Aslah asked Ayas why he believed it was murder.
Ayas explained.
"I based my conclusion on forensic evidence. The wound pierced Anaswarnath's heart, likely causing immediate death. In most suicide cases, the victim doesn't have the strength to pull the knife from their chest. However, here the knife isn't in the chest, suggesting Anaswarnath pulled it out."
"While uncommon, it's not impossible." Aslah sai
Without caring about it, Ayas continued, "Secondly, Anaswarnath's wound pierced his heart, but there's no blood splattered on the room or walls. If the knife were pulled out immediately after stabbing, blood would have splattered everywhere. Instead, the blood is pooled on the table, indicating that Anaswarnath did not pull the knife out right away. This suggests the blood flowed steadily, creating a flat pool on the table."
"Maybe he pulled it out after some minutes, some seconds before his death. That can happen," Aslah interrupted again.
"The chances of Anaswarnath being alive long enough to pull the knife out are slim,. Even if he had managed to do it, the knife would have been soaked in blood, and his hands would likely have been injured in the process. When someone uses a sharp weapon, especially if it slips due to blood, it's common for their hands to get cut—sometimes small nicks, sometimes deep gashes. But Anaswarnath's fingers are uninjured, which means he didn't pull the knife out. The person who did may have injured themselves. If the killer wore thick rubber gloves, they might have avoided injury."
This time, Aslah was silent.
"Now, the most important thing is the tailing," Ayas emphasized. "You assumed it was a suicide because you interpreted the tailing below the wound as a hesitation mark. But if you look at the direction of the scratch, it goes from the bottom of the wound to the left side. If a right-handed person had stabbed themselves and pulled the knife out, the tailing would go from the top of the wound to the right side. This clearly indicates that someone else, who is right-handed, pulled the knife."
Aslah didn't ask anything, but the question lingered in the air...

How?

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A few weeks ago my middle sister came to visit me with her friend, I live with my mother and my younger sister
Her friend is really pretty and extroverted, according to my sister, she only dated one guy and got quite traumatized with the relationship, with made her not want to date anyone else anymore.
Later at that night, while we were having dinner, my mother started saying she was beautiful and asking her some personal questions, like if she planned to have kids in the near future, she said she never wants kids, but could change her mind after 35 (she is 25 now btw).
But let's talk about her body language, which made me a bit confused...
They stayed for 7 days, and one thing I noticed is that she constantly avoided eye contact with me when we were talking with each other, she would either look somewhere else or look at my sister, but for a few moments when I was paying attention to my sister or my mother talking, I could noticed that she quickly looked at me. She also never said my name, always asking my sister like "does he want a gum?", instead of offering me directly, but that's ok I guess since we don't have any intimacy.
In one moment though, I was right at her side and instead of asking directly to me, she looked at my sister asking her to ask to me, even my sister said: "Why don't you ask to him? He is just at your side"
I was wondering if I made something to make her feel uncomfortable or she just didn't like me, anyway, my younger sister heard mother talking with the girl saying how me and her would be a great couple and that I never had a girlfriend (yes, my mother actually thought this was a great thing to say...), and the girl said she wasn't looking for a relationship right now, but could change her mind later.
According to my sister, she only had this one boyfriend (who traumatized her, treating her badly), and that a lot of guys give her gifts but she doesn't want anyone
Another thing is that every time my sister came to talk to me in my room, she would come together, sometimes just to stay there, then she started showing me her own pictures in her cellphone, comparing and asking in which one she looked better, showing her with different hair and showing her family
In another moment, while she was talking with my younger sister about relationships, she started talking about age gaps, she said she would date someone up to 29 years old, but said 32 would be too old for her (I am 30 btw, and I was right at her side, don't know if it meant anything)
Anyway, she gave me 2 hugs before they left and a few days later I followed her in Instagram, she followed me back but didn't show much interest when I messaged her, I asked what she thought about the city and other stuff, she didn't respond for 2 days and I deleted the message thinking I was bothering her, but she noticed it and apologized saying she was busy, I then just said some more stuff, gave a goodbye and stopped talking with her.
Based on all that, what can be said about her body language? Did she show any interest on me, or was just avoiding me to not give the wrong impression?
Despite her being very attractive, can't say I am really interested in her, we have a few things in common but I am introverted and she is very extroverted, my younger sister says we matched each other, but I don't think so.
Anyway, I am just asking because her behavior was quite weird sometimes, also think it's an opportunity to understand women's body language better, I admit I am terrible at it, in the past I had girls who were interested in me, but I couldn't notice until it was too late, and girls I thought were interested, but were not.

Hello, I am a 27F. I've got environmental, animal, and chemical allergies. My PCP believes I have asthma eventhough lung function tests all came back normal. I'm recently diagnosed with Sjogrens syndrome. I'm not a smoker nor do I vape.
Last month on 05/12/24, my little cousin coughed in my face twice and the next day I developed a productive cough and chest pain. Every day since then, I've been coughing up thick, yellow/green phlegm. I never got a fever or body aches, anything like that. I went to urgent care on 05/22/24 and they prescribed me a course of antibiotics (amoxicillin) and I completed them but they didn't help at all.
I went to the ER today and the doctor listened to my lungs and immediately heard the crackles coming from my right lung and she said "Oh wow! Yeah sounds like pneumonia in that lung." However, they did a chest xray and it came back normal so she said it might be the beginning stages of pneumonia. She honestly seemed unsure so I feel uneasy. My paperwork has info for Atypical pneumonia. She prescribed me azithromycin and doxycycline. (I forgot to tell them that I had an allergic reaction to azithromycin so she prescribed doxy.)
Will this work for me? Amoxicillin didn't do anything and I'm afraid to take another antibiotic if it wont help. I also read about the possible long term side effects of these and I'm a little scared. But I'm also scared to not take them because pneumonia is scary.

1. I am at home base and megan is there and that is not really known to me just sensebuilding and we are in action and it is not out of the dream of battlebuff yet and we are moving in humvee to the west bank which is not to shreds yet and there is the little girl who I bayonetted yesterday there who decided to become a martyr and she had raised an AK-47 and I have to to 1 hour of heart massage and one two three one two three I massage the Aeta-Martyr's heart for one hour and this is in the north area which this area disappears once we are there as american and this is the holy city's main magazine market street and we are in a collapsed building to the side and I massage aetas heart so well it restarts in the field and I did that with my right hand tactile inside there blinded by order of vision to my own davy crocket the only davy crocket fired on Beruit which bombed beirut by davy crocket and had dots vision there and am in honor in the field and they give me normal Roam the Point dots then after that and the APV is moving out without me and I did a holy miracle, starting the heart of somebody low on blood by heart massage and gave her like 590 bags and she isn't stitched till we know her as a flower girl and she is stitched shot a bit and ghosts attacked me of AK-47 ghost attack me here for the first time and I kill them stone dead with my field weapon and What I meant is the marines are playing lead along with the car with me just once to fuck with me and it seriously fucks with me when I am peeing in the side room and we go past checkpoint charlie into pakistan briefly to lase the shit city there which then we are at some point called into action in that city and there is hella fire support by AH-64 on that city which like tails chris on the ground and we are in the karachi or whatever center and we are engaging the hotel there and engaging the terrorists and I raid this location under EBCS, I will remind you I am MATLAS 4th degree recovered of an android and can fight in multiple places, I engage Al Baghadi himself here who Al Baghdadi is resisting in the middle room and I enter the hotel past the swimming pool display and into the side room which I go into the middle room and there is baghdadi here and I shoot him in the leg the woman and in the head baghdadi and this is the end of the isis resistance and we get back on the sides of the AH-64 E and fly back to home base which this is the checkpoint charlie and there is an unassociated operation 1.1 I am at home base an aeronautics order for illegal loop avionics fail break goes in and I get in the UH-1 and fly it out of the hangar safe and do a 10000M loop with the UH-1 to the hyal mountain not breaking it and we raid roman abrachomavich's house there extracting abrachomavich and picked up netanyahus son in real life chris who was a spetznaz there and extracted only abrachomavich to hyal bunker and chris to back home doing another 10000M loop on the way back which triggers the airsickness alarm of participant rich martrychovich which allegedly jacks up richs back a shitty landing by violet and hake at hyal which is actually disney princess cervical violation happening to him and might be good or bad or a jacked up back and we are on the ground and I take the AH-64 D up and down too quick and break it and there is a real big party cause rupert still has good music then and this is the first Chris-Netanyahu sees of the firebase and the LPA there is really loud in the wall facing megan and maybe in there somebody got an injection or surgery therein or ate or smoked.

Hello all,
I've just realised that I never updated since I finished week 12. My last update was at the end of week 8 which was my first month on 5mg.
I made the decision to continue on 5mg as I had few side effects but was losing weight. I have not had any really problematic side effects - slight need to use the bathroom more than usual and sulphur burps that start about the middle of the day after my jab but don't really last.
I did find slight discomfort in eating an evening meal between week 8 and 10 but in my first few weeks of MJ when I was fasting for Lent I would feel very feint and lethargic so I know that I have to make sure I have some calories to keep me going. I made use of Huel shakes if I was really struggling to make sure I kept my intake up.
I also found around week 10 a slight weakness and a feeling of growing pains in my legs but I have since started to use rehydration supplements whenever this feeling comes on and it solves it by the very next morning.
I have lost in the last month 9lbs which is down quite a lot from my first couple of months but is still really good. In the last couple of weeks I have not seen much of a drop at all and, given that the side effects have become less and less, I have decided this month to step up to 7.5mg before going on to the 10mg dose.
In total I am now down circa 40lbs or 18kg. This is incredible progress for me and much more than I ever thought I would actually be able to lose in this amount of time.
A few little anecdotes from this time:
I went for a meal with colleagues at lunchtime to nandos and ordered the rice bowl with the plant based strips. Comes in at around 700cals. Loved it. Forgot how good broccoli can taste! Nobody questioned it but I forgot how much people can pressure you into eating! The table decided they wanted starters to share and I said I hadn't wanted any. They ordered them and said "it's OK, you can just have some of them if you change your mind" I told them that I wouldn't. They then kept saying "are you not going to have any?" I don't know how many times I had to tell them I was fine! They're lovely people and I don't think they realised what they were doing, they just wanted to make sure I was happy but it can be hard work sometimes!
I also went to a theatre to see a friend in a musical. I know that this theatre has tight seats even for normal sized people so I usually dread the idea of having to perch at the end of the seat but you know, I was always wondering why it doesn't look like I've lost much weight considering the scales say I've lost 40lbs... I think I figured out why. It appears to be around my hips and bum. I sat in the chair, not comfortably, but I was definitely actually in the chair this time! Small wins.
Had a day where I was craving pizza so I decided to make some instead. Used real tomato's and sparing amounts of mozzarella (it reminded me of the pizza I had in Italy where actually, less is often more). Tasted great, got rid of my cravings and it wasn't huge in calories either considering pizza used to be my big vice.
Fruit is incredible. Pears in particular.
Anyway. That's enough for this month. Let's hope the 7.5mg works out for me and I successfully continue this journey.

I've been working on this story for... 3 months? 4? who knows, with my ability to keep track of time I could have started this yesterday, anyway, this is a story that has sci-fi elements, and some fantasy, although the fantasy stuff is mainly dragons so lets say adventure for now, (cause I don't know shit about genres, I just wrote the story) , Keep in mind, this has been written in free time, of which I don't have a lot, so if you don't like the story it is probably my fault, here is a look at:

Dragons wing

I slowly drift from my sleep and think to myself, ow, why is everything warm? I check the thermostat and see that it is at a temperature as cool as Canada and when I turn back to go back to bed so that I can sleep in, I see that my stuff has been knocked over? Oh sorry, where are my manners? I'm James O’Maley, I put everything back into place, and lay down on my bed but nothing is comfortable! I just decide, you know what, whatever, I’m just gonna get ready for work, and with that i get dressed, everything feels harder to put on, but it really hits me when I go to brush my teeth, when I looked into the mirror, I saw that their were, wings on my back, and a tail, growing out my butt like a lizard, I obviously spend several minutes having an existential crisis about this shocking revelation, and I decide to look at what these wings can do, I open a window, crawl out, with some difficulty and some slamming the window on my tail. I go to the edge of the fire escape railing, hop on, and jump, and I flew, higher and higher, until i nearly flew into a mountain but that's when I suddenly breathed fire, from my mouth, and bore a hole straight through the cliffside, I could spend all day flying, breathing fire, and fiddling with my tail, but I began to feel as tired as if I’d just gotten back from lifting weights with tigers, I landed on a cliffside and fell asleep. When I woke up I wasn’t on the cliffside anymore, there were monitors and scientists all around me. I tried to show some sign that I was awake, but I was chained up! I spent several moments struggling to get free, I must be free, I am not something they can chain down! I struggle, I roar, I attempt to move my head enough to burn the surrounding area, but I can’t, until someone finally talks to me,
“Hello there, James, please forgive us for our caution, but with your kind we can never be too careful.” I can see the scientist, I read his name tag, Dr. Crane William, I roar out
“My kind!? Get me out of these chains!” I breathe fire, claw, kick and swing my tail, trying to free myself, until I see two other people watching, one with weird whiskers, a long tail and a smug look on his face, and the other with a similar appearance to me but her wings are her arms. The next few days go by, until the two finally decide to talk to me, and in those days, My face becomes a snout like a komodo dragon’s, the one with the whiskers opens his mouth first and I already hate him
“Would you look at that, he’s even uglier up close!” I glare at him with absolute hatred, that seems to anger him more,
“What are you mute or something? Speak before I tear you apart!” he takes one step closer and that's all I need, I Bite his shoulder and use his head to break the chains on my right arm, I continue to break the rest of them with ease, and tell whiskers
“You want to fight? Let’s fight!” I leap on top of him, clawing at his face, he tries to slash me with a blade on his tail but I grab it and stab the wall with it, until I feel a burning sensation in my veins, The girl had bitten me! She looks at me with sadness,
“Sorry about this,” I look at her and drift into unconsciousness, when I wake up next I’m in some kind of, medical wing, ha, wing, as I look around I feel that my mouth is bound shut, but other than that, I can move my body, I get up off the gurney and just when I think it looks nice, whiskers shows his face,
“Well thanks a lot freak, now I’m on probation with Dr. Crane.” I motion to my mouth and he seems to have enough brain cells to understand what I mean
“Ha! You got the boot, Lily had that on her when she wouldn’t stop biting staff, I’m Ryan Mist.” I just walk away and try getting this muzzle off, That's when Crane walks in,
“Well, I must say it has been a while since we’ve had to use the boot, Ryan, your behavior was unacceptable!” I can tell that Crane is annoyed, and right as he finishes his sentence, click, the boot falls off my face and clatters to the ground. I don’t bother trying to fight Ryan again, I’m just happy to be able to talk!
“Well that’s a lot better, now, talk, I want answers.” I growl, Crane and Ryan seem surprised that I got the boot off but they talk, turns out, I’m what’s called a dragonkin a Human who has dragon genes in their genome, Lily and Ryan are also dragonkin, although they can’t breath fire, Lily has fangs and a venomous bite, turns out she’s the girl that bit me, and Ryan just looks weird, apparently we are the only dragonkin who evaded the organization that Crane works for, Called ‘Kadmus,’ into adulthood, Lily being found at 22, ryan at 20, and me at 24, on top of that, we are the only dragonkin who have survived that long, it’s at that moment that I notice Lily looking at us from behind some glass, I decide that I’ve heard enough and open the door, and I leave the room.
As I leave the room I can tell that Lily was not expecting me from the look on her face, I start a conversation with her, trying desperately to be friendly and not notice all the scientists glancing at me nervously.
“Hey, Lily, Right?” I say in the friendliest tone I can, “I’m James.” Lily looks at me with a calculating look before answering
“Hello, yeah my name is Lily, Lily Megan.” she clearly is wary of me, but I can tell a few things about her, making herself look small, clearly smarter than she lets on, seems shy,
“How did you get it off?” Lily breaks into my train of thought with the question,
“What?” I ask her, confused,
“The Boot, how did you get it off?” She gestures to the room where Crane and Ryan were having an argument, but more specifically to The Boot, laying on the ground
“Oh that? I once took a lockpicking class when I was younger.” I explain
“Huh, you mind teaching me that sometime?” She catches me off guard with that one, I can tell that she is being genuine so I agree, And we begin working out what time works best.

The next few weeks go by in a flash, but I’ll summarize it for you, I ended up getting my own room like Ryan and Lily, I start teaching Lily how to pick locks, and we end up having a few game nights where we played games like charades, poker, even monopoly, lets just say that we will never play monopoly again. However, the most important thing of all, we ended up finding another dragonkin! We aren’t sure what dragon ancestor he has, but we think he’s another eastern long tail, like Ryan, the new guy’s name is Dillian, He’s great, absolute goofball, he’s from Australia, and according to him, his family has never been anywhere but the land down under, weird, but the guy’s like a little brother to me, so it’s cool, and that catches you up. “Hey Dillian!” I lean my head into his room, “Wanna come hang out with the rest of us? It’s movie night!” Dillian just looks at me, unreadable, 

“Okay, your loss.” I try to hide how unnerving that look felt, but something doesn’t feel right. I go back to the lounge, where Ryan, Lily, and Crane are all waiting for me,
“Sorry guys, Dillian, isn’t up for it.” Lily looks at me disappointed,
“Aw man, and we're even watching Dune!” I just look at her with a sad look, but Ryan manages to lift the mood a little bit,
“Last time we let Crane pick the movie!” Crane just glares at Ryan, I can tell he’s about to lecture him so I just start the movie, around one hour in, boom, everything is blurry, and there is dust swirling, everything hurts. I see Lily and Ryan helping evacuate the scientists, I don’t see Crane anywhere! But that's when I see it, Cranes lab coat, soaked red and underneath a piece of rubble, I try to run towards it, but I can't stay on my legs, I call out,
“CRANE!” My friends hear me, they rush towards me and they see the lab coat, Lily tears up, Ryan is too stunned to speak, then we hear it, we hear him. Dillian, he’s laughing, laughing at the lab coat, laughing at us, My head snaps toward him, I feel the rage burning, my wings flare out, fire rises in my throat, I grab Dillian by the collar, and I roar,
“Do you think this is funny?!” Dillian just keeps laughing, “Crane is deadI!” Dillian looks at me, and he finally stops laughing, he pushes me off and spikes erupt from his skin, his tail wraps around my throat, and he growls,
“Don’t touch me you cretin, my ancestors were nearly wiped out by yours, I’m just returning the favor.” I look at him confused, Ryan seems to have been just as confused as me because he asked,
“What do you mean? The Eastern long tails have never had an issue with the Flying flame drakes.” Dillian just flicked his wrist and one of the spines shot out and nearly sliced Ryan’s head off!
“Do not compare the Wyrms to those foolish sky beasts! They have ruled the land for centuries!” Dillian roars, at this point I finally manage to choke out,
“Wyrm? Like the dragon inside the mountain Wyrm?” I struggle against his tail, I finally get a claw hooked under it and pull, it takes all of my strength to get my head loose and retreat, and then I see Dillian fully for the first time, pale skin covered in red spines and a long tail that could probably crush a normal humans windpipe, if I wasn’t a dragonkin I’d be dead.
“So, you do have a brain. Indeed, my ancestors were the Wyrms, Masters of the land, and the only dragons to be nearly forgotten by time, if it weren’t for the colony under Australia, I would not be a dragonkin.” Dillian snorts, and after saying his piece he leaped up, dived down, and bore through the earth, I try to go after him, but Lily holds me back,
“James you're hurt, and you would not stand a chance against him in your current state!” I hate to admit it, but it’s true, I would not stand a chance against Dillian, oh man, my leg hurts, I look at my left leg and I see that it has a shard of metal sticking out of it, and then everything feels heavy, I hear Lily yell out my name, but she sounds so far away, I don’t try and fight it, I just let the darkness envelope me, at least in the dark I can’t hurt, when I wake up I’m in the medical wing ha, it’s still funny, I have a bandage around my leg and then it all rushes back to me, Crane’s lab coat, Dillian laughing, the rage, everything, replaying over and over in my mind, I immediately try and stand up and I find a lot of difficulty in that, but I manage to stumble off the bed, I avoid putting weight on my leg, and I use my wings when necessary,
‘Well it’s about time you woke up, and here I was thinking that we had wasted time and resources.” I spin around to see a lady in a suit and glasses looking at me with a look of disdain,
“Hello, I am Dr. Leanne Vern, but you can call me Leanne. I am your new head researcher, I hope you are ready for your next few tests, Dr. Crane wasted a lot of time ‘bonding’ with you.” It’s right as she finishes that sentence when I feel the urge to make it her last, I feel rage burning under my skin and I glare at her with every last ounce of anger possible,
“What.” Either she didn’t get the memo or she is just a jerk, because she did not care, but either way I continued,
“Do you think that now is a good time to either ridicule Crane, or tell me that you need to run tests on me? I am not your lab rat” I grab her collar “I am not something you just get to boss around, If you say something like that again I will send you straight to the underworld where you belong.” I shove her back and go look for Lily and Ryan, I find them in the cafeteria, I get some food and sit down across from them,
“Mind if I sit here?” It clearly lightened the mood, but not even Ryan found the humor to reply, but we started to talk turns out I had been knocked out for two weeks, when I asked about Dillian Ryan tensed up, he explained to me that Dillian goes by ‘Death Wyrm’ now, he’s spent the last two weeks tormenting the city, and eventually I brought up Leanne,
“That Dr. Leanne is a jerk though, when I got out of the medical wing she just introduced herself, told me that she would run some tests and insulted Crane.” Lily seemed to agree because she replied,
“Yeah the first day she got here she told me I was ugly, and had me escorted into the testing chamber and forced me to fly for as long as I could or else I would get shocked.” Upon hearing this I feel rage flare up inside me, I flare out my wings and fly straight towards Leanne's office,
“You threatened Lily with being shocked?! What is wrong with you?” Leanne just looked at me stone faced and told me,
“You dragonkin are nothing but freaks that look interesting, you should not be treated like humans, you are tools.” I just stand there, shocked until the dam just breaks, I roared, I grabbed her by the collar and I slash her face with a claw,
“Tools? TOOLS?! The only tool in here is you! First you insult Crane, someone who died only two weeks ago! Then I learned you threatened one of my friends with a shock if they stopped playing your sick little game!” I feel the fire rise in my throat, I open my mouth, but then I see the look in her eyes, fear, absolute, paralyzing fear, I hesitate, and think to myself, oh my god, what am I doing? I release Leanne and walk out of the room, as I’m leaving I hear Leanne bellow from behind me,
“Where do you think you’re going?” I glare back, I don’t need to answer her, but because I know she will hurt my friends if I don’t I tell her what I’m doing, I explain.
“I’m going after Dillian, don’t try to stop me.” I can tell that Leanne is angry, I can feel her eyes shooting daggers at me, she clearly disagrees with me,
“Oh no you don’t, listen to me you bloated gecko, we did not spend millions tracking you down for you to play superhero!” I just walk away from her and go to the cafeteria to tell Lily and Ryan, they of course freak out at me, saying that I should not go after Dillian, that he’d kill me, and that I should stay here, but I look at them with all of the emotion in the world, I tell them
“Look, I know that Dillian would probably kill me, but I at least might tire him out enough for the police or military to stop him, but it’s more than that, I can’t let him hurt innocent people.” Lily and Ryan look at me, Lily hugs me, and tells me,
“Don’t you dare die or I will kill you.” I look at her, And I say to Ryan,
“I hope she’s joking.” Ryan looks at me and punches my arm,
“You are a good friend man, I hope you live through this.” I look at Ryan and Lily, knowing that this might be the last time I see them, I hug them both, and I flare out my wings and I fly off.

As I sped off towards Dillian, no, Death Wyrm, he stopped being Dillian when he killed Dr. Crane, one thought was going through my mind, am I going to survive this? It doesn’t really matter, as long as Death Wyrm gets what he deserves, when I arrive in the city I look around from above first, I decide to stop by my old apartment, I remember when My dad helped me find this place before he died, it has looked weird since I had my stuff moved into my room at the Kadmus site, I decide to sit down on the floor, when all of a sudden I hear a click and a secret safe opens from the wall. Inside I find a video message to me from my dad, along with an envelope, with the words for when I’m gone written on it, I look through the envelope and I find an old Kadmus keycard for my dad, so that's what his work was, I knew he was secretive but damn, A few other papers that talk about dragons, turns out, Kadmus had been looking into the dragons for years, although these papers are odd, as if my dad had prior knowledge of the dragons. The ball drops when I play the video message it says, 

>Hello, James, if you are watching this then I’m probably dead. In the envelope that you have found alongside this message, there is also my old keycard, it will give you full access to any Kadmus site. Along with my personal notes on the Flying flame drakes, the Eastern long tails, the Wyverns, and some vague knowledge of a supposed fourth dragon species, including some vague diet, and possible weaknesses, but if you’ve already read them, then that means you have seen that the Flying flame drake notes are more definitive, that’s because I am also a dragonkin, I only inherited physical strength from our ancestors, but I have a feeling you will have more characteristics, but I am saying this because you need to know the history behind our ancestors, and the rest.<
I look at the message and wait for it to continue, until a small piece of paper slips out of the metal box that is the message, when I open it I find out that in the beginning of the dragons, there were supposedly four species, the Flying flame drakes, the Eastern long tails, the Wyverns, and the Wyrms, until the Wyrms struck out, they had felt as though due to there inability to fly, that the other dragons thought less of them, the dragons were forced to lock away the Wyrms deep beneath what would one day be called Australia, and then man arose, and along with them the first dragonkin, Tiamat, a Flying flame dragonkin, as my dad called him, but the humans lived in fear of the dragons, eventually driving them to the bleeding cut edge of extinction using their advancing technology, eventually humans all but forgot about dragons, reducing them to myth or fairy tales. That was more or less all that was written, I committed all of this knowledge to memory, and then I heard a loud boom and some maniacal Dr. Doom esc laughing, I peer out of the window to see Death Wyrm, tormenting people, I leap out of the window and into the air, getting a good angle before dive bombing Death Wyrm, breathing fire on him and slashing him with my claws,
“Hey Dillian, did you miss me?” I laugh, I tried to pull a Ryan and joke myself into feeling confident, and it kinda helped, Death Wyrm roars out in rage,
“Why didn’t you stay out of my way?” He whips his tail up, shooting spines out at me, although thanks to my practice I manage to dodge them, I decide to not make a joke and just stay quiet for now, I remember something a security guard once told me, if the enemy is in range so are you, don’t just talk, actually attack, I know that I am in range for a fireblast but Dillian doesn’t know that, I shout out,
“Those spines must really hurt, but not as much as my claws!” I suddenly make a sharp turn and get in close with my talons, I first duck beneath Death Wyrms hook, and slash at his stomach, I then dodge a spine shot, and quickly follow up and through with a tail whip, knocking him off balance, then quickly blast fire right at his feet, but I didn’t see that Death Wyrms tail had grabbed my leg before it had already thrown me two blocks away, I was getting up when I felt a Burning pain in my arm, when I looked to see, it was one of Death Wyrms spines, It had only penetrated the outermost muscle tissue, I would heal in a few weeks but that doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt like hades, I rip the spine out and breath fire on the wound in order to cauterize it, when I suddenly feel Death Wyrms tail around my throat, choking me, and I am all of a sudden pinned to a wall, with my mouth bound shut, great it’s the boot all over again, I see Death Wyrm, he’s grabbing the spine I ripped out, he walks towards me, and he gives me a small speech,
“You know James, if you weren’t so noble I’d actually have let you join me, I never wanted to kill you, but you leave me no choice.” He lifts the spike up, when all of a sudden he is blasted back seemingly by a freakishly strong gust of wind, wait, that's a thermal updraft, I turn to see the best sight I could have seen, Ryan and Lily! Ryan opens his mouth first and I couldn’t be more thankful for his humor,
“Nobody treats James like that but me!” He then flies into battle riding on a thermal, while Lily freed me, she slices through the binding on my mouth and I immediately ask,
“What are you guys doing here?” Lily opens her mouth to answer but Ryan cuts in with being thrown into a wall
“Me and Lily are saving you, idiot, speaking of which a little help here?” Me and Lilly help Ryan up and we all get ready for a fight, but before we can charge in, Lily hands me a headmic,
“Here put this on,” I do as she says and suddenly Leanne's voice buzzes in through the speaker,
“Well it’s about time,” I am just happy to have some help with knowing my surroundings,
“Whatever happened to ‘we didn’t spend millions tracking you for you to play superhero?’” If Leanne heard me she didn’t answer, I just started to run towards Death Wyrm, before I took off alongside Lily and Ryan, I felt a familiar rage build up in my veins, I allow the rage to drive me forward, I feel the heat, the fire, rushing to every vein in my body, building along with all of the rage in my life, I gather my thoughts, a raging body is good for combat but a raging mind is bad for victory, when this feeling washes over me, I finally feel calm, I feel at peace, I never want this feeling to end, I open my snout, and unleash a twisting, flowing, blooming tunnel of flames,wounding Death Wyrm and distracting him long enough for Ryan to swing in with a bladed tail to his back, followed by Lily, biting into Death wyrms tail, as Death Wyrm roars I dive in and I do something unexpected, I talk to him,
“Dillian, I thought of you as a little brother, but you killed someone I cared about, I am sorry but, we need to take you in.” Death Wyrm roars, he writhes, up until Lily’s venom takes hold and he falls to the ground, defeated, a news reporter had been, well reporting, nearby and walked up to me, and asked me for an interview,
“Under normal circumstances I would agree, but not right now.” I wave as I signal to Ryan, it takes an embarrassingly long time for him to get the hint that I want him to create a thermal under Death Wyrm in order to transport him, but he follows my lead, and before we know it, we are flying toward the Kadmus site, but as we fly, I yell behind me,
“Hey, go ahead, I’ll… I’ll catch up.” Lily looks at me while Ryan just zooms ahead, no questions asked,
“Okay what are you doing?” I just look at her, feeling conflicted about telling her about my dad, for all I know this could get me in trouble, or worse, I make a split second decision,
“I… I think I saw something.” surprisingly it works, I swoop back towards the city and back to my old apartment and I grab the message from my dad, his keycard and the papers, I then fly off with them clenched between my arms and my body, I then fly into the Kadmus site, and discreetly go to my room, in order to hide them, I then get out of the site, and fly back into it acting like nothing happened, and to my surprise, there was a celebration waiting for me, there was cake, and wine, and even a nice Irish whiskey, eventually I asked about Death Wyrm, and turns out he was placed in a secure facility, deep under the site, and that anyone with high enough clearance could go down there, I decide that that is probably for the best.
After the celebration, I go into my room, and pull out the message, I look over it, Dad was a big fan of puzzles, so maybe this message is a puzzle? After several minutes fiddling with it, the message began to whir, and it then showed a place for a fingerprint, gotcha, I placed my thumb on the finger print and it pricked me, like I was getting my blood drawn. After that a key fell out of the message box, and a keyhole on the side, I of course used the key, which then played a different message,

Hello James, and I know it's you who will be watching this, at the time of making this message I am about to help you “find” an apartment, this is one that will only play for other people if you give them access and get a blood sample, the key you used is a one of a kind, and allows you full access to pre-recorded messages, and answers for certain questions, I hope that there will come a time when you don’t need it, but, knowing you, you will probably forget what the messages say within an hour, but anyway, I hope that this helps you greatly, here is a list of topics that the message box can give you data on.< The video then becomes like an interactable encyclopedia, where I can read the list at my own pace, I skim through it before my eyes lock on one entry, Dr. Crane Williams, I open the entry and i read about Crane, turns out, he was my fathers research partner and close friend, and the two of them met in college because they had managed to win a competition that landed them tuition for any college of their choosing, and they became friends after my dad stopped somebody from messing with Crane, there was a whole lot more there about Cranes upbringing, his family, his education, but I had to cut it short when Leanne entered my room, unannounced,

“What are you doing?” She glared, in her usual condescending tone, I am not in the mood for this “Jump off a cliff.” I growl, as I tuck the message away, but she sees it, and by the look on her face she could tell what I was looking at, “Let me guess, a message you don’t want anybody seeing?” I hate her but damn it she can connect the dots well, “Was it obvious?” I don’t bother denying it, she’ll just be a jerk about it, “No, I’m just used to being lied to, who's the message from?” Leanne nods at the message box, 

“It’s from my dad, he apparently worked at Kadmus and was friends with Crane.” The fact that my dad both worked ant Kadmus and was friends with crane seem to shock her, what’s really shocking though is what she asks next,

“Was your dad by chance Shane O’Maley?” I look at her, confused, “He was, why?” Leanne immediately seems to get shell shock, as she starts to geek out, “James your father was pretty much science royalty, I would have done anything to speak to him, oh my god I insulted the dead friend of Shane O’Maley, and of his son!” I feel angry that she brought that up again, but now feels like I can get something good out of this, “Ok I’ll make you a deal, if you only do tests with me and the other dragonkin willing to do so, and make sure not to do things like threatening to shock us if we don’t do what you want, I’ll tell you stories about my dad, deal?” It was almost impressive how quickly she answered, 

“Deal! Shock threats, exhaustion tests, and anything else like that is gone!” I am really happy that I can do stuff like that. That is the best ability ever.*1
*1 WIP

I’ve been in a same-sex relationship for quite sometime. had 3 exes including the most recent and probably the most manipulative and traumatic I ever had and the last that I’ll allow.
I had a solo trip to Taiwan last November 2023 to clear my headspace and with hopes of moving on from my 2nd ex-boyfriend. I’ve been to places but that was the first time I’ve traveled alone. I rode the Cable car from Taipei zoo to Mao Kong Gandola, that’s roughly 30mins. I was joined by this cute couple (both male). I’m assuming here but they seem like from different country. I can’t hold my thought so I initiated talking to them (they strike to me as very shy). I uttered “You two look cute together”. The Caucasian looking man answered “Yeah! Thank you, I appreciate you telling us that” and we began conversing and even shared the best Night Market to try something out. We parted ways at the end of station. When it’s time to head back, I got lucky and had the cable car all by myself. That trip was a moment. My hopeless Romantic Self just kinda hit, I plead and prayed to God to accord me my partner for life and never will I take him for granted, I’ll nurture our relationship bla! Bla! Bla! Among other words of petitions.
Fast forward, Feb 1, 2024 Someone message me asking my whereabout. I stalked him and he’s nowhere near my province-Batanes (Philippines). Based on his profile, He’s currently working in Makati. So Nah! I don’t thrive in long distance relationships. A rock-hard pass for me. The next day, he messaged me and ask if I can join him to a local bar. To my surprise, he’s working here in my province since September 2023 and told me that he hasn’t updated his bio then. So yeah. Game on! let’s hit it. Thanks, Cupid! Let’s give it a try. We had good time together, met his friends and got their approval. I want to assume that they kinda like me for him. We’re on the same page (atleast that’s what I believed). Its that “rainbows, butterflies and compromise” from the song. I’m loving this feeling. I found myself believing in love again. We went out publicly, we enjoyed our shared interests- beach and snorkeling. Late bednight talks, honest intellectual discourse, movie night, and hitting off the convenience store for ‘Samyang’ noodles. One casual visit at the convenience store, I saw this familiar guy at the cashier. With face mask on, I’m thinking I’ve seen this somewhere else. And yes. It registered, He’s the reason why I’m single before meeting the person I’m with now. This b*tch stole my then boyfriend from me. Anyway, I don’t want to make a buzz about it but I’ve told my boyfriend the whole story and asked him if by any chance that guy messaged him. He said No and firmly assured me that he’s way out of his league. We sometimes go home at 1am. We just can’t stop talking about anything and everything-the things we did for love. Some find it silly but it feeds my soul being with him, it hits differently with your special someone. I’ll do it over and over again.
The butterflies are still there but the time I dread eventually happened. We’re separating for 10 days. He’s going to wedding of his cousin in Manila and I’m part of an entourage for a wedding in a nearby island (I got there by airplane). The ship we’re in began to shake us but our love is stronger than ever. Communication and trust were the foundation of our relationship. We constantly video call and I’ve never felt a sense of insecurity all throughout his vacation in Manila, Elyu and Baguio. He has my full trust and we talked about it. The days have passed and vacation was over. He returned in Batanes on Friday (wedding day that I attended) and I’m still on the other island and will head back to Batanes on Saturday. I was sad that I can’t pick him up at the airport. Good enough that he has friends who can do that on my behalf.
Friday, the day he returned to Batanes was a fine sunny day. He landed safely at 8am and he called me saying he’s gonna sleep. The wedding ceremony ended at 10:30am and for some strange.. very bothering and strange reason. I felt a chill down my spine and felt the need to call him. Idk what went on to my head but there’s this voice telling me that “Call him! Call him right now!” There this itch that needs scratching and this will only be satisfied by calling him. So I did. I called him 3 times before He answered. Strangely, He’s at the Rest room sitting in the toilet with no clothes at all. I overthink and confronted him immediately “Who’s with you? I know you have someone in there”. Ofcourse why would he reveal if there’s any. He just gaslit me and said I’m just over reacting. It doesn’t make sense. He already had his shower before dozing off at 8am, why would he take a shower 2 hours later? I mean. It doesn’t add up. He ended the call and take his clothes on and started calling me. He swiped the whole place with his phone camera reassuring me that no one was there. The heck! Ofcourse if there was someone in there, he/she probably stormed out the moment I called or atleast when he/she had the chance. Anyway, He just wanted me to go back there. I didn’t enjoyed the wedding I attended because I was preoccupied by my thoughts. I even called the airline if there’s an available flight that moment so I can rush my way back. That afternoon, I strolled and made a video recording saying “if you’re watching this, we’re probably on our first anniversary. Today is April 12, 2024 at 6:14 pm I’m at ****** We’re being challenged now and I refuse to give up on you…..” I was suppose to let him watch that video on our 1st anniversary. Sweet huh?!
Saturday, after we landed in Basco I dropped my things to our house. Took a shower and before I went to his boarding house I pass by first to the Cathedral to pray and asked for guidance then I head to his place. I gave him a bouquet of flower and we talked about it. He said he wanted to break up coz’ he’ll eventually move to other place and he knew that I don’t thrive in LDR. I refuse and I just told him we’ll make it through and we’ll cross the bridge when we get there. So yeah! We’re back on the game.
He decided to move to different apartment and someone recommended this place, we repainted it and get it all fixed. We build our dreams, we talked about how he’ll cook for me and pick me up after my shift. We’re dreaming and building our own future and even talked about going to Japan. He bought a cat adding up to the whole romantic setting. I can’t believe we’re a furdaddies.
The truth unravels
One afternoon after I pick him up from his workplace, we checked his apartment (he hasn’t move in yet). We saw the guy who once worked in the convenience store (cashier) on our way to the apartment. Strangely he smiled at my boyfriend and what’s more strange is that my boyfriend smiled back as if they knew each other. So I parked the motorcycle and we went upstair. I can’t just disregard what I just witnessed. I asked him as calm as possible if he knew that guy. He said he met him when he once hit the gym. I immediately sensed a lie here. I told him “Actually, if you quite remember we saw that guy when we are dating and you told me that you haven’t met him and you haven’t went to the gym since then or atleast while we’re together”. I never imagined myself asking him his phone but I did. He unlocked it for me and immediate searched his name on his fb messenger but no messages. I checked his instagram and Voila! It’s a floodgate of cheating messages. The worst part was that the funny and ‘kilig’ videos he sent me were also sent to that guy. Oh! And I thought I was damn special. The story doesn’t end there. Brace yourself. There’s someone who pick him up when he arrived at the airport and it wasn’t one of his tight-knitted friends. Guess who’s the guy? And yes! He’s actually at his boarding house when I “overreact”while I’m at a wedding and yes! They had sex on the same bed we slept in. The final nail to the coffin? They did it twice and I highly doubt that. They probably did it a couple of times but it doesn’t matter. I’m let karma take its toll.
I’m feeling the pain and I hope I self-soothe and bounce back from it. I confused my overthinking with my gut-feeling.

So I'm not the best modder, but I came up with a working modlist based on SME. Yesterday everything was working and now i ctd on startup everytime. Cant really read the problem in log so I was hoping that someone wiser could look at it and tell me where the problem lies. Thanks in advance
Unhandled exception "EXCEPTION_ACCESS_VIOLATION" at 0x7FF6B8988090 SkyrimSE.exe+0198090 mov rax, [rcx+0x30]
Skyrim.esm
Update.esm
Dawnguard.esm
HearthFires.esm
Dragonborn.esm
ccBGSSSE001-Fish.esm
ccQDRSSE001-SurvivalMode.esl
ccBGSSSE037-Curios.esl
ccBGSSSE025-AdvDSGS.esm
Unofficial Skyrim Special Edition Patch.esp
SimplyOptimizedScripts.esl
SimpleVampFixesSSE.esl
OCPA.esl
High Poly Head.esm
TrueHUD.esl
TES4WaitMenu.esl
MajesticMountains_Landscape.esm
TES4LockpickMenu.esl
Improved Mountain LOD and Z Fight Patch.esp
Cathedral - 3D Mountain Flowers.esp
Obsidian Mountain Fogs.esm
Lux Via - Markarth Entrance and Farm Overhaul.esp
MajesticMountains_Moss.esp
Water for ENB.esm
Lux - Master plugin.esm
AnimatedShips.esl
FlyingCrowsSSE.esp
Markarth Outskirts - Water for ENB patch.esp
SolitudeLightHouseFix.esl
Lux - Resources.esp
Lux Via.esp
EVGAnimatedTraversal.esl
SkyUI_SE.esp
Hearthfires Houses Building Fix.esp
Mortal Enemies.esp
SMIM-SE-Merged-All.esp
ICNs_ImmersiveCollegeNPCs.esp
Beards of Power.esp
UIExtensions.esp
MCMHelper.esp
Quest Journal Limit Bug Fixer.esp
Autorun.esp
CameraSwitchDuringDialogue.esp
MannequinManagement.esp
College of Winterhold Quest Start Fixes.esp
StalhrimSourceFix.esp
Stamina of Steeds.esp
SeranaEyeFix.esp
ballistacrashfix.esp
defaultCubemapFix.esp
zeroBountyHostilityFix.esp
ShoelessBanditFix.esp
Fish Plaque Retroactive Fix.esp
Guild Master's Armor First Person Texture Fix.esp
RaceMenu.esp
RaceMenuPlugin.esp
VioLens SE.esp
Attack_DXP.esp
TrueDirectionalMovement.esp
Precision.esp
ValhallaCombat.esp
Dual Wield Parrying_SKSE.esp
DynamicBlockHit.esp
scar-adxp-patch.esp
FEC.esp
MCO - First Person Patch.esp
MCO Frst Person Patch - MCO Fixes Consistency.esp
SmoothCam.esp
Deflection.esp
dD - Enhanced Blood Main.esp
Dynamic Impact - Slash Effects X.esp
MaximumCarnage.esp
LunarGuardArmor.esp
Relationship Dialogue Overhaul.esp
Immersive Weapons.esp
Nature of the Wild Lands.esp
Castle Volkihar Rebuilt.esp
COTN - Falkreath.esp
JKs Skyrim.esp
COTN - Morthal.esp
Folkvangr - Grass and Landscape Overhaul.esp
COTN - Winterhold.esp
WindhelmSSE.esp
CWE - JK - United.esp
AI Overhaul.esp
Skyrim Immersive Creatures Special Edition.esp
OreVeinTextureFix.esp
EBT - IC PATCH.esp
High Poly NPCs VHR_BOP.esp
NW_Sons_of_Skyrim.esp
RealisticNordShips2.0.esp
Lux Via - plugin.esp
Markarth Mossy AF.esp
COTN Morthal - JK's Skyrim Patch.esp
COTN Falkreath - JKs Skyrim Patch.esp
Ryn's Farms.esp
COTN Winterhold - JK's Skyrim Patch.esp
SurWR.esp
Embers XD.esp
JK's Whiterun's Outskirts.esp
OBIS SE.esp
Windhelm Exterior Altered.esp
Windhelm Exterior Altered Altered.esp
MoreBanditCamps.esp
JK's Solitude Outskirts.esp
SeranaDialogAddon.esp
Immersive Encounters.esp
Ryn's Standing Stones.esp
Ryn's Karthspire.esp
JK's Windhelm's Outskirts.esp
JK's Riften Outskirts.esp
Unmarked Locations Pack - All In One.esp
Hothtrooper44_ArmorCompilation.esp
Ryn's Dragon Mounds AIO.esp
NewArmoury.esp
moretosaycityguards.esp
Cathedral - 3D Solstheim Grass.esp
Ryn's GoldenGlow Estate.esp
Whiterun Has Walls.esp
Ryn's Western Watchtower.esp
RiftenExtension.esp
MajesticMountains.esp
Ryn's Saarthal.esp
Lux Via - More Lantern Posts.esp
CFTO.esp
Ryn's Lumber Mills.esp
Ryn's Bleakwind Basin.esp
man_DaedricShrines.esp
Riften Docks Overhaul.esp
Ryn's Halted Stream Camp.esp
Inigo.esp
shalidor's maze fixes.esp
Ryn's Crabber's Shanty.esp
Immersive Patrols II.esp
ChillwindDephts.esp
BetterArgonianHorns.esp
moretosaygeneric.esp
priestsgrantblessings.esp
Hothtrooper44_Armor_Ecksstra.esp
HighPolyInigo.esp
XPMSE.esp
ShowPlayerInMenus.esp
ReadTheRoom.esp
Disable Turn Animation.esp
EldenSkyrim.esp
KeyTraceForEldenRim.esp
RimImpactOfMob.esp
RimImpactOfPlayer.esp
SkyHUD.esp
QuickLootEE.esp
BetterThirdPersonSelection.esp
Louder Nature - Birds and Insects.esp
DiverseDragonsCollectionSE.esp
aMidianBorn_Book of Silence.esp
water mod.esp
Cathedral - Water.esp
SRP Additional Landscape Parallax.esp
Azurite Weathers.esp
GDOS - Splendid Mechanized Dwemer Door.esp
JS Rumpled Rugs SE.esp
DeadlySpellImpacts.esp
PSI.esp
Embers XD - Fire Magick Add-On.esp
Particle Patch for ENB.esp
FNIS.esp
Water for ENB - Patch - Cabbage ENB.esp
ENB Light.esp
IcePenguinWorldMap.esp
Bandit Lines Expansion.esp
Civil War Lines Expansion.esp
Vampire Lines Expansion.esp
Forsworn and Thalmor Lines Expansion.esp
Markarth Mossy AF - Custom Moss adjustements.esp
Lux Via - Blended Roads Bridges Texture sets.esp
guardencounters.esp
RourkenArmor.esp
RedBag's Dragonsreach.esp
Unique Uniques.esp
RTDocks - High Poly Head.esp
Unique Towns.esp
Unique NVFH - Snowy Regions.esp
WeldingMans Enchanting Tables - BOS.esp
SkyClimb.esp
LORKHAN - UI Sound Effects.esp
_Fuse00_ArmorGorm.esp
AHZBetterDGEntranceSE.esp
fortdawnguardimmersive.esp
FabulousFollowersAIO.esp
Dawnguard Sentries SE.esp
DawnguardArsenal.esp
Ryn's Robber's Gorge.esp
blubbos_trees_in_solitude.esp
COTN Falkreath - Nature of the Wildlands patch.esp
RTDocks - Ryn's Farms.esp
Ryn's Bleakwind Basin _USSEP_Patch.esp
ValtheimKeepRecovered.esp
moretodo.esp
Ryn's Lund's Hut.esp
Ryn's Alchemists Shack.esp
Sky City.esp
Whiterun Has Walls - City Exterior.esp
Quick Start - SE.esp
RiftenExtensionDockOverhaulPatch.esp
Markarth Entrance Overhaul.esp
Unmarked Locations Pack AIO - Ryn's Dragon Mounds Patch.esp
moretosayfalkreath.esp
Ryn's Anise's Cabin.esp
Ryn's Bleakfalls Tower.esp
Blubbos_Markarth_2022.esp
Markarth Farm - Markarth Entrance Fixed Patch.esp
mihailundeadsnowelf.esp
Nature of the Wild Lands - JKs Skyrim.esp
mihailsnowwhales.esp
Markarth Outskirts - Natural Waterfalls patch.esp
Grass in Riften.esp
Missives.esp
Skyfall Sleeping Tree Overhaul.esp
mihailstormgolem.esp
Markarth Entrance and Farm Overhaul - Via patch.esp
BleakFallsReCovered.esp
moretosayrorikstead.esp
Embers XD - Patch - Lux Via.esp
Lux Via - Markarth Entrance and Farm Overhaul CFTO patch.esp
Rock Traps Trigger Fixes.esp
KeywordsFixed.esp
Blubbos Markarth 2022 - Markarth Outskirts Patch.esp
RYFTEN - Defenses North East Corner.esp
RYFTEN - BBM Epic Balcony.esp
RTDocks - SMIM.esp
COTN Morthal - Nature of the Wildlands patch.esp
moretosaywhiterun.esp
moretosayriverwood.esp
RYFTEN - Back Door Canal North.esp
RYFTEN - Defenses Canal West Side South.esp
Fish Market Rustic.esp
moretosayshorsstone.esp
RYFTEN - Defenses Canal West Side North.esp
RYFTEN - Defenses North West Corner.esp
mihailmmasithis.esp
AnthorDragonFix.esp
BeastHHBB.esp
moretosaykarthwasten.esp
moretosayriften.esp
moretosaywinterhold.esp
mtsfollowerbanter.esp
secretofrorikstead.esp
FabFollowers_DawnguardArsenal_ImmFtDG_Patch.esp
FabFollowers_ImmFtDG_Patch.esp
FabFollowers_DawnguardArsenal_Patch.esp
Markarth Entrance and Farm Overhaul - USSEP patch.esp
RYFTEN - Back Door Canal South.esp
RYFTEN - Back Door East.esp
RYFTEN - Back Door South East.esp
RYFTEN - Defenses South East Keep.esp
RYFTEN - Defenses West Side.esp
RTDocks - Animated Ships.esp
dunPOISoldiersRaidOnStartTweak.esp
CFTO-CoveredCarriages.esp
Spaghetti's Cities - Solitude.esp
GDOS - Glorious Solitude Door - Rotation Fix.esp
Blubbos_NewWhiterun_2022.esp
Proving Honor Companions Quest Progression Fix.esp
Markarth Mossy AF - JK's Skyrim and NotWL patch.esp
Blubbos Markarth 2022 - JK's Skyrim Patch.esp
Spaghetti's Cities - Markarth.esp
Blubbos Markarth 2022 - Markarth Entrance Overhaul Fixed Patch.esp
Spaghetti's Cities - Riften.esp
RYFTEN - Defenses East Side.esp
RYFTEN - Exposed Beam.esp
RYFTEN - Roof Tile.esp
RYFTEN - Defenses East Side x JKs Skyrim PATCH.esp
RTDocks - CFTO.esp
RYFTEN - Bee and Barb Ship.esp
RYFTEN - Birdhouse.esp
RYFTEN - Defenses South West Keep.esp
RYFTEN - Pathway.esp
RYFTEN - Pathway x JKs Skyrim PATCH.esp
RYFTEN - Defenses Canal North x JKs Skyrim PATCH.esp
RYFTEN - Canal Water Pipe.esp
Skyfall Sleeping Tree Overhaul - Embers XD Patch.esp
ULP AIO - Sheogorath Statue Addon.esp
VolumeticMists.esp
DVLaSS Skyrim Underside.esp
RYFTEN - Back Keep Hole Fix.esp
NordicCarvingDragonArch.esp
Unmarked Locations Pack AIO - DK's Realistic Nord Ships Patch.esp
VolumeticMistsSolstheim.esp
ULP AIO - Argonian Skull Addon Standalone.esp
ULP AIO - Hircine Statue Addon.esp
ORI - HarkonSword.esp
SoulCairnRuins.esp
mihailmourningsouls.esp
Nature of the Wild Lands - Autumn Birches.esp
Alternate Start - Live Another Life.esp
Nature of the Wild Lands - Alternate start.esp
Lux.esp
Lux - USSEP patch.esp
Lux - Riften Docks Overhaul patch.esp
Water for ENB (Shades of Skyrim).esp
Markarth Outskirts - Water for ENB (Shades of Skyrim) patch.esp
Modern Brawl Bug Fix.esp

background of who we are: I (23 F) have been dating my bf (23 M) for 3 years now. This is our first serious relationship (for both of us), who are both inexperienced for our age. We met in college and have been dating postgrad for almost 1 year. During our first two years, we were always together in dorms so we basically lived together. Postgrad we still live close enough, so we see each other often. Because our parents live far from us, we spend a lot of time and we feel like we are family to each other.
The issue is that the relationship has been quite toxic despite all the lovey-dovey good times, yet we are unable to let each other go.
I was emotionally abusing him: The reason why this relationship has gotten toxic was partly because of me, and I grieve about it. I had a lot of issues navigating through the relationship these past 3 years, as I did not come into this first relationship with the right idea about healthy boundary and self-control. I am severely anxiously attached, causing me to do things that categorize as mental abuse. He is rather avoidant (but originally more on the secure side) to begin with than I am, so I could imagine how hard it was for him to deal with my actions. I did not give him the right space he needed, told him what I wanted him to do, and suffered from terrible mental instability as well as lack of emotional control during arguments an as the result "burst" all the time. Very recently, after 3 years, I finally became mature enough to realize what I had been doing things wrong, and that this is not what a healthy relationship should look like.
he created triggers in me: Ironically, the first two years of relationship was what exacerbated my anxious attachment. We started relationship at the wrong time (when it shouldn't have started), and as the result I lacked trust in him and developed a severe lack of self-esteem back then. He repeated behaviors that made me lose self-esteem even more a few times over the span of 2 years, but I chose to stay (which I shouldn't have because I did not have maturity to be emotionally responsible with my decision). He was also not a type of boyfriend to be able to do the "boyfriend" stuff (buy flowers sometime, buy chocolate etc) in the beginning. I do not want to say that all boyfriends should do that, but what became a trigger for me was the fact that I had to beg and cry to him to get him buy a flower for me on our first Valentine's Day. Now that he has learned, he is the sweetest boyfriend everyone admires, but the beginning of our relationship stayed in my heart that I became overly reactive to his lack of "proactiveness" and emotionally abused him for that as the result.
issue: I see a clear negative loop between me and him since the beginning of the relationship. The past one year, I wish I could have done things differently because I feel like my lack of emotional control (sometimes due to the trigger, but mostly my own issue) was unhealthy for him. Of course, we love each other so much (used to be enough reasons why we both stayed despite all the fact above), he has done so much for me to show me his love and gain my trust, and it feels amazing when we are just hugging things out for a moment.
We had another argument last month, that ended up terrible because of my lack of emotional control. Every time we argue intensely, he dumps all of his stress about this relationship that he tells me he cannot be himself with me (which make me think was your words and action not genuine.?) and then give me silent treatment. I am aware that this relationship is not going well anymore (or maybe it never was). As much as I understand where he is coming from, it is also very difficult to accept the reality especially since we are very lovey-dovey when we are not fighting.
Due to a circumstance (unrelated to relationship), we cannot talk much for the next 3 weeks. He might decide to break up with me finally this time after 3 weeks. However, based on our past, it might not be the case (we are both not brave enough to let it go). We surely loved each other (that's why we stayed this long), but we hurt each other so much as well. Especially this past one year, I was the one who hurt him more (and as the result he would burst with emotions and give me silent treatment, so it hurts me as well).
Now that I recently became aware of my own issues (and I am really really trying to mature), if I were to move on and start a new relationship I fell ready to choose and build a healthy one. But a part of me still strongly dreams about talking things out and continue working on it with him if he also wants to.
What should I do? I would really appreciate any advice or stories about you if you had gone through similar situations in the past.

Haven’t had a flare in 5 years was hoping for more time….
The stabbing pain started a month ago, chalked it up to stress….it only got worse. Tried to tough it out as usual but it’s bad right now.
GI put me on the devil of all meds prednisone. 17 day taper did absolutely nothing. The pain just got worse. 30 more days on 40mg and I’m devastated.
If I eat it hurts if I don’t it hurts, I’m so ravenous I’m eating everything. My skin feels sharp, I’m sweaty, burning in the sunlight, migraines, exhaustion physically but my brain won’t shut up. My arms feel weird, I’m so shaky people keep asking if I’m ok, I’m so moody. No sleep.
How am I going to do 27 more days? How do people mange the side effects? Tips and tricks welcomed.

I was in the hospital last weekend (Memorial Day) and had a pigtail tube inserted in my left lung.
I am about a week out of the hospital and started to experience some discomfort in my back on the left side which feels like a knot. However the pneumothorax I just experienced is like Deja vu again (knot feeling in my lat) mixed with a bubbling/pop rock sensation in my chest.
I have an incentive spirometer that they gave me at the hospital and I have no trouble breathing to the max (4000 mL). Since I am able to breathe deeply with no pain I do not know what to think. Right now as I’m writing this I have NO shortness of breath NO chest pain or NO popping sensation.
Has anyone else experienced this or is it just my anxiety?

Introduction: Welcome to our tutorial on the DATS Project platform! Whether you’re a seasoned data scientist or just starting, DATS Project offers a comprehensive suite of tools and resources to enhance your data science projects. In this tutorial, we’ll walk you through the key features and how to use them effectively.

Step 1: Signing Up and Logging In

1. Visit the Website: Go to DATS Project.
2. Sign Up:
   • Click on the "Sign Up" button at the top right corner.
   • Fill in your details: name, email, and create a password.
   • Verify your email by clicking the link sent to your inbox.
3. Log In:
   • Enter your email and password, then click "Log In".

Step 2: Exploring the Dashboard

1. Overview:
   • After logging in, you’ll be directed to your dashboard.
   • Here, you can see an overview of your projects, recent activity, and notifications.
2. Navigation Menu:
   • On the left side, you’ll find the navigation menu with sections such as Projects, Datasets, Models, Collaborations, and Settings.

Step 3: Creating a New Project

1. Start a Project:
   • Click on the "Projects" section in the navigation menu.
   • Click the "New Project" button.
2. Project Details:
   • Enter your project name and a brief description.
   • Choose the data privacy settings (public or private).
3. Save and Proceed:
   • Click "Create Project" to save.

Step 4: Uploading and Managing Datasets

1. Add a Dataset:
   • Navigate to the "Datasets" section.
   • Click "Upload Dataset".
   • Select your file(s) from your computer and upload.
2. Dataset Management:
   • After uploading, you can view the dataset details.
   • Use built-in tools to clean and preprocess your data directly on the platform.

Step 5: Building and Training Models

1. Accessing Models:
   • Go to the "Models" section in your project.
   • Click "New Model" to start building.
2. Model Configuration:
   • Choose from a variety of algorithms (e.g., regression, classification).
   • Configure the model parameters as needed.
3. Training the Model:
   • Select your dataset for training.
   • Click "Train Model" and monitor the progress.

Step 6: Analyzing Results

1. View Results:
   • Once the model training is complete, view the results in the "Results" tab.
   • Analyze the performance metrics such as accuracy, precision, recall, and more.
2. Visualization:
   • Use the built-in visualization tools to create charts and graphs of your data and model results.

Step 7: Collaborating with Team Members

1. Add Collaborators:
   • In your project settings, go to the "Collaborations" tab.
   • Enter the email addresses of your team members to invite them.
2. Set Permissions:
   • Assign roles and permissions (e.g., view-only, editor).
3. Collaborative Work:
   • Team members can now contribute to the project, share insights, and work together in real-time.

Step 8: Exporting and Sharing Results

1. Export Data:
   • Export your datasets, models, and results in various formats (CSV, JSON, etc.).
2. Share Reports:
   • Generate comprehensive reports and share them with stakeholders or on social media.

Conclusion:

Congratulations! You’ve now learned the basics of using the DATS Project platform. With its powerful tools for managing datasets, building models, and collaborating with your team, you’re well on your way to advancing your data science projects. Don’t forget to explore more features and maximize the potential of DATS Project!
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I just wanted to put this out there because I know some people have probably been experiencing some irregularities with the new Firmware - I have had my GT for about a month and never had any problems until just recently after the update - Be extremely careful coming near that top end, I went 19.1mph and without warning or pushback the board just dropped into the pavement and threw me off right onto my side and my head - I cracked my helmet and scraped some skin off on the pavement - but I walked away very lucky, so I hope all of you will stay safe out there and be careful when pushing your boards into those higher speeds especially with this new update with torque headroom (not duty cycle🤦‍♂️) I wasn’t trying to push through anything or go super fast in this situation I just leaned a little bit more to the side to pick up a little more speed gradually and it just straight dropped. Absolutely 0 warning - today I got back on it and my last top speed wasn’t registering at all after my first ride to work in the morning - it was just stuck on the 19.1 mph from the night before like a painful reminder - I had to shut off the board when I got back home and restart the app to get it to start recording my last top again - be careful out there.

FTM had my baby boy at 39 weeks and 6 days! The first sign was period like cramps throughout the night. Woke up and felt super constipated. It wasn’t super obvious that I was feeling contractions and not constipation at first. Took me about an hour to realize it was labor as the contractions got worse. Went into labor around 730 am and had him at 11pm the same day. No epidural but used the nitrous oxide. The contractions were painful but honestly more uncomfortable than anything. It is so hard to find a position to get through them easily but for me, the nitrous oxide REALLY helped and I didn’t feel I needed an epidural at all.
I had my husband and mom with me and we hung out in the hospital room from 10am until delivery was over. The day surprisingly went by SO FAST. It was nice to be able to get up and move around freely and we ordered room service a few times and it was actually pretty good! All the nurses were amazing and so super friendly.
Okay but here’s the thing - the pushing. My labor is broken up into two parts in my head- the contractions and then the PUSHING. In hindsight, I realize I was completely unprepared for what I was about to go through. I pushed for two hours, which apparently isn’t even that long for a first time mom. And let me tell you - I did not expect it to hurt as much as it did. I gave birth four days ago and I’m still in shock at the experience. I know everyone says how painful it is….but that was something else. If you are a FTM planning to do no epidural, spend some time preparing your pain tolerance however you can. I wish I had squeezed more ice cubes or done whatever other things the internet says will help. It was such a crazy experience there were points I thought I really truly couldn’t do it (obviously at that point you have no choice 😂) but I really felt like I was going to pass out from the pain. I can’t put into words what I was feeling to give it justice. Just try to prepare yourself. My mother, who has had three kids with epidurals, told me she couldn’t feel any of the things I was describing. And those things were the most painful parts. I don’t say this to encourage people to get an epidural - I say it so you can be more prepared than me. I feel like I was blind sided even though everyone says how painful it is.
Something else I wasn’t prepared for - the blood. It is a lot. Today I stood up from the toilet and a blood clot the size of a baseball fell out of me. (I called my OB, not of concern due to no bleeding following). They say clots the size of a ping pong ball or smaller are to be expected. It’s crazy. They just fall right out. I’m filling adult diapers with more blood than I expected and my vagina is currently unrecognizable. At the hospital they constantly checked my uterus by pressing down and clots of blood just flew out. Something no one ever told me beforehand.
That all being said - I would do it again in a heartbeat. I type this out as my beautiful baby is skin to skin with me sleeping on my chest. Child birth was an amazing experience even if parts of it were extremely difficult. The most difficult thing I have done in my life. The recovery is more than I anticipated, and I am so grateful to have my husband helping. It really is amazing what our bodies are capable of.
Our baby is happy and healthy now, but we did have some unexpected hiccups along the way. Our second night at the hospital was not easy and I thank God my baby is okay. There is some trauma I am still processing as a newly postpartum mom and I look back on my experience in awe that this happens every day thousands of times a day. Women have their own birth stories of challenges and feats along the way that they live with forever, and it is just seen as something so normal or ordinary for a woman to do. I have found such a new respect for all moms out there. This has been a crazy experience already and I am just in shock trying to process at how much love I feel for this tiny human I brought into the world. So surreal. Being a mom really is the best feeling I’ve ever had.

MANILA, Philippines — DITO CME Holdings Corp. intends to raise about P4.2 billion from a proposed follow-on offering, proceeds from which will fund the expansion of its telecommunication business at a time when demand for connectivity is rising due to accelerated digitalization.
In a disclosure on Friday, the parent company of DITO Telecommunity (DITO Tel) said its board of directors had approved the share sale of up to 10 percent of current issued and outstanding capital stocks—or 1.95 billion common shares—for P2.15 apiece.
In a separate disclosure, DITO CME said the target date for filing and submission of the proposed offering to the regulators is until Jun. 7.
The final offer price and prospectus are set to be out by Aug. 15.
The settlement date and listing are scheduled for Sept. 3.
The proposed offering was announced after DITO last year sold 5.5 billion common shares for P1 each to Singapore-based third-party investors.
Before this, DITO CME was supposed to complete an P8-billion stock rights offering in 2022 but decided to drop it due to weak demand from large investors. As a result, the company refunded the subscription payments already made by the investors.
Luis Limlingan, head of sales at Regina Capital Development Corp., said in an interview with the Inquirer said he cannot comment on whether the aborted deal would taint investor appetite for the upcoming follow-on offering but noted that “investors are very opportunistic so they will definitely look into any possible upside potential.”

Construction-related payables

On the debt side, DITO CME secured last year a 15-year loan agreement with several creditors amounting to $3.9 billion or about P224.48 billion in total.
Before this, DITO CME was supposed to complete an P8-billion stock rights offering in 2022 but decided to drop it due to weak demand from large investors. As a result, the company refunded the subscription payments already made by the investors.
Luis Limlingan, head of sales at Regina Capital Development Corp., said in an interview with the Inquirer said he cannot comment on whether the aborted deal would taint investor appetite for the upcoming follow-on offering but noted that “investors are very opportunistic so they will definitely look into any possible upside potential.”

Construction-related payables

On the debt side, DITO CME secured last year a 15-year loan agreement with several creditors amounting to $3.9 billion or about P224.48 billion in total.
The company drew P170.61 billion from the loan facilities last year to repay obligations and network construction-related payables.
DITO Tel earmarked P27 billion in capital expenditures for this year to reach geographically isolated and disadvantaged areas where there is a lack of internet connectivity.
Mobile data is the company’s main revenue contributor, showing increasing demand for internet connection. The revenue for this segment surged by 39 percent to P2.55 billion in the first quarter from P1.84 billion a year ago.
However, net losses jumped to P4.11 billion for the period from just P336.67 million the previous year because of higher costs and foreign currency exchange losses.
The telco passed its fourth technical audit last year—its commitment to the government after securing the franchise to operate in 2019.
The review showed that it had minimum average broadband speeds of 74.97Mbps (megabits per second) for 4G and 639.32Mbps for 5G—beyond the minimum 55Mbps requirement.
source: inquirer

I have no idea what to do with my life right now. They left. It was NC for about a month till they broke it and texted me about being in pain and needing help. I was not sure about it as they could be lying so I replied distancely. But I was not available to them during their time of need so I got called a lot of bad names. I have no idea what type of relationship we have, whether platonic or romantic because the feeling is so confusing. I am diagnosed with depression, and anxiety and was lonely as fuck when we met. It was like someone finally gets me and we vibe together. But then the argument started and this never-ending cycle of fighting, making up, and splitting. I think this last one was a huge splitting. They refuse to go back to therapy to get help. I want to leave because I keep getting hurt but I am a bit afraid that I will never find someone else. They are my only friend that I talk to apart from my family. And I feel like we can help each other and leaving seems so mean cause everyone else always leaves. They have no one else.
They are really good for my mental health according to my therapist since they act as a social contact for me so I talk to some people. But she also pointed out how BPD can affect the relationship with the name calling and one-sided point of view and the constant "you will leave, no one cares about me, I am all alone" texts.
I need advice or something.

I (15F) and my Older sister Eli (22F) have gotten along for most of my childhood, I remember her as my hero and Shield for helping me and my younger sister Luz (12F) to not get grounded. But over the past few years I can see how she changed as a person, for context, I was her first course of help and advise before my parents because I was well known for knowing more than a 30 year old person, I was the first one to know when she decided to get married at the age of 18 with her now ex Vincent (21M). I was her Bridesmaids and the one that helped her thought the whole thing, like choices of dresses and Make-up, as well as Hair, basically her right hand.
Not long after the marriage Vincent came to my parents house, asking if we've seen her wife, apparently, they got into a fight over some texts on Eli's phone during a party, Vincent was mad, as he had a right to be, his mother was on his side as my mom and dad called Eli with no response. This happened one day before my 13th birthday, I was upset as to why she had runned away and not told me anything as she did always. The next day Eli came to my parents house for some clothes, she looked miserable, she told my dad she was staying over her Grandparents (me and her are only related thanks to my father), my father got mad at her, and she cried in me and now Luz' room for at least an hour, I said nothing because my father told me to.
For months we lost contact with her, and we didn't knew were or with who she was. Until she actually reached out to us, se tried to fix her relationship with Us over gifts, visits and even calls, my mom and dad Helped Eli thought the whole divorce process, everything was okay until we lost contact with her once again. My mom was pissed but said nothing, as well as my dad. Some months later we come to contact again, she told us she had some problems with her partner (who I just had the chance to meet like five times), but everything was okay now. Until her partner died from Blood cancer, she was devastated and she slept with us for a few days, during those few days I stayed up all night to watch over her (me and my sisters slept in the same room and bed), as she talked and moved during her sleep, I bought a night lamp so she could fell secure as she was now scared of darkness, and my mother noticed, she thanked me for taking care of Eli and Luz during sleep.
Our relationship grew, until she found another partner, and left her old MIL's house. Her partner was really chill, overall a great guy, but I never got to meet him fully. They broke up at least 2 times and got back before actually breaking up because the guy cheated. Not a month latter Eli got another partner, During that time as she lived in my parents house, she got into a Fight/Chat with my mom, I was present to whole thing where she claimed she had Depression, anxiety and other problems I can't recall, she never actually went to therapy so she was self diagnosing herself (I hate when people do that). During the fight she claimed that no one cares about her and she had to endure everything alone basically forgetting how I stayed up at night watching over her, helping her to distract herself on other stuff, taking her side at most fights etcetera. I told her "You have a family who cares about you, if you can't see that, is your problem because you're so selfish and Mentally unstable" She looked at me with shocked eyes as I was always a person to keep silent during fights, she told me to not get into the fight as it wasn't none of my business, I told her to suck it up because it was the truth and I went to sleep.
She became distant of me and I didn't mind, I had my friends to distract myself from my family problems. She had at least 2 or 3 other relationships after the during fight guy. She got with a guy who I don't like in any way a few months ago, she now lives with him. She had at least fought with him over 5 times, everytime she "Broke up" with him she would go with me and my mom, Telling us how she will not come back with him because of how he and his mother treats her, at one point my mom got mad, and my dad had to give Eli a long talk as he always did when something wrong happened.
1 month ago my dad died from a heart attack and blood cancer related. I was the one to maintain my composure for more long, i basically helped the rest of my family during the whole funeral, watching over my sister and mother when they slept. Eli cried, saying how she didn't said she loved my dad enough, or that she had a lot to things to apologize for, she hugged the box for the longest as my mother cried uncontrollably, mainly my two sisters and mom cried in my shoulders and chest as I only let some tears go.
We became more closer with my sister, only two days later Eli told us that her MIL told her to suck up her pain as my dad was already dead and another stuff (she sent us an audio of her MIL saying this). I obviously got mad and I told her to tell her MIL to f off.
In the 9th day of my dad's passing (as my dad's family is very religious) they made a praying, I didn't felt good and Eli took me outside, I talked to her and I cried so hard on her shoulder, my eyes where swollen and I could barely Oppen them. She told me that I could rely on her anytime I wanted, going to the beach, for a walk, anytime I wished. Everything went well until her birthday a few weeks ago. We visited and cleaned my dads grave, she told us how her partner called her all sorts of hurtful names because the guy saw her with another dude on a bike (her best friends boyfriend), she told us how her MIL called her name's and made her the bay guy, Bethen other things. She told us she was not going to get back with him, two days latter she went out with her friend, she didn't came Back until 9am the next day, apparently she went back with her "ex" over some cute words he told her, and that was it. Shes now on a business trip, she's posting stuff with her boyfriend and cute stuff that I now find disgusting realising how toxic that couple is.
I realised that Eli can't be without a man, I don't know what to do or what to tell her so she could realize that he's not the one as she said in her WhatsApp status. I can't let her live like this, i really care about her, i suggested therapy but she brushed it off, my mother told me to let her go, but I don't want Eli to end in the streets, or something to happen to her. She's my sister and I care about her, but anytime I want to talk to her privately my mother tells me to not do it and that is not worth it.
So, AITAH for wanting to slap some common sense into my sister?