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Welcome to our fifth discussion of Leviathan Wakes. Hold onto your cool detective hats or your environment suits, because we finally get some answers to our mystery! This week, we will discuss Chapters 34-40. The Marginalia post is here. You can find the Schedule here.
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Now brace yourselves: here comes the juice!
Chapter Summaries:
Chapter 34 - Miller: Detective Miller and the crew of the Roci board the hidden ship (the one that captured the crew of the Scopuli before destroying it), wearing environment suits because the ship has no atmosphere - someone left the doors open. They stick together at first as they move through the ship, discovering signs of a struggle, zombie vomit, and twelve torpedo tubes big enough to destroy capital ships like the Donnager or the Canterbury. Miller uses his detective skills to determine that everyone but Julie retreated to engineering. Once there, they discover a truly grisly sight: layers of human flesh and bones are sort of fused around the reactor, which has been shut down. Naomi and Holden gasp in shock and disgust, Miller turns on his cop brain to suppress emotion and view it as a crime scene, and Amos seems… calm and able to ignore the gore. The team splits up to look for more clues.
Amos stays in engineering to start up the computers and get the reactor back online. Naomi works on the ops deck to run diagnostics. Miller and Holden head to the bridge, which wasn’t affected by the fighting onboard. Miller reviews the internal feeds and finds footage showing the captured Scopuli crew being led onto the ship, stripped, and put in restraints. Julie fights back viciously but is knocked unconscious and stuffed in a locker with a jumpsuit (which is where we met her in the prologue). The crew is left in the galley for 132 hours before they decide to make a stand, but it is quickly suppressed. One of the crew is thrown out an airlock and the others are heavily restrained as they scream and cry. Just as Miller gets to the first appearance of a vomit zombie (at hour 160 of footage), Amos yells that he’s been exposed to some radiation because the human flesh blob had damaged the reactor shielding. He decides to keep working while Alex monitors his health status from the Roci.
Then Holden calls Miller over to view one of the last feeds Julie accessed. It’s a corporate presentation video created for a man named Dresden and the board of Protogen. It features a man Miller dubs “the sociopath” because of his cold, practiced smile…and because of the content. The sociopath tells the board (and us) the history of scientific discovery on Phoebe, which was thought to just be a moon and a source of water, but became a research station when a survey found complex silicon structures in the ice. Protogen was tasked with investigating and discovered that Phoebe is not a moon but evidence of a galactic biosphere: it is an alien weapon sent towards Earth 2 ⅓ billion years ago, which never made it because of orbital mechanics. Protogen has discovered that this weapon is not alive per se; rather, it is something they’ve termed the “protomolecule” which has the ability to maintain structure while replicating other systems and manipulating them at scalable rates. Of course, they alerted the proper authorities and made sure… just kidding, they’ve secretly been doing tests. The sociopath believes that whoever controls the protomolecule will gain control of all political and economic power going forward. Chillingly, the sociopath urges them to pursue large-scale testing to understand the protomolecule and its human applications. That large-scale testing is Eros.
TL;DR - Julie found evidence that Protogen (her dad’s company) has discovered an alien weapon, branded it the “protomolecule”, and secretly tested it on the people of Eros (and probably other smaller tests). The entire war has just been a distraction.
Chapter 35 - Holden: Naomi explains that most of the messages on the comm logs have been coded, but the last one is in plain text: the captain informed Thoth Station that the ship was contaminated, everyone was about to die, and the “materials” had been secured. He also planned to send vector data so they could find the ship. The Roci crew put two and alien-symbol-for-two together: they figure out that the captain has locked protomolecule samples in his safe. They also decide that the tightbeam messages were being sent to a secret research station Protogen was using to monitor the Eros experiment. Even though the fact “Naomi is the best” is a proven concept on par with “space is cold”, she is NOT able to open the captain’s safe, so they decide to cut it out of the wall and bring it with them on the Roci. They also scuttle the ship so no one can a) recover the stealth technology and alien weapons, or b) get exposed to the protomolecule-human soup inside. (Amos would have preferred to hack the frozen dead body goo off the reactor with a chainsaw and salvage such an impressive and expensive ship, which is… another way to go.)
It’s clear that someone else with stealth tech is searching actively for this ship, but the Roci won’t see them coming so they decide to get the hell out of Dodge. Naomi jokes that their options include turning the safe over to the OPA (they’d be heroes), selling out to Mars (they’d be rich), or starting their own biotech firm (just kidding, that’s evil). When Miller checks in with Holden about a decision on where to go next, he drops a figurative bomb on him regarding actual bombs in the news. Since Holden did his best Edward Snowden impersonation and leaked the data that the mystery ships are from Earth, Mars asked a few too many questions and in response, Earth has blown up a whole bunch of Martian ships and destroyed the Deimos deep radar station. Miller ruefully gives Holden credit for sticking to his guns about his belief in “free information”. He also points out that Holden’s principles make him responsible for all those deaths and the destruction of the Earth-Mars Coalition… and possibly the universe as they know it.
Chapter 36 - Miller: The war between Mars and the Belt seems like no big deal now that Earth and Mars are fighting. Miller watches the news feeds as the conflict turns into a blockade, and he realizes he is steeling himself for an announcement of a planetary attack on Earth or Mars, but it never comes. He and Amos deal with the stress by having beer for breakfast.
Miller meets up with Holden in the med bay for their routine blood flushes and cancer treatments, and they reopen their debate about what to do with the data files and who is to blame for the war(s).

• Holden’s position: Broadcast everything to everyone! (I know, I know, so out of character, right?) People will understand that they’ve been set up and will turn their wrath on Protogen instead of each other. Also, these are ancient conflicts. The Belt has always hated Mars and the inner planets in general. Mars and Earth have always had animosities secretly brewing and they do military training for the inevitable showdown. Or as Miller puts it, “Not my powder keg; I just brought the match.”
• Miller’s position: Stop and consider what people will do if they hear an Earth company did this. Every other data leak has been used as an excuse to shoot at someone the other side doesn’t like. Also, people suck. They aren’t going to hold hands and sing Kumbaya just because Protogen is the bad guy. They’ll move on to shooting each other so they can be the ones to control the protomolecule. Or as Holden puts it, “Maybe Protogen is a little right. People are too dumb to be trusted with big information so we should keep hard, scary stuff a big secret. That’ll totally work out.”

Holden’s idealism starts to fade as he takes in Miller’s hard truths about humanity. To be fair, Miller loses a little idealism over his perceptions of the inner planets’ relationship which, to the Belt, seemed stable and friendly enough (and united against them). Miller encourages Holden to use Naomi’s judgment as a measuring stick for whether something is right (similar to how he uses illusion-Julie as his conscience and sounding board) and then he goes back to the news feeds to watch Ceres slowly collapse into chaos. Holden decides the only person and place he trusts - or at least doesn’t completely distrust - is Fred Johnson on Tycho Station, so they head there. Holden also wonders why they don’t just destroy the safe and make sure everyone stays away from Eros and Phoebe; Miller admits it’s because the protomolecule might just be the holy grail.
Chapter 37 - Holden: The crew of the Roci is taking a break from doom scrolling to cook fake space lasagna for dinner and bond over the food and conversation. As Holden watches the crew laugh at Amos’s belches and Miller’s wild story about cheese smuggling, he reflects that they represent all three prongs of the conflict: Naomi and Miller are Belters, Amos and he are from Earth, and Alex is from Mars. Yet they’re friends, and Holden knows this is what they have to fight for. The cheese smuggling makes no sense to Amos (why cheese and not drugs?), and Naomi points out that this illustrates how little people from the inner planets understand Belters. Earthers have free air and easy access to resources, while Belters know everything that sustains life is rare and their access to it is fragile. And this is why Protogen didn’t blink an eye before killing 1.5 million Belters on Eros: they’re “other”. Then Alex points out that this doesn’t make sense; it's a risky and unnecessarily complicated way to kill people just to satisfy prejudices. It becomes clear that Eros isn’t a hate crime, it’s a vacuum-sealed test tube to let the protomolecule learn how to do its job better by giving it access to a huge amount of biomass. The early transformations looked incomplete, as if it didn’t know how to work with human flesh yet, so Protogen was giving it a chance to train. Holden wants to know where they would even find enough people who would support an evil operation like this, and Miller promises to ask Dresden (the Protogen board member mentioned in the video) when they meet him. Something tells me that conversation won’t go well.
As the Roci approaches Tycho station, Holden and Miller take in the view of the Nauvoo, the partially constructed Mormon generation ship. When Miller says the Mormans may be in for a long and lonely death if they don’t find a habitable planet, Holden notes that this is the good kind of galactic exploration humans can accomplish (the protomolecule being the bad kind). Miller then asks Holden why he trusts Fred, and Holden explains that in addition to being the only person who hasn’t tried to jail them or blow them up since all this began, Fred is “real OPA”: he’s a politician and not part of the war-mongering factions who think they can survive indefinitely without the inner planets. When Miller points out that there isn’t a political solution to Protogen, Holden insists Fred has other skills, too. Later, Fred reads through all the information on the protomolecule and is incredulous that anyone could think to do this. Miller assures him that genocide is an old-school crime and it’s important that they stop it. Holden offers up the location of the observation station in exchange for enough OPA fighters to take down Protogen, and the right to retain custody of the safe and its contents. Fred agrees only after Holden points out that no one else can be trusted to do the right thing with a secret this big. Plus, he says Fred already knows what Holden will do with it.
Chapter 38 - Miller: It feels strange to Miller to explore the wide open spaces of Tycho Station, the fanciest place he has ever set foot on. He notices Naomi working on her hand terminal and letting her food get cold; she is too preoccupied with trying to figure out the location of the station to enjoy the amenities. As they talk, Miller is reminded of Havelock’s advice to just let go when he got pulled off a case, which jogs his memory that Havelock actually works for Protogen! (I’m surprised he didn’t get there faster; maybe everyone had a point that he was sort of a washed up detective.) He rushes off to make contact with his old buddy - probably his last real partner ever - in an encrypted drop site of a Ganymede server cluster. As he waits for a response, Miller is amused to realize he has started thinking like Holden: he feels like someone should warn the Mormans that they could potentially run into the alien creators of the protomolecule who may want to kill them. Havelock comes through, passing along the coordinates to a “very scary deep research and development lab” and asking Miller to be discreet never contact him again so he doesn’t get killed for betraying his employer. Miller sends him an encrypted warning to quit his job ASAP and not take postings at any black ops sites, before saying goodbye for the last time to the only person that still respected him as a cop. (I may or may not be sniffling a bit at this.)
Miller rounds up Naomi and Holden so they can bring Fred the coordinates. In Fred’s office, Miller starts lecturing him about the serious nature of the mission and the need to have a solid plan with adequate firepower, not the usual OPA shenanigans. Everyone’s a little confused until they realize that Miller doesn’t know that Fred is “the butcher of Anderson Station” and a former Colonel in the Earth Navy. Fred assures Miller he’s no amateur and will plan ahead. Miller then insists that he get to come along for the assault on Thoth Station. Eight days later, the plan is set in motion and Miller begins packing his meager belongings into a very small bag, figuring he’ll never see the Roci again. Even if he makes it off Thoth alive, he’ll have to figure out a way to make money and improvise a life plan of some sort. He tries to thank Holden and say goodbye, but the Roci’s captain interrupts Miller to ask where they’ll all meet up after the mission is complete. Miller is confused at first, then overcome with emotion when he realizes Holden considers Miller part of the crew! I’m not crying, you’re crying. Actually, it’s Miller who is weeping. But he pulls himself together so he can head to the assault ship.
Chapter 39 - Holden: The Rocinante needs to sneak up on Thoth Station, so they are pretending to be a loose cargo container that broke off the Guy Molinari (the Belter ship carrying the assault team, which is pretending to be a cargo ship). They fly with everything shut down so that it’s more convincing, hoping they can get close enough to the station to do some damage before Thoth starts firing back. As they approach and are able to reboot everything needed for battle, a stealth ship is spied hanging out near Thoth Station. Then, suddenly it becomes clear that there are two small stealth ships, which will be much harder to fight off. Everyone does their jobs efficiently on the Roci, but in the ensuing battle with the stealth ships, they start to take some damage. First, the Roci is hit by a gauss cannon that goes straight through the machine shop and galley. Holden mourns his coffee maker. Amos notices a leak in the maneuvering thrusters and heads to fix it between the inner and outer hulls, which isn’t an ideal place to be floating around during a battle. This stresses Naomi out, but Holden orders everyone to stay focused. They are able to take out one of the stealth ships, but the other gets close enough to do some impressive damage to the Roci. There is major hull damage as well as loss of four maneuvering thrusters, a PDC, their O2 storage, and the crew airlock. Alex is about to destroy the second stealth ship when the Roci’s point defense cannons (PDCs) detonate an enemy warhead up close. It knocks everyone out, punches holes throughout the Roci (narrowly missing Naomi), dislodges equipment, and fills the ship with debris. Holden marvels that they are alive at all, and Alex points out that is only because the ship’s anti-spalling webbing eliminates shrapnel. They make contact with Fred, who says he’ll find them a place to land, and the Guy Molinari prepares for the assault on Thoth Station. It’s Miller’s turn to shine!
Chapter 40 - Miller: On the Guy Molinari, Miller is talking to a Belter kid named Diogo as they wait for the assault to start. Miller realizes that while he has fancy Martian armor from the Roci and experience with gunfights in station corridors, he is surrounded by inexperienced young Belters with borrowed gear, and he will likely have to watch dozens of them die during the battle. But Diogo isn’t worried; he is confident and eager to get started. Fred announces that they are ready to start boarding since the Roci gave them the “all clear”, and Miller is happy to hear his friends have survived. The assault on the station starts off rough, with Protogen soldiers fighting them in the corridors and automatic defense lasers taking out some of the Belters in the first wave. But Fred knows how to command his OPA “troops” and keep them in line, and things start to go more smoothly as they slow down and maneuver carefully. Miller and Diogo are part of a group taking shelter at Fred’s direction and fending off Protogen counterattacks, and they start to talk during a lull. When two Protogen soldiers sneak up on them from behind, Diogo is hit and Miller chastises himself for chatting during a battle and not staying alert. He thinks Diogo is dead, but he pops up laughing and streaked with white goo from crowd suppression rounds, which Miller finds an odd choice of weapon. It’s the first sign that Thoth Station may not totally understand what’s happening. The OPA soldiers cut their way through the blast doors to get to the operations center, where they find Dresden (the dude mentioned in the sociopath’s Protogen video). Fred arrives to take command of the station, and Dresden offers to negotiate, clearly misunderstanding the reason for the assault. He offers to give the OPA whatever resources they need to go back to fighting their war (money, medical supplies, weapons, ordnance) if they’ll just leave and let the station get back to their very important work. Fred points out that they know about Eros, but Dresden insists no one knows what they did there, and there won’t be a better bargaining position for Fred when Earth sends its battleships. Fred basically calls Dresden Satan, but Dresden doesn’t understand the reference.

Trigger warning: Sensitive topic matters
Please don't be too mean. 😅 This is already kinda awkward for me. I'll do my best to explain things...
I have an awkward problem I have been trying to get passed, not sure if I should get passed.
I meet this guy at the begining of the year through OLD. When we went to talk, I noticed the cadence of his voice was similar to that of my younger brother. Not really the same tone, but choice of inflections, sometimes word processing, etc.
It was very distracting initially, and I kept getting very turned off and bothered by it, but then I sort of thought to myself, I am blowing it out of proportion, and it's not that similar. At first things didn't work out, so I was relieved I didn't have to worry myself about that.
Well, we ended up reconnecting and somehow getting more serious. And I kind of told myself I would all-in-all give him a fair shot, but sometimes this thought pops up and bothers me.
For the most part, he is a really nice and handsome guy. He doesn't look like my brothet, lmao. Very different actually.
He does have some persistent anxiety issues, though. He at times kind of holds things inside of himself, which is actually something my brother does somewhat similary, and makes me appreciate that challenge for him. Due to that, I think maybe they share a small feature of the same mental health issues which may explain the silent nature, the candence, and approach to speech. Though, I saw him play the same kind of music to his students my brother would and brain instantly went 😬.
Other than that, they are very different personalities. For the most part. He is much more reserved. Much more of a nerd than him. He's more like me than my brother. And of course my brother is sligghtly like me, but not by a lot.
I also called to check-in on my brother after he had his first time hard partying in college and I wanted to make sure he ended up safe. He happened to be driving me home when I got a chance to and I was so relieved to notice their voices really don't sound similar, just certain aspects of the cadence and thought processes.
I have considered bring this up with my therapist, but don't want to make it more weird than it is. 😅 For some additional info, I am an incest survivor - not w/ my brother - and am very prorective of him. So, I am not sure what to think, if I am being fair, too relaxed, or overracting. I honestly think in most ways, my brother will not be able to relate to him at all, but it also might be nice to have a older role model around a little more approachable due to similarities in difficulty expressing themselves.
It might not work out because of his anxiety. He has some avoidance tendencies. But overal we both feel cared for and are giving things a shot to see if we choose to form a relationship after 3-4 months now of taking things slow and dating.
Now, I did date someone with the same name as my brother once. He has an unfortunately common name. Yes, it did give me the heebie jeebies. Yes, I forced myself to get over it and it wasn't even worth it. I refuse anyone with the name now because I just will not do that again. But Idk, if this is all an additional, offense in people's minds.
Just trying to field some honest responses and get some advice. I have really been questioning if I should even allow myself to mention the thought outloud or to anyone. 😂 To him?
TL;DR: Please read it, damn it. Every bit is necessary. But dating someone with slight unexpected similarities to my brother and don't know if I should, or fully get over it.

My grief has been very painful, and my husband's family has been downright unbelievable, irrational and disgusting from the day he passed. They were no support, didn't help with the funeral and was counting assets while I was spinning out of control. He was not even buried yet.
They called his friends trying to find out our personal and financial business. I can't explain how much of an embarassment these people are. They even called me and told me how certain family members didn't even know we were married. Please keep in mind that the family members she named haven't seen each other in almost 20 years and they are brothers and sisters!
I was advised about a crush that a woman had on him. The same woman he spoke at his funeral as a friend. His cousin tells me that the woman didn't know about me (which is far from the truth). These are the cousins who my husband grew up with and didn't even come to his funeral. The woman is married and got married after meeting my husband, so the entire story makes no sense. There are more details but they are too miniscule to repeat and again doesn't make any sense.They conjugated with her and continued to harass me and question his friends. I recently moved into a second property my husband owned, within two weeks of being there I saw this "woman" and a troublemaking family member creeping by the house! Weird af.
To make matters worse, my husband's mother passed away and I was advised long after the funeral. I was lost because they had not been there for her in almost a decade. She was a little sick, but not near death sick but after his passing they immediately put her in hospice care and watched her die. They allowed her to deny any medical help. She had just got out of rehab and was doing great right before my husband passed. His mother passed months after he did, this was hard on me.
His kids were no better, they ravished through our items at the mom's home and gave me zero opportunity to retrieve any of his or my things (mom home was like a storage for us). They did not help with any funeral expenses but wanted an inheritance. He has adult kids.
The audacity of them to disrespect my husband to the extent they did after his passing. They showed him no love, but showed a lot of hate instead. I've lost contact with all of them and pray to not hate them, but these are some of the most vile, heartless, insane, evil people I could ever encounter. My husband would not believe how terrible and dirt low his family is. NONE of this behavior was exposed prior to his death.
They have tried to destroy me, but it only makes me stronger. I only wished y husband was here to see this inhumane, crazy behavior.
Just when you think the grief is enough!

Hi guys! I promised myself that I would make a post if I passed. There are so many wonderful posts on this subreddit and my study methods were honestly horrible, but I hope that I can provide some hope for people with similar scores or laziness.
Background: Average student, very slow reader, pretty good memory sometimes, awful memory at other times, finished my rotations, finished EBM, 5 day dedicated.
Scores:
UWorld: 6x%, I’m sorry I forgot 😣, 22% completed.
NBME 29 (3/23, 3 weeks out) – 68
NBME 30 (3/31, 2 weeks out) - 67
New Free 120 (2024) (4/9, 3 days out) – 73
Step 1 (4/12) - Pass
Helpful Resource Summary:
**NBMES** Try to do all of them, I’m pretty certain I saw almost exact repeats. I’ve heard that there are offline ones but I only did 2 , and bought the online ones for both. If you have limited time, do 29-31, free 120 (2021), and free 120 (2024).
nbme high yield images (you’ll find it immediately after googling)
The 100 anatomy concepts pdf (I read about 20-30 pages, should have read the rest too). A quick google will bring this up as well!
UWorld: I personally think that going through it system wise for about half the questions in each system and then a couple of timed randoms would be more than enough. However, you can read the mess of what I actually did below.
Pathoma 1-3 (I only read 1-3 but all of it probably would have helped too!)
Dirty medicine (I used it for biochem!)
FA: A great reference book but don’t read it cover to cover! Use it as a reference. The rapid review section is pretty good as well.
Timeline (Story Time):
I started preparing for Step 1 by getting a 6-month UWorld subscription that was partially paid for by my school. In retrospect, I should have gotten the 3-month subscription or something because I activated it then didn’t use it at all for like 4 months.
I did about exactly 2% of UWorld in 4 months.. haha.
About 2 months out I started changing from doing random blocks to system blocks. I think this worked better for me because similar concepts were reinforced and studying felt less overwhelming. I am a very slow reader because I read the full answer obsessively even for questions I got right. I tried to fix this later on by reading only the educational objective for the ones I got right, and reading only the highlights in the main explanation and trying to skim the incorrect options. I then skip the educational objective because it is covered in the answer I just pretty much read entirely.
1 month out I had only finished all of psychiatry (I have weird priorities), half of cardiology and a little bit of renal. I took 1 block of the UWSA2 and got a 47% 😨. I almost fainted and immediately closed the rest of the exam and came to reddit to read about UWSA 2. I read about someone who got a 50% on UWSA2 and passed, and the general consensus that UWSA is not predictive anymore.
*Tip: Get the UWorld without self-assessments and spend money on online nbmes instead. UWSAs are not very similar to the exam and should only be done if you’ve done everything else or have no access to other self-assessments.
After hopping on reddit, I regained some confidence, and tried to do about 2 UWorld blocks per day by system. What I actually managed was about 1 to 1.5 blocks per day. I worked through mostly renal and gastrointestinal systems, which were systems that I was weak in according to previous random blocks and the 1 block of UWSA 2 that I did.
3 weeks out:
I did my first NBME and scored a 68%. I was relieved! I think the score difference was mostly due to uwsa2 being too hard. I tried to do more UWorld blocks but ultimately gave up on UWorld because I was taking a lot of time with reviewing nbme questions and content review. I used FA and dirty medicine (for biochemistry) to do content review on topics related to questions I encountered on the nbmes and random stuff that I felt like I should know.
2 weeks out: I took NBME 30 (67%) and my scored dropped from 29 which was discouraging but still a pretty good score. I kept reviewing all my nbme questions, reading literally the WHOLE explanation and reviewing topics from FA. Around this time, I started panicking, realizing that I‘m probably not going to get to do nbme 31 and I badly wanted to reschedule. However, rescheduling at this time would be really expensive (mostly this reason) and also mess up my schedule for other things.
5 days out:
I started my dedicated, which started with continuing to review nbme 30 and reviewing topics. I also read about 20-30 pages of the 100 anatomy concepts pdf.
3 days out:
I took the free120 (73%). I reviewed answers from the free120 along with FA and dirty med videos. I did not have time to do free120 2021 so I studied the answers. (I managed to finish about 30%?, I really regret this, at least go over all the answers for both free 120s and nbmes 29-31).
1 day out:
I studied intensely on my last day. I read pathoma 1-3 and watched a few of the videos (for the first time). I also read about half of FA rapid review in a panic. I then tried to read nbme highyield images but only finished about 30%. However, I went to sleep at about midnight and had a decent night’s sleep, which I think is important.
Test day:
Plan when you’ll take your breaks ahead of time. Read the tutorial and understand it completely when you do the free120 then skip it on the real day.
I had a small breakfast and did not pack any snacks only water for the real thing because I’m usually not hungry during tests.
I did 3 blocks one after the other to get a lot done while you still have energy then I took a bathroom break. I did another block then had lunch. During lunch, I looked through some more nbme high yield images and a bunch of questions that appeared on previous blocks. After lunch I did 2 blocks together -> bathroom -> last block.
I felt like I was guessing a lot. I tried to mark my guesses but it became too discouraging so I didn’t mark them anymore.
**Tips: Take a bathroom break, even if you don’t think you need it. You are smarter when your bladder is empty. Time was a problem for me even though it wasn’t during practice tests. I’m pretty sure this is because I stressed over unimportant information from anxiety. I finished some blocks with 30 seconds left and had to rapidly answer some of the last questions. Thank god I didn’t have to do any blind guesses. In later blocks, I told myself to be focused but remember that you don’t have a lot of time. Especially for audio questions, don’t let yourself sit there listening to it for 5 minutes.
After the exam I didn’t feel particularly good or bad. I felt like I passed deep down despite the abysmal amount of guesses.
Waiting for results:
I was part of the group that had to wait for a month. Scrolling on reddit had me convinced I failed because of all the passing scores with a fail posts that were showing up then. Thankfully, I was distracted by school for the last 2 weeks. I repeat what others have said, DON’T scroll reddit while you are waiting for results.
Results:
I passed!😍
I received my results and was so relieved that the awful wait was finally over! To be honest, some time over the past 2 weeks I had convinced myself that I would probably pass again so I was relieved but not really overjoyed, haha.
Unpopular Opinion:
The wait was really stressful especially because I realized a 196 is closer to a 65%? I see posts that are most likely real from people scoring about 60-63% who failed by an extremely small margin. Even after my pass, I encourage you to wait until you are scoring over at least 65% before you take your exam if you are not extremely pressed for time. However, if you really don’t have any options, know that it is definitely possible to pass with a score in the low 60s and to go for it! I hope you all pass and can continue enjoying your life as soon as possible! ✨✨ Feel free to ask me anything. :)

“soon we will show them our signs in the (farthest) regions (of the earth), and in their own souls, until it becomes manifest to them that this is the truth. is it not enough that thy lord doth witness all things?”
Is from Surah Fussilit 41:53
Some people claim that it was already foreseen that islam would expand over earth. But was it not written during 613-615 AD that this Surah revealed when islam under Mohammed already was expanding his religion by the Sword?
I am myself bit lost on this question since I have no knowledge surrounding the islamic conquest in the times of Mohammed and when these so called revelations were starting to play a role in the politics of that time.
Could somehow the prophecies be based upon their progressive expansion and their utopian vision? Or how should I see the claims that point towards signs see in context?
I asking the academical insight on this it is not a faith based question.

I don't know if this is a thing, but I've read somewhere that when you leave the place you've been abused suddenly everything in your brain like starts unfolding to say it in a way?
From the example I've saw, some have had "flashbacks", nightmares, traumatic memories that your mind was hiding suddenly appear, you feel very worse mentally and physically (forgot the specifics on those) and don't know what else. I would like to know of what else can happen, I guess to not get caught by surprise? And would love to know what good things can also happen in oneself.
Flashbacks are a foreign concept to me, I don't understand how it works. I just imagine them very movie like, seeing clearly images of the traumatic events flashing through your eyes as if it were a video, you stay frozen in place unable to move.. probably it's not like that, idk why the hell did I come with something like that tbh, I tried to search on the internet on psychology trustful resources or reading actual people's experiences but couldn't process the info of it.
Nightmares... hmmm, I remember have a particular one but it didn't related to what I was going through, and it was when I was a kid. I don't know what a nightmare is, it sounds strange but it's the truth. Why? Because the 'me' in my dreams is mostly always, apathetic? The expression in the face I mean, and also I'm emotionless. Although there are sometimes I'm the total opposite. But I have the feeling it's always the first option, like I could see something awful and be like a robot standing there not reacting to it? I don't know, I believe that nightmares are scary, and you wake up breathing hard, I always portray them like that.. for some reason.
I'm not mentally well obviously, most of the time I feel numb, like I'm just pacing on life without a purpose, it's like I'm on autopilot and can't tell my emotions so idk I imagine that once I'm out of here, I'll show more expression and cry more, I actually want to show more emotions, I don't like being like a weird empty person because of my depression or whatever the heck I have (or maybe its because I'm autistic?) I do show/feel other emotions or feelings, so it's not always like that. Physically I'm not sure if I have it too bad, no idea, I'm not necessarily a healthy person, I guess the only thing I'm aware off are my sleep problems and lack of energy?
I think this is important to know, because how bad the recovery can be depends on how abused you were, right? I would say medium-high bad? I'm not sure since I gaslight myself a lot, can't tell if I'm crazy or if everything was THAT bad sometimes. I've been mostly psychologically abused since a young age, sometimes been physically, but it wasn't too bad or constant (I think so?) I can't quite remember much about my childhood, teenage years and even adult years? It's not like I'm amnesiac, I know important information about myself. Just parts and bits here and there, I remember some specific bad memories, some good too. Not so long ago I randomly got a very disturbing memory I had long forgotten when I was a child, "luckily" it cuts at the worst part. Whenever I try to remember only that bit I have(don't want to accidentally unlock all of it, no thanks) I space out? I start to talk more slowly, and my head bows down a little by itself, looking down at the floor, staring at nothing, and I can't quite grasp the emotion or feel it, but I think I'm uncomfortable/uneasy, the more I push it, think about it, even worse , visualize it, or dare to recreate what could have happened next, I break down in tears and be upset.. so I try not do that.. And there's a chance that it has affected me in some aspects of my life, for example, I noticed in some things of my behavior that are related to that topic.
Nowadays i do get bothered by other people now and in different ways, i guess you could say I'm not as emotionally punched as before, and not as bad, but sure it's still not gone of my life. There's more but eh idk its too much to add and don't feel comfy enough? Im kinda worried that there's more things I've forgotten or that I'll eventually get the rest of that fragment, making me struggle badly in my daily life. I don't have too much hope that I can afford to find a therapist soon enough.. It worries me It'll take me centuries to get better, I've seen people say it took them years and still haven't improved that much.. So what can I expect?

TL;DR: So me (21F) and him (24M) have broken up back in April. He was the one who initiated the breakup. I found out that I was pregnant the first week of April, it was tough for the both of us since we haven’t been together for that long.
Anyway, the day he met my mother was the day he broke up with me. He wasn’t clear about the reason why only until last night. Going back to April, he told me he needed his space to figure out what he wants to do in regard to us and wished for me to remain exclusive to him until then.
I was still pregnant and navigating this became almost debilitating. My mental health was at an all time low and there wasn’t anything that I could do about it. Eventually he did come back, but he had the conversation through text. Which resulted in him staying solid in his choices to end things. He was telling me that I was attacking him after he asked me how I wanted to be treated in the relationship.
I was still pregnant and he said that he would be there to offer support when I get the abortion. 2 days after my procedure, we went no contact because we argued about his lack of empathy. Before we stopped talking he told me "listen, I will never be with you, I will never want to get back with you" and that stung like hell.
Anyway for some reason I ended up reaching out a few days later trying to talk things out. Just letting everyone know, I tend to do this often. But we began talking about the relationship and he began to dismiss me, and made it his mission to misunderstand everything I said while also undermining me about the way I dress and my platonic relationships I have with 2 of my guy friends I’ve known for years.
Fast forward to today, I found out that my abortion failed, the pregnancy is still viable. So as of right now I’m doing terrible mentally but I updated him about the situation and he seemed open and understanding. As we spoke about the situation it turned into a "why the relationship ended" kind of situation and he told me that he felt like he wasn’t the right fit for me and my guy friends are too much of a factor to be with me. May I add that he told me earlier this month that if we were to ever get back together, I would need to cut one of them off and I can only have a 5 minute conversation to end things before I never speak to him again.
Anyway during the conversation last night, he kept calling me weird, my choices of clothes were outrageous, me showing my gym progression was for male validation. Simply just putting me down and I couldn’t get a single word in. Again it felt as though he was purposely misunderstanding me to fit his idea of how things should be. Once the conversation didn’t go his way, he completely shut me down and ghosted me. It’s been well over 12 hours now, I tried calling to which I didn’t get an answer.
Now I’m stuck feeling like everything is my fault all over again. This is the exact same situation that happened a month ago. I’m stuck worrying about how he feels and putting my feelings aside.
I feel gaslit on many points as he would say things that made me question my word and what happened during the relationship. He told me that he has reflected on what he needed to work on but I have such a hard time believing that, because of how he’s been behaving during our conversation.
I’m not sure if I should try reaching out today, my appointment at the clinic is on Tuesday and he told me that he was going to pick me up but now he isn’t answering. The nurse had told me that I needed someone to bring me home as I would be in a very delicate state post-op.
I know I left out a lot of details but it would be absolutely too long. What I’ve grown to realize about him is that it’s his way or no way, once things are challenged he’s out. I compromised do much for him and he told me word for word that I still wasn’t enough, even though he didn’t say it explicitly. Based on what he’s said to me, he sees me as someone who doesn’t respect herself.
He told me that he seeks perfection and that’s also why things had to end. It seemed as though it was easier for him to point out my flaws rather than him admitting to where he actually went wrong.
All I want to know is if I’m being emotionally and mentally manipulated/abused? And it would really be appreciated to hear it from a guy’s perspective as well, I’m open to criticism and I can always elaborate for more context if needed, thank you.

Hello since a week ago I have had an increase of ping in all the servers for Valorant and I wanted to know if anyone else has experienced this issue too.
I used to have 30-35ping to servers like Frankfurt and now they are on the 49-50s range with a very static ping. Also my closest server was 17 ping (Madrid) and now it's around 34 ping (pretty much doubled when I live in the same country). I did speed tests, resetted DNS/IP/winsck, etc and configurations, called my ISP, reinstalled Valorant and Riot Vanguard and checked other games like Counter Strike 2. I am also using Google DNS just in case. But still no luck.
In Counter Strike 2 my ping is similar to my old Valorant ping to the same countries and it does not seem to have spiked at all. Also, on other MMO games (still the same, around 30 to Frankfurt/Germany servers or a bit lower to NL servers). I also tried to ping the old Valorant server IPs available and I get my old ping there, however when I open Valorant they are +15-20 higher ping in-game and on lobby.
Valorant support has still not replied after I sent them my logs for a long time so opening a thread here.
IMPORTANT INFO: I also did a Tracert to 162.249.72.1 (Provided by Riot) and after 10.253.48.1 I get 3 "*" symbols on all the jumps. When I try to ping 162.249.72.1 I get 4 packets lost and 0 given. Which is very weird
Questions:

• Did Riot move the servers as they did with League years ago?
• Did the routing for Valorant change? Could it be an issue with the ports? How do I check this?

I'm not sure where to post this, but i need some opinions/validation/advice/whatever i just want to fix this and make my wife happy. This might jump all over, and I'm sorry but bear with me. I'm also going to attempt to describe the whole situation, but if theres questions i will be happy to answer.
I'll start by saying I(37m) have a high sex drive, and my wife(34f) has a low sex drive. I want/need an orgasm daily whether that be from sex or masturbating. I have been married for 16 years and always been faithful to my wife, and she has always been faithful to me, as far as I know and I have no reason to believe otherwise. To me, the orgasm that I need doesn't have to come from intercourse and i would never cheat on my wife. I'm attracted to her and the emotional connection is what fuels my desire for sex with her. Basically, what I'm saying is that I don't want to have sex with anyone else. I dont sleep well if I haven't had an orgasm, and i lie there in bed feeling bored and frustrated until I fall asleep and I dont feel rested when I wake up in the morning.
There's been some things lately that I'm uncomfortable with, and I don't really know how to describe how it makes me feel, but I'm going to try.
First, I'm a pleaser and my kink is making her cum. I try to be very self aware and i hear complaints about men who get in, bust, and get out leaving their partner unsatisfied and frustrated. I always initiate with foreplay, then i go down on her so she has an orgasm, then we have sex. I tried to have a conversation with her about her wants and i shared mine, and it seems like we both want the same thing. I want to be told what to do, I want to know what she wants me to do to her. I'm not a mind reader and she knows her body better than I ever could. She said she wants to be submissive and not make decisions because she makes decisions all day and doesn't want to in the bedroom. I get it, because that's how i feel as well.
When we have sex she always covers her face with a pillow, I'm not sure why. I've asked her and she says she doesn't know. When i ask her what she wants me to do to her, she shrugs or says I dont know. The only thing ive gotten out of her after years of basically begging her to tell me what she likes or wants is "the only thing off limits is any butt stuff". Got it. I'm not really the type that wants to do anal anyway, it's just not my bag. So it seems like we're compatible, i think. I mean, i dont have a need that's off limits to her, and she doesn't have a need that's off limits to me.
In the past my communication has been has been an issue, and I am aware of my flaws. I suffered an injury that caused sensorineural hearing loss. This has caused me to have a real hard time controlling my tone. Not my volume, but the tone in which I say things so sometimes things sound like I'm being sarcastic or rude when I'm not trying to be. I decided to see a therapist to learn some techniques to better communicate. I've been trying, but it it's not perfect. And hearing aids aren't an option because it doesn't matter how loud the sounds are, there are just some frequencies my brain cant interpret. Certain sounds just sound like im under water, or like im holding cups over my ears.
I told my wife about going to therapy for this and the response was "I've been with you for 13 years since the injury, I know you cant control your tone and I've learned to just listen to what words are said and not how they are said". That's great, but what about every other conversation I have in life? I want to learn skills to better communicate with everyone, because no one will know just by looking at me that I'm not trying to be a dick when I have a "snappy" tone.
During my therapy sessions we have uncovered other traumas that i want to address that have lead to trust issues that I have. And my trust issues are backwards from most peoples. When i was young, i was accused of lying all the time, even when I was being honest. I remember how this made me feel so I always try to trust people more than I probably should. So I've been going to therapy for about six months now.
Last week, my wife asks "are you cheating on me?" I was kind of shocked by this because, 1. I'm not and 2. I'm not sure what behaviors I've displayed to make her question my fidelity. I tell her no, and ask why she would think that. She tells me it's because I'm in therapy, and working on myself. I have referred to my therapy appointments as "going to the gym for my mind". She tells me that I'm perfect for her the way I am and the men that she knows that go to therapy without obvious flaws are either cheating or considering cheating or have some sort of guilt they're dealing with. I can see my therapists notes on the app, i have nothing to hide, so i downloaded them and showed them to her. I'm not sure if she read them, but i made them available to her if she wanted to read them. I know i didn't have to, but maybe this is because i was always accused of being deceptive by my parents and i could prove that i wasnt in this case so i took the opportunity to do that.
I'll add that she grew up in a dysfunctional household and was physically, emotionally, and sexually abused by a close relative for many years. The other day she was complaining about a work colleague and their sexual promiscuity and infidelity. Her colleague was sexually abused when she was younger, and my wife says "abuse victims typically become hyper sexual or have little interest in sex at all. Very few have 'normal' sex lives like me".
Anyway, back to the bedroom parts. Like i said, I need to have an orgasm every day to sleep well, and to feel clear minded. Somehow it came up that I don't feel desired by her because she has never initiated sex. She says "I do too initiate sex, I know I've done it at least once." I told her "no you havent, I would remember it and it would probably be a life changing moment for me to feel desired". I try to initiate that night with her, and she turns me down so I decide to masturbate. I'm not going to the couch because I have kids that could walk in, and I'm tired of doing it on the toilet because it just feels weird to me. Plus, our bathroom is huge with the sliding barn doors so it's not really private anyway. I don't watch porn, i masturbate to thoughts about her. So, I thought to myself. If my wife wanted to have sex with me, and i turned her down, and she began masturbating, how would i feel? I think that would be hot, and perfectly acceptable. So I decide to do it in the bed. I'm not going hard and rattling the bedframe or anything, but she turns over and says "are you playing with yourself?" I brief moment passes where i try to decide if im going to lie, but i dont and say "yes" and she rolls over, climbs on top of me and rides me until i orgasm. A couple days later i try to initiate again, she turns me down, I do the same thing. I'm not doing it to pressure her into having sex, but I'm tired of doing it in the bathroom. This time she rolls over says "are you playing with yourself?" I say, yes and she gets fucking pissed. She tells me that she feels like it makes her feel like she's not loved. I tried to come up with something to say but all i could muster up was "I'm sorry" through the massive lump in my throat and the tears that were brewing in my eyes. I never wanted to make her feel that way, and i never want to do that again. How do i fix this?

I’m attempting reconciliation with WW. Confronted a few weeks ago when she was texting a number on WhatsApp - turned out to be the EAP from 15 years ago. They “only just got in touch a few weeks ago” , I saw the texts and nothing suggestive (but perhaps this was deleted, I didn’t realise you could look up deleted texts). But they were all sent when I was out of the house.
I did also find, on an old laptop, images from a seperate EA (at least) a few years back. She was surprised because she thought she had deleted all of that stuff.
She thinks because everything happened years ago and swears there was no physical hookup or videos it was just a fling. She acknowledges that I’m really hurt and she made a mistake. And I’m too upset / a fucking chump / love the kids / don’t like conflict to push further. So I think she feels it’s all fine now but I’m still emotionally wrecked because ofc it’s not the first time. She definitely lied and lied the first time around and I’m sure this is no different. We’re now in a love bombing / hyper emotional stage which is really fucking up my feelings.
To the question:
She has an old phone that she switched from a year or two ago.
I’m wondering if old texts might still be on that one so I can find “the truth”.
However if I recharge the old phone will it send notifications to her that “your account is being accessed by a new device”? I get these sometimes when I reactivate old devices of my own.
Any thoughts on this? Should I just ask her to unlock the phone? Not even sure of legality of all this.
Should I unlock it with wifi switched off?
It’s sitting in her bedside table so I can’t just take it.
(I also need to find the pin to this old phone so that’s the other dilemma)
I am already seeking IC to talk through my overall feelings as it’s a mess right now.

You got it wrong See I'm aware that your attempts to bully me while crying about how wrong it is would be par for the course with you and your 🐒 monkeys. You riled them up and sent them off to do your bidding... However they got shut down real quick, so they had to be heard they had to control the narrative here so they don't have to face the truth, the exposing yourself, nodding off, many hearing you using what pretty much sounds like drugs, the kids, the money they've spent no they can't wrap their tiny minds around that reality so they spend time passing out a name they got a name and oh boy now they can do what they can't cause you won't mod them on tik tok cause you really care less about half or more of them. Now they will use up time they'll never get back to dispute what's right in front of their eyes to avoid recognizing they've been and are being played.. Bravo monkeys at the attempt however you got the wrong person... I said what I said and stand by it, because unlike you emeshed people I believe my own eyes and ears despite what the narc tells you that you see an hear!! And again this is what Reddit is about, you would have had to come looking for information, it's not being posted in his 15 hour makeup sessions! If you don't want an answer!!! Don't ask a question!! As far as age and time on my hands what you haven't seen the crew in the boxes, most sound like 90yo 2 carton a day smokers, from these hills have eyes!! And really it's the pot calling the kettle here I'm for sure not on 24 7 but petty patty holds press conferences everytime he walks out the door with his selfie stick you got it just a bit twisted.. it's okay I know your all trying to figure out if what he's telling you to see is real, fighting your eyes an ears that you didn't see or hear what you saw an heard. I'll let it go this time... but be more careful next time I'm not worried about what this lot has to say... I do apologize to anyone that they tried.. it's really in the rules that Petty Patty's minions aren't allowed but being a brainwashed as they appear maybe he told them it meant go there and find out what you can!

In a world inundated with political agendas and organized belief systems, it becomes increasingly vital to navigate the murky waters of truth with clarity and integrity. As someone who believes in the power of higher ideals yet questions the influence of organized religion and political parties, I find solace in the pursuit of truth unbound by dogma.
It is no secret that ideologies, whether political or religious, often serve as divisive forces, shaping our perceptions and limiting our understanding of the world. Too often, individuals are confined within the narrow constraints of their chosen ideology, closing themselves off to alternative viewpoints and stifling meaningful discourse.
However, in acknowledging the limitations of ideological allegiance, we open ourselves to a broader spectrum of thought and discourse. Instead of blindly adhering to a set of beliefs, we must cultivate a spirit of inquiry, challenging assumptions and seeking understanding beyond the confines of our comfort zones.
In this pursuit of truth, we must recognize the inherent complexities of our world. Truth is not always black and white; it exists in shades of gray, requiring nuance and critical thinking to unravel its mysteries. It requires us to confront uncomfortable truths and grapple with the uncertainties that accompany them.
Moreover, the pursuit of truth extends beyond the realm of politics and organized religion. It encompasses all aspects of our lives, from personal relationships to professional endeavors. It requires us to question the status quo, to resist the allure of conformity, and to remain steadfast in our commitment to integrity and authenticity.
As we navigate the tumultuous seas of our modern world, let us remember the importance of embracing truth above all else. Let us cast aside the shackles of ideology and embrace the freedom that comes from thinking for ourselves. In doing so, we not only enrich our own lives but contribute to the collective pursuit of a more enlightened and compassionate society.
In conclusion, let us embrace the pursuit of truth with humility and courage, knowing that it is through our willingness to question, explore, and learn that we truly thrive as individuals and as a society.

EmbracingTruth #BeyondIdeology #CriticalThinking #SeekUnderstanding #QuestionAssumptions #Authenticity #PursuitOfTruth #Enlightenment #OpenMindedness #jmikepatt

And it got me thinking pretend there was some sort of weird promotion where if you find some MapQuest directions taped to your pizza with Del or Bailey's picture on them, it means you won the contest to be the next person to interview a perp on TCAP, HvP, or other
Now what questions would you ask?

I (16M) came out of rehab a few months ago and yesterday I came home from an NA meeting and 2 of my mom’s friends were there. I don’t really know them like my mom’s only been friends with them for like a month. They both said they were proud of me for staying clean (even though i’m literally not but whatever) and they were like asking a bunch of questions about like rehab and asking me why I took drugs. It was just weird. I told my mom before to stop telling people that I was in rehab because like I don’t want them to think i’m like my dad. Obviously I don’t expect her to keep it a secret from like close family but I just don’t get why she feels like she has to tell literally everyone. They probably all think i’m gonna turn out like my dad but they don’t get it and I just hate their pity. My mom agreed that she’d stop so after her friends had left I was pissed at her for telling people even though she promised she wouldn’t.
I told her that she promised she wouldn’t tell more people. She yelled at me and told me that I was overreacting and that it’s hard for her too. I tried to explain that I just hate the way people pity me and like they just treat me differently and it’s fucking annoyingg. My mom said that if I didn’t want her to tell people then I shouldn’t have gotten addicted and she said I was being selfish by not wanting her to have like support from other people. I don’t care about her talking to me to like a couple people because like i’m kind of a dick so like it makes sense that she’d like complain about me but I just don’t want her to talk about me to literally everyone. Like these people don’t know me and will never know me I hate it when they pretend like they do just because my moms told them some shit. But yeah idk if i’m the ass or not

hey lesbians y’all seem like you’d be able to answer my question. i JUST started dating my girlfriend… we’ve had a very domestic/romantic friendship for awhile but we didn’t confess our feelings until three weeks ago. I KNOW three weeks is too soon to say “i love you” ,,, but is it weird for me to say that i’ve fallen in love with her? is that saying the same thing or is that different?? please help <3

Prompt

Create a Platonic dialogue between an optimistic creative visionary (OCV), a pessimistic observant doomsayer (POD), an objective meticulous analyzer (OMA), a wise pragmatic planner (WPP), and God (G).
Question: "What is love? (Baby don't hurt me!)"

Output: Gemini Advanced

Scene: A round table discussion in a heavenly cloud-filled room.
Characters:

• OCV (Optimistic Creative Visionary): A radiant figure with sparkling eyes, overflowing with enthusiasm.
• POD (Pessimistic Observant Doomsayer): A dour figure, hunched over with arms crossed, muttering under their breath.
• OMA (Objective Meticulous Analyzer): A composed figure with a notepad, diligently taking notes.
• WPP (Wise Pragmatic Planner): A serene figure with a thoughtful expression, occasionally stroking their beard.
• G (God): A luminous being radiating warmth and light, a gentle smile on their face.

G: Welcome, dear friends. Today's question is a timeless one: What is love?
OCV: (Beaming) Love! It's the most beautiful, powerful force in the universe! It's the inspiration behind every creation, every act of kindness, every connection between souls. It's the spark of life itself!
POD: (Scoffs) Love? Please. It's nothing but a fleeting illusion, a biological trick to propagate the species. It leads to heartbreak, betrayal, and endless suffering.
OMA: (Clearing their throat) From a purely objective standpoint, love is a complex interplay of neurochemicals and hormonal responses. It's associated with increased dopamine, oxytocin, and vasopressin levels, resulting in feelings of pleasure, bonding, and attachment.
WPP: (Nods) While those physiological aspects are certainly relevant, love is also a choice, a commitment to nurture and cherish another being. It requires patience, understanding, and a willingness to compromise.
G: (Smiles) You all speak truths, but love is so much more than the sum of its parts. It's a mystery that transcends definitions and explanations.
OCV: (Eagerly) It's like a symphony of emotions, a kaleidoscope of experiences!
POD: (Mutters) More like a chaotic cacophony of pain and disappointment.
OMA: (Scribbling) An intriguing paradox, indeed. Love can both uplift and destroy, create and consume.
WPP: (Shrugs) That's why it's crucial to approach love with wisdom and discernment.
G: (Raises a hand) My children, remember that love is a gift, a divine spark within each of you. It is the essence of who I am.
OCV: (Clasps hands) It's the most precious gift of all!
POD: (Sighs) A gift that often comes with a hefty price tag.
OMA: (Nods) A gift that warrants further investigation and analysis.
WPP: (Smiles) A gift that deserves to be cherished and protected.
G: (Chuckles) Indeed. So, go forth and share this gift with the world. Let love guide your actions, inspire your creativity, and heal your wounds.
(The figures nod in unison, a sense of understanding and purpose dawning upon them.)
G: (Softly) And remember, baby don't hurt me... don't hurt me... no more.
(A faint echo of laughter fills the room as the figures disperse, leaving behind a lingering warmth.)

Output: ChatGPT-4o

Dialogue: What is Love? (Baby don't hurt me!)
OCV: Oh, what a splendid question! Love, my friends, is the essence of our existence. It is the driving force behind creativity and the very spark that ignites our passions. Love is the canvas upon which we paint our dreams and the melody to which our hearts dance.
POD: (sighs) You paint such a rosy picture, OCV, but let’s not ignore the shadows. Love, in its purest form, can bring immense pain and suffering. It can lead to heartache, betrayal, and the deepest of sorrows. Love is a double-edged sword.
OMA: Both of you present compelling views. If we examine love objectively, we find that it is a complex biochemical and psychological phenomenon. It involves a range of emotions, behaviors, and physiological responses. From a scientific perspective, love is the interplay of hormones like oxytocin and dopamine, influencing our mood and behavior.
WPP: Let’s balance these perspectives with a touch of pragmatism. Love is indeed multifaceted. It can be a powerful motivator, fostering connections and collaboration, but it also requires careful nurturing and realistic expectations. We must plan and manage our relationships to harness the positive aspects of love while mitigating the risks of hurt.
G: (smiling) Ah, love. It is a concept that transcends the mortal experience, yet it is intrinsic to it. Love is both the simplest and most profound of experiences. It is the thread that weaves the fabric of the universe, connecting all beings. Love is not just an emotion or a biochemical reaction; it is the very essence of creation and existence. It holds the potential for boundless joy and deep learning. Love, in its truest form, is unconditional and everlasting.
OCV: See, love is the light that guides us all!
POD: But remember, even light can cast shadows.
OMA: Therefore, love must be understood and approached with both heart and mind.
WPP: Precisely. We should embrace love's potential while being mindful of its complexities. Planning and wisdom can help us navigate its challenges.
G: Indeed, my children. Love is a journey, a lesson, and a gift. Cherish it, learn from it, and let it guide you toward your highest selves.
All: What is love? (Baby don't hurt me!)

Prompt

Create a Platonic dialogue between an optimistic creative visionary (OCV), a pessimistic observant doomsayer (POD), an objective meticulous analyzer (OMA), a wise pragmatic planner (WPP), and God (G).
Question: "What is love? (Baby don't hurt me!)"

Output: Gemini Advanced

Scene: A round table discussion in a heavenly cloud-filled room.
Characters:

• OCV (Optimistic Creative Visionary): A radiant figure with sparkling eyes, overflowing with enthusiasm.
• POD (Pessimistic Observant Doomsayer): A dour figure, hunched over with arms crossed, muttering under their breath.
• OMA (Objective Meticulous Analyzer): A composed figure with a notepad, diligently taking notes.
• WPP (Wise Pragmatic Planner): A serene figure with a thoughtful expression, occasionally stroking their beard.
• G (God): A luminous being radiating warmth and light, a gentle smile on their face.

G: Welcome, dear friends. Today's question is a timeless one: What is love?
OCV: (Beaming) Love! It's the most beautiful, powerful force in the universe! It's the inspiration behind every creation, every act of kindness, every connection between souls. It's the spark of life itself!
POD: (Scoffs) Love? Please. It's nothing but a fleeting illusion, a biological trick to propagate the species. It leads to heartbreak, betrayal, and endless suffering.
OMA: (Clearing their throat) From a purely objective standpoint, love is a complex interplay of neurochemicals and hormonal responses. It's associated with increased dopamine, oxytocin, and vasopressin levels, resulting in feelings of pleasure, bonding, and attachment.
WPP: (Nods) While those physiological aspects are certainly relevant, love is also a choice, a commitment to nurture and cherish another being. It requires patience, understanding, and a willingness to compromise.
G: (Smiles) You all speak truths, but love is so much more than the sum of its parts. It's a mystery that transcends definitions and explanations.
OCV: (Eagerly) It's like a symphony of emotions, a kaleidoscope of experiences!
POD: (Mutters) More like a chaotic cacophony of pain and disappointment.
OMA: (Scribbling) An intriguing paradox, indeed. Love can both uplift and destroy, create and consume.
WPP: (Shrugs) That's why it's crucial to approach love with wisdom and discernment.
G: (Raises a hand) My children, remember that love is a gift, a divine spark within each of you. It is the essence of who I am.
OCV: (Clasps hands) It's the most precious gift of all!
POD: (Sighs) A gift that often comes with a hefty price tag.
OMA: (Nods) A gift that warrants further investigation and analysis.
WPP: (Smiles) A gift that deserves to be cherished and protected.
G: (Chuckles) Indeed. So, go forth and share this gift with the world. Let love guide your actions, inspire your creativity, and heal your wounds.
(The figures nod in unison, a sense of understanding and purpose dawning upon them.)
G: (Softly) And remember, baby don't hurt me... don't hurt me... no more.
(A faint echo of laughter fills the room as the figures disperse, leaving behind a lingering warmth.)

Output: ChatGPT-4o

Dialogue: What is Love? (Baby don't hurt me!)
OCV: Oh, what a splendid question! Love, my friends, is the essence of our existence. It is the driving force behind creativity and the very spark that ignites our passions. Love is the canvas upon which we paint our dreams and the melody to which our hearts dance.
POD: (sighs) You paint such a rosy picture, OCV, but let’s not ignore the shadows. Love, in its purest form, can bring immense pain and suffering. It can lead to heartache, betrayal, and the deepest of sorrows. Love is a double-edged sword.
OMA: Both of you present compelling views. If we examine love objectively, we find that it is a complex biochemical and psychological phenomenon. It involves a range of emotions, behaviors, and physiological responses. From a scientific perspective, love is the interplay of hormones like oxytocin and dopamine, influencing our mood and behavior.
WPP: Let’s balance these perspectives with a touch of pragmatism. Love is indeed multifaceted. It can be a powerful motivator, fostering connections and collaboration, but it also requires careful nurturing and realistic expectations. We must plan and manage our relationships to harness the positive aspects of love while mitigating the risks of hurt.
G: (smiling) Ah, love. It is a concept that transcends the mortal experience, yet it is intrinsic to it. Love is both the simplest and most profound of experiences. It is the thread that weaves the fabric of the universe, connecting all beings. Love is not just an emotion or a biochemical reaction; it is the very essence of creation and existence. It holds the potential for boundless joy and deep learning. Love, in its truest form, is unconditional and everlasting.
OCV: See, love is the light that guides us all!
POD: But remember, even light can cast shadows.
OMA: Therefore, love must be understood and approached with both heart and mind.
WPP: Precisely. We should embrace love's potential while being mindful of its complexities. Planning and wisdom can help us navigate its challenges.
G: Indeed, my children. Love is a journey, a lesson, and a gift. Cherish it, learn from it, and let it guide you toward your highest selves.
All: What is love? (Baby don't hurt me!)

So I've been into these systems for three years now, but I've recently come to doubt my whole typology. I'm not going to say what I've been typed as before though, because I'd like to avoid bias. It'd be cool if you tried to type me in other systems as well, such as Enneagram, Socionics, Psychosophy/Attitudinal Psyche, Big 5, Temperaments, Jungian...

1. I'm a very closed off person who needs a lot of time to recharge since people wear me out, but I've been told I come across as a highly energetic, hardworking and overall as an inspiring and determined person. For instance, I always strive for the best, even if that means sacrificing my comfort (like going to one of the best universities in my country even if it's like over 100 km from home and I have to wake up at 5 AM everyday), and I'm always passionate about pursuing something to improve myself, because I'd hate to feel like I'm wasting time lazing around.
   
2. People see me as someone responsible to rely on, they have told me I'm a good listener and understand them well, I give honest advice while also taking into consideration their feelings and reactions (I don't want to come across as offensive and insensitive), and in general I like giving a good impression. I mean, I can't stand fake people, but I still feel it's important to portray yourself in a good light. I think you must treat others the same way you'd like to be treated, that is, with respect (but, of course, if they cross me, I'll act spiteful towards them, since that's what they deserve).
   
3. Despite trying to be reasonable at all times and doing my best not to come across as overly emotional, I'm very anxious and tend to catastrophize, so while it's not usual, when it happens, my outbursts are strong. Then, I feel like trash after it all happens, since I perceive it as me having made a fool of myself. My feelings tend to escalate quickly, and sometimes due to something that it's not THAT important, so it's helpful to have someone slow me down and help me see the big picture. I can also be too straightforward as well, to the point that I sometimes end up being reckless. For example, there has been multiple times where I suddenly felt the urge to insult someone because they did something that offended me; in those cases I fortunately had a friend to shut me up and distract me from it because they know I might not be able to wait until they're out of sight to complain about them.
   
4. While at a distance I might seem intimidating and stern, people close to me see me as innerly soft, sensitive and pretty much a romantic prone to sentimentality. I've always had a hard time with processing emotions, because since I was a kid I've been taught "emotions are for the weak", so I tried to repress them. It wasn't until I discovered my passion for poetry that I finally learned to come into contact with them and understand them without shame. Currently, I feel like I have an easier time expressing myself and I'm not as repelled of my own feelings like I was in the past... Many people have actually told me, to my surprise, that my face is amusingly expressive, like I'm transparent even if I try my best to hide myself from the world. That said, I communicate my feelings through poems, so while I'd like the other person to take the initiative in this regard, I'll try to reciprocate it my way.
   
5. However, I can also be quite passive and insecure when I feel oppressed and vulnerable in my environment (I feel like the whole world is against me in such circumstances), so I tend to walk on eggshells most of the time just in case. I'd say I'm mostly awkward, and I never know how to interact with my surroundings properly. If I've done it well, it's likely that I've just been lucky. This has led me to be isolated most of my life, and despite the fact that I currently have some connections with people, I feel like it's still not enough. I'm very private, secretive, and harbour trust issues; but I also crave intense connection with people I've taken a liking to (after a long time assessing if they're trustful enough for me to grow attached to them, since I place a lot of value on loyalty and suffer a lot when those close to me suddenly disappear from my life). I'm really compassionate with others, so some people have taken advantage of my kindness to then stab me in the back when I least expected it, which has made me become outwardly distant and unapproachable through the years (when the truth is that I'm just terrified of people). I've always had this impulse to help and protect those in need when they couldn't stand up for themselves, so it's curious how much compassion I could feel for others when I couldn't feel it for myself. Anyway, I still hold those around me to high standards, which I apply to myself as well.
   
6. On the other hand, I place a lot of value to my appearance too. Like poetry, my own style is a way to express who I am as a person, and I can't understand nor find myself attracted to people who don't care at all regarding this part of themselves... It's as if they're neglecting one of the most important ways to make themselves appealing to both themselves and others. For me, it's also a way to feel better about myself, since the attractiveness and health of the body is just as important as that of the mind.
   
7. Now, I suck at everything related to numbers or economics. They're so boring and uninteresting to me that my brain shuts down when something related to it comes up (I already suffer enough in law school whenever I'm forced to do subjects involving financial law or the like). I've always been more drawn to humanitarian subjects like languages, literature...
   
8. I'm highly impatient (I get easily frustrated when something doesn't go my way like "it's supposed to", and I can grow envious and resentful towards someone that did it better than me), irritable (I'm peaceful until something or someone crosses me), and pessimistic (if something remotely bad happens, then that means it's all doomed to fail). I can be intolerant as well, easily despising someone others might be indifferent to, and I've been told to be impulsive too when I fail to guard myself from what makes me react aggressively either to others or myself. In addition, I cannot deal with people that are too aloof to descifer, like it's obvious they're keeping something from me, but they will lie and tell me "it's okay" while it's obvious that it's not, and their facial expressions are so dull that I won't even be able to extract the minimum out of them. In such circumstances I might flare up to try to get them out of their shell in order to know whatever they're hiding away from me; but that typically ends up driving them away from me further (which pisses me off to no end). I like straightforward people who are not cowards and will make things clear from the beginning, even if it hurts.
   
9. Regarding my mannerisms, they're mostly stiff, instead of smooth or soft. As I said, I come across as energetic even if I slept 4 hours that day, I walk and talk VERY quickly (people who speak and move slowly get on my nerves), and I can be very expressive and loud if I'm feeling comfortable enough with the person I'm with (I can even look extroverted next to my quieter friends). I also don't have any shame at all when it comes to myself; I can talk about anything weird or rant about my nerdy interests and creepy fixations to the point of becoming obnoxious without giving a damn about the reaction of the other person. I may even enjoy making the other person embarrassed and teasing them, since it's hilarious. Fortunately, I'm good at eliciting interest in others, so oftentimes I can drag them into the abyss of my obsessions and teach them all about it.
   
10. Aside from poetry, my other interests are varied. For instance, I also love reading old books, writing stories, creating original characters and researching whichever area of interest I'm into at the moment. I like to maintain an active lifestyle too. In the future, I strive to become financially successful (that's why I'm in a career that is going to bring me a lot of opportunities), independent, and travel and learn as much as I can to improve both myself and my talents. I'm overall a very individualistic person, but I'd like to meet more people who align with my values as well; without at least someone by my side with whom I can share myself I become depressed.
    

I'd appreciate it if someone is willing to try to type me via chat too, if that's more comfortable for you.

Prompt

Create a Platonic dialogue between an optimistic creative visionary (OCV), a pessimistic observant doomsayer (POD), an objective meticulous analyzer (OMA), a wise pragmatic planner (WPP), and God (G).
Question: "What is love? (Baby don't hurt me!)"

Output: Gemini Advanced

Scene: A round table discussion in a heavenly cloud-filled room.
Characters:

• OCV (Optimistic Creative Visionary): A radiant figure with sparkling eyes, overflowing with enthusiasm.
• POD (Pessimistic Observant Doomsayer): A dour figure, hunched over with arms crossed, muttering under their breath.
• OMA (Objective Meticulous Analyzer): A composed figure with a notepad, diligently taking notes.
• WPP (Wise Pragmatic Planner): A serene figure with a thoughtful expression, occasionally stroking their beard.
• G (God): A luminous being radiating warmth and light, a gentle smile on their face.

G: Welcome, dear friends. Today's question is a timeless one: What is love?
OCV: (Beaming) Love! It's the most beautiful, powerful force in the universe! It's the inspiration behind every creation, every act of kindness, every connection between souls. It's the spark of life itself!
POD: (Scoffs) Love? Please. It's nothing but a fleeting illusion, a biological trick to propagate the species. It leads to heartbreak, betrayal, and endless suffering.
OMA: (Clearing their throat) From a purely objective standpoint, love is a complex interplay of neurochemicals and hormonal responses. It's associated with increased dopamine, oxytocin, and vasopressin levels, resulting in feelings of pleasure, bonding, and attachment.
WPP: (Nods) While those physiological aspects are certainly relevant, love is also a choice, a commitment to nurture and cherish another being. It requires patience, understanding, and a willingness to compromise.
G: (Smiles) You all speak truths, but love is so much more than the sum of its parts. It's a mystery that transcends definitions and explanations.
OCV: (Eagerly) It's like a symphony of emotions, a kaleidoscope of experiences!
POD: (Mutters) More like a chaotic cacophony of pain and disappointment.
OMA: (Scribbling) An intriguing paradox, indeed. Love can both uplift and destroy, create and consume.
WPP: (Shrugs) That's why it's crucial to approach love with wisdom and discernment.
G: (Raises a hand) My children, remember that love is a gift, a divine spark within each of you. It is the essence of who I am.
OCV: (Clasps hands) It's the most precious gift of all!
POD: (Sighs) A gift that often comes with a hefty price tag.
OMA: (Nods) A gift that warrants further investigation and analysis.
WPP: (Smiles) A gift that deserves to be cherished and protected.
G: (Chuckles) Indeed. So, go forth and share this gift with the world. Let love guide your actions, inspire your creativity, and heal your wounds.
(The figures nod in unison, a sense of understanding and purpose dawning upon them.)
G: (Softly) And remember, baby don't hurt me... don't hurt me... no more.
(A faint echo of laughter fills the room as the figures disperse, leaving behind a lingering warmth.)

Output: ChatGPT-4o

Dialogue: What is Love? (Baby don't hurt me!)
OCV: Oh, what a splendid question! Love, my friends, is the essence of our existence. It is the driving force behind creativity and the very spark that ignites our passions. Love is the canvas upon which we paint our dreams and the melody to which our hearts dance.
POD: (sighs) You paint such a rosy picture, OCV, but let’s not ignore the shadows. Love, in its purest form, can bring immense pain and suffering. It can lead to heartache, betrayal, and the deepest of sorrows. Love is a double-edged sword.
OMA: Both of you present compelling views. If we examine love objectively, we find that it is a complex biochemical and psychological phenomenon. It involves a range of emotions, behaviors, and physiological responses. From a scientific perspective, love is the interplay of hormones like oxytocin and dopamine, influencing our mood and behavior.
WPP: Let’s balance these perspectives with a touch of pragmatism. Love is indeed multifaceted. It can be a powerful motivator, fostering connections and collaboration, but it also requires careful nurturing and realistic expectations. We must plan and manage our relationships to harness the positive aspects of love while mitigating the risks of hurt.
G: (smiling) Ah, love. It is a concept that transcends the mortal experience, yet it is intrinsic to it. Love is both the simplest and most profound of experiences. It is the thread that weaves the fabric of the universe, connecting all beings. Love is not just an emotion or a biochemical reaction; it is the very essence of creation and existence. It holds the potential for boundless joy and deep learning. Love, in its truest form, is unconditional and everlasting.
OCV: See, love is the light that guides us all!
POD: But remember, even light can cast shadows.
OMA: Therefore, love must be understood and approached with both heart and mind.
WPP: Precisely. We should embrace love's potential while being mindful of its complexities. Planning and wisdom can help us navigate its challenges.
G: Indeed, my children. Love is a journey, a lesson, and a gift. Cherish it, learn from it, and let it guide you toward your highest selves.
All: What is love? (Baby don't hurt me!)

So I have my fair share of flaws and I will agree when I was younger I was very self absorbed and hypocritical but the one good thing about me was I was very real with people and said the truth. The very brutal truth. If somebody called me inferior who I know I wronged but never admitted in the past I would have apologised ,now not in the past, and I do have a number of people in mind. But what’s funny is the people who ended my friendship with my closest friend were people who either deserved it or whom I had never seriously talked to. Let me explain. I was in a group of three and only ever liked one girl, the other was very rude. Although, I had my flaws at that time I at least had basic manners, she on the other hand acted stupid and was rude. She’d ask stupid questions and be stupid and then shame you for something that doesn’t sound conventionally right but is. The one I liked if friend one and the one I hate is friend two. Friend two was a freak and would tell people weird concerning things to people she didn’t know too well. Friend two was close with me and we both vibed with the very flawed version of me. But when I started to change and have awareness instead of acting like an aggressive loser banging the table and shouting and getting side eyes from other people that’s when she started to hate me. She got rid of me eventually but before that she’d block remove me from our friendship group and trolled me. She was very bitchy but I stuck and kept trying to get closer and trying to get her to unblock me. Eventually, she got rid of me and she reasoned with friend one that I was very flawed but by this point I was actually less flawed which is funny. She convinced her of this by twisting my words when I told friend one “your mums pretty but she’s not that pretty girl calm down, she still pretty though.” Mind you we were really close and I would never say this to any other friend so I thought it was fine but friend three who is kind of irrelevant and was just there (never apart of the group) told her and she told friend ones mum I said she was ugly and friend one didn’t do anything to clear it up. Mind you this girl was really close to her she was literally her neighbour. Then she used three other girls from our school who agreed with friends two belief that I made everyone feel inferior. The first girl I never liked because she would act annoying in PE hogging the ball and giggling. The second girl is a freak who used her BFFs photos without her consent online, which is beyond desperate and the last girl I know was lied to and I know how she twisted the story. Anyways I don’t see how I make people feel inferior perhaps I’m very direct, but those girls are worst and people I don’t like I don’t talk to them nicely. Anyways I don’t think I’m the asshole in this situation.