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I have marked most imporant parts as how long I use each meds in what dose, info of me, my questions, supplements used, nootropics thinking of, new meds for panic disorder treatment, plan to quit benzos, asking about Memantine. If you want, here is whole story and treatment:) Thx I have a lifetime nonmedicated ADHD + OCD (will finally have atomoexin in july after like 8 docs) but mainly severe panic disorder since 12/23 caused by badly burning out and not stopping work + too much stress from all sides, mostly family and workspace/company. It started close to xmas and wanted to finish year and worked until my body completely disabled to it to me but right after it came xmas, which is not my fav time of year ending in keeping me in attacks 24/7. Btw Im 29yo man, 193cm, 90kg, sporting, financial advisor solo businessman, living alone, used to be really busy all the time, multiple addictions behind me mostly because depression (alcohol),pain (kratom) and stimulants bcs its so addictive with adhd :D But I dont abuse anything since 02/23 when I barely survived WD from forced CT a lot of alcohol every day and I want to be healthy and drugs free!
I am currently getting off xanax and on SSRI, starting my new recovery plan below as previous didnt help enough and asking if you know anything that could help me get my full life back sooner I work as I can/want, mostly 2-6 h/day and only from home, going to multiple types of therapy, investing insane money to get recovered and looking for every possible way. I am open for any tip or suggestion on nootropic, peptide, maybe even SARMs that could help me get over this. Even if you dont have time or dont want to read all previous treatment and new plan and have idea what could help me, write it please. But I have to be careful with anything interacts with SSRI as I will be also on buspar, I have a safe med for serotonin syndrome if needed.. Also if you see gaps or risks in my meds plan, some ideas, useful info or better ways, I will be glad to know it:) Mostly about Memantine - when to use, in which part of protocol it will be most beneficial or what to expect.
I use/tried almost every useful supplement including adaptogens, herbs, expensive vitamins, mushrooms, gotu kola, NAC, tyrosine, inositol and just anything that could be useful + basics use all year. Also have Alpha GPC which made my adhd brain supercomputer before I got beaten but now doesnt work. Tried before noopept and a lot of racetams, idra21 and some more but with no effect and modafinil before with effect, but mostly anxiety, too much concentrating on one thing and severe insomnia.
I am already pretty sure about Agmatine, Sulbutiamine instead of Benfotiamine (any difference?), not sure of Bromantane on ssri (?), 9-me is no go, maybe NALT (?), Theacrine as Im tired from SSRI all the time and too much coffee makes me axnious, maybe Vinpocetine or Uridine triacetate? centrophenoxine? dihexa?
My treatment from december to now:
I had no idea wth is this, told my psychologist what is happening to me and asking many times if its serious and casually replied that is probably from stress. So I treated it as burnout by resting, then removing original causes and triggers, removing problems from my mind and life, reducing stress to minimum, even leaving my pretty good paid job after 9 yers. But nothing helped besides benzos which made me not feel attacks so much and when I went off after 6 weeks, symptoms came back the same day.
I always said no to ADs but this time I didnt see any other option so I got SSRI citalopram 20, later 30mg now 6 weeks, first weeks were hell of anxiety and tiredness, last 2 weeks they help but effect is enough to keep me attack free only at home, outside flat still almost instant PA + side effects are still bad.
Same with benzos now again for 6 weeks afte break from previous cycle, mostly xanax 1,5-2mg a day, when Im home with no problems I can stay on 0,5mg with no WD. But want to quit asap, Im standing on the edge of little discomfort or living hell WDs. Also it makes me dumb, careless and not caring, but dont have cravings or abuse them, until now there was no other medication in my country :/ Also I already had GABA WDs pretty bad from alcohol many times and from phenibut in february by mistake (3 weeks of 2-3x a week before I had benzos). I would rather skip this opportunity to be on boat walking simulator with scary shadowy guy in my bedroom.
Next week I will make a big changes:
Will to add Buspar in small doses to SSRI, probably 30mg citalopram + 2x7,5mg buspar for long term and propranolol over benzos before I leave flat for panic attacks - I have mostly physical symptoms and over these months my brain has learned to go panic mode when I go around people or noise but im not scared, wanting to hide or anxious, want to go out. Hope this will allow me to relearn the BIOS of my brain and body they wont start panicking as it has learned over months of nonstop attack (january until end of april, just moving on scale 1-10 but never off). Propranolon as beta-blocker should not allow my body to go panic defense mode and mental anxiety I can handle now. My mind is still quite ok, not much depressed or in bad mood, last days even thinking a bit sharper and can handle it but body/brain program are stuck. Hope this will allow me over time to get off SSRI to just Buspar + non addictive anxiety aid as needed or at least switch to SNRI or Wellbutrin as im energetic person but with this SSRI im meeeeeeeh all the time.
As propranolon arrives I will cut benzos to lowest dosage where I wont feel WD, probably 0,5mg/day and switch to Clonazepam (have benzos and can ask doc anytime), keep this dose for 2-3 weeks, taper to 0,35mg, wait and this until i go down around 0,2mg/day. Maybe slower if it will be painful or risk worse WDs when i cut them off.
For quitting benzos I have clonidine (WD reduce, camling, ADHD), pregabalin (GABA substance replacement, anti seizure but addictive), baclofen (GABA substance replacement, anti seizure also addictive)), Etifoxine (nonbenzo anxiolytics, I guess mostly PAWS) and Topiramate (seizure and migraine prevention, WD reduce) and Hydroxyzine (sleepy antihistamine nonaddictive) to get off them asap with no risk seizure and suffering for weeks in terrible WDs. I wont use all the aids together but as needed for current symptoms and not get hooked on none of them as only atarax is safe.
Also finally will get ADHD meds atomoxetin, but as I have no energy, even adhd is not so present and clonidine also helps for adhd. And I have found one super special med you will be interested about- Memantine (bgpharm), do you have experiences about this so called miracle drug? It make you feel softly with unlimited brain power, also it shall lower tolerances to almost all substances and by 30-60% over 7-14 days and then make WDs easier + also helps ADHD. But have no idea when to use it in my plan, I got 2 packs and its cheap so can buy more but dont want to mess with getting off bzs and learning to manage going out. Same question with atomoxetin - when to start? its not stimulant so it should not affect attacks nor benzo WD but idk.
Just in case there would be too much serotonin I will have Cyproheptadine for SS. It should not happen from SSRI+Buspiron but some nootropic or WD med can cause it. And just remembered I shall take some ephedrine/yohimbine if my BP or HB goes too slow from propranolon/clonidine... :/
I will still go for checks to doc and psychiatrist but the medical procedures in my country got stuck in time in year when producers of SSRI/benzos gave some gifts for doctors or politics. So they just give you this combo announcing you it will work (didnt) and you wont get addicted in 3 months of xan (would). Also propranolon is not approved med for anxiety in my county, only bzds and buspirone, but after trying several ADs on you :/
Thank you so much for any knowledge you share with me!

ANALYSIS:

• CPI update:
• Core CPI came in line with survey, at 0.3%, heading slightly lower in MOM terms vs last month (0.3% vs 0.4% before).
• We can see its a similar scenario as before, with service inflation there, but goods in deflation.
• https://imgur.com/a/3hAiquW
• Significantly, shelter inflation MOM is finally below 0.4%, which was the main headline of the print.
• https://imgur.com/a/GYHD12y
• Following the print, Inflation swaps now price in lower CPI for next month, so traders are more optimistic on inflation to continue lower than they were before, especially as we see oil prices come down this month.
• Market continues to move on the number of rate cuts being priced in for this year. Right now markets continue to price 1 or 2 rate cuts.
• So what does this mean for positioning, as we saw equities push higher?
• Well, as was the case before CPI, we continue to see very bearish positioning on VIX. Traders expect VIX to continue lower, which will increase the liquidity that market makers add. This should support the market higher. nOt much anxiety and fear in the markets.
• Volatility should therefore remain suppressed, for this opex.
• 5300 is the wall to get above, but We see traders buying calls on 5400 now so traders are optimistic in medium term.
• Probably when we look at today, skew is flat, but positioning bullish. We can see choppy day as VIX delta ITM puts are still elevated.
• Sentiment v bullish over next month or more.
• When we look at FX, we see That EURUSD has pared gains, because DXY moved higher. This was mostly because EURUSD had got overbought, and DXY was starting to get short term oversold. When we look at positioning, we see traders still buying calls on 1.09. 1.08 will act as support now.
• GOLD and Silver still see strong positioning, 2400 is wall on Gold. Skew on both gold and silver point higher but seeing low volumes.
• On Oil, traders are looking bullish. The skew points higher, whilst price consolidates. Traders are expecting a bullish breakout soon as seasonal demand tends to pick up in summer. Oil is just currently stuck below 79 on WTI.
• On German market, we see traders still buying calls on 19k but low volumes. Needs v high volume to get to this 19k level. 19k is a massive wall. Today and yesterday, it comes down, but soon it will try to test again. Euro strength will help GER40 go higher.

DATA LEDE:

• China Industrial production YOY came 6.7% up, vs 5.5% expected
• China Retail sales came 2.3% YOY vs 3.8% expected
• So retail sales came weak, industrial production was strong
• Unemployment rate in China fell to 5% from 5.2%, back to lowest level since November.
• NOTE: China also announced measures from PBOC to support housing market.
  
• Final revision to inflation rate in Eurozone came in in line with preliminary readings. No change.
  
• US leading index comes out later, after market opens. Expected to show deteriorating leading economic indicators
  

MARKETS:

• SPX: Following CPI, we saw markets push from 5246, to close above 5300. Yesterday, we aw market reach 5325, partly as result of softer jobless numbers, which points to more rate cuts, before sell off lower below 5300. Now at 5295. 5300 will be resistance again that it will try to break above.
• Nasdaq: Before CPI was at 18,310 just below resistance, pushed higher to reach 18,650, before coming lower again to 18,555. 18600 is a resistance, before 19k as the key resistance.
• Dow: was trading at 39600 before CPI, pushed higher to 40k. Got rejected below 40k. 40k is key resistance to get above.
• GER40: Pushed higher with US markets to 18,910, close to the key 19k resistance which is v strong, before paring gains back to 18,662.
• UK100 just been flat amongst the highs at 8400-8450
• China50 higher with lower unemployment rate and higher industrial production, trading up by 1.5% to 12,850. Main resistance now is going to be 13k. China also announced measures to support housing market.
• HKG50: Trading at 19,500. Key resistance is 20k.
• OIL: still trading flat, skew pointing higher.
• GOLD trading higher after CPI, bounced close to 2400.
• Price of Copper surges to new highs.

FX:

• EURUSD hit 1.09 yesterday, before coming down back to 1.084 now. 1.09 was the wall.
• GBPUSD hit 1.27, before coming down to 1.265 now.
• USDJPY fell from 156 to 153.5, before recovering higher to 156 again now.
• AUDUSD moved higher above 0.67 before paring the gains.
• The paring of gains came as DXY fell to almost 104, before pushing higher from there to 104.8.

MAG7:

• NVDA lower in premarket as Microsoft unveils AMD powered AI chips to rival NVDA. Theyre offering their cloud customers AMD AI processors as an alternative to NVDA.
• TSLA - raised price of Model 3 performance for 2nd time in US by $1k, bringing it to $54,990. Increased price fo white interior for model 3 by $500, now priced at $2000.
• META - starting to test a Tweetdeck like experience for threads.
• NFLX - adds more buy side partners to its budding advertising business. Includes TTD, which had been MSFT’s role exclusively up until this point. GOOGL also added to programmatic partners for advertisers.
• MSFT - EU demands clarity from Microsoft on AI risks in bing.
• MSFT - As mentioned, Microsoft unveils AMD powered AI chips to rival NVDA.

EARNINGS:
AMAT:

• EPS of 2.09 was up 5% YOY, beat estimates of 1.99
• Revenue of 6.65B was flat YOY, beat estimates of 6.52B
• Semiconductor systems revenue, their main segment was 4.9B, beating estimates of 4.8B
• Q3 Guidance:
• Sees adjusted EPS of 1.83-2.19 (vs estimate of 1.83). So ahead of expectations
• Revenue of 6.65+400M, beat estimates of 6.57B. So strong guidance
• Strong results. Said their technologies for chips underpin the major secular shifts we are seeing in AI, IOT, EV and Clean energy

COMPANY SPECIFIC:

• Crypto stocks slightly higher as BTC up 1.5% to 66,500.
• BABA continues higher. Was up a lot as Michael Burry increased his stake in the company
• UAL - Wolfe Research raises to outperform from peer perform
• ARRY - Wells Fargo cuts price target to 14 from 16, still way above current price of 11.34, buy rating maintained
• Nio - China FAW to join Nio battery swap alliance
• SNOW - in talks to acquire AI startup Reka AI for over $1B. Was valued at 300M last June.
• RDDT - OPenAI will integrate Reddit content into ChatGPT and other products. OpenAI will become a reddit advertiser too.
• AMD - Wolfe Research replaced NVDA with AMD on its Wolfe Alpha List.
• AMD - Mcirsofot offers cloud cusomters amd alternative to NVDA AI processors.
• AVGO - say they expect AI chips to account for 35% of semiconductor evneues in 2024, up from 15% in 2023.
• XPEV - aims to deliver their first flying car in 2026, will start taking pre orders this year.
• HSBC down 3% amid reports that shareholder Ping An is looking to trim its stake.
• AMGN - FDA approves Amgen’s treatment for the most deadly form of lung cancer.
• Canada goose - jumps 16% after they reported growth surge in China.
• GS - looks to expand private equity credit lines as dealmaking picks up.
• DXC down on earnings after issuing weak outlook, forecasting revenue to decelerate and is forecasting financial challenges
• TTWO down on earnigns after cutting bookings forecast for Fy 2025. announced a fall 2025 release date for its highly anticipated GTA VI video game
• Li down as is hit with class lawsuit over Li Mega debacle
• STLA - gets buy rating from Piper Sandler

OTHER NEWS:

• CHINA PROPERTY RESCUE PACKAGE.
• China announced multiple measures from PBOC to support Housing market: set up 300B Yuan resending scheme for public housing. Removed mortgage rate floor for individual home buyers. Minimum down payment reduced to 15% for first time.
• THEY ARE TRYING TO MAKE IT EASIER FOR PEOPLE TO BUY HOUSES.
• Bostic yesterday said that he is pleased with inflation progress in April, but the Fed isn’t there yet. Said he doesnt see a recession, and said that lower shelter inflation in recent print was the most significant development for him. Said it will be appropriate for rate cuts later this year, but nothing locked in.
• DOJ yesterday, planned to issue notice of proposed rule making, to reclassify marijuana into a less restrictive category, from Schedule 1 to Schedule 3.
• Luxury brand Richemont, which owns Cartier, posts record full year sales and new CEO
• ECB’s Schnabel says that there is little chance of back to back rate cuts from ECB, even if the first rate cut comes in June.
• Uk’s Jeremy Hunt says that he will cut national insurance in Autumnn if he is able to. Says conservatives will cut taxes if they win the election.

This incident occurred on Tuesday, May 14, 2024. I recently moved to this area from the United States and work here as a software engineer. I am a man of color of Asian origin.
After work, I took a walk to familiarize myself with the neighborhood and visit the nearby Indian store. I sat on a bench opposite Brookvale Primary School, in front of a small playground. After about 15 minutes alone, two young girls approached (vaping, of course) and sat near me. They started a conversation by complimenting my hair and asking several personal questions about where I live, my family, my mother tongue, my work, how long I have been married, and whether my partner and I are together now. I responded politely to all their questions but did not divulge my address, only mentioning it was near the park and you could see a car branded Tesla.
They offered me a vape, which I declined, stating I don't smoke. They continued asking about smoking, drinking, and drug use, and whether I know someone who supplies weed, to which I also answered negatively.
During our interaction, these girls teased every man who passed by, but all were unresponsive to their remarks. Another passerby warned me that they were underage and trying to deceive me. I then ceased answering their questions. One of the girls called me 'Nigga,' and the other cautioned her, 'Don't be racist.' When I was about to leave, they asked about my social media accounts, which I refused to provide. One of the girls, who had made the racial comment, offered her mobile number in case I needed it in the future—I saved it to my phone with the intent of reporting the racial slur to the council or local police, and I haven't messaged or called that number even once. Then I left the area.
These girls then took a picture of me as I was leaving and convinced their mother to falsely claim on Facebook that I was pursuing young girls and had invited them to my home. This post included my picture.
For clarity, I live with six people, including my wife, child, mother-in-law, cousin, and his wife—our home is constantly occupied. I have never asked them to visit my home and would never invite a stranger home.
Upon returning home, I shared the ordeal with my wife. Later, a stranger informed me about the Facebook post, which had already been shared by 32 people, and threatened me and my family, demanding that we vacate our home and was giving death threats.
My wife and I contacted the lady who posted on Facebook via Messenger and explained the situation; she removed the post immediately but remained skeptical about the mobile number sharing. We explained that it was only to report her to the local council/police/her school about the racial remarks she made. My wife asked her , did my husband share any texts or images or calls or any body signs that is inappropriate ? the mother said no then My wife asked her how she came to the conclusion that a person is a threat to young girls and to the community without any evidence. She lives two blocks away from where I live and could have come to inquire about me and my family from the neighbors. My wife asked her to post a counter-message on Facebook about this misunderstanding, which she agreed to but has not done yet.
The mother kept insisting on why I got the number from the girl. We again tried to explain that I did not request the number; she came to my bench and gave me the number and I saved in my mobile because I wanted to report her for her racial remarks.
I still don't understand why they would reverse the entire story and make a Facebook post to assassinate my character. What are their intentions—money, racism, or other motives? I noticed they were teasing all the men passing by that area. I am sharing this to seek advice on handling such situations and to hear from others in Brookvale, Runcorn, near Brookvale Primary School who might have faced similar issues.
We tried to contact the nearby shop owner to obtain CCTV footage, but unfortunately, they didn't have a camera outside the perimeter.
This situation has been causing me significant mental distress over the past few days, impacting both my personal and professional life. Now, I feel anxious about going out and interacting with others. It's truly disheartening to deal with such inconsiderate behavior.Horrible people to be honest!
Thanks.

ANALYSIS:

• CPI update:
• Core CPI came in line with survey, at 0.3%, heading slightly lower in MOM terms vs last month (0.3% vs 0.4% before).
• We can see its a similar scenario as before, with service inflation there, but goods in deflation.
• https://imgur.com/a/3hAiquW
• Significantly, shelter inflation MOM is finally below 0.4%, which was the main headline of the print.
• https://imgur.com/a/GYHD12y
• Following the print, Inflation swaps now price in lower CPI for next month, so traders are more optimistic on inflation to continue lower than they were before, especially as we see oil prices come down this month.
• Market continues to move on the number of rate cuts being priced in for this year. Right now markets continue to price 1 or 2 rate cuts.
• So what does this mean for positioning, as we saw equities push higher?
• Well, as was the case before CPI, we continue to see very bearish positioning on VIX. Traders expect VIX to continue lower, which will increase the liquidity that market makers add. This should support the market higher. nOt much anxiety and fear in the markets.
• Volatility should therefore remain suppressed, for this opex.
• 5300 is the wall to get above, but We see traders buying calls on 5400 now so traders are optimistic in medium term.
• Probably when we look at today, skew is flat, but positioning bullish. We can see choppy day as VIX delta ITM puts are still elevated.
• Sentiment v bullish over next month or more.
• When we look at FX, we see That EURUSD has pared gains, because DXY moved higher. This was mostly because EURUSD had got overbought, and DXY was starting to get short term oversold. When we look at positioning, we see traders still buying calls on 1.09. 1.08 will act as support now.
• GOLD and Silver still see strong positioning, 2400 is wall on Gold. Skew on both gold and silver point higher but seeing low volumes.
• On Oil, traders are looking bullish. The skew points higher, whilst price consolidates. Traders are expecting a bullish breakout soon as seasonal demand tends to pick up in summer. Oil is just currently stuck below 79 on WTI.
• On German market, we see traders still buying calls on 19k but low volumes. Needs v high volume to get to this 19k level. 19k is a massive wall. Today and yesterday, it comes down, but soon it will try to test again. Euro strength will help GER40 go higher.

DATA LEDE:

• China Industrial production YOY came 6.7% up, vs 5.5% expected
• China Retail sales came 2.3% YOY vs 3.8% expected
• So retail sales came weak, industrial production was strong
• Unemployment rate in China fell to 5% from 5.2%, back to lowest level since November.
• NOTE: China also announced measures from PBOC to support housing market.
  
• Final revision to inflation rate in Eurozone came in in line with preliminary readings. No change.
  
• US leading index comes out later, after market opens. Expected to show deteriorating leading economic indicators
  

MARKETS:

• SPX: Following CPI, we saw markets push from 5246, to close above 5300. Yesterday, we aw market reach 5325, partly as result of softer jobless numbers, which points to more rate cuts, before sell off lower below 5300. Now at 5295. 5300 will be resistance again that it will try to break above.
• Nasdaq: Before CPI was at 18,310 just below resistance, pushed higher to reach 18,650, before coming lower again to 18,555. 18600 is a resistance, before 19k as the key resistance.
• Dow: was trading at 39600 before CPI, pushed higher to 40k. Got rejected below 40k. 40k is key resistance to get above.
• GER40: Pushed higher with US markets to 18,910, close to the key 19k resistance which is v strong, before paring gains back to 18,662.
• UK100 just been flat amongst the highs at 8400-8450
• China50 higher with lower unemployment rate and higher industrial production, trading up by 1.5% to 12,850. Main resistance now is going to be 13k. China also announced measures to support housing market.
• HKG50: Trading at 19,500. Key resistance is 20k.
• OIL: still trading flat, skew pointing higher.
• GOLD trading higher after CPI, bounced close to 2400.
• Price of Copper surges to new highs.

FX:

• EURUSD hit 1.09 yesterday, before coming down back to 1.084 now. 1.09 was the wall.
• GBPUSD hit 1.27, before coming down to 1.265 now.
• USDJPY fell from 156 to 153.5, before recovering higher to 156 again now.
• AUDUSD moved higher above 0.67 before paring the gains.
• The paring of gains came as DXY fell to almost 104, before pushing higher from there to 104.8.

MAG7:

• NVDA lower in premarket as Microsoft unveils AMD powered AI chips to rival NVDA. Theyre offering their cloud customers AMD AI processors as an alternative to NVDA.
• TSLA - raised price of Model 3 performance for 2nd time in US by $1k, bringing it to $54,990. Increased price fo white interior for model 3 by $500, now priced at $2000.
• META - starting to test a Tweetdeck like experience for threads.
• NFLX - adds more buy side partners to its budding advertising business. Includes TTD, which had been MSFT’s role exclusively up until this point. GOOGL also added to programmatic partners for advertisers.
• MSFT - EU demands clarity from Microsoft on AI risks in bing.
• MSFT - As mentioned, Microsoft unveils AMD powered AI chips to rival NVDA.

EARNINGS:
AMAT:

• EPS of 2.09 was up 5% YOY, beat estimates of 1.99
• Revenue of 6.65B was flat YOY, beat estimates of 6.52B
• Semiconductor systems revenue, their main segment was 4.9B, beating estimates of 4.8B
• Q3 Guidance:
• Sees adjusted EPS of 1.83-2.19 (vs estimate of 1.83). So ahead of expectations
• Revenue of 6.65+400M, beat estimates of 6.57B. So strong guidance
• Strong results. Said their technologies for chips underpin the major secular shifts we are seeing in AI, IOT, EV and Clean energy

COMPANY SPECIFIC:

• Crypto stocks slightly higher as BTC up 1.5% to 66,500.
• COIN -price target raised to 217 from 110 by BoA
• BABA continues higher. Was up a lot as Michael Burry increased his stake in the company
• UAL - Wolfe Research raises to outperform from peer perform
• ARRY - Wells Fargo cuts price target to 14 from 16, still way above current price of 11.34, buy rating maintained
• Nio - China FAW to join Nio battery swap alliance
• SNOW - in talks to acquire AI startup Reka AI for over $1B. Was valued at 300M last June.
• RDDT - OPenAI will integrate Reddit content into ChatGPT and other products. OpenAI will become a reddit advertiser too.
• AMD - Wolfe Research replaced NVDA with AMD on its Wolfe Alpha List.
• AMD - Mcirsofot offers cloud cusomters amd alternative to NVDA AI processors.
• AVGO - say they expect AI chips to account for 35% of semiconductor evneues in 2024, up from 15% in 2023.
• XPEV - aims to deliver their first flying car in 2026, will start taking pre orders this year.
• HSBC down 3% amid reports that shareholder Ping An is looking to trim its stake.
• AMGN - FDA approves Amgen’s treatment for the most deadly form of lung cancer.
• Canada goose - jumps 16% after they reported growth surge in China.
• GS - looks to expand private equity credit lines as dealmaking picks up.
• DXC down on earnings after issuing weak outlook, forecasting revenue to decelerate and is forecasting financial challenges
• TTWO down on earnigns after cutting bookings forecast for Fy 2025. announced a fall 2025 release date for its highly anticipated GTA VI video game
• Li down as is hit with class lawsuit over Li Mega debacle
• STLA - gets buy rating from Piper Sandler

OTHER NEWS:

• CHINA PROPERTY RESCUE PACKAGE.
• China announced multiple measures from PBOC to support Housing market: set up 300B Yuan resending scheme for public housing. Removed mortgage rate floor for individual home buyers. Minimum down payment reduced to 15% for first time.
• THEY ARE TRYING TO MAKE IT EASIER FOR PEOPLE TO BUY HOUSES.
• Bostic yesterday said that he is pleased with inflation progress in April, but the Fed isn’t there yet. Said he doesnt see a recession, and said that lower shelter inflation in recent print was the most significant development for him. Said it will be appropriate for rate cuts later this year, but nothing locked in.
• DOJ yesterday, planned to issue notice of proposed rule making, to reclassify marijuana into a less restrictive category, from Schedule 1 to Schedule 3.
• Luxury brand Richemont, which owns Cartier, posts record full year sales and new CEO
• ECB’s Schnabel says that there is little chance of back to back rate cuts from ECB, even if the first rate cut comes in June.
• Uk’s Jeremy Hunt says that he will cut national insurance in Autumn if he is able to. Says conservatives will cut taxes if they win the election.

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ANALYSIS:

• CPI update:
• Core CPI came in line with survey, at 0.3%, heading slightly lower in MOM terms vs last month (0.3% vs 0.4% before).
• We can see its a similar scenario as before, with service inflation there, but goods in deflation.
• https://imgur.com/a/3hAiquW
• Significantly, shelter inflation MOM is finally below 0.4%, which was the main headline of the print.
• https://imgur.com/a/GYHD12y
• Following the print, Inflation swaps now price in lower CPI for next month, so traders are more optimistic on inflation to continue lower than they were before, especially as we see oil prices come down this month.
• Market continues to move on the number of rate cuts being priced in for this year. Right now markets continue to price 1 or 2 rate cuts.
• So what does this mean for positioning, as we saw equities push higher?
• Well, as was the case before CPI, we continue to see very bearish positioning on VIX. Traders expect VIX to continue lower, which will increase the liquidity that market makers add. This should support the market higher. nOt much anxiety and fear in the markets.
• Volatility should therefore remain suppressed, for this opex.
• 5300 is the wall to get above, but We see traders buying calls on 5400 now so traders are optimistic in medium term.
• Probably when we look at today, skew is flat, but positioning bullish. We can see choppy day as VIX delta ITM puts are still elevated.
• Sentiment v bullish over next month or more.
• When we look at FX, we see That EURUSD has pared gains, because DXY moved higher. This was mostly because EURUSD had got overbought, and DXY was starting to get short term oversold. When we look at positioning, we see traders still buying calls on 1.09. 1.08 will act as support now.
• GOLD and Silver still see strong positioning, 2400 is wall on Gold. Skew on both gold and silver point higher but seeing low volumes.
• On Oil, traders are looking bullish. The skew points higher, whilst price consolidates. Traders are expecting a bullish breakout soon as seasonal demand tends to pick up in summer. Oil is just currently stuck below 79 on WTI.
• On German market, we see traders still buying calls on 19k but low volumes. Needs v high volume to get to this 19k level. 19k is a massive wall. Today and yesterday, it comes down, but soon it will try to test again. Euro strength will help GER40 go higher.

DATA LEDE:

• China Industrial production YOY came 6.7% up, vs 5.5% expected
• China Retail sales came 2.3% YOY vs 3.8% expected
• So retail sales came weak, industrial production was strong
• Unemployment rate in China fell to 5% from 5.2%, back to lowest level since November.
• NOTE: China also announced measures from PBOC to support housing market.
  
• Final revision to inflation rate in Eurozone came in in line with preliminary readings. No change.
  
• US leading index comes out later, after market opens. Expected to show deteriorating leading economic indicators
  

MARKETS:

• SPX: Following CPI, we saw markets push from 5246, to close above 5300. Yesterday, we aw market reach 5325, partly as result of softer jobless numbers, which points to more rate cuts, before sell off lower below 5300. Now at 5295. 5300 will be resistance again that it will try to break above.
• Nasdaq: Before CPI was at 18,310 just below resistance, pushed higher to reach 18,650, before coming lower again to 18,555. 18600 is a resistance, before 19k as the key resistance.
• Dow: was trading at 39600 before CPI, pushed higher to 40k. Got rejected below 40k. 40k is key resistance to get above.
• GER40: Pushed higher with US markets to 18,910, close to the key 19k resistance which is v strong, before paring gains back to 18,662.
• UK100 just been flat amongst the highs at 8400-8450
• China50 higher with lower unemployment rate and higher industrial production, trading up by 1.5% to 12,850. Main resistance now is going to be 13k. China also announced measures to support housing market.
• HKG50: Trading at 19,500. Key resistance is 20k.
• OIL: still trading flat, skew pointing higher.
• GOLD trading higher after CPI, bounced close to 2400.
• Price of Copper surges to new highs.

FX:

• EURUSD hit 1.09 yesterday, before coming down back to 1.084 now. 1.09 was the wall.
• GBPUSD hit 1.27, before coming down to 1.265 now.
• USDJPY fell from 156 to 153.5, before recovering higher to 156 again now.
• AUDUSD moved higher above 0.67 before paring the gains.
• The paring of gains came as DXY fell to almost 104, before pushing higher from there to 104.8.

MAG7:

• NVDA lower in premarket as Microsoft unveils AMD powered AI chips to rival NVDA. Theyre offering their cloud customers AMD AI processors as an alternative to NVDA.
• TSLA - raised price of Model 3 performance for 2nd time in US by $1k, bringing it to $54,990. Increased price fo white interior for model 3 by $500, now priced at $2000.
• META - starting to test a Tweetdeck like experience for threads.
• NFLX - adds more buy side partners to its budding advertising business. Includes TTD, which had been MSFT’s role exclusively up until this point. GOOGL also added to programmatic partners for advertisers.
• MSFT - EU demands clarity from Microsoft on AI risks in bing.
• MSFT - As mentioned, Microsoft unveils AMD powered AI chips to rival NVDA.

EARNINGS:
AMAT:

• EPS of 2.09 was up 5% YOY, beat estimates of 1.99
• Revenue of 6.65B was flat YOY, beat estimates of 6.52B
• Semiconductor systems revenue, their main segment was 4.9B, beating estimates of 4.8B
• Q3 Guidance:
• Sees adjusted EPS of 1.83-2.19 (vs estimate of 1.83). So ahead of expectations
• Revenue of 6.65+400M, beat estimates of 6.57B. So strong guidance
• Strong results. Said their technologies for chips underpin the major secular shifts we are seeing in AI, IOT, EV and Clean energy

COMPANY SPECIFIC:

• Crypto stocks slightly higher as BTC up 1.5% to 66,500.
• COIN -price target raised to 217 from 110 by BoA
• BABA continues higher. Was up a lot as Michael Burry increased his stake in the company
• UAL - Wolfe Research raises to outperform from peer perform
• ARRY - Wells Fargo cuts price target to 14 from 16, still way above current price of 11.34, buy rating maintained
• Nio - China FAW to join Nio battery swap alliance
• SNOW - in talks to acquire AI startup Reka AI for over $1B. Was valued at 300M last June.
• RDDT - OPenAI will integrate Reddit content into ChatGPT and other products. OpenAI will become a reddit advertiser too.
• AMD - Wolfe Research replaced NVDA with AMD on its Wolfe Alpha List.
• AMD - Mcirsofot offers cloud cusomters amd alternative to NVDA AI processors.
• AVGO - say they expect AI chips to account for 35% of semiconductor evneues in 2024, up from 15% in 2023.
• XPEV - aims to deliver their first flying car in 2026, will start taking pre orders this year.
• HSBC down 3% amid reports that shareholder Ping An is looking to trim its stake.
• AMGN - FDA approves Amgen’s treatment for the most deadly form of lung cancer.
• Canada goose - jumps 16% after they reported growth surge in China.
• GS - looks to expand private equity credit lines as dealmaking picks up.
• DXC down on earnings after issuing weak outlook, forecasting revenue to decelerate and is forecasting financial challenges
• TTWO down on earnigns after cutting bookings forecast for Fy 2025. announced a fall 2025 release date for its highly anticipated GTA VI video game
• Li down as is hit with class lawsuit over Li Mega debacle
• STLA - gets buy rating from Piper Sandler

OTHER NEWS:

• CHINA PROPERTY RESCUE PACKAGE.
• China announced multiple measures from PBOC to support Housing market: set up 300B Yuan resending scheme for public housing. Removed mortgage rate floor for individual home buyers. Minimum down payment reduced to 15% for first time.
• THEY ARE TRYING TO MAKE IT EASIER FOR PEOPLE TO BUY HOUSES.
• Bostic yesterday said that he is pleased with inflation progress in April, but the Fed isn’t there yet. Said he doesnt see a recession, and said that lower shelter inflation in recent print was the most significant development for him. Said it will be appropriate for rate cuts later this year, but nothing locked in.
• DOJ yesterday, planned to issue notice of proposed rule making, to reclassify marijuana into a less restrictive category, from Schedule 1 to Schedule 3.
• Luxury brand Richemont, which owns Cartier, posts record full year sales and new CEO
• ECB’s Schnabel says that there is little chance of back to back rate cuts from ECB, even if the first rate cut comes in June.
• Uk’s Jeremy Hunt says that he will cut national insurance in Autumnn if he is able to. Says conservatives will cut taxes if they win the election.

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ANALYSIS:

• CPI update:
• Core CPI came in line with survey, at 0.3%, heading slightly lower in MOM terms vs last month (0.3% vs 0.4% before).
• We can see its a similar scenario as before, with service inflation there, but goods in deflation.
• https://imgur.com/a/3hAiquW
• Significantly, shelter inflation MOM is finally below 0.4%, which was the main headline of the print.
• https://imgur.com/a/GYHD12y
• Following the print, Inflation swaps now price in lower CPI for next month, so traders are more optimistic on inflation to continue lower than they were before, especially as we see oil prices come down this month.
• Market continues to move on the number of rate cuts being priced in for this year. Right now markets continue to price 1 or 2 rate cuts.
• So what does this mean for positioning, as we saw equities push higher?
• Well, as was the case before CPI, we continue to see very bearish positioning on VIX. Traders expect VIX to continue lower, which will increase the liquidity that market makers add. This should support the market higher. nOt much anxiety and fear in the markets.
• Volatility should therefore remain suppressed, for this opex.
• 5300 is the wall to get above, but We see traders buying calls on 5400 now so traders are optimistic in medium term.
• Probably when we look at today, skew is flat, but positioning bullish. We can see choppy day as VIX delta ITM puts are still elevated.
• Sentiment v bullish over next month or more.
• When we look at FX, we see That EURUSD has pared gains, because DXY moved higher. This was mostly because EURUSD had got overbought, and DXY was starting to get short term oversold. When we look at positioning, we see traders still buying calls on 1.09. 1.08 will act as support now.
• GOLD and Silver still see strong positioning, 2400 is wall on Gold. Skew on both gold and silver point higher but seeing low volumes.
• On Oil, traders are looking bullish. The skew points higher, whilst price consolidates. Traders are expecting a bullish breakout soon as seasonal demand tends to pick up in summer. Oil is just currently stuck below 79 on WTI.
• On German market, we see traders still buying calls on 19k but low volumes. Needs v high volume to get to this 19k level. 19k is a massive wall. Today and yesterday, it comes down, but soon it will try to test again. Euro strength will help GER40 go higher.

DATA LEDE:

• China Industrial production YOY came 6.7% up, vs 5.5% expected
• China Retail sales came 2.3% YOY vs 3.8% expected
• So retail sales came weak, industrial production was strong
• Unemployment rate in China fell to 5% from 5.2%, back to lowest level since November.
• NOTE: China also announced measures from PBOC to support housing market.
  
• Final revision to inflation rate in Eurozone came in in line with preliminary readings. No change.
  
• US leading index comes out later, after market opens. Expected to show deteriorating leading economic indicators
  

MARKETS:

• SPX: Following CPI, we saw markets push from 5246, to close above 5300. Yesterday, we aw market reach 5325, partly as result of softer jobless numbers, which points to more rate cuts, before sell off lower below 5300. Now at 5295. 5300 will be resistance again that it will try to break above.
• Nasdaq: Before CPI was at 18,310 just below resistance, pushed higher to reach 18,650, before coming lower again to 18,555. 18600 is a resistance, before 19k as the key resistance.
• Dow: was trading at 39600 before CPI, pushed higher to 40k. Got rejected below 40k. 40k is key resistance to get above.
• GER40: Pushed higher with US markets to 18,910, close to the key 19k resistance which is v strong, before paring gains back to 18,662.
• UK100 just been flat amongst the highs at 8400-8450
• China50 higher with lower unemployment rate and higher industrial production, trading up by 1.5% to 12,850. Main resistance now is going to be 13k. China also announced measures to support housing market.
• HKG50: Trading at 19,500. Key resistance is 20k.
• OIL: still trading flat, skew pointing higher.
• GOLD trading higher after CPI, bounced close to 2400.
• Price of Copper surges to new highs.

FX:

• EURUSD hit 1.09 yesterday, before coming down back to 1.084 now. 1.09 was the wall.
• GBPUSD hit 1.27, before coming down to 1.265 now.
• USDJPY fell from 156 to 153.5, before recovering higher to 156 again now.
• AUDUSD moved higher above 0.67 before paring the gains.
• The paring of gains came as DXY fell to almost 104, before pushing higher from there to 104.8.

MAG7:

• NVDA lower in premarket as Microsoft unveils AMD powered AI chips to rival NVDA. Theyre offering their cloud customers AMD AI processors as an alternative to NVDA.
• TSLA - raised price of Model 3 performance for 2nd time in US by $1k, bringing it to $54,990. Increased price fo white interior for model 3 by $500, now priced at $2000.
• META - starting to test a Tweetdeck like experience for threads.
• NFLX - adds more buy side partners to its budding advertising business. Includes TTD, which had been MSFT’s role exclusively up until this point. GOOGL also added to programmatic partners for advertisers.
• MSFT - EU demands clarity from Microsoft on AI risks in bing.
• MSFT - As mentioned, Microsoft unveils AMD powered AI chips to rival NVDA.

EARNINGS:
AMAT:

• EPS of 2.09 was up 5% YOY, beat estimates of 1.99
• Revenue of 6.65B was flat YOY, beat estimates of 6.52B
• Semiconductor systems revenue, their main segment was 4.9B, beating estimates of 4.8B
• Q3 Guidance:
• Sees adjusted EPS of 1.83-2.19 (vs estimate of 1.83). So ahead of expectations
• Revenue of 6.65+400M, beat estimates of 6.57B. So strong guidance
• Strong results. Said their technologies for chips underpin the major secular shifts we are seeing in AI, IOT, EV and Clean energy

COMPANY SPECIFIC:

• Crypto stocks slightly higher as BTC up 1.5% to 66,500.
• COIN -price target raised to 217 from 110 by BoA
• BABA continues higher. Was up a lot as Michael Burry increased his stake in the company
• UAL - Wolfe Research raises to outperform from peer perform
• ARRY - Wells Fargo cuts price target to 14 from 16, still way above current price of 11.34, buy rating maintained
• Nio - China FAW to join Nio battery swap alliance
• SNOW - in talks to acquire AI startup Reka AI for over $1B. Was valued at 300M last June.
• RDDT - OPenAI will integrate Reddit content into ChatGPT and other products. OpenAI will become a reddit advertiser too.
• AMD - Wolfe Research replaced NVDA with AMD on its Wolfe Alpha List.
• AMD - Mcirsofot offers cloud cusomters amd alternative to NVDA AI processors.
• AVGO - say they expect AI chips to account for 35% of semiconductor evneues in 2024, up from 15% in 2023.
• XPEV - aims to deliver their first flying car in 2026, will start taking pre orders this year.
• HSBC down 3% amid reports that shareholder Ping An is looking to trim its stake.
• AMGN - FDA approves Amgen’s treatment for the most deadly form of lung cancer.
• Canada goose - jumps 16% after they reported growth surge in China.
• GS - looks to expand private equity credit lines as dealmaking picks up.
• DXC down on earnings after issuing weak outlook, forecasting revenue to decelerate and is forecasting financial challenges
• TTWO down on earnigns after cutting bookings forecast for Fy 2025. announced a fall 2025 release date for its highly anticipated GTA VI video game
• Li down as is hit with class lawsuit over Li Mega debacle
• STLA - gets buy rating from Piper Sandler

OTHER NEWS:

• CHINA PROPERTY RESCUE PACKAGE.
• China announced multiple measures from PBOC to support Housing market: set up 300B Yuan resending scheme for public housing. Removed mortgage rate floor for individual home buyers. Minimum down payment reduced to 15% for first time.
• THEY ARE TRYING TO MAKE IT EASIER FOR PEOPLE TO BUY HOUSES.
• Bostic yesterday said that he is pleased with inflation progress in April, but the Fed isn’t there yet. Said he doesnt see a recession, and said that lower shelter inflation in recent print was the most significant development for him. Said it will be appropriate for rate cuts later this year, but nothing locked in.
• DOJ yesterday, planned to issue notice of proposed rule making, to reclassify marijuana into a less restrictive category, from Schedule 1 to Schedule 3.
• Luxury brand Richemont, which owns Cartier, posts record full year sales and new CEO
• ECB’s Schnabel says that there is little chance of back to back rate cuts from ECB, even if the first rate cut comes in June.
• Uk’s Jeremy Hunt says that he will cut national insurance in Autumnn if he is able to. Says conservatives will cut taxes if they win the election.

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ANALYSIS:

• CPI update:
• Core CPI came in line with survey, at 0.3%, heading slightly lower in MOM terms vs last month (0.3% vs 0.4% before).
• We can see its a similar scenario as before, with service inflation there, but goods in deflation.
• https://imgur.com/a/3hAiquW
• Significantly, shelter inflation MOM is finally below 0.4%, which was the main headline of the print.
• https://imgur.com/a/GYHD12y
• Following the print, Inflation swaps now price in lower CPI for next month, so traders are more optimistic on inflation to continue lower than they were before, especially as we see oil prices come down this month.
• Market continues to move on the number of rate cuts being priced in for this year. Right now markets continue to price 1 or 2 rate cuts.
• So what does this mean for positioning, as we saw equities push higher?
• Well, as was the case before CPI, we continue to see very bearish positioning on VIX. Traders expect VIX to continue lower, which will increase the liquidity that market makers add. This should support the market higher. nOt much anxiety and fear in the markets.
• Volatility should therefore remain suppressed, for this opex.
• 5300 is the wall to get above, but We see traders buying calls on 5400 now so traders are optimistic in medium term.
• Probably when we look at today, skew is flat, but positioning bullish. We can see choppy day as VIX delta ITM puts are still elevated.
• Sentiment v bullish over next month or more.
• When we look at FX, we see That EURUSD has pared gains, because DXY moved higher. This was mostly because EURUSD had got overbought, and DXY was starting to get short term oversold. When we look at positioning, we see traders still buying calls on 1.09. 1.08 will act as support now.
• GOLD and Silver still see strong positioning, 2400 is wall on Gold. Skew on both gold and silver point higher but seeing low volumes.
• On Oil, traders are looking bullish. The skew points higher, whilst price consolidates. Traders are expecting a bullish breakout soon as seasonal demand tends to pick up in summer. Oil is just currently stuck below 79 on WTI.
• On German market, we see traders still buying calls on 19k but low volumes. Needs v high volume to get to this 19k level. 19k is a massive wall. Today and yesterday, it comes down, but soon it will try to test again. Euro strength will help GER40 go higher.

DATA LEDE:

• China Industrial production YOY came 6.7% up, vs 5.5% expected
• China Retail sales came 2.3% YOY vs 3.8% expected
• So retail sales came weak, industrial production was strong
• Unemployment rate in China fell to 5% from 5.2%, back to lowest level since November.
• NOTE: China also announced measures from PBOC to support housing market.
  
• Final revision to inflation rate in Eurozone came in in line with preliminary readings. No change.
  
• US leading index comes out later, after market opens. Expected to show deteriorating leading economic indicators
  

MARKETS:

• SPX: Following CPI, we saw markets push from 5246, to close above 5300. Yesterday, we aw market reach 5325, partly as result of softer jobless numbers, which points to more rate cuts, before sell off lower below 5300. Now at 5295. 5300 will be resistance again that it will try to break above.
• Nasdaq: Before CPI was at 18,310 just below resistance, pushed higher to reach 18,650, before coming lower again to 18,555. 18600 is a resistance, before 19k as the key resistance.
• Dow: was trading at 39600 before CPI, pushed higher to 40k. Got rejected below 40k. 40k is key resistance to get above.
• GER40: Pushed higher with US markets to 18,910, close to the key 19k resistance which is v strong, before paring gains back to 18,662.
• UK100 just been flat amongst the highs at 8400-8450
• China50 higher with lower unemployment rate and higher industrial production, trading up by 1.5% to 12,850. Main resistance now is going to be 13k. China also announced measures to support housing market.
• HKG50: Trading at 19,500. Key resistance is 20k.
• OIL: still trading flat, skew pointing higher.
• GOLD trading higher after CPI, bounced close to 2400.
• Price of Copper surges to new highs.

FX:

• EURUSD hit 1.09 yesterday, before coming down back to 1.084 now. 1.09 was the wall.
• GBPUSD hit 1.27, before coming down to 1.265 now.
• USDJPY fell from 156 to 153.5, before recovering higher to 156 again now.
• AUDUSD moved higher above 0.67 before paring the gains.
• The paring of gains came as DXY fell to almost 104, before pushing higher from there to 104.8.

MAG7:

• NVDA lower in premarket as Microsoft unveils AMD powered AI chips to rival NVDA. Theyre offering their cloud customers AMD AI processors as an alternative to NVDA.
• TSLA - raised price of Model 3 performance for 2nd time in US by $1k, bringing it to $54,990. Increased price fo white interior for model 3 by $500, now priced at $2000.
• META - starting to test a Tweetdeck like experience for threads.
• NFLX - adds more buy side partners to its budding advertising business. Includes TTD, which had been MSFT’s role exclusively up until this point. GOOGL also added to programmatic partners for advertisers.
• MSFT - EU demands clarity from Microsoft on AI risks in bing.
• MSFT - As mentioned, Microsoft unveils AMD powered AI chips to rival NVDA.

EARNINGS:
AMAT:

• EPS of 2.09 was up 5% YOY, beat estimates of 1.99
• Revenue of 6.65B was flat YOY, beat estimates of 6.52B
• Semiconductor systems revenue, their main segment was 4.9B, beating estimates of 4.8B
• Q3 Guidance:
• Sees adjusted EPS of 1.83-2.19 (vs estimate of 1.83). So ahead of expectations
• Revenue of 6.65+400M, beat estimates of 6.57B. So strong guidance
• Strong results. Said their technologies for chips underpin the major secular shifts we are seeing in AI, IOT, EV and Clean energy

COMPANY SPECIFIC:

• Crypto stocks slightly higher as BTC up 1.5% to 66,500.
• COIN -price target raised to 217 from 110 by BoA
• BABA continues higher. Was up a lot as Michael Burry increased his stake in the company
• UAL - Wolfe Research raises to outperform from peer perform
• ARRY - Wells Fargo cuts price target to 14 from 16, still way above current price of 11.34, buy rating maintained
• Nio - China FAW to join Nio battery swap alliance
• SNOW - in talks to acquire AI startup Reka AI for over $1B. Was valued at 300M last June.
• RDDT - OPenAI will integrate Reddit content into ChatGPT and other products. OpenAI will become a reddit advertiser too.
• AMD - Wolfe Research replaced NVDA with AMD on its Wolfe Alpha List.
• AMD - Mcirsofot offers cloud cusomters amd alternative to NVDA AI processors.
• AVGO - say they expect AI chips to account for 35% of semiconductor evneues in 2024, up from 15% in 2023.
• XPEV - aims to deliver their first flying car in 2026, will start taking pre orders this year.
• HSBC down 3% amid reports that shareholder Ping An is looking to trim its stake.
• AMGN - FDA approves Amgen’s treatment for the most deadly form of lung cancer.
• Canada goose - jumps 16% after they reported growth surge in China.
• GS - looks to expand private equity credit lines as dealmaking picks up.
• DXC down on earnings after issuing weak outlook, forecasting revenue to decelerate and is forecasting financial challenges
• TTWO down on earnigns after cutting bookings forecast for Fy 2025. announced a fall 2025 release date for its highly anticipated GTA VI video game
• Li down as is hit with class lawsuit over Li Mega debacle
• STLA - gets buy rating from Piper Sandler

OTHER NEWS:

• CHINA PROPERTY RESCUE PACKAGE.
• China announced multiple measures from PBOC to support Housing market: set up 300B Yuan resending scheme for public housing. Removed mortgage rate floor for individual home buyers. Minimum down payment reduced to 15% for first time.
• THEY ARE TRYING TO MAKE IT EASIER FOR PEOPLE TO BUY HOUSES.
• Bostic yesterday said that he is pleased with inflation progress in April, but the Fed isn’t there yet. Said he doesnt see a recession, and said that lower shelter inflation in recent print was the most significant development for him. Said it will be appropriate for rate cuts later this year, but nothing locked in.
• DOJ yesterday, planned to issue notice of proposed rule making, to reclassify marijuana into a less restrictive category, from Schedule 1 to Schedule 3.
• Luxury brand Richemont, which owns Cartier, posts record full year sales and new CEO
• ECB’s Schnabel says that there is little chance of back to back rate cuts from ECB, even if the first rate cut comes in June.
• Uk’s Jeremy Hunt says that he will cut national insurance in Autumnn if he is able to. Says conservatives will cut taxes if they win the election.

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Hi,
I have marked most imporant parts as how long I use each meds in what dose, info of me, my questions, supplements used, nootropics thinking of, new meds for panic disorder treatment, plan to quit benzos, advice about Memantine. If you want, there is whole story and treatment:) Thx I have a lifetime nonmedicated ADHD + OCD (will finally have atomoexin in july after like 8 docs) but mainly severe panic disorder since 12/23 caused by badly burning out and not stopping work + too much stress from all sides, mostly family and workspace/company. It started close to xmas and wanted to finish year and worked until my body completely disabled to it to me but right after it came xmas, which is not my fav time of year ending in keeping me in attacks 24/7. Btw Im 29yo man, 193cm, 90kg, sporting, financial advisor self employed, living alone, used to be really busy all the time, multiple addictions behind me mostly because depression (alcohol),pain (kratom) and stimulants bcs its so addictive with adhd :D But I dont abuse anything since 02/23 when I barely survived WD from forced CT a lot of alcohol every day and I want to be healthy and drugs free!
I am currently getting off xanax and on SSRI, starting my new recovery plan below as previous didnt help enough and asking if you know anything that could help me get my full life back sooner I work as I can/want, mostly 2-6 h/day and only from home, going to multiple types of therapy, investing insane money to get recovered and looking for every possible way. I am open for any tip or advice on nootropic, peptide, maybe even SARMs that could help me get over this. Even if you dont have time or dont want to read all previous treatment and new plan and have idea what could help me, write it please. But I have to be careful with anything interacts with SSRI as I will be also on buspar, I have a safe med for serotonin syndrome if needed.. Also if you see gaps or risks in my meds plan, some ideas, useful info or better ways, I will be glad to know it:) Mostly about Memantine - when to use, in which part of protocol it will be most beneficial or what to expect.
I use/tried almost every useful supplement including adaptogens, herbs, expensive vitamins, mushrooms, gotu kola, NAC, tyrosine, inositol and just anything that could be useful + basics use all year. Also have Alpha GPC which made my adhd brain supercomputer before I got beaten but now doesnt work. Tried before noopept and a lot of racetams, idra21 and some more but with no effect and modafinil before with effect, but mostly anxiety, too much concentrating on one thing and severe insomnia.
I am already pretty sure about Agmatine, Sulbutiamine instead of Benfotiamine (any difference?), not sure of Bromantane on ssri (?), 9-me is no go, maybe NALT (?), Theacrine as Im tired from SSRI all the time and too much coffee makes me axnious, maybe Vinpocetine or Uridine triacetate? centrophenoxine? dihexa?
My treatment from december to now:
I had no idea wth is this, told my psychologist what is happening to me and asking many times if its serious and casually replied that is probably from stress. So I treated it as burnout by resting, then removing original causes and triggers, removing problems from my mind and life, reducing stress to minimum, even leaving my pretty good paid job after 9 yers. But nothing helped besides benzos which made me not feel attacks so much and when I went off after 6 weeks, symptoms came back the same day.
I always said no to ADs but this time I didnt see any other option so I got SSRI citalopram 20, later 30mg now 6 weeks, first weeks were hell of anxiety and tiredness, last 2 weeks they help but effect is enough to keep me attack free only at home, outside flat still almost instant PA + side effects are still bad.
Same with benzos now again for 6 weeks afte break from previous cycle, mostly xanax 1,5-2mg a day, when Im home with no problems I can stay on 0,5mg with no WD. But want to quit asap, Im standing on the edge of little discomfort or living hell WDs. Also it makes me dumb, careless and not caring, but dont have cravings or abuse them, until now there was no other medication in my country :/ Also I already had GABA WDs pretty bad from alcohol many times and from phenibut in february by mistake (3 weeks of 2-3x a week before I had benzos). I would rather skip this opportunity to be on boat walking simulator with scary shadowy guy in my bedroom.
Next week I will make a big changes:
Will to add Buspar in small doses to SSRI, probably 30mg citalopram + 2x7,5mg buspar for long term and propranolol over benzos before I leave flat for panic attacks - I have mostly physical symptoms and over these months my brain has learned to go panic mode when I go around people or noise but im not scared, wanting to hide or anxious, want to go out. Hope this will allow me to relearn the BIOS of my brain and body they wont start panicking as it has learned over months of nonstop attack (january until end of april, just moving on scale 1-10 but never off). Propranolon as beta-blocker should not allow my body to go panic defense mode and mental anxiety I can handle now. My mind is still quite ok, not much depressed or in bad mood, last days even thinking a bit sharper and can handle it but body/brain program are stuck. Hope this will allow me over time to get off SSRI to just Buspar + non addictive anxiety aid as needed or at least switch to SNRI or Wellbutrin as im energetic person but with this SSRI im meeeeeeeh all the time.
As propranolon arrives I will cut benzos to lowest dosage where I wont feel WD, probably 0,5mg/day and switch to Clonazepam (have benzos and can ask doc anytime), keep this dose for 2-3 weeks, taper to 0,35mg, wait and this until i go down around 0,2mg/day. Maybe slower if it will be painful or risk worse WDs when i cut them off.
For quitting benzos I have clonidine (WD reduce, camling, ADHD), pregabalin (GABA substance replacement, anti seizure but addictive), baclofen (GABA substance replacement, anti seizure also addictive)), Etifoxine (nonbenzo anxiolytics, I guess mostly PAWS) and Topiramate (seizure and migraine prevention, WD reduce) and Hydroxyzine (sleepy antihistamine nonaddictive) to get off them asap with no risk seizure and suffering for weeks in terrible WDs. I wont use all the aids together but as needed for current symptoms and not get hooked on none of them as only atarax is safe.
Also finally will get ADHD meds atomoxetin, but as I have no energy, even adhd is not so present and clonidine also helps for adhd. And I have found one super special med you will be interested about- Memantine (bgpharm), do you have experiences about this so called miracle drug? It make you feel softly with unlimited brain power, also it shall lower tolerances to almost all substances and by 30-60% over 7-14 days and then make WDs easier + also helps ADHD. But have no idea when to use it in my plan, I got 2 packs and its cheap so can buy more but dont want to mess with getting off bzs and learning to manage going out. Same question with atomoxetin - when to start? its not stimulant so it should not affect attacks nor benzo WD but idk.
Just in case there would be too much serotonin I will have Cyproheptadine for SS. It should not happen from SSRI+Buspiron but some nootropic or WD med can cause it. And just remembered I shall take some ephedrine/yohimbine if my BP or HB goes too slow from propranolon/clonidine... :/
I will still go for checks to doc and psychiatrist but the medical procedures in my country got stuck in time in year when producers of SSRI/benzos gave some gifts for doctors or politics. So they just give you this combo announcing you it will work (didnt) and you wont get addicted in 3 months of xan (would). Also propranolon is not approved med for anxiety in my county, only bzds and buspirone, but after trying several ADs on you :/
Thank you so much for any knowledge you share with me!

Hi,
I have marked most imporant parts as how long I use each meds in what dose, info of me, my questions, supplements used, nootropics thinking of, new meds for panic disorder treatment, plan to quit benzos, advice about Memantine. If you want, there is whole story and treatment:) Thx I have a lifetime nonmedicated ADHD + OCD (will finally have atomoexin in july after like 8 docs) but mainly severe panic disorder since 12/23 caused by badly burning out and not stopping work + too much stress from all sides, mostly family and workspace/company. It started close to xmas and wanted to finish year and worked until my body completely disabled to it to me but right after it came xmas, which is not my fav time of year ending in keeping me in attacks 24/7. Btw Im 29yo man, 193cm, 90kg, sporting, financial advisor self employed, living alone, used to be really busy all the time, multiple addictions behind me mostly because depression (alcohol),pain (kratom) and stimulants bcs its so addictive with adhd :D But I dont abuse anything since 02/23 when I barely survived WD from forced CT a lot of alcohol every day and I want to be healthy and drugs free!
I am currently getting off xanax and on SSRI, starting my new recovery plan below as previous didnt help enough and asking if you know anything that could help me get my full life back sooner I work as I can/want, mostly 2-6 h/day and only from home, going to multiple types of therapy, investing insane money to get recovered and looking for every possible way. I am open for any tip or advice on nootropic, peptide, maybe even SARMs that could help me get over this. Even if you dont have time or dont want to read all previous treatment and new plan and have idea what could help me, write it please. But I have to be careful with anything interacts with SSRI as I will be also on buspar, I have a safe med for serotonin syndrome if needed.. Also if you see gaps or risks in my meds plan, some ideas, useful info or better ways, I will be glad to know it:) Mostly about Memantine - when to use, in which part of protocol it will be most beneficial or what to expect.
I use/tried almost every useful supplement including adaptogens, herbs, expensive vitamins, mushrooms, gotu kola, NAC, tyrosine, inositol and just anything that could be useful + basics use all year. Also have Alpha GPC which made my adhd brain supercomputer before I got beaten but now doesnt work. Tried before noopept and a lot of racetams, idra21 and some more but with no effect and modafinil before with effect, but mostly anxiety, too much concentrating on one thing and severe insomnia.
I am already pretty sure about Agmatine, Sulbutiamine instead of Benfotiamine (any difference?), not sure of Bromantane on ssri (?), 9-me is no go, maybe NALT (?), Theacrine as Im tired from SSRI all the time and too much coffee makes me axnious, maybe Vinpocetine or Uridine triacetate? centrophenoxine? dihexa?
My treatment from december to now:
I had no idea wth is this, told my psychologist what is happening to me and asking many times if its serious and casually replied that is probably from stress. So I treated it as burnout by resting, then removing original causes and triggers, removing problems from my mind and life, reducing stress to minimum, even leaving my pretty good paid job after 9 yers. But nothing helped besides benzos which made me not feel attacks so much and when I went off after 6 weeks, symptoms came back the same day.
I always said no to ADs but this time I didnt see any other option so I got SSRI citalopram 20, later 30mg now 6 weeks, first weeks were hell of anxiety and tiredness, last 2 weeks they help but effect is enough to keep me attack free only at home, outside flat still almost instant PA + side effects are still bad.
Same with benzos now again for 6 weeks afte break from previous cycle, mostly xanax 1,5-2mg a day, when Im home with no problems I can stay on 0,5mg with no WD. But want to quit asap, Im standing on the edge of little discomfort or living hell WDs. Also it makes me dumb, careless and not caring, but dont have cravings or abuse them, until now there was no other medication in my country :/ Also I already had GABA WDs pretty bad from alcohol many times and from phenibut in february by mistake (3 weeks of 2-3x a week before I had benzos). I would rather skip this opportunity to be on boat walking simulator with scary shadowy guy in my bedroom.
Next week I will make a big changes:
Will to add Buspar in small doses to SSRI, probably 30mg citalopram + 2x7,5mg buspar for long term and propranolol over benzos before I leave flat for panic attacks - I have mostly physical symptoms and over these months my brain has learned to go panic mode when I go around people or noise but im not scared, wanting to hide or anxious, want to go out. Hope this will allow me to relearn the BIOS of my brain and body they wont start panicking as it has learned over months of nonstop attack (january until end of april, just moving on scale 1-10 but never off). Propranolon as beta-blocker should not allow my body to go panic defense mode and mental anxiety I can handle now. My mind is still quite ok, not much depressed or in bad mood, last days even thinking a bit sharper and can handle it but body/brain program are stuck. Hope this will allow me over time to get off SSRI to just Buspar + non addictive anxiety aid as needed or at least switch to SNRI or Wellbutrin as im energetic person but with this SSRI im meeeeeeeh all the time.
As propranolon arrives I will cut benzos to lowest dosage where I wont feel WD, probably 0,5mg/day and switch to Clonazepam (have benzos and can ask doc anytime), keep this dose for 2-3 weeks, taper to 0,35mg, wait and this until i go down around 0,2mg/day. Maybe slower if it will be painful or risk worse WDs when i cut them off.
For quitting benzos I have clonidine (WD reduce, camling, ADHD), pregabalin (GABA substance replacement, anti seizure but addictive), baclofen (GABA substance replacement, anti seizure also addictive)), Etifoxine (nonbenzo anxiolytics, I guess mostly PAWS) and Topiramate (seizure and migraine prevention, WD reduce) and Hydroxyzine (sleepy antihistamine nonaddictive) to get off them asap with no risk seizure and suffering for weeks in terrible WDs. I wont use all the aids together but as needed for current symptoms and not get hooked on none of them as only atarax is safe.
Also finally will get ADHD meds atomoxetin, but as I have no energy, even adhd is not so present and clonidine also helps for adhd. And I have found one super special med you will be interested about- Memantine (bgpharm), do you have experiences about this so called miracle drug? It make you feel softly with unlimited brain power, also it shall lower tolerances to almost all substances and by 30-60% over 7-14 days and then make WDs easier + also helps ADHD. But have no idea when to use it in my plan, I got 2 packs and its cheap so can buy more but dont want to mess with getting off bzs and learning to manage going out. Same question with atomoxetin - when to start? its not stimulant so it should not affect attacks nor benzo WD but idk.
Just in case there would be too much serotonin I will have Cyproheptadine for SS. It should not happen from SSRI+Buspiron but some nootropic or WD med can cause it. And just remembered I shall take some ephedrine/yohimbine if my BP or HB goes too slow from propranolon/clonidine... :/
I will still go for checks to doc and psychiatrist but the medical procedures in my country got stuck in time in year when producers of SSRI/benzos gave some gifts for doctors or politics. So they just give you this combo announcing you it will work (didnt) and you wont get addicted in 3 months of xan (would). Also propranolon is not approved med for anxiety in my county, only bzds and buspirone, but after trying several ADs on you :/
Thank you so much for any knowledge you share with me!

In 2010, I was facing felony charges for distribution of drugs. I was a drug addict. Hook line and sinker. But never admitted that to myself. My drug of choice? Anything I could get my hands on. Cocaine, ecstasy, weed, Xanax, Oxycontin, ciggys, alcohol, ativan, seroquil, spice, mushrooms.. You name it.
Desperately wanting to avoid prison time, I did whatever I could to turn my life around. The potential pain in carrying on was too great to tolerate. This was my rock bottom.
I enrolled in college, started working out every day, got rid of any "friends" that wanted to continue that lifestyle.
And quitting my daily drug use?
It wasn't a factor. I was too scared. I was willing to do anything to escape my prison sentence so I dropped them all without looking back. I was lucky. Lucky I had hit rock bottom. Lucky that everything collapsed around me. I needed a push and this was it.
Apparently the judge saw that I was making real change and I was able to avoid prison. I was slapped with a couple of felonies, fines, and drug and rehab classes.
Having felonies on my record was hard. I couldn't get a decent job. Even Walmart was excited to hire me, but then rejected me because of my record. I knew that I had turned a new leaf. I just needed someone to see that I was changed now.
Luckily, I found a family that needed help with their special needs kid.
I worked for them for long enough to get my felonies reduced and expunged off my record.
When hard drugs turn into soft drugs.
I thought I was "drug free" because I had stopped all illegal drugs. But soon I found myself consuming copious amounts of caffeine in order to lose weight and get "Jacked". You see, I found a passion for natural bodybuilding and Jiu-Jitsu around 2011.
I consumed endless content on how to lose body fat so I could finally get a six pack. A lot of YouTubers at the time were promoting pre-workouts like Jack3d. Which also had another stimulant called 1,3 dimethylamylamine - or DMAA. Which was banned after it had become known to be problematic.
So there I was, taking Jack3d, working out, and trying to figure out how to get a six pack. I hired the same coaches that my favorite YouTuber Matt Ogus had. 3DMuscleJourney. I got very serious with Diet and training.
When I started with 3DMuscleJourney in 2012, I had been working out for a solid year. I had gotten down to 195lbs from 215. Not a huge difference. And I had put on a good amount of Muscle in that time.
3DMuscleJourney taught me and guided me on how to train effectively while dieting and how to diet efficiently by tracking macros. But my preworkout and caffeine use had spiked up 1,500mg a day. I used caffeine as a substitute for food. After 12 weeks, I was down to 160lbs.
I was fit by any person's definition. My new found glory would soon collapse as my caffeine and DMAA use caught up to me. I started having bad shoulder pain, my joints were achy and cracky, popping every time I moved. I started stretching and doing mobility exercises but the pain in my body only got worse. I was unable to sleep. I would have fits of rage followed by lows of doubt and depression.
Then, I broke. I was no longer able to exercise because of the pain. I started eating more to see if it would help my joints. I quickly gained 30lbs. Probably within only a few weeks. I ended my coaching and started to slip back towards the abyss
That's when I figured out that caffeine and DMAA were both a huge problem.
I had been consuming caffeine my whole life. But never thought twice about it. It was a legal substance that a kid could go buy in a vending machine. How bad could it be? Broken, I decided to quit.
I was quickly able to cut out DMAA. But every attempt at quitting caffeine left me in so much pain that I would quickly rationalize going back to it. I never made it past two weeks.
Why was this harder than quitting all of those harder drugs?
I guess decades of using a softer drug still carves out some pretty steep ravines in your reward pathway. Caffeine was my last vice. Or so I thought..
I read the book "Caffeine Blues". This book explained that caffeine is not healthy in any way. It is a stimulant that causes your body to break down over time just like any drug. The book outlined some of the negatives associated with caffeine.

• Poor sleep, even if you didn't consume caffeine close to bedtime
• Joint pain from increased muscle tension.
• Poor vitamin and mineral absorption.
• Energy crashes and mood swings.
• Irritability.
• Psychosis.
• Masking negatives of caffeine with drugs and alcohol.

The list goes on. This was crazy. The book recommended tapering off of caffeine. While I was able to wean down to 300-600 most days. I couldn't get myself to fully commit. I started to look for some help.
Maybe I needed something to give me energy and focus while I quit?
I started to look at "Nootropics" to help me focus. I tried a large variety of them.

• Noopept
• Modafinil
• Piracetam
• Aniracetam
• L-Theanine
• Phenibu
• Kratom
• Nicotine
• A large variety of other supplements.

Non of this helped me quit caffeine. I soon realized that these legal "Performance enhancers" were just drugs. With their own highs and lows. And negative effects over time. I ended up quitting all of this after a year.
It was back to the drawing board.
Around the end of 2015, I ended up doing a 3 month or so long caffeine taper. Using caffeine powder and a mg scale I bought off Amazon. The plan was slow and steady. 1-2mg per day. I didn't want to notice my caffeine levels were dropping. After about a month under 25mg, I started feeling great.
My joints felt great, Arizona heat was more comfortable, I craved healthy food and exercise, I slept like a baby, the list goes on. I had raised my testosterone levels from 320ng/dL to 575ng/dL.
But then, just as I finally let go of caffeine. There was a surprise. A curve ball that would change my life forever.
The boy who lived...
My first child was to be born. The 24 hours in the hospital was an introduction to the lack of sleep I would face over the next few years. I caved..
One or two cups of coffee later, my son was born, and a new cycle of baby wake me up > being tired > caffeine to get me through the day > poor quality sleep > baby wake me up had begun.
I got got even more dependent on caffeine. I could no longer just take a nap whenever I wanted. I was a mess. Feeling like shit, with high stress, I also started drinking alcohol and smoking weed again. My testosterone levels plummeted down to 275ng/dL.
Great move dad..
I wanted to get healthy again. I started reading books about health, nutrition, meditation, etc. I wanted to attack this problem from multiple angles. I started eating a plant-based diet, meditating, exercising, taking ice baths, etc. I quit alcohol and weed again. Tapering my caffeine down below 100mg again.
I was starting to feel better. Even got my testosterone levels all the way up to 575ng/D
The girl who lived..
Sorry about the Harry Potter references...
Just when I thought it was over, another curve ball to my health goals. Something that would start the lack of sleep cycle all over again.
You guessed it.. another child! This time, there was a baby girl in my house. This new baby came with new challenges. Our daughter was born with cataracts. She had to have surgery at around 3 months old to get them removed. So not only did we have to deal with the lack of sleep stress again, and boy did she excel in that area, we had to deal with putting contacts in a baby...
Imagine a grown man squeezing their fist closed. And you have to delicately open up their fist, and place a sticky note on their palm without bending the paper. And the grown man is also having a seizure at the same time. Also, you haven't slept a quality night of sleep for weeks.
Needless to say, but I'm going to say it, our stress levels shot through the roof. We had new worries and fears about our daughter's condition and the caffeine cycle ramped back up again. All while trying to focus on my new career in IT and raising our other child.
Testosterone Replacement Therapy
I think sometime early 2023, a friend told me he was on Testosterone replacement therapy (TRT). I knew my low test levels were due to stress, caffeine use, lack of sleep, belly fat, poor eating habits, etc. But I was desperate for some edge that would help me finally quit caffeine and get healthy again.
I thought, if I can use Testosterone to help me get healthy, then I can get off of it later and not suffer any consequences.
Boy was I wrong
TRT did give me more drive and gusto to get stuff done. It also made me work harder than my body wanted. I started getting more back pain from harder weightlifting session, I actually started doing more caffeine, and even weed again. I was like 6 years clean from weed at this point.
This made me over confident. Like I could handle anything, which led to poor decisions. I felt like a horny teenager and it made it hard to focus. I started masturbating furiously..
After 4 months stabbing myself in the ass, and draining my life essence, I decided to quit TRT cold turkey. I knew this wasn't what I needed.
Withdrawals from TRT were bearable. I had waves of depression, lack of energy, etc. But I got through it. I'll probably get my levels tested again soon. As I write this, I have been off of TRT for 12 months now.
I leaned more heavily on caffeine while I was coming off of TRT. My current levels are around 400mg per day. But tapering off is my primary focus. Or maybe I should try cold turkey again? Not sure how I can afford to be a useless zombie for weeks while I have a full time job and 2 kids to look after.
"Semen retention" and NoFap
For years, I had made half ass attempts at doing No Fap and quitting porn. The benefits claimed by people who have tried it are:

• Increased energy
• Vigor
• Willpower
• Can function on less sleep
• Increased confidenc
• Better focus and concentration
• Muscle growth
• Increased Libido

I started to read some books about the topic. This big two were "Your Brain on Porn" and "Cupid's Poisoned Arrow". These books took a more Science-based approach. There were also a couple books that were a little off tilt such as "Bliss of the Celibate" and "Why You Should Never Masturbate". These books included a lot of hokey about chakras and religion.
I never made it passed two weeks.
After TRT, I decided to give it a real go. NoFap/ Semen retention felt like my final try at getting an "edge". I lasted over a month. Just around the 3 week mark, I had felt the same benefits of TRT without all of the negatives. I also learned, that you have to be all in.
Any sexual thoughts had to be banished. Just think of something else. If you entertain lust at all, you will fail. Stay off social media where you may run into soft porn, which can start the spiral that leads you to porn, etc.
I was able to control my caffeine intake finally, my sleep was better, my wife was more attracted to me, I was more patient with the kids. I finally found the answer.
But then, I relapsed. And lost sight of the benefits. I had forgotten.
Slowly everything started slipping again. With small nofap stints here and there never lasting more than two weeks.
As I write this, I am realizing that caffeine was never my problem. It was a symptom of something else. I am currently on day 6 of retention and have made it my number one priority again. I need to remember this. I need my edge back.
The journey continues..
Life is full of ups and downs. And decisions you make (good or bad) compound over time. I know all of the positive effort, and commitment to personal development has paid off over time. Even though it may have been slower than I had hoped.
This story leaves out a lot. But I'd love to have a conversation with anyone who has had similar struggles. I have been going at this alone. I can only imagine how much more growth there can be surrounding yourself with like-minded individual
Ta Ta for Now.

Apologies for this one being so late; Been sick for the last week or so, and the friday i was meant to post this, I think from memory I was busy :/ But I'm starting to get back into the swing of things, and the Glossary Addendum has also had a bit of an overhaul :D I'll be applying that tonight as well, to each of the currently released chapters.
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[From the Abyss Artisanry, Wolfreach Commercial District, Halsion Reach Region, Haldios IV, 12th of Emheraldis, 5011 TE]
[Boltz] The door chimed, though it sounded... Off today, and I sighed. I'd have to replace the old beeper with something else now that it had broken. As I walked towards the counter, I heard Chit's voice from around the corner as she said,
"I'll be right with you!" I frowned, noticing the strain in her voice. I stepped around the counter and poked my head around the corner, and then immediately rushed to help. She was trying to move a Draekkan mace, and causing gouges in the floor as she dragged the heavy weapon.
"Seriously? Leave Draekkan weapons to me, beloved." I said, and Chit nodded as I lifted the massive, spiked club-like weapon. Made of Luunic steel, the metal was cool against my hand as I cautiously hefted it, a dark blue color akin to the Lunwatch sky on a clear night with few stars. I slowly walked over to the storage racks, and hung the mace on a pair of large hooks. Then I turned back to my lover, and looked her up and down for injuries.
Finding none, I shook my head with another sigh. "Well at least you didn't hurt yourself on it." I said, stepping up to her and wrapping my arms around her lower back. I pulled her cool body towards mine, and she happily melted into my embrace. Chuckling, I planted a kiss on her hair, and gently ran a finger down one of her drit'onthke. Her entire body shivered and she giggled, before wrapping her arms around me and giving me a tight hug.
"So what's on the list for today?" I asked, resting my cheek on her head.
"Just a few armour sets which need some minor repairs, thankfully." Chit replied. I nodded, and then the beeper went off, indicating a customer.
"Solahra's Light, what an awful noise to greet a customer with!" A deep, male-sounding canine voice rumbled from out in the customer area. We reluctantly pulled apart and both went out to see what he needed.

As Chit rounded the corner, she automatically greeted the customer by saying,
"Welcome to From the Abyss Artisanry, how can we help today?" But as I stepped around after her, I froze. The canine man was holding a box filled with shattered pieces of art, it looked like. I stepped closer and realised that they weren't shattered pieces of art, at least not in the traditional sense. Rather, they were the parts of what was formerly a weapon. I felt my eyes widen as I realised what it was. I looked at the canine man, and realised he was a Labardon. I looked back at the pieces of plasma caster, which appeared to, on closer inspection, actually have catastrophically failed at a structural level upon attempting to fire a shot.
"I went to the Lunhaekin blacksmith over in Aellandendil, cos they said that fishing my ancestral plasma caster would be an exceedingly simple affair. Instead, the next time I went to fire it, the blasted thing fell apart in my hands!" The man growled, and then asked,
"How bad is it... Is... Is there any way to restore it?" His eyes went wide as if to wordlessly plead with me, and I gestured for him to give me the box of parts. He hesitantly handed the box over and I gently placed it on the counter before pulling out one of the furcloth rolls underneath and unravelling it. Then, one by one, I pulled out each of the pieces, and with each new item, my heart sank.

This would not be a simple fix of just re-assembling the pieces. I let out a heavy sigh, and, leaning on the counter, covered my mouth with the side of my hand while looking at the arrayed parts.
"This is... At this point you might as well just buy a new plasma caster." I said finally, still looking at the parts. I looked up at the man and said,
"If I reconstruct this, because that's what it will take, a full reconstruction, it WILL cost more than buying a new caster." I looked down at the parts again, and swore under my breath.
"The focusing plate has been shattered, and those things are near indestructible when carved right, the prism chamber is cracked, so that's no good any more, and the magnetic acceleration rings..." I trailed off, and swallowed before looking up at the man.
"They're not rings any more..." I whispered, and the man's face seemed to break.
"Is there anything we can salvage of the original parts?" He asked, his voice shaky. I looked down at the parts, and realised that there was just one piece that was fully intact. With a mirthless chuckle, I picked it up.
"The plasma compression chamber. That's it." I laid the small metallic chamber down again, and sighed.
"The rest is just... Junk. Scrap even." I shook my head, running the numbers in my head. When I finished, I swore again, and dropped the bombshell.
"You're looking at around fifty thousand in parts alone." I said, and the canine's shoulders slumped.
"If that's the price it takes..." He said.
"I will try and recover as much material as I can though; I might be able to melt down the mag rings for example and re-energise them."

[A Cycle Later...]
[Chit'eiwu]
The Labardon stepped into the store, a simple digital bell sounding, and he sighed, his tail wagging a little as he did so.
"Much better than last time!" He joked, and Jakob walked around the corner holding a box, grinning from ear to ear.
"Just in time, good sir!" He exclaimed. He set down the box, and the Labardon's gaze instantly honed in on it. Jakob laid a hand on the lid, and said,
"Behold, your restored heritage!" And with that, he lifted the lid like he was proposing to the customer, and the canine's eyes lit up, his tail suddenly zipping back and forth as though it were some kind of demented metronome. As he lifted the ancient weapon, my own eyes widened; It was truly a thing of beauty.

[Boltz]
I smiled as the Labardon man admired my handiwork, and in a voice that sounded like it was half pure air, he whispered,
"It's as beautiful as the day my sire first showed it to me..." My smile widened, and I said,
"I was able to salvage more than I thought, in the end. I managed to keep the primary focus cone; I simply had to melt and recast it due to a crack in it, the laser projector's crystal matrix casing also was salvageable, though I did have to replace the crystal matrix. So it now has a Kaurine crystal for providing the first round of focusing." The man froze, and his gaze flicked to me. His hands still raise, he asked,
"A Kaurine crystal? Genuine?" I nodded.
"Cut the crystal free from the rock myself." I replied. The man laid the plasma caster on the counter gently, though it rattled slightly from his shaking paws as he ceased to support it.
"My sire said that it originally had a Shell crystal as its matrix..." He said, voice trembling as much as his paws.
"They are great crystals for energy conduction as well as for energy focusing. It took a bit to set the frequency for the right channels though." He nodded, and shakily handed over his Orionpay card. I handed it to Chit'eiwu, right as he asked,
"So how much was it all up?" I grinned and replied,
"An even fifty five thousand." He blinked, and asked,
"But... the crystal... Surely that alone would be a few hundred thousand!" I shook my head, and replied,
"It's not a Blade. And it doesn't need to be anywhere near as big. Only came to around three thousand." He nodded, and Chit'eiwu input the numbers and scanned the card. The system registered a successful transaction, and she handed the man back his card.
"Thank you for choosing From the Abyss Artisanry!" I said, and he nodded, his eyes turning shiny with unshed tears.
"No, thank you. All of my friends will be hearing about this, and you will be my first stop for anything artisanal." I nodded to him, and he left, carefully cradling the restored plasma caster in its box. Looking over to the clock, I noticed that it was indicating less than an hour before Lunrise. I jerked my head towards Chit'eiwu and asked,
"Think we should close up the shop early, or wait until Soldown before we stop operating?" She looked up at the clock as well, then back to me, and shook her head.
"No, I think we can afford to close early this evening." I nodded, and pressed the button to activate the end of Watch sign system, and a moment later, a holosign in the window came to life and began a 10 minute countdown.

We always did the countdown so that prospective customers knew how long they had to enter to the store before we stopped taking new customers prior to closing down for the Lunwatch. As usually happened however, the sign completed its countdown and flicked to the "Closed" display, and I pressed a second button to lock the door remotely, and arm the security system. As I did so, Chit'eiwu walked into the apartment, and soon after, I heard the sound of her cooking. I smiled, knowing that she was bound to make an incredible dinner as per usual, and let out a contented sigh as the system went through the arming process. Life with her was... Good. Not necessarily great by any stretch of the imagination; Most of our days were spent working after all. But it was at least a good life. A life I was more than happy to lead.

When the system indicated full armed status some minutes later, I followed my aquatic lover into our home behind and above the shop, and arrived just in time for her to serve up dinner. As I sat down, a stupid grin spread across my face as I beheld what she had cooked up. On the plate was a kind of "nest" made of purple coloured strands of pasta, and topped off with a green-sauced mince of some kind. I looked up at my lover, who was watching me expectantly. My grin refusing to go away, I obliged her apparent intent, and used a fork to collect some mince with sauce, and some of the pasta.

As the food reached my mouth, it was like an explosion of flavours; An earthy, slightly spicy flavour issued forth from the sauce, and the mince tasted somewhat like yuron, a kind of cattle animal from Zehllukarn Prime, and it was followed up by a surprisingly sweet flavour from the pasta as it rotated around in my mouth as I chewed. Swallowing, I said,
"This is incredible! I can't even properly describe it; it's... It's like an explosion of all different flavours coming together in my mouth!" Chit's face turned a fierce azure, and my grin widened. The grin morphing into a smirk, I added,
"You're definitely getting rewarded this Lunwatch, beloved."

[A Few Hours Later...]

[Boltz]

As Chit'eiwu walked into the bedroom we shared upstairs, I put the dishes from our dinner into the automatic dishwasher, and followed her up. As I reached the laundry room, I stripped off my clothes from the Solwatch, and tossed them expertly into the laundry, each garment hitting the wall and bouncing off slightly to fall into the clothes basket waiting below, before walking into the bedroom entirely unclad. Chit'eiwu was laying in the bed, the blanket covering her amethyst body from view, and in such a way that I knew that she too had put her clothes in the laundry. I walked around the bed, and pulled down the blanket to get in beside her, and after that, things turn rather hazy for a little while.

[A Week Later...]

[Chit'Eiwu]
Jakob and I stepped off of the transport, hand-in-grasper, him looking absolutely divine in a glacial blue suit with silver trimmings, seeming to be a walking ice sculpture. Complimenting him, I opted for a taste of my birthplace; Trimmed with onyx hems, I was wearing a deep, abyssal purple dress, showing off my relatively lighter purple skin, becoming a shadow of the Abyss to act as the dark counterpart to my Warrior of the Overwaves. I looked towards him as we stepped inside the Fortress of Kaur'Ainda together for the first time since I was Ascended by both him and Cewa together.
He looked back at me, smiled and squeezed my hand reassuringly, before saying over our rarely-used connection,
There's no need to be nervous; It's just a Greenmarch Feast, my Siren. As I did every time he called me that, I giggled; At first I had been confused by him calling me an alarm sound, until he showed me one of the few surviving Terran records from... Wherever it was that they came from. Terran, or at the time, Human, women of extraordinary beauty, totally uncovered, and singing some kind of song that lured male sailors to their deaths.
Then he had sent me an image of how he viewed me; My plain purple skin instead appeared almost... Luminous, and my average green eyes were glittering emerald gems. My hair, an equally unremarkable azure, was a brilliant blue that resembled the Azuresheet high above even the Overwaves, and in his mind's eye, my cheeks were flushed slightly blue. I had never considered myself to be attractive by any means; In the Abyss I would have struggled to find a mate...
But here in the Overwaves? I had been chosen by a Terran, that enigmatic, smooth-skinned, near-prey-like biped species who were renowned for absurd feats of strength and endurance. I was not as fragile as I seemed, even before my Ascension...
But Jakob seemed to realise that early on; The first time we lay together, an eye-rolling, mind-erasing experience, he showed such gentleness that it was hard to believe the stories... Until the very next day when I had struggled to move a shipment of materials that had come in, even barely raising it, and he had simply come in and told me to let it go, before seeming to effortlessly pick up the heavy box and carry it into the Forge, before placing it down and rapidly sorting the material inside for me. I had asked him about it, and his response was a mere shrug, and to say, It wasn't that heavy for me; Absolutely awkward, but not anything that will break my back.

In the present, we stepped into the Great Hall, and froze. It had been totally transformed, becoming a verdant green forest canopy under which wooden tables seemingly made from the trunks of trees, with seats formed from sections of log from great tree branches. Seiranha saw us enter, and rushed over to greet us.
"Boltz! Chit!" She exclaimed, and hugged us both in turn. It felt... Odd, to be given a hug by a Vampyris, but this particular one was a friend, and so I happily returned the hug, albeit reluctantly letting go of Jakob's hand to do so. We held the hug for a few eternal moments, before she let go and did the same to Jakob, who greeted her warmly.
"You look great!" Jakob said to the Vampyris warrior, and she blushed a deep golden color on her pale cream skin. It looked almost like golden Skyblaze rays were touching her cheeks as she giggled. But Jakob was right; She was garbed in a flowing set of obviously ceremonial armour which appeared to have been made by first weaving a suit of leaves, and then attaching segments of bark to the resulting garment. And combined with her silver-in-crimson eyes...
"You look sort of like a vengeful forest spirit in this armour, Master Seiranha!" I said, and the woman grinned.
"That's sort of the idea. Not many people remember that the spirits of the forests of all our worlds yet live... And for those who do not respect the forest's inhabitants, only death can be anticipated, or worse."

Over the course of what remained of the Solwatch, we enjoyed the Greenmarch Feast, and soon enough, it was time to scatter to our homes once again, to rest away the overindulgences of the Feast.

[Boltz]
As the transport landed at the Wolfreach starport, Chit and I walked down the ramp, though she was somewhat unsteady on her legs. Chuckling, I asked her,
"Would you like me to carry you home?" She looked at me, her face blazing sapphire, but through our connection, she, apparently not realising she was 'speaking', replied, I thought you'd never ask... My mighty Skybright, carrying me like an Inkle in his powerful arms... As the thought travelled over our connection the azure spread, and I shook my head with a grin. I really was the luckiest guy in the Reach to have landed such an exotic life partner. She happily stepped in closer to me, and I swept her off her feet, much to her almost drunken delight, and she let out a whoop of surprise.
However, as her intoxicated brain realised what had happened, she melted into my embrace, burbling away in my ear as though she had been returned to her youngest of Watches. I was all too happy to carry my lover home of course; The sound of her tripled heartbeat like a three-beat rhythm pulsed against my own heart, and her emerald gaze was transfixed on my face, the look in those beautiful green orbs one of utter and complete adoration.

After around 10 minutes, we reached the shop, and I swiped my wristcomm over the new sensor, first up-down, then right-left. The two-part verification proved my identity, and the door swung open automatically, a recent addition I had also made. As we cleared the door, I swept my foot around and behind me to close the door again, and carried Chit to the bedroom in our apartment, before laying her gently down on the bed, and saying,
"Unfortunately, I've gotta take that incredible dress off you or it will be ruined in your sleep." Chit vaguely nodded, and I helped her stand back up. Having done this routine together before, she laid her arms on my shoulders for added balancing support, and I bent down to grab the bottom of the dress, before slowly pulling it up to her chest. Feeling the garment fully above her hips, Chit carefully sat down on the bed, and I carefully pulled the dress up and over her head, then down her arms.

Turning around, I draped the dress across a nearby dresser, smoothing out any wrinkles in it, and then returned my attention to my lover, who was now completely undressed. Once again taking up the role of caregiver, I wrapped an arm around her and scooped her up once more before laying her on the bed sideways, where she let out a small gasp as the cold fabric touched her bare skin. I gave her a reassuring smile and said,
"I'll have you nice and warm soon enough, Heartstreasure." And with that, I stripped off my own suit, carefully draping it over a chair, and then pulled off the underwear I had worn for the Feast, and climbed under the covers beside Chit. Upon feeling me enter the bed, she shifted over, hissing a bit as she moved off the warmed area, and melted her body against my own. As she settled into a comfortable position, one of her legs across mine, she said through repeated yawns,
"May... May you swim... With the... Blessing of... Of Drynedaea... My.... Sky-Warrior..." Chuckling as I wrapped an arm around her back, I kissed her gently on the forehead and over our connection, replied,
"May Luunah Guard your Dreams, Heartstreasure of the Depths." And with that, as if it were a cue, Chit's breathing shifted to become deep and regular, and the sound along with the rising and falling of her amethyst chest against my skin sung its own siren song, dragging me down into...
[Next: To Tread the Shaded Path]

Hey all!
Okay, so I discovered ASMR about three/four months ago and... wow! So much content and it has been quite a nice thing for me to get into when life gets a bit tricky. After reading/listening to a lot of people's work, I decided to write a script. I do not intend to record this myself - nobody needs to hear my voice lol!!
I'm not expecting anyone to read, or comment - I wrote this for fun and curious to see what people think! However, if you do, thankyou!! Please feel free to leave a comment, and constructive feedback. Still learning the ropes, so to speak.
I'm definitely not expecting any voice artists to want to pick this up, but again, if you do, thankyou so much!! Feel free to post on Youtube, Patreon etc and I'm fine with monetization. Just please provide full credit to me and a link to the script :)
Also, I know I include a lot of directions on background noise, but I leave that entirely up to the artist! It's mainly to break up big blocks of exposition, but from the stuff I've listened to, I do prefer background noises. I just find it much more immersive.
As put in the title, I've deliberately kept both Yandere and listener gender neutral. Both Yandere and listener can be any gender! I wrote this for everyone! My personal preference would be Yandere girl, listener boy, but again, I'm not fussed if that's not your thing!
Finally, and I hope she doesn't mind me doing this, but I wanted to do a little plug to HuskyWolfGirl's YT channel. She was one of the first ASMR channels I found and really helped influence me in seeking out other content, both on Reddit and YouTube, and wanting to write my own stuff. Her work is really good and she deserves a much bigger following. Link here https://www.youtube.com/@huskywolfgirlasmr
So, the premise is you've been dating someone for a couple of weeks and you're starting to really like them. You've even been thinking that things could get pretty serious. That said, they are a bit odd, only ever meeting up with you at night, not eating a huge amount, and always being cold. One night, you finally get intimate with each other and something happens. They change into a strange creature right in front of you, with wings, big fangs and red eyes. The last thing you see is them coming at you, and everything goes dark...
Muffled noises. Fire crackling in a grate. Maybe some distant wind through the window.
A chair creaking. The sound of straining rope, which starts soft and then increases in volume. Someone has been restrained and is trying to free themselves.
Footsteps, loud and clunky as someone approaches.

Yandere
Thank God! You’re awake. Finally! You’ve been asleep ages.

More staining rope noises, increasing in intensity.

Yandere
(sounding worried)
Please don’t struggle. You’re only going to hurt yourself. I’ve been around a while. I know my way around a knot. Please. I said STOP.

The word ‘stop’ is echoey. It has power in it. The noises stop.

Yandere
Okay. Thankyou.

Noise of a chair being pulled across the room.

Yandere
Look, I’m sorry, okay. This was not the plan. I just want you to know that. I’m not going to hurt you, or do anything bad. I mean yeah, okay, tying you up isn’t great, I admit. But I just want to sit and talk with you for a little bit. If that’s okay.

Sound of Yandere sitting down. A slight rope strain.


Yandere
Ah, you don’t think it’s okay. I get that. Honest, I’m sorry for having to restrain you like this. I tried not to make it too tight. Are you in pain? You are? Damn. I’ll try to keep this quick. I really am not going to hurt you. I promise.
(sighs)
I only had to tie you up because I need you to listen to me. And after what happened last night, I figured you’d only run if you saw me again. I wouldn’t blame you. But if you did try to get away before we’ve spoken, and I had to stop you, I could hurt you. Not intentionally or anything, but… ah, now you look even more confused.
(sighs again)
You want to say something to me. I’ll take the gag out in a minute, I promise. I know you probably hate me right now. This is all just typical me. Diving in head first, not thinking things through! And now we’re…I… I’m in trouble.
Don’t look at me like that!

The rope straining sounds start again. The listener really wants to get free.

Yandere
Trust me when I say you’re not going anywhere. I’m hundreds of years old and you’re not the first person I’ve had to tie up in my time. Oh Jesus, that sounds so wrong.

At that, the straining stops. The listener is probably trying to get their head around what was just said.

Yandere
Ahh yeah, urm, so that was a slip. I guess I just better get to it. Fact is, I know we’ve only been on a few dates, but things have been so good so far. You’re just so cool to hang out with. I really loved spending time with you, and I think you felt the same.
(beat, Yandere is studying the listener for an answer, but they are keeping still for now)
Honestly, I don’t think I’ve ever met anyone like you before. You make me feel something I haven’t felt in years. Decades. I’ve been alone a while, you know? I was kind of happy to be, until I saw you. I remember seeing you with your friends in the restaurant. Remember, the one I work at? You looked so happy, so full of life. You remember the first night we met? How you spilt a drink on me? Well, that wasn’t actually your fault. I just wanted an excuse to talk to you, so I tripped up near you. I’m pretty clumsy at the best of times, but I didn’t exactly put on an Oscar winning performance.
(yandere chuckles)
I kinda got the impression you figured that out to be honest. But you didn’t seem to care. I don’t think anyone has ever looked at me the way you did. I felt like the most special person in the room. In the whole universe. Are you cold? I’ll put more wood on the fire.

Sound of wood being added to the fire, and flames. Yandere sits down, hissing.

Yandere
Shit, burned my hand! Typical. Is that better though? Don’t worry. I heal quickly, trust me. See? Ah damn, you look so pale. Please believe me. I won’t do anything to you. You’re everything to me. I know it’s fast. I know it’s odd! But you’re wonderful, and amazing, and beautiful and… I’m in love with you.
Remember what you kept saying to me? That you wanted to wait before we spent a night together until it was the right time? That we should get to know each other properly first? Well last night was just… wow. Being with you made it feel like my heart was beating again. It’s probably why… well, what happened last night happened.
What you saw was my true form. It happens sometimes when we lose control of our emotions. I’m usually so good at keeping myself in check. Lots of practice, you know? But I couldn’t help it. And once things got, urm, good last night…
(beat)
I’m such an idiot. I shouldn’t have let it happen. But I was just enjoying it so much.
Oh my, you’re crying. Please stop.
(echoey)
Stop!
Thankyou. Oh, now you look confused. When I want to, I can compel people to do things. Well, kind of. It doesn’t always work. Never really something I mastered, you know? I don’t like doing it anyway. I just don’t want you to be scared. I need you calm. I can hear your heart beating and it’s… distracting.
(beat)
I can see you really want that gag out. I suppose I can do. Just don’t scream. Nobody is going to hear you.

Sounds of material as the gag is removed.

Yandere
There we go. Oh, no, honey, please don’t… I said there’s no point screaming. Oh, go on then. May as well get it out your system, I guess.

Sounds of strained rope, a creaking chair and footsteps as the listener struggles and Yandere walks to the other end of the room. We hear water being poured into a glass and more footsteps as Yandere comes back.

Yandere
Would you like some water? I can hold it up to… there you go. Not too fast! You’ve spilt it all down yourself now! I know it’s kind of cold in here for you. I can’t really feel it, you know? The cold, I mean. Well, my body is always cold. Kind of comes with the territory of… What? Let you go? I promise, I will do, okay? But there’s just a few things I need to discuss with you first.
(beat)
I won’t hurt you! I would never… why don’t you believe… okay, yeah, I know it looks bad I tied you up like this.
(beat)
Okay, no need to be rude. I know you’re upset and…
(echoey)
That’s enough!
(beat)
Now, I took your gag out because you asked me to, but you will listen to me. Neither of us have a choice in that now. I was gonna wait to tell you this, you know? I mean, I don’t even know when I was gonna tell you. I hadn’t made my mind up. It’s kind of a hard thing to bring up, believe me. Like when do you do it? Third date? Just before I meet your parents? Wedding night? Honeymoon? Kinda hard to jump on a plane to the sunny Amalfi Coast if you run the risk of bursting into flame. But…
Ah, I’m rambling. Okay, I’m just gonna say it. Thing is, well the truth is, I… I’m a Vampire.
(beat)
Okay, so now you think I’m crazy, wonderful. What? That ship had already… okay, you’re being rude again.

Sound of strained ropes again.

Yandere
If you keep struggling like that you’re going to start bleeding. Not a very good idea, you think, given what I’ve just told you? Oh, there’s no such thing huh? Well then. Ask yourself if you can explain what you saw last night. My wings, my hair… my fangs. Like my entire body changed in front of you. I know you saw it.
(beat)
Wait… no, you weren’t drunk.
(beat)
And I certainly did not put anything in your drink! I mean, I did have to knock you out but that was just a small bump on the head! I didn’t plan this, you know! This isn’t some Baby Reindeer rip-off.
(beat)
What? You hated that show? Me too, to be honest. Kind of creeped me out. I mean, how pathetic is that? I’m a 700 year old Vampire who kidnaps and ties up the person I’m in love with, and a crazy Scottish gal is too much for me. I mean, what the actual hell. You probably think I’m the worst Vampire ever.
(beat)
I’m not lying to you. I promise. I wouldn’t lie to you about something like this. Here, feel my skin! It’s room temp, it’s always room temp! You always used to comment on how cold I was. Didn’t you ever wonder why we only ever met up at night? Why I never really ate that much when we went out to dinner? What, you think I live for Caesar Salad without dressing? Why do you think my face is always white?
(beat)
Yeah, I knew you thought it was weird. But I knew you never wanted to say anything. I think I loved you for that even more. Despite everything, you still wanted to know me. Do you know how rare it is to find someone you really click with? Someone who sparkles for you like the brightest star, and the way they look at you means they might, just might, feel the same way? I mean, I thought you did.
(hopeful)
Do you?
(beat)
If you say yes, will I let you go? I don’t want you to say yes because you’re scared of me!
(beat)
If I loved you, I’d untie your hands? Are they hurting? I… look, okay, I’ll untie you if it’ll make you feel better. But please don’t try anything. Please don’t. Thing is, the main thing I need to tell you is that you’re in danger. We both are, now you know what I am. Stay still.

Sound of rope being untangled.

Yandere
Okay, there you go. Oh, your wrists look sore. I told you not to struggle too much! I can give you something for that. Okay, sorry, I know you’re still a bit nervous. I won’t try to touch you again unless I have to, so please stay in the chair. The ropes can go back on if they need to.
(beat)
Why are we in danger? Well, it’s a bit complicated. Trying to condense two thousand years of Vampire lore into one conversation is a little hard, you know? I mean, there’s so much crap out there about Vampires. Half the stuff paints us as some sort of wild animal, whilst the other half… I swear I wanted to bite Stephanie Myer. But through all the literal shit they do get some things right. We exist. We live in secret in the human world. We used to be human, until another of our kind turned us, and we became what we are. We drink blood to survive.
(beat)
Okay, I’ll ignore your sarcastic tone. How many are there of us? I’m really not sure, you know? Less than there was when I was first turned, I think. We spend a lot of time in hiding. We really don’t want the human world knowing about us. That part is true as well.
(beat)
Because we are better off! When I was first turned, humans did know about us, and they hunted us. We Vampires, we are stronger than the average human. We also have faster instincts, and we’re very good at hiding. I don’t know for sure, but I think we kind of evolved to be really good at hunting, well… humans. No, please don’t move! I don’t do that anymore! I haven’t fed… I mean, I don’t drink human blood. That’s not what this is about! No…

Sound of running, and a whooshing sound like material flying through the air. Then creaks as the listener is sat in the chair, followed by the sound of rope.

Yandere
I told you not to try anything! I’m going to have to tie you up again now! How am I so fast? Have you not been listening? What? You think I want to keep you tied up? You promise you won’t try that again? Fine, I won't put the ropes back on, but please don’t.
(beat)
I know this sounds crazy, but trust me, it’s real. I’m real. Vampires are real! I’m standing right in front of you! Can you not see me?
(beat)
Where are we all? Well that’s the thing. Most of us tend to keep to ourselves. A while back now, I’m not sure when exactly, a decision was kind of made that we would avoid contact with humans. For every human we hunted, ten would spring up to hunt us back and it looked like it was to be all out war. So, we hid. Got the blood we need from animals. Only some of the bad ones still feed on humans, and even then they do it stealthily. They’re very smart. They use human laws and influence to hide themselves. It’s easy to get very rich when you’ve been around for hundreds of years. They’re the really bad ones.
(beat)
Yeah, quite a few famous people are Vampires. But not all of us are like that. I don’t want to hurt anyone. Most of us try to live with humans. We get our blood from butchers, or hunting wild animals, and we just get by.
(beat)
No. I haven’t seen any of my kind for a long time. Not directly anyway. I’m alone.
(beat)
That’s a very long story. I will tell you, but I first need you to decide something. The thing is, the decision to keep away from humans and to hide, well, it was more than a decision. It was a general order. The accepted nature of a Vampire is that we do not reveal ourselves to humans unless… well unless we plan to make them one of us.
(beat)
Please don’t move. I need to explain… don’t even think about it.
(echoey)
STOP!
(beat)
Don’t you understand? I can’t let you go because you know about us now! And you shouldn’t do. Sit down, please, or I will have to make you.

A chair creaks as the listener sits back down.

Yandere
If we come into contact with humans, we take a lot of steps to avoid revealing who we really are. What we are. Most of us don’t risk getting close to anyone in case they figure it out. We can blend in, but the closer someone gets, the more they see us. Like you were starting to. And in moments of heightened emotion… well, you saw what happened.
(beat)
Why am I telling you now? Because you saw me. You may not have known what I was, but you saw enough. And if you told someone, and they told someone… before you know it someone hears who we don’t want to hear. And then, they’d come for you. They’d come for both of us.
(beat)
Remember I mentioned there are some powerful famous ones amongst us? Well, they like their lives. Exposing Vampires to the world could jeopardize that. And that is something that they won’t… believe me, you don’t want to piss them off.
(beat)
I’m sorry, it’s not that I didn’t trust you, but I couldn’t take that chance. As long as you knew about me, you’d be in danger. Anyone you told would be in danger. Anyone who you might have told. Leaving you free, knowing about me… I just couldn’t do it. It’s why I had to kidnap you. I didn’t really have a lot of time to think.
(emotionally, like Yandere is holding back tears)
And now we’re done, aren’t we? I can see it in the way you’re looking at me. Please believe me. I would never have done this to you. I had no choice. I really didn’t. I swear. Being with you has been the best time in my life. And I’ve lived forever. It’s a long time to be alone.
(beat)
Please say something.
(beat)
What happens now? Well, this is where it gets a bit, urm, complicated.
(beat)
I get it, you won’t tell anyone. And I believe you, I do. But it goes beyond that now. You know about us, and that knowledge is a curse. I know you, I know how conscientious you are. You’ll see Vampires in everything now. What if someone goes missing and you think a Vampire did it? What if you tell the wrong person? You’ll be dooming yourself, and you wouldn’t even know it.
(beat)
Yeah, I said I’ll let you go, and I will do. Well, that’s kind of up to you. You’ve seen that I have the power of compulsion. Vampires can use this to alter memories. It’s hard, and we avoid doing it unless we absolutely have to, but we can. If you want to leave, right now, then you can. But I would need to remove from your mind any memory of me. All the times we spent together would need to go.
(beat)
I could just try to remove what happened last night, yeah. But if I just disappear, you’ll look for me. Better you never met me. Better that I never existed for you.
(Yandere sniffs)
That is the price for your freedom, and for your safety. I will let you go, but you will go forever. We will never see each other again.
(beat)
The process won’t harm you! I have done it before. You would simply go to sleep, and wake up at home. You could get on with your life.
(beat)
Yes, I did mention you have a choice. The other option is that you don’t leave. You stay here with me.
(beat)
No, not as my prisoner. Haven’t I told you I don’t want to hurt you? I have no interest in holding you against your will. If you were to stay, it would be your own choice. But the only way to guarantee your safety would be, well, the thing is, I would need to… you would need to become like me. A Vampire.
(beat)
I’m afraid there isn’t another way. If you were to become a Vampire, you would be safe. Nobody would come after you. It would be in your best interests to not tell others about us. About what you were. But it’s more than that.
When I first entered into a relationship with you, I knew that if we were going to get serious, I would need to have this conversation eventually. I hoped we would be much further along than this, but there we go. It’s a lot to put on you, especially from someone you’ve not known that long.
If you were to become a Vampire, you could stay with me. Forever if you wanted. We could share eternity. Watch as this world grows and changes. There’s a lot of bad in it, but a lot of good as well. I could show it to you. We could see it together. For hundreds and hundreds of years.
There’s props to being a Vampire too. As I said, you have increased strength, and agility. You never get sick. Your body never changes, or ages. As long as you consume the blood you need, you don’t need any other form of sustenance. We don’t even need toilets! If nobody harms you, you can go on forever.
(beat)
Yes. I’m serious. I’m offering you the world, if you want to take it.
(Yandere’s voice quivers. This next bit is hard for them to say)
Of course, you wouldn’t have to stay with me forever. Once fully turned, if you wanted to, you could leave. Make your own way in the world. But this couldn’t happen straight away. Becoming a Vampire is an intense experience that I can’t even begin to describe to you. Everything is turned up like 1,000 percent. It’s a lot, and it can be very hard to get used to. If I were to change you, you would need to stay with me and learn how to control this power. And it could take a while. You would not be able to even think about returning to your old life for months, possibly years. If you went back too soon, you would run the risk of hurting those you loved.
(beat)
Yes. You would need to disappear. You would not be able to speak to your family, your friends, or anyone, for a long time.
(beat)
Yeah, I already said you can stay with me. I would help you, and bring you anything you needed. In time, there’s no reason why you could not reconnect with your old life. But you would have to be so careful. No matter how well you manage to integrate, or how well you hide who you really are, you would be a Vampire. Always.

The fire crackles in the grate as the listener takes all of this in.

Yandere
I know this is a lot, so I have one more thing I want to offer you. Stay with me, here in my home. Let me show you my world over the next few days. What it really means to be like me. You would not be allowed to leave here without me, and if you tried I would need to tie you up again, but if you promised me not to, then you can stay as long as you like. Or at least, until you make your final decision. Become a Vampire and accept a whole new life, or let me take your memories and return home. You can decide whenever you like, but just know that once you do, whenever that is, there is no going back.
(beat)
So. My love. What would you like to do?

And that's it! I leave the ending open really. Either it can end here, or I write more!
If you made it this far, thanks for reading, and have a good day!!

I have been experiencing severe sweating in my palms, feet, and other body parts since childhood, especially when the weather gets hot. After researching my symptoms, I concluded that I have hyperhidrosis.
The best possible treatment seems to be iontophoresis. However, I have titanium in my left elbow from when I broke my arm 10 years ago. It's still there, and I'm not sure if it's possible to remove it. I was planning to consult a doctor about the metal removal, but I am looking for ways to avoid it due to the possible complications and required recovery time.
As I understand, it is not allowed to use the device with metal present in the path of the current. I was advised to use it on my right hand and right foot to avoid current passing through the hand with titanium, but this would leave my left hand untreated.
I was considering the possibility of redirecting the current outside of the body. For example, I could use the device on my left hand and direct the current to an object or another person.
Is something like this possible, or has anybody tried it before?

I was scrolling through a couple of posts and found one where people were telling op to completely remove the anti glare coat if hes out of warranty and it wont be blurry any more you just have to make sure to get all of the anti glare and not leave any spots then boom completely clear viewing
Now i cant tell if they are people who are tolling to get people to ruin their headset or not if any body tried this and its true it could save a lot of peoples money who are out of warranty

First, I accidentally read a spoiler regarding Scribe Haylen. Is there any possible way to save her, send her to a community, have her become a companion, or possibly romance her without using mods? In my opinion she deserves more of a chance in Fallout 4.
The other is Shelly Tiller. I didn't kill her during the Silver Shroud missions, as she wasn't a bad person overall. Unfortunately, I killed Sinjin and saved Kent Connolly, thereby completing the Silver Shroud quests. I went looking for Shelly at the National Guard Training Yard to send her to a community, but she wasn't there. Did she go elsewhere, or is she gone after completing the quest line?
Lastly, but not least. Trashcan Carla. That thieving witch stole my power armor. I read that you can pickpocket the fusion core, and she'll jump out, OR she'll show up at Beacon Hill and it'll be sitting next to her, in which case you can just get it back. However, she was taunting me with it, and being her typical nasty self, and WOULD NOT leave Sanctuary. I went to Beacon Hill SEVERAL times looking for her to appear, but she didn't. Just stayed at Sanctuary during the day hours, everyday, in my power armor. My pickpocketing skills were not built up at all. I attempted anyway to try to resolve the issue. She then turned hostile in my power armor, so I really had no choice but to put her down with my Two Shot Assault Rifle right in the road of Sanctuary. I wasn't wearing any power armor myself at the time and my companion, MacCready did nothing to help, not that I needed it, but it's the point. You're companion's supposed to provide support in conflict. I also read that you can shoot the fusion core and Trashcan Carla will jump out of the power armor as well. It's too late now, she's dead in my street with her caravan brahmin walking around while she draws flies. The occasional settler on non used companion will walk by and stop at her body also. Is there a way a way to remove her??? I tried, but it says that she's too heavy because she's lying dead in my old power armor frame. At this point she's an eyesore. I also read that she is/was an Institute "snitch", so I really don't feel bad, except for not having the convenience of a trader in my settlement now.
I'm playing on the remastered quality version of Fallout 4 on PS5. Any help or answers/advice would be greatly appreciated. Thanks.

Background: A prisoner's dilemma is a thought experiment that is related to Game Theory. Simply put, two prisoners make a choice between cooperation and betrayal in order to get the most benefit for themselves. Let's say million dollars are on the line. If both betray none get the money. If one cooperates, but the other betrays, the betrayer gets $300k and the other gets nothing. If both cooperate, both get $500k. Both the rewards and punishments are completely arbitrary and can be as high or as low as can be. The only constant is that mutual cooperation gives more rewards than betrayal.
TL;DR: An OC with prisoner thematic and a DE based CT with binding vow properties. Focus is on the powers themselves. Intended to be on Hakari power level
Inspired by Higuruma and Hakari type of CT, I wanted to make a CT that was related tk binding vows. Also, similar to those two, some elements of it can be partially manifested (like Hakari's doors and Higuruma's hammer)
My current progress is:
Names: Prisoner's Solution (related to prisoner's dilemma)
Setting: a prison cell, with chains, iron bars, syringes and a door with two keys
Sure Hit: No phenomena, except talking is allowed (Cursed Energy usage or acts of violence are not allowed. As such, Cursed Spirits (except Vengeful Spirit ones) and Shikigami are completely frozen in time). People who are sleeping/passed out do not count
Effect: Anyone inside the domain is unable to leave, until a user has created a Binding Vow. A binding vow doesn't have to be with any of the people present and can also be made with yourself.
Self bows, as in canon, have to follow the users perception of fairness. Can be as simple as 'I will buy strawberry ice cream next time I'm in the shop, or I don't eat ice cream for a week'. Equal gain and equal loss. Upon exiting the domain through a self bow, for the remainder of the fight the user will gain a 20% boost in CE output.
Bows with others have to be agreed upon with the target inside the domain and follow the users perception of fairness.
The Domain has a special feature. It allows for CE transfer, but also with agreement. An example:
'I will survive the fight against Ryomen Sukuna for 1 minute and in exchange gain 5 percent of his CE'
If Sukuna agrees and the user does survive, Sukuna loses 5% of his CE and the user gains it.
Partial manifestations - Much like how Hakari can create doors outside of his domain and Higuruma can use his hammer, I wanted to make few things that can be used outside of the domain.

1. Chains: Durable set of chains that appear between the users palms. They can have as many links as the user wants and can be arranged in the chainmail format. Their length cannot exceed the maximum distance between the two palms of the user. They disappear the moment the user let's go of them, but, as long as one hand is on the chain, they still exist.
   
2. Metal bar: A single bar a size of which varies from the size of a pen to a baseball bat.
   
3. Syringe: Can be used as a throwing weapon, but are also easy to break. Filled with a slimy substance. When this substance enters the opponents body... Only a very very small reaction worsening. Effect is noticeable only after more than a dozen of syringes pierce. When the substance spills on the ground (upon dodging or breaking a substance, it acts as a slipping hazard. User and opponent can slip when stepping or touching it.
   

Strong sides:

• Scalability: Users gets stronger with more victories that have CE transfer as a price.
  
• A myriad of partial manifestations: All of them have high variety
  
• Basically what Sukuna has been doing for the last couple of chapters, but in the form of a domain: binding vows left and right!
  
• Positice Sum game for the user: user either makes a binding vow with an opponent that both can agree upon, or makes any binding vow with himself and a 20% output boost. Wins outweigh the losses.
  
• Flexible: can make a binding vow in any situation
  
• Tug of War advantage: Due to the domain being non violent by default, it has an advantage during Domain Clashes (similar to how Hakari has it). In this way, using it while already inside the domain of the opponent can override it (as long as refinement difference is not too big)
  

Weak sides:

• Perception of fairness matters: user cant gain 6 eyes by sacrificing a nail on their pinky toe, that's of course unfair. On the same note, a smart and knowledgeable opponent can make the user doubt the fairness of the deal and turn the tables around. Everything depends on the user's conviction and personality. Accenuates that you have to be crazy to be a sorcerer
  
• Limited (and conditional) firepower: Strength varies from good to a conditional incredibly strong. Case by case scenarios
  
• Battle IQ requirement: Requires a smart user to take advantage of the CT
  

In philocophical sense, the user changes the dilemma itself:

1. User offers a bow and opponent agrees. Both benefit technically. In the case of the previously mentioned Sukuna vow, Sukuna gets to keep his pride and/or have fun.
   
2. User offers but opponent refuses. Opponent betrayed and gets the benefit of not giving a bow advantage, but also loses because the CT user gets to make a self bow and a 20% output increase
   
3. Opponent offers, but the user refuses. Same as above.
   
4. None offer. Same as the above
   

In this case, the user benefits regardless and only risks during the cooperation (a deteimental binding vow that they HAVE to agree to, if the opponent outsmarts them). The opponent, in turn, gets no benefit from betraying and can turn the tables only during the cooperation. This is a selfish solution to the Prisoners Dilemma, one that I think fits the crazy Jujutsu Sorcerer world.
What do you think? What partial manifestations can be added or removed? Maybe the chains could be made into a cursed tool?

I'm having a small lump removed from my leg this coming week which will require stitches. I have had a few things removed from my body (raised moles that I kept picking at, a suspicious indended mole and a couple of lumps that turned out to be cysts) by my doctor and each time despite him doing the mattress stitch to reduce scarring I unsurprisingly scar badly. I actually have scars where you can see the suture lines. My doctor likes to joke that I am ruining his reputation for minimal scaring!
I have read quite a few articles (this one froms Ehlers Danlos Support UK and this one from Mayo Clinic Connect both mention it) that suggest that for people with EDS stitches should be left in for twice the amount of time than usual to reduce scarring and help with healing. I am wondering if anyone has any personal experience with this and how I should go about mentioning it to my doctor? This scar will be visible on a daily basis whereas the other ones aren't visible due to being on my back and being covered with my bra strap so I want to do what I can to reduce scarring.

So I found out I was dealing with GERDs some time around 2016 when I was having what I can describe as stomach pains/burning that felt like they went up to my esophagus, that sometimes made it difficult to breathe (not like life threatening but if I breathed wrong then...) and how I felt like I was on the verge of throwing up. I was directed towards Omeprazole to get a handle on it but was warned that it risks the chance of cancer. I considered the options but eventually ended up taking over the counter omeprazole cuz I just couldn't handle the uncomfortable-ness of it.
Only got an official diagnosis after 2019 due to the COVID-19 pandemic opening up the availability of healthcare to more individuals like myself (I had state insurance and was told I was supposed to have it until 26 but then complications with ObamaCare happened that dropped it down to 18.), where up to this point I had not seen a doctor since sometime before 2014 and coming from the backwaters did I have no education on how Healthcare works.
From then I've started noticing more such as when I have GERDs and miss a dose, I suffer from diarrhea and upchucks that rarely do I accidentally inhale. During my sleep when this happens is the worst, it feels like I'm suffocating even after I've cleared it up because its still made some entry into my lungs entryways in which it feels like I still need to clear my throat to remove the bile when its not there, but its acidity damaged it. There's been more emphasis on nausea too.
Now here's where I get to the reason I made this post, because after dealing with some pretty bad relationships where stress caused my mental health to degrade and neglect taking my medicine, I'm finally back on the up and up and have been making sure to take my upgraded dose of 40mg (20mg twice a day or as needed).
So far, things were fine. Until half an hour ago I woke up with the same feeling of upchucking in my sleep and while I didn't go into suffocation, its still made its way into the entryway of my lungs and burns like the dickens. I've been doing some of my housemade remedies such as milk, peanut butter, some bread or cookie with combination of said two, steaming my passageways with a hot shower. All of this when water wont wash it away.
I've started getting back on it about two days ago so maybe its just my body taking time to readjust considering a good gap I've taken what little omeprazole I had left probably once every 4-5 days. (Providers changed and so did my drugstore when I moved, Walgreens still sucks.) So without any refills available at the moment, I had to take when it was truly bad that I couldn't handle it anymore. But I'd think considering I took 40mg yesterday that would be good, so why am I upchucking in my sleep still???
That's why I came to here, cuz it seems like there's quite a few posts where people have more things going on than just GERDs. I wanna gather some information to bring to my provider to see what we can do.
Anything helps, thanks

Breast ultrasound scare
I am 34F, today I went for a breast ultrasound and I was told that I had fluid on my left breast. I have 10cm & 6cm of fluid inside my breast capsule. I have been experiencing pain in my left breast, my left breast is significantly larger than my right breast which has only been aching/swollen for 4 days. I would love to know if anyone could give me an insight into what this fluid could potentially be as I am very worried it may be BIA-ALCL or is there a chance it could be a benign cyst.
I have put my medical history below if you needed any background information that could help.
2009- diagnosed with Graves' disease, I had radioactive iodine during my diagnosis. Was on Carbimazole for 9 years
2010- I had breast implants put in, the implants were macro textured/polyurethane implants have been removed from the Australian market due to risks of BIA-ALCL.
2014- diagnosed with bilateral pulmonary embolism was on warfarin for 1 year. I also had recurrent miscarriages during this year. I was also on birth control pill during this period which is why I think that could of cause my unprovoked PE
2015-2016- I was diagnosed with SVT heart condition from unresolved Graves' disease. I was given 2 does of adenosine in the ER
2019- my body went into Thyroidtoxicosis from the excessive force used from being strangled in a domestic violent incident. I had a full thyroidectomy and I am now on thyroxine.
2024- I am 6 months postpartum and I asked my GP if I could please have a copper IUD but for some reason in Australia they are not available, so I ended up having Kyleena IUD inserted March 1st. Since I have had this IUD I have noticed that my breast has been different and more sensitive.