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I enjoy the food I eat, I enjoy the feel of cloth on my body, the pressure on my toes as I walk, I enjoy the chill of the Autumn. I enjoy the music and the silence, I see beauty all around me.
January 2017 I was suicidal, ended up in hospital due to a crisis. Back then I would't sleep for days, I would shove food down my throat mindlessly, had no love for myself and had a hard time enjoying anything. Headaches would knock me out every time I tried to do something, I didn't shave, didn't shower, didn't leave the room.
Seven years have passed, feels like a lifetime. Many of us didn't make it and they will be forever in my heart.
From 21 to 28 I feel a distance so vast that it is hard to articulate. Somewhere during that time, life started to feel like a gift again, and I realized I could acomplish things I never thought I could, by becoming the person I always dreamed.
I started to love the man I see in the mirror, and when I started to get slimmer I enjoyed every bit of the process. I made new friends and we worked together to become happier and better poeple everyday.
I don't know if it's the aging or if there's something in the water, but if you had told me I would be this happy, I wouldn't have belived you. Still, this doesn't seem like an end goal, rather a new baseline, a new me, starting out from a new chapter of my new life with some new goals. I know shit is hard as fuck for many right now, I really hope that at least the simple happiness provided by your mind and your body everyday will make it a little bit easier, like it has for me.

I am 22 F , weight 46 Kg. Getting treatment for h.pylori. In oct 2023, I caught hpylori after a viral fever( got diagnosed recently). 10 days after which, I experienced heart palpitations either sometimes sleeping or standing, and tinnitus, and fatigue , racing heart, and pots like symptoms . it continued for months and did know what was wrong with me. Took a vitamin test and found that my b12 and vitamin D were extremely low. Currently taking injection for b12 and pills. Does curing vitamin deficiencies will cure these symptoms? I am afraid that I might never go back to normal.

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I am 22 F , weight 46 Kg. Getting treatment for h.pylori. In oct 2023, I caught hpylori after a viral fever( got diagnosed recently). 10 days after which, I experienced heart palpitations either sometimes sleeping or standing, and tinnitus, and fatigue , racing heart, and pots like symptoms . it continued for months and did know what was wrong with me. Took a vitamin test and found that my b12 and vitamin D were extremely low. Currently taking injection for b12 and pills. Does curing vitamin deficiencies will cure these symptoms? I am afraid that I might never go back to normal.

when i was in my more awkward years/uni years id never understand ‘social anxiety’ as described by my friends. it wasn’t something i’d ever experienced and i didn’t really have fears or worries in social situations. but since turning 23 ive been having anxious thoughts. going to post office to mail a simple letter? i find myself quadruple checking to make sure the address is right and the stamp is on right and i find myself questioning if this is the right place to put mail. At my usual coffee shop? I get nervous walking up to the counter because i think the baristas (who see me multiple times a week) actually HATE me and the fact that i ordered a vanilla oatmilk latte (which i do everytime) is actually the worst decision i could’ve made. i find myself asking pretty stupid questions too. “do you guys take tap?” even though they just said ‘tap or insert’. idk i just find myself flustered and anxious in social situations now more than i ever have in life and i have NO idea why. I worked really hard on being pretty normal in social situations and i had built up some confidence in social skills during uni, but it’s like im regressing now as an adult. meeting new people is no longer an exciting opportunity to practice my skills and blending in, it’s now this big occasion where my entire week leading up to meeting new people is riddled with heart racing and dizziness and nausea.

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(I forgot I put "did I fuck up?" in the title, please ignore that part.)
This is long, so I apologise in advance.
I (F32) broke things off with a guy I'd been talking to online for 6months a couple days ago. We found each other online and weren't planning on getting into anything serious long distance (different countries, couple hours away), but we just hit it off. For the longest time it was really nice. We had a real supportive emotional connection, and we were also both crazy into each others looks.
He was supposed to come see me in mid-april, but he missed his flight. I know this sounds dodgy, but I spent the night at the hotel he'd booked where we were supposed to stay at. We were both miserable, but for about a week after it, things felt same as ever.
Then, I felt his energy change. He pulled away. Like he wasn't as interested anymore. It felt the same as when I've been jilted for another woman previously. I tried to deal with it, but last week I decided to mention it. I said it felt like he wasn't interested anymore. He said that he's just discouraged after we didn't end up meeting, and because I said I'd like to get back to planning us seeing once my recruitment process was over. I thought this would take a day or two. But it's been 3 weeks now and they're still undecided. He said he'd started doubting the feasibility of our thing, the traveling back and forth, and whether "it would be easier for both of us... I mean, if we meet, the feasibility issues are still gonna be there?"
I asked him another question, "have you just found someone new to talk to?"
And honestly, his answer felt and feels bad to me. He said "No, I wouldn't say so... I haven't spoken to anyone within the same context as you at all." I would've thought the answer would've been "No, of course not". But "I wouldn't say so? Not in the same context?" What does that mean?
I couldn't shake the feeling that I was being... quiet dumped for someone else, and on instagram I found a photo by a woman, standing in front of a sign that said "kiss my butt". She had tagged the guy I'd been talking to in the comments, saying "sign is aimed @ you", a week ago. My heart dropped. I felt like my gut feeling had been right.
I don't know what the right course of action here would've been. Ask him? But his "I wouldn't say so... not within the same context" left me feeling insecure and confused... what does that even mean? I wish I'd pressed him more at the time.
Anyway... I did something I now regret. I picked one of her very old posts so that it wouldn't show up to someone browsing the latest ones, and left her a polite message. I told her that I've been seeing/talking to a guy, and was under the impression that we're exclusive, but that I saw he'd been liking a couple of her most recent pictures. I asked if there was something going on between them, and I just wished for clarity. She never replied to me, didn't block me. I hoped just asking would bring clarity. But she just made her profile private.
I wish I'd just gone for a walk instead of trying to talk to her. Disconnected myself from the situation. Grounded myself. Something.
In an anxious panic, I sent him a message, "I can't do this, I can't trust you anymore and it's making me act in a genuinely insane manner". Then I cried for a full day. Just regretting that I'd contacted her, it makes me feel sick to my stomach. I have no idea whether she told him, I assume so, since he made his instagram profile private after I messaged him and broke things off. I feel like I broke his trust.
I unblocked him, kept it vague (didn't mention sending her a message) but apologised and explained that the sudden doubt he expressed had made me feel like I'm just gonna be waiting to see whether he'll keep wanting to see me, just waiting to be picked while I don't know where I stand anymore. But that it felt unfair to block him, so if he wanted to talk, he could, but if he didn't that's fine too.
He replied that there are things he wants to say but he won't, and he thinks that it' "obviously" best for us to end things where they are now. He said he takes blame for my mental state, but "doesn't think it should have come to this". I thanked him for being kind to me and he said I should be kind to myself also.
I was listening back to our earlier conversations/voice notes, and I really am afraid I made something good into something really gross. I regret making our business public by talking to a third party, someone I don't even know. I'm worried I creeped her out, a complete stranger asking about her relationships. I wish I'd just taken it up with him, if anybody.
I really miss him and as much as I feel that he might've been bending the truth and flirting with other women, I feel like I'm the one who truly fucked this one up. Like we might've been able to salvage it if I hadn't. Or maybe there was nothing to salvage or hold up, I was driving myself crazy with paranoia, he seemed so different suddenly. I don't know. I can't eat and I keep waking up at night feeling horrible. He really is so kind and supportive. This is the first relationship that I've been in that has been this reciprocal. I truly felt wanted.
I keep imagining that maybe I'll go visit his city and say hi just to make myself feel okay. And then I feel sick about what I did. That he probably wouldn't even want to see me.
I feel embarrassed, vulnerable and raw. I feel like I've been humiliated, but I humiliated myself. I feel like I went against my own integrity. I don't know how to feel more okay, I just keep crying.

July:
Alpha Academy - the weeks leading up to SummerSlam has led to the Alpha Academy winning most of their matches leading to a tag team title match against Awesome Truth at SummerSlam.
August:
SUMMERSLAM:

1. Cody [C] vs The Rock

Winner: Cody Rhodes

1. Awesome Truth [C] vs Alpha Academy

Winner: Awesome Truth

1. Sami Zayn [C] vs Chad Gable

Winner: Sami Zayn
RAW:
Rumours have been circulating on social media that Gable will be taking some time off.
Gable admits that it’s true and announces to the world that he and the Alpha Academy have been offered training and will be taking some time off. They have been offered training to help him get to the next level to achieve his dreams and to allow him to guide the Alpha Academy to gold.
November:
SURVIVOR SERIES:

1. WarGames: Team Cody: Cody/Dustin/Orton vs The Bloodline - The Rock/Solo/Tonga

Winner: The Bloodline
RAW:
Kurt Angle is having a conversation with Adam Pearce. Adam Pearce clearly fanboying over Kurt, talking about how he was his hero when he was younger. They talk about the Ruthless Agression era with Adam asking for tips on how he could make a new version of the Ruthless Agression era.
January:
ROYAL RUMBLE:
Adam Pearce changes the match type for Cody vs The Rock from a singles match to a No DQ match as he wants to implement Ruthless Aggression into the wwe universe this year.

1. Cody [C] vs The Rock - No DQ

Solo/Tonga proceed to interfere as do Dustin/Randy. Eventually fighting out of the area to allow Cody and The Rock to carry on with their match alone.
Roman Reigns music hits, the Tribal Chief returns. He enters the ring and Spears Cody. The Rock sets up the people’s elbow but when he bounces off the rope, Roman jumping guillotines him, puts him to sleep and drags Cody over him for the pin.
Winner: Cody Rhodes

1. 30 Man Royal Rumble

The Alpha Academy return with Otis fashioning a Vader like mask. Akira and Otis working as a unit following instructions by Gable to eliminate several wrestlers whilst he is able to hold off the bigger threats such as Braun Strowman until the Alpha Academy unite and all work together to eliminate him and other threats that are capable of eliminating Gable.
Eventually Akira and Otis tire towards the end of the Rumble and are eliminated however Gable continues until it is just him and Sami Zayn that remain.
Zayn lines up a Helluva kick, as he runs towards Gable and raises his leg, Gable ducks under his leg and uses the momentum to toss Zayn over the top rope to eliminate him.
Winner: Chad Gable
“CHAD GABLE is your 2025 Royal Rumble Winner!”
Gable celebrates and the Alpha Academy come to join him in the ring to celebrate, putting their leader on their shoulders as he points to the WrestleMania sign.
Zayn returns to the ring and is met by Gable. Zayn offers out his hand to congratulate him. Gable smiles and proceeds to shake Zayn’s hand. Zayn goes to let go of the handshake but Gable refuses to let go and takes this moment of confusion by Zayn to German suplex him.
Gable points to Akira who knows exactly what he wants. Otis has already proceeded to viciously attack Zayn in the ring.
Akira returns to set up a table, Otis is then instructed by Gable to do it. Otis power bombs Zayn through the table.
Zayn is visibly suffering but Gable isn’t done and ankle locks Zayn. WWE officials attempt to interject but are beaten down by Akira and Otis. Zayn starts to tap but Gable refuses to let go and Zayn screams out in pain.
Gable takes a moment to enjoy the agony that he is putting Zayn through only to then break Zayns ankle.
The Alpha Academy are back but this is a more ruthless version than we are used to seeing.
February:
RAW:

• Zayn on crutches relinquishes his Intercontinental title stating that due to injury he will no longer be able to defend the title. He states that when he returns he will be coming for the Alpha Academy and that Gable will pay for what he has done.

Gable and the Alpha Academy appear, Gable thanks Zayn for forcing him to change, to become more ruthless and intense. He then questions Zayns intelligence. He is alone in the ring injured and with no back up. Gable and the Alpha Academy circle the four sides of the ring. One side remains open however a hooded man from the crowd jumps the barricade to take this spot.
Gable, the Alpha Academy and the hooded man proceed to beat up Sami Zayn once again. The Alpha Academy hold Zayn in the ring, Gable points to the hooded man and instructs him to do it, the hooded man german suplexs Zayn out of the ring and in doing so his hood comes down to reveal that the hooded man is Damon Kemp.

• Roman Reigns tells the world why he attacked The Rock. He wanted to remind the world that he was the leader of the Bloodline, that although The Rock has been acting like the leader, he isn’t, Roman Reigns is the tribal chief and he demands The Rock acknowledge him once again and fall in line.

RAW:

• Gable confirms that he will challenge Cody for his title at Wrestlemania.

Cody questions the integrity of his Wrestlemania opponent, he states that he doesn’t recognise this version of Chad Gable. He was once so proud of him leading the Alpha Academy and teaching the next generation but he is so disappointed in Gable’s actions of late but he believes he can change and find himself again, by beating Gable at Wrestlemania he hopes he can knock some sense back into him and remind him of the good guy he truly is at heart.
Gable tells Cody this is who he is at heart, a leader and the past couple of months of training that he has gone through has made him more ruthless than ever before. Gable instructs his Alpha Academy. The group swarm Cody, Cody manages some good offence but is eventually overwhelmed by the number Alpha Academy. Kemp suplexs Cody, Cody attempts to get up but Otis power bombs Cody and just as he is crawling from his knees to try and stand up one more time, Akira grabs his arms and proceeds to kick Cody’s face in.
RAW:

• Kurt Angle arrives at the arena and whilst walking he bumps into Cody, he explains what a great champion he is and how proud Dusty would have been of him. Kurt then states he has got to go as he has a meeting with Adam Pearce.
  
• Pearce announces that due to what happened at the Royal Rumble and in spirit of this there will be two Battle Royals with the the winner of each facing off at the Elimination Chamber for the vacant Intercontinental title.
  
• 4 Man Battle Royal - Winner: Braun Strowman
  
• 4 Man Battle Royal - Winner: Otis due to interference from the Alpha Academy
  
• The Rock states that he is the leader of the bloodline as he is the High Chief above all. Roman must fall in line and acknowledge him.
  
• Roman appears and tells the Rock that although he is the High Chief he doesn’t intend on falling in line, in fact he wants to challenge the Rock and his bloodline at elimination chamber for the leader of all the bloodline. The Rock agrees.
  

ELIMINATION CHAMBER:

1. Bloodline Civil War - 6 Man Tag Tribal Combat

The Rock/Solo/Tonga vs Roman/Jey/Jimmy
Winner: Team Rock

1. Braun Strowman vs Otis - Vacant Intercontinental Championship

Winner: Otis/with help from The Alpha Academy
March:
RAW:
Cody demands a match with anyone from the Alpha Academy for what they did to him.
Gable states that Cody should be careful what he wishes for. My prize student, my pig, Otis will teach you a lesson.

1. Cody [C] vs Otis [C]

Winner: Cody Rhodes - Otis smashes Cody but weathers the storm of the monster and eventually defeats Otis.
Gable and the Alpha Academy appear to then go on to attack Cody. Randy and Dustin run in to help even up the numbers before Gable and his Alpha Academy retreat.
RAW:
Braun Strowman demands a rematch against Otis for the title and states that the only reason he lost was because the Alpha Academy interfered. Pearce agrees and states that if Braun can defeat Akira tonight and Kemp next week he will have his rematch at Wrestlemania and the Alpha Academy will be barred from attending the match otherwise Gable will lose his opportunity to challenge Cody and it will go to Braun.

1. Braun vs Akira

Winner: Braun Strowman
RAW:
Roman acknowledges the Rock as the High Chief and the leader of the bloodline but invokes a tribal battle challenge to The Rock one on one, no interference, no weapons, just man vs man for the leadership of the bloodline. If Roman loses he will leave the tribe forever.

1. Braun vs Kemp

Winner: Braun Strowman
RAW:

• The Rock accepts Romans challenge and instructs all of the Bloodline that if they interfere they will be cast out from the tribe.
  
• Adam Pearce appears with Kurt Angle and states that RAW have been beating Smackdown in the ratings all year. He wants to thank Kurt, who has been acting as his adviser this year to make the product an improved version of the Ruthless Aggression era. Adam is so grateful that he wants Kurt to be a guest at this years Wrestlemania, a special guest, he wants him to have the best seat available and asks if he would accept being a special guest referee in the main event of wrestlemania to which Kurt accepts.
  

WRESTLEMANIA:

1. Otis [C] vs Braun Strowman

Winner: Otis

1. The Rock vs Roman Reigns - Leader of the Bloodline - the entire Bloodline are ringside and is essentially a lumberjack match

Winner: Roman Reigns

1. Main Event: Cody Rhodes [C] vs Chad Gable - Special Guest referee: Kurt Angle

The match goes back and forth, at times Kurt has been slow to get to the mat to count the pin for both Cody and Chad and when confronted by both of them he gestures to having a bad back slowing him down.
Cody eventually hits 3 CrossRhodes on Gable and would have him down for the count but Kurt is extremely slow at getting down to the mat and even slower at counting to the point Gable kicks out. Cody is seething with anger, screaming at Kurt and goes onto push him. Kurt pushes him back and shouts at Cody to concentrate and finish the match. Whilst his back is turned Gable uses this opportunity to suplex Cody and get him in an ankle lock. Cody manages to get to the ropes but Gable refuses to let go of the hold. Angle tells Gable to let go of the hold.
Cody manages to get to his feet only to be Olympic Slammed by Angle and then suplexed multiple times by Gable.
Gable then goes for the pin to which Kurt quickly gets to the mat and fast counts 1 2 3.
Winner: Chad Gable
Kurt raises Gables arm in victory and gives him the title. The Alpha Academy join the celebration. Gable isn’t done with Cody however and attacks him with the title causing blood to gush from his forehead. Gable then ankle locks Cody, with applause from Kurt. Kurt tells Gable to snap his ankle! To which Gable obliges. Cody screams out in pain, broken.
The Alpha Academy continue to celebrate as Chad Gable has now achieved his dream.

Over the past few days I've gotten next to zero sleep. I fell ill with a fever which made it impossible to sleep the first night and my anxiety over that has essentially kept me up since. I got 4 hours the following day followed by none in the night and then none at all yet the next day and night.
I finally crashed for 8 hours afterwards but it felt like I hadn't slept at all due to that not being enough to catch up on everything lost. That night I yet again failed to sleep entirely and it's the day now and I'm so wired with extreme panic and anxiety that instead of settling to sleep I soon start writhing around and fidgeting to self-soothe.
I don't seem to reach the point of my tiredness outweighing my anxiety until I hit literally 3 - 4 days without sleep.
I don't know what the fuck to do. Nothing touches my anxiety. I am terrified by the act of keeping my eyes closed. I see so many frantic random thoughts and images that make me feel like I'm entering psychosis and I'm constantly acutely aware of the fact that I might end up hospitalised from this.
I think I'm going to keep going 3 - 4 days before sleeping and I'm horrified by what that could mean for the state of my brain. That isn't sustainable at all. I feel like I'm literally going to die from this due to my brain almost never having its customary cleansing of toxins through slow wave sleep.
This anxiety just doesn't seem to reduce through conventional means. It doesn't care about me or my attitude. It's just like a fight or flight switch is constantly stuck to the "on" setting and doesn't change regardless of any attempt to ground myself. It feels like a 24/7 panic attack. All I'm missing is the racing heart.
I think I'm fucking done for. I'm only a 25 year old woman. I don't want to go out to insomnia induced brain damage. I have a wife to take care of.
I've had a couple insomnia bouts before but one was an isolated 2 day moment and the other time I slept about 2 - 3 hours a day for a couple months but at least I was sleeping.

This is an update to my recent post where I wanted to hear people’s opinions on if this season was worth watching. Eventually I decided I’d try it and these are my thoughts. I want to preface this by saying I have not seen all 7 seasons before this. Of the 7 I have seen seasons 1, 2, 4, and 7. The first 5 episodes seriously gripped me. I LOVED seeing so many previous players come back and interact with each other. I loved seeing some of their outside relationships show as they competed. I was struggling very much to find out how this was possibly a hated season. It had all the starting elements of an amazing season such as a great cast, lots of great moments, humor, and personality clashes. Richard Hatch killing and biting a shark back will now forever be one of my favorite moments on the show. Then…I got to episode 5. I was still vibing with the show and loved seeing the cast dynamics and then during the immunity challenge the Richard and Sue incident happened. At first I didn’t really register or see what happened I just thought Hatch was being Hatch and was just trying to annoy his competition. Then Jeff yelled out and I had to rewind and I still couldn’t really understand what had happened. I assumed he was just shaking his penis and grossed everyone out so I brushed it off. I was also confused that Sue didn’t just take the other route. Then Hatch is voted out much to my dismay as he’s been a big part of what’s made this season so entertaining so far. I never expected him to get very far but I still wanted him to make the jury. Regardless I moved past it and went to episode 6. Sue is very clearly not ok and verbalizes how the situation has made her feel over time. At this point it became clear to me that this was the big controversial moment that cast a shadow over a season that should have been enjoyable. My heart starts to sink because I feel so bad for this woman and at the same time I didn’t feel like Hatch did anything to purposely harass her. The episode progresses and everyone on the tribe has a pretty uncaring and (out of character for most of them) annoyance with Sue. They theorize that she’s doing this for a lawsuit, that the environment has made her crazy, or that she has some kind of strategical motive. No one truly tried to check on her besides Alicia. Then it’s challenge time and everything Sue is feeling comes out at Probst as he makes(a pretty poor attempt) to explain and talk about the situation. In this moment I felt so many conflicted feelings. I understood her feelings and felt terrible for her, I felt confusion about the situation and tried to think about Hatch’s actions and intentions, I tried to move past how the tribe reacted and reminded myself they are in a gaming mindset. But honestly after it happened and Sue quit and everyone immediately wanted to have a challenge instead of talking about it I decided to stop watching. I watch Survivor to relax and enjoy myself and I felt the season had been marred in a way I couldn’t enjoy it anymore. The tone shifted and my mood changed. I have friends that have been SA’d and this was such a complex situation with poor editing and production mistakes. I wish Hatch could’ve been there to apologize or explain or some kind of discussion could have been had but honestly at that point the season was ruined for me. I think this had potential to be an amazing season if not for such an unfortunate event that has hurt all parties involved. I would love to hear anyone else’s thoughts on the situation so please comment what you took from it.
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on days I knew I had off at least the next morning, I used to sit in my living room, watch standup comedy, and drink a bottle of wine. mostly it was just a bottle of wine, sometimes less, but near the end it started to escalate into whatever else I could find in the house to keep the feeling going. This would turn into my vision blurring to the point where I couldn't read the captions on my TV, so I would get all frustrated and go and try to lay down, but then I would get dizzy and nauseous when I closed my eyes. so I'd sit up and look at my phone for hours, or sometimes go throw up and then take a 3am shower where I just sat down in the tub and let the water run over me. I'd finally get to sleep around 5, effectively wasting both my night at the next morning. I'd have a little hangover and go through the rest of the next day feeling dull and anxious, still craving a drink.
Last night, the temptation was there. I craved the deep relaxation I used to get from wine, and I wished for some reason that I could go back to my old routine. Then I thought about the reality of the routine, and the reality was that I spent 15 hours recovering from 3 hours of drinking. at least a few days a week, because I work night shift and that was my revenge time. I was feeling like shit constantly, and the cycle crept up on me in a way I didn't catch or understand at first. Nobody said anything to me about it- my partner who I live with would tease me because he never saw truly how much I drank or what happened afterwards (we usually slept separate due to how late I'd be up), when I had roommates they would just laugh it off as my "personal time". My coworkers never said anything about us going out to drink constantly, just asked if we were doing it again the next day.
I had to realize it myself. I tried to visualize a calendar marked with every drink I'd had since new year's. It was every single day. at least 2-3, on my light days. I was terrified. I'm pretty young, 22, but I know all too well the ways that you can destroy your life without even realizing. I've seen it, and I saw it in myself.
when I craved that wine, in my heart, I knew I wanted to have a night where I could read the captions on my TV. I knew I didn't want to feel dizzy and nauseous, or binge eat through all my snacks, or take that weird shower, or stay up until 5am. I wanted to feel like I could sleep next to my partner without disturbing them, I wanted to feel normal the next morning.
I didn't drink. I enjoyed comedy sets for about two hours, giggling with my cat in my lap and a glass of water, and I went to sleep a little after midnight. I woke up today without a headache, without that cloud over me, without already looking forward to the next time I "get to drink". my partner is gently snoring next to me. This is the life I was supposed to have.

Background
Recently I have posted a bit about how GRRM seemingly changed the Ironborn plotline and moved Euron as villain from to Dany to Bran. I think that the foreshadowing exists, especially since GRRM has seemingly been building up Euron for so long, but one issue I have always had is the disconnect between Euron (an Ironborn/Drowned God) getting a similar dream to Bran (Northman/Old Gods). I thought it would be fun to explore some potential ties.
If interested: Euron Greyjoy's Changed Plotline & The Split Greyjoy Plotline

All these differences, Archmaester Haereg asserts in his History of the Ironborn, are rooted in religion. These cold, wet, windswept islands were never well forested, and their thin soil did not support the growth of weirwoods. No giants ever made their homes here, nor did the children of the forest walk what woods there were. The old gods worshipped by these elder races were likewise absent. And though the Andals did reach the islands eventually, their Faith never took root here either, for another god had come before the Seven: the Drowned God, creator of the seas and father of the ironborn. -TWOIAF, The Iron Islands

Learning to Fly
So as I mentioned above it seems like Euron had a similar dream to Bran's coma dream as a child:

Euron stood by the window, drinking from a silver cup. He wore the sable cloak he took from Blacktyde, his red leather eye patch, and nothing else. “When I was a boy, I dreamt that I could fly,” he announced. “When I woke, I couldn’t … or so the maester said. But what if he lied?”
Victarion could smell the sea through the open window, though the room stank of wine and blood and sex. The cold salt air helped to clear his head. “What do you mean?”
Euron turned to face him, his bruised blue lips curled in a half smile. “Perhaps we can fly. All of us. How will we ever know unless we leap from some tall tower?” The wind came gusting through the window and stirred his sable cloak. There was something obscene and disturbing about his nakedness. “No man ever truly knows what he can do unless he dares to leap.”

and:

“Why?” Bran said, not understanding, falling, falling.
Because winter is coming.
Bran looked at the crow on his shoulder, and the crow looked back. It had three eyes, and the third eye was full of a terrible knowledge. Bran looked down. There was nothing below him now but snow and cold and death, a frozen wasteland where jagged blue-white spires of ice waited to embrace him. They flew up at him like spears. He saw the bones of a thousand other dreamers impaled upon their points. He was desperately afraid.
“Can a man still be brave if he’s afraid?” he heard his own voice saying, small and far away.
And his father’s voice replied to him. “That is the only time a man can be brave.”
Now, Bran, the crow urged. Choose. Fly or die.
Death reached for him, screaming.

but later on Bloodraven seemingly ties flying to greenseeing:

“Only one man in a thousand is born a skinchanger,” Lord Brynden said one day, after Bran had learned to fly, “and only one skinchanger in a thousand can be a greenseer.” -ADWD, Bran III

and:

“Your blood makes you a greenseer,” said Lord Brynden. “This will help awaken your gifts and wed you to the trees.”
Bran did not want to be married to a tree … but who else would wed a broken boy like him? A thousand eyes, a hundred skins, wisdom deep as the roots of ancient trees. A greenseer. -ADWD, Bran III

Sacrifices to Weirwood Trees in Ironborn Legends
While the Drowned God predates the Seven in Westeros, the old gods are seemingly referenced in a way. The Ironborn refer to what is a likely a weirwood as "Ygg":

In the Age of Heroes, the legends say, the ironborn were ruled by a mighty monarch known simply as the Grey King. The Grey King ruled the sea itself and took a mermaid to wife, so his sons and daughters might live above the waves or beneath them as they chose. His hair and beard and eyes were as grey as a winter sea, and from these he took his name. The crown he wore was made of driftwood, so all who knelt before him might know that his kingship came from the sea and the Drowned God who dwells beneath it.
The deeds attributed to the Grey King by the priests and singers of the Iron Islands are many and marvelous. It was the Grey King who brought fire to the earth by taunting the Storm God until he lashed down with a thunderbolt, setting a tree ablaze. The Grey King also taught men to weave nets and sails and carved the first longship from the hard pale wood of Ygg, a demon tree who fed on human flesh.
The Grey King's greatest feat, however, was the slaying of Nagga, largest of the sea dragons, a beast so colossal that she was said to feed on leviathans and giant krakens and drown whole islands in her wroth. The Grey King built a mighty longhall about her bones, using her ribs as beams and rafters. From there he ruled the Iron Islands for a thousand years, until his very skin had turned as grey as his hair and beard. Only then did he cast aside his driftwood crown and walk into the sea, descending to the Drowned God's watery halls to take his rightful place at his right hand. -TWOIAF, The Iron Islands: Driftwood Crowns

and it matches up really well with some ancient (and others not so ancient) tales of weirwoods:

Maester Yorrick's Wed to the Sea, Being an Account of the History of White Harbor from Its Earliest Days, which recounts the practice of blood sacrifice to the old gods. Such sacrifices persisted as recently as five centuries ago, according to accounts from Maester Yorrick's predecessors at White Harbor. -TWOIAF, Ancient History: The Dawn Age

and:

And so they did, gathering in their hundreds (some say on the Isle of Faces), and calling on their old gods with song and prayer and grisly sacrifice (a thousand captive men were fed to the weirwood, one version of the tale goes, whilst another claims the children used the blood of their own young). -TWOIAF, Dorne: The Breaking

and:

"The old ones." When Ser Bartimus grinned, he looked just like a skull. "Me and mine were here before the Manderlys. Like as not, my own forebears strung those entrails through the tree."
"I never knew that northmen made blood sacrifice to their heart trees."
"There's much and more you southrons do not know about the north," Ser Bartimus replied. -ADWD, Davos IV

Skinchangers Among the Ironborn
Skinchanging is quite rare outside of the north/worshippers of the old gods (no confirmed occurrences). We only see rumors with House Blackmont (Dorne), House Crane (The Reach) and House Farwynd (Iron Islands). This obviously doesn't tie to Euron directly:

A secondary island grouping lies eight days' sail to the northwest in the Sunset Sea. There, seals and sea lions make their rookeries on windswept rocks too small to support even a single household. On the largest rock stands the keep of House Farwynd, named the Lonely Light for the beacon that blazes atop its roof day and night. Queer things are said of the Farwynds and the smallfolk they rule. Some say they lie with seals to bring forth half-human children, whilst others whisper that they are skinchangers who can take the forms of sea lions, walrus, even spotted whales, the wolves of the western seas. -TWOIAF, The Iron Islands

Euron's Blood Eye
Bloodraven says this to Bran about Greenseers:

“In a sense. Those you call the children of the forest have eyes as golden as the sun, but once in a great while one is born amongst them with eyes as red as blood, or green as the moss on a tree in the heart of the forest. By these signs do the gods mark those they have chosen to receive the gift. The chosen ones are not robust, and their quick years upon the earth are few, for every song must have its balance. But once inside the wood they linger long indeed. A thousand eyes, a hundred skins, wisdom deep as the roots of ancient trees. Greenseers.” -ADWD, Bran III

and while Euron has a blue "smiling eye" that he shows the world:

A black leather patch covered Euron's left eye, but his right was blue as a summer sky.
His smiling eye, thought Victarion. "Crow's Eye," he said. -AFFC, The Iron Captain

he also has a "blood eye" that he keeps hidden (it is seemingly black):

Crowfood. Theon remembered. An old man, huge and powerful, with a ruddy face and a shaggy white beard. He had been seated on a garron, clad in the pelt of a gigantic snow bear, its head his hood. Under it he wore a stained white leather eye patch that reminded Theon of his uncle Euron. He’d wanted to rip it off Umber’s face, to make certain that underneath was only an empty socket, not a black eye shining with malice. -TWOW, Theon I

and:

When he laughed his face sloughed off and the priest saw that it was not Urri but Euron, the smiling eye hidden. He showed the world his blood eye now, dark and terrible. -TWOW, The Forsaken

If interested: Euron's Eyepatch/Blood Eye & Euron's Eyes (Smiling and Blood)
Illness/Near Death Experience
Another thing worth noting is that Jojen (not a greenseer, just "a boy who dreams") seemingly started getting visions after a fever:

"When I was little I almost died of greywater fever. That was when the crow came to me." -ACOK, Bran IV

which matches up with Brans:

"He came to me after I fell," Bran blurted. "I was asleep for a long time. He said I had to fly or die, and I woke up, only I was broken and I couldn't fly after all." -ACOK, Bran IV

so it is very possible that Euron either got sick or almost died as a child. Looking at Euron's childhood, we know that one of his elder brothers (Harlon) had Greyscale:

Nine sons had been born from the loins of Quellon Greyjoy, the Lord of the Iron Islands. Harlon, Quenton, and Donel had been born of Lord Quellon's first wife, a woman of the Stonetrees. Balon, Euron, Victarion, Urrigon, and Aeron were the sons of his second, a Sunderly of Saltcliffe. For a third wife Quellon took a girl from the green lands, who gave him a sickly idiot boy named Robin, the brother best forgotten. The priest had no memory of Quenton or Donel, who had died as infants. Harlon he recalled but dimly, sitting grey-faced and still in a windowless tower room and speaking in whispers that grew fainter every day as the greyscale turned his tongue and lips to stone. One day we shall feast on fish together in the Drowned God's watery halls, the four of us and Urri too. -AFFC, The Prophet

and was eventually killed by Euron:

“And yet I wear a crown and you rot in chains. How is it that your Drowned God allows that when I have killed three brothers?”
Aeron could only gape at him. “Three?”
“Well, if you count half-brothers. Do you remember little Robin? Wretched creature. Do you remember that big head of his, how soft it was? All he could do was mewl and shit. He was my second. Harlon was my first. All I had to do was pinch his nose shut. The greyscale had turned his mouth to stone so he could not cry out. But his eyes grew frantic as he died. They begged me. When the life went out of them, I went out and pissed into the sea, waiting for the god to strike me down. None did. Oh, and Balon was the third, but you knew that. I could not do the deed myself, but it was my hand that pushed him off the bridge.” -TWOW, The Forsaken

and while we don't know how Harlon got it, I am assuming that Euron could have been exposed to it. We also have other children of Quellon dying young for unknown reasons (Quenton, Donel)
Other Thoughts

• Bloodraven disappeared beyond the Wall in 252AC and Euron was born between 256 and 268AC
• Harlon may be a reference to Harlan Ellison (I Have No Mouth and I Must Scream)
• Thralldom was common among ancient First Men

TLDR: From a narrative and foreshadowing perspective, I see how Euron Greyjoy makes sense as a major villain (or at least the bringer of the "end"), and a character who had a similar dream to Bran as a child. One small issue I have always had with it was the disconnect between Euron/Ironborn/Drowned God and the Greenseers/Old Gods. In this post I explored several (small) connections ranging from weirwoods, illness, "red" eyes and skinchangers.

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Did anyone have any issues with heart palpitations/racing when starting this medication? It scared me.

(I forgot I put "did I fuck up?" in the title, please ignore that part.)
This is long, so I apologise in advance.
I (F32) broke things off with a guy I'd been talking to online for 6months a couple days ago. We found each other online and weren't planning on getting into anything serious long distance (different countries, couple hours away), but we just hit it off. For the longest time it was really nice. We had a real supportive emotional connection, and we were also both crazy into each others looks.
He was supposed to come see me in mid-april, but he missed his flight. I know this sounds dodgy, but I spent the night at the hotel he'd booked where we were supposed to stay at. We were both miserable, but for about a week after it, things felt same as ever.
Then, I felt his energy change. He pulled away. Like he wasn't as interested anymore. It felt the same as when I've been jilted for another woman previously. I tried to deal with it, but last week I decided to mention it. I said it felt like he wasn't interested anymore. He said that he's just discouraged after we didn't end up meeting, and because I said I'd like to get back to planning us seeing once my recruitment process was over. I thought this would take a day or two. But it's been 3 weeks now and they're still undecided. He said he'd started doubting the feasibility of our thing, the traveling back and forth, and whether "it would be easier for both of us... I mean, if we meet, the feasibility issues are still gonna be there?"
I asked him another question, "have you just found someone new to talk to?"
And honestly, his answer felt and feels bad to me. He said "No, I wouldn't say so... I haven't spoken to anyone within the same context as you at all." I would've thought the answer would've been "No, of course not". But "I wouldn't say so? Not in the same context?" What does that mean?
I couldn't shake the feeling that I was being... quiet dumped for someone else, and on instagram I found a photo by a woman, standing in front of a sign that said "kiss my butt". She had tagged the guy I'd been talking to in the comments, saying "sign is aimed @ you", a week ago. My heart dropped. I felt like my gut feeling had been right.
I don't know what the right course of action here would've been. Ask him? But his "I wouldn't say so... not within the same context" left me feeling insecure and confused... what does that even mean? I wish I'd pressed him more at the time.
Anyway... I did something I now regret. I picked one of her very old posts so that it wouldn't show up to someone browsing the latest ones, and left her a polite message. I told her that I've been seeing/talking to a guy, and was under the impression that we're exclusive, but that I saw he'd been liking a couple of her most recent pictures. I asked if there was something going on between them, and I just wished for clarity. She never replied to me, didn't block me. I hoped just asking would bring clarity. But she just made her profile private.
I wish I'd just gone for a walk instead of trying to talk to her. Disconnected myself from the situation. Grounded myself. Something.
In an anxious panic, I sent him a message, "I can't do this, I can't trust you anymore and it's making me act in a genuinely insane manner". Then I cried for a full day. Just regretting that I'd contacted her, it makes me feel sick to my stomach. I have no idea whether she told him, I assume so, since he made his instagram profile private after I messaged him and broke things off. I feel like I broke his trust.
I unblocked him, kept it vague (didn't mention sending her a message) but apologised and explained that the sudden doubt he expressed had made me feel like I'm just gonna be waiting to see whether he'll keep wanting to see me, just waiting to be picked while I don't know where I stand anymore. But that it felt unfair to block him, so if he wanted to talk, he could, but if he didn't that's fine too.
He replied that there are things he wants to say but he won't, and he thinks that it' "obviously" best for us to end things where they are now. He said he takes blame for my mental state, but "doesn't think it should have come to this". I thanked him for being kind to me and he said I should be kind to myself also.
I was listening back to our earlier conversations/voice notes, and I really am afraid I made something good into something really gross. I regret making our business public by talking to a third party, someone I don't even know. I'm worried I creeped her out, a complete stranger asking about her relationships.
I really miss him and as much as I feel that he might've been bending the truth and flirting with other women, I feel like I'm the one who truly fucked this one up. Like we might've been able to salvage it if I hadn't. Or maybe there was nothing to salvage or hold up, I was driving myself crazy with paranoia, he seemed so different suddenly. I don't know. I can't eat and I keep waking up at night feeling horrible. He really is so kind and supportive. This is the first relationship that I've been in that has been this reciprocal. I truly felt wanted.
I keep imagining that maybe I'll go visit his city and say hi just to make myself feel okay. And then I feel sick about what I did. That he probably wouldn't even want to see me.
I feel embarrassed, vulnerable and raw. I feel like I've been humiliated, but I humiliated myself. I feel like I went against my own integrity. I don't know how to feel more okay, I just keep crying.

Sometimes I don't know where I'm going when I begin to ramble, Sometimes I just feel like I'm tired of being caught up in the scramble.
I just want to put my thoughts on a page, And not have to worry about having to act my age.
I want to scream, I want to be obscene.
I don't want to be judged, Or to be coaxed and nudged.
I'm so tired of people opining that you can't have an opinion, It makes me want to open the inkwell and stick my pen in.
And overflow the page with my thoughts, To show how it feels to constantly have your mind tied in knots.
To have your heart and brain betray your hand, To crack another sarcastic joke that fails to land.
I don't need to feel like a saint, But somedays I want to drench this world in artistic paint.
Make it black or make it red, Sometimes I just need to detox and get this shit out of my head.
Clean out the clogged up attic, And fire a shot at some prick who pissed me off, while I'm at it.
It isn't right, it isn't wrong, But ya, if you want to fight, I'll write you into a song.
I am able to get physical, But I would rather keep it on a page and continue to be quizzical.
Like, how can I say what I need, In a way that will still get people to read?
What if I bend a word here, Or combine some words there, would anyone even care?
What if I get complex? Am I really in a rut if what I utter is a common hex?
Or should I say, what if I swear when I flex? Is it fair if my words cause some people to become jibbering wrecks?
What if I self censor? But then, eventually I snap, and everything gets tenser?
And no, that isn't a word, Let it go, if you really want to rhyme, you have to let language get blurred.
Not everything sounds right phonically, So, you gotta mash the words together like they aren't just together platonically.
Screw them around, Brew them into a sound.
Give them a shake, Take out a line break.
Cut the sentence in two, Changing the tense will do.
It's better to just let the emotion flow, You don't gotta follow the letter, the motion will grow.
By the way, that was a triple rhyme, Because sometimes I just get tired of saying the dribble that comes to me on a dime.
And it is almost funny how many people will miss it, They miss the honey and only hear the whining from the steeple of the misfit.
And you are damn right that I can offend, If I let people tell me what not to say, their rant would continue into the night and never end.
Because if it isn't the progressives I upset, it will be the conservatives. Either get verbally aggressive, or live my life like I gotta serve to live.
I just need something to make me feel alive, Why fall to lust or greed when I can come sting a fake by being the real deal, while catching my strive.
Because they won't take a moment to notice that you just rhymed almost every word, They have no trust that I will take the time to go absurd.
They just see that the end of each sentence echoes the last, Then they remind me without a compliment or pretense that my spelling was off, like I even asked.
And don't get me wrong, I can take criticism, I'm just more worried about the song and the lyricism.
I'm a fan of the game, And once I learn how to not just be a stan, it will never be the same.
I'm not crashing out for any pipe dream, Hashing it out until it's ripe is my scheme.
Because I'm not learning for the money or the fame, I'm just yearning to to be funny, while staying sane.
I'm just a tired jerk, launching a firework in the sky, And I'm so wired that it doesn't feel like work, and it helps me not to cry.
It will burn bright in the night, Then fade before the early light.
There will be flair and contradiction, Generally I don't care whether or not you think it is fact or fiction.
Hopefully someone will enjoy the read, Rope-a-dope, like a pulley you employ to bring you what you need.
And if some people can see me through the smoke, If some people notice there is truth behind every joke.
That's fine, But I will still be smashing gnats who cross the line.
Because it is one thing to stick to being humble, But it's another to let people kick you every time that you stumble.
They don't know this is just practice, And I won't stop continuing to grow until I hack this.
And in the end, I said nothing here, it was just for fun, I was just bluffing, shaking off the rust for the fun.
Stay on my good side and there won't be a price to pay, I'm done being snide, so have a nice day.

I started taking Strattera (40mg) just over 4 weeks ago with Wellbutrin (150mg). I know that Strattera takes a while to reach its full strength, but right now the side effects are killing me and I’m wondering if they’ll get any better. Here they are, ranked by how bad they’re affecting me:
Sexual Issues - maintaining an erection is a myth rn + occasional premature ejac. GF is not a fan
Sleep - can’t get more than 5 hours uninterrupted (tried melatonin and magnesium, neither helped)
Emotional Irregularities - waves of intense sadness, not depression just really really sad, like I want to cry for no reason
Increased Heart Rate
Excessive Sweating + dry mouth - I live in the south, so this summer will be a big problem if this stays around
Really really intense headaches
I love how calm Strattera makes my brain and it’s been a huge help for my anxiety and executive dysfunction, but I’m starting to wonder if the side effects are worth it. I’ve considered switching to Concerta but I’m just not sure if I should yet.
Does it get any better? Anyone’s experience is appreciated, I just need to know if these side effects ever went away for anyone else.

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This build is Apoc viable and I've been using it on Apoc for a while now, including a similar build before the dlc came out. It works both solo and in coop.
Overall this build is focused on status damage. You do some gun damage thanks to all damage increase, but it's nothing exceptional. You've 73% dr with 150hp, which allows you to take some hits even on Apoc and the light armor allows for a lot of dodges. The build has great AoE dps thanks to Vile, but its ST dps is below average. However, DoT is easy to keep up, which makes up for that in bossfights.
Secondary Archetype options: Alchemist, Medic or Challenger
As of the 2nd DLC there is no Archetype that has an important synergy with Ritualist, hence the Archetype choice gives you a lot of options. Personally I prefer Alchemist as I do use this regularly in coop and being able to revive allies on range can be very useful. For Challenger you can go with Rampage. Invoker isn't listed here because skill damage and duration don't work on Miasma.
Trait options: Kinship, Flash Caster, Triage, Footwork, Untouchable or Siphoner
The build has Kinship in it due to me playing coop and having it in coop can be very helpful. In case you're playing solo you can switch it to something else.
Concoction options: Meat shake, Mudtooth's Tonic
Meat Shake gives you 550Ehp, while Mudtooth's Tonic gives you 556Ehp. Mudtooth's Tonic gives you a bit more Ehp, but also increases the time it takes to fully heal yourself.
Armor options: Light or Medium
Personally I prefer Light armor as it allows you to dodge more often and it looks good.
For Medium Armor full Bruiser set is the most effective. If you're playing Challenger I'd recommend to go with this.
Relic options: Tranquil Heart or what you prefer
I personally like to use Tranquil Heart as it means that I don't have to use a Relic to heal myself. If you prefer a different Relic, i.e. for burst healing, then there is nothing in this build stopping you from doing so.
Item choice explanation:
Whispering Marble + Dried Clay Ring + Gul Signet allows for a high amount of damage reduction, allowing you to tank some boss attacks on Apoc without dying instantly. The first 2 also boost all damage by 19%, which is less than the status damage increase you can get from other items, but it also boosts your gun damage.
Ahanae Crystal boosts your damage by 16% once you got all 4 debuffs on your enemy. This is the best item for increasing your damage.
Timekeeper's Jewel boosts status duration by 2x. This is multiplicative with Affliction, increasing total duration by 4x. For Miasma it means you'll have 100% uptime on bosses. It also makes it easier to keep up the DoT effects from your weapons as you won't have to switch as often, making gameplay a lot smoother.
Relic Fragments:
Elemental damage. Most of your damage is Elemental, so this is a nice damage boost.
HP and DR. This gives you a lot of survivability. Also most of the other Relic Fragments don't help Ritualist damage by much.
Long gun:
Sparkfire Shotgun: It does elemental damage, applies a burn and is just a great weapon for DoT builds.
Fargazer: A very good ST DoT effect.
Searing Wounds: It provides more damage than Fetid Wounds. Due to having a shorter duration than Twisted Wounds it's on your main gun.
Hand gun:
MP60-R: Fast fire rate allows for quick application of its mutator.
Heatwave: A lot of burning DoT that lasts for a long time. Even after the mod expired the burning effect will still last for long, which makes it a great mod on your secondary weapon.
Twisting Wounds: It provides more damage than Fetid Wounds. Due to lasting for longer than Searing Wounds it's on your secondary weapon.
Melee Weapon:
Krell Axe: It's the best melee weapon for DoT builds as you can apply Overloaded with a throw.
Tainted Blade: A great DoT effect that lasts for just as long as Krell Axe's Overloaded status.

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21 white female, 5'1, 110kg (roughly 240 pounds). I don't smoke, drink, use any substances. I've had a history of depression and anxiety pretty much my whole life. I also have a very extreme eating disorder and am currently in recovery. I know losing weight will help but it's not an option as of right now.
A few weeks ago I had a panic attack on a random weekday night and ended up in the hospital. My heart rate was at 160+, hypertensive, practically having full body convulsions from shaking. I thought I was going to die. I've never had a panic attack before, and not sure what caused it, but ever since that night I've experienced the exact same thing. every. single. night. like clockwork.
It's the worst thing ive ever experienced, and I dread the nighttime because of it. I seemingly have no anxiety when the symptoms start to show but if I do not take my anxiety sedative fast enough (50-100mg quetiapine) it'll spiral until I have to go back to the hospital. I hate taking regular medication like this but I've been having to take quetiapine every night for weeks on end to avoid these attacks, and there hasn't been a single night since that initial attack that this HASN'T happened. I don't understand what's happening and I don't know what to do about it!! Please help.
I see a psychiatrist in one week from now but any advice to carry me on until then would be so very much appreciated as I'm just so desperate for answers