I struggle with gaining weight because I feel full supperrrr fast, any ways around this?

I mean the girls who are still mean well into their program or career. The ones that are adult in their 20s, not when they were a minor. Some of them think they are justified, and some don’t have any self awareness about how nasty they are. The ones that contradicts what they preach. Many times it’s directed at their friends, classmates, or even family members.
Don’t get me wrong, I am aware that I was an professional internet troll as a teen and mean in an “aCtuAllY☝🏻🤓” type of way. I want to go into nursing in a way to “atone for my sins”, and also for the money. I recognize my primary motivation isn’t to help, but I am aware of my past actions and actively try to be a better person irl.
What I meant are girls who say they want to help people but instead hurts others. Just, why? Why say they want to help and protect the vulnerable people, but enjoying hurting others outside of school/work?
I met so many of them that didn’t grow out of that phase. I don’t understand.

Hello,
I suffer from very severe OCD and my psychiatrist can't answer this particular question.
My most disabling OCD subtype is perfectionism.
I'm a student waiting for my exam results, and I'm going to have long months with no particular obligations.
I would also like to point out that I also suffer from a very high level of social anxiety, which was exacerbated by my previous job (a very dangerous one where my safety was not guaranteed and where my colleagues were for the most part obnoxious to me. The workplace was notorious for being atrocious and dangerous to workers' lives). The job detail is important because I'd like to work but I feel like throwing up and crying just thinking about it, even if it's a small job with no connection to my old profession.
My question is this: How do I know what to do in a day?
I'm very depressed, so I have to force myself to do things, so I don't spend my day in bed. But I don't know how. Since I like absolutely NOTHING, all my little activities at home, like watching a series, are an effort for me.
And I don't know what to do: should I write? should I force myself to exercise? Should I draw? Should I learn to code? Should I read? Should I read?
If I don't force myself to do this, I don't do anything, but the way I want to do these things is very clearly a compulsion ( because everything is rigid in the process of executing simple actions) .
I don't know how to organize myself without it turning into total OCD.
How do people know how/when to exercise? When does forcing yourself feel like a compulsion or a real need to overcome depression? How do you know how/when to go out? Why choose one activity over another?
I feel like a prisoner getting out after 20 years who doesn't know how to live with her free will. I don't know what to do when I don't listen to my compulsions.

TLDR : How can I choose what to do by myself, like a normal person, without listening to my obsessions and compulsions, when I MUST force myself to do a minimum of things so that I don't lie motionless in bed all day?

Affirmations are positive statements that activate your mind to change your life, one thought at a time. They support you in making the improvements you have chosen to make.
Affirmations work because the words of our inner dialogue have power: the power to instruct / direct our deeper selves. Their impacts can operate over wide time-scales, from immediate behavioural changes to the strategic development of our identity.
It is very easy to get them wrong - at best these will be harmless bit, in all likelihood, they will be counterproductive. It is also easy to get them right - follow the guidelines below and you'll be off to a flying start.
I encourage almost all of my clients to craft their own affirmations and use them regularly.
As with anything new, there will be a learning process as you find your own way to get the most effective results for you. The good news is that affirmations can be used anytime, anywhere – in or out of trance. A strategy of ‘a little and often’ will serve you best. They can be highly effective as you drift off to sleep.
Observe your responses to your affirmation. From time to time, you may become aware of a little inner voice countering the affirmation. Pay careful attention if this happens. It is quite likely that the affirmation is triggering a limiting belief. Use this as an indication to explore your values, beliefs and limiting beliefs to identify, explore and resolve the underlying issue, then develop the affirmation based on your new insight.
How to construct your own affirmations
When crafting the affirmations for your self-hypnosis sessions, follow these rules:
• Use your own, natural, language and imagery.
• Make them personal to you.
• Summarise them in a few words: 10-20 is ideal.
• Stick to one straight forward idea.
• State them in the present tense.
• Start where you are now and move yourself forward.
• State them positively – from where you are now to where you choose to be.
• Presuppose the positive change.
• Make them semantically packed.
• You may choose to write your affirmation a few times before using them.
• Affirmations are ideal for frequent, short, self-hypnosis sessions.
• Make sure each affirmation is true – untrue affirmations are counter-productive.

I think I may have deciphered what is going to happen in the post launch content for Dogma 2.
There are many places on the map that have this dark rock often close to water surfaces. Not only that but this rock sounds hollow. Initially I thought this was a bug but now that I really think about it that wouldn't make any sense since that would had been patched by now.
Furthermore I have already tackled the fact of the eartquake in a few of my videos. Now Pawns mention how on Volcanic Island they can feel the ground shaking.
I tried to look up what (Extrusive) Igneous Rock sounds like but I could not for the life of me find a sample. What else I found that is very interesting is that when Igneous rock cools down very quickly is when it forms exactly in the way that we see when we reach under the sea surface level in the Unmoored World.
So what I assume is that post the events of the Unmoored World the Volcano will erupt and shortly after that the Sea poars back down from the sky creating Igneous rock around the entire landscape.
This is the earthquake and the ground falling away that both the Dragon and loading screens refer to. Nothing else makes sense and it would explain exactly how many previous civilisations have come to ruin the way they did.
What else is pretty funny is that with this in mind they could do a Trailer for the Expansion doing exactly what they did for MH Rise where no one knows exactly what they are looking at until music or specifc series known monsters or things show up.

I got into a casual relationship about 3 years ago. We got close but I never really opened up. I kept dating and sleeping with other people but I told her I wasn't.
She has feelings for me and asked to advance if interested but I said no. But her friend saw me on the dating site with the looking for a serious relationship mentioned. She waited a few weeks and went on the site and I got pissed. She didn't stay because she had feelings and said she had to get over me. At one point we didn't contact each other for over a month. I wanted to see if she cared. She said she thought I was in a relationship at that point.
So I kept her hooked. But I stopped the amount of texting. I didn't stay after sex, i got up and left.
She asked about it multiple times. I said there is nothing wrong, nothing changed. She said it did and she didn't want to be a placeholder. So she started pulling away.
I would text every couple weeks and not say much. Why I don't know. She would respond.
I don't know if this was purposely but she asked me to come over on a Friday night a few weeks ago. I said I had my daughter and couldnt but I would try. I had plans with friends really.
I guess one of the people I'm friends with knows her and knows what's happening and told her I was there. I guess she was asked to go and declined.
She left me a message that she was hurt because I lied to her. I told her it was a last minute change of plans.
I guess the friend told her I had committed awhile ago but she didn't call me on that lie. She told me that I should have left her alone when she started pulling away and said the change toward her hurt.
I said we want to different things and I told her that. She said that i never asked her what she wanted and that if we wanted 2 different things why did I keep calling her when she said she had feelings for me and it hurt when I kept pushing away.and why did I ask about more at one point. Amd why did i.say i didnt do relationships but had looking for a serious one? I did hint at more once.
My buddy said I lied unnecessarily. I could have said I had plans as she's never cared about me and plans or asked questions or done anything obsessive. And that me saying I'll try kept her home because I didn't want her out. That I don't want her moving forward and I know she has feelings and I like it. (He's a therapist as a career).
I call bullshit. I owe her nothing. She told me that she wanted to try more with me and I said no. But my profile says looking for a relationship so she was trying to bow out. I told her I wasn't looking for a relationship and I wasn't on the site. I am on the site though so idk why I Saif that.
I apologized but that's all I've done. I told her walk away from what we have if she needs.
At one point she attacked me for my past. I had an active past including a few divorces which i never told her about. She said she didn't care at all about my past and she found out because someone who knew me told her when we first started talking. She said that it explained why I could be acting the way I was and could be deeply hurt so could I please understand she didn't want to be hurt anymore? She said the lie hurt because she thought we had respect for each other at the minimum and this shows I didn't respect her.
She threw it in my face.
I don't feel I've done anything wrong. I did see her in public with her friend so she's out. She can't be that hurt. I haven't said I'm done and I haven't contacted her. My last words to her were talk soon.
Does this sound like manipulation or avoidance?

So I've recently been playing through Donkey Kong 64 for the first time and have arrived at the infamous fourth level, Gloomy Galleon.
I have collected everything in the stage but one of Chunky's golden bananas and 25 of his colored bananas. I have deduced that all of these are located within the ship that can be spawned by activating the lighthouse with Donkey Kong.
I activated the lighthouse and saw the ship appear but I decided to explore it another day. Here is where the problem lies, when I went to the area around the lighthouse, it was not there anymore. The lighthouse was still active. I tried loading different zones, restarting the game, but nothing seemed to get the ship to appear.
So I ask if any of you have heard or experienced this issue before, and if it's somehow fixable. It would be really unfortunate if I got locked out of 100% the game because of this.

I am grateful to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva for offering me this precious opportunity to share my experience of practising Buddhism with you.
I am 62 years old. Today, I can eat, sleep and walk like a normal person. However, did you know that I once was a paralyzed woman who could not even get up from bed, had difficulty turning over, and could not take care of myself? Through practising Buddhism and reciting Buddhist scriptures, I have completely freed myself from the misery of hell. I want to tell you with hard facts that practising Buddhism and reciting the scriptures has not only given me a second life, but has also benefited me immensely. I want to share with you how I transformed myself from paralysis to health within four years without undergoing any surgery! May my presentation plant the seeds of bodhi in your hearts, so that more people will have faith in Guan Yin Bodhisattva who has boundless supernatural power, and recite Buddhist scriptures as soon as possible to be free from suffering and gain happiness!
1. When I was young, I opened two bars so I created bad karma, and karmic retribution is right on my heels!
I am the eldest daughter of my family and the eldest daughter-in-law of my in-laws family. Both my mother and mother-in-law are Buddhist practitioners and urged me to practise Buddhism as well. However, because of my youthful ambition and good fortune, at the age of about 36, I ran two bars and enjoyed the pleasure of earning money, not bothering to practise Buddhism at all. By then, I was young and foolish, in the bars I gained filthy money by means of woman’s charms, which invariably created a lot of bad karma. How many people lost their morals and conscience for my sake of monetary gain? How many families have been broken up behind the scenes? How many people have done many things against ethics and morality under the paralysis of alcohol? I hereby express my deepest repentance to Guan Yin Bodhisattva! Karmic retribution is inescapable. I planted the evil cause so I reap the evil effect. The bad karma I created within two years of running the bars has brought me a tragic retribution 13 years later! (So, dear fellow practitioners, please take this as a warning!)
In 2010, I was 49, my predestined 369 calamity arrived. One day in July, my karma exploded. I suddenly collapsed at home kitchen while stirring frying vegetables. In an instant, I felt that the sky was falling, and I had nowhere to turn for help. An otherwise healthy me entered a life of hell on earth from then on. Every day, I ate, drank, pooped and peed in bed, had difficulty turning over, couldn't wash my hands and face, had trouble swallowing, so it was worse than death. I was paralyzed in bed from then on. The doctor said I had a herniated disc in my lower back. All the bones in my back were misaligned. Both knee bones were necrotic and so swollen. I have visited all the local city and provincial hospitals, big and small, to seek medical care. I almost spent all the several hundreds of thousands of RMB I had gained from my bar business. However, the condition got worse and worse.
2. Since encountering the excellent Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door, I have been practicing Buddhism hard to overcome any obstacles on the way and finally achieved a new life.
Perhaps it was the blessing from my family members who had been making offerings to the Buddha and practising Buddhism for years. Thanks to the mercy of Guan Yin Bodhisattva, I finally encountered the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door in 2012 when I was in the most desperate situation in my life. The person next door to my bar heard that I was sick and came to see me. She brought me Buddhist scripture, recitation device, Buddhism in Plain Terms, counters and many other Dharma gems. She told me the Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door was very efficacious, and asked me to try it. Although I could not move on bed, I listened all Master Lu's recordings like a thirst. I was pleasantly surprised to hear cases of patients who had been cured of cancer and serious illnesses by practising Buddhism and reciting the scriptures. The recordings of Master Lu's programs were like a bright beacon in the darkness, bringing me hope for life and giving me great encouragement. I felt I was awakened by a powerful energy, stirring up my strong desire to live. I told myself: I must survive; I must save myself! I started to practice Buddhism and recite scriptures as if I had grabbed a lifeline.
I am illiterate, so I had to lie in bed every day and learn to recite word by word with the recitation device. Due to the heavy karma, there was no virtuous and the high-minded practitioner around to teach me how to burn the Little Houses in a rational and lawful way. I foolishly took an ashtray instead of a plate to burn the Little Houses, which resulted in the ashtray blowing up. In order to eliminate karma quickly, I was foolishly reciting the Heart Sutra and Amitabha Pure Land Rebirth Mantra after ten o'clock at night, which resulted in the light bulbs breaking several times (Here, I sincerely remind my fellow practitioners: Master Lu enlightened us not to recite the Heart Sutra and Amitabha Pure Land Rebirth Mantra after ten o'clock at night. Please make sure to read the Introduction to Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door carefully in order to avoid practising Buddhism irrationally). Therefore, we must follow the instructions of Master Lu, and never do what the Master does not allow us to do. The whole process of reciting Buddhist scriptures to eliminate karma is very bumpy. It is really easy to create karma, but very hard to eliminate it! However, I firmly believed that the Bodhisattva is infinitely powerful. As long as I diligently practised Buddhism, my fate would definitely get changed. Hence, I relied on the blissful cases in Master Lu's recordings as my spiritual support. I kept persevering, not afraid of any difficulties, and recklessly recited Buddhist scriptures.
Since I ate, drank and pooped in bed, my aura was very bad. As I could not get up by myself, so I had to lie in bed to recite the sacred Buddhist scriptures. I felt guilty and torn, wondering if this was the appropriate way to recite the sacred Buddhist scriptures. Will it affect the effect of the recitation? Gratitude to Guan Yin Bodhisattva for Her compassion, and I dreamed of Master Lu that night. Master Lu who was dressed in a black suit smiled at me and kindly comforted me: “don't worry.” After I woke up, I was very grateful for Master Lu's compassion. Master Lu knew about my special situation, so this is a sympathy and a condolence to me. After I recited Buddhist scriptures 4 to 5 months late, my neck and head were able to turn significantly. Such a Dharma blissful change thrilled me. All the trials and perseverance I had gone through in the past had not been in vain. Guan Yin Bodhisattva has boundless supernatural power, which had given me a glimmer of hope for recovery! (Here, I sincerely remind my fellow practitioners: In the absence of illness, recitation of Buddhist scriptures must be respectful. A point of respect harvests a point of benefit.)
3. The unique characteristics of attending the Dharma conference and formally acknowledging Jun Hong Lu as my master allow my physical health to improve with Dharma joy
In February 2017, I befriended a fellow practitioner. She invited me to attend the Macau Dharma Convention together. I thought to myself: “can I take the bus by myself?” “Can I attend the conference?” With a strong faith from my inner heart, I attended the conference via keeping reciting the Great Compassion Mantra on the trip. Unbelievably, I arrived at the conference as I wished with the blessing and protection of Guan Yin Bodhisattva, although my bulky legs could only barely support my body in the seat. I was in tears when I listened Master Lu's wise words and saw the holy icon of Guan Yin Bodhisattva. On the night of the conference, I dreamed of Guan Yin Bodhisattva! Gratitude to Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva for saving me from suffering and giving me a new life. At the end of the Macau Dharma Convention, I instantly made two vows: to be a vegetarian for 15 days per month and liberate 10,000 fish.
Before I attended the Macau Dharma Convention, I had to take a break whenever I walked two steps, and my body was not able to move much. After returning, my legs started to become strong enough to support my body and I could walk on flat ground. Despite they were not very flexible, they were no longer the same as when I was paralyzed like a limp in bed. My whole body is getting better and better in essence, vital energy, and spirit. I was very surprised! Master Lu has enlightened that there are many Buddhas and Bodhisattvas coming to bless attendees at each Dharma conference!
In August 2017, before the Dharma Convention in Malaysia, my fellow practitioners urged me to formally acknowledge Jun Hong Lu as my master. Since I am an illiterate, compassionate fellow practitioners helped me to fill out the application form of seeking discipleship. My fellow practitioners told me that there were so many people wanted to formally acknowledge Jun Hong Lu as their master that I might not be able to reach my wish this time. Then, I had to wait for the opportunity next Dharma Convention. I told myself that whether I could reach my wish or not this time, I would actively participate in Master Lu’s Dharma Convention. Considering my age, it is a blessing for me to attend one more Dharma Convention. To my surprise, one week later, my application for seeking discipleship was approved. Gratitude to Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva!
On the day of seeking discipleship, I was very excited. During the process of seeking discipleship, I heard a voice in stereo that was very loud. When I opened my eyes, I was surprised to see Tathagata Buddha, and many other Bodhisattvas coming down from heaven. At that moment, I saw that the upper half of Master Lu's Dharmakaya appeared transparent with a huge lotus flower. I was suddenly moved to tears. I was oblivious to the fact that Master Lu had come to my side until the time of issuing the discipleship certificate. Master Lu was very compassionate and empowered me with blessing. Master Lu enlightened, "Because five people opened their eyes during the worship ceremony, they have no lotuses planted in the pure land. But it's okay, when the ceremony is over, you can go to the front and kowtow to ask the Bodhisattva (to plant a lotus)." I then rushed to the front to worship. Before I finished worshiping Bodhisattva, a young fellow practitioner came over. He asked, "How do you feel? Did you see anything?" I said, "I saw Tathagata Buddha." He asked, "How are you sure that was Tathagata Buddha?" I said, "Both my mother and mother-in-law are Buddhist disciples, and Tathagata Buddha has curly hair."
I was grateful for the compassionate blessing from Guan Yin Bodhisattva and Master Lu. When I returned home after seeking discipleship, I made two vows: to be a vegetarian for the rest of my life and never kill (animals). The power of a vow outweighs the force of karma. After I made the vows, Master Lu’s Dharmakaya came to help me heal my legs in my dreams. Once, I saw Master Lu’s Dharmakaya passing by my room while I was half-squinted. Master Lu asked me, "Which foot is uncomfortable? Where is aching?" Instantly I woke up and then I found that my feet didn't feel as heavy as they used to be and I walked more lightly. I excitedly shared the news with my old father, "Master Lu has come to bless me again!" I am grateful to Master Lu for his compassionate care for every sentient being. Every time I dreamed of Master Lu, he would always compassionately endow me with abundance of blessing, and I was always surprised by the improvement in my health.
In a short time, I could not only separate my feet and take turns to walk up and down the stairs independently. Moreover, I could bend back and forth freely with my arms crossed. The bones in my back, which were all misaligned and uneven, were now completely normal again. Previously, I couldn't raise my hands to wash my face, brush my teeth or comb my hair because the bones in my back would pull the nerves and cause severe pain when I raised my hands. In those days, whenever I sneezed or defecated, I felt like to cheat death on pain. In those hellish day I went through unimaginable pain and suffering. Now, however, I can take care of myself completely and move around freely. Sometimes I get a little tired after walking for too long, but I can recover after 10 minutes of rest in bed. Although it is still slightly bumpy while I was walking, if you don't look closely, you can't see it. My family was overwhelmed to see the dramatic change from being paralyzed and bedridden to walking independently since I practised Buddhism. My old father, who was taking care of me at the bedside, complimented me straight away: you have completely changed, becoming healthier and healthier now! I was so excited that I had tears in my eyes. Without the rescue of Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva and Master Lu, I really wouldn't have the blissful transformation I have today!
In 2019, at the Dharma conferences of Indonesia and Singapore, I pleaded with my fellow practitioners to be merciful to give me the opportunity to volunteer. According to the rules of the Dharma conference, I was already overage. However, I was adamant that I must do volunteer work. Guan Yin Bodhisattva has given me a second life, so I have to serve all sentient beings physically. I am grateful for Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva who helped me out. When I came back from the conferences, I found that I could bend and squat easily and freely, and I had no problem even sitting on the floor. I am grateful to Guan Yin Bodhisattva for compassionately helping me to eliminate my karma at every conference, so that I can obtain incredible blessings and improvement occur every time.
4. The incredible blessing of setting up the Buddhist altar accelerated my health recovery and created a medical miracle.
From the time I set up the Buddhist altar in 2017, I insisted on offering Bodhisattvas incenses morning and evening every day. At first, the body was still straight and could not bend and bow. For two years, in front of the Buddhist altar, I prayed for Bodhisattvas to bless me so that I could recover my health a little better so I can use my own experience as an example to convince sentient beings to gain faith on Dharma and practise Dharma. Gradually, I was able to stand to offer incense to Bodhisattvas, to bend and bow, and finally to kneel in front of the Buddhist altar to recite the scriptures. I was full of Dharma joy! Initially, my back still hurt from kneeling. With the karmic obstacles being removed, my back didn't hurt anymore. Sometimes when I went out with fellow practitioners to set up the Buddhist altar, particularly on the Buddha's Birthday, I could kneel to recite the Eighty-eight Buddhas Great Repentance for an hour and a half. My fellow practitioners couldn't keep it up, so I was the only one who kept it up until the end. I am so grateful to Guan Yin Bodhisattva for Her compassionate blessing!
At one time, the doctor at the provincial hospital told me that I had to have surgery to put two steel plates into the bone, but I refused. Because I firmly believe that with the of blessings of Guan Yin Bodhisattva and Master Lu, I am afraid of nothing. Buddha is an extraordinary doctor. The only way to recover completely is to repent sincerely and practise Buddhism. I can now move as freely as a normal person. This medical miracle achieved was completely relied on practising Buddhism, reciting scriptures, being a vegetarian, helping new practitioners to set up Buddhist altars, volunteering at Dharma conferences, and actively propagating the Dharma. To improve my family economic financial, I went out to work on construction sites as a helper, do cleaning and housekeeping!
Those patients who were once slightly paralyzed did not recover as quickly and well as I did, even with surgery.
Dear readers, when you see such a dramatic change in me, what are you hesitating for? Hurry up and pick up the Buddhist scriptures to recite! I am the living example, the ironclad evidence. Guan Yin Bodhisattva does exist, and She is Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate, answers any prayers.
Thinking of the bad karma I created in the two bars when I was young, I feel grievously sinful. I have earned ill-gotten wealth, but the karma was produced, and karmic retribution is inescapable. If one hasn't been retributed, the time hasn't come yet. After I got old, all the retribution came to me. Not only did I use up all my money, but I also had to suffer from physical illness and paralysis. I advise everyone to remember Master Lu's enlightenment: Do not do anything that is evil; Do not fail to do good no matter how petty the deed; Do not engage in evil no matter how trivial the deed. Dear readers, please consider it carefully before earning any money, and don’t commit such deep sins as I did for the sake of monetary gain, or else the consequences will follow you!
Without the merciful salvation and blessings of Guan Yin Bodhisattva and Master Lu, I would not have been reborn today! I made a few great wows: honour the teacher and respect his teachings, live an ascetic life for lifetime, be a vegetarian lifetime, not kill, not eat eggs, not smoke, not drink; transcend the cycle of rebirth for good and attain enlightenment in one lifetime. In this life, I will follow Guan Yin Bodhisattva to cultivate my mind and change my behaviour and never quit. I will follow my benefactor, the Compassionate father, Master Lu, to propagate Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door and never stop! Although I am over 60 years, I will continue using my own experience as an example to convince sentient beings to gain faith on Dharma and practise Buddhism. Together with my fellow practitioners, I will get up early and go home late to help set up Buddha altars for new practitioners. No matter how far and how difficult the trip is, I will always be strict with myself. I will go wherever I am needed. Even if I am eating, as soon as I receive a mission for propagating Dharma, I will put down my chopsticks and set off without delay.
Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door is peerlessly efficacious, and Guan Yin Bodhisattva is Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate, saves beings from suffering, has supernatural power, and answer all prayers. As long as we have a devout heart and we persist in reciting Buddhist scriptures and practicing Buddhism, no difficulty can defeat us! My physical changes are the most powerful evidence! May my true presentation give some inspiration to those people who are still suffering from illnesses, so that they can acquire faith to practising Buddhism, and pick up the Buddhist scriptures to recite. May more sentient beings having affinity with Buddha break free from delusion and attain enlightenment, balance egoism and altruism, and free from suffering and gain happiness.
My deepest gratitude to the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva!
My deepest gratitude to all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas from ten directions and three periods of time!
My deepest gratitude to the Dharma protectors!
My deepest gratitude to the selfless and altruistic Master Jun Hong Lu!
If there is anything that is not rational or in line with the truth in the presentation, I’d like to seek forgiveness from the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva, all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, Dharma protectors, and Master Jun Hong Lu.
I’d also like to seek forgiveness from my fellow Buddhist practitioners.
I, not my fellow practitioners, will be responsible for my own karma!
Shared by: Dharma Practitioner Ganen, Gratitude and Namaste!
Translated by: Frank
Statement by Translator

1. Story was translated from Chinese into English by meaning, not word by word. If there is anything that is not rational or in line with the true meaning of the Chinese version, I’d like to seek forgiveness from the Greatly Merciful and Greatly Compassionate Guan Yin Bodhisattva, all Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, Dharma protectors and Master Jun Hong Lu.
   
2. Author Ganen was interviewed by Frank during the translation for the detailed information.
   

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原文如下:
从瘫痪卧床到行走自如做家政，心灵法门创造了医学奇迹
感恩南无大慈大悲救苦救难广大灵感观世音菩萨摩诃萨！
感恩十方三世一切诸佛菩萨！
感恩龙天护法金刚菩萨！
感恩恩师慈父卢军宏台长！
感恩师兄们！
感恩大慈大悲观世音菩萨慈悲，让我能有这个宝贵的机会与大家分享我的学佛经历。我今年62岁，现在是一个能吃、能睡、能走路的正常人了。但是，你们可曾知道，曾经，我是一个连床都起不了、翻身都困难，生活完全无法自理的瘫痪老人！如今，通过学佛念经，我把自己从地狱的苦海里完全挣脱了出来。我要用铁一般的事实告诉大家：学佛念经不仅给了我第二次生命，更让我受益无穷。我要跟大家分享，在这患病的四年里，在没有经历任何手术的情况下，如何让自己从瘫痪到健康的蜕变！愿我今天的分享给有缘人种下菩提种子，让更多的人相信观世音菩萨法力无边，早日学佛念经，离苦得乐！
1. 年轻时开酒吧造恶业，得现世报！
我是家中的长女、婆家的长媳。母亲和婆婆都是学佛人，都劝我也学佛。但是，由于年轻时好胜心强，加之财运不错，36岁左右，我经营两家酒吧，享受挣钱的快乐，根本无心学佛。年轻愚痴的我经营酒吧时靠女色来赚取黑钱，赚的都是不正之财，无形中造了很多恶业。在这种灯红酒绿中生活，我为了金钱利益，让多少人丧失了自己的道德与良知？背后又造成多少个家庭的破裂？又有多少人在酒精的麻痹下做出多少违背伦理道德的事情？弟子在此向观世音菩萨深深忏悔！因果报应丝毫不爽，种恶因得恶果。开酒吧这两年中我所造下的恶业，在十几年后让我得到悲惨的现世报！所以，请大家引以为戒！
2010年我49岁，正逢“三六九”关劫。7月的一天，我的业障大爆发，在家炒菜时突然间倒下。瞬间，我感觉天塌下来，叫天天不应，叫地地不灵。一个原本健康的我从此进入人间地狱般的生活。每天，我吃喝拉撒都在床上，翻身都很困难，没法自己洗手洗脸，吞咽困难，简直生不如死。我从此瘫痪在床。医生说我是腰椎间盘突出。后背的所有骨头都错位。两个膝盖骨头坏死，肿得很大。当地市里、省里大大小小的医院我都看过了。我几乎把我做酒吧生意所赚到的几十万块钱都花光了。然而，病情越来越严重。
2. 得遇殊胜法门，坎坷学佛路中坚持不懈地修行换来重生
也许是家人一直供佛学佛的福德。承蒙观世音菩萨慈悲，在我人生绝境之时，我终于在2012年得遇心灵法门。以前我开店隔壁的人听说我病倒了，就来看我。她给我送来了经书、念佛机、《白话佛法》、计数器等很多法宝。她告诉我心灵法门很灵验，让我试试。我躺在床上虽然无法动弹，却如饥似渴地把师父的录音听了个遍。听到人们通过学佛念经把癌症、重症都治愈的案例，我惊喜万分。师父的节目录音就像黑暗中的一盏明灯，让我看到了生活的希望，给了我很大的鼓舞。在这个过程中我像被一股强大的能量加持唤醒，激起了求生的强烈欲望。我告诉自己：我一定要活过来；我一定要自己救自己！我像抓住了救命稻草似地开始拼命学佛念经。
我不识字，只能每天躺在床上跟着念佛机一字一句地学着念。由于业力牵引，身边没有遇到善知识教我如理如法地烧送小房子。愚痴的我曾拿个烟灰缸代替盘子烧送经文组合小房子，结果烟灰缸炸掉了。为了抓紧时间消业，我晚上十点后还在念《心经》和《往生咒》，结果家里的灯坏了好几次（趁此机会我诚心提醒师兄们：师父开示，晚上十点后不要念诵《心经》和《往生咒》，请师兄们一定要好好看《心灵法门入门手册》，避免操作不如理不如法）。所以，我们一定要听师父的话，师父不让做的就不做。念经消业的整个过程非常坎坷。真是造业容易，消业难啊！但是，我坚信菩萨法力无边，只要精进努力，一定会得到改变的。于是，我依靠师父录音中的法喜案例作为精神支撑。我一直坚持不懈，不怕万难，拼命念经。
由于吃喝拉撒都在床上，气场非常不好，自己又无法起身，只能躺在床上念经。我内心愧疚又纠结，不知道这样念经是否如理如法？会不会影响念经效果？感恩菩萨慈悲，当晚我就梦见师父了。师父身穿着黑西装，一边慈祥地笑着一边安慰我：不要担心。醒来后，我非常感恩师父的慈悲。师父知道我的特殊情况，这是对我的宽容和安慰啊。后来，大概念经差不多4～5个月后，我的脖子和头也能明显地转动了。这样法喜的变化，让我激动万分。我过去所经历的磨难与坚持都没有白费。观世音菩萨法力无边，让我看到了康复的一丝希望！（作者提醒：师兄们，在没有病痛的情况下，念经一定要体态恭敬，一分恭敬一分受益。）
3. 参加法会与拜师的殊胜，让我的身体不断法喜蜕变
2017年2月份，我结识了一位师兄。她邀请我一起去参加澳门法会。我心想：我能自己坐车吗？能去法会吗？凭着内心坚定的信念，路途中我一直念《大悲咒》。虽然我笨重的双腿只能勉强支撑着身体坐在座位上，但在观世音菩萨一路加持护佑下，我竟然能够如愿到了法会现场。现场听到师父开示、看到观世音菩萨的圣像，我泪如雨下。大法会当天晚上，我就梦到了观世音菩萨！感恩大慈大悲救苦救难观世音菩萨救我于苦海，给了我新的生命和生活。澳门法会结束，我当即发愿：一个月吃素15天，放生一万条鱼。参加澳门法会前，只要走两步路我就要歇一歇，而且我的身体没办法大幅度活动。
澳门法会回来后，我的双腿开始变得有力，可以支撑起身子在平地上走路了。虽然还不是很灵活，但是比起原来像软泥一样瘫痪在床的状态，已经不可同年而语了。我整个人精、气、神也越来越好。我非常惊喜！师父开示过，每场法会有很多佛菩萨来加持大家！
2017年8月，马来西亚法会前，师兄们让我拜师，但我不识字。慈悲的师兄们帮助我代笔填写拜师申请表。师兄们告诉我，这次拜师的人太多，有可能排不上队，得等到下一场法会才有机会。我告诉自己，无论这次能不能拜师，我都一定积极参加师父的法会。我这么大年纪了，能参加多一场法会都是我的福报啊。让我惊喜的是，一个星期后，我的拜师申请通过了。感恩观世音菩萨慈悲！
拜师当天，我激动万分。在拜师过程中，我听到一个非常立体、非常响亮的声音。我睁开眼睛时，我竟然看到了如来佛祖，还有好多菩萨都从天上下来了。这时，我看到师父上半身的法身呈现透明状，有一朵大大的莲花。我顿时感动得泪如雨下。直到颁发弟子证的时候，我浑然不觉师父已经走到我的身边。师父非常慈悲，给我灌顶加持。师父说:“因为拜师过程中有5个人睁开了眼睛，所以莲花没有种上去。不过没关系，等拜师仪式结束后，可以到前面去磕头求菩萨。”我就赶紧跑到前面去拜。我还没拜完，就过来了一个年轻师兄。他问我：“您感觉怎么样？有没有看到什么？” 我告诉他：“我看到如来佛祖了。” 他说：“您怎么确定那是如来佛祖呢？”我说：”我家母和家婆是学佛人，如来佛祖头发卷卷的。”
感恩观世音菩萨与师父的慈悲加持。拜师结束回家我就发愿: 终生吃全素，不杀生。真是愿力大于业力，发愿后，师父又来梦里帮我治疗双腿。有一次，我半眯着眼睛看到师父从我的房间经过。师父问我：“还有哪只脚不舒服？还有哪个地方疼痛的？” 瞬间我就醒了，醒来我发现我的双脚没有了原来的沉重感，走起路来更加轻盈了。我激动地跟老父亲分享：“师父又来加持我啦！”感恩师父慈悲关怀着每一位众生。每次梦见师父，师父都慈悲给予加持，我的身体总会有惊喜的好转。
没过多久，我不仅可以分开双脚，轮流迈开步伐独立上下楼梯。而且，我双手叉腰，可以前后自如地弯腰。后背的骨头原本因为全部错位并高低不平，如今完全恢复正常了。原本我没办法把手举起来洗脸、刷牙和梳头，因为手一抬，后背的骨头扯神经会导致剧烈的疼痛。每次打喷嚏或排泄的时候，都有种痛不欲生的感觉，就像死里逃生一样。这种地狱般的日子让我历经常人难以想象的苦痛折磨。然而现在，我的生活可以完全自理并且行动自如。有时候走太久会有一点点累，但是卧床休息十几分钟就可以恢复过来。虽然走路还有一点点高低现象，但如果不仔细看，是看不出来的。看到我学佛念经以来，从瘫痪卧床到独立行走的巨大变化，我的家人无比震惊。当年在床头边照顾我的老父亲直夸我：现在整个人完全变了，变得越来越健康了！我激动得泪眼婆娑。没有观世音菩萨与师父的大慈大悲救苦救难，真的不会有我今天的法喜蜕变！
2019年印尼法会和新加坡法会上，我恳请师兄们慈悲给我做义工的机会。按照法会规定，我已经超龄了。但是，我坚决一定要做义工。观世音菩萨给了我第二次生命，我就要身体力行地为众生服务。感恩观世音菩萨的慈悲，让我能如愿以偿。从法会做完义工回来，我发现我可以轻松自如地弯腰和下蹲，就连坐在地板上也没有问题了。感恩菩萨每次法会上都慈悲帮我消业，让我每次都能有不可思议的加持，变化。
4. 设佛台的不可思议加持，加速我身体恢复健康，创造医学奇迹
从2017年设佛台起，我每天坚持上早晚香。起初，身体还是直直的，不能弯腰鞠躬。两年里，我每天在佛台前上香求菩萨加持，让我身体能恢复得更好一些，能为众生表法。慢慢地，我从站着上香到弯腰鞠躬，到最后可以跪在佛台前念经。真是法喜充满啊！刚开始跪着后背还是很痛。随着业障的消除，我的后背也不疼痛了。有时候和师兄们出去设佛台，遇到佛诞日，我跪着念诵《礼佛大忏悔文》足足有一个半小时的时间。许多师兄都坚持不下来，唯独我坚持到结束。真是感恩菩萨慈悲加持！
曾经，省医院的医生告诉我，必须做手术把两块钢板放进骨头里，但我回绝了。因为我坚信有观世音菩萨和师父两座靠山，我什么都不怕。在因果面前，佛是大药王。唯有诚心忏悔，学佛修行才能彻底康复。我完全靠学佛念经吃素、设佛台、参加法会做义工，积极弘法度人，才创造了医学奇迹：现在和正常人一样行动自如。我甚至去工地做小工，搞卫生、做家政弥补家用！那些曾经轻微瘫痪的患者就算做手术，也没有我恢复得快，恢复到如此好的状态。
读者朋友们，你们看到我如此天翻地覆的变化，还犹豫什么呢？赶快捧起经书念经吧！我就是活生生的例子，铁一般的证据。观世音菩萨真实存在，并且大慈大悲有求必应啊！
现在回想起年轻时开酒吧所造下的恶业，真是罪孽深重。不正之财赚到了，可是，因果报应丝毫不爽，不是不报，时候未到。在我人到老年时，所有的报应一涌而来。不但钱财全部用尽，还要遭受肉体病痛的瘫痪之苦，因果不空啊！奉劝大家一定要谨记师父的教诲：诸恶莫作，众善奉行！不以善小而不为；不以恶小而为之！挣任何钱财之前都要三思，切记不可为了金钱利益而像我一样造下如此深重的罪孽，否则果报如影随形！
没有观世音菩萨和师父的慈悲救度与加持，就没有我今天的重生！弟子许愿尊师重道、一生清修、终生吃全素、不杀生、不吃鸡蛋、不抽烟、不喝酒；一世修成，永断轮回。今生跟着观世音菩萨修心修行，永不退转。跟着恩师慈父卢军宏台长弘扬心灵法门永不停息！我虽然60多岁了，但是我要身体力行地为大家表法，起早贪黑地和共修组师兄们一起去助缘设佛台。无论路程多么遥远，多么艰辛，我都严格要求自己。哪里需要我，我就走到哪里。哪怕我在吃饭，只要接到弘法任务，我一定当即放下筷子，一刻也不能耽误地出发。
心灵法门灵验无比，观世音菩萨大慈大悲，救苦救难，法力无边，有求必应。只要我们有一颗虔诚的心，只要我们坚持念经修行，没有什么困难可以打倒我们！我的身体变化就是最有力的证据！愿我的真实分享给那些还在受着病痛折磨的人们一些启发，让大家生起学佛念经的信念，捧起经书念经，愿更多的有缘众生能够早日破迷开悟，自利利他，离苦得乐！
我的分享结束了，分享中如有不如理不如法的地方，请观世音菩萨慈悲原谅！请十方三世一切诸佛菩萨和龙天护法菩萨慈悲原谅！请师父慈悲原谅！请师兄们批评指正！我自己的业障自己背，不让师兄们背！感恩合十！
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2022-02-28
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Angus looks like gale but darker colours and holding a gravestone
Main Kit : his attack (grave mistake) has a range of 8 TILES . he throws a grave stone that acts like Sam's super when an enemy comes in touch with the grave they take 2500-3400 varied on level. his super has to have his gravestone down when he activates it a ghost circles around the gravestone with a range of 7 tiles and acts like a turret doing 252-500 varied on level it lasts for 15 seconds it would attack every 0.3 seconds the super is called it came from the grave
Gadgets :
horror hands : when activated if you throw the gravestone hand come out if enemy's come in contact it deals 800 damage
haunting : if the gravestone is on the ground when the gadget is activated a ghost Homs on to the nearest enemy doing 2000 damage
Gears : has pet power gear
Star powers :
triple threat : now 3 grave stones are thrown ( the other 2 graves are 1 tiles apart ) does synergize with haunting does not synergize with super
death shock : when the gravestone is thrown a shockwave happens its ranged is 2 tiles it does 1000 damage
Hypercharge : now 3 ghost are circling the grave does not synergize with triple threat
skins :
29 gem : diver angus blue and green recolour
ranked skin : dino trapper angus gravestone is now a dino in a cage and is wearing a olive vest with draco pin on vest

I was a recent graduate and was actively applying to graduate programs abroad for almost one year now. I am a middle child in mid 20s and the elder one is about 4 years older than me while the younger is in his teens. I had been unemployed for 9 months when this incidence happened. I used to work at a company and contribute to the costs around 7k ish out of 15k total (the older one paid the rent online as he was out of the valley) for two of us living in a suburban area of Kathmandu. Yestai chaldai thyo, I resigned from the job to focus on my graduate application preparation ( SOP, GRE, IELTS, PAPER). I didn't have much savings (50k ish) at the moment I resigned. I asked for my parents to cover any additional cost, besides 50k, incurred during the application process. And I went to my hometown to stay with my parents and focus on the preparation for 5 months. Then I returned to take one of the exam. The exam went well. Coincidentally,as the elder one had returned to the room, I shared my ambitions with the elder one (grad application, application fee required and all, without expecting any contribution from his side). He didn't react at the time. Then, I returned to my hometown again to focus on another exam. As I had used up my personal savings, I asked for my parents and they agreed to give me almost 1 lacs so that I can focus on the exam and overall preparation. After around 2 months, I returned to Kathmandu to appear in the exam and to prepare different documents (LoRs, transcripts everything).
When I was there in Kathmandu, all of the sudden, the elder one had problem with me not contributing to the rents and other costs. At one point, he even accused me of misusing the amount (1 lacs)I got from our parents . FYI, he didn't even ask for the money to me/my parents and I asked for the money for the sole purpose of application fees to various programs. The timing of his confrontation was quite crucial as well as the deadlines of the programs I am applying to were nearby. Had he asked me politely if I can contribute to the rents/other costs for some months due to some financial difficulties he was going through, I might have done the same by borrowing some more from my friends. But all of the sudden he accused me of not contributing and told that he will hope that I wouldn't get into any programs I was applying to. I felt really disheartened at that moment. I do know that I should have contributed. But at that moment, I was going through rough patch, both financially and mentally (3 rejections on my earlier applications). Now, I am currently living in the hometown and contemplating whether I should rethink living with the elder one specifically. I am thinking about finding a new job (it won't be difficult in my sector, but it will be hard to focus on my remaining grad school applications and papers while working full time in parallel) and borrowing some money from my friends (which won't be a problem as I used to lend them all the time earlier) so as to pay my contribution for all these months with interest and living on my own separately.
My apologies for rambling on and on but I would appreciate your genuine suggestions in this regard.

TL;DR: 30F fell for a (niche) public figure 35M who is in a commited relationship and very hot and cold on our contact. We have never met in person. I cut all ties and moved on with a new boyfriend, but still feel compelled to watch him and think about him all the time. It's taken over my life. Need help.
Two years ago I started watching a Youtube channel on golf*, a sport I wasn't interested in, because someone told me the host was a fan of mine. I'm a Youtuber myself, well-known in my niche, and he would mention my work in his videos all the time. I felt flattered and curious, and became a regular viewer.
Soon I found out we had lots in common. Same alma mater, same obscure degree. Many many shared interests — poetry, RPG games. I even took a liking to golf just from hearing him talk about it so much. Wasn't long until I was a fan of him as well, and not long after that I realized I just had a big crush on him. I got in touch online (during a long vacation in a different country) and we became fast friends.
Around that time, I found out he had a girlfriend. It wasn't a secret; he mentioned it offhandedly in a video. I tried to keep the convo going, but it felt dishonest, so I came clean: hey, I kinda like you more than just friends and I don't want to be like that around someone who has a girlfriend, so I'd rather just walk away now before it becomes a Thing. He had a really surprised reaction but ultimately agreed.
FFWD to one year ago. He got back in touch with me with this really dramatic, well-written message about wanting to get in touch for a long time before finally giving in. He mentioned all the different occasions when he felt that way, referencing specific posts or uploads of mine (from months ago!) that he felt tempted to discuss. No mention of a girlfriend, but I was aware he still had one.
His message felt too romantic to resist — like the start of something — so I answered it w one of my own and we began talking again. But he soon faded away... taking longer and longer to answer, sometimes weeks. By this time I was already back in the US, and he never attempted to meet me. I felt really confused, so I drifted away myself several times; he would always pull me back in.
At some point it all started feeling like too much. A few months ago I hid my insta stories from him, so I wouldn't continually check whether he'd watched them, or try and post things he'd be interested in. Then I simply stopped responding, even when he double, triple, quadruple texted. These felt like rational moves, but somehow they only intensified my interest in him — now a full-fledged obsession.
I think about him constantly; dozens of times a day. I follow the PGA super closely and know every stat, every player, because it makes me feel closer to him. His career is doing well, and sometimes he shows up live on TV as a commentator; something I've dreaded and enjoyed. I open his videos just to watch him talk. He still consumes 100% of my work (I know this through analytics), sometimes more than once, but never mentions it in public anymore. I keep thinking of stupid ways to try and get him to talk to me, like posting a song or whatever that he'd like, and sometimes it works and he does get in touch but then I don't answer. There's a live golf event coming up and I'm tempted to go in disguise (!) just to see him. The fact that he's an easily accessible public figure makes it so much worse. I could google him right now and find thousands of hours of footage.
Long story, I know, but the gist of it is I can't shake my obsession with this guy. It's grown steadily for years, even though I've (1) cut ties, (2) started dating someone else, and (3) am not deluded about the fact that we are not a good match. Yes, I'm in therapy, yes, I've discussed this many times. I have hobbies, friends, a good career, a great partner. What the fuck am I supposed to do about this???
Please help. This is such an embarrassing situation for a 30 year-old.
*Details fudged for anonimity.

My situationship ended things with me beginning of March. This was someone I had rekindled with after a year and a half, after things had gone bad between us. I was super clingy during the “relationship” and would always call him out when he’d say one thing, and act another way, but I guess he wanted to keep me around for selfish reasons. Anyways, the conclusion I came up with was that he never liked me, and was just attracted to me but hated everything else about me. He completely discarded me beginning of March after telling me he loved me, and wanted to start dating. He basically blamed the end of our “relationship” on the fact that I’m too much, and crazy. Fast forward to now after snooping a shit tone on Instagram; he’s been hanging out with this absolutely gorgeous girl that I had suspected he was seeing at the same time as me. I’ve convinced myself they’re dating and that’s the reason why he discarded me without any apology or sincerity towards how that discard would’ve made me feel.
This whole thing has just completely devastated me. I feel like I’ll never be able to get over this because it’s all just made me feel so insecure; I have this narrative in my head that he basically dumped me because he found someone better. I’m blocked everywhere. I just don’t know how I can bounce back from something like this.
Any tips would really help, and any success stories from moving on from someone who really hurt them, would really help. ❤️

Hi! I am from a smaller town near Macon where in comparison to a large city such as Seattle or Atlanta there isn't anything to do at all except for a couple things and I think I'm really interested in moving to Seattle as it has a lot of the things I'm looking for in a city after I'm done with getting my Associates Degree in Nursing but after looking at some other posts and comments here from some older posts by Southerns, I'm worried I may be glamorizing the idea of moving to Seattle and moving there as someone who has been in Georgia my entire life that moving to Seattle may not be all I thought it is. Even though I love the idea of living up in the Pacific Northwest, being in a more liberal state without having to be around a constant majority of conservatives in rural Georgia who make life feel very unpleasant especially since I happen to be trans, having a lot of the drizzling rain which I adore, and the nature as well as the outdoors feeling much more pleasant to be in without the mosquitos, pollen or gnats or absurdly high temperatures we often have here. I feel like it would be really nice to live in a big city with so many more things to do but I have a few things I'm a bit worried about being:

1. Are the highways up there really that much worse than Atlanta? I heard there is only one highway and I feel like could cause major issues if just one thing happened?
   
2. When I as looking at locations for card game shops that I could play Pokemon or Magic at, fencing clubs, and I am curious about getting into paintball and airsoft so I looked that up too but I saw all the results on Google Earth or maps seemed to have significantly smaller numbers of these places in Seattle and the state of Washington where when I looked up locations of these places on Google Earth and maps I saw that that these types of locations had double to triple more in Atlanta and the State of Georgia than in the former which I found weird but maybe I was just looking at the wrong thing?
   
3. Are the winter months really that bad? From what I was seeing people say that half of the year is cold, gloomy and just awful in general but I am curious if that is true? From what people were saying is it just no vegetation left with everything dead and just snow and rain with no sun? I wouldn't mind it that much just probably the temperature a little bit if it got under 45 since that feels a bit uncomfortable to have outside in but I suppose the weather will be pretty similar anywhere right? I would certainly love not having the extreme heat of the South though!
   
4. I'm a bit on the younger side being 18 at the moment and if I were to eventually move to Seattle I would be 20 so I am curious to how it is for younger people there? What are some of the best ways to establish myself within the city and try to make friends within things I like to do or hobbies I have? I am a bit introverted but I like to think I do an okay job with trying to meet new people and make friends try to maintain those connections. I would also probably go back to college hopefully at UW to either get the prerequisites and pursue the career of being a provider or physician so I am curious to what the college life is like in Seattle?
   
5. I haven't like researched this at all since it's not a huge priority of mine at the moment of course but I've heard some people say that Seattle has an awful dating scene where a lot of people are into polyamory and if your not into that then your out of luck and I was wondering if that's really true or just people complaining a bit? Are there any particular dating apps that are popular in the Seattle area?
   
6. I doubt I'll get much insight on this question but one of the reasons I wanted specifically to be an RN in an inpatient psychiatric hospital is because I don't like how I was treated during my stays in our hospitals in Georgia and I think I could make things better if I at the very least didn't treat patients like animals who were just a nuisance and I've also had that experience of unfortunately being a patient myself lol, so I feel like I would be able to connect with patients and try to make things easier in an appropriate way of course and I don't know much about how the Seattle healthcare system works and of course haven't seen much of it but I was wondering if like it would actually be more of a negative if I did my nursing education in Georgia and then just jumped ship to go to Seattle since I don't know if like I would have insufficient knowledge of how to be a good nurse in the way Seattle's medical system works and would the patients see me more of a threat since I'm not from Seattle or the state or someone they don't like since I'm from the South which is of course known to be very conservative and from what I've heard from people from the West coast say that we are fake nice and I wouldn't want to be perceived as that or do any misservice to anyone from Seattle.
   
7. The major thing that worries me I suppose more than any other is that I won't fit in there in Seattle as I do here in Georgia or Atlanta and from what I've seen from other posts and comments here from Southern folk and people from Seattle alike is that "Southern charm" doesn't seem to be like a thing in Seattle where people are nice just to be polite? Are people in the those posts making it out to be more than it really is? I don't really care about not saying Ma'am or Sir but or expecting a retail worker to have all cheery and smiley while their doing their job but I guess what I've grown used to and quite like is people in my city and the South seem to be very friendly and easy to get along with and be friends with each other very quickly just not in a super serious sense mostly just stay friends only in the sense of where you meet like in my case fencing or the card game store but I feel as even while I was at a summer camp up in Atlanta or the psychiatric hospital everyone was very quick to make genuine interest in being nice to each other and getting to know one another and I'm a bit afraid that I'll be lonely in Seattle since I think I expect a certain level of friendliness and niceness just because of my upbringing only being in a small Southern town although it's county name is called the most progressive county in Georgia it is still quite rural. Another minor concern of mine is that people will notice if I have a Southern accent and think I'm a rude asshole if I try to be nice or strike up conversation but I don't think I have that much of an accent? I would really like to make moving to Seattle work but I'm just not sure if it's the environment I really want.
   

Thanks for reading and sorry if I said anything really dumb or entitled or whatever
also the biggest concern of all is how come there is no dunkin donuts or waffle house in seattle :(

Hello. Right now i have IBM Thinkpad 600 with clear 40GB HDD (and another 3 HDD for replace). I'd want to install windows 3.1 / 95 / 98 on it (cool if dual, actually triple -boot) but all instruments what i have is PC from 2022, 52X DVD-CD drive, IDE-USB for pc and vmware.
I tried to install windows from 3.1 up to XP and OS/2 warp 4 directly to HDD from vmware (in settings "Use physical drive", when OS needs to reboot - connect it to thinkpad), but by this was only os what successfully installed way Win98 (actually with dll errors).
I tried to burn CD with Alcohol 120%, but thinkpad freeze on setup on Win98, 2000, XP and doesn't boot on OS/2. When i burned plop boot manager and tried boot from USB - it freezes on "Press any key to boot from usb..."
What i can try else with my now equipment? I don't want to buy official CDs, because it cost more, than this notebook, but at now i can't find any way to install OS with my already owned equipment...

Were you neglected or abused by your family?
I was born in a large city. My parents 21f and 24m were both university students when I was conceived, my mother was in 3rd year. I'm not sure what year my dad was in. I always get vague answers when I ask. My parents originally planned to become teachers after completing teachers college.
Instead they married largely due to family pressure early in the pregnancy. Immediately after that they backpacked around southern Europe and Morroco. They drank considerably and smoked Marijuana as often as they could. Their original intention was to teach English in Spain, but apparently changed their mind because of the hospital, cost seemed to be the main factor. They returned to our city with my father going back to school and eventually getting his teaching degree and his first teaching job when I was 3 or 4.
My mother seemed to resent having to care for an infant. During my childhood she would complain about the awful diapers and mixing formula, etc.
When I was approximately 2 -3 years-old I was diagnosed with cerebal palsy. Immediately after I was diagnosed my parents started trying to conceive another child. By the time my sister was 1 year old, my parents decided she wasn't as perfect as they thought she should be so they conceived my youngest sister.
My kindergarten teacher wanted me to repeat kindergarten because of my very poor motor skills mostly cutting and pasting but also my printing was very messy, which was mostly due to the tremors. I was intellectually able to do all of the work and I could already read. If had gone to senior kindergarten I would have been able to enter French immersion, which started the year after I entered school. Also I was the youngest child in my class because I was born late in the year. The French immersion schools were much better funded and had much better teachers and resources. I stayed in the original school which was one of the 2 worst schools in our region. My first grade teacher made me stand in front of the class to evaluate my reading, I was very shy and soft spoken, so I stammered slightly. From this alone she put me in the bottom reading group even though repeatedly showed her that I could read any book in the room. Standardized testing in 2nd grade showed that my reading and math skills were at 6th grade level. I know this because the guidance teacher showed my scores and explained what they meant when I was frustrated with the pace of the classroom and lack of mentally challenging work. My teachers would make me write things over and over because of the 'messiness'. This never worked and my printing would get worse because of fatigue and pain. I was bullied by most of the kids in my class because I was small, clumsy, physically weak, and somewhat odd looking, the fact that I was very smart also didn't help. My teacher wouldn't allow me to use the washroom when I needed it, since I had a bladder disorder related to my cerebal palsy, that meant I would sometimes wet myself. This only happened when I wasn't allowed to use the washroom when I needed to. This led to the other kids calling me diaper queen. Eventually I was exempted from most of my in class subjects and allowed to work independently in the library on whatever I desired. When I was in 2nd or 3rd grade my arm was badly sprained by a bully and I was prescribed a tensor bandage to support my hand and wrist. I noticed that my printing was better with it and I tried to keep using it. My mother found out and angrily took it away from even though I explained that it helped me. She would not listen and there was no explanation at all. She would send me to school no matter how sick I was, and would only let be at home when the school said I was too sick to be there. Our house never had a thermometer or bandaids or any other health related items, not even a hot water bottle or heating pad. When I was in 5th grade I developed a ganglion on the inside of my middle finger, it was very painful and made it even more difficult and painful to write. I saw a hand surgeon who said he could remove it easily and quickly. My parents, mostly my mother refused to allow me to have this surgery even though it would be completely paid for through our canadian health program.
Every few months we would visit family friends in the city each time before we went home my dad would go to a bank machine, except we always parked at the far edge of the parking lot and my dad would walk away and then be gone for 30 to 40 minutes. I realized later that he was buying amounts of Marijuana about a pound or two each. He and my mother would smoke it regularly, they I wasn't aware but I especially the air currents would waft the smell to my window.
Even though I asked repeatedly to be moved to a different school my parents made no efforts to do so. I could have been moved based on my disability and also my intellectual giftedness. I was not taken to a dentist until I was 8 years old. By this time I already decay in several of my teeth, partly because our water wasn't fluoridated. My dad could have added flouride to our well water for a very low cost, but was too cheap to do so. Another factor was I did not have a child size toothbrush so it made much more difficult to clean my teeth effectively.
My parents were home most of the time but spent very little time with their children. There was very little affection shown. I had very few clothes, with one or two items bought for back to school. And sometimes none since I was failure to thrive and grew very slowly. At Christmas my mother would buy the same toys for all 3 of us even though I was 4 1/2 and 7 older than my sisters. One year she bought all of us cabbage patch dolls, this was even though I had never had any interest in dolls or girly stuff. She did this again when the cabbage patch dolls came out.
My grandfather died when I was 9 years old, my grandmother remarried suddenly when I was 13. She lived with him in England for several months but then they moved back to town close to us. There were frequent family gatherings that included him. From almost the beginning he would find ways to trap me and sexually assault me by pushing me against a wall or into a corner he would then force his tongue into my mouth and rub his penis against me. He would also shove his hands into my pants... During my adolescence I was misdiagnosed with depression, when I actually post traumatic stress reaction because of the many things I'd dealt already, I was sent to a psychiatrist who didn't listen to me and wasn't competent, she kept prescribing different drugs when I didn't respond to them the way I 'should ' have. She put on lithium with no sign of bipolar disorder. I very developed severe lithium toxicity. She took me off it eventually. At some point she decided that since antidepressants weren't working it must because I was psychotic. She put on antipsychotics even though I repeatedly told I was not psychotic and I never was. She wound up convincing my parents to send to this inpatient program for adolescents with psychosis. I talked to the psychiatrist there once and he knew I had never been psychotic, he stopped my medication immediately and I was the only one there not on any medications and was not mentally ill at all. But I wound up spending 8 months there.
There were other things that went on with my family but this about as much as I can write right now. Am I wrong to distance myself from my family ? I feel little connection to them and they usually want to draw me into some drama that I don't want to deal with. tl;dr; childhood experiences, neglect

Hello! I know a few hours is nowhere near long enough (I've been to Paris before) and I also know it is still worth it for me and my family to do so. It's four of us with two adult and two teens who are all on board with a day trip on the Eurostar from London so here is my idea. I would love your thoughts and reactions to my loose plan!
Arrive at Gare du Nord at 11:21
Get to the area around Notre Dame and explore the island. Yummy and Guiltfree for a snack if needed (two of us are gluten free/celiac disease) Visit Shakespeare and Co.
Walk along the river and cross over to the Louvre for some exploring and photos (Tuesday - museum is closed). Explore Jardin des Tuileries.
Do we have time to dip into Musee d'Orsay? Again, we could spend all day but could we see a few highlights in our timeframe?
Noglu for food if we need it.
Keep walking along towards Eiffel Tower and explore that area/take photos.
We need to be back at Gare du Nord by about 18:15 or 18:30. So it's about 7 hours total in Paris if trains are on time.
My questions are: are there shops all along the way here to shop and explore? Is there a certain street we should make sure to visit for independent shops with souvenirs/stationery/other fun items?
Anything else along the way we should see?
Do I have enough here to fill the 7 hours or should I add something else in?
Should we Uber to and from the train station to save time?
Thank you for any thoughts and help you can give!

K: I am meeting 'X' who is immovable. Either I have to go round him, avoid him, or go over him. I can't do any of that. But 'X' absolutely refuses to enter into the game of words. Then what am I, who have played games with words, what am I to do? 'X' won't leave me alone. Right sir? I mean, 'leave me alone' in the sense he may leave personally, but the thing, I have met something immovable. And it is there might and day with me. I can't battle with it because there is nothing I can get hold of.
So what happens to me? Go on sirs: what happens to me when I meet something that is completely solid, immovable, absolutely true, what happens to me? Is that the problem, that we have never met - sorry, I am just putting that - never met something like that? You may climb the Himalayas but Everest is always there. In the same way perhaps human beings have never met something irrevocable, something absolutely immovable. Either I am terribly puzzled by it, or, I say, well I can't do anything about it. Walk away from it. Or it is something that I must investigate - you follow? - I must capture it. Right? Which is it? (Laughs)
Q: But then we are back in the old pattern.
K: No, no. No.
Q: I want to investigate.
K: Ah, I am using those... Here is a solid thing. I am confronted by it. As I said, I might run away from it, which I generally do. Or worship it. Or try to understand what it is. When I do all those things I am back into the old pattern. So I discard that. When meeting 'X' who is immovable I see what the nature of it is. I wonder if I am. I am movable, as a human being, but 'X' is immovable. The contact with it does something - it must. It is not some mystique, it is not some occult stuff and all that kind of thing, but it is simple, isn't it?
Q: Sir, it functions like a magnet, which is why everyone is in this room. But it doesn't break something.
K: No, no, because you haven't let go the pattern. It is not his fault, 'X's' fault.
Q: I didn't say it was.
K: No, the implication is that.
Q: No.
K: When you use the word 'magnet', it means that, attraction.
https://jkrishnamurti.org/content/breaking-pattern-egocentric-activity
It's the egocentric activity that makes us hold onto the pattern, can't we say? My self-centeredness, attachment, suppression, escapes, analysis is all me, it keeps me going. Aren't we discussing seeing that and wiping it out, without the motive or desire to do so.

A couple of months ago I was at the airport in Atlanta, along with a few hundred thousand travel buddies, when one young man's sweatshirt caught my attention. It was a simple black hoodie. On the front of the shirt, it said:
Music Gets Me High.
I loved the shirt. Not because music gets me high. But because the young man wearing it knew that music gets him high. And while I haven't consulted with the Food and Drug Administration or Nancy Reagan, I expect that music provides a fairly safe way to get high. And somebody should tell that to Willie Nelson.
The shirt, and the young man wearing it, made me think that everyone should know what gets them high.
So the question of the day is:
What activities make you feel heightened and alive? Or euphoric? Or in flow?
This is a far more valuable question to ask yourself if the answer is not related to drugs or alcohol. In fact, the point of this prompt is to find the activities that make you feel great without the chemicals.
So what gets you high?
Discover your most highly rewarding activities.
Find ways to do them more often.
And you will live a highly enjoyable life