Argentina and the great depression

27 M. I have been struggling with a strong Persistent Depressive Disorder (Dysthymia) for about 7+ years now. Got diagnosed with ADD a couple of years back which had been undiagnosed since childhood.
Did exceedingly well at school because it was too easy. Even though I was doing everything at the 11th hour but no one noticed and I was touted to be a gifted kid with immense potential.
I got into a great college and did decently there as well. But during college, when I had to start navigating my life by myself, everything started to collapse.
I somehow made it through college with decent grades and a well paying yet hectic job. Struggled through the initial stressful job and moved to a role with a better work life balance but still couldn't get my life together. 3 years later, I am about to pay off all my education debt.
I have always been great with people and have had a great social circle since I can remember. My relationship with my parents has had its journey but is at the absolute best now. Since I wear my heart on my sleeve, everyone knows about my issues as well. I am great at making new friends as well.
So from the outside, my life probably seems great to anyone and people would probably question my decision to kill myself.
However, despite all of this, I have been in absolute hell for the last 7+ years. The baseline reality is miserable and every passing day feels like torture. I struggle getting out of bed and taking care of basic hygiene. Work and everything else has been suffering since forever. I am unable to consistently stay on my meds and visit my psychiatrist regularly.
I am also extremely self reflective and inquisitive and I feel like I have explored all possible arguments against suicide. I still feel convinced that it's the only answer because the pain is unendurable now.
There's so much more that I don't even have the energy to type.
The bottom line is that even though my life objectively seems decent, I am consistently in pain and have exhausted all hope or strength to get myself to be better. I have been extremely resilient with keeping everything together but now I am falling apart.
I feel like I have tried everything - Meds, therapy, cognitive tools, change in environments, journalling, Dr. K's guide and so much more. I am never able to consistently follow through with any of these EVER.
I am now considering suicide. I have been considering it for years now but the urge is stronger than ever now. I don't care about keeping things together now. I have just accepted defeat.
Let me know if you have any suggestions.
P.S. - Sorry about the long post. I still feel I haven't done justice to this, but I am exhausted now.

hi! i started taking seroquel in 2012, in combination with sertraline (zoloft) and it worked great for both my sleep and my mood. the biggest issue since then was my body getting used to the dosage and also gaining weight. finally in 2016 i was up to 400mg of seroquel and have been since then in combination with other antidepressants. i've had periods where i've been really depressed and switched the main antidepressant, which have worked fine. two years ago i started on clomipramine and were still on the same dose of 400mg of seroquel.
recently i started feeling like maybe i can go off seroquel, so i started that about two months ago and everything was working okay, i felt a bit more sad than usual but thought that maybe it was just temporary but now that i'm off it completely i've realised that nope, seroquel was actually helping my mood after all.
and now i don't know what to do. one of the reasons i wanted to get off it was because of all the weight gain, and the constant hunger i felt. and that's gone now, which i love, and the fact that i'm already starting to lose weight.. but i'm sad and start crying for no reason. i don't want to get back on it because it's ruined me in many ways but at the same time, i can't continue feeling like this.

My (22M) brother (32M) is having a really bad time, since he ended his career (Industrial Engineer) when he was 25, he has been taking some bad decisions thought his lifetime.
When he graduated, he got the best grade of his generations, he was an honorable student, in one of the most prestigios Universities of Mexico (it was pretty expensive for my parents to maintain it)
He went to Prague to study a diploma, the he came back to Mexico, and we all thought that he was going to have a great job… or at least start some projects or doing something.
Well he took a year off from everything, just to wait a friend who was going to start a new car repairestoration studio.
Well, a year pass, and yeah, they started to work together, he worked there for like 4 years, he was doing good, he bought a great car, he was growing as a person (he was still living with my parents and me).
Then, he wanted to stop working, because he hate to have a boss, so he wanted to start his own design business…
Well, he quit, he started to spend his money, he also sell his car, and time pass…
Now, he lives with my parent (my parents divorced in the process, I know it can be hard to swallow, but he was already 28 years old, not a kid who can not process a divorce) and all the day the only thing he does is smoking weed and listening to music.
I do not fucking know how in some years, he had a pretty great future ahead, and now he earn NO MONEY, he do not want to work, and he just smoke weed all day.
I do not know how to help him, we have a good relationship, I have been talking about depression for a year with him, he only tells me… “I am not going to be like this forever, I just want to live”
But now he is so skinny, he does not eat, and he does not have any dream…
Does anybody can give me some advice??
Edit 1: I am not demonizing weed, but there is far difference between smoking weed and being productive, and smoking weed and just being lost all day. I smoke, but there I know when and where, it should not be consume your life like this.

I need to know if it's just me? Yaz? Depression? Lexapro?
I'm 26F been struggling with depression, PMDD, anxiety and social anxiety for years and years. A little over 1 month on 5mg of Lexapro and day 9 of Yaz after switching from Hailey-Fe. I fucked up and for some reason haven't really been tracking my symptoms each day with the Yaz. But today I feel horrible.
I feel so so alone. I lost all but 1 of my friends since the pandemic (not dead they just stopped being friends with me after 17 years bc I'm too difficult and sad) and struggle so much to get out bed or do literally anything. I feel like such a loser. I'm embarrassed of my life of no friends no hobbies just go to work come home go to work come home. I feel like my life ended after leaving the city/my college campus. but I did what you're 'supposed' to do. graduated may 2019. Couldn't find a real non temp long term job so I had to move home fall 2022 and found a 9-5 at a university in the city. but it feels like I have nothing and no one. like I can't talk to my 1 friend left about how I feel bc then she'll know that her great life and my shitty one makes me feel bad and then leave.
I just feel so alone and like such a fucking loser. and then its like it feels stupid to even sort of pray about it like if God isn't going to bring peace to the middle east what does he care about my mental health like get a grip.
sorry this is all over the place or potentially controversial. I meet with my therapist tonight after work which I'm thankful for I just wish it didn't feel so hard for me to be happy or have a life. like I've failed at building a good life for myself and don't deserve t exist or be happy bc of who I am i guess?
I just want to be happy and i hate how hard it feels. I'm embarrassed of how hard it is for me and like I'm sort of coming to accept that the life I wanted for myself isn't real. I'll be single and friendless in my awful poor small town, watch my family die, then die myself. and that's it.

27 M. I have been struggling with a strong Persistent Depressive Disorder (Dysthymia) for about 7+ years now. Got diagnosed with ADD a couple of years back which had been undiagnosed since childhood.
Did exceedingly well at school because it was too easy. Even though I was doing everything at the 11th hour but no one noticed and I was touted to be a gifted kid with immense potential.
I got into a great college and did decently there as well. But during college, when I had to start navigating my life by myself, everything started to collapse.
I somehow made it through college with decent grades and a well paying yet hectic job. Struggled through the initial stressful job and moved to a role with a better work life balance but still couldn't get my life together. 3 years later, I am about to pay off all my education debt.
I have always been great with people and have had a great social circle since I can remember. My relationship with my parents has had its journey but is at the absolute best now. Since I wear my heart on my sleeve, everyone knows about my issues as well. I am great at making new friends as well.
So from the outside, my life probably seems great to anyone and people would probably question my decision to kill myself.
However, despite all of this, I have been in absolute hell for the last 7+ years. The baseline reality is miserable and every passing day feels like torture. I struggle getting out of bed and taking care of basic hygiene. Work and everything else has been suffering since forever. I am unable to consistently stay on my meds and visit my psychiatrist regularly.
I am also extremely self reflective and inquisitive and I feel like I have explored all possible arguments against suicide. I still feel convinced that it's the only answer because the pain is unendurable now.
There's so much more that I don't even have the energy to type.
The bottom line is that even though my life objectively seems decent, I am consistently in pain and have exhausted all hope or strength to get myself to be better. I have been extremely resilient with keeping everything together but now I am falling apart.
I want help in understanding if anyone is aware of any science/philosophy backed framework or methodology to weigh their life circumstances and when they should decide to kill themselves?
P.S. - Sorry about the long post. I still feel I haven't done justice to this, but I am exhausted now.

Keep in mind this is a personal ranking not what I think the wizards will do

1. Alexandar Sarr

This is a no brainer and probably number 1 for every other wizards fan as well, fits the wizards mold and could be a franchise piece.
2) Rob Dillingham
This is probably where I lose a lot of people, but not only will this guy put butts in seats which the wizards so desperately need he does almost everything that the wizards need. I feel like a lot of people are focusing on how small is frame is and the very little that he cant do while ignoring everything that he can do. Its almost like the same effect that curry had at davidson and trae young at oklahoma. This guy will be the facilitator that we need and provide elite shooting.
3) Stephon Castle
One thing Washington certainly cannot do is defend, one thing castle can certainly do is defend. He is a winner, he can bring a winning mentality that we dont have and his one knock is his shooting, while looking great in the combine. Also he and his agent are saying he wants to be a pg, and we dont have a pg so this works out.
4) Zaccharie Rissachire
Almost 7 foot shooter, sign me up, this league is desperate for bigs that can shoot, although recent slumps have been worry some I wouldnt be through the roof with this pick but wouldnt be depressed.
5) Reed Sheppard
Arguably had the best combine measurements / performance, this guy can shoot his form looks the best in the entire draft, he is very explosive and can make big defensive plays, one of the best shooters in the draft but the fit would be awkward.
6) Donovan Clingan
Rim protecting big, very prototypical wouldnt be very happy at 2 as I am shooting for upside this seems like a safe, low ceiling pick. Which I feel like we could get at 26 with other bigs on the board nothing really stands out to me. This pick is offically where I feel like I would be upset as a wizards fan.
7) Nikola Topic
I truly do not understand the hype, I never have. Everything about his game looks clunky and like he is in physical pain. He is a minus defender and a bad shooter. He is a 6'7 guard that can get to the rim against lower level competiton (most of his games were not euro league aka high level competition and when he did play in euroleague all of his numbers dropped.) this is a hard pass for me especially considering him being somewhat injury prone so young.
This is just about everyone that we could possibly pick at #2 as of 05/29/24 let me know what you think and go easy on me its just basketball at the end of the day I know how some of you get lol.

This last weekend my wife and I had our seventeenth anniversary. We purposefully choose to have this one a little chill, we really only make a big deal out of it when it's a big one like the tenth, fifteenth or the twentieth in a few years.
While I am a really lucky guy to have a great woman stick around for so long, the last few years our anniversary kind of gets inside my head in a few weird ways.
After thinking on it for a few days, I think a mixture of weird thoughts is a bit more clearer. I am more than okay with all of the things we've accomplished and done in our marriage, but I think the years adding up is a sign of how much older we're getting. The more the years add up, it just feels like we're just getting more irrelevant and insignificant.
We chose not to have kids and we're both totally okay with that choice, but I think it had some affects we didn't anticipate. We rarely ever are able to have much of anything to do with anyone our age who does have kids because our lives are just totally different. We sometimes hang out with a crowd a little younger than us, but the generational differences make things awkward sometimes so it's not as often as we'd really like. The two of us are involved in some non-profits and other hobbies and charities, but it just doesn't feel like we have anyone around that we can continually connect with.
The two of us are very lucky that our careers have gone well and that we've been able to travel the world and do a lot of cool stuff, but it still somehow feels like the world is passing us by and forgetting about us. Sometimes it just feels like the two of us together, and each of us individually are just invisible, irrelevant, ancient, forgotten, and other things in the world and it's just kind of depressing knowing we're getting older and all of those things are just going to compound on one another.
I also wonder if we're just seen as "lame" by a lot of people. Either for not having kids, for not having too many people that we connect with, still having fun and partying when we're pushing 40, because we dated since high school and never saw anyone else, or for hanging out with a younger crowd just to have someone to connect with. I think we're just seem as awkward or weird by people because we don't necessarily fit in any way, and it's worse the older we get.
TLDR - Does anyone have any suggestions on how to better wrap my head around this and not let it get to me too much? I am so lucky that I have such a great wife and marriage, but like I said in this, I am just concerned that the world is passing us by and that we're invisible or lame. How can I better be in a better mindset over all this?

This last weekend my wife and I had our seventeenth anniversary. We purposefully choose to have this one a little chill, we really only make a big deal out of it when it's a big one like the tenth, fifteenth or the twentieth in a few years.
While I am a really lucky guy to have a great woman stick around for so long, the last few years our anniversary kind of gets inside my head in a few weird ways.
After thinking on it for a few days, I think a mixture of weird thoughts is a bit more clearer. I am more than okay with all of the things we've accomplished and done in our marriage, but I think the years adding up is a sign of how much older we're getting. The more the years add up, it just feels like we're just getting more irrelevant and insignificant.
We chose not to have kids and we're both totally okay with that choice, but I think it had some affects we didn't anticipate. We rarely ever are able to have much of anything to do with anyone our age who does have kids because our lives are just totally different. We sometimes hang out with a crowd a little younger than us, but the generational differences make things awkward sometimes so it's not as often as we'd really like. The two of us are involved in some non-profits and other hobbies and charities, but it just doesn't feel like we have anyone around that we can continually connect with.
The two of us are very lucky that our careers have gone well and that we've been able to travel the world and do a lot of cool stuff, but it still somehow feels like the world is passing us by and forgetting about us. Sometimes it just feels like the two of us together, and each of us individually are just invisible, irrelevant, ancient, forgotten, and other things in the world and it's just kind of depressing knowing we're getting older and all of those things are just going to compound on one another.
I also wonder if we're just seen as "lame" by a lot of people. Either for not having kids, for not having too many people that we connect with, still having fun and partying when we're pushing 40, because we dated since high school and never saw anyone else, or for hanging out with a younger crowd just to have someone to connect with. I think we're just seem as awkward or weird by people because we don't necessarily fit in any way, and it's worse the older we get.
TLDR - Does anyone have any suggestions on how to better wrap my head around this and not let it get to me too much? I am so lucky that I have such a great wife and marriage, but like I said in this, I am just concerned that the world is passing us by and that we're invisible or lame. How can I better be in a better mindset over all this?

This last weekend my wife and I had our seventeenth anniversary. We purposefully choose to have this one a little chill, we really only make a big deal out of it when it's a big one like the tenth, fifteenth or the twentieth in a few years.
While I am a really lucky guy to have a great woman stick around for so long, the last few years our anniversary kind of gets inside my head in a few weird ways.
After thinking on it for a few days, I think a mixture of weird thoughts is a bit more clearer. I am more than okay with all of the things we've accomplished and done in our marriage, but I think the years adding up is a sign of how much older we're getting. The more the years add up, it just feels like we're just getting more irrelevant and insignificant.
We chose not to have kids and we're both totally okay with that choice, but I think it had some affects we didn't anticipate. We rarely ever are able to have much of anything to do with anyone our age who does have kids because our lives are just totally different. We sometimes hang out with a crowd a little younger than us, but the generational differences make things awkward sometimes so it's not as often as we'd really like. The two of us are involved in some non-profits and other hobbies and charities, but it just doesn't feel like we have anyone around that we can continually connect with.
The two of us are very lucky that our careers have gone well and that we've been able to travel the world and do a lot of cool stuff, but it still somehow feels like the world is passing us by and forgetting about us. Sometimes it just feels like the two of us together, and each of us individually are just invisible, irrelevant, ancient, forgotten, and other things in the world and it's just kind of depressing knowing we're getting older and all of those things are just going to compound on one another.
I also wonder if we're just seen as "lame" by a lot of people. Either for not having kids, for not having too many people that we connect with, still having fun and partying when we're pushing 40, because we dated since high school and never saw anyone else, or for hanging out with a younger crowd just to have someone to connect with. I think we're just seem as awkward or weird by people because we don't necessarily fit in any way, and it's worse the older we get.
TLDR - Does anyone have any suggestions on how to better wrap my head around this and not let it get to me too much? I am so lucky that I have such a great wife and marriage, but like I said in this, I am just concerned that the world is passing us by and that we're invisible or lame. How can I better be in a better mindset over all this?

I’m posting so I hold myself accountable. I will be ten months sober tomorrow and I really want to drink today because I’m depressed and just … unfulfilled in all aspects of my life anymore. I feel like a drink would just turn everything down right now. I know it’s not worth it but … you understand.
I am doing all the “right” things now and my life, on paper, is great. I got my degree in December, I’m a better parent than I ever was before. My relationship has improved. Everyone around me is so much happier now that I’m not ruining things with drinking. My loved ones are quick to praise me for sobriety and are supportive. But they’re supportive of who I became after I stopped drinking. Not who I was. Kinda like I’m expected to be an entirely different person.
Probably didn’t make the best choices for myself in navigating who I am and who I want to be when I quit. I decided a month ago to go back to therapy because of the depression, anxiety and general unhappiness. I feel like it’s only really made things worse. My therapist is someone I’ve seen for more than a decade and he was quick to point out that I have lost myself and my spine. I think constantly now about how I used to stand up for myself and my feelings, I used to be interesting, I used to feel alive. I just feel like a shell anymore.
If you read this far and experienced anything like this, I’d appreciate the advice. IWNDWYT.

It's been so long since I did any analysis of RM's music, the last time I was fifteen and so so depressed. RM has grown as an artist while I grew as a person, in a way it's so personal that every time he comes up with new music, even if it's been long since I really liked BTS music, I just have this ich in my fingers asking me to write down my thoughts. With Right Place, Wrong People I just can't hold myself, Indigo almost made me write my thoughts down in this sub (because that album was made for me, an art theory nerd) but this new album???? Man, I've got things to say. So, sorry for babbling, here are my thoughts:
Before talking about the content, lyrics, and general thoughts, I need to mention and study all the great artists working with RM on this album. First and foremost, San Yawn from Balming Tiger literally could be called the co-creator of this album. Another member of Balming Tiger, bj wnjn, also appears in the credits of a few songs. In the chorus in Dodomachi, you can see the best example of his influence because he's the one who sings it. The sounds, gimmicks, and the way most of the songs in the album are pierced together really feel like Balming Tiger, if anyone is a fan of them you know what I mean. Check them out, they just recently came out with an incredible album: January Never Dies. And for some song recommendations, if you really liked the theme in LOST! in Right Place Wrong People, you will love UP!.
Some other great artists work in production, OHHYUK (from HYUKOH) is the producer of Come back to me, and it really shows. I desperately ask you to go listen to HYUKOH's albums if you liked that song cause, man, that song could have fooled me if you told me it was theirs. Mokyo too, recently has been working with a lot of artists and coming out with really creative stuff, so please check him out (and go listen to Vampire, that song is just pure perfection). Going back to Come back to me, Kuo from Sunset Rollercoaster worked in it too and the guitar in the song really shows it. Check Sunset Rollercoaster too, they deserve a lot more love from the k-rock lovers. Supremeboy, even if he only appears in (I think) the credits of out of love, deserves always the love and respect from old fans of RM, so shout out to him too.
The really rich mixture of sounds and genres in the album really makes me think once again of Indigo, but this time it feels so different. In Indigo RM took a lot of inspiration from the sound of this artist but the message was less introspective in his lyrics than in Right Place Wrong People, now the mix with this artist really mixes so deeply the introspection in the lyrics with the sound. And really, the appreciation we should have for those who worked with RM in the production and writing of the album should be pointed out in bold letters and neon, cause it's fundamental to understand the whole meaning and message of the album, to the understand it's conception.
In the album, RM talks primarily about how he's perceived and how that affects the person he's come to be. It's a beautiful introspection on how others interact and convince him, and how that has affected him, and how he interacts with people. On the one hand, you can see the real symbolism that is the mix of RM's introspection with the people he collaborated with. Most people only look up to the features when we talk about the mix of different artists sounds, but in Right Place Wrong People, the symbiosis of RM's compositions it's with those that he's featuring and with those that work with him in production. See Dodomachi, he's featuring Little Smizs (I promise you I was shocked to see he was collaborating with her, go check out her last album Drop 7, it's GOLD), he collaborates and mixes his sound and lyrics with hers perfectly, but at the same time it's in the production and the choruses where what shines it's the work of bj wnjn, with his distinctive singing and those lyrics heavy where we can hear a more hollow and dark feeling in the "Friend, let's dance here", really showing the true heaviness of dislike for the life of partying he's been pushed to by those called friends. the mix of sounds, the collaboration of other people's voices (this time the right people in the right place) it's what gives the extra layers and deepness to RM's new album.
On the other hand, RM's introspection feels old and comforting for an old fan. I remember when Mono came out and how much I loved (and I still love) Seoul. Listening to this new, older, Namjoon I can't help but see in this new tone the comeback of the idea he presented once:

If love and hate are the same words /I love you, Seoul - Seoul

Back then the music is very conciliatory, and acceptance of change. That has changed, in Indigo we see a brief development on this idea with Change pt. 2:

Love change, friends change, everyone change, no, yeah / It is not strange, hmm, that's the world's shape, aye / You gotta admit it, hmm Don't you get it still? / Someday, a great grief will do come for you, hmm, yeah - Change pt. 2

The song, while being in Indigo, has the same type of violent emotion that connects more with Right Place Wrong People than with the album it's in. It refers to things that connect with songs like LOST!...

Ay, ay, ay, ay (Dump it on the ground, shit) / Ay, ay, ay, ay (Dump it on the ground, shit) / I keep trippin', I can’t stop bleeding / I got lost in the ground, but not beggin' at you

It refers to things that connect with songs like LOST! while also being the stage in between Mono and Right Place Wrong People. The three albums together can be read as the stages of the being of RM, the acceptance of what he was back in 2018, what his art is in 2022, and who he is in 2024. Right Place, Wrong People, as much as you can talk about it being an album of songs giving the middle finger to people, is (for me) an album about RM, how he's now as a person, and how that relates to the people around him and love. For me is an album about love and being oneself openly, and aggressively. It's love connected with pain, "pain divine". It comes back to Seoul and the connection with love and pain, how Seoul and RM's soul were the same, and how he has grown with that deep pain and love. What once was a song written with the calm acceptance of this, in Right Place Wrong People we see how this understanding has grown and RM just can't keep pretending he's not this, someone built by pain and love. In Come back to me we see it:

You are my pain, divine, divine.

A song, talking about someone that's not there for him anymore, connects with this idea RM has been working with for so long in his music, that his soul is built with pain and love. But now he's not only accepted it, but he's confident in it. You can see this in Nuts, where he compares the love between him and others with elements of danger, while also assuring the person that he doesn't wish to change things to be with them, he "can make this place right for" them.

It was a tough relationship, there's a stigma on my chest / It's called you, I can't even believe we were together /It was a flu, and we could see the karma coming through

RM works around the concept of being built by pain and love, and turns it into the concept of painful love. He works around this idea in this album with these two songs especially, but you can see it in others like Around the world in a day with Mosses Summey:

We who are lost don't look so pitiful / Now with a smile, raising the middle finger / Yeah, all the past, the present / I'ma pass, then give it to you / I like myself broken, b!tch, that's the sh!t

I think the more interesting line in this song is the one that goes "My appearance like a lost item hoping to be found / We who are lost don't look so pitiful / Now with a smile, raising the middle finger", and it really connects these songs I've talked about with the rest of the songs in the album, the ones that as he says is a "raising the middle finger" to those that criticize him, in those that expect him to be someone different. This theme is maybe more prevalent, you see it in Out of love or in Dodomachi. In one he says it directly, referring to the (dumb if you ask me) scandal with the picture of him smoking with these lines:

I'm just a pack of cigarette / I'm going to burn down all the love and the hate, the right, the wrongs / Even the goddamn world I've been livin' in for my whole life / Smoking kills, I know / It's my business, you bitches stop, don't talk shit / Ashes falling like snow / I've been changin' the flow

In Dodomachi he uses singing, the dark pessimistic voice of bj wnjn to talk about how he's being pushed by those who call themselves his friends to change, to be what people would expect of an artist as famous as he is, to make him forget who he was before:

I been slipping through all kinda b*llsh*t, I forgot where I came from / All s*ckers wanna get it, take a sip, silently pour it into the glass / All the s*ckers wanna hit it, I'ma lead you to the heaven, blow the flute / All my friends wanna get around in O's, all my friends wanna take another pose / Yeah, I'm knocked out, what a bullsh*t (Get the f*ck down) / Muhf*cka, want a doom sh*t

And while I could continue for days writing my ideas on this album, I think I should conclude (I have an exam tomorrow I should be studying instead of doing this, I blame you Kim Namjoon for my laziness) with what this all concludes in the album. It's called Right Place, Wrong People and that's because of good reason. What comes out of all the ideas RM presents in the songs is one big concept: the confidence of who he is, with the pain and the love that has built him, and how he just doesn't care to conform to those that not understand this and want him to be someone else. From Seoul to Right Place, Wrong People, he shows how not only he has accepted who he is (pain and love) but he also doesn't care if others don't accept him. I think the best examples of this are in ? (Interlude), and Heaven.

You know you got the best of me / Do you know me? / I don't mind at all

This album is one of self-love, introspection, and knowing oneself, to not only accept to be confident in those things painful in one. To give a middle finger to those who want to change him and to those who criticize him for not conforming to the cruel world of fake image, violence, and stardom. It's a beautiful conclusion to ideas he has worked with in BTS and with his early works as a soloist, going as back as 2017 when he asked to be told "everything is alright" in Change with Wale. I think is beautiful how all these ideas have changed and morphed and matured with him, going from:Baby, tell me that we gon' someday stop the fight

And tell me that every, everything gon' be alright / Oh tell me who's stupid, baby, is it me or them? / Just tell me who's insane, baby, is it me or them? / In this crazy world after patience, could we get the pearl?

to...

There are so many unlucky bastards in the world / So what? Just keep going your own way / There are so many incomprehensible bastards in the world / I just step on it harder, just step on it harder / Yeah, I fuck it up, I fuck it up / Hate is harmful but I suck it up /Now I'll go the other way, to the cliff (...) Just lower your eyes, so don't provoke me / If you want to be friends, just pour me a drink, you dig?

PD: I wrote so much, god, and I haven't studied a bit. Going to stay up all night. Wish me luck guys! And go listen to RM's new album and all the others artist that worked with him!!!!!!
PD2: I posted this before but deleted when I was told there was a megathreat for the album, but I think it's a bit too long and counts more of analysis than reaction or discussion of the album? so someone told me I could post it as it one and I agree, if you see this hope work went well!

Hello! My story is very unpleasant, but probably ordinary. I want to ask for advice or your opinion, what would you do in this case? I ask you to refrain from insults and hate towards me, I already know and understand all my shortcomings. So, given: In May 2023, I buy a car from Russian-speaking dealers who give me a loan through lendbuzz. At that time I already had all the documents: ssn, but they didn’t take it and issued it on my DL. I took a Tesla S (they assured me that the car was not salvage and it would have a free supercharger), I signed AS IS. As soon as I left the showroom on the way home (Los Angeles - Sacramento), the Supercharger turned off. It is clear that the Dealers lied to me, refused to take it back, etc. I took it for diagnostics and it turned out that there were dead batteries and a dead pump. I couldn’t achieve anything with the Dealers, I couldn’t pay the bank because I had a nervous breakdown, depression and I shared a room with a friend and worked just to survive. After a while, I meet a guy who understands my situation and volunteers to help with the repairs. I agree, he takes her to shap, our relationship does not go beyond friendship on my initiative, which clearly irritates him very much. And then I fall emotionally into the “clutches” of a manipulator and abuser. I naively believe that he will help me in this matter, he professionally assures me that it takes a lot of time and he will help me repair it, pay off the debt, which will help me sell this car. This all lasts until December 2023, in which I decide to leave this state and move to another city. Having moved to another city, I slowly begin to find the strength to work and live. In the Tesla app, my car turns off (as he explained that they changed the batteries) and he continues to feed me promises every day. I believe because hope is such a thing that it is very pleasant to rely on. Today, I find out that that guy was a great deceiver and he either sold my car for parts (since the bank has the title because the car is on credit) or pledged it. I found people with whom he did the same and on whom he imposed debts. He was an expat and most likely collected all the money, turned off the phones and left for Mexico. People are looking for their cars, filing a police report, but so far in vain. What should I do? I am a girl from Ukraine and in the USA for 2 years. This is a scary situation for me. The bank and collectors call me, I don’t know where the car is or whether it even exists. Write a statement to the police? Explain to collectors? What would you do in this situation? I have been deceived so many times and I am afraid to do anything, I will not be able to pay off this loan, especially without having a car..
Thank you for your attention

Sixteen-year-old Rithanya can’t wait to go to boarding school and follow her dream of entering the Armed Forces Medical College. A far cry from the busy city life in her hometown of Bangalore, the strict, rural boarding school has strange rules and a stringent way of life for the students. Rithanya quickly settles in, making friends and enjoying her new life away from her sometimes overbearing family. But it isn’t all fun and games. The hostel food is intolerable and Rithanya starts to feel the pressure of her intense studies. She has terrible nightmares of failing her exams and disgracing her family, and her poor diet isn’t helping. The drudgery of capsuled academic studies, stringent rules, unpalatable food and the rat race for perfection triggers depression and an attack of psychosis of unimaginable magnitude in her mind. Once a bright and carefree girl, she falls into a terrible mental state of overwork and anxiety. Her deteriorating condition is of great concern to her family. Can Rithanya get better and continue her studies, or will the overwhelming pressure and her deteriorating mental health threaten to spoil her future plans? Read more

Hello, I am needing more support/resources for my autism. I dropped out of college, and I can only work as a French tutor a few hours a week (other jobs become too much to handle). I don’t have the most supportive home environment, but my parents are willing to help me access resources if we can find something that might help me. I have been having a lot of meltdowns and struggles with my mental health. Some of my worst struggles are:
Sensory issues - touch, texture, sound, smell, etc. Lately it’s been trouble with noise (loudness and layers), my hair, my glasses, shoes, food, and strong smells.
Communication issues - I have trouble communicating how I am doing, what I want, and what I need. I am a part-time AAC user.
Social issues - I have trouble with conversations and handling the stress of them. I also have trouble with groups of people. I don’t have many friends or great relationships with them/my family.
Moving out - I want to get out of my house but I can’t support myself financially or with independent living tasks. I live with 2 parents and 5 younger siblings and the craziness is bad for my mental health, but I don’t feel like I have any other options.
Depression/anxiety - living with autism is hard
I am in the US. I am looking into ABA therapy, I am on a waitlist for occupational therapy, and I already do talk therapy. I get support through my county board of disabilities. If anyone has any ideas or suggestions I would really appreciate it!

Ok. I have mthfr1298c homozy gene, gilberts affects my liver and on the spectrum. I think what happened is Before I knew what it all meant I drank protein shakes for exercise and together with permanent mystery pain on right side my life has imploded. Two years later and still any vitamin in any form makes me jittery or dead tired. Antihistamines help to sleep at night. Depression and social anxiety has gotten bad enough that I dont leave the house. Eyes are red and pupils permanently dilated. Lost a lot of muscle weight but cant pick it up. Allergic to peanuts, lactose intolerant, gluten intolerant. I don't know what to eat anymore. Prosessed chicken makes everything unbareble, fish seems ok. Waiting for blood tests on vitamin levels. Dry skin, blue vinger nails, hair loss, numb legs, tight chest, migrains, anhedonia, any advice would be great unless this is just being in your 30s. Also rip gallbladder 2017 and my docter retired this year. new one isn't as informed and my brain cant handle this anymore so seriously any advice.

Hello, I am needing more support/resources for my autism. I dropped out of college, and I can only work as a French tutor a few hours a week (other jobs become too much to handle). I don’t have the most supportive home environment, but my parents are willing to help me access resources if we can find something that might help me. I have been having a lot of meltdowns and struggles with my mental health. Some of my worst struggles are:
Sensory issues - touch, texture, sound, smell, etc. Lately it’s been trouble with noise (loudness and layers), my hair, my glasses, shoes, food, and strong smells.
Communication issues - I have trouble communicating how I am doing, what I want, and what I need. I am a part-time AAC user.
Social issues - I have trouble with conversations and handling the stress of them. I also have trouble with groups of people. I don’t have many friends or great relationships with them/my family.
Moving out - I want to get out of my house but I can’t support myself financially or with independent living tasks. I live with 2 parents and 5 younger siblings and the craziness is bad for my mental health, but I don’t feel like I have any other options.
Depression/anxiety - living with autism is hard
I am in the US. I am looking into ABA therapy, I am on a waitlist for occupational therapy, and I already do talk therapy. I get support through my county board of disabilities. If anyone has any ideas or suggestions I would really appreciate it!

Hi, I'm 16 and I was hospitalized two months ago for a psychotic episode. I was put on abilify, ( 10mg ) trazodone, ( unknown dosage ) valium ( 10mg ) and hydroxyzine. ( unknown dosage ) I also received two haldol injections for sedation purposes. I experienced severe side effects to all the medications, but the worst one is my lack of ability to experience pleasure, love or happiness. All I feel is intense depression, nothing like I've experienced before. I have a boyfriend, and we've had a great, loving relationship before this, but now I just feel disconnected and empty when I talk to him. I don't feel anything positive. I don't feel happiness doing anything I loved to do before. I just want to kill myself. I don't know what to do. Will I ever recover? I see people have these effects permanently and I just can't do that. I've been off these meds for one month, the effects should be gone, but they're not. I want to experience happiness and pleasure and love and all the good things I felt before. I feel nothing anymore.

Hi, I'm 16 and I was hospitalized two months ago for a psychotic episode. I was put on abilify, ( 10mg ) trazodone, ( unknown dosage ) valium ( 10mg ) and hydroxyzine. ( unknown dosage ) I also received two haldol injections for sedation purposes. I experienced severe side effects to all the medications, but the worst one is my lack of ability to experience pleasure, love or happiness. All I feel is intense depression, nothing like I've experienced before. I have a boyfriend, and we've had a great, loving relationship before this, but now I just feel disconnected and empty when I talk to him. I don't feel anything positive. I don't feel happiness doing anything I loved to do before. I just want to kill myself. I don't know what to do. Will I ever recover? I see people have these effects permanently and I just can't do that. I've been off these meds for one month, the effects should be gone, but they're not. I want to experience happiness and pleasure and love and all the good things I felt before. I feel nothing anymore.

tl;dr is at the bottom
I F18 just graduated high school on a 3.0 (maybe 2.9) gpa. I actively have two major options to make before the end of the summer and I don’t know which one i’m going to make, so i’ll just get into it.
so option one, a couple months back, when i turned 18, i enlisted in the Marine Corps and did an interview with an officer for the NROTC scholarship because my scores were high enough. I ended up forgetting about the whole thing because i didn’t want to go to college and i was thinking of getting my 4yrs done and then just have veterans benefits. I also have a boyfriend who was supposed to go in as well and then later on, he backed out which i’ve noticed has made him way happier.
so anyways, i make some really cool friends with these people, i think they could keep me in shape and i could travel and just have money but then i win the scholarship to a school. great? nah now, i have to go to some random state and leave all my family behind, go to college on top of marine training and then once i get out, if i even do, i have to do 6 active years. now i know, i’m complaining, i have all these opportunities and it would be so stupid to just not go, but i truly don’t want to. i keep trying to convince myself that i like the idea of me going, but i just get disillusioned with the idea. and i can’t even postpone it for now, i HAVE to use this scholarship to go. i don’t WANT to go. i don’t want to be in the military at all, it sounds depressing, you have to listen to some dude and if you don’t, you could literally just get jail time, on top of the fact that it seems like the world is in a state of almost war and i’d have to listen to anything the guy in office says.
but the problem is everyone wants me to do it. to succeed and have school and the military done and be successful and that sounds great but i just don’t want to do that, my ideology of life isn’t to always work and constantly try to be successful. i don’t want to be rich, i just want to have a small job in a little house with my little family. i don’t want to be a billionaire. i know that sounds dumb to a lot of people but that’s my ideology. my mom and dad both went to college and they’re both still struggling. i am a pretty indecisive person and as the time passes, the pressure on my shoulders makes me more and more anxious. a part of me feels like maybe i’m just scared to do it and i’m too lazy to try to be successful but i don’t even know.
and then my other option is staying in my current state and making a small life of my own with my boyfriend in a small apartment with a cat and just being happy and saving up. i can always retry the military as a last resort if everything went to shit. i have free school from a community college because my high school and them did this free aid thing. the only thing i fear is disappointing everyone and everything messing up and feeling like i could’ve done the other option. i also want to try out being an esthetician and i have jobs and apartments lined up for both places but i every time i think about it, i just get so stressed out from making a decision i don’t even want to make.
so if anyone could give me advice and please don’t be condescending about it. it would be greatly appreciated.
tl;dr i have the option of either moving to another state and going to college for the military or staying in my current state and making a life of my own with my boyfriend.

English is not my first language, so sorry for any mistakes.
About four years ago, we fell deeply in love. I've never felt anything comparable before. The problem was, I wasn't completely honest about who I am as a person. I was dealing with severe depression and was unhappy with how my life was going, but it was so nice to finally feel something. I didn't want that to end, so I hid my feelings by pretending to be happier and more outgoing than I actually was. This was very draining for me, and after about a year, I couldn't do it anymore. When I told her everything, she was very understanding and kind, but I still hate myself for lying to her. I feel like I tricked her into being stuck with a depressed loser.
Over time, the relationship worsened, especially after we moved in together two years ago. We drifted further apart, became less loving, and at times, it felt like we were roommates rather than a couple. This leaves me very lonely and sad. I feel starved for affection and miss feeling "in love." When I voice these feelings to her, she starts crying and feels bad. Things get better for maybe 2-3 weeks, but then it's the same cycle again.
Her life is going great, while I'm still unemployed without a finished degree. I feel like a burden to her, and I probably am. We tried breaking up, but it hurts so much for both of us. She still hasn't lost hope that I'll get better someday. I think another reason she isn't leaving me is that she doesn't want me to feel bad. Also, we do love each other, or at least I love her. I think the reason I don't leave her is that I want to prove to her that I can be better, and breaking up would mean surrendering that idea forever. In fact, I have improved a lot over the years, but I'm still not there yet.
I am doing better financially and will be starting a new degree in September. Also, I am strongly considering moving into my own apartment soon, since our current place is too small for two people, and I miss having space for myself. However, I am scared of being alone too. I don't have any friends or people to connect with. I am tearing up right now because I feel stuck and don't know how to get out of this. I feel very lonely. On one hand, I don't want to give up on us; on the other hand, it feels awful to be in this relationship.
Do you think we can work through this, or is it better to break up?