Welcome to our fifth discussion of Leviathan Wakes. Hold onto your cool detective hats or your environment suits, because we finally get some answers to our mystery! This week, we will discuss Chapters 34-40. The Marginalia post is here. You can find the Schedule here.
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Chapter Summaries:
Chapter 34 - Miller: Detective Miller and the crew of the Roci board the hidden ship (the one that captured the crew of the Scopuli before destroying it), wearing environment suits because the ship has no atmosphere - someone left the doors open. They stick together at first as they move through the ship, discovering signs of a struggle, zombie vomit, and twelve torpedo tubes big enough to destroy capital ships like the Donnager or the Canterbury. Miller uses his detective skills to determine that everyone but Julie retreated to engineering. Once there, they discover a truly grisly sight: layers of human flesh and bones are sort of fused around the reactor, which has been shut down. Naomi and Holden gasp in shock and disgust, Miller turns on his cop brain to suppress emotion and view it as a crime scene, and Amos seems… calm and able to ignore the gore. The team splits up to look for more clues.
Amos stays in engineering to start up the computers and get the reactor back online. Naomi works on the ops deck to run diagnostics. Miller and Holden head to the bridge, which wasn’t affected by the fighting onboard. Miller reviews the internal feeds and finds footage showing the captured Scopuli crew being led onto the ship, stripped, and put in restraints. Julie fights back viciously but is knocked unconscious and stuffed in a locker with a jumpsuit (which is where we met her in the prologue). The crew is left in the galley for 132 hours before they decide to make a stand, but it is quickly suppressed. One of the crew is thrown out an airlock and the others are heavily restrained as they scream and cry. Just as Miller gets to the first appearance of a vomit zombie (at hour 160 of footage), Amos yells that he’s been exposed to some radiation because the human flesh blob had damaged the reactor shielding. He decides to keep working while Alex monitors his health status from the Roci.
Then Holden calls Miller over to view one of the last feeds Julie accessed. It’s a corporate presentation video created for a man named Dresden and the board of Protogen. It features a man Miller dubs “the sociopath” because of his cold, practiced smile…and because of the content. The sociopath tells the board (and us) the history of scientific discovery on Phoebe, which was thought to just be a moon and a source of water, but became a research station when a survey found complex silicon structures in the ice. Protogen was tasked with investigating and discovered that Phoebe is not a moon but evidence of a galactic biosphere: it is an alien weapon sent towards Earth 2 ⅓ billion years ago, which never made it because of orbital mechanics. Protogen has discovered that this weapon is not alive per se; rather, it is something they’ve termed the “protomolecule” which has the ability to maintain structure while replicating other systems and manipulating them at scalable rates. Of course, they alerted the proper authorities and made sure… just kidding, they’ve secretly been doing tests. The sociopath believes that whoever controls the protomolecule will gain control of all political and economic power going forward. Chillingly, the sociopath urges them to pursue large-scale testing to understand the protomolecule and its human applications. That large-scale testing is Eros.
TL;DR - Julie found evidence that Protogen (her dad’s company) has discovered an alien weapon, branded it the “protomolecule”, and secretly tested it on the people of Eros (and probably other smaller tests). The entire war has just been a distraction.
Chapter 35 - Holden: Naomi explains that most of the messages on the comm logs have been coded, but the last one is in plain text: the captain informed Thoth Station that the ship was contaminated, everyone was about to die, and the “materials” had been secured. He also planned to send vector data so they could find the ship. The Roci crew put two and alien-symbol-for-two together: they figure out that the captain has locked protomolecule samples in his safe. They also decide that the tightbeam messages were being sent to a secret research station Protogen was using to monitor the Eros experiment. Even though the fact “Naomi is the best” is a proven concept on par with “space is cold”, she is NOT able to open the captain’s safe, so they decide to cut it out of the wall and bring it with them on the Roci. They also scuttle the ship so no one can a) recover the stealth technology and alien weapons, or b) get exposed to the protomolecule-human soup inside. (Amos would have preferred to hack the frozen dead body goo off the reactor with a chainsaw and salvage such an impressive and expensive ship, which is… another way to go.)
It’s clear that someone else with stealth tech is searching actively for this ship, but the Roci won’t see them coming so they decide to get the hell out of Dodge. Naomi jokes that their options include turning the safe over to the OPA (they’d be heroes), selling out to Mars (they’d be rich), or starting their own biotech firm (just kidding, that’s evil). When Miller checks in with Holden about a decision on where to go next, he drops a figurative bomb on him regarding actual bombs in the news. Since Holden did his best Edward Snowden impersonation and leaked the data that the mystery ships are from Earth, Mars asked a few too many questions and in response, Earth has blown up a whole bunch of Martian ships and destroyed the Deimos deep radar station. Miller ruefully gives Holden credit for sticking to his guns about his belief in “free information”. He also points out that Holden’s principles make him responsible for all those deaths and the destruction of the Earth-Mars Coalition… and possibly the universe as they know it.
Chapter 36 - Miller: The war between Mars and the Belt seems like no big deal now that Earth and Mars are fighting. Miller watches the news feeds as the conflict turns into a blockade, and he realizes he is steeling himself for an announcement of a planetary attack on Earth or Mars, but it never comes. He and Amos deal with the stress by having beer for breakfast.
Miller meets up with Holden in the med bay for their routine blood flushes and cancer treatments, and they reopen their debate about what to do with the data files and who is to blame for the war(s).

• Holden’s position: Broadcast everything to everyone! (I know, I know, so out of character, right?) People will understand that they’ve been set up and will turn their wrath on Protogen instead of each other. Also, these are ancient conflicts. The Belt has always hated Mars and the inner planets in general. Mars and Earth have always had animosities secretly brewing and they do military training for the inevitable showdown. Or as Miller puts it, “Not my powder keg; I just brought the match.”
• Miller’s position: Stop and consider what people will do if they hear an Earth company did this. Every other data leak has been used as an excuse to shoot at someone the other side doesn’t like. Also, people suck. They aren’t going to hold hands and sing Kumbaya just because Protogen is the bad guy. They’ll move on to shooting each other so they can be the ones to control the protomolecule. Or as Holden puts it, “Maybe Protogen is a little right. People are too dumb to be trusted with big information so we should keep hard, scary stuff a big secret. That’ll totally work out.”

Holden’s idealism starts to fade as he takes in Miller’s hard truths about humanity. To be fair, Miller loses a little idealism over his perceptions of the inner planets’ relationship which, to the Belt, seemed stable and friendly enough (and united against them). Miller encourages Holden to use Naomi’s judgment as a measuring stick for whether something is right (similar to how he uses illusion-Julie as his conscience and sounding board) and then he goes back to the news feeds to watch Ceres slowly collapse into chaos. Holden decides the only person and place he trusts - or at least doesn’t completely distrust - is Fred Johnson on Tycho Station, so they head there. Holden also wonders why they don’t just destroy the safe and make sure everyone stays away from Eros and Phoebe; Miller admits it’s because the protomolecule might just be the holy grail.
Chapter 37 - Holden: The crew of the Roci is taking a break from doom scrolling to cook fake space lasagna for dinner and bond over the food and conversation. As Holden watches the crew laugh at Amos’s belches and Miller’s wild story about cheese smuggling, he reflects that they represent all three prongs of the conflict: Naomi and Miller are Belters, Amos and he are from Earth, and Alex is from Mars. Yet they’re friends, and Holden knows this is what they have to fight for. The cheese smuggling makes no sense to Amos (why cheese and not drugs?), and Naomi points out that this illustrates how little people from the inner planets understand Belters. Earthers have free air and easy access to resources, while Belters know everything that sustains life is rare and their access to it is fragile. And this is why Protogen didn’t blink an eye before killing 1.5 million Belters on Eros: they’re “other”. Then Alex points out that this doesn’t make sense; it's a risky and unnecessarily complicated way to kill people just to satisfy prejudices. It becomes clear that Eros isn’t a hate crime, it’s a vacuum-sealed test tube to let the protomolecule learn how to do its job better by giving it access to a huge amount of biomass. The early transformations looked incomplete, as if it didn’t know how to work with human flesh yet, so Protogen was giving it a chance to train. Holden wants to know where they would even find enough people who would support an evil operation like this, and Miller promises to ask Dresden (the Protogen board member mentioned in the video) when they meet him. Something tells me that conversation won’t go well.
As the Roci approaches Tycho station, Holden and Miller take in the view of the Nauvoo, the partially constructed Mormon generation ship. When Miller says the Mormans may be in for a long and lonely death if they don’t find a habitable planet, Holden notes that this is the good kind of galactic exploration humans can accomplish (the protomolecule being the bad kind). Miller then asks Holden why he trusts Fred, and Holden explains that in addition to being the only person who hasn’t tried to jail them or blow them up since all this began, Fred is “real OPA”: he’s a politician and not part of the war-mongering factions who think they can survive indefinitely without the inner planets. When Miller points out that there isn’t a political solution to Protogen, Holden insists Fred has other skills, too. Later, Fred reads through all the information on the protomolecule and is incredulous that anyone could think to do this. Miller assures him that genocide is an old-school crime and it’s important that they stop it. Holden offers up the location of the observation station in exchange for enough OPA fighters to take down Protogen, and the right to retain custody of the safe and its contents. Fred agrees only after Holden points out that no one else can be trusted to do the right thing with a secret this big. Plus, he says Fred already knows what Holden will do with it.
Chapter 38 - Miller: It feels strange to Miller to explore the wide open spaces of Tycho Station, the fanciest place he has ever set foot on. He notices Naomi working on her hand terminal and letting her food get cold; she is too preoccupied with trying to figure out the location of the station to enjoy the amenities. As they talk, Miller is reminded of Havelock’s advice to just let go when he got pulled off a case, which jogs his memory that Havelock actually works for Protogen! (I’m surprised he didn’t get there faster; maybe everyone had a point that he was sort of a washed up detective.) He rushes off to make contact with his old buddy - probably his last real partner ever - in an encrypted drop site of a Ganymede server cluster. As he waits for a response, Miller is amused to realize he has started thinking like Holden: he feels like someone should warn the Mormans that they could potentially run into the alien creators of the protomolecule who may want to kill them. Havelock comes through, passing along the coordinates to a “very scary deep research and development lab” and asking Miller to be discreet never contact him again so he doesn’t get killed for betraying his employer. Miller sends him an encrypted warning to quit his job ASAP and not take postings at any black ops sites, before saying goodbye for the last time to the only person that still respected him as a cop. (I may or may not be sniffling a bit at this.)
Miller rounds up Naomi and Holden so they can bring Fred the coordinates. In Fred’s office, Miller starts lecturing him about the serious nature of the mission and the need to have a solid plan with adequate firepower, not the usual OPA shenanigans. Everyone’s a little confused until they realize that Miller doesn’t know that Fred is “the butcher of Anderson Station” and a former Colonel in the Earth Navy. Fred assures Miller he’s no amateur and will plan ahead. Miller then insists that he get to come along for the assault on Thoth Station. Eight days later, the plan is set in motion and Miller begins packing his meager belongings into a very small bag, figuring he’ll never see the Roci again. Even if he makes it off Thoth alive, he’ll have to figure out a way to make money and improvise a life plan of some sort. He tries to thank Holden and say goodbye, but the Roci’s captain interrupts Miller to ask where they’ll all meet up after the mission is complete. Miller is confused at first, then overcome with emotion when he realizes Holden considers Miller part of the crew! I’m not crying, you’re crying. Actually, it’s Miller who is weeping. But he pulls himself together so he can head to the assault ship.
Chapter 39 - Holden: The Rocinante needs to sneak up on Thoth Station, so they are pretending to be a loose cargo container that broke off the Guy Molinari (the Belter ship carrying the assault team, which is pretending to be a cargo ship). They fly with everything shut down so that it’s more convincing, hoping they can get close enough to the station to do some damage before Thoth starts firing back. As they approach and are able to reboot everything needed for battle, a stealth ship is spied hanging out near Thoth Station. Then, suddenly it becomes clear that there are two small stealth ships, which will be much harder to fight off. Everyone does their jobs efficiently on the Roci, but in the ensuing battle with the stealth ships, they start to take some damage. First, the Roci is hit by a gauss cannon that goes straight through the machine shop and galley. Holden mourns his coffee maker. Amos notices a leak in the maneuvering thrusters and heads to fix it between the inner and outer hulls, which isn’t an ideal place to be floating around during a battle. This stresses Naomi out, but Holden orders everyone to stay focused. They are able to take out one of the stealth ships, but the other gets close enough to do some impressive damage to the Roci. There is major hull damage as well as loss of four maneuvering thrusters, a PDC, their O2 storage, and the crew airlock. Alex is about to destroy the second stealth ship when the Roci’s point defense cannons (PDCs) detonate an enemy warhead up close. It knocks everyone out, punches holes throughout the Roci (narrowly missing Naomi), dislodges equipment, and fills the ship with debris. Holden marvels that they are alive at all, and Alex points out that is only because the ship’s anti-spalling webbing eliminates shrapnel. They make contact with Fred, who says he’ll find them a place to land, and the Guy Molinari prepares for the assault on Thoth Station. It’s Miller’s turn to shine!
Chapter 40 - Miller: On the Guy Molinari, Miller is talking to a Belter kid named Diogo as they wait for the assault to start. Miller realizes that while he has fancy Martian armor from the Roci and experience with gunfights in station corridors, he is surrounded by inexperienced young Belters with borrowed gear, and he will likely have to watch dozens of them die during the battle. But Diogo isn’t worried; he is confident and eager to get started. Fred announces that they are ready to start boarding since the Roci gave them the “all clear”, and Miller is happy to hear his friends have survived. The assault on the station starts off rough, with Protogen soldiers fighting them in the corridors and automatic defense lasers taking out some of the Belters in the first wave. But Fred knows how to command his OPA “troops” and keep them in line, and things start to go more smoothly as they slow down and maneuver carefully. Miller and Diogo are part of a group taking shelter at Fred’s direction and fending off Protogen counterattacks, and they start to talk during a lull. When two Protogen soldiers sneak up on them from behind, Diogo is hit and Miller chastises himself for chatting during a battle and not staying alert. He thinks Diogo is dead, but he pops up laughing and streaked with white goo from crowd suppression rounds, which Miller finds an odd choice of weapon. It’s the first sign that Thoth Station may not totally understand what’s happening. The OPA soldiers cut their way through the blast doors to get to the operations center, where they find Dresden (the dude mentioned in the sociopath’s Protogen video). Fred arrives to take command of the station, and Dresden offers to negotiate, clearly misunderstanding the reason for the assault. He offers to give the OPA whatever resources they need to go back to fighting their war (money, medical supplies, weapons, ordnance) if they’ll just leave and let the station get back to their very important work. Fred points out that they know about Eros, but Dresden insists no one knows what they did there, and there won’t be a better bargaining position for Fred when Earth sends its battleships. Fred basically calls Dresden Satan, but Dresden doesn’t understand the reference.

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Turkish dramas are irresistible because of their diverse stories, and characters, and even the actors will keep you hooked to your TV screens because of their impeccable performances. The shows have a crisp storyline, the characters, and their lives are explored in depth, and the scenic locations of Turkey are like a cherry on the top! If you want to watch some of the best Turkish dramas on Hotstar, here are some of the names for you.
1. Price Of Passion
A romance drama series that got a lot of attention from viewers in Turkey as well as globally and even got an 8 IMDb rating! It is about a woman who is a devoted doctor helping her patients and children heal their wounds and hearts. She crosses paths with a mysterious man who turns out to be a cold-blooded murderer. And, even after trying hard to stay away, she falls for this man. Two strangers with opposite motives in life- what will happen to their future?
2. Life Of Secrets
Life of Secrets is a family drama series with a 7.1 IMDb rating, it is beautiful because of the pure love story between two innocent lovers- Burak and Seher. While, the show is heart-breaking because of many secrets that come out in the open- regarding different family members of the Kuzgan family. A show that has an intense storyline as secrets will keep spilling one after the other- shocking you throughout. The aftermath of those shocks, the family relations, the love stories, and heartbreaks- everything about this show is wonderful.
3. New Life
A drama series that was released in 2020, is about a special force officer, Adam- he loves his job and has an adorable family. His life is perfect until he gets injured and has to leave his profession and find an alternative. He finds a new job as a bodyguard for a beautiful and rich woman named Yasemin, who is also the second wife of a rich businessman named Timur. What Adam does not know is that Yasemin has many deep secrets and a hidden past, and the whole family setup he is entering, is nothing less than a minefield.
Also Read: The Peripheral
4. Sisterhood
A gripping drama show about three sisters who have grown up without knowing each other’s existence. One fine day, they receive an anonymous letter revealing them about their connections as siblings. They are even invited by an anonymous person to meet each other at one of the sister’s weddings. They are happy and shocked to come face-to-face on the night of the wedding, but something more happens that day and changes their whole life. They now can no longer leave that place and have to live together.
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If you are just starting to explore the Turkish drama world- the above-mentioned Turkish Dramas on Hotstar are the best options. Once you have entered that world- you will find so many other great Turkish shows on YouTube as well.

Hello all, below are a selection of letters sent from, to, and about J. R. R. Tolkien in the week of 13 to 19 May. (Links lead to our 'On This Day' page where you can search all dates and see other letters on any day.)
13 May
JRRT to C.A. Furth (at George Allen & Unwin) 13 May 1937 - Tolkien writes, offering his thoughts on a potential publication of The Hobbit in the US. He says that he can produce the illustrations requested or if they prefer, they can contract another artist for the work. He does however say that he would want to veto anything that is too alike to a Disney style.
JRRT to Rayner Unwin (at George Allen & Unwin) 13 May 1954 - Tolkien expresses his pleasure at the opinions of The Lord of the Rings. He is not pleased with the Houghton Mifflin edition for the USA market and offers some suggestions to improve it.
JRRT to Joy Hill (at George Allen & Unwin) - 13 May 1966 - Writing to his secretary, Tolkien thanks her for the packets sent to him. He would like a ticket for a Donald Swann concert and notes that he will not send anything to be used in the Tolkien Reader. He notes that The Homecoming of Beorhtnoth would be much more suited to a collected volume than anything connected to The Lord of the Rings, which had been suggested by Stanley Unwin.
14 May
G.B. Smith to JRRT ?14 May 1915 - Smith writes to Tolkien asking him to send his poem, 'Goblin Feet' to the editor of Oxford Poetry, 1915.
Christopher Wiseman to JRRT 19 May 1917 - Wiseman returns manuscripts of G.B. Smith's poetry to Tolkien.
JRRT to Christopher Tolkien 14 May 1944 - Writing to his son Christopher, Tolkien gives updates on The Lord of the Rings among other happenings. He has heard C.S. Lewis reading from some chapters of his work, The Great Divorce.
JRRT to Joy Hill (at George Allen & Unwin) 14 May 1962 - Tolkien sends corrected proofs for The Adventures of Tom Bombadil.
JRRT to Jonathan Wordsworth 14 May 1972 - Tolkien writes to Wordsworth accepting an invitation to dine with 'The Society', an Oxford Dining club.
15 May
JRRT to Florence Williams (wife of Charles Williams) 15 May 1945 - Tolkien writes expresses his sympathy to Florence and her son on the death of Charles Williams.
George S. Gordon to Kenneth Sisam 15 May 1924 - Tolkien's co-editor on the Clarendon Chauver writes to Kenneth Sisam to say that Tolkien has agreed to retire from the project.
16 May
JRRT to Rayner Unwin (at George Allen & Unwin) 16 May 1958 - Tolkien gives Rayner Unwin an update on his health, namely after some dental issues. he notes that he has not been able to work on the matter of the Zimmerman Lord of the Rings movie but includes some commentary.
Edith Tolkien to Alan Rook 16 May 1939 - Edith writes to Alan Rook, a student from Oxford, inviting him to the Tolkien's home at the weekend.
17 May
JRRT to H.S. Bennet 17 May 1954 - Tolkien writes on C.S. Lewis' proposed move to Cambridge.
JRRT to David Best 17 May 1967 - Tolkien replies to a fan who had written to Tolkien, including a version of Tom Bombadil written in English runes.
18 May
JRRT to Robert Theodore Meyer 18 May 1972 - Tolkien writes, declining a request to be interviewed.
Henry Willink to JRRT 18 May 1949 - Willink gives Tolkien an update on his wifes ill-health. he also remarks on his admiration and appreciation for The Hobbit.
19 May
JRRT to Miss Turnbull 19 May 1955 - Tolkien thanks Miss Turnbull for a gift and says that he at last sent proofs for The Return of The King to his publisher.
JRRT to Dr. Zettersten 19 May 1959 - Tolkien writes, remarking that Ancrene Wisse is now at the press and publication will depend on hwo quickly he can return the proofs.
Tags on the letters above include The Hobbit, Illustrations, US publishing, The Lord of the Rings, C.S. Lewis, Fæder his suna, The Adventures of Tom Bombadil, Oxford University, Poetry, World War I, Catholocism, Charles Williams, Clarendon Chaucer, George S. Gordon, The Lord of the Rings movie, Runes, The Return of the King, Ancrene Wisse, Health, A Spring Harvest.

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• The information provided will be given to a level in parallel with the individual’s expertise, experience, and training.

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This Yoga demands a total dedication of the life to the aspiration for the discovery and embodiment of the Divine Truth and to nothing else whatever. To divide your life between the Divine and some outward aim and activity that has nothing to do with the search for the Truth is inadmissible. The least thing of that kind would make success in the Yoga impossible.
You must go inside yourself and enter into a complete dedication to the spiritual life. All clinging to mental preferences must fall away from you, all insistence on vital aims and interests and attachments must be put away, all egoistic clinging to family, friends, country must disappear if you want to succeed in Yoga. Whatever has to come as outgoing energy or action, must proceed from the Truth once discovered and not from the lower mental or vital motives, from the Divine Will and not from personal choice or the preferences of the ego.
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It is a universally accepted principle of the spiritual endeavour that one must be prepared to sacrifice everything without reserve in order to reach the Divine through a spiritualised consciousness. If self-development on the mental, vital and physical plane is his aim that is another matter—that life is the life of the ego with the soul kept behind undeveloped or half developed. But for the spiritual seeker the only development he seeks is the development of the psychic and spiritual consciousness and that too, only because it is necessary to reach and to serve the Divine, not for its own sake. Whatever mental, vital, physical development or use of faculties can be made part of the spiritual life and an instrumentation for the Divine can be kept on condition of surrender of them for transformation and restatement on the spiritual basis. But they must not be kept for their own sake or for the sake of the ego or considered as one’s own possession or used for one’s own purpose but only for the sake of the Divine.
As for James’ statement (1) it is of course true except in so far as the politician can indulge in other things as hobbies for his leisure hours, but if he wants to succeed as a politician he must give his best energies to politics. Conversely if Shakespeare or Newton had spent part of their energies in politics they would not have been able to reach such heights in poetry and in science or even if they had they would have done much less. The main energies have to be concentrated on one thing; the others can only be minor pursuits at leisure or for distraction or interests rather than pursuits useful for keeping up a general culture.
(1) The correspondent wrote: “Prof. James even says [in Principles of Psychology] about the ‘social me’ and other ‘me’s, that one has to suppress several of them in order to achieve one or two main aims in life. A politician, in order to concentrate on politics alone, has to let go his tendency for music or painting or social fame or family affections.”—Ed.
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All depends on the aim of the life. To one whose aim is to discover and possess the highest spiritual truth and the divine life, I do not think a University post can count for much, nor do I see that there can be any practical connection between them. It might be different if the aim were the life of a writer and thinker on the intellectual level only without any higher flight or deeper seeking. I do not see that your unwillingness to commit yourself to this kind of work is due to any weakness. It is rather that only a small part of your nature, and that not the deepest or strongest part, would be satisfied with it or with the atmosphere in which it would have to be done.
In these matters it is not the thinking mind but the vital being—the life-force and the desire nature—or some part of it at least, that usually determines men’s action and their choice—when it is not some outward necessity or pressure that compels or mainly influences the decision. The mind is only an interpreting, justifying and devising agent. By your taking up the sadhana this part of your vital being has had a pressure put upon it from above and within which has discouraged its old turn of desires and tendencies, its past grooves, those which would have decided its direction before; this vital has, as is often one first result, fallen silent and neutral. It is no longer strongly moved towards the ordinary life; it has not yet received from or through the psychic centre and the higher mental will a sufficient illumination and impulse to take up a new vital movement and run vigorously on the road to a new life. That is the reason for the listlessness of which you speak and the mistiness of the future. Men do not know themselves and have not learned to distinguish these different parts of the being which are usually lumped together as mind; they do not understand their own states and actions, or, if at all, then only on the surface. It is part of the foundation of Yoga to become conscious of the complexity of the nature, see the different forces that move it and get over it a control of directing knowledge.
The remedy can only come from the parts of the being that are already turned towards the Light. To call in the light of the divine consciousness, bring the psychic being to the front and kindle a flame of aspiration which will awaken spiritually the outer mind and set on fire the vital being, is the way out. It is usually a psychic awakening or a series of strong experiences by which the sadhak comes out of this intermediary no man’s land of the quiescent vital (few can avoid altogether this passage through a neutral vital indifference) into the full dynamic course of the spiritual movement.
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It is not absolutely necessary to abandon the ordinary life in order to seek after the Light or to practise Yoga. This is usually done by those who want to make a clean cut, to live a purely religious or exclusively inner and spiritual life, to renounce the world entirely and to depart from the cosmic existence by cessation of the human birth and a passing away into some higher state or into the transcendental Reality. Otherwise it is only necessary when the pressure of the inner urge becomes so great that the pursuit of the ordinary life is no longer compatible with the pursuit of the dominant spiritual objective. Till then what is necessary is a power to practise an inner isolation, to be able to retire within oneself and concentrate at any time on the necessary spiritual purpose. There must also be a power to deal with the ordinary outer life from a new inner attitude and one can then make the happenings of that life itself a means for the inner change of nature and the growth in spiritual experience.
From Letters on Yoga—II: Seeking the Divine

There’s a psychotherapist in the UK who graduated with a clinical psychology phd from Oxford University and has her own practice and is trained in all sorts of types of therapy… yet her hourly rate is £175 (~$220)…. She has 60+ 5* reviews (literally not even 1 4. Every review is 5) from verified patients on a doctor bookings platform with people saying they’ve fully recovered from complex trauma..
Mina Irfan: Completed a Philosophy degree part time across 8 years, markets that she has an Anthropology degree and claims it may as well be a phd due to how much time she spent on it. Charges 88,888 for 11 sessions. Uses AI and stock photos to self publish fake reviews on her website.
I know she isn’t saying she’s a therapist but make this make sense?
I know who id rather work with that’s for sure… I also know who will make the most significant positive impact on my well being

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Introduction to the Meekness in Matthew 5:5

Welcome to our journey through the Beatitudes, focusing on one of the most profound yet often misunderstood verses in the Bible, Matthew 5:5. This verse is part of Jesus’ Sermon on the Mount, where he reveals the characteristics that define His followers. “Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth.” In a world that often values power and control, this verse invites us to explore the strength in meekness.

The Power of Meekness

At first glance, meekness may seem akin to weakness. However, in the biblical context, meekness is about strength under control, humility, and a gentle spirit. It is a fruit of the Spirit that allows one to be patient and compassionate towards others, even in the face of adversity. Let’s dive deep into the rich layers of meaning behind Matthew 5:5 and discover why the meek are indeed blessed.

• Strength Under Control: Meekness is not about being passive or submissive. It’s about harnessing one’s strength with wisdom and humility.
• Humility: Meek individuals do not feel the need to prove their worth or dominate over others. They are secure in their identity in God.
• Gentleness: A gentle spirit is not easily provoked and approaches others with love and patience.

Practical Ways to Embrace Meekness

Embracing meekness is a transformative journey that reflects our growing relationship with God. Here are some practical ways to cultivate meekness in our lives:

1. Practice self-control: Be mindful of your reactions and choose to respond with patience and understanding.
2. Seek to understand: Before making judgments or decisions, try to see situations from multiple perspectives.
3. Show compassion: Extend kindness and empathy to those around you, even if they don’t always reciprocate.

Discovering the Blessings of the Meek

Jesus’ promise that “the meek will inherit the earth” is a powerful declaration of the future triumph of God’s Kingdom. It reminds us that ultimate fulfillment and blessings come not from worldly power, but from embodying the virtues of Christ. Those who demonstrate meekness can experience peace, joy, and satisfaction in their relationships and daily lives. They understand the value of stewardship over domination, serving rather than subjugating.

Conclusion: Your Invitation to Meekness

In a world that often values aggression and domination, embracing meekness as Jesus teaches is a revolutionary act. It is a path to true peace and contentment. As we explore the depths of Matthew 5:5, we’re invited to reconsider our understanding of strength and success. Are you ready to discover the powerful blessings of living out meekness in your life? Let this verse be a guiding light to a more fulfilling, God-centered existence. Embrace the journey towards a gentler, more humble spirit today.
Call to Action: If you’re looking to deepen your understanding of biblical teachings and how they can transform your life, we encourage you further explore the Beatitudes and other teachings of Jesus. Start by reflecting on your daily actions and attitudes: How can you incorporate more meekness into your approach to life? Share your thoughts and experiences with us, and let’s grow together in faith and humility.
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Today’s presentation ended and i’ve just let down the people that trusted me and it sucks. I’m not a natural born leader but I forced myself to become one, in order to grow.
But no matter how much I try, for two years, I cannot defeat the lingering mental and physical manifestations that haunts me every time I try to get rid of it. My heart would tremble in a presentation and in front of people I lose confidence, overthink too much and gets mentally absent during a presentation.
The organization was patient with me, patient for growth and that part sucks. Because I couldn’t show it to them.
I tried to reassure myself, I tried calming techniques even before presenting, practicing, I do good when i’m alone but it’s a whole death-spiral whenever i’m actually on the spot.
As a leader, I have encompassed the traits of one, visions and everything, and can take care of my members well. It just really sucks that as a leader, I could never become the role model of confidence in front of a crowd and that sucks. I’m thinking of quitting the organization.

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For many couples, the journey to parenthood can be a challenging one, filled with emotional and physical hurdles. In recent years, holistic approaches to enhancing fertility have gained popularity, with yoga emerging as a powerful tool. Fertility yoga, designed specifically to support conception, offers numerous benefits by reducing stress, balancing hormones, and improving reproductive health. This article explores how yoga can assist in the journey to pregnancy and provides guidance on incorporating this practice into your life.

The Benefits of Yoga for Fertility

1. Stress Reduction: Stress is a significant factor that can negatively impact fertility. Yoga to get pregnant encourages relaxation through deep breathing, meditation, and gentle movements, helping to lower cortisol levels and create a calm, supportive environment for conception.
2. Hormonal Balance: Certain yoga poses stimulate the endocrine system, which is responsible for hormone production and regulation. By practicing these poses, you can help balance hormones critical for ovulation and conception.
3. Improved Blood Circulation: Yoga enhances blood flow to the reproductive organs, ensuring they receive adequate oxygen and nutrients. This improved circulation can support the overall health of the reproductive system.
4. Strengthening the Body: Yoga builds strength and flexibility, particularly in the pelvic region. Stronger pelvic muscles can support reproductive organs and contribute to a healthier pregnancy.
5. Emotional Well-being: The emotional toll of trying to conceive can be overwhelming. Yoga fosters a positive mindset, helps manage anxiety, and promotes emotional resilience, which is beneficial during this time.

Essential Yoga Poses for Fertility

Incorporating specific yoga poses into your routine can target the reproductive organs and create a conducive environment for conception. Here are some recommended poses:

1. Supta Baddha Konasana (Reclining Bound Angle Pose):
   • Benefits: Opens the hips, increases blood flow to the pelvic region, and promotes relaxation.
   • How to Do It: Lie on your back, bring the soles of your feet together, and let your knees fall open to the sides. Support your knees with cushions if needed and relax in this position for several minutes.
2. Setu Bandhasana (Bridge Pose):
   • Benefits: Strengthens the pelvic floor, stimulates the reproductive organs, and enhances circulation.
   • How to Do It: Lie on your back with your knees bent and feet flat on the floor. Lift your hips towards the ceiling, clasp your hands beneath you, and hold the pose, focusing on your breath.
3. Viparita Karani (Legs Up the Wall Pose):
   • Benefits: Promotes relaxation, improves circulation, and helps relieve lower back pain.
   • How to Do It: Sit close to a wall, lie on your back, and extend your legs up the wall. Rest in this position, with your arms relaxed by your sides.
4. Paschimottanasana (Seated Forward Bend):
   • Benefits: Stretches the lower back and hamstrings, reduces stress, and calms the mind.
   • How to Do It: Sit with your legs extended in front of you, hinge at your hips, and reach forward to grasp your feet or shins. Maintain a gentle stretch without straining.
5. Balasana (Child’s Pose):
   • Benefits: Provides gentle stretching for the back and hips, promotes relaxation, and reduces stress.
   • How to Do It: Kneel on the floor, sit back on your heels, and fold forward, extending your arms in front or alongside your body. Rest your forehead on the mat and breathe deeply.

Integrating Yoga into Your Daily Routine

To maximize the benefits of yoga for fertility, consistency is key. Aim to practice these poses and other relaxation techniques daily. Here are some tips for incorporating yoga into your routine:

1. Create a Calm Space: Designate a quiet, comfortable area for your practice. Use cushions, mats, and props to support your body in the poses.
2. Set a Regular Schedule: Choose a time of day that works best for you, whether it’s in the morning to start your day peacefully or in the evening to unwind.
3. Combine with Other Healthy Habits: Complement your yoga practice with a balanced diet, adequate hydration, and sufficient sleep to support overall fertility health.
4. Stay Patient and Positive: Remember that the journey to conception can take time. Maintain a positive attitude and trust in the process, knowing that you are taking proactive steps to enhance your fertility.

Conclusion

Yoga for pregnancy planning offers a holistic and nurturing approach to support fertility and prepare the body and mind for pregnancy. By integrating specific poses that promote relaxation, hormonal balance, and reproductive health, you can create an optimal environment for conception. Embrace yoga as a part of your daily routine and enjoy the physical and emotional benefits it brings as you embark on your journey to parenthood.

I recently found this subreddit, and I just wish I had found it sooner. About 10 years ago I briefly dated a pwbpd, and it seems like it was just yesterday.
I was 19 and this was my second ever relationship. The relationship itself probably only lasted a few months, but probably is the single biggest thing that has had any impact on my life. Probably the most emotionally intense couple months of my life. Both positive and negative. It's insane in all honestly. There's two pictures that exist of me from during that time, one at my absolute happiest point in my life - and another at the absolute lowest. Both related to my experiences with this person. It's... extremely hard even now. My experience is not unique and there are many others who have had similar if not the exact experiences I did.
I'm not really sure where to start, so I'll just start from the beginning. Throughout HS, I didn't date at all until my senior year and my first relationship lasted about a year. That person had bipolar disorder and depression, and they broke up with me after my grandmother died because I wasn't responding to their phone calls because my grandmother had just passed away.
At this point I was pretty low already. Ands this is where the pwbdp enters. I was approached by the pwbdp who struck up a conversation with me. I already knew who they were as we were in a volunteer group together, but I didn't know anything about them personally. I didn't really talk to them outside the group at all. We seemed to get along, so I asked them if they wanted to grab coffee on the weekend and they agreed. It was only supposed to be for about an hour, but we ended conversating and spent about three hours together that day. It felt great.
We started dating not too long after that, I vaguely remember them writing me a letter telling me how much they liked me and they wanted to start dating - I enjoyed the attention as all throughout high school I was very much an introverted loner.
The first four months of the relationship were absolutely incredible. If I were to make a comparison, it was like before I met this person - I could only see in black and white and they helped bring the color into my life. It's honestly hard to describe the intensity of the emotions they made me feel. I did - I thought I saw a future together with this individual.
There were some what I thought at the time were little things here and there that seemed a bit odd, like - one time they cooked macaroni and cheese and didn't drain the water. They asked me what I thought of it and so I responded that it tasted a bit interesting and wondered if there was anything they did to it - not in a mean sort of way, just curious. That was enough to make them start bawling. A few of the dates we went on ended up with us going to the ER for one reason or another.
But then, at the drop of a pin it all changed. I would describe it like I went from seeing bright super vibrant colors, to doing a whole reverse and only seeing in negative like old filmstrips. Basically what had happened in the weeks prior to this, an ex-gf of theirs was introduced back into their life and I'm sure you can guess what happened next...
There was an event that we had volunteered at earlier during the day and we had made plans for the following day to have dinner. Well, after the volunteer event ended I tried getting in contact with them and they did not answer, this worried me as they had never done this before. Finally, after trying to get a hold of them for probably hours at this point - they answered. No real emotion in their voice at all, they told me where they were and what they were doing. They were with their ex and got drunk and high. This was like a total 180 of the person that I thought I was dating and totally out of the character from the facade that I had fallen in love with.
I said since they probably weren't good to drive, we could go pick them up and they'd stay the night at my house. See, me? I can be pretty naive about these types of things. At the time, I wasn't putting two and two together, whether that be from my inexperience or just the shock of it all. It was my folks who noticed the hickeys on their neck.
But it's not over yet, the next day after they had woken and went to the bathroom. I remember sitting on the edge of my bed and briefly hearing a thud. I was numb and didn't think anything of it. My folks come out and asked me if everything was okay, I snapped back to reality and said that pwbpd was still in the bathroom. Well, they weren't responding and the door was locked. And when we finally got the door open, they were laying on the floor and their face was blue as they had wrapped a belt tightly around their neck. The belt was removed and we did manage to save their life (I often ask myself if it was even worth it).
They were hospitalized after this attempt and we still remained in contact. Against my better judgement, I tried to stay in the relationship to make it work - but it didn't and progressively got worse from here on out. Luckily they were never violent with me - sorry to those that have experienced that. If this was any other person, I would have immediately ended the relationship and one thing that's a dealbreaker for me is lying and cheating. I guess I was probably just scared to be alone again. They ended up going to a state hospital for a while and I guess while they were there they had sex with another patient while they were there. And this was after they had asked me to "wait for them".
It use to be that I would get a strange feeling, and then a few days later they would contact me. That stopped when I changed my number for a completely different reason and completely lost contact. The last time they called me, I was actually back home from being in school out of town. This was probably over a year after we had broken up broken up. They called me and asked to see me, and when I did see them - they told me they had an STD didn't specify what it was. (Every time I was with them I had used protection thank god for a number of reasons there). Then they proceeded to just say mean and hurtful things to me, like that I was shorter than them so therefore I wasn't good enough. They were the ones who wanted to move on and not live in the past. Not really sure what the point of any of this was. I think I probably even said that.
Anyways, I don't know why I'm writing this after 10 years. I haven't dated anyone since, and now I'm almost 30. All my friends have children and/or are married, and yet I remain. I was actually out with my friends the other weekend, and they asked me if I was seeing anyone. I plainly stated that I hadn't dated anyone since this person. They gave me a sad smile and that it was so long ago. It's fine. I'm more content being alone I suppose and I was never much of a people person to begin with anyways. Maybe I'm lying to myself. I don't know. One of my self-deprecating jokes is that you'd have to be insane to want to date me. Every person I've dated has either threatened to kill themselves or tried to kill themselves. I don't know what it is about me that has attracted these types.
Anyways, I recently saw they were in jail out of our home state, and against my better judgement - I sent them a letter. Mostly focused on what I've been up to for the past few years. And that I do hope that at some point they find peace. Probably a mistake on my end, but I doubt they'll even respond. And no, I would not date this person again. This was a long post, too long and if you suffered through it, I applaud you. I've left out a lot of in-between details, but most of the important stuff is still there.
Thanks for reading. 10 years for 4 months isn't a good trade, but that's my fault now isn't it?