Infant lesson plans physical

To preface, I am a 26 year old female, alot of the events that I'm going to talk about occurred when I was a child, some will be more recent, but as I keep low to no contact with my parents now, there wouldn't be much to tell.
As far back as I can remember, my mom would say and do things that made me feel like I wasn't as important as my brother(s). Before my younger brother (22M) was born, if my older brother (29M) broke or damaged something, he'd blame it on me. She always believed him. Sometimes he'd pinch himself, run to our mom crying and say that I pinched him for no reason and I'd end up getting punished. If he wanted to use the PS1 (for those who remember that) and I was using it, I'd be forced to get off so he could have a turn, regardless of how little time I had been using it. The same applied to the family computer. Anything he wanted, he got.
After my little brother came into the picture I assumed my older brother would be forced to share the game systems, computer, toys etc. But I was mistaken. Instead, my mom began to spoil them both, giving them whatever they asked for. Citing their recent autism diagnosis as the reason for the special treatment. "You're the only normal one, you have to compromise on these things for your brothers because they're special." "You have to be mature and responsible because they can't." Were essentially the messages I was fed for years.
I was often the one left in charge if my parents went out, not my older brother. If I wasn't in charge, they would have our oldest brother, (32M) who was adopted by our maternal grandparents, my mom's parents, watch us. Unfortunately, he was also spoiled rotten, but by my grandparents in an attempt to make up for the fact that my mom didn't raise him. Which only fueled my older brother's need for the latest and greatest toys/games at the time. So they got into arguments all the time and I'd end up being the mediatoone in charge regardless. I always had to keep a close eye on my little brother regardless of who was left in charge also, he's not as self sufficient as my older brother and lacked the understanding that most kids his age had, so he needed constant supervision or else he'd end up getting hurt. Which happened a few times, but surprisingly only while my parents were the ones watching him.
When I was 10, my dad lost his job after a seizure (he's an epileptic) caused him to slam his face into a coffee table. He wasn't able to immediately return to work due to the damage, and was fired as a result. We were then evicted from our apartment and were forced to move in with my maternal grandmother. My grandfather had passed a few years prior so it was just her, my uncle and my oldest brother living in the house at the time. My grandmother didn't want us there, to put it simply. My uncle is the one who kept bothering her about how my mom was going to lose custody of us if we didn't have somewhere to go, and she eventually caved. But she wasn't discreet about how little she enjoyed having us there.
At 13, we were still living with my grandmother, my dad had gotten a new job and I finally got a cell phone. Not my own, but my Dad shared his with me after he'd get off work. So from the hours of 4pm to 10pm, I was a regular teen with a phone, which felt nice. One day, I had to text a friend about something related to school, so I asked my mom if I could borrow her phone to text this friend. As I was getting the info on the assignment that I needed, a text came across the screen. It was from my mom's ex Jay. Jay was the father of my two older brothers, (29M & 32M) he was also physically abusive towards my mom when they were together. I admit I shouldn't have gone through her messages, but as far as our entire family was aware, Jay wanted nothing to do with my mom or my brothers, so I was curious as to why/how my mom had his number saved, let alone why they were speaking. To my horror, my mom was flirting with and sending very explicitly worded messages about how much she wanted him and how terrible my dad was. I'll admit, neither of my parents were perfect, my mom had her favoritism of my brothers, while my dad was verbally and physically abusive towards me and my older brother, but never my little brother. My dad also cheated on my mom with a coworker shortly after I was born. Which my mom made common knowledge to us kids by the time I was 7. So our relationship as a family, was tumultuous to say the least. Nevertheless, I brought the texts to my dad, who then confronted my mom. I mean, I was a kid, I had no idea how to navigate that. So I brought it to an adult, as I thought I was supposed to. But boy, I had no idea that things would turn they way they did. My mom essentially told my dad, who barely understands technology, that the texts he thought she sent, her ex sent and that I was just trying to break them up because I hate her. He believed her. This affected me for years because she'd always use it as leverage to accuse me of lying. "Well you lied about those texts, so obviously you'd lie about this too!" I was branded a liar and to this day, despite her admitting that she was lying back then, everyone in my family just sees me as a melodramatic liar and I've come to accept that will probably never change.
At 14, one of my best friends died in a train accident. I wasn't allowed to go to his funeral because my parents had booked a vacation to see my dad's family. My parents knew that telling me no before we left would result in me sneaking out and going to the funeral anyway, so they lied to me, saying that they'd think about it and let me know in the morning before we'd leave, saying it with that tone they use when you know they're going to say yes just to make me think I'd be able to go to the funeral and avoid having to look for me. They've admitted to all of this which is even more chilling to me. The next morning, they'd already packed my luggage in the car by the time I had woken up. My dad sat down and told me in no uncertain terms that I was not going to the funeral and that I was going with them, regardless of what I thought or did. I kicked, screamed, cried, bit, everything I could possibly do to get my dad to put me down. But in the end he turned on the child safety locks and he threw me in the car with my younger brother, we left and spent 3 days with my dad's family. All the while I was made fun of and mocked for crying constantly on what was "supposed to be" a happy vacation according to my parents. My older brother didn't want to go, so he didn't have to. But apparently that only applied to him. To this day I still haven't forgiven them for that.
At 15, I was kicked out of my grandmothers house, and only my dad was against it. But in the end, I had to go live with my boyfriend because I had nowhere else to go and nothing my dad said changed the minds of my mom or grandmother. Until I turned 18, my mom would get me $100 in groceries a month, to keep me alive. (I think she was just afraid I'd report her for abandonment if she didn't atleast feed me) Even then, she would say that she couldn't afford the $100 sometimes and I'd have to get a month of food out of $50 or less.
At 18, I became pregnant. My dad was very unhappy. I had my first born and I thought we were on the road to mending our relationship.
At 21, my parents invited me and my child to their house for dinner, they also invited my boyfriend but he was unable to join us because he was tired from work, but these dinners had become a regular occurrence at this point. Unfortunately, my older brother (29M) still lives at home with them and my younger brother, so I was forced to interact with him. He ended up saying something like "Mom and Dad only put up with you because they want to see your kid." It struck a nerve with me, because it had already felt that way to me for awhile, and my parents were right there, but didn't deny what he said and I started to cry. I excused myself outside but I wasn't calming down.
For some context, back when I lived at my grandmother's house, I had regular breakdowns. My parents were constantly yelling at me or hitting me for one thing or another. I didn't have a room or a bed back then, I slept on the couch in the living room from the ages of 10-15. So when my dad would go off, he'd repeatedly slam me down into whatever surface was in the room if I tried to get up or leave the room we were in. So the couch if it was the living room, my parents bed if we were arguing in their room, etc. My mom never stopped this. Sometimes it would go on for hours, and it'd get to the point where I'd either freak out and get physical with my dad or I would start to rip out my hair and beg him to leave me alone. I was regularly laughed at by my mom or older brother and called dramatic for reacting that way during these screaming sessions.
But in that moment l, as I was crying outside, I felt like that kid again. I was small and meaningless. I wanted to go home. So I collected myself as best I could and walked inside, grabbing my son as I walked up to my parents at the dining table. I told my mom that I was sorry, but we're going home. She got as far as saying, "But we're about to have di- ." before my dad began to scream at me like I had never heard him scream before. My mom took my son into another room as soon as she saw that I was caught off guard by my dad's outburst, and locked him in my uncles bedroom. For over an hour my dad berrated me, as I could hear my son wailing for me from the other room. He kept pushing me and getting in my face, not letting me leave the dining room, he almost slapped me but for whatever reason, didn't. My mom and older brother, just like when I was a kid, stood there and laughed at my reactions. Eventually, he stopped because I said something that made him really mad, so he charged outside and left. My uncle came out of his room with my son soon after and he drove us home. I sent them a long message afterwards stating that I'm going no contact. That lasted about three years, and we've since reconnected in the past 2 years, my dad hasn't pulled anything like that, seemingly because he knows I'm serious when I say I will never speak to them again. My mom on the other hand is back on the "she's out to get me" "she hates me" train again. Anytime I ask her something, even simple yes or no questions, she sends me a novel detailing her yes or no answer. If she's saying no, she always phrases things like I'm this unhinged person who goes crazy over being told no and that she's just an innocent victim to my rage? Which is funny because regardless of what her answer is my response is always "Okay." Or "Okay, thank you." And any question is prefaced heavily with "You really don't have to if you don't want to." "It's totally fine if you cant." "It's fine if you say no, I can figure out something else if need be." I don't want to be a burden and I don't like exerting more energy than absolutely necessary, so I have no reason to try to argue with her. It's gotten to the point where we have so little contact, she has to blow up small misunderstandings that happen when we do converse. My uncle sent me a screenshot from my mom to him, which was her saying I needed to do something, I honestly don't remember what. But whatever it was, apparently my dad and my uncle were the ones who wanted me to know that, not her. Which honestly doesn't matter either way to me. But I guess she took whatever I said in response as an attack despite only saying okay or alright as a response, and I had to deal with her and my dad spamming my phone in the middle of the night trying to make this literal non issue, an issue. So I ended up replying that I have no idea why or how this had devolved into what it did, but I have nothing to do with this, and to stop messaging me about it. Surprisingly they did. Finally the most recent thing was that I had talked to my parents, in front of everyone at their house, including my boyfriend and our kids. I told them I wanted to start looking for a job and was wondering if they'd be willing to watch my now two kids for a couple of hours on some of the days that I work, just until we save enough for the down payment at a daycare for them. My main driver for this was that my mom and dad had been pushing for my kids to stay ovespend time with them so i figured if we could do that while I also work that'd really help. Nowhere in my mind do I think I am entitled to my parents help, I just thought that if they were pushing to spend time with them, that this was a perfect opportunity to do so. My parents agreed initially, but when I called them to make plans about it because I had an interview lined up, my mom said she never agreed to anything like that and that she "wasn't going to raise my kids for me." In the end, it wasn't worth an argument and I just said that she could have just said no the first time I brought it up, and I would have just started looking at alternatives for childcare. Pulling this hurtful stunt was unnecessary and cruel. And we haven't spoken much since.
Honestly I doubt they'll ever actually change, which is why I keep them at an arms length. Sorry for the rant, I just needed somewhere to put all of this.

F(26) ’m going to try to keep this short, I’ve recently fell into a pit of sadness and I think it’s because I’m slowly realizing my friend f(26) isn’t that good of a friend.
I recently became bedridden ill for about four months, during that time I rarely saw my best friend. Granted, I was in a controlling relationship at the time, M(41) and he was my “caretaker” but looking back on it (3 months later now) I feel deep betrayal that she wasn’t really there for me … in fact her and her bf m(30) ganged up on me (jokingly) always asking “so where ya been lately?!” Uh, I was dying. (Not quite literally - but basically)
After this, I broke up with my boyfriend (once I no longer needed a caretaker, honestly I still couldn’t bathe alone and resorted to my mother washing my hair but told my parter he was affecting my friendships and I had to go
Now this is where it gets complicated, my best friends boyfriend works for my ex I speak of, as I’ve been healing, Both physically and emotionally my best friend and her man visit their boss- my ex (best friend doesn’t work) regularly.. they even started a side business together.
I saw her tonight and she mentioned again how she feels like we are becoming disconnected … I am moving an hour away because the 3 of us (her bf, her, and I were planning on getting a house together) but her bf pulled the rug out from under me only 2 months before moving date because “we aren’t close like we used to be” and “I didn’t fuel the fire of his and I’s friendship. She wasn’t happy about it but didn’t want to upset her man and basically said “it has to be a joint decision”.
So, with moving an hour away now that makes things more complicated… she never offered to help me move (and I didn’t ask)
To top it off I visited her today and noticed some new art hanging on her wall… I mentioned how beautiful it was and she said yeah my new friend Shelly gave it to me … she had a bit of a strange tone in her voice
I asked who it was and she told me it was my exes new gf. I just feel awful. Part of me feels like whiny teenager that is jealous but another part feels like maybe my feelings are valid.
We’ve been friends since elementary school, I’ve gotten to know and have grown close to her bf over their 5 year relationship as well.
Lately I feel like I’ve been tossed in the trash without warning.

It Just dawned on me that I am not particularly in shape, aside from biking 4 miles every day. How am I supposed to stick up for us if someone physically fit and strong and attractive hits on her? I kind of don't have a lot going for me other than plans.
I lack upper body muscle. I have plenty in my legs from years of heavy biking, but from what I understand, the only attractive things about me is my personality, and I guess my cute face as she puts it.
Iight be looking too into it, but she has a lot going for her. Even though she is very often overwhelmed, she already has a career, and plans that are active. I moved 5 hours away from my family and her, before we started dating. I did this to pursue my hobbies and interests.
That isn't exactly viable, and I am supposed to be impressing her family. I have job opportunities that can get me on track to retiring at 40, but I can't take any actions until my lease is up.
Either way, I need to start proving myself soon. I would like to start working out. There is a gym at my apartments, but I am uncomfortable working out around other people. I have 10lbs weights that I could use, but I honestly lack discipline to get it done.
I am getting exactly what I wanted, but now I need to keep it up. I need to make sure, she is reminded that she didn't chose me just for my temperament and ability to listen and learn and grow.

pls help:( so things have been going really good for us recently. we go to the same college but are currently doing long distance because of summer break (me in TX him in CA). this is our second LDR summer so we’re used to it and have found ways to stay close like watching shows together, making playlists for eachother, mailing love letters etc..
the issues started a few days ago. first, we were on facetime and i made a joke and started laughing (i do have a laugh that can be a bit grating) but he seriously responded and said “u know sometimes when you laugh i just have to sit here and wait till its over cus its not that funny”
i have pretty bad social anxiety and hes really the only person ive told that to.. its been growing because we are planning to vacation with his family soon and that has been making me anxious, that statement just made me feel unsafe with him. but, as a mature gf.. i simply just told him and he apologized and i tried to move on.
the next day i get a text from a random girl sending me a post hes made (hes a micro influencer) that had a few thousand likes insinuating that he prefers girls that dont shower before sex.. probably a joke but im on that page and like i mentioned earlier SOCIAL ANXIETY. ppl sending it rlly turned me off him, and to add insult to injury the trip we were supposed to go on got randomly cancelled and it was a hassle to get my money back..
i love him.. we have been together over a year but right now im so turned off him and the possibility of us seeing eachother and letting our physical connection help this situation now seems slim. weve tried to talk today but i just felt put off. he apologized and expressed his love for me and how bad he feels about these things but idk. ive started to think maybe our incompatibility is showing.

I know the obvious answer is to leave, but I don’t know how. For context, my father cheated on my mom when I was young. She never left, and I never learned to hate him. He stopped but never got better for my mom. My father had anger issues and would hit and scream at us when he’s in a bad mood.
I grew up physically abused, as most Asian families do. I have a fear of abandonment to a point where it’s paralyzing. I am the oldest out of 3 and learned quickly to be a pillar, a second mother for my sibling. I love taking care of people.
Me and my boyfriend met when we were 19. He is my first boyfriend, my first love, and who I lost my virginity to. He was the first man to take care of me, he never yelled, he talks to me so softly. He was nice and I fell in love. To be honest, I let a lot of things slide because he was truly loving towards me. I didn’t get lots of great physical touch when I was young, so it was nice that he never hits me. He always kisses and hugs me.
But he would constantly lie, cross my boundaries, and never truly understood me. Yet I still loved him wholeheartedly. I choose to see his good and hoped that he would one day change or that my love will be enough for him to want to change. But he never did. We moved in 4 years ago, and ever since, I did everything for him. I cooked, packed his lunch for work, dropped him off, and picked him up from work when I could. I played games with him. But he would lie, and we would have fights where I sometimes got physical, like pushing him away when he hugged me to calm me down or hitting his chest in frustration. I don’t have an excuse for my reaction.
But he never once told me that he minded, and so I stayed the same. One day, he told me he’s done, out of the blue, and that he needs space. I was confused at first and pestered him to tell me why. He was having trouble at his new job and is generally depressed. He didn’t want to handle our relationship and would like a break. I tried talking to him about helping him and working things out.
He wanted to move out, and I took the initiative and booked and paid for a hotel room for him for one night for him to cool off, and maybe we can talk after, since it has been weeks of this talk.
He came back saying he still needs to move out and be by himself to better himself and come back to me. He promised that if he does, he’ll be a better version of himself.
Today, I found out that he was cheating since months before. That the hotel I paid for with the little savings that I had was for him to sleep with this girl. I found out way later, and when I caught him having phone calls with her, he denied it being romantic.
Today I met the other girl, AZ. AZ told me everything. She was also lied to, she had no idea we were still dating. She told me every detail, how he kissed her and how much he loved kissing her. How much they love each other. How he lied about our relationship and our breakup, how he showed interest in her from the beginning.
He told me it was a mistake, that it was a one-night stand. And all he wanted was to let go of his frustration and play around a bit and will eventually come back to me after the break. That the 7 years was during his young years and that he didn’t explore and that he thought we were getting boring and with AZ, he felt alive again. He said he liked how easy it was, how fun being with AZ is. But he said he knows it was wrong and that he will never forgive himself or ever do it again.
I basically made him quit his job; they’re coworkers, and I stopped them from going further. He asked that we start over in a new country and that we can be better. He said that he doesn’t deserve me and is ready if I would want to let go, but if I would want to work things out, he would change.
I spent all those years not having a backup plan. He was everything for me and was the person I never thought could do this. I truly planned my whole life for him.
Yet after all of this, I can’t shake the feeling that I can’t leave. I want to forgive him and forget this ever happened. But all of you experienced folks, please help me. I don’t know what to do, I’m so lost. Its so hard for me to abandon people. I’m 26f, I feel like dying. Will I even be desirable, and will I even love again, is all men like this? What if I meet one that hits me? Was I loved?
Please, help me.
I’m so sorry this was long, I had no one to talk to. I just hope to get some advice.

I know the obvious answer is to leave, but I don’t know how. For context, my father cheated on my mom when I was young. She never left, and I never learned to hate him. He stopped but never got better for my mom. My father had anger issues and would hit and scream at us when he’s in a bad mood.
I grew up physically abused, as most Asian families do. I have a fear of abandonment to a point where it’s paralyzing. I am the oldest out of 3 and learned quickly to be a pillar, a second mother for my sibling. I love taking care of people.
Me and my boyfriend met when we were 19. He is my first boyfriend, my first love, and who I lost my virginity to. He was the first man to take care of me, he never yelled, he talks to me so softly. He was nice and I fell in love. To be honest, I let a lot of things slide because he was truly loving towards me. I didn’t get lots of great physical touch when I was young, so it was nice that he never hits me. He always kisses and hugs me.
But he would constantly lie, cross my boundaries, and never truly understood me. Yet I still loved him wholeheartedly. I choose to see his good and hoped that he would one day change or that my love will be enough for him to want to change. But he never did. We moved in 4 years ago, and ever since, I did everything for him. I cooked, packed his lunch for work, dropped him off, and picked him up from work when I could. I played games with him. But he would lie, and we would have fights where I sometimes got physical, like pushing him away when he hugged me to calm me down or hitting his chest in frustration. I don’t have an excuse for my reaction.
But he never once told me that he minded, and so I stayed the same. One day, he told me he’s done, out of the blue, and that he needs space. I was confused at first and pestered him to tell me why. He was having trouble at his new job and is generally depressed. He didn’t want to handle our relationship and would like a break. I tried talking to him about helping him and working things out.
He wanted to move out, and I took the initiative and booked and paid for a hotel room for him for one night for him to cool off, and maybe we can talk after, since it has been weeks of this talk.
He came back saying he still needs to move out and be by himself to better himself and come back to me. He promised that if he does, he’ll be a better version of himself.
Today, I found out that he was cheating since months before. That the hotel I paid for with the little savings that I had was for him to sleep with this girl. I found out way later, and when I caught him having phone calls with her, he denied it being romantic.
Today I met the other girl, AZ. AZ told me everything. She was also lied to, she had no idea we were still dating. She told me every detail, how he kissed her and how much he loved kissing her. How much they love each other. How he lied about our relationship and our breakup, how he showed interest in her from the beginning.
He told me it was a mistake, that it was a one-night stand. And all he wanted was to let go of his frustration and play around a bit and will eventually come back to me after the break. That the 7 years was during his young years and that he didn’t explore and that he thought we were getting boring and with AZ, he felt alive again. He said he liked how easy it was, how fun being with AZ is. But he said he knows it was wrong and that he will never forgive himself or ever do it again.
I basically made him quit his job; they’re coworkers, and I stopped them from going further. He asked that we start over in a new country and that we can be better. He said that he doesn’t deserve me and is ready if I would want to let go, but if I would want to work things out, he would change.
I spent all those years not having a backup plan. He was everything for me and was the person I never thought could do this. I truly planned my whole life for him.
Yet after all of this, I can’t shake the feeling that I can’t leave. I want to forgive him and forget this ever happened. But all of you experienced folks, please help me. I don’t know what to do, I’m so lost. Its so hard for me to abandon people. I’m 26f, will I even be desirable, and will I even love again, is all men like this? What if I meet one that hits me? Was I loved?
Please, help me.
I’m so sorry this was long, I had no one to talk to. I just hope to get some advice.

Smart Smart Fruit

Type: Paramecia
Description: The Smart Smart Fruit is a Paramecia-type Devil Fruit that enhances its user's intelligence and comprehension, making them an Intelligence Human.

Abilities and Powers:

1. Enhanced Intelligence: The user's cognitive abilities are significantly augmented, granting them advanced problem-solving skills, heightened analytical thinking, and superior memory retention. They can process information at an accelerated rate and quickly adapt to new situations.
   
2. Comprehensive Knowledge: The user gains a vast repository of knowledge across various fields, including science, mathematics, literature, history, and more. They have a deep understanding of complex subjects and can provide insightful analysis or solutions to intricate problems.
   
3. Enhanced Perception: The user's senses are sharpened, allowing them to perceive subtle details and patterns that others may overlook. They can detect hidden clues, anticipate opponents' movements, and make split-second decisions with precision.
   
4. Tactical Planning: The user excels in strategic planning and tactical decision-making, devising effective strategies for various scenarios. They can anticipate their opponents' actions and formulate countermeasures accordingly, gaining an edge in combat and other competitive situations.
   
5. Language Proficiency: The user possesses advanced language skills, mastering multiple languages with fluency and proficiency. They can communicate effectively with individuals from diverse linguistic backgrounds, facilitating diplomacy, negotiation, and cultural exchange.
   
6. Technological Aptitude: The user demonstrates a natural affinity for technology and innovation, quickly grasping complex concepts and applying them to practical solutions. They can invent gadgets, design systems, or analyze technological phenomena with ease.
   

Usage Examples:

• Strategic Planning: The user formulates intricate battle plans, predicting their opponents' moves and outmaneuvering them with strategic brilliance.
  
• Problem-Solving: The user tackles complex problems or puzzles with ease, employing creative thinking and logical reasoning to find innovative solutions.
  
• Invention and Innovation: The user develops groundbreaking inventions, revolutionary theories, or pioneering discoveries that advance society's understanding and capabilities.
  

Weaknesses:

• Physical Limitations: While the Smart Smart Fruit enhances the user's mental faculties, it does not provide any inherent physical enhancements. They may still be susceptible to physical fatigue or injury in combat situations.
  
• Overconfidence: The user's superior intellect may lead to overconfidence or arrogance, causing them to underestimate opponents or overlook critical factors in their plans.
  
• Standard Devil Fruit Weaknesses: Like all Devil Fruit users, the user is susceptible to the standard weaknesses associated with Devil Fruits, including the inability to swim and vulnerability to Seastone.
  

• New build or upgrade?
• New :3
• Existing parts/monitors to reuse? (List with models/links)
• I plan on hooking it up to my tv for now
• PC purpose? (Gaming, editing, etc. List apps/games)
• Gaming! I think the most intensive things I'll play on it will be VR, Minecraft, and Stardew Valley both with a lot of mods. I have a Quest 2 VR headset if that's important. Might also have to run some old physics code such as MESA stellar evolution
• Purchase country? Near Micro Center? (If not US, list local vendors)
• USA. I can get to a micro center if needed. I've also got amazon prime
• Monitors needed? (Number, size, resolution, refresh rate)
• I might get a monitor later on so any recommendations would be nice.
• Budget range? (Include tax considerations)
• anywhere from 1,000$ to 2,300$ I would like to stay under 1500$ but could go up if it would make a pc that will perform, last, or look better especially if it will give me more screens to put custom videos on inside the case!
• WiFi or wired connection?
• will need Wi-Fi and Bluetooth
• Size/noise constraints?
• no size constraints. I would like something quieter definitely don't want it to sound like a jet engine like my laptop does
• Cololighting preferences?
• I really want to try to theme this PC like Shadow the Hedgehog!!! the color palette I was thinking of was black, red, white, and maybe a bit of yellow. If there are some cool builds Sonic the Hedgehog themed that would be sick too especially if it was green hills zone themed. I plan on putting a figure or 2 inside the case and the more screens I can put images or videos on the better. I was looking at hyte cases with screens but the 300$ price tag on some of the ones I saw was a lot.
• Any other specific needs?
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• Thanks so much to anyone who gives me recommendations!!! :3

I know the obvious answer is to leave, but I don’t know how. For context, my father cheated on my mom when I was young. She never left, and I never learned to hate him. He stopped but never got better for my mom. My father had anger issues and would hit and scream at us when he’s in a bad mood.
I grew up physically abused, as most Asian families do. I have a fear of abandonment to a point where it’s paralyzing. I am the oldest out of 3 and learned quickly to be a pillar, a second mother for my sibling. I love taking care of people.
Me and my boyfriend met when we were 19. He is my first boyfriend, my first love, and who I lost my virginity to. He was the first man to take care of me, he never yelled, he talks to me so softly. He was nice and I fell in love. To be honest, I let a lot of things slide because he was truly loving towards me. I didn’t get lots of great physical touch when I was young, so it was nice that he never hits me. He always kisses and hugs me.
But he would constantly lie, cross my boundaries, and never truly understood me. Yet I still loved him wholeheartedly. I choose to see his good and hoped that he would one day change or that my love will be enough for him to want to change. But he never did. We moved in 4 years ago, and ever since, I did everything for him. I cooked, packed his lunch for work, dropped him off, and picked him up from work when I could. I played games with him. But he would lie, and we would have fights where I sometimes got physical, like pushing him away when he hugged me to calm me down or hitting his chest in frustration. I don’t have an excuse for my reaction.
But he never once told me that he minded, and so I stayed the same. One day, he told me he’s done, out of the blue, and that he needs space. I was confused at first and pestered him to tell me why. He was having trouble at his new job and is generally depressed. He didn’t want to handle our relationship and would like a break. I tried talking to him about helping him and working things out.
He wanted to move out, and I took the initiative and booked and paid for a hotel room for him for one night for him to cool off, and maybe we can talk after, since it has been weeks of this talk.
He came back saying he still needs to move out and be by himself to better himself and come back to me. He promised that if he does, he’ll be a better version of himself.
Today, I found out that he was cheating since months before. That the hotel I paid for with the little savings that I had was for him to sleep with this girl. I found out way later, and when I caught him having phone calls with her, he denied it being romantic.
Today I met the other girl, AZ. AZ told me everything. She was also lied to, she had no idea we were still dating. She told me every detail, how he kissed her and how much he loved kissing her. How much they love each other. How he lied about our relationship and our breakup, how he showed interest in her from the beginning.
He told me it was a mistake, that it was a one-night stand. And all he wanted was to let go of his frustration and play around a bit and will eventually come back to me after the break. That the 7 years was during his young years and that he didn’t explore and that he thought we were getting boring and with AZ, he felt alive again. He said he liked how easy it was, how fun being with AZ is. But he said he knows it was wrong and that he will never forgive himself or ever do it again.
I basically made him quit his job; they’re coworkers, and I stopped them from going further. He asked that we start over in a new country and that we can be better. He said that he doesn’t deserve me and is ready if I would want to let go, but if I would want to work things out, he would change.
I spent all those years not having a backup plan. He was everything for me and was the person I never thought could do this. I truly planned my whole life for him.
Yet after all of this, I can’t shake the feeling that I can’t leave. I want to forgive him and forget this ever happened. But all of you experienced folks, please help me. I don’t know what to do, I’m so lost. Its so hard for me to abandon people. I’m 26f, will I even be desirable, and will I even love again, is all men like this? What if I meet one that hits me? Was I loved?
Please, help me.
I’m so sorry this was long, I had no one to talk to. I just hope to get some advice.

Burner for privacy. I have anxiety, panic disorder, OCD, and depression. I’ve been on meds for over 20 years, usually SSRIs.
Every five to ten years the meds stop working and I have to work with a psychiatrist to find a new solution – but we’re always able find something that works.
A few years ago, I needed the reboot on my meds and, for the first time ever, a benzo was added to my daily SSRI. We went through a few before we landed on one that didn’t have any sedating effects on me – I ended up with a daily SSRI combined with 1mg of clonazepam 2x daily, and that’s what I’ve been on for years.
I don’t drink (ever, not even an occasional beer or cocktail) and other than occasional weed (very occasional – unless I’m in a really good place mentally, I just end up having a panic attack) I’ve never done a “drug” in my life. (I’m not judging anyone who has used benzos – or any other drug – recreationally; I’m only sharing because it provides context for my specific situation.)
My use of clonazepam is purely therapeutic and even in the beginning, I never felt anything that seemed like “hey, I get why people use this recreationally!” There was no “high” for me – just slowly my panic attacks and other symptoms started to subside, similar to the gradual improvement that an SSRI provides.
At this point, I know that it’s unlikely that the clonazepam is even doing anything for me – I know tolerance builds up quickly and my dose has never increased, so this is probably just a maintenance dose that I’m taking.
I recently moved and along with that move came a new psychiatrist. The new psychiatrist wants me off of the clonazepam, primarily because of the increased risk of early onset dementia (which I also looked into and it seems like the research isn’t conclusive and this might be a correlation doesn’t equal causation thing).
Despite that, I’m not opposed to removing clonazepam from my medication, especially since I know that it’s probably not even doing anything at this point, considering tolerance etc…
My psychiatrist wants to move me from clonazepam to diazepam (Valium) and begin a low and slow taper of at least nine months. I was looking into this and it sounds like his plan is to use the Ashton Manual, although he never said as much.
I’m diligent with my meds – I have a pill box I fill up weekly and I rarely miss a dose, but on the off chance that I do miss a dose, I’ve never had a “craving” for clonazepam or a feeling of mental addiction – I usually notice a missed dose only after more than 48 hours has passed and it’s usually a headache that acts as my reminder. But, again, there’s no desire – it’s just like “what the hell is with this headache?… oh, crap, I forgot to take my meds the last couple of days.”
I know, logically, that my body is physically addicted to the meds but from an emotional standpoint, if someone said “I’m throwing the clonazepam away and you can never have it again!” my reaction would mostly be… 🤷‍♂️
…until I started looking into what the discontinuation process would be like!
At first, my primary concern was moving to diazepam because I didn’t want to feel groggy or sedated.
Now that I made the mistake of Googling this, I’m terrified that I’m going to have hallucinations, experience horrible body pains, go into a deep depression, have constant panic attacks, and maybe even have grand mal seizures – and that it could last for years even after the taper is done and the last pill has been taken?! WTF?!?!
Most of the info I’ve been able to find is from people who were using benzodiazepines recreationally (and at potentially far higher doses than me) and went cold turkey or did a fast (like one month) taper in rehab.
My dose (1mg 2x daily) isn’t “low” but it’s an average therapeutic dose. My taper is going to be long – at least nine months.
Is there anyone here that can speak to a very long, very slow, very gradual, medically-supervised taper and discontinuation? Is it possible to do this safely and with minimal side effects? (If it makes a difference, I’m more concerned about mental side effects than physical.)
If you have a success story or a good story, I’d love to hear it – especially if you’re comfortable providing details like what benzo it was, how many years you were on it, what dose you were on, and what your taper schedule was like.
If you have a horror story, no need to share – the internet is already full of those! I’m looking for some reassurance, not more panic attack fuel.
Thank you!
Gender: Male Age: 45 Weight: 275lbs Additional Meds: Escitalopram, Bupropion, Omeprazole, Valacyclovir Additional Medical Issues: Sleep apnea Additional Info: Non-Smoker, No Drinking, No Recreational Drug Use (with the exception of very infrequent marijuana)

TL;DR: A 28-year-old engineer with 4 years of experience in the automotive industry in Japan is unhappy with his job and is considering a 6-12 month career break to transition into software engineering (SWE). Need advice regarding this career break.
I have a degree in mechanical engineering and have been working in automotive R&D in Japan for 4 years. During this time, I've held three different positions: project management, design/development, and testing. Unfortunately, none of these roles have been satisfying.
Although the pay is reasonable, the work environment is very slow and draining, especially when launching new products or services. I initially believed that working in this industry would allow me to make a significant impact and develop exciting projects. However, in reality, most products and services are developed by suppliers, with OEMs merely setting the requirements and occasionally handling testing and packaging.
I am considering taking a 6-12 month career break (I have enough savings to sustain myself for 1 year) to learn programming and transition into software engineering, specifically in application and game development. I plan to focus on learning C++ and Unreal Engine. I have some basic programming knowledge but have heard that the job market is currently unstable. Many people say that taking a career break can be seen as a red flag by future employers, especially since I have only 4 years of work experience.
At 28, I am very afraid of continuing to work in a job that I hate, which drains me both mentally and physically. I don't want to give up on pursuing what I truly want, whether it's in software engineering or art. Unfortunately, I don't have the time to study while working at my current job due to the lack of work-life balance.

Just a little background on my upbringing: I was raised by a single mother of 3, and we have always identified as Christians. While we didn't attend church every Sunday, my family and I always made an effort to, but sometimes life’s circumstances made it challenging. We are far from perfect Christians, but everyone has flaws and inevitably makes mistakes.
Over time, our family members took different paths. I joined the Military, my sisters pursued new careers, and my mom relocated back to our home state where most of our other family resides. Despite our physical distance, we maintained regular contact, but within the past few months, it’s been getting harder to find the energy to talk to my mom. She had been asking me for money fairly often, as well as taking money out of my bank account without even asking. I am always the one to help my family out in times of need, and I have never really minded it. But it was just getting to the point where I felt that she was doing it too freely and taking advantage of me, which led me to address the issue. This confrontation resulted in her kind of distancing herself from me and seeking financial assistance from others, despite having a stable income and manageable expenses. So i was just confused on where all of her money was going. I reached out, and offered to help her make a budget plan, to help budget her money more wisely, but she didn’t like that idea.
Fast forward to around February timeframe, and I still didn’t hear from her that often, unless it was for money. My sisters informed me that my mother had been spreading unfounded rumors about me having insider knowledge about government secrets and aliens due to me being in the military, and that’s why I don’t call them to talk to them often. But mind you, I talk to my sisters VERY often, and the reason I stopped talking to her as much, was because she would always ask for money when we would talk. Also, my job in the military rotates between MAKING FOOD at the chow hall and working at the FITNESS CENTER on base, and they all know that, so her claims definitely contradicts the reality of my jobs responsibilities.
What happens next? The solar eclipse in April. She called me for like a week leading up to it, begging and begging that I stay inside for it, because the government was gonna be releasing toxins into the air during it; telling me to keep my Bible next to me wherever I went; that the world was going to end, and just a whole lot of imagined dangers associated with the event, prompting her to believe that an apocalyptic scenario was imminent. I told her on the first day that she started to beg me, that I live on the opposite side of the world, and that the solar eclipse wasn’t even going to happen on this side of the world, so there was nothing for her to worry about. Ever since then, she has been frantically calling everybody in our family non-stop, telling us that the end of the world is IMMINENT, and that now is our time to get right with god, and pressuring all of our non-religious relatives members to embrace Christianity, and telling the ones with newborn children, that their babies are going to go to heaven, and they won’t, etc…
So it went from only hearing from her when she needed money, to all of a sudden, hearing from her 24/7, about doomsday prophecies, and everything about religion. I am a very stressed out and busy person, not just with work, but also with things outside of work, so the last thing I want to hear after a long day, is that the world is going to end tomorrow and everybody’s gonna die, so i try to avoid her calls as much as i can to preserve my mental well-being and to shield myself from the persistent doomsday messages. I LOVE God, I read the Bible, and I pray to God EVERY single day. God is my #1, so it kind of makes me feel like a bad person for ignoring her phone calls, and it makes me feel as if I’m avoiding talks about God and Christianity, but deep down, I know know I’m not, and that I’m just trying to protect my positive energy.
As bad as this may sound, my sisters and I believe that my mother's behavior might be influenced by substances like psychedelics or something, given her sudden immersion in conspiracy theories and erratic beliefs. Not just because of her talks about the world ending, but also because of the things she said about me knowing about aliens as well, and how all of this stuff just started happening out of nowhere. She’s never been the type to indulge in conspiracy thoughts or anything like that, so her sudden departure from her usual demeanor is just worrying and confusing. So I’m just wondering what other people may think, or if they have any input. Am I a bad person for thinking that her religious views are possibly influenced by drugs?

I am planning on charging in my driveway. We live in a safe neighborhood, but I appreciate subtlety. I don’t mind the charging lights when I am looking at the port for status, but if I leave it overnight to charge, I’d rather not light up the neighborhood with all the blinking/always on lights. It tends to draw unwanted attention to the caactivity. The lights also seem to all be set to max brightness, but that could be my imagination.
I’m trying to find some way to turn off/dim all the lights under the charging door. It would be nice if I could turn down the brightness to maybe 30% if not off completely, but I’m not finding any controls. I guess I could just throw a towel or some other physical barrier over it, but that seems silly.

If you read this, I appreciate it.
My story is a mess, and I need to get it off my chest, but I have no one I want to talk to about it. So, here I am. This is over 10 years of depression.
I grew up with abusive Christian parents. My mum, manipulative and my dad physically. I was so afraid of him I climbed out of, and almost jumped from the upstairs bathroom window while he was taking the door off the hinges to get me once.
At 18 I tried to take my life as I couldn’t cope, but survived. I realised I would die living at home so I moved out immediately after physically recovering. I had no money and lived with two men from work at an Indian restaurant. My landlord would come in drunk and S/A me twice (not as far as r*pe, but it was coming). I ran away again and he stalked me at my new job and tried to find out where I lived. My new boss would hide me out back when he came to my work.
I moved house another time after this, worked three jobs (night shifts and day) and in six months I left the country and lived in Africa volunteering for a year.
I then returned and then worked for a surf charity and fell in love with a guy. He turned out to reflect my the love of my childhood and didn’t treat me well.
I broke up with him and then moved country again to go to university, so I wouldn’t have to worry about where to live for three years. My ex had been my only person I considered family and we remained friends- this was better and not abusive.
He however, became depressed after some time due to the breakup. At 2am one night he contacted me to say he was still in love with me and committed suicide.
Three months later, I was offered a drink after work at my bar job by a customer. Not giving a shit about life I decided it would be fine. I was taken to an air BnB and r*ped. The police investigation was terrible and closed after 6 months on lack of evidence.
I didn’t leave my house much for a year after this as I was so traumatised by both events.
After this I took up boxing and worked my way up to second in my country before quitting and deciding to go travelling. I never want to stay in one place and I just needed to get away again.
I was dating someone too but it wasn’t working so I broke up with him.
I’ve been travelling for two years now but find I desperately long to be loved by someone. I feel like I have no family or anyone I’d consider family. There are people who love me deeply, but not people I resonate with. I feel too different and too detached. I have a couple of people who care about me, but they are not enough for me to feel comfortable staying and settling in one place.
It’s been six years since leaving my parents. I’ve taken therapy for many many years and I’m self aware and try my best, but shits heavy.
It was the 3rd anniversary of my ex dying and I drank an insane amount and went skateboarding alone at night. I dropped in off a few ramps and simply didn’t give a shit what happened to me.
Long story short I ended up in hospital being checked for a skull fracture. I was cleared with a very bad concussion and went completely deaf for two weeks.
I’m still in bed recovering after a month, and laying here is making me incredibly depressed and I just want to take too many of the painkillers I’ve been given. I thought I’d been doing better, but I realised how much disregard I have for my life.
In hospital, I was completely alone in a foreign country when I was told by the doc that they thought fluid was leaking out of my broken skull. I didn’t tell a single person, and simply felt calm and relieved when they told me. I thought maybe I was dying.
I would never take my life knowing the pain it causes others. However my life is not working. I refuse to stay in one place, or have a caree long term job. I’m a freelance artist, I barely have any money and scrape by, and just keep moving because I don’t focus on work. Right now it’s not enough - the moving isn’t enough. I want to take a flight somewhere remote and completely disappear. Idk for how long or how I would survive on what I have, but I want to completely detach.
I don’t even drive yet, because I keep moving, and I have a job lined up working on a ski mountain for a season, which I know I’d enjoy, but the desire to disappear is so incredibly strong now. Idk if I want to stay in one place, even if just for a season. These were my next big plans but I don’t care all that much.
If i had a dream, it would to be paid to just document my stories and experiences and travel. I’ve lived in two slums, took buses across Africa and live life very wildly. I think it’s where I feel comfortable after the way I grew up. But everything is messy, and I don’t know how to do that.
All I want is simply to disappear and also desperately want to be loved by the right people, but cannot trust anyone enough or find the right person. I just wanted to get this off my chest. That’s my life. Thankyou for reading.

I started teaching in 2008. I've primarily taught in title I schools. 3 states, urban and rural. I hit a wall and had enough this year.
I'm expecting my 4th child in August. My oldest will also be a senior. My kids told me this year, their entire school career revolved around my students. We often stayed late (I did cut back this past school year) and they had to play on the playground or hang out in my classroom until I finished lesson planning or grading. I often volunteered for sports, clubs, PTO and other weekly commitments that required all of us to stay until 6/7 PM.
On top of that, some parents have (in the past 5 years) become insufferable. I'm tired of getting yelled at and accused of things by parents who are regularly tardy, irresponsible, in trouble in the community ( i.e. arrested/court) and don't even bother to call their students absences in (30-80 unexcused absences). It's some how my fault their kid is behind, despite not attending school regularly, not turning in homework, not completing their classwork or attending required/encouraged school events (like free tutoring, literacy night or after school programs) that would support them. I also had enough of getting cussed out and hit by students without consequence (I teach elementary) because it's more important for them to be in class (disrupting everyone and displaying agression) than it is for them to be at home.
I've had some great parents over the years. I've even had old students come to me and tell me what a great teacher I was. I still have students I run into that are older and give me hugs. This year I had several in my class and their parents love that I go the extra mile. I went to college for this and wanted to "be the change." Last month at an event there were 2 past parents that told staff how amazing I was with their kids and they missed me working with their kids. But I think with everything else my heart is broken.
My family and I decided that I will be a SAHM (for the 1st time ever, I've worked since I was a teenager) and homeschool through kindergarten. We're also debating if I should homeschool my 3rd grader, since I'm licensed preschool to 3rd and have an MA. We're leaving the older 2 in school so they can do sports and get the full experience. I'll also finally be able to make their school events, PTC (because El, Mid & HS do theirs all the same day in my district and I worked before), class parties and awards.
My kids are happy. I'm a little sad. It's bittersweet. I used to love my job. I liked dressing up, decorating and doing themes- I was that elementary teacher. But my own children need me and I'm not subject to verbal or physical attacks at home.
One mom this year told me she didn't care I was pregnant (because I had OB appointments and had subs) and accused me of not doing enough for her child, then reported me to admin (they did back me up and found out she was lying via conflicting messages and information on her part) but she didn't have to insult and yell at me in front of students. I'm always open to talking with parents after school and am super nice. Admin told me not to take it personal, because she's had issues with other staff but it was so crushing to hear what she was saying, I'd never talk to anyone like that. The last 3 years, I've come home crying several times.
Is this anyone else's last year? How do you feel? It's so hard to walk away, on one hand, but such a relief, on the other. How did you cope with leaving?

Hello, all. I'm Neotron. I'm a novelist in progress.
I'm about to host a new spec evo project in discord. It's of a inter planetary system. (Btw this isn't connected to any of my novels)
I'm planning to take specbio to a whole another level. What the idea is is to try to concatonate theoretical physics, wild idea, and more with specevo to create a sci-fi world. It's like Neutrinos, space warping, and shi (hopefully).
It will probably be made for game mods, YouTube videos, comics or stories. I can't promise pay right now, or really anytime near, but the money will be divided in ratios. Whoever contributed more will get more.
It's also crucial that it's quality over quantity. So, if you seem to not have the guts, you may be considered under accomplished.
Everyone is welcome to join this. For participation, DM me. We'll start off with a Reddit group. Meet you all scientists soon.
Further detail will be opened after DMming.
Neotron out.

Burner for privacy. I have anxiety, panic disorder, OCD, and depression. I’ve been on meds for over 20 years, usually SSRIs.
Every five to ten years the meds stop working and I have to work with a psychiatrist to find a new solution – but we’re always able find something that works.
A few years ago, I needed the reboot on my meds and, for the first time ever, a benzo was added to my daily SSRI. We went through a few before we landed on one that didn’t have any sedating effects on me – I ended up with a daily SSRI combined with 1mg of clonazepam 2x daily, and that’s what I’ve been on for years.
I don’t drink (ever, not even an occasional beer or cocktail) and other than occasional weed (very occasional – unless I’m in a really good place mentally, I just end up having a panic attack) I’ve never done a “drug” in my life. (I’m not judging anyone who has used benzos – or any other drug – recreationally; I’m only sharing because it provides context for my specific situation.)
My use of clonazepam is purely therapeutic and even in the beginning, I never felt anything that seemed like “hey, I get why people use this recreationally!” There was no “high” for me – just slowly my panic attacks and other symptoms started to subside, similar to the gradual improvement that an SSRI provides.
At this point, I know that it’s unlikely that the clonazepam is even doing anything for me – I know tolerance builds up quickly and my dose has never increased, so this is probably just a maintenance dose that I’m taking.
I recently moved and along with that move came a new psychiatrist. The new psychiatrist wants me off of the clonazepam, primarily because of the increased risk of early onset dementia (which I also looked into and it seems like the research isn’t conclusive and this might be a correlation doesn’t equal causation thing).
Despite that, I’m not opposed to removing clonazepam from my medication, especially since I know that it’s probably not even doing anything at this point, considering tolerance etc…
My psychiatrist wants to move me from clonazepam to diazepam (Valium) and begin a low and slow taper of at least nine months. I was looking into this and it sounds like his plan is to use the Ashton Manual, although he never said as much.
I’m diligent with my meds – I have a pill box I fill up weekly and I rarely miss a dose, but on the off chance that I do miss a dose, I’ve never had a “craving” for clonazepam or a feeling of mental addiction – I usually notice a missed dose only after more than 48 hours has passed and it’s usually a headache that acts as my reminder. But, again, there’s no desire – it’s just like “what the hell is with this headache?… oh, crap, I forgot to take my meds the last couple of days.”
I know, logically, that my body is physically addicted to the meds but from an emotional standpoint, if someone said “I’m throwing the clonazepam away and you can never have it again!” my reaction would mostly be… 🤷‍♂️
…until I started looking into what the discontinuation process would be like!
At first, my primary concern was moving to diazepam because I didn’t want to feel groggy or sedated.
Now that I made the mistake of Googling this, I’m terrified that I’m going to have hallucinations, experience horrible body pains, go into a deep depression, have constant panic attacks, and maybe even have grand mal seizures – and that it could last for years even after the taper is done and the last pill has been taken?! WTF?!?!
Most of the info I’ve been able to find is from people who were using benzodiazepines recreationally (and at potentially far higher doses than me) and went cold turkey or did a fast (like one month) taper in rehab.
My dose (1mg 2x daily) isn’t “low” but it’s an average therapeutic dose. My taper is going to be long – at least nine months.
Is there anyone here that can speak to a very long, very slow, very gradual, medically-supervised taper and discontinuation? Is it possible to do this safely and with minimal side effects? (If it makes a difference, I’m more concerned about mental side effects than physical.)
If you have a success story or a good story, I’d love to hear it – especially if you’re comfortable providing details like what benzo it was, how many years you were on it, what dose you were on, and what your taper schedule was like.
If you have a horror story, no need to share – the internet is already full of those! I’m looking for some reassurance, not more panic attack fuel.
Thank you!

Burner for privacy. I have anxiety, panic disorder, OCD, and depression. I’ve been on meds for over 20 years, usually SSRIs.
Every five to ten years the meds stop working and I have to work with a psychiatrist to find a new solution – but we’re always able find something that works.
A few years ago, I needed the reboot on my meds and, for the first time ever, a benzo was added to my daily SSRI. We went through a few before we landed on one that didn’t have any sedating effects on me – I ended up with a daily SSRI combined with 1mg of clonazepam 2x daily, and that’s what I’ve been on for years.
I don’t drink (ever, not even an occasional beer or cocktail) and other than occasional weed (very occasional – unless I’m in a really good place mentally, I just end up having a panic attack) I’ve never done a “drug” in my life. (I’m not judging anyone who has used benzos – or any other drug – recreationally; I’m only sharing because it provides context for my specific situation.)
My use of clonazepam is purely therapeutic and even in the beginning, I never felt anything that seemed like “hey, I get why people use this recreationally!” There was no “high” for me – just slowly my panic attacks and other symptoms started to subside, similar to the gradual improvement that an SSRI provides.
At this point, I know that it’s unlikely that the clonazepam is even doing anything for me – I know tolerance builds up quickly and my dose has never increased, so this is probably just a maintenance dose that I’m taking.
I recently moved and along with that move came a new psychiatrist. The new psychiatrist wants me off of the clonazepam, primarily because of the increased risk of early onset dementia (which I also looked into and it seems like the research isn’t conclusive and this might be a correlation doesn’t equal causation thing).
Despite that, I’m not opposed to removing clonazepam from my medication, especially since I know that it’s probably not even doing anything at this point, considering tolerance etc…
My psychiatrist wants to move me from clonazepam to diazepam (Valium) and begin a low and slow taper of at least nine months. I was looking into this and it sounds like his plan is to use the Ashton Manual, although he never said as much.
I’m diligent with my meds – I have a pill box I fill up weekly and I rarely miss a dose, but on the off chance that I do miss a dose, I’ve never had a “craving” for clonazepam or a feeling of mental addiction – I usually notice a missed dose only after more than 48 hours has passed and it’s usually a headache that acts as my reminder. But, again, there’s no desire – it’s just like “what the hell is with this headache?… oh, crap, I forgot to take my meds the last couple of days.”
I know, logically, that my body is physically addicted to the meds but from an emotional standpoint, if someone said “I’m throwing the clonazepam away and you can never have it again!” my reaction would mostly be… 🤷‍♂️
…until I started looking into what the discontinuation process would be like!
At first, my primary concern was moving to diazepam because I didn’t want to feel groggy or sedated.
Now that I made the mistake of Googling this, I’m terrified that I’m going to have hallucinations, experience horrible body pains, go into a deep depression, have constant panic attacks, and maybe even have grand mal seizures – and that it could last for years even after the taper is done and the last pill has been taken?! WTF?!?!
Most of the info I’ve been able to find is from people who were using benzodiazepines recreationally (and at potentially far higher doses than me) and went cold turkey or did a fast (like one month) taper in rehab.
My dose (1mg 2x daily) isn’t “low” but it’s an average therapeutic dose. My taper is going to be long – at least nine months.
Is there anyone here that can speak to a very long, very slow, very gradual, medically-supervised taper and discontinuation? Is it possible to do this safely and with minimal side effects? (If it makes a difference, I’m more concerned about mental side effects than physical.)
If you have a success story or a good story, I’d love to hear it – especially if you’re comfortable providing details like what benzo it was, how many years you were on it, what dose you were on, and what your taper schedule was like.
If you have a horror story, no need to share – the internet is already full of those! I’m looking for some reassurance, not more panic attack fuel.
Thank you!

I’m 24 and gay. I’ve been attracted to men for as long as I can remember, but I was a virgin until recently. Partly because I was terrified of the idea of having sex, partly because I live in rural Texas so it’s difficult to find any interested parties. But a few months ago, I met a guy and we hit it off and hooked up. It was fine, it felt nice in the moment, but for weeks afterwards, I struggled with feelings of extreme guilt, regret, and even disgust. I had full blown panic attacks at night because I felt like I’d lost a part of myself. I’m not religious but I’ve always been weird with affection, especially physical affection, so I chocked it up to it all being new to me. I’ve had sex a few times since then (with the same guy) and each time was a fine experience while it was happening, but each time was followed by the same feelings of guilt and shame. Now, I’ve been avoiding him because the idea of having sex makes me want to vomit—and he’s an extremely sexual person. I plan on cutting it off with him, but that isn’t the point of this post. The point is that I’m struggling with my identity. I’m attracted to men in every way, and I do have sexual fantasies and watch porn, but the actual act of sex repulses me (not because of the anatomy involved, either, I should clarify), and makes me extremely anxious and uncomfortable. Am I asexual? Is this a feeling that everyone experiences after their first time? Because I feel like something’s wrong with me.

So this originally started as an idea to use chat gpt to run a DND 5e campaign for me to use to test different character builds, then I started to wonder if I could incorporate hunter x hunter into the game. Using a really really long chat gpt prompt I wrote it actually ended up going really well so I decided to try to make it an entire system that you could kinda hopefully incorporate into any version of DND or other ttrpgs to have your own personalized hunter x hunter campaign. Now this whole thing is really messy but that's just because it's easier for my weird brain to work with. Anyway here's what I have so far 1. Primary Race: Human - The primary race is human, reflecting the "Hunter x Hunter" universe. However, players can customize their characters with unique physical traits or abilities, reflecting the diverse range of human appearances in the series.

1. Alternative Race: Chimera Ant
   
   • As an alternative, players can choose to be a Chimera Ant, which allows for a mix of human and animal traits, offering unique physical and sensory abilities. This race would have its own set of strengths and vulnerabilities.
2. Classes
   
   • Hunter: The main class, with sub-classes based on Hunter types (e.g., Beast Hunter, Treasure Hunter).
   • Assassin: Focused on stealth and precision, with techniques like those of the Zoldyck family. Sub-classes could be based on different assassination styles or tools.
   • Criminal: A class for those who operate outside the law, like the Phantom Troupe, with sub-classes based on criminal expertise (e.g., Thief, Bandit, Mercenary).

Nen System Integration

1. Nen Types and Abilities
   
   • Each class develops Nen abilities based on their Nen type, with unique Hatsu abilities.
   • Assassins and Criminals might have Nen abilities that complement their class skills (e.g., a Thief might be a Transmuter, changing the properties of their aura to aid in stealth).
2. Aura Points (AP)
   
   • This system replaces spell slots. Using Nen abilities consumes AP, which can be restored with rest.

Gameplay Mechanics

1. Nen Training and Character Progression
   
   • Character leveling involves improving Nen control and developing Hatsu abilities.
2. Combat and Nen Conflicts
   
   • Combat includes standard D&D mechanics and strategic use of Nen.
   • Nen-enhanced attacks and defenses: Characters can use AP to enhance physical attacks or bolster defense, adding an extra layer to combat strategy.
3. Quests and Adventures
   
   • DMs craft campaigns within the "Hunter x Hunter" world, allowing exploration and interaction with familiar and new elements.

Balancing and Adaptation

1. Balancing Races and Classes
   
   • Chimera Ants might have natural advantages (like enhanced senses) but also specific weaknesses (such as susceptibility to certain Nen types).
   • Each class and sub-class should offer unique advantages and playstyles without overshadowing others.
2. Adapting Nen Abilities
   
   • Nen abilities must be balanced in power and utility, encouraging creative use without making them overpowered.
   • Regular player feedback and DM discretion will be essential for maintaining balance.
3. Skill and Ability Checks
   
   • Incorporate Nen in skill checks, where appropriate, to allow creative problem-solving using Nen abilities.

This hybrid RPG would blend the detailed world and power system of "Hunter x Hunter" with the structured gameplay of D&D 5e, offering a rich and dynamic role-playing experience. Players can explore the complexities of Nen, engage in strategic combat, and embark on diverse quests, all while navigating the morally complex and vibrant world of "Hunter x Hunter."
Merging the power system and world of "Hunter x Hunter" with the fundamentals of Dungeons & Dragons (D&D) 5th Edition could create a unique and exciting tabletop RPG experience. Here's a basic framework for how it could be done:

Character Creation

1. Races and Backgrounds: Stick to D&D's system for races and backgrounds, as these provide rich lore and diversity. However, incorporate elements from the "Hunter x Hunter" world into the backgrounds, allowing players to come from specific regions or organizations within that universe.
   
2. Classes: Replace D&D classes with "Hunter" as the primary class. Sub-classes could be based on the different types of Hunters in "Hunter x Hunter" (like Beast Hunter, Treasure Hunter, Blacklist Hunter, etc.), each with unique skills and quests.
   
3. Ability Scores: Use the standard D&D ability scores (Strength, Dexterity, Constitution, Intelligence, Wisdom, and Charisma). These will influence the character's physical and mental capabilities as usual.
   

Nen System Integration

1. Nen Types: During character creation, players determine their Nen type (Enhancer, Emitter, Manipulator, Transmuter, Conjurer, Specialist). This could be chosen or determined randomly, as in the series.
   
2. Nen Abilities (Hatsu): Players develop their unique Hatsu abilities, guided by their Nen type. This replaces the magic/spellcasting system of traditional D&D. Balancing these abilities would be key to ensure gameplay remains challenging and engaging.
   
3. Aura Points (AP): Similar to spell slots in D&D, characters have Aura Points. Using Nen abilities consumes AP, which can be restored with rest.
   

Gameplay Mechanics

1. Nen Training and Challenges: Incorporate Nen training into the leveling-up process. As characters level up, they gain more control over their Nen, unlocking new capabilities or strengthening their Hatsu.
   
2. Quests and Storytelling: The DM crafts adventures within the "Hunter x Hunter" universe, allowing players to explore familiar locales and encounter characters from the series, while also introducing original plots.
   
3. Combat and Challenges: Integrate D&D's combat system, but with modifications to incorporate Nen abilities. This includes Aura defense, Nen-enhanced attacks, and strategic use of Hatsu abilities. A nen user may choose to enhance their Attack power, Speed, or defense, by covering their bodies or weapons with aura. Enhanced Attack- Choosing to put 1 or more AP into enhancing attack will grant +2 to damage for each point.
   

Enhanced Defense- Choosing to put 1 or more points into defense will subtract -2 points of damage taken for each point.
Enhanced Speed- Choosing to put 1 or more AP into speed will grant +5 movement speed, +1 to attack bonus, and +1 to AC for every two AP, because enhancing speed is much more difficult and usually only one who's ability allows for it can enhance their speed efficiently.
Enhancing such abilities uses AP but does not deplete it. tho prolonged use of aura will cause it to weaken over time. through training this can be overcome.

1. Nen Conflicts: Introduce Nen battles, which are more about outsmarting opponents with clever use of Nen abilities than just overpowering them.

Balancing and Adaptation

• Balancing Nen Abilities: Ensure that Nen abilities are balanced, allowing for creative use without overpowering characters. This might require regular adjustments and feedback from players.
  
• Adapting D&D Mechanics: Some standard D&D mechanics might need to be adapted or omitted to fit the "Hunter x Hunter" theme. For instance, traditional spellcasting doesn't fit, so classes that rely heavily on this might need reworking.
  

This hybrid game would offer the depth and complexity of D&D's role-playing and combat systems with the unique and intriguing Nen system from "Hunter x Hunter," creating a fresh and engaging experience for players familiar with either or both worlds.
In "Hunter x Hunter," each Nen user has an affinity for one of six Nen types: Enhancer, Emitter, Manipulator, Transmuter, Conjurer, and Specialist. We can assign a key ability score to each Nen type for calculating Aura Points (AP) and other Nen-related mechanics. Here's a suggested assignment:

1. Enhancer
   
   • Key Ability: Strength or Constitution
   • Rationale: Enhancers focus on reinforcing their natural physical abilities, making Strength or Constitution a natural fit.
2. Emitter
   
   • Key Ability: Charisma
   • Rationale: Emitters project their aura away from their bodies, requiring force of personality, represented by Charisma.
3. Manipulator
   
   • Key Ability: Intelligence
   • Rationale: Manipulation requires precision and understanding complex systems, aligning well with Intelligence.
4. Transmuter
   
   • Key Ability: Dexterity
   • Rationale: Transmuters alter the properties of their aura, requiring finesse and control, which Dexterity represents.
5. Conjurer
   
   • Key Ability: Wisdom
   • Rationale: Conjurers create objects out of their aura, requiring insight and strong mental discipline, qualities associated with Wisdom.
6. Specialist
   
   • Key Ability: Wisdom or Charisma
   • Rationale: Specialists have unique and varied abilities that don't fit into other categories. Wisdom or Charisma can be chosen based on the nature of the Specialist's unique ability.

Aura Points (AP) Calculation

• AP is calculated using the formula: [Character Level] + [Modifier of Key Ability Score] x 2.
• For instance, a Level 5 Enhancer with a Strength score of 16 (Modifier +3) would have an AP of 5 + (3 x 2) = 11.

Using the Key Ability Score

• The key ability score would also be used for determining the difficulty class (DC) for saving throws against Nen abilities, and for attack rolls when applicable.
• For example, if an Emitter with a Charisma modifier of +2 uses an ability that requires a target to make a saving throw, the DC would be calculated using their Charisma modifier.

This system ties the Nen type to specific D&D ability scores, enhancing the role-playing aspect by encouraging players to consider their characters' strengths and weaknesses when choosing their Nen type and developing their abilities.
Removing traditional spellcasting and replacing it with a Nen-based system is a significant change that can fully integrate the unique aspects of "Hunter x Hunter" into your D&D game. Here's how you can adapt the Aura Point (AP) system to completely replace spellcasting:

Revised Aura Point (AP) System for Nen Abilities

1. Aura Points as the Sole Power Source - All supernatural abilities, including those that would normally be spells in D&D, are now Nen abilities powered by AP. - Characters do not have spell slots but instead use AP to activate and sustain their Nen abilities.
2. Nen Ability Categories - Classify Nen abilities into tiers, similar to spell levels: Basic, Intermediate, Advanced, and Master. - The AP cost for using an ability depends on its tier: Basic (1-2 AP), Intermediate (3-5 AP), Advanced (6-8 AP), Master (9-12 AP).
3. Learning and Developing Nen Abilities - Characters learn new Nen abilities as they level up. The number and tier of abilities they can learn and use are based on their level and key ability score. - Characters can also develop custom Nen abilities in consultation with the DM, tailored to their character's development and story.
4. Aura Point Recovery - AP is fully restored after a long rest. Half of the maximum AP is restored after a short rest. - Certain items or actions in-game could also restore AP.
5. Overexertion Risks - Using more AP than the maximum can lead to overexertion, causing fatigue, reduction in maximum hit points, or other penalties. - Severe overexertion could lead to more drastic consequences, like temporary loss of Nen abilities.
6. Nen Training and Advancement - Include quests or training sessions for characters to increase their AP maximum, reduce Nen ability costs, or learn new abilities. - This system allows for character growth and the pursuit of mastery over Nen.
7. Nen-Based Defense and Attacks - Allow characters to use AP to enhance physical attacks, defense, or to perform feats like enhanced jumps, bursts of speed, etc.
8. Balancing Nen Abilities - The DM should ensure Nen abilities are balanced within the game, avoiding overpowered combinations. - Regular feedback and adjustments may be necessary based on gameplay experience.
With this revised system, Nen becomes the central mechanic for all supernatural and extraordinary abilities in the game, deeply immersing players in the "Hunter x Hunter" universe while maintaining the strategic and role-playing elements of D&D. This approach requires careful planning and balance but offers a unique and engaging gameplay experience. for the HUNTER class, the features include
Creating detailed class features and proficiencies for each Hunter class and its subclasses in a D&D 5e format requires a comprehensive approach. I'll provide a basic outline for the "Hunter" class and one subclass, the "Beast Hunter," as an example. You can use this format as a template to develop other subclasses.

Hunter Class (General Features)

Hit Points - Hit Dice: 1d10 per Hunter level - Hit Points at 1st Level: 10 + Constitution modifier - Hit Points at Higher Levels: 1d10 (or 6) + Constitution modifier per Hunter level after 1st
Proficiencies - Armor: Light armor, medium armor - Weapons: Simple weapons, martial weapons - Tools: None - Saving Throws: Dexterity, Intelligence - Skills: Choose two from Acrobatics, Survival, Investigation, Nature, Perception, Stealth
Equipment - (a) a longbow and 20 arrows or (b) any simple weapon - (a) a dungeoneer's pack or (b) an explorer's pack - Leather armor, a hunter's token, and a dagger
Features
Let's define each feature of the Hunter class in the context of a "Hunter x Hunter" and D&D 5e hybrid game:

Level 1: Nen Sensitivity

• Gain the ability to perceive and vaguely sense aura (Nen) in yourself and others.
• Provides advantage on Wisdom (Perception) checks related to detecting Nen use or aura presence.

Level 1: Hunter's Expertise

• Choose two skills from the Hunter skill list. Your proficiency bonus is doubled for any ability check you make that uses either of the chosen skills.

Level 2: Nen Training (Basic Techniques)

• Learn the basic Nen techniques: Ten, Zetsu, and Ren.
• Ten allows you to defend against low-level Nen attacks.
• Zetsu lets you conceal your aura, improving stealth.
• Ren increases your aura output temporarily, enhancing physical abilities for a short time.

Level 3: Hunter Archetype

• Choose a Hunter Archetype, reflecting your specialized training as a Hunter. This choice grants you features at later levels.

Level 3: Nen Ability (Hatsu)

• Develop your unique Nen ability (Hatsu) based on your Nen type. This is a special ability you can use by spending Aura Points (AP).

Level 4: Ability Score Improvement

• Improve one ability score of your choice by 2, or two ability scores of your choice by 1. As normal, you can’t increase an ability score above 20 using this feature.

Level 5: Extra Attack

• You can attack twice, instead of once, whenever you take the Attack action on your turn.

Level 6: Archetype Feature

• Gain a feature granted by your chosen Hunter Archetype.

Level 7: Nen Training (Advanced Techniques)

• Learn advanced Nen techniques that allow for more potent use of your aura, including enhanced versions of Ten, Zetsu, and Ren.

Level 8: Ability Score Improvement

• As with level 4.

Level 9: Indomitable (1 use)

• You can reroll a saving throw that you fail. If you do so, you must use the new roll, and you can’t use this feature again until you finish a long rest.

Level 10: Archetype Feature

• Gain an additional feature from your chosen Hunter Archetype.

Level 11: Improved Nen Ability

• Your Nen ability (Hatsu) becomes more potent or versatile. This could mean lower AP costs, increased effects, or additional options for its use.

Level 12: Ability Score Improvement

• As with level 4.

Level 13: Indomitable (2 uses)

• As with level 9, but you can use this feature twice between long rests.

Level 14: Archetype Feature

• Gain another feature from your chosen Hunter Archetype.

Level 15: Nen Mastery

• Gain mastery over your aura, significantly increasing your Aura Point (AP) maximum and potentially unlocking unique uses for your Nen.

Level 16: Ability Score Improvement

• As with level 4.

Level 17: Indomitable (3 uses)

• As with level 9, but you can use this feature three times between long rests.

Level 18: Archetype Feature

• Gain an additional feature from your chosen Hunter Archetype.

Level 19: Ability Score Improvement

• As with level 4.

Level 20: Hunter's Pinnacle

• Reach the pinnacle of your Hunter abilities, granting a significant, unique power or enhancement related to your Nen type and Hunter Archetype. This could be a powerful new Nen ability, a permanent increase to key stats, or another major benefit.

These features combine D&D 5e mechanics with "Hunter x Hunter" lore, offering a comprehensive and thematic progression for characters in this hybrid game.
Each subclass within the Hunter class would have similar structure, with unique abilities and features tailored to their specialization, such as Sea Hunter, Gourmet Hunter, etc. This approach keeps the balance and progression familiar to D&D 5e while integrating the unique elements of the "Hunter x Hunter" universe.

Beast Hunter Subclass

Level 3: Beast Tracking - Gain proficiency in Survival. If you already have it, double your proficiency bonus for Survival checks related to beasts. - Learn to track and identify creatures by their tracks, noises, and other signs.
Level 6: Primal Communication - Ability to communicate on a basic level with beasts and understand their intentions and emotions.
Level 10: Beast Companion - Bond with a beast you encounter, which becomes your faithful companion. - Use the Ranger's Companion feature from the Ranger class as a reference for rules and stats.
Level 14: Predator's Instinct - Gain advantage on initiative rolls in natural environments. - Can't be surprised by beast-type creatures.
Level 18: Master of Beasts - Gain the ability to temporarily control or influence the behavior of beasts through Nen.

Sea Hunter Subclass

Level 3: Aquatic Adaptation - Gain the ability to breathe underwater and a swimming speed equal to your walking speed. - Gain proficiency in Athletics. If already proficient, double the proficiency bonus for Athletics checks related to swimming.
Level 6: Deep Sea Knowledge - Advantage on Nature and Survival checks related to aquatic environments. - Can identify aquatic creatures and plants and their uses or dangers.
Level 10: Pressure Resistance - Gain resistance to cold damage and ignore the effects of deep and cold water pressure.
Level 14: Master Navigator - Can never be lost at sea. Gain proficiency in Navigation tools. If already proficient, double the proficiency bonus.
Level 18: Call of the Depths - Ability to summon and communicate with sea creatures, possibly enlisting their help or guidance.

Treasure Hunter Subclass

Level 3: Artifact Lore - Gain proficiency in History. If already proficient, double the proficiency bonus for History checks related to artifacts and treasures. - Can identify and appraise artifacts and relics.
Level 6: Trap Sense - Gain advantage on saving throws against traps and spells that protect treasures. - Can detect the presence of traps within a 30-foot radius.
Level 10: Dungeon Delver - Move at normal speed while stealthily exploring ruins and dungeons. - Resistance to damage from traps.
Level 14: Ancient Secrets - Can decipher ancient languages and codes. Gain advantage on Intelligence checks related to ancient texts and puzzles.
Level 18: Treasure's Boon - Once per long rest, can locate a significant treasure, artifact, or hidden place within a 10-mile radius.

Music Hunter Subclass

Level 3: Harmonic Awareness - Gain proficiency in a musical instrument of your choice. If already proficient, double the proficiency bonus. - Can detect mood and intentions of others through their tone and choice of words.
Level 6: Soothing Melody - Can use music to calm emotions, dispel fear, or inspire courage in others.
Level 10: Sonic Resonance - Gain resistance to thunder damage and charm effects. - Can use music to communicate simple ideas to creatures that don't speak any languages.
Level 14: Echolocation - Through focused listening, can sense the location of objects and creatures in complete darkness within a 60-foot radius.
Level 18: Symphony of Power - Once per long rest, can play a powerful melody that grants temporary hit points, cures one condition, or boosts one ability score for the duration of the performance.

Gourmet Hunter Subclass

Level 3: Culinary Expertise - Gain proficiency in Cooking tools. If already proficient, double the proficiency bonus. - Can identify edible and medicinal plants and creatures, and the best ways to prepare them.
Level 6: Enhanced Taste - Can detect poisons and potions by taste. Gain advantage on saving throws against ingested poisons.
Level 10: Exotic Cuisine - Can prepare meals that grant temporary hit points or other minor benefits.
Level 14: Iron Stomach - Gain immunity to poison and disease from ingested sources.
Level 18: Culinary Masterpiece - Once per long rest, can create a meal that acts as a Greater Restoration spell or provides a significant buff to the party.

Blacklist Hunter Subclass

Level 3: Investigative Skills - Gain proficiency in Investigation. If already proficient, double the proficiency bonus. - Can gather information and track targets in urban environments more efficiently.
Level 6: Interrogation Expert - Gain advantage on Insight and Intimidation checks when interrogating.
Level 10: Criminal Network - Can establish contacts and gather information from criminal sources. Gain advantage on Charisma checks when dealing with criminals.
Level 14: Expert Tracker - Gain the ability to track targets over long distances, even across different terrains.
Level 18: Master of Justice - Once per long rest, can discern the truth of any statement or determine the location of a person or object related to your investigation.

Medical Hunter Subclass

Level 3: Medical Knowledge - Gain proficiency in Medicine. If already proficient, double the proficiency bonus. - Can stabilize a dying creature as a bonus action.
Level 6: Herbalist - Can identify and create medicinal herbs and potions. Gain proficiency in Herbalism Kit.
Level 10: Healer's Touch - Can use a pool of healing points to restore hit points equal to 5 times your Hunter level. As an action, can touch a creature to restore any number of these points.
Level 14: Disease Resistance - Gain immunity to disease and advantage on saving throws against effects that cause illness.
Level 18: Lifesaver - Once per long rest, can perform a healing action that acts as a Resurrection spell without needing material components.

Archaeological Hunter Subclass

Level 3: Ancient Lore - Gain proficiency in History. If already proficient, double the proficiency bonus. - Can identify and interpret historical artifacts, ruins, and texts.
Level 6: Ruins Delver - Gain advantage on saving throws made to avoid or resist traps and natural hazards in ancient ruins and dungeons.
Level 10: Relic Hunter - Can sense the presence of significant historical artifacts within a 1-mile radius.
Level 14: Cryptographer - Gain the ability to decipher ancient codes and languages, and unlock magical inscriptions.
Level 18: Guardian's Favor - Once per long rest, can invoke ancient powers for protection or insight, granting advantage on a series of checks or resisting a powerful magical effect.

Information Hunter Subclass

Level 3: Network of Contacts - Gain proficiency in Persuasion. If already proficient, double the proficiency bonus. - Can establish a network of informants to gather information more effectively.
Level 6: Codebreaker - Gain advantage on Intelligence checks to intercept and decipher secret messages and codes.
Level 10: Eavesdropper - Gain the ability to listen in on conversations or sounds from great distances or through barriers.
Level 14: Master of Disguise - Can create disguises that allow blending into almost any environment or society. Advantage on checks made to maintain a disguise.
Level 18: Omnipresent Knowledge - Once per long rest, can gain detailed knowledge about a person, place, or object that is not commonly known or easily accessible.

Lost Hunter Subclass

Level 3: Expert Tracker - Gain proficiency in Survival. If already proficient, double the proficiency bonus. - Can track creatures and people across various terrains, and can discern the passage of time since their passing.
Level 6: Urban Tracker - Adapted to tracking in urban environments, can navigate and gather information in cities efficiently.
Level 10: Sixth Sense - Gain a limited ability to sense the direction of a sought person or object within a 5-mile radius.
Level 14: Path Finder - Can create shortcuts or find the most efficient paths through natural and urban landscapes.
Level 18: Find the Lost - Once per long rest, can locate exactly a lost person or item, regardless of distance or barriers, as long as they are on the same plane of existence.
These subclass features provide specialized skills and abilities that align with the unique roles and expertise of each type of Hunter, allowing for a rich role-playing experience within the "Hunter x Hunter" and D&D 5e hybrid framework. Players can choose a path that best suits their interests and play style, diving deep into the diverse world of "Hunter x Hunter." . If anyone has any suggestions or questions please let me know. Also if you want the full chat gpt prompt you can DM me