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Japanese Domestic Cars Porn
2014.02.27 13:18 TheNewHero Japanese Domestic Cars Porn
This is a subreddit to capture the beauty of the 90's JDM era. Feel free to upload modern JDM cars if you will as well though! However, the 90's era was a golden era for JDM cars and an era to be treasured, so let us feast our eyes on JDM goodness!
2014.09.18 22:44 obsoletest NYCrail: Rail transportation in and related to New York City
Passenger and freight rail and trains, including transit, in and related to New York City.
2015.06.22 00:00 datums Skookum
A place where people come to learn, or teach. (Or have a chuckle out in the shop) NSFW: inappropriate adult language!
2024.05.03 00:04 PearlTheParakeet02 My school just got shut down...
Idek what to say... it was a bogus situation but basically it was a private school and the people overseeing our school absolutely hated us (legit denied elementary a playground when we had all funds for it) and put a principal in that was literally known for shutting schools down. I knew it was coming but idk what to say... we all thought we had at least a year left and now im just in shock. It's crazy too, I would've been the 100th graduating class, the school was literally on national headlines for an awesome tradition we had, and some of my teachers were absolutely incredible. I was doing well in my classes, had awesome opportunities coming my way, and now it's just over. We found out in this joke of a meeting yesterday, well ig the news told us first bc there was a press release before the teachers even found out, and came back today to another joke meeting and all the teachers crying. The whole school community is so upset (literal generations have gone to this school) and nobody can/will do anything about it. the decision to shut us down was made YEARS AGO, and we found out last night.
Now I basically have no choice but to transfer to the awful public school in my area (literally one of the worst ranked schools in state) and im so scared. ive been in private school all my life bc I thrive in small class sizes. Im a massive introvert and im so scared of change. I dont know how to process everything and im scared. Ik I'll have some support but I just want a prom & homecoming where I won't get made fun of or leave smelling like weed. There could technically be an option to do college classes but I still want a high school experience. I hate to say it but I want to be asked to prom or hoco or something but when I really think abt it im pretty certain thats not going to happen. Im an ugly misfit as it is, but I will be especially when I go to a brand new school... anyway im just upset and needed a place to vent. ty for reading if anyone actually does haha
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Now I basically have no choice but to transfer to the awful public school in my area (literally one of the worst ranked schools in state) and im so scared. ive been in private school all my life bc I thrive in small class sizes. Im a massive introvert and im so scared of change. I dont know how to process everything and im scared. Ik I'll have some support but I just want a prom & homecoming where I won't get made fun of or leave smelling like weed. There could technically be an option to do college classes but I still want a high school experience. I hate to say it but I want to be asked to prom or hoco or something but when I really think abt it im pretty certain thats not going to happen. Im an ugly misfit as it is, but I will be especially when I go to a brand new school... anyway im just upset and needed a place to vent. ty for reading if anyone actually does haha
2024.05.03 00:00 Individual_Search741 Am I not handling my situation well enough?
30F I have not been feeling too great lately. Been on edge, battling depression and highly sensitive and irritable. I just want to know if I’m just being a baby about things or is it normal to feel this way after everything that has gone down in the past 12 months. Because someone very close to me, the new guy I have been dating for a couple months said that I was being really negative about everything that I shouldn’t be feeling this low.
Since February 2023 this is what has happened in my life:
I have only dwelled into a state of depression of sorts where some days I feel alright and on the other I feel terrible and sometimes suicidal. I have also been highly irritable and sensitive, I get upset and pick a fight with my partner over silly things he does that hurt my feelings.
He told me since he is also batteling a medical condition that he can not take the stress I give him by getting upset over the ‘little’ things he does. And broke up with me the other day. He also said I’m a very negative person. I feel like it wasn’t fair for him to leave me but we had only dated for 4 months. So maybe I shouldn’t have had so many expectations.. the 4 months we were very close though and in a committed relationship where he told me he loved me so I don’t understand.
I just want to know how well I have handled this ? Compared to the general public am I handling this well or worse than others ? Please do be direct with me and don’t feel the need to sugar coat your opinions.
And any advice on how to move forward would be appreciated to.
Thank you.
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Since February 2023 this is what has happened in my life:
- i had a very hectic moving situation where I had to move back in with a family member who I don’t have the best relationship with. My previous landlord lords gave me a really hard time and made the move super hard.
- Since then I’ve been living with this family member who does not respect my boundaries and always nags me about everything. It’s like living in a prison but I have to make do cause I don’t have any other viable option at the time.
- I went through 2 break ups last year (same guy) who broke up with me cause he family deemed me lower middle class and that was not good enough since they are upper class.
- I had my grandfather who is basically my surrogate father move back in and live with us (he was working abroad for 25 + years) and he was suffering from dementia.
- My grandfather went missing for 4 days after he wandered off and it was absolute hell to go through. I did not sleep or eat properly and was out on the roads searching for him desperately for 4 days mostly on my own with some help from a few people here and there.
- When he found him there was a huge debate from this other family memeber to administer him in to a nursing home which I was not a big fan of because the available options were very poor and dirty. So the whole of December (Christmas and new years) it was a hectic fight with this other family memeber about this decision.
- My grandfather was finally admitted to a nursing home and ended up falling and injuring his hip. He was hospitalized for a whole month through out February and in a lot of distress.
- i watched my grand father pass away in march. The funeral was hectic since we didn’t have much support. This was a month and a half ago.
- i also got diagnosed recently with an illness that could be life threatening if I don’t cure it on time.
I have only dwelled into a state of depression of sorts where some days I feel alright and on the other I feel terrible and sometimes suicidal. I have also been highly irritable and sensitive, I get upset and pick a fight with my partner over silly things he does that hurt my feelings.
He told me since he is also batteling a medical condition that he can not take the stress I give him by getting upset over the ‘little’ things he does. And broke up with me the other day. He also said I’m a very negative person. I feel like it wasn’t fair for him to leave me but we had only dated for 4 months. So maybe I shouldn’t have had so many expectations.. the 4 months we were very close though and in a committed relationship where he told me he loved me so I don’t understand.
I just want to know how well I have handled this ? Compared to the general public am I handling this well or worse than others ? Please do be direct with me and don’t feel the need to sugar coat your opinions.
And any advice on how to move forward would be appreciated to.
Thank you.
2024.05.02 23:57 Karnakite Extremely upset with the rescue we’re fostering for
I’m in St. Louis and I’m working with a local rescue (NOT Stray Rescue of STL, I wish it was them). It’s supposedly a well-regarded rescue but it does not seem that way to me.
We’ve been fostering a dog for seven months now. One of our own dogs absolutely despises him, so keeping him here is not an option.
It’s been a very long seven months with him here. Largely due to the fact that our other dog(s) need(s) to be kept separate from him. This means that he spends most of the time in the (finished) basement by himself. We are also just not a good fit for him since he is only about a year old and we are not high-energy. We were guilt-tripped and thrust into the situation by the woman who found him, and while I don’t resent her at all for it, and he’s a very sweet and likable dog and I had no problems with fostering at first, I’m getting pretty upset with the rescue we’ve been fostering for.
One thing is that we’ve gotten three inquiries about him in this time period, all in the first few months, once roughly each month. We were assured that they vetted all potential adopters. The first guy seemed very determined to forcibly handle the dog and be rough with him to force a choke leash on him. The dog is a very hefty, but very friendly, pit bull, and the guy ultimately declined to adopted him - a good thing, as we got very bad vibes and the dog was clearly upset at being handled that way; he didn’t bite or growl, but just seemed distressed. I felt like this guy wanted the dog for nefarious purposes due to his bizarre, aggressive, angry behavior, but they sent him over to us anyway. The second couple was fine but passed because they thought the dog was large enough to potentially knock one of them down, which I get. The third one confirmed to me that they’re not vetting ANYBODY, because it turns out the person didn’t even exist and gave a fake address and a phone number that connected to a completely different person. How are they “vetting” all their applicants if those applicants are giving false names, addresses and contact info, and I was able to find this out in about three minutes?
We’ve also been paying out of our own pockets for his vet appointments and training. No rescue discount either. He gets daily medication, which we’ve paying for, and also his food - although obviously I don’t mind paying for the food, we already have dogs to feed.
More recently, I suffered an injury in an accident that absolutely wrecked my right knee. This made it largely impossible for me to care for the dog, as he needs to be leashed when he’s outside, and I can’t go up and down the basement stairs without incredible difficulty. My own dogs can go inside and outside on their own, but the foster dog cannot, as he will try to climb over or dig under the fence. My partner works almost 24/7 and currently really only comes home to sleep. My partner had to contact them at first, because I was still too roughed up from the accident to talk to anyone, really. At first they kept trying to talk him into keeping the dog, and then after having it again explained that that is not possible with our other dogs, they said they’d do an “email and social media blast” to find him a home or another foster. They asked him to send an email to them with some information they requested.
That was a couple weeks or so ago. They never responded to his email, and he’s sent two more since then, asking for an update and just to see if they even received his email. Radio silence. In the meantime, I’ve been compelled to take him outside and go up and down the stairs anyway as best I can manage, which in turn lead to a further injury on my opposite foot, since I shouldn’t really be walking any dogs on a leash right now. Since my partner hadn’t gotten any response, I checked their social media for the supposed “blast” they put out, only to find that they’ve never even shared him at all in the seven months he’s been with us. Not before my injury and not after we contacted them about it. He has zero presence on their public face. They’ve shared plenty of their other dogs, but not our foster.
I ended up contacting them myself at this point, pointing out that we were expecting them to at least try to find a replacement home for him, that we were assured that would happen, and it would happen because they understood I was no longer in good enough shape to care for him.
No response.
Forgive me, but I feel like we’ve just been completely ghosted, because that’s exactly what’s happened. We’ve been paying for his vet bills, sharing him on our own social media (which in one conversation we had months ago they seemed to imply that getting him “out there” on social media and events was our sole responsibility, but eventually agreed to make an effort themselves, which they obviously never did), paying for his training appointments, and the last time we were ever really in any real, effective contact with the rescue was the last time they sent over information regarding a “potential adopter”, who turned out not to be a real person. When we’ve tried to reach them since then, especially regarding the situation we’re in now, we were first lied to, and subsequently consistently ignored.
I’m at a loss as to what to do, honestly. Both the dog and we are struggling with the situation. He’s a very sweet dog and I do love him a lot, but he’s just not a good fit for us and we are not a good fit for him (keeping him would also put us over the legal limit for dogs in our house). Every time I walk up and down the stairs and take him outside, my knee gets more screwed up and my foot hurts more. Due to that, he’s spending more time alone downstairs than he should.
What would you do if you were in my situation? Am I being selfish or is the rescue dropping the ball here?
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We’ve been fostering a dog for seven months now. One of our own dogs absolutely despises him, so keeping him here is not an option.
It’s been a very long seven months with him here. Largely due to the fact that our other dog(s) need(s) to be kept separate from him. This means that he spends most of the time in the (finished) basement by himself. We are also just not a good fit for him since he is only about a year old and we are not high-energy. We were guilt-tripped and thrust into the situation by the woman who found him, and while I don’t resent her at all for it, and he’s a very sweet and likable dog and I had no problems with fostering at first, I’m getting pretty upset with the rescue we’ve been fostering for.
One thing is that we’ve gotten three inquiries about him in this time period, all in the first few months, once roughly each month. We were assured that they vetted all potential adopters. The first guy seemed very determined to forcibly handle the dog and be rough with him to force a choke leash on him. The dog is a very hefty, but very friendly, pit bull, and the guy ultimately declined to adopted him - a good thing, as we got very bad vibes and the dog was clearly upset at being handled that way; he didn’t bite or growl, but just seemed distressed. I felt like this guy wanted the dog for nefarious purposes due to his bizarre, aggressive, angry behavior, but they sent him over to us anyway. The second couple was fine but passed because they thought the dog was large enough to potentially knock one of them down, which I get. The third one confirmed to me that they’re not vetting ANYBODY, because it turns out the person didn’t even exist and gave a fake address and a phone number that connected to a completely different person. How are they “vetting” all their applicants if those applicants are giving false names, addresses and contact info, and I was able to find this out in about three minutes?
We’ve also been paying out of our own pockets for his vet appointments and training. No rescue discount either. He gets daily medication, which we’ve paying for, and also his food - although obviously I don’t mind paying for the food, we already have dogs to feed.
More recently, I suffered an injury in an accident that absolutely wrecked my right knee. This made it largely impossible for me to care for the dog, as he needs to be leashed when he’s outside, and I can’t go up and down the basement stairs without incredible difficulty. My own dogs can go inside and outside on their own, but the foster dog cannot, as he will try to climb over or dig under the fence. My partner works almost 24/7 and currently really only comes home to sleep. My partner had to contact them at first, because I was still too roughed up from the accident to talk to anyone, really. At first they kept trying to talk him into keeping the dog, and then after having it again explained that that is not possible with our other dogs, they said they’d do an “email and social media blast” to find him a home or another foster. They asked him to send an email to them with some information they requested.
That was a couple weeks or so ago. They never responded to his email, and he’s sent two more since then, asking for an update and just to see if they even received his email. Radio silence. In the meantime, I’ve been compelled to take him outside and go up and down the stairs anyway as best I can manage, which in turn lead to a further injury on my opposite foot, since I shouldn’t really be walking any dogs on a leash right now. Since my partner hadn’t gotten any response, I checked their social media for the supposed “blast” they put out, only to find that they’ve never even shared him at all in the seven months he’s been with us. Not before my injury and not after we contacted them about it. He has zero presence on their public face. They’ve shared plenty of their other dogs, but not our foster.
I ended up contacting them myself at this point, pointing out that we were expecting them to at least try to find a replacement home for him, that we were assured that would happen, and it would happen because they understood I was no longer in good enough shape to care for him.
No response.
Forgive me, but I feel like we’ve just been completely ghosted, because that’s exactly what’s happened. We’ve been paying for his vet bills, sharing him on our own social media (which in one conversation we had months ago they seemed to imply that getting him “out there” on social media and events was our sole responsibility, but eventually agreed to make an effort themselves, which they obviously never did), paying for his training appointments, and the last time we were ever really in any real, effective contact with the rescue was the last time they sent over information regarding a “potential adopter”, who turned out not to be a real person. When we’ve tried to reach them since then, especially regarding the situation we’re in now, we were first lied to, and subsequently consistently ignored.
I’m at a loss as to what to do, honestly. Both the dog and we are struggling with the situation. He’s a very sweet dog and I do love him a lot, but he’s just not a good fit for us and we are not a good fit for him (keeping him would also put us over the legal limit for dogs in our house). Every time I walk up and down the stairs and take him outside, my knee gets more screwed up and my foot hurts more. Due to that, he’s spending more time alone downstairs than he should.
What would you do if you were in my situation? Am I being selfish or is the rescue dropping the ball here?
2024.05.02 23:57 Anticitizen_01 Sub update 5-2-24 *** New Members start here***
Hello all you fellow Cleriths out there! I'm here to give you your monthly update regarding the status of our little (but growing) community.
Since our new moderation team took over back in March, we have officially more then doubled in size and we are still growing at a very high rate. A big thanks too all of the people who have been sharing the sub outside of Reddit....now for the nitty gritty.
Our mission as your mod team, is to provide a space for Cleriths for come together and freely discuss our pairing without the fear of being harassed, downvoted or be debated. We as mods will continue to remove or delete posts that violate the rules of the sub which can always be found on the sidebar. A big thanks goes to all of our members who have been helping keep our community clean and safe. But we need your help! If you see a post that could potentially break the rules of the sub, please don't hesitate to send us a report and we will deal with either the person or the post.
If you are going to post or comment on something that could also potentially break the rules of the sub, please ask a mod before submitting. That way we can decide if it is appropriate for the sub and you won't have any.....unforeseen consequences. If you do happen to get a post or a comment removed, please don't send us messages asking us "why was my post or comment removed?" Chances are your post likely broke 1 or more rules of the sub.
We as the moderation team reserve the right to ultimately decide if a post breaks the rules and the consequences of the post. If you do happen to break the rules of the sub we as mods will determine the punishment. If it is something simple then there likely won't be any problems. But if you break multiple rules and it happens more than once then your punishment could possibly lead to, or be an outright ban from the sub; and if we're being honest, we really don't want to do that. We want to encourage as much discussion about our pairing as possible. Again please refer to the sidebar for the rules.
Speaking of discussions, always remember that there is absolutely no LTD debate allowed on this sub! This is one thing that could lead to a straight up ban. So please, for your own good don't even try it. If you want to discuss the LTD there is a literal kings bounty of websites that are at your disposal if you feel the need to debate.
As always, I formally request that all members refrain from posting or commenting anything on the Cloti sub. (although lurking is probably ok but proceed at your own risk!) The reason is we don't need to get people over there all hot and bothered and they start coming over here and attempting to debate our members. The less of us that are over there, the less chance we'll have of them trying to come over here. However this means that the FF7 Remake and Final Fantasy general sub are fair game. Again, proceed at your own risk.
***********Attention wondering Clotis and Zeriths***********
If you have something you want to ask a Clerith than you are free to do so. Please keep your questions clear and concise. But any dumb questions like "explain the ship" or "I don't get X scene" will be swiftly deleted. Do not attempt to flame, debate or insult our members. This will lead to an immediate and potentially a permanent ban from the sub.
Cloud and Aerith's wedding date is coming up soon! There is already a post about it that is pinned to the sub. This event starts on June 1st and will run for a week. So have your submissions ready for that week.
That is all I have for now. A big thanks again to all of our members for your continued support!
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Since our new moderation team took over back in March, we have officially more then doubled in size and we are still growing at a very high rate. A big thanks too all of the people who have been sharing the sub outside of Reddit....now for the nitty gritty.
Our mission as your mod team, is to provide a space for Cleriths for come together and freely discuss our pairing without the fear of being harassed, downvoted or be debated. We as mods will continue to remove or delete posts that violate the rules of the sub which can always be found on the sidebar. A big thanks goes to all of our members who have been helping keep our community clean and safe. But we need your help! If you see a post that could potentially break the rules of the sub, please don't hesitate to send us a report and we will deal with either the person or the post.
If you are going to post or comment on something that could also potentially break the rules of the sub, please ask a mod before submitting. That way we can decide if it is appropriate for the sub and you won't have any.....unforeseen consequences. If you do happen to get a post or a comment removed, please don't send us messages asking us "why was my post or comment removed?" Chances are your post likely broke 1 or more rules of the sub.
We as the moderation team reserve the right to ultimately decide if a post breaks the rules and the consequences of the post. If you do happen to break the rules of the sub we as mods will determine the punishment. If it is something simple then there likely won't be any problems. But if you break multiple rules and it happens more than once then your punishment could possibly lead to, or be an outright ban from the sub; and if we're being honest, we really don't want to do that. We want to encourage as much discussion about our pairing as possible. Again please refer to the sidebar for the rules.
Speaking of discussions, always remember that there is absolutely no LTD debate allowed on this sub! This is one thing that could lead to a straight up ban. So please, for your own good don't even try it. If you want to discuss the LTD there is a literal kings bounty of websites that are at your disposal if you feel the need to debate.
As always, I formally request that all members refrain from posting or commenting anything on the Cloti sub. (although lurking is probably ok but proceed at your own risk!) The reason is we don't need to get people over there all hot and bothered and they start coming over here and attempting to debate our members. The less of us that are over there, the less chance we'll have of them trying to come over here. However this means that the FF7 Remake and Final Fantasy general sub are fair game. Again, proceed at your own risk.
***********Attention wondering Clotis and Zeriths***********
If you have something you want to ask a Clerith than you are free to do so. Please keep your questions clear and concise. But any dumb questions like "explain the ship" or "I don't get X scene" will be swiftly deleted. Do not attempt to flame, debate or insult our members. This will lead to an immediate and potentially a permanent ban from the sub.
Cloud and Aerith's wedding date is coming up soon! There is already a post about it that is pinned to the sub. This event starts on June 1st and will run for a week. So have your submissions ready for that week.
That is all I have for now. A big thanks again to all of our members for your continued support!
2024.05.02 23:47 tylerchimping Kelley or UF?
I got absolutely cooked in admissions, and I can’t decide for the life of me whether to go to UF or IU Kelley as a finance major (UMiami honorable mention). I am from chicago, and both schools have similar costs. I loved UFs campus and atmosphere, as well as the MSF opportunity, but dislike the politics and mostly hands off class structure. A lot of classes are online which is a huge problem, and that isn’t my thing. I feel like there are a lot less opportunities at UF as well, but I can’t get over how much I loved the campus and overall vibe. I think Kelley has a great program, if I can get into the workshops I think I’d be successful, and is it highly ranked, but I don’t like the campus as much (the worst gym I’ve ever seen). UF having more overall prestiege also makes me more interested, but the prestiege of kelley is unmatched. I know absolutely nobody at UF and its really far, but I know tons of people at IU (worried about “highschool 2.0”). I am interested in being in a frat as well so that may change things. UF sports also blow IUs out of the water (mainly football). I also don’t see myself living in Florida post-grad, and would prefer ending up in NYC, Chicago, SF, Austin etc. As someone who wants to do IB/PE, this is a pretty important decision for me, but I’m completely torn. Is the Kelley education and opportunities worth going to a school I like a little less? Or does UF have the same opportunities and preparation for my desired career?
Also, I visited IU and walked into a dorm common area to see someone doing lines in their underwear which was a little off putting.
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Also, I visited IU and walked into a dorm common area to see someone doing lines in their underwear which was a little off putting.
2024.05.02 23:47 Schlickbart Finding Zen in modern pop culture - Lil Wayne
This is a subjective, personal interpretation. Reminders of this will appear throughout the post, but even if the language used doesn’t specify this again and again, it wants to be understood as a perspective. One of many.
Since I don’t mean to ridicule, I have put some effort into some sourced and commented content regarding these Masters.
I have chosen to only look at the least likely to be such a Master. Dwayne Michael Carter Jr. aka Lil Wayne.
Furthermore, I am daring the orouboroesque feature of comparing the quotes of Lil Wayne to those of Meister Eckhart. The one rather pragmatic reason being that German is my native language, so that the available source material is, quite literally, perfectly understood.
What I get from the first two lines is that the one who is spoken to depends on the one who is speaking. Name (and by this form) are interpersonal, or intersubjective. A possible idea being that Tunechi doesn’t speak to fans, but only to peers who are able to understand what will be said.
He then goes on acknowledging that everyone has “the juice”, the ability, the inherent energy, but no one is able to give form to this. I want to relate this to the idea that everyone is already ‘there’, but lacking the understanding, the realization of this, lets the form seem unfulfilled.
I will let “And I call it like I see it” stand for itself.
He goes on stating that for his ability to see, he got his glasses on, but “most of you” need an additional source of light, an “enlightenment” to see what’s really going on.
I was unable to find an accessible english translation, so I translated it myself. For questions or critique of this translation I stand readily available.
The last two lines complete the picture for me, so to say.
Satisfied with nothing, wanting ever more, is not even half of it. Lets say, the other half is being satisfied with everything. Both of them together don’t complete the picture (to ride this horse a little longer). Perhaps pointing at the futility of depending on things, be it no-thing or all the things.
Reading this as “being satisfied with nothingness”, or the void, does not point to full realization of ones true nature. And surely the void is not even close to being half of the absolute and true experience of this here moment, the utter fullness of here and now. Of being one with God.
A personal favorite of mine, I have to admit.
Relating the state of ignorance to a prison needs no further citations.
Likening the freed to beasts, behaving most naturally, yeah, ok, why not.
But I would rather liken these first two lines to a possible motivation for the emergence of Zen, but also of Meister Eckhart. Zen and Eckhart seem to have partially developed because of the at the times prevalent doctrine of their respective parental figures. Buddhism and the catholic church. An act of rage against the machine (rage is perhaps a strong word, but Zack de la Rocha does rap). It feels a bit silly to invest time and energy in yet another sourced explanation of how Zen does not adhere to Buddhist, or any other doctrine or ritualisation of practice. Sources for Eckhart's heresy, deemed so by the catholic Church, are many and readily available to the interested.
The last two lines: To have the whole world “stuck away safely”, unreachable and for it having no means to reach out, does remind me of detachment from worldly affairs. But to have access to it, at will so to say, the code is needed. The G-Code. The God-Code? Why not. But Gs, in rap, are also the real players, the ones who got it. The Masters. And what is their pointing, if not the code, they key, for opening the door to reality.
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A little context: I seem to have made a relatively sized and weighted faux-pas when nonchalantly suggesting that Socrates, Meister Eckhart and Lil Wayne may be considered Zen Masters. With that I didn’t mean to claim their connection to any linage, but rather throwing them out there for the purpose of an entertaining discussion. Alas, zen, didn’t accept this honest and rather serious presentation of my perspective.
Since I don’t mean to ridicule, I have put some effort into some sourced and commented content regarding these Masters.
I have chosen to only look at the least likely to be such a Master. Dwayne Michael Carter Jr. aka Lil Wayne.
- Socrates’ status as a historical figure (as known to us today) remains to be proven, but so does that of Gautama and Bodhidarma. The body of research and opinions regarding their proclaimed teachings, influence and general attitude is however so rich, that a little nibble of it spit on these pages seems irrelevant to me.
- Since I have not been critiqued for mentioning Meister Eckhart, and here too many papers, articles and even theses exist likening them to Zen, I won't add to that.
Furthermore, I am daring the orouboroesque feature of comparing the quotes of Lil Wayne to those of Meister Eckhart. The one rather pragmatic reason being that German is my native language, so that the available source material is, quite literally, perfectly understood.
A few relevant words to Lil Wayne’s persona: He is known for his attitude, usually playful, but also unapologetically honest. His label is called “Young Money”, as in opposition to ‘old money’. He is widely considered as one of the most influential artists of this millennium's rap game. The man got bars.
On to the first quote:
Hello may I speak to Tuneci, may I ask who's calling? Everybody got the juice without a glass to pour it.
Nicki Minaj ft. Lil Wayne - Good Form (3:08)
Additional information for the layman: Juice can be understood as influence, respect, but also energy or ability. This term, as many others used in US Rap, is not officially defined and is usually highly dependent on context. I would like to add a quote from Kendrick Llamar regarding the spoken language of afro-american youth in the streets of Compton, USA.
“Speaking a language only we know you think is an accent”
Kendick Lamar - The Art Of Peer Pressure (1:47)
Tunechi is another name of Lil Wayne. The name originated from their Grandmothers nickname “Tune” for them, to which the -chi was added. “Like Gucci”. The full name was Tunechi Lionches (spelling unclear) [For the interested: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BtU1mwcrYYM https://www.socratic-method.com/lil-wayne/meaning-of-tunechi-intro-by-lil-wayne ].
What I get from the first two lines is that the one who is spoken to depends on the one who is speaking. Name (and by this form) are interpersonal, or intersubjective. A possible idea being that Tunechi doesn’t speak to fans, but only to peers who are able to understand what will be said.
He then goes on acknowledging that everyone has “the juice”, the ability, the inherent energy, but no one is able to give form to this. I want to relate this to the idea that everyone is already ‘there’, but lacking the understanding, the realization of this, lets the form seem unfulfilled.
"And this you must know for sure: when the free mind is quite detached, it constrains God to itself, and if it were able to stand formless and free of all accidentals, it would assume God's proper nature."
Meister Eckhart - On Detachment (https://german.yale.edu/sites/default/files/meister_eckhart_on_detachment.pdf)
2nd quote:
And I call it like I see it, and my glasses on, but most of you don't get the picture, less the flash is on, satisified with nothing, you don't know the half of it,
Lil Wayne ft. Cory Gunz - 6 foot 7 foot (2:23)
I will let “And I call it like I see it” stand for itself.
He goes on stating that for his ability to see, he got his glasses on, but “most of you” need an additional source of light, an “enlightenment” to see what’s really going on.
I was unable to find an accessible english translation, so I translated it myself. For questions or critique of this translation I stand readily available.
“It’s a difficult position to be in, when God leaves humanity (the human) without divine presence, when God stretches humanity's loneliness, so that it is empty of him (God), without (God’s) light or sound or action, as you here teach and interpret. When the human stands in naught but nothingness, wouldn’t it be better, that they (humans) do something about it, to dispel the darkness and alienation, for example, that they pray or read or listen to a sermon or engage in actions which are virtuous, which should be helpful.”
Eckhart goes on to say that remaining completely empty and in stillness is most favorable.
German source material: Das ist ein schwerer Stand, wenn Gott den Menschen so ohne seinen Aufenthalt lässt, wenn Gott der Menschen Verlassenheit so dehnt, dass er nicht in ihm ist, leuchtend oder zusprechend oder wirkend, wie Ihr hier lehret und meinet. Wenn der Mensch so in lauter Nichts steht, ist es dann nicht besser, dass er etwas tue, um diese Dunkelheit und Entfremdung zu vertreiben, zum Beispiel, dass er bete oder lese oder eine Predigt höre oder andere Werke tue, was doch Tugenden sind, mit[37] denen man sich helfen soll? Meister Eckhart - Von der Dunkelheit (On Darkness) [ http://www.zeno.org/Philosophie/M/Meister+Eckhart/Predigten,+Traktate,+Spr%C3%BCche/Predigten/3.+Von+der+Dunkelheit ]
The last two lines complete the picture for me, so to say.
Satisfied with nothing, wanting ever more, is not even half of it. Lets say, the other half is being satisfied with everything. Both of them together don’t complete the picture (to ride this horse a little longer). Perhaps pointing at the futility of depending on things, be it no-thing or all the things.
Therefore the masters declare that the blessed in heaven know creatures independently of any image of those creatures, knowing them in the one image that is God, in which God knows Himself and all things, and loves and wills them.
Meister Eckhart - The Book Of Divine Comfort
( https://german.yale.edu/sites/default/files/meister-eckhart-maurice-o-c-walshe-bernard-mcginn-the-complete-mystical-works-of-meister-eckhart-the-crossroad-publishing-company-2009.pdf )
Reading this as “being satisfied with nothingness”, or the void, does not point to full realization of ones true nature. And surely the void is not even close to being half of the absolute and true experience of this here moment, the utter fullness of here and now. Of being one with God.
You should know, God cannot leave anything void or unfilled, God and nature cannot endure that anything should be empty or void. And so, even if you think you can't feel Him and are wholly empty of Him, that is not the case.
Meister Eckhart - Sermon 4
( https://german.yale.edu/sites/default/files/meister-eckhart-maurice-o-c-walshe-bernard-mcginn-the-complete-mystical-works-of-meister-eckhart-the-crossroad-publishing-company-2009.pdf )
Completing the trinity:
Okay, you want me up in a cage, then I come out in beast mode, I got this world stuck in the safe, combination is the G-Code.
Eminem feat. Lil Wayne - No Love (1:35)
A personal favorite of mine, I have to admit.
Relating the state of ignorance to a prison needs no further citations.
Likening the freed to beasts, behaving most naturally, yeah, ok, why not.
But I would rather liken these first two lines to a possible motivation for the emergence of Zen, but also of Meister Eckhart. Zen and Eckhart seem to have partially developed because of the at the times prevalent doctrine of their respective parental figures. Buddhism and the catholic church. An act of rage against the machine (rage is perhaps a strong word, but Zack de la Rocha does rap). It feels a bit silly to invest time and energy in yet another sourced explanation of how Zen does not adhere to Buddhist, or any other doctrine or ritualisation of practice. Sources for Eckhart's heresy, deemed so by the catholic Church, are many and readily available to the interested.
The last two lines: To have the whole world “stuck away safely”, unreachable and for it having no means to reach out, does remind me of detachment from worldly affairs. But to have access to it, at will so to say, the code is needed. The G-Code. The God-Code? Why not. But Gs, in rap, are also the real players, the ones who got it. The Masters. And what is their pointing, if not the code, they key, for opening the door to reality.
But now I will speak again of the will. To give a hundred marks of gold for God is a noble deed, and appears as such. Yet I declare that if I have the will that I should give a hundred marks if I had them - if the will is perfect, then in fact I have paid God and He must give account to me as if I had really given Him a hundred marks. I say further, If I had the will to give up a whole world did I possess it, then I have made over to God a whole world, and He must render account to me as if I had given a whole world to Him. I say, if the pope had been slain by my hand, and if it had not occurred with my will, I would go up to the altar and say Mass as usual. I say humanity is as perfect in the poorest and most wretched as in pope or emperor, for I hold humanity more dear in itself than the man I carry about with me. That we may be thus united with God, may the truth of which I have spoken help us. Amen.
Finishing lines of Sermon Ten - Meister Eckhart.
( https://german.yale.edu/sites/default/files/meister-eckhart-maurice-o-c-walshe-bernard-mcginn-the-complete-mystical-works-of-meister-eckhart-the-crossroad-publishing-company-2009.pdf )
2024.05.02 23:47 tylerchimping UF or OU Kelley?
UF or IU Kelley? I got absolutely cooked in admissions, and I can’t decide for the life of me whether to go to UF or IU Kelley as a finance major (UMiami honorable mention). I am from chicago, and both schools have similar costs. I loved UFs campus and atmosphere, as well as the MSF opportunity, but dislike the politics and mostly hands off class structure. A lot of classes are online which is a huge problem, and that isn’t my thing. I feel like there are a lot less opportunities at UF as well, but I can’t get over how much I loved the campus and overall vibe. I think Kelley has a great program, if I can get into the workshops I think I’d be successful, and is it highly ranked, but I don’t like the campus as much (the worst gym I’ve ever seen). UF having more overall prestiege also makes me more interested, but the prestiege of kelley is unmatched. I know absolutely nobody at UF and its really far, but I know tons of people at IU (worried about “highschool 2.0”). I am interested in being in a frat as well so that may change things. UF sports also blow IUs out of the water (mainly football). I also don’t see myself living in Florida post-grad, and would prefer ending up in NYC, Chicago, SF, Austin etc. As someone who wants to do IB/PE, this is a pretty important decision for me, but I’m completely torn. Is the Kelley education and opportunities worth going to a school I like a little less? Or does UF have the same opportunities and preparation for my desired career?
Also, I visited IU and walked into a dorm common area to see someone doing lines in their underwear which was a little off putting.
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Also, I visited IU and walked into a dorm common area to see someone doing lines in their underwear which was a little off putting.
2024.05.02 23:45 Similar-Broccoli Don't see this one in many collections on here but it is an absolutely gorgeous film. Highly recommended
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2024.05.02 23:44 Kaylasmith2001 AITAH for refusing to foot the bill on a date?
I 21F met a really cute and sweet guy on tinder 23M and we started talking. I thought he was the cutest and I absolutely loved his personality. While we were talking I found out he went to a college very close to me, so we made plans to meet up at a local restaurant.
I want to make it clear, I have NO problem with paying for myself. This date was previously discussed and he offered to pay for me. I asked if he was sure and told him I could pay for myself, and he told me he would be more than happy to pay my part.
So I get to the restaurant 15 minutes before hand, sit down, and waif for him to arrive. He comes in exactly on time and sits across from me. We ask all the basic question and have some small talk then we order. I was having a really great time and I thought he was too. That was until the check came out and it was $300, that amount of money wasn’t something I couldn’t have payed it was more of I didn’t think I should have to pay $220 more then what I ordered. This is where the story gets heated.
He asks if I would be fine with footing the bill because he doesn’t have the money for it right now. I wouldn’t have had an issue with that if he hadn’t ordered an $130 steak, multiple appetizers, and alcohol. I told him I was sorry but I couldn’t afford a $300 bill and that I would pay for myself. He EXPLODED, told me I was selfish and started talking about everything I took little bites of that HE ordered. At that point I wanted to get out of there as soon as I could so I flagged the waiter down, payed for my portion, and left him with a $220 bill.
I really liked him and I feel bad for just leaving him with a bill that high so,
AITAH for refusing to foot the bill on a date?
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I want to make it clear, I have NO problem with paying for myself. This date was previously discussed and he offered to pay for me. I asked if he was sure and told him I could pay for myself, and he told me he would be more than happy to pay my part.
So I get to the restaurant 15 minutes before hand, sit down, and waif for him to arrive. He comes in exactly on time and sits across from me. We ask all the basic question and have some small talk then we order. I was having a really great time and I thought he was too. That was until the check came out and it was $300, that amount of money wasn’t something I couldn’t have payed it was more of I didn’t think I should have to pay $220 more then what I ordered. This is where the story gets heated.
He asks if I would be fine with footing the bill because he doesn’t have the money for it right now. I wouldn’t have had an issue with that if he hadn’t ordered an $130 steak, multiple appetizers, and alcohol. I told him I was sorry but I couldn’t afford a $300 bill and that I would pay for myself. He EXPLODED, told me I was selfish and started talking about everything I took little bites of that HE ordered. At that point I wanted to get out of there as soon as I could so I flagged the waiter down, payed for my portion, and left him with a $220 bill.
I really liked him and I feel bad for just leaving him with a bill that high so,
AITAH for refusing to foot the bill on a date?
2024.05.02 23:39 thespidersthread Have been asked if I was autistic by a few friends and now it bugs me. I want to talk to my therapist about it but i don't want to seem like a poser or self-diagnose.
Sorry for the long post but this has been eating into me for a while now and I really don't know where else to address this.
I also just want to mention that I do not want to self diagnose myself or assume anything and if these are all unrelated to autism or this post offends you in any way, please forgive me.
Hi, around 8 months ago when i first started university, I made a really close friend, the only one person i could really be myself around here (like a safe person) [i moved for university]. We immediately clicked and were ourselves around each other and about 2 weeks- a month into the friendship she asked me if I was autistic. I said no and asked why she thought so. She told me that she noticed i do a lot of stuff that seem off to her in that sense like :
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I also just want to mention that I do not want to self diagnose myself or assume anything and if these are all unrelated to autism or this post offends you in any way, please forgive me.
Hi, around 8 months ago when i first started university, I made a really close friend, the only one person i could really be myself around here (like a safe person) [i moved for university]. We immediately clicked and were ourselves around each other and about 2 weeks- a month into the friendship she asked me if I was autistic. I said no and asked why she thought so. She told me that she noticed i do a lot of stuff that seem off to her in that sense like :
- being able to listen to the same song on repeat for hours or days on end
- Having always had to script my conversations (like introduction when i moved to a new school, phonecall to order food), and learn certain phrases or general responses to other phrases. If i make new friends who use different phrases I'm unfamiliar with i will see how other people or they respond to those types of phrases and then learn them and use them myself. Sometimes if someone texts me a phrase I've never heard of ill go through all my other chats or groupchats in general to see what people would have or have responded to similar or the same phrase and then use those and if i cant find it ill go onto google and if that doesn't work either ill just ask my friends and family.
- having to sit symmetrically opposite her anywhere because if were not directly opposite each other (if i feel like the midpoints of our bodies arent in line - i call it a longitudinal plane - it feels like the world is wrong and uneven). This is especially excruciating when i need to start work on my computer or sit somewhere because i always have to take a while to adjust myself into a plane that is symmetrical and feels right
- having sensory issues with clothes growing up and even now - certain textures like sequence, or it really depends cuz sometimes even cotton feels wrong on my skin depending on the clothing item and then i just wont wear it because now i feel like tearing my skin off. This also applies to if my clothes don't sit right on me - it could be a shirt I've worn a thousand times but sometimes it just feels a little bit tighter some places or just off and then i have to adjust and make it right or just change the shirt or clothing item all together. This also applies to food - i absolutely cannot stand mushy textures or even changes in textures for certain food like oats to a point where i will only buy one brand and eat it repeatedly cuz i know i like that texture and it feels safe and good.
- once we were in a mall and they started playing forest noises and my friend found it calming but i was severely disturbed and told her that its because i can hear like 80 different mini noises in this one big sound (i can hear the smallest and farthest noises immediately and sometimes it bothers me because i can hear the clock ticking and now I'm distracted because the ticking is so loud and never ending and it makes me wish i could stop time all together)
- I have to walk up and down in my room (in a set linear path that i set for myself) in the morning before i leave for uni and before i got to bed (cant go to bed without at least an hour of this) and also in between tasks. I could finally get up to use the washroom in between my work (i like to wait till my bladder physically hurts for some reason or till i feel like I've earned it idky) and when i come back i cant sit back to work without walking for at least 20 mins. I literally wake up 2 hours before i really need to for uni just to be able to walk and i thought this was normal because its calming. She also noticed I do this thing with my fingers where I like to trace my nails with my thumb all the time but I thought that was normal? Sometimes if I know I'm going to be doing something super nerve-wracking I like to keep my nails long and press them into my palm really hard because the pain kinda calms me down.
- She thinks its weird that before i eat something i will segregate and eat my food from "least satisfactory bite" to "most satisfactory bite" or when I'm eating something with slices or diff pieces like a pizza i have to eat from smallest to biggest slice or the world feels wrong. Sometimes if I'm eating a frozen pizza or sm i will purposely cut the slices a bit unevenly so its easier for me to tell smalest to biggest.
- I always eat my sandwiches crust first (fully) the inside and stick icecream that have those chocolate layers in the same way - always full outer layer and then inner layer or its wrong.
- Once we wanted to divide notes for one of our tests and she told me to start from the 9th topic onwards and that made me feel like the whole number order is now disrupted and that not how things are supposed to be so i did her part of the notes too so ic ould start from no 1.
- I had horrible separation issues from my mother as a child to a point where it was hard for my mom to get me to school or even social gathering because i would hate any sort of party or group gathering as a child to a point where id cry and itd end with my mom and i sitting out of it together. - this is actually the reason that when i was a kid my aunt in one of her raging sessions accused me of being the reason her child is autistic. Her child is diagnosed with autism and is non-verbal.
- I have been picked on by classmates and even teachers literally since playschool (or pre-kg as they'd call it where i was from) -> which my friend said is apparently a sign?
- I was never taught how to read by my mom but i could read by the age of 3 and i just learnt by picking up phrases from the kids shows id watch and apply them to my books. Also my mom would read to me everyday so i just picked it up through that too.
- All my friendships since kindergarten were me having this one safe person that i follow around everwhere kinda like a mother duck? This also resulted in me not being able to end my friendship with my best friend in highschool because i was so comfortable with her (even her bad treatment towards me) and i was scared id never be close enough with someone else or no one else would accept me like she did (luckily i recently discovered that's not true)
- I always have too much anxiety before trying new things that i need someone there to be with me and help me along (even basic life tasks like withdrawing money for the first time or going to the doctor by myself - sometimes this results in me putting really important errands off for months on end even though i feel horrible about it but it feels paralyzing when I think of actually going to get that job done). However, I've suffered with anxiety in general whether that is to leave the house (since i was a child - way before covid too), especially in crowds.
- Back in school when I would write in notebooks (thankgod I use an iPad now) if there was something I thought was even a little off (like the curve of my g or the dot on my i - god forbid a spelling mistake) I would rip the whole page off and rewrite it as many times as I'd have to for it to be perfect.
2024.05.02 23:39 BombyxVivere Can anyone help us figure out how to work with alters who live in/experience different "realities"?
I'm sorry if the title is a bit confusing, and I have a feeling this whole post might not make a ton of sense... But it's the best we can do to describe what we experience, and we all could really use some help understanding how to make things better.
The following is text that one of us wrote in our notes app, and it's the best explanation any of us have been able to come up with so far-- so I'm just going to copy/paste it here. I'll put spoilers around potentially triggering content, too. There aren't any details or descriptions of actual trauma or abuse, but there are descriptions of SI/death/toxic shame/fear of abusers/other trauma-based thoughts and feelings. Please take care reading. 🩵
Here goes:
"When I try to explain what happens to us/our system at nighttime and get told the solution is to "remember to check in with the whole system", "ask questions and be curious", or "remind everyone that we are safe and okay now", it feels like they might as well be telling me to "check in" with the seventh dimension. Like I just have to "check in" with a parallel multiverse I can't perceive, where people have wings and tails and communicate telepathically.
It's like being told the way to fix nightmares is to remind yourself, in the middle of the nightmare, that it's just a dream... So there's no reason to be scared.
It's just not comprehensible, not in those moments. It's not something we can see or feel or experience or even really imagine. Sometimes we can vaguely remember it, but it feels like remembering a dream you had three nights ago-- it's kinda sorta there, but it doesn't have anything to do with our actual reality. In those moments, nothing matters (nothing even seems to exist, even) outside of what's happening inside our head, that shapes everything about what we believe to be true.
And what's happening inside is almost always terrible, painful, mind-scrambling fear. It's all just desperation, panic, and chaos. Some nights it's the constant stream of thought running in the background that says, "I want to die. I have to die. Please let me die. PLEASE let me die. How can I die? How do I make myself die, as immediately as possible? Please, dear god, please LET ME DIE."
Some nights, it's "I'm going to die. I'm actively dying right now. Within minutes, my life will have ended. Why am I dying? I don't understand why this is happening, but it is. I don't want to die. Can somebody stop me from dying? Please, somebody, come stop me from dying. I've been left for dead and now I'm dying, but I don't want to die yet."
Some nights, it's "Why am I so bad? Why am I evil? I don't want to be bad, I only ever wanted to be good. But I'm not. I never have been, and I never will be. I'm nothing but bad and evil and wrong, so wrong. Everything about me is awful and wrong. Why am I like this? I don't mean to be, I don't want to be, but I am. Every cell of my body is made up of badness and nothing can ever change that."
Some nights, it's "Holy shit, everything is on fire. I am in imminent danger, how did I not see this during the day?! My life is crumbling, the people around me are unsafe and will be my demise if I let them. I need to get into contact with somebody, anybody, EVERYBODY who could possibly get me the fuck out of where I am now. There is no cost too high: I have absolutely no choice but to NOT BE HERE, not for one more second of time."
Some nights, it's "Please don't let them get to me. You, you there, you look like an adult. I remember your face, so you must be good and safe... You will keep me safe, right? Will you help me lock the doors? Will you stay up and keep watch, and make sure they aren't coming? You won't tell them where I am, right? Please, I just want to be safe. I want to be okay. I want to feel okay, but I need you to help. I can't keep them away by myself, but I need to be safe. Please, I just want to be okay."
There is no "checking in with the whole system". No grounding, no reminders of the present reality-- because that is the present reality. It's that present moment's reality. Reality is what we believe it is, and some of us believe in our version of reality, excluding all others, deep to our very core. There are no reassuring voices inside we can stay in contact with, nothing and no one outside we can look to that can convince us whatever we are experiencing is not just REALITY. We cannot be persuaded otherwise, no matter what anybody else (inside or outside) says to us.
For every one of those realities, those of us who experience it could write a thesis paper on the reasoning why it is true. And not only is it true, it's the truth; the one and only truth, that always has been and always will be. We are absolutely certain that anything we might have said or thought otherwise (at a different time under different circumstances) was simply a moment of delusion, a temporary slip in our ability to see and understand the real, unchangeable truth."
(The End)
If anyone at all who reads this can relate, or recognize maybe what it is that has made us so deeply divided that we cannot even agree on what is real and what isn't... It would be such a big help. We are feeling so stuck, and we think this is a big piece of that. Turns out it's actually pretty hard to have a "real life" when you literally cannot tell what is real and what isn't. 😮💨
Edited to fix the spoilers/formatting!
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The following is text that one of us wrote in our notes app, and it's the best explanation any of us have been able to come up with so far-- so I'm just going to copy/paste it here. I'll put spoilers around potentially triggering content, too. There aren't any details or descriptions of actual trauma or abuse, but there are descriptions of SI/death/toxic shame/fear of abusers/other trauma-based thoughts and feelings. Please take care reading. 🩵
Here goes:
"When I try to explain what happens to us/our system at nighttime and get told the solution is to "remember to check in with the whole system", "ask questions and be curious", or "remind everyone that we are safe and okay now", it feels like they might as well be telling me to "check in" with the seventh dimension. Like I just have to "check in" with a parallel multiverse I can't perceive, where people have wings and tails and communicate telepathically.
It's like being told the way to fix nightmares is to remind yourself, in the middle of the nightmare, that it's just a dream... So there's no reason to be scared.
It's just not comprehensible, not in those moments. It's not something we can see or feel or experience or even really imagine. Sometimes we can vaguely remember it, but it feels like remembering a dream you had three nights ago-- it's kinda sorta there, but it doesn't have anything to do with our actual reality. In those moments, nothing matters (nothing even seems to exist, even) outside of what's happening inside our head, that shapes everything about what we believe to be true.
And what's happening inside is almost always terrible, painful, mind-scrambling fear. It's all just desperation, panic, and chaos. Some nights it's the constant stream of thought running in the background that says, "I want to die. I have to die. Please let me die. PLEASE let me die. How can I die? How do I make myself die, as immediately as possible? Please, dear god, please LET ME DIE."
Some nights, it's "I'm going to die. I'm actively dying right now. Within minutes, my life will have ended. Why am I dying? I don't understand why this is happening, but it is. I don't want to die. Can somebody stop me from dying? Please, somebody, come stop me from dying. I've been left for dead and now I'm dying, but I don't want to die yet."
Some nights, it's "Why am I so bad? Why am I evil? I don't want to be bad, I only ever wanted to be good. But I'm not. I never have been, and I never will be. I'm nothing but bad and evil and wrong, so wrong. Everything about me is awful and wrong. Why am I like this? I don't mean to be, I don't want to be, but I am. Every cell of my body is made up of badness and nothing can ever change that."
Some nights, it's "Holy shit, everything is on fire. I am in imminent danger, how did I not see this during the day?! My life is crumbling, the people around me are unsafe and will be my demise if I let them. I need to get into contact with somebody, anybody, EVERYBODY who could possibly get me the fuck out of where I am now. There is no cost too high: I have absolutely no choice but to NOT BE HERE, not for one more second of time."
Some nights, it's "Please don't let them get to me. You, you there, you look like an adult. I remember your face, so you must be good and safe... You will keep me safe, right? Will you help me lock the doors? Will you stay up and keep watch, and make sure they aren't coming? You won't tell them where I am, right? Please, I just want to be safe. I want to be okay. I want to feel okay, but I need you to help. I can't keep them away by myself, but I need to be safe. Please, I just want to be okay."
There is no "checking in with the whole system". No grounding, no reminders of the present reality-- because that is the present reality. It's that present moment's reality. Reality is what we believe it is, and some of us believe in our version of reality, excluding all others, deep to our very core. There are no reassuring voices inside we can stay in contact with, nothing and no one outside we can look to that can convince us whatever we are experiencing is not just REALITY. We cannot be persuaded otherwise, no matter what anybody else (inside or outside) says to us.
For every one of those realities, those of us who experience it could write a thesis paper on the reasoning why it is true. And not only is it true, it's the truth; the one and only truth, that always has been and always will be. We are absolutely certain that anything we might have said or thought otherwise (at a different time under different circumstances) was simply a moment of delusion, a temporary slip in our ability to see and understand the real, unchangeable truth."
(The End)
If anyone at all who reads this can relate, or recognize maybe what it is that has made us so deeply divided that we cannot even agree on what is real and what isn't... It would be such a big help. We are feeling so stuck, and we think this is a big piece of that. Turns out it's actually pretty hard to have a "real life" when you literally cannot tell what is real and what isn't. 😮💨
Edited to fix the spoilers/formatting!
2024.05.02 23:36 Skydiving_Sloth Buying a $40k car?
Burner account for privacy, but a bit of background is definitely needed so y'all can produce an informed opinion, so here it goes:
That being, and because I'm not at all a car enthusiast, I'd ideally spend as little money as possible on a new car (the current market for used cars just doesn't seem competitive, as I'd end up paying "only" 10% less for a car with some mileage now only to potentially spend fairly more than that in repairs down the road). However I don't wish to go through this situation again anytime in the next many years, so taking all of the above data into account I'm planning to stretch a bit more and get a new, $40k car from one of the more reputable and reliable brands such as Toyota, Honda or Mazda (which, upon deep investigation, I found to be the most reliable, a sentiment that this sub seems to echo as well). It will set me back a considerable bit on my journey, but I plan to drive it to the absolute ground. I also plan to pay cash for it (or at least initially finance it just so I can get a nicer deal because that's apparently how it works, but then pay the loan off immediately unless the interest rate is acceptable and I can get at least part of it as yields from a HYSA). Running costs for a car of this value where I live are expected to be at most $1.5k/year (excluding gas, of course, but including taxes, maximum insurance, tires and yearly maintenance).
Am I being completely or partly unreasonable by thinking of spending this big a percentage of my current NW on a car, or does my thinking make sense and I'm actually overthinking how big of a setback this will represent?
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- Mid-to-high 30s, single, no kids.
- NW a bit below $200k (started my journey very late).
- No debt though, and live with my family.
- Expecting to earn around $150k/year (net) over the next three years.
- Yearly expenses around $35k (currently trying to address this).
- Have a paid-off, 4-year-old car currently worth around $10k.
- Had a 20+ years old car that was being used by the family, but just broke beyond repair.
That being, and because I'm not at all a car enthusiast, I'd ideally spend as little money as possible on a new car (the current market for used cars just doesn't seem competitive, as I'd end up paying "only" 10% less for a car with some mileage now only to potentially spend fairly more than that in repairs down the road). However I don't wish to go through this situation again anytime in the next many years, so taking all of the above data into account I'm planning to stretch a bit more and get a new, $40k car from one of the more reputable and reliable brands such as Toyota, Honda or Mazda (which, upon deep investigation, I found to be the most reliable, a sentiment that this sub seems to echo as well). It will set me back a considerable bit on my journey, but I plan to drive it to the absolute ground. I also plan to pay cash for it (or at least initially finance it just so I can get a nicer deal because that's apparently how it works, but then pay the loan off immediately unless the interest rate is acceptable and I can get at least part of it as yields from a HYSA). Running costs for a car of this value where I live are expected to be at most $1.5k/year (excluding gas, of course, but including taxes, maximum insurance, tires and yearly maintenance).
Am I being completely or partly unreasonable by thinking of spending this big a percentage of my current NW on a car, or does my thinking make sense and I'm actually overthinking how big of a setback this will represent?
2024.05.02 23:35 Upper_Football_7481 INTP and INTJ
I’m gonna share an experience regarding two INTJs in my life which kind of has me lowkey mind blown. I have a friend who’s an INTJ that I absolutely love. Her and I can literally talk for 7 hours straight non-stop when I’m generally someone who doesn’t feel very chatty w most people. She talks in the same abstract, in-detail, analytical way that I do except she’s more clear-cut w explaining things which I really admire cause it feels like my haphazard thoughts are being given structure w/o me having to do it. Now before her and I got close, I knew another INTJ who really got on my nerves sometimes. It always felt like there was potential to connect, yet somehow the connection wasn’t consistent. Found him to be very ‘my way or the high way’ and kind of pushy in terms of forcing his opinions on others. He also had a habit of quoting books and statistics but not in the way that intrigues my INTP thirst for knowledge but rather something which made me think stating ‘x,y and z’ is not definitive proof of how right you are and I’d appreciate more openness. I wonder if this is what people are talking about when they say ‘mature’ or ‘immature’ mbti types. Thoughts?
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2024.05.02 23:30 Ok_Garlic4639 Human Resource Jobs
Hello beautiful UAE community!
I am from Canada, looking to move to UAE. Currently I am working with a Property Management company for senior livings and have worked in health care field as a Human Resource Advisor. I have my CPHR. Been working for almost 5 years now.
However, recently with everything that is going on in Canada, with inflation and sky rocketing house prices, high taxes, hypocritical politicians, I am looking for a Human Resource position in UAE and would like to move. I have read the UAE labor law so pretty much aware of the labor rules there.
I have family in Abu Dhabi and Dubai but don’t want to rely on them too much. If any of you know anyone who is hiring or can help in anyway, in the form of information, or jobs, I would absolutely love the help!
Thank you!
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I am from Canada, looking to move to UAE. Currently I am working with a Property Management company for senior livings and have worked in health care field as a Human Resource Advisor. I have my CPHR. Been working for almost 5 years now.
However, recently with everything that is going on in Canada, with inflation and sky rocketing house prices, high taxes, hypocritical politicians, I am looking for a Human Resource position in UAE and would like to move. I have read the UAE labor law so pretty much aware of the labor rules there.
I have family in Abu Dhabi and Dubai but don’t want to rely on them too much. If any of you know anyone who is hiring or can help in anyway, in the form of information, or jobs, I would absolutely love the help!
Thank you!
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2024.05.02 23:28 IceGirl2 Need some figure skating boot advice - which one has the lowest drop?
I'm currently recovering (very slowly) from a foot injury and I find that my feet cramp after about 10/15 minutes. Medically I've got the all clear to keep skating so no worries there.
But, my boots are hurting me. I tried a pair of rentals with a lower heel and suddenly I could skate for an hour obviously I can't progress in boots like that. I've also noticed the same cramp in my feet when I walk in any of my old high heels so I think my feet just can't tolerate anything bar a small heel right now.
Any advice on what skates I can try instead?
I've tried Edea Overtures which I nicknamed torture boots because they hurt like hell. But I absolutely loved the shortness of the blade, the control is superb.
Then I got Risport Pro 3's which were fully fitted to my feet with custom insoles. I kept my Edea Charme blade because I love it. These are comfy for 5-10 minutes before my feet give up so I think the height of my heel is making me struggle.
My first "novice" boot was Jackson but I found the blade too long.
Any ideas anyone? I heard Riedell might work but struggling to find a place in the UK to go and try them on (might make another post about that seperately)
P.S. My skating level: UK Skate Level 6, Can spin, currently trying to master mohawks, starting to get the urge to jump
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But, my boots are hurting me. I tried a pair of rentals with a lower heel and suddenly I could skate for an hour obviously I can't progress in boots like that. I've also noticed the same cramp in my feet when I walk in any of my old high heels so I think my feet just can't tolerate anything bar a small heel right now.
Any advice on what skates I can try instead?
I've tried Edea Overtures which I nicknamed torture boots because they hurt like hell. But I absolutely loved the shortness of the blade, the control is superb.
Then I got Risport Pro 3's which were fully fitted to my feet with custom insoles. I kept my Edea Charme blade because I love it. These are comfy for 5-10 minutes before my feet give up so I think the height of my heel is making me struggle.
My first "novice" boot was Jackson but I found the blade too long.
Any ideas anyone? I heard Riedell might work but struggling to find a place in the UK to go and try them on (might make another post about that seperately)
P.S. My skating level: UK Skate Level 6, Can spin, currently trying to master mohawks, starting to get the urge to jump
2024.05.02 23:26 Icy-Competition-2302 New fave Leland build
 | Been using this build since they nerfed empowered, honestly kinda like it better than my old one that did use empowered cuz I can be a lot more stealthy this way, Perks are: submitted by Icy-Competition-2302 to TXChainSawGame [link] [comments] Highly skilled: Your proficiency is increased by 3/5/7 Condition: When you completely run out of stamina it takes 20/40/60% less time to start regenerating Bounce back better: Healing items used on you are 25/30/40% more effective. Counts for being healed and healing yourself Conditioned and bounce back better are random Perks so it’ll take a bit of respecing but it’s honestly worth it, conditioned + 35 endurance pretty much means your stamina instantly starts regenerating when you fully run out. I’ve found hes harder to heal with toughness above 35, but, you could absolute take 5 points from proficiency and put it into toughness if you’re someone doesn’t wanna go lower than 40! Overall, any loadout is good on him if you balance his stats but this one is the best imo! 😇 (P.S. don’t be afraid to use agitator instead of highly skilled 😉 |
2024.05.02 23:24 Impressive-Ad8875 What can one do to preserve their jawline definition when wisdom teeth removal is absolutely necessary?
I've already had my upper wisdom teeth removed as there was no space for them to properly erupt and they were coming in sideways, grazing my inner cheeks.
Almost a year has gone by and,thankfully, I haven't had any negative effects appearance wise. Although, these were simple extractions of semi-erupted teeth done by a dentist in the blink of an eye and there was probably minimal to no bone loss.
Now, one of my lower wisdom teeth seems to be trying to erupt and it's already pretty painful, I can see a faint white spot on the gum where it's coming in. I seem to have very little space in my lower arch, too, so I suspect I will eventually have to get both of my lower 3rd molars removed.
I know that removal of the lower ones is way more complicated and requires an actual surgery with higher risks of developing side effects and, from what I've gathered online, a high probability of gradually losing facial definition, firmness, overall harmony and symmetry as a result of the underlying supportive bone mass depleting.
I already have quite small and delicate facial bones and my chin barely qualifies as non-recessed. I've put a lot of work in watching my diet and lifestyle habits jut to get my face where it now is aesthetically, with a defined jawline and subtle hollowness to the cheeks, which actually creates an illusion of a nicely defined diamond-shaped face.
I am afraid that losing even an insignificant amount of bone will cause the soft tissue of my facial lower third to sag, I am at a loss trying to find a way to avoid this in case my wisdom teeth absolutely have to go ( sadly I'm pretty sure this will be the case).
I've suffered from serious self-image issues, especially focused on my face and any minor negative change to my looks has the potential of triggering serious mental health problems.
What options do I have?
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Almost a year has gone by and,thankfully, I haven't had any negative effects appearance wise. Although, these were simple extractions of semi-erupted teeth done by a dentist in the blink of an eye and there was probably minimal to no bone loss.
Now, one of my lower wisdom teeth seems to be trying to erupt and it's already pretty painful, I can see a faint white spot on the gum where it's coming in. I seem to have very little space in my lower arch, too, so I suspect I will eventually have to get both of my lower 3rd molars removed.
I know that removal of the lower ones is way more complicated and requires an actual surgery with higher risks of developing side effects and, from what I've gathered online, a high probability of gradually losing facial definition, firmness, overall harmony and symmetry as a result of the underlying supportive bone mass depleting.
I already have quite small and delicate facial bones and my chin barely qualifies as non-recessed. I've put a lot of work in watching my diet and lifestyle habits jut to get my face where it now is aesthetically, with a defined jawline and subtle hollowness to the cheeks, which actually creates an illusion of a nicely defined diamond-shaped face.
I am afraid that losing even an insignificant amount of bone will cause the soft tissue of my facial lower third to sag, I am at a loss trying to find a way to avoid this in case my wisdom teeth absolutely have to go ( sadly I'm pretty sure this will be the case).
I've suffered from serious self-image issues, especially focused on my face and any minor negative change to my looks has the potential of triggering serious mental health problems.
What options do I have?
2024.05.02 23:24 Bea_virago Product Rec: Totsquat potty
Hey, we wrapped up potty-training a few months ago, and I wanted to mention a product that helped us. It's the Totsquat potty. I paid full price for it and I'm not affiliated in any way, I just really liked it, and wanted to spread the word. Apparently it's out of stock right now, but it is worth looking forward to a restock, or finding one secondhand.
We did light EC til 15 months, then tried the 3 day method. While we were diaper-free in daytime afterwards, instead of it succeeding as potty training it just transitioned us to hardcore EC. That is, we were doing the work of taking him potty, he wasn't self-initiating. Which is probably because he was just a year and a quarter old! It was definitely a success, just took more bandwidth than I'd hoped for. I'm really glad I have hard floors, because I cleaned a lot of puddles. On the bright side, he'd go a month at a time with every poop in the potty, and it gave us tons of info about his food allergies (eating corn makes him poop on the floor every time? oh, good to know). Interestingly, he never had accidents when out and about. It was at home, when I was distracted and he wanted to go play instead of sitting on the potty.
My kid was not particularly verbal, so we used a gross-motor hand sign (slapping his chest twice) to indicate he wanted to go.
By 18 months, he was almost ready for real potty-training, but we had a couple problems: he couldn't push his pants down, and he couldn't sit on the green ikea potty without it scooting backwards out from under him. It was too high and too light. Donald Ducking it fixed the first problem at home, so we needed a better potty.
The Totsquat is designed for excellent pooping posture, like a squatty potty creates for adults. I should care about that, but I don't. What I care about is the handle, and interestingly, the little board book it comes with. The board book absolutely captivated my toddler. Seeing pictures of another little person using the potty meant he instantly got what it was for and how to use it.
And the handle meant he could do it all himself. He could hold on, swing a leg over, and crouch down any time he felt like it. He was fully potty trained within 3 weeks of its arrival, at 19.5 months.
Now, at 24 months, he's almost completely potty-independent. We wear diapers for sleeping because I can't handle the laundry if he pees upon waking, but during the day he now climbs up on the big potty (we use a TinyHiney Topseat) or uses the green potty just fine.
Holler if you have any questions.
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We did light EC til 15 months, then tried the 3 day method. While we were diaper-free in daytime afterwards, instead of it succeeding as potty training it just transitioned us to hardcore EC. That is, we were doing the work of taking him potty, he wasn't self-initiating. Which is probably because he was just a year and a quarter old! It was definitely a success, just took more bandwidth than I'd hoped for. I'm really glad I have hard floors, because I cleaned a lot of puddles. On the bright side, he'd go a month at a time with every poop in the potty, and it gave us tons of info about his food allergies (eating corn makes him poop on the floor every time? oh, good to know). Interestingly, he never had accidents when out and about. It was at home, when I was distracted and he wanted to go play instead of sitting on the potty.
My kid was not particularly verbal, so we used a gross-motor hand sign (slapping his chest twice) to indicate he wanted to go.
By 18 months, he was almost ready for real potty-training, but we had a couple problems: he couldn't push his pants down, and he couldn't sit on the green ikea potty without it scooting backwards out from under him. It was too high and too light. Donald Ducking it fixed the first problem at home, so we needed a better potty.
The Totsquat is designed for excellent pooping posture, like a squatty potty creates for adults. I should care about that, but I don't. What I care about is the handle, and interestingly, the little board book it comes with. The board book absolutely captivated my toddler. Seeing pictures of another little person using the potty meant he instantly got what it was for and how to use it.
And the handle meant he could do it all himself. He could hold on, swing a leg over, and crouch down any time he felt like it. He was fully potty trained within 3 weeks of its arrival, at 19.5 months.
Now, at 24 months, he's almost completely potty-independent. We wear diapers for sleeping because I can't handle the laundry if he pees upon waking, but during the day he now climbs up on the big potty (we use a TinyHiney Topseat) or uses the green potty just fine.
Holler if you have any questions.
2024.05.02 23:21 TightSecretary395 R117H 12TG-5T CARRIERS/ CF
Wondering if anyone with these mutations can shed some light for me. 1. If you are a carrier only, are you symptomatic? I have spoken to a handful who have been. What are your symptoms like, and how are you controlling them? 2. If you are a carrier and a male, do you have CBAVD? Or has the potential of CBAVD been discussed by your doctor? 3. If you have CF and have R117H mutation and 5T as a secondary, how are your symptoms?
Back story- We have recently had my 12yo tested for CF mutations due to completely random symptom, being aquagenic wrinkling of the palms that he has presented with for many years, and quite frankly I never thought anything of it until now. To our surprise, it come back with heterozygous R117H and heterozygous 12TG-5T. He has just undergone a sweat chloride test, and I have had blood work done to find whether the 5T is is with the R117H or a secondary mutation. Neither results will be recieved for 2 weeks.
Upon researching, I have found that my son does actually have some symptoms of CF. For example, chronic ongoing stomach and bowel issues from birth (chronic nausea, vomiting, stomach upset, frequent loose bowel movements) with no found cause (though most doctors have done little to no tests), reflux, highly susceptible to illness, reoccurring sinus and respiratory related infections (which have gotten better since he's been homeschooled for 5 years, and had his adenoids and tonsils removed), very low weight from newborn to age 8 despite a good diet, mild asthma. Which leaves us here. We have not been referred to any specialists yet, and our doctor knows absolutely 0 about CF or CF MUTATIONS. So I am reaching out to those with lived experience to help clear up the questions I have.
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Back story- We have recently had my 12yo tested for CF mutations due to completely random symptom, being aquagenic wrinkling of the palms that he has presented with for many years, and quite frankly I never thought anything of it until now. To our surprise, it come back with heterozygous R117H and heterozygous 12TG-5T. He has just undergone a sweat chloride test, and I have had blood work done to find whether the 5T is is with the R117H or a secondary mutation. Neither results will be recieved for 2 weeks.
Upon researching, I have found that my son does actually have some symptoms of CF. For example, chronic ongoing stomach and bowel issues from birth (chronic nausea, vomiting, stomach upset, frequent loose bowel movements) with no found cause (though most doctors have done little to no tests), reflux, highly susceptible to illness, reoccurring sinus and respiratory related infections (which have gotten better since he's been homeschooled for 5 years, and had his adenoids and tonsils removed), very low weight from newborn to age 8 despite a good diet, mild asthma. Which leaves us here. We have not been referred to any specialists yet, and our doctor knows absolutely 0 about CF or CF MUTATIONS. So I am reaching out to those with lived experience to help clear up the questions I have.
2024.05.02 23:19 girlwhopanics Nothingburger Explanations?
So there’s a chance she appears in public at some point in the future and we never get a satisfying explanation for the past months of extreme secrecy and weirdness.
Assuming this will happen (which I don’t necessarily believe), I’m curious what other folks think would be plausible explanations for her total disappearance and the absolute disaster mishandling the announcement.
I honestly think one of the more plausible ‘nothingburger’ explanations for the cover up is that the firm learned both major royals had cancer in the same week and that just sort of broke the machinery (machinery built more for concealing serious health conditions and highly resistant to disclosing them).
The fact that there was so little speculation from the gossiping gentry… that no lords or ladies were offering their well wishes… to me remains one of the more concrete super weird things about what was going on. It’s a few hundred people who LOVE cruel gossip more than they love their children, and they were silent. Shit was locked down.
Additionally, highly discrete palace-to-palace negotiations about how to announce each illness, who would be first… I can see that causing huge ego clashes. One of the better jokes I saw was about how they didn’t want public sympathy for Kate to overshadow the sympathy for Charles (bc she’s by far more popular and sympathetic).
Add to that both of them getting secret surgeries and starting secret treatments (and lying about what exactly those things were for bc there wasn’t an announcement)
It seems very ‘Royal family is not normal or a real family’ comedy of errors to me.
And of course they would need to keep such embarrassing and weird discussions about how to handle truth a secret, leading to more lies.
I think it’s possible she isn’t looking well and as an extremely image-conscious person (for good reason) simply does not want to be seen right now. Photoshop was used, video filters were used. Also an embarrassing thing to admit.
If this is anywhere close to the truth, I think it’s gross to treat cancer as something to be ashamed of and hidden, what kind of message does that send to the public?
That’s just me taking off the tin foil hat for a second, wondering why more people aren’t questioning even these stupid inconsistencies in the official narrative. Curious if anyone else thinks about this angle ever?
All that said, at this point I would not be surprised if she’s never seen again. It def seems like she’s already dead.
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Assuming this will happen (which I don’t necessarily believe), I’m curious what other folks think would be plausible explanations for her total disappearance and the absolute disaster mishandling the announcement.
I honestly think one of the more plausible ‘nothingburger’ explanations for the cover up is that the firm learned both major royals had cancer in the same week and that just sort of broke the machinery (machinery built more for concealing serious health conditions and highly resistant to disclosing them).
The fact that there was so little speculation from the gossiping gentry… that no lords or ladies were offering their well wishes… to me remains one of the more concrete super weird things about what was going on. It’s a few hundred people who LOVE cruel gossip more than they love their children, and they were silent. Shit was locked down.
Additionally, highly discrete palace-to-palace negotiations about how to announce each illness, who would be first… I can see that causing huge ego clashes. One of the better jokes I saw was about how they didn’t want public sympathy for Kate to overshadow the sympathy for Charles (bc she’s by far more popular and sympathetic).
Add to that both of them getting secret surgeries and starting secret treatments (and lying about what exactly those things were for bc there wasn’t an announcement)
It seems very ‘Royal family is not normal or a real family’ comedy of errors to me.
And of course they would need to keep such embarrassing and weird discussions about how to handle truth a secret, leading to more lies.
I think it’s possible she isn’t looking well and as an extremely image-conscious person (for good reason) simply does not want to be seen right now. Photoshop was used, video filters were used. Also an embarrassing thing to admit.
If this is anywhere close to the truth, I think it’s gross to treat cancer as something to be ashamed of and hidden, what kind of message does that send to the public?
That’s just me taking off the tin foil hat for a second, wondering why more people aren’t questioning even these stupid inconsistencies in the official narrative. Curious if anyone else thinks about this angle ever?
All that said, at this point I would not be surprised if she’s never seen again. It def seems like she’s already dead.
2024.05.02 23:15 Acurawagondude I cannot stand my boss.
I work for a great company, they treat me really well, they are very flexible and seriously I cannot complain about the job. When I started at the company, the person who is my current boss was just a coworker on a different team doing something completely different. Now, she is on her high horse, giving everybody orders and sending us little torture messages throughout the day. Before she was my boss, she was OK but now she is just so unlikable and honestly, I can’t even look at her. I wish it was not like this, but she is just so annoying and so hard to look at. My ears literally hurt when she starts talking because she has an absolutely nothing of any substance to say. She’s the kind of boss that will do things to show up and will pull you into private meeting to put her foot down all over stupid shit that means nothing. She’s the kind of person that does not leave her house and will do anything for the boss in order to keep her precious work from home job. Any one of her commands come from way up in the food chain but man does she enforce them like the Gestapo. My previous boss at this company was literally awesome and we got along so well but since she came along she’s just been a pain in my ass.
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