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I (20M) had a bestfriend (19M) of more than 8 years, I am from a muslim country and I am gay, my best friend is also from my country, he's also queer but he is deep in the nile river.
We met when we were in 12 in school, we bacame best friends and did all things bestfriends do. At the time I knew I was gay, but I did not know if he was also gay or not.
We were classmates for 3 years and then him and his family moved abroad. For 2 years I had no contact with him. But after two years he found my contacts and we were in touch again. It was like we had always been in contact. He was my best friend. So naturally I wanted to tell him about who I was the way I told my other close friends who I could trust and I wanted to tell him about a classmate I had a crush on.
Upon telling him, he immediately denied it and said that I was not gay (as if he knows I am not). Here's how the conversation went: "Hey bestie just so you know I am gay and I like boys" "What? No way you are not gay! I also like a boy but I am not gay so you are not gay as well!!" "That made no sense? How can you like a boy a person from the same sex and not be queer?"
He went on a rant on how it is just lust and how he has not done anything with the same sex so according to him he was not "gay". The conversation came to the boiling point when I threatened to cut ties even though he had judt found me a week ago. Then he agreed to respect MY identity.
I felt bad for him so I tried as much as I can to help him come to acceptance with who he is. And to a point I was successful. He was coming to term that he cannot control his feelings and who he loves. I helped him get over a 5 year old crush on a boy that was still back in our school.
He was getting comfortable, we would joke about things and put on lil scarfs and pretend we are middle aged khalas(aunties), gossiping and cussing each other out over the phone, it was funny and harmless, might I mention that the dress up was his idea.
Unfortunately his father found out about these photos by invading his privacy, my ex friend was so scared he wanted to k word himself, after lots of convincing he stopped thinking about it. And his father told him to not dress like that again after he made some excuses. But his father was restrict on him.
After that I think he started feeling guilty for having feelings for boys. He started talking about how he will not be able to keep it a secret for long. I tried to help him as much as I could from thousands of miles away, think practically, how you cannot do this until you are not independent, cuz it can be dangerous, but to no avail he went and told his mother.
After that he slowly started mentioning how he's a top in the most random times. I did not think too much of it. Then he started telling me that he was Bisexual and hoe he also likes girls. I did not know if he was actually bisexual or was him and his mother gaslighting him into liking girls. Cuz I had never seen him talk about girls. He then became very distant.
I noticed he would block me at times and then text me back when he wanted to talk. He would only message me when he needed to talk about something that he wanted. I dont know from when but he stopped prioritizing me and how I was feeling. It was always about him. When I needed him, he was never there.
He slowly turned into an incel. Idolizing Andrew Tate. He pushed me towards the edge when he made a subtle racist remark about my ethnic group. Knowing How sensitive the topic of ethnicity was to me.
That's when I cut off all contacts with him. I could not believe my best friend of almost a decade thought so little of my ethnicity. I cut him off and went with my life and the struggles of it (which I have to tell is alot).
After 9 months he messaged me again. I felt bad for cutting him off like that so I started up a conversation with him. But to my surprise my best friend had turned into a full on incel. He told me how he is straight now. And he is homophobic. And told me he respects my decisions (which makes no sense, how can you hate gay people and "respect" my decision?). That was when I knew I had enough of him. I blocked him. I cannot believe I was friends with a guy like him. I tried to help him I guess some people do not want to be helped.
Do you think I made the right decision?

I am a 22 year old guy, good looking 7-8. I'm fit but rather skinny I am intellectually gifted. When I was a kid and in my early teens I was a very weird and disconnected guy. I was generally treated poorly which ended up shaping the rest of my life at this point when it comes to responsibility and self-development. I fell behind my peers socially and in pretty much everything else. I spent a few years fixing a lot of my flaws and learning to be human like I was supposed to. By now I have achieved a lot of great milestones becoming higher quality but there are still things I haven't been able to achieve. I will probably never be able to fit in with the general norm, I want to, but it doesn't seem like it is reasonably possible anymore. I am still a virgin, I've had multiple girls in the past that I have been interested in but I either lost to someone else or fumbled the bag. I am also not very interested in a relationship until I want to spend energy on one. Yet I still have high standards because I know I've got qualities that can pull from experience. So I have little to no experience and I haven't had sex. The point I am at when it comes to acting on taking someone home or having a good time is so far behind that I am on level with teenagers entering the space, to catch up I would have to hang around those and start at the same point but obviously I can't. I would probably be described as quirky, which I absolutely hate and it feels like a part of me that I cannot lose. I am so starved for love that it is finally starting to impact my mental health. I genuinely feel that my dating experience is completely doomed and that I have to continue living on lies about it. I have come to dislike the general public because of intellectual gap and the way that the world is shaped to be against me at so many turns. I am just tired of having to keep this to myself when it has such a prevalent impact on me. If anyone would be up to argue about anything on this post I'd be happy to.

It is very embarrassing to me to talk about this, but I need to preface this saying we are obviously adults here in spite of him being many years older than me, he is also divorced so I am obviously not being a homewrecker or hurting anybody.
I have always been into more mature men. I feel more listened, cared and well treated around men that tend to be a bit older than I am. I am not sure if it is a age/maturity thing, or that they have been raised in another time, but they really tend to be more romantic.
I met my friend's father at her birthday dinner 1 month and a few days ago. It is also important to note that we are not like super close friends, but we get to share a friend group. I immediately clicked with this man, he is very and I mean VERY fun to be around, it is quite impossible for him to not make you laugh. We exchanged phone numbers that day and since its been a non stop o messaging. He has done things for me, this little details no one has ever, ordering breakfast with a message or taking me to fancy places. We have been intimate but we always do meet at my place since this way there is no chance that she would pop up.
We both had agreed that this was going to be a temporary thing, that we were just feeling ourselves with no seriousness. I dont exactly know how but my friend realised he has been seeing someone because he looks "happier" to which he replied that he indeed was.
As my friend got more and more insisting in the details he had to lie to her to protect our thing. Now he says he feel bad for having lied to his daughter and he feels guilty. I have proposed on stopped seeing each other but that he is not sure that'd be enough for him to get that off his chest. I dont feel the need to blow things up like this specially if we stop seeing each other NOW. Aitah for just wanting to slide this away and keep our lives? Listening to our brain instead of our heart would be the right idea for me since theres more to lose than it is to win. What should we do?
TL;DR I have been seeing my friend's father secretly and we decided to keep it private as something that was supposed to be temporary to feel ourselves. He almost gets caught and had to lie. We may stop seeing each other but I dont want to tell my friend and create unnecessary bad blood

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Do you have what it takes to conquer the tower? With Season 2 set to air in July, u/laughing-fox13 and I would like to open the door of the tower to you.
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What is Tower of God?
"Twenty-Fifth Bam is a boy who had only known a dark cave, a dirty cloth, and an unreachable light his entire life. So when a girl named Rachel came to him through the light, his entire world changed. Becoming close friends with Rachel, he learned various things about the outside world from her. But when Rachel says she must leave him to climb the Tower, his world shatters around him. Vowing to follow after her no matter what it takes, he sets his sight on the tower, and a miracle occurs."
"Thus begins the journey of Bam, a young boy who was not chosen by the Tower but opened its gates by himself."
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Why should I watch Tower of God?
Tower of God is the rare breed of epic fantasy within whose world and characters a person can lose themself. Currently spanning more than 600 Webtoon chapters over nearly a decade and a half, SIU has crafted a vast labyrynth of narrative, lore, and character intrigue to rival any long-running work of fiction.
If you're the kind of person who seeks stories with distinct worlds, locales, power systems, politics, races, lifeforms, history, and challenges, or if you want something as simple as a story about a boy seeking to fulfill the dream of the girl he adores alongside an interesting cast of colorful characters, then Tower of God is for you.
Tower of God also boasts an original soundtrack by Kevin Penkin. If you're a fan of Penkin's work on other shows such as Made in Abyss, Rising of the Shield Hero, The Apothecary Diaries, or the currently airing Spice and Wolf remake, then Tower of God will be well worth your time.
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Hi, I recently turned 37. I was in a relationship for about 2 years during 2013-15 followed by 8 painful months. It was not physical relationship but a completely emotional one. She was from a diff caste and I made our parents meet and both side parents agreed for marriage. Everything was going good.
I went out of India on a project and things went south.
She got married in Jan 2018 and since then I was never in touch with her. However it took me many years to actually move on and get our of it.
During these years my heart was closed for any relationship. My parents also tried to make me speak to many girls for arranged marriage but I was never into it from my heart. So after 2-3 phone calls it didn't use to work.
December 2023 by God's grace, I overcame it and January I made a matrimonial profile for myself.Spoke to a few girls but things didn't work out and I was still not into it, I was too straightforward and blunt and they found it to be rude. A few of them liked me but they didn't click me.
I also joined bumble but found myself unsuitable for it, as I am too old school and I felt that was a very superficial and strange world.
Recently I met a girl through jeevansaathi, on phone She asked me if I am a vir gin and I told her the truth that I am and she laughed at me. Mentioned this vir gin thing here because I wasn't expecting this, and I myself never ask this to anyone. I neve ask anyone's past itself as it may be like rubbing against their wounds.
So this girl told me she was in a 10 yr relationship and I told her that I really respect people who are able to carry relationship for this long. She told me don't start getting attached to me because of this. It touched me as I was surprised how did she know that I am getting attached because of this.
It was only a few phone calls and 1 meet and I was already attached to her before the meet. After 8 years , someone was able to tap my heart.
She rejected me due to some misunderstanding and she doesnt want to have any further communication, so I am unable to resolve it.
I am unable to moveon, please help me. I am feeling helpless and restless.
Also I don't know how can I marry someone whom I don't have any love or affection for. How to get into an arranged marriage.
Please help me, in my life I helped many people to move on but I fail myself.

I just need a place to rant.
Yesterday I found emails on my SOs iPad. They were receipts from an OnlyFans purchase. He also made accounts on “localflirt.com” and googled “nude twitch streamers”. I don’t know if he actually talked to anyone because the OF receipt was enough for me to see. But he says he didn’t talk to anyone he was just “horny” and it was stupid. I kicked him out for a few nights and he went to his parents.. he told his dad what happened and his dad offered to pay for couples counseling and therapy for him.
Listen, I’ve never been one to be upset if my SO watches adult videos. He has needs. But we live paycheck to paycheck, we have a 3 month old, and he told me he spent enough to buy formula. The day before he told me he was stretched pretty thin and we had to limit our outings.
I know my body isn’t the same.. my hormones are EVERYWHERE, I cry about everything and my sex drive is in the gutter. But I didn’t think he’d spend money on OF?? When he gets mad at me for “wasting” my money on things that make me happy when I can.. idk. Not really looking for advice as we’ve decided to work through it and go to individual and couples counseling. Just looking for solidarity really? I feel so insecure and I can’t look at myself in the mirror because I don’t feel as pretty as the other girls he’s been looking at… I feel so ugly. I had my baby 3 months ago and I have no time to go to the gym. I’m trying to go easy on myself. I love him. But I’m so sad. I feel so empty.

I’m a 🏳️‍⚧️ female living with my grandmother and her current husband. I used to live across the country but moved back home when my grandma started presenting health problems. She is such a private person that she would never tell me her conditions until I moved in to help take care of her. It took her a year to share that she had a major cardiac event which triggered my desire to move close to her since she is the last good family I have.
My grandparents were extremely loving and supportive growing up, but my grandmother has always needed two men in her life. My mom has always joked that she is the most traditional member of our family- we are descended from a pre columbian matriarchal society.
When I was 13, my grandma started seeing her current husband shortly after her previous husband died. Grandma never married my grandfather but he stayed in the picture. This new guy, I’ll call him Peter, was super inappropriate. Right away he started bringing me gifts which mostly consisted of army clothes. He would have me dress up in them and then take pictures. My mom immediately saw the red flags and was very vocal about how creepy he was. My home life was extremely unstable, my mom and her husband would constantly fight- I’m talking screaming matches waking my siblings and I up in the middle of the night. My grandpa and grandma were the only sanctuary away from that for years until Peter was allowed into her home.
I remember one summer where we went over to his house while he was moving in, he gave me a can of some off brand drink already open. It tasted funny but I chalked it up to it being off brand. Then he told me to follow him into the basement and from there my memory just sort of fades out. The next thing I know we’re driving away from his house and I have no idea what time or day it is. I just remember coming to and thinking “that’s weird.”
After that he started taking every opportunity to touch me. I don’t mean sexually, stuff like always grabbing or rubbing my lower back whenever he would pass me in the kitchen. It almost always happened in the kitchen and it was often on my back. He would grope my thighs and tell me how muscular I was getting. When I was lifting weights in my home gym he would press himself completely against me and show me the “correct” way to do a tricep workout while I was bent over.
The older I got the more this behavior seemed disgusting and it didn’t stop until I was 23 but that was because I was never around anymore and had moved 1000 miles away. When I moved back I thought that I could let it go and at first it was nice to just be polite with Peter while taking care of my grandma. But then I got a spine injury and that quickly changed. I would lie on the floor at first for relief because I was scared of becoming addicted to pain pills. So for a month all I did was stay home crying on and off from the pain and praying things would get better. Then one day while playing a game on my laptop I felt someone watching me. It was so painful to turn at the waist that I had to crane my neck but in the doorway was Peter, staring at my ass. At first he flinched then tried to act like he was a concerned and just coming to check on me. I told him I wanted to be left alone and he stood there a while longer before finally walking away. I did start taking muscle relaxers but because of the summer heat and my constant pain I wanted to lie on the cool floor of my office. It doesn’t have a door, just a doorway that I put a curtain in front of. Well, Peter started acting creepy all over again. He would literally sneak across the house- his room is on the other side- just to peak through the curtain and stare. To him it was probably like a game, he’s an 80+ year old nasty man who blasts porn and homophobic rhetoric on his tablet. I became hyper vigilant, always stressed that he would try to barge in on my space at any moment. I would lay facing the door after the first time but he still kept doing his shuffle and slowly open the curtain even though the curtain is mostly see through.
I spent the whole summer in recovery and physical therapy but the floor in my personal space was always the most comfortable place in the house. This went on that whole time and every time I caught him- there were times I didn’t notice he was there until the last second so he probably snuck up on me several other times without me knowing at all- he would say “just wanted to check and see that you’re okay. Funny how all that “checking up” stopped when I was able to sit upright and walk without pain in my lower spine again.
After that it was like being 14 again only this time instead of touching he would ogle. My chest is still something he stares at 🤮🤮🤮🤮 Then in January of 2023 I caught him going through my underwear. I had been extra careful while washing everything because I was afraid he would pull this shit but I walked away for ten minutes and when I came back he had all my lingerie in his hands. I. Fucking. Screamed. I yelled at him to put my clothes back where he found them but Peter just started throwing everything from the washer into the dryer, and then he grabbed everything out of my dirty laundry basket and threw that in the dryer too. He likes to cover his tracks so I think he was trying to make it seem like he was being oh so helpful and putting my laundry in the dryer for me. The way he was touching my underwear told a completely different story.
I love my grandma, but at 22 I tried talking to her about Peter’s behavior and what happened when I was 13. Her response was “I don’t believe that happened.” So, now at 30 I don’t even want to try talking. I just want to enjoy my what time I have left with her because once she’s gone then everyone who raised me is gone. That thought is terrifying and does not help that now when I see Peter all I want to do is scream and throw things. I want to make him cry, make him feel scared, make him run and hide in his own home for the rest of his miserable, disgusting life. Anyways, just wanted to be able to say something somewhere for once and unfiltered. if any other people out there are feeling alone and stuck in horrible situations just know that there's love for you in people you have not met and you're worth more than the bullshit you're put through.

my special interest is Phighting (specifically Scythespace) and I like rock, metal, and indie/alt rock. I prefer to talk to girls but boys and anyone else r also welcome :D
now here are the lyrics to "pink triangle" by weezer: When I'm stable long enough I start to look around for love See a sweet in floral print My mind begins the arrangements But when I start to feel that pull Turns out I just pulled myself She would never go with me Were I the last girl on earth I'm dumb, she's a lesbian I thought I had found the one We were good as married in my mind But married in my mind's no good Oh, pink triangle on her sleeve Let me know the truth, let me know the truth Might have smoked a few in my time But never thought it was a crime Knew the day would surely come When I'd chill and settle down When I think I've found a good old-fashioned girl Then she put me in my place Everyone's a little queer Oh, can't she be a little straight? I'm dumb, she's a lesbian I thought I had found the one We were good as married in my mind But married in my mind's no good Oh, pink triangle on her sleeve Let me know the truth, let me know the truth I'm dumb, she's a lesbian I thought I had found the one Oh, we were good as married in my mind But married in my mind's no good Oh, pink triangle on her sleeve Let me know the truth, let me know the truth I'm dumb, she's a lesbian I thought I had found the one Oh, we were good as married in my mind But married in my mind's no good Oh, pink triangle on her sleeve Let me know the truth Let me know the truth Let me know the truth Let me know the truth

(After writing this post it feels like a bit of a rant, so sorry in advance/skip if you don't want to read it.)
Almost everything I see on this sub is about how Eloise is annoying, too preachy, all talk no action. She's just a privileged girl with nothing to complain about. Could she shut up about women's rights for a minute? Ugh she's such a killjoy, in fact she's the most anti-feminist character on this show because she looks down on other girls.
This season some people are coming around a little bit--I agree it's nice to see her trying to get along with others more, but I haven't seen a single complaint about her suddenly caring less about social issues, which makes me think that most of the fandom just thought her views were the annoying part about her.
All these sentiments reek of this anti-feminism trend I've been seeing over the past couple years. Girls these days are being pushed this narrative that femininity is the goal, marriage and babies is actually the greatest accomplishment and capitalism is trying to convince you otherwise, relying on men is actually very girlboss when you think about it because you're spending their money.
Coming back to Bridgerton, I just find it so baffling--Eloise is in a society where women have, quite literally, no options. She can't study. She can't work. She can't travel, like Colin. She can't become an artist, like Benedict, because women aren't allowed in art classes (unless they're the nudist models themselves). She can't enter intellectual spheres, because no one would take her seriously.
Marriage--giving her self to the legal ownership of a man--is her only option besides spinsterhood. But she's supposed to be grateful that spinsterhood is even an option for her, since it isn't for people like Cressida? She's supposed to respect the 'feminine talents' of other debutantes, when to her they represent female oppression? (And b/c this is reddit, I have to clarify: obviously embroidery and music and whatever are legitimate talents, but in this society they are all a women is permitted to do.)
Maybe it's because most of the Bridgerton audience are westerners who can't fathom what living like this is like, but imho Eloise is very reasonable to be angry with society.

is there really no way for me being liked back? i am not his type, let alone his ideal. honestly even after 2 years of no communication and us recently had a talk last week, made me think i actually never moved on and that i still like him.
i do not wish for any romantic relationship because i can't afford that, i'm just curious if it is indeed impossible. somehow, i wanted to use it as a motivation to drive me from being the girl that i want.
i tried not to think about my lingering feelings on him, because last time i confessed i ruined it by being so weird and nervous around him that the conversation i hold sound forced, and i keep getting hurt because of my actions as i always keep overthinking about it. that's why i wanted to protect our friendship, because that's the only way i can hold and be close to him.
he is nonchalant, and i don't really know how to keep up a conversation with him too ㅠㅠ
he likes games, his favourite lol player is T1 members, he likes to read and he is somewhat a content creator. despite all these years, i still know a lot of him and still find him as one of the genuine people i really like to have in my life.
i know this is confusing as i said i do not wish for anything, but somehow i wanted to be liked even if it's not romantic. do i make sense? i like talking to him, i like how he made me feel, i like spending time with him even knowing he actsd like that with his friends too, i like his attention but i barely get that, idk how to even hold a connection with him as he isn't a talker either or was it just me he couldn't open about?
ACTUALLY NEVERMIND, I THINK I'M JUST TALKING NONSENSE BUT HAVING A CRUSH ON HIM FEELS GOOD.
To be honest, i might get hated by saying this but even if i met other men [ who ruined my life ] during those years that there wasn't a communication, i still think of him and i remembered crying over the fact that my ex wanted me to delete the playlist he promised to keep because he knew that he was once my crush [ tho i had a realisation that there's still a lingering feeling ] made me cried so hard that time because those were good times, and having to delete that made me feel like i would lose something on me because after choosing to leave and move on from him, that's the only thing that was left from me.
I don't mind deleting him on other social media but not the playlist, i barely had met anyone who genuinely made me happy when life was difficult so having to delete that made me like like it is also deleting a happy memories that only comes once in a while..
Also i'm glad i am no longer his because those 2 years and half months that i've been with him made me felt like i am living in prison, lost a lot of genuine connection having to deal with a guy who has deep rotten issues and insecurity that i felt like i am not his partner but a teacher who is also a mother parenting her child.

I'm a 20 years old virgin, from France, and I never had a girlfriend. My life changed during the last 3 years : I went studying in a almost science only sector. As a result women in my class basically disappeared ( last year for example 0 women for 17 mens). And in parallel I plunged deeper in incel behavior, notably being very bitter with myself and seeing no hope in a relationship.
But I want to improve myself: I quitted porn around 3 weeks ago ( didn't stop masturbating, I use stories or audio) for example I'm trying to educate myself about tolerance of others or respecting more women. But I know I can and need to do more if I want to escape myself from sadness and doubt ( I spend the afternoon having dark thoughts while browsing IncelTears for example).
My schedule is very full due to my studies and I can't go out of my dorms often ( still did it this week, even went to the bar with 2 girls and my male friends). As a result I can't do much activities besides studying ( I would like to try the gym, but I can't find the time to go and my poor self esteem prevent me from going).
What can I do, that doesn't take too long to improve myself? I feel like a coward that can't achieve anything alone or just start something. I have more free time on the weekend, but I'm kinda far away from cities and most of my friend left the region ( I have a car).
Feel free to contact with DM if you are more comfortable there.

Hi yall. I am looking to get my first big girl camera after only using my iPhone and parent’s old cameras from the 2000’s. I am primarily interested in using it for nature and wildlife photography after being riddled with regret for not buying one prior to going to Borneo. Since it’s my first camera and it’s just for fun, I’d prefer to not spend over $800 on one. I have been looking at the Canon Rebel T7 as Best Buy offers a dual lens package for $600. My friend recommended against this, saying I should look into mirrorless cameras since they are lighter and would be easier to carry on hikes and what not. It seems most mirrorless cameras, though, start at 8/900$ and typically that isn’t including a lens. I’ve now spent the day in wormhole of camera information and I’m wondering y’all’s opinions. I’m also open to other camera options, I just struggle to determine the best options when so many of the camera features are terms I’m unfamiliar with. Thanks in advance and I’m sorry if posts like this are frowned upon

It is very embarrassing to me to talk about this, but I need to preface this saying we are obviously adults here in spite of him being many years older than me, he is also divorced so I am obviously not being a homewrecker or hurting anybody.
I have always been into more mature men. I feel more listened, cared and well treated around men that tend to be a bit older than I am. I am not sure if it is a age/maturity thing, or that they have been raised in another time, but they really tend to be more romantic.
I met my friend's father at her birthday dinner 1 month and a few days ago. It is also important to note that we are not like super close friends, but we get to share a friend group. I immediately clicked with this man, he is very and I mean VERY fun to be around, it is quite impossible for him to not make you laugh. We exchanged phone numbers that day and since its been a non stop o messaging. He has done things for me, this little details no one has ever, ordering breakfast with a message or taking me to fancy places. We have been intimate but we always do meet at my place since this way there is no chance that she would pop up.
We both had agreed that this was going to be a temporary thing, that we were just feeling ourselves with no seriousness. I dont exactly know how but my friend realised he has been seeing someone because he looks "happier" to which he replied that he indeed was.
As my friend got more and more insisting in the details he had to lie to her to protect our thing. Now he says he feel bad for having lied to his daughter and he feels guilty. I have proposed on stopped seeing each other but that he is not sure that'd be enough for him to get that off his chest. I dont feel the need to blow things up like this specially if we stop seeing each other NOW. Aitah for just wanting to slide this away and keep our lives? Listening to our brain instead of our heart would be the right idea for me since theres more to lose than it is to win. What should we do?

my sister (19F) and I (17F) have NEVER gotten along for long. we've argued our whole lives and we are the complete opposite of each other. if it helps, shes an INFJ and im an INFP.
so we'd argued all day, literally since I woke up we've been arguing. so things were already tense.
we had to go to my grandparents for a birthday thing for lunch and I don't eat at the table (I never do, this isn't new and no one cares). but ofc my sister takes it upon herself to tell me it's disrespectful. maybe if I was at some formal dinner but these r my grandparents, I stay at their place for weeks at a time (mostly to get away from my sister). I tell her that no one cares and I just wanna watch TV while I eat.
so I put a movie on (I also asked her earlier if she wanted to watch any in there from my collection of blu rays but she said I only have boy movies, bc thats another thing, she criticises my favourite things but whatever). as I'm setting up the movie she comes in and says shes gonna eat in here. I told her I like to eat alone (especially since she's been pissing me off all day) and she's stubborn as hell so I decided to leave and just eat somewhere else.
which is ridiculous, she doesnt even want to watch a movie she just hates our grandpa and our dad so she doesnt want to sit with them (I have great relationships with them too, she hates the ENTIRE family except mum and nana).
but when I left, she gets pissy bc she handles emotions as well as a 6 year old so she narcs to mum (which she does ALL THE TIME). so I don't wanna start anything so I come back and just deal with it but then she just says despicable me. I'm like what? she says I wanna watch despicable me. yeah no matter I'd just spent 5 minutes skipping the ads on this movie and my food is getting cold) but WHATEVER. I go to get it and im changing going thru the motions again, all the ads.
also the movie I'd put on before was hotel Transylvania but she didn't wanna watch it bc its "sad". she calls every family movie sad. I csnt even say the word WALL-E or god forbid fhe lion king. I'm an insanely emotional person, but the difference between us is I like to express sadness and I cry a lot when she expresses all her emotions in anger. she says im depressed all the time and makes fun and asks if I "forgot my anti-depressants". I don't even take them, and if I did she'd mock me and say that that im a bad person for taking mental heath drugs.
so movies on, I can finally eat and for a while we actuslly get along and since it's a background movie rly she's not forcing me to rewind every 3 minutes. that's y I stopped watching movies with her, she made me rewind and it's take a afternoon to watch ONE movie. she also didn't want to watch anything with me when our parents were home as if she's embarrassed to watch stuff with me. which feels GREAT. I think it's bc she doesn't want dad to see her watch a "kids" movie like beethoven.
so we laughing, it's okay. well except the part when she says i need to eat like a "lady" and that i need to be "ladylike". do u know how much that makes me want to burp in her face?im considered relatively "unladylike" i guess. i swear a lot and i make a lot of dirty jokes. its part of my charm lol. she hates it tho. and my sarcasm, REALLY hates it.
i finish eating snd after a while I get a little bored so I start playing temple run 2 on my phone. she HATES me reading, or looking st my phone if she's with me, she gets rly angry but I'd figured since its just a background movie it's fine. she says to me, very blunt, get off her ur phone. and I have this thing where I hate being told what to do, if it's unreasonable or how they say it. so I don't get off my phone. she then opens her phone and starts watching yt shorts very loudly. I think she expects this to annoy me but news flash, I don't give a shit what she does bc I don't obsess over what other ppl do like she does.
still tho, I don't wanna listen to her preachy, anti-feminism, homophobic bullshit on full blast. thats another thing, I'm a huge supporter of the feminist movement and equality and lgbt rights when shes dead against it. she thinks mothers csnt have careers and being lgbt is wrong. she uses her religion as an excuse for it too. I'm a nihilist as well so every time I say jesus or oh my god she freaks out at me. idc what her religion is, I don't tell her what to do but she tells me I'm being disrespectful. oh I csn get real disrespectful real fast but I don't bc thats her opinion and this is mine.
some thing thats ironic is that im super for lgbt and women rights even more bc of her. I hate seeing how hateful she is towards these groups and minorities so it's made me support them even more. also fhe fact that she's called me a lesbian and intersex and a boy snd countless other things bc of my interests. I'm straight and an lgbt ally who loves marvel and star wars and video games and shee sees those as reasons to call me a lesbian? she also says I dress like one but she dresses like strawberry fucking shortcake if she had no style whatsoever. I wear movie referenced t shirts and hoodies and I like to think I have some sense of style but she says I dress like a boy bc of ONE Simpson skeleton on my shirt. she also says fhe complete opposite if I wear my hair in pigtails, that I dress like a little girl. which is it, sister dearest? am I a boy or a little girl?
anyway, as I was saying she starts watching stuff at full blast, I don't say anything I just put my headphones on. then she starts getting mad. oh she HATES my headphones, she thinks its the most disrespectful thing. I have a lot of anxiety when I leave the house so I have my headphones on all the time, music calms me and I listen to music every day and it's just something i do but she hates it. I dont see y it's different for me to wear my headphones if I'm not gonna talk to anyone anyway. she feels the same when I read around her. I love books, I read a lot and its yet AHOTHER thing she hates about me.
so she starts getting angrier and telling me to take my headphones off but by this point I'm done with the movie anyway and I wanna be alone so I get up to leave. I say I'm not dealing with this shit. she then puts her feet up on the pouffe (which I let her use bc theres only one and she was complaining) to block me. I tell her to move and she says to stay and watch the movie with her. now it's her words that I understand what she rly means. she wants me to sit and watch the movie with her for some reason. but no, I'm not dealing with her bullshit. she keeps blocking me and then she gets up and im just trying to get past without hurting her but shes not ceasing.
bc forcing someone to sit with u and bossing them around is the best way to bond with ur little sister ofc.
eventually I start shouting at her bc ik she'll start to panic if our grandpa will hear. (She's so fake in front of him too, all smiley and happy when inside she hates him. shes like that with every human in the planet besides me mum, dad and nana. she just openly hates me and dad. it's interesting to me how she hates everyone and makes fun of ppl online but yet she still worries about hurting their feelings more than anyone ik. she can be empathetic in that sense at least. it's hard for someone who sees the world in black and white tho, as she does. I just see fifty Shades of grey (hah).
but my shouting isn't working so I'm done and I shove her out the way and ofc that rly ticks her off. I don't understand what she expects me to do, but she gets rly angry when it happens. she shouts for mum ofc. I grab all my stuff so she csnt do anything to it (she breaks my lego regularly and changes the bookmarked pages in my books a lot and searches thru my phone and texts if I leave anything around her). im just heading to the backyard so I'm away from her, I thought about leaving the house entirely but we were gonna leave soon anyway (or i was told).
I walk past mum on my way out and she asks what's wrong snd I'm just too pissed off to rly explain anything so I just say my sister js crazy or something like that. I sit outside listening to music and avoid my sister rhe rest of the afternoon. I knew she'd be talking to my mum about what I did and spinning it so I was the hateful sister who doesnt want to watch a movie with her which yeah is technically true but how is it fair that she treats me like that still? am I supposed to just let her walk all over me?
my mum thinks that. she tells me to give in and just agree to anything and just do whatever my sister says. my mum is my sisters slave too. she'll do anything to keep the peace and just agrees to whatever my sister wants. the countless times she gets whatever take away she wants and im left with the leftovers in the fridge bc im the "easy child". Or at least I used to be, fron my mums perspective. just bc im chill and not insanely entitled and demanding like my sister.
so later in the night when we all at home I go to the kitchen and my mums in tjere and my dads rhere too, just eating. little did the man know what he'd be in the middle of in a few minutes.
my mum hasn't spoken to me about what went down at my grandparents, hasn't gotten my perspective but whatever. she asks me what was so wrong with watching a movie with my sister. I didn't even stop watching the movie bc of my sister, I just had it on while I ate my dinner and I told her as much. they always do this, say "with ur sister" when it's just something we just happened to both be doing. they make it sound like I'm deliberately being a dick to her bc im hateful. then my mum starts going off and saying shit like "u watch movies with ur friends and ur father, y csnt u watch them with her?" I didn't wanna say that I csnt watch movies with her bc it gets on my nerves bc my sister csn hear everyrthing in the house, we all constantly aware of that as if she's always listening, its creepy as hell but she's too nosy.
I say that I was done with the movie and she started bossing me around so I left. That's the truth bur my mum was like NO DONT GIVE ME THAT SHIT, U DONT WANT TO WATCH MOVIES WITH HER BUT U DO WITH UR FRIENDS AND UR FATHER. U NEVER DO ANYTHING WITH HER, HOW DO U THINK THAT MAKES HER FEEL? UR NOT UNDERSTANDING HER SIDE
ya know what's even dumber, they use my OWN FUCKING ARGUMENTS against me. I always say to consider the others persons side and to understand everyone's perspective. and she has fhe GALL to say I don't get her side? OFC I DO BUT SHES TOO FUCKING UNBEARABLE
and I never do anything with her or watch movies with her bc she hates mt favourite movies and shows and vice versa. my favourite movies deadpool and j spend mt days watching marvel, star wars, Disney, musicals, sci fi, action, romance, dramas when she watches REALITY TV AND HORRORS.
PROBABLY THE ONLY 2 GENRES I DONT WATCH. I watch SO MANY DIFFERENT THINGS and she happens to watch the ones I HATE. how r we supposed to watch stuff together with all that, and her bloody rewinding and her criticisms? ITS IMPOSSIBLE.
we agree on very few movies and when we do she wants to watch them so much that she thrashes them. now I'm a person who's seen deadpool a million times and I rewatch everything, I've seen the office thousands of times but she still somehow manages to ruin things for me. she nearly ruined fawlty towers.
now on one hand, my sister has no friends and every one she's ever had has always betrayed or bullied her. thats true, mostly. ppl have been horrible to her forever, I understand she is damaged but she takes it out on me. and how can she ever make friends again if they ever make mistakes she never forgives them? I have a friend who ratted me out to the teacher on the first week I met her for swearing bur she's one if mt closest friends going on 5 years now. every friend I have has fucked up before obviously we human we mess up and learn. my sister won't accept any mistake outside of me or mum. my dad has suffered from that as has my aunt and my cousins. they messed up one too many times and instead of communicating with them, she ignored it so it continued and now she'll never forgive them. obviously that doesn't excuse their behavior but she has to forgive or else she'll be alone. this is the only reason y I still give her chances, bc I used to think maybe she'll learn and get better. but she still treats me worse than anyone I've ever known. but I dont want to give up on her like she's done.
when I move out (as fast as fucking possible) I'll still see her but just a lot less. She and I rly don't work well and she hates everyrthing and everyone important to me.
Still tho, perhaps I am the asshole here. Idk rly. I don't treat her perfectly either, I try tho. And I apologise and I mean it. When she apologises she just means she's sorry she's hurt me, not for what she djd. Bc she does it again and again and again.

There’s so much vitriol towards short men on the internet, but the solution for this is simple. Avoid engaging with content like this and bham, for the most part you will no longer see it.
Here’s the problem.
You’d think you wouldn’t hear anything about height in real life. Hence why so many lurkers say “just go outside”; good advice in principle, but when you are short. And I mean short. It’s unavoidable.
People make comments. Sometimes snarky, sometimes just to test how much you care, sometimes without even realising they slip up and say something that directly shits on short men, prejudging them as unequal(usually without even realising).
I usually shrug it off. Forget about it. But lately it’s been feeling like little microscopic splinters just building up in my head. A large portion of those splinters originate from me being shorter than peers and teens way younger than me. Yeah. It’s not sitting right having a full stumble and being dwarfed by teenage girls.
Is it possible to become completely numb to it? To never care about what people say about your body type ever again. To never feel down when people almost autonomously attribute male shortness to ugliness or physical insignificance? To never feel bothered when a woman makes a “too short” remark.
Is it possible to not care at all. Not even a tiny, tiny ounce?

I apologize for lack of a picture it’s not my dog, I was just tasked with putting a feeler out on Reddit. It’s a white/blonde long hair golden retriever, she’s scared of men but is a sweet girl, she got lost this morning around 6am from the 56th and Alton area, we were getting constant sightings of her up until about noon-ish and then she disappeared. If anyone sees her please let me know I can get you in contact with the appropriate people, just worrying about this pupper.

My daughter’s tenth birthday party was today. At one of those indoor fracture farms trampoline places. Invited seven girls, two boys. Boys were Nicolas and Daniel. She’s sweet on Nicolas because he’s got red red hair; she likes gingers.
In the way home, she says to me ,whistfully, “Dad, do you think there will be a day when Nicolas might think of me as more than a friend?”
My poor child, Nicolas is nine years old; it could be three or four years before he discovers girls. May the gods grant her patience!