Xanga-sunshine

I grew up in the early generations of AIM, Xanga, MySpace, Sconex (anyone else heard of this?), Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram. What I learned can be summed up by a quote from the movie Little Miss Sunshine - "Life is one big fucking beauty contest. Fuck that. Do what you love and fuck the rest."
I'm barely in my mid-30s. That means I've lived thru the party scene and prefer the comfort of my own home. I've been thru heart-aches, gym-ratting and feeding the homeless on drunken spurs which led to reading, soul-searching, spending quality time with the right people and finally, finding love.
Now I'm preparing for marriage and will eventually start a family. Even after all that, I still feel anxious and angry over things I can't control. Then it hit me, I CAN control it. I can control my life by developing a system of "aggragating marginal gains" (Atomic Habits) where 1% of our efforts, no matter how minimal, creates a snowball effect that is everlasting.
Most of my peers still use social media to express themselves. That's not entirely awful but I was surrounded by toxic mold - degrading family and friends who amplify their insecurities thru posts/comments festered with passive aggression and pettiness, choosing relevance over truth. I couldn't take it anymore. I deactivated FB and IG. I left chatrooms with any hint of my name in there. I deleted numbers I no longer associate with. And now I'm on Reddit, the ultimate time-waster and biased/non-biased platform to absorb experiential learning without any of my peers.
I spent most of my life on social media and now is the time to detach. Instead of ghosting people, I decided to ghost myself. I'd rather focus on quality instead of noise. I'd rather claim my self-worth instead of seeking it. Honestly, who are we trying to impress? I'm tired of the one-way streets. I'm tired of the superficiality. The question is, how exactly do I reset?
I started reading books to improve my mental health. I started associating with the right people. I started eating correctly. I started engaging in new habits. I discovered that the best way to recreate/rediscover myself is to abandon irrelevance. My biggest fear is that this mental detox, this new beginning, will relapse. I hope it won't for my sake or for any one else.