/
TAGGED PHOTOS W/ TIMESTAMP
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SHOES

I have a certain process with shoe orders to best serve you, the consumer. The following is a breakdown of important things to note:
1.) ÅJ1 x UN!0N BL@ĆK TOE
2.) ÅJ1 1 x B@SEL PINK
3.) ÅJ1 1 x T$ OG HIGH BROWN
4.) ÅJ4 BR3Ð R3IM@G1NED
5.) ÅJ4 M1L1T@R¥ BL@ĆK
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SOLD.) ÅJ4 0R£0
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SOLD.) DEADSTOCK G0Y@RD CARDHOLDERS
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SOLD.) DEADSTOCK & NWT MENS UNDERGARMENT APPAREL
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SOLD.) DEADSTOCK LUEY FUTTON Apparel
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SOLD.) DEADSTOCK F0G APPAREL
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SOLD.) ÅJ1 1 x T$ OG HIGH BROWN
SOLD.) ÅJ4 BL@CK C@T
SOLD.) ÅJ1 x T$ R3V3RSE M0ĆH@ LOW
SOLD.) ÅJ1 UŅ1V3RS1TY BLUE
SOLD.) ÅJ4 1NDÜ$TR1AL / M1L1TÄR¥ BLÜE
SOLD.) ÅJ4 P1N£ GR3£Ņ
SOLD.) ÅJ4 BR3Ð R3IM@G1NED
SOLD.) ÅJ4 BLUE T$ C@ĆTÜ$ J@ÇĶ
SOLD.) ÅJ1 x T$ "PH@NT0M" L0W
SOLD). ÅJ1 x T$ "0L1V£" L0W
SOLD.) ÅJ1 x T$ OG L0W M0CHǍ
SOLD.) ÂJ1 x T$ x FR@GM£ÑT L0W
SOLD.) ÅJ4 M1L1TÄR¥ BL@CK
SOLD.) ¥Z¥ B00$T TREE-FIDDYv2 BR3D
SOLD.) ¥Z¥ B00$T TREE-FIDDYv2 CR3AM YT
SOLD.) DÜJ@ V£ BLACK JACKET SIZE M TTS - $55 SHIPPED
SOLD.) ÅJ1 M1D SM0KE GR3Y
SOLD.) ÅJ11 LOW "SN@KE N@VY"
SOLD.) ÅJ4 0R£0
SOLD.) ÅJ1 BL@ÇK T0£S
SOLD.) ĀJ4 R3D THÜND£R
SOLD.) ǍJ3 RÆC£R BLÜ£
SOLD.) ÅJ1 x T$ G0LF "N3UTR@L 0LIV3" L0W
SOLD.) ÅJ4 UŅ1V3RS1TY BLŨ£
SOLD.) ǍJ1 ÜŃ10Ņ $T0ŘM BLÜ£
SOLD.) RETAIL (USED) ÄJ4 BL@ÇĶ CÃT$ SIZE 11 (eB@y Authenticated) - $335 SHIPPED
SOLD. ĄJ4 M3T@LL1C PÚRPL3
SOLD.) M@1$0N K1TSÜN£ WHITE CREWNECK SIZE M TTS - $50 SHIPPED
SOLD.) ÅJ4 M1DN1GĦT NÄV¥
That is all for what I have! Feel free to reach out if you have any questions!
If you ever encounter any issues, please don't hesitate to reach out to me via PM or chat. I'll do my best to resolve them for you. If anything falls short of your expectations, please send me a message, as I'm committed to ensuring your satisfaction with your purchase. However, please understand that certain factors like shipping delays are beyond my control, and I won't be able to provide refunds in those cases. Your satisfaction with your purchase is my top priority!
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2024.06.07 20:08 Esdeathhh Letters in the mail about being sued

Got letters in the mail almost 2 months ago from a bunch of different attorneys and credit lawyers saying I’m being sued but I’ve never been served? To my knowledge, at least. Not sure what that would even be like. My question is, should I be worried? I’m not sure what to do, I cleaned up my credit nicely aside from this.
It’s from 2018, a car my father got in my name. $17k, original loan from Santander but car was repossessed sometime early 2019 I think. I do know if I get served to contact a lawyer and such but I’m just scared I somehow missed being served. Any advice would be appreciated!
Edit: to add sometime in may my credit score was updated on myFICO saying the account status was updated and my score jumped close to 30 points, for the same car repossession account.
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