Desi gaand

Betha hun EU mein. Bhaag gaya tha Pakistan se kuch saal pehly. Experience kia first handed racism ko. Log kesy mun bnaty hein, judge krty hein, stereotypes rkhty hain. All in all desi log EU mein bss nikal rahy hein zindagi. Apartment koi deta nhi naam dekh kr, dost koi bnta nhi, jobs mein kam pay dety hein kyn unko pata hai k hmein bc mulk se bhaagna hai
With that being said ek cheez jo meri smjh nhi aati wo ye hai k apny desi log goron k saath overly nice kyn hoty hein? Gora koi Pakistan ajaye to bc free cheezein de rahy hoty, haar pehna rahy hoty, basically bending over to appease them
Ye to baat rahi goray ka apny mulk mein aana. Baat kro yahan EU mein. EU mein khud saaly racism ka target bnty hein but still goray dost ki gaand mein ghuss jayeingy. Overly nice. Goray bc ko lun farq nhi prega k halal khana hai ya haram, wo ek second bhi nhi sochta Pakistani colleagues k liye. But hmary pyaary bhai apny khaany ka hisa share kreingy. They will not extend the same courtesy with desi friends that they do with Goras
Just don't get it. Why??

✨ 11vi ,12vi toh covid ne pel dala. Par 6 lakh pure leye coaching wale bhadwo ne. Dobara parents par pressure na daalte hue humne aur 3 lakh baccho jaise Revalushan ko follow karte hue 4 hazaar wala PW le liya. Procrastination is one thing that I remain undefeated in. Jab koi tum par check karne nahi hota, you take things extremely lightly and become dangerously easy going. Zyada revise bhi na kar paya. Instagram toh deactivate kar di. Par YouTube aur reddit se na bacch paya. 5th floor se drop wali chutiyap nahi karne aaya, poora padho.
✨ Mind you, I was Rank 1 to my entire district and amongst top 6 ranks in 10th Boards (CBSE) don't ask me for details I'm ashamed of myself now. There was a test by Aakash institute for admission (ANTHE if I recall correctly.) In which I was 2nd rank holder for my entire state. Then Covid shit happened and destroyed everything that was plausible about me.
✨ Now I am severely depressed, spending my last days of preparation on reddit hopelessly to ease the panicking and dread that I'd experience otherwise.
😮‍💨 Oh and yeah, I lost my grandfather the day before yesterday. Another emotional attack when I least wanted it.
🏆 I don't know what I'm going to do tomorrow. Parents, relatives, school friends and juniors, everyone has high hopes. They believe in me more than I ever did. I feel so guilty to disappoint them not once, but twice.
💪 Anyways, I will have to accept all the shameful criticism I'm gonna receive by my happiest relatives and back bitching loser friends who gave up NEET after one attempt and joined some normie engineering colleges.
❤️‍🔥 But I know for sure that if I take a drop this time, I'mma make sure that my long lost academic monster self is revived and I will promise myself and my parents that I will get into AIIMS, JIPMER, or another top college of my state. I don't wanna be a burden anymore. I refuse to give up. If everyone I know thinks that I can, then surely I can.
❤️‍🩹 To the people who read till here, thank you very much. Wish y'all the best for tomorrow or the next exam you'll be giving.

 ✨Now advices:✨ 

🤡 FutureTards, mobile phenk do apni. Trust me. It is more damaging than you could ever fathom. Porn completely chod do aur hasthmaithun extremely controlled rakho. Saare social media chod do, 24,25tards bhi aur droppers bhi. Bas thode mahino ki baat hai. baad me sax sux wagera hogi.
🗿 Aur kya PW kaam ka hai? Bilkul hai, par kya tum usko utilise kar paoge? Agar tum regular normal human being ho toh shudh desi "bilkul nahi". Tumhe ek toh ultra dedicated hona padega (which is almost impossible) warna koi actual coaching class ko jaana padega. Droppers, trust me, tum khud se na kar paoge. Ghar pe competition ka mauhaul nahi banti. Gaand sahi samay pe nahi phat ti. Koi bhi acche coaching institute me residential student banke raho ek saal. It will be very much worth it.
Let's do it Bois.
Thank you for reading. Peace