Hi all (and who knows/I hope dr K),
Prepare to read!! But if you don't want to, get the TLDR at the bottom; I am very uncommon with Reddit so forgive me any mistakes!
I've been strugglin' along in life for a while now (am 26 years old) and even though I've been doubling down on dr K's videos last 6 months or so, it's been 10 years I've been working very hard on myself (sometimes really really obsessively). As following is how great my life is going;
I just got hired for a new job (System Engineer in IT), got a good base (got a small but nice apartment with garden, money, stuff, a cute cat) and I am very healthy and strong (I put alot of time in my health) and maybe I got some on the lucky side with appearance thanks to my parents (no model but u know, just fine). + I've joined group therapy on 18 yrs old for one and a half year, been in cognitive therapy since my 21st and still going sometimes and have been reading about philosophy, psychology for years and thought alot about a mentality of 'overcoming' and practicing this alot too in for example Boxing. As more medicine for the mind I sometimes make poems, play guitar and sing or make raps (been a while tbh), meditate, work out more, have a healthy routine and habits, try to do enough new things and take risks (as in Love and also career or vacations alone etc).. I feel like I understand myself and my world alot better than before and that I could do something really cool with these insights.
To understand my question but honestly also because I am weirdly eager to share my story, here's a small part of my history; My parents got divorced at age 5 or 6 because my mother joined a sect (like Amish but modernized) and the church said she had to, against my fathers' wishes. It was a horrible divorce, where suddenly my dad was gone, they regularly got in screaming fights with my mom wishing him dead etc, slamming doors (my dad broke into the house at least once) arguing over the relationship and us, while we didn't really understood why and cried ofcourse. Later on when things sort of settled down I saw my dad weekend on weekend off and until shortly I told myself everything was fine from that time on; it would be too much to tell, but I am now sure (beside every period also has some good things ofc) I have been emotionally neglected, traumatically manipulated by my mom (examples: literally years later when I felt sad my dad was gone while looking at old pictures where she cut him out, she said things like it was the demon in my room making me feel that way and she literally commanded/screamed it back to hell, I was frightened to death and my little sister cried once; my mother also observed and controlled us sometimes obsessively checking our stuff in search of where the devil could hide & would throw it away, and manipulate choices, what is not allowed to do or even think.. everything) and I lived an extremely sad, depressing, insecure and self-blaming youth. If I'd understood what really was going on with my mom and my family, I probably would have killed myself. Lucky me I guess she forced me to become a bit better at lying, and so too to myself. Hahah you thought that was all didn't yah? Hell no, here comes part two; at 15 yrs old I got kicked out of (that side of) the family which meant losing my mother, my siblings I grew up with, my best friend cousin and a whole network of friends because I had to move to my father in another city too far away. I had to walk away from home (my mom) because I felt very unsafe apparently, I wasn't welcome anymore after that. She also didn't respond to my texts, or said I could come and then cancel, and send not even a message from the first birthday since on. Later on I tried again but she keeps putting expectations on me and plays with my love for her. haven't seen her for 6 years now I think. But I also left the one good thing; my mothers' beliefs. I am grateful for my father to take me in, but I think now he was too traumatized by the happenings' in his life that he wasn't able to really connect with me when I moved in, we never discussed emotional parts or had a good talk the first year or more. Maybe we had later on but still, he always felt distant from me, as today I am afraid. Like he is half a ghost; He lives, but always seems unaware of half of what happens.. doing his routine over and over. You can talk but he forgets. Never said he loved me or anything, just he living his life and I mine besides his. I know he loves me, but sad it is.
So you can see I've been through some shit and still leaving out alot because it would be too long to read. I want to get to the point myself as like;
I am feeling okay lately and really are keeping my balance, feeling overall good and livin' prosperous as I actually always do. The only thing I really long still is having a connection with people. I don't know if it's me, them, or both.. I moved alot so it was hard to remain friendships, but I also think I find it hard to make friends because I feel like a strange ducky; I fear my past has changed me so much that I understand depth that my peers do not. It could be arrogance, but it must at least have some truth in it. It takes alot of energy to be around new people and since a year I have become alot more solitary, because I don't want to drink really, use drugs or stay up at night. I live a peaceful life reading, working out, pursue a nice career and sum good meditation (and tea) sessions. And try to keep a few good friendships going, which are going very well. But I haven't been in a relationship for 6 years and now I feel like I am ready (a healthy one this time I promise), only the women around me I feel like they are not (ghosting, are most interested in themselves, looking for checking their grocerylist, communicate intensely vague). I've had quite some experience with women and don't struggle to get dates, but I really find it hard to find real connection/understanding. I got on a new datingapp where you go on date when you match without chatting, sounds great not? Only with the first 3 matches they postponed the date already 6 times, two doubles, mostly same day/few hours before. And with horrible reason and effort after really. I also find the girls I have approached in real life and dated seem occupied, and some of those things i just listed. Generally very cold women here in Holland, is my experience (but there are always exceptions on ones' rules ofcourse);
''Has this world changed its' moral value, or is it I?''
.. So I wonder; do I need to change myself, or my environment? Do I maybe have a lack of connection what makes me feel like I lack connection, or am I still missing something internally? Or both? And do I need to be more patient while feeling a little righteous lack-of?
If you want to ask, share or give your worldview of anything please do so! I am here to learn, not to know it better.
Huge propz to dr K, thanks for the ton of knowledge I already learned from you for free and thanks for this reddit page!
thanks for reading!
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side question: It could be obvious but is my history a normal one? or is it a bit different from the usual? I wouldn't know really, I like to see myself as normal
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TL;DR: Life is going great, Life wás hell & felt like sharing, question; is there a chance for real love?
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hi! in the fall, I’m moving in with my 2 very dear friends who I have lived with before. we have pretty different interior design styles, and I’m hoping we can find a middle ground for inspiration. previously I only lived with them for about a year, so we didn’t put a lot of effort into it, but now we’re in it for the long haul! we’re all moving into a new home together, so we can start from paint and basically create what we want.
what we all like: vintage & antique finds, traditional furniture styles, wood accents, and homemade things like quilts and art from friends.
my style: eclectic traditional or cottagecore. I love florals, blue & white, lots of art on the walls, gingham, rugs, and contrast.
their style: jungalow bold color palette meets cabin-y, camp vibes.
any ideas for a style where we could meet, and especially keywords to start searching to create a vision board? last night in my sleep my brain came up with “cottage in the middle of a national forest” but that is not yielding any results 😝

Welcome to the Forever Home recruitment page!

What is Forever Home?
Forever Home is a social clan in OSRS that strives to make all players of the game feel welcome. We don't want to just be part of your Runescape experience, but we want to become a part of your Runescape family. Regardless of your playing style or experience, we have a place for you here. Our goal is to provide a safe, warm, and welcoming place for all who enjoy the game. Whether you've been playing Runescape for years and have racked up hours of in game time, you're a more casual player who just likes to use the game as an escape from reality, a skiller, a bankstander, pure, ultimate iron man, or even a pro PVMer-- we are confident that you will feel right at home with us. After all, here at Forever Home we truly believe that the people we surround ourselves with can make the game a more enjoyable experience.
What can I expect
The members of our clan strive to aid and assist other members by offering support and advice, not only in game, but in life too! Whether you need quest help, training methods, or just need suggestions on every day life (like what to wear or cook for dinner)-- we are here for you. Our clan prides itself on maintaining a "home" like atmosphere. We are mature, welcoming, and want you to feel safe and cozy! You will become a part of an extremely active and strong member base that truly cares about one another, build friendships that extend beyond in game, and have leaders who work together.
What does Forever Home have to offer?
Clan events: skill of the week, PvM bossing, hide and seek, game nights, bank standing, bingo, and more.
Discord: a state of the art active discord server that is PACKED with features including some that are directly linked to your in-game achievements which allow you to show off your hard work, allow you to keep up with current game updates, clan events, and many other channels for entertainment and conversational purposes.
Friendly staff: staff members dedicated to upholding maturity in the CC, making everyone feel welcome, and making decisions as as whole.
New friends: a great group of mature adult members who have proven time and time again to know the true meaning of loyalty and respect for one another.
How do I join?
We do have a formal application in Forever Home. However, if you'd like to guest in our clan to check things out and get feel for our family, simply click the green double smiley icon within the clan chats tab, click find, and search for us by using 'Forever Home'. Please note: guesting status will be capped to two weeks. After two weeks, application to the clan via discord will be required to remain in CC.
Discord Link: https://discord.gg/foreverhome

Hi, I know there are countless posts like these, but I just got the game and want to dive straight in. I'm starting in the NHL and wanted to know if there were settings I should go for or how I should begin with my team?
Is there a meta way for success? I remember starting the OOTP baseball games and there were many guides and methods about sabremetric and how to game the game for relatively quick and cheap success. I know hockey is fundamentally different, but I'm just wondering if there are any posts or references like that I can read?
Is there a way to coach to get specifically bloated numbers from your best players? What do you guys do to develop prospects? Is there a meta style of play or tactical system? I filled in my player stats and just chose offensive tactician, but I'm unsure what any of those attributes do.
Anyone who can help me on this would be really appreciated, thank you!

Hi all. I thought I would give a little writeup of my journey in POE so far in hopes that it might be helpful or inspirational, in some way, to other new players. I've tried to mention each notable step in my journey.
I started playing last summer, in Ancestor league. Necropolis is my third league, and as of right now, Steam says that I have just under 1,200 total hours played. I come from a Diablo II background, which I had played since college when it came out. I'd been playing D2R when I decided to give POE a try, having heard great things.
It was immediately clear that this game was awesome, though my first glance at the passive tree was daunting. A quick check of the forums seemed to show a "follow a guide" culture around builds, but wanting to go in totally blind for my first run, I decided to skip reading anything about the game and just dove right in.
My first D2 character back in 2000 was an amazon, so I figured I should keep up the bow tradition, and made a Ranger. I was able to complete the campaign, but stalled out around tier 7 maps in endgame. I'm still glad that I did my first run completely blind.
Two things became clear to me during that run: POE was indeed an awesome ARPG experience, but the game was also an informational brick wall. The passive tree was wild. There was a crazy amount of skill and support gems. There were hundreds of legendary items, and attempting to sort through a decade's worth to find synergies felt insurmountable.
I decided to create a second character (a Boneshatter Juggernaut) and this time, I would follow a guide. This was obviously a much smoother experience, but the most important thing that it did was to start teaching me key concepts since, unfortunately - and this is POE's biggest problem - the game just doesn't tell you anything.
I learned about shifting damage types in order to break up hits into smaller pieces. I learned that more damage bonuses are all multiplicative. I learned that armor is extremely effective against many small hits, but poorer against one massive one. I learned that, opposite my initial instinct, many of the most effective skill tree setups stretch out across the tree. If you are new and feel frustrated, hang in there - learning the necessary mechanics layered in this game after 10 years of expansions simply takes time and patience.
When Affliction league came out, I decided I would run a Boneshatter Juggernaut again. I was now very comfortable with the build, and had done enough reading to even make my own tweaks to the build I had followed, adapting the character even more to my personal style and more limited budget. Importantly, it was during this second league that I started reading up a bit more on crafting, and using CraftOfExile to experiment during my lunch breaks at the office. I learned an insane amount about effective crafting by simply messing around on that website. If you are new and want to learn how to craft, this is the tool!
With the help of the people on the forums here, I learned about the key sellable pieces available in several of the endgame league mechanics. For the first time, I was now making slow but consistent divine orbs by running heists and selling Stacked Decks I found there.
I was finally able to accomplish my main goal for the league: I completed 115/115 in the Atlas, and killed all of the main bosses (Eater, Exarch, Elder+Shaper, and finally Maven) to get all 4 voidstones. Maven took me half a dozen tries, but it felt great to finally take her down.
I started off Necropolis by following a guide yet again, but then something simple but impactful happened while I was playing: I dropped a skill gem called Winter Orb that I had never seen before. I always try out new gems real quick when I see them so I have an idea of what they do, and this one seemed really cool. I often browse these forums to soak up knowledge, and I couldn't remember anyone even talking about this gem.
For some reason, I decided, you know what, I'm going to make a Winter Orb character. And not only that, but I would challenge myself, and test my game knowledge: I would do it without using any guides. It would be my first attempt at a completely Homebrew character.
I spent hours on the poewiki, researching interactions, spending hours reading through every unique helm, wand, and shield, looking for things that might be useful. I asked questions about interactions here on the forums whenever I got stuck. I used about 200 Regret orbs while testing different setups as I leveled up.
I'm happy to say that as of this past weekend, I hit my goal: complete the atlas, and get all 4 voidstones. It took a lot of work and optimizing the hell out of what I had come up with in order to complete the Maven fight, but I finally assembled the damage necessary.
You can see my final result here on poe ninja along with the POB link. I named the character after my first thought upon finding the Winter Orb gem - DoesThisSkillEvenWork.
Did I change the meta? No. Is this even the most optimized version of a Winter Orb Heirophant? Gonna guess no! That said, this is the most fun, and absolutely most rewarding character I have played yet, out of the dozen I have made during my time in POE. Yes, it took a lot of research, testing, and constant revisions. But when I finally completed my goals for the character, it was extremely satisfying.
When I first started this game, I felt helpless. I am a person who loves making custom and off-meta builds in every game I play, but POE seemed so daunting in scope that I wondered if I could ever get through endgame without a guide - catching up on 10 years of content seemed overwhelming.
For anyone out there who might feel like I did, hang in there. Yes, there is admittedly a lot to absorb. Take advantage of the awesome community, and use guides to learn... no need to reinvent the wheel. But if you are a player like me who enjoys making your own builds, yes, you will be able to do it!
If you made it this far, thanks for reading. If you are a new player, I hope this helps you in some way.

I’m (19M) pretty new to the term “love bombing” but me and my ex broke up almost 2 months ago. I still love her and still feel like absolute shit.
Before we started dating I got to know her past and she told me she doesn’t go out with friends often and she seldom receive gifts from both friends and family, she even told me that they don’t celebrate her birthday which made me feel kind of sad for her. I’m in a similar situation where the family doesn’t really really celebrate my birthday, I remember like 2 birthday parties for the span of my lifetime and often they would just order KFC or other food for the family. Barely any friends greet me and I feel jealous whenever I would see my friends get posted on instagram stories by their friends on their birthday. I would say that I’m the type of guy who wants the best for the people that I care about and I truly love with all my heart, I express them wholeheartedly. I made it kind of a duty to show this girl what it’s like to have caring friends and whats it like to receive gifts and stuff. So in our first few months of friendship I would often ask her to hangout and give her small gifts like snacks or cheap bracelets and figurines (less than 10$).
Feelings then developed and we started dating which ended shortly after 2 months due to people telling her that I’m a red flag and one of the things people were saying was that I’m a love bomber and that I’m only using her and stuff. When we were dating and even before, I would always chat with her (we would never run out of things to talk about for like 6 months straight), I’d always tell her about my day; update her about where I was, what I’m doing, if I sleep or I eat, and who I was with, I really wanted her to trust me due to her having trust issues. The gifts became more expensive and more frequent (20-50$ up). She’d often say that I didn’t have to buy her things or that I only felt bad for her but the truth is, it’s my love language and I like doing what I do.
She’s an avoidant person, she doesn’t confront me when she feels insecure so a lot of trouble comes up and we’d have small fights here and there. She also said that I’m pushy, when I ask her out and she says she has no money or no transportation, I’d offer to buy stuff for free or pay for an uber (those were probably just excuses to not go out), or when she says I don’t have to buy her things I would still go do it. She really values her freedom so I feel like me doing these things made her feel uncomfortable. Was what I did love bombing?

I want to do funk, rock, and eventually blues and jazz piano. Recently asked about a book / guidance for someone who knows the theory but needs support applying it to non-classical styles. I got the Pop Piano Book, it came in yesterday, and I'm looking at it today. It says learning all the major scales is essential.
To those with experience in these genres, is it advisable to memorize the different ideal / "proper" fingerings for each scale? Or can you just play them with whatever fingers? I'm totally willing to do it, but wanted to know if that's a worthy venture before I go spending tons of time on it. Thanks.
(edited to clarify and to include info I originally meant to include, connecting my previous question to this one.)

Hello there, how are you? Here is my introduction. Hopefully, it will give you a good idea of who I am.
I'm a married 41 yo male looking for an online chat buddy that can turn into friendship.

What matters to me in a friend?

Consistency:

I want someone who isn't a different person from one day to another. Someone who has a set of values and ethics they adhere to. I'm a Christian, so it would be nice to meet another Christian.

Shared interests:

I am into computer programming as a hobby for the creative, fun aspects of it, like game programming or creating creative apps.
I like streaming movies and TV shows: I am subscribed to Prime, Netflix, Hulu, Disney Plus. I watch Tubi, too. I like Science Fiction shows, Thrillers, Horror, Comedy, Action, Fantasy, K-dramas, and similar.
Trying to get into Audible books: I like getting Science Fiction, LRPG, Fantasy, Supernatural books with my wife.
I'm into AI art, and it would be fun to have someone to share creations with.
I like gaming. I'm currently exploring which genres I like best, but I'm into strategy, open world, fps, deck builders, RPG, puzzlers, and similar.
I like writing. I like writing poetry, but i haven't done it in some time. I want to eventually draft a Sci-fi novel.

Someone who has time for friendship:

Doesn't have to be every day, but someone who wants to put aside time to talk and not just go weeks without saying a word. Someone who won't just ghost you and isn't a bad faith actor. Just someone who has time to build a friendship.

Who am I?

I'm a guy that finds it incredibly hard to retain or make friends, and I am unsure why. I am married and my wife is going blind. I have mental health issues, like generalized anxiety disorder and depression, which isn't surprising. It's hard to live life without resources and friends. I talk about problems and health problems, which might put people off. I have a pessimistic view lately, because it just feels truer than optimism. Even though I might seem to be a downer already, I feel like I am fun to talk with to, lol. I like talking with others who have shared interests. I like learning new things, and I've been using AI to do that lately. Sociology and psychology interest me, but I haven't delved into them too deeply, just casual observations or thoughts on it. It would be nice to find another Christian who is into gaming and programming, watching movies and new tv shows. I tend to last longer with friends who have been outsiders before or had hard lives, but it's not a prerequisite.

Why haven't friendships worked out in the past?

I've been trying to unlock this enigma, but it's been elusive. I think it's because I talk about my problems, and I talk a lot, so I end up saying something controversial that I thought they could handle. I am respectful and tactful, but I think I overestimate how tolerant people are of differences of opinion. My wife is going blind, and I have become a pessimist, so maybe people don't like hearing about chronic health problems or problems often. I try to reciprocate the same energy, so I don't get why people are easily offended. I am an open-minded person, but I am opinionated. I think people don't like that I am secure in my opinions, so when there is a difference between us, they might think I don't value or think about their insight. I really hate it when people are really engaging at first, then when you return the energy, they ghost you. That's a big red flag. I tend to connect with other Christians, programmers, writers, movie enthusiasts, but they got into the interests for reasons I didn't, so we don't connect. Like programmers tend to be super logical and mathematical,
while I get into it for the creative aspects. Another example is talking with Christians, but they are from another denomination, or they are super strict and able developing a Bible study, but I am trying to make casual friends and am more laidback. Even another example, I talk with Science-Fiction fans, but they want the Science to be realistic and fact-based, while I get into it for the creative storytelling. Those nuisances always ruins it for me.

Final Thoughts:

Well, I think I wrote enough to get a good idea of who I am. It would just be nice to find decent people who I can vibe with and who don't just profile you, judge you, or act like they are your friends, then ghost you. I am tired of that, lol.

Sorry for negativity as people here probably mostly enjoy new nfs and I'll get called a boomer but whatever.
Handling is obviously bad so devs please stop copy paste it to every next game since nfs 2015 and remake it from zero. Try playing any different racing game like Forza or Grid to see how it's done but besides that...
Imagine doing anime themed racing game and not going with japanese vibe at all. Soundtrack is turd. Map is boring and no atmosphere. There should be Japan themed map and fitting soundtrack with eurobeat or tunes more in style to older nfs games. Look at JDM: Japanese Drift Master upcoming game to again see how it's done.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ljwUlY9WW1I
Anyway keep adding nostalgia paid content instead of making good game for once I guess.

hey guys,
i’m 22 years old and all my life i’ve struggled with making friends or keeping friends and i’ve bounced a lot from friend groups. i have really bad social anxiety which i’m trying to overcome and bad paranoia and overthinking which i’m also trying to tackle. i have nobody close and personal and it’s either online friends in a different countries or irl it’s my 4 coworkers. i’ve tried making friends with my friends coworkers but i’ve noticed that i’m putting in the effort a lot and getting nothing from them. on social media i’m heavily heavily heavily (x1000) extroverted and bubbly/hyper and i try to tone it down when i meet new people so i keep the conversations casual and chill but after a while it’s awfully quiet on their end so i just give up. i’ve always been afraid of friend making apps like bumble cos i really don’t like posting pictures of myself but i thought i’d give it a go finally and enough is enough. i’ve made around like 5-6 friends on there and we moved to talking on insta and so on. i’ve noticed that the vibes and energy are there in the first couple of days and after that they just stop talking to me, leave me on read and eventually just remove me/block me without a word. i feel like i’m doing something and i’m the problem? cos it’s a pattern at this point. same happened with a friend on discord too. i love my own presence don’t get me wrong but god i feel so lonely. especially seeing friendship appreciation posts & videos over social media like it literally kills. i want to have a friend soulmate/bromance so desperately that i start sobbing like a psychopath when i see videos like that. romance is another topic for another day but i just want to be loved in a friend way so bad it’s driving me insane. like i literally made a friend from bumble yesterday and in the same second of us talking about gaming, he removed me and kept leaving me on read before eventually blocking me. i can’t do this anymore, it’s so lonely here. my coworkers have their own friends that they’ve known for years and i only have them when i want to feel seen and wanted and they don’t know that. i have so much love to give but nobody to give it to.

I actually quite like the album. I find that I listen to a lot of different styles of music so maybe that’s why I was never upset that it sounds so different? I really like meet me on the roof which many people seem to dislike

I'm just going to ramble about some things that have been coming up for me lately, because I know I'm not the only one going through it, and sometimes those bits of inspiration or wisdom or intuition that come through need someone else to say, yeah, that's happening to me too, for us to believe that it's also happening to us. We also need guidance that comes through us, because it's meant to find someone else who needs to hear the same things.
I don't know about you, but I've been inundated lately with feelings, thoughts, visions, telepathy, some astral stuff, and the energy of my twin. I feel him getting closer, I feel his wanting to reach out, I feel his love and all the good things about us returning, and I'm not assuming anything, but just observing it, enjoying the loving feelings without having expectations, but flowing with it, just noticing what's there and seeing what I need to do in myself to be open to all possibilities.
Every place you feel resistance (fear, insecurities, worry, doubt, blame, anger, like it's not possible, or wishing it was different) is a place we have to look at and figure out why it's there. We're responsible for our own perspectives, our own lives, our own happiness, our own sense of self, our own peace, to find how to do that, to protect our energy, despite what's happening in our lives.
The twin flame path is one of enlightenment, to get to where you are grateful for yourself and your life, no matter what. That you're living your authentic life, no matter what. That you're comfortable, safe, secure, satisfied with your own existence, as it is. As a by product of you embodying your own purpose and being, you will attract the love that you are. It's not about control, it's not about obligation, attachment, what others are supposed to do for you. You stay in your power and believe in yourself and your own path, and what is for you will come to you, in divine timing, when it's time, not when you think it's time. You don't know everything. The universe does.
The art of surrendering is not an easy place to arrive at because often it is through the universe bringing you to your knees again and again, losing people, places, money, jobs, lovers, your twin, friends, beliefs, health, sanity. This journey brings you to rock bottom over and over through moments where you are so miserable with yourself and life that you have no choice to let go of all the thoughts that keep you from being who you're meant to be. To letting go of all your attachments in life (how it's supposed to be, what others are supposed to do, etc)
It's in cycles over the past years that I've learned to let go of the things that are troubling me, the fears that keep coming up, the things I need to heal, that I have to face repeatedly. My feelings of self worth, my codependency, my attachment styles, the way I see life, the deeply engrained beliefs I had about myself that were put in my head by others. We have to get back to the truth of who we are, what we really are, a neutral unconditionally loving consciousness.
In that place, you will have an understanding of your twin flame and your journey that gives you peace. You will know that this is all happening the way that it's meant to, that there's no mistakes. That your twin has to do what they have to do, and so do you. This is how it's meant to be right now, as it is, for a reason. To learn, to overcome, to choose yourself, to set boundaries, to learn how to love yourself properly instead of letting a relationship with anyone else control you. You learn that the only thing you have control over is yourself, and that's all you can fix, and you can create a life you love for yourself, no matter what anyone else is doing.
On this journey I have realized a lot of people in my life weren't reliable, weren't unconditionally loving, weren't for me, weren't good for me, and I've battled a lot of issues learning to accept myself so much that I don't give a shit what anyone else thinks about what I'm doing or how I live or how I am. I know I am how I am, this is it, I'm doing the best I can considering what I'm going through. I'm the only one who truly knows how hard it is, so it's my job to support, nurture, encourage, and love myself through whatever I'm going through. It's no one's job but mine to make sure I'm okay first.
I've distanced myself from everything that isn't in alignment with what I want for myself. I barely talk to a lot of people now, I am a bit of a hermit, but I've been finding more and more where I'm meant to be and with whom. I'm okay alone most of the time, and because of how this has all affected me for real in my real life on a daily basis, I'm very cautious and careful about what I spend my energy on. Lately I've been on a break from work, and I did nothing but journal, sleep, write, draw, cook a little, and have basically been a slug. Something like that would've made me feel really guilty because it wasn't productive, but I've just known that I needed it and no one gives a fuck anymore about what I do, so I have arrived at a place where I can do what I want, even if it's nothing, and it's really freeing, to allow myself to be myself without judging myself.
I see lots of questions about knowing if someone is your twin and all of that so I'll answer that. I didn't know until after we were in a relationship that ended. We were in a committed loving real relationship. I don't think I would've known we were twins without us actually being in a real relationship. I wouldn't have had all of the things he said, all the things that happened between us to reflect on to know how real it was without all of that. The sexual experiences were spiritual, still are. The way we understood each other and accepted each other as we are was unlike anything I'd experienced before, the way that we felt safe and trusted each other was on a level that I'd never had with anyone else. I know that despite what happened to us, our struggles in real life with each other, that we both can't possibly love another person this much, because it's heaven and ecstasy all tied up with the agony and the longing and the confusion of knowing that this exists and that it's hard to hold.
It's something that is so intense that it scares us, the truth scares us, the vulnerability, the depth of emotion, the intensity of how it feels. It's something that makes us feel like it's not real. One time my twin and I were talking about us and how it felt and I was like it's hard to believe this is real, and he said, it's real, it's real, over and over trying to convince me. I wouldn't know that he felt the way he felt, to the degree that he did, if we didn't go through all the things we went through, and then his not being able to stay away all these years.
I see lots of comments about what an ass someone's twin is, how toxic they are, how they don't want this, blocking and unblocking and all these ridiculous things. This isn't a game, this isn't some infatuation, this is a spiritual journey you're thrust upon because at some point you asked for it, because this journey was meant to be for you, so stop focusing on what they're doing wrong, and make your life the way you want it to be, and they'll join you when you are unconditionally loving to yourself and able to be in that place.
I realized how I needed to reparent myself and grow the hell up, that I wasn't taking responsibility for my own life. That I choose the abusive people in my life, that I let people treat me bad, that I gave and gave to people and systems and work that didn't give back but just drained me. That I was surrounded by people who criticized me and insulted me, instead of being there for me. That I was letting life be shitty to me because I didn't believe that it truly could be better, because that's what I'd lived with my entire life, dysfunction. But it could stop with me. I could choose to live differently because I know that's the way to be.
If you're really a twin and on this journey for real, there's no escaping it. You will be continually faced with your own shit to heal, and all those negative places you visit in your mind are about you, not about what someone else needs to do. You have to accept your circumstances as they are, and see what you can do to make your life better, for you. Stop talking to people, stop answering calls and texts, move, break up with people who don't treat you right, stay away from negative people, stop trying to get people to like you or love you, stop telling yourself you aren't enough, stop working in a job with assholes around you, do what you want to do for you, and the rest will fall into place.
I met my twin 7 years ago, and it has been a life changing experience ever since. I was in a terrible place when we started dating, and he showed me that there was more, he showed me all that I am, he showed me that I was worth loving mess and all. He began the process of opening me up to remembering that unconditional love exists and that it was always what I was meant for. And then the long journey to facing all of my wounds and issues and inner child wounds and traumas and struggles began, to move them out the way, so I could get back to my innocent, childlike, reborn self that can see life in a positive way, as a positive experience, that I'm in control of. I have the power to create the life I want, by working on myself, to create the feelings inside of myself that I want reflected to me in my outside life.
So, if I love myself unconditionally, as I am, then what loves me comes to me. Not immediately, but it unfolds. The mindset, the higher perspective, the peace, the empowerment, the confidence, the knowing, the intuition, the faith, the good relationships, the better job, the place to live, the finances, all of it. When you trust yourself, that you're doing what you're supposed to be doing, taking care of yourself, letting the universe deliver what's best for you, it comes to you. In divine timing.
I know the idea that divine timing and things like everything happening for a reason are hard to believe, and we want to say well this shitty thing that happened to me wasn't supposed to happen, it shouldn't have happened, it's not fair. While of course no one wants bad things to happen, to anyone, they do. This is life, we're human. Shit happens. But I'll say that while I'm not happy about my terrible parents or my abusive exes or my chronic illnesses or the state of the world, I know that all of that is part of my experience, and that it happened to me, and that I can learn from it, heal from it, change from it, become better because of it, overcome it, recover from it, and become the version of myself that protects myself as best I can from the rest of the world, and from my own fearful thoughts.
I'm not writing all of this to be like well, I have it all figured out, and this is how it is, and this is how you should be, but to show the others on all stages of their journey that this is where you can end up. At peace, self assured, empowered, detached from outcomes, living in faith, understanding that what happens to me isn't to torture me but to help me evolve, knowing that I'm in control of my own life and fulfillment.
Knowing that whatever happens with my twin is for me, and that it'll evolve the way it's meant to, us not being together now isn't a great tragedy, it's the way it's meant to be, even if I don't understand now, I will. I know that it's all turning out exactly as it's meant to, there's nothing to figure out, there's no mystery to solve. I see how people are, I respond in the way that's right for me. I feel my way through life, I listen to myself and follow the way that makes me feel most alive. I go in the direction that feels right to me, because I trust myself now. I don't profess to have it all together, and I suppose in terms of societies' standards I may never have it together, but how I feel about myself and life is all that matters, no matter where I am at any given point.
This journey isn't easy, it turns us inside out for a reason. We were meant to evolve, to become more of ourselves, to know ourselves, to understand more about our own existence and our purpose, to figure out how to make life easier on ourselves. We weren't sent here to suffer, humans do that to themselves, our fears are the only things that hold us back from having the lives we want. And even when we're fearless, we have bills to pay, and colds and flat tires, and storms and earthquakes and root canals and dirty dishes and shit happens. We have to accept all that we are in this life, and our circumstances, and take it moment to moment, with our visions and dreams and wishes in mind and go that direction, no matter how we feel.
We are strong, we are courageous, we are brave and we are resilient and beautifully made just as we are. We were meant to enjoy life, and eventually, you'll go through enough experiences to figure out how to do that. To stop those voices in your head that tell you that you don't deserve it, that tell you that you're screwing up, that tell you that you aren't doing enough, that tell you you aren't enough, and all of that is lies, bullshit, that was put there by other people.
You're love, you're not all that other crap. You don't have to hold yourself back anymore. You don't have to stay small so others won't be bothered by your changing. You can't fix others, you can't make them different. You can only love yourself and when you do, you will see your life around you start to love you back. Patience is necessary. Forgiveness, to yourself is necessary. Acceptance is hard but it is key. Letting yourself feel what you feel is necessary to get through it to the other side. Learning how to take care of yourself, regulate your own nervous system, learning how to place healthy boundaries is going to help you enormously on this journey as you navigate it.
I don't know if this helps anyone, but I see so much negativity, doubt, blame, confusion, and suffering out there, and it really isn't necessary and so maybe something here will help. As long as you're blaming others and not focused on yourself you're giving your power away, you're focusing on things you can't control, and that will keep you stuck, focusing on yourself might not feel easy, but once you start it'll get easier and you'll see how this works and it'll make more sense.
Facing myself and why I am the way I am is one of the hardest things I've had to do, but on the other side of so much healing, I know now that it was totally worth it. I've never felt the way I feel about myself and life now, and while it's not all blissed out all the time, acceptance creates peace, and after a lifetime of chaos my peace is very valuable to me. It's a good place to live. The terrible voices don't haunt me anymore and I know that anything is possible now. I hope that for you as well. I hope that in this next cycle you find the solid centered authenticity of yourself and get good at living in your truth, creating a life you love and feel good in.
When you get there, you'll understand everything about your twin flame journey and you'll be grateful for all it taught you, instead of feeling like it was a lot of unnecessary torture. It's here for you, so you'll become the powerful, solid, loving, compassionate, honest, authentic, capable, trusting, open, tender, strong, wise, joyful, fulfilled soul you were always meant to be, before life did what it did to you. You were put here to enjoy life. Find your way there.

Hello! Welcome to Season 2 of Glyph RP's new Campaign. NEW SEASON LAUNCHED SATURDAY, MAY 11TH AT 1:00PM EST!
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Ark is considered one of the best sandbox games full of so much potential. We wanted to tap into that potential and provide an experience to help you get away from it all. We realize that ARK is a game where people come to have fun after a long day of work/school so we drive to make it a fun experience for everyone. Our server is ultimately for an immersive experience full of RP potential and we heavily configured the server to do just that. Start off in a brand new world with so many potential avenues that are altered by your character's decisions. A world that is curated around our evolving storyline with plenty to explore and do.
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The core mechanics that make ARK, well ARK. Plus a few features that are useful for core gameplay.

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I was thinking about how Tyler is “past the point of no return” in Paladin. He’s already past the point of no return prior to seeing Nico. It’s not a physical point, but a mental one. He’s trying to fight Nico. It seems that in deciding to fight him, he’s already past the point of no return. In a realistic sense, it could be thought of as “once you give the bad emotions attention, they will consume you and make you spiral”. In dealing with the emotions, he guarantees himself to feel them fully, for better or worse. And if Clancy knows that he is past the point of no return before even seeing Nico, it’s as if Nico can always get to him, or that he’s always with him.
In Fairly Local, Tyler turns into Blurryface simply by his eyes turning red, and the verse stays the same, just distorted. They’re the same person, Blurryface/Nico are just living within him all the time.
So if Nico is a form of Clancy, why are there 9 bishops? Where did the other 8 come from? Clancy seems to respect Keons. They all want to destroy Clancy. If Nico was born out of Clancy’s bad/emotional side, it stands to reason that the others did too.
In Drown, Tyler says “Here I come, come to you, in the very clothes That I killed, killed you in, and now I know I'm alone
…. Back and forth between being me and who you call me to be You see a man free who thinks he has to buy a key To a door but he can't 'cause he's poor and he can't Fall down anymore 'cause he's already on the floor And his heart is broken and all and this is his scar But it's warm from crying 'cause he will try nine times To realize nine crimes but he has more than nine lives So he picks himself up and keeps fighting for the prize again
…'Cause I will save a face for name's sake Abuse grace, take a aim up to obtain a new name in a newer place But my name is lame, I can't walk and I ain't the same And my name became a new destiny to the grave and They say the ocean's blue, but it's black right now In the dark, on the sand, looking out at my crowd Depression and drowning singing now the full parts And lightning reveals where the ocean stops and the sky starts I've been told by the sky that the ocean I shall win But it's hard for me to see where ocean stops and sky begins A random strikes of light remind me of what is true But right now the ocean's blacker than black, the sky is too”
Nine bishops, nine crimes. He killed him in the same clothes he’s in now. The 8 other bishops are past versions of Tyler that he had to kill to grow as a human. “Some times to stay alive you gotta kill your mind” Nico is the current struggle. His new name (Clancy) provides a new destiny to the grave, or a new way of attacking the problem. The ocean is paladin strait. Tyler has already referenced this song on fall away. It means a lot to him. And the rap style fits Clancy. Oh and if you google the frown lyrics, the last verse is different now, not sure if it’s a cover or something though.
It might be that he has had this story in his head since the beginning, and only now that his songwriting/musical ability has matured enough, he feels comfortable sharing it. And therefore there is Easter eggs scattered thru his discography.

***Lily***
We all just stare at it for a while, waiting to see what it does. The first person to make a move is Wabbajack, inching his way closer towards it. As he gets close, he pokes it. As he does, I could swear it makes a squeaking sound.
He gasps as he picks it up. At that moment, I notice that the tail stays close to the ball of fluff, kinda flying around it. Maybe it has a set distance? He then proceeds to squeeze it a couple more times as it squeaks. “This is amazing!” He yells, squeezing it some more.
Eventually, it spins around to face him. It opens its mouth and out comes a tongue flying out like a frog and connects to Wabbajacks face. The rest of the body then comes flying towards his head as it bites his head, knocking over Wabbajacks hat.
I hear a muffled, “Aww. I was having fun. Oh well, got to admit though, it’s feisty.”
“It seems to be a Umoya Vulpes Uhane.” I hear to my right. I turn to see Mogsten looking into a book. “Fascinating! This seems to be the only other time that there has Ever been a recorded sighting of one. There is almost next to no information on its capabilities here.” He adds. He then slams the book shut as he exclaims, “I’ll pay whatever you want for him!”
I then hear more muffled noises say, “Wow! This guy must be really rare for Mogsten to offer anything. Still, first, Lily, how do you feel?”
I look back at the ball of leathery fur that has Wabbajack’s head in its mouth. I feel… something. I put my finger to my chin as I say, “I don’t quite know what I feel right now honestly.”
Wabbajack continues to try and speak as he says muffled again, “Well, familiars are rare, and the experience is different from person to person. Just don’t try to rush it and things should make sense I imagine. What do you want to name this fella?”
I don’t know honestly. But, first things first, “Could you get it off your head now? It’s hard to hear what your saying.” I say.
“Wait, Wabbajack has been talking?” Mogsten asks.
“Well, yeah. Haven’t you heard him?” I ask.
Mogsten looks at me funny and then back at the ball of fur. He then walks over to it and kicks Wabbajacks foot out from underneath him, knocking him down on his back. He then goes up to the fox ball and whispers into its ear. For some reason, as clear as day, I hear, “Can you hear me whispering Lily? Nod if you do.”
So, I nod.
“Fascinating!” He says. He then snaps his fingers as Gourdsten hands him a notepad and a pen. As soon as they are in his hands, he starts writing down some stuff. He stops to look at the fox ball and holds up the notepad to it. “Anything?” he asks.
“What?” I yell back.
He then shrugs and goes back to writing notes.
“Can I get back up now?” Wabbajack says, still muffled.
I rub my temple, wishing that the fox ball would just get off his head.
Just as I think that, it hops off and starts to walk towards me. Well, waddle may be a more accurate word. Or, whatever it is called for how gators walk. It then stops in front of me and tilts its head. Its tail then connects to the body and, as it does, the body stretches out, taking a noodle like shape. It then flies up and wraps its body around my neck! It yawns, and I think I hear it snore. Funny, like it is now, it’s kinda like a scarf. Although the breathing I feel from it adds to the soothing effect as well.
“Spectacular!” I hear Mogsten exclaim. I look towards him to see him fervently taking notes. I also happen to see Wabbajack had gotten back up, put his hat back on, and was walking over here as well.
“I’m amazed. It looks like this was a success.” Wabbajack says.
“Of course! Who do you think I am? Some amateur?” Mogsten says, not taking his eyes off my living scarf.
Regardless, the leather belly provides a good grip while the fur is Extremely soft. I could see myself falling asleep as well if I wasn’t busy trying to process everything right now.
“Welp, it all worked out. You got a familiar and Mogsten is one of the few who successfully summoned it.” Wabbajack points out.
Mogsten shoots up as he realizes it too as he says, “Yes. YES! I DID! People will come from everywhere to see my wares and request my talent!” He then starts dancing along with Gourdsten.
“Although, you’ll have to up security if people keep requesting familiars.” Wabbajack mentions.
The dance slowly comes to a stop as that fact sinks in and Mogsten says, “Blast.” He then snaps his fingers as he says, “I can provide a questionnaire and a test, that people will have to pay for as well! Oh hohohohoho!” He laughs as he starts dancing again.
Wabbajack just shrugs and turns back to me. He asks, “Well, introduced you to about most of the important places that are around here, all that is left would be the furniture then. Unless there is anything else you can think of?”
As I start petting my living scarf, I try to think really hard if there is anything else I need to know. We got equipment, some magic books for me to study, my mark of sentience, a familiar, had a fight or two with Wabbajack, and met his family. I shrug and say, “No, I actually think that was it.”
He wipes his forehead as he says, “Thank goodness. I can’t tell you how crazy today has been.”
I can’t help but let out a chuckle as I say, “You think it’s been crazy for you? It’s been one new concept after another for me.”
He looks at me, chuckles, and says, “Fair enough. I almost forgot that All this must be new to you.” I had just gotten changed back when he then walks to the flap leading to the front as he says, “Well then, shall we get some furnishing?”
I nod and quickly chase after him. As we exit the store, I decide to ask Wabbajack some more questions as we peruse the bazaar for any good furniture being sold. I ask him an important question, at least to me anyways, “Why do you do this job? With your talents and skills, you could do whatever. And don’t try to sell me on that Monster of Monsters thing. Don’t you get tired of it?”
He stops, sighs, and tilts his hat down as he explains, “Well, if you really intend on traveling with me, then I guess you’ll have to know sooner or later. Let me ask You a question first however. Do you think nothing good could come from death?”
I look down as I answer, “Well, I mean, there is always another way, right?”
He responds with, “True, but I have learned why being a hero is as disastrous as the destruction they prevent. If I had to guess, Silkie probably told you about That, right?”
I quickly try to look away but realize, I immediately sold myself out.
“I thought so.” He says. He then follows up with, “There was a reason for that. There was a warlike nation growing in power. The reason for that is that none of the other nations were taking it seriously, so they pillaged and plundered as much as they like. Now, what is the best way to convince a nation’s leader that an “insignificant” threat is an actual one without them laughing at you?”
I look up and try to consider.
Before I can however, he continues, “I played the part of the nation about to destroy everything, and…assassinated… that infant. When the king and queen discovered their child killed by, what reports believed was one of those “barbarians”, they then took the threat Very seriously. They beefed up security and their guard. When the nation was invaded, instead of being wiped out, they defended themselves and crushed the opposition. I admit, it haunts me most nights. The crying, the sadness, then the stifling quiet. I hated it. But, they didn’t have the time for me to convince them conventionally. That is why I do these things, so others don’t have to. If they were defeated, then the warlike nation would have just steamrolled over everyone else. Now, tell me, what happens when a culture developed entirely around killing others runs out of things to kill?”
I ask him this time, “Is this a rhetorical question or do you want me to answer it this time?”
He shrugs and says, “Only if you want to try.”
I sigh and start thinking about it. “If a culture based on war ran out of people to fight… then they would try to look to improving their lives, right?”
He pats my head as he says, “You’re a genuinely good person. If that was how it worked, I would hopefully be out of a job. No, unfortunately. Nine point nine times out of ten, they just start killing each other. Point zero five percent scenario that they manage to start invading other dimensions. And the last of it, would hopefully improve their lot.”
“That’s so sad.” I mention.
“Welp, that is why I am around, I imagine. I wish I could save everyone but then, it becomes a cycle of dependency. If they can’t manage to take care of themselves, then when the rock holding it all up disappears, then things just go back to being as bad as they were before. Sometimes it winds up being worse than before. So, while I am impressed of true-blue heroes, I don’t envy them. That’s why I take orders from my boss. He promised me that, if I listen to him, he could help me protect entire dimensions. And the best options are sometimes the darkest ones. And who better to wander the darkness than someone who just about everyone hates already?” he asks while pointing to himself.
While he says that cheerfully, I swear I could sense a sadness to it as well. As I think that, my familiar floats over to Wabbajack and starts licking his face.
“He-e-ey. Easy there. Didn’t think I was that tasty.” He says as he tries to wave it off.
“Wolfie! Stop it!” I say without thinking.
It looks back, tilts its head, and floats back to being around my neck.
“Wolfie?” Wabbajack asks.
“Yeah… I guess. I guess that is what I decided to name it.” I say as I pet its fur.
I hear him chuckle. I respond with, “What?”
“Nothing.” He answers. He then waves forward as he asks, “Well then, shall we continue?”
I smile and walk forward. I then see him catch up immediately. When he does, Wolfie then starts wagging her tail, I think.
“What’s he so excited about?” Wabbajack asks.
“She. And I’m not sure.” I respond. I have a suspicion but, there are still too many variables to answer before I can start providing answers.
Wabbajack puts both his hands up defensively as he says, “My bad.
Sorry.”
“It’s fine.” I tell him.
We finally reached the bazaar and start looking around. As I am looking around, Wabbajack smacks my back and says, “That guy looks promising.”
I look over in the direction that he points, and I see a turtle person wearing some very poofy-looking robes, puffing smoke from a long oboe-looking pipe. Behind him, is some sort of tube-like machine. Wabbajack walks over to him, so I follow shortly after him.
As soon as he goes up to him, Wabbajack asks, “Excuse me good sir, what would you be selling here?”
There is a pause, he then lets out some smoke, and finally says, “Nothing.”
“Nothing?” I ask.
Another pause and he responds with, “Yep.” He then let’s out some more smoke.
“But then, what is this stall here then?” I ask.
As there is Another pause, I realize that this must be their shtick. He then answers with, “Fabrication.”
“Fabrication? You actually got a permit for that?” Wabbajack asks.
One pause later, he answers, “Yep.”
I look to Wabbajack and ask, “What is Fabrication and, why is it such a big deal?”
“Fabrication is a SUPER advanced form of blacksmithy. As long as you have the materials, you can determine what gets crafted, how it gets crafted, and what it looks like. The only catch is that it depends on the materials. Don’t expect to get golden bricks from grass. That requires rewriting at the genetic level, which you would have to be a master alchemist for that. Even I don’t have the means for fabrication. Although, the alchemy stuff can be pretty fun once you get past all that boring stuff. Not to mention profitable.” Wabbajack explains.
“Wait. You can’t do Fabrication?!” I ask in astonishment.
“Well, I could if I had the materials and patience for it. The time it takes to be permitted to fabricate Anything takes an unrealistic amount of time. I made it about halfway through before even I lost my patience.” Wabbajack answers.
“Why did you stop halfway?” I ask.
“Staying in a classroom for half a millennium alone, being told the yes and no’s of fabrication tends to make a lot of people go mad.” He continues to explain.
Before I can express my disbelief, we hear a very slow laugh, followed by, “Wimp.” I look over to the turtle man in time for him to blow some more smoke.
“You got me their old timer.” I hear Wabbajack say.
“Wait, why does it take so long?” I ask.
“Fabrication is a very meticulous process. Possibly the most meticulous. Not to mention, as I am sure you can imagine, it would be Very profitable for whomever can pull it off. It’s one of the most closely watched professions in all of Spiritopia. Not to mention, if someone of dubious morality decided to fabricate items, chances are that a LOT of bad things would come of it. You have to really have to be discerning when you break into the business. But, if you manage to pull it off, you are held in VERY high regards. Almost untouchable.” Wabbajack explains.
I then hear another, “Yep.” And another puff of smoke.
I then look at the turtle man and ask, “Does that mean you could make us some furniture?”
There is a pause as he looks me up and down. After a while, he says, “Nope.”
I am shocked. I ask, “Why not?”
Pause, puff, and says, “Inexperienced.”
I tilt my head down as I say dejectedly, “Oh, I see.” Wolfie also lets out a sad “hmmm”
Wabbajack then asks himself, “What about me?”
He then looks him up and down as well. This time, he scratches his chin. After a while longer, he says, “Yep. But I’ll charge you more than usual.”
Before I can exclaim my disapproval, Wabbajack says, “Deal!”
As I look to him aggravated, I then hear the turtle man say, “What would you like?”
Wabbajack looks to me as he asks, “What would you like? I imagine some drawers with a vanity mirror, a better bed, some sort of entertainment, maybe even a closet?”
I exclaim, “Wait just one minute! Why would you willingly pay more than normal?”
“Like I said, it’s a profession held in high regard.” Wabbajack explains.
“That.” As the turtle man starts to say something as well. “That and your reputation as Mr. Happy. But, I do like to make my own judgements as well.” He continues as he then lets out another puff.
“There you go.” Wabbajack says, pointing towards the turtle man.
I sigh and say, “Still strikes me as unfair.”
The turtle man laughs again as he says, “Inexperienced.”
Wolfie lets out a growl.
“Easy now, this is a once in a lifetime opportunity. Let’s not get upset over the finer details.” Wabbajack responds with.
I let out another sigh as I say, “Alright, fine. All the things you mentioned sound good.” I then puff my face.
Wabbajack then lets out a laugh as he says, “Alright. Don’t worry, if you don’t like something about it, we could always come back and change it now that we know someone who can fabricate stuff.”
He then looks at the turtle man as he asks, “Before we talk business, may we exchange names? My name is Wabbajack.” He then puts his hat to his chest and offers a small bow.
Pause, puff, and he says, “Polite. My name is… hold on. Been a while.” He then scratches his chin. He then goes, “Oh! That’s right. Thomas is my name.”
“That’s a good name.” Wabbajack says.
“Flattery won’t lower the price lad.” Thomas says.
“Wouldn’t dream of it.” Wabbajack responds.
I then put my finger to my chin as I think and start seriously thinking about what I want my room to look like. I honestly want to start pumping ideas but, as I think about it, I don’t really know what I want everything to look like, let alone what it would look like together. Especially since it has become very apparent that my level of fashion sense is not quite up to snuff as I once thought it was.
As I am thinking all this, I hear a meat-ripping noise that snaps me back into reality. I look towards the sound and I see that Wabbajack had ripped his arm off at the shoulder and is now holding it towards Thomas. I naturally let out a scream.
“WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?!” I yell.
They both look at me and Wabbajack asks, as nonchalantly as ever, “What’s up?”
““What’s up?” You RIPPED your ARM OFF!” I point out.
He looks at the arm he’s holding out and points at it with the arm that he Should be missing as he asks, “This arm?”
I look back and forth and the realization must have been obvious as he then asks, “You forgot about me being able to regenerate, didn’t you?”
I blush as I say, “Yeah…”. I snap out of my embarrassment as I think to ask, “But, doesn’t that still hurt?”
He just shrugs as he asks, “Yeah, why wouldn’t it?”
“Why did you rip your arm off then?” I ask in response.
“Because, we will just simply come back when you understand what would work best for you want for your own room and style. But, for now, this would be the perfect opportunity to give you a device to access the same font of information I have access to And a means of travel if we ever get separated somehow.” He explains as Thomas takes his torn arm and examines it.
Before I can say anything else, we hear, “Five currency…”
Five currency? Just five or five million? It couldn’t be so cheap after he said he would charge more than normal, right?
Just as I think that, Wabbajack says, “Awesome, here you go.” As he hands him five of those matte dice.
“What happened to being more expensive?” I blurt out.
Thomas just shakes his head as he just says, “Inexperienced…” Again.
Wolfie lets out another small growl.
“Now, now. Calm down. Fabrication isn’t expensive by any means since the customer has to provide the materials themselves. So, Fabricators can’t honestly charge a lot since they aren’t doing a lot.” Wabbajack explains while Thomas throws the arm into his machine and starts hitting buttons.
“That makes sense” I think to myself.
Next thing I know, Thomas throws me this small calculator like device. I look down at it and, while it does have the shape of a calculator, the symbols on the buttons are fluctuating and where the screen is supposed to be is this oval like projector lens and on the front-facing side is this little bulb, like what you would see on a remote control.
The confusion on my face must have been apparent as Wabbajack says, “Don’t worry, just fiddle with it and sooner or later you’ll figure out how it works.” He then pats my shoulder.
He looks back over his shoulder and says “Thanks Thomas, we will definitely be coming back. Phenomenal work.” He then gives a thumbs up.
Thomas lets out a puff after giving us a smug smile.
Wolfie takes his scarf form and wraps around my neck as Wabbajack pulls me along by the arm, he asks, “So what next?”
I put the calculator to my head as I honestly try to process everything that’s happened. Not to mention all the studying and practice I have to do just to make everything feel normal. All I can think to say is, “Maybe… it would be best if we go back home?”
“Yeah, that sounds good honestly. It’s getting late and your body needs rest to process everything that’s happened. It must be… well, actually shoot. It IS a whole other world from what you are used to. Best to take it slow. Even though today hasn’t exactly gone smoothly. Yilimet should also be done with all his shopping as well.” He says, using air quotes around shopping.
I guess the air quotes are because Yilimet has been cooking for a household of people with no sense of taste for who knows how long now. As I let out an audible gulp loud enough to make Wabbajack laugh.
With how crazy today has been, I expected the walk back to that spot with the two guards to be even more eventful but, nothing. Everyone pretty much just kept their distance for the most part. I think most were also just heading home.
As we get there, I see Yilimet holding an unusual number of bags as he says, “Hey you two, you wouldn’t believe the news I heard! Someone managed to summon a familiar after all this time and it didn’t go on a murderous rampage. Crazy, right?”
“Crazy, sure. Let’s get home. I’m sure things are going to be a bit more interesting than usual from here on.” Wabbajack says as he cuts open a portal home.
Interesting? Beyond a shadow of a doubt. I can’t help but feel like that, even by his standards, there will be quite some exciting and fascinating adventures ahead of both of us. Just as we all walk through the portal home together, Yilimet asks, “Hey, where did that fox come from?”
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Having an opinion is great but you don’t need to shove it down other peoples throats! Now I 100% get not liking an actor or singer because of controversial things they’ve said or done, i’m not talking about that here, but for the love of god the entire world doesn’t need to know that you hate an entire genre or type of food or clothing style!
People are allowed to criticize, not everyone has to love a certain genre or theme but if you’re going out of your way to just trash it and people that like it, shut up!!! I am so tired of seeing people just slander music or book genres and their reasoning is just that it’s not particularly entertaining to them. Awesome! Great! Cool! Clearly it wasn’t made for you so SCROLL, DON’T BUY IT, AVOID WATCHING IT.
I will never understand people who seek out things they don’t like just to comment or make a video talking crap about it and all of the people that enjoyed it. It just screams misery. I don’t like a lot of genres or foods but I’m not gonna go to a reddit group specifically about corn and hate on every single person that enjoys eating corn even though I think it’s disgusting. SHUT UP UGHHHH
It’s okay for people to like different things than you and it’s okay for you to like what you like, I thought we as a society got over judging people for liking different stuff.

I'd like to think I'm nice I'm easy going and love talking to people from different walks of life!
Flirting optional, but I won't complain! I won't make the first move onto anything as I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable! So give me a hint if that's what you'd like 😂🙈
I've been busy the last few months, holidays to America, festivals and other adventures
I've been self renovating my house for the last few years, so I'd like to think I'm a pretty handy guy! It's spring, so going to attack the garden and get it ready for summer! All my tropical plants are growing (yes.. even in the UK)
One tattoo, it's very... Utility? Specific? I don't know, ask me and I'll show you it!
Things I like
Cats - happy to pay my cat tax
Photography, but not had time to do it for a while, i'd love to get back into it
Been trying to tame my local crows,, since nesting they have started to be sociable again! Although one of my cats is intent on ruining our friendship!
Mountain biking
Weight lifting, recently smashed 67.5kg bench press 😍😍
Games, board or video!
Things i don't like:
Spiders, or anything that moves like an alien
The cold
Intolerance
The welsh
Other things that I can't think of right now.
Come say hi! I don't bite