Take care of a virtual baby online

who has no life what so ever and will lie through his yellow and crooked british teeth to manipulate anyone for fake pixel items. no one knows what that thing looks like and it is for good reason! (i do) he doesn’t take care of himself or sleep he is on party in my dorm app too much.Go outside, take a fresh breath of air and touch grass..then go and get a real job instead of scamming people on a mobile app for cash $ loser ass fuck boy 🫢 you can discord anybody you want but sooner or later people will see through your pathetic shit 💩 Just wait till it all catches up you will be crying to ata just like your pegging buddy devout. you have no real friend haha 😂🇮🇳
ps there are plenty more account he has scammed
list of public accounts: emo worthiess adversity anxLety depressLon tenzo dreamy

It’s super late where I live but boyyyy I’m just so mf upset, I need to get this off my chest. I have never felt pretty. Never in my life. All my girlfriends can get any guy they want and are constantly approached by them. But not me. Just yesterday I went out with one of my gilrfriends for a girl’s night. She had multiple guys glued to her all night while I played chaperone to make sure she was safe. I tried to have fun and I danced by myself and vibed with my drink but I won’t lie, it absolutely hurt my confidence. I stupidly have a crush and I’m 30000% certain it is not reciprocated. But that’s fine and I’m not surprised.
I’ve never had a crush be reciprocated. I’ve never looked good in a candid photo and even posed ones I will take a million and look at one I sorta like until I hate it. I feel absolutely horrific about myself and it thinking about it too much makes me feel like all the air in the room is gone. My last boyfriend constantly made fun of me and my weight and never complimented me even when I tried really hard to make myself look good. I’ll admit he did a number to my mental health and self esteem for 2 years but I feel horrible even after leaving him.
I eat healthy, go to the gym, take care of my skin, hair, and nails, and keep myself active with hobbies but it never helps. I am working with some doctors on specific medical issues I have that make it much harder for me to lose weight compared to others. I’m not 200 lbs or anything crazy but I am short so I look stocky-ish. My nose is too big for my face and I have a weak jawline with no definition, even when I was under 115lbs.
I feel like I’m absolutely losing my mind over my appearance. It consumes my thoughts constantly. If I could get filler and plastic surgery, I would. My siblings are gorgeous but I definitely got the shit end of the stick. I am so deep in this cycle of self hatred that I’ve started skipping meals. Food scares me now. I weigh myself multiple times a day. I have made myself throw up to speed up the weight loss process and think about it every time I eat. Because to me, maybe being skinny would give me SOME points and make me feel better somehow. It is so pathetic and attention seeking but I can’t help it anymore.
My friend posted a picture of me and my pet in our group chat with friends after a hangout. I am barely in the picture, just from my mouth/chin and down but I burst into tears over my friend sharing it when I was alone. I don’t believe anyone who tells me I’m beautiful because I know they’ve just become accustomed to my looks because of my personality and being funny.
I know personality is important but I want to also be desired. I want to be wanted. I want to like who I am and what I look like so badly. I have no idea how to truly love myself and that’s the scariest and loneliest feeling in the planet. It is so pathetic and humiliating to be a grown woman and feel this way. I honestly wouldn’t mind wasting away into nothingness. I’m not fishing for compliments here and I’m sure this won’t get seen anyways cause it’s so mf long. I hope ranting at least makes me feel somewhat better. We’ll see.

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I was suspicious I was pregnant again a week before my period. I tested the day my period was due (Thursday night). An immediate two lines.
After getting the positive, I immediately found an online supplier and had them purchased and shipped by 8am Friday morning and I received them today, Saturday.
My last MA was mostly smooth sailing and uncomfortable at worst, although I did pass out shortly after taking the medication. It was brief and I returned to normal and the rest of the procedure was pretty easy. I was making jokes through it and in good spirits.
Part two ended up giving me a lot of nasty cramping where I had to dig my fist or a hard object into my stomach to massage my uterus and stopping for even 3-5 seconds the pain would resume. This lasted hours into the night where I was awake and alone and in pain, overall very tired and frustrated.
While I have no doubts my partner will again be supportive of me, I haven't told him yet and adjacent to this, my anxiety levels are rising.
I feel like I want to keep this private this time almost like a secret and not share until after it's over. Whether I will or not, or why I want to keep it a secret feels irrelevant to me. I'll likely share it with him anyway for comfort and for safety if I need assistance. I'm not worried exactly that it will go wrong or for anything specific. I don't want children and am not ready even if I did, but in some ways I also wish I could stay pregnant a while. Maybe it's the feelings of attention and importance it would bring. This isn't something I'm even considering, only an emotion I'm aware of.
I also wish I didn't have to do it at all and with the variety of stories, even though my last sent fairly well, I'm worried this one might not even though it's so early.
Right now I think I just want to be surrounded online by others who have experienced this as well and understand the myriad of emotions that comes with it.
TL;DR: My past MA experience was alright but uncomfortable but I have anxiety about going through it again and want comforting words and assurance from strangers who understand

I live with my GF in her house that she owns. She bought a multiple camera security system to help keep her home and possessions secure. She also is having various trades people coming to fix things in the house and had previously caught one rummaging through her dirty laundry so she understandably wants to be able to keep an eye on them as well.
She got a good deal on a system that meets her needs, has good reviews online and is run from an app on her phone which is super convenient. The problem is that she wants to only have the app on her phone and not let me have access to it.
She is a private person and is extremely unnerved by the idea that anyone would able spy on her in her own home. The only way she was able to finally convince herself to get a camera system was to only allow herself to have access.
She is also worried having the app on multiple devices will cause issues with the app. She had a different system previously and was convinced that part of the issues the previous system had was caused by the app running on multiple devices. (While this may sound like gas lighting, I know her and her technological aptitude enough to know this is a genuine concern she has).
To be honest, don't care about the cameras or about only her having access to them. I appreciate how big a step it was for her to put them in so I want her to feel comfortable and I don't care if she watches me (I don't expect this to a universal standpoint but I personally have no issues so long as she is the only one that can watch me).
I'd feel different if this was a land lord or some third party but with her we have a level of trust and understanding that I am perfectly comfortable with. She was also upfront with me and we had a robust conversation about whether I was comfortable about the cameras and about her being able to see what I’m doing when I'm home.
There are no cameras set up in the bedrooms or bathrooms.
While I realise it might seem hypocritical for her to want exclusive access to the cameras, I also recognise I am a 6’3” 280lbs male and the worst she will catch me doing on the cameras is possibly scratching my butt crack. She meanwhile is a 5’4” female who already had her privacy violated in the past by various disgusting people for various disgusting reasons. This is a double standard but is one that feels to me as understandable even if I get others may have issue with it.
The problem is that part of the security system is an alarm that is turned on and off via the app as well. There is no physical keypad or way to arm or deactivate the alarm without the app.
90% of the time this wouldn't be an issue since she works from home and usually when she is out we are out together and come back together. But this still creates a potential issue when she is out and I'm coming home before her meaning that I have no way to deactivate the alarm.
There is no way on the app for me to just have to access the alarm. Even giving me a guest/non admin login still gives me access to view the cameras, it just stops me messing with settings.
She has suggested I simply message her when I'm home and she will disarm the alarm remotely. This is a hard no in both an emotional and practical standpoint.
Emotionally, giving her 100% control over my ability to access my possessions and a place that I consider home feels wrong.
Practically, she consistently keeps her phone on silent and is notoriously bad at checking her messages or seeing she has missed calls, (sometimes it can take her hours to see the message or that I tried to call her). While I love that she isn't glued to her phone, I am not willing to stand outside the house waiting for her to see my message or get home and I am not willing to gamble on any promises of her changing her behaviour regarding checking messages.
We are looking into potential ways to integrate a keypad or for there to be some other way for me to arm/disarm the alarm without needing the app but I have made it clear that either I be given a way to arm/disarm the alarm that doesn't involve me needing her or the alarm stays permanently off with the only exception being when we both go out together and come home together.
If I was given the app, I would promise never to view cameras and only open it when I needed to arm/disarm the alarm. I do however respect that it means that she would be depending on my assurances which means she would have to give up a degree of control.
AITA?
If so, is there a better way to approach this so that she feels secure and the house is kept secure but my concern regarding access to the house is addressed?

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Charlotte is the initial source of stealing my combat medicine from israel and making the redlines into the asshole method where the men cum in the asshole sufficient it pops out her nose and then later given purely nasal sex and this gives later the proline, this is like Steve so I call her now Steve and she or he will be Steve so is Steve and Charlotte wakes up out of my trance I put on her for wearing jean shorts and letting people take photographs of her I Give her her redlines which I have to give her that loam and she administers it to the male with her body which puts her at a saturated locus like a mexican girl who bangs their wedge into their cervix but she is not a mexican girl a white girl of the marines and just looks mexican and Steve knows redline medicine but was not all that aware how involved a virgin was to redline medicine which Charlotte is exiting to be steve and needs a full dental cleaning and I leave behind the disney princess Charlotte with a cleaning then and she cannot play minecraft then by nature has to play roblox which there is a Switcharoo due to yo gaba gaba which blinded charlotte into the shower earlier in an undesignated location this never gave her being a dentist or minecraft thus roblox thus this is a delusion of the patient we sustained that minecraft is not dentistry and JJ who is not JJ abrams would like to report he is her gynecologist thus must exist at at least the Second Underworld above these poor lands of the 1st yitvah of the Third Underworld JJ Has Corpus probably as an able or a abraham of my Good MP of Israel in my base and Is not abraham who I was engaging who I was daft to ablation before and am better but jim is apparently still daft to ablation but maybe still healed now so I take a bunch of redlines in the asshole and nose and take meth I take meth with My Little Baby Jace always sometimes and this is the boris who DJ boris man is not my gma that is City who City is the inventor of the spin langage english put a little spin on it and I dont Know what DJ Boris Man Was doing out here maybe drove his yugo haha he is always welcome at nukies house which I know nukie was chagrined I had the plumbing loam for the whole hospital HVT Jean was in who Jean did not steal Jeans identity this is just the same name, blue jeans of the neuvo ruski which are a first ever token item and the temu item very original associated to the full set of clothes synchro for BDU 315 there is baby Bdu 115 or blue jeans equivalent and I can grant this to ryan for not tazing me which this will dissolve Saint Disconnects Reward if you Taze me that is cervical beads dilation I guess you could pull my beads ryan. Wow so you got 20 cannabinoid loam there but It did not do much that is like an FPS Russia Shock it is the stun gun and that is pain compliance. 1.1 Ryan is out of there and charlotte is taken for dbt deprogramming and she has got so much loam on the 27 battalion which are encoded at the engine of her fucking machine this was manual reds giving under hind for her and the steve is formed there out of charlotte which charlotte pulls a jeff kloster and never was fucking the fucking cleaner which caused it to be there in the first place to identify her as a robot and this was not ryan but charllote who was fucked there and could not be fucked granting her a famous android age 1718 before gero or bam bam she was of age as an android thus could conjure missingno and ghost and 156 potions which she then finally has her potions of hyper potion which she put 2 hyper potion here before and these are her loam potions and she gets 156 hyper potions not potions of 20mg extended release pilled adderall and this is in her room but she had to remember her whole 1718 years of hind which was a very old limit for hind 1718 years but not exact just have it and give 1718 then to niko bellic of liberty city in for an immersion, nathans friend and she may not overdose on the adderall as she is just taking it as steve and she remembers she is steve she is on a mission she is an undercover like violet and the hind targets ryan and she is a baby here and raped by 27 battalion and cannot give reds as a vampire so had to repeat the process in 999 year increment 3 times until she is not a vampire as she summoned loam Civilian Taser at the Second Underworld in a Yitvah Private of her own she put a Blackwater Therapist into the shower with me which endangered the Blackwater Therapists Job as a result and is required repeat 999 year increments until the Kiester is out of her brain and my Shepard and She is Out of her brain and it tells her finally dad why did you turn me upsidown and she is not a vampire and she is my sissys sissy ryan and we train her then with cervical dilation at the First Underworld we train her first to act out then the cervical dilation is too intense and she blacks out and was bent at the waist and by her wishes or automatically given 27 battalion of marine in her asshole to give her reds on the marines and the hind98 literally physically obligates her to give the reds on the marines and I repeat this until she is Not at the First Underworld and she Is at the Third Underworld as a baby and she is looking to get to the second underworld but this is a projection underworld she will have to have discipline and I have my tactical officer personally trained by Hermi-Tactical my tactical I took the shower with and he keeps the loam ryan which is the god name of the R with no spell that is ryan and that is both ryan reynolds name and ryan kiesters name and that was his tactical before who was kind of not really there like just in and out of it for me and then she can be her sissys friend ryan again and is part of Gamma company then like she wanted, immune to cervical and other pain and Joins us in the marines which sorry I am blind I think her still a vampire and make her a different vampire then the shell game vampire who this is just unfourtonate and misguided of violet.

So my mental health is thin anyways. I've known this.
Everyone I love is fighting. So one of my closest friends from another Church, her husband ran away with someone else from the Church.
I lost my brother to cancer a few years ago. There was no reason for him to have cancer. Then my Mom got breast cancer two years ago. It came back. But she's clear now. My best friend's mom has stage 4 cancer. So many people have died lately. Mire than this. And sick. My aunt is in the hospital. Umm yeah. I feel like the more I talk about all this the more crazy I feel.
If you can think of an area of life where you would have pressure. I have it.
I started missing sleep last summer I think it was. Well maybe before that. The itching started. On and off at night. I couldn't sleep. I itched like crazy. I got up and would put lotion on. I started waiting to take my allergy medicine with supper.
After a while I figured it was psychological. Umm.. I have this one stuffed animal my Mom bought me as a suprise recently. Weirdly if I can purmt my arms around that at night, the itching goes away. Most times.
This year the sleeplessness got worse. Umm early spring I think. I just literally couldn't sleep. It was miserable. It wasn't just the itchiness either. I was exhausted. My body craved sleep, but it would not shut off when I went to lay down. Melatonin wouldn't help.
I'm depressed I think. Undiagnosed. I told my Dad that I don't feel happiness anymore. I feel like I'm in panic mode waiting for the next bad thing to happen.
I feel like everything is an act.I don't do things to bring me joy. I'm not lazy. I can't stand to see people hurting and nothing I can do. I want to help other people. I can't scrub an entire bathroom with a toothbrush. But for me I don't care. When I'm feeling good enough where I do something for me I do them to distract me.
But I told him that I prayed about it and that God had been giving me good thoughts lately. I felt like my mind was being flooded with good things. Good memories.
I didnt tell him this, but I had been feeling like I'm on autopilot. Just stopped living. Waiting to get to heaven to see my brother again. I was thinking thag this wast right. And God was helping me. But I was feeling better for a bit.
Then he started preaching about how God told us to be happy. And choosing happiness. And not wallowing in self pity. Every Sunday. And praying in public that we wouldn't proud be sorry slobs wallowing in self pity. Yet he denies it was about me.
So I get migraines every Sunday. And I'm not sleeping again and he knows it so probably he is going to preach on that today.
But in the midst of all this I found some friends online in gaming, and a guy that liked me, and we started spending time together. I started staying up late to play with him, and I thought the staying up late reset my sleep schedule. I could sleep again. We got close for a while. It wasn't serious but it was a friend I needed.
Well then in the midst of all this he started liking my friend better than me. She threw herself at him. I suspected, for a bit. Then confirmed. And I found them online together.
Anyways after this I started losing time. In the day. Like my bracelet broke. I came back to fix it the next night and it was repaired. I went into McDonald's and the cashier told me exactly what I wanted to order, and asked me if it was for here or to go. It scared me. I had no memory of telling him that.
Then I started not staying up so late, and my mind got better. But now I'm back to not sleeping good. I wake up at 3 am and lay awake. So I took melatonin, and it helped. I like took it 3 times over two weeks. 10mg.
Umm . . . Also I just wanted to sleep. And sometimes when it is working, like just before I fall to sleep, it almost feels like it kicks the serotonin in and I feel normal. I wanted that.
But then two nights ago I took it again. And I did not sleep. The next day man I was groggy. Confused. Like is my hand on the table or beside me. I could snap out of it, but I struggle. Then I got a good night's sleep, and felt a little normal. Then I started to write an email, and I was talking about my brother's death. I didn't want to.
Either my brain was still tired, or the melatonin is still in my system, but I got feeling confused again.
I'm awake at 1 am again. I still don't feel right in the head.

Just a little background on my upbringing: I was raised by a single mother of 3, and we have always identified as Christians. While we didn't attend church every Sunday, my family and I always made an effort to, but sometimes life’s circumstances made it challenging. We are far from perfect Christians, but everyone has flaws and inevitably makes mistakes.
Over time, our family members took different paths. I joined the Military, my sisters pursued new careers, and my mom relocated back to our home state where most of our other family resides. Despite our physical distance, we maintained regular contact, but within the past few months, it’s been getting harder to find the energy to talk to my mom. She had been asking me for money fairly often, as well as taking money out of my bank account without even asking. I am always the one to help my family out in times of need, and I have never really minded it. But it was just getting to the point where I felt that she was doing it too freely and taking advantage of me, which led me to address the issue. This confrontation resulted in her kind of distancing herself from me and seeking financial assistance from others, despite having a stable income and manageable expenses. So i was just confused on where all of her money was going. I reached out, and offered to help her make a budget plan, to help budget her money more wisely, but she didn’t like that idea.
Fast forward to around February timeframe, and I still didn’t hear from her that often, unless it was for money. My sisters informed me that my mother had been spreading unfounded rumors about me having insider knowledge about government secrets and aliens due to me being in the military, and that’s why I don’t call them to talk to them often. But mind you, I talk to my sisters VERY often, and the reason I stopped talking to her as much, was because she would always ask for money when we would talk. Also, my job in the military rotates between MAKING FOOD at the chow hall and working at the FITNESS CENTER on base, and they all know that, so her claims definitely contradicts the reality of my jobs responsibilities.
What happens next? The solar eclipse in April. She called me for like a week leading up to it, begging and begging that I stay inside for it, because the government was gonna be releasing toxins into the air during it; telling me to keep my Bible next to me wherever I went; that the world was going to end, and just a whole lot of imagined dangers associated with the event, prompting her to believe that an apocalyptic scenario was imminent. I told her on the first day that she started to beg me, that I live on the opposite side of the world, and that the solar eclipse wasn’t even going to happen on this side of the world, so there was nothing for her to worry about. Ever since then, she has been frantically calling everybody in our family non-stop, telling us that the end of the world is IMMINENT, and that now is our time to get right with god, and pressuring all of our non-religious relatives members to embrace Christianity, and telling the ones with newborn children, that their babies are going to go to heaven, and they won’t, etc…
So it went from only hearing from her when she needed money, to all of a sudden, hearing from her 24/7, about doomsday prophecies, and everything about religion. I am a very stressed out and busy person, not just with work, but also with things outside of work, so the last thing I want to hear after a long day, is that the world is going to end tomorrow and everybody’s gonna die, so i try to avoid her calls as much as i can to preserve my mental well-being and to shield myself from the persistent doomsday messages. I LOVE God, I read the Bible, and I pray to God EVERY single day. God is my #1, so it kind of makes me feel like a bad person for ignoring her phone calls, and it makes me feel as if I’m avoiding talks about God and Christianity, but deep down, I know know I’m not, and that I’m just trying to protect my positive energy.
As bad as this may sound, my sisters and I believe that my mother's behavior might be influenced by substances like psychedelics or something, given her sudden immersion in conspiracy theories and erratic beliefs. Not just because of her talks about the world ending, but also because of the things she said about me knowing about aliens as well, and how all of this stuff just started happening out of nowhere. She’s never been the type to indulge in conspiracy thoughts or anything like that, so her sudden departure from her usual demeanor is just worrying and confusing. So I’m just wondering what other people may think, or if they have any input. Am I a bad person for thinking that her religious views are possibly influenced by drugs?

Hey everyone, I could really use some advice. My boyfriend (26M) and I (25F) have been together for two years, and he's incredibly kind and supportive. However, there's been one issue that's been bothering me for a few months now, leading to multiple fights between us.
I live in a different city and have visited him several times. This time, I asked if he could make his place a bit more welcoming for me, as it's quite bachelor-esque and doesn't feel like home to me (For example, by adding few decorative lights). I even sent him the links. Despite agreeing to do so, I couldn't shake the feeling that he wouldn't follow through. When I told him about this, he said I was right and he wouldn't have done it. He said we could instead do it together. I didn't like his suggestion as I had already reminded him multiple times and wanted him to take an initiative. He tried to defend himself by saying he doesn't know how to do these things and might have mistakenly done something else. He dismissed my feelings, claiming it was absurd to be upset over such things. He seems to think I'm asking him to prove his love for me by doing these things, but that's not the case.
For me, it's not about proving anything; it's about thoughtfulness and making an effort to make your partner happy. This issue has arisen in other situations as well. For instance, when I traveled to his hometown, I asked him to have a cold drink and some food ready for me (as I was really hungry) when he picked me up. Instead, he was busy getting ready for my visit and didn't prioritize it. While I understood, I was still disappointed because I had hoped he would take the initiative.
He often brushes off these gestures, claiming he's not a romantic person and that I should focus on his loyalty, care, and support instead. But I don't believe I'm asking for too much. I just want him to occasionally make me feel special without me having to spell it out for him every time.
We've had a huge fight over this, and he's agreed to try to be more thoughtful, but I can't shake the feeling of disappointment and frustration. I don't want to end the relationship over this, but I'm tired of constantly asking for what I need and not getting it.
I am have mixed feelings about this and confused if I am being adamant over it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.

Hey there guys I would like to know, when flying standby on United out of Tokyo, what airport in Tokyo gives me the best chance to catch a flight back to the states, NRT or HND? (Preferably in Business class, but regardless I’ll obviously take anything that’s available)
I know HND has service to SFO, ORD, EWR, IAD, and LAX & that NRT has service to SFO, EWR, IAH, DEN, and LAX. I personally don’t care where I end up as long as I get back stateside then I’ll be able to get a flight back home to Florida from wherever I’m at.

Sonora walked into her father’s old room and immediately noticed it wasn’t as cold as the rest of the palace.
“Warm in here for the ice kingdom.” Winter commented.
“And it was still too cold for my liking.” Steelblade replied. A few seconds later, an outline of his icewing form sitting on an edge looking at the stars appeared. “I guess these memories will change our sight so we don’t have to get every location of the memory.” Steelblade commented when he saw the starry sky. “Convenient.” Sonora saw that her father’s past had a look of sadness on his face.
“Snowstorm.” Sonora watched as a pretty icewing smaller than her father’s past appeared, walking towards her father’s past. Sonora could see a look of regret on her father’s spirit while his past spun around.
“Your majesty.” The past steelwing said as he bowed.
“Oh get up.” The icewing told her father. They were silent for a few seconds before the icewing spoke again. “Have you heard yet?” She asked.
“Heard what?” Steelblade’s past answered the question with another question.
“My family have chosen who I’m going to marry.” The icewing responded. “And I approve of it fully.” Sonora could see Steelblade’s past had a nervous look on his face.
“Well uh, whoever gets to marry into the royal family must be really lucky.” The bigger icewing said cautiously. This must be Diamond. Sonoea thought as the smaller icewing circled around Steelblade’s past. Sonora looked at her father’s spirit and noticed a look of pained longing before he shook his head and continued watching.
“So you really haven’t heard?” The royal icewing asked when she stopped in front of Steelblade’s past.
“No. I must’ve been busy with something.” The past of Steelblade replied nervously.
“Surprising considering you’re the center of talk recently.” The smaller icewing said. Sonora could see a look of realization and a slight look of hope. The memory froze and everyone looked at Sonora’s father, who was looking at the smaller icewing with regret.
“If this is how it started, what happened?” Winter asked, confusion plaguing his voice.
“Diamond……. changed.” Steelblade replied. “This isn’t who she was after our son hatched.” Sonora could hear grief and regret in her father’s voice. He sighed as he walked through the past ghosts and through the door. He looked at Diamond with loss. He sighed before turning around and continuing on.
“Where are you going?” Snowfall called to the steelwing spirit.
“It shifted locations.” He answered quietly. “The next segment is going to be in the throne room.” Sonora could see Snowfall nod to the Winter and Icesurge to follow them to the throne room while Steelblade’s spirit stood there. Sonora stood next to him and saw him trying to hold back tears.
“Dad?” She whispered. “You ok?” She asked as she put her talon on Steelblade’s. Or attempted to as they phased through and hit ground.
“A small part of me still wishes that Diamond didn’t change.” Her father said with a slight sob.
“Do you still love her?” Sonora asked with confusion.
“A small part of me does.” Her father confessed. “Now don’t take this the wrong way. I’d choose your mother over Diamond any day.” He said quickly. “But a small part of me still wishes that life with Diamond turned out well. That Arctic was raised by 2 loving parents and not one parent trying to counteract a corrupted parent.” Sonora could see grief in her father’s eyes.
“You did what you could.” She said, trying to comfort her father. “You tried your best to be a good parent to Arctic.”
“And it wasn’t enough.” Steelblade sobbed. “He still ended up becoming his mother and corrupting his own son, who I also failed saving.” He paused for a second. “I was a terrible father.” Sonora got in front of him.
“You’re a great father.” She told him sternly. “You’ve done nothing but your best. That’s all you need to do to be a good father.” Steelblade looked at her quickly. She could see pained anger in his eyes.
“If that’s all it took, Arctic wouldn’t have been corrupted by his mother.” He growled. “I would've been able to stop Diamond from destroying his life.” Sonora held his stare and attempted to put her talons on his again.
“You were dealt the wrong talon.” She said softly. “You worked with what you were given. You and mom have done nothing but your best to give me and my brothers the best lives.”
“Guarantee you most of that was Meerkat.” Steelblade said, his voice shifting from anger to sadness. Sonora was silent for a second, thinking.
“If you were a bad father, Boron wouldn’t be the kind and caring dragon he is now.” She countered her father after a minute. “Boron is the dragon he is now because of you.” Her father opened his mouth to argue, but nothing came out as he didn’t have an argument.
“Fine.” He said, laughter starting to break through. “I’ll give you that one.” He phased through her as he walked towards the throne room. “Let’s not keep them waiting.” He said as he waited for Sonora to walk alongside him. She jogged to catch up and they walked to the throne room.
They walked into the throne room and it changed to a bedroom with Steelblade’s icewing form laying on a bed, shivering slightly.
“I don't remember being that cold.” Her father’s spirit commented.
“Papa?” Sonora turned to see a small icewing approaching the ghost form of her father.
“Arctic.” Steelblade’s spirit whispered with sadness. “Oh my sweet little Arctic.”

I’m overthinking this again. Perhaps my mental state is way too erratic, but now I suddenly am thinking I’ve been too inaccurate beforehand, so now I think my typing may be wrong (again). It’s not easy to be as truthful as I can. Honestly, my view of myself is very strange. I have always been very unsure. So I wonder if I’ll get the same or a possible different answer. I apologize if I wrote way too much here or got off topic to the question.
• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
I’m a minor (15), so perhaps accuracy could be affected by that. I’m a female. I think I’m very quiet and blend into the surroundings most of the time (and it’s not easy for me to be otherwise if I, for some reason, ever attempt to be that way). I either talk way too much, or talk too little. This is because if I don’t talk that means I really don’t know what to say, and when I end up wanting to say something it’s a lot of built up things. Also I think I end up adding random things to what I say for some reason. When I’m having a conversation, I usually spend most of the time while they’re talking thinking of how to properly respond, because I DO have an idea for what I want to say, I just don’t know how to formulate or back it up properly that quickly. For this reason, I realize I might miss out most of the details they’re saying, so I try to do both now. This is why I find texting much easier. From what I hear from others, perhaps I’m a little too reserved that it could be seen as rude. However, I myself think I talk just well enough. I’m actually somewhat hyper and energetic most of the time, but not verbally. This is because I think it would be too exhausting to express that in such ways. I think a lot about what some things mean. I’m unfortunately very quick to anger, especially if I believe someone is being way too idiotic or if I’m told I’m incorrect in how I think. Perhaps this may be normal to get annoyed about? But I know I get very irrationally angry about these. I don’t think anybody in real life would notice I have anger issues unless we’re close. I’m very neurotic. Actually, I’m going to mention that generalizing myself is difficult simply because it’s strangely difficult for myself to describe or identify my own traits. Also, it’s a bit difficult to not start explaining too much and focusing on small things (but I think I already did that).
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
No diagnosis.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
Religious influence? Perhaps not strongly, although my family is Christian, they are not very strict on it nor have they forced it upon me. Actually, it was very interesting and I did believe in it at first, but due to my curiosity I think I ended up asking so many questions that eventually it somehow led me to stop believing in any sort of theistic way.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
I don’t have any, but I want to answer this with what I used to aspire to be. Very early on, I really wanted to be a scientist and kept insisting to be, but then lost interest, I don’t remember why, but right now I’m thinking it’s because something about it is slightly terrifying. Very recently I wanted to become a writer because I think I was very passionate about stories in general, but I have realized how unsuccessful I might be if I chase for that with the amount of motivation and skill I have for it right now, so recently I’ve been thinking I’ll do something math-related, since I am good at it.
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
Refreshing for most of the time, but I think I would get lonely a few times. This is assuming I have nothing else to do and can do what I want.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
I don’t really know what activities I prefer, maybe more of ones that are having to do with dexterity. I am TERRIBLE at sports, I am too wary during ball games (but this is because I’ve been hurt a lot playing with other people too many times). Badminton is the sport I am best at. I can play with quite average skill there. I actually enjoy it too, but I’m not sure how to explain why, perhaps due to liking the feeling of light movements (if that sounds correct). I like to walk, it helps me think when I imagine things. I don’t like walking if I have to do anything else with it, it’s much harder to focus.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I think I’m pretty curious. I’m not sure though. I have more ideas than I can execute ONLY BECAUSE I don’t have the required skills to execute those ideas. My curiosities are about whatever another person brings up, perhaps. Or I’m curious about people’s analysis. My ideas are very conceptual, I suppose. My ideas are more like creating a story, or combining two stories together. Or I take one small thing from a story I know of and imagine things focusing on that. I think I’m imagining too much about media I consume, but I don’t normally do otherwise.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
I would enjoy it for the sake of a false sense of responsibility, either that or for the sake of trying something new that I’m not good at. However, I know I am not responsible enough to be good at it. As long as there is time for our team to do the task, I think I could possibly be able to do it. But I’m a terrible leader since I would end up being unable to think of anything. I would rather lead by being a participative leader, because that’s the only way I can lead properly.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
Perhaps I am coordinated, but I don’t understand this question at all. I may enjoy working with my hands. I don’t understand what this question means by “describe your activity”.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
Perhaps I am artistic, I do draw sometimes, especially if I’m bored. My art is likely just drawing humans, and nothing unordinary, just normality, I don’t know why I prefer doing so. However if I was able to draw something that was quite surreal, then I would like to do that a few times. I just wouldn’t do it all the time because I don’t think I would have that many ideas.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
The past is just gone. You apparently can’t change the past, though it would be interesting if we could go to the past. But it’s not easy for me to think so much about the past voluntarily. Sometimes I do connect the past with the future, but it’s not because I actually think hard of it, it just happens. But usually if I think about the past too much, or actually try to think of the past, the first things I start focusing on are bad memories. I did mention in previous times that I answered this sort of question that I did not like the past, but of course as long as it’s not because I’m focused on one terrible thing that happened to me or one terrible thing I did, it’s not bad. The present is just a moment and then gone. So what? Also, we’re not really in the present, are we? I don’t even know what’s going to happen in my future, so I think I can only form an opinion on the idea. I mostly have a bit of an optimistic thought that it will go well since it always isn’t as bad as I think, but at the same time there’s a feeling of dread.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
I don’t think I would react that strongly unless it is bothering me when I’m trying to do something and I’m focused on doing it. Otherwise I would try to help without feeling any bother, but I may wonder why they need my help even if it’s incredibly obvious why. If I decide to help them I’ll just do so because otherwise they’ll likely bother me with it. Either that or just because I can.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
I don’t think this is a good question, do some people really think they don’t need it? If there are such people, I wonder what their thought process is with that. Basically, why wouldn’t I?
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
I don’t think I’m efficient or have good productivity, but I do think I stress out over it. Low efficiency annoys me which is probably hypocritical. Although, I mostly do get annoyed about those when it comes to group work, because personally in those I would try my best to be efficient and productive.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
I don’t think I do, but I might have done it without noticing. I think I would likely do it if I had the incredible need to change the topic of the conversation. Otherwise I don’t think I would bother doing it, why should I care enough to control others, especially since that takes too much effort?
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
I draw sometimes, to pass the time when I’m bored and to just picture things I want to picture. Also to show people. I just mostly like drawing to see the results. Strangely with painting it’s different, I just like the act of doing so, but I don’t really care about results, so it ends up very messy. I like to write sometimes but only because I get overwhelmed and end up wanting to write what has been stuck in my head for so long onto something. So I guess that’s a hobby, but it’s somewhat tiring so I don’t write for long periods of time. I do photography as a hobby, but I only picked it up because other people in my family I have noticed are incredibly terrible at taking photos, so out of annoyance I end up volunteering to do so. I end up liking it just because I like to look at how it looks on camera, I suppose. Especially with lights, because I recently noticed how it looks on photo.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
A few years ago I took a test for this kind of thing during secondary/middle school. I suppose it said auditory. Though that’s likely inaccurate now since I prefer reading the instructions and everything else, because it’s easier to figure out where to go from there and I can focus on it better. I don’t know what learning environment I struggle in most, though I do struggle slightly if I have to do exact memorization, but as long as I can attach it to something and I put effort in it perhaps it’s alright. I prefer classes with logic.
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
I usually improvise but have a slight idea of what I’m doing. As in, I have a slight idea on the topic but I’d rather not be rigid on it because otherwise I would be focusing too much on one thing and likely miss something that would be good to add, rather than just having an idea then adding onto it if I thought of something. I’m not sure if that counts as winging it and improvisation though. I’m not good at strategizing but I can certainly try if I have a certain goal.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
Improve myself in general, because what else can I do? Just be successful and become someone that has a lot of capability. That first, then I perhaps could focus on something else. My reasoning is, I don’t improve myself first, how can I actually end up being able to do any other aspirations that I have?
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
I fear the idea of losing thought of everything. Or losing all rationale. I don’t know what makes me uncomfortable. I hate it when I’m dragged into something when I made it clear I would rather not be, especially when they never even told me about it until a second before dragging me into it. I hate it when people bring up something, and when I finally decide to express my thoughts about it, they talk over me or interrupt me. Either that, or they just tell me to not think so much. This is incredibly annoying to me, but I suppose it would annoy anyone.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
I think I would be very calm and focused. I think I would feel very lucid.
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
I think my lows would be feeling an incredible amount of dread. Or I would be very anxious and slightly more impulsive. Though, I think nobody would notice much in real life.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I think I do pay attention sometimes but it’s inconsistent when I do or don’t. I pay attention if I have to. I like to daydream sometimes. I’m not sure if I pay attention more or daydream more. How would I be aware of my surroundings if I do daydream though? Obviously not.
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
First of all, do I know why I'm there? If I don’t I would wonder about that. Also is it that I suddenly got there, or was I brought there? I think I wasn’t sure of any of these, especially why I’m there, then I would think I was kidnapped and just try to get out of that room. Ignoring all that, I would probably walk around a lot and think of the same things I always daydream about or imagine about. But wait, how long am I supposed to be staying there? Is there an obvious part of this room where I can just leave or is it basically just nothing? Really this is a bit too unspecific.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
I usually try to think a lot before making an important decision, after all, there is always the chance my first idea could go wrong if I don’t think it over first. I usually doubt myself once I made that decision even though I thought it through a lot. I rarely end up regretting it and changing my mind though. However, I sometimes end up doing things on impulse either if I’m tired or for some reason I don’t even know. In which case I 100% change my mind.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
It takes a while. I do know how I feel towards certain things but it takes time to understand or explain why, otherwise it’s difficult to express. I usually process this myself. Emotions are important, I guess. Aren’t they motivators though? It’s the entire reason why I’m actually doing anything, so I don’t see why it wouldn’t be.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
I end up doing this sometimes, just not directly saying I agree or not directly saying they are right, because most of the times I do this I do know I disagree, I just don’t have a coherent argument that is enough to be convincing, or one that is enough that my view seems rational, because most of the times I notice the other person would see the opposing viewpoint as incredibly irrational and stupid. I am working on not doing this though, because it’s likely better to make them think about it than doing nothing and keep them thinking something that they could change their mind on or I could change my mind on. Another reason why I’m working on this because I realize agreeing without actually agreeing would end up nagging me in the head.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
No, I don't break rules often. I’m either afraid of being punished, or because I see the rules are pretty rational and I understand them, even if I wouldn’t personally impose those rules myself. It’s not too difficult for me to try and adapt to those rules if different places have different rules. I do find myself re-checking the rules a lot though. I only don’t give any mind about rules if I really hate the community or place in which these rules have been imposed on. But if I hated it in the first place, why would I even be there? Anyways, challenged or not challenged, it’s not one or the other, it really depends on how the authority does things. Consider what they’re like first and what they do in their role then judge if they should be challenged or not challenged.

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Ok this is gonna be sort of a rant so bare with me, I am diagnosed with PTSD and one of the things VA has me do is therapy. Well I go to talk to a therapist slowly and slowly building a relationship with them and then the 12 weeks is up and it’s time for me to try something new! I can’t go back to the same provider even though I literally was just starting to build trust with him?! NOPE my coordinator says you need to take a 3 month break from mental health treatment and essentially told me to go F myself. I have found out I can’t hold a job whatsoever wether it be I lose my temper or what have you I have issues with that which never frickin existed before all this shit, hell I frickin struggle going to family gatherings let alone being in public places working. Im not trying to be in the mental health care forever, I just need a little help so I can actually get my health together Because right now the va is screwing me over with this 12 week rule where I barely even get to know the person I need longer I’m not going to tell some random ass dude I’ve only known for a couple weeks shit that I literally don’t even tell my SO. I just need help from them so I can get back to being normal because this shit is terrible. I’m trying so damn hard to just get through this but I feel like genuinely no one actually cares about me and just want to push me aside for the next guy who’s going through this same cycle. I genuinely just want to get the help I need so I can be done with this and move on with my life. I don’t know if anyone has gone through this before but please tell me what I need to do and how I can get through this. Thank you.

in love with memories not the person '21F'
Iam in a 6 year long relationship ( 5 years 8 months specifically). we have had several breakups before several, harsh, ugly what all u can even imagine, over the worst situations, over 3rd person, over lack of interest from his side, over some stupid mistakes, over disrespecting nature and name calling each other. i was just 15yo when i first met him, and now we both are 21 year old. i thought it will grow with age, i thought holding onto him no matter what with make us go stronger as we age into maturity, i thought we will always find a way. only to realize that what if what i did was just spending the best years of my youth forcing someone to love me, forcing someone to believe me that we are really meant for each other. we broke up in 2022 which was the longest till date, it happened as soon as our long distance started, it happened so quick, but still remained hard for me to believe, i went begging to him for almost for a month, i was pissed of by his behavior, i wanted him to love me, i wanted to marry him still and live with him, above all i wanted him to make his way back to me when i brokeup, but he didnt. How easy was it for him to let go of a 4 yo relationship? (that time it was 4 yrs). i prayed like hell to god to heal me, to return him to me again, to make me happy. he was my only person. i didn't even tell anyone about the breakup bcoz it took 1 whole month for me to believe that its actually over. i did what all i could have, i sent a post to him without even knowing his correct address.
yeah and in all these 48 days i didn't even receive a single text from him, not even a single!!!!
cut short to 2 days before my bday. lol he came back, only for me to know that he came under the influence of weed.--- this i got to know 2 days ago that he came under heavy dosage of weed that time.
we again brokeup during my exams. this breakup went for 11 long days, i made myself very firm that he is not coming back. infact i told everyone this time becoz i didnt want to let my gaurd down and let him mentally trouble me again. this whole time i was unaware about the addiction he has got into, i was fucking unaware that he has been lying to me all the time. he came back and confessed to me that he used to smoke almost every other fucking night telling me goodnight. he used to miss his exams and come back to me and tell me how it went, used to tell me that his exams arent going well and i used to console him over it, all liessss everything fake
he called me fake, called me a manipulator, called me a victimizer. only for him to realize that whatever he told me was all those things that he already have become. i wasnt any of them, he was!!!
i promised myself that i wont fall prey to it again. it was the time during my exams and i didnt want to make a rucuss out of it. i just wanted peace whatever it takes. so i decided to be calm and show and express my anger , my emotions, my disappointed over his lies after few days. but i failed again. idk how many times god will let me fail until i get detached completely, until it didnt have the power to hurt me ever again. but if its him, god how can i not love to get hurt a thousands time from him over and over again.
he promised to not take me for granted, little did i know that he already started taking me for granted just bcoz i was being calm (due to my final sem exams) he must have took me for granted on the 4th day of coming back itself. we cried over texts we chatted late night, i did care for him more than my exams knowing i coukd even fail tomorrow. when i got the truth i thought the only person in this world who could bring him out of this darkness is me, i didnt care if he ruined my exams by leaving, i still didnt leave his hand, held it tighter than before if it meant that he could change, he could leave his addiction.
its been 26 days since out patchup, and i find myself here, crying for his efforts, for the promises he made that he wont leave me if we breakup, he promised me that and yesterday he said fuck it iam not coming back to you if we breakup now. how am i supposed to believe?? i got panic attacks, i got sick, iam going for therapy session starting next week, i got my BP and heart rate checked, am sitting and doing coping mechanisms to deal with this, i cannot sleep whole night, i got bad anxiety, i dont even talk to anyone, i dont like the things i used to. he doesnt give a fuck how iam, he doesnt give a fuck abt my tears. least bothered.
now iam forced to think that he just needs me for his needs to be fulfilled becoz he knew only i can be that dumb to support him at his lowest. now i think its all attraction from his side, now iam forced to believe that i just go back to him bcoz of the memories i shared all these years and not bcoz of the person he is right now,the person he has become right now. his unability to prove me wrong, his unability to reassure me, his unability to do the things i asked him to do for me, his unability to seek forgivness is just making me more and more sure day by day

I’m not really sure what I’m looking for. I guess what every one else is.. support?
Married a decade, have kids together. As far as I know everything has been online, but his inappropriate flirting behavior has happened multiple times with multiple women. This last time, D-day was 5 weeks ago. Im preparing to leave, but I’m having a hard time going. I feel a pressure to go, but also a feeling of making sure I do it responsibly. I’ve been a stay at home mom for 7 years, so I’m trying to get everything in order.
Multiple conversations have gone nowhere. Husband has just gotten defensive, downplayed, refused to show me his phone, etc. I’m in therapy, have gotten legal advice, etc. he’s abusive, in a true covert narcissistic way.
I guess my questions are how long did it take you to leave once you knew it was your only option? And how did you move past the feeling of wanting to know EVERYTHING. I know I’ll never get the answers, but I’m still slightly obsessed with hunting down all the information I don’t know.
I just feel really stuck. My support network is small and the people I expected to rally around me, have disappeared. It all just feels so heavy.

TLDR: Can a women who is under the "charge" of her mother because a disability who is going to give birth, give over sole custody to the father of said baby?
I have a friend (RC) who has been with his currently pregnant girlfriend (HB) for over a year and a half, they are not married. The BIG issue is HB has Kabuki syndrome and her mother (SB) still has custody of her, she is 27ish. HB does get disability checks which her mother receives and then gives to her. HB is currently scheduling a C-Section from mid to end of June. RC is worried that once the baby is born that SB can assume custody of said baby and ipso facto remove him from the child's life. RC and HB have a good relationship and he takes care of her as much as he can and she wants to be with him; however he recently had a long medical stay from some bad burns and hasn't been able to return to work. RC and HB's recent plan is for her to give RC sole custody after the baby is born that way they can ensure he will not be separated from his child. My concern is that the mother (SB) will be able to move in to stop that anyway rendering the plan void. They were planning to get married before the birth but SB hasn't given her "permission". Apparently there is a lot of violence and illicit/illegal activity on HB's side of the family; and she has been removed from her mothers custody before, so I'm not sure how SB still has any power over HB. To make things worse for RC he is currently living with HB in SB's house, because they aren't able to afford their own place. Anyway I hope someone can help me with this and I hate to say we live in Alabama but it is what it is. Is there any good way to keep the parents in control of custody of their baby?
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Im so upset. My 2.5 month old never cries when I feed him or my mom does but ALWAYS cries when my s/o feeds him. I believe it’s the way he handles him. I seen my s/o adjust the baby by lifting him from his back and chest.. baby ALWAYS cries. I have told him to not adjust him like that at least 6 times in the last 2 weeks and he just did it again. He also adjust him in a way where when he sits him, he kind of bounces a little on his lap because he does it abruptly and baby cries as well. I get so upset because why is the baby crying right now in feeding for NO REASON that he should be. I always tell him, look at what you do, if the baby cries right after, you’re hurting him. Don’t do it. I had to leave the room because he’s supposed to be helping me but I can’t handle seeing the baby cry and I keep telling him and I feel like maybe he is thinking “you want me to help you but you keep telling me I’m doing things wrong” and I don’t want him to not help me. I don’t want to take over and feed into this weponized incompetence i feel that it going on but I just am so upset that baby always cries with him. He used to be the primary caretaker when the baby was newly born due to preeclampsia and epidural headache I had.. now he started working and I am caring for the baby 90% of the time since I’m still on leave.. like did you just all of the sudden not know how to care for a baby?? i can’t handle seeing my baby cry for shit like this.

To preface this I 26 f have been broken up with my ex boyfriend 30m for almost 3 years… our relationship started to fail when I was unable to take out as many credit card loans or make an income due to health reasons. When we moved into a newer quote on quote more upscale apartment complex I found out I was pregnant and was ecstatic because I was told I was more than likely infertile. When I told him, his first response was to make an appointment at the abortion clinic or he would leave. (Do not get me wrong I am pro choice until the day I die but this was my choice, to keep the baby). It was around Christmas time so no clinics were open (in my small town) and by the time I would be able to get an appointment I would be farther than 10weeks along…well the 11th week hit and we still hadn’t told anyone but I hadn’t slept the night before I, I felt something was wrong. When I finally got out of bed I immediately knew I was miscarrying (I had been working on labor and delivery for 3 years at that point). I told him immediately but heard nothing from him all day. When I got home he immediately changed into some “going out “ clothes and told me he was going to go out and celebrate him not having to have a baby with me anymore. Long story short 3 years later I meet the love of my life and were happily engaged planning on a summer 2025 wedding. Last week I got an emergency alert text that said my ex needed assistance through his smart watch (I bought for him). I knew this was a kind of serious one because it gave me the exact latitude and longitude of his last know whereabouts. I ignored it. And tbh I hope he’s dead in the mountains somewhere because of what he put me through. So AITA?

So I’ve (M,31) known my friend (M,32) since elementary school. Thinking back on it, even as kids, he had somewhat of an insufferable attitude; but it was easier to ignore. We would just go back to playing video games or Yu-Gi-Oh! like we always did. And at the end of the day, everything would be fine. But now, as adults with lives and responsibilities, it just seems…harder.
And I feel bad because I know he’s just been through a lot. His mom passed just before Christmas of last year, and that was a devastating roller coaster of emotion for everyone. He was still living with her and she was his best friend. He told her everything, shared all his interests and hobbies with her, etc. And outside of the money he gave her from his job to cover half the expenses, she handled everything (he didn’t drive, never paid bills, and he’s now getting an intense crash course on stuff). Even earlier today, he mentioned how it was like screaming into the void now that she was gone; and so I’ve been sort of hesitant to call him out on some of his behavior as of late.
The first thing is him acting like “Of course we’re going to hang out if I call or text him about it.” No. I have my job that is stressing me out; especially after layoffs just happened, and I’m trying to step up even more to make sure I’m not next. I also take care of my father, who is sick in a nursing home and losing his balance and mobility. I got three calls last week saying that he’d fallen. I’m in a relationship, and my partner and I are already struggling to figure out the future so we can consider things like marriage and so forth, but neither one of us has enough money. I get dragged into so many things on my days off that I stress out cause I’m not at home as much as I want to be; safe, at peace, able to catch up on chores. I’m already doing weekly therapy cause of the stress.
When we do talk on the phone, he treats it like we’re a podcast or talk show, and I just need to stop what I’m doing to give him the next 30 minutes or an hour of my time. I’ve had to try and politely explain that I was occupied a few times. He’d call me at work and I’d quickly text him back that I couldn’t talk. And on top of that, the conversation always stems back to what edibles he’s trying lately. He’s been going online and buying up every CBD/THC/Shroom gummy he can find. He once asked me to stay on the phone with him for 30 minutes so I can observe the side effects of a gummy with him, and I told him I was busy. He tried again and asked for 10 minutes and I caved.
And when we hang out in person…he just does some stuff I seriously have questions about. Several times, I’ve seen him reach down and scratch his nuts while sitting next to me; sometimes he’s just sitting there and holding them. I get it: we’re guys, so whatever, right? But it never fails that he sniffs his hand after. He’s always in shorts and reaches through the leg to scratch, but he always straight up sniffs his fingers after. And he does this SO MANY times, and each time I pretend not to notice, cause I know he’ll just deny it if I call him out. It’s weird when there’s food involved. He’s started treating me like I’m a lackey and he’s the brains, and will more or less ramble off commands like to grab him a drink or a snack when he’s over at my apartment. And he acts like he needs to dictate how the time is spent, and always asks me to watch some creepy pasta type stuff. He’s more or less tried to declare when he wants to leave (usually midnight, which is a fuck no cause I wake up at 4am for work), and will try to get me watch hours long videos on murder mysteries, photos taken before tragedies, reviews over gory movies, etc. Today I just about snapped at him when he asked if we could watch a video over disturbing 911 calls; he’d just nagged me to watch a video about a lady finding dead children in an 18 wheeler in Mexico. And when I suggest we watch an anime or play a game or something, he acts like it’s a hassle to fit it into the schedule. Tonight, he was so excited to show me a video about a South Korean couple in the 80’s that got kidnapped and forced to direct movies in North Korea, and I was mentally begging for his Uber to come get him. And he can’t just shut up and let it play. He HAS to talk and show off how he’s some sort of YouTube rabbit hole savant. He acts like I just NEED to hear how well researched and well read he is about whatever video. We watched the Netflix One Piece, and it was just him listing every difference between the show and source material, or talking to the TV and characters, acting like he needed to coach the Straw Hat Pirates about the fights, and this was my first time seeing it. This was his 2nd or 3rd time (then later, he just outright said “We’re going to start watching the anime together. We’re going to watch it every time we meet up, and it’ll be 10 episodes each time.” Not, “Do you want to watch One Piece?” Just that we WERE, no input from me at all, just a damn command). This happens EVERY time we watch something. If he makes a mistake when saying something, he’ll get snippy if I correct him, and he acts like there was no mistake and he said it flawlessly. And then there’s the porn. Every time, he shows me his art he drew for his comic he wants to make and it’s really just an excuse to look up porn. Nothing but nude drawings in risqué poses. I’ve seen him scrolling through his tablet, and it’s nothing but porn images he’s saved. I glanced and saw him straight up looking at a hentai butthole shot while we watched some weird video he wanted to show me. And there are so many other things…
I know he’s hurting. His mom was his only parent, since he never knew his dad who abandoned him. I still have my parents, so I can only imagine. But his behavior is getting to be a bit too much. And I don’t know how to gently tell him he’s being a major dick. I don’t know if I’m just suddenly a punching bag now (he lives with his aunts and cousins, and they were all raised old school, no nonsense, “no, we don’t need no damn phone to turn off the lights, get your ass up and do it yourself” type, so I KNOW they wouldn’t let that shit behavior fly there), but it’s gotta stop.

Hi everyone,
I want to address a question that often comes up: Why use Arcade Convoy Radio when there are so many other great music players out there? First off, let's be clear—we're not here to replace players like AIMP, Spotify, VLC, iTunes, or Windows Media Player. These are fantastic tools if you're looking to listen to your comprehensive music library or curated playlists. However, Arcade Convoy Radio is designed with a different purpose in mind.

Not Here to Replace Traditional Music Players

If your goal is to enjoy your Spotify playlists or meticulously organized music library, you're likely better off with a player designed for that purpose. Arcade Convoy Radio isn't intended to replace these advanced music players. Instead, it's aimed at providing a seamless, fast, and user-friendly experience specifically tailored for gaming sessions.

The Frustration with Traditional Players

I personally found making playlists to be tedious and time-consuming. I've tried almost all the popular music players out there—AIMP, VLC, iTunes, Foobar2000, and others. While these players offer a plethora of advanced features, they often require too much setup and maintenance for my taste. I wanted something that works right out of the box.

Simplicity and Ease of Use

Arcade Convoy Radio is designed to be extremely straightforward. Simply add your music directories, start your game, and let the radio mode handle the rest. The radio sliders and favorite counts take care of song selection, so there's no need for creating your own playlists. This ease of use is something I found lacking in other players.

Unique Features Tailored for Gaming

What sets Arcade Convoy Radio apart are its unique features customized for gamers:

• **Automatic Song Selection:** The radio mode and favorite count features select songs for you, eliminating the need for manual playlist creation.
  
• **Game Controller Support:** While other players offer game controller integration, I found them lacking in ease of use. Arcade Convoy Radio allows you to control the music with your game controller effortlessly.
  
• **Random Play Times:** One of the features I couldn't find in other players was random play times. This keeps the listening experience dynamic and prevents songs from becoming repetitive, which is especially useful given my library of over 10,000 chiptunes and gaming tracks.
  

These features make Arcade Convoy Radio perfect for enhancing your gaming experience without the hassle of extensive setup and playlist management.

Conclusion

Arcade Convoy Radio offers a unique, gamer-centric approach to music playback. It's not about replacing traditional music players but providing a specialized tool that fits a specific need. If you're tired of manual playlists and want a music player that just works, Arcade Convoy Radio might be for you.
Thank you for checking us out! Feel free to share your experiences and suggestions to make Arcade Convoy Radio even better.