It was from Next (a UK store) , its a quilt with square tiles, main colours white, baby pink, baby blue. on some tiles it had a blue or pink bird, on others it said "hush little baby" or "dont you cry" in cross stitching letters, it also had crochet flowers & a silk blue ribbon around the outside, i dont have any pictures sadly, but it was purchased in the 2000-2004 mark, so if anyone can find even a picture thatd be amazing, but double points if someone can find one for sale🤍

Introduction:
In the realm of fashion, versatility is key. We all want pieces that can effortlessly transition from casual outings to formal affairs, offering endless styling possibilities. This is where Rani tops come into play, offering a timeless elegance that complements a variety of looks. Today, we delve into the world of Rani tops and explore how to pair them with colorful dresses to create stunning ensembles that turn heads wherever you go.

Understanding Rani Tops:

Rani tops, also known as Rani Haar tops or collar neck tops, originate from Indian fashion and are characterized by their high necklines and intricate designs. These tops exude sophistication and grace, making them a staple in many wardrobes. Whether adorned with embroidery, beads, or sequins, Rani tops add a touch of glamor to any outfit.

Pairing with Colorful Dresses:

Now, let's dive into the fun part: pairing Rani tops with colorful dresses. Whether you're attending a wedding, a garden party, or a casual brunch with friends, here are some stylish combinations to consider:

1. Contrast Elegance: Opt for a vibrant, solid-colored dress in hues like royal blue, emerald green, or ruby red. Pair it with a gold or silver embellished Rani top for a striking contrast. This combination effortlessly blends traditional charm with contemporary flair, perfect for festive occasions.
2. Print Play: Embrace the art of mixing prints by pairing a floral or geometric-patterned dress with a subtly embellished Rani top. Look for colors that complement each other, such as a floral dress with hints of gold paired with a Rani top featuring similar metallic accents. This playful yet sophisticated ensemble is ideal for daytime events or summer soirées.
3. Monochrome Magic: For a chic and sophisticated look, opt for a monochrome dress in a bold shade like deep purple, electric blue, or fiery orange. Pair it with a black or white Rani top adorned with intricate detailing. This monochromatic ensemble exudes elegance and makes a statement without overwhelming the senses.
4. Pastel Perfection: Soft pastel dresses in shades of blush pink, lavender, or mint green offer a delicate and feminine aesthetic. Pair them with a Rani top in a complementary pastel hue for a cohesive and ethereal look. Add delicate accessories such as pearl earrings or a dainty bracelet to complete the ensemble.
5. Bohemian Bliss: Channel your inner free spirit by pairing a flowy, bohemian-style dress with a Rani top featuring fringe, tassels, or crochet detailing. Opt for earthy tones such as mustard yellow, terracotta, or olive green to create a harmonious and laid-back vibe. Complete the look with layered necklaces and suede ankle boots for a touch of boho-chic flair.

Conclusion:

Incorporating Rani tops into your wardrobe opens up a world of styling possibilities, especially when paired with colorful dresses. Whether you prefer bold contrasts, playful prints, or subtle monochromatic looks, there's a combination to suit every taste and occasion. So go ahead, experiment with different colors, textures, and styles, and let your creativity shine as you elevate your wardrobe with Rani tops and colorful dresses.

The title says it all huhuh pls recommend some ideas na aabot hanggang sa con. This will serve as my token of appreciation kasi hehe.
I was thinking, hotdog pillow sana na gawang crochet kaso wala akong mahanap na magandang inspo. So either bunny na may hawak na hotdog or panda na may hatdog.
KASOO — I want to give her something na mas maiisip niya kasi Pablo pag nakita niya pero at the same time, nagagamit din at hindi lang display sana?
Crocheted / other handmade gifts (like bracelet and keychain) na kasi ibibigay ng ibang friends namin kaya I need other ideas sana huhu! TYIA!!

Sets can be purchased or traded as a whole or individually.
Sleigh It Set - 1 Sleigh It Skirt - 1 Sleigh It Bodice
Royale Rebel Set - 2 Royale Rebel Laced Boots - 1 Royale Rebel Spiked Veil - 1 Royale Rebel Locket Pendant Corset
Goddess of Triumph Set - 2 GoT Skirt - Victorious Skirt - 2 GoT Shoes - Heels of Immortality - 2 GoT Sleeves - Fearless Gloves - 1 GoT Parasol - Ribbon Parasol - 2 GoT Bodice - Bodice of Hope - 2 GoT Hat - Femme Fleur Fascinator - 2 GoT Earrings - Rosette Rhinestone Earrings
Cherry Blossom Set - 1 Cherry Blossom Kimono Skirt - 1 Cherry Blossom Wooden Sandals Geta - 1 Cherry Blossom Budding Bodice - 1 Cherry Blossom Billowing Sleeves - 1 Cherry Blossom Back Bow - 1 Cherry Blossom Hairpin - 1 Cherry Blossom Hand Fan
TTYL Set - 1 TTYL Chick Fave Bodice & Necklace - 1 TTYL Chick Snowball Puff Earrings
December’s Dream Set - 1 December’s Dream Shoes - 1 December’s Dream Sleeves & Gloves
Winter Guardian Set - 1 Winter Guardian Snowstorm Skirt - 1 Winter Guardian Glacier Boots - 1 Winter Guardian Aura Antlers - 1 Winter Guardian Thermal Bodice /Tailcoat - 1 Winter Guardian Enchanted Sleeves
Shadow Empress Set - 1 Shadow Empress Skirt - 1 Shadow Empress Chained Boots - 1 Shadow Empress Fallen Angel Sleeves - 2 Shadow Empress Chained Bodice - 1 Shadow Empress Jeweled Crown
DotD Set - 1 DotD Aromatic Flower Crown - 1 DotD Aromatic Head Flowers
Princess Starfrost Set - 1 Princess Starfrost Crystal Scepter - 1 Princess Starfrost Figure Skates - 1 Princess Starfrost Cozy Bodice - 1 Princess Starfrost Shooting Stars Cape - 1 Princess Starfrost Ribbon Bonnet
Snow Swan Set - 1 Snow Swan Adorned Ornamental Necklace & Earring Set
Peppermint Princess Set - 2 Peppermint Princess Sleeves
Versailles Set - 4 Versailles Snow Powder Coat
Skirts - 2 Magical Enchantress Skirt ♥ 1 on hold - Deb - 1 Cottage Princess - 1 Sparkly Sarong - 4 Royal Stroll in the Garden - 2 North Pole Presents Skirt
Heels / Shoes - 1 Glittering Jelly Platforms - 1 Snuggly Reindeer Slippers - 3 Huggly Snuggly Booties - 1 Carol of the Elves Booties
Saint Patricks Items - 1 Chocolate Lucky Coin - 1 Stars & Moon Pendant - 1 Don’t Pick Me Please - 2 Rainbow Visors - Rainbow Ears - 2 Over the Rainbow Sleeves - 2 Lucky Top Hat - 1 Lucky Bow Pin - 1 Hip Bag of Coins - 2 Leprechaun Belt - 1 Ruffle Top Hat - 1 Exquisite Emerald Earrings - 1 Treasure Satchel - 1 Bouquet of Clovers - 3 Dangly Rainbow Earrings
Easter Items - 2 Spring Cleaning Headband - 3 Spring Queen Crown - 1 Springtide Flower Crown - 2 Holding Cute Bunnies - 1 Exquisite Easter Tie - 3 Easter Egg Boppers - 1 Sweet Bunny Hair Bows - 1 Cute Animal Nose - 1 Trip to the Market Hat Halloween Items - 1 Arachnofabulous - 1 Supernatural Hoop Earrings - 1 Kawaii Demon Horns - 1 Kawaii Reaper - 1 Classic Ghost Costume - 1 Sparkly Body Chain - 1 Abnormally Large and Very Pokey Fork - 1 Studded Rose Garters - 1 Pretty Kitty Tail - 2 Witch’s Little Pet Staff - 1 Spider Friend - 2 Bat Tophat - 2 Bat Earrings - 1 Vampire’s Heir - 1 Glowing Pumpkin Wand - 1 Jack-o-Lantern Boppers - 1 Skull Crown - 1 Sparkling Crow Crown - 1 Nomnom Chocolate Bar - 1 Spinning Web Boppers - 1 Ruffle Collar
Christmas - Winter Items - 2 Present Disguise - 3 Sparkly Christmas Bells Earring - 2 Light-Up Ornament Necklace - 4 Glittering Noel Bows - 1 Woodland Faun Hooves - 3 Ice Prince Shawl Cape - 4 Polar Cutie Bear Hat - 2 Polar Bear Beret Cap - 2 Elf Helper Hat - 4 Gone with the Wind Bow Headband - 2 Crisp Air Puffy Jacket - 2 Iced Gingerbread Earrings - 2 Father Christmas Present Bag - 1 Good Tidings Shawl Cape - 1 Reindeer Crossbody - 1 Christmas Window Shopping Top Hat - 1 Frozen Luggage - 2 Warm Glittering Cloak - 1 Cute Carrot Nose - 2 Lace Snowflake Stole Scarf - 2 Flower Vines Arm Beauty - 1 Magical Fairy Lights - 1 Aurora’s Battleaxe - 1 Dashing Through the Snow Scarf - 1 Frozen Royalty Crown - 1 Huggly Snuggly Knitted Beanie Hat - 1 Aurora’s Longsword - 2 Merry Sparkly Dress - 1 Fuzzy Warm Frost Hat - 1 Lolita Lovely Bow Lacey Scarf - 2 Sparkly Candy Cane Ears - 1 Very Cozy Gloves / Mittens - 1 Very Cozy Hat
Summer Items - 1 Sea Star Pearl Bracelet - 1 Nomnom Frosted Donut Arm Floaties - 1 Nomnom Frosted Donut Waist Floaties - 1 Seashell Hair Clips
Randoms - 2 Dragging Skirt Helper: Tilt-Be-Gone-o-Matic! - 1 American Flag

Hello everyone!! I hope I chose the write tag, but anyway.
I met this guy in the beginning of my junior year and he's a senior, sometime in August. For context, I am a gay trans man, and he is cis. At first, we were super awkward since neither of us really know how to talk go people, but as time progressed, I could tell he was getting comfortable around me. Here's the thing though: I confessed I kind of liked him in November, just to get it out of the way. He thought about it for a day, then told me he wasn't looking for a relationship right now, and that he was straight. Alright, no hard feelings. We honestly just got closer, and I convinced him to join Theatre with me.
Now here's the hard stuff. He gifted me matching bracelets, his as the Sun and mine as the Moon, connected with a heart magnet. I was confused, but friendship bracelets exist. It's cool. But I'll put some other instances in bullet points:
-When my Theatre teacher told us we would be separated into two casts, he got really scared, and told me that he only joined Theatre for me, and he didn't want to be in another cast without me. -He stands really close to me. We're a breath apart, and our noses are practically touching. -He follows me around everywhere. He doesn't ask questions about where we're going, he just walks by my side. -Everyone in Theatre assumed we were dating. Everyone had asked his close friend, and she had to tell them no. She informed me of this, and told me it was extremely obvious there was something going on. -I have been told on multiple occasions that we're conjoined by the hip. -He has told me that he never met anyone like me before. -He stares into my eyes a lot. I ask him what's up, and he just smiles and says "Nothing." -He does this very specific smile everytime he can see me approaching him. -He's a very attentive listener and I'm a yapper. Unrelated, but I thought it was funny lmao. -He wanted to leave a school dance with me without saying goodbye to any of his friends. -At a mutual friend's birthday party, I asked him when he planned on leaving, and he told me, "After you leave for sure." -He told me that Prom would be boring without me, and he would just be standing in a corner. -He lends me his books, and reads and annotated the ones I recommend to him. -He has given me one of his dreads that he cut off and told me to make a bracelet out of it. -He crochets these necklaces and always gifts them to me. -He really wants to get us more matching items. -We do this thing where we just stare into each other's eyes really hard and try to guess the same number everyday.
Unfortunately, he's asking another girl to Prom. Platonically, but still. He was peer-pressured by his friends to do so, and he doesn't really want to. He's not even planning it, but he's still doing it. I do think it's weird that he himself didn't tell me consisering how close we are, as I was told this by other people.
He's really sweet and funny, and we have both said that we have never related to anyone as much as we have related to each other. He told me that he never suspected that the person who told him, "I really like your bracelets," would have changed his life like this.
I guess I'm just asking for advice on how to bring this up? Or is this just regular friendship stuff? I apologize for the length of this post, it's just that I don't know what to say or how to tell him that he needs to tell me what he's feeling, as he struggles with his emotions or words, or if we need to set boundaries. I am really happy to be his friend, but my feelings are being hurt right now.

Here's what I remember:

• paperback mini book that came in a box with a ribbon
• told about superstitions and folklore from around the world

Ring any bells?
update: found! It’s The Wish Box byMaureen Rissik and it came in a little box with charms to make a bracelet. Of course it seems it’s no longer in production. Thanks for the help!

I went through his stuff, searching for that ribbon Charline told him to find.
«- Found it, Charline ! I said
-Great, come down now ! We’re leaving, Charline said.
-Coming !! I answered»
I went down the stairs, took my orange glamrock freddy themed jacket and put my shoes.
«-Ugh, I can’t tie up my shoes….
-I’ll help you, Elizabeth said, smiling.
-Thank you, big sister...»
Me, Charline, Elizabeth and my twin, Nora all went to the car.
« -I can’t belive dad would call us like that and tell us to go to the old house…. I wonder what he’s plotting, I mean, It’s been years since we’ve seen him ! Like, almost 200 year… Elizabeth said
-I hope he’s not doing anything bad ! Charline answered »
Both me and Nora remained silent. About what seemed like an eternity, they arrived at the entrance of the abandonned part of the town.
« -What are you kiddos doing here, at the entrance of the abandonned part of the town ? NO ONE is allowed here, except higher up of fazbear entertainment and Aftons, the guard at the entrance said. »
Elizabeth remained silent showing him his identity card and showing him our Green bracelets, bracelets to enter the pizzeria are color-coded. Green means Aftons, animatronics have a code saying that they should protect the kids with a green bracelets.
«-Oh, sorry miss Afton, the guard said»
I think he was surpised that there’s still Aftons out here not like… them. After like what seemed an hour of walking, we arrived at the house, it was still intact. Dad, Mike and other people I can’t think of must have been keeping it cleaned, or they used some sort of technology. I don’t know.
«-Well, I guess we go in now. And we… Meet dad again or something like that ?.. I don’t know why he wants us to go there, Elizabeth said.
-Yeah… I’m scared, Nora answered.»
The house didn’t change. I think somone was watching us when we went in the house.

I am a 20yr old female, and I started experiencing seizure like activity in October of 2023.
I am new to this. After everything started in October it began getting worse, then in December I had my first tonic-clonic seizure (then my second in the ambulance). And my license was taken away for 3 months, I live with my brother, sister, and niece, I used to watch her all the time but now I am terrified to watch her alone because she’s only 2. And my job at the time was providing support and companionship for individuals with intellectual and developmental disabilities, I loved it, I loved being around everyone, I loved watching them bowl, play pool, have tv nights, and after December I didn’t feel capable in providing safety for these individuals. But we had the ball rolling on finding out what it is, got into neurologist, seen primary care. Then it hit the waiting game. I was constantly inside, my job didn’t pay very well so I couldn’t do anything but wake up at noon, sit on my phone till I got tired and go back to bed. (I love art, crocheting, and tattooing but it turns out you need an income for hobbies) My parents were worried, I was stressed and feeling the pressure of not being able to work or drive or be independent. My best fucking boyfriend ever, my fucking goat ass friends, and amazing sister were the motherfuckers who pulled me out of the house and urged me to tag along to almost anywhere. But the place I live will just about higher anyone as medical staff. I did my MRI back in January and as of April 23 I have yet to see them, my dr hasn’t gotten them, I was supposed to hear the results in the beginning of April at my 3 month check in. And I did my eeg back in February, and I was told that it came back clear. And I feel absolutely crazy, I feel like I am loosing my mind between the stupid fucking Keppra sleep attack and the day to day worry about feeling like shit because of Keppra, scrambling to find my id bracelet, and worrying if I’m gonna freak someone the fuck out. The three months was up in March, and I started my new job on the first of April, and I already love it there, it’s not what I had but I’m happy with it. Last week i had begun the bump from 500mg to 750mg on Tuesday night, felt fine Wednesday, worked and got home Thursday, and it hit me like a freight train. Friday I slept because I had upchucked my meds on Thursday and couldn’t keep any thing down. And Saturday I felt completely fine…Sunday morning hit and it fucking KO’d my ass, I woke up and felt immediate pain with breathing, tried to fix it with a warm bath, ibuprofen, and even laying down on the warm sidewalk outside(weird I know), and finally called my mom who told me to go to the er when she heard my breathing, called my boyfriend felt the tingling in my face and started to panic, I laid down and felt my body tighten. And it was the first big one I had alone. We made it to the er and by that time I was feeling fine and the brain fog set in, I was asked if I wanted fluids, I said I didn’t know, they ended up giving me nausea meds and sent me home. Monday-fine. Today- I felt jittery this morning, and I thought it was my anxiety and me convincing myself we all have good and bad days, drove to work, getting ready to pull in and start feeling that sensation. This time I don’t panic, I walk in ask my coworkers to not call 911 unless my condition worsens and thank fuck they listened. I had gotten a medical ID just in case and they had someone to call. My parents asked me to go into the er again, I just didn’t want to, I tried to avoid going through the er but that didn’t end up happening, sat there tried to sleep and the heart monitor goes off. They did blood work and tried their best to hound the hospital that did my mri for the results but nothing. At the end of the several hours of waiting they said nothing showed up in blood work and sent me home.
I’m the type of person to feel bad when they complain, but this has been a massive fucking load of my chest and I’m not sorry.🤷‍♀️
Also any advice helps.

I don't like the way the matchmake is in the game. It's very boring and very uncreative for a rival and their suitor to fall in love with each other just by talking. There has to be more, so I decided to change it and give Ayano extra work to be cupid! :]
I'm gonna start with Osana and Kyuji.
It starts as normal with Ayano talking to Kyuji about his crush on Osana. It went something like this →
“It is true that you have a crush on Osana.”Ayano blankly said, standing next to Kyuji. The two were standing on the rooftop with Kyuji leaning against the railing, watching Osana speaking with Raibaru. Kyuji glanced over at her,”Is it really… that obvious?”
“Yes. You look like an idiot.”
Kyuji slightly frowned before sulking,”I know…”He mumbled,”It's just… whenever I'm near her, I get so nervous and so awkward. I-I understand I'm popular and all. Why would a popular guy be nervous and scared to speak with the girl he has strong feelings for?... It's not easy. She's something else.”Kyuji looked at Osana again and smiled at the sight of her wide smile,”She shines as bright as a star. It's something I always look forward to. Even when we both feed that kitten in front of the Gardening Club, I enjoy every moment with her.”
“I don't see why you fell in love with her.”Ayano glanced down at Osana with the same blank expression.
“...I know that she's quite rude at times, but it's just the way she is. She can't really control it. I love her that way. I wouldn't change a thing.”Kyuji smiled as his cheeks turned into a red rosy color.
“You should.”
Kyuji shot a glare at Ayano. Ayano noticed the glare seconds later,”Sorry. Since you can't talk to her without getting nervous and awkward, I'm going to help you.”
Kyuji's eyes lit,”Really?”
Ayano nodded. She grabbed his hand and placed the earbud on his palm,”You will wear this in your ear and help you with what you need to say to her. I will be the one to keep you calm during your time with her.” Kyuji stared at the earbud,”That's it?”
Ayano nodded again,”I will be giving you ideas on what to do with her in the town. There's an animal shelter blocks away from the town that has cats and kittens for you two to play with and bond. If you take her there, it would be a good way for you two to spend time with each other with something you two enjoy.”
Kyuji remained his eyes in the earbud before looking at Ayano,”O-Okay. I can do that!”Kyuji smiled.
“Good.”
—
Each day after school, Kyuji would ask Osana to go on a date with her to different places to spend time with each other and get to know each other. The more Kyuji spends with her, the more confident he feels around her while Osana slowly falls for him with each event that happens along with opening herself up to him.
—
Monday → Animal Shelter
Osana and Kyuji go enjoy the company of the kittens and cats in the animal shelter. They would stay there to feed the animals, play with them, and talk to each other to get to know about each other's interests, likes, dislikes, etc. Along the way, they have their fun moments with the cats and kittens.
Ayano will help Kyuji with talking to Osana if he gets nervous around her.
The cats would end up climbing on top of Kyuji, which would make Osana laugh at the panic that is expressed on Kyuji's face before she decides to help him
—
Tuesday → Café
Osana and Kyuji went on a date together in the Café in town. If Ayano is working there, she will make sure the date goes well between them and give Kyuji advice on what to say or do. Osana and Kyuji speak to each other as always, getting to know more information about one another.
Ayano has to make sure Kyuji doesn't mess up the date with his awkward self.
During this time, Osana does reveal the reason why her hair is so long. Kyuji finds it interesting that Osana wouldn't cut her hair until she confessed to Taro or Taro would realize her feelings towards him. Kyuji finds it quite ridiculous that Taro hasn't realized Osana's feelings towards him, or at least Taro hasn't fallen for her yet. Kyuji does end up complimenting her, which causes her to blush and be her Tsundere self towards him, lol.
—
Wednesday → Gardening
Considering that these two like Gardening. Why not have a small little date in the Gardening Club? (With Uekiya's permission).
Between the two of them, they plant seeds of the plates they want while spending time together. While they are on their date, Osana does tell Kyuji about her cat, how she got her, etc, and the reason why she loves Gardening so much.
Kyuji listens through it all. During this date, Kyuji holds hands with Osana for the first time, which causes them both to be a blushing mess.
Towards the end of the date, Kyuji gives a flower that matches her orange eyes and hair. With Osana's permission, he puts it in her hair and compliments her.
Again, her tsundere comes out again. Kyuji just smiles shyly at her tsundere side, knowing that she's this way when she gets flustered.
—
Thursday → Shopping
Osana and Kyuji go shopping together. It is around this time when Kyuji figures out the things that Osana wants to buy and has been saving up for (The cat accessories).
Osana does open up to him about how Raibaru and her met and became best friends. Soon after, Osana does reveal her dark secret, which is her writing romantic fanfics of boys from her favorite anime. Kyuji doesn't find it weird at all. He finds it quite nice to see that Osana was willing to share this information with him. Kyuji does ask if he could read the fanfics. Osana immediately denies it.
During the day, they hold hands again, but this time, Kyuji asks Osana for permission to give her a kiss on the cheek when their date ends. Osana allows it and blushes at the affection before calling Kyuji a “Dummy.”
Kyuji just accepts it.
Ayano does keep an eye on them.
—
Friday → Picnic with Kitten
This event happens during lunch, Osana and Kyuji agree to have a nice picnic with the kitten in front of the Gardening Club. Between the two, they decided to cook something to bring to the picnic to share and bring cat food for the kitten to eat as well.
Osana does ask Kyuji how and why he was so popular. (Kyuji remains popular. He doesn't distance himself). Kyuji doesn't know himself, but he assumes from being nice to everyone and treating people with respect. Kyuji believes there's nothing special about him to become popular, but as long as he is nice to the people around him, he knows that he has real friends to back him up.
Osana listens to him through it all while she's eating the foods she and he brought for the picnic. As the two talked, in the middle of the date, Kyuji gave her a white box that was wrapped in a red ribbon with a tied bow on top.
Osana opened it to reveal that it was the accessories that she wanted and has been saving for during the week. Kyuji decided to buy the accessories in the morning before coming to school to surprise Osana during their little picnic date.
Kyuji helps Osana put on the bracelet, necklace, and hair clip. With a bright smile on her face, Osana thanks him for the gifts and that she will treasure them forever.
Kyuji is just happy to see Osana smiling and excited for the new accessories that look cute on her.
Towards the end of the date, these two are already holding hands and leaning against each other while enjoying their time together with the kitten. That's when Osana is fully in love with Kyuji and has moved on from Taro.
Ayano succeeded in matchmaking them and making sure their dates went well.
—
After school, on Friday, Osana confesses her feelings towards Kyuji under the cherry tree. Kyuji accepts her feelings, telling her that he feels the same way. The two share their first kiss and become a couple.
During Amai's week, these two hold hands with one another during the school days, eat together, cuddle together, go out together after school, and much more. They do give each other space, of course, to do their own thing.
Osana does cut her hair as well, which Kyuji was there to see and keep her company. With her short hair, Kyuji can buy her a lot more cute accessories for her hair. Osana does play with Kyuji's long hair when she's bored or wants to try a new hairstyle on him.
Kyuji is still quite popular, so because of this, Osana does gain popularity as well, along with new friends. :]
I'm going to do this with each rival, but I'm not doing it with Muja and Mida. Let's pretend they don't have suitors. I am going to change some things for the suitors though cuz pedodev made them so bland or, at least, some of them 😒

I (20F) like this girl (also 20F). She's cute and bubbly. She's short, maybe 5 feet 2 inches? Has straight short hair which she keeps growing and then cutting em short. She wears a silver kada (a bangle/bracelet) and has a silver nose ring. I've noticed her ever since I got into college, I'm bisexual. I heard from people that she's an ally and idk if she's into girls. She however has a boyfriend so I do not have a chance (I also heard that they're highschool sweethearts :') ). I've seen the guy, he treats her like the absolute princess she is. While I am sad that I will never get a chance, Im happy that she's with a guy who treats her well. P S: I recently saw that she has started a crochet biz on Instagram and I'm planning to buy some stuff just to support her. P. P. S: Did I mention she's super talented? She can crochet, play the guitar, dance, teaches people how to solve the rubik's cube, is very kind and warm but is pretty reserved and has a small circle. Idek why I'm writing all this here but I really want the world to know what a great person she is.

Packing my worn leather bag with supplies, Wisty embraced me from behind. Kissing the top of my head, Ravena smiled in the crook of his arm, the path into the Land of Life would be a difficult one. Spinning on my heels to face him, his black band t-shirt and ripped jeans reminded me of how he looked back then. Mother Nature and Granitos were going to pick me up to take me to Vivra, my fans feeling heavy in my boots. Cupping my cheek, his lips pressed against mine tenderly. A rosy blush colored to my cheeks, his hand sliding to the small of my waist.
“Be sure to come home, Asphy.” He mused sweetly, tucking a loose piece of hair behind my ear. “You do have a child to come home to.” Poking his nose, scarlet painted his cheeks. Flashing him a flirtatious grin, he had to know that I would come back in one piece. Three guardians would be able to protect me, Jean skidding into the room with Killer. His rifle bounced off of his dark green plaid shirt, his palms rubbing against his jeans. How could I forget about Jean himself?
“I am here!” He announced in a huff, kissing Ravena’s head as he took in my leather rockabilly dress. “Must you wear leather all the time and black at that.” Sticking out my tongue in his direction, he caught my playful punch. Winking in his cousin’s direction, Granitos showed up in a scarlet velvet suit. Mother Nature took my hand, Asphodels blooming along her vine robe. Vines groaned into a dome over us, a sweet breeze whisking us out of the realm of the reapers. Vines shrank back into her robe, my jaw dropping at the sheer amount of candles floating around us. Following her up a waxy pathway, the violet lights glowed ominously. Scales clicked together in the bottom, Mother Nature cursing under her breath. The pathway trembled dangerously, Master Skull appearing over my head. Tossing my bag into Mother Nature’s arms, my fingers plucked my fans from my boots. Flicking them into full length, another groan had all of us looking underneath us. Hisses bounced off the walls, Master Skull grinning ear to ear. Of course, my favorite guy had to show up. Why it mattered to him was beyond me? Perhaps he enjoyed being a little gnat that buzzed in my ear.
“I guess that candle is as good as mine.” He shrugged with an ever bigger grin, his boots hitting the pathway. “Have fun with my new friend.” Crashing away from us, hesitation dimmed my eyes. Urging us to go on, vines whipped in all directions as Granitos tugged on his cross earring. A sleek onyx blade with an upside cross hilt plopped into his hand. Jean dragged me towards Master Skull, his strong arms throwing me ahead of him. Landing roughly in front of him, blood ribbons swirled around him. His leather coat floated up, his sly grin meeting my defiant grin. When were these meetings going to end?
“I am afraid that fucking candle is mine.” I chuckled sarcastically, donning a bigger grin. “Dumb question, wouldn’t it benefit you if I collected everything and you kidnapped me.” Shrugging my shoulders, a huff escaped my lips at him charging at me. Sliding underneath him, my foot knocked him onto his ass. Taking me down with him, horror rounded my eyes at him throwing me off. Gripping the wax at the last minute, a pop prevented him from getting up. Sweat soaked my palms, a sorry escaping my lips as I kicked the weak path. Ominous cracking had Jean taking a step back, wax whistling by us. Summoning my feathers to protect the candles, my hand snatched his ankle. Throwing him underneath me, our bodies bounced off of waxy spikes. Grunting gruffly, spikes had impaled us both. Coughing up blood, our fans hacked away at the spikes. The tops hit the waxy cavern floor, wet sloshing noises echoed as we pulled ourselves off. Landing face down in a puddle of my own blood, a soft thud announced his landing. Struggling to our feet, blood plopped onto our boots. Catching our breath, his wound began to seal shut before mine. The bastard was using uppers, a quiet fear burning in his eyes at my feathers and fans darkening to a midnight black. Cracking my neck, the gaping hole in my stomach sealed shut. Feathers landed on my shoulders, a wicked grin spread across my lips. This level of power was my trump card, the last few jobs forcing me to hone in on it.
“You use drugs, I use my new powers. Seems fair, right?” I commented casually, a lump forming in his throat. “At least mine is a fair bet. Oh wait, you murdered someone important to me. Fuck you for that.” Jean landed a few feet away from me, Granitos holding him back with a giant silver snake head under his arm. Mumbling something in his direction, an excitement buzzed in his eyes. Pirouetting around spikes, Master Skull’s eyes couldn’t keep up with me. Popping up behind him, his blood ribbons sliced up my bare skin. Swinging my fans in the direction of his shoulders, a kick in the air had the metal edges slicing off his arms. Hitting the wax underneath him, I flipped over him to steal his fans. Scooping them up with grace, inky blackness devoured the metal. Crumbling in my hands, the power of my authority canceled the validity of his weapons. Leaning forward with a devilish grin, one blow had the sparkling ash dancing in the air. Thinking I won this little spat, horror rounded my eyes at his arms reattaching themselves. Consolidating his blood ribbons into a single giant curved blade, his real weapon had been revealed. Exhaustion slapped me in my face, the feathers and fans lightening back to their ivory color. Tripping over my own feet, a black mist overtook the space. Swaying slightly, the mist smelled rotten. Cracking his neck, he sauntered up to me. How the fuck did the scales tip his way this fast?
“Like my darkness?” He whispered harshly, gripping the collar of my dress as the others hit the wax. “I have been building it for years and you can’t stop me from me getting my fucking revenge! Sleep like a good g-” Vivra popped up behind him, her pink business suit standing out. Snapping her fingers, the mist disappeared into thin air. Smashing her fist into his back, his body flew into the air. Kicking him back into the air, her hand rolled over a tiny candle. Just how was she able to withstand his freaking mist!
“That is the first candle my mother made. Don’t worry about taking it.” She mused playfully with a wink, her hand catching him by his throat. “We have to make a new candle every century. Let me play for a minute.” Clawing at her hands, she spun him over her head. Throwing him into the wall, wax crumbled over his weakened body. Wonder brightened my eyes at my necklace floating up, the candle melting over the stone. Absorbing the wax, our second goal had been achieved. Vivra whistled sharply, the floor beneath him boiling into hot wax. Placing her hands in her pockets, she leaned forward with a sickly sweet grin.
“I suggest you leave before I boil you alive.” She giggled maniacally, my own body scrambling back involuntarily. Blood ribbons whisked him away, her attention falling on me. Crouching down to my level, the wax cooled back into the floor. Cupping my chin, she examined me for any wounds. Plopping down next to me, her arm draped over my shoulders. Too confused to speak, Wisty popping up killed any awkwardness. Grabbing Killer and Jean, he motioned for me to come. Murphy's law seemed to be in full effect today.
“We have an emergency.” He huffed with an apologetic smile, Vivra shooting him a knowing smile. Popping to my feet, his arms yanked me close to his waist. Chains whisked us back to the penthouse, screaming a few floors down captured my attention. Vivra popped up next to us, her appearance had me jumping into Wisty’s arms. Tugging on her gloves, a medical kit bounced at her side. Mulling over the fact that she was supposed to be back in her dimension, a clap in front of my face had me snapping back to reality.
“Time to bring another life into this world.” She sang gleefully, skipping past me. “Don’t stand there, your father wants to see you. He hasn’t seen Ravena and he won’t stop barking in my ears.” Wisty left to lay down Jean, Ravena cooing in his arms when he returned. Offering me his elbow, mine hooked around his. Stepping into the elevator, Feathers hovered around my dress. His beak stitched up any tears, his skills knowing no bounds. Killer barked at my feet, a rare sense of serenity came over me. Stepping out into the lobby, everyone waved at me on the way out. Shoving our way through the bustling street, the noise and chaos thinned out the closer we got to my father’s home. A couple of reapers let me in, my father burying me into a bear hug. Tears soaked the top of my head, the golden details of his suit glistening in the light. Releasing me, his arms scooped Ravena up. Clutching her close to his chest, fresh tears stained his cheeks. Her bat covered dress looked adorable on her, his hand waving us into his office. Crashing into his chair, a tray of cookies and tea waited for us. Hesitancy burned in my eyes, his free hand waving around.
“I made everything myself. So, no poisoning.” He assured me with a nervous grin, his lips grazing the top of his granddaughter’s head. “Sorry about how she came to be but you don’t have a scent anymore. To shut down your next question, she won’t give off her own until she is about sixteen.” Breathing a sigh of relief, her life won’t be destroyed completely. Fishing around his desk, he slid a pile of files over to me. Curiosity mixed with concern at the pile in front of me, Wisty tucking them into a worn leather bag before I could scan them over real quick. When did he get that? My eyes flitted between the two of them, something seemed a wee bit fishy. Playing with the hem of his t-shirt, Wisty looked seconds from exploding.
“What gives?” I demanded with a slightly annoyed tone, the two of them shifting uncomfortably. “You can’t hide shit from me. Spill it.” Clearing his throat, Wisty leaned onto his knees. Averting his gaze to the floor, a low growl rumbled in my throat.
“Master Skull is part angel. He was never human.” He answered with an anxious chuckle, my irritation dying down. “He doesn’t have wings but we don’t know what to do.” Why were people so scared of me? The thought raced through my head, my lips pressing into a pensive expression. How do you kill an angel who became a death bringer? Also, where was the fear that would have normally risen in me?
“Doesn’t change the plan.” I uttered simply, pouring a few cups of tea. “His death must happen. Come Hell or high water, I will find a way to kill him. Time on my hands after all. Let’s talk about how you can watch her when I am at work.” Tears of joy glimmered in his eyes, his natural smile brightening his tired features.
“Do you mean that?” He choked out through a wall of tears, a bit of sadness returning to his eyes. “I would be honored to watch your little nugget. What do you think, Ravy?” Her giggles twinkled in the air, her tiny fingers curling around his thumb. Mother Nature let herself in, a soft chuckle flooding from her lips at the sight of my father holding his granddaughter.
“Nice to see you two getting along. I have a proposal for you, my dear Asphy.” She offered with a sweet smile, her hand pulling up a chair next to me. “Let the council help you out. He is an enemy of us all. We can provide whatever you need.” Tucking a loose piece of hair behind my ear, she slid a parchment paper in front of me. Scanning the words, nothing seemed out of place until the last line. That very last line placed me as the council leader, scarlet painting my cheeks. The other signatures were there, my father and mine being the missing one. Shaking my head while scrunching up the hem of my dress, her hands cupped my face.
“Please become our leader. No one has ever been up to snuff for the position. Well, until you. Raveno didn’t even come close.” She pleaded desperately, her eyes watching my father sign his name. “We need you to stabilize everything. The promotion can be scary but give it a shot.” Dropping her hands to her lap, my lips parted to speak several times. No! No ounce of desire existed for such an offer.
“Wouldn’t this make me in charge of everything?” I stammered nervously, scratching at the back of my neck. “I don’t think I can manage that on top of my cur-” The chair hitting the floor gave me pause, Wisty placing his hands on his hips. Fury mixed with passion, the corner of his lip twitching.
“Sign the contract! You are going to be what the world needs. I have watched you streamline the processes of death down here.” He pointed while waving his hands around, my hand covering my brightening blush. “Imagine how you can improve the world with this position.” Swallowing the lump in my throat, a golden quill floated into my palm. Placing the tip on the final line, the tip danced hesitantly across the line. Flicking the last letter, a black crystal bracelet appeared on my wrist. Shrinking down to fit my wrist, the metal welded itself into place. Tugging at it, the damn thing wouldn’t come off. Shit, there seemed to be no way out!
“That won’t come off.” Mother Nature teased blithely, her hand taking mine. “Thank you for becoming our leader.” Pressing her palms together, she rose to her feet. Vines stole her away to her realm, a long breath drew from my lips. Wisty fixed his chair, shame dimming his eyes. Someone knew about this as well, my foot tapping incessantly. Popping to my feet, I excused myself to check up on Teas. A distraction would be lovely right about now.
“Do you mind watching her for a couple of hours? Bring her to the dinner I am making for us.” I offered sincerely, his head nodding. “Wisty, let’s go.” Marching out of the house with me, his boots crunched a couple of feet behind me. The noise of the market roared to life, Wisty not complaining as I stopped to pick up dinner supplies. Greeting the doorman, Wisty pushed the button for Teas’ floor. Embracing me from the side, his lips brushed against the top of my head. Swiping the groceries from my hands, my heart fluttered at him lifting up my chin with my finger.
“Dinner will be my duty. See you at dinner, my dear.” He promised with a loving gaze, the door opening. Pushing me out, my feet hit the carpet. Residents poked their heads out, all eyes falling on me. Grimacing in my direction, blame couldn’t rest on them. The screaming was enough to make anyone tear out their hair. Walking down to Teas’ door, Shamus ripped me in. Pinning me to the wall, a clammy sweat drenched his skin. His ivory button shirt hung half open, a low growl rumbling in his throat. Diffuse this situation before it got worse, I shouted internally.
“Where have you been?” He hissed irritably, a lift of my wrist giving him my answer. “Sorry but she has been asking for you.” Releasing me, Teas lit up at the sight of me. Taking the seat by her bed, her sweat soaked hair clung to her face. Dabbing her face with an ice cold wash cloth, a worn smile met mine.
“I won’t leave your side until they arrive.” I promised with my real smile, her head nodding. Vivra made her way back in, an understanding was met silently between us. Working through the next couple of hours with her, a wail had tears staining my cheeks. Shamus paled on the other side of her, Vivra cutting the umbilical cord. Whisking him away to clean him up, Shamus clutched Teas close to his chest. Sobbing in each other’s arms, my hands crossed on my lap. Vivra brought their son back in, Teas reaching for him. Rocking him back and forth, the name Ronan flowed from her lips. Asking if I found the boy adorable, an honest yes had a tender blush rising to her cheeks. Tucking her hair behind her ear, I wished them luck as I rose to my feet. Shouting thank you as I left, Vivra joined my side. Perhaps my new friend required a bit of nourishment.
“Want to join me for dinner?” I asked shyly, her gloves hitting the bottom of the nearest trash can. “You must be starving after all that work.” Dusting off her suit, a nudge to my shoulder answered my question. Hooking her elbow around mine, our boots clicked into the elevator. The door clicked shut, her eyes falling on my new bracelet.
“Glad to see you stepped up to your calling. I saw it in your book. Trust me, the council will accomplish great things.” She comforted me with a lovely smile, pride glistening in her eyes. “I pushed for it. Don’t be mad.” Waving my hand around, she had nothing to worry about. The door clicked open to reveal my father and Wisty waiting for me at the table. Taking our spots, a pleasant conversation calmed my fraying nerves. Praying for success, the questions of the next step lingered in the air.

Someone told me I should write up my sensory processing disorder issues and how I handle them. It turned out to be a lot of text.
So I'm plopping it here in case it might help others.
Sensory Processing Disorder, sensory aggravants, how I deal
What increases physical effects of sensory aggravants Stress, physical or emotional. Being rushed. Pregnancy. Accutane/other medication for acne. Antibiotics. Job interview. Harsh criticism. Being shouted/screamed/yelled at/shamed. Being hit/spanked/shamed as a child, especially by adults who accused and did not listen to my impressions of what happened because “talking back is disrespectful”. Inability to communicate personal needs or traumatic personal events due to lack of descriptive words/understanding/communication barrier. Recent loss, breakup, death of human or pet. Permanent loss of valuable objects/needs, whether monetary or emotional (ex: only inherited heirloom of stolen, house burned down). Housing/food instability. Physical illness. Recent medical procedure. Recent dental procedure. Dilation of eyes. Recent immunization. Multiple sensory aggravants at once. Being unable to stop or escape sensory aggravant. Having my period. Clutter.
Skin aggravant
aggravant: Coarse hair of any length, especially stubble, especially where skin folds in on itself. On my body, that is underarms/vulva/between breasts/hair on back of neck.
Physical reaction: Each individual hair feels like small sharp bristles.
What happens if I ignore it: I want to scream or cry. Visible red marks on skin, often. Full body shudders, as if experiencing forced tickling. Burning, itching sensation where the hair stubble is.
Solution: shave, wax, epilate frequently. Shave armpits daily. For me, the hair between buttocks is not a sensory issue if it is left to grow untrimmed.
Aggravant: Stubble on legs
What I feel: each individual hair catches knits, tighter clothing, rayon, leggings, tights, gets pulled. When I kneel or lay in bed, stubble against legs feels like sandpaper.
What happens if I ignore it: I want to punch something. It gets itchy. Usually red substantial red marks on lower legs. I have screamed.
Solution: hair removal frequently, wear looser pants, palazzo pants, bell bottoms, jeans. Never, ever wear leggings, tight pants, fitted pants. Never wear hose, tights, nylons. Keep razor and tweezers on hand for hair removal. Apply Gold Bond healing lotion to itching areas. When I find comfortable clothing, I buy them in all the colors. Epilation pulls hair out by the roots so it is less irritating as it grows in, however epilation hurts quite a bit to begin with. I do it in stages and take long breaks when my body starts shaking from the pain.
Issue: Dry Skin
What I feel: My dry skin cracks and catches on textiles/floochairs/socks/whatever. It hurts.
Solution: Gold Bond healing lotion. Also Cerave products and unflavored, unscented lip balm.
Issue: Scented things, basically all, but for some odd reason fresh or dried food products usually are fine. Essential oils, nope.
What I feel: Sprayed air freshener and car air fresheners make me nauseous. When I was pregnant, everything stank and everything made me throw up.
Solutions: Avoid air fresheners. Open windows, if air outside is fresh. There are phone apps that people use to decide when to run outside. Usually if the air quality is marked as “good” on those, it is safe to open windows. Use unscented soap/deoderant/personal products. When I find a candle that does not make me nauseous, I buy plenty of them. During pregnancy, all trash had to be taken out as quickly as possible. Food was generally eaten cold, as heat spreads the smells around. Heating a bowl of vinegar in the microwave then letting it sit out cut lots of smells. Cat litter needed scooped immediately and changed at least twice a month. There is some kind of spray thingie that I forget name of, a friend got it at a smoke shop. It cut smells from neighbor’s smoking cigarettes/weed. Using an enzymatic cleaner on pet stains helped.
Aggravant: Hair on head long enough to curl under and touch forehead or back of neck
What I feel: Individual hairs touching forehead itch. I scratch it.
What happens if I ignore it: I will scratch area until it hurts to make it stop itching. As a child, I cut my hair very poorly, very short to stop the itching. I will scratch it until it bleeds.
Solution: I maintain a short pixie haircut. Personally I hire a good hairstylist, find one, and stick to them. Others simply buzz-cut their hair.
Aggravant: Textures and fiber
Specific textures: velvet, all types. Cotton balls, all. Pipe cleaners, all. Most polyester fleece. Most tags. Most thick seams. All overlapped leather seams. Some printed on fabric tags, especially on older well-worn clothes where the paint-ink has melted into a rough texture. All non-cotton and non-rayon laces. Most ribbons. Most fuzzy things. Serged/overlocked seams, if done with polyester thread (In general, the thread is polyester if it does not exactly match the color of the clothing. Polyester thread is difficult to dye. On other clothing, feel the seams to see if they are a little bit rough, and look for threads that are one solid color). Wool, all. Seams in stiffer jeans, all. Elastic, all. Small bits of rubber, elastic poking through covered covered seams. Smocked outfits, all. Most ruched outfits, those with covered ruching seams and nothing poking through excepted. Nylons, hose, tights, all.
What I feel: Velvet, cotton balls, polyester fleece, pipe cleaners cause a “nails on chalkboard” shudder. Seams, rough texture, wool, ribbons, laces, small bits of elastic or rubber sticking through causes a burning itch. Nylons, hose, tights cause a burning heat that alternates with cold prickles through my lower legs. Toe seams on socks. During pregnancy, most sheets felt like sleeping on sandpaper.
What happens if I ignore it: I will scratch area until it hurts to make it stop itching. I will get red or bleeding marks on skin. I will have difficulty focusing on anything. I have cried uncontrollably. I have screamed. I unconsciously reach to where tags/seams/rough areas are and scratch. I will scratch the skin under that areas that itch until my skin bleeds, because I prefer the sensation of pain over the sensation of itching.
Solution: I buy my clothes with feel and by fiber. Rayon, bamboo, viscose, cotton, silk, and linen are usually safe. Looser clothes. Drawstring closures instead of elastic. Avoid ruching, lace, ribbons, nylons, hose, tights, wool. Buy underwear with covered elastic. Wear underwear and clothing with rougher seams inside-out. Complete removal of tags from all clothes—I have to cut open seams by removing the stitches, remove every last bit of tags from clothing and stitch it back up. Simply cutting the tag flush with the seam still leaves a bit of the tag touching my skin, causes redness/itching/sores. Use camisoles of at least 95% cotton or other natural fiber, worn seam-side out, for bra. Look for clothing recommended for people undergoing chemotherapy or radiation. I look for softer stretch jeans without a thick waist band and wide/boot cut/bell-bottom cut. For bedding, I use 100% cotton sheets with 300 thread count and preferably long staple cotton. For jewelry, I look for anything I can wear and forget that I am wearing. Soft leather cuff bracelets, solid sterling or solid gold pieces or solid brass pieces. My body is sensitive to the rest.
Aggravant: Hyperhydrosis, also known as “I sweat more than most people”
What causes it: my body has always sucked at regulating its temperature. When I hiked in the woods as a kid, I would come back soaked in sweat while other kids wearing the same kinds of clothes as me had no sweat. When participating in winter sports, my body sweats and the sweat freezes into ice against my feet/core/hands/face. Every day, palms get soaked while holding hands or objects, often wet enough for phone/tablet/objects to get dropped. The soles of my feet sweat so much they slip off yoga mats, slide off flip-flops and sandals. Armpits sweat, dripping sweat within hours of waking up. Sweat drips down chest/back within 60 seconds of exposure to temperature greater than 80 Fahrenheit.
What happens if I ignore it: People holding my hand let go and wipe their wet palms off, making an “ew” face. Phones have been destroyed by dropping. I’ve slipped/fallen from wet soles of feet sliding off footwear. Shirts soaked by sweat within minutes. Huge armpit sweat stains. Looking unprofessional in professional settings. Social awkwardness when I am supposed to shake hands. Yellow armpit stains on lighter colored clothing. Solutions:
Armpit sweat—use of Certain Dry antiperspirant daily after showering. Drying off wet armpits throughout day. Washing armpits with strong soap, occasionally alcohol hand sanitizer. Mitchum deodorant, several applications throughout day. Frequent covert sniffing armpits to see if I stink. Post-Covid destroying my sense of smell, asking trusted friends/family occasionally to see if I stink. Daily/twice daily showers. Purchasing tops with larger armscythes/armpit holes/one size up so fabric does not touch sweaty armpits. Wearing loosesleeveless tops in summer. Minimizing light colored clothing because sweat stains are real. Frequent scrubbing of armpits because build-up of deodorants is a thing. Avoiding roll-on deodorant, as that stuff feels like I dumped honey on my armpits. I tried the hippie crystal deodorant thingie all the ways, it does not work for me.
Overall body sweat in general: Limiting clothing to natural fibers—cotton, rayon, bamboo, viscose, linen, silk. Wool works well for some, not me. Long staple wool works for others, too, not for me. Avoiding all polyester mix fabrics as a base layer unless specifically woven to wick. Polyester makes natural fibers warmer, causing more sweat. I choose polyester-cotton mix for hoodies because warmth. Using a jacket or cardigan that can be removed as needed. Applying cornstarch powder, thin layer, to folds before sweating. Applying Certain Dry antiperspirant immediately post-shower to skin folds if I will be outdoor in heat in a professional setting. Otherwise tucking t-shirt into camisole to absorb sweat dripping down my back/stomach. Yes, I look weird. If I pretend I do not care, others pretend they do not care and we get along fine. Avoiding wearing layered tops, with the exception of a jacket/cardigan. Avoiding/minimizing clothing that is fitted and light-colored. Avoiding outdoors during heat of day. Was unable to feel comfortable with heat/sweat/etc., so did not attain my dream career. Instead pursued career that has me working air-conditioned settings. Some people get Botox injections to stop sweat. I have tried prescription strength deodorant on hands to stop hand sweat, this did not work for me.
Foot sweat: Summer footwear—Chaco sandals with the toe strap, have to frequently adjust toe strap to minimize strangling of big toe. Sandals made of leather with zero man-made/”vegan leather” facing of leather work well, too, as leather absorbs sweat. I read ingredients tag on shoe, avoid any sandals that say “man-made leather uppers”. Moccasin with real leather sole inside that does not have a “ledge” of leather on the foot sole. Etsy shop TreadLightGear product Raw Cut Inca Moccasin with Vibram Sole has been my go-to, the product is pricy at $270 for a pair. My pair was purchased four years ago, remains working well. Requires leather cleaning products/leather conditioning care about twice yearly. I had to send my pair back to have sole shortened. Lightweight mesh shoes for sneakers. Grippy foot socks and hand mitts when doing yoga. Have tried multiple allegedly wicking socks, so far socks with over 65% cotton work best for me. Wool socks do not work for me due to wool sensitivity. Have not found hiking boots that work for me.
Outdoor winter activities leaving me soaked in sweat, have not found a solution. Possible solution could be wicking silk underwear. Dharma Trading Company has silk knit underwear starting at around $15 per item for tops, I have not yet tried their products.
Hand sweat: I minimize holding hands, found a significant other who is cool with breaks to wipe sweat off during hand holding. I covertly wipe my hand prior to shaking hands.
Sounds Aggravants: Loud music/concert/noise I cannot escape or turn down or shut off. Constant background noise with words that I cannot understand, such as a radio turned down low in another room. Crying/fussing/calls of distress from any human or animal. Constant whooshing noise, such as toilet running, ceiling fan. Anything with a heavy beat I can physically feel in my body. Most white noise. Any high-pitched constant squeak such as comes from an older TV/computer monitor. Repeated higher-pitched unvaried bird/bug calls. Cicada chirps. Shouting/yelling/screaming. High pitched, strident voices. Loud voices. Voices at full-volume near my ear. Loud speakers. Alarms, all. All sound sensitivity is increased when I have earaches/ear infection/itchy ear canals, all of which are common with my body. With an ear infection in front of a loud industrial speaker during a calmly spoken sermon at church, it felt as though someone hammering my internal eardrums. With changes in altitude, it feels as though someone is shoving chopsticks into my ears, worse if active ear issues. Sharp sounds in echo-ey locations, gives the chopsticks-jamming-into-eardrums sensation. Tinnitus, which I have continuously in both ears. There are two different pitches, one in each ear. Sitting in a silent room makes the tinnitus louder.
What happens if I ignore it: After ten to fifteen minutes, I become jittery and must fight against yelling, screaming, or snapping. I begin to physically shake. After around 30 minutes, I have intrusive suicidal thoughts. I have screamed with extended exposure. I have taken apart particularly malfunctioning radios that made terrible sounds, and used the speaker magnets like so many hunting trophies on my fridge. I have smashed things satisfyingly, very carefully, only things that can be replaced. With whooshing sounds, I get an uncontrollable random full body shudder. Once this happened during a haircut, and the hair stylist treated me like a pervert afterwards, so now I warn stylists that I get full body shudders.
Solution: For constant background noise I cannot escape, one earbud in my ear playing music/podcast/audiobook I can focus on helps a lot. Lacking that, one foam ear-plug squished long and thin lengthwise then pushed into ear canal leaving a bit out, and left to expand makes noise tolerable. There are specialized ear plugs used by musicians in orchestra pits, I have not tried these yet. On earbuds, I listen to BBC radio. The most soothing podcast for me personally is “In Our Time” by the BBC. I also use Audible and library card with app Libby for free audiobooks, and search social media/Reddit/blogs/web search for deep voiced/lower pitched/soothing narrators. The Vaughan Williams Academy of St Martin-in-the-fields Neville Marriner 1972 album is particularly calming. I do not know why the higher pitches on it are not sensory aggravants.
Using a portable bluetooth speaker for watching movies at home so I can turn the volume up and down minimizes migraines from sounds. Hanging tapestries in echoey rooms at home minimizes painful echoes. I avoid concerts, crowded loud places. Turning down middle and high pitches on car radios helped. Take ear plugs to movies, or just plug my ears during the loud parts. In one particularly echoey room taught by a teacher with a strident voice, I used one ear plug or wore a thick large-hooded jacket to minimize the sound waves bouncing back into my ears.
Very high-pitched frequencies interfere with my constant ear-ringing (tinnitus) with what seems to be sound-wave interference. There are varying beats inside my head depending on what high-pitched frequency I am hearing.
If the noise is a cry of help, I figure out why the human or animal is crying and help them. Stray animals, to the humane society. Sick pet, to the vet. Crying baby, hold them or change diaper or bottle. If that is not possible, I go to another room and shut doors between us. Noise canceling headphones or earbuds can help. Personally, my ear canals are sensitive so I require earbuds with interchangeable rubber ear thingies. I always use the smallest size of ear thingies.
Pain and gut and postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (POTS, stupidest acronym ever) issues:
Issue: abdominal pain
What the aggravants are: I have medically diagnosed (after surgery, endoscopy, cystocopy, et al.) interstitial cystitis, endometriosis, and irritable bowel syndrome. This means I frequently have urinary tract infection symptoms while testing negative for an infectious agent in my urine, slow gastric motility, frequent nausea. Combined with postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome (dizzy when stand up, pulse increases 30 beats per minute upon standing), I get nausea upon standing. I get bloating. Any pressure on my abdomen is painful (clothing, pet or kid tromping on my belly, hand of significant other resting on my belly while we snuggle before sleep, etc.). I get increased dizziness after eating a large meal. There is frequent stabbing gut pain, sudden unpredicable urges to have a bowel movement or urinate. There is unpredictable constipation interspersed with liquid diarrhea. I have intense sensitivity to food poisoning, new food types must be introduced gradually or severe constipation or liquid diarrhea will occur. Frequent straining to evacuate bowels plus pregnancy has resulted in constant external hemorrhoids. I am in ongoing consultation with gut doctors to manage this whole shebang.
What happens if I ignore it: I wind up doubled over in agony.
Solution: I found a career that does not micromanage my bathroom breaks. Generic Miralax daily per gut doctor’s recommendation. Occasional writing all the foods and gut reactions down, exhaustively, has only shown that eating oatmeal is likely to cause a bowel movement soon. Testing for gluten allergy has been negative. Largely avoid new food groups from new restaurants, prepare most foods at home. I feel better with higher protein intake but a keto diet makes me feel angry. I live on rice, beans, frozen and seasonal fruits and vegetables, chicken, and an embarrassing amount of protein bars. I eat when I am hungry, and pay attention to food cravings. If the idea of eating a food makes me nauseous, I do not eat that food, for I will puke it up. Frequent use of anti-nausea medications, especially zofran. I try to eat smaller meals. I do not eat large meals while at work. I always take medications with food unless specifically contra-indicated.
Increasing salt intake helps decrease the dizziness with standing. A Mexican salted plum treat called saladitos helps with salt. I like the lemon flavor ones, but in general the salted plum is an aquired taste. Drinking pickle juice helps some. Eating salted pickles helps.
Gut issues and clothing: I cannot wear typical thick jeans because seams and the one-button closure irritates my skin and puts pressure on my bladder. I must wear stretchy denim with thin waistband, and preferably two-button, pull-on, or snaps for closure. I tend towards drawstring linen or palazzo pants without elastic, as any stretched elastic on my waistband causes painful abdominal pressure.
Specific brands and styles and clothes stuff brain dump:
I find traditional clothing styles such as cotton kurtas from India work well. Well-worn often-washed cotton clothing such as 100% cotton scrubs from the thrift store worn seam-side out on terrible sensory days is nice. Oddly, the cotton-polyester drawstring scrub pants at all the hospitals works well. Shopping for clothes at a thrift store and feeling for rough seams, soft fiber helps. Read tags for fiber content (then cut open the seams carefully and remove that itchy tag). Avoid decorations that touch skin such as non-cotton lace, non-silk ribbons. If in doubt, test inexpensive soft things you’ve purchased by burning a bit of a hidden seam. If the fabric burns instead of melting, you have a natural fiber. A crunchy or hard little melted plasticy ball or tar-like smell indicates polyester or other synthetic oil-based synthetic fibers. Target and Walmart frequently offer tag-free clothing. That is great. Expect the printed tag on clothing to melt in a hot dryer over time and become rough and itchy. Replace item or wear it inside out when that happens. There are hippie style clothes sewn with visible seams on the outside. I collect those kinds of clothes. I buy underwear that is cotton, silk, or linen. I look for covered seams, no lace or ribbons, and I usually wear it inside out. I often wear older-fashioned or vintage clothing or SCA/LARP kinds of clothes. Tap pants are nice. Bloomers are nice.

May booth kami sa college namin. Tatlo kaming sellers ang nag-provide ng products namin. Me (crochet products), Jai (bracelets) and Irish (customised keychains). Kailangan kasi namin ng funds para sa NSTP project namin sa isang elementary school.
Ilang ulit ko binanggit sa GC namin na patungan yung fixed pricelist na binigay ko kasi ang alam ko, ang hati nila doon eh yung pinatong nila sa presyo ko. Ang nangyari, tapos na itong booth namin pero sa iilang products ko apat lang ang pinatungan nila, the rest ay wala na. Ganoon din nangyari sa dalawang kasama ko.
Total ng nabenta ng class: 3, 115 pesos
Expected ko na babalik sakin: almost 1,000 pesos
Kung kukunin ko yung expected amount, halos kalahati ng kita sa akin mapupunta. Baka below 400 pesos lang ang mapunta sa funds namin.
ABYG kung ayaw ko na percentage ang hati namin sa products ko na nabenta? Lugi kasi ako sa mga hindi nila pinatungan. Pero ayaw ko rin kasi magkaroon ng issue sa class namin.
Note: hindi ako ang nagbantay sa booth namin kasi tingin ko okay na yung ambag ko na products, sa GC ko ilang ulit sinabi na patungan nila. Binaba ko yung pricelist ko kasi gusto ko patungan nila pero di nila ginawa.
Fake names.