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2024.06.09 22:38 TempusCarpe The Confirmed Hoax Fallacy

The Confirmed Hoax Fallacy
The Confirmed Hoax Fallacy An Old Argument Raises Its Ignorant Head Yet Again TEMPORAL RECON JUN 8
I was recently invited to write an essay by someone who I respect greatly in their own personal search for truth. He asked that, while an update to Conviction of a Time Traveler is not necessarily in the offing, he did wonder if I might be amenable to a friendly reminder of the evidence provided in COATT nearly a decade ago now.
What spurred his request was that he had noticed recently that several people online had been echoing the ‘confirmed hoax’ trope when discussions would might around to the John Titor series of posts which occurred online back in 2000/2001.
His noticing of this false argument was nothing new; I had also noticed it crop up from time to time over the last 20 years. I hold the ‘confirmed hoax’ argument in special and particular disdain. Why?
Primarily because evidence exists and was provided in Conviction of a Time Traveler in 2009 that Titor was legitimate and, ironically enough, was read by many of the so-called experts espousing the ‘confirmed hoax’ lie. So when these fake experts tell you that the Titor story was a ‘confirmed hoax,’ they are lying to you.
Conviction of a Time Traveler provided new and original evidence that has never, to date, been debunked since its publication; a full 14 years. The evidence provided (which many of these lazy forum participants are aware of) pointed to one, inexorable and inescapable conclusion: Titor was legit. But this evidence, while never disproven, is always ignored. Why is that? We’ll put a pin in that…
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Ironically, not only has the evidence documented in Conviction of a Time Traveler never been debunked, but it has also even been plagiarized by lazy authors who can’t be bothered to do original research or, lacking the intellectual horsepower necessary to do even that, fail to provide appropriate attribution to their source material.
So what of this, ‘Confirmed Hoax’ claim? Is it true? HAS the John Titor episode actually been ‘confirmed’ as a hoax?
When someone in a position of pretend authority declares from their cardboard pedestal that the John Titor story is a ‘Confirmed Hoax,’ have you ever noticed they never provide the person who did the confirming?
“Confirmed hoax?” ‘Confirmed’ by whom, pray tell?
When the term ‘Confirmed Hoax’ is used, what imagery comes to mind? I dare say it implies that some sort of shadowy group of learned scholars sat around a big wooden table, carefully assessed and addressed the claims. All the evidence and counter-arguments were carefully measured while hidden away in some stone castle somewhere until a white puff of smoke curls over its stone-tiled rooftops, declaring to the world once and for all,
“Our confirmation is complete. John Titor was a hoax!”
Bullshit.
Here’s the dirty little secret of the ‘Confirmed Hoax’ statements: they are actually shorthand for,
“I don’t have the intellectual capacity to argue in favor or against, so in order to come off like some sort of authority and maintain my fake position of authority, I’ll just take the safest position and simply declare that the Titor story is a hoax, that it was ‘confirmed’ and let’s please just move on to some other topic.”
‘Confirmed Hoax,’ is a coward’s gambit, a bet, that there won’t be anyone to come along to rock the boat and topple these posers off their flimsy stage of pretend authority.
This was the environment I walked into when I first published Conviction of a Time Traveler in 2010, and apparently, it hasn’t changed in 15 years.
When I first posted on Paranormalis (IIRC) announcing that I had written a book that documented the evidence in favor of Titor’s veracity, the then-reigning Titor authority (‘Darby’) haughtily pronounced, “Present your evidence and we’ll discuss it.”
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It was in that moment that I chose a path that nobody before me had ever embarked upon. I said, “No.”
Nobody had ever said ‘no’ before. There are pages and pages of forum posts by people before me who discovered some of the same bits and pieces that I discovered that pointed to Titor’s truth. And they were excited to show what they had discovered! And, owing to their excitement, and unfortunately, their naivete, they excitedly shared their evidence, wrongfully believing that the forums’ leadership was interested in getting to the bottom of the Titor episode.
Little did they suspect that ‘Darby’ and others were acting as gatekeepers of truth, whose sole purpose was to establish and maintain a lid on the narrative that was the John Titor episode. He, and his ilk gaslighted and bullied these poor naifs into silence by using their fake authority to debunk and explain away the very real evidence they had discovered.
That is, until COATT was published.
Unfortunately for these enemies of Truth, the internet is forever. In my research leading up to the publication of Conviction of a Time Traveler, I had the benefit of not only studying Titor’s posts, but also all the follow-on discussions after their departure.
I reviewed literally years of online forum content and, as I did so, I made a very curious observation: in all the years of discussion after Titor departed, not one piece of evidence ever (ever) caused ‘Darby’ or any of the other fake authorities to question their ‘it’s a hoax!’ position. They NEVER saw a piece of evidence that they didn’t dismiss, mock, ignore or explain away with contortions of logic that would make Wetzel’s Pretzels blush. This is in stark contrast to how someone who was truly in search of truth would act.
If ‘Darby’ and the others truly were curious, isn’t this a little odd? Really? Not ONE piece of evidence ever caused ‘Darby’ to pause and say, “hmm, that’s interesting…”
Not once, ever.
And there are years of forum posts to confirm this.
So, when Darby commanded from his perch of fake authority that I ‘present my evidence so that we might discuss it’ I laughed in his face [paraphrasing],
“No. A real discussion of the evidence hasn’t occurred here for years, and I do not recognize your so-called position as some sort of ‘expert’ on the Titor story. LITERALLY EVERYTHING there is to learn, or study, is published in the Titor posts for all to read. You hold no special knowledge, no special position, no special nothing. I do not submit to your fake authority. You want to learn about Titor, read the book.”
Or words to that effect, anyway…
In the end, the evidence provided in COATT was so unassailable and the argument so solid that ‘Darby’ and his ilk suddenly became more and more quiet as they slowly realized I wasn’t going to wilt under their “authoritay.” Eventually, they slinked away with their rhetorical tails tucked.
But this was not the end of the story! Because ‘time travel’ had become quite the pet interest of mine (owing to the further evidence I discovered after publication), that I continued to post online in various discussion forums. I even wrote numerous essays on a variety of topics, all spurred on by the ‘time travel’ question and all its implications.
Fast Forward Fast forwarding to today, we’re back at the ‘confirmed hoax’ argument again. What was once offered up (“HOAX!”) by Darby and others, is now cold soup served by the latest crop of fake authorities. And what happens when fake authority utters the ‘Confirmed Hoax’ discussion-brake? The same thing that happened a decade ago: the earnest neophyte shrugs their shoulders secure in the false belief that others smarter than they have studied the topic and arrived at some irrefutable conclusion; no further discussion necessary (or allowed). They have no idea just how close they came to uncovering something truly fantastic, had they only relied on their own judgment instead of the know-nothing proclamations of others.
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Which brings me to why I wrote COATT in the first place. Instead of simply doing my research and arriving at my own (private) conclusion, I realized that too many people were believing fake authority and ignoring Titor’s warnings about our future. Once I realized that Titor was legitimate (caveated, of course), how could I NOT share my findings? The stakes were simply too high.
IF what Titor said were true 24 years ago, that the world was heading for an upending change in the status quo, and that many people would die as a result of it, how could I remain silent and not inform others that his warnings were something to be listened to? Perhaps people with ears to hear might take heed and make the appropriate preparations. I know I did.
But, as my friend has informed me, it appears that the fake experts have reared their ugly and useless heads once again telling us that there is ‘nothing to the Titor story’ and that it is a “confirmed hoax.”
THIS was the reason that I was recently asked to provide my evidence once again. And THIS is the reason this essay is dragging on. These pretenders to authority are like roaches; as soon as the exterminator leaves, they come out of the woodwork intent on dismantling the Truth once again. God’s work never ends, it seems, even with a 99% success rate…
So, now that we’ve got all THAT out of the way, and as a sort of transition, I’d like to bring you up to speed on what I’ve been up to since I published Conviction of a Time Traveler in 2010.
To be perfectly frank, after COATT’s publication, I thought I was done with the Titor story; I had said my piece and was perfectly willing to move on with my life and prepare for the event that causes the change in the status quo. But the annoying fact was that the Titor story itself didn’t end with the cessation of Titor’s posts in 2001.
As new evidence appeared in the months and years following publication, like dog shit on my shoe that I can’t scrape off, I could never cleanly cleave myself from the Titor story. Not that I wanted to, mind you, it is a fascinating topic, regardless of your opinion.
But what surprised me the most was that new evidence continued to appear, year after year. And, as more evidence appeared, my curiosity was consistently kept piqued and on alert. Trust me, it is exhausting.
To give you a sense of what I discovered, I can tell you that your experts are wrong and that ‘time travel’ is neither novel nor unusual; we are very literally awash in ‘time travelers.’ My research suggests that ‘time machines’ have been present in our past going as far back as 850AD. But I digress.
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Suffice it to say that the Titor rabbit hole is but one example of a massively large group of programs from an unknown number of organizations from across time. The ‘time travel’ question runs much deeper (and much farther back in time) and crosses over into more (so-called) esoteric topics than anyone gives it credit for. As I said, it’s exhausting.
My whole point here is that, even after I published in 2009, my curiosity in the topic (and its implications of yet larger vistas) did not wane. And, because of this continued and unabating curiosity, I discovered yet more evidence, crafted more theories and came to more conclusions.
A philosopher once described the acquisition of new information as an ever-expanding circle surrounding the man; a horizon where known and unknown meet where new answers only beget new questions which push the circle farther and farther out. This has been my experience over the last 15 years re the Titor narrative and the larger ‘time travel’ question. How could it be otherwise?
Unfortunately for you, you are being convinced by fools that the Titor episode is a ‘Confirmed Hoax.’ You haven’t even made the leap to the possibility that ‘time travel’ is even possible. How can you explore the implications of ‘time travel’ when you can’t even consider its reality, a fundamental starting point? I have a very strong (ehem) conviction that our collective naïveté on the subject will be violently revoked in the very near ‘future.’
The Two Camps, The Two Mistakes During my research, I observed that within the Titor commentariat there are two basic camps: the Debunkers and the True Believers.
The Debunking camp will provide any contortion of logic to maintain the ‘Titor was a hoax’ narrative.
The True Believers, on the other hand, will believe any contortion of logic that maintains their belief in The Gospel of John.
What if I told you both camps were wrong?
Now, the debunking camp will tell you that Titor must be a hoax because his predictions didn’t come true. Oh, well…his predictions didn’t come true? I guess we’re done then? Obviously, his whole purpose for posting was to make predictions like some Magic Eight Ball, right? And if those don’t pan out, well, ‘CONFIRMED HOAX!’
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On the other side of that coin, the True Believers out there, who never saw a confirmation bias they didn’t love, will tell you that Titor’s predictions didn’t come true because he changed the future. This of course is a recipe for explaining away literally any detracting evidence thus making Titor true no matter any evidence to the contrary.
Let’s take the True Believers first:
The concept of Divergence, while a handy explanation, does not/cannot explain all differences in histories away. In fact, were what Titor said was true (remember, we are True Believers for the moment and are taking Titor’s words as gospel) he absolutely must take measures to minimize divergence as much as possible and NOT allow it to span wildly. Otherwise, the entire power of the ‘time machine’ is rendered moot. I accept that Divergence is likely a real measurement necessary for the efficient execution of ‘time travel’ missions, but it should, by no means, be the magic skeleton key to explain away every question.
In fact, while divergence is very likely a real ‘thing’ or artifact or measurement of difference between world lines, the Truth is that divergence must absolutely be kept to a minimum to make any practical use of the gravity engine sitting in the back seat of your old blue Geo Metro.
So, no. Divergence cannot be the handy tool we need to contort ourselves into believing, as much as we might like to.
Now for the debunkers:
The debunkers have a variety of options available to them to argue that Titor was a ‘confirmed hoax.’ Regardless, these arguments typically boil down to two primary classes:
He has special training or knowledge, and/or
He’s just a lucky guesser.
Unfortunately for the debunkers (and those who listen to them), these explanations make a very serious error: that predictions are a relevant metric to judge Titor’s truth at all. They are not.
Serious question: Why should a ‘time traveler’ be subject to the same metrics that a psychic is to determine if his claims of ‘time travel’ are true?
The point here is that you can’t compare a horse to a whale and complain that the horse can’t swim. They are two completely different animals, and the same goes for ‘time travelers’ and psychics or tarot readers or any other domain whose reputation is dependent on the true-ness of the information they provide. Comparing Titor’s predictions to actual, experienced history is also an imperfect and inappropriate metric if one is to objectively assess Titor from a blank slate starting point. This points to a much deeper insight into the true purpose of the Titor posts, but that’s for a different day.
So, because of both these problems, any real researcher worth their salt would have to find some other way to determine the truth/falsity of the Titor narrative.
Remember, when first approaching the Titor question as an objective investigator, Titor is both equally a hoax and legitimate. Imagine Schrodinger’s cat meets Columbo…
I’ll give you this observation for free, just to get your juices flowing:
Did you notice that absolutely none of John’s predictions (event + date) came true, but all his statements concerning conditions about our future did?
Don’t you find this interesting? Or hadn’t you noticed, too blinded by the bright and shiny, attention-grabbing predictions of nuclear war?
But I am getting ahead of myself; we still haven’t provided the evidence that it’s simply more likely that Titor was an actual time traveler than some ‘hoaxer genius.’ And so we finally get to the whole point of this essay in the first place, a reminder and summary of the evidence first provided in Conviction of a Time Traveler all the way back in those halcyon days of 2010:
  1. Wireless Internet: Titor correctly predicted the advent of wireless internet when we were still using dial-up modems and America Online. Cable internet connections had only just been introduced.
“My closest friend raises horses and another works for a company that maintains “wireless” Internet nodes.”
– J. Titor, Nov 7, 2000
  1. YouTube becoming like ‘live theatre’: Titor correctly predicted the social evolution of YouTube and the decentralization of entertainment away from Hollywood evolving from short videos of grannies and cute kittens on Youtube to a sort of “live theatre” where actual shows would be presented by literally anyone, online, in a world that hadn’t even seen streaming services or video sharing services such as Rumble, etc.
“Yes, there is an entertainment industry. Again, it is very decentralized. The technology to express yourself with video is so readily available that many people do it all by themselves or in small groups. Much of the distribution is over the web. I would compare it theater here.”
-J. Titor
  1. IBM 5100 special capabilities: The statement that kicked everything off. Titor correctly identified the secret capabilities of the very first desktop computer manufactured by IBM in the 1970’s. These capabilities were utterly unknown and unacknowledged until Titor’s appearance in 2000. Interestingly, using this information, I was able to determine the most likely candidate of Titor’s grandfather which, upon this identification, also explained why Titor had to go all the way back to 1975 to pick up a copy of the 5100 and not 1985, 1995, or ‘elsewhen.’
“I was “sent” to get an IBM computer system called the 5100. It was one the first portable computers made and it has the ability to read the older IBM programming languages in addition to APL and Basic.”
– J. Titor, Nov 15, 2000
  1. VOIP: Titor correctly predicted the development of phone calls being run across the internet, again, in a time where downloading a picture over dial-up took minutes.
“Many people use the Internet for communication and entertainment. I would say that affects our speech. We type very fast.”
– J. Titor, Feb 15, 2001
  1. Soldier’s Winter Poem: Titor correctly predicted the poem, by name, “A Soldier’s Winter” and its topic. There is more to this particular prediction and statement about “A Soldier’s Winter“ than meets the eye, however.
“A Soldier’s Winter.”
-J. Titor, Feb 21, 2001
  1. Second gulf war: Titor correctly predicted a second incursion into Iraq by allied forces. There is also more to this statement by Titor as well. But that’s a little advanced for right now.
“Are you really surprised to find out that Iraq has nukes now or is that just BS to whip everyone up into accepting the next war?”
-J. Titor, Feb 25, 2001
  1. WMD and ‘hype’: Titor correctly predicted that the WMD story was hype and not to be believed (also, there is more to this statement than is visible on the surface). This statement’s purpose is closely related to statements #6 and #9.
“Are you really surprised to find out that Iraq has nukes now or is that just BS to whip everyone up into accepting the next war?”
-J. Titor, Feb 25, 2001
  1. Optical Measurement for atomic clock: A biggie. Titor correctly predicted the development of a new sort of atomic clock and the reasons why it was an improvement over the then-current ‘radio’ method of atomic measurement (more precise).
Specifically, atomic clocks determine the length of a second by measuring the frequency of a particular atom. Cesium, Rhodium, etc. Measuring this frequency is done using something called the “radio method” which makes use of a gas and hitting that gas and atom with a microwave (the ‘radio’ part of the measurement). However, Titor claimed that a new ‘time machine’ had been developed that makes use of an optical means of measuring the atom’s frequency, an improvement. The Optical Frequency Comb was developed after Titor’s departure which enabled the measurement of an atom’s frequency optically, and which also allowed for greater precision in that measurement. Titor’s statement is a 3-fer:
He predicts an optical measurement system for atomic clocks.
He predicts the new system measures oscillation and not some other aspect.
He predicts this new system increases measurement precision and not some other aspect.
“The C206 uses 6 cesium clocks but they use an optical system to check the oscillation frequency. This makes the worldline divergence confidence much higher.”
– J. Titor, Nov 7, 2000
  1. Ginger: The most enigmatic piece of evidence and what originally spurred me to look closer at this ‘confirmed hoax’ in 2010. In the very opening of Titor’s posts in 2000, someone asked three questions to allow Titor to ‘prove’ he was legitimate. Those questions were:
“1. What was the final death count in the recent India earthquake?
  1. What is the "Ginger" (IT) invention?
  2. Who wins the Stanley Cup (Hockey) this year?”
  • M. Kolesnik, Jan 29, 2001
As you see, questions 1 and 3 are of the magic eight ball variety and are wholly inappropriate to assess Titor’s truthfulness. But we’ll extend some grace to Mr. Kolesnik as it was so early on in their discourse. And Titor demurred on answering these two questions anyway. He refused to answer the first question because he claimed he simply didn’t know. And he refused to answer the third question because he felt it to be unfair for someone to earn money using his information (pointing to a larger context of rules by which they operate).
But, the middle question, ‘…what is Ginger…’ did not violate either of those two questions so he acquiesced and answered it. He answered by saying,
“It looks like a sort of motorized scooter. What do you think IT is?”
– J. Titor, Jan 29, 2001
This answer immediately got my attention because, in 2000 when the question was asked, the answer was truly unknown, thus Mr. Kolesnik’s question. However, in 2009 when I was first looking into the Titor narrative, I knew what Ginger was because I remembered it. Hindsight truly was 20/20.
As a bit of background, during 1999 (the exact timing escapes me), a ‘viral’ marketing campaign was underway by an inventor named Dean Kamen. While never revealing what this new product was, the billboards merely asked,
“What is IT?”
or
“What is Ginger?”
That was all they said. It is obvious now, and was obvious even then, that Kamen was attempting to create a buzz for his new invention. Fair enough. It also explains why it was asked of Titor in 2000. Kamen’s ad campaign was working! People were truly wondering.
Now understand, the hype (and I use that term specifically) surrounding the Ginger ad campaign was fairly strong. Kamen predicted that his invention would reinvent how people moved about cities; it would cause their utter redesign and how they were laid out and organized. Big claims, to be sure. So strong in fact that Kamen was able to land a spot on Good Morning America where he finally revealed what his invention was.
In December of 2001, and live on the air, Kamen, with Katie Couric, revealed Ginger to the world. Ginger was none other than the Segway.
And what did Titor say it was?
“A type of motorized scooter”
And Stella says there’s nothing more to learn…
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Titor’s absolute spot-on declaration of what Kamen’s invention was nearly a year before it was unveiled hit me right between the eyes. Eight years later, I already knew that Ginger was the Segway because I remembered the event.
Here was a maniac on the internet claiming to be a ‘time traveler’ and he correctly ‘guessed’ what Ginger was a mere 2 ½ hours after it was asked and 11 months before it was officially unveiled?
It was Titor’s statement here that caused me to look deeper (much deeper, in fact) into the Titor narrative and, after exhaustive research and extensive supporting evidence, I concluded that Titor was in fact, legitimate.
Now here’s the truly interesting part of this piece of the Titor saga: you can’t find this statement about Ginger online anywhere anymore. It has been scrubbed from online sources everywhere.
Now, when I first discovered the Titor story, I saw that there appeared to be a couple different versions of the posts and I just, by chance, found a version of the posts with the Ginger reference in it. I saw that some versions had the Ginger reference, and some did not. At the time, I did not know how to understand this. But I do now.
Revisiting Old Theories As I mentioned before, hindsight is 20/20, and that is especially true when discussing ‘time travel’ and ‘time travelers.’ So, it seems oddly appropriate to provide a few examples of updated information that only revealed themselves with the fullness of time after publication.
‘leader’ In Conviction of a Time Traveler, I found the following quote especially interesting:
“The President or “leader” in 2005 I believe tried desperately to be the next Lincoln and hold the country together but many of their policies drove a larger wedge into the Bill of Rights. The President in 2009 was interested only in keeping his/her power base.”
  • J. Titor, Feb 19, 2001
And it wasn’t necessarily the full content of Titor’s statement here, it was those damn quotes around the word ‘leader.’ Why would he put quotes around a word so simple in its definition? In COATT, I surmised that Titor was referring to Obama at the time for a variety of reasons. Namely the very high coincidence factor between facts surrounding Obama and Lincoln. My own belief also was that Titor would not consider Obama as the rightful leader of the United States due to the known problems with his birth certificate, thus making him ineligible for the Presidency. Thus, Titor wrote ‘leader’ with those quotes around it indicating his misgivings.
Of course, here we are 24 years after Titor’s statement and 12 years after I wrote COATT, and I have now come to a different conclusion about the quotation marks around the word ‘leader’. I now surmise that Titor was referring to Biden and not Obama when he wrote that. Because I personally didn’t have a ‘time machine’ at the time, I never could have expected the dementia patient currently ‘in’ the White House and supposedly ‘leading’ the country. For anyone watching, it is patently obvious that Mr. Biden isn’t ‘leading’ anything. So, in the context of this and our current national situation, those quotation marks sure make a hell of a lot more sense now, don’t you think? This reassessment obviously puts a giant bullseye on the 2024-2025 time period for what Titor commented upon in 2000.
So, yes. I have reassessed this particular conclusion since publishing Conviction of a Time Traveler due to the slow passage of time and its equally slow revelation of Truth.
Gates Another interesting comment by Titor had to do with Bill Gates. Recall that in 2000/2001, Bill Gates was ‘merely’ the CEO of Microsoft. He was among the richest men in the world and many news stories of the time commented upon this fact. Almost kind of like Elon Musk’s notoriety in both scope and scale. So, as such, a forum participant named ‘Joe’ asked Titor for any information regarding Bill Gates’ future. Titor’s response?
“This I do know but I won’t discuss.”
-J. Titor, Feb 23, 2001
An interesting, if not completely unhelpful, answer. Wouldn’t you say?
Considering we now know how Gates has morphed from Tech Titan selling mediocre products to Farmland baron, GMO mosquito breeder and mRNA advocate and (alleged) mass murderer in India and elsewhere in the third world, Titor’s statement that he does know about Gates’ future rings true.
In fact, what was also a bit interesting was when someone later pressed him on any information regarding Gates’ future. To which he responded,
Just curious, why is he of such interest?
-J Titor, Mar 5, 2001
Considering what we know now about Gates and his predilections (his ‘wife’ deserted him upon revelation of his visits to Epstein Island), I’m willing to bet that John was naturally curious as to why Gates, of all people, was of such interest to the forum participants that they would ask twice about him. Coincidence? Or did Titor suspect a mole from a different program in the forum? Who knows. His curiosity about their curiosity in Gates is interesting, nothing more.
Conclusion And there you have (some of) it. A summary of some of the evidence documented in Conviction of a Time Traveler written nearly 15 years ago. The evidence contained in that small book has never been debunked or disproven. It has been plagiarized by some and ignored by others. If you were unaware of COATT and are a regular participant in the online discussions about ‘time travel,’ you should ask yourself why the ‘leadership’ on those forums never mention COATT. Curious, don’t you think?
The reason I wrote COATT in the first place was because, after I had done my own research to satiate my own personal curiosity, I realized that some people online were downplaying his posts’ importance in the hopes that they could dissuade people from believing in Titor and the possibility of ‘time travel.’
I saw this dishonesty and decided to fight back against it by merely providing the information I discovered. From my point of view, Titor was warning us about a very severe time in our future that would upend the status quo and was to be a highly dangerous one.
Taken at face value (always a good starting point), Titor’s warnings merited being taken seriously. Had the naysayer’s deceit been left unanswered, how many of you would have failed to prepare for what is just around the corner? You have prepared, haven’t you?
And yes, as is readily obvious to many, those hard times are right around the corner. Looking at Titor’s statements 24 years later and simply looking around at the state of America and the world, do his statements seem so outlandish now?
John’s ‘final’ words to the forum in March of 2001 ring eerily prescient now:
Bring a gas can with you when the car dies on the side of the road.
-J. Titor, Mar 23, 2001
It is my sincerest hope that my small book project (and the essays that followed) spurred you to think twice about the world we live in and take the necessary actions you feel you should to keep you and your family safe for the world’s awakening and rebirth.
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2024.06.09 07:17 starting_to_learn Revisiting The Lover Diaries x ME! in a Post-TTPD World

Revisiting The Lover Diaries x ME! in a Post-TTPD World
Recently, Taylor has been using the phrase “dear diary” to describe her music on the Eras tour. Prior to the release of TTPD, she was using language like “excruciatingly autobiographical” and “live-streamed public autopsy” - which, in retrospect, seems like a hint towards the concept of TTPD as a “post-mortem.” In changing this language, it stands to reason that she may be hinting at something new.
I started to wonder if she might be pointing us back towards the Lover diaries. She’s also been mentioning the number 4 - “Dear Diary, I felt a feeling for 4 seconds” - and how many Lover diaries are there? 4! Taylor Nation also recently posted about the Lover diaries. (Credit to u/Different_Hedgehog16 for sharing the screen shot in the megathread!)
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There have also been theories swirling that we might get a redo of the Miss Americana documentary, like this post. I’d argue that the diaries and documentary, as longer story-telling mediums, were essential to the fabric of the Lover era as a vehicle for a coming out. And if she were to re-do that coming out, she might also revisit those same story-telling mediums she attempted to use during Lover.
So, I decided to take a look back at the Lover diaries in a post-TTPD world to see what we can glean. There are quite a few interesting things, but what struck me first and foremost were connections to ME! and how those connections intersect with our current position on the road to "meet me at midnight." So, that is what I am going to largely focus on in this post.

Intro: Significance of the Lover Diaries

Taylor’s music has long been branded “diaristic.” But it’s one thing to write diaristic music; it’s another thing to release your diary. Sharing your diary signals a new level of confession, unveiling something that is typically kept private under lock and key.
Of course, the diaries she released are not her literal diary. They are a curated selection of entries she chose to release and potentially edited for public consumption. These diaries are art pieces, packaged together as an accompaniment to the album. And as art, it doesn’t matter how literally “true” the diaries are. What matters is the meaning they convey. I’d argue that these diaries can tell us a lot about the Lover era.
As a concept, the first and most obvious thing the very existence of the diaries tells us is that the Lover era was intended as an era of authenticity and confession. This won’t shock anyone in this corner of the internet, but I think the very fact that she included her diaries to accompany the album lends credence to the failed coming out theory.

Opening the Diary Drawer in the Lover Era

Taylor has never used the word “diary” in a published song, but she did use the word in her poem for reputation, If You’re Anything Like Me:
If you’re anything like me,
You never wanted to lock your door,
Your secret garden gate or your diary drawer
Didn’t want to face the you you don’t know anymore
For fear she was much better before…
But Darling, now you have to.
Here, she describes how she never wanted to lock her diary drawer - never wanted to have to hide parts of herself from the world behind a locked (closet?) door, behind a gate in a secret garden. It’s telling, then, that with her next album release, she unlocks the diary drawer. This signals an intention to step out from behind the door and into the daylight.
The next few lines of the poem are relevant here, too. She describes not knowing herself anymore and not wanting to face herself - a self who she fears was much better “before.” Before what? Before she became estranged from herself, perhaps? But now she must face this self she is estranged from. The implication seems to be that after she locks the door, she is alone with herself - and then she must face herself. This idea of facing herself in isolation is reinforced in the next stanza where she speaks of her “own little golden prison cell” and says, “But Darling, there is where you meet yourself.”
She describes meeting herself behind a shut door on reputation. And Lover, in opening the diary drawer, represents an invitation for the world to meet her, too.
Of course, it doesn’t happen, and she finds herself shutting the door again. In that light, it’s interesting that this conception of what it means to meet yourself seems quite opposite to how she describes it in the Midnights foreword: “For all of us who have tossed and turned and decided to keep the lanterns lit and go searching - hoping that just maybe, when the clock strikes twelve…we’ll meet ourselves.” On Midnights, she isn’t shutting the door to meet herself. She is stepping out with lanterns lit to search for herself. And her hope to meet herself is directly tied to an invitation for the audience to meet her, too: “Meet me at midnight.” This shift might suggest a realization that the isolation of the closet is in fact not a place where one can truly encounter themselves. You don’t meet yourself in a prison cell; you lose yourself. To find yourself, you have to open the door. The diary drawer.

Lover as a Return to Herself, Through the Lens of the Lover Diaries

The diaries are a central part of the Lover foreword, the very first thing she mentions. She seems particularly drawn to the diaries from her childhood and teen years; she writes, “What shocked me the most was how often I wrote about the things that I loved.” This becomes her central inspiration for the concept of the album, as she goes on to explain it: “This album is a love letter to love itself.” And further, it serves as the inspiration for a decision she describes making about how she wants to define herself and her identity: “I’ve decided that in this life, I want to be defined by the things that I love - not the things I hate, the things I’m afraid of, or the things that haunt me in the middle of the night. These things may be my struggles, but they’re not my identity.” These words are so central to the thesis of the album that they bookend it: opening the album in the prologue and closing it in the outro of Daylight. And these words are rooted in the spirit of the young Taylor she describes encountering in the pages of these old diaries.
Lover Foreword
This is especially interesting when we think about the death of the “old Taylor” in reputation. Lover was an era of rebirth - not of the Taylor Swift personas she killed off in the reputation era, but of her original self. It was a return to her roots. A return to herself. Consider this quote from Rolling Stone where she says she’s never “leaned into the old version of myself more creatively than I have on this album.” (Credit to u/courtingdisaster for this find!)
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This proves out when examining the contents of the diaries. The entries she chose to include are primarily from her youth. There are 51 total entries across the four diaries, spanning 2003-2017. Of these, over half (51%) are from her teenage years. Another 45% are from her early 20s (ages 20-24). Only two entries are from age 25+.

The Lover Diaries and ME!

Looking at the contents of the diaries, the first thing that jumped out at me was the quote she included on the first page of Diary #1 and signed “Me!”
Opening Page of Lover Diary #1
It seems reasonable to think that the concept for ME! was inspired, at least in part, from this process of combing through her old diaries and facing the person she once was. These first pages from age 13 represent a celebration of herself. Her pride in her doodles, branding them “Taylor designs 2002.” Her belief that she would be a big star, that her signature might be worth money someday (hehe). Defiance in the face of anyone who would tell her she “[doesn’t] deserve what [she] want[s].” And a celebration of her words, featured right alongside Kenny Chesney’s. There’s a youthful wisdom in these words that she seems to return to in ME!, a song about celebrating everything that makes her who she is.
There are also visual parallels between the diaries and the ME! lyric video. The ME! lyric video is stylized as handwritten; we actually see her hand writing these words, and she is writing on paper with a Taylor Swift letterhead to boot, leaving no doubt about whose words these are. This in and of itself feels noteworthy, given it’s not a typical style for her lyric videos. The handwritten ME! lyrics tie the song directly to the diaries, also handwritten.
ME! Lyric Video
Additionally, the lyric video is full of sweet childlike doodles that also parallel the diaries - hearts, stars, smiley faces. Some of the imagery from her diary doodles also makes it into the ME! music video.
Left: Young Taylor in the Lover Diaries Right: ME! Lyric Video
If you’re in this corner of the internet, you likely understand ME! as deeply meaningful to the Lover rollout. And these ties to the Lover diaries, which Taylor made central to the thesis of the album in the foreword, lend further credence to ME! as one of the most important touchstones of this era. ME! as a self-love anthem inspired by and dedicated to her younger self, who once wrote: “The world is as big as you make it, never be shameful to fly.”
\"Never be shameful to fly.\" - Taylor Swift in the Lover Diaries, age 13

Connections to TTPD

The Lover era was characterized by a handwritten aesthetic - in the diaries and beyond, most notably in the ME! lyric video. This handwritten aesthetic is not typical for Taylor's work, but where do we see it pop up again? On TTPD, of course. The summary poem is specifically printed to look handwritten, but with none of the flourish of the Lover era. The color has been drained out.
TTPD Summary Poem
We also have a call-back to the Taylor Swift letterhead from the ME! lyric video in the TTPD era's "From the Desk of Taylor Swift." The fonts are not identical, but similar enough to suggest a connection. Both albums come directly from the desk of Taylor Swift.
Left: ME! Lyric Video Letterhead: \"Taylor Swift, Born in 1989, Loves Cats\" Right: Letterhead from TTPD Journal (Merch): \"From the Desk of Taylor Swift\"
These are of course not the first call-backs to ME! and Lover that this community has noticed on TTPD. This is an addition to a long and growing list of connections. I'd argue this is a noteworthy connection because, fundamentally, the excavation of the Lover Diaries - a central part of the fabric of the album and especially of ME! - represented a return to her most authentic self, before she learned civility, and an invitation for the public to encounter that authentic self emerging from her unlocked diary drawer. The Midnights foreword suggests we might now be on a mirrored journey towards "meet me at midnight," and TTPD might represent a pit stop on that journey. (If you're interested in more thoughts on this journey and how it connects to diaristic confession, I wrote this post about it!)
And if that's the case, if Taylor is coming back for herself, it just might mean coming back for the Lover Diaries and the 13-year-old girl found in their pages, who once wisely said, "May you never be scared of goodbye." Judging by a recent mash-up, perhaps Taylor is preparing to take her advice: You're on your own, kid, you always have been. So, take a deep breath as you walk through the doors.
EDIT: ADDENDUM
I just had another thought related to all of this that I thought I'd add on in case anyone else finds it interesting! It struck me that it's especially interesting that the TTPD Summary Poem is stylized as handwritten because the overall aesthetic for the era centers around typewriters, so that seems very intentional. I have a theory that the concept for TTPD was inspired, at least in part, by the confessional poets of the 1950s-60s (see this post if interested). And these poets worked on typewriters, but you know what was often handwritten? Their letters. And these letters are considered important primary source documents for interpreting their lives and work, especially for Sylvia Plath. Just like the Lover Diaries function as primary source documents for interpreting the Lover album. In stylizing the TTPD Summary Poem as handwritten, Taylor is positioning it as another primary source document, a letter written directly to the public. Will we get more of these documents? Is that what she is hinting at with "dear diary"? We might.
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2024.06.09 04:50 GrandMediocrity What is a quote or poem that changed the way you think or act?

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2024.06.09 04:43 TangerinePlane428 Help me find a poem [HELP]

I recently read a poem that reminded me of my mother so I tucked it away in my mind to show her the next time I saw her. Of course I forget everything about it about five seconds later, so I enlisted the help of chat gpt. And not surprisingly it provided me a hallucination response (meaning something that did not really exist). It actually gave me some of the right quotes though, but not in the right order. The name it provided was “Women and Housework” by Vivien McCready. The excerpt provided goes as so, "In my mother's day, it was never doubted that women had to clean the house, and neighbors would cast judgmental looks at dust or detritus on the floor. But now, we see through the façade; housework was devised to keep us busy, to sell us products, and consume our time. Not mowing the lawn won't be the end of the world, and men, even now, don't do enough to equal what we used to do." As I said it is not in the right order and is missing things between the lines but if anyone can help me find this I would be so grateful. I’m not sure my mother even cares but now I’m invested and need to find it lol.
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2024.06.09 03:24 Patient-Marzipan-262 Echoes of my Mind (23.05.2024)

Scrolling mindlessly through quotes and poems, Searching for something to share so others see 'em. My mind and the fantasy I created, never enough near, A small sigh of air, my drug, to let them know I am still here. ;
I am too tired to find rhymes for these words, It's my mind, unfortunately, nothing rhymes in my world. Maybe it do in the glimmering eyes of that little kid, still here rhyming, with wounds painful, doesn’t know what he did. ;
Sleeping naked in this coffin like wooden room, alone, Hoping tomorrow will be better? No, that’s far gone. I am sleeping for sleep's sake, eating for food's sake, Dreaming for the mind's sake, living for the purpose's fake. ;
Not gone yet, not out of shame or courage, ‘cause I am afraid. As death is unknown, that I may wander as a ghost in time’s fade. Now I know why poets, unlike me, writes their drugs so elegantly, It's from the pain that talks from within, killing them mercifully. ;
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2024.06.09 00:33 MasterEWild Lets take a moment to remember old classic jack quotes like "play.skycade.net", "STICK TO THE FORMAT", "I SAID A JOKE NOT A POEM", "Bloody Nora", "Welcome back to another video on my server PLAY.SKYCADE.NET....." (old old profile pic for nostalgia)

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2024.06.08 23:22 gukville Let's talk about Fall From Grace...

Let's talk about Fall From Grace...
Here is what Stevie has said about the song:
2001:
Fall From Grace is really about Fleetwood Mac onstage— that’s always mostly going to be about me and Lindsey, just about our energy and what a trip it is to be in Fleetwood Mac and walk up there onstage. It’s just, it’s grand, you know? It’s a very grand thing. It’s nothing like your solo career.
Six of the songs from Shangri-la were written on the road. Among them were Love Changes and Fall From Grace, both of which, Nicks says, are “pretty much about” the band itself.
“Fall from Grace,” I wrote on the Fleetwood Mac reunion tour. Because that’s a great place to write, when you’re on tour and everything’s going really well, it’s very exciting; it’s like a big date. You know, it’s like very romantic, very, and you know you’re traveling. And of course, when you’re in Fleetwood Mac it’s a very big deal, so you get the best of everything in Fleetwood Mac. When we go to my solo career, it’s a little cut down, it’s a little cut down.
It’s a little discounted, you know. But the Fleetwood Mac thing is very big, so it’s a very fun place to write. And “Fall from Grace,” was really about um when, Lindsey and Mick and I go up on stage, and how, just how intense it is, you know. And how we do kinda feel like, you know, Queen Elisabeth, Prince Phillip, and Queen Edward, King Edward; oh man, he’s gonna kill me for Queen Edward. Um, it’s such a powerful thing, and when you get up there it’s just so magical and so strong. And so, somehow the poem for “Fall from Grace,” just came outta that.
2005:
Fall From Grace was a formal full-on poem…you know ‘maybe I worked this hard just to make sure you survive’…this was something.. and it doesn’t really matter, of course, I wrote that poem about Lindsey and Lindsey knows that and he doesn’t care. He loves being inspirational and he is and I am to him. So we laugh about that. So I write these really, really heavy poems. I think I wrote most of that when we were out on the road on The Dance.
2009:
Angry song. Probably my angriest song ever. But, it has…it’s angry like ‘don’t jump off that cliff, don’t be an idiot.’ But, at the same time it’s like ‘because I don’t want you to be hurt.’ [Interviewer’s blah, blah, blah]
No, that song’s about Lindsey. Oh yeah. That’s after the Dance. I wrote that in 1998, 1998-99 that’s right after the Dance. [Interviewer: So, he still knows the buttons to push.] Oh yeah, definitely. And he tries not to push them so much now because I really don’t like it and I don’t want to be angry with him now. But he knows how to get to me. But, I’m only saving him in that song. [Stevie quotes song, forgetting some words]
But it basically says, you know as angry as I am at you, I’m really only trying to help you. So at the end when it comes to the end it basically turns the whole thing around. Almost like he does on Never Going Back Again. when he says you know, “I”m never going back again” and blah blah blah but then he says ‘but come around and see me again.’ So Fall From Grace is kinda like that.

My opinion: I love this song and think the melodies and lyrics are perfect! Seriously, I'm obsessed. What are your guys thoughts on this song?
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2024.06.08 22:39 YeOldeSuccotash The most romantic movie you've ever seen

It started off like the most romantic movie you've ever seen. I (m, 50s, American) was on a solo trip through Europe in April 2023 when I met her (f, 40s, French) at a super cool neighborhood party I got randomly invited to during my 1-day visit to Austria. We exchanged glances, and got to talking. She was very cute and French. It was so random, seemed like kismet. We connected instantly and we spent the whole night together (very PG and very sweet at first). Have you seen Before Sunrise? Kinda like that.
I left the next day to continue my journey in Europe. But we started texting constantly. Then she wanted to come with me to Istanbul for a few days. It seemed impulsive, but I readily agreed. It was pure bliss.
She was stylish, cute, demur, fun, smart, and she adored me completely. She would do this "flashbulb eyes" thing that would knock me out. Even some random person came up to us in Istanbul and said, "you are such a cute couple" and took our picture. I had been divorced for a few years and the dating scene where I live in California is not so great.
I go back to California and she goes back to Austria where she lives. She told me she had to call her mom 6 times to tell her about how in love she was, but had to hang up because she was crying so much and couldn't talk.
Constant texting, pictures, love messages, calls. It was so nice. She even wrote poems and made songs (they were a bit frantic and weird, but anyway). I told all my friends. They were so happy for me. I was very in love with her.
Then about a month later, I made a casual comment that I admitted to be "demanding", ie., I don't put up with a lot of crap. I could feel the change.
Her nephew came into town to spend a few weeks with her. She started to ignore me. The texts and songs and pictures trickled down. She said she had no time. But she was going to concerts, etc. It was bullshit. When I raised my concerns, she said I was shouting (I was just angry, but did not shout).
Curiously, it felt like a previous relationship that I had. It felt like love bombing and discarding. Finally, when she did get around to calling me, I told her that she can't treat people that way and that this seems like a personality disorder. (This time I really was shouting). So I ended it and blocked her. I was really sad, but I moved on. I went on lonely solo trips and even got back into dating (I actually had some promising dates!)
In October of last year, she slipped past the blockade, reached out, and I responded. I asked why she ditched me. I got no real answer but I wanted to believe. My friends told me don't do it. I knew the risks. I just desperately wanted that love again. I desperately wanted to have my L. She adored me. She was everything I wanted.
We meet up in DC for the most romantic Christmas I ever had. I was finally with someone I really loved. It was lovely. I was still hurt though. I wanted her to "kiss my heart" and tell me that she was sorry. She told me to "let it go". I just sucked it up.
On this trip, she told me about her late husband. She said they were very in love and never fought. He was Mexican and they met in Vienna years earlier. On a trip to visit his family in Mexico, they all were kidnapped, the men were separated from the women, the women were let go a few days later, but all the men disappeared. She told me she looked for him for 3 years before giving up.
So I gave her lots of slack. We also had a language barrier. We spoke English together, but her native language is French. I attributed any miscommunication to that as well.
We agreed to meet up again in Austin. And this is where the cracks really started to show. It was the first episode of her losing it. Right before the trip, she blew up after some text exchange. I don't remember what happened as per usual ("bewildered" is how I felt with these episodes). She said she was devastated and that we shouldn't meet anymore in Austin.
So I stayed up all night talking her off the ledge. We made up and I was happy again. I totally ignored this and following episodes.
We had a nice time in Texas. So much that we decided that we wanted to be together. When we got back to our respective countries, she told me she was moving to California (no discussion with me, just a decision on her part). Shortly thereafter, she told me she was going to start studying to get her master's. Then she was going to apply for another job in Vienna (???) Then she realized that wouldn't be a good idea. Anyway...
I wanted her to be here in California with me but it's really tough to move to the US without being married. She didn't really think anything through, she just thought some company would give her a work visa. It don't work like that, honey. I was ready to marry her (but she still was technically married because she didn't have the death certificate of her late husband who disappeared).
Meanwhile, I had a ticket to meet her in Austria and spend 2 1/2 weeks together. I just wanted to experience "normal boring life" together. We got along so great when we did. She liked all the music I liked, even stuff that she really shouldn't have heard (obscure stuff from the 80s). (Looking back, maybe this was mirroring.)
Right before my trip, I got to worrying that she was coming to live here in August sight unseen. I was afraid I was building up an image of some idyllic life, when in reality California has tons of problems. So I made a video to show her the nice things, but also the bad things of my neighborhood. When I mentioned this, she lost it. "You don't want me to come. I hate you. You're awful. Don't come to Austria." She later called and we made up. Again. This was 12 hours before I got on the plane.
I went to Austria. The first 1.5 days were great. Then her aunt and uncle came to stay with us from France. They are all very close. But her 1 bedroom apartment made for close quarters, especially since I had never met them. Spanish was the common language (I'm fluent, so no problem). I liked them. They were a cute couple and they cared about her a lot. The uncle told me "you know what happened to her. She loves you very much, so please take care of her". I said I would of course. I really loved her.
But the next day her mood changed. She was happy and chipper with them (and her shitshow best friend) but cold to me. I wasn't included in the conversations really. She didn't try to bring me into the fold. Not everyone is a good conversationalist, I reasoned.
The following day, we were all supposed to go to Prague. Romantic Prague. But in the morning, she told me "you were sulking all day yesterday" and "you obviously don't like my aunt and uncle so why don't you just go your own way."
This is on my vacation, mind you.
I felt trapped. But we made up 15 minutes later and all went to Prague. She was still grumpy with me.
That night, on the river in romantic Prague, she called me a robot and said she didn't know who I was. She said I should leave.
So that night, I had to figure out a plan. I still had a bunch of my stuff at her apartment in Vienna. I also had her spare key. I felt the heebie jeebies, worried about my physical safety. I couldn't sleep.
My plan was to take the train to her place in Vienna, grab my stuff, leave her key, and peace out.
But the next morning, she realized I had the extra key, and threatened to call her uncle and the police if I didn't give it to her.
So I found myself walking around romantic Prague at 7am with just some of my crap, no plan, and no sleep. I felt like some refugee. Then she called. "Do you want to talk over coffee?" I had no other plan.
We make up of course. The next day we are hot and heavy in a church tower in a little Czech town. We were back, making out, holding hands, acting like teenagers. It was so nice.
Don't ask me how I could forget what had happened just a few hours prior.
We went back to Austria and had another nice day, making plans to go on adventures. Yes, we were now talking about me moving to Austria.
But the next night, right before the aunt and uncle were to go back to France and we were supposed to go to Budapest, she blew it up again.
She had a knack for blowing things up right before really important events.
I had left the bathroom fan on and she just lost it.
(By the way, all of these blowups where in whispers so that aunt and uncle could not hear. She's very sweet to her family and I guess she can do no wrong.)
We were in bed and now it was my turn to lose it. In a whisper, I said, "you're stupid and you have this ugly evil face".
Then she kicked me while in bed. She was LIVID.
Still in a raging whisper, she told me to get out (in my underwear I guess) and if not, she was going to "make a scene".
I was so scared.
Then she just got into bed. And I followed.
We talked it over. She said I deserved to be kicked. I told her no words should lead to violence.
Back to normal. We went to Budapest for a few days and then back to Vienna. Now we're alone together, at last. And guess what? We had a great time. We rode her bike in the park with her sitting on the back rack, like kids. We went shopping. I treated her to restaurants (I paid for everything on the whole trip, about $2k). We played guitar and sang together. We went to the Prater and rode rollercoasters. We made love.
On the last day, she took me to the airport. We had breakfast and we both were sad. But we had plans for the future.
She walked me to security and we said our goodbyes.
When I got to the gate, I get a text. "You didn't look back when you went through security. I'm so sad. Have a nice flight!" I had to talk her off the ledge again: "I thought you were leaving, I'm so sorry my love. I didn't mean to. I love you so much."
When I got back, I was so exhausted. I thought it was the jetlag, but I was on edge. I was angry and didn't know why. Snipping at my coworkers. My body hurt I was so tired.
But I was looking for jobs in Austria. I still hadn't realized anything.
I had an opportunity to go camping in Yosemite a few days later on Friday. Even though I was so tired, I knew I should take the opportunity (campsites there are hard to get). I called her Friday am, asked her how her day was. She knew I still hadn't packed and had a very important presentation to give too. I realized I need to get ready for that presentation that was starting in just a few minutes. "Sorry my love, I need to go. Got to get ready. I will send you a message when I get to Yosemite."
Then right when my presentation was about to start, I get a message. "You are so cold. You knew I was hurting but you ended the call so abruptly."
That was it. The last straw.
When driving up to Yosemite, I told my friend the whole story. I hadn't told anyone about all the explosions and breakups. I couldn't believe my own ears. Was I actually saying these things?
Then it hit me. I had to end it.
Later that week, I sent her an email to end it. I knew a phone conversation would end badly. Email is not the classiest, but I did what I could.
I got hateful texts, then texts trying to get me back, showing pictures of the stuffed animals I got her. Then her final one.
Then it hit me. This was abuse. The realization has been coming in waves. And this wasn't the first experience I had either. I dated M a few years earlier who actually ENJOYED abusing me. I could even see a little smile when she would throw insults or say things to shock me.
I don't think L is a narcissist. She couldn't help it. She even told me once that I could help her "heal".
EPILOGUE
Looking back, L told me on several occasions that I wouldn't like her once I got to know her. She was right about that one. She said she wasn't smart and that I wouldn't like her (but she spoke 4 languages and has a couple of university degrees and a good job). She said if we lived in Paris, I would leave her for a Parisian girl.
I see all these other things that I ignored. Like how she called herself a "party girl" and would go dancing with her girlfriends, but no guys would ever talk to her. Right.
No guys from the beach volleyball meetup group she organized would ever try to get with her. Right.
The guy who gave her a book of Sufi poetry (very romantic) wasn't hitting on her. Right.
The old guy who she met at the airport and wrote to her and signed off as "ton Ron" ("your Ron") was just some nice old guy. Right.
So right when I met her, she had just moved out of her old place with her ex, even though they had only dated for a couple of weeks and stayed as "roommates" for the remaining 5 years. Then two weeks later you get with me? Right.
I got her and her family a bunch of little gifts and she gave me whatever was in her cupboard and cheap socks with bears with 3 eyes. Meanwhile, she went to great lengths to get gifts for her people.
Maybe she saw me as a ticket to live and study for free in America.
I was a total fool. Maybe she never even loved me. Or am I just telling myself this to make it easier for me?
I wrote a second email telling her a lot of these thoughts, but in a polite tone. I asked her to get help.
I blocked her everywhere of course. But even though I set up a filter to delete any incoming email, I still check my trash box 5 times a day to see if she wrote.
How I wish that she actually got help and that she could actually be in a real relationship with me. I know, I know.
Why did you hurt me, L? I would have done anything for you. I was your bear, your prince, remember? I was perfect for you, remember?
I'm crying as I write this.
I hate this. I don't want to be alone again. You were the one for me.
I miss you.
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2024.06.08 19:29 Bekage_29 What RI quotes/poems resonated with you the most?

Yup just like the question. I have a ri tiktok account too and I’ll post some of the answers. (@thatguykarim) anyway I’ll go first.
“If you want to travel, then travel around the world. If you want to treat others well, then treat them properly. If you want to attempt flying, then collect money and resources to purchase and practice flying Gu worms.”
Fang Yuan pointed at the alley then at the street: “If you want to remain in the alley, you can stay. If you want to walk into the street and enjoy the event with others, then walk out. Don’t mistreat your own feelings because of their attitude. If you mistreat yourself frequently, then you will end up with regrets, you will constantly wear a mask to act as another person, you will no longer be yourself.”
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2024.06.08 18:18 arabbitfromrussia A report I made on the vocations crisis in the US last fall. I flew to Rome and submitted it to several dicasteries.

The Vocations Crisis
To understand what is going on with the vocations crisis, it is necessary to read “The Religious State” by Saint Alphonsus Liguori. In particular here are the most relevant quotes to our modern present-day circumstances:
It is worth noting that Saint Alphonsus lived in the Catholic confessional state of yore. This is certainly not the case with regards to the United States. But thanks to the heresy of Americanism, the Church in America by and large actually believes it does live in a Catholic confessional state and acts accordingly, apparently clueless as to what century they live in.
Self-Inflicted Wounds:
Failure to Enforce Catholic Teaching on Birth Control
One theme that comes through repeatedly in the writings of Saint Alphonsus is the deleterious effects of family on vocations. This in a time before birth control and when presumably there were other children not called to the religious state who could carry on the family name and line. When a family has 5+ children it really isn’t a blow to parental ambitions and familial concerns to have 1 or 2 children called to a religious vocation. When most everyone instead has birth controlled down to 1, 2, or 3 kids, suddenly this becomes a very big deal, the commensurate temptations are that much greater. In fact in these scenarios, it likely won’t even be on the table, discussed or considered by anyone as an option, especially in a Protestant/Darwinist/secular society that denigrates the priesthood and celibacy. So chalk up some of the attrition in vocations to parents pushing their children into the secular world and the lay state. And some of this attrition comes about unknowingly as parents do not really understand that what they are doing is in error, both in the usage of birth control and in unwittingly pushing their children into the world because “that’s just how things are done/how things are supposed to be”.
Turning People With Religious Vocational Callings Away Over Student Loan Debt
In other words, allowing the brazenly, transparently anti-Catholic US system of governance and student loan debt to paywall Holy Orders and religious life. How extensive is this problem? The Laboure Society, an organization which helps prospective seminarians and religious pay off their student loan debt, deals with dioceses and religious orders across the United States. They say that 42% of all people showing interest in pursuing that calling to the religious life are turned away on account of student loan debt and even those who overcome this obstacle sometimes delay vocations by as much as 10 years. I personally called this organization to check that this was still the case, which they confirmed to me that it was. The primary reason for this state of affairs (besides the increasingly demonic US Government making student loan debt unforgivable in bankruptcy some decades back while aiding and abetting the creation of a rigged Lockean credentialism that consigned people to poverty or riches on the basis of a piece of paper) is the acceptance of Catholics in religious orders and vocations offices around the country of the legitimacy of the debt in the first place. They have, as noted Catholic intellectual E. Michael Jones has mentioned, “a pagan understanding of debt”, in other words, you accepted the usurer’s contract under immense social and material duress, and possibly while ignorant of the mechanics of interest and it’s attendant consequences, so now you are morally obligated and bound to fulfill this contract and if you don’t it’s a sin. Pacta Sunt Servanda. If a Catholic marriage were performed under these circumstances, it would be grounds for annulment.
On the website of the Laboure Society, a video is featured with the former vocations director of the Archdiocese of Philadelphia(2013-2021) where he says that without the Laboure Society he would “have to” turn away people until they paid down their debts which he acknowledges might be a 10 or 20 year process. In reality, none of these people “have to” turn people away over unjust debt, they just choose to because of faulty moral reasoning where they accept as givens the immoral premises given to them by the US Government and attendant US financial system. In reality there really is nothing that Uncle Sam can do if the religious orders in particular just go on a debt strike and refuse to pay off their unjust debts. They won’t be collecting a paycheck ever again anyways. Rather than taking point on this issue, the religious orders are actually the most compliant and obedient to the unjust demands of the US government, with most requiring entrants to be totally debt free. They are probably responsible for over half of those financially originated priesthood rejections and certainly when it comes to women’s vocations must be responsible for the lion’s share.
Ultimately, the mental colonization and spiritual corruption of the parties involved in this fiasco is stunning. The fact that the people responsible for nurturing the clergy and religious of the future have accepted unthinkingly the terms and conditions of a transparently unjust and manifestly uncharitable system is a scandal. The lives of people God wishes to be consecrated to Himself, are absolutely not something that “Caesar” is due. Apparently they did not even think of other ways to deal with the problem than simply rejecting people until they find a way to pay the loans off. They could have at minimum sought help from other parts of the Catholic world both within and without the country. People skip the country and renounce their citizenship to escape student loan debts for their own secular purposes, showing more gumption in pursuit of their worldly ends than Catholics in the US do for building the City of God and doing His Will. The subject of student loan strikes is totally within the realm of proper application of occult compensation, likely something that the average Catholic clergyman or professed religious hasn’t any clue of. This once again is a topic that Saint Alphonsus Liguori waded into with the light of moral clarity. A good rundown is available for free from the University of Chicago: https://www.journals.uchicago.edu/doi/pdf/10.1086/intejethi.4.3.2375170
Clearly, Catholic leadership of all stripes, especially those involved with vocations, could stand to give this topic a good read.
This topic is grave, and if the Church in the United States of America was a parent or individual described in Saint Alphonsus’s “The Religious State” behaving as the American Church has, they would deserve to be condemned for systemically thwarting the Will of God. While religious orders are a big part of the problem, so too are some of the dioceses. To find out which dioceses were part of this problem, I spent the better part of two weeks canvassing by phone the various dioceses in the US, giving them my story as a prospective seminarian with about the amount of student loan debt that the Laboure Society states is the average amount that they help seminarians deal with, which I actually have outstanding in fact. I was looking to find out if the diocese was turning prospective priests away for having student loan debt and if so, for what dollar amount were they handing persona Christi over to the Sanhedrin. Here are my findings:
In Need of Correction
These dioceses are part of the problem.
The Archdiocese of Los Angeles
This is both the largest Archdiocese in the entire country as well as being the worst diocesan level offender on student loan debt. The vocations director admitted to me that they turn people away if their student loan debt is more than 10-15k saying it reflects poorly on their character. While other dioceses also put dollar amounts on prospective vocations, none set the dollar amount as low as the Archdiocese of Los Angeles.
The Diocese of Stockton
Stockton is similar to Los Angeles, except the limit is 20k and the rationale is “taking responsibility for what you owe”.
The Archdiocese of Atlanta
Admits to turning away seminarians until they “pay most or all of it off”, the office manager didn’t have the exact cutoff number as director was on retreat.
The Archdiocese of Minneapolis-St. Paul
The limit is 40k although they are also encouraged to pay off 100% of their balances before entering the seminary. The vocations director seems kind-hearted but operating from invincible ignorance. He states that it hasn’t been an obstacle to anyone who “was serious” about their vocation.
The Archdiocese of Chicago
The vocations director uses strong indirect language to dissuade applicants without “directly” rejecting them, told story of “very impressive” seminary applicant but when finding out about this persons 250k outstanding balance told this person “I’m just trying to be realistic, you have a long road ahead of you” leading of course to this person “taking the hint” and finding other more worthwhile things to the Holy American System of Usury than joining the priesthood. This vocations director has drank the kool-aid.
The Diocese of Cleveland
The vocations director is another word-gamer similar to Chicago but admits that he strongly encourages people to pay down what they owe, leading to people heading back into the world to do that, and then many not returning. States that the prospective seminarians are on their own to pay down this debt and that the diocese does not help them with that at all or cooperate with organizations like the Laboure Society. Like Chicago, likes to use the word “realistic” overmuch. Pagan understanding of debt.
The Diocese of San Diego
Director of the Office of Priestly Formation stated that they do turn people away and emphasized repeatedly the necessity of having “a plan and the means” of repayment, effectively paywalling the priesthood. He also stated that the diocese does not help seminarians or priests pay down their debts because it’s “not just for the diocese to take that on”. I can’t say I’m surprised to see a problem with Americanism in San Diego, owing to the overweening US Military presence.
The Diocese of Arlington
The debt limit is 45k or you are turned away. Likely a similar issue as San Diego with overwhelming US Government presence.
The Diocese of Columbus
At about the 6-figure amount, they start to turn people away on the financial basis.
The Diocese of Fresno
The vocations director took to playing word games saying it is an issue and intimates that there is a “too much” number while also saying it isn’t the first consideration of discernment and tried to redirect the conversation. Pagan understanding of debt.
The Diocese of Orlando
The vocations office administrator was hostile to me. After some verbal wrangling I got, “I can neither confirm nor deny if we have ever rejected seminarians over student loan debt” as an answer. Unsurprisingly, I was unable to reach the vocations director during repeated callbacks.
Several other Dioceses and Archdioceses had also clearly spent 20-30 years turning people away over student loan debt, and basically only recently changed when they got a younger vocations director.
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2024.06.08 17:41 kraken-in-a-jar One of my players a deck of cards that act like a d20 (cocked included)[Art]

1: Swords don't kill DM's do
2: Could be worse (personal favourite)
3: One flesh one end (quote from gideon the ninth)
4: Four people climbed the atlas (a reference to my world's year zero myth)
5: And the sun rises upon the world (a continuation of 4)
6: The big bad wolf (a reference to a goddess that's reoccurring in most religions, the wolf mother)
7: The wolf turn to the wild and savage she swallowed him whole
8: Who's Boris? (a reference to the year zero campaign in which we had a conspiracy board. In the middle of the board was the name “boros” and one of the players came to the session and immediately asked.
9: In the graveyard there is only one god. War. (A saying with a double meaning as War is a self proclaimed god in a place called The elephant graveyard)
10: I'm a real ~~ boy~~ two numbered (boy is crossed out. Two numbered has the same weight as teen and is a refrence to pinocchio.)
11: Charity and greed from which the gods were born
12: Yonni/twelve treason (a reference to one of the players [Art is a reference to a reddit post from rats]
13: There are no bargains between lions and men (quote from song of achilles)
14: Would you watch the dance of the woman in red (the red empress is the first necromancer and a said to be ascended god)
15:Walk blindly after the red woman (she is often depicted as blindfolded similar to how lady justice in our world is)
16:I will kill you and eat you raw (quote from song of achilles)
17:And war unsheathed his sword for the first time (saving the graveyard from the risng sun and claiming it as his kingdom)
18: My name won't be forgotten and thus I'll live forever (quote from the poem a former BBEG sung during the campaign climax)
19: Godhood, it's so fragile. (Quote by a former PC turned into NPC after the end the latter year zero campaign.
20: Master of fate
Cocked: I speak true - Lied the truth speaker (truth saying is a type of magic making the mage unable to lie)
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2024.06.08 14:21 ThrowAwayManyNames AITB-UPDATE: AITB for letting my daughter call her aunt the wrong name?

Hey folks. Maggie and I were waxing nostalgic yesterday and we remembered this account, and she thought it would be nice to give an update on things.
To sum up my last post: At a 17th birthday dinner for Maggie (my trans daughter), my sister (Aunt Bess, 49f) routinely deadnamed her, and Maggie responded by politely calling her Uncle Brian whenever she did. There was wailing and gnashing of teeth, but the Reddit consensus was that my daughter's a badass. Here's the link to the post if you want it.
I know it's been a bit of a goofy long time and it was a pretty small post, but there's been a...lot. Some good, some significantly shitty. Maggie put me up to this, so blame her.
So let's start with the shitty: my mother passed away late last year. We knew it was coming, but shockingly, that knowledge didn't help much. Don't wanna get into the details because this update really isn't about that, but it's relevant. I will say that nothing really prepares you to lose a parent, and my wife is a superhero because without her and Maggie I probably would have just crawled in a hole never come back out.
On the heels of my mom's passing, Aunt Bess had a mild heart attack. She's doing fine now, recovery was a bitch, I had to get more involved than I honestly wanted to because I wasn't about to let Dad take that all on by himself, and wife pitched in too (again, superhero).
And then Maggie is, Jesus H. Christ, eighteen now and graduating high school. Something else nothing prepares you for.
All that context is to make this point: Bessie finally figured out that Maggie is Maggie for good, and she's actually started making an effort. I think the combination of Mom's death, her own scare, and the fact that Maggie will be going off to university in another city next year kind of made it sink in that if she didn't fix things now, she might never get the chance. I don't know.
It's not perfect. And frankly, Bessie has gotten even more insufferable in some ways. But back around Maggie's birthday she sat down with her and gave her an honest-to-God apology. I got it secondhand from Maggie because I wasn't there, but my favourite part of the whole thing is a direct quote from Bess that Maggie gave me word-for-word: "You know, I wanted a niece more than a nephew anyway when you were little, so maybe this trans thing was all my fault from the start."
So yeah, the world still revolves around Bessie in her head, but she hasn't used Maggie's deadname once around us since then, and only slipped on pronouns a few times, so I'm starting to believe this is a good thing. And of course Maggie's overjoyed to have her Aunt Bess back, especially after losing her grandma. So things are sad, but nice. It's weird.
Anyway, that's pretty much it. Maggie says I should tell you that "you people are cool," so there you go. Seal of approval.
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2024.06.08 11:06 AdSufficient2033 [TOMT] [Quote] [Poem]: "We are made from the people we love..."

Hello, I am currently searching for a poem/quote I once read (probably on TumblPinterest/Instagram) about how we are made from the people we love(ed) and something of them always stay with us, even If they aren't with us anymore.
How I still listen to the music my father loves and an old friend who I lost touch with showed me my favorite book etc.
It's similar to this Harry Potter quote "The people we love never truly leave us."
I would be very thankful for all your help.
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2024.06.08 03:21 TangerinePlane428 Help me find a poem

I recently read a poem that reminded me of my mother so I tucked it away in my mind to show her the next time I saw her. Of course I forget everything about it about five seconds later, so I enlisted the help of chat gpt. And not surprisingly it provided me a hallucination response (meaning something that did not really exist). It actually gave me some of the right quotes though, but not in the right order. The name it provided was “Women and Housework” by Vivien McCready. The excerpt provided goes as so, "In my mother's day, it was never doubted that women had to clean the house, and neighbors would cast judgmental looks at dust or detritus on the floor. But now, we see through the façade; housework was devised to keep us busy, to sell us products, and consume our time. Not mowing the lawn won't be the end of the world, and men, even now, don't do enough to equal what we used to do." As I said it is not in the right order and is missing things between the lines but if anyone can help me find this I would be so grateful. I’m not sure my mother even cares but now I’m invested and need to find it lol.
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2024.06.07 22:56 GLHealthOptimization Our Best Quotes And Poems On Health (Mental, Physical, Holistic)

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2024.06.07 22:55 GLHealthOptimization Health Poem: "Don't Listen To The Lies"

"Don't listen to the lies, use your own eyes, it could be wise, to add some spice, it could get nice, but remember that everything has its price, even if it might come in a disguise, but worry not, you've got many tries, but take control, and don't roll the dice, since that could very well lead to your demise
That's it guys :)
As always, be healthy -> be wealthy!"
Health poem taken from: https://glhealthoptimization.com/health-quotes-poems/
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2024.06.07 19:55 BellaBrowsing My interpretation of the "In Summation" Poem

Before diving into the poem itself, I want to explain my overall opinion on the concept for this album. While it is in a lot of ways about her relationship(s), it's also in just as many ways (if not more) about Taylor's relationship with herself, the media, the industry, and her fans.
In my opinion, one overarching theme of TTPD is the parasocial relationship these groups have to her and the well crafted PR machine that has been created for her. Throughout her career people have speculated on which relationships her songs are about despite very little confirmation from Taylor. She has made the comment in her career that fans think it's one thing because "they didn't see a picture of it, so it didn't happen." They think they know her and know what is best for her, but in reality we only see what Taylor wants us to see (Mirrorball is literally about this). But what Taylor is telling us throughout TTPD is that we DON'T always know what's going on and we absolutely DON'T get to tell her how to live her life.
Last year, when news broke that her & Matty were dating, all hell broke loose. Her fans wanted it to be ANYTHING other than a real relationship because they have crafted this persona of her and Matty did not fit into their box of who Taylor Swift is. So many of the lyrics on TTPD are exaggerated, heightened for emotional effect. Because she is feeding into the public narrative that she MUST have been crazy to date him, he MUST have been a rebound when she was in an emotional state.
(Reminder: Taylor plays with pronouns a lot. Not every HE is a bout a man. She wrote an entire song called The Man, Taylor is James in the teenage love triangle, etc. Also, more importantly, she is unreliable narrator).
Enter The In Summation poem: A satirical plead to the public to forgive her for her "bad judgement." Because they act as Judge, Jury, and Executioner of her life.
At this hearing I stand before my fellow members of the Tortured Poets Department With a summary of my findings A debrief, a detailed rewinding For the purpose of warning For the sake of reminding
As you might all unfortunately recall I had been struck with a case of a restricted humanity Which explains my plea here today of temporary i n s a n i t y
You see, the pendulum swings Oh, the chaos it brings Leads the caged beast to do the most curious things
Lovers spend years denying what’s ill fated Resentment rotting away galaxies we created
Stars placed and glued meticulously by hand next to the ceiling fan
Tried wishing on comets. Tried dimming the shine. Tried to orbit his planet. Some stars never align.
And in one conversation, I tore down the whole sky
Spring sprung forth with dazzling freedom hues Then a crash from the skylight bursting through Something old, someone hallowed, who told me he could be brand new
And so I was out of the oven and into the microwave Out of the slammer and into a tidal wave How gallant to save the empress from her gilded tower Swinging a sword he could barely lift But loneliness struck at that fateful hour Low hanging fruit on his wine stained lips
He never even scratched the surface of me.
None of them did.
“In summation, it was not a love affair!” I screamed while bringing my fists to my coffee ringed desk It was a mutual manic phase. It was self harm. It was house and then cardiac arrest.
A smirk creeps onto this poet’s face Because it’s the worst men that I write best.
And so I enter into evidence My tarnished coat of arms My muses, acquired like bruises My talismans and charms The tick, tick, tick of love bombs My veins of pitch black ink
All’s fair in love and poetry ;)
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2024.06.07 14:55 True_Grape_5942 An argument with my sister made my family split.

Some information I think will help:
My older sister has always been extremely judgemental of me, everything I did and said was always subject of discussion. No matter what she was ALWAYS ready to make a comment filled with insults. She had always been problematic over the years, was extremely abusive (physically AND mentally) on both me and my sibling. This made us extremely scared of her as she somehow was very good at manipulating everyone around her to be the victim which included our father. There were so many instances where I found my mom cry wondering what she did wrong and how it was her fault for her daughter's behavior. We're VERY attached with my mom, and she always protected us without being able to send our sister away thinking things would get better with time when in reality they only got worse.
When she got married (I was 17 at the time, now I'm 27) we finally had a breath of fresh air, found my dream job five years ago, went to therapy and met my boyfriend. In the meantime her husband asked for a divorce.
A few months ago my boyfriend was diagnosed with a tumor and went through surgery, and my older sister started complaining that I left "home and everyone and that's selfish" to be there for him and complained I didn't reply to her "worried" messages when in truth all she did was asking me for favors (a new hard drive for her PC which had NOTHING to do with my staying over there, not even sure why she would ask me for that). She never asked me how my boyfriend was doing, she never called me, nothing.
Weeks after my boyfriend got out from the hospital we were invited to a party and of course we said yes as he deserved to have fun after all he went through. It was a party where everyone dressed up in cosplay and it was a few days before I would go back home so it was a nice way to end that bad chapter of our lives. I usually dress goth and I love corsets and he dressed as his favorite character - this is important because a photographer asked us for a photo and posted it, tagging us (mind you, this guy wrote about us as a couple, what we went through together, it was such a nice message that still makes me cry to this day) it probably ended up in my older sister's feed because she started calling my mom on the phone saying I should feel ashamed, that I look like a wh*re, that all the photos I do are embarrassing and how everything I do is plain shameful and how she tried to call me and I never responded because she was "worried about her brother in law".
Lies again and that was the last straw. I was done. I was used to her projecting her own insecurities on me but the moment you lie about something as serious as this you're dead to me, and I told this to my mother which broke her. She never wanted her daughters to fight, my other sister told her that it was time for her to understand that what my older sister did was beyond forgiveness and we both went low to no contact with her. In the meantime I finally went home after a month and a half.
Last week, older sister visited, acting like nothing had happened and I decided it was the best to ignore her. She then asked (and I quote) "so that's how you act now? Is that normal to you?" And I replied that I had nothing to say to her and if she wanted to speak to me it was better to do it when our father was present (he travels a lot for work) because I was done with her spewing lies. This made her go ballistic. A lot. She started screaming, throwing stuff around and threatening me into a fight. She then took her stuff and left saying that was the last time she would be visiting my parents, that I was dead to her. Mind you I never raised my voice, I'm sure she got angry because she knows that she lied and didn't know how to react when the veil was off, resulting in that sad show.
She now speaks to my mom sporadically, my aunt called my mom saying I'm an as*hole, found my mom crying in her bedroom saying that all she wanted was for us to get along and my dad said that if she doesn't want to visit that's on her and he doesn't care. Though this makes me feel like I split the family in two as I want my parents to see their nephew, and maybe if I acted like nothing had happened maybe it was for the better. I feel in denial because putting my foot down was the right thing to do, but now my parents are getting the blame for something they have no fault of, and it hurts a shit ton.
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2024.06.07 14:49 True_Grape_5942 An argument with my sister made our family split.

Some information I think will help:
My older sister has always been extremely judgemental of me, everything I did and said was always subject of discussion. No matter what she was ALWAYS ready to make a comment filled with insults. She had always been problematic over the years, was extremely abusive (physically AND mentally) on both me and my sibling. This made us extremely scared of her as she somehow was very good at manipulating everyone around her to be the victim which included our father. There were so many instances where I found my mom cry wondering what she did wrong and how it was her fault for her daughter's behavior. We're VERY attached with my mom, and she always protected us without being able to send our sister away thinking things would get better with time when in reality they only got worse.
When she got married (I was 17 at the time, now I'm 27) we finally had a breath of fresh air, found my dream job five years ago, went to therapy and met my boyfriend. In the meantime her husband asked for a divorce.
A few months ago my boyfriend was diagnosed with a tumor and went through surgery, and my older sister started complaining that I left "home and everyone and that's selfish" to be there for him and complained I didn't reply to her "worried" messages when in truth all she did was asking me for favors (a new hard drive for her PC which had NOTHING to do with my staying over there, not even sure why she would ask me for that). She never asked me how my boyfriend was doing, she never called me, nothing.
Weeks after my boyfriend got out from the hospital we were invited to a party and of course we said yes as he deserved to have fun after all he went through. It was a party where everyone dressed up in cosplay and it was a few days before I would go back home so it was a nice way to end that bad chapter of our lives. I usually dress goth and I love corsets and he dressed as his favorite character - this is important because a photographer asked us for a photo and posted it, tagging us (mind you, this guy wrote about us as a couple, what we went through together, it was such a nice message that still makes me cry to this day) it probably ended up in my older sister's feed because she started calling my mom on the phone saying I should feel ashamed, that I look like a wh*re, that all the photos I do are embarrassing and how everything I do is plain shameful and how she tried to call me and I never responded because she was "worried about her brother in law".
Lies again and that was the last straw. I was done. I was used to her projecting her own insecurities on me but the moment you lie about something as serious as this you're dead to me, and I told this to my mother which broke her. She never wanted her daughters to fight, my other sister told her that it was time for her to understand that what my older sister did was beyond forgiveness and we both went low to no contact with her. In the meantime I finally went home after a month and a half.
Last week, older sister visited, acting like nothing had happened and I decided it was the best to ignore her. She then asked (and I quote) "so that's how you act now? Is that normal to you?" And I replied that I had nothing to say to her and if she wanted to speak to me it was better to do it when our father was present (he travels a lot for work) because I was done with her spewing lies. This made her go ballistic. A lot. She started screaming, throwing stuff around and threatening me into a fight. She then took her stuff and left saying that was the last time she would be visiting my parents, that I was dead to her. Mind you I never raised my voice, I'm sure she got angry because she knows that she lied and didn't know how to react when the veil was off, resulting in that sad show.
She now speaks to my mom sporadically, my aunt called my mom saying I'm an as*hole, found my mom crying in her bedroom saying that all she wanted was for us to get along and my dad said that if she doesn't want to visit that's on her and he doesn't care. Though this makes me feel like I split the family in two as I want my parents to see their nephew, and maybe if I acted like nothing had happened maybe it was for the better. I feel in denial because putting my foot down was the right thing to do, but now my parents are getting the blame for something they have no fault of, and it hurts a shit ton.
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2024.06.07 10:01 Buttsuit69 What word would you like to see in Turkish?💬

Given that many words here arent things people use on a daily basis, what loanwords would you like to see the Turkic equivalent of? Or maybe you want to criticise something about a post/word?
\u0130t could be anything, a catchphrase you'd like to have a Turkish version of? A quote? A saying? A motto? A poem? see what sort of food for thought the sub provides YOU for the next week!
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2024.06.07 06:16 Sea-Risk-9447 A shitty little poem about how terrible summer is :)

I just walked my dog (at 9pm, after the sun set,) and realized I'll be doing this for the next 90 days or so. Hello heat intolerance panic, good to see you again.
Here's a stream on consciousness poem about how annoying this stuff is. Cause sometimes we need to let it out!
Seasonal depression We've heard of it before When the weather changes And you're stuck inside Hostage to the thermostat Wondering when it will end
At least there's company in misery It's such a common thing But what happens When you're opposite everyone else And at the end of spring That old trauma starts creeping in
Have you ever felt your organs boil? Trapped in a car in traffic Sun burning your skin Wondering if you'll throw up Or pass out Or both.
Have you ever had more migraine days than not In a single month Where you just want to hibernate till it's over So you might come out alive
Have you ever had to wait until nightfall To take out the trash Because in the sunlight it would be too painful And it would use your strength for the rest of the day
Isolation feels inevitable It also feels like my fault For not thinking positive and being grateful I am grateful, I am thankful, and unfortunately that does not reduce my symptoms I need to be negative and let it burst every once in a while I'm only human.
Everybody else is so excited The world comes alive again People frolicking and laughing Playing at their whim Vacations, parties, camping and hikes Even though I can't go I appreciate your invite
I strategize on how to do it better this time To quote unquote "overcome" Even though I know it's toxic Because it makes it easier on everyone
Ice packs, HVAC, instant cool to go Salt, compression Water out my nose Cardio Nutrition Grounding and meditation Are some of the tricks I use To not Lose my fucking mind
I'll be here In these same four walls It's a 90+ day challenge Of avoiding the sun Once it creeps past 85 I start to panic I know its coming
I fucking hate the summer. Wake me up when it's cold again.
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2024.06.07 02:00 Otherwise-Category42 Tinfoil from Roaring Kitty's Stream Thumbnail

Tinfoil from Roaring Kitty's Stream Thumbnail
Here are all the references from Roaring Kitty's stream thumbnail for tomorrow to help us dissect it.
Starting in the top left, we have a face and green candle which is a reference from Game of Thrones: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QHYL-uiLJ14
This is when the light of the seven (June 7th?) is destroyed using the green wildfire by Cersei.
Below that is a meme of Brian Windhorst
https://preview.redd.it/hizsi1lj215d1.png?width=1113&format=png&auto=webp&s=ae943874a42c83556fbf0da0edecb5d0b190ab28
Next we have a poem from the Babadook (2014)
https://preview.redd.it/4hrts4or215d1.png?width=498&format=png&auto=webp&s=f168361cbe43833fc165e121f63b068aec84fd36
Last is an edited image. The base image is from the 2015 Japanese parliament brawl.
https://preview.redd.it/o244k1n1315d1.png?width=1080&format=png&auto=webp&s=af3115d8e583e7adba45b2c2dc511be4936cbef1
Within that image is several additions. The first is the character Ozymandias from Watchmen. This is the exact screenshot that DFV used:
https://preview.redd.it/tzvgt809315d1.png?width=602&format=png&auto=webp&s=277cd2e2e44564849b05aa7b6408604251ea81f7
https://preview.redd.it/z1v8gm2p815d1.png?width=672&format=png&auto=webp&s=c5704189bb91d0e3be42507c5a46e967be99d8a3
Next, at the top right, Ryan Cohen is edited to look like another Watchmen character, Dr. Manhattan:
https://preview.redd.it/dnt4usvv815d1.png?width=400&format=png&auto=webp&s=eb72fee36d187dc36dd6425d121221cdd945093f
https://preview.redd.it/8j9wdbww815d1.png?width=493&format=png&auto=webp&s=a2360af6e790f7ff92bd61917c2b6fc26524ca19
Lastly, in the bottom righthand corner DFV edited in a gloved hand flicking over a red domino. This is from V for Vendetta (2005).
https://preview.redd.it/fvtahad8415d1.png?width=320&format=png&auto=webp&s=43fd9079c9a5d16c7ebf483c0ee4576b4c76d40c
What do you guys think?
I find it interesting that Cohen is portrayed as Dr Manhattan who was instrumental in Ozymandias' greater plan. Is DFV the kitty in the middle of the picture, or is he Ozymandias? If not him, who is Ozymandias? The quote from the comic almost seems like he may reveal what's really been going on and the big plan on tomorrows stream after it has already been set in motion. Additionally, could this somehow tie in to the Japanese bonds, or perhaps he is referencing Nomura bank out of Japan which originally held all of the GME shorts? No matter what, the green explosion is certainly bullish!
Anyone with any good theories please share below!🦍
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