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Nag aapply ako sa client na to, then sabi nya sa lahat ng candidate, i lagay sa share drive yung mga videos para sa entries namin. Nag edit ako for about 2 hours, and nung mag papasa nako pucha naka restrict na yung share drive tas ang last modified sa share drive ay etong si ate girl na candidate. Ine-mail ko sya tas sabi ko ang kulet nya, pero deep inside gusto ko murahin. Ganito ba talaga sa competition, kala ko pagalingan lang, hilaan rin pala pababa.

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I'm 22F.I met a guy who is 29M.I met him due to something.And then we became friends.Then we came into a relationship.Everything was going well.One day,I told my friend abt him.And he was quite after knowing this.Then after a day or two he suddenly called me at 2 am and he was like-"Aaj ke baad uss ladke se kabhi mat milna.Vo thik nhi h,Jo bhi ho gya h abhi tak sab khatam Karo aur aaj ke baad kabhi bhi usse milna nhi.Pehli baar kisi ladke ke liye mana kr rha hu toh samjho."Main nhi samjhi thi dusre jab Maine usse milkar pucha toh he said vo ladkiyon ke saath relationship mein aata h then unko videos aur pics ke through blackmail krta h toh tum dur rehna usse.Main nhi suni apne friend ki baat.Everything was going well my bf.We even celebrated New Year together.Then after days when we met, he said-"Kisi ne tum par black magic kr diya h,sometimes tum bahut weird behave krti ho,aur tum par Jo black magic hua h uske karan mujhe bhi hurt ho rha h,mera kaam nhi ho rha h,Main jab jab tumse milta hu,toh uss din mera kuch kaam nhi ho paata h,kaam bante bante bigad jaata h,kuch din tak distance maintain krte h tum Pooja krwa lo,thik ho jao then hum pehle ki tarah hi milenge aur saath rahenge."Pehle toh maine uski iss baat par believe nhi kiya tha.But kuch din ek Panditji se mili main toh unhone bataya aur Pooja karwaayi tab se toh sab kuch thik h.Jab mere bf ne bola ki distance maintain krte h uss time par mujhe block kr diya tha,sirf WhatsApp par hi unblock thi main,aur mere texts aur calls ka reply bhi nhi krte the.Bhut ignore krte the.Then abhi kuch din pehle vo Ghar gye the,toh unhone mujhe bola ki tum par Jo black magic ho gya h vo ab mujhpar aa gya h aur tumhaare karan mere bahut share financial losses huye.Yeh sab sunne ke baad mujhe kaafi bura laga tha.Ab yeh incident hone ke kuch din baad main inke roommate se mili,since inke roommate ko humaare relationship ke baare mein Pata tha toh usne normally pucha ki kaisa chal rha h sab then I told him everything which happened with me in last few months.Uske roommate ne meri aur mere bf ki chats padhkar mujhe samjhaya ki cheezon ko clear kro,aur usne bhi mujhe bataya ki mere bf ne apni ex gf ko kaafi kuch cheezon ke liye blackmail kiya.Usne bahut kuch samjhaya mujhe.Uske roommate ka naam Harsh h.Usne bataya ki mere karan usko kuch nhi hua h,mera bf sirf pura din room mein sota hi h vo khud apne career par focus nhi krta.Aur vo tumhe blame kr rha h.Sach kuch aur hi h Jo vo tumhe nhi Bata rha,maine uske room mate se pucha toh usne bola ki usko Pata nhi h.Mujhe kaafi saari baatein Pata chali apne bf ke baare mein.Ab mujhe nhi Pata ki mujhe kya krna chahiye????? Guys plz help me I'm quite confused. Guys plz help me,What should I do now?

I am going to take partial drop ( parents wont agreee for full drop ) they think my life will be destroyed if I take drop anyways ..
for physics since i have done 70%theory ( i am restarting everything ) mene jo bhi padha is not jee level so physics ke liye i will be using cengage abhi ke liye sirf mains par focus hai cengage me i will be doing illustartion theory and concept application excercises and pyqs till mains 1 resaon i am not using any video lectures is because i am severely addicted to yt shorts i am also considering physics galaxy books but i am not getting single books only set is available so i am confused btw cengage and physics galaxy
For chemistry For IOC i will be just using ncert and for chapters like cordination and chemical bonding i will be using video lectures as they have calculations etc For OC dexterchem cuz book se nhi samajhti oc and material kya kru pta nhi toh pls guide kro For PC not much attention cuz bhot kam pucha iss saal kuch chaps krunga
I am not very sure abt material for chemistry toh kuch guide kro pls
For maths For maths i will be using cengage puri maths nhi krunga planning only cordinate geometry including vector 3d and algebra in this i will be doing pyqs theory illustartion solved examples
Ek aur reason hai ki i am using books is because college me bhi i can study during lectures toh yes
I know this is enough but how to be disciplined and consistent because this is my last chance 12th me bhi yehi hua tha toh pls koi help kro
Drop ki padhai may 15 se hogi cuz abhi mhtcet pr focus hai

DISCLAIMER :- Long post ahead since 3 saal ki journey ko sum up karne me thoda time to lagega na. I have tried to cover everything relevant. Dheere - dheere padhna hoga to time nikal - nikal kar(one point at a time) but pura padhna jarur kyunki kaafi mehnat laga hai. Kuch na kuch insights milegi future ke liye. Dil se likha hai aur kaafi time laga hai. Aisa soch ke padhna ki kisi ladki ne likha hai 😉.
A BIT OF INFORMATION ABOUT ME :- Class 10 - Passed in 2021 with 99% (COVID Batch) but still school me achha tha. Class 11 - Joined an offline coaching in Bhubaneswar with dummy school. 11th me bhi nov tak online classes hote the jisme padhta tha phir coaching khuli aur suru hua downfall ka silsila. Class 12 - 80%. Chemistry aur physics me mere ek neet ke dost ne 18 - 18 marks ke mcqs bataye the isliye 75% cross hua(Wo abhi 1st year MBBS me hai. 2023 me 644 laya tha). Jee Main Jan 2023 - 61%ile Jee Main Apr 2023 - 90.4%ile(0.3 se cutoff clear nahi hua tha advanced ka) Jee Main Jan 2024 - 31s1 me 82%ile Jee Main Apr 2024 - 8s1 tha. Sirf 15 questions khudse kar paya. Frustration me 35 tukke laga diye. Total 50 attempted and as you can guess Ganda Fatne Wala Hai.
LEARNINGS :-
1) Never Procrastinate :- Ashish Arora sir ki videos me dekhta tha "Time once gone is gone forever." Baat sahi bhi lagti thi but kabhi follow nahi Kiya. Both in 12th and in drop year sochta tha "Jab Nishant Jindal 4 mahine me kar sakta hai to mai bhi kar lunga. Are 247 nahi bhi to 2k rank to aa hi jayegi. " Last year October me start Kiya tha sahi se padhna phir 25 Oct 2023 ko mere nanaji ka death ho gya heart attack se. So wahan jana pada. Almost ek mahina wahin rehna hua kyunki Nani ko us samay akele choorna sahi nahi tha. Uske baad chance bacha hi nahi kuch karne ka. Bahane nahi maar rha hun bas ye kehna chahta hun ki "You never know future me kya ho jaye" isliye ek baat yaad rakhna hai - "If you want to start something, the best time is NOW."
2) Consistent Hardwork will lead to success :- Agar yakeen na ho iss baat par to ek baar dkshhh bhai ka profile dekhna. Har din efforts dalkar insaan Kahan se Kahan pahunch sakta hai. Truely inspirational. 🫡
3) Giving up before the D-Day is fatal :- December 17, 2022 ko nta ka notification aaya tha ki Jan 24, 2023 se jee mains first attempt hoga which was shocking at that time(23 Tards can relate). Us time humare coaching me syllabus bhi khatam nahi hua tha. Maine socha kuch to hone wala hai nahi waise bhi 12 me kuch padha nahi, april me dekhenge. Bina padhe Jan attempt diya. Mujhe yaad hai Mai exam ke ek raat pahle 5 baje subah tak insta me reels dekh rha tha mere hostel roomate ke phone me(Evening shift tha). Phir boards ka lafda start hua aur exams khatam hone pe mujhe bilkul bhi umeed nahi thi ki mera 75% + aayega. Socha agle saal improvement dena hoga to drop to must hai to abhi April ke liye padh ke kya hi hoga. Exam Dene ka bhi man nhi tha but parents ke pressure me Dena pada. Phir drop liya but padha nahi kyunki padhne ki aadat hi khatam ho gyi thi aur Ghar pe wapis aake akele koi mahol bhi nai tha. Saare dost private colleges chale Gaye the. Din bhar laash ki tarah pada rehta tha room me phone dekhte dekhte. Har din regret se khatam hota tha.(More of it in following points). Anyways again same story repeat hui Jan me socha kuch hoga nahi aur uske baad jab result last year se bhi kharab aaya to saara himaat Tut gya tha. Kuch din jaise taise padha April ke liye but..... Abhi apr attempt ke baad aise hi yaad aaya ki 10th me bhi kuch khash halat nahi rehti thi. Daily school aur tuitions me time chala jata tha jo taiyaari hoti thi wo exams time pe hi. Lekin us samay GIVE UP NAHI KARTA THA. Exams ke ek din pahle kuch na kuch karke syllabus cover kar leta tha aur exams achha jata tha.(Ab kuch log kahenge 10 tak kya hi padhai thi. Bhai hum jab 10th me the us samay to wahi tough lagta tha na. Ek nursery student ke level pe jane par use apni padhai tough hi lagegi na. We cannot judge now). Point ye hai ki AGAR AISE HI BATTLE DAY SE PAHLE GIVE UP KARTA RHA TO CAREER KHARAB HONA GUARANTEED HAI. Agar mere hi tarah kisiko aisi aadat lag gyi hai to bhai sudhaar lo khud ko.
4) Choose your Friends Wisely :- Jaisa Maine pahle bataya 11th me corona ki wajah se online classes hoti thi. Ghar pe tha to padhta tha(Thermal properties of matter tak phy me yaad hai. Uske corresponding chem aur maths ke chapters tak dhang se padha tha). Phir November 2021 me offline classes suru hoti hai aur mere jo friends the unka kya hi kehna. Padhai ke alawa sab kiya (COC me 1 saal me Th 12 pahunch gya without rush ; BGMI me ek - ek season me 300 matches ; Fifa 14(Laptop wale me) me 2025 season tak chala gya tha ; GTA 5 ; NFS ke 2 seasons ; Asphalt Legends aur pata nahi kitne hi games khatam kar diye yaad bhi nahi hai 😓. Dozens of movies ; thousands of YouTube videos and shorts aur na jaane kya kya nahi kiya siwaye padhai ke. Bas ek Insta account apna khudka nahi banaye tha sirf usiki Kami thi. Kabhi kabhi realisation hota tha jab coaching ke mains level tests me 300 se single digit me marks aate the. Mummy ko jhooth bolta tha ki tests me purana syllabus ka puchte hai revision ka time nahi hota chinta mat karo Jee me achha karunga 😭. Jab darke padhna start karta tha to mere aaspas ke 4-5 dost especially Mera roomate bahut toxic behave karte the. "Are bhai tu to top marega, AIR 1 hai humare hostel me aur tarah tarah ke taane. Abhi khudpar gussa aata hai lekin us samay sochta tha inke saath reh rha hun ladai jhagda kyu karna. Baad me padh lenge. Basically un logon ka mentality tha ki "Hum nahi padh rhe to humara exam to kharab hoga hi agar ye padh ke achha kar dega to humare parents Hume question karenge. Isko bhi sale ko padhne mat do." Mai sab kuch realise kar paa rha tha lekin kuch react nahi karta tha - STUPID OF ME. As I already mentioned Maine akele drop liya tha. My every other friend went to private colleges. (Speaking about their results in case you have curiousity - Mere roomate ke 87%ile the, ek ke 9 %ile(not lying), ek ka essential repeat tha 12th me pcm tino me fail tha wo and baakiyon ka bhi kuch khaas nahi tha. Mera hi highest tha 90 expect that neet guy jisne LITERALLY AISE HI jee mains Diya tha aur uske 98.6%ile aayi thi.(Wo dusre hostel me rehta tha isliye mai uske saath milkar kuch kar rha paya)). Khair last year July - August Tak sab colleges chale gaye and literally no one called me even once after that. Mai call karta tha to maximum time uthate nahi the yeh bolkar ki busy hai college me bahut pressure hai. WhatsApp texts ignore karte the. Mc itna kya busy be jo tumhe 5 minute nahi mil rha hai call back karne ko. Sab saale aage badh gye, naye log mil gaye unhe, bhool gaye mujhe bkl. Haan jis din Jan attempt ka result aaya us din 3 bandon se pucha tha Kasia hua. Unke baat karne ke tone se pata chal rha tha ki "Andar hi andar they were extremely happy ki achha hua humne drop nahi liya warna humara bhi ek saal waste ho jata." Take learnings from my story. Duniya bahut matlabi hai. KISIKE LIYE BHI APNE LIFE AUR APNE CAREER SE COMPROMISE MAT KARNA OR ELSE YOU'LL REGRET.
5) Say No To Perfectionism :- 11th ke starting me coaching ke teachers kaafi achhe lagte the phir dheere - dheere jab YouTube pe kuch videos dekhne laga to lagta tha ki ye teachers to har chapter me 1 ya 2 topic choor dete hai. Inka content to advanced level pe nahi hai. Inse padhkar to mai bas time waste kar rha hun. 12th me ek do mahina hone ke baad classes jana choor diya. Hostel me rehta tha. Starting me kuch din padhta tha fir wahi dost log aur distractions ka chakkar. You won't believe Maine 4 jee mains diye apne life me. Har baar exam se 2 - 3 din pahle padhe hue chapters ke sirf formulae dekh kar exam hall gya. Abhi sochta hun agar coaching ka har class hi Kiya hota to definitely kuch na kuch better hi hota. (Kuch logon ka ho sakta hai ki wo kharab teachers ke wajah se online padhne Lage aur unhone achha kiya. I'm just saying my experience).
6) Don't follow anyone blindly on YouTube :- I was a huge Nishant Jindal sucker right from my 11th. Uske kahne par 12th me cengage kharid li physics aur maths ki. Although Mera coaching ka module achha tha but wo bkl aise bolta tha ki bina cengage ke jee to impossible hi hai. Kmine ne mere coaching ke modules ka Review bhi nahi kiya. 12th class me coaching ke baad bahut limited time milta tha padhne ka. Mere teachers kahte the mere notes padho yaad karne wali chizon ko rato aur questions Karo module se. But he was like Naa bhai Bina cengage se theory padhe jee ghanta na hone wala. Maine drop year me Apni Kaksha ka course kharida tha lekin ek hafta bhi lectures nahi dekha. Again same reason ki bhai ye coachings scam hai, teachers chtiye hai inke chakkar me mat padho CENGAGE KARO. Bhai itni moti - moti books wo bhi ek aisa banda jisne LITERALLY ek saal se kuch khaas padha hi nahi hai wo kaise kar payega khud se. Bhai jo tumhe suit karta ho wo karo. Don't let anyone else Decide stuffs for you.
7) Don't Overthink, Just Patiently Keep Going :- Last point, Thank God. Yaar mere future ka kya hoga? Result kaisa hoga? Kitni rank aayegi kya %ile hoga? Kaun sa college milega? Kya branch milega? Lena sahi hoga ya nahi? Ye college sahi rahega? Iska exam doon ya nahi? Itna Kam time bacha hai kuch ho payega? Aur na jane kitne hi baate man me chalti rehti hai. Ye sab thoughts sirf stress hi dete hai. Banda padhai par pura focus bhi nahi kar pata hai in sabse wajah se? Maturity dikhao. Jitna time padhai me doge utna better hi hoga sab kuch.
Finally khatam hua 😌. Jin logon ne pura padha, unke man me kuch questions honge merese. Mai unme se kuch answer karna chahta hun taki comments me jyada mehnat na karni pade :-
1) Abhi kya kar rhe ho? :- Apne mental aur physical health pe focus kar rha hoon. Janta hun jee me kuch hoga nahi. Agar by chance cutoff nikal bhi gya advanced ka to usme kuch nahi kar paunga. Bahut stress me tha kaafi time se meditation karna suru kar rha hoon. Meri age 18 hai. Obviously Male hun. Height - 6ft 2 in. 3 saal se negligible physical activities ke wajah se bahut weight badh gya hai. Khudko fit karunga aane wale months me.
2) Kabhi S*icide ka khayal aaya? :- Atleast 25-30 baar last 2 saal me. 5 baar helpline pe call kar chuka hun aaj tak. 3 baar almost commit kar Diya tha(Ek baar Rope and Fan aur 2 baar 4 - 5th floor se jump) Lekin kar nahi paya dar lag gya. Marne ka dar nahi. Kahin Bach gya to Ghar me kya bolunga. Agar apahij ho gya to Puri life kaise katunga. Ye sab soch ke nahi Kiya. 🙂
3) Ghar ka mahol kaisa hai? :- Parents kuch nhi bol rhe hai. Unhone situation ko as it is accept kar liya hai. Close Family members bhi support kar rhe hai ki chooro jee ko aage badho life me.....(Maine ek chiz achha kiya tha ki kabhi jhoot nahi bola kisiko bhi har exam ke baad jo reality tha wahi bataya isliye jyada backlash face nahi karna pada). Haan jab result aayega to kuch neighbours, relatives, mere parents ke friends ya mere friends ke parents taane jarur marenge ki ek saal waste kar diya blah blah blah but mujhe ab aur ye sab soch ke pareshan nahi hona. Haan sirf Mera ek chota bhai hai abhi 11th me gya hai(2026 tard) wo mentally disturb karta hai. Khudne regular school aur PW Arjuna batch join Kiya hai. Sala mujhe taane deta hai ki tum to mera koi help nahi kar payega padhai me kyunki khud to padha nahi, 5 lakh rupay waste kar diye papa - mummy ke. Sala bolta aise hai jaise usne apni kidney bech ke mujhe coaching me padhaya hai. Kaafi tarah ke taane aur naa jane kya kya. Mere prati thoda bhi respect nahi bacha hai uske man me which is sad but koi na jaldi se college start ho jaye ek baar aur mera picha chute. Kami*e ka kabhi koi help nahi karunga uski jee prep me ya aage life me.
4) Aage ka kya plan hai? :- 10th me IIT ke baare me pata chala tha super 30 dekh ke. Mera initially man tha upsc clear karne ka civil servant banne ka. Lekin school ke sabhi dost jee ya neet ki prep karne jaa rhe the to Maine bhi socha pahle iit jaunga phir upsc nikalunga. Ek sapna to adhura reh jayega but dusre aise hi nahi chhodunga. 17 Tarik ko Ram Navami ke din se start kar dunga upsc preparation. Abhi dekh rha hun exam pattern, syllabus, etc. Janta hun ye bhi bahut difficult exam hai lekin kayi log aise hote hai jo bina iit ke bhi upsc clear karte hai. Wahi inspiration ke saath start karunga. Jo galtiyan jee me ki wo wahan nahi karunga. Umeed hai ki success milegi.
5) Kaun sa college Jaa rha hai? :- Odisha ka ek state government engineering college hai Sambalpur me - VSSUT BURLA naam hai. Definitely koi khash college nahi hai aur mujhe yahan cse bhi nahi milegi. Electrical ya Mechanical ka chance hai lekin mera bilkul bhi man nahi hai life me engineering me career banane ka. Khudse Coding seekhne se dar rha hun AI ka growth dekh ke aur baki engineering branches kisko hi pasand hote hai. College ke saath saath daily 2 - 3 ghante upsc preparation ko dunga. Bhagwan kare ho jaye. 🤞
6) Private College kyu nahi? :- Affordability Reasons. Loan Lena padega and abhi jo news aa rhi hai Iit B 36% unplaced, etc. wo sab dekh ke Nightmare lagta hai ki sala kahin loan le liya aur unplaced reh gya to kya karunga. Mai jo college Jaa rha hun wo kaafi sasta hai. 4 saal ki degree 4 - 5 lakh me khatam ho jayegi so mere paas freedom hai upsc ke liye try karne ka. Plus mera ye to sure hai ki engineer to nahi hi Banna hai.
7) Double drop? :- Extreme burnout ho gya hai jee se. Jab jab purane chapters ko kholta hun to wo jab pahli baar padha tha wo yaad aane lagta hai aur bahut regret hota hai ki kaash us samay dhang se padha hota aur revise karte rehta to aaj dubara na padhna hota. Aur apne aap ko ek saal saja nahi de sakta also considering my brother's scenerio. Akhir har banda Daksh Bhai jaisa nai ho sakta na.
8) Koi advice to juniors? :- Agar pura answer padha hai aur sab yaad rakh kar follow karte rahe to aur kisi advice ki jarurat nahi hai.
That's It guys. Kaafi thak gya.
Thank you!!!.

LAKAS NYO DIN MAGREKLAMO ABOUT THE SORRY STATE OF ANIMATION BECAUSE OF PIRACY PERO HINDI NAMAN KAYO GUMAGAWA NG PARAAN PARA MA-RELEASE MGA TITLES INTERNATIONALLY. UMAY NA UMAY NA KO SA SORRY THIS VIDEO ISNT AVAILABLE KEME NYO! LICENSING RIGHTS? ABA EH DO SOMETHING! AS MUCH AS I WANT TO SUPPORT THE SHOW LEGALLY, EH PANO NGAYON YAN? WALA AKO CHOICE KUNDI MAMIRATA! PUCHA NARUTO LANG ATA AVAILABLE NYO EH BUSIT.
P.S. No Im not a weeaboo with a body odor and a waifu pillow pero nakaka frustrate lang ang tagal ko inantay tong anime na to tapos ganyan. Plus, yung mga gusto kong panoorin legally puro restricted din.

Hola chicos nesecito ayuda, ojalá puedan orientarme. Estaba ocupando tranquilamente Google Chrome en el notebook, cuando esté se cerró solo y desde ahí no he podido volver a iniciar Chrome, desinstale y reinstale y nada, ví por lo menos 4 videos en Youtube jajaj y nada. Pucha tengo win 11 un note relativamente gamer y sin ningún problema Gracias gracias si alguien me puede hechar una manito

I think in a real deep shit rn. So there is a best friend of mine (or that's what I think) and that mofo is tho only one I talk to on a daily basis and so one day I started talking to a girl and we become quite good friends and I'm flirting with this girl so I tell my "best" friend about that and he said ki chats tho dhikha phle tho Maine mana ker dia per fir in the end Maine dhika di uss bkl ne meri puri chats ki video bana li (mera phone cheen ke bhag gaya tha bkl) phele Mai e bola ki bhai ye galat baat hai delete ker de ussne bola ki bhi bharosa ker delete ker dunga padh ke (biggest mistake of my life). So this happened on 26 and now I was in a meet call with him and this mf pull up his phone and shows me how many videos he have of me not mms but like he made video of my every chats with any girl I did and recorded our backchodi on previous meet call too. and this mofo said he'll send these video to my family friends crush like my whole insta following tu Maine pucha ki kyu ker rha hai ye sab bola ki teri lene me maza aata hai like wtf.
Dosto kuch samajh ni aarha kya keru.
Update:- dosto matter solve ho gya bkl ko thappad mar ke delete ker wadi sari video

Isa lang naman palagi nilalaro ng mister ko na games. Starts with letter R ang title ng game.
Pero naknam pucha naman. Maghapon na naglalaro. Pag sinwerte kapa is naka headset pa na nakikipag usap sa mga kalaro niya.
Pag friday, imbes na kami ang mag bonding - e ayun nag iinuman sila virtually ng mga kalaro niya. Tapos mix yung players of girls and boys.
Pero meron akong girl na iritang irita ako sobra. As in. Kasi siya lagi yung nagbabangka ng pag uusap doon sa voice/video call. Most of the boys are just listening.
Pero itong ugok ko asawa, very actively engaging/talking to her. Thats accdg to my observation. Tas nakikitawa nalang mga kalaro nila.
Parang silang dalawa yung taga bangka ng talk.
Mejo nakakaselos on my part. Minsan kumakanta pa ung girl while playing. Tas eto namang hubby ko nakikinig. Thats not even night time mga tanghali or hapon palang dito nun yun na magkaharap kami sa sala while he is playing.
I dont know what’s going on between them. Wala din akong makitang convo sa txt na pwede ko isampal sakanila. Pero i know that this is not good. Specially sa part na most of his time is consumed by playing and engaging with this so called co players.
Wala din bang pakiramdam itong mga players na “hey lets stop playing muna to spend time with our respective families.”
Itong girl na ito naman wala kabang jowa na pwede mong tawagan at dun ka magkakanta kanta. Hayop ka. Di oras ng ibang lalake kinukuha mo.
Minsan umaabot din na sexual ang mga usapan like sexual experiences nila although its a grp convo. But i dont think thats a good choice of topic.
Basta di disente. Bwisit din itong asawa ko puro nalang laro.

Mara 11th waste hua and 12th ka liyea coaching ka mara parents ko pucha. At first consider kara par abhi mana kar raha hai. Another this is abhi Aisa feel aarah hai ki mara parents ko pata hai ke mara jee nahi hoga aur alternative mujhe suggest kar raha hai . Mana Jo jee ka prep ka books lia abhi lag raha hai ki mara mummy na mujhe shant karna ka liye lia ho. Jab bola raha hu coaching ka liye mara baap mujhe book liya na phad bol raha hai aur mujhe bol raha hai ki coaching waste hai. YouTube Mai koi bhai teacher ka video dhek raha hu unka clarity nahi aaraha aur confuse kar raha hai. Mara baap YT sa dhekna bol raha hai par mujhe samajh nahi aaraha hai too Mai kya karu. Mara Bhai ko help karne pucha to mujhe nahi pata bol raha hai. Na koi acha advice mil Raha hai na koi acha support. Yaha syllabus katam nahi ho raha concepts samaj nahi aaraha kya karu yaar . Aise lag raha hai give up kardu . Mia online nahi kara satka because mara ADHD problem hai. Pls koi acha advice do pls

Mara 11th waste hua and 12th ka liyea coaching ka mara parents ko pucha. At first consider kara par abhi mana kar raha hai. Another this is abhi Aisa feel aarah hai ki mara parents ko pata hai ke mara jee nahi hoga aur alternative mujhe suggest kar raha hai . Mana Jo jee ka prep ka books lia abhi lag raha hai ki mara mummy na mujhe shant karna ka liye lia ho. Jab bola raha hu coaching ka liye mara baap mujhe book liya na phad bol raha hai aur mujhe bol raha hai ki coaching waste hai. YouTube Mai koi bhai teacher ka video dhek raha hu unka clarity nahi aaraha aur confuse kar raha hai. Mara baap YT sa dhekna bol raha hai par mujhe samajh nahi aaraha hai too Mai kya karu. Mara Bhai ko help karne pucha to mujhe nahi pata bol raha hai. Na koi acha advice mil Raha hai na koi acha support. Yaha syllabus katam nahi ho raha concepts samaj nahi aaraha kya karu yaar . Aise lag raha hai give up kardu . Mia online nahi kara satka because mara ADHD problem hai. Pls koi acha advice do pls

from the title itself, nag order po ako ng nike shoes para sana iregalo sa pamangkin ko, kahit hindi original as she said. so nag order ako sa didiph (name ng shopee acc) pag dating sa bahay, pucha hello kitty shoes na pang bata yung dumating HAHAHAHAHA. nag send naman ako ng video as i opened the parcel. hindi nila tinggap and bawal daw mag refund. kahit mumurahin lang yun, malaking bagay din sakin 300 no HAHAHAHAHA. could it be the courier's fault? just sharing my experience.

holaa saben q estaba recien acordandome de un canal de yt que eran cabros jovenes tipin 17-18 que se mandaban puras cagas(super shitpost lo q subian) y de verdad que eran super famosos en esa epoca del denst y graffos ns que año sera
para mas contexto a ver si alguien se acuerda eran de santiago y subian videos a veces de ellos fumando o tirando weas al mapocho, de ellos gritando o tirandose huevos, habia un video que decia algo como de tomarse de uno al dia espero pucha se entienda pq es como un lost media d mi cabeza 😿
no recuerdo el nombre de canal d verdad y me dieron ganas d bucarlo

UPDATED April 2024
[Disclaimer: Sharing this just to lessen things running around inside my head. Want to know your thoughts but please please be nice pa rin with your comments. Thanks. Fragile pa 💔 pero kinakaya.]
Hi. Call me ANOVAxyz, 29, female, Virgo (if that matters hahaha kidding).
Mahigit isang buwan na pala akong naiwan sa ere, grabeng tumbling ko sa pag iyak nung bago bago pa lang pero masasabi ko ngayon na nakokontrol ko na isipan at emosyon ko pero syempre may mga araw na nanunumbalik ang sakit at pakiramdam na para akong pusang niligaw sa kaparangan. Iyak tawa ng malala na lang pag nagre-relapse.
So paano ko ba sisimulan ito. Hmmm pakilala ko na lang muna si guy tawagin natin siyang Indecisive Engenghinyero, 39 , gym boy, Aussie-based, Pinoy na pinoy. Nakilala ko siya sa Bumble nung Dec 2022. Seems a nice guy naman tapos nagkataon na nasa Manila siya nagbabakasyon. Ako naman eh sa Visayas nagtatrabaho so nabanggit ko na uuwi ako Manila para magbakasyon at aattend sa kasal ng close friend ko. Nag offer siya na sunduin ako sa airport nun. So I said yes to it. Delayed yung flight ko paglapah sa Manila daming calls 1hr ago so naisip ko umalis na siguro siya kasi 10pm na eh.
"akala ko umalis ka na" - tanong ko "ang sama ko namang tao kung umalis ako"- sagot niya
Kinuha niya backpack ko (gentleman yarn?) then naglakad na kami papuntang parking. Nice car si kuya pero kakahiya kasi counterflowing kami , di yata alam saan exit. Medyo nabadtrip siya pero inisip ko baka HANGRY lang.
"Buti pumayag ka na sumama sa akin"- sabi ni koya
"Ahh oo kasi nagresearch, You seems a nice guy naman" - sagot ko (mga ante sinearch ko siya sa PRC, nakita ko video niya sa immigration agency, carousell, anytime fitness, LinkedIn; mahirap na sa panahon ngayon)
Nagdinner sa Persian restaurant. Gusto niya ipatry yung ganito ganyan. Mukhang foodie. Kinagulat ko yunf may pagsubo pa ng food sa akin. Pag naalala ko parang di ako kinilig, na-awkward ako 😅.
So, uuwi na ako sa bahay ni friend. Parang hesitant siya ihatid ako kasi late na, nag offer siya na ibook niya ako sa hotel/hostel depende sa trip ko. So, I refused. Hindi naman ako nakikipag 1 night stand eh. Ending nagbook ako ng grab. (Red flag na pala yun, sorry na agad)
Time passed. He asked when will I be free so he can meet me again. So ako shinare ko na lang entire sched ko then we decided to meet on Dec 26. The day came, excite si ante niyo , 5am gising na me kasi luluwas p ako from Bulacan (pakita sa parents) to Manila. Little did I know may chat pala siya kagabi na 'di na siya pwede kasi may pinapaayos sa bahay. (Red flag na pala yun, sorry na agad). So ayun naggayak p rin ako at dumiretso na lang sa airbnb naming friends na invited sa kasal.
Jan 1, 2023. Airport. Sayang magkaiba time namin di na kami nagkita. Pauwi na siya sa Au while me sa Visayas naman. Nagka power outage so narebook ang flight ko.
Time passed. Consistent pa rin communication. Parang okay naman. Feel ko na gusto niya talaga ako. Until April 2023 nagparinig siya na what if pasyal ako sa Au to see the environment , if okay ba for me. So ako naman kinilig like hala Lord ito na ba si "the one" hahahaha. Dahil oky naman usapan namin at I trust him. I prep things without him knowing para surprise (sheesh sweet ko no? naiisip ko nga lalaki siguro ako sa past life ko). One day, I informed him na nag apply ako tourist visa. Then nagraise ako ng concerns ko like what if ma-approved ang visa then pagpunta ko dun marealize niya na ayaw niya pala sa akin.
"Its up to u pa naman" "I'm going home anyway sa June or July" "then see me for real"
"ano bang feeling mo?"-tanong ko
"don't ask me about that" "U should ask yourself" "if u want, come" "pero kung hesitant ka then wait" " I am not pushy" "as I see hesitant u so wait na lang muna"
nagulat siguro siya sa sinabi niya so kinabukasan:
" I would want u to be here" "pero if u are hesistant, give yourself more time" "Anyway, uwe naman me and when we meet , u will know"
So ayun, reassured naman si ateng niyo. So nagbook me without informing him, surprise sana. Pagsend ko sa flight details, tumawag si koya at galit na galit. Ganito daw ba ako ka spontaneous achuchu. Nahurt lola niyo kasi akala ko matutuwa siya pero kay point naman kahit 2-3mos away p yung flight lol. BTW, ako gumastos sa visa and tix ko hehe , wala siya ambag dun kaya grabe lang sa rebooking gusto kasama siya sa pagrebook, on call pa. Dami pa reklamo achuchu eh wala naman ambag. (redflag na rin pala yun, sorry na)
August 2023. Flew to Australia to meet the guy. Kasi mutual understanding na eh, seryosohan na usapan (sa POV ko lng pala). Ako nga pala naggawa ng itinerary kasi lapit na lipad ko wala pa siya hanash/plan so I asked him if meron ba ako maitulong, so yun itinerary sinabi ng lolo mo. Keber naman sa akin. Sagot naman niya airbnb and gastos dun (dapat lang , 'di ba?)
Days in Sydney. Punta sa touristic spots, tourist eh dapat puntahan yun. Siya bored kasi ilang beses na siya doon. Namahalan siya sa parking fee sa Sydney Opera house so sabi niya i-try ko credit card ko. Wala namang prob sa akon kasi maliit lang yun sa gagastusin niya(pero red flag pala yun). Pasyal sa Taronga zoo, naenjoy ko ewan ko lang siya. Enjoy for me kasi hindi ko naman naranasan magtravel travel nung bata ako eh. Lipat na kami ACT.
Days in Canberra. Capital ng Au so maasahan mo talaga na museum at parliamentary house and the likes ang mapapasyalan. Punta kami sa museum nagkahiwalay kami kasi ineenjoy ko basahin yunh description ng bawat display. I let him do what he wants. Hours later nagkita naman kami then we decided na lumabas. Pag labas ko may nakita akong familiar spot na napanood ko during my research so sabi ko punta kami doon , last na. Sumama naman siya. Ikot ikot then balik na kami sa parking. Pagkasakay na pagkasakay niya bigla niya akong kinausap na dapat maging sensitive daw ako sa nakakasama ko. Pagcheck ko sa orasan, lunctime na pala so I said sorry to him. I lost sense of time. Then patuloy p rin siya, hindi daw ba ako nagtaka na ilang beses siya nanghihingi ng baok ko like chocolate. Naguilty ako so mula nun attentive na ako sa time kahit di ako gutom basta kapag pumatak ang alas 10am, yayain ko na siya maghanap ng lugar for lunch. After lunch, punta kami sa viewpoint para makita ang ACT sa tuktok. Sa kotse muna kami while waiting sa sunset. Nung magsunset na, pinababa niya ako at pinauna sa spot. Doon ako nakaramdam ng lungkot na bakit ganito ganyan. Pumunta ako sa spot na walang tao kasi super lamig at mahangin, doon tumulo luha ko. Di naman niya nalaman yun.
Days after lipat kami Newcastle. May moments pala na dahil di ako gutom, hindi ako nakakasagot sa kanya ng mabilis kapag tinanong niya ako kung ano gusto ko kainin. Naglo-loading ang utak ko kasi di ko naisama sa research ko ang food dahil inexpect ko siya na bahala dun. So bigla niya ako sinabihan ng
"simula ngayon , I will decide where and what to eat"
Sa isip ko nun, okay lang for me kasi di na ako mag iisip kapag ganun. Nawalan pa ako ng problema, mag yes sir na lang ako. Kidding! Pero day after, inaask pa rin niya ako what to eat so naisip ko moody lang talaga siya. Lalo na pag gutom siguro.
Another day in Newcastle. Streetart Trail. Lakad mode malalala kami from street art to street art. Naenjoy ko siya kasi ganda ng wall painting. Si koya hindi yata. Or feeling ko lang. Naalala ko kasi everytime na nasa spot kami, few minutes later magsasabi na siya ng "what's next?" 😅. Now, narealize ko na di ko naman kasalanan yun kasi involved naman siya sa pagdraft ko ng itinerary. Hindi niya lang pla talaga tinignan at inunawa. Kinabukasan try namin yung ATV activity. Excited ako kasi decided ako na ako naman pay ng activity namin, naghanda rin naman ako ng pera no. Pagpunta namin sa spot, inask kami if nakapagbook na ba kami online , so he asked me. Sabi ko, NO. So the guy told us to go to registration. Di namin naintindihan instruction basta sa may roundabout daw. Si koya nagtataas na ng boses, inaask ako where ying booth. Niresearch ko ba achuchu. So ako nataranta, hindi ako makasagot then wala p ako data nun. So nagdrive siya diretso wala kmi nakita, bumalik ulit sa roundabout at binaybay ang kabilang side until matagpuan namin yung reg booth. Pagdating namin dun fully booked na for that day. Pagpasok ko sa kotse, kalmado na siya. Sinabihan ako na wala na magagawa punta na lang sa lugar na sinuggest ng katrabaho niya.
Tahimik lang ako. Nalilito ako ako that time bakit ganito bakit ganyan siya. Hindi ko na mapigilan lumuha kaya kinuha ko yung candy ko para ma-mask ng sound ng pagkagat ko yun paghikbi ko. Inaask niya ako pero di ako sumasagot kasi nasa point pa ako na di makasalita. Narating na namin yung lugar. Hinahawakan niya ako , inaask niya ako. Sinabihan niya ako na if may gusto ako sabihin sabihin ko sa kanya. Nung kontrolado ko na ang luha ko, binulalas ko sa kanya na
"kahapon ka pa eh sa street art trail parang 'di ka masaya lagi kang what's next ng what's next kahit kkarating lang natin sa spot. Ngayon, yung atv activity niresearch ko naman yun. Alam ko pwede online mas better choice yun pero naisip ko ako naman magpay sa activity in cash. "
Nakalimutan ko na ano sinagot niya nun eh. Naglunch na lang kami after then pumunta sa picnic spots, ganda ng view --- nasa taas ka tapos beach nakikita mo sa baba.
Another day in Newcastle. Gusto niya maggym, isasama ako. Sabi ko wala akong gamit saka di ako gym girl eh. Sinama p rin niya ako, nanood na lang ako kdrama sa iPad niya while waiting. (sana pala chineck ko yung device lol, kaso i respect privacy eh). From time to time puntahan niya ako sa spot ko to kiss me so naisip ko gusto niya ako and he is establishing his territory. Hindi naman kasi ako panget. Char buhat bangko.
Last few days sa Au eh balik kami sa Sydney. Dami naming gamit hahaha. Pucha ako pala nagdala maleta ko at iba naming naipong gamit--- nakaya ko yun tapoa aiya maleta niya lang dala niya. Hinayupak yun naalaa ko tuloy. Pero that time, 'di ko naisip na red flag pala yun sa mata ng iba.
tatlong uncomfortable scenarios ang naalala ko pero 2 lang kukwento ko. Una, pagpasok ko sa room namin galing banyo, naghand gesture siya na 🤫 so ako nacurious ako sino kausap sa phone so pinalaki ko talaga tenga ko mga besh. Ayun pla, half brother niya. May sinasuggest na bahay sa Au na kunin niya. So ako, hmmm bakit may pa 🤫 eh di naman ako bastos na mag iingay if may kausap yunh taong kasama ko. Well narealize ko dapat pla nag ingay ako para namoroblema siya mag explain lol. Akala ko nasa NZ yung brother na yun, Au pala so narealize ko besh di ako papakilala pero sige na lang kasi bago pa eh. 2nd meeting pa lang or mali ba? ewan
Pangalawang scenario, maaga ako nagising on the day of mg flight back to Ph. So as Pinoy, re check malala sa gamit baka may maiwan. Nagayal na rin ako pra kapag gising ni koya , ready to go na alam mo naman babae matagal magprep. Inasikaso ko na rin mga gamit na iuuwi niya back to his place. Sweet ko dun pala pero anong napala ko? pinagdabugan ako kasi nagising siya ng maaga. Sinabi ko tulog ulit , sabi niya di na daw. Naramdaman niy na bumangon ako sa kama so nagising siya. Nung time na yun, naguilty ako pero din ko pala kasalanan yun. Wala akong kasalanan pra magsabog siya.
So yun, pinilit kong di maiyak. Otw to airport, naluluha na ako kasi ayaw ko pa umuwi. Mamiss ko siya. Galing pala sa Sydney airport makakapasok yung accompany mo until mag check in ka. Then ayun na papasok na ako for security check, niyakap ko siya. I kissed him. Naiyak ako kaso wala ako panyo so sabi ko papahid sa damit mo. I kissed him again. Several times. Poker face lang siya. Nung nakalagpas na ako sa checkpoint, nilingon ko siya. Nakatulala lang siya rhen after a while, nakita niya ako at kumaway, Malungkot mukha niya so naisip ko , nalulungkot din siya sa pag alis ko. Nung naka connect ako sa airport wifi, natawagan niya ako then sinabi niya na next year, magtry na raw ako maghanap ng work doon. Sinabi niya pa bakit nag iwan ako ng timtam. Sagot ko pra may makain ka sa byahe kahit papano. Alam ko kasi fave niya yung salted caramel so naglagay ako sa mga gamit na iuuwi niya. Lam ko naluluha yung tinig niya pero pinipigil niya. So ayun akala ko gusto niya talaga ako. Sabi ko na lang, parang naiwan ko singsing ko sa kotse, ipapadala niya raw sabi ko wag na saka na lang if magkita ulit.
Back to Ph na lola mo. September something binati niya ako for my bday, nag ask siya pics ng handa at regalo. How he wished daw na kasama niya ako magceleb. So sabi ko suot ko regalo mong blazer 🥰. Kilig kilig pa ako.
[PART 2] Nagsimula na ang delubyo 🙃 Mga bagay na nakapagtrigger sa trust issues ko.
June 2023 May nakita akong babae sa FB niya. Inask ko siya kung sino yun kasi para saan pa na punt- ako Australia if 'di pa pala siya sure sa akin.
"Sino si Trana Trump"- tanong ko
"Who is that??" " fake account lang lol" " Well you are not the option because I look at you as someone that I may call mine. So don't think of it. "
Reassured naman ang lola niyo. Deleted na si ate girl sa friendlist.
October 2023. Ewan ko ba sa twing napapavisit ako sa timeline niya lagi akong may nakikitang bagong babae. Ngayon si Luana Sara, Italian, tapos puro lalaki yung nasa friendlist. 😅
" Sino ba yung Luana Sara? May padede na naman sa profile. " , tanong ko
" I don't know when ko na-add yun" " Now u are annoying me"
(galit na galit gusto manakit char)
" okay, last na tanong ko na yun, will never check"-sambit ko
" buburahin ko yung mga kaibigan ko na di ko na nakakasalamuha" "stop annoying me"
Seenzoned ko lang si kuya. Later that day, nagmessage siya na prang walang nangyari. Ako naman eh nagrereply lang. I called him out sa behavior na parang walang nangyari achuchu. Its not nice kako. Pinatawad ko pero bilang babae, naging malala yung defenses ko pero I stayed pa rin. Hay.
Nov 2023. One night during our routine call. Nashare niya na maaga siya tumawag kasi maaga siya matutulog dahil maghatid sundo siya kay Engr. Shetna at kids nito sa school. Si Engr. Sheetna, 38, Pinay, with two kids, may afam bf ('di anak yung kids) eh bumagsak sa driving lesson tapos next week pa ang repeat exam. Nagkataon na yung international driver's license niya ay pinakacancel na so ending 'di siya makakadrive for several days.
Particular si lolo niyo sa sleeping time niya kaya nakakainis lang isipin na willing to go beyond siya to help that Shetna. I told him wala bang ibang option yan si girl kasi panget tignan na nagsasama kayong dalawa na nililink sa office tapos out of way ka pa mwron naman colleague na pwede siya daanan. Sabi ko sa kanya willing ka masira yung tulog mo para dyan samantalang nung last day ko sa Au pinagdabugan mo ako kasi maaga ka nagising. One hr ahead sa gusto mong gising, hindi mo man lang ako kako pinagbigyan kasi last day ko naman na. Tapos nagalit siya bakit ko raw pinagkukumpara yung magkaibang bagay. 🤷🏻‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️
Kinabukasan, routine good morning text siya na parang walang nangyari so ako I said my piece.
"Honestly speaking, I did not sleep well. I am not really comfortable with the idea of you being overly concerned with Sheena. But I choose to trust you, you are a grown man. You know your boundaries. I just really hope that Sheena knows I even exist. That she knows we are in a relationship. Because you telling her about me is showing respect to me (your "girlfriend"). Also, if Sheena really knew about me, she will be mindful too of her actions and decisions. Babae siya e. If I am her, I will ask you to share the idea sa partner mo if okay ba yun sa kanya or maybe I'll ask help in finding someone to drive me (driver for hire, etc.) para iwas issue. Alam mo Venise, I really respect you e. I just hope the same from you. Next time sana alalahanin mo na nageexist ako, tao ako, babae ako, at may pakiramdam ako. Valid naman siguro yung feelings ko na nasaktan/na offend ako kasi ,again, we are in a relationship. I hope you will understand my point of view and not be upset of me sharing how I feel about this situation. Thats all. "- sabi ko
Sagot niya: " I understand your predicament. I just hope u trust my word. And if I'm friendly, maybe because I don't have much friends here. I try to mingle but its hard to make friends when u are a foreigner. If nasa Pinas lang me , I would have drinking friends pero here in Au, u should've noticed that I'm alone most of the time."
Sagot ko: Okay. As I said, I choose to trust you. Sinabi ko na yung side ko so nasa sa iyo na yun if you will act on it or not. If we are still on the same page, we should improve our communication about these things and we will meet half way if may differences. We grew up kasi from different environment. We think differently based on our experiences and what we saw, heard, and learned from people in our circle. So extra patience na lang bakit ganito ganyan ang train of thoughts ng person. I'll do the same too. Aware naman ako sa strengths and weaknesses ko.
Days later. Tahimik na ang kanyang FB account puro family at churchmates lang nandoon. Little did I know sa IG na naghahasik ng lagim. Napakamot ulo na lang ako na sana 'di ko to tinuruan mag IG nung nasa Au ako LOL. So nabukas nq naman siya sa ibang pinto ng kamunduhan.
May finollow at finollow back siyang girl na malaki ang bo0bs at but+. Tinignan ko tapos natawa na lang ako, ano ba ito nakuha lang attention niya sa earlier pics. Inexhaust ko lahat ng uploaded pics hanggang kadulu duluhan , bakit ganun parang may weird sa girl may dwarfism yata. Yung page niya parang may pa onlyfans. So alam na pero 'di ko sinabi sa kanya yung nalaman ko. I keep my words na yung Luana Sara na yung last girl na itatanong ko. Oo nastress ako, bakit ganito bakit ganyan. Bakit parang open pa siya to explore hindi match sa sinasabi. Akala niya siguro di ako nag oobserve. Pero I stayed, gusto ko siya eh. Bulag pa ako.
(continuation as of Apr 6, 2023)
February came. Nakita ko si aka @SantosVenise na naglike ng post ng Twitter girly with caption na i-like ang nude post for free sextape. Days later, nagcomment na si kuya ng "like sent". Hindi siguro napansin ni ate girl yung like niya at di nasendan ng free video. Natakot ako isipin na what if before ako pumunta ng Au, modus na niya makipagkalantari sa mga babaeng papatol sa kanya. Natakot ako for my health so I got tested. Good thing, negative ang results. Never again maging marupok.
April came. I noticed he deleted me in FB and unfollowed me in IG. The audacity!!! Pero now as I am typing this, keber na. I realized na tama ang mga hinala ko, nagbulagbulagab lang ako. Napamahal lang, umasa, nagtiwala. Makakarecover din in no time.
Kaya gurls out there, mag ingat sa mga may pa bible verse sa FB. Hindi talaga sila yan, ibang pagkatao ang tinatago niyan. Hindi naman lahat pero mostly ganun. Magtaka if ang mga post eh puro verses or mga aso/pusa. It's a trap.

Currently on my 2nd week of training. these insurance terms are effin up my mind. since wfh setup parang wala akong na-absorb sa mga pinagsasasabi ng trainer haha. pre-process training pa lang naman pero damn grabe info overload dito nakaka overwhelm panay videos pucha. depende siguro sa learning curve ng tao pero pucha talaga haha parang nabobobohan ako sa sarili ko.

Toh Aaj Mera JEE mains ka exam tha aur mein bus se Jaa rha tha exam Dene tabhi mene dekha side me ek sundae ladki eduniti ki video dekh rhi hai formulae wali toh mujhe pata chal gya vo meri hi centre pe Jaa Rahi thi, toh accha mauka soch ke mene usse baat karni start kardi vo bhi nervous thi humne baat Kari aur phir centre pe jaake ek dusre ko best of luck bol kar apne apne room me chale gye.
Exam bekaar gya pad me usse hi dhund rha tha ki ek baar dikh Jaye par vo nhi dikhi me sad hoke jaane laga phir mujhe side se awaj aayi mera naam bolne ki, voh bhi mujhe hi dhund rhi thi hum dono ne ek dusre se baat ki pata chala uska bhaut accha gya 56 attempted. Hum dono ne park me Beth kar baat karne ka socha, mujhe laga yeh hi mauka hai first move karne ka toh mene usse kiss karne ki koshish usne bhi mujhe kiss kardiya ab vo excited thi pata nhi par bhaut acche se kiss kar rhi thi me horny ho gya aur usse sax sux ka pucha usne haa kardi aur humne Oyo book karliya jese hi me Oyo me ghusa aur vo bed pe jaake bethi toh vo Maniaclly hasne lagi mujhe laga excited hai isliye Haas rhi par phir piche se 3-4 PW ki shirt phene bande aa gye unhone mujhe bed pe litaya aur fuck kaddiya mujhe.
Puri bus me khade hoke aaya hu exam bhi accha nhi gya. Me soch rha tha PW manzil se padhke second attempt fodunga par jab bhi PW ki shirt dekhta mujhe vo hi memories yaad aati
TLDR-: sax sux ho gya finally

Legal ba 'tong ginagawa nila? Di lang sa Fliptop pati international battles pinipirata e. Pucha mas marami pang views yung reuploaded na video kesa sa mismong channel e. Tulad neto malapit ng mag 1 million yung views meanwhile yung sa youtube 100k+ pa lang.
Nakakapikon lang kase minsan kase sure na kikita yung mga hinayupak na naguupload na walang kaeffort effort. Lalagyan lang ng dalawang makapal na black bars and caption puta kikita na? Tangina na lang diba.
Ok sana kung clips lang na under 1-minute e, sa video above eto puta 9 minutes puro rounds lang ni EJ nilagay e. Wala bang batas na nagbabawal nyan? Parang nanakawan kasi yung mga liga and by extension emcees na nageffort, naglaan ng pera for production, tapos nanakawin lang ng mga putanginang tamad na tao tas mas malaki pa kikitain nila. Putangina nalang diba.

*mention of s-ide
Natatawa ako. Kaninang umaga nasa kwarto ako, nag-aattempt ibigti sarili ko. Pero putangina, ang hirap pala. Ang sakit. So tinigil ko. Di ko na ieexplain paano ko ginawa pero pucha ang sakit. Nakagawa na ako ng video saying my farewell in case mamatay agad ako, di ko kaya isulat. Baka di nila maintindihan. Hahaha.
Anyway, nagkalakas ako ng loob mag-msg sa friend kong malapit na I need help. And now magkasama na kami sa labas ng coffee shop. At dahil revalida namin sa sunday - need mag-aral. LOL. Medyo nainis pa ako kasi di naman pala ako mamatay nasira lang sched ko.
Next time isched ang pag-s word.
Bakit nga ba gusto ko mamatay? Kasi sobrang below average kong med student. Sobrang bilis ko makalimot. Nabasa ko na 4x, naisulat ko na, nalimutan ko pa din. Paano ako makakapag-diagnose kung simpleng difference ng rashes nakakalimutan ko. Muntanga ampota. Pakabobo.
Anyway, aral na ako. Lesson learned. Wag magpakamatay ng madaming aaralin.
Edit: gusto ko pa ring mamatay. Hay.

Kami ba bigyan ng maraming assignments at activities tas kadalasan pa sa mga questions hindi naman related sa topic na diniscuss niya! Aba Potek! Pagod na pagod na ako dito, for the last 2 weeks puro kami quiz and activities tas may programs pa! And this is our Exam week I NEED TO STUDY but this mf madami nga siyang activities and assignments. tapos next meeting namin ay mag papagroupings na siya for our reporting😫
Pagod na nga sa Research may 5 video presentations pa tas ang dami pang essays. Tnginang line line nato " ganito na kaayo sa college " aba pucha niyo 🖕🏻

Me and my girlfriend, we’re together for half a year na. Hindi ko alam kung nasa honeymoon phase pa rin ba kami pero kasi nitong mga nakaraang months, at peace na yung relationship namin and minimal na lang yung pag-aaway. Grabe din kasi yung mga away namin nung umpisa siguro dahil nangangapa pa lang but we always make sure na we communicate how we feel and kung paano namin iaaddress yung problem. Wala namang problema dun and we both listen to each other (as every couple should).
Anyways, nitong mga nakaraang linggo, mas lalo kong narerealize kung gaano ko sya kamahal. Marami syang ti-nap na mga bagay-bagay within me especially yung mga bagay na hindi ko alam na magugustuhan ko pala. For example, yung pagtitiktok. Pucha korning-korni ako dun dati pero ngayon ako pa nag-iinitiate na gumawa ng tiktok videos with her. Also yung mga foods na inintroduce nya sa buhay ko na nagpa-realize sa akin na I’ve been missing a lot this whole damn time. Hindi ko na kayang isa-isahin pa yung mga bagay na yun but the point is mas nakilala ko pa yung sarili ko dahil sa kanya.
Everyday, mas lalo ko pa s’yang minamahal especially pag iniimagine kong someday papakasalan ko sya and mag-aalaga kami ng maraming pets, shoutout to Athena, Kratos and Faye - our hedgehogs.
Sigurado akong siya na yung gusto kong makasama.
See you on Sunday, mahal! I’ll bring your favorite tulips. :)

11th mai jis coaching mai tha usne PW k saath collab kara tha this year to hamare batches PW k batches k saath merge hue. Teachers yehi the and mind you, Teeno teachers were complete perfection aur teeno apne subjects mai best the. Pure time baccho ko extreme tak push karte the (batch ek hi tha 11th ka aur chota sa tha) aur indeed mohol thora overwhelming ho jata tha but it was all worth it. Relationship mai hone k baad bhi meri 11th inke badaulat barbaad nahi hui. Indeed inke test papers bohot tough aate the. Highest hi 120-150 hote the aur mai 90-100 mai as jata tha. Mere parents JEE ko thora boards ki Tarah dekhte hai ki paper tough nahi hota kuch and marks are all that matters. Aur teeno nature wise kaafi criticising bhi the toh mere parents very often PTM k liye chale jaate the. Aur vo fir sunate bhi the. Indeed 11th thi toh kuch chapters weak hue toh mai Alakh pandey ki purani videos se padta tha. Sometimes. Jab yai collab hua toh maine bohot zyada zid Kari ki mujhe inse hi padna hai. But mere parents toh yehi kahte the ki "tere kuch marks toh nahi aate the vaha pe", "unhone tere baare mai kabhi kuch accha bola nahi", "tu padta toh fir bhi PW se tha". Maine tab bhi zid Kari but wo maane nahi. In the end mai is average batch mai hu jaha teachers no doubt acche hai but are just not enough. Aur nahi unke jaisi chapters ki feel de paate hai. For instance yaha pe AOD mai Tangent and normal in 4 days, monotonicity in 2 and rest of AOD in 2 days khatam kara hai, kal. Kyuki aaj test mai aa raha tha aur mujhse barely hila kuch AOD mai, jo aaye remaining calculus ki badaulat aaenge. Yaha pe jake pucho toh concepts and methods batate hai. Ab jo AOD chuta hai usko karane bhi nahi wale. Aur baccho pe 0 efforts dalte hai, even though bacche bhi saare harami hai, literally pure batch mai se sirf 9-10 bacche he jo padte hai, in a batch of literally a 100 students. Aur unme se bhi majority inko follow nahi karte. Aur agar bacche bolte hai toh yai extra class bhi nahi lete, like seriously mujhe bonding aati tha isliye bach gaya inorganic mai. Aur jo chapters meri past ki coaching mai chute the vo bhi nahi kar pa rahi kyuki those chapters literally include Thermal physics, Thermodynamics, 11th block chemistry and hydrogen, co-ordinate geometry excluding circles and straight lines, and reasoning. Aur inse pucha toh yai karenge bhi nahi. Aur mai sapne sajake baitha hu ki Course k baad saare chapters properly revise karunga. In fact mujhe toh yai bhi nahi pata ki course time pe ho bhi payega ki nahi. Still i manage to score between 200-250, and now my parents say ki "yai better hai, yaha tere vaha se zyada aa rahe hai". Koi inhe batao yaar ki yai basic questions dalte hai aur sidhe sidhe modules k questions dalte hai.
Speaking from experience, PW is the absolute garbage filled coaching, kyuki mere schools mai literally inse zyada padate hai (not even kidding, superposition in current electricity, har ek rxn ko mechanism k saath explain karna, and I'm thankful for my school ki yai log boards ka tag laga k chapters ko bohot depth mai padate hai, but indeed sirf vohi chapters padate hai jo boards mai hai)
Just because of my parent's stubborn behaviour mera future yaha barbad ho raha hai, Please kuch solution batao kyuki mere parents nahi man rahe bilkul bhi
🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻