Dear doctors of reddit or parents with ANY CLUE what to do, I am at a loss now and need to know what I must do to get any doctor to help.

Backstory:

Ages 10, 12, and 17
I was diagnosed with scoliosis at 10 with an "S" curve at 31 degrees by one surgeon. He said I didn't need a brace nor surgery no matter how much my mother talked to him.
2 years later I had transferred to a new surgeon at a 51 degree angle at the time of my first spinal fusion (waist to neck) and a correctional (waist to halfway up spine) 4 years later due to back pain and problems walking.
Age 19 - Now (25)
I began having back pain again which triggered the idea of needing a correctional and these problems were lessened for a very short while until about 19 when a specific part of my lower back begin to hurt. I have sharp pain in my back from sitting or standing to long, walking to far, or twisting. I have gone to multiple doctors who have brushed off my pain as it became worse and debilitating to a point that my husband has had to assist me in and out of a bath or bed at times since I was 22. Now that I am pregnant, I just got released from the hospital after having my right leg completely give out, now barely able to walk, in horrible pain and the 5 doctors I saw there are pinning it on either "Nothing's showing in the scans, so there's nothing wrong. That's good." (I CAN'T WALK WITHOUT A WALKER) or "It's just worse cause of your pregnancy."
While I agree, it may be worse cause of my pregnancy, I have not had the ability to function in my everyday life on my own since 19 and it has only worsened since 22. I have brought in paper work, showed the medical history, and switched doctors many times to try to get help.

Question

What do I have to do to get a doctor that will take my pain seriously? I cannot function anymore and after I have a child, I doubt it will be any better. Hasn't gotten better in 6 years.

I'll start by saying we've been married for approximately 13 years, and most of that time has been great!
When I met my wife, she was already working as a flight attendant, and we always knew kids were in our future. A couple of years into our marriage, we decided to start trying and now have two amazing kids.
Fast forward, and she’s been back to flying for about three years now.
She works 50% of the time, flying anywhere from 4-7 days per month, mainly back to the US. She also has another part-time home office job where she works 20 hours a week. The hours are flexible, and she can split them up however she wants, working more some weeks and less when she's flying.
Our kids are 6 and 8 and are very active, including participating in competitive sports at a national level. We recently built a house and have a lot of friends with various activities planned each day/week.
Now, enough background and on to the point of the post.
We live in Germany, where there are robust employee protection rights, allowing one to call in sick up to 20 days for personal illness and 10 days per child. Recently, I’ve noticed she’s overwhelmed and stressed, often calling in sick to her flight attendant job mainly to avoid missing the kids' activities (especially the competitive sports).
My salary is OK but not great, considering the total hours worked (flight attendants only get paid when the plane is moving, not for the briefings conducted 4 hours before takeoff). However, her additional income helps with future retirement planning and other expenses.
I recently suggested she evaluate if she still enjoys flying. If not, I proposed she consider quitting and increasing her hours at her other job to about 30 hours a week. This way, she could handle more of our personal lives and the kids' needs (one of our kids has severe ADHD and requires regular attention). This change could provide a more stable environment for our kids and be financially beneficial since the salary is better at her side job. I also pointed out how often the kids say they miss her and ask why she has to fly. To be clear, I always support her by explaining to the kids that this is her job and some moms have jobs that require travel.
This is where she lost it.
She accused me of "trying to take away her happiness" and said that I "married her as a flight attendant." She said, "this is her dream job, and she's not quitting for anyone," basically accusing me of trying to take away her happiness. She also mentioned that "not everyone has to hate their job like you do." To clarify, I don’t hate my job; it fulfills me, but it’s definitely not my dream job.
I tried to explain that people evolve, situations change, and what was practical 10 years ago may not be practical now.
I reminded her that I was a bartender when she met me, living a completely different lifestyle. I decided to get an office job with better pay and more stable hours in anticipation of our family life.
I explained that I really loved bartending, tending to guests, and building social relationships with people.
She then suggested I "go back to doing what I love." I tried explaining how it’s not financially feasible (since the salary is approximately 70% lower) and that we wouldn’t be able to afford our house and current lifestyle.
This is where happiness became conditional. She listed all the things we wouldn’t be able to do if I took a pay cut and ended by saying, "but you can if you want to."
She knows my decision to take a happier role would cause financial discomfort for the entire family, leading to everyone’s unhappiness.
My question is, AITA for asking her to consider trading in her dream job for one that's more compatible with our high-demand lifestyle (where she could potentially earn more)?

31 F. No medical hx. No meds.
I’ve had upper left shoulder back pain for a few years now. It wakes me up out of my sleep sometimes and I literally just roll around in pain until ibuprofen kicks in so I can fall back asleep. Sometimes it keeps me up for hours. The pain is an crampy ache, like I desperately need my back cracked. When this pain occurs I notice the lymph node on the back of my neck to the left gets big and hard. It’s in between the size of a dime and Nickel. When the pain goes away, the lymph node goes down in size but is still palpable.
Initially, I brought up this lymph node to my PCP. Had an ultrasound and neck CT done with contrast that showed I had multiple other lymph nodes in my neck that were large but not of concerning enough size. I had that specific lymph node biopsied and they got more fat than actual lymph node but the small sample they got seemed normal. Labs seemed normal outside of a mildly elevated ESR. They recommended me getting another biopsy if the lymph node was still there in 3 months. Well, three months later it was still there obviously since it’s been there for years but didn’t grow in size so the doctor didn’t want to do another biopsy and said it would probably go away in time.
It’s never gone away. The pain still comes and goes and I have no idea what to do about it. Curious to see if anyone has had a similar issue? Ibuprofen 800 helps a little and so does icy hot. I was prescribed flexeril but all it does is make me sleepy and does absolutely nothing for the back pain. In fact , I feel like it makes it worse. I feel like my pain is dismissed and I’m miserable when the pain starts.
Any advice ?

Hey all, I'm sure these "what do these symptoms sound like" posts get redundant, but I'm trying to help my mom. Over the past 6 months she's been in increasing amounts of pain. I had her type out her story and I'm going to post it for her. I myself was diagnosed with fibro back in 2020. My pain is different than hers but as we know, fibro comes in all sorts of flavors. Take a look below and lmk what you think. Hope you're having an awesome and pain free day :)
"Back in November I injured my back from picking up a young child incorrectly, I picked her up with my arms extended instead of close to my core, right after I picked her up I felt a “twinge” in my lower back and thought to myself darn my back didn’t like that and set her down. I didn’t think much of it and went on with my day, by the next day I noticed my sciatia was bothering me. I waited one more day and then decided to see my acupuncturist, and she solved my problem but I noticed back pain lingered. I continued my usual daily routines and work schedule. Weeks passed and still the pain wasn’t going away. I also started to develop severe acid reflux and had no previous history then came constipation, and stomach pain after I would eat no matter what I ate or how small the meal. I started twice weekly acupuncture treatments hoping for relief. I had a little but nothing consistent. After six weeks of twice a week treatments I stopped. The back pain seem to get worse, it didn’t matter if I would try to do nothing and just relax or if I had a busy day and took care of my grandson.
The pain patterns don’t make sense, the soreness can feel like its directly in my spine or the muscles on each side of my spine. Sometimes my back muscles hurt so bad it’s the type of sore pain that you feel when you get the flu and have intense body aches. The pain is localized from my mid back down to my lower back. As time goes on the nights seem to be the worse, I fall sleep but with 1 to 2 hours I wake up with pain in extreme intensity, it feels like someone is squeezing my entire torso or crushing my spine. Heat use to help but it doesn’t bring soothing relief anymore. In the past 1-2 months the intensity of the pain has been getting worse to the point where it affects my ability to cope with the pain and I start to do short rapid breathing to cop with it, kind of like being in labor.
I decided to consult a chiropractor to be evaluated for possible disk or vertebrae damage. He had a different approach to testing and evaluating, he uses a computerized test the measures the central nervous system along with health history and x-rays. He references the sympathetic and para-sympathetic system and how those systems affect so many systems throughout the body and I was familiar with the information is why I concluded my acid reflux and stomach issues developed shortly after my back injury. After researching online I concluded that I developed Gastroparesis which is tied to the Vegus nerve and its functions. I was going three times a week for adjustments but now I’m going daily because we learned that my nervous system is so inflamed that even the adjustments cause me immense pain later that day and the next.
I feel like there hasn’t been any significant improvements yet. It’s almost getting worse the longer time passes. Nights are my most dreaded time because I only sleep 3-4 hours and I go from my bed to couch trying to change positions or use ice or heat to bring hopeful relief. Nothing seems to help, no position lying or sitting, heat or ice, resting or active. Occasionally I have a day where the pain is minimal and then I think I’m on my way to normalcy then the night or next day is unbearable. The past two days I’ve had to resort to taking over the counter pain medication but I haven’t resorted to that because I know it can cause stomach and liver damage.
Overall summary of pain; mild to extreme lower back muscle, tissue or nerve pain/ mid spine directly in my vertebrae a feeling as if some put a wedge right into my spine/ entire back muscle pain so intense that when the hot water of a shower hits it I cringe until my body adjusts/ acid reflux but has almost disappeared with the help of chiropractic adjustments, stomach pains after eating continue and are very painful/ constipation improved with chiropractor adjustments but has returned again/ Epson salt baths, hot showers, inferred sauna all help while in process but after the pain and soreness return/ physical therapy helped strengthen core but no back relief/ yoga poses or stretches don’t help/ meditative breathing doesn’t help.

It's been 6 months the incident/trigger of injury doesn’t justify the length and intensity of ongoing pain. I believe my body has been in the sympathetic mode (fight or flight) for months. I just want to understand why this is lingering so long and so intense. Any feedback is greatly appreciated."

The scariest thing about Nothing.. about being Nothing is that nobody remembers. When nothing takes you, it's like you never existed.. till it spits you back out.
Watching the clock at work becomes such a daunting habit. You get so used to the monotony of watching the clock tick away, and somehow the seconds seem to be at an endless supply. Before you know it, the hours are gone, and when you get home it somehow feels as if it all had never happened. Hours of your life so meticulously spent doing just enough now behind you.
Time is so precious because of it's one way trip. You got forward, typical. You got backwards, something for the dreamers.. But Time was different for me today. I think that thing took me.. somewhere else. Like if.. if Time were some straight path, then it pulled me off course.
At 4:37 in the morning I took liberty in shutting off my computer. All things considered, I was running considerably late today. Work was backed up, curtesy of trucking errors. To make a long story short, 4 pallets of produce simply.. vanished. All you'd really need to gather from such meaningless information is that I was suddenly put on the for front of discovering how $5,000 worth of food had somehow grown legs and walked away.
The best answer I had..? None! I had not a clue, and after what felt like hundreds of calls, I was greeted to the warm embrace of humid Georgia air. There were no leads. I was no detective, so the ultimate conclusion of this predicament could be summed up as, "It's not my problem."
All I needed in this moment was to make my way to the bus stop. So, that's exactly what I did. Maybe twelve or so minutes had passed. I was excited to see the bus make it's way around those trees. It was by no means the longest wait, but what can I say? I was a hangry fellow.
I convinced myself that it wasn't my problem, that I wouldn't allow it to be my problem. The unfortunate thing about life is that problems have a tendency to fall into the laps of those who just did as they were told. Now, I'm not one to make some social commentary on the state of the world's general fairness, but the point to be made is my adopted philosophy that unless a problem can't just be brushed off my legs, then I'll leave it to someone else.
So maybe I'm an asshole, maybe I lack integrity, but it's honestly no deeper than "that's how the cookie crumbles." We are all cogs in the world, might as well let one of the other gears have a chance to spin! Make their money's worth.

"Helluva' night, huh?"

I jumped to such a sudden question presented to me. It was a problem, in my lap.
"That obvious?"
I responded sarcastically, looking over my shoulder to be greeted by a young face. Some kid, looked no older than twenty with orange hair and foggy eyes.. eyes that admittedly sent a shiver down my spine. The kind of eyes that.. well, you know how they say a dead person's eyes look cold? It was like that, only I wouldn't describe them as cold. Just.. empty.
"Well between the heavy sigh and tapping foot, just seems like you got somewhere to be."
Whoever this was didn't seem to be looking at me. It was quite uncomfortable that he'd just admit to having analyzed my situation, but perhaps I was looking to far into things. He just had his eyes locked forward, so why he made any effort to speak to me was still unclear. It wasn't unusual for a stranger to try to make light talk during the ride, but something about this kid irked me.
Part of me felt some level of guilt when I stopped the conversation there. I'm not sure if I'm lucky or not to say I think the kid took the hint of my uncomfortably, and for the remaining 20 minutes of the trip he was seemingly preoccupied with staring out the window. It wasn't until I stood upon reaching my stop that he ever seemed to bother looking up.. but not at me.
Again this kid had just stared straight ahead, and even now I couldn't get a great look at his face. His hair seemed to obscure it, and whatever the hair hadn't covered seemed to be so enveloped in shadow to a point that identifying him beyond his hair was seemingly impossible. He was dressed so casually, so casually that detailing his worn black hoodie and faded grey jeans would do no good.
I shook my head.. shook this problem off my shoulders feeling the weight of an unsettling interaction lift from my mind the moment I stepped out of that bus onto the final stretch of pavement between myself and my neighborhood. 5:02 AM
Where is the.. humidity?
I felt a bubbling anxiety, just crossing my arms and lowering my head.. I wanted to hide. My heart was suddenly screaming, and the irrationality of it all hit me like a truck.
"What is wrong.. the hell is wrong?"
I'd confused myself with my emotions, my eyes darting from left to right. Nobody was around me, nobody was behind me, I was alone! So I took a deep breath..
"Helluva' night, huh?"
My eyes shot open, suddenly my heart bounding and my breaths heavy. I know I head him I know I did! But he wasn't here. He was still on the bus, he never got u-..
I turned my head to look in the bus window. The doors screeched, shutting firmly as the bus engine practically roared out into the night. The wheels hummed, the burst of air sounding out as the bus continued motion.
My eyes looked into that window. The window I sat at, where he was next to me.. I was aisle side, he was window side.
He never got up.
He wasn't there.
That was the final straw. I began walking home, speed walking. To hell if anymore problems would fall into my lap. Not this morning, not today! I would get home, I'd climb into bed, and I'd sleep this off. I had to sleep.. I had to go.
"It's not my problem.."
I told myself.
"He moved seats.."
I rationalized the situation. Where did he go? I didn't see him.. He couldn't have just disappeared! Those damn pallets! I did anything I could, fought with my mind to mute my rapid heartbeat. Anything I could think of, any way to distract myself from the fact that the crickets were silent, that the stars weren't out that..
Is something watching me..?
When my house came into view, I wasted no time in fully sprinting to my door, finding my keys and barging that door open, slamming it behind me. I swiftly locked it back. To hell with a shower! I'd be damned if I were too...
"Helluva' night, huh?"
My fully body turned faster than my mind could keep up with. That damned voice!
"GET OUT OF MY HOUS-.."

But I saw nothing.
Let me paint this picture for you. When I say I saw nothing, I mean there wasn't only nobody there, but there was nothing at all. There was no room behind me, no bed, no door, no world. Empty.. empty like his eyes! There was nothing! Nothing but that one.. light.
There was a white orb. It got closer, and closer. I saw a silhouette.. It was some lengthy figure with no arms? And.. its wore this cloak of nothing. Somehow I looked into a place? No.. There was something else behind it..? Not like I'd ever find out!
One second my room, my world, was enveloped with an infinitely spanning nothingness, and in the blink of an eye it was contained into this figure! It took all the nothing!
My room was back! My world! WHAT IS HAPPENING? I don't.. remember.. But then it vanished. The nothingness was gone.
Watching the clock at work becomes such a daunting habit. You get so used to the monotony of watching the clock tick away, and somehow the seconds seem to be at an endless supply. Before you know it, the hours are gone, and when you get home it somehow feels as if it all had never happened.
Hours of my life so meticulously spent doing nothing now behind me.
It's now 3:37 in the afternoon and I remember. I crashed my car, Thomas is dead. His truck is in that ditch back in Duluth.
I remember.
That's why I took the bus.. Thomas is dead. The truck was flipped. 4 pallets gone.
It visited me tonight. Nothing. I saw that boys face, I just can't remember. Nothing.. almost took me today, but I finally understand why they never looked for me. They all forgot me too. I killed Thomas. I didn't mean to but it didn't matter! Everyone knew! It was on the news, it was everywhere! But..
Nothing walked with me tonight.. and you all forgot. You forgot everything.
~I need you to remember me!~
At 3:37 in the afternoon, two months ago, my car collided with Thomas's truck. He'd fallen asleep at the wheel. I was lucky to make it out with my life. The following weeks my story was covered by local news outlets, and the world moved on. That's what happens with Time.. but it was more than that. I'd forgotten what really happened. That boy.. he was with me, in the car, that day. I think.. I think he is the Nothing. I think he IS the.. the Void. He took Thomas.
We.. we all forgot! 4 pallets? Where'd they go? I couldn't remember the funeral! I was gone for three weeks. When I turned around and saw that light, when I came back.. when he left, it had been three weeks. I didn't have a single call! Not from mom, not from work! I was FORGOTTEN!
But.. it's not my problem anymore.
You all really forgot. I got went to mom's and my pictures were gone. Dad's? Same thing. I was gone, for three weeks. Nothing took me. Nothing is.. mad at me? And I don't know why! I was nothing.. someone please!
Do any of you remember? What is my name?!

First time redditor so apologies for formatting or if this is the wrong sub for this question. Situation - we are moving and dont know what to do with our house.
Some info - We bought our house a couple of years ago for 910k. It was an emotional purchase and in hindsight we should not have signed on to such a large mortgage, but here we are. We still owe 800k and the house is currently "worth" 800-850k according to local agents. We also recently had a rental appraisal done which came back ~$600 pw if we're lucky (small house, rural town).
If the house sells, we will walk away either owing the bank money or (if we are really lucky) with ~10k in our pockets. So basically a loss of up to $90k if we sell.
If we rent it out, we will have to contribute ~$500-600pw to cover all costs. It's also not a very rental-friendly property (no garage, not properly fenced, ALOT of grass to mow, lots to keep maintained etc). So renting it will mean around $30k sunk in the first year, not including any unplanned maintenance issues that pop up.
Our situation also gets a bit more complicated as we are selling our business aswell, so if/when that sells we will have around 130k. We could use this as a new house deposit, or pay down the mortgage and have slightly lower repayments if we rent it out.
We just don't know what to do. We are absolutely gutted that we will lose money no matter what decision we make. We never plan to move back here either so leaning towards cutting our losses now but we are worried that it might not be the best choice as we're moving to Auckland where obviously houses are much more expensive.
Sell now or rent for a few years and sell later?
Any advice is greatly appreciated.

They think and talk about things in the most Black and White fashion imaginable.
Does anybody remember this article or I think U.N report that said Gaza will be unlivable by 2020 that appeared in the mid 2010s? This is a really common thing I see where they can’t just point out the actual suffering but instead have to exaggerate an already bad situation. You see this again, again and again. Remember the hospital bombing which is in dispute who ever did it. They at first said like 500 killed then it dropped too like 100 killed. Theirs “no” drinking water but you don’t have tens of thousands of people dying in 3 days?
Also the definition of genocide is soooooooooo vague they like too use. WHY NOT JUST POINT OUT THAT HEAVY CIVILIAN CASUALTIES AND ISRAELI BEING HEAVY HANDED IN THEIR TACTICS? Why not point out despite all the massive bombing and fighting in the north their still is heavy fighting and now an insurgency.
The worst is when theirs serious downplaying. “WELL HAMAS KILLED ONLY LIKE 70% CIVILIAN WHICH IS LOWER.” Or “ THEIRS ONLY FIRST HAND ACCOUNTS OF RAPE NO HARD EVIDENCE.” Jeez hundreds of militants slaughter hundreds of people and capture them and people who were captured claimed they were sexually assaulted and you’re leaning towards their making it up?
They do this I think because they think it hurts their cause. Listen I’m pro Ukraine and yeah Ukrainian soldiers have 100% committed war crimes it dosen’t mean the Ukrainian an cause isn’t just. But remember these same people think
I saw on secular talk that he thinks 92% of the deaths are civilian? Even Hamas admitted back in March they lost 6k fighters even though one of them later took it back. I’m Preety sure if that 92% figure is true it would mean Israeli has suffered more causalities than Palestine militants. The whole “Israeli isn’t going after Hamas” is probably the most fucking stupid take I’ve heard about this and shows way too much bias. Yeah lets hundreds of soldiers get killed, destroy our international relations so we can kill a few tens of thousands of them.
It reminds me of when Hasan can’t just say the current estimates for Iraq War 2003 to 2024 Excessive deaths of around 500,000 to maybe 800,000. But instead has too throw out a number like 3 million deaths.
Just state the facts. I know that’s a meme thing to say but why go over the top? I’m not pro Israeli it annoys me how these conversations get so twisted for their own vanity.

Hi, I'm new here, recently got TC back on April 15, got surgery on April 23rd.
3 days after Orchiectomy I started experiencing butt pain that would radiate up to my lower back and down to my legs, a week after they removed my lefty I did a CT Scan, while waiting for my turn to be scanned I was in constant butt pain(sitting on a hard ass monoblock made it worse) that sometimes radiates up my lower back. The pain wasn't severe, I would give it a 2 or 3/10.
5 days later, scan did not find any enlarged abdominal and inguinal lymph nodes*cue relief* , it did find a fatty liver and some endplate bone spurs on my lumbar spine(which I think might have caused my back pain not sure) though lol. I went to have my blood tested and my tumor markers significantly went down 2 weeks after orchi. Pre-Orchi it was AFP: 262, HCG: 3,130, LDH: 227; Post-Orchi 2 weeks later it became: AFP: 23.89, HCG: <5, LDH: 180.0. Still waiting for the biopsy results.
up until now I still get butt and lower back pain, I have poor posture when sitting so it makes it worse(probably how I got the lower back pain ig). I still get anxious about it but my relatives keeps telling me to calm down and worrying about it might make the situation worse than it really is. Will have my follow up check up with my uro when we get the biopsy results. Right now I calm myself by praying, watching YT vids, playing Baldur's Gate 3. I can't play sports yet because of the surgical wound which sucks.

I’ve read online that people with anterior pelvic tilt have pronation of the foot and there knees bend inwards when their pelvis tilts forward. But for me, I’ve been dealing with anterior pelvic tilt for the last 10 years now and my lower back is always in so much pain whenever I stand, however my weight shifts onto the outside of my foot rather than inwards and I’m not sure why this is the case, is there other muscles contributing to my tilt other than the hip flexors? I’m not too sure on this matter. Any opinions will be amazing, thank you

For anyone who uses the AP module to send ACH from Sage 100, were you able to set this up yourself without Sage Support help? It took us 2 months to get someone to get back to us, and after a 30 phone call was told they "typically" help with set up because they will set up the initial file to our bank. It's been 2 weeks since then and i can not get ahold of them to get this going. I did some research on populating a pre-note with the first vendor ACH payment that you enter and it doesn't seem too hard. "Typically" to me means i can do it myself. Can i do this myself?

I am 29 years old and I have a master's degree in mechatronics engineering. I don't have much work experience and the ones I had were not very good (because I can't say I learned much).
I'm currently working in an average company, my salary is not bad, but the reason they hired me was for an automation project and the project is constantly stopped by the management. Their planning is very bad. It has been 7 months since I started working and even the programs that should be on the computers have not been provided by It. Or when you want to do something and firstly you need permission from your manager, they are always postponing and at the end they are not answering at all. To be honest, I come to the office every day, sit down and go back. It seems that the future does not look good in this workplace. The work is in small city, nothing to do here. But I am saving a lot of money for wedding, rent is really cheap here etc.
Also, I only have left a few months to finish my agreement in my current company and I don't feel safe if they will offer me new one because I almost haven't done any work. Even if they will give me agreement, it will be again for 1 year. And for sure I will have the same stress next year.
The other day I received an offer from a large international company, the salary is about 20% lower and it is a lower position (I am currently in a normal engineer position, but the new company offered me a Junior position). If I will move there my expenses will be higher and I can't save that much like I used to.
What do you think should be done in this situation? On the one hand, it seems ridiculous to accept and start with less money and a lower position, but I can't say that I would learn anything if I stayed where I am working now. But on the other hand maybe I can really develop myself in this new company. What would you do in such a situation. Thanks

Hi all. Had chest infection and a 5 day course of AntiBs back on 10th April which sorted out the nasty stuff in my chest, but I can’t shift the cough
Random attacks of coughing where I can’t breathe during the coughs, my throat seems to close up and the only way I can get air down is by breathing through my nose as shallowly as possible.
Each time it happens my eyes water and I genuinely feel like I am suffocating for 10/15 seconds. My friend also has it, and he likens it to a 15 second panic attack, struggling to breath. Never had this before with a cough.
When it passes, I’m fine, I cycle to work, swim etc. My lungs don’t feel like they are damaged or have lower capacity.
Doctors just say it’s a viral thing and will pass, Any tips on how to get rid quicker? I am fed up of being looked at in the street ike I’m a dead man walking.

I left her 6 weeks ago after a 9 month relationship she left me 22 times during this 9 months It’s been 6 weeks I have beeen drinking heavily every single day since there hasn’t been much time I’ve been sober because if I’m not drunk I’m just depressed I chose to leave her I know it’s my fault but all of the empty promises and good words with lack of any actual actions ever made me make the decision. It’s been silence the entire 6 weeks weird because usually the longest would have been 2/3 weeks max before she blew up my phone asking to see me via no caller id. Of course I’m drunk right now getting the bus home have been drinking every single shift it’s an escape otherwise I’m feeling extremely depressed and it’s having physical effects such as body aches no energy etc. the last interaction we had was me blowing up on her verbally I was horrible said somethings I can’t take back ever about her appearance even though she’s an incredibly beautiful lady. I don’t know what to do…. Seriously. Strangely enough upon ending it with her I felt great the first few weeks now I just feel like pure shit I want to see her cuddle her call eachother budgie like we always would. Fuck what have i done?!? I wouldn’t have left her but the disrespect the constant trampling over every boundary either I set or we set as a couple the constant putting everyone before our relationship. The disrespect pushed me to do so. What do I do man…
How do you think she’s feeling?……

To preface, I used to take Doxy every day for months during Covid for acne, but eventually stopped due to not feeling comfortable relying on an antibiotic so much- even when taken with probiotics. I’ve been able to keep my acne at bay with Spironolactone and a tailored skin routine.
But then last week for the first time ever I broke out into a rosacea flare up around my eyes and cheeks (ocular rosacea). I went to my dermatologist and she prescribed me Doxy 50mg for two weeks. After it seemed like the rosacea was getting worse they upped me to 200 mg a day. I took the two pills along with food, water, and a probiotic and had no stomach pain or discomfort. When I woke up the next day I felt relatively fine until two hours later when I touched my skin and it hurt.
I went to work and as the hours passed my entire body was riddled with aches and pains- I was shivering from feeling cold (to the point my nails were turning blue) and had to leave early to go to a doctor. The doctor did a Flu test and it came back negative, my throat looks fine and the lymph nodes weren’t swollen. He said that the main culprit is most likely the Doxy and to stop taking it to see if I improve.
And while the Doxy isn’t out of my system yet, I still feel terrible. Everything aches and pains as if I have a flu without the other flu symptoms (stomach pain, cough, etc.) My skin feels super sensitive to the touch, my neck and back are stiff and it’s gotten to the point where doing simple tasks such as eating and showering was a chore because I feel so rigid and weak.
My doctor explained that even though I’ve tolerated Doxy in the past, my immune system has changed over the two years and may have developed a sensitivity to it. Saying that my immune system is reacting to the Doxy and thinks there’s an infection so it’s reacting accordingly (hence the aches and pains). I only took the Doxy for 3 days before stopping use.
I just wanted to know if this is a common experience by others, and if so, how long after stopping Doxy did it take for the severe pains and chills to subside? Also, just as a heads up to people who may be starting the medication that it’s a possible side effect. It was helping the rosacea flare up, but the pain is not worth it. I’m going to stay off it and keep track of how I feel to decide whether the Doxy is the culprit or not.

My man (49) and I (48) recently got back together after a long break where we both had other relationships that each of us (as far as I know) ended before we started talking again. His was with a “friend” who has been a big problem between us in the past. He said she was already totally out of his life, zero contact forever, with or without me in the picture. Glad he had already gotten to that point because having to deal with that situation in the past was not good for me. Yesterday I got curious and asked him if she’s really totally gone, no social media contacts, no shared activities, she isn’t going to be popping up at some random social event, and so on. Well… she’s still his fb friend. I asked him to explain that to me and instead he said he would just block her. So far, he hasn’t. I’m aware that maybe he hasn’t gotten to it yet but how long do I wait to say something? I am already irritated because he wasn’t totally honest with me the first time. When he told me that he’d block her, he picked up his phone and seemed to be doing something on it. Was that supposed to be blocking her? He can’t be that dumb, there’s zero chance of me not checking. We have known each other for 30+ years so he knows I will check. I honestly did want to talk about the situation, to understand why he hadn’t severed that link. But his sudden announcement that he would just block her coupled with not having done it quickly feels sketchy. And how exactly do I bring this up because I am going to have to admit that I checked. Which, as I said, he should expect but there’s a fairly good chance that he’ll be mad about it all the same. Obviously there are trust issues and none of this will be resolved quickly (therapy is part of the plan) but the current situation is not helping. I want to address the topic like a mature adult and hear his thoughts on the matter, not just get another knee-jerk reaction. Even more, I want him to do what he said he would do without me having to bring it up again, because that would help increase my trust in him. So what amount of time is reasonable to wait for him to do what he said he would do?

Hi all UPN/Pre-Nursing people! I just wanted to write out some tips on how to look best on your NursingCAS applications for your goal starting semester. This is a pretty detailed guide with some good calculations to determine other scores beyond just the basic impaction score. This also provides some resources for your TEAs that I found most useful. This guide is directed towards those applying to SJSU especially those on the Pre-Nursing Track at SJSU.
Don't flop your first semester: It is true that the first semester of college has a learning curve, but it is still important that you stay focused and maintain a high GPA. For many this is the easiest semester, but don't be fooled English 1A or Chem30A/BIOL65 will bite you in the butt last second.
Aim for a high GPA not solely TEAs: As much as people brag about their TEAs scores a GPA at SJSU is much more important! If you have a 4.0 GPA and score lower on your TEAs you will have a way better shot at getting in. Take this for example: a person got 2 A- in 3 unit courses out of the big 8. This makes their cumulative GPA a 3.94 GPA. If this person applied to nursing against a person with a 4.0 this score is then doubled, for impaction. 8 compared to a 7.88. With 2 A-'s you now need to do better than 3.5% of whatever teas score the kid with a 4.0 got. Also keep in mind that SJSU already requires a 84% to even apply leaving a 16% playing field. If you get a 4.0 and a 84% a person with 3.94 needs to get a 87.5% on their teas!

• BE ADVISED EVERY SINGLE POINT COUNTS!
• Realistically you are okay and should not flip out with a 3.94 GPA to this is just being used as a clear example. Just remember that if you keep a high GPA that you are saving yourself a mental breakdown before taking a TEAs.
  • Be sure to get the extra points as well if you know you don't have perfect stats. This will greatly improve your odds at getting in, especially for Fall applicants.

Don't rely on comparing stats to AllNurses: This is a hot take, but hear me out; 60 kids get into SJSUs nursing program and maybe 10 people post their stats on AllNurses. I am throwing no shade saying this, but these are the people that are for the most part going to get in. Some claim to have 4.0 GPAs, 98 TEAs, 2000hrs of Healthcare experience, and co-reqs done too. Obviously they are going to get in but, that spot is now taken from a person bringing it down to 59 others. It is nice to have a comparison to, but unless more people post on it people are going to have skewed to the right opinions. There are tons of applicants and there are different groups of people apply. The overachievers, the average, and the prayers. Most people are average and do not have the crazy stats these people have. There are some people that do post stats that are more relevant to compare to such as a 4.0 with an 88% or something like that. Again this is highballing and it is important to really dig deep into who got accepted when using this platform. A 92% TEAs is what even the pre-nursing advisors and these guys want you to drop the major. Do realize that if you have a lower GPA you will need a higher TEAs. Doing this calculation [20(4-(current GPA))*3] will tell you what you need in comparison to a 4.0 GPA.

• Here is an example with a 3.8GPA [20(4-3.8)*3] = [20(.2)*3] = 4*3 = 12, this means (excluding extra points), you need to score at least a 96% if a kid with a 4.0 got a 84% on their TEAs.
  • For understanding the 20 comes from the calculation 10 (to make the solution a whole number) multiplied by 2 (because the GPA is multiplied by two in the impaction score calculation) and the 3 comes from the fact each .1 of a GPA equates to 3% of a persons TEAs score (1/30 = .033333*3 = .1). The 20 contains the multiplication factor of 2 already so we don't need to multiply 3 by 2 as well.

The minimum GPA and TEAs: Yes it is true that if you do have a pretty poor GPA (3.3-3.4) and don't have the TEAs to make up for it then it is probably unlikely you will get into the program. But, at this campus the stats are never posted for who gets in and during which semester. Recently SJSU raised their TEAs from a 78% all the way up to a required 84% which to me is crazy high! I assume this is to cut down the amount of applicants and in turn this makes the TEAs pretty irrelevant to the total stats. With only a 16% max gap, now any person who is able to apply to nursing must have at least that score making the GPA that much more important. If you have a 3.9 GPA and a 94 on your teas, a person with a 3.8 will still get outcompeted regardless of TEAs score. This is most likely why the GPA was lowered for nursing and is now a 3.3 instead the previous 3.4 because some kids may have done well in the GPA aspect and messed up their TEAs. Aim for a higher GPA but do realize that a lot of kids do manage to get really good GPAs that correlate with good TEAs scores. Get a good GPA, 3.8 and above is pretty good, a 3.9+ is quality work for both Fall and Spring semesters, and make sure to aim for higher than the TEAs threshold.Nursing advisors deter people from applying but, it is accurate that as of Fall 2024 that you have to be at the top to get in. Keep in mind that there are 500+ applicants and only 60 get in that is only 12% of the applicant pool. You need to aim for the 80th percentile at the minimum to be on the waitlist first round (beating 400 other applicants)
TEAs Test: Now I know I have talked a lot about the importance of the GPA, but regardless you still do want to do well on the TEAs. Your TEAs score, like I talked about above, is directly related to your GPA. If you got a lower GPA you need a high TEAs and if you got a high GPA you can slack on the TEAs score. If you have a low GPA this will make or break the odds of getting in and every 3% on the test you get a .1 point increase. Going against what I think everyone I have ever talked to has said, for me personally I say take the TEAs online, if that is still an option. Not only can you take the test literally whatever day you want, you can also take it at whatever time of that day you selected as long as a proctor is available. Some argue that the they test better when in a school environment and this is valid, but I also test better in those environments and I bombed my first TEAs due to nerves. When I took it online the only stressors were if the test were to crash or the proctor flagged my exam for no reason, but neither of those happened not even close. The low stress of being at home and taking the test when I wanted to allowed for much better results and comfort. You get to finish the sections when you want. If you think you are done and don't want to triple check your answers to save the brainpower for later sections you get that option. Take the test where you think you will test best though and take these words with a grain of salt. I just wanted to say that the TEAs online is the same content as it is in person and at the leisure of your home. Not many people talk about how the TEAs online is positive for some people!
Get the extra points if you can: The extra points are pretty easy to get at SJSU especially as commuters. Of course nobody can make themselves a first generation student, but if you are that is easy free points and congrats. No one has a clue what SJSU gives as a "bump" to an applicants score and it is honestly only there because everyones stats are so similar so they need more tie breakers. Granted, you will most likely want to win the tie breaker and in order to do you have to at least have all the co-reqs done. I want to be straight up and say I think the vast majority of students have these all completed prior to applying for the Fall because you have an extra semester (maybe not Spring idk). So make sure to have these all completed so you are not left behind and waste an attempt in the SJSU applicant pool(unless you have great stats t or have healthcare hrs instead then just apply). You only have 2 attempts at applying to nursing at SJSU so make them count. If you can, there is also the healthcare hours bump. This is a bump isn't achieved by all applicants and could help if you have lower stats. Keep in mind that this usually involves volunteer work once a week for 4hr shifts so you will be wherever you choose to stay for about 6 months (decent time commitment with school). I've heard that the healthcare hrs are pretty lenient about what exactly you did as long as it is part of the healthcare field and you can get it signed. Of course if you already have had a health job within 3 years this is a free point bump too!
Spring semester isn't as easy to get into as it once was: SJSU changed this policy. In 2023 only transfer students can apply for SJSU fall semester cohorts, no longer accepting post-bacs. Whereas spring semester cohorts will accept post-bacs and no longer accept transfer students. This means that Fall semester likely is getting more difficult to get into as all transfer students have to apply for the same cohort. It is believed that the School accepts a bunch of SJSU students and after the initial acceptance everyone on the waitlist is combined meaning more transfers will get in from the waitlist process as they may not have made the original cut with the SJSU students bump. This would also mean there are less opportunities for SJSU students to get in during the spring cohort as they battle against stronger transfer candidates. As for transfers, in Fall there are more opportunities to get in as more are accepted initally and through the waitlist process. For post-bacs the same process is in place but, since the top UPN students (because they were following the exact track) were picked out for Fall stats could be a little lower. Regardless, Fall semester cohorts I would assume have slightly higher impaction scores from all areas that are applying as most students took their time throughout all the courses and UPN program students are all expected to apply for Fall semester. Take this all with a grain of salt since again there are no exact numbers of all that get accepted as transfers and post-bacs and if these numbers have increased because of this change.
Remember your overall GPA prior to applying does matter: Your overall GPA does matter when applying for nursing at SJSU! When it comes to tiebreakers if everything is the same - the gpa, the teas, and the extra points - the school will look at overall GPAs to decide who gets in. So make sure to get good grades in that moral issues class freshman year because it will come back to haunt you if you don't get in because of it.
Don't Break down!: It is easy to read all of this and think that you are screwed, but it is important to remember that many people are in the exact same situation. We are not all getting 4.0s and 92s on our teas like our advisors tell us we need. Expect A-'s and a B+. No stats are published and nobody knows for sure what you need but the advisors say people get "mostly a's". Aim for the highest impaction score that you can get and don't slack on it because literally that is what is determining if you get in or not.

• As a SJSU student you have 2 opportunities to get in, once in Fall (a little more difficult as most SJSU students are on track so there are more of you) and Spring (a little easier just because there are less Pre-Nursing majors applying). So if you don't get in for the Fall and your stats are good, you have a great chance in the Spring
  • PS if you do get declined for the Fall get all the extra bumps you can and if you still have one more TEAs opportunity, TAKE IT AGAIN! If you get waitlisted for Fall there is a really good chance you will get in for Spring as the people you were originally going against are gone.

Waitlist: If you get waitlisted it really is not the end of the world. Most schools send out acceptance letters in two waves one at the beginning/mid of April and at the end of April where people accept of decline their schools. SJSU keeps a long waitlist because a lot of people drop the school for more local schools/bigger name schools so never lose hope. I've heard stories of people being #70 on the waitlist and still getting in. (FYI you have to contact someone to check if you were waitlisted you will not get any notice of what is taking so long for your acceptance. only when you are on the waitlist can you contact staff about your placement. Staff will not tell you where you are if you are not emailed by Nursing that you are on the waitlist.)

• If you are immediately declined from the school, that means that currently they were unable to offer you a seat. However, this does not mean that you are out yet. The school has an original waitlist and if that gets ran though they create another backup waitlist in case more students drop in the summer. This contains around 12 more students and you could be apart of this group.

EXTRA Info:

• Nursing Apps open January 17th for Fall and August 17th for Spring and they both close on the 15th the following month
• If you are a current SJSU student you do not need to apply for SJSU again prior to applying
• However many units a course is will impact your GPA differently (more units means more of your GPA)
• You get about One Week to accept SJSU. SJSU is one of the latest schools to send out acceptance letters so be prepared to wait. 8 Weeks after the deadline is when acceptance letter should begin to roll out.
• Acceptances are sent out around April 10th for Fall and November 10th for Spring.

TEAs Studying TIPs:

• DM me if you want a google doc with TEAs information (it won't let me put it here) it provides, in my opinion, the best ways to study for the TEAs. For me personally I only received a 93.3 but, if I had realized how vital one of the sources before I took the test the next day, I would have performed even better! Please give this a look. If you dont want you I'll put the order of importance here without links
  • 1 Quizlets, #2 the ATI website, #3 Miscellaneous Prep Tests (I provide links in the doc), #4 PocketPrep

Application Assistance:

• Submit all documents separate from each other
• The application pool is Not Rolling meaning you can apply at any time before the deadline and still not be penalized
• Whatever work experience you have will not change the size of the score bump i.e a hospital volunteer will get the same size bump as a person with a CNA.
  • You also do not need any letters of recommendation and don't need to fill out any extra information on the NursingCAS website for SJSU specifically. They will not read any paragraphs that are not relevant to you getting accepted.
• AP credit does not affect the GPA it is solely for credit. If the AP course is not listed on your transcript then you must submit a form proving you passed the exam in the "other" section.
  • Make sure that all your documents that need to be there are there and they will be seen and accounted for. Regardless of where you put the documents the will show up on the application.
• Download you application prior to submitting your application (they will let you do this after you finished all the documents uploading and are preparing to finalize). Look over everything to ensure it's all correct.

I know this whole process is stressful and pretty terrifying, but everyone has a chance. This is just what I have learned throughout the whole process and hopefully it will help others that have 0 clue what is going on. Although some of this may make it seem like you need to have crazy high stats I am just trying to say do your best. If SJSU ever posts the stats for accepted applicants this would a be a different story. This is a CSU so unfortunately this application does follow the "a single number means everything" this means your impaction score is who you are; not necessarily how well rounded you may be. Good luck to all future nursing applicants and congrats.
"Congratulations! This email is to inform you of your provisional acceptance to The Valley Foundation School of Nursing at San José State University" Fall
You can DM if you have any questions.

I was a judo kid, in the 90s , have done judo for 4 years as a kid.
O Goshi have stay within me forever , it's like it's impregnated to my DNA. I cannot explain it other way.
When I was teenager. I needed a wrist fusion... They recommended my parent than I stop judo ... Then i stop. One of the biggest childhood regret of mine. .... And life goes on ....
Been training since my 20s seriously. Gym and fitbib general. Some boxing and Muay Thai
Receive my worst fusion.
Join BJJ at 36. Now 41. Blue belt on my way to purple , train 5 time + week
The thing is. I only train NO Gi.
On my stand up game. It's hard to explain , it's like my kid inner take over and I remember some of the judo than I had. And I do get some O Goshi once every few moon, the move is just in me. I am tryouts to move like a judoka.
Kind of....
I am a bit obsess with getting my judo back in my mind . Been study osoto gari so much recently since it's the first throw than judo guy. Are supposed to learn. Been drilling for couple of hours and drilling at home.
I hate pull guard. Hate start on. The butt.onbthe knee etc... ( Only when. It's 40 kilo difference I chicken up and sir. And play the bottom game 😅,)
Anyway. I want to get my judo back and make it work in no gi ....... It's my obsession , they all focused on the ground. I focus on the stand up cause you need to take the opponent down first .......... Otherwise it doesn't make sense .... (In my mind )
They all have a kind of wrestling kind of approach on the stand up no gi. Single and double and duck under and stuff....
I try to get into the judo way. I believe judo and BJJ belong together and I want to apply the best of both.
Make my game. I so struggle to get in with o Goshi . So hard, with no gi me it's very hard to get in and get the move. 5 years than I am on it. Yes it's possible but it's challenging again someone who knows placement and body position. but I am study kuzushi more seriously now and try to create it.....and the steps , moving the body. Away. Making him change his feet placement 😅
All those way go thru my mind ...... To make it work.
O Soto gari.also Been so hard to apply. But I deeply believe than I will be able to do it. It's like you have to pummel first to make the.person More straight ...... And many other many details than go thru my mind. With those move.
Like I believe utsuri Goshi is the answer for me to get the grip when they wrestler posture a d get away ........
I just wanted some sincere opinion from some experience judoka about no gi ....
Please be nice 🙏 my first time posting.
Sometime I feel I am a fool but only fool reach the sky...

Has this bike on my list of maybes as it ticked a lot of boxes but was more than I ever wanted to spend ($2800 vs the Lectric ONE $2000 and Priority Current $2300 with Costco NEXT). However there was a sudden sale and I'm agonizing over pulling the trigger. Anyone have experience with this ebike?
It's a class 3 with a throttle, 750W nominal mid drive with 115 Nm of torque, Gates carbon belt drive, an Eviolo Automatiq whatever shifter. I want to bike to work, toss a rack and/or baby seat on the back and go to the park, or just have fun. Seems like a lot of bike and even more so when it's at lower prices! Talk me off the cliff or tell me to jump.

Until I started subtitling the audiobook, I never considered reading the English version of LOTM. To my surprise, the quality of the English translation seems somewhat 'disrespectful' to the original book. With the money Qidian made from it, they should have hired at least one English literature graduate, if not three English literature professors, to proofread it.
Even though I'm not a native English speaker, I couldn't resist the urge to translate some parts in my own way. One thing led to another, and now I have a brand new translation of Chapter One.
Now, I have a question for my fellow fans of LTOM:

• Do you think this is a much better translation that you would like to wait and use it for subtitling LOTM's audiobooks? Or
• Do you feel the difference is so minimal that you'd prefer me to use the original translation so I can release subtitled audiobooks faster?

Here is another thread of mine discussing subtitling LOTM's audiobooks: https://www.reddit.com/LordofTheMysteries/comments/1csz252/dramatized_audiobooks_with_english_subtitles/, in case you're interested.

Ouch!
Ow…ouch!
Ow…my head is killing me!
The fantastic yet surreal dream surrounded by whispering and murmuring shattered away instantly, Zhou Mingrui who was sound asleep felt an abrupt throbbing pain deep inside his head, as if his head were ruthlessly clubbed. No, it felt more like something sharp penetrated his temple, followed by twisting and stirring.
Feeling disoriented, Zhou Mingrui wanted to turn around, clutch his head, or sit up. Yet, unable to move his hands or feet, he felt like he had lost all control over his body.
Looks like I’m still in some sort of dream, didn’t really wake up… Moments later, I might even think I'm fully awake, only to realize I'm still asleep… Familiar with such experiences, Zhou Mingrui tried desperately to concentrate, hoping to break free from the grip of darkness and disorientation.
However, trapped between wakefulness and sleep, the willpower was as elusive as smoke, difficult to control and concentrate. Despite his efforts, his thoughts kept wandering wildly, with all sorts of ideas coming and going.
How could I suddenly have a headache out of nowhere in the middle of the night?
Especially one which hurts so badly!
Could it be something like a cerebral hemorrhage?
Damn, am I going to die at such a young age?
Wake up! Wake UP!
Huh? Doesn't feel as painful now? Although it still feels like a blunt knife is cutting through my brains…
Sure thing is, I won’t be able to fall asleep any more. How am I supposed to show up for work tomorrow?
Why even bother going to work? This is a legitimate headache, perfect for time off! And no need to worry about the manager's grumblings.
Put it this way, it’s not so bad after all. Yea, free time off for me!
In between the waves of throbbing pain, Zhou Mingrui gradually accumulated a sense of elusive strength. Finally, with a determined effort, he straightened his back and opened his eyes, breaking free from the state of half-sleep and half-wake.
His vision was blurry at first, then tinged with a faint crimson hue. In his line of sight, Zhou Mingrui saw a sturdy wooden desk, upon which lay an open notebook. The papers were rough and yellowed. Where the title supposed to be, there was a sentence written in strange characters, with eye-catching thick, dark ink that seemed ready to drip.
To the left of the notebook, along the edge of the desk, was a stack of seven or eight neatly arranged books. On the wall to their right, were grayish-white pipes inset into the wall, with wall lamps at their ends.
The lamps had a classical Western style, about half the size of an adult's head. It featured a transparent inner layer made of glass and an exterior grid made of black metal.
Diagonally beneath the unlit lamp, was a black ink bottle shrouded in a pale red glow.
On its embossed surface was a blurry angel figure.
In front of the ink bottle and to the right of the notebook, lay a dark-colored pen with a fully circular body. Its tip shimmered with a faint glint while its cap rested right beside a brass revolver.
A gun?
A revolver?
Zhou Mingrui was completely taken aback. Everything in front of him felt absolutely alien, nothing looked like his own room.
Shocked and confused, he came to the realization that the desk, the notebook, the ink bottle, and the revolve were all coated with a layer of crimson “veil” from the light shining through the window.
Without realizing what he was doing, he raised his head, looking up bit by bit.
In the midair, beyond the heavy smooth darkness, hung a crimson full moon, glowing silently.
Hiss… Zhou Mingrui felt inexplicably horrified, as he stood up abruptly. However, before he could fully straighten his knees, a throbbing pain struck his head, draining all his strength. He fell, with his buttocks slammed heavily back onto the burly wood chair.
The pain didn’t stop him for a moment. Zhou Mingrui popped up, turned around in a fluster, and began examining his surroundings.
The room was not big, with a brown door on both of his sides. Against the wall in front of him, was a wooden bunk bed. Between the bed and the door to the left was a cabinet with two opposing doors and five drawers beneath them.
Next to the cabinet was a pipe of the same grayish-white, inset into the wall at the height of a person. What distinct it is that it connected to a strange looking mechanical device, which had a few of gears and bearings exposed here and there.
Items resembling coal stoves, sat in the right corner of the room near the desk, along with some kitchenware such as soup pots and iron pans.
Through the right door, was a dressing mirror with a couple of cracks, standing on a wooden base emboss with simple plain patterns.
While looking around, Zhou Mingrui noticed himself in the mirror, the present him.
Dark hair, brown eyes, wearing a linen shirt, slim, average-looking features and a rather deep outline…
Hiss… Zhou Mingrui grasped the situation immediately as many helpless and confused thoughts surfaced in his mind.
The revolver, the classical European style decorations, as well as the crimson moon that looked nothing like Earth's moon—all of them were screaming the exact same thing.
Who am I?
C-could I have transmigrated?
Zhou Mingrui's mouth slowly opened wider and wider, bit by bit.
He had grown up reading web novels, even fantasized about such scenes from time to time. However, the fantasy was incredibly difficult to accept now that he found himself in one.
Classic "Talk? Yes, yes! Action? No, no!", isn’t it?
In less than a minute, Zhou Mingrui had already started to sarcastically critique, attempting to make the best of whatever situation he found himself in.
But for the throbbing headache forcing him to think fast and sharply, he would for sure be convinced that he was dreaming.
Easy, easy, easy…taking deep breaths, Zhou Mingrui was trying really hard to make himself to calm down.
Just as his mind and body began to relax, pieces of memories started to flush, slowly flooding into his consciousness.
Klein Moretti.
A citizen of the City of Tingen, Awwa County, Loen Kingdom in the Northern Continent
Recently graduated from the Department of History at Khoy University…
His father was a sergeant of the Imperial Army, who had sacrificed his life during a colonial ware with the Southern Continent. His bereavement allowance made it possible for Klein to study at a private literature school, paving the way for his admission into university…
His mother was a devotee of the Evernight Goddess, who passed away the year Klein passed the entrance examinations to Khoy University…
He also had an elder brother and a younger sister, living together in a two-bedroom apartment.
Their family was far from wealthy, and its financial situation could even be described as somewhat strained.
Currently, the family was supported solely by the elder brother who worked as a clerk at an import and export company …
As a college graduate majored in history, Klein was proficient in the ancient language of Feysac, considering the origin of all languages in the Northern Continent, as well as the language of Hermes, which was commonly found in ancient mausoleums and often associated with sacrificial scenes and praying rituals.
Hermes?!
Zhou Mingrui's mind started to race as he reached out to rub his throbbing temples.
He cast his gaze toward the desk at the opened notebook, but to realize that the strange looking characters on the yellowed paper started to look somewhat familiar, then increasingly recognizable, and finally comprehensible.
It was a statement written in Hermes!
The thick, dark ink, seemingly ready to drip, read:
“Everyone will die including me myself!”
Hiss! Zhou Mingrui felt inexplicably horrified. He instinctively leaned back, attempting to escape away from the notebook, and the ominous statement on it.
Being so weak, he almost fell down, but managed to extend his hands in a fluster to grasp the edge of the desk.
He felt that air around him air started to roar, filled with faint whispering and murmurings. It felt just like listening to horror stories told by elders when he was young.
He shook his head, telling himself that all these were nothing but an illusion. Getting back onto his feet, he looked away from the notebook while still breathing heavily.
This time, his sight landed on the shimmering brass revolver, immediately realizing something unexplainable.
With Klein's social status, in what universe he would have the money or access to buy a revolver?!
Zhou Mingrui couldn't help but furrow his brow. Deeply puzzled, his eyes were caught by a reddish handprint at the edge of the desk, which was even darker than the moonlight, as well as thicker than the “veil”.
It was a bloody handprint!
A bloody handprint?
Zhou Mingrui instinctly flipped his right hand, that was pushing against the edge of the desk. Looking at it, he saw his palm and fingers covered in blood.
In the meaning time, the throbbing pain was getting a little bit better, yet didn’t go away, binding him like one tie after another.
Did I smash and injure my head? Zhou Mingrui guessed as he turned around, walking towards the cracked dressing mirror. After just a few of steps, a medium build figure of dark hair and brown eyes appeared clearly in front of him. The person had a distinct scholarly air to him.
Is this the present me?
Klein Moretti?
Zhou Mingrui was stunned. The poor lighting of the night obscured his vision, preventing him from clearly discerning something he had noticed. He continued forward until he was just a step away from colliding with the mirror.
Illumined by the crimson veil-like moonlight, he turned his head and began to examine the side of his forehead. A clear reflection appeared in the mirror. There, no his temple, was a grotesque wound with burn marks around the edges, blood staining the surrounding area. Grayish-white brain matter was slowly seeping out from within.