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2024.06.02 11:01 Every-Blueberry4703 My (49M) daughter (23F) and my cousin (66F) hate each other due to class differences and personality clashes. What should I do?

I'm seeking some advice on how to handle a rather complicated and tense family situation. For some context, I'm (49M) married to a wonderful wife. We are financially successful, and our children grew up in a very nice environment. Thanks to our connections, my daughter (23F) now has a good job and has become quite classy and sophisticated.
However, there's significant tension between my daughter and my cousin (66F).
My daughter is very particular about her surroundings and the people she associates with. She grew up in a somewhat fancy environment where formal clothing is the norm, and we set the dinner table with proper etiquette every night. She's knowledgeable about dinner etiquette and wine pairings, and her favorite cuisine is Italian. She's quite picky about her food and mostly enjoys European and Italian dishes. She tends to look down on people she considers "low class," including my cousin and her family, who are from a working-class background. My daughter doesn't like poor or homeless people and only associates with friends and dates from upper-middle-class families.
On the other hand, my cousin is an extreme far-leftist/progressive and a Marxist, which is quite different from our family's moderate center-left Democrat views. She has a habit of lying to people, including her husband, father, and my mother. She even falsely claims to have a mental disorder. She's often rude when visiting people's houses for the first time, such as putting her feet on coffee tables, taking things out of the fridge, and helping herself to alcohol without asking. She acts immaturely, often like a 16-year-old, and gossips about others, putting them down and claiming she's smarter and prettier. Despite not being a trained therapist, she actively diagnoses people with mental disorders and has even told my son that he has a disorder.
The behavior of both my daughter and my cousin has created a lot of tension within the family. My daughter views my cousin as "low class" and disapproves of her lifestyle choices, including her preference for foods like fried chicken and mac and cheese. On the other hand, my cousin's rude and condescending behavior irritates my wife and children.
I'm at a loss here. I don't know who's worse or how to handle the situation. Both of them seem to be equally problematic in their own ways, and the tension is starting to affect family gatherings and overall harmony.
Has anyone dealt with a similar situation? How do you manage such extreme personality clashes within the family? Any advice on how to mediate or address these issues would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks in advance for your help.
TL;DR: My (49M) daughter (23F) and my cousin (66F) hate each other due to class differences and personality clashes. My daughter is classy and looks down on my cousin's working-class lifestyle, while my cousin is rude, lies, and acts immaturely. Seeking advice on how to handle this family tension.
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2024.06.02 11:01 Every-Blueberry4703 My (49M) daughter (23F) and my cousin (66F) hate each other due to class differences and personality clashes. What should I do?

I'm seeking some advice on how to handle a rather complicated and tense family situation. For some context, I'm (49M) married to a wonderful wife. We are financially successful, and our children grew up in a very nice environment. Thanks to our connections, my daughter (23F) now has a good job and has become quite classy and sophisticated.
However, there's significant tension between my daughter and my cousin (66F).
My daughter is very particular about her surroundings and the people she associates with. She grew up in a somewhat fancy environment where formal clothing is the norm, and we set the dinner table with proper etiquette every night. She's knowledgeable about dinner etiquette and wine pairings, and her favorite cuisine is Italian. She's quite picky about her food and mostly enjoys European and Italian dishes. She tends to look down on people she considers "low class," including my cousin and her family, who are from a working-class background. My daughter doesn't like poor or homeless people and only associates with friends and dates from upper-middle-class families.
On the other hand, my cousin is an extreme far-leftist/progressive and a Marxist, which is quite different from our family's moderate center-left Democrat views. She has a habit of lying to people, including her husband, father, and my mother. She even falsely claims to have a mental disorder. She's often rude when visiting people's houses for the first time, such as putting her feet on coffee tables, taking things out of the fridge, and helping herself to alcohol without asking. She acts immaturely, often like a 16-year-old, and gossips about others, putting them down and claiming she's smarter and prettier. Despite not being a trained therapist, she actively diagnoses people with mental disorders and has even told my son that he has a disorder.
The behavior of both my daughter and my cousin has created a lot of tension within the family. My daughter views my cousin as "low class" and disapproves of her lifestyle choices, including her preference for foods like fried chicken and mac and cheese. On the other hand, my cousin's rude and condescending behavior irritates my wife and children.
I'm at a loss here. I don't know who's worse or how to handle the situation. Both of them seem to be equally problematic in their own ways, and the tension is starting to affect family gatherings and overall harmony.
Has anyone dealt with a similar situation? How do you manage such extreme personality clashes within the family? Any advice on how to mediate or address these issues would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks in advance for your help.
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2024.06.02 11:01 Every-Blueberry4703 My (49M) daughter (23F) and my cousin (66F) hate each other due to class differences and personality clashes. What should I do?

I'm seeking some advice on how to handle a rather complicated and tense family situation. For some context, I'm (49M) married to a wonderful wife. We are financially successful, and our children grew up in a very nice environment. Thanks to our connections, my daughter (23F) now has a good job and has become quite classy and sophisticated.
However, there's significant tension between my daughter and my cousin (66F).
My daughter is very particular about her surroundings and the people she associates with. She grew up in a somewhat fancy environment where formal clothing is the norm, and we set the dinner table with proper etiquette every night. She's knowledgeable about dinner etiquette and wine pairings, and her favorite cuisine is Italian. She's quite picky about her food and mostly enjoys European and Italian dishes. She tends to look down on people she considers "low class," including my cousin and her family, who are from a working-class background. My daughter doesn't like poor or homeless people and only associates with friends and dates from upper-middle-class families.
On the other hand, my cousin is an extreme far-leftist/progressive and a Marxist, which is quite different from our family's moderate center-left Democrat views. She has a habit of lying to people, including her husband, father, and my mother. She even falsely claims to have a mental disorder. She's often rude when visiting people's houses for the first time, such as putting her feet on coffee tables, taking things out of the fridge, and helping herself to alcohol without asking. She acts immaturely, often like a 16-year-old, and gossips about others, putting them down and claiming she's smarter and prettier. Despite not being a trained therapist, she actively diagnoses people with mental disorders and has even told my son that he has a disorder.
The behavior of both my daughter and my cousin has created a lot of tension within the family. My daughter views my cousin as "low class" and disapproves of her lifestyle choices, including her preference for foods like fried chicken and mac and cheese. On the other hand, my cousin's rude and condescending behavior irritates my wife and children.
I'm at a loss here. I don't know who's worse or how to handle the situation. Both of them seem to be equally problematic in their own ways, and the tension is starting to affect family gatherings and overall harmony.
Has anyone dealt with a similar situation? How do you manage such extreme personality clashes within the family? Any advice on how to mediate or address these issues would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks in advance for your help.
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2024.06.02 11:01 Every-Blueberry4703 AITAH for wanting my daughter and cousin to get along?

I'm seeking some advice on how to handle a rather complicated and tense family situation. For some context, I'm (49M) married to a wonderful wife. We are financially successful, and our children grew up in a very nice environment. Thanks to our connections, my daughter (23F) now has a good job and has become quite classy and sophisticated.
However, there's significant tension between my daughter and my cousin (66F).
My daughter is very particular about her surroundings and the people she associates with. She grew up in a somewhat fancy environment where formal clothing is the norm, and we set the dinner table with proper etiquette every night. She's knowledgeable about dinner etiquette and wine pairings, and her favorite cuisine is Italian. She's quite picky about her food and mostly enjoys European and Italian dishes. She tends to look down on people she considers "low class," including my cousin and her family, who are from a working-class background. My daughter doesn't like poor or homeless people and only associates with friends and dates from upper-middle-class families.
On the other hand, my cousin is an extreme far-leftist/progressive and a Marxist, which is quite different from our family's moderate center-left Democrat views. She has a habit of lying to people, including her husband, father, and my mother. She even falsely claims to have a mental disorder. She's often rude when visiting people's houses for the first time, such as putting her feet on coffee tables, taking things out of the fridge, and helping herself to alcohol without asking. She acts immaturely, often like a 16-year-old, and gossips about others, putting them down and claiming she's smarter and prettier. Despite not being a trained therapist, she actively diagnoses people with mental disorders and has even told my son that he has a disorder.
The behavior of both my daughter and my cousin has created a lot of tension within the family. My daughter views my cousin as "low class" and disapproves of her lifestyle choices, including her preference for foods like fried chicken and mac and cheese. On the other hand, my cousin's rude and condescending behavior irritates my wife and children.
I'm at a loss here. I don't know who's worse or how to handle the situation. Both of them seem to be equally problematic in their own ways, and the tension is starting to affect family gatherings and overall harmony.
Has anyone dealt with a similar situation? How do you manage such extreme personality clashes within the family? Any advice on how to mediate or address these issues would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks in advance for your help.
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2024.06.02 10:58 Electronic_Office_16 Aromantic flag themed milli skin for pride month! (sorry for the picture quality, I was on mobile)

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2024.06.02 10:58 BoostedRapper Manta E3 EZ, CB2, Eddy & EZ 5160pro Drivers Upgrade Ender 3 V2 Neo

Hello All! I’m currently looking to upgrade my Ender 3 V2 Neo to make it more efficient / up to date. It’s currently on the factory board to which I also had a Sonic Pad hooked up to it. The Sonic Pad ended up being unreliable with lots of connectivity issues, to which I was directed to use a serial cable. Well before doing that, I ended up converting it over to complete linear rails, including dual Z axis. I am also running a Yoopai spark neo hot end. I was looking at the SKR mini E3 v3.0, but then stumbled upon the Manta E3 EZ. I would love to run one of these with the EZ 5160 pro drivers and also the new CB2. Will this all still fit in the factory compartment and does the CB2 use the same adapter as the CB1? Also, it states that the 5160 pro drivers need active cooling, so is the factory motherboard fan sufficient for this? Lastly, I would also love to run the Eddy to help with leveling as well, so are there any other parts I should pick up to make this smooth transition? I appreciate all of your time.
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2024.06.02 10:49 N0-Mango Hi, if you know some can you link me to some royalty free character arts that can be used on the anime game called Glory/ dungeon fighter online/blade and soul. All kinds of help is appreciated.

Can we even make this game?
BTW royalty free character arts are character arts that don't require payment to use for business.
It's just for a personal project that might take 9 years to make with my friends but they're busy so. Trying to make many people's dream gane will be a bad ride will it? If some others made their own version of glory link me pls. Now, Here's info about the game:
Name of game •>Seance: With My Glory<•
That name sorta means the moment of sitting while playing my version of the game called Glory from the anime called King's Avatar.
I'll talk about the game and these are straight out of my notepad I wrote to not forget about it. Pls don't take it very seriously as they're temporary designs. TLDR: I need character arts either 2d drawing or 3d model that is free to use for my game I'd like to make. How would you make a fun game like Glory on the anime called the King's avatar?
The game features: chances of fighting scenarios happening by chance (imagine cinematic fights) everytime you fulfill the condition/s (like be a certain distance away from enemies and staying on that distance for a very short while. There will be a bar that shows how long you have to stay and if that bar dont appear then even if you meet the condition/s for a scenario there wont be a scenario <•thats for making the players engage in simple non-cinematic combat of aiming and using melee, block the melee attacks, etcetera so players won't move around weirdly unlike the anime) and once you're in a fighting scenario the game decides which keys/buttons will be needed to be pressed and the keys or buttons are decided by RNG. The buttons comes and goes within a short timeframe. (It's a refllex test, those with slower reflex won't be able to press the buttons fast enough thus fail at doing so) The keys required to be pressed is shown on the screen. This is for mimicking the artistic key/button presses seen in the anime. Do know that in a few seconds you can find and scrap several of the fighting scenarios available for you in a location relative to the enemy/enemies. (That's all I got right now, inform me of your version)
The better the scenario the slimmer the chance to pull off the requirement to take part in it.
Fleshing it out: There are 3 types of scenarios: Passive Submission Type - scenarios of one sided fights where the enemy cannot act to protect himself. Passive Semi-submission Type - scenarios where both players can decide the outcome of the scenario they're both in by pressing the right buttons faster. This should mainly occur at melee range for sending the enemies away as an opening for other scenarios to possibly be used And Passive Non-submission Type - a scenario where a player under it does it alone to do any of and a combination of: attacking and dodging. Which can miss.
The conditions for the scenarios are: *Be at a certain distance long enough *See the enemy while maintaining a certain distance
So think of the enemy as a stack of four 50 feet wide pizzas with crusts that are 30 feet high made by El Fuerte with different toppings per slice on the same location. if you're in the pepperoni region you do one thing relative to the enemy, if you're in the pineapple region you do something else relative to the enemy, if you're on the MNM region, gummy bear region, spinach region (yes they're also pizza toppings) you do 3 different other things relative to the enemy but that's all just 1 slice of 1 whole pizza and each whole pizza has different toppings and being in their region makes you do other things. Divide the stack of pizzas to thin identical slices from the top and now imagine each slice has enough room to hold one topping per 10 feet of the length of its upper surface. Those toppings would make the different locations each assigned with a different role either away horizontally or vertically.
Well I tried to simplify it. What i want to add is actually a bit more complicated than that.
Non-scenario features: First person mode Free character movement and free camera like moving and aiming in fps games. Attack key/button for manual melee attacks and ranged attacks. Block and parry as 1 key/button; block at the right time to parry. Jump, double jump, tapjump (kicking a nearby object in the way from the 2nd jump to do a third jump) as 1 key/button. Skill key/buttons for actively starting Non submission Type scenarios (edit: Non-submission type scenarios) which is more difficult to pull off than all the passive scenario variants/versions which also has a variety of difficulty.
That's the plan but I'll settle on what I can make.
If you have any idea of how to make this game fun without changing the mechanics too much tell me in the comments. It don't matter if the idea is from some other games.
Truth be told, I'm using Godot 4 and some of the really great features might be impossible to code for me or my friends. Yes they're helping me on my project.
Edit: I've read an ebook about how to make games fun and it's by making the amount of time spent exerting effort to achieve something be 300% shorter than the moment its executed or applied to achieve what its for. Idfk how to design good games but I'll still try to finish this project even if my friend's get too busy or give up. For sure I'll improve to see its bad in the process not that ik it's bad or not but I'll settle with what's been made.
Tldr: I need character arts either 2d drawing or 3d model that is free to use for my game I'd like to make. How would you make a fun game like Glory on the anime called the King's avatar?
Edit: okay u figured out the temporary game mechanics are kinda cringe but pls still link me to the free to use characters/character arts which I can make a 3d model of.
Edit: What would you think of a "3 heights counter-attack system" of getting dmg boosts: If an enemy is aiming at your head region the moment you began the animation for attacking them on their middle region you get a critical dmg thats within a short milisecond. Middle region to low region, low region to head region. And the direction they're facing is indicated by a flying arrow so you can constantly keep track of where they're aiming at instead of the head or arms because the arrow would make it easier.
Edit: maybe I'll add an easy mode where everyone can do Ye Qiu's signature move.
That's all.
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2024.06.02 10:26 jean-luc-trek Block ads as I did with pihole or the ublock extension

hi,
Totally new Sophos user here.
I installed Sophos v20 for home users. I'd like to block ADS as I already did with pihole, the ublock origin extension, or any list I set in Unbound on OPNsense. I read this topic first:
How to block ads
I must probably have done something wrong, but my rule on Sophos doesn't work.
Here is a few screenshots:
https://preview.redd.it/wwi1gswob44d1.jpg?width=1158&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=fbdaacdd70f6f72552956cb13729be71f66b32ee
then I added it in the default network policy here:
https://preview.redd.it/sqnbwllzb44d1.jpg?width=1414&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=e2df092f2d575359be73484b3361f85b5c940dc8
I tinkered with the options you see above (proxy, scan, decrypt and all that jazz) but I failed to make it work as expected.
Could you help me fix it please? Thanks
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2024.06.02 10:03 TomSorcc My Story about my Ex and about NoContact.

Hey, right now im sitting in the Bus to Thessaloniki and i think about my ex-girlfriend.
I have been in a situationship with my ex for like 2 years and we were only in a relationship for 1 month. But let me tell you, situationships suck, if you have more feelings.
At some point i was so blind. She kissed some other guys on some parties 1-2 times and afterwards always told me, that she was just drunk and she has more feelings for me. I always believed her and i mean she was allowed to kiss other people because we were only in a "situationship". But we were hanging out together all the time, i went to her parents place. They invited me multiple times to the restaurant and we went on vacation multiple times. For me it was definitely more then only a "situationship" and i always told her. She always said, she has feelings too but doesnt want to commit i think. Other times she was realy toxic towards me and i still kept believing in us. I have never seen the red flags in her because i was so blind.
6 months ago we parted ways as "friends" because i wasnt investing anymore in our situationship so i tried to focus on myself and hoped that she would reach out to me and maybe ask me why i am not so active towards her anymore. but she didn't. she just accepted it, moved on and slept with other guys. i was realy sad and talked about it but it was just over by then and i told her that i dont want anymore contact.
so we had some friends together and we were invited to a pubquiz every week for some months. first we wrote eachother and if one of us was going to the quiz, the other one wouldnt. sounds realy healthy, so i have to not see her again. but still writing with her again was probably not good for me. i think she still cared, so she tried to not hurt me by not going to the quiz, when i was there. but at some point i thought im over it and told her she can also come to the quiz. so we have seen each other once every week but we didnt talk much.
it was not good for me. i was thinking of her every damn day. i had dreams with her and it still hurt me. because somehow i wasnt over her.
for the context: when we were close, she won 2 interrail tickets and we planned to do the trip together. she transferred one ticket to me and it was not reversible.
now i am on the interrail trip alone and i think she is also on the trip alone but kinda one week ahead of me with similar route. we had contact again. first she asked me if i want some tips for the citys i am gonna visit and where she has been i replied because i thought it would be nice.
but traveling alone is realy hard, if your heart is still broken. i felt very lonely, thought of her everyday and writing with her again was realy hard for me. that was 2 weeks ago. 1 week ago she asked me again if i want any advices for the next city.
then it triggered in my head. i gathered all the courage i had and wrote her a long message. i think it was realy needed. told her, that i will do the trip alone, dont want her advices anymore, that she broke my heart and that its realy hard for me to write to her while i am traveling alone. i told her "please dont answer to this message" and wished her a good trip and good life for the future.
by now i have met alot of other people on my trip. i try to not think about her and i keep going. i realy try to focus on myself and try to enjoy this trip to its fullest. so i think i have finaly moved on by telling her directly my feelings and that i dont want anymore contact.
so i feel realy much better now. i have never thought that i need more then 6 months to get over her. i dont think i am over her now but its getting better!
tl;dr (advice): if you have contact with your ex but you know its better to dont have any contact. GATHER COURAGE and tell them. and block them if necessary. its hard but its realy worth it!
sidenote: sorry for bad english, its not my native language
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2024.06.02 09:50 jinx_x27 tell me…

an email i considered sending to my therapist, but never sent. share any thoughts as you would like :) thank you to anyone who takes the time to read. let me know if you relate if you’d like.
little jacked up, admittedly probably shouldn’t have done the block or two home from the bar if i’m being honest. it’s kind of wild the way things change and stay the same. the level of disconnect and the lack of discernment between what is okay and what is not. knowing and not knowing… rationalizing? what is okay
and the sadness as you watch people succumb, over and over, more and more. and you stand back and watch as people simply take watch, observe the decline, yourself included. and you think, well, they don’t know any different. but if you’re asking yourself the question, if you all make the jokes that indicate the awareness with things left unsaid… i don’t know. it’s an incredibly sad world we live in some days
and there’s people that greet me upon entering, and these people say they adore me, their words. and i’m here wondering why they ask me these questions, truthfully why can’t you just recognize that i need more than 6 ft of distance for me to be okay with you talking this intensely. no ill intent, warmth, encouragement. and i want nothing more than to not be seen. it’s amazing, truly.
there are so many missed communications. and people just carry on, they just continue to whatever beat their drum drums. they continue to color inside the lines, they don’t dare to shake their status quo. not recognizing that their status quo is what keeps things where they are. not recognizing that if they see something , say something. and i think it’s even more sad if they do see it. i’m one of those people, and i can empathize because i feel powerless too.
it’s a wild wild world all the time
and yet, my aunt texts me just now, she says “ Thanks for listening to me all the time. You’re one of the very few people that I can talk to and know that you totally understand what I’m jabbering about. ” so i have meaning, i made impact. right?
we’re all witnesses to this shit. it’s wild
i must be more jacked up than i thought, to be shamelessly sharing.
i think too many people are in pain, with no means to get out. except they have the means, they have the help, they just can’t see it. it’s a profoundly sad world. and nonetheless, a good night . a night of sharing, of exchanges, of authentic conversation.
i don’t know. i don’t quite have the words
i know that im deeply grateful to have the space to express. and i know that i wouldn’t be here if not for you
how many people don’t have a version of you? how many people stumble blindly through whatever their shit is, unknowingly colluding
i don’t know
and what is there to do? the spouse of the alcoholic takes him in the car home, he’ll sleep in the car or on the couch. the father who texts his son thanking him for his honesty about having been drinking, and therefore isn’t going to pick up his dad. i tell him, that’s a great text from your dad. good on you. (he’ll appreciate that someday if he doesn’t already). did he hear me? was he more upset that i shouldn’t be looking over his shoulder? it wasn’t my business in the first place? he wouldn’t be wrong.. but i read it and wished id have heard it, so i said something. he thanked me, so maybe. but maybe not, maybe he thought fuck you. the brother that storms out on his sister over who knows what, what i hear as a “years long conflict, this happens at least every other time they get together.” and it’s normal, so let’s move on, let’s have fun. forget about it. under the rug it goes.
how are people not profoundly disturbed by this? how do they actively participate?
and how can i say that as i stand by and watch these things pass by because these people are 20-30 years older than me, i dont have the connection necessary to plant any seeds of change. and yet i have 5 minute conversations with people only to hear that they call me extraordinary, they say im destined for great things, always have been.
i don’t know. i don’t know what i feel
i just know that it’s difficult for me to interact with so many people that have no idea what to do. and i have the empathy. i didn’t, i don’t know what to do either. you just keep trying anyway, but they don’t seem to. they brush it off, they act like it’s nothing so as to minimize the discomfort, in an effort to save somebody’s feelings.
i don’t know. it’s a wild thing
nobody i know is ever malicious. i know malicious people exist, they are not the ones i know.
it’s insane to me the level of harm that can be done despite good intentions. and how disturbingly normal it is to watch and do nothing. nothing. sit back. they’ll figure it out. maybe. someday. maybe. hopefully.
it’s fucked up. what if they don’t? what if they need you to say something? what if they need to know that it’s seen, even if it’s uncomfortable, even if it hurts?
i don’t know. i’m not pointing the finger, im no different, im a participant as well
but im 24, i say, im only a kid compared to these people. cant be much different than the things they all tell themselves.
i don’t know.
it’s a weird thing.
and today was my dad’s 50th birthday . and i hugged him multiple times, trying to tell him i love him. trying to tell him to stay close. take care of yourself, i need you around. and yet im fuming over the treatment of my step-sister who still lives in his house. the lack of accountability taken. and how could you carry on this way. how could you not see what you’re doing. how could you continue to oppress, restrict another human being, another child of yours. i told you what it did to me, didn’t i? didn’t you listen? i thought you did.
but i love this man more than i give a fuck whether the sun rises the next day, and so i will give him grace. i will hug him tight because i don’t want him going anywhere. i see him laugh it up, i see him brush things off, i see him swallow, and make light. and i watch his body decay as the stress compounds. why? how? but i get it, too. i haven’t said anything either. that’s all we know
i care that he knows how much i love him, how much i need him, how much i yearn for closeness, for him to understand. i see the weight that you’re carrying that you tirelessly try to dismiss
i don’t know what to do with all of this sometimes there’s too much to be seen that isn’t said.
i’m highly analytical, im logical, im rational, im disconnected. and honestly i don’t know how else to exist, because feeling it all, watching it all
i don’t know sometimes. i don’t know
and it was a great night. it was a great night
too many paradoxes.
and i’ll wake up tomorrow, i’ll forget about this. i’ll be caught up in my own world. it will be out of sight out of mind
what can you do? are the messages i receive from people like my aunt enough? do i need to think better? it’s not like im not already cracking under my own weight. but would more mean more? do more? how do we all sit back like that. how do we all do that
blows my mind, and i understand it all the same.
crazy. crazy. crazy.
i hope you’ve been able to get some rest. it makes me wonder sometimes… did you abuse your body too like i have? is it a case of poor genetics? is it to be expected with aging? do you have regrets that you’re now paying the price for? or have you made your peace and you roll with the punches? what are the things you tell no one about? what are the things you try to forget? what are the things you deny but secretly know, the things that only you could possibly know? and am i projecting? is there a level of healing where that’s not what you think anymore? but at the end of the day, i think everybody has those, no matter how healed you think you are. is that reality or just mine?
do you have somebody too?
maybe it’s arrogant of me, but i don’t think i would sense, i don’t think i would suspect if there was nothing to know.
that pains me some days.
but maybe that’s the human part of this work. maybe i’m human, and you’re human, and we all have things left unseen and untouched, unsaid.
do i think that because im wounded? or is that how this thing we call life is? i don’t know.
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2024.06.02 09:49 5ushan ACX7024 high memory consumption

After configuring multiple routing instances, memory consumption is very high. Even after configuring the partial VPLS the free memory is reduced drastically.
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Model: ACX7024
Junos: 23.4R1-S1.11-EVO
Yocto: 3.0.2
show system memory re0: -------------------------------------------------------------------------- System memory usage distribution: Total memory: 15932032 Kbytes (100%) Used memory: 3739576 Kbytes (23%) Active memory: 4217060 Kbytes (26%) Inactive memory: 7139768 Kbytes (44%) Free memory: 3245464 Kbytes (20%) Buffer memory: 555948 Kbytes (3%) Swap memory: 8391044 Kbytes (52%) Available memory: 11512048 Kbytes (72%) Cached memory: 8052916 Kbytes (50%) Pid VM-Kbytes( % ) Resident( % ) Process-name 1 160920( 0) 10260( 0) /sbin/init 2 0( 0) 0( 0) [kthreadd] 3 0( 0) 0( 0) [rcu_gp] 4 0( 0) 0( 0) [rcu_par_gp] 8 0( 0) 0( 0) [mm_percpu_wq] 9 0( 0) 0( 0) [ksoftirqd/0] 10 0( 0) 0( 0) [rcu_preempt] 11 0( 0) 0( 0) [migration/0] 13 0( 0) 0( 0) [cpuhp/0] 14 0( 0) 0( 0) [cpuhp/1] 15 0( 0) 0( 0) [migration/1] 16 0( 0) 0( 0) [ksoftirqd/1] 19 0( 0) 0( 0) [cpuhp/2] 20 0( 0) 0( 0) [migration/2] 21 0( 0) 0( 0) [ksoftirqd/2] 24 0( 0) 0( 0) [cpuhp/3] 25 0( 0) 0( 0) [migration/3] 26 0( 0) 0( 0) [ksoftirqd/3] 29 0( 0) 0( 0) [kdevtmpfs] 30 0( 0) 0( 0) [netns] 31 0( 0) 0( 0) [rcu_tasks_kthre] 32 0( 0) 0( 0) [jnx-wq] 33 0( 0) 0( 0) [kauditd] 35 0( 0) 0( 0) [khungtaskd] 36 0( 0) 0( 0) [oom_reaper] 37 0( 0) 0( 0) [writeback] 38 0( 0) 0( 0) [kcompactd0] 39 0( 0) 0( 0) [ksmd] 40 0( 0) 0( 0) [khugepaged] 41 0( 0) 0( 0) [crypto] 121 0( 0) 0( 0) [kblockd] 122 0( 0) 0( 0) [tpm_dev_wq] 123 0( 0) 0( 0) [ata_sff] 124 0( 0) 0( 0) [md] 125 0( 0) 0( 0) [edac-poller] 126 0( 0) 0( 0) [watchdogd] 127 0( 0) 0( 0) [rpciod] 128 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworkeu33:0] 129 0( 0) 0( 0) [xprtiod] 141 0( 0) 0( 0) [kswapd0] 142 0( 0) 0( 0) [nfsiod] 144 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/121-aerdrv] 153 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/126-aerdrv] 154 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/126-pcie-dp] 155 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/127-aerdrv] 156 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/127-pcie-dp] 157 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/128-aerdrv] 158 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/128-pcie-dp] 159 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/129-aerdrv] 160 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/129-pcie-dp] 167 0( 0) 0( 0) [tpm-vtpm] 168 0( 0) 0( 0) [nvme-wq] 169 0( 0) 0( 0) [nvme-reset-wq] 170 0( 0) 0( 0) [nvme-delete-wq] 171 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_0] 172 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_0] 173 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_1] 174 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_1] 175 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_2] 176 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_2] 177 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_3] 178 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_3] 179 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_4] 180 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_4] 181 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_5] 182 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_5] 183 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_6] 184 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_6] 185 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_7] 186 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_7] 187 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_8] 188 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_8] 189 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_9] 190 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_9] 191 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_10] 192 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_10] 193 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_11] 194 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_11] 195 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_12] 196 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_12] 197 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_13] 198 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_13] 199 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_14] 200 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_14] 201 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_15] 202 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_15] 216 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_16] 217 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_16] 218 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_17] 219 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_17] 220 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_18] 221 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_18] 222 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_19] 223 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_19] 224 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_20] 225 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_20] 226 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_21] 227 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_21] 228 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_22] 229 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_22] 230 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_23] 231 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_23] 232 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_24] 233 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_24] 234 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_25] 235 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_25] 236 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_26] 237 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_26] 238 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_27] 239 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_27] 240 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_28] 241 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_28] 242 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_29] 243 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_29] 244 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_30] 245 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_30] 246 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_eh_31] 247 0( 0) 0( 0) [scsi_tmf_31] 249 0( 0) 0( 0) [ixgbe] 250 0( 0) 0( 0) [raid5wq] 251 0( 0) 0( 0) [dm_bufio_cache] 252 0( 0) 0( 0) [sdhci] 253 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/16-mmc0] 255 0( 0) 0( 0) [ipv6_addrconf] 307 0( 0) 0( 0) [mmc_complete] 513 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/10-fc800000] 1275 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworkeu32:1-events_unbound] 1407 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke1:2H] 1508 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke1:0-events] 2024 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke0:2-events] 2129 0( 0) 0( 0) [jbd2/mmcblk0p2-] 2130 0( 0) 0( 0) [ext4-rsv-conver] 2557 0( 0) 0( 0) [jbd2/mmcblk0p5-] 2558 0( 0) 0( 0) [ext4-rsv-conver] 2616 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke2:0-cgroup_destroy] 2963 0( 0) 0( 0) [jbd2/mmcblk0p7-] 2964 0( 0) 0( 0) [ext4-rsv-conver] 2975 0( 0) 0( 0) [jbd2/mmcblk0p6-] 2976 0( 0) 0( 0) [ext4-rsv-conver] 2988 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop0] 2989 0( 0) 0( 0) [jbd2/loop0-8] 2990 0( 0) 0( 0) [ext4-rsv-conver] 3604 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop1] 3607 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop2] 3609 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop3] 3610 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop4] 3633 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop5] 3634 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop6] 3637 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop7] 3652 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop8] 3655 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop9] 3676 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop10] 3679 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop11] 3682 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop12] 3697 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop13] 3700 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop14] 3715 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop15] 3718 0( 0) 0( 0) [loop16] 3735 390740( 0) 19800( 0) @switchd 3736 1923856( 0) 33540( 0) @switchd 3743 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke3:1-events] 5182 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke2:1H] 5452 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke2:0H-kblockd] 6240 169516( 0) 14432( 0) sshd: 6264 2284( 0) 752( 0) sleep 6290 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke3:0H] 6550 8528( 0) 6792( 0) /lib/systemd/systemd 6551 161764( 0) 4788( 0) (sd-pam) 6556 169516( 0) 9392( 0) sshd: 6557 83080( 0) 15968( 0) -cli 6558 1119380( 0) 37776( 0) /ussbin/mgd 6559 0( 0) 0( 0) [mgd] 6859 2412( 0) 828( 0) sleep 6890 3812( 0) 2864( 0) /bin/sh 6934 3812( 0) 1752( 0) /bin/sh 6935 3140( 0) 2088( 0) ps 6936 2316( 0) 756( 0) tail 6937 4872( 0) 2736( 0) awk 7171 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke3:2-events] 7376 193684( 0) 109140( 0) /lib/systemd/systemd-journald 7384 13260( 0) 4360( 0) /lib/systemd/systemd-udevd 7443 2564( 0) 1296( 0) /ussbin/rngd 7451 0( 0) 0( 0) [acpi_thermal_pm] 7508 2408( 0) 1584( 0) /ussbin/atd 7515 3340( 0) 2032( 0) /ussbin/crond 7521 4528( 0) 3672( 0) /usbin/dbus-daemon 7622 0( 0) 0( 0) [fan0:connect] 7624 0( 0) 0( 0) [fan0:load] 7627 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/10-fc800019] 7634 6700( 0) 4668( 0) /lib/systemd/systemd-logind 7641 30280( 0) 23792( 0) /usbin/python3 7673 0( 0) 0( 0) [qat_device_rese] 7676 0( 0) 0( 0) [qat_pf2vf_resp_] 7678 0( 0) 0( 0) [adf_vf_stop_wq] 7896 2360( 0) 1624( 0) /sbin/agetty 7899 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke3:1H-kblockd] 8243 1019616( 0) 102252( 0) /ussbin/mgd 8351 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/123-aerdrv] 8352 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/123-pcie-dp] 8354 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/124-aerdrv] 8355 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/124-pcie-dp] 8357 0( 0) 0( 0) [psm0:connect] 8358 0( 0) 0( 0) [psm0:load] 8359 0( 0) 0( 0) [spi3] 8360 0( 0) 0( 0) [psm1:connect] 8361 0( 0) 0( 0) [psm1:load] 8377 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke1:0H-kblockd] 8464 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/122-aerdrv] 8465 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/122-pcie-dp] 8523 3660304( 0) 190368( 1) java 8889 158892( 0) 66908( 0) /ussbin/sysman 8900 8404( 0) 7800( 0) /bin/sh 9858 7048( 0) 2372( 0) /ussbin/xinetd 9862 2566352( 0) 153552( 1) /ussbin/trace-relay 9879 8488( 0) 7096( 0) /ussbin/sshd 9900 25868( 0) 5272( 0) /ussbin/imgd 9925 22788( 0) 20120( 0) python3 10289 2161068( 0) 29572( 0) /ussbin/trace-writer 10338 5167188( 1) 81712( 0) /ussbin/agentd 10357 5187964( 1) 81108( 0) /ussbin/aft-sysinfo 10367 5215920( 1) 106484( 0) /ussbin/aggd 10379 2568( 0) 1504( 0) /ussbin/vsftpd 10390 6753148( 1) 81096( 0) /ussbin/alarm-mgmtd 10426 6089228( 1) 130096( 0) /ussbin/alarmd 10451 6574404( 1) 383536( 2) /ussbin/authd 10460 3676( 0) 2940( 0) /bin/bash 10477 5280928( 1) 148956( 1) /ussbin/bfdd-agent 10486 5173748( 1) 73016( 0) /ussbin/bios-manager 10506 6059892( 1) 167908( 1) /ussbin/clksyncd 10518 13548( 0) 6028( 0) /ussbin/xinetd 10520 5183068( 1) 80208( 0) /ussbin/clksynced 10539 5215556( 1) 91612( 0) /ussbin/clockd 10558 6280692( 1) 247288( 1) /ussbin/cmdd 10567 2719136( 0) 188064( 1) /ussbin/mustd 10606 5282256( 1) 155684( 1) /ussbin/cosd 10635 5264720( 1) 143612( 1) /usbin/ddosd 10682 5286908( 1) 133656( 0) /ussbin/dfwd-junos-relay 10706 23832( 0) 21352( 0) python3 10725 948944( 0) 57556( 0) /ussbin/dot1xd 10740 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/125-aerdrv] 10742 0( 0) 0( 0) [irq/125-pcie-dp] 10753 5361892( 1) 160528( 1) /ussbin/dot1xd-agent 10760 5384336( 1) 113544( 0) /ussbin/distributord 10779 5339056( 1) 178404( 1) /ussbin/edo 10800 5504212( 1) 156440( 1) /ussbin/ehmd 10823 5361144( 1) 200604( 1) /ussbin/cconfigd 10863 7287976( 1) 960916( 6) /ussbin/evo-pfemand 10864 5269624( 1) 116472( 0) /ussbin/evoaft-jvisiond 10925 862140( 0) 286320( 2) /usbin/packetio 10926 412252( 0) 115388( 0) /usbin/ppman 11185 5517356( 1) 149172( 1) /usbin/fibd 11186 5401888( 1) 172104( 1) /ussbin/arpd 11187 800104( 0) 29352( 0) /ussbin/bfdd 11188 6168860( 1) 126636( 0) /ussbin/jsd 11189 5994436( 1) 80112( 0) /ussbin/aaasd 11411 6117876( 1) 162372( 1) /ussbin/firewalld 11457 5197448( 1) 81704( 0) /ussbin/emfd-fpa 11479 5221100( 1) 100460( 0) /ussbin/fsmd 11524 6047112( 1) 167896( 1) /ussbin/fwstatsd 11555 5336696( 1) 177040( 1) /ussbin/gcd 11577 5950132( 1) 77372( 0) /ussbin/grpc-tunnel 11604 6137172( 1) 153620( 1) /ussbin/hwdre 11635 6051492( 1) 141232( 0) /ussbin/iccpd 11647 5532940( 1) 124976( 0) /usbin/icmpd 11662 145772( 0) 58480( 0) /ussbin/idmd-frr-session 11700 145772( 0) 58124( 0) /ussbin/idmd-bd 11735 145772( 0) 58792( 0) /ussbin/idmd-rtb 11771 153964( 0) 60644( 0) /ussbin/idmd-sensor 11810 5211888( 1) 62520( 0) /ussbin/idmdserver 11866 5277780( 1) 131108( 0) /ussbin/ifmand 11904 6062772( 1) 167848( 1) /ussbin/ifstatsd 11917 773528( 0) 11844( 0) /ussbin/auditd 11927 0( 0) 0( 0) [ps] 11930 5197376( 1) 91216( 0) /ussbin/jinsightd 11972 8852( 0) 5500( 0) /ussbin/jsntpd 11989 5241376( 1) 121532( 0) /ussbin/jstatsd 11998 14004( 0) 7024( 0) /ussbin/keyadmin 12005 5255400( 1) 130656( 0) /ussbin/kfirewall-agent 12022 6111264( 1) 163080( 1) /ussbin/lacpd 12037 6030312( 1) 152784( 1) /ussbin/license-check 12052 6096576( 1) 116420( 0) /ussbin/eventd 12072 5247384( 1) 124824( 0) /ussbin/mbb-assistd 12094 5392248( 1) 121264( 0) /ussbin/mcasthostd 12127 23256( 0) 20712( 0) python3 12140 5218256( 1) 112592( 0) /ussbin/mfilterd 12271 5920616( 1) 76348( 0) /ussbin/mgd-api 12315 907152( 0) 15368( 0) /ussbin/mgd 12330 5347664( 1) 135144( 0) /ussbin/mgmt-ethd 12346 6176644( 1) 188688( 1) /ussbin/mib2d 12355 840504( 0) 34240( 0) /ussbin/mplsoamd 12544 7089736( 1) 196528( 1) /ussbin/na-grpcd 12596 12908( 0) 5260( 0) /ussbin/na-mqttd 12636 5370808( 1) 157288( 1) /ussbin/ndp 12660 5214952( 1) 105380( 0) /ussbin/netdefaultsd 12682 5472216( 1) 128944( 0) /usbin/nsagentd 12714 185708( 0) 14116( 0) /ussbin/ntpd 12736 5334084( 1) 197736( 1) /ussbin/objmon 12774 5154580( 1) 59256( 0) /ussbin/objping-server 12855 5939888( 1) 85004( 0) /ussbin/orchestratord 12913 6101624( 1) 145760( 1) /ussbin/rmopd 13028 5197592( 1) 80012( 0) /ussbin/pci-agent 13071 5216324( 1) 101116( 0) /ussbin/pdevmand 13092 5268392( 1) 140132( 0) /ussbin/pfestatsd 13155 5390180( 1) 208540( 1) /ussbin/picd 13192 5923724( 1) 80800( 0) /ussbin/pkid 13208 5180312( 1) 81184( 0) /ussbin/plat-mra 13295 973600( 0) 32772( 0) /ussbin/ppmd 13334 5397212( 1) 164716( 1) /ussbin/ppmd-agent 13377 6538576( 1) 131096( 0) /ussbin/eventd 13397 5346104( 1) 128864( 0) /ussbin/resiliencyd 13439 1346848( 0) 170704( 1) /ussbin/rpd 13480 140620( 0) 54228( 0) /ussbin/rpcserviced 13522 924044( 0) 29504( 0) /ussbin/rpd-sa-agent 13561 5499760( 1) 196684( 1) /ussbin/rpd-agent 13607 5276836( 1) 115964( 0) /ussbin/rpdfw 13658 3812( 0) 2940( 0) /bin/bash 13676 6194288( 1) 149840( 1) /ussbin/snmpd 13698 6138072( 1) 214204( 1) /ussbin/snmpd-subagent 13707 5151016( 1) 59668( 0) /ussbin/syscmdd 13724 5989444( 1) 109676( 0) /ussbin/sysd 13747 5160992( 1) 73564( 0) /ussbin/sysman-ui 13760 5401108( 1) 160672( 1) /ussbin/timingd 13866 6195524( 1) 136700( 0) /ussbin/transport-alarm-statsd 13874 5160732( 1) 70044( 0) /ussbin/upgraded 13883 6264348( 1) 118500( 0) /ussbin/xmlproxyd 14124 1091672( 0) 154420( 1) /ussbin/l2ald 14127 1102904( 0) 105268( 0) /ussbin/mgd 14147 5423352( 1) 185536( 1) /ussbin/l2ald-agent 14162 953688( 0) 60464( 0) /ussbin/l2cpd 14197 5380344( 1) 161700( 1) /ussbin/l2cpd-agent 14258 2960( 0) 2040( 0) /ussbin/mcelog 14428 8864( 0) 5324( 0) /sbin/agetty 14464 11256( 0) 5544( 0) /ussbin/evo_dns_relay 20705 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke2:1-events] 21526 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke0:0-events] 23138 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke1:2-cgroup_destroy] 27718 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke1:1-events] 27775 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke1:1H] 28551 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke0:1-events] 28832 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke2:2-events] 29948 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke3:0-events] 30137 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke2:2H-kblockd] 30480 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke0:0H-kblockd] 31460 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworkeu32:2-events_unbound] 31840 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke0:3H-mmc_complete] 31959 0( 0) 0( 0) [kworke3:2H] @re0> show ethernet-switching table summary Total dynamic and static MAC addresses learned globally : 4691 Configured static MAC addresses learned globally : 0 
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2024.06.02 09:48 FanOfFH Installation failure

Installation failure
Hello, I have a problem with installing Lonux Mint on my laptop.
I got the program from the website, and put it on my USB Flashdisk. So there I was on the linux wallpaper and everything and I wanted to install linux so I didn't have to have the USB Flashdisk in my laptop all the time. I started the instalation process, getting rid of Windows and installing Linux and when I had to choose my timezone, it bugged and got me back a couple of steps back. I repeated the process and it did it again. After some time I did it but now it asked me to get rid of the USB Flashdisk and after I did that, an error occured. I'll provide you with some images, sadly it's shot through my phone so the quality is bad (also please don't mind the screen I didn't take good care of it)
So it said Boot device not found so I restarted the laptop but first I put the USB Flashdisk back into the laptop and now it said this "Something has gone seriously wrong" I have no idea how to fix this issue and I'm new to Linux and manipulating with OS in the dirst place. I'd be delighted if someone found a solution. If you need any more info just ask in the comments I'll try to answer as soon as I can.
Thanks in advance
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2024.06.02 09:44 CommercialFan6977 IS THIS A GOOD COOLING CAM FOR A NZXT KRAKEN 360 ELITE OR DO I NEED TO CHANGE SOMETHING

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2024.06.02 09:43 CollateralJustice Researchers looking at brain-gene editing techniques to cutomise your body via AI neurotechnology.

In the same way we can inject medicine to deactivate the uterine sensitization-associated gene-1 (USAG-1) protein which suppresses tooth growth, blocking USAG-1's interaction with other proteins encourages bone morphogenetic protein (BMP) signaling which triggers new bone to generate.
Using a new type of neuro implant we attach to the brain that can activate / deactivate certain specific regulating gene functions in the human brain. This effectively lets the user control aspects of the body that can be customised to their preference including hair and eye colour. Although we are still 60-70 years away from human trials.
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2024.06.02 09:35 Additional-Yam6345 Row 7 of the Anime All Stars roster has made it's official debut! Originally, I have replaced a Uzui from KNY and Minato from Naruto for another character. Let's see their replacing characters and the new fighters. Since they're new, there is a description on their moves.

Row 7 of the Anime All Stars roster has made it's official debut! Originally, I have replaced a Uzui from KNY and Minato from Naruto for another character. Let's see their replacing characters and the new fighters. Since they're new, there is a description on their moves.
Row 7 will now feature the next wave of expansion fighters.
114. Bu-Ling Huang / Mew Pudding (Tokyo Mew Mew)
Neutral: PuRing Ring Warp
Mew Pudding begins to twirl around leaving a trail of yellow pudding which damages the opponent. The move can be charged and does more attack damage if charged. Similar to Pyra's Neutral Special, Flame Nova in Smash.
Side: Ribbon PuRing Swing
Mew Pudding leaps forward and grabs the enemy slapping and punching them. (This is similar to Diddy Kong's Side Special in Smash). Press the button again to cancel the attack.
Up: Jello Trampoline
Mew Pudding will summon a trampoline shaped like jello which bounces her to new heights. it falls if used in the air but sticks if used on the ground. Like Sonic's Spring Jump in Smash.
Down: Jello Prison
Mew Pudding uses her PuRing Rings to play a melody, then unleashes a blast of yellow energy which encases the enemy in a force field similarly shaped like jello.
Final Smash: Ribbon PuRing Ring Inferno
Mew Pudding Mew Pudding performing a series of acrobatic flips, kicks and somersaults before summoning a tambourine and a bell on a ring. She taps them together, performing a melody in the air. Her Mew Mark glows and she brings the instruments down, unleashing a blast of yellow energy which encases the enemy in a force field similarly shaped like jello. The jello force field will then explode launching the opponents captured.
115. Kakashi Hatake (Naruto) (Replacing Uzui)
Neutral: Lightning Blade
Kakashi pulls out a Kunai Spear then runs forward with his right hand shrouded in blue electricity. When they get close enough, they drive their hand into the opponent's middle, blasting them away.
Side: Kamui Shuriken
Kakashi throws a barrage of shuriken at his opponent in a radial pattern, creating an explosion after a second. Charging the technique increases the damage output, even when blocked.
Up: Water Style Geyser
Kakashi erupts the floor with a giant geyser that helps him get lifted up to new heights.
Down: Lightning Style Shadow Clone
Kakashi enters a counter stance where he reads a Make-Out series novel. If the opponent hits them during that time, they fake them out with a Lightning Style Shadow Clone, then they use Earth Style: Mud Wall Jutsu, to lift the opponent up, then finish them with Water Style Giant Vortex Jutsu.
Final Smash: Kamui Lightning Blade
Kakashi pulls out a Kunai and charges a Lightning Blade then rushes at his opponent. If he connects, he launches them up with his attack, activates his Susano'o and obliterate his caught opponent with a stronger Lightning Blade, dubbed the Kamui Lightning Blade.
116. Himura Kenshin (Samurai X/Ruroni Kenshin)
Neutral: Nine-Headed Dragon Flash
Kenshin flies forward while holding a sword. If they connect, blue afterimages follow behind them and strike the opponent, blasting them back.
Side: Kusu-ryusen
Kenshin charges a dash attack. If fully charged, he phases through the enemy which slashes with the kanji showing on the hit opponent. (Similar to Ike's Side Special; Quick Draw in Smash Bros)
Up: Tsui-sho Sen
Kenshin will slash upward. If the button is pressed after the uppercut slash, he will dive downward. The downward slash has a meteor effect.
Down: Counter
Kenshin enters a counter stance. If he gets attacked, he will open his sword and give a payback slash. Depending on how much damage the enemy attack does, Kenshin's counter will give the counter attack a multiply by 1.3%.
Final Smash: Godspeed Flash of the Heavenly Flying Dragon
Kenshin runs at the opponent at high-speed. If they connect, they slash the opponent once to stun them, then charges another to cut them to the floor.
117. Armin Arlert (Attack on Titan)
Neutral: Double Sword Slash
Armin jumps up and slashes down with both Ultrahard steel blades.
Side: Barrel Roll
Armin uses his Ultrahard steel blades to barrel roll. This move is similar to Mii Swordfighter's Airbone Assault move in Smash Bros.
Up: ODM Gear Hook.
Armin will use either one or both wire hooks to help him hook onto the ledge. He can use it on ceiling's, walls, and opponents.
Down: Ultrahard steel blade change.
Armin's Ultrahard steel blades have a durability limit live Steve's tools in Smash Bros. But unlike Steve where the tool's limit are seen when they break, Armin has a gauge telling the sword's durability limit. Some attacks will be less effective without the blades.
Final Smash: Green Smoke Assault.
Armin fires a green smoke shot from his gun to signal five allies to help attack his opponent. One of them is Sasha Braus. After the assault concludes, Armin pulls out a thunder spear to obliterate the opponent.
118. Gray Fullbuster (Fairy Tail)
Neutral: Ice Super Freeze Arrow.
Gray makes a Ice Bow and Arrow from his ice molding magic. It's similar to Byleth's Neutral Special in Smash. Pressing the button does little damage, but holding down will charge up the arrow and pierce through his opponent launching or freezing them. The latter of which will see them frozen in ice. Just like in Smash, the more damage they have, the longer they will stay frozen.
Side: Crescent Blades.
Gray summons crescent like boomerangs that he throws. It's like Min Min's neutral special where she throws Ramram where they return after a brief distance.
Up: Ice Grappling Hook.
Gray makes a grappling hook out of his molding ice which he can use to recover from the stage. It will work like Byleth's Up Special in Smash. If he grabs a curved ceiling, he will jump off of it, and grabbing an opponent will see him propel himself and bounce off their heads with a meteor spike occurring in the process.
Down: Ice Devour.
Just like with Natsu where he eats fire to replenish his power and even heal himself, Gray will open his mouth to try and eat ice attacks. Said ice users like Todoroki (MHA), and Esdeath (Akame Ga Kill), are at a huge disadvantage against Gray. If he eats an ice projectile, he will replenish his Ice Magic and take away some damage.
Final Smash: Lost Ice Shell
Gray will use his finishing attack, Lost Iced Shell where he casts himself in an circular ice shell. However, the shell will break if Gray dosen't capture anyone on the initial hit. But if he does, he freezes them. If they're over 100%, they're chilled to the bone...
119. Rikka Takanashi (Love Chuunibyou and Other Delusions)
Neutral: Umbrella Barrage / Dark Matter Blaze
Umbrella Barrage: Rikka strikes 10 times with an Umbrella. / Dark Matter Blaze: When her Banishment of this World gauge is filled, Rikka fires a huge magical ball that knocks her opponents away.
Side: Slide / Mana Blast
Slide: Rikka slides like Mega Man's down tilt in Smash where she trips her opponent. Leaving them prone to followup attacks. / Mana Blast: When her Banishment of this World gauge is filled, Rikka now fires 3 to 6 energy blasts with little to medium damage and knockback.
Up: Umbrella Leap / Kanntwinkle
Rikka leaps up with her Umbrella which reduces falling like Peach and Daisy's up special in Smash. / Kanntwinkle: When her Banishment of this World gauge is filled, Rikka dashes upward and fires three energy balls depending on the stick's direction.
Down Chuuni-Charge / Magic Selection
Rikka will get super armor and will not get knocked back from heavy attacks. Every hti fills up her Banishment of this World gauge like Joker's Rebel's Guard in Smash Bros. / Magic Selection: When her Banishment of this World gauge is filled, Rikka will choose between three moves: 1. Maximum Shield, Makes a 5 second shield. She can't move in the process like Hero's Kaclang move in Smash. 2. Bash, Swings her powered up weapon, Konigin der Nacht onto the ground damaging opponent critically like Hero's Hatchet Man move in Smash. And 3. Schwarz Shield; Rikka enters a counter stance. If someone hits her, she will hit back.
Final Smash: True Banishment of this World
Rikka summons Yuuta Togashi as both raise their hands to combine their power mixed with dark magic fire and mana to make a giant vortex.
120. Tsuyu Asui (My Hero Academia)
Neutral: Frog Leap
Tsuyu winds up and lunges at the enemy player to kick them.
Side: Frog Arrow
Tsuyu rapidly extends her tongue in a straight line, damaging and knocking away (or just staggering if the enemy is using a yellow attack) any enemy struck by it.
Up: Froppy Hopper / Tongue Hook
Asui has two up specials for recovery like Min Min in Smash. Froppy Hopper sees Asui using her frog-like body to hop to extreme heights. This move can only be done on the ground. If she's in the air, she will use her tongue instead.
Down: Toxic Mucus
Asui will barf out a toxic sludge from her mouth. If it makes contact with an opponent, they will slowly take damage. The effect lasts for 8 seconds.
Final Smash: Frog Dash
Just like Her Level 2 Plus Ultra move in My Hero One's Justice, Tsuyu launches herself towards the enemy player and slams her feet into them. She will then kick her target away only to pull them back in with her tongue, rapidly spin them around, then smash them into the ground.
121. Rukia Kuchiki (Bleach)
Neutral: First Dance, White Moon
Rukia steps forward to slash the opponent. If they connect, a pillar of ice will shroud the enemy before breaking, causing a hard knockdown.
If the move does not connect, a ring of icy energy will be placed behind the user in its place, acting as a trap that stays for 5 seconds.
Side: Next Dance, Hakuren
Rukia takes a stance and charges her beam in their sword, then stabs the air, creating a stream of ice stalagmites.
This technique can be charged. The longer it's charged the beam will pierce through.
Up: Rukia infuses her sword with icy energy. For the following 15 seconds, all her sword attacks have the added Ice element. She then uppercuts with her sword which is useful for recovery to the stage.
Down: White tree
Rukia will grow roots from her sword that scatter through the ground.
Final Smash: Bankai: White Haze Punishment
Rukia takes a stance, then fires a beam of icy energy at her opponent. If it connects without blocking, the opponent is frozen over in a long strip of ice, and she then transforms into her Bankai State
122. Ryo Saeba (City Hunter)
Neutral: Quickshot
Ryo shoots his opponent with his revolver.
Holding the energy charge button makes him fire up to 3 times, at the cost of extra stocks.
Side: Bullseye
Ryo shoots his opponent with his revolver up to 2 times.
The first shot can break an opponent's guard, and the second shot is guaranteed damage.
Up: Grenade
Ryo pulls out a grenade and throws it down to help him get blown up to new heights at the cost of taking some damage in return.
Down: Double Rocket Launcher.
As the name suggests, Ryo pulls out a pair of rocket launchers, and fires them. The rockets travel up, then at the opponent.
Holding the energy charge button simply delays the move.
Final Smash: X-Y-Z
Ryo fires a bazooka at his opponent. If it connects without blocking, he pulls up in his red car, rolls out and fires at a trio of explosive barrels in the air, alongside his opponent, which makes them explode.
123. Seto Kaiba (Yu-Gi-Oh)
Neutral: Saggi the Dark Clown
Kaiba summons Saggi the Dark Clown. Although this monster lacks attacks damage, Kaiba will use his negative energy card, a Magic Card, to multiply Saggi's attack points by 3 and attacks with Dark Light.
Side: Judge Man
Kaiba will summon the Judge Man. He bangs on the ground causing the ground to shake, tripping his opponents.
Up: Blue Eyes Shining Dragon
Kaiba will call his Blue Eyes Shining Dragon to ride on his back and take him to new heights.
Down: My Turn!
Kaiba draws a card from his deck. Here, he can use these moves that go around like a pattern:
1: Crush Card Virus: Kaiba fires 2 balls of dark magic. 2: Ring of Destruction: Kaiba drops an explosive ring on the opponent. 3: Shadow Spell: Kaiba creates an Area of Effect that has purple clouds rain down electricity on the opponent.
Final Smash: Triple Burst Stream
Kaiba will summon all three of his Blue Eyes White Dragons to merge as one and become the "Blue Eyes Ultimate Dragon". he will then use it to fires three burst streams to destroy the opponent.
124. Minto Aizawa / Mew Mint (Tokyo Mew Mew)
Neutral: MinTone Arrow
Mew Mint uses her signature weapon, the MinTone Arrow, to fire an arrow shaped like a feather.
Side: MinTone Boomerang
Mew Mint throws her MinTone Arrow like King K Rool's side special, Crownerang in Smash. Unlike said move, it comes back instead of landing on the ground and becoming an item.
Up: MinTone Arrow Hook
Mew Mint turns MinTone Arrow into a grappling hook where chains resemble feathers.
Down: Mew Aqua Drop
Mew Mint trades her MinTone Arrow for the Mew Aqua Rod and enters a counter stance. If attacked, she uppercuts with the Mew Aqua Rod and switches back to her MinTone Arrow usage.
Final Smash: Ribbon Mint Echo
Mew Mint is seen summoning a bow and arrow out of a windy burst of feathers, charging up a shock-wave, and releasing it into a light pink blade of energy.
125. Teru Momijiyama / Shy (Shy)
Neutral: Flame Bracelet Shot
Shy will use her Heart-Shift Bracelets to fire flames which damage the opponent.
Side: Heart-Shift Bracelet flash
Shy will prepare to dash with her fist ready. It's like Mii Swordfighter's Gale Strike move in Smash.
Up: Bracelet uppercut
Shy uppercuts with her Bracelet leaving a trail of fire
Down: Heart-Shift Counter
Shy will make an X shape with her arms in a guarding position. If someone gets her, she will unleash a flame wall.
Final Smash: One Stroke
Shy crosses her arms, only to open them and unleash a wave of powerful flames against her opponent.
126. Crona Gorgon (Soul Eater) (Replacing Minato. I felt like we should have 2 Soul Eater reps after Maka)
Neutral: Black Blood
Crona will punch the ground and black goo will go out and turn into spikes.
Side: Bloody Needle
Crona uses her Black Blood to turn them into needles, usually to surprising the opponents and skewer them.
Up: Black Blood Wings
Crona will grow wings from her back to fly to new heights. Like Pit's Power of Flight in Smash. It can't do damage but is useful for recovery.
Down: Black Blood Vines.
Crona will use her Black Blood to makes vines and use them to poke out of the ground. If done in the air, Crona will instead use the vines to spike his opponent.
Final Smash: Scream Resonance
A special type of Soul Resonance that functions ordinarily like usual Soul Resonance, except that the result instead is a high pitch scream that gives Crona's weapon (such as Ragnarok) increased cutting power through vibrations.
127. Arthur Boyle (Fire Force)
Neutral: Plasma Sword Shake
Arthur uses his plasma sword to charge up a decisive blow. Similar to Roy's Neutral Special in Smash. The longer it's charged, the more damage it does.
Side: Plasma Sword Strike
Arthur dashes three times with his plasma sword striking forward. It's similar to Sora's Side Special, Sonic Blade in Smash.
Up: Plasma Sword Spin
Arthur will spin around and be lifted to the sky. It's like Sora's up special, Aerial Sweep in Smash. He will be lifted up no matter if he's on the ground of air..
Down Special: Plasma Counter
Arthur enters a counter stance with his plasma sword. If he gets hit, he will attack with his attack damage multiplied by 1.5%.
Final Smash: Star Ring
Arthur will pull out the Star Ring and use his pyrokinesis to erupt the floor and make a flame pillar. It's like Ken's Final Smash that's is done if his opponent is far away.
128. Simon (Gurren Laggan)
Neutral: Spiral Power
Simon fire massive beams of spiral power from his core drill and can create drills for various purposes the latter requiring a gunman.
Side: Giga Drill Break
Simon forms a huge amount of spiral power into an enormous drill and spins. This is similar to Meta Knight's Side Special, Drill Dash in Smash. If in the air, Simon will fall vulnerably.
Up: Drill Rush
Simon drills upward with rockets boosting him. He falls down once the rockets run out of fuel.
Down: Energy Absorption.
Simon will stab a drill into his opponent to take away some damage and do the ammount of damage to them.
Final Smash: Drilling Finish
Simon will gather his largest drill to try and hit an opponent. If successful, he drills them until the ground shakes and erupts. If his opponent is over 100%, it's an immediate KO.
129. Trunks (Dragon Ball)
Neutral: Burning Attack
Trunks rapidly moves his arms, then thrusts his hands forward to fire a large fireball. (Consumes 1 Ki Gauge)
Side: Galick Gun
Trunks fires a Galick Gun which travels a distance. (Consumes 1.5 Ki Gauges)
Up: Cyclone Jump
Trunks performs a jumping somersault. Can do any aerial attack shortly after the jump. Different inputs causes Trunks to travel in a different direction. If a flip is now done on the ground, Trunks can use a second flip in the air.
Down: Change the Future
Trunks charges forward and shoots an explosion from his palm. If the opponent gets hit near Trunks' hand, this move has a Smash property that deals a moderately strong wallbounce. (Consumes 2 Ki Gauges)
Final Smash: Heat Dome Attack / Shining Sword Attack
Shining Sword Attack: If Trunks' opponent is at a distance, he jumps forward with his sword. If he connects with the opponent, they rapidly slash the opponent 8 times, then fires a Masenko. / Heat Dome Attack: If Trunks' opponent is close, he grabs. If it connects, Trunks spins once and tosses the opponent up into the air and causes a yellow orb of energy to be formed around him as he fires a vertical yellow blast at the midair opponent. Has some of the highest damage of any level 3 Meteor attacks. (Consumes three Ki gauges)
130. Toshiro Hitsuyaga (Bleach)
Neutral: Hail Flower Dragon
Toshiro rushes forward with his sword. If he connects, he creates an ice pillar around his opponent, which shatters a second after.
Side: Icicle Birds
Toshiro summons dragon-like wings and a tail, which fire icicles at his opponent. Charging the move doubles the amount of projectiles.
Up: Ice Slash
Toshiro uppercits with his sword leaving a trail of snowflakes.
Down: Six-Point Ice Formation
Toshiro points his sword to the ground, creating a trap that freezes an opponent in an ice pillar upon contact.
Final Smash: Four Elements Freeze
Toshiro turns into his adult form, freezing the air around him, and slashes the air. If he connects, he freezes the opponent over, creating a tall pillar of ice that crumbles on top of itself after a few seconds.
131. Sunraku (Shangri-La Frontier)
Neutral: Screw Pierce
Sunraku does a quick blow as a compact attack. It is very powerful, but cannot be fired repeatedly.
Side: Drill Piercer
Sunraku emits a blue energy when in contact with target, dealing heavy drill damage and if on a weak spot deal critical damage.
Up: Glowing Pierce
Sunraku emits a stronger blue energy around the weapon, unleashing a spiral twister on the user when dealing more damage to target. The twister lifts him up for recovery.
Down: Spiral Pierce
Sunraku channels a blue energy aura around the weapons and impacts them on target, acting like a spiral rotation that drills into the target with stronger battle damage.
Final Smash: Assassination Pierce. Level MAX
A combined linkable skill. A skill that boost attack force when an enemy Mob hasn’t noticed someone or if their attack focus is elsewhere. Emits a powerful deep blue energy force upon impacting target.
132. Asuka Takizawa / Cure Flamingo (Tropical Rouge Pretty Cure)
Neutral: Buttobi Flamingo Smash
Cure Flamingo's solo attack that she can perform with her Heart Rouge Rod.
Side: Flamingo Stride
Cure Flamingo spins like a turbulent to strike his opponent.
Up: Flamingo Wings
Cure Flamingo uses her Heart Rouge Rod to make wings on her back to help make her fly to new heights.
Down: Tropical Reverse
Cure Flamingo uses her Heart Rouge Rod to stab in front. If she catches a projectile, she will spin 180 degrees before sending it back to sender.
Final Smash: Super Tropical Paradise
Cure Flamingo will team up with the other 4 Tropical Rouge Cures, Cure Summer, Cure Coral, Cure Papaya, and Cure La Mer, to unleash a wave of attacks to finish out their enemies.
133. Retasu Midorikawa / Mew Lettuce (Tokyo Mew Mew)
Neutral: Lettustanets Toss
Mew Lettuce throws her Lettustanets at the opponent.
Side: Droplet Barrage
Mew Lettuce fires bullets of water droplets.
Up: Wavy Strings
Mew Lettuce uses her white strings to hook onto a ceiling, wall, ledge or opponent.
Down: Ribbon Whip
Mew Lettuce uses the ribbons of her Lettustanets to be a counter attack barrier.
Final Smash: Lettuce Lashup
Mew Lettuce rises up into the air with her arms crossed over her chest. She then parts them and manifests the Lettustanets in each hand. Playing a small rhythm with them, she spins around and then fires a blast of water power at the opponent.
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2024.06.02 09:28 jinx_x27 tell me…

an email i considered sending to my therapist, but never sent. share any thoughts as you would like :) thank you to anyone who takes the time to read. let me know if you relate if you’d like
little jacked up, admittedly probably shouldn’t have done the block or two home from the bar if i’m being honest. it’s kind of wild the way things change and stay the same. the level of disconnect and the lack of discernment between what is okay and what is not. knowing and not knowing… rationalizing? what is okay
and the sadness as you watch people succumb, over and over, more and more. and you stand back and watch as people simply take watch, observe the decline, yourself included. and you think, well, they don’t know any different. but if you’re asking yourself the question, if you all make the jokes that indicate the awareness with things left unsaid… i don’t know. it’s an incredibly sad world we live in some days
and there’s people that greet me upon entering, and these people say they adore me, their words. and i’m here wondering why they ask me these questions, truthfully why can’t you just recognize that i need more than 6 ft of distance for me to be okay with you talking this intensely. no ill intent, warmth, encouragement. and i want nothing more than to not be seen. it’s amazing, truly.
there are so many missed communications. and people just carry on, they just continue to whatever beat their drum drums. they continue to color inside the lines, they don’t dare to shake their status quo. not recognizing that their status quo is what keeps things where they are. not recognizing that if they see something , say something. and i think it’s even more sad if they do see it. i’m one of those people, and i can empathize because i feel powerless too.
it’s a wild wild world all the time
and yet, my aunt texts me just now, she says “ Thanks for listening to me all the time. You’re one of the very few people that I can talk to and know that you totally understand what I’m jabbering about. ” so i have meaning, i made impact. right?
we’re all witnesses to this shit. it’s wild
i must be more jacked up than i thought, to be shamelessly sharing.
i think too many people are in pain, with no means to get out. except they have the means, they have the help, they just can’t see it. it’s a profoundly sad world. and nonetheless, a good night . a night of sharing, of exchanges, of authentic conversation.
i don’t know. i don’t quite have the words
i know that im deeply grateful to have the space to express. and i know that i wouldn’t be here if not for you
how many people don’t have a version of you? how many people stumble blindly through whatever their shit is, unknowingly colluding
i don’t know
and what is there to do? the spouse of the alcoholic takes him in the car home, he’ll sleep in the car or on the couch. the father who texts his son thanking him for his honesty about having been drinking, and therefore isn’t going to pick up his dad. i tell him, that’s a great text from your dad. good on you. (he’ll appreciate that someday if he doesn’t already). did he hear me? was he more upset that i shouldn’t be looking over his shoulder? it wasn’t my business in the first place? he wouldn’t be wrong.. but i read it and wished id have heard it, so i said something. he thanked me, so maybe. but maybe not, maybe he thought fuck you. the brother that storms out on his sister over who knows what, what i hear as a “years long conflict, this happens at least every other time they get together.” and it’s normal, so let’s move on, let’s have fun. forget about it. under the rug it goes.
how are people not profoundly disturbed by this? how do they actively participate?
and how can i say that as i stand by and watch these things pass by because these people are 20-30 years older than me, i dont have the connection necessary to plant any seeds of change. and yet i have 5 minute conversations with people only to hear that they call me extraordinary, they say im destined for great things, always have been.
i don’t know. i don’t know what i feel
i just know that it’s difficult for me to interact with so many people that have no idea what to do. and i have the empathy. i didn’t, i don’t know what to do either. you just keep trying anyway, but they don’t seem to. they brush it off, they act like it’s nothing so as to minimize the discomfort, in an effort to save somebody’s feelings.
i don’t know. it’s a wild thing
nobody i know is ever malicious. i know malicious people exist, they are not the ones i know.
it’s insane to me the level of harm that can be done despite good intentions. and how disturbingly normal it is to watch and do nothing. nothing. sit back. they’ll figure it out. maybe. someday. maybe. hopefully.
it’s fucked up. what if they don’t? what if they need you to say something? what if they need to know that it’s seen, even if it’s uncomfortable, even if it hurts?
i don’t know. i’m not pointing the finger, im no different, im a participant as well
but im 24, i say, im only a kid compared to these people. cant be much different than the things they all tell themselves.
i don’t know.
it’s a weird thing.
and today was my dad’s 50th birthday . and i hugged him multiple times, trying to tell him i love him. trying to tell him to stay close. take care of yourself, i need you around. and yet im fuming over the treatment of my step-sister who still lives in his house. the lack of accountability taken. and how could you carry on this way. how could you not see what you’re doing. how could you continue to oppress, restrict another human being, another child of yours. i told you what it did to me, didn’t i? didn’t you listen? i thought you did.
but i love this man more than i give a fuck whether the sun rises the next day, and so i will give him grace. i will hug him tight because i don’t want him going anywhere. i see him laugh it up, i see him brush things off, i see him swallow, and make light. and i watch his body decay as the stress compounds. why? how? but i get it, too. i haven’t said anything either. that’s all we know
i care that he knows how much i love him, how much i need him, how much i yearn for closeness, for him to understand. i see the weight that you’re carrying that you tirelessly try to dismiss
i don’t know what to do with all of this sometimes there’s too much to be seen that isn’t said.
i’m highly analytical, im logical, im rational, im disconnected. and honestly i don’t know how else to exist, because feeling it all, watching it all
i don’t know sometimes. i don’t know
and it was a great night. it was a great night
too many paradoxes.
and i’ll wake up tomorrow, i’ll forget about this. i’ll be caught up in my own world. it will be out of sight out of mind
what can you do? are the messages i receive from people like my aunt enough? do i need to think better? it’s not like im not already cracking under my own weight. but would more mean more? do more? how do we all sit back like that. how do we all do that
blows my mind, and i understand it all the same.
crazy. crazy. crazy.
i hope you’ve been able to get some rest. it makes me wonder sometimes… did you abuse your body too like i have? is it a case of poor genetics? is it to be expected with aging? do you have regrets that you’re now paying the price for? or have you made your peace and you roll with the punches? what are the things you tell no one about? what are the things you try to forget? what are the things you deny but secretly know, the things that only you could possibly know? and am i projecting? is there a level of healing where that’s not what you think anymore? but at the end of the day, i think everybody has those, no matter how healed you think you are. is that reality or just mine?
do you have somebody too?
maybe it’s arrogant of me, but i don’t think i would sense, i don’t think i would suspect if there was nothing to know.
that pains me some days.
but maybe that’s the human part of this work. maybe i’m human, and you’re human, and we all have things left unseen and untouched, unsaid.
do i think that because im wounded? or is that how this thing we call life is? i don’t know.
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2024.06.02 09:19 abinormal17 Only child, shy adult, starting to affect relationship

Hi. I don't even know where to start... my thoughts are all over the place... I'm an only child who grew up very close to my parents. And I would say I had a great childhood with parents who were very attentive to my needs. Sure I was sheltered for most of it but my life was pretty good. My parents made sure I joined a lot of activities and had hobbies to make sure I wasn't bored. But I got used to doing most things alone. Most of my hobbies are things I can do solo. I've always been okay alone but I've also had a good friend group growing up in a private school that I've kept through adulthood and who I know are always there for me. Despite this, ive always craved the bond that siblings have with each other. Home was usually quiet and I was never one to talk a lot. Growing up, I was extremely extremely shy. I was always that kid that hid behind her mom or wouldn't know what to say to most people. I was the cousin who was always in the corner with her nose in a book and would always have a hard time having conversation with even my own extended family. To this day i still dont really talk to my cousins. I feel very lucky to have the small friend group that I do have from elementary school. But I tend to be picky with who I let in my circle. Another thing about being really shy, I've always had a hard time talking to people whether it be on the phone to make an appointment or order food, or talking to new people in social events. I always feel so awkard or embarrassed. I've also never dated in my younger years. My first bf was in college and I am currently with my 2nd bf as a 28year old adult. The problem that I've currently been having is my shyness has started to get in the way of how I interact with my partner's family. My partner is also a different ethnicity and his parents dont speak much english. With their culture, they have a certain way of addressing each other and my partner has asked me to address them in a particular way. However, no matter how much I want to address them that way, my shyness physically hinders me from saying it. I've already struggled calling the parents auntie and uncle, but I don't know why I cannot bring myself to address them in their language. The thing is in my family, I also am unable to speak my own language due to my shyness despite knowing it fluently. Growing up I had cousins who would make fun of me for trying to speak myown language, and ever since then, I've had this mental block where I know exactly how to say it in my head, but the words will not physically come out due to embarrassment? I have no idea what this block is. But it is now starting to affect my relationship when I try to address them in their language. I keep thinking what is wrong with me? Is it just me or is it because I've been shy my whole life, or is it because I'm an only child that lacks that person that was supposed to tease the embrassement out of me or push me out of my comfort zone? I've always felt weird being an only child. Everytime I see other people interacting with their siblings, it feels like a punch to the stomach reminding me I don't have anyone I could relate to. I don't know if anyone else feels this way. But I know there's been a lot of things I can trace back to being an only child. The way I am, the way I interact with people, the lack of communication skills, the anxiety that I constantly feel... it feels like it's never ending. I know my post may be all over the place. I just want to know if I'm alone in this feeling or if anyone else can relate?
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2024.06.02 09:17 Peach_Venom Intense Ruminating Solutions

I have a family member on my wife's side that we estranged with. He's truly a narcissist and after a rather terrible week long move from a house to an apartment and lots of downsizing he's come out of the woodworks to criticize us again. We had neatly left the trash for the city to pick up the next day, and during the night someone tore all the bags open and left a god awful mess. The city trash obviously didn't touch it that morning and the landowner blamed us and gave us the weekend to clean it. We simply don't have the time or resources to clean it, and I told my landlord that. I told him if he really needed to use our deposit to hire someone and clean it because the house is fine. Honestly we tried. We went and took what we could and put the trash in the neighbors bins, honestly a dick move but we didn't have a choice. Suddenly out of the blue this family member is texting us before the weekend is over that we're making him look bad to his friend (landlord) and horribly judging us for a situation we have no control over. Idk maybe we could have done something if he didn't steal the $3,500 we had saved for the move 🙃
Both my wife and I officially blocked him tonight, but the ruminating on being misunderstood and critized by someone I once cared about is breaking my brain. I need calming activities to do while trying to fall asleep. My sleep music isn't distracting enough, talking voices are too distracting to fall asleep, my brain goes blank when I try to journal. Pls help I had just gotten myself to stop ruminating him and my wife's family estrangement.
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2024.06.02 09:16 reirei444 AITA for blocking my girlfriend after she left me alone during the worst panic attack of my life?

So me, F (won’t be marking ages for privacy) and my girlfriend, F, were out with our friend group yesterday evening, smoking and drinking. At around 10:30 PM we agreed it was time for us to head to my house to spend the rest of the evening there as we were both tired and it was getting colder out. At home we cuddled in my bed which quickly turned into kissing, making out and finally sex. After we were done I was all covered in sweat, dripping down from my hair to my face and all over my body. My legs were aching and I was still shaking. All of that combined with the small amount of substances still left in my system triggered a panic attack. I started shaking harder, hyperventilating, and my vision blurred to the point where I couldn’t make out her facial features clearly. All of it scared me, I tried to find my clothes but it was dark and the bed was messy, all of this worsened my situation, and I soon started biting the skin off my fingers, which I do as a coping mechanism sometimes. During all of this my girlfriend kept repeating ”It’s going to be okay” and ”I’m here” while simultaneously getting dressed and calling her dad to pick her up. So now I was not only overstimulated, but also panicking because she was leaving and I was going to be left alone in my dark room feeling like I’m actively dying. The situation also made me nearly non verbal and all I could say was ”no” a couple of times. Despite all this she apologized, and told me that her mom wants her home and left. After a few minutes of calming down I grabbed my phone and blocked her in every single app I could think of that she could possibly contact me with. This was last night, around 30 minutes after I’d blocked her, a mutual friend texted me asking why I did that, I left her on read. Nothing else has happened since, as she basically was no way of contacting me now. I don’t know how to move forward from this point, I guess we’ll in the end have to talk about somehow, but I’m not sure yet if I want to break up with her over this. it So am I the asshole?
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2024.06.02 09:01 babyyg096 Why wouldn’t you go on dating apps after breaking up with your ex?

So long story short, my ex and I broke up 3 weeks ago. We were together a year and I loved him so much. I still do and I miss him so much but I haven’t messaged or spoken to him. I keep hoping maybe he’ll reach out since he’s the one who said the relationship was stressing him out so I took offence to it and blocked him on social media. I unblocked him a week ago but I can see he’s been keeping me blocked on Instagram and Facebook.
Over the year we had so many fights and mini break ups. All I can remember now is the happy moments and love we had for each other and not the reason for every fight we had.
Since we broke up, I’m on 3 dating apps. I haven’t met anyone or been very active. I know it’s not healthy but I’ve mostly been using them to see if he’s on them. I guess for me, seeing him on them would be the final straw to me fully being able to move on. I’m on the same dating apps I know he used since he was on them before we met. But since we broke up, I haven’t seen him on any of them (I have my account hidden so he wouldn’t be able to find or block my account). I know it might be weird but again, I know if I saw his profile I would be able to come to terms that he is moved on.
So my question is, would someone who’s single for almost a month now who isn’t on dating apps means they haven’t moved on yet? Or am I being delusional and there could be other reasons?
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2024.06.02 08:57 LittleMagicKnight Are there any "adopted" idol groups that found more success with their new companies than their old ones?

Apologies if "adopted" isn't really the right word here, but given how often events like this take place in the industry had me wondering; are there any Kpop groups that found more success with their new companies than their old ones?
Even for a casual follower of kpop like myself, it's easy to recognize that once a kpop contract ends, idols who wish to continue their careers USUALLY (not counting groups who were under companies that went...under of course) have the option to either renew with their current company or sign with a new one. We've seen this before with B2ST/BEAST and their transition to HIGHLIGHT, Eunha/SinB/Umji from gfriend forming Viviz, GOT7, Brown Eyed Girls, Block B, and quite a few more that I'm sure have done similar. However, even after signing with these new companies, there's no guarantee that they will generate the same buzz or make similar waves with their music regardless of whether or not they can keep their old name. This of course could be due to a variety of reasons of course such as new companies not having enough funds for extended promotions, fans moving onto different emerging kpop groups, idols wanting to take a break from group activities and having the freedom to do their own things, etc. A good example of this I think is HIGHLIGHT where while the group members continued releasing music under a new company, the buzz they generated wasn't as big as when they were B2ST perhaps due to the name change and only having the following of their most dedicated fans rather than casual ones (military service I'm sure didn't help either). The only exception I can think of to this is Block B whom I believe found greater success with their new company, but of course they are the exception and not exactly the norm.
The reason I ask is because the most recent example I can think of this is of course, LOONA and the recent release of ARTMS's debut. Even for a casual follower of kpop like myself, it was difficult to miss the story surrounding the members of LOONA and their dispute with BlockBerryCreative. Companies screwing over idols is, unfortunately, a common story throughout the industry and while it was nice to learn that all the members would continue being idols, I didn't really have the confidence that having the members spread apart across different companies would do them any favors. Lo and behold, strong fan reception to the releases of Chuu's solo, Loossemble, and most recently Yves and ARTMS's albums (no seriously, I am legitimately impressed with how good sounds) have blown that conception completely out of the water. All were releases that felt like their own thing yet still contained that LOONA vibe that I'm sure many of their fans missed.
I won't lie, witnessing it felt pretty cool. Whether it be because the LOONA fandom is just that strong or because they gained new passionate fans from the drama (or both?) it was easy to see that the buzz surrounding their releases was still there and as strong as ever, if not stronger. Seriously, it was like signing to new companies did not hold them back at all.
All this of course, leads me back to the original question: were there any groups that found greater success with their new companies than their old ones? Curious to know which ones you guys can find!
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2024.06.02 08:52 Ancient-Ant-193 How do you find hobbies/things to enjoy if you're depressed?

Context: I've been dealing with depression/anxiety for over 15 years (have been on meds for 12 yrs). The meds make it so I'm okay enough to be an adult (pay rent, have friends, etc.) but I've noticed over the past 5 years that the few activities I used to love to do in my spare time I can't get myself to even start because I just don't love anything anymore. I especially wish I could be as creative as I used to be but the mental block has been hard to get past.
I've tried different hobbies, but nothing sticks because I don't feel much for anything. I just need something to do in my time when I'm not at work or socializing or working out, which believe it or not is a good amount of hours at times.
Joining clubs or doing activities with other people just feels exhausting to me (some days just living is a task). My question is how do you find something you enjoy when you don't have interest in anything because all you feel is the hopelessness? Any answers welcome! Just wondering if anyone else has felt this way/how you moved past it.
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