I feel like I am giving up albeit I take full responsibility for the part I played in this.
Typical sob story. I was a good kid K-12, gifted program, full ride scholarship to university. Family problems but who doesn't have those? Been dealing with constant depression for 10 years now (starting to believe it's Bipolar II and I'm now medicated). I've been hospitalized twice and made an attempt once 2 years ago.
I went to school for a useless degree because I really enjoyed theatre, arts, acting etc but thought it would be ridiculous to get a B.A in theatre. Unfortunately, it's not like I enjoy what I did go for, either. Haven't been able to find a job in that market that pays more or equal to serving.
The two therapists I saw via my college's counseling program, and especially the last one, were my absolute rocks. I had tons of mood swings, ups and downs, etc but was able to finally get my degree this month. I was no longer enrolled, so they had to kick me out kindly. I found another therapist later in the week and he ended up being a sexual predator. So I decided to take a break from that for now.
The truth is working flares up my mental illness very badly. Like verging on sue-of-side. I have had over 20+ jobs since I was 16. I wake up one day and feel like a ton of bricks are on me and very, very depressed. I've cried several times in the bathroom at work and I just can't help it. No, employers don't care. Or they fire me eventually.
So I've been stuck in a shitty food service/retail/low pay spiral over the last two years. At least during school I just saw this as a pit stop or a means to an end, but now, there isn't any. I'm just kind of realizing that this is it. And I don't want to do it. And now, unfortunately, I have to move back home and 2 hours away from my only and best friend in the entire world. He's kind of emotionally unavailable and appears to be unaffected but I know he isn't.
My resume is gappy and the job market is horrible right now. It's just 4+ years of serving, so no grownup jobs take it seriously. Thankfully, I had an interview to be a flight attendant and I thought that'd be a great opportunity for me since I'll be living with my mom anyways. It could potentially lead to a more "big girl" career and some upward mobility, maybe. I also interviewed for a WFH job but it is only paying $10/hr and rent starts in my area at $900 for a 1-bed. But I'm waiting to hear back from those and if I'll even hear back at all. It is stressing me out.
Thankfully, I just started taking Lamictal so I hope it helps. But right now it just makes me feel empty and miserable. Everyone keeps saying to tough it out and the side effects will subside but I just don't know.
I have hobbies. I love baking, cooking, and yoga. Just got back into reading. I would take a bullet for the people I love. I had dreams of going to grad school to become a therapist but those are being put on hold because it would just be a financial disaster for at least the next 5 years. What even is the point.

I feel like I am giving up albeit I take full responsibility for the part I played in this. I know it's an extremely long post but please bear with. I feel like I am at my wit's end.
Typical sob story. I was a good kid K-12, gifted program, full ride scholarship to university. Family problems but who doesn't have those? Been dealing with constant depression for 10 years now (starting to believe it's Bipolar II and I'm now medicated). I've been hospitalized twice and made an attempt once 2 years ago.
I went to school for a useless degree because I really enjoyed theatre, arts, acting etc but thought it would be ridiculous to get a B.A in theatre. Unfortunately, it's not like I enjoy what I did go for, either. Haven't been able to find a job in that market that pays more or equal to serving.
The two therapists I saw via my college's counseling program, and especially the last one, were my absolute rocks. I had tons of mood swings, ups and downs, etc but was able to finally get my degree this month. I was no longer enrolled, so they had to kick me out kindly. I found another therapist later in the week and he ended up being a sexual predator. So I decided to take a break from that for now.
The truth is working flares up my mental illness very badly. Like verging on sue-of-side. I have had over 20+ jobs since I was 16. I wake up one day and feel like a ton of bricks are on me and very, very depressed. I've cried several times in the bathroom at work and I just can't help it. No, employers don't care. Or they fire me eventually.
So I've been stuck in a shitty food service/retail/low pay spiral over the last two years. At least during school I just saw this as a pit stop or a means to an end, but now, there isn't any. I'm just kind of realizing that this is it. And I don't want to do it. And now, unfortunately, I have to move back home and 2 hours away from my only and best friend in the entire world. He's kind of emotionally unavailable and appears to be unaffected but I know he isn't.
My resume is gappy and the job market is horrible right now. It's just 4+ years of serving, so no grownup jobs take it seriously. Thankfully, I had an interview to be a flight attendant and I thought that'd be a great opportunity for me since I'll be living with my mom anyways. It could potentially lead to a more "big girl" career and some upward mobility, maybe. I also interviewed for a WFH job but it is only paying $10/hr and rent starts in my area at $900 for a 1-bed. But I'm waiting to hear back from those and if I'll even hear back at all. It is stressing me out.
Thankfully, I just started taking Lamictal so I hope it helps. But right now it just makes me feel empty and miserable. Everyone keeps saying to tough it out and the side effects will subside but I just don't know.
I have hobbies. I love baking, cooking, and yoga. Just got back into reading. I would take a bullet for the people I love. I had dreams of going to grad school to become a therapist but those are being put on hold because it would just be a financial disaster for at least the next 5 years. What is the point? What am I even doing?

We’ve been together 11.5 years. We have two kids (4F, 10M) I’m going to give a little background, but not too much because I could write a book.
My husband is VERY career focused. He works out of state, about 60-70% of the year. I went to college, but never have worked in my field. I’ve picked up part time work, or restaurant jobs that will work around my schedule the entire time we have been together.
My main focus has always been the kids. We don’t have reliable help so I’m in charge of everything kid and house related.
When we purchased our home I put down $16,000 of my own money (ALL OF MY SAVINGS) he put down the remaining 30k and my husband maintains ALL bills for the household except my and our sons phone, wifi, gas, groceries and part time preschool costs. We do NOT share finances, and with inflation I’ve been “broke” for months. I pay my bills with my little side cash and then have no money for anything. I can’t remember that last time I even bought clothes for myself. Both of our vehicles are paid off.
My husband has money. More money then I would even know what to do with. But it’s “HIS. “ He pays for everything when we are out together as a couple/or family outing. I think he makes between 10-15k before taXes a month based on his YTD.
I’ve been in therapy for awhile now and I’m pretty good at processing my emotions and being logical.
I know I’m being financially abused. But his stance is for me too… get a full time job.
He doesn’t realize how hard it would be for me to maintain everything I do with a full time job. I do all of the cooking,cleaning, drs, dentist, sports. It’s on me. And he’s never fucking home.
So today at breakfast… we were going over his summer calendar, when he’s going to be home, we have his family members flying in at two different times and I am hosting them. And he suggested we sit down and go over our monthly subscriptions, budget and I said “yeah I’d love to do that so you can see how broke I am” And he said “I would rather just divorce you and pay you, then give you my money”
???? I walked out and we haven’t spoken since.
My BIL is really high up in his company and has offered to get me in a lower level position for many years. I finally reached out to him and filled out an application. He’s talking to HR today ….
Fine. He’s wants me to work a full time job and maintain the household by myself and kids…. Okay. But I feel sick.
I want to know if he’s justified in feeling this way.
I’ll have my phone for the next 1.5 hours to respond to any questions.

My mom passed away in April at the age of 96. She insisted on staying in the large house I grew up in that was built in 1966. It's a three bedroom, three and a half bath that sits on three-quarters of an acre and is in a very nice town with great schools. It is a very desirable area to live in. The problem with the home is that nothing has really been improved over the years.
All of the bathrooms are original. Some faucets have been replaced. But the floors, tubs, toilets and vanities are all original.
The den and the foyer still have dark wood paneling. The utility room is still the most horrendous color of green I've ever seen (and I love the color green).
The kitchen has a linoleum floor put down over 30 years ago. The kitchen cabinets were redone around the same time. All the appliances in the house are from the 1990s.
The dining room and living room have all of the original furniture, drapes, dishes, crystal, and every tchotchke my mom purchased or was given.
My mom stopped going upstairs at least 10 years ago because she couldn't make the steps. The upstairs bathrooms haven't been used in forever. All of the rooms still have the original wallpaper. So much wallpaper.
I realize that most of the things she has in the house doesn't hold much value. My parents bedroom set is worth some $$ and there are three lamps that are valuable. I had one person who came over to discuss an estate sale. Even though she said it very nicely, she wanted no parts of it. Too much work for too little money.
Short story long, I need to sell the house. She had some money in the bank so I can pay the utilities, insurance and taxes. I don't have enough to do it long-term. She "didn't believe" in life insurance or any sort of investing so I have nothing else to draw from.
Because it was built in 1966, there is asbestos siding, or under the siding. All of the plumbing needs to be updated because the pipes are old. Actually everything needs to be updated so I guess the house will have to be gutted. Oh, and it needs a new roof.
How do I find the right realtor for the job? I have a few friends who are realtors but I don't want to ask them. I just need more information on the best course of action.
I don't know how much I should do as far as repairs go. If the house is going to be gutted, there doesn't seem to be any point. But if a realtor is going to show the property, some repair will have to be done.
I loved my mom, but I'm furious she didn't do more upkeep. I'm sick of coming here everyday. I'm furious she refused to downsize while she still could. I honored her wishes but now I'm left with this nightmare.
I made an appointment to get the carpets and upolstered furniture professional cleaned. There were mice in the house at some point and it looks like they made a very nice life for themselves. My mom also had a 20 year old cat (who died a week after she did) who had accidents in the house. They were cleaning up but there are still stains.
I have no other family. I have friends who helped in the beginning but they're busy with their lives. I'm sick of asking for help and them telling me they have something else to do.
This is just a lot.
I appreciate any guidance or advice.

Hi all (and who knows/I hope dr K),
Prepare to read!! But if you don't want to, get the TLDR at the bottom; I am very uncommon with Reddit so forgive me any mistakes!
I've been strugglin' along in life for a while now (am 26 years old) and even though I've been doubling down on dr K's videos last 6 months or so, it's been 10 years I've been working very hard on myself (sometimes really really obsessively). As following is how great my life is going;
I just got hired for a new job (System Engineer in IT), got a good base (got a small but nice apartment with garden, money, stuff, a cute cat) and I am very healthy and strong (I put alot of time in my health) and maybe I got some on the lucky side with appearance thanks to my parents (no model but u know, just fine). + I've joined group therapy on 18 yrs old for one and a half year, been in cognitive therapy since my 21st and still going sometimes and have been reading about philosophy, psychology for years and thought alot about a mentality of 'overcoming' and practicing this alot too in for example Boxing. As more medicine for the mind I sometimes make poems, play guitar and sing or make raps (been a while tbh), meditate, work out more, have a healthy routine and habits, try to do enough new things and take risks (as in Love and also career or vacations alone etc).. I feel like I understand myself and my world alot better than before and that I could do something really cool with these insights.
To understand my question but honestly also because I am weirdly eager to share my story, here's a small part of my history; My parents got divorced at age 5 or 6 because my mother joined a sect (like Amish but modernized) and the church said she had to, against my fathers' wishes. It was a horrible divorce, where suddenly my dad was gone, they regularly got in screaming fights with my mom wishing him dead etc, slamming doors (my dad broke into the house at least once) arguing over the relationship and us, while we didn't really understood why and cried ofcourse. Later on when things sort of settled down I saw my dad weekend on weekend off and until shortly I told myself everything was fine from that time on; it would be too much to tell, but I am now sure (beside every period also has some good things ofc) I have been emotionally neglected, traumatically manipulated by my mom (examples: literally years later when I felt sad my dad was gone while looking at old pictures where she cut him out, she said things like it was the demon in my room making me feel that way and she literally commanded/screamed it back to hell, I was frightened to death and my little sister cried once; my mother also observed and controlled us sometimes obsessively checking our stuff in search of where the devil could hide & would throw it away, and manipulate choices, what is not allowed to do or even think.. everything) and I lived an extremely sad, depressing, insecure and self-blaming youth. If I'd understood what really was going on with my mom and my family, I probably would have killed myself. Lucky me I guess she forced me to become a bit better at lying, and so too to myself. Hahah you thought that was all didn't yah? Hell no, here comes part two; at 15 yrs old I got kicked out of (that side of) the family which meant losing my mother, my siblings I grew up with, my best friend cousin and a whole network of friends because I had to move to my father in another city too far away. I had to walk away from home (my mom) because I felt very unsafe apparently, I wasn't welcome anymore after that. She also didn't respond to my texts, or said I could come and then cancel, and send not even a message from the first birthday since on. Later on I tried again but she keeps putting expectations on me and plays with my love for her. haven't seen her for 6 years now I think. But I also left the one good thing; my mothers' beliefs. I am grateful for my father to take me in, but I think now he was too traumatized by the happenings' in his life that he wasn't able to really connect with me when I moved in, we never discussed emotional parts or had a good talk the first year or more. Maybe we had later on but still, he always felt distant from me, as today I am afraid. Like he is half a ghost; He lives, but always seems unaware of half of what happens.. doing his routine over and over. You can talk but he forgets. Never said he loved me or anything, just he living his life and I mine besides his. I know he loves me, but sad it is.
So you can see I've been through some shit and still leaving out alot because it would be too long to read. I want to get to the point myself as like;
I am feeling okay lately and really are keeping my balance, feeling overall good and livin' prosperous as I actually always do. The only thing I really long still is having a connection with people. I don't know if it's me, them, or both.. I moved alot so it was hard to remain friendships, but I also think I find it hard to make friends because I feel like a strange ducky; I fear my past has changed me so much that I understand depth that my peers do not. It could be arrogance, but it must at least have some truth in it. It takes alot of energy to be around new people and since a year I have become alot more solitary, because I don't want to drink really, use drugs or stay up at night. I live a peaceful life reading, working out, pursue a nice career and sum good meditation (and tea) sessions. And try to keep a few good friendships going, which are going very well. But I haven't been in a relationship for 6 years and now I feel like I am ready (a healthy one this time I promise), only the women around me I feel like they are not (ghosting, are most interested in themselves, looking for checking their grocerylist, communicate intensely vague). I've had quite some experience with women and don't struggle to get dates, but I really find it hard to find real connection/understanding. I got on a new datingapp where you go on date when you match without chatting, sounds great not? Only with the first 3 matches they postponed the date already 6 times, two doubles, mostly same day/few hours before. And with horrible reason and effort after really. I also find the girls I have approached in real life and dated seem occupied, and some of those things i just listed. Generally very cold women here in Holland, is my experience (but there are always exceptions on ones' rules ofcourse);
''Has this world changed its' moral value, or is it I?''
.. So I wonder; do I need to change myself, or my environment? Do I maybe have a lack of connection what makes me feel like I lack connection, or am I still missing something internally? Or both? And do I need to be more patient while feeling a little righteous lack-of?
If you want to ask, share or give your worldview of anything please do so! I am here to learn, not to know it better.
Huge propz to dr K, thanks for the ton of knowledge I already learned from you for free and thanks for this reddit page!
thanks for reading!
​
side question: It could be obvious but is my history a normal one? or is it a bit different from the usual? I wouldn't know really, I like to see myself as normal
​
TL;DR: Life is going great, Life wás hell & felt like sharing, question; is there a chance for real love?
​
​

Hi all (and who knows/I hope dr K),
Prepare to read!! But if you don't want to, get the TLDR at the bottom; I am very uncommon with Reddit so forgive me any mistakes!
I've been strugglin' along in life for a while now (am 26 years old) and even though I've been doubling down on dr K's videos last 6 months or so, it's been 10 years I've been working very hard on myself (sometimes really really obsessively). As following is how great my life is going;
I just got hired for a new job (System Engineer in IT), got a good base (got a small but nice apartment with garden, money, stuff, a cute cat) and I am very healthy and strong (I put alot of time in my health) and maybe I got some on the lucky side with appearance thanks to my parents (no model but u know, just fine). + I've joined group therapy on 18 yrs old for one and a half year, been in cognitive therapy since my 21st and still going sometimes and have been reading about philosophy, psychology for years and thought alot about a mentality of 'overcoming' and practicing this alot too in for example Boxing. As more medicine for the mind I sometimes make poems, play guitar and sing or make raps (been a while tbh), meditate, work out more, have a healthy routine and habits, try to do enough new things and take risks (as in Love and also career or vacations alone etc).. I feel like I understand myself and my world alot better than before and that I could do something really cool with these insights.
To understand my question but honestly also because I am weirdly eager to share my story, here's a small part of my history; My parents got divorced at age 5 or 6 because my mother joined a sect (like Amish but modernized) and the church said she had to, against my fathers' wishes. It was a horrible divorce, where suddenly my dad was gone, they regularly got in screaming fights with my mom wishing him dead etc, slamming doors (my dad broke into the house at least once) arguing over the relationship and us, while we didn't really understood why and cried ofcourse. Later on when things sort of settled down I saw my dad weekend on weekend off and until shortly I told myself everything was fine from that time on; it would be too much to tell, but I am now sure (beside every period also has some good things ofc) I have been emotionally neglected, traumatically manipulated by my mom (examples: literally years later when I felt sad my dad was gone while looking at old pictures where she cut him out, she said things like it was the demon in my room making me feel that way and she literally commanded/screamed it back to hell, I was frightened to death and my little sister cried once; my mother also observed and controlled us sometimes obsessively checking our stuff in search of where the devil could hide & would throw it away, and manipulate choices, what is not allowed to do or even think.. everything) and I lived an extremely sad, depressing, insecure and self-blaming youth. If I'd understood what really was going on with my mom and my family, I probably would have killed myself. Lucky me I guess she forced me to become a bit better at lying, and so too to myself. Hahah you thought that was all didn't yah? Hell no, here comes part two; at 15 yrs old I got kicked out of (that side of) the family which meant losing my mother, my siblings I grew up with, my best friend cousin and a whole network of friends because I had to move to my father in another city too far away. I had to walk away from home (my mom) because I felt very unsafe apparently, I wasn't welcome anymore after that. She also didn't respond to my texts, or said I could come and then cancel, and send not even a message from the first birthday since on. Later on I tried again but she keeps putting expectations on me and plays with my love for her. haven't seen her for 6 years now I think. But I also left the one good thing; my mothers' beliefs. I am grateful for my father to take me in, but I think now he was too traumatized by the happenings' in his life that he wasn't able to really connect with me when I moved in, we never discussed emotional parts or had a good talk the first year or more. Maybe we had later on but still, he always felt distant from me, as today I am afraid. Like he is half a ghost; He lives, but always seems unaware of half of what happens.. doing his routine over and over. You can talk but he forgets. Never said he loved me or anything, just he living his life and I mine besides his. I know he loves me, but sad it is.
So you can see I've been through some shit and still leaving out alot because it would be too long to read. I want to get to the point myself as like;
I am feeling okay lately and really are keeping my balance, feeling overall good and livin' prosperous as I actually always do. The only thing I really long still is having a connection with people. I don't know if it's me, them, or both.. I moved alot so it was hard to remain friendships, but I also think I find it hard to make friends because I feel like a strange ducky; I fear my past has changed me so much that I understand depth that my peers do not. It could be arrogance, but it must at least have some truth in it. It takes alot of energy to be around new people and since a year I have become alot more solitary, because I don't want to drink really, use drugs or stay up at night. I live a peaceful life reading, working out, pursue a nice career and sum good meditation (and tea) sessions. And try to keep a few good friendships going, which are going very well. But I haven't been in a relationship for 6 years and now I feel like I am ready (a healthy one this time I promise), only the women around me I feel like they are not (ghosting, are most interested in themselves, looking for checking their grocerylist, communicate intensely vague). I've had quite some experience with women and don't struggle to get dates, but I really find it hard to find real connection/understanding. I got on a new datingapp where you go on date when you match without chatting, sounds great not? Only with the first 3 matches they postponed the date already 6 times, two doubles, mostly same day/few hours before. And with horrible reason and effort after really. I also find the girls I have approached in real life and dated seem occupied, and some of those things i just listed. Generally very cold women here in Holland, is my experience (but there are always exceptions on ones' rules ofcourse);
''Has this world changed its' moral value, or is it I?''
.. So I wonder; do I need to change myself, or my environment? Do I maybe have a lack of connection what makes me feel like I lack connection, or am I still missing something internally? Or both? And do I need to be more patient while feeling a little righteous lack-of?
If you want to ask, share or give your worldview of anything please do so! I am here to learn, not to know it better.
Huge propz to dr K, thanks for the ton of knowledge I already learned from you for free and thanks for this reddit page!
thanks for reading!
​
side question: It could be obvious but is my history a normal one? or is it a bit different from the usual? I wouldn't know really, I like to see myself as normal
​
TL;DR: Life is going great, Life wás hell & felt like sharing, question; is there a chance for real love?
​
​

We went to elementary school together (we also attended with her older sisters.) I partly remember her because her mother was/is a well known photographer.
I was in a STEM program with her, when I was ten and she was nine. I did not like her. When I think of why, there is a specific incident/memory that comes to mind for me - her mother was with her when we were having a meeting, and she was whining to her mother about something (it’s been so long that I can’t quite remember what. I think that we were making something out of wood. I just remember that the tone she was using with her mother struck me as being particularly disrespectful, and that she struck me as being someone who complained about things a lot and was used to getting her way. It had partly made me think lowly of her because I had been raised to not address my parents in such a manner in public.) I remember that my overall impression of her was that she was spoiled, self-centered, and probably not that nice of a person. The sort of person who seemed like she was used to being the center of attention, and could barely contain herself if she wasn’t.
I also thought that she was intelligent, it was just that she seemed spoiled and bratty. She was creative, and certainly belonged in the program (the program was for kids who seemed to have an aptitude for math/science… kind of hard to tell when someone is in fourth or fifth grade, but.) There’s an older video of her wherein she seems to noticeably display Ne even though she’d have been in preschool or early elementary school (about five, if I remember correctly.) She started to notice objects in her surroundings after her mother interviewed her (she seemed to have a quick/immediate answer to her mother’s questions about her favorite color, favorite animal - a unicorn - and favorite princess, which was her oldest sister. She also seemed to have a far amount of energy.) She noticed the trees outside, and suggested one looked like a “pooch,” another like a “volcano,” and that the “little” tree looked like a “spike” after her mother asked her what each looked like.
What really intrigues me about her is that she seems like she’s changed a fair amount as she’s grown older. She started going by a nickname of her real name at some point in high school, even though she’d been referred to by her middle name throughout most of her lifetime. She also gives off the impression to me, even though I haven’t interacted with her in years, of being someone who eventually calmed down in the sense that she is no longer particularly argumentative or bratty. She sometimes poses a bit awkwardly in photos, is thin like the rest of her family members even though she does eat junk food and eats fast food with them (well, at restaurants, they’re upper middle class) on vacations. She was stage manager for a play about two years ago.
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Why can’t I have cervical screening unless I am age 25 to 64?
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Should LGBT+ people with a cervix go for cervical screening?
All women and people with a cervix between age 25 and 64 can go for regular cervical screening, no matter their sexual orientation or gender identity.
Most cervical cell changes and cervical cancers are caused by persistent infection with HPV. As HPV can be passed on through any skin-to-skin contact in the genital area, anyone having any kind of sex is at risk of getting it.
Do I need cervical screening after hysterectomy or another treatment?
If you have previously had treatment that affected your cervix for any reason, you may no longer be invited for cervical screening. These treatments include:

• A total hysterectomy. This is an operation that removes the womb and cervix. If you have had a total hysterectomy, you will not be invited for cervical screening as there is no cervix to take a sample of cells from.
• Pelvic radiotherapy. This is a treatment that directs radiation at the part of the body between the hipbones (pelvis). It can damage the cells of the cervix and make it harder to tell if there are any changes, so you may not be automatically invited for cervical screening. Your doctor may do a separate follow up appointment with you.

After these treatments, your healthcare team may want you to have a different test called a vault smear. This takes a sample of cells from your vagina and tests them to check that they are healthy. Whether you are offered vault smears and how long you are offered them for depends on your individual situation.
Should I go for cervical screening if I am pregnant?
It is usually recommended that you do not have cervical screening while you are or could be pregnant. Pregnancy can make the result of your test harder to interpret.
If you are invited for cervical screening while pregnant, tell your doctor or nurse you are pregnant. You should wait until 3 months after your baby is born to have the test.
If you need follow-up after an abnormal cervical screening result or treatment for cell changes, you may need to have the test while pregnant. Your GP or midwife may ask you to have it at your first antenatal appointment. This test will not affect your pregnancy.
If you are planning a pregnancy
Ask your doctor or nurse if you are up to date with your cervical screening. This means that any tests or treatment can be arranged around the pregnancy.
I have HIV. How often should I go for cervical screening?
HIV can make your immune system very weak, meaning it is not as able to get rid of HPV that causes most cervical cancers. If you have HIV, speak with your healthcare team about going for cervical screening every year. Annual cervical screenings are usually taken outside of the NHS National Screening Programme.

Cervical screening aged 65 or over
If you are aged 65 or over, you will no longer be invited for cervical screening (a smear test) unless you are being followed up for cell changes (abnormal cells). You may feel worried or anxious about this, but it is because the benefits of cervical screening start to become less as we get older.
Why do I stop getting invited for cervical screening when I turn 65?
Cervical cancer usually develops very slowly. In fact, it’s estimated that it takes between 10 and 20 years for a high-risk human papillomavirus (HPV) infection to develop into cell changes and then into cervical cancer. Because it develops so slowly, it is very unlikely you will develop cervical cancer if you are 65 and have gone for cervical screening when invited.
You won’t get any more invites once you turn 65, if your last cervical screening result was normal. If you had an abnormal result, you will continued to be invited until you have no sign of HPV (HPV negative) or have completed your individual follow up.
What if I have never been for cervical screening?
If you are 65 or older and have never had cervical screening, you are entitled to a test. If you want, you can book an appointment with your GP surgery.
What if I have symptoms?
It is important to be aware of the symptoms of cervical cancer, including:

• bleeding after the menopause (post-menopausal bleeding)
• pain or feeling uncomfortable during sex
• vaginal discharge that is unusual for you – for example, it being thicker or smelling bad
• unexplained lower back pain that lasts for a long time.

All of these symptoms can be things other than cervical cancer, but if you have any, see your doctor or nurse and get them checked out.

Cervical screening aged 24 or under
In the UK, you are invited for cervical screening (a smear test) from age 25 until age 64. Cervical screening is not recommended for anyone under 25 years old.
You may get your first invite up to 6 months before you turn 25 – if you do, you don’t have to wait to book an appointment.
Why does cervical screening start at 25?
Cervical cancer is very rare in under-25s. In the UK, per 100,000 women:

• about 4 people are diagnosed with cervical cancer under the age of 25 – less than 1% of cases
• there is an average of 0 deaths from cervical cancer among under-25s.

Cervical screening doesn’t reduce cervical cancer diagnoses in under-25s
Cervical screening hasn’t been shown to reduce the number of cervical cancers in under-25s.
We know this because, in countries where cervical screening starts at 20 years old, the number of people under 25 diagnosed with cervical cancer is not significantly different than in countries that start screening at 25 years old.
The number of under-25s diagnosed with cervical cancer is likely to fall even further over the next 10 years thanks to the human papillomavirus (HPV) vaccine.
Under-25s may be offered unnecessary treatment
Research suggests that the risks of offering cervical screening under the age of 25 outweigh the benefits. When you are under 25, it is common to have changes in the cells of your cervix (abnormal cells) and these usually go away by themselves.
Knowing about these cell changes could lead to treatment when the changes may simply have gone away on their own. It can also lead to anxiety or upset.
There are also potential risks with some treatments, including a slightly increased risk of early (premature) birth if you get pregnant in future.
What if I have symptoms?
Although cervical cancer is very rare if you are under 25, it is important for all of us to be aware of cervical cancer symptoms, including:

• vaginal bleeding that is unusual for you (abnormal bleeding) – this is the most common symptom and may happen during or after sex, or in between periods.
• vaginal discharge that is unusual for you – it may have a different smell, look or consistency (for example, it may be thicker)
• pain or discomfort during sex
• unexplained lower back pain that lasts a long time.

Remember, things other than cervical cancer could cause all of these symptoms. For example, abnormal vaginal bleeding is very common and can happen for lots of different reasons that are not linked to cancer, including:

• cervical ectropion (a normal change, sometimes called an ectropion)
• hormonal changes because of the combined contraceptive pill
• benign cervical polyps
• sexually transmitted infections (STIs), such as chlamydia.

What should I do if I have symptoms?
If you have any symptoms, don’t ignore them! It is important to see your doctor or nurse as soon as possible. Remember it is unlikely to be cervical cancer, but it’s still very important to get it checked out.
The NHS has guidelines for doctors and nurses to support young women and people with a cervix aged 20 to 24. It says you should be offered a pelvic examination by a doctor or nurse if:

• you are bleeding after sex
• you are bleeding in between your usual periods.

The guidelines explain the types of questions that doctors and nurses should ask to find out whether the symptoms could be related to cervical cancer.
Some people find it embarrassing to talk about gynaecological problems. If you feel like this, you are not alone. But remember your doctor or nurse talk about these things all the time, so won’t be embarrassed. If you want, you can take someone you trust with you for support during your appointment.
More information and support
If you have symptoms you are worried about, or have heard stories about a young person getting cervical cancer, you may feel very anxious about not being able to have cervical screening. Remember, there is support in place if you do have symptoms and your doctor or nurse should be able to offer the right help and guidance.

Cervical screening for trans men and/or non-binary people
This information is for trans men and/or non-binary people, but may be useful for anyone interested or wanting to offer support. It explains the process of going to a cervical screening (smear test) appointment and aims to offer support with any challenges you may face.
Will I be invited for cervical screening?
Currently, only people who are registered as female with their GP surgery or clinic are automatically invited for cervical screening.
If you are registered as male, aged between 25 and 64, and want to go for cervical screening, you can:

• ask your GP surgery to send you invites directly – they may be able to add a reminder to your medical record
• put a reminder in your phone or calendar to ask for an appointment every 3 or 5 years, depending on your age and where you live.

There are also expert clinics, including some trans-led clinics, that offer cervical screening. Although these clinics can’t invite you automatically, you can book an appointment with one.
Telling GP surgery staff you are trans and/or non-binary
If you are registered as male at a GP surgery and they do not know you have a cervix, it is possible that the person you speak with may be confused or have questions about your request to book a cervical screening appointment. Equally, if you are a non-masculine non-binary person, you may be misgendered and talked to as a woman.
You have a right to privacy and you do not have to disclose that you are trans and/or non-binary to anyone. However, if you feel comfortable letting someone at your GP surgery know, they may be better able to support you as an individual and avoid situations that may be distressing for you. You could:

• Identify a member of staff that you feel comfortable with. This might be reception staff or clinical staff, such as a doctor or nurse, who you have seen before. It might feel easier to tell them privately or, even if they do not formally know, they may already have an innate understanding of who you are and how best to support you.
• Ask a trusted person to speak to your GP surgery on your behalf. You may need to provide verbal or written permission for this.
• Write it down, either in an email before your appointment or to hand over at the surgery. This may feel easier than speaking it out loud. You could also include any important information, like your pronouns or language you would prefer the reception staff or your nurse to avoid.

Taking control of your appointment
Making decisions about how you want your appointment to go can help you feel more in control. It can also help avoid situations that could be triggering for you. Here are some examples that may help:

• Ask for a phone or video appointment with the nurse before your cervical screening appointment. If you don’t know them, this will give you a chance to introduce yourself and talk as much or little as you’d like about your gender identity, preferred language, and so on.
• Ask if you can bring a trusted person. Having a partner or friend with you at any point before, during or after the appointment may help you feel more comfortable about the test itself, talking with the nurse, and managing any triggers.
• Ask to book a longer appointment. This allows you extra breathing space, as well as time to talk or ask questions, before and after the test. It means you can take the appointment at a pace that is more comfortable for you.
• Ask for an appointment with a nurse of a particular gender. Be aware that this may not always be an option if all nurses at your GP surgery are the same gender.

Expert clinics
There are clinics specialising in trans healthcare that offer cervical screening. Some are trans-led and all offer a safe, confidential space to have your appointment and discuss any worries. Many of these clinics are in major cities, so we know it may not be possible for you to visit one. We hope the other tips on this page will help if this is the case.

• 56T at 56 Dean Street in London >
• The Butterfly Clinic in Liverpool >
• Clinic T in Brighton >
• CliniQ in London >
• My Body Back in London >
• My Body Back in Glasgow >

My story isn’t the same as some of you but I’ve only recently started and seemed to luck out at first and won pretty big, but then proceeded to get greedy and lose half of it. Even when the half I lost is a huge amount of money for me, I still just kept depositing to try and win what I lost back and dug deeper then I realized what I did and stopped. I’ve done this about 3-4 times now and i’m technically up, but the mental part of all of this is killing me and I can’t believe how much i’ve lost and how i’m treating such a big amount of money like it’s nothing. this stuff is poison. I wish I never ever started. They know how to reel you in with the bonus offers. I’m so angry at myself for letting this crap happen. I’m done and will not be touching gambling again I cannot control myself and it sucks so much to think about how much i’ve lost. It makes me have trouble sleeping.

During one of my solo hiking trips in the vast stretches of the Appalachian Trail, I encountered something that challenged my understanding of the word "weird." The wilderness always had a way of presenting the unexpected, but this experience was one that lingered with me far longer than the usual encounters with wildlife or sudden storms.
It was a cool, overcast day in early spring, the kind where the morning mist clings stubbornly to the undergrowth, making the air feel thick and the landscape surreal. I had been walking since sunrise, intent on reaching a designated campsite by dusk. My route took me through dense woodland and along rocky ridges, with only the occasional deer or bird for company.
Late in the afternoon, as I was navigating a particularly dense part of the forest, I stumbled upon a clearing. It wasn't just any clearing—centered in the middle was what appeared to be an impeccably arranged set of dinnerware, complete with a candlestick holder, on a small, perfectly round table. The table itself seemed to be crafted from fallen branches, ingeniously tied together with strips of vine and bark.
What made it even more bizarre was the setting around the table. Each chair (also made from branches and vines) was occupied by stuffed animals. There were four in total: a bear, a rabbit, a fox, and what seemed like a homemade patchwork doll. Each had a plate in front of it, with a small array of wild berries and nuts neatly arranged.
I approached cautiously, half-expecting someone to jump out and reveal a hidden camera. But the silence was unyielding, the only sounds the distant rustle of leaves and my own breath catching slightly in my throat. The scene was eerie yet whimsically charming, like something out of a child's fairytale book.
Curiosity overcame me, and I reached out to touch the fox's furry head, half expecting it to turn and greet me. It was, of course, just a stuffed animal, cold and slightly damp with the morning's mist. The realization that someone had crafted this scene, deep in the wilderness, for reasons unknown, sent a shiver down my spine.
I took a few pictures, the idea of proof suddenly important, as if without it, the whole scenario would be too implausible to recount. After lingering a few moments longer, I packed up my camera and continued on my way, glancing back several times until the trees swallowed up the clearing.
That evening, as I sat by my small campfire, the image of the woodland dinner party replayed in my mind. I wondered about the creator of that scene—were they nearby, perhaps watching from a distance? Or had they set it up long ago, leaving it to be found by a random passerby like myself?
The experience stayed with me long after I left the trail. It was a reminder of the unexpected human touches that can appear in the most isolated places, turning an ordinary hike into a story worth telling. Sometimes, the wilderness isn't just wild; it's wonderfully strange.
What's the weirdest thing you've experienced in the wilderness?

Hi, I’m a M24 and some background info about me: I dabbled in some drug taking starting at the age of 14 when I first got into weed. And later in the coming few years I tried MDMA many times and LSD a couple of times. I pretty much stopped using drugs at about 20/21 because they generally made me more anxious and depressed during or after the trip. Since I was a teen I’ve been having a nearly 10 year long battle with what you may call «high functioning depression». And I think it’s partly due to my drug use starting so young as well as other factors such as trouble in upbringing.
So, my incident/story/question:
Last summer I had an experience where I was sitting in my living room at night, chilling, watching TV and eating some food before bed. I then suddenly felt a kind of heaviness in my chest. And a strange feeling slowly creeping up in my face, like a numbness and awareness of my teeth. As some minutes passed, I could sense myself becoming more aware of my surroundings (hightened hearing and light sensitivity). And my hands were getting soft and clammy. More minutes pass and I feel a pit in my stomach as I start to look around me and everything is looking as if its breathing slowly. Things were starting to move in waves. And this breathing effect kept getting more and more intense I could clearly remember this exact feeling I’ve had before, at the onset of a LSD trip. At this point I start to freak out a little bit and I start to actively breathe and try to calm myself down. I stopped doing drugs because I generally don’t do well with substances and the altering of my sober mind. And mind you I had not taken anything prior to this.
After some time, things had escalated in my mind and my body. So I ended up walking to the ER near me as I was getting really scared for my own health. When I reached the ER, the waves had turned into full blown visual hallucinations like fractals. And I was totally out of it. My mind was scattered and I was super confused and crying hysterically in the phone to my mom about what was happening to me. I got my blood tested there and they couldn’t find anything wrong. They also shined a flashlight in my eyes, and I don’t know that I remember correctly but I believe that my pupils were dilated. I thought by going to the ER I would get some answers about what was happening to me. However by the way they handled me in that situation they seemed to not believe me when I said I was sober and therefore chose not to engage further with me that whole night.
I was at the ER until 5 in the morning, and was having suicidal thoughts because I thought my mind was broken and that I would stay like this forever. At one point I could barely see anything because my vision was scattered with colorful fractal hallucinations just like you would see in an acid trip. I was also having grandiose thoughts about life and the universe and humanity at this point. I was in active peak hallucinations for about three hours. The fourth hour it started to ‘wear off’ and on the fifth I decided to walk back home after not getting any help or any clues at all about what was happening to me from the nurses or doctor there.
I feel like it’s worth mentioning that in this period of my life, (and generally I would say) I was going through a stressfull day to day life. And I was coping with drinking alchol more than I would like. It was approximately 1-3 unites every other day. Not to the point where I was drunk though. This drinking also affected my sleeping schedule too, and I did not have too much money or energy for food either. So obviously not too healthy lol
So- that’s where I want to ask: Was this a psychosis? An extreme panic attack? (can you even have visual hallucinations like these in a panic attack)? Could it be that the drugs I’ve taken when I was younger is still stored in my body and it just got triggered by something? Or is it something else??
This was a terrifying night for me, and I really would like to figure out what it was so that I can reduce the risk of it ever happening again. Because now I’m kind of living in fear of it happening again. Anytime I feel a strange feeling or my hands get clammy I can start to get anxious that this will happen again…
Shoutout to you if you read all of this!

i’ve been struggling with facial hair (afab, identify as nonbinary but facial hair is not part of my preferred gender presentation) on my chin/neck for a couple years and i finally went to a gynecologist to get checked out, potentially for PCOS. i got the bloodwork back and i have high testosterone, which my doctor confirmed would be consistent with pcos and then also extremely high (over 1000) dhea-sulfate that she said i need to see an endocrinologist for. i have an appointment next week for an ultrasound on my ovaries to see if i have cysts and then a follow up appointment a couple days later where we’ll discuss results and i’ll get an endocrinologist referral. while high dheas can be consistent with pcos, i also saw that it’s typically not as high as mine is and that this could be a sign of an adrenal disordehopefully benign tumor (i don’t really have any of the cancer symptoms so im fairly confident that is not the issue). i also saw that stress can cause high dheas and i have OCD which does cause a lot of stress in my life, but it wasn’t nearly as bad when the facial hair started.
overall, i’m just a little stressed out by not having all of the information and wanted to see if anyone had any guidance/familiar stories.

I'm (34F) a single mom, with crap luck in dating since my divorce 4 years ago.
(Some or you may have seen my latest post here (just know Mr. Green Flag was not so green after all) but I'm leaving the post because it has some great threads on there)
Anyway, in the midst of deciding the last guy and I weren't working out, my "friend" (32M) and I reconnected.
We used to work together, we've had back and forth flirt sessions, popping up in eachothers lives for a few days and then disappearing again, never moving past flirting (and this is on both sides- not just him). We never moved past it because- we were coworkers. So we spent the better part of 2 years orbiting eachothers social medias, liking, replying to stories, talking sports etc.
But now we're not coworkers.
Recently (about 2.5 months ago) he ended it with his long term on and off gf. They are the definition of incompatible, but trauma bonded.
I've been hesitant to get excited about him. We've been talking, and the chemistry is definitely still there, and he really seems to be taking the steps this time to heal and move forward in his life. Which makes me so happy for him. He deserves the world.
In conversation, he asked me out. And I said yes. Because, I adore him. He's so intellectually stimulating, he's active, attractive, funny. Etc. His biggest red flag is the volatile relationship with the ex.
I feel like I should approach all of this as 2 friends catching up. Go into the date with zero expectations, because unfortunately its hard for me to trust where he's at in his healing journey. But I want to support him.
For the last 2 years, everyone we see when we're together has tried to hook us up. I guess we just give off that vibe. To be honest, I would love this man in my life as more than a friend. But I'm so hesitant.
I guess this is just me getting it off my chest. Am I setting myself up for failure here? Lol.
TLDR: my long time orbiter has recently ended his on/off (2.5 mo ago) and asked me out. I'm hesitant- am I wasting my time?

I've been knee deep in the souls community for quite some time and I think it's very cool that there's been a significant increase when it comes to lore discussions and content.
This phenomenon has made everyone much more aware of the overall lore of the game, and also how the narrative works. Many more people are just super knowledgeable now more than ever.
On the other hand, this level of knowledge and, frankly dedication, to the story of these games has (personally speaking) generated some issues for the community which in my opinion have been spearheaded by lore content creators and data miners:
1 - Myiazaki is a God-Machine and absolutely everything is chock full of hidden information meant to be found out. This information clicks with the overarching, non hidden information in a seamless way, and it's all part of the same story. There are no contradictions.
The obsession with data mining, coupled with admiration for the people who work in the game end up creating a sense that even this unseen information are pieces of the puzzle of the game's story. These games are long projects with hundred of employees, there will be a lot of mistakes and things that were made by professionals who didn't know exactly how those resources would be deployed. People often mention that by saying "things change along the way", but I would like to go further and point out that many things weren't probably even supposed to mean anything to the people that made them, or they had the completely wrong idea and things were deployed without revision.
2 - Theory A must be true because theory B fits perfectly with it. Theory C and D don't contradict it either, therefore this is how X and Y work. Z is still a mystery.
There are many widely accepted theories that, as expected, don't explain every single thing. Sometimes, people couple other theories on top of it to explain further mysteries, creating a nice little castle of cards. Sometimes these theories get so widely accepted, that people start discussing other subjects not based on the game and the information present, but based off the theory that didn't even include the subject being discussed in the first place. This creates a "you must have seen these videos to enter this ride" effect. A good example is "What is the deal with the crow in DS1?" which if you were to ask, there would be many answers saying that it is related to Velka and the occult rebellion. What is the occult rebellion? Glad you asked... Another good one is asking anything related to The Deep in DS3. Most answers would point out and be related to a video about "The bastard's curse". It would all be nice if it was indeed a knowledge gap, and therefore people could be better informed about their answers, but since it's straight based off a theory, we aren't discussing the game as much as we are discussing so and so's story. We can't keep making arguments based off Melina being the Gloam-eyed queen; The first burning of the erdtree; the butterfly theory; etc. Because this is just justifying our crazy theories with other crazier theories and creating an insane castle of cards.
The reason I'm pointing this out is not only that I feel it has become quite a displeasure to discuss and talk about lore, but also because I feel that some content creators are predating on the fact that people seem to forget that they have to create content to pay their bills. It's their job to extrapolate and manufacture implications for some irrelevant piece of information.
Secondly, because with the oncoming DLC, People seem to fully expect it to answer all their burning questions, and when it inevitably fails to do so (since some of these questions aren't even floored on reality) there will be some avoidable disappointment by part of the community.
Sometimes, the fact that a character is named "aaaasffgh" is just due to the tired worker slamming his keyboard on the table. Sometimes there are no implications to the fact that two characters use alligators as a motif on their clothes, that's just the artist's favorite animal. Sometimes there's a Skeleton in a place where it shouldn't be, because someone put it there to see if he wouldn't fall through the floor and forgot to take him out in the finished product.

I found out last week that I need a hysterectomy, and it's scheduled for June 12. I have endometriosis, adenomyosis, fibroids, and cysts--including one that's 7 cm and giving me pain right now. I've had two surgeries in the past to remove fibroids, cysts, and endometriosis growth. I've always been told that a hysterectomy was likely at some point, but I'm just freaking out about it happening now. They are going to try and save at least one ovary, and I'm not sure if they'll be removing my cervix or not. I'm having my pre-op appointment on Thursday, so I'll be bringing a big list of questions to my surgeon then. Some questions/concerns I have:

• My biggest physical fear right now is around my future sex life. I have a great sex life right now, despite everything else going wrong in the region, and I'm pretty terrified about losing that part of my life. It sounds maybe like a superficial concern, but this is really important to me! I have very intense orgasms from penetration (and from clitoral stimulation), and the idea of a cuff (and a cuff tearing) is freaking me out. I also know sensations and desire can change no matter what is removed or kept, so I'm just generally worried about how things will go for me. I've read a number of past posts on here with both really positive and unfortunately negative stories, and I know a huge range of experiences are possible and real. I'm not sure if I'm looking for reassurance here or just venting.
• I'm worried that they won't be able to save my ovaries, and that I'll be starting menopause (I'm 37). I'm also worried that if I do keep one or both ovaries, that I'll continue to have symptoms and problems with endometriosis especially. A woman I know kept her ovaries and ended up losing a kidney because endometrial growth had continued to grow and attach to a kidney. I know it's a rare scenario but I've been thinking about that a lot.
• I have two toddlers, a 1.5 year old who is SUPER clingy and a 3.5 year old. I have NO idea how I won't pick them up for weeks or just the logistics of me being out of commission for so long when it comes to daily life and kid activities. My husband is great and taking time off from work, but he'll only have about a week off. I'll still have help after he goes back to work, but logistics around the kids is my biggest day to day concern right now. Any positive experiences or strategies, especially if you have little little kids that still need to be lifted for everything? I feel like I basically need someone else available to take care of them 24/7 for 8 weeks, and it's going to be super hard to get all that time covered.
• Related, any recommendations for toddler books or even shows (like a Sesame Street special?) about Mommy going to the hospital/having surgery/being in bed? I've looked up a few but they seem pretty low-quality or not really applicable.
• Tips for getting my bedroom/recovery space set up? My bed is very high, so I’ve looked at getting an exercise step to help get in/out of bed. I’ve also looked at bed rails for help getting into/out of bed. Anything you would recommend or wish you’d set up ahead of time?

I'd love to hear some encouraging words or stories, or whatever you want to share that might be helpful. Thank you!

To give context of what I'm doing, I'm gearing to one day potentially tackle the Superman vs Hulk debate, since they never fought canonically with their prime universe variants. The info I've gathered so far says this is a stupidly close fight (so much so "who is strongemore durable" is an irrelevant question). However, there is one thing that might help determine a victor, and I remember hearing about it during the rebirth event (sometime before/during the moment Dr. Manhattan was battling the DC Universe;
Basic gist, something happens and the US government imposes a new law that require all metahumans who are American citizens to follow the US government and not interfere with foreign affairs. Not liking this, Superman renounces his American citizenship, and immediately goes out to protect another country, which results in his being knocked out by nuclear warheads.
I am interested in finding this part, because if it is real and not a fever dream, this would prove Superman has a weakness to atomic radiation as he does in else world stories (and the DCEU but let's not worry about that). Which, if is the case, would mean the Hulk's body is emitting lethal radiation that Superman could be weakened by. And if not, well, neither have an exploitable weakness and whoever wins will be because one has a stupidly small detail that changes the fight into theithe other's favor.
And if this never happened, is there any moments within the main continuity of Superman surviving/being weakened by nukes/nuclear radiation?

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(1) Turkish, Turkic States of America* (i) Anglo peoples are Iraq. (ii) Russian peoples are here. (iii) Puerto Rico replaces Alaska. (iv) Virginia peninsula & D.C. are part of Maryland. (v) Delaware is part of New Jersey & modern State of Jefferson replaces Delaware. (vi) Rhode Island becomes new capital district & KURIL islands replaces R.I. (vi) Northern Baja California annexed by California. (vii) San Luis Rio Colorado annexed by Yuma, AZ. (viii) Virginia is renamed Dagestan. (2) Brazil-Uruguay is Bantu, Javanese. (i) Portuguese peoples are there! (ii) Japanese peoples are there! (3) Canada is Cossack. (i) Uyghars are there. (4) Alaska is Rusyn. (5) Greenland is Norwegian. (5-A) Norway is Armenian. (5-B) Svalbard is also part of greater Norway. (6) Iceland is Icelander. (7) Novaya Zemlya is Lakota. (8) Cape Verde-Monaco-France is Frank. (9) United Kingdom is English. (10) Ireland is Danish. (11) Latvia-Estonia-Lithuania are Estonian, called Latvia. (12) Belarus is Bulgarian-Afrikaaner, called Prussia. (13) Ukraine is Yugoslav, called Lithuania. (i) Moldova, Crimea belong to Ukraine. (14) Poland is Polish.* (i) Kaliningrad to Poland. (15) Corsica-Italy-Yugoslavia is Romanian, Italian. (i) state is called Byzantium. (16) Switzerland is Dutch. (17) Antarctica is Olmec--extinct Giants!
(18) Mexico-Belize-Peten is Persian. (19) Central America [6 states] is Pashtun. (20) Cuba is Kurdish. (20-A) Jamaica is Houthi. (20-B) Hispaniola is Tajik. (21) Columbia is Hausa. (22) Venezuela is Berber. (22-A) Trinidad & Tobago is Pygmy. (23) SUR-GUI-GUY are Kanuri. (24) Ecuador is Nubian. (25) Peru is Sudanese. (26) Bolivia is Songhai. (27) Chile is Somalian. (28) Argentina is Ethiopian. (29) Paraguay is Kenyan. (30) Falklands is KhoiSan. (31-35) Central Asia [5 civilized tribes] are Aztec, Cherokee, Chickasaw, Choctaw, Seminole. (36) Afghanistan is Assyrian. (37) Pakistan is Bengali. (38) India is Dravidian. (i) Sri Lanka belongs to India and modern Assamese live there.
American World Republic Thesis 2023__page 2.
(39) West Bengal-Assam-Sikkim-Bangladesh is Manchu. (i) state is named Assam. (40) Portugal remains (Proto-Celt) Portuguese. (41) Papua New Guinea is Malagasy. (42) New Zealand is Polynesian. (i) named Taiwan, Zealandia was the continental shelf. (43) China is Chhetri, Kuomintang. (i) Formosa part of China. (ii) there are 39 African States plus Equtorial Guinea. (44) ONE KOREA. (45) Australia is Cantonese. (46) Sakhalin is Inuit. (i) this is the 5th main island of Japan. (47) Sunda islands remain Sundanese. (48) Arunachal Praedesh is now Bhutan Praedesh. (49) Northern Forrest of Democratic Republic of Congo divided for farmland, called Zaire, is Swiss/a French duchy. (50) Mountains of South Africa & Eswantini is Chakmasook, Romani. (51) Nepal is Aboriginal, Andean. (i) Madagascar is Kashmiri (Kho central island). (52) Zimbabwe is Mande. (i) BRICS gold supply is in Zimbabwe. (ii) Silver reserve in Kentucky supports petrodollar. (53) Vietnam is Vietnamese. (54) Cambodia is Khmer. (55) Laos is Laotian. (56) Thailand is Zhuang. (57) Myanmar is Burmese. (58) Malaysia is Malaysian. (59) Philippines is Filipino.
(60) Jordan, Sinai, Israel, Syria, Lebanon are called Greater Syria (al-Shem). (i) there are 10 United Gulf States total, this is one. (ii) Buy US debt from Japan NOT China. (iii) Iranian oil must be sold to Brazil. (iv) Iraq invests in Philippines for state differences. (v) Water retrieval from Antarctica! (61) Saudi Arabia is always Muslim. (62) Iraq and Kuwait are one Arab state. (i) Bahrain island now called British Kuwait. (ii) British Kuwait attached to the state of Syria in al-Shem, equivalent to "Palestine," 1948 British Zionist drawn Israel, Jordan, & Lebanon.
American World Republic Thesis 2023__ page 3.
(63-67) Turkey, and Oman, and UAE, and Iran, and New Bahrain are independent nation states also within "United Arab Gulf State" region. (i) New Bahrain is Qatar-Eastern desert of Saudi. (ii) al-Hasaka in today's Syria belongs to Turkiye. (68) Yemen is the Adamanese Confederation of Island Nations, primary population Adamanese, & official state remains Arabian. (69) Morocco owns Western Sahara until the Tropic of Cancer and is now Kru. (70) Gorgol, Guidi-Maka, Senegal, Gambia, Guinea-Bissau are Bhojpuri. (71) Sierra Leone, Liberia are Sindhi, Kalash. (72) Ghana, Togo are Garwali. (73) Nigeria, Benin are Benue-Congo. (74) Rwanda, Burundi, Tanzania are one Marathi. (75) Caprivi, Botswana are Adamawa Ubangian. (76) South Africa lowland & Lesotho are non-ethnic Malagasy people. (77) Ethiopia, Djibouti are Punjabi. (78) Eritrea is Sinhalese. (79) Tunisia is Siddi, Tharu. (80) Niger is Marwari. (81) Democratic Congo is Mathil. (82) Central African Republic is Halba, Odia. (83) Republic of Congo is Kwa. (84) Angola is Warli, Bhil. (85) Gabon is Khas. (86) Libya is Gur. (87) Somalia is Senufo. (88) Algeria is Sadan, Nagpuri. (89) Zambia is Magahi. (90) Malawi is Konkani. (91) Namibia is Saurashtra, Jaunsari. (92) Kenya is Deccanis. (93) Uganda is Haryanvi. (94) Mozambique is Adwadhi. (95) Sudan is African-American, Kordofan. (96) Cameroon is Dogra. (97) Chad is Shina. (98) Cote d'Ivoire is Saraiki. (99) Burkina Faso is Bishnupria. (100) Mali is Thori, Rajasthani. (101) South Sudan is Brokpa, Kohistani. (102) Egypt is Gujarati, Kutchi.
(103) Romania is Georgian. (104) Bulgaria-Greece is Greek. (105) Spain is Scotch-Irish. (106) Russia-Severny-Cyprus is Hispanic.* (i) "Vatican City" concept was Singapore. (ii) Germanic peoples are there. (107-A) Germany-Denmark is Vandal. (i) Denmark renamed Jutland. (107-B) Chechia remains Czech. (8-C) Austria remains Ostragoth. (107-D) Netherlands, Belgium are Flemish. (108) Sweden remains Swedish. (109) Hungary remains Hungarian. (110) Slovakia remains Slav. (111) Finland remains Finnish. (112) Georgia is Catalan. (113) Azerbaijan, Armenia is Maya.
American World Republic Thesis 2023__page 4.

PANGEA is the collective new world order, no further action or response is necessary. No changes will ever take place until The Mahdi announces it, this is my standard "turban." I'm not a god, I'm not a christ, I'm not a Prophet, & I'm not the Mahdi. FOLLOW THE PROPHETS!!! Based on transition. Torah is the law, Qur'an is the judgement, Democracy to collect jizya/taxes, and Sunnah is your freedom! American nukes were for India--Russian nukes were for China--impossible to use. (Nukes would complete a genocide and it is impossible to complete a genocide.) Nuclear bombs are for use at sea in a navy battle. Jewish people were Assyrian/Sumerian all along, no lineage to the identity. Germans were actually Turk-Persian-Siberian (Turkish). Beaker people were equivocal to modern Danish! Nok peoples were followers of Enoch which created the Bantu languages--same family tree (Niger-Congo). Looking for 114 countries from the 114 Surahs of the Qur'an. Christianity is a false reality. Judaism does not exist. Pagans are destroyed (Hindi is Christian). Idols are burned--you don't like superman more than your dad. Every soul submits to Islam, a word for Love.

It's general creativity, I used population ratio, population, population density, history, history of confrontation, genetics, social references, culture, sub-culture, politics, science, various forms of art when imagining a map, 9+ years of encyclopedia/Wikipedia study, KJB 13+ times cover to cover, Qur'an 35+ times, I contacted people who had status from history, 700+ changes to strategy when configuring order, I dedicated over 15 years to this project answering geopolitical changes caused by BRICS bank. I contacted the CIA, emailed governments, raised concerns locally, TRUTHFULLY lied to ALLIES when encountering possible conflicts, & no diploma to raise concern about ethics. Always free, never paid for. La illahu il Allah, Muhammad rasool Allah.
American World Republic Thesis__page 5: epilogue
(114) The idea in total is for a Inca Mongolia or to remain with the same operational changes* (i) American Republic--Wolf (ii) Opposition Party--Crocodile (iii) Conservative Party--Bigfoot (iv) Judicial Party--Buffalo (v) Military Party--Eagle__(women, men, Married, Single, leader.) Pentagon was the prison system. CIA was the news agencies. Dalai Llama basically negated every Pope in Rome. English War in Iraq was the literal Armageddon, impossible to revive false teachings! NATO failure, churches took the funds, absent from state, tried to send young people to Russian war with no preparation or understanding (Rurikid Dynasty). Sejuke Anatolia exists in transition today. Islam is dominant forevermore! Story telling; Encyclopedia is the same as The Bible--not a religion of its own. WAR is by WORK considerable good deeds. History note: KKK was only about remembering the Philippine war.
My point is; Israel is the only country in the dunya, full of states all around the world, basically the United States of America. Muslim land has no borders, everyone is already following the law, the law begins with marriage. Judaic-Christianity lets problems transpire, bad planning, carrying on regarding relationships, & teaches there is an existential question to solve about the meaning and purpose of life (Islam) and then fights the losing battle for their ideology--which the inevitable result being humiliation/misunderstanding. There are 10 Greater Israeli Gulf States instead of 12 because 2 tribes were already settled in the Torah--because Esau giving up his inheritance is the same theory. Three state trade between Poland, USA, & Russia is so the Christianity doesn't destroy itself at the cost of everyone else. *For instance, Scandinavians will not go extinct for an already clear victory of [democracy over communism]. Keep the prayer, keep your deen.

DEN OF GEEK:
"For Discovery‘s critics, the solution to “Labyrinths” represents the show at its worst. Instead of using logic or maneuvers to solve the problem, Burnham gets in touch with her feelings. These sort of weepy moments have been a mainstay of Discovery, and often carry over into other modern Star Trek shows, including Picard and Strange New Worlds.
Some (well, mostly just me) have argued that Discovery tries, with mixed success, to position emotional intelligence as a viable problem-solving technique. It’s all part of Discovery‘s strange position as more of an experimental take on Star Trek than a mainline show. However, the upcoming Discovery spin-off series Star Trek: Starfleet Academy must abandon the emphasis on emotion.
The Seriousness of Starfleet Academy
Ex Astris, Scientia, reads the Starfleet Academy motto, a phrase that means “from the stars, knowledge.” The motto captures the primary lesson that cadets learn while preparing to become Starfleet officers. Whatever first drew them to the service, be it a sense of adventure or desire for glory, those who graduate understand that Starfleet exists to pursue knowledge.
To be certain, this goal does not preclude emotional moments, as demonstrated in some of the most famous stories with Academy connections.
[...]
Dealing with emotions is a crucial part of the two most important stories about Starfleet Academy.
That’s a key part of the Academy’s most famous assignment, the Kobayashi Maru. First seen in Star Trek II: The Wrath of Khan, the Kobayashi Maru is a training simulation that poses an impossible situation. Taking the role of crew members, the cadets receive a call from a disabled ship within Klingon space. If they rescue the ship, they’ll violate Klingon sovereignty and start a war. If they don’t rescue the ship, then its crew will die.
As Spock explains after his protege Saavik takes the test, the Kobayashi Maru exists to teach future members of Starfleet what it’s like to fail. Or, to put it another way, the test teaches cadets how to manage their emotions. It allows them to feel something, including anger and frustration and even sadness over a no-win scenario. But it also teaches them to put their emotion in the proper place and to hold to the mission, whatever it may be.
[...]
“The first duty of every Starfleet officer is to the truth, whether it’s scientific truth or historical truth or personal truth!” commands Picard. “It is the guiding principle on which Starfleet is based, and if you can’t find it within yourself to stand up and tell the truth about what happened, you don’t deserve to wear that uniform.”
Picard’s statements don’t ignore the validity of Wesley’s feelings. But they put them into the proper context, as subordinate to the truth. True, that truth can sometimes be emotional, and Guinan knowns that Picard spends a lot of time learning how to admit his feelings. However, feelings are not an end to themselves in Starfleet. And they certainly don’t take precedence over the search for the truth.
Starfleet Academy will take place in the 32nd Century, with a newly re-established school that opened after the reconstruction of the United Federation of Planets. Star Trek: Discovery has largely thrived after moving 900 years into the future, and this different timeline has given the series a lot of latitude to do things differently than other Trek shows.
However, by reopening the Academy, Discovery is also linking back to the past of Starfleet, which means that they also need to include the standards that made the institution the best of the best. The Academy must teach give them the skills to be excellent pilots, engineers, and scientists. It must teach them how to think critically and to explore problems from multiple perspectives.
The first duty of Starfleet Academy will be showing how people work through their emotions, not how to make feelings the one defining mode of problem solving."
Joe George (Den of Geek)
Link:
https://www.denofgeek.com/tv/starfleet-academy-ditch-modern-star-trek-defining-trope/

Please please if you’re anxiety ridden don’t read this post, this is meant to help people with high tolerance to sedation, not hinder them getting a colonoscopy.
For starts:
It usually takes a lot to knock me out for procedures, so when I found out I was getting sedated for my double scope I told my dr, and he made sure they had extra on hand but that there was a limit he could give due to my body weight.
Just had my double scope yesterday morning and still feeling hungover, had the max dose of fentanyl and midazolam (Canada). I’m straight up woozy today, headache, tired, weak legs and feel like I have a flu but no fever. Yes I’m hydrated, drinking electrolytes, eating, resting, no stomach pain, just loose stools.
Very strange I wasn’t warned there would be side effects, but I was told my multiple nurses upon waking up that I was so hard to knock out and they had to give me a LOT of sedative. This isn’t to scare anyone but to let anyone with a bit of a tolerance to sedation know that this specific mix may not be for you, next time I’m demanding propofol even though it’s not commonly used here in Canada for scopes.
The scopes:
Unfortunately I was very alert during the upper endoscopy and basically just dry heaved and gagged on the tube for what felt like 20 seconds but was probably less. I could hear the dr saying they couldn’t give me more I was at the max dose and he was so sorry, and the nurse had a horrified look on her face that I was still conscious. I was in no way stressed or anxious, I think the drugs did that part well, but I could feel the physical tube so clearly and my body’s response was to eject it, but there was no sense of panic about choking not anything, very odd experience.
After those 20 seconds I wasn’t conscious again until they were half done my colonoscopy, at which point I was awake enough to ask to see the screen cuz I thought it was super cool haha. Colonoscopy was totally fine, kinda fun seeing the lining of your bum and its accompanying plumbing.
Long story short, that sedative mix was totally fine for colonoscopy, not nearly enough for the endoscopy if you have tolerance to sedatives. Odd cuz I barely smoke week (2x / month) and drink, and do no hard drugs, but it’s just always the way I’ve been.
Hopefully this helps someone not be in my situation, and anxiety ridden individuals don’t click on my post that clearly says “bad experience” haha.

Long story short I ghosted someone and completely forgot about it and only now after being ghosted I was reminded of my sins .
I’ve been a wreck for the past couple weeks after getting ghosted last month and I’ve been trying to come up with some explanation why it happened. I don’t believe in karma but hopefully it will cheer someone up knowing even ghosts get ghosted.
What happened was someone sent me a message on LinkedIn asking if I remember them, she mentioned my grandparents’ old town and said we used to play together when I was 8-10 years old. I don’t remember her at all and I really want to put an end to that part of my life. I didn’t respond back and it’s been 2 years now. She even friended me on Facebook. I don’t know what she wants from me but whatever it is I’m not willing to give it. I tend to attract women who are really not my type and I’m scared that’s what she’s after. If it was a guy maybe I would have responded.

Region is NA.

If you have my wishlist games, Chat with me anytime. Only accept games from your own collection.

My REPs: 200+ successful trades, stopped tracking after 202.

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Wishlist is in the end of this post

My steam games for trade (Can make gift links if possible):

Added recently:

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Hell let loose
Blade of Darkness
Amanda the Adventurer
Bravery and Greed
King Of The Castle
Loddlenaut
Mediterranea Inferno
Steelrising
Yakuza: Like a Dragon
Coromon
Fashion Police Squad
HUMANKIND™ Definitive Edition
Symphony of War: The Nephilim Saga
Terraformers
The Callisto Protocol
The Excavation of Hob's Barrow
Victoria 3
Littlewood
One Hand Clapping
Tainted Grail: Conquest
Ultimate Chicken Horse
Mad Max
MORTAL KOMBAT XL
Mortal Kombat 11: Ultimate
Middle-earth: Shadow of Mordor GOTY
Middle-Earth: Shadow of War Definitive Edition
Injustice 2 Legendary Edition
Gotham Knights
Back 4 Blood
Batman™: Arkham Knight Premium Edition
Batman™: Arkham Asylum GOTY Edition
Batman™: Arkham City GOTY Edition
Batman™: Arkham Origins
.hack//G.U. Last Recode
CODE VEIN
GOD EATER 3
Katamari Damacy REROLL
PAC-MAN MUSEUM+
Tales of Vesperia: Definitive Edition
TEKKEN 7
Dragon Knight (delisted, 18+, PM for price)
Hell Girls (delisted, 18+, PM for price)
Super Star (delisted, 18+, PM for price)
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Steam games:

9 Years of Shadows
A Juggler's Tale
A Plague Tale: Innocence
ABZU
Aces and Adventures
Ad Infinitum
Afterimage
Agent in Depth
Alchemist's Castle
Alchemy Garden
Aliens vs. Predator Collection ( includes Aliens vs. Predator + Aliens vs Predator Swarm Map Pack + Aliens vs Predator: Bug Hunt Pack)
Aliens: Fireteam Elite
AMID EVIL
Amnesia: The Bunker
Among Us
Anuchard
Aragami 2
Arcade Paradise
Arise: A Simple Story
Armello
Army Men RTS
Assault Suit Leynos
Astronarch
Autonauts vs Piratebots
Battlecruisers
Beacon Pines
Big Pharma
BIOMUTANT
Bionic Commando Rearmed
Black Paradox
Black Skylands
Blade Assault
Blade of Darkness
Blood And Zombies
Bloodstained: Ritual of the Night
Borderlands 3: Super Deluxe Edition
Boundless
BPM: Bullets Per Minute
Brawlout
Castle on the Coast
Cats in Time
Caveblazers
Chicka Wars Chicken Meat (delisted)
Children of Silentown
CHIVALRY 2 - EPIC EDITION
Citizen Sleeper
CivCity: Rome
Click and Slay
Colt Canyon
Conan Chop Chop
Concept Destruction
Construction Simulator (2015) Deluxe Edition
Cookie Cutter
Corridor Z
Cosmonautica
Crayon Physics Deluxe
CROSSBOW: Bloodnight
Cultist Simulator
Curse of the Dead Gods
Dagon - The Eldritch Box DLC
Dark Deity
Dead Age
Dear Esther: Landmark Edition
Death Squared
Deceive Inc.
Demonologist
Depraved
Descenders
Desperados III
Destiny 2: Beyond Light DLC
Destroy All Humans! 2 - Reprobed
Destroyer: The U-Boat Hunter
Detached: Non-VR Edition
DEVOUR
Dicey Dungeons
Disciples: Liberation
Disco Elysium - The Final Cut
Dishonored Definitive Edition
Distant Worlds Universe
Doctor Strange Defenders Skin
Double Cross
Doughlings: Arcade
Doughlings: Invasion
Dragon Knight (delisted, 18+)
Draw Slasher
Drawful 2
Due Process
Dungeons 2 - Complete Edition
Dusk
EDGE OF ETERNITY
Eiyuden Chronicle: Rising
El Hijo
Emily is Away <3
Encased
Endless Space 2
Epic Chef
ETERNAL THREADS
Exorder
Expeditions: Rome
F1 2018
Farming Simulator 17
Firegirl: Hack 'n Splash Rescue
First Class Trouble
Five Dates
Fling to the Finish
Fobia - St. Dinfna Hotel
Foretales
FOREWARNED
Forged Battalion
Fortissimo FA INTL Ver
Founders' Fortune
Friends vs Friends
From Space
Full Metal Furies
Fun with Ragdolls: The Game
GameGuru Classic
Garfield Kart - Furious Racing
Generation Zero
Geometric Sniper
Ghost 1.0
Gloria Victis
Go Home Dinosaurs!
Going Under
Golf Gang
Good knight
GRID Ultimate Edition
GRIME
Grow: Song of the Evertree
Guilty Gear X2 #Reload
Guns & Fishes
Guts and Glory
Hack 'n' Slash bundle (including Hack 'n' Slash + Hack 'n' Slash Soundtrack + Spacebase GIFT)
Hardspace: Shipbreaker
Heart Fragment - Book Two: Belief Fragments (Shannon & Lana)
Hedon Bloodrite
Hell Girls (delisted, 18+)
Hell Pie
Hellbound
HERO'S HOUR
Hidden & Dangerous 2: Courage Under Fire
Hidden & Dangerous: Action Pack
Hokko Life
Hollow Knight
Honey, I Joined a Cult
Hot Brass
Hotshot Racing
How to Sing to Open Your Heart
Hyper Gunsport
I’m not a Monster
Internet Cafe Simulator
Interplanetary: Enhanced Edition
Intravenous
Intruders: Hide and Seek
Iron Danger
Iron Harvest
Izmir: An Independence Simulator
Joggernauts
Joggernauts
JURASSIC WORLD EVOLUTION 2
Just Cause 3 XXL Edition
Just Cause 4 Complete Edition
JYDGE
Kerbal Space Program
Killsquad
King's Bounty II
Kraken Academy!!
Labirinto 2
Lacuna – A Sci-Fi Noir Adventure
Last Oasis
Late Shift
Lawn Mowing Simulator
Legend of Keepers
Legion TD 2 - Multiplayer Tower Defense
Leisure Suit Larry - Wet Dreams Don't Dry
Let Them Come
Life is Strange 2 Complete Season (incl. Mascot Bundle DLC)
Little Misfortune
Little Orpheus
Lords and Villeins
Lost Planet 3 Complete Pack
Lost Ruins
Lust for Darkness
Lust from Beyond: M Edition
MageQuit
Maid of Sker
Mainlining
MEEPLE STATION
Meow Express
Merchant of the Skies
Metal: Hellsinger
Metro Exodus
Midnight Fight Express
Midnight Ghost Hunt
Mini Metro
Mini motor Racing EVO (delisted)
MirrorMoon EP
Monster Prom 2: Monster Camp
Monster Sanctuary
Monster Train
Monster Train: The Last Divinity DLC
Moon Hunters
Moonlighter
Morbid: The Seven Acolytes
Motorcycle Mechanic Simulator 2021
Moving Out - Movers in Paradise DLC
Mr. Prepper
Murder by Numbers
My Friendly Neighborhood
My Time At Portia
Mythic Ocean
Nadir: A Grimdark Deckbuilder
Necromunda Hired Gun
NecroWorm
NeuroVoider
Neverinth
Neverout
New Super Luckys Tale
Nickelodeon All Star Brawl
Nobody Saves the World
Non-Stop Raiders
Northgard
Oaken
Obduction
Of Orcs And Men
Offworld Trading Company
OLLIOLLI WORLD - RAD EDITION
One Hand Clapping
Orbital Racer
Othercide
Out of Reach: Treasure Royale
Outward Definitive Edition
Outward The Soroboreans DLC + soundtrack (DLC only)
Override
Overture
Ozymandias
Paint the Town Red
Partial Control
Patch Quest
Pathfinder: Kingmaker Enhanced Plus Edition (NA only) + Royal Ascension DLC + The Wildcards DLC
Pathfinder: Wrath of the Righteous - Enhanced Edition
Pathfinders: Memories
Pathway
Peaky Blinders: Mastermind
Per Asperatrar
Pilgrims
Pill Baby
Pixplode
Planet TD
Port Royale 3 Gold
PowerBeatsVR
Prodeus
Project CARS (delisted)
Project Chemistry
Project Nimbus: Complete Edition
Project Wingman
Propagation VR - Co-op
Propnight
Proteus
Proteus
PULSAR: The Lost Colony
Pumped BMX +
Quadrata
Quantum Break
Radio Commander
Ragnarock
Railroad Corporation
Railroad Tycoon 3
Rebel Inc: Escalation
Re-Legion
Remnant: From the Ashes - Complete Edition
Remnants of Naezith
Resident Evil Revelations
Resident Evil Revelations 2
Reventure
Revita
RIOT - Civil Unrest
Road 96
Roarr! Jurassic Edition
ROGUE LORDS
Roguebook
RollerCoaster Tycoon 2: Triple Thrill Pack
RPG Maker VX
Rubber Bandits
RUINER
Rym 9000
Saints Row
Sakura Succubus, 18+
Sakura Succubus 2, 18+
Sakura Succubus 3, 18+
Sakura Succubus 4, 18+
Sakura Succubus 5, 18+
Sakura Succubus 6, 18+
Sakura Swim Club, 18+
Sam & Max: Devil's Playhouse
Scorn
SCP : Secret Files
Secret Neighbor: Hello Neighbor Multiplayer
SEUM: Speedrunners from Hell
Shadow Tactics: Aiko's Choice
Shady Part of Me
Shing!
Shotgun King: The Final Checkmate
Sid Meier's Railroads!
Siege Survival: Gloria Victis
Skullgirls 2nd Encore
Slinger VR
Smile For Me
Sniper Elite 3
Sniper Elite 4
Snowtopia
Sorcerer King: Rivals
Soul Searching
Soulblight
Souldiers
Soulstice
Spellcaster University
Spirit Hunter: Death Mark
Spirit of the Island
Stacking
Starbound
Starpoint Gemini Warlords
Stirring Abyss
Strider
Stygian: Reign of the Old Ones
SuchArt!
Sunlight
Super Chicken Catchers
Super Magbot
Super Star (delisted)
SUPERHOT: MIND CONTROL DELETE
Surviving the Aftermath
Sword Legacy Omen
SYMMETRYro
Tails Noir
Tainted Grail: Conquest
Telefrag VR
TEMTEM
The Amazing American Circus
The Ascent
The Beast Inside
The Dark Pictures Anthology: Man of Medan
The Dark Pictures Anthology: House of Ashes
The Dark Pictures Anthology: Little Hope
The Deed II
The Dungeon Of Naheulbeuk: The Amulet Of Chaos
The Golf Club 2019 Featuring PGA TOUR
The Gunk
The Legend of Tianding
The Life and Suffering of Sir Brante
The Long Dark
The Outer Worlds: Spacer's Choice Edition
The Pale Beyond
The Quarry
The Red Lantern
The Serpent Rogue
The USB Stick Found in the Grass
The Witcher: Enhanced Edition (steam inventory gift)
The Witness
The Wolf Among Us
There Is No Light
Ticket to Ride
Tin Can
Titan Souls
TOEM
Tools Up!
Townsmen - A Kingdom Rebuilt
Traffic Jams
Train Station Renovation
Treasure Hunter Simulator
Trek to Yomi
Tribes of Midgard
Twilight Struggle
Twin Mirror
Two Point Campus
Ultimate Chicken Horse
Underland: The Climb
Unity of Command: Stalingrad Campaign
UnMetal
Vanishing Realms
War for the Overworld
Warhammer 40,000: Chaos Gate - Daemonhunters
Warhammer 40,000: Space Wolf
Warhammer 40,000: Space Wolf - Drenn Redblade
Warhammer 40,000: Space Wolf - Exceptional Card Pack
Warhammer 40,000: Space Wolf - Saga of the Great Awakening
Warhammer 40,000: Space Wolf - Wrath of the Damned
Warhammer Age of Sigmar: Realms of Ruin Ultimate Edition
WARSAW
We Happy Few Season Pass
We Were Here Too
Where the Water Tastes Like Wine
White Noise 2
Who Pressed Mute on Uncle Marcus?
Wobbledogs
Worms Rumble
WRC 7
WWE 2K BATTLEGROUNDS
XCOM 2
X-COM: Complete Pack (including X-COM: UFO Defense + X-COM: Apocalypse + X-COM: Enforcer + X-COM: Interceptor + X-COM: Terror from the Deep)
XCOM: Enemy Unknown Complete Edition
XEL
X-Morph: Defense Complete Pack (including X-Morph: Defense + X-Morph: Defense - European Assault + X-Morph: Defense - Survival Of The Fittest + X-Morph: Defense - Last Bastion)
Yakuza 4 Remastered
Zoeti
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Other platforms:
Command & Conquer Remastered Collection (ORIGINkey)
Liberated (GOG key)
STAR WARS: Squadrons (Origin)
Wanderlust Travel Stories (GOG key)
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My Wishlist: (prefer gift links for bolded games)

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Hi-Fi RUSH
DIABLO 4 PC
Street Fighter 6
Rocket League
Poker night
poker night 2
Game of Thrones - A Telltale Games Series
NBA 2k16, 2k17
WWE 2K16, 2K17, 2K18, 2K19, 2K20, 2k23
The Last Remnant
Doctor Who: The Adventure Games
Hell let loose
Crusader kings 3
Spiderman remaster
F1 2020, 2019, 2017, 2016, 2012, 2011
ACE COMBAT ASSAULT HORIZON Enhanced Edition
DARK SOULS
DARK SOULS II
DARK SOULS III
Pistol Whip
CLANNAD
Automobilista 2
Gears 5
monster hunter rise
Tiny tina's wonderlands chaotic great edition
Spyro Reignited Trilogy
DIRT 5
Fable Anniversary
Nioh 2 COMPLETE
Victoria 3
HUMANKIND
A Hat in Time
VTOL VR
rFactor 2
ZERO Sievert
Barotrauma
monster hunter world
Life Is Strange Complete Season
phoenix wright
LOOT RIVER
satisfactory
Gotham Knights
Rivals of Aether
Vrising
DOOM Eternal
Deep Rock Galactic
Dead by Daylight
quantum break
slay the spire
Yakuza kiwami 2
Stardew Valley
stray blade
clash: Artifacts of chaos
Wizard of Legend
Shadow of the Tomb Raider
Rain World: Downpour
Resident Evil Village
Battletoads
Bud Spencer & Terence Hill - Slaps And Beans
River City Girls Zero
Bud Spencer & Terence Hill - Slaps And Beans 2
Double Dragon Gaiden: Rise of the Dragons
Loot River
Cosmo's Quickstop
Witchtastic
Fly Punch Boom!
The Knight Witch
Cookie Cutter
Ghost Song
Euro Truck Simulator 2
Guardians of Holme
Cathedral
One Hand Clapping
Blasphemous 2
Astebreed: Definitive Edition
Apotheon
Floppy Knights
Mahokenshi - The Samurai Deckbuilder
Zoeti
Astrea: Six-Sided Oracles
Book of Hours
Dungeon Drafters
Nobody Saves the World
Roguelands
Dead Estate

other humble choice title games

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Note: for some games from humble I might ask for gift links. There is a rumor 3 years ago that humble bans users due to making gift links only. I make gift links every week, never have any issues. I have no idea why humble would ever ban its customers for using a feature it provides to its custimers.

Here is a guide how to make gift links from support.Humblebundle.com: https://support.humblebundle.com/hc/en-us/articles/202712460-Purchasing-and-Sending-Gifts

I do not believe humble teaches you how to make gift links, so it can ban you, lol