Cuckhold tube

I'm feeling really depressed lately I have thoughts about a fictional character what she said to me she wants to "make my life a living hell"and worsen my unknown disorder I have under my breath a few years ago I never had this problem but now it's torturing me making me say things I don't wanna say I have to live with it forever and the things I've said under my breath terrifies me and pretends to be fictional charcters they say things like threatening me for example they say things like "shoot yourself from max" or "we hate you from chloe" i dont know if theres a cure for this disorder or treatment but i wish it will stop it feels like there's a demon in mouth controlling me what to say and when everytime I smoke weed specifically the words under my breath gets 10x worse and you can hear it if you have good listening skills and I was harss alot by the media including YouTube and the news they were causing me schizophrenia on purpose I was harass by PewDiePie the famous YouTuber said to me "I can dox you easily why are you watching this" and the Bloomberg show said things like "your the biggest cuckholder in America" it feels like everyone wants me to suffer or die before i moved into a new house a stranger once said to me "im going to take a photo of your grave everyday"