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2024.05.08 04:16 HappyPomegranate63 waitlisted at tgsu (touching grass state), but Ws everywhere else (unbelievably grateful)!
Demographics
Academics
Environmental Science Teacher: 10/10, he told me that it was “glowing” and I knew I would ask him for a LOR since sophomore year. I’ve known him for all four years of high school, taken 2 classes with him, gave him science fair guidance (for his son), and have continuously shared personal climate activism updates with him; he also coaches my Activity #2 (co-captain and senior officer)→ Honor #1.
IB English/AP Lit Teacher: 9/10, she and I would have heart-to-heart discussions (and sometimes rants about some ppl…oops) regarding politics and literature. I loved connecting our texts in class, such as one by Toni Morrison, to systemic issues (unfortunately no one else really cared). We also share a wicked love for the outdoors and exploring uncharted places! The only reason I say 9/10 is because I got a 4 on the exam and had a decent amount of absences in her class, however, she fully understood my personal circumstances.
School Library Specialist/Aide: 9/10, she is undoubtedly my school “grandma" who I share all of my updates and personal adventures with. I sometimes help her sort books, organize equipment in the library, and tutor students from time to time. I read her rec and it said “[my name] ranks among the most compassionate, driven, motivated, and dedicated volunteers I've encountered in my years at [my high school]".
Interviews
Harvard: 10/10, it was amazing and I clicked immediately with my interviewer. It honestly felt like a casual conversation where I also detailed various projects/initiatives; it was nice hearing him talk abt different traditions and house pride at Harvard. The first question asked by him was “do you think we can save the world?"
Yale: 9/10, I didn’t prep much, but I loveddd talking with my interviewer about his experiences at Yale, my interests in science and government, and how multidisciplinary Yale is. He sent me the sweetest message after getting in, which honestly made my day. Giving it a 9/10 because I was sick and had to pause a few times during it LMFAO
\Note: Both interviewers were in their 60s/70s and my virtual interviews were requested by the alumni very last minute with a 1 to 2-day turnaround time.**
Essays
Personal Statement: 9/10, connecting personal growth with scientific exploration - an estuary near my house inspired me to conduct my ISEF project alongside other pursuits - tried to also keep it light-hearted
Supplemental Essays: Harvard - 10/10 (honestly, I'm super proud of them :,)), Yale - 9/10, Stanford - 8/10 (wrote in 1 day..shhhhh)
Additional Information: 10/10, really helped highlight/reinforce parts of my application - mentioned semifinalist/finalist for programs like Coke Scholars and Senate Youth; elaborated on international recognition for work on the climate (e.g. travelling to DC for a funded event); discussed my burning love for languages (from a Chinese program to my Venezuelan friend helping me learn Spanish). In a parallel universe, I would undoubtedly major in linguistics and help indigenous language preservation efforts (sorry, ling is so fcking cool but bio/enviro currently has my heart).
Decisions (indicate ED/EA/REA/SCEA/RD)
Acceptances:
Initially, I wasn't going to make this post but a friend suggested I do so—I feel like the past four years have been a wild ride—filled with exhilaration, frenzy, stress, love, and growth (as an activist, student, researcher, and human being). There are a bunch of things that I would change, if I could go back, but—as many people say—EVERYTHING WILL WORK OUT IN THE END. I have listed a few brief (p.s. you should study for your AP and IB exams...lol) pieces of advice:
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- Gender: Male
- Race/Ethnicity: White
- Residence: South
- Income Bracket: $100-130K
- Type of School: Public
- Hooks (Recruited Athlete, URM, First-Gen, Geographic, Legacy, etc.): N/A
Academics
- GPA (UW/W): 4.00/4.85
- Rank (or percentile): 3/~600
- Honors/AP/IB/Dual Enrollment/etc: 10 honors, 11 APs, 15 IB (full diploma), 10 DEs (online)
- Senior Year Course Load: Chemistry HL, Biology HL, English HL, History HL, Enviro SL, Physics SL, Theory of Knowledge, AP Calculus BC (online), DE Stats (online), AP CSP (online)
- SAT I: 1540 (740RW, 800M)
- ACT: 32 (did not report)
- AP: reported 7/9 scores; mix of 4s and 5s submitted
- IB: French B SL (7), Math SL (6), Biology SL (6)
- Environmental Activism (redacted org name) - chapter foundenational director team that uplifts network of ~70K activists; climate ed resource creation (9, 10, 11, 12)
- Students for Enviro Action and Environmental Competition (same as Honor #1) - co-led 100+ students at meetings and coastal cleanups; co-coordinated 21 competitors (9, 10, 11, 12)
- SSP Biochemistry - applied TO even though it wasn’t TO at the time! (wooooops); honestly feels like a fever dream (12)
- Foreign Language Organization - as Founder, led team of ~18; tutored in French and created extensive lesson materials (10, 11, 12)
- Key Club International - member of District Board; directed 12 clubs; co-designed a few graphics for 22K youth (9, 10, 11, 12)
- District National Honor Society - president of 10-15 HS chapters; led community-wide environmental and educational projects (11, 12)
- Environmental Research @ local college - explored MATLAB in context of seagrass health (11, 12)
- Local Environmental Nonprofit - Front Desk Staff and Microplastic Citizen Scientist (9, 10, 11, 12)
- Boy Scouts - Eagle Scout, held many many positions, earned 70+ merit badges (21 needed for Eagle)
- Wind Ensemble and Marching Band - multiple distinctions on 3 instruments; self-explanatory; uhh I had to leave after 3 years because my directors were remarkably toxic (9, 10, 11)
- 4th Place - team-based environmental competition (international)
- ISEF Finalist in Plant Sciences (international)
- Service Project Award - sorry for being vague - top 0.045% (national and regional)
- Statewide recognition in STEM - designated top STEM student in district by school board (state)
- Recognition for work in service organization - approx. 400 hours in this position (international)
Environmental Science Teacher: 10/10, he told me that it was “glowing” and I knew I would ask him for a LOR since sophomore year. I’ve known him for all four years of high school, taken 2 classes with him, gave him science fair guidance (for his son), and have continuously shared personal climate activism updates with him; he also coaches my Activity #2 (co-captain and senior officer)→ Honor #1.
IB English/AP Lit Teacher: 9/10, she and I would have heart-to-heart discussions (and sometimes rants about some ppl…oops) regarding politics and literature. I loved connecting our texts in class, such as one by Toni Morrison, to systemic issues (unfortunately no one else really cared). We also share a wicked love for the outdoors and exploring uncharted places! The only reason I say 9/10 is because I got a 4 on the exam and had a decent amount of absences in her class, however, she fully understood my personal circumstances.
School Library Specialist/Aide: 9/10, she is undoubtedly my school “grandma" who I share all of my updates and personal adventures with. I sometimes help her sort books, organize equipment in the library, and tutor students from time to time. I read her rec and it said “[my name] ranks among the most compassionate, driven, motivated, and dedicated volunteers I've encountered in my years at [my high school]".
Interviews
Harvard: 10/10, it was amazing and I clicked immediately with my interviewer. It honestly felt like a casual conversation where I also detailed various projects/initiatives; it was nice hearing him talk abt different traditions and house pride at Harvard. The first question asked by him was “do you think we can save the world?"
Yale: 9/10, I didn’t prep much, but I loveddd talking with my interviewer about his experiences at Yale, my interests in science and government, and how multidisciplinary Yale is. He sent me the sweetest message after getting in, which honestly made my day. Giving it a 9/10 because I was sick and had to pause a few times during it LMFAO
\Note: Both interviewers were in their 60s/70s and my virtual interviews were requested by the alumni very last minute with a 1 to 2-day turnaround time.**
Essays
Personal Statement: 9/10, connecting personal growth with scientific exploration - an estuary near my house inspired me to conduct my ISEF project alongside other pursuits - tried to also keep it light-hearted
Supplemental Essays: Harvard - 10/10 (honestly, I'm super proud of them :,)), Yale - 9/10, Stanford - 8/10 (wrote in 1 day..shhhhh)
Additional Information: 10/10, really helped highlight/reinforce parts of my application - mentioned semifinalist/finalist for programs like Coke Scholars and Senate Youth; elaborated on international recognition for work on the climate (e.g. travelling to DC for a funded event); discussed my burning love for languages (from a Chinese program to my Venezuelan friend helping me learn Spanish). In a parallel universe, I would undoubtedly major in linguistics and help indigenous language preservation efforts (sorry, ling is so fcking cool but bio/enviro currently has my heart).
Decisions (indicate ED/EA/REA/SCEA/RD)
Acceptances:
- Squidward Community College (SCC) - with a clarinet scholarship!
- Vanderbilt (RD) - Chancellor’s Scholarship!
- FSU (RD) - Honors/Presidential Scholars
- UF (RD) - Honors/Research Program
- Yale (RD)
- Stanford (RD)
- Harvard (REA)!!!
- Touching Grass State University (TGSU)
- N/A :,)
Initially, I wasn't going to make this post but a friend suggested I do so—I feel like the past four years have been a wild ride—filled with exhilaration, frenzy, stress, love, and growth (as an activist, student, researcher, and human being). There are a bunch of things that I would change, if I could go back, but—as many people say—EVERYTHING WILL WORK OUT IN THE END. I have listed a few brief (p.s. you should study for your AP and IB exams...lol) pieces of advice:
- Do what genuinely interests you! This is a cliché statement, but it couldn't be closer to the truth. Want to make a language in your own script? Want to develop a CS model to identify plastic wastes? Want to pour your heart out into playing the guitar? Want to write a blog analyzing your favorite Laufey song? Want to create a mural in your community made with recycled materials?
- Please do not take a quadrillion classes indiscriminately. I was obsessed with class rank in 10th and 11th grade, so I would naturally take online AP and DE classes on top of a full IB Diploma courseload. Uhhhh it was also crazy taking 4 sciences my senior year. Please. Do. Not. Do. This.
- Try not to compare your personal circumstances with others! Everyone is on their own path coming from different socioeconomic backgrounds, medical histories, etc. Be the best YOU.
- Appreciate your teachers. Yes, it's hard to reflect on your teachers when you have 6 others equally piling on assignments—as you also try to balance ECs. However, they have helped shape who you are and are (for the most part...yes some just suck) really interesting individuals.
2024.05.08 03:06 Trash_Tia I was part of a junior detective gang in a small town with no monsters. So, we decided to make our own.
When I was ten, I formed a junior detective squad.
Mom bought me the entire box set of What's New Scooby Doo, and I was inspired to start my very own detective gang. I held auditions outside the gymnasium at recess (serious enquiries only) after a number of kids tried to apply for the role of Scooby Doo despite me reiterating I was not interested in playing make believe.
When I was laughed at in class, I made posters strictly asking for SERIOUS wannabe detectives, even going as far as using my Mom’s printer to make flyers, sticking them all over the school.
Auditions were simple. I asked them to solve a simple riddle.
Whoever impressed me got to sign their name down, and I’d get back to them.
I spent three days sifting through kids who definitely had charm, but they lacked the intelligence of a junior detective. Most kids were only auditioning to make fun of me, anyway.
Still, though, I didn't give up.
My flyers had five requirements:
1). You had to be smart.
2). You were not allowed to be a scaredy cat.
3). You had to accept your inevitable death at the hands of our town’s evil villains.
4). You had to have a fully registered driving licence (I quickly changed this to a bike).
5). You cannot have a criminal record.
(I later scribbled this one out, writing over it. *“You cannot have any tardies.”
Narrowing the applicants down to three kids, all of whom failed to share my enthusiasm for solving cases. The kids I picked didn't even know how to make plans, and when I invited them to my house, they stole my Mom’s necklace.
I didn't even need to solve the mystery of who stole Mom’s necklace. The girl was wearing it at school. I punched her in the face, and was immediately sent to the principal’s office. When I was being given the mother all lectures, the door quietly opened, a head peeking through.
It was Ben Callows, a freckly kid with overgrown brown hair hanging in his eyes. Ben really needed a haircut.
He was always wearing the exact same baseball cap, and I found myself wondering if it was permanently glued to his head, stuck on top of unruly brown curls practically matted to his forehead.
In class, Ben was also known as Bloody Ben. In the second grade, the boy had a nosebleed in the middle of a spelling test, bleeding all over his paper.
It's not like he didn't try and detach himself from the name.
Ben brought in Digimon cards, so kids would call him Digimon Ben instead.
Then he “accidentally” spilled yoghurt down his shirt in hopes we would call him Yoghurt Ben. But no. The kids in our class were relentless in reminding him of his name. No matter what he did, he was still Bloody Ben, and when anything related to blood came up in class, fifteen pairs of eyes would swivel to him, like he had invented the concept of bleeding.
I feared the nickname would follow him to junior high.
Ben didn't wait to be let in. He didn't even knock, striding in with his arms folded. Over the years, Bloody Ben, had definitely soured his personality.
He smiled rarely, and when he did smile, someone was falling over or hurting themselves.
Which definitely strengthened the claims of him being a sociopath.
The rumor mill was churning, with the latest claiming Bloody Ben killed his cat. That wasn't true. Ben’s cat was seventeen with cancer, and that was why he was sobbing all the way through reading time.
According to Ellie Daly, however, Ben had killed and dissected his kitty, and buried her in his Mom’s flowers.
Now, my principal did not like being interrupted, especially when she was in the middle of screaming at me.
Principal Marrow was old old (like, thirty, in my ten year old mind) stick thin like a pencil, and always wore the same stained sweater.
She used to be pretty, but I was convinced she had kissed a frog and been cursed. After our old principal suffered a stroke, she stepped in as a temporary replacement, and since becoming principal, had banned my favorite book series, colored shoe laces, and hamburger helper, even officiating a uniform.
(vomit green shorts and a tee, and plain white sneakers).
Kids were convinced she was a witch, and I kind of believed it.
Principal Marrow’s whole existence was built on sucking the fun out of school.
I was already reprimanded for my mystery gang flyers.
Her office smelled of peppermint and she was definitely sneaking sips of whisky in her coffee cup. I could see the bottle sticking out of the trash.
She straightened up, folding her arms across her chest, squinty eyes narrowing at the boy. I had spent the whole time she was lecturing me trying not to cry, my fists bunched in my lap.
I took the distraction as the perfect opportunity to swipe at my eyes, allowing myself to breathe.
Ben Callows was her victim now.
I was right. The woman's voice was like a thunderclap in my ears.
“You better have a good reason for not knocking, young man.”
Ben wasn't fazed by her tone. “You took my Switch two weeks ago,” he said, “I want it back, or I’m telling my Mom.”
At first, I thought I'd misheard him.
No, I was pretty sure he'd threatened our principal.
I swore I heard all of the breath sucked from the room.
“I'm sorry,” Principal Marrow cleared her throat. Her soft tone was dangerous.
She wasn't being nice. The lady was about to explode.
I could see visible veins straining in her temples, her right eye twitching.
It was straight out of a cartoon.
“Did you forget something, Ben?”
Ben sighed, like she was inconveniencing him.
He held out his hand. “Please can I have my Switch back? It counts as stolen property. Give it back, or I'm telling my Mom.”
The kid put so much emphasis on the word please, I couldn't resist a smile.
I think our principal was too shocked to get angry.
“Get out.” She said, firmly. “I don't have your gaming device.”
“It's in your drawer.” Ben nodded to her desk, “Under your divorce papers and the restraining order ordered by Jake Willow, the seventeen year old boy you've been having math ‘tutoring sessions’ with.” He quoted the air, his gaze lazily rolling to me. “Tutoring”
Principal Marrow went deathly pale, her eyes darkening.
“Benjamin Callows–”
“The school already knows about the restraining order, but your uncle is the head of the Board of Education, so all you get is a slap on the wrist and a warning to leave the boy alone."
Ben continued, and I found myself mesmerised by his words. He was a natural, his expression stoic, mouth curved with satisfaction that wasn't quite a smile. “However.” He held up his phone, pulling it away at the exact moment the teacher attempted to grab it. “You were outside Jake Willow’s house at 6:12am, drunk, and trying to climb through his window, which, I think violates the restraining order, does it not?”
Ben pretended to think real hard, his gaze flicking to the ceiling.
“I mean, I'm just a kid, right?” His mouth curled into the hint of a smirk
“What do I know, huh?”
Principal Marrow’s expression twisted, her lip wobbling.
“Mr Callows, remove yourself from my office, or I am calling your father.”
Leaning comfortably against the door, Ben’s lip twitched.
“Why? Are you planning on telling my Dad about your relations with a teenage boy, or will I have to tell him instead?”
I was enthralled, and fully disgusted, making a move to inch away from the woman.
“But it doesn't end there.” Ben continued. He straightened up, taking slow, intimidating steps towards the woman's desk. “You don't even want Jake, do you? Because, once upon a time, you were in love with his father. Jason Willow. You despised him for rejecting you, so you decided to defile his son.” Ben leaned over the principal’s desk, slipping his hand into the drawer, and pulling out his switch.
Painfully slowly.
She stood there, speechless, her shoulders trembling.
Ben smiled, and I found myself liking it.
“Thank you!” He said, waving the console in her face. Ben mimed locking his mouth and throwing away the key.
“My lips are sealed.”
Ben’s half lidded eyes found mine. “Are ya coming, Panda?”
I forgot my own nickname.
Panda.
I wore my Mom’s eyeliner because I thought it looked cool.
It did not.
Finding my breath, I snapped out of it.
Jumping up, I followed him out of the office, and when the two of us were safely on the hallway, I burst into hysterical giggles. “How did you know all of that?!” I whisper- shrieked.
Ben surprised me with a splutter. “Wait. You believed me?”
Something very cold trickled down my spine.
I stopped walking. “You lied?”
He shrugged. “I had a dig around her office before she caught me a few days ago,” Ben swung his arms, a smile curling on his mouth. “There's no restraining order, but there is prescription anti-psychosis medicine, and an extremely detailed story on her laptop about a teachestudent romance, which I presume is a self insert.”
Ben shot me a sickly grin. “The school refused to make her condition public.”
He prodded at his own cotton shirt embroidered with the school emblem.
“Why do you think she's made all these dumb rules? The woman is a certified Looney Tune.”
I nodded slowly. “Wait. What about Jake and his dad?”
“I made them up.”
I choked out a laugh. “And… the video?”
Ben walked faster, pulling out his phone and shoving it in my face. The video was real. Principal Marrow was walking around in circles, draped in her nightgown. “It's her own house,” he explained. “She locked herself out.”
Nodding slowly, I was in awe. Bloody Ben was kind of fucking amazing.
“But the restraining order isn't real.”
Ben raised a brow, coming to an abrupt halt. It was his smile that cemented his place in my gang. His lack of empathy for a woman he had gaslit into being a disgusting human being. Ben Callows wasn't exactly what I was looking for, but he fascinated me. Maybe for the wrong reasons. “Her filing cabinets are filled with tinned cat food, Panda,” he said with an exaggerated sigh, “I’m not psychic, but I thiiiiink we’ll be okay.”
I turned to him, unable to stop myself jumping up and down with excitement.
“Will you be my first?!”
Ben inclined his head. “Will I be your what?”
I shook my head. “Sorry. I mean, will you join my mystery gang?”
The boy’s eyes lit up, and I shoved him playfully.
“To solve real cases,” I corrected myself. “Not make them up.”
Ben wore a real, proper smile. But there was something in his eyes, a darkness that was so hollow and polluted and wrong, I pretended not to see it for the sake of his smarts and intellect. “Well, if you insist, sure!” Ben held out his hand, and I shook it. I'll be your first.”
We found our second member, who was, ironically, looking for her glasses under the table in class. Lucy Prescott, the quiet girl, was born to be with us.
The class eraser went missing, and she found it in the blink of an eye.
When questioned, Lucy’s face turned as red as her hair. “I asked everyone in the class and followed the clues to the last person who had it,” she pointed to Chase Simpson. “Which was Chase, who was throwing it at Marcus Calvin.”
Twisting around in my chair, I aimed to get Ben’s attention. But he was already looking at me, chin resting on his fist, eyes ignited with excitement.
The two of us cornered Lucy after class, and when she motioned for us to get back, I dragged Ben (who was a little too excited) to my side.
Lucy looked mildly horrified when I said, dangerous cases, though her expression pricked with intrigue.
She agreed, her gaze lingering on Ben, cheeks smouldering.
Our last two members were a surprise.
Violet Evergreen was what you would call popular on the middle school hierarchy. Not just because her mother was the mayor, but because Violet could get away with murder. The girl refused to wear the school uniform, coloring a single purple streak in her hair to cement herself as the it girl.
She was also one of the girls who started the Bloody Ben rumor.
Ben, Lucy, and I were sitting on the grass during recess, trying to come up with a name for our detective service, when Violet came storming over, hands planted on her hips. She was copying how her mother held herself during town meetings.
“What are you doing?” Violet demanded.
Lucy opened her mouth to answer, Ben nudging her to shut up.
“Making a mystery gang.” I told her. “Why?”
Violet inclined her head. “Oh.” She folded her arms. “Well, can I join?”
Ben stood up, stepping in front of the girl. Violet didn't move, stubbornly standing her ground. “Sure.” Ben flashed a grin that didn't quite reach his eyes. He stepped closer to her, his smile widening. “If you can pass the test.”
Violet’s lip curled. She took a single step back. “What kind of test?”
Ben nodded to me. “Meet us at the swimming pool at 8pm.”
To my surprise, Violet nodded. “Do I need to bring anything?”
“Nope!”
8pm. The four of us met outside the local swimming pool.
Violet was already on the other side of the fence, waving.
“Hey guys!”
I noticed Ben’s expression, his eyes darkening, lip curling.
Still though, he maintained positivity, vaulting over the fence.
“You made it!”
I followed him, helping Lucy, who was immediately freaking out. I didn't blame her. The pool looked cold and dark, a hollow oblivion carved into the ground.
Ben and Violet stood on the edge, the two of them shoulder to shoulder.
Violet Evergreen was braver than I thought.
Standing with her arms at her sides, Violet's hands clenched into fists.
“What's the test?” Violet said, her gaze glued to bleeding black depths.
“I don't know,” Ben said, his voice teetering on a giggle. He leaned forwards, arms spread out. “I didn't think you'd actually come and meet us.”
Violet hummed, stretching out her leg, teasing it across the surface. “Was that the test?”
The boy leaned back. I caught the glint of a grin under the floodlights. “Nah.”
Before I knew what was happening, he shoved Violet into the pool. The girl didn't scream or shriek, she just hit the surface, sinking into pitch dark nothing.
“Sink or swim,” Ben said in a low murmur, when Violet’s head bobbed under water. I could see her shadow under the surface, imagining the freezing cold depths pulling her down.
“Drown, and you can't join us.”
It was so quiet, suddenly. The three of us staring into rippling water.
A minute passed, and my tummy started to twist.
“Fuck.” Ben’s expression stayed stoic. I wasn't expecting him to say a bad word.
He cocked his head. “I thought she could swim.”
I hit him, holding in a cry. “You need to get our parents!”
But he didn't listen to me, taking a single step, and dropping into the pool.
I fell to my knees, scanning the water.
Lucy was crying. “Are they dead?!” she shrieked.
“Shhh!” I was watching two shadows lingering under the water.
Violet broke through. I expected her to be crying, but her expression was unwavering. She was silent. I thought the splashing underneath her was her legs trying and struggling to tread water, before Lucy shoved me. Hard.
“Panda! What do we do?!”
Looking closer, Violet was perfectly still, her gaze on the sky.
While she shoved Ben under the water, drowning him.
Violet’s eyes found mine, and somehow, I knew she belonged in my gang.
Her eyes found mine, glinting with that darkness, that poisonous streak I found myself drawn to. It was a starving, insatiable need to understand a fractured mind. Know your enemy.
“Do you want to see if Ben’s a witch?” Violet asked me, her tone something else entirely. This girl did not make sense, using barely her finger to drown Ben Callows. I knew she was wrong.
I knew there was something loose, something unlocked and unbridled and drowning inside her mind and heart.
But I wanted more of her. I wanted Violet Evergreen in my detective gang.
I think that is why I stood there, frozen.
When the thrashing stopped, Ben broke through.
He wasn't coughing or spluttering, his head inclined. “You didn't drown.”
Violet climbed out of the pool, offering her hand. “And you're not a witch.”
He declined her hand, taking the steps instead.
I asked Violet in a shaky voice. I was trembling with terror, but I was excited.
Exhilarated.
“Violet, will you join my gang?”
She didn't answer me until we were sharing hot cocoa in my house. I told Mom we fell in the pool, and she believed me. I should have told her that my friends were sociopaths, and I was kind of maybe in love. Violet sipped her cocoa, nodding with a smile I didn't recognise. Violet never smiled at school.
Well, she did. But it was always the prick of a cruel smirk.
I don't think her smile was genuine, but she was definitely enjoying herself.
Our last member came to us, instead of finding him.
Jules Howell, a straggly brunette pushed his way in front of me in the lunch line. I didn't really know the kid.
He sat at the back of the classroom and slept through most of class. I did like his accent though.
Jules had moved from Melbourne in the second grade. He didn't talk much.
When he did, I found myself enveloped in his voice, which sounded like water to me, a bleeding cadence to his tone.
Jules piled his plate with fries, smiling widely at the lunch ladies.
“I saw you last night.” He murmured through that perfectly moulded grin.
“Saw me where?”
“At the pool,” Jules said. “You, Bloody Ben, Violet Evergreen, and that Lucy girl. You were doing a suiciding pact.”
“That's not what we were doing.” I said, “What's a suiciding pact?”
“When you kill yourself together.” Jules said. “I saw it in a scary movie my Mom was watching.”
I grabbed a fork. “We weren't doing that.”
His eyes were strange when I took the time to notice them. The excited gleam had fizzled out. Jules’s hands tightened around the tray. “Then what were you doing?”
I didn't reply, making my way over to our usual table. Ben was already waving me over, Violet and Lucy holding up the flyers we were making.
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When I bothered turning around, the boy was lost in the crowd of kids.
We were on our first official case, searching for Mrs Lake’s missing mail, when Jules appeared seemingly out of nowhere. And with him, a golden retriever puppy he introduced as Arlo.
It took a dog jumping up at them for Violet and Ben to find their real smiles, their real selves slowly seeping through these facades they had built around themselves. Ben dropped to a crouch, ruffling the dog's ears, his smile faint.
“Who's a good boy?” He chuckled.
Arlo didn't move, tail wagging, eyes bright.
Ben motioned the dog towards him, but Arlo stayed put.
Jules joined us…quietly.
I don't remember asking him, or even him asking me.
He just became part of us, side by side with Arlo.
We soon came to quickly realize that our town was boring.
There were no monsters or thieves, or soul sucking demons. No criminals or serial killers. Not even one missing person. We did, however, get calls about missing cats. I turned eleven years old, patiently waiting for a murder or a kid going missing. But there was nothing.
All we did was chase cats, and the occasional dog. Maybe a budgie if we were lucky. Twelve years old, our detective club became a joke.
The five of us (and Arlo hiding under the table) were trying to pinpoint Mrs Tracy's lost hamster, when three girls came over, dumping their soda all over us.
We watched crime shows for inspiration on catching killers.
Ben’s favorite crime was one that happened in the 80’s in our town.
2 girls murdered.
Their intestines stuffed into envelopes and mailed to family members.
“That's what we should be solving,” he told me one night, “Not missing cats.”
Thirteen years old, we lay in Violet’s backyard under the cruel glare of the summer sun. We called it working and didn't like to admit it was hanging out, or that we were even friends. However.
That didn't stop us growing closer.
Even if it wasn't quite the way I’d expected.
I proposed a plan, standing up, wobbling a little off balance.
“I've got it.” I said, my voice kinda slurry from Violet’s special summer cocktail, which was just a random alcoholic beverages we found, thrown into a blender, and diluted with water.
The town wasn't taking us seriously.
So, we were going to make our own mysteries.
I ordered a full-scale assault on our small town. One that they could not ignore. Ben stamped on Mrs Mason’s flowers, and Lucy threw mud pies at people's cars. Jules trashed the high school gym, and Violet and I spray painted threats and warnings on every store window. Now, this did cause panic, but also an official curfew.
Thirty minutes before curfew, we met in our usual spot, deep in the forest near the lake. Ben yelled at me when I was three minutes late. He was real passionate about finding a real mystery.
“You're late.” Ben was sitting on a rock waving a stick in Arlo’s face.
The dog still wasn't going near him, whining softly.
I took my place, muttering an apology. “I had to lie to my Mom.”
Violet, sitting with her legs crossed, idly digging her manicure into the dirt, suggested we buy mannequins and masquerade them as dead bodies, hanging them from the school rafters.
Lucy, who had slowly grown out of her shell, becoming a lot more outspoken, nudged her. “That's a stupid idea.”
The girl groaned, leaning into her. “Urgh. You're right.”
Jules was the only energetic one, standing on the tireswing.
He jumped down, definitely twisting his ankle.
But his smile only widened, kind of like he enjoyed being in pain.
“Why don't we pretend to be kidnapped?” He said, pulling the hood of his sweatshirt over blondish curls growing out. Jules did a dramatic spin, his eyes shining. “We can ‘go missing’ for like a week, and then when our parents are really scared, we can turn up, and tell them we escaped a kidnapping.” His lips split into a grin.
“And then we solve our own kidnapping!”
Ben awkwardly patted Arlos head, only for the dog to pull away with a snort.
“I like it,” he murmured. “I'm in.”
Jules’s idea was stupid.
But.
It was worth a shot.
The five of us agreed to meet the morning after with enough food and supplies for a week. Then we were going to hike to the next town, and hide out for a week. It was an almost perfect plan, using ourselves as victims of our own mystery.
Packing as much as I could, I kissed my mother goodbye (I told her my pack was for a picnic) and set off to the rendezvous we agreed on.
When I arrived, I was the first one there. I checked and re-checked my pack.
I waited ten minutes, unable to contain my excitement.
Then 20 minutes.
It was getting kind of cold.
One hour.
I sat on a rock for enough time to watch the sky change color.
When the clouds were orange, I stood up and stumbled back home. They had gone without me. Mom lectured me when I got home, and I stuck to the plan of pretending my friends had gone missing, even if I they had betrayed me.
Ben said he'd text me when he arrived at the redervous. I at least expected him to text an explanation, but there was nothing. I was in the dark, and after three days of nothing, our town finally began to take us seriously.
“Our children have been kidnapped!” The adults were screaming.
Mom was crying in the kitchen, praying to a god I knew she didn't believe in that I wasn't taken next. I was interviewed and stuck with the exact same story I came up with when I was with the others. Our plan was to return after a week, claiming to be locked up in a dark room with a masked man.
I told my Mother and the other parents that I didn't know where my friends were, repeating the same thing over and over again until I was tongue tied.
“I saw them the day before they went missing, and… yes, everything seemed okay.” I slowly sipped my class of milk provided, looking the sheriff directly in the eyes. “No, I didn't notice anything suspicious, sheriff. Yes, I'm sure, sir. No, they didn't tell me anything.”
It was Ben’s mother who shattered my mask.
“Did I know about… what?” I whispered.
Something warm filled the back of my mouth, foul tasting milk erupting up my throat. I leaned forward, trying to look Mrs Callows in the eye. “No, I… I didn't know about Ben’s…condition.”
Mrs Callows was screaming at me about her son’s troubled past when I barfed all over myself, my eyes burning.
In the privacy of my own room, I sobbed until I couldn't breathe.
I tried to tell Mom, but we had come so close.
One more day, and the others would be back.
But that day came. I sat cross legged at our usual spot, which was now covered in police tape. I waited for their thudding footsteps, their laughter congratulating each other for coming up with a great plan. I waited, my face buried in my knees, for my friends.
It was dark when my phone vibrated, and I'd fallen asleep.
I wasn't scared, forcing myself to my feet.
“Where are you?” Mom sobbed down the phone, when I tapped answer.
“Coming home now.” I muttered. “Sorry.” I paused, holding my breath against a cry. “Mom.” I broke down, forcing my fist into my mouth to hide my sobs. “Mom, did they come back?”
Mom didn't reply for a moment.
“I'm so sorry, baby.” She whispered, ending the call.
I took my time walking home that night.
There were no stars in the sky.
When a hand clamped over my mouth, I could smell him.
When he dragged me back, stabbing a kitchen knife into my throat, I stared at the sky and looked for stars. His arms were warm around me, violently pulling me into the back of a pickup truck. The pickup truck he'd said he was bringing.
It was his grandfather's, and he could just about drive it.
Hitting the backseat, my body was numb, my thoughts in a whirlwind.
The pickup flew forwards, and I remembered how to move.
I rolled off the seat, my hands pinned behind my back.
Twisting around, blinking in the dim, I could feel something warm, something seeping across upholstery seats. Blood. It was everywhere, sticky on my hands and wet on my face when I struggled to get up. I was lying in someone's blood.
A scream clawed its way out of my throat.
The pickup flew over a pothole, and something dropped off the seat.
Arlo’s leash.
I screamed again, this time his name gritted between my teeth.
I didn't stop screaming until the jerking movement stopped. The doors opened, pale light hitting me in the face.
Flashlight. Warm arms wrapped around me, pulling me from the car, and then, pulling me by my hair, into our old tree house. It was always our secret place, our saving grace on the edge of town.
The flickering candlelight caught me off guard, illuminating my surroundings.
Two bodies slumped over each other, lying in stemming red.
I felt suffocated, like I was going to die. I screamed, and that warm hand cradled my mouth again, gagging my cries.
Violet and Jules.
There was something wrong with them. And it was only when I forced myself to look closer, when I realized their insides had been carved out, heart, stomach, everything, pulled out.
There was paper on the floor.
No, not paper. Envelopes.
Envelopes stuffed with gore, bright red leaking through white.
Shuffling back, my brain was too slow to react, while my body was trying to vault to my feet, only to be violently pulled back by my ponytail.
I felt his fingers twining around my hair, revelling in my screams.
With another tug, my head was forced forwards.
Orange candlelight felt almost homely, this time lighting up a third body.
Lying on their back, curled up, pooling scarlet dried into the floorboards, their wrists restricted with duct-tape.
I could feel blood underneath me, sticky, a congealing paste.
“Do you know what happened on October 3rd, 1987, in our town?”
Lucy Prescott stood over me, her arms folded across her chest.
I managed to shake my head, when she grabbed Ben’s legs, dragging him under the candlelight. I dazedly watched her stroke the blade of a carving knife, the teeth already stained scarlet. “The intestine murders.” Lucy hummed, tracing the knife down the floorboards.
“A man murdered two high school girls, carving out their insides and sending their pieces to their loved ones.”
Lucy's eyes found mine, ignited in a familiar gleam. I saw it in Principal Marrow’s office. Then the swimming pool. The cafeteria. “It was the sheriff's only murder case, Panda. Ever since then, our town has been boring. There's no mysteries to solve. Nothing to find.”
The girl jumped to her feet, retrieving a blood stained envelope.
She held it up, a smile curved on her lips. The girl turned around, and I heard a horrific squelching sound. Lucy held up a bright red sausage, ripped into it, and slipped it into the white paper.
“But I can change that.” she said, in a giggle.
“I can create a real serial killer, who we can hunt down together.”
Lucy stabbed the blade into the floor, laughing.
“Or! I can bring a fan-favorite back! I can bring the intestine killer back from the dead!”
Her gaze flicked to the others. “There are casualties, of course. The story is, I was kidnapped with Ben, Violet, and Jules. The scary intestine killer killed them, and I managed to get away.”
Lucy shuffled over to me, her eyes wide. “Then! He came back and struck again!”
With those words, she shoved me onto my back.
“First he took Violet,” Lucy hummed, tracing the blade down my shirt. “Then… Jules.” I squeezed my eyes shut, pulling at the restraints around my wrists. “Then Ben.” her breath tickled my cheek. “And finally… Panda.”
Lucy lifted the knife, and I accepted my death.
Until a low rumble in my ears.
Shouting.
Thundering footsteps, followed by the pitter-patter of paws.
“Lucy!” The sheriff was screaming, and the girl stumbled to her feet, the knife slipping from her fingers. Lucy stumbled, tripping over Ben’s body.
“He got away!” she shrieked. “He…he killed them! Oh, god, please help me!”
I don't think Lucy even realised the traces she'd left behind.
The blood slick on her fingers, her manic, grinning smile full of mania.
I was looking for stars when an officer crouched over me.
I couldn't understand what she was saying.
Her voice was white noise.
“Rachel? Hey, try and sit up, honey. You Mom is on her way.”
Instead of listening to her, I curled into myself.
My gaze found Arlo sticking his nose in Ben’s hair, trying to nudge the boy awake.
I didn't fully register the next few days.
They went by in a confusing blur.
Part of me tried to eat, and spent hours with my head pressed against the toilet seat.
I could still see the slithering, scarlet remains of my friends every time I closed my eyes. There was so much red, soaked in that hunting orange light.
Blood that I could still see, a starless sky that stretched on forever.
Weeks went by.
Then months.
I think I turned 14. I wasn't sure. I didn't feel alive anymore.
I stood at my friend’s funerals with a single rose I dropped into their casket.
Violet’s mother was quick to cover the whole thing up.
Lucy's plan didn't work after all.
Our town’s murder cases stayed stagnant at one.
It's been four years since my friends were murdered by our ’Velma’.
Now, at seventeen, Mom asked if I wanted to visit Lucy in juvie.
I'm not even upset or angry anymore.
I want to know why.
Ben picked me up. Arlo was at his side, wagging his tail.
Ben was…different. He'd dumped his baseball cap and gotten a haircut, swapping his old wardrobe of drab colors for an attempt at changing style.
That day, he looked awkward in a short sleeved tee and shorts.
At school, Ben is no longer Bloody Ben.
Now, he is Survivor Ben.
I’m still Panda.
Every time I was with him, I felt like my soul was being sucked out.
Guilt so deep, so fucking painful, I lost my breath.
I live every day knowing that I immediately assumed it was him that day. Ben was barely alive when I found him. Lucy had started to carve into him before remembering she needed me.
After admitting it to him, his lips formed a small smile.
“Can I tell you a secret?” He said to me, at sixteen.
Yeah?
Whatever the boy was going to say, Ben never told me.
Presently, I nodded at the dog’s new collar.
“Peppa Pig themed?”
The boy shrugged, ruffling Arlo’s ears. “FYI, he chose it.”
“It's cute.” I said. “Very… chic.”
We didn't speak the whole ride, but Ben did entangle his hand in mine.
We spent half an hour outside the detention centre. I was panicking, and Ben was trying to hide that he was panicking. In the end, we joined hands, and strode through the doors together.
Lucy greeted us with a wide smile. Just as psychotic.
The orange jumpsuit suited her, though I had zero idea why.
“Hey Arlo!” she giggled at the dog, and Ben pulled the pup onto his lap.
“Ben.” She sighed. “I wish I got to finish you. I would have loved to solve the mystery of your gutted corpse.”
Ben’s smile was wry. “Nice to see you too.”
Behind a glass screen, I asked Lucy one simple question.
“Why?”
Lucy didn't reply. Or she did, but it was just nonsensical bullshit.
But there was one thing she said has stuck with me, chilling me to the core.
I am fucking terrified of Lucy. Of what's she's done, and what she's capable of doing.
It was a throwaway line, and I don't even think Ben noticed.
Or he did, and was in denial.
Lucy's smile was wide, her eyes empty pools of nothing.
The exact same glint in Ben’s eyes.
Jules’s eyes.
Violet’s eyes.
Like something was gnawing away at their psyche, twisting and contorting it, filling them with darkness, poison, that was so vast, so endless, I had craved it as a child. I still don't know what it is.
But I'm going to find it.
Lucy's laugh was shrill, and next to me, Ben didn't move a muscle.
“I don't even wear glasses!”
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Mom bought me the entire box set of What's New Scooby Doo, and I was inspired to start my very own detective gang. I held auditions outside the gymnasium at recess (serious enquiries only) after a number of kids tried to apply for the role of Scooby Doo despite me reiterating I was not interested in playing make believe.
When I was laughed at in class, I made posters strictly asking for SERIOUS wannabe detectives, even going as far as using my Mom’s printer to make flyers, sticking them all over the school.
Auditions were simple. I asked them to solve a simple riddle.
Whoever impressed me got to sign their name down, and I’d get back to them.
I spent three days sifting through kids who definitely had charm, but they lacked the intelligence of a junior detective. Most kids were only auditioning to make fun of me, anyway.
Still, though, I didn't give up.
My flyers had five requirements:
1). You had to be smart.
2). You were not allowed to be a scaredy cat.
3). You had to accept your inevitable death at the hands of our town’s evil villains.
4). You had to have a fully registered driving licence (I quickly changed this to a bike).
5). You cannot have a criminal record.
(I later scribbled this one out, writing over it. *“You cannot have any tardies.”
Narrowing the applicants down to three kids, all of whom failed to share my enthusiasm for solving cases. The kids I picked didn't even know how to make plans, and when I invited them to my house, they stole my Mom’s necklace.
I didn't even need to solve the mystery of who stole Mom’s necklace. The girl was wearing it at school. I punched her in the face, and was immediately sent to the principal’s office. When I was being given the mother all lectures, the door quietly opened, a head peeking through.
It was Ben Callows, a freckly kid with overgrown brown hair hanging in his eyes. Ben really needed a haircut.
He was always wearing the exact same baseball cap, and I found myself wondering if it was permanently glued to his head, stuck on top of unruly brown curls practically matted to his forehead.
In class, Ben was also known as Bloody Ben. In the second grade, the boy had a nosebleed in the middle of a spelling test, bleeding all over his paper.
It's not like he didn't try and detach himself from the name.
Ben brought in Digimon cards, so kids would call him Digimon Ben instead.
Then he “accidentally” spilled yoghurt down his shirt in hopes we would call him Yoghurt Ben. But no. The kids in our class were relentless in reminding him of his name. No matter what he did, he was still Bloody Ben, and when anything related to blood came up in class, fifteen pairs of eyes would swivel to him, like he had invented the concept of bleeding.
I feared the nickname would follow him to junior high.
Ben didn't wait to be let in. He didn't even knock, striding in with his arms folded. Over the years, Bloody Ben, had definitely soured his personality.
He smiled rarely, and when he did smile, someone was falling over or hurting themselves.
Which definitely strengthened the claims of him being a sociopath.
The rumor mill was churning, with the latest claiming Bloody Ben killed his cat. That wasn't true. Ben’s cat was seventeen with cancer, and that was why he was sobbing all the way through reading time.
According to Ellie Daly, however, Ben had killed and dissected his kitty, and buried her in his Mom’s flowers.
Now, my principal did not like being interrupted, especially when she was in the middle of screaming at me.
Principal Marrow was old old (like, thirty, in my ten year old mind) stick thin like a pencil, and always wore the same stained sweater.
She used to be pretty, but I was convinced she had kissed a frog and been cursed. After our old principal suffered a stroke, she stepped in as a temporary replacement, and since becoming principal, had banned my favorite book series, colored shoe laces, and hamburger helper, even officiating a uniform.
(vomit green shorts and a tee, and plain white sneakers).
Kids were convinced she was a witch, and I kind of believed it.
Principal Marrow’s whole existence was built on sucking the fun out of school.
I was already reprimanded for my mystery gang flyers.
Her office smelled of peppermint and she was definitely sneaking sips of whisky in her coffee cup. I could see the bottle sticking out of the trash.
She straightened up, folding her arms across her chest, squinty eyes narrowing at the boy. I had spent the whole time she was lecturing me trying not to cry, my fists bunched in my lap.
I took the distraction as the perfect opportunity to swipe at my eyes, allowing myself to breathe.
Ben Callows was her victim now.
I was right. The woman's voice was like a thunderclap in my ears.
“You better have a good reason for not knocking, young man.”
Ben wasn't fazed by her tone. “You took my Switch two weeks ago,” he said, “I want it back, or I’m telling my Mom.”
At first, I thought I'd misheard him.
No, I was pretty sure he'd threatened our principal.
I swore I heard all of the breath sucked from the room.
“I'm sorry,” Principal Marrow cleared her throat. Her soft tone was dangerous.
She wasn't being nice. The lady was about to explode.
I could see visible veins straining in her temples, her right eye twitching.
It was straight out of a cartoon.
“Did you forget something, Ben?”
Ben sighed, like she was inconveniencing him.
He held out his hand. “Please can I have my Switch back? It counts as stolen property. Give it back, or I'm telling my Mom.”
The kid put so much emphasis on the word please, I couldn't resist a smile.
I think our principal was too shocked to get angry.
“Get out.” She said, firmly. “I don't have your gaming device.”
“It's in your drawer.” Ben nodded to her desk, “Under your divorce papers and the restraining order ordered by Jake Willow, the seventeen year old boy you've been having math ‘tutoring sessions’ with.” He quoted the air, his gaze lazily rolling to me. “Tutoring”
Principal Marrow went deathly pale, her eyes darkening.
“Benjamin Callows–”
“The school already knows about the restraining order, but your uncle is the head of the Board of Education, so all you get is a slap on the wrist and a warning to leave the boy alone."
Ben continued, and I found myself mesmerised by his words. He was a natural, his expression stoic, mouth curved with satisfaction that wasn't quite a smile. “However.” He held up his phone, pulling it away at the exact moment the teacher attempted to grab it. “You were outside Jake Willow’s house at 6:12am, drunk, and trying to climb through his window, which, I think violates the restraining order, does it not?”
Ben pretended to think real hard, his gaze flicking to the ceiling.
“I mean, I'm just a kid, right?” His mouth curled into the hint of a smirk
“What do I know, huh?”
Principal Marrow’s expression twisted, her lip wobbling.
“Mr Callows, remove yourself from my office, or I am calling your father.”
Leaning comfortably against the door, Ben’s lip twitched.
“Why? Are you planning on telling my Dad about your relations with a teenage boy, or will I have to tell him instead?”
I was enthralled, and fully disgusted, making a move to inch away from the woman.
“But it doesn't end there.” Ben continued. He straightened up, taking slow, intimidating steps towards the woman's desk. “You don't even want Jake, do you? Because, once upon a time, you were in love with his father. Jason Willow. You despised him for rejecting you, so you decided to defile his son.” Ben leaned over the principal’s desk, slipping his hand into the drawer, and pulling out his switch.
Painfully slowly.
She stood there, speechless, her shoulders trembling.
Ben smiled, and I found myself liking it.
“Thank you!” He said, waving the console in her face. Ben mimed locking his mouth and throwing away the key.
“My lips are sealed.”
Ben’s half lidded eyes found mine. “Are ya coming, Panda?”
I forgot my own nickname.
Panda.
I wore my Mom’s eyeliner because I thought it looked cool.
It did not.
Finding my breath, I snapped out of it.
Jumping up, I followed him out of the office, and when the two of us were safely on the hallway, I burst into hysterical giggles. “How did you know all of that?!” I whisper- shrieked.
Ben surprised me with a splutter. “Wait. You believed me?”
Something very cold trickled down my spine.
I stopped walking. “You lied?”
He shrugged. “I had a dig around her office before she caught me a few days ago,” Ben swung his arms, a smile curling on his mouth. “There's no restraining order, but there is prescription anti-psychosis medicine, and an extremely detailed story on her laptop about a teachestudent romance, which I presume is a self insert.”
Ben shot me a sickly grin. “The school refused to make her condition public.”
He prodded at his own cotton shirt embroidered with the school emblem.
“Why do you think she's made all these dumb rules? The woman is a certified Looney Tune.”
I nodded slowly. “Wait. What about Jake and his dad?”
“I made them up.”
I choked out a laugh. “And… the video?”
Ben walked faster, pulling out his phone and shoving it in my face. The video was real. Principal Marrow was walking around in circles, draped in her nightgown. “It's her own house,” he explained. “She locked herself out.”
Nodding slowly, I was in awe. Bloody Ben was kind of fucking amazing.
“But the restraining order isn't real.”
Ben raised a brow, coming to an abrupt halt. It was his smile that cemented his place in my gang. His lack of empathy for a woman he had gaslit into being a disgusting human being. Ben Callows wasn't exactly what I was looking for, but he fascinated me. Maybe for the wrong reasons. “Her filing cabinets are filled with tinned cat food, Panda,” he said with an exaggerated sigh, “I’m not psychic, but I thiiiiink we’ll be okay.”
I turned to him, unable to stop myself jumping up and down with excitement.
“Will you be my first?!”
Ben inclined his head. “Will I be your what?”
I shook my head. “Sorry. I mean, will you join my mystery gang?”
The boy’s eyes lit up, and I shoved him playfully.
“To solve real cases,” I corrected myself. “Not make them up.”
Ben wore a real, proper smile. But there was something in his eyes, a darkness that was so hollow and polluted and wrong, I pretended not to see it for the sake of his smarts and intellect. “Well, if you insist, sure!” Ben held out his hand, and I shook it. I'll be your first.”
We found our second member, who was, ironically, looking for her glasses under the table in class. Lucy Prescott, the quiet girl, was born to be with us.
The class eraser went missing, and she found it in the blink of an eye.
When questioned, Lucy’s face turned as red as her hair. “I asked everyone in the class and followed the clues to the last person who had it,” she pointed to Chase Simpson. “Which was Chase, who was throwing it at Marcus Calvin.”
Twisting around in my chair, I aimed to get Ben’s attention. But he was already looking at me, chin resting on his fist, eyes ignited with excitement.
The two of us cornered Lucy after class, and when she motioned for us to get back, I dragged Ben (who was a little too excited) to my side.
Lucy looked mildly horrified when I said, dangerous cases, though her expression pricked with intrigue.
She agreed, her gaze lingering on Ben, cheeks smouldering.
Our last two members were a surprise.
Violet Evergreen was what you would call popular on the middle school hierarchy. Not just because her mother was the mayor, but because Violet could get away with murder. The girl refused to wear the school uniform, coloring a single purple streak in her hair to cement herself as the it girl.
She was also one of the girls who started the Bloody Ben rumor.
Ben, Lucy, and I were sitting on the grass during recess, trying to come up with a name for our detective service, when Violet came storming over, hands planted on her hips. She was copying how her mother held herself during town meetings.
“What are you doing?” Violet demanded.
Lucy opened her mouth to answer, Ben nudging her to shut up.
“Making a mystery gang.” I told her. “Why?”
Violet inclined her head. “Oh.” She folded her arms. “Well, can I join?”
Ben stood up, stepping in front of the girl. Violet didn't move, stubbornly standing her ground. “Sure.” Ben flashed a grin that didn't quite reach his eyes. He stepped closer to her, his smile widening. “If you can pass the test.”
Violet’s lip curled. She took a single step back. “What kind of test?”
Ben nodded to me. “Meet us at the swimming pool at 8pm.”
To my surprise, Violet nodded. “Do I need to bring anything?”
“Nope!”
8pm. The four of us met outside the local swimming pool.
Violet was already on the other side of the fence, waving.
“Hey guys!”
I noticed Ben’s expression, his eyes darkening, lip curling.
Still though, he maintained positivity, vaulting over the fence.
“You made it!”
I followed him, helping Lucy, who was immediately freaking out. I didn't blame her. The pool looked cold and dark, a hollow oblivion carved into the ground.
Ben and Violet stood on the edge, the two of them shoulder to shoulder.
Violet Evergreen was braver than I thought.
Standing with her arms at her sides, Violet's hands clenched into fists.
“What's the test?” Violet said, her gaze glued to bleeding black depths.
“I don't know,” Ben said, his voice teetering on a giggle. He leaned forwards, arms spread out. “I didn't think you'd actually come and meet us.”
Violet hummed, stretching out her leg, teasing it across the surface. “Was that the test?”
The boy leaned back. I caught the glint of a grin under the floodlights. “Nah.”
Before I knew what was happening, he shoved Violet into the pool. The girl didn't scream or shriek, she just hit the surface, sinking into pitch dark nothing.
“Sink or swim,” Ben said in a low murmur, when Violet’s head bobbed under water. I could see her shadow under the surface, imagining the freezing cold depths pulling her down.
“Drown, and you can't join us.”
It was so quiet, suddenly. The three of us staring into rippling water.
A minute passed, and my tummy started to twist.
“Fuck.” Ben’s expression stayed stoic. I wasn't expecting him to say a bad word.
He cocked his head. “I thought she could swim.”
I hit him, holding in a cry. “You need to get our parents!”
But he didn't listen to me, taking a single step, and dropping into the pool.
I fell to my knees, scanning the water.
Lucy was crying. “Are they dead?!” she shrieked.
“Shhh!” I was watching two shadows lingering under the water.
Violet broke through. I expected her to be crying, but her expression was unwavering. She was silent. I thought the splashing underneath her was her legs trying and struggling to tread water, before Lucy shoved me. Hard.
“Panda! What do we do?!”
Looking closer, Violet was perfectly still, her gaze on the sky.
While she shoved Ben under the water, drowning him.
Violet’s eyes found mine, and somehow, I knew she belonged in my gang.
Her eyes found mine, glinting with that darkness, that poisonous streak I found myself drawn to. It was a starving, insatiable need to understand a fractured mind. Know your enemy.
“Do you want to see if Ben’s a witch?” Violet asked me, her tone something else entirely. This girl did not make sense, using barely her finger to drown Ben Callows. I knew she was wrong.
I knew there was something loose, something unlocked and unbridled and drowning inside her mind and heart.
But I wanted more of her. I wanted Violet Evergreen in my detective gang.
I think that is why I stood there, frozen.
When the thrashing stopped, Ben broke through.
He wasn't coughing or spluttering, his head inclined. “You didn't drown.”
Violet climbed out of the pool, offering her hand. “And you're not a witch.”
He declined her hand, taking the steps instead.
I asked Violet in a shaky voice. I was trembling with terror, but I was excited.
Exhilarated.
“Violet, will you join my gang?”
She didn't answer me until we were sharing hot cocoa in my house. I told Mom we fell in the pool, and she believed me. I should have told her that my friends were sociopaths, and I was kind of maybe in love. Violet sipped her cocoa, nodding with a smile I didn't recognise. Violet never smiled at school.
Well, she did. But it was always the prick of a cruel smirk.
I don't think her smile was genuine, but she was definitely enjoying herself.
Our last member came to us, instead of finding him.
Jules Howell, a straggly brunette pushed his way in front of me in the lunch line. I didn't really know the kid.
He sat at the back of the classroom and slept through most of class. I did like his accent though.
Jules had moved from Melbourne in the second grade. He didn't talk much.
When he did, I found myself enveloped in his voice, which sounded like water to me, a bleeding cadence to his tone.
Jules piled his plate with fries, smiling widely at the lunch ladies.
“I saw you last night.” He murmured through that perfectly moulded grin.
“Saw me where?”
“At the pool,” Jules said. “You, Bloody Ben, Violet Evergreen, and that Lucy girl. You were doing a suiciding pact.”
“That's not what we were doing.” I said, “What's a suiciding pact?”
“When you kill yourself together.” Jules said. “I saw it in a scary movie my Mom was watching.”
I grabbed a fork. “We weren't doing that.”
His eyes were strange when I took the time to notice them. The excited gleam had fizzled out. Jules’s hands tightened around the tray. “Then what were you doing?”
I didn't reply, making my way over to our usual table. Ben was already waving me over, Violet and Lucy holding up the flyers we were making.
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When I bothered turning around, the boy was lost in the crowd of kids.
We were on our first official case, searching for Mrs Lake’s missing mail, when Jules appeared seemingly out of nowhere. And with him, a golden retriever puppy he introduced as Arlo.
It took a dog jumping up at them for Violet and Ben to find their real smiles, their real selves slowly seeping through these facades they had built around themselves. Ben dropped to a crouch, ruffling the dog's ears, his smile faint.
“Who's a good boy?” He chuckled.
Arlo didn't move, tail wagging, eyes bright.
Ben motioned the dog towards him, but Arlo stayed put.
Jules joined us…quietly.
I don't remember asking him, or even him asking me.
He just became part of us, side by side with Arlo.
We soon came to quickly realize that our town was boring.
There were no monsters or thieves, or soul sucking demons. No criminals or serial killers. Not even one missing person. We did, however, get calls about missing cats. I turned eleven years old, patiently waiting for a murder or a kid going missing. But there was nothing.
All we did was chase cats, and the occasional dog. Maybe a budgie if we were lucky. Twelve years old, our detective club became a joke.
The five of us (and Arlo hiding under the table) were trying to pinpoint Mrs Tracy's lost hamster, when three girls came over, dumping their soda all over us.
We watched crime shows for inspiration on catching killers.
Ben’s favorite crime was one that happened in the 80’s in our town.
2 girls murdered.
Their intestines stuffed into envelopes and mailed to family members.
“That's what we should be solving,” he told me one night, “Not missing cats.”
Thirteen years old, we lay in Violet’s backyard under the cruel glare of the summer sun. We called it working and didn't like to admit it was hanging out, or that we were even friends. However.
That didn't stop us growing closer.
Even if it wasn't quite the way I’d expected.
I proposed a plan, standing up, wobbling a little off balance.
“I've got it.” I said, my voice kinda slurry from Violet’s special summer cocktail, which was just a random alcoholic beverages we found, thrown into a blender, and diluted with water.
The town wasn't taking us seriously.
So, we were going to make our own mysteries.
I ordered a full-scale assault on our small town. One that they could not ignore. Ben stamped on Mrs Mason’s flowers, and Lucy threw mud pies at people's cars. Jules trashed the high school gym, and Violet and I spray painted threats and warnings on every store window. Now, this did cause panic, but also an official curfew.
Thirty minutes before curfew, we met in our usual spot, deep in the forest near the lake. Ben yelled at me when I was three minutes late. He was real passionate about finding a real mystery.
“You're late.” Ben was sitting on a rock waving a stick in Arlo’s face.
The dog still wasn't going near him, whining softly.
I took my place, muttering an apology. “I had to lie to my Mom.”
Violet, sitting with her legs crossed, idly digging her manicure into the dirt, suggested we buy mannequins and masquerade them as dead bodies, hanging them from the school rafters.
Lucy, who had slowly grown out of her shell, becoming a lot more outspoken, nudged her. “That's a stupid idea.”
The girl groaned, leaning into her. “Urgh. You're right.”
Jules was the only energetic one, standing on the tireswing.
He jumped down, definitely twisting his ankle.
But his smile only widened, kind of like he enjoyed being in pain.
“Why don't we pretend to be kidnapped?” He said, pulling the hood of his sweatshirt over blondish curls growing out. Jules did a dramatic spin, his eyes shining. “We can ‘go missing’ for like a week, and then when our parents are really scared, we can turn up, and tell them we escaped a kidnapping.” His lips split into a grin.
“And then we solve our own kidnapping!”
Ben awkwardly patted Arlos head, only for the dog to pull away with a snort.
“I like it,” he murmured. “I'm in.”
Jules’s idea was stupid.
But.
It was worth a shot.
The five of us agreed to meet the morning after with enough food and supplies for a week. Then we were going to hike to the next town, and hide out for a week. It was an almost perfect plan, using ourselves as victims of our own mystery.
Packing as much as I could, I kissed my mother goodbye (I told her my pack was for a picnic) and set off to the rendezvous we agreed on.
When I arrived, I was the first one there. I checked and re-checked my pack.
I waited ten minutes, unable to contain my excitement.
Then 20 minutes.
It was getting kind of cold.
One hour.
I sat on a rock for enough time to watch the sky change color.
When the clouds were orange, I stood up and stumbled back home. They had gone without me. Mom lectured me when I got home, and I stuck to the plan of pretending my friends had gone missing, even if I they had betrayed me.
Ben said he'd text me when he arrived at the redervous. I at least expected him to text an explanation, but there was nothing. I was in the dark, and after three days of nothing, our town finally began to take us seriously.
“Our children have been kidnapped!” The adults were screaming.
Mom was crying in the kitchen, praying to a god I knew she didn't believe in that I wasn't taken next. I was interviewed and stuck with the exact same story I came up with when I was with the others. Our plan was to return after a week, claiming to be locked up in a dark room with a masked man.
I told my Mother and the other parents that I didn't know where my friends were, repeating the same thing over and over again until I was tongue tied.
“I saw them the day before they went missing, and… yes, everything seemed okay.” I slowly sipped my class of milk provided, looking the sheriff directly in the eyes. “No, I didn't notice anything suspicious, sheriff. Yes, I'm sure, sir. No, they didn't tell me anything.”
It was Ben’s mother who shattered my mask.
“Did I know about… what?” I whispered.
Something warm filled the back of my mouth, foul tasting milk erupting up my throat. I leaned forward, trying to look Mrs Callows in the eye. “No, I… I didn't know about Ben’s…condition.”
Mrs Callows was screaming at me about her son’s troubled past when I barfed all over myself, my eyes burning.
In the privacy of my own room, I sobbed until I couldn't breathe.
I tried to tell Mom, but we had come so close.
One more day, and the others would be back.
But that day came. I sat cross legged at our usual spot, which was now covered in police tape. I waited for their thudding footsteps, their laughter congratulating each other for coming up with a great plan. I waited, my face buried in my knees, for my friends.
It was dark when my phone vibrated, and I'd fallen asleep.
I wasn't scared, forcing myself to my feet.
“Where are you?” Mom sobbed down the phone, when I tapped answer.
“Coming home now.” I muttered. “Sorry.” I paused, holding my breath against a cry. “Mom.” I broke down, forcing my fist into my mouth to hide my sobs. “Mom, did they come back?”
Mom didn't reply for a moment.
“I'm so sorry, baby.” She whispered, ending the call.
I took my time walking home that night.
There were no stars in the sky.
When a hand clamped over my mouth, I could smell him.
When he dragged me back, stabbing a kitchen knife into my throat, I stared at the sky and looked for stars. His arms were warm around me, violently pulling me into the back of a pickup truck. The pickup truck he'd said he was bringing.
It was his grandfather's, and he could just about drive it.
Hitting the backseat, my body was numb, my thoughts in a whirlwind.
The pickup flew forwards, and I remembered how to move.
I rolled off the seat, my hands pinned behind my back.
Twisting around, blinking in the dim, I could feel something warm, something seeping across upholstery seats. Blood. It was everywhere, sticky on my hands and wet on my face when I struggled to get up. I was lying in someone's blood.
A scream clawed its way out of my throat.
The pickup flew over a pothole, and something dropped off the seat.
Arlo’s leash.
I screamed again, this time his name gritted between my teeth.
I didn't stop screaming until the jerking movement stopped. The doors opened, pale light hitting me in the face.
Flashlight. Warm arms wrapped around me, pulling me from the car, and then, pulling me by my hair, into our old tree house. It was always our secret place, our saving grace on the edge of town.
The flickering candlelight caught me off guard, illuminating my surroundings.
Two bodies slumped over each other, lying in stemming red.
I felt suffocated, like I was going to die. I screamed, and that warm hand cradled my mouth again, gagging my cries.
Violet and Jules.
There was something wrong with them. And it was only when I forced myself to look closer, when I realized their insides had been carved out, heart, stomach, everything, pulled out.
There was paper on the floor.
No, not paper. Envelopes.
Envelopes stuffed with gore, bright red leaking through white.
Shuffling back, my brain was too slow to react, while my body was trying to vault to my feet, only to be violently pulled back by my ponytail.
I felt his fingers twining around my hair, revelling in my screams.
With another tug, my head was forced forwards.
Orange candlelight felt almost homely, this time lighting up a third body.
Lying on their back, curled up, pooling scarlet dried into the floorboards, their wrists restricted with duct-tape.
I could feel blood underneath me, sticky, a congealing paste.
“Do you know what happened on October 3rd, 1987, in our town?”
Lucy Prescott stood over me, her arms folded across her chest.
I managed to shake my head, when she grabbed Ben’s legs, dragging him under the candlelight. I dazedly watched her stroke the blade of a carving knife, the teeth already stained scarlet. “The intestine murders.” Lucy hummed, tracing the knife down the floorboards.
“A man murdered two high school girls, carving out their insides and sending their pieces to their loved ones.”
Lucy's eyes found mine, ignited in a familiar gleam. I saw it in Principal Marrow’s office. Then the swimming pool. The cafeteria. “It was the sheriff's only murder case, Panda. Ever since then, our town has been boring. There's no mysteries to solve. Nothing to find.”
The girl jumped to her feet, retrieving a blood stained envelope.
She held it up, a smile curved on her lips. The girl turned around, and I heard a horrific squelching sound. Lucy held up a bright red sausage, ripped into it, and slipped it into the white paper.
“But I can change that.” she said, in a giggle.
“I can create a real serial killer, who we can hunt down together.”
Lucy stabbed the blade into the floor, laughing.
“Or! I can bring a fan-favorite back! I can bring the intestine killer back from the dead!”
Her gaze flicked to the others. “There are casualties, of course. The story is, I was kidnapped with Ben, Violet, and Jules. The scary intestine killer killed them, and I managed to get away.”
Lucy shuffled over to me, her eyes wide. “Then! He came back and struck again!”
With those words, she shoved me onto my back.
“First he took Violet,” Lucy hummed, tracing the blade down my shirt. “Then… Jules.” I squeezed my eyes shut, pulling at the restraints around my wrists. “Then Ben.” her breath tickled my cheek. “And finally… Panda.”
Lucy lifted the knife, and I accepted my death.
Until a low rumble in my ears.
Shouting.
Thundering footsteps, followed by the pitter-patter of paws.
“Lucy!” The sheriff was screaming, and the girl stumbled to her feet, the knife slipping from her fingers. Lucy stumbled, tripping over Ben’s body.
“He got away!” she shrieked. “He…he killed them! Oh, god, please help me!”
I don't think Lucy even realised the traces she'd left behind.
The blood slick on her fingers, her manic, grinning smile full of mania.
I was looking for stars when an officer crouched over me.
I couldn't understand what she was saying.
Her voice was white noise.
“Rachel? Hey, try and sit up, honey. You Mom is on her way.”
Instead of listening to her, I curled into myself.
My gaze found Arlo sticking his nose in Ben’s hair, trying to nudge the boy awake.
I didn't fully register the next few days.
They went by in a confusing blur.
Part of me tried to eat, and spent hours with my head pressed against the toilet seat.
I could still see the slithering, scarlet remains of my friends every time I closed my eyes. There was so much red, soaked in that hunting orange light.
Blood that I could still see, a starless sky that stretched on forever.
Weeks went by.
Then months.
I think I turned 14. I wasn't sure. I didn't feel alive anymore.
I stood at my friend’s funerals with a single rose I dropped into their casket.
Violet’s mother was quick to cover the whole thing up.
Lucy's plan didn't work after all.
Our town’s murder cases stayed stagnant at one.
It's been four years since my friends were murdered by our ’Velma’.
Now, at seventeen, Mom asked if I wanted to visit Lucy in juvie.
I'm not even upset or angry anymore.
I want to know why.
Ben picked me up. Arlo was at his side, wagging his tail.
Ben was…different. He'd dumped his baseball cap and gotten a haircut, swapping his old wardrobe of drab colors for an attempt at changing style.
That day, he looked awkward in a short sleeved tee and shorts.
At school, Ben is no longer Bloody Ben.
Now, he is Survivor Ben.
I’m still Panda.
Every time I was with him, I felt like my soul was being sucked out.
Guilt so deep, so fucking painful, I lost my breath.
I live every day knowing that I immediately assumed it was him that day. Ben was barely alive when I found him. Lucy had started to carve into him before remembering she needed me.
After admitting it to him, his lips formed a small smile.
“Can I tell you a secret?” He said to me, at sixteen.
Yeah?
Whatever the boy was going to say, Ben never told me.
Presently, I nodded at the dog’s new collar.
“Peppa Pig themed?”
The boy shrugged, ruffling Arlo’s ears. “FYI, he chose it.”
“It's cute.” I said. “Very… chic.”
We didn't speak the whole ride, but Ben did entangle his hand in mine.
We spent half an hour outside the detention centre. I was panicking, and Ben was trying to hide that he was panicking. In the end, we joined hands, and strode through the doors together.
Lucy greeted us with a wide smile. Just as psychotic.
The orange jumpsuit suited her, though I had zero idea why.
“Hey Arlo!” she giggled at the dog, and Ben pulled the pup onto his lap.
“Ben.” She sighed. “I wish I got to finish you. I would have loved to solve the mystery of your gutted corpse.”
Ben’s smile was wry. “Nice to see you too.”
Behind a glass screen, I asked Lucy one simple question.
“Why?”
Lucy didn't reply. Or she did, but it was just nonsensical bullshit.
But there was one thing she said has stuck with me, chilling me to the core.
I am fucking terrified of Lucy. Of what's she's done, and what she's capable of doing.
It was a throwaway line, and I don't even think Ben noticed.
Or he did, and was in denial.
Lucy's smile was wide, her eyes empty pools of nothing.
The exact same glint in Ben’s eyes.
Jules’s eyes.
Violet’s eyes.
Like something was gnawing away at their psyche, twisting and contorting it, filling them with darkness, poison, that was so vast, so endless, I had craved it as a child. I still don't know what it is.
But I'm going to find it.
Lucy's laugh was shrill, and next to me, Ben didn't move a muscle.
“I don't even wear glasses!”
2024.05.08 02:02 RayaTheCrow What are some ways to mitigate anger / burnout after work?
Like many, I struggle with the feeling of just anger and burnout after work, everyday. It’s a constant feeling of not reaching expectations for myself, not being able to provide more, not being better of a man with providing. I’m tired of living pay to pay, not having ends met, and being so stressed my body is literally deteriorating. I’m struggling to hide everything. I’m asking for advice on what is something I can do everyday / weekly / monthly to assist with this feeling, if anyone knows anything!
Context IMPORTANT I am 24 years old in a few months, and have two jobs, one of which Monday-Friday I’m at. I wake up at 4:45 AM to commute to work for 7-8 AM and I finish around 4 PM. It’s a blue collar job. I also work at a gym on weekends early morning till’ noon, which makes this my bird job that I can coast through and make extra money. I’m saving up for a truck so I can start a small side hustle for extra money as well.
I have schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, but I manage that well and have help groups / resources in place for any issue. Growing up, dad was super abusive, tried to unalive me at 6, he attempted on his life when I was in grade 5 and I dealt with saving him. Anyways; this has resulted in needing lots of therapy I still go to in order to deal with that. Stress wise, my stomach acid burns through my stomach every day, major acid reflux, and I cannot eat anymore, one meal tops a day.
Please do not recommend exercise, I’m a former powerlifter (quit at 500 lbs squat, 300 lbs bench and 445 deadlift) and I still lift just casually — it does not help. I tried walks and runs — it helped until I turned it to self-harm. I also do oil acrylic and charcoal drawings/paintings as well as play cozy video games — it doesn’t help as with all of these at some point I hyperfixate on them to the point I burn out and feel like a failure.
Home wise, my family argues and yells a lot. So the house is hardly ever quiet either.
Financial context: I have a spreadsheet for my finances. I cannot take time off as even now I’m not hitting ends meet. Canada is expensive, and my spreadsheet only accounts for absolute necessities, not even leisure costs.
I just need help with this if anyone can. My cats honestly are the only two things that give me any form of consistent peace. I feel stressed at this point in job, time off, family, relationship, friendships, gaming, art, lifting - and I need to start building for a home for the only shot of having a peaceful environment to try and help with that.
Edit notes; - I do yoga as well - Have moments in nature (my first job gives some brief moments and sights all the time ***- I take pictures of everything I appreciated or found picture worthy and write why I found this moment memorable (this helps reground me enough to repeat the day) - I smoke 🍃 as in Canada it’s chill
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Context IMPORTANT I am 24 years old in a few months, and have two jobs, one of which Monday-Friday I’m at. I wake up at 4:45 AM to commute to work for 7-8 AM and I finish around 4 PM. It’s a blue collar job. I also work at a gym on weekends early morning till’ noon, which makes this my bird job that I can coast through and make extra money. I’m saving up for a truck so I can start a small side hustle for extra money as well.
I have schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, but I manage that well and have help groups / resources in place for any issue. Growing up, dad was super abusive, tried to unalive me at 6, he attempted on his life when I was in grade 5 and I dealt with saving him. Anyways; this has resulted in needing lots of therapy I still go to in order to deal with that. Stress wise, my stomach acid burns through my stomach every day, major acid reflux, and I cannot eat anymore, one meal tops a day.
Please do not recommend exercise, I’m a former powerlifter (quit at 500 lbs squat, 300 lbs bench and 445 deadlift) and I still lift just casually — it does not help. I tried walks and runs — it helped until I turned it to self-harm. I also do oil acrylic and charcoal drawings/paintings as well as play cozy video games — it doesn’t help as with all of these at some point I hyperfixate on them to the point I burn out and feel like a failure.
Home wise, my family argues and yells a lot. So the house is hardly ever quiet either.
Financial context: I have a spreadsheet for my finances. I cannot take time off as even now I’m not hitting ends meet. Canada is expensive, and my spreadsheet only accounts for absolute necessities, not even leisure costs.
I just need help with this if anyone can. My cats honestly are the only two things that give me any form of consistent peace. I feel stressed at this point in job, time off, family, relationship, friendships, gaming, art, lifting - and I need to start building for a home for the only shot of having a peaceful environment to try and help with that.
Edit notes; - I do yoga as well - Have moments in nature (my first job gives some brief moments and sights all the time ***- I take pictures of everything I appreciated or found picture worthy and write why I found this moment memorable (this helps reground me enough to repeat the day) - I smoke 🍃 as in Canada it’s chill
2024.05.08 01:49 PrincePyotrBagration Payton Pritchard is playing great in Game 1 against Cleveland! 7 points and it’s still the first half.
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2024.05.08 01:21 ACVVD Is 180 achievable with a 173 diagnostic?
I took the new test without logic games, scored -2, -3, and -5 in the LR sections, and -3 on RC. My only previous studies were a diagnostic under the old structure (162, LG tanked my score) and about thirty minutes of practicing logical reasoning. However, I was fortunate in that my -5 section was not scored. Moreover, do you guys believe HYS is realistic for me if I score above 175, given that I'm an international student and my converted GPA will most likely hover around 3.7? (My GPA was amongst the top 1% of historical graduates in my program; however, my school does not do grade inflation)
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2024.05.08 00:31 RayaTheCrow Anger/Burnout After Work
Like many, I struggle with the feeling of just anger and burnout after work, everyday. It’s a constant feeling of not reaching expectations for myself, not being able to provide more, not being better of a man with providing. I’m tired of living pay to pay, not having ends met, and being so stressed my body is literally deteriorating. I’m struggling to hide everything. I’m asking for advice on what is something I can do everyday / weekly / monthly to assist with this feeling, if anyone knows anything!
Context IMPORTANT I am 24 years old in a few months, and have two jobs, one of which Monday-Friday I’m at. I wake up at 4:45 AM to commute to work for 7-8 AM and I finish around 4 PM. It’s a blue collar job. I also work at a gym on weekends early morning till’ noon, which makes this my bird job that I can coast through and make extra money. I’m saving up for a truck so I can start a small side hustle for extra money as well.
I have schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, but I manage that well and have help groups / resources in place for any issue. Growing up, dad was super abusive, tried to unalive me at 6, he attempted on his life when I was in grade 5 and I dealt with saving him. Anyways; this has resulted in needing lots of therapy I still go to in order to deal with that. Stress wise, my stomach acid burns through my stomach every day, major acid reflux, and I cannot eat anymore, one meal tops a day.
Please do not recommend exercise, I’m a former powerlifter (quit at 500 lbs squat, 300 lbs bench and 445 deadlift) and I still lift just casually — it does not help. I tried walks and runs — it helped until I turned it to self-harm. I also do oil acrylic and charcoal drawings/paintings as well as play cozy video games — it doesn’t help as with all of these at some point I hyperfixate on them to the point I burn out and feel like a failure.
Home wise, my family argues and yells a lot. So the house is hardly ever quiet either.
Financial context: I have a spreadsheet for my finances. I cannot take time off as even now I’m not hitting ends meet. Canada is expensive, and my spreadsheet only accounts for absolute necessities, not even leisure costs.
I just need help with this if anyone can. My cats honestly are the only two things that give me any form of consistent peace. I feel stressed at this point in job, time off, family, relationship, friendships, gaming, art, lifting - and I need to start building for a home for the only shot of having a peaceful environment to try and help with that.
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Context IMPORTANT I am 24 years old in a few months, and have two jobs, one of which Monday-Friday I’m at. I wake up at 4:45 AM to commute to work for 7-8 AM and I finish around 4 PM. It’s a blue collar job. I also work at a gym on weekends early morning till’ noon, which makes this my bird job that I can coast through and make extra money. I’m saving up for a truck so I can start a small side hustle for extra money as well.
I have schizophrenia and bipolar disorder, but I manage that well and have help groups / resources in place for any issue. Growing up, dad was super abusive, tried to unalive me at 6, he attempted on his life when I was in grade 5 and I dealt with saving him. Anyways; this has resulted in needing lots of therapy I still go to in order to deal with that. Stress wise, my stomach acid burns through my stomach every day, major acid reflux, and I cannot eat anymore, one meal tops a day.
Please do not recommend exercise, I’m a former powerlifter (quit at 500 lbs squat, 300 lbs bench and 445 deadlift) and I still lift just casually — it does not help. I tried walks and runs — it helped until I turned it to self-harm. I also do oil acrylic and charcoal drawings/paintings as well as play cozy video games — it doesn’t help as with all of these at some point I hyperfixate on them to the point I burn out and feel like a failure.
Home wise, my family argues and yells a lot. So the house is hardly ever quiet either.
Financial context: I have a spreadsheet for my finances. I cannot take time off as even now I’m not hitting ends meet. Canada is expensive, and my spreadsheet only accounts for absolute necessities, not even leisure costs.
I just need help with this if anyone can. My cats honestly are the only two things that give me any form of consistent peace. I feel stressed at this point in job, time off, family, relationship, friendships, gaming, art, lifting - and I need to start building for a home for the only shot of having a peaceful environment to try and help with that.
2024.05.07 23:44 accountforAITA How Do You Rank the Tracks Released so Far in the Drake/Kendrick War From Worst To Best? [UPDATED EDITION]
My Personal Ranking of Every Track Released In the Beef
14.The Tiny Potshot Tracks (Various Artists) - Future, Weeknd, Rocky, etc. all did zero damage to Drake with any of their verses and it looked corny as shit for them to try and get involved. Literally provide nothing to the beef but hurting their own side. Butt out.
Final Grade: NO GRADE
13.Seven Minute Drill - What hasn’t been said about this track already? I didn’t like it when it came out but I like it even less after the apology. J. Cole starts off with a mediocre beat and goes on to throw warning shots that essentially amount to ‘I think TPAB is overrated and ‘Kendrick doesn’t really drop very often’. I get that he was trying to frame it as him checking Kendrick and throwing warning shots, but this beef had been presented as mostly warning shots and every other warning track was better. This was the equivalent of being pushed, trying to swing back and tripping over your own feet before apologizing for even trying. I agree when Cole called it the lamest shit he ever did. While in hindsight his apology was smart, I think we would have all preferred he never released this track in the first place. Still tuned in for the Fall Off tho.
Final Grade: D-
11.The Heart Part 6 - This might end up my longest review of the list by far because it has a lot to unpack. I’m going to be honest, this song does have some genuine positives that unburdened by their flaws would likely see it around a high B or a low A. Drake for one sticks to his guns and doubles down on the Dave Free shit which (aside from the negatives I’ll talk about later) is a smart move since it puts the accusations regarding Whitney back in the mix and him pressing Kendrick for proof makes him look more credible by comparison. He also has some pretty nice bars in there like the whole “Whitney when I hit you back it’ll be a lot safer” and the A minor B sharp scheme as a response to Not Like Us. He also demonstrates that he’s willing to go even lower than he’d demonstrated in prior raps by making Kendrick’s “molestation” the punchline of a series of bars. I’m personally more impressed by his malice than disapproving. They’d both crossed the line a while back and willing to go dark is a positive IMO. But now comes the laundry list of issues with this record. They can be broken down into two major sections: 1. CREDIBILITY: Throughout the feud, a lot of very serious accusations have been made on both sides and most of them don’t seem to have much if any proof behind them. Proof may or may not come out in good time but until then they exist in a weird flux state of being not firmly true nor false. After all there’s no way to truly disprove the more serious accusations regarding pedophilia and domestic violence. The problem here is that Drake makes a laundry list of claims on this record that aren’t just unsubstantiated but noticeably shaky or even able to be debunked via publicly available information. The fake mole would make him look like an idiot if true because he let Kendrick overshadow Family Matters and if he’d simply provided the receipts after Meet the Grahams or just the DMs he would have likely won the beef right then and there. He waited days and let videos and posts with tens of millions of views circulate calling him a pedophile when he could have avoided it all. Also the song he mentioned on Mr. Morale has Kendrick state plainly that he WASN’T molested so that angle falls flat. Finally saying that being very rich or famous means you can’t be a pedo is funny considering almost every well known serial sex pest is one or both. 2. CONCEDING: Drake essentially says he’s done with the beef during this song and also doesn’t bring a lot of energy. It’s a big shift from the days of Push Ups and Taylor Made where he was begging Kendrick to drop and baiting him constantly over social media. It doesn’t look like he’s the bigger person, it makes him look exhausted and worn out. He was already in a position where most of the internet was saying he’d been destroyed so it doesn’t come across as him bowing out. Him taking a vacation could not have been timed worse. In conclusion a song with a lot of promised that’s the most flawed on the list.
Final Grade: D+
10.6:16 in LA - Same concept as Taylor Made Freestyle. A needling track made purely to antagonize Drake into making a response. I liked the beat on this but the first half is pretty filler filled and the jabs about Drake’s camp while strong are not too biting or even shocking considering how large Drake’s crew is. Not much to say here. Also whoever told Kendrick to sing here should feel bad about their decision making skills.
Final Grade: C
9.Taylor Made Freestyle - I’m not going to be one of those losers pretending this isn’t hard because it used AI. Nah this isn’t very hard because it doesn’t really do much. I get why of course. It’s a bait track to try and coax a response from Kendrick. The use of AI is certainly disrespectful and the angle is interesting but it doesn’t really say anything outrageous or even all that disrespectful towards Kendrick himself. It’s not a total abomination, but it falls noticeably flat compared to the dedicated disses and even compared to some of the one verse attacks that we’ll get into later. It gets the edge over 6:16 in LA for how much it pissed off Kendrick.
Final Grade: C+
8.Like That - Might be a little low for some people but we’re judging these as diss tracks more than as records (though there definitely is a bit of that involved too hence why this is even at five). As a pure song, this is easily top three and maybe even top 1 on the list. But the disses only come from Kendrick’s verse and Cole catches essentially nothing. The big 3/big me moment will be iconic for years to come and there were two pretty hard bars towards Drake with the Pet Cemetery line and the Prince Outlived Mike Jack. It also gets huge props for being the track that kicked off the official Drake Kendrick beef. But there’s one track that really kicked off the 2024 diss trend that nobody here wants to talk about…
Final Grade: B-
7.HISS - For whatever reason people don’t want to give Meg her credit here considering she released the first major diss of the year. She really gets in her bag here and comes out with so many different shots at so many different people. I think some people completely forget that she actually dedicated more bars to Drake here than she ever did Nicki. She actually brought up the whole surgery shit before anyone else and even gave the blue print for the higher ranked Euphoria’s ‘Drake’s an accent faking bad bitch’ angle. I can’t rank the track any higher in this specific list since it only comes at any of the beef participants for like four bars but this track is really underrated and managed to hit a lot of people decently hard.
Final Grade: B-
6.Champagne Moments - There are definitely people that are going to put this lower in their lists but personally I loved it. It’s not nearly as far behind the next two spots for me as it might be for some other people. I’ve never been the biggest Ross fan but the way he raps over this luxurious beat makes it feel like he’s beating Drake’s ass in a five star hotel. He definitely did focus a little too heavily on Drake’s race, but honestly it was super funny hearing the repeated “white boy’s” on the track. And while the track itself was ok, that outro was genuinely amazing and one of the most hilarious things I’ve heard in a long time. Plus there genuinely were some hard lines on the actual track.
Final Grade: B
5.Push Ups - Now THIS, this right here is how you respond to a diss track. Drake managed to shut down every single jab on Like That in masterful fashion before going on to expose Kendrick being allegedly extorted by his label, and clown him for being a midget. All the while he managed to throw shots at Future, Weeknd, freaking Jah Morant and most notably Metro over a song that is going to get played in the club with a fun refrain. Loved the energy here from Drake. My only criticisms of the track are ones he couldn’t exactly control for. Those being that he whule he neutralized a lot of Kendrick’s stuff he didn’t actually add much besides the extortion stuff with Top (which rings pretty hollow coming from Drake). I mean Drake didn’t really have time with how many people he had to address after all and the lines about his height were still pretty funny. Still a great diss track considering what he had to do during, but as you can probably tell by the spot I gave it, it wasn’t the best either artist could offer.
Final Grade: B+
4.Euphoria - Let me get the criticism out of the way first. Kendrick didn’t really say anything insane before the Melly line and the track covers publicly discussed topics. But holy crap this was a strong track. Everything from that Melly bar onwards was nasty. I don’t think I went four bars without a strong reaction from then on. Every topic that had been talked about previously was perfected by Kendrick here. From the way he tackled his identity issues to him being a snake he managed to phrase everything in a variety of vicious ways. Hell he even managed to flip the fact that he said nothing new into a body blow about Drake as a father. I also feel like the replay value critique is overblown if not altogether false. While I’m not going to be bumping this as much as a Like That or a HISS or even a Push Ups, there are definitely a good amount of pretty nice quotables and that second beat is super fun. (And about a week later it’s still top 2 on Apple Music and Spotify so it’s definitely got replay value). Plus for me I’ve been catching more bars on follow up listens to the point that I like it a lot more on my last listen then I did on my first. It’s also in retrospect a very accurate prediction of how Drake was going to try and play the rest of their beef from there.
Final Grade: A-
3.Family Matters - This track was amazing. This was essentially Push Ups but better in every facet. We start off with the best from the end of Push Ups and Drake gets to singing which I don’t like very much, but he is a self proclaimed singing nigga so it makes sense. He hits Kendrick from some NASTY angles. He portrays Kendrick as an insecure, colorist, midget, cuck. He also makes the very serious accusation of Kendrick being an abusive fiancé and trying to drive he and his family apart. Had me looking side eyed at Dave Free myself (Or should I say Dave Freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee). All of this over three fire ass beats with a pretty nice music video. Drake said this was his red button and as far as red buttons go, this was a very strong one. It’s only even this low because there are a few stand out problems with the record. First, the whole thing about him being ashamed to be seen with Enoch thing seems odd considering Kendrick just generally doesn’t get photographed a lot in public and the fact that he was on the cover of MMATBS. Also Enoch and Adonis being the same shade is pretty disingenuous to anyone with eyes. Another issue is actually the same thing I praised Push Ups for a little, and that’s addressing a bunch of other people during the track instead of going straight at Kendrick. Because here it feels forced and more like an excuse to seem like he’s being jumped by the industry. While his responses here are solid, most of these people took shots at him before Push Ups and other than Ross haven’t said anything since. I still rate this higher than Euphoria because instead of having a good minute and a half of mid, this had about two minutes of strong but misdirected content.
Final Grade: A-
2.Not Like Us - Usually I’m not big on a song being a banger as a plus, but here it really is what makes Not Like Us rank so highly. Because it firstly thoroughly dispels a major criticism throughout the entire beef being that Kendrick’s songs have less replayability than Drake’s. And secondly, because unlike every track other than Push Ups (Drop and Give Me 50, Metro Shut Your Hoe Ass Up and Make Some Drums Nigga) and to a lesser extent Euphoria (We Don’t Wanna Hear You Say Nigga No Mooooooorrrrreeee), the quotables and refrains are all disses directed towards Drake. And there are more of them than any other song on this list. (Freaky Ass Nigga he the 69 God, Say OV-HOE, Say Drake….I hear you like them young, A Minoooooorrrrrrr etc.) It already has seen play during an MLB game and during the NBA playoffs as of recent. It’s the biggest hip hop debut in Spotify history as well. Super catchy and unlike Push Ups or Like That, it’s very focused on one person and hitting them with the most damaging accusation you can. Even better, this song is hilarious throughout while also containing a really good verse reframing Drake’s relationship with Atlanta rappers. It manages to both be a really good diss and arguably the best pure song on this list.
Final Grade: A
1.Meet the Grahams - Genuinely what the fuck. This might be the most vile, malicious, damaging track I’ve ever heard. Now obviously the validity of the claims in the track is very much up in the air. I definitely have my doubts regarding lil miss Adonia being real at the very least. But honestly just taking the first and last verses alone would have me put this at number one. Kendrick is evil as shit for making this but it’s a piece of art. It was a systematic character assassination that for a lot of people ended the beef. This will never be played in a club. It probably won’t be played by anyone more than once in most cases. It’s uncomfortable, dark, and menacing in a way the lower ranked THE HEART PART 6 attempts to be but fails at. He talks about Drake’s (alleged) drug addiction, sex addiction, gambling addiction, poor parenting, insecurities regarding his body, insecurities regarding his culture and masculinity, inauthenticity, insecurities regarding his parents etc. without even getting into the pedophilia/fake child stuff. I don’t think we’ll ever get a track this cruel and poignant for a very long time. This is a classic.
Final Grade: A+
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14.The Tiny Potshot Tracks (Various Artists) - Future, Weeknd, Rocky, etc. all did zero damage to Drake with any of their verses and it looked corny as shit for them to try and get involved. Literally provide nothing to the beef but hurting their own side. Butt out.
Final Grade: NO GRADE
13.Seven Minute Drill - What hasn’t been said about this track already? I didn’t like it when it came out but I like it even less after the apology. J. Cole starts off with a mediocre beat and goes on to throw warning shots that essentially amount to ‘I think TPAB is overrated and ‘Kendrick doesn’t really drop very often’. I get that he was trying to frame it as him checking Kendrick and throwing warning shots, but this beef had been presented as mostly warning shots and every other warning track was better. This was the equivalent of being pushed, trying to swing back and tripping over your own feet before apologizing for even trying. I agree when Cole called it the lamest shit he ever did. While in hindsight his apology was smart, I think we would have all preferred he never released this track in the first place. Still tuned in for the Fall Off tho.
Final Grade: D-
- Like That (Kanye Remix) - This track was ass. Kanye being a self important loser and inserting himself into the beef to do nothing but go ‘Look at Me!’ while saying nothing of substance is trash but it was pretty expected from me at least. He doesn’t even have a Drake line in the entire song other than saying that HE DOESN’T HAVE A DRAKE LINE! (And the Lucian bar) Maybe I’m just colored by everything that happened after Seven Minute Drill, but I rank this slightly higher just because that one shitty throwaway line about Cole music drying up pussies is funnier than anything on 7MD, and the fact that the beat was honestly amazing. Some of Metro’s best work.
11.The Heart Part 6 - This might end up my longest review of the list by far because it has a lot to unpack. I’m going to be honest, this song does have some genuine positives that unburdened by their flaws would likely see it around a high B or a low A. Drake for one sticks to his guns and doubles down on the Dave Free shit which (aside from the negatives I’ll talk about later) is a smart move since it puts the accusations regarding Whitney back in the mix and him pressing Kendrick for proof makes him look more credible by comparison. He also has some pretty nice bars in there like the whole “Whitney when I hit you back it’ll be a lot safer” and the A minor B sharp scheme as a response to Not Like Us. He also demonstrates that he’s willing to go even lower than he’d demonstrated in prior raps by making Kendrick’s “molestation” the punchline of a series of bars. I’m personally more impressed by his malice than disapproving. They’d both crossed the line a while back and willing to go dark is a positive IMO. But now comes the laundry list of issues with this record. They can be broken down into two major sections: 1. CREDIBILITY: Throughout the feud, a lot of very serious accusations have been made on both sides and most of them don’t seem to have much if any proof behind them. Proof may or may not come out in good time but until then they exist in a weird flux state of being not firmly true nor false. After all there’s no way to truly disprove the more serious accusations regarding pedophilia and domestic violence. The problem here is that Drake makes a laundry list of claims on this record that aren’t just unsubstantiated but noticeably shaky or even able to be debunked via publicly available information. The fake mole would make him look like an idiot if true because he let Kendrick overshadow Family Matters and if he’d simply provided the receipts after Meet the Grahams or just the DMs he would have likely won the beef right then and there. He waited days and let videos and posts with tens of millions of views circulate calling him a pedophile when he could have avoided it all. Also the song he mentioned on Mr. Morale has Kendrick state plainly that he WASN’T molested so that angle falls flat. Finally saying that being very rich or famous means you can’t be a pedo is funny considering almost every well known serial sex pest is one or both. 2. CONCEDING: Drake essentially says he’s done with the beef during this song and also doesn’t bring a lot of energy. It’s a big shift from the days of Push Ups and Taylor Made where he was begging Kendrick to drop and baiting him constantly over social media. It doesn’t look like he’s the bigger person, it makes him look exhausted and worn out. He was already in a position where most of the internet was saying he’d been destroyed so it doesn’t come across as him bowing out. Him taking a vacation could not have been timed worse. In conclusion a song with a lot of promised that’s the most flawed on the list.
Final Grade: D+
10.6:16 in LA - Same concept as Taylor Made Freestyle. A needling track made purely to antagonize Drake into making a response. I liked the beat on this but the first half is pretty filler filled and the jabs about Drake’s camp while strong are not too biting or even shocking considering how large Drake’s crew is. Not much to say here. Also whoever told Kendrick to sing here should feel bad about their decision making skills.
Final Grade: C
9.Taylor Made Freestyle - I’m not going to be one of those losers pretending this isn’t hard because it used AI. Nah this isn’t very hard because it doesn’t really do much. I get why of course. It’s a bait track to try and coax a response from Kendrick. The use of AI is certainly disrespectful and the angle is interesting but it doesn’t really say anything outrageous or even all that disrespectful towards Kendrick himself. It’s not a total abomination, but it falls noticeably flat compared to the dedicated disses and even compared to some of the one verse attacks that we’ll get into later. It gets the edge over 6:16 in LA for how much it pissed off Kendrick.
Final Grade: C+
8.Like That - Might be a little low for some people but we’re judging these as diss tracks more than as records (though there definitely is a bit of that involved too hence why this is even at five). As a pure song, this is easily top three and maybe even top 1 on the list. But the disses only come from Kendrick’s verse and Cole catches essentially nothing. The big 3/big me moment will be iconic for years to come and there were two pretty hard bars towards Drake with the Pet Cemetery line and the Prince Outlived Mike Jack. It also gets huge props for being the track that kicked off the official Drake Kendrick beef. But there’s one track that really kicked off the 2024 diss trend that nobody here wants to talk about…
Final Grade: B-
7.HISS - For whatever reason people don’t want to give Meg her credit here considering she released the first major diss of the year. She really gets in her bag here and comes out with so many different shots at so many different people. I think some people completely forget that she actually dedicated more bars to Drake here than she ever did Nicki. She actually brought up the whole surgery shit before anyone else and even gave the blue print for the higher ranked Euphoria’s ‘Drake’s an accent faking bad bitch’ angle. I can’t rank the track any higher in this specific list since it only comes at any of the beef participants for like four bars but this track is really underrated and managed to hit a lot of people decently hard.
Final Grade: B-
6.Champagne Moments - There are definitely people that are going to put this lower in their lists but personally I loved it. It’s not nearly as far behind the next two spots for me as it might be for some other people. I’ve never been the biggest Ross fan but the way he raps over this luxurious beat makes it feel like he’s beating Drake’s ass in a five star hotel. He definitely did focus a little too heavily on Drake’s race, but honestly it was super funny hearing the repeated “white boy’s” on the track. And while the track itself was ok, that outro was genuinely amazing and one of the most hilarious things I’ve heard in a long time. Plus there genuinely were some hard lines on the actual track.
Final Grade: B
5.Push Ups - Now THIS, this right here is how you respond to a diss track. Drake managed to shut down every single jab on Like That in masterful fashion before going on to expose Kendrick being allegedly extorted by his label, and clown him for being a midget. All the while he managed to throw shots at Future, Weeknd, freaking Jah Morant and most notably Metro over a song that is going to get played in the club with a fun refrain. Loved the energy here from Drake. My only criticisms of the track are ones he couldn’t exactly control for. Those being that he whule he neutralized a lot of Kendrick’s stuff he didn’t actually add much besides the extortion stuff with Top (which rings pretty hollow coming from Drake). I mean Drake didn’t really have time with how many people he had to address after all and the lines about his height were still pretty funny. Still a great diss track considering what he had to do during, but as you can probably tell by the spot I gave it, it wasn’t the best either artist could offer.
Final Grade: B+
4.Euphoria - Let me get the criticism out of the way first. Kendrick didn’t really say anything insane before the Melly line and the track covers publicly discussed topics. But holy crap this was a strong track. Everything from that Melly bar onwards was nasty. I don’t think I went four bars without a strong reaction from then on. Every topic that had been talked about previously was perfected by Kendrick here. From the way he tackled his identity issues to him being a snake he managed to phrase everything in a variety of vicious ways. Hell he even managed to flip the fact that he said nothing new into a body blow about Drake as a father. I also feel like the replay value critique is overblown if not altogether false. While I’m not going to be bumping this as much as a Like That or a HISS or even a Push Ups, there are definitely a good amount of pretty nice quotables and that second beat is super fun. (And about a week later it’s still top 2 on Apple Music and Spotify so it’s definitely got replay value). Plus for me I’ve been catching more bars on follow up listens to the point that I like it a lot more on my last listen then I did on my first. It’s also in retrospect a very accurate prediction of how Drake was going to try and play the rest of their beef from there.
Final Grade: A-
3.Family Matters - This track was amazing. This was essentially Push Ups but better in every facet. We start off with the best from the end of Push Ups and Drake gets to singing which I don’t like very much, but he is a self proclaimed singing nigga so it makes sense. He hits Kendrick from some NASTY angles. He portrays Kendrick as an insecure, colorist, midget, cuck. He also makes the very serious accusation of Kendrick being an abusive fiancé and trying to drive he and his family apart. Had me looking side eyed at Dave Free myself (Or should I say Dave Freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee). All of this over three fire ass beats with a pretty nice music video. Drake said this was his red button and as far as red buttons go, this was a very strong one. It’s only even this low because there are a few stand out problems with the record. First, the whole thing about him being ashamed to be seen with Enoch thing seems odd considering Kendrick just generally doesn’t get photographed a lot in public and the fact that he was on the cover of MMATBS. Also Enoch and Adonis being the same shade is pretty disingenuous to anyone with eyes. Another issue is actually the same thing I praised Push Ups for a little, and that’s addressing a bunch of other people during the track instead of going straight at Kendrick. Because here it feels forced and more like an excuse to seem like he’s being jumped by the industry. While his responses here are solid, most of these people took shots at him before Push Ups and other than Ross haven’t said anything since. I still rate this higher than Euphoria because instead of having a good minute and a half of mid, this had about two minutes of strong but misdirected content.
Final Grade: A-
2.Not Like Us - Usually I’m not big on a song being a banger as a plus, but here it really is what makes Not Like Us rank so highly. Because it firstly thoroughly dispels a major criticism throughout the entire beef being that Kendrick’s songs have less replayability than Drake’s. And secondly, because unlike every track other than Push Ups (Drop and Give Me 50, Metro Shut Your Hoe Ass Up and Make Some Drums Nigga) and to a lesser extent Euphoria (We Don’t Wanna Hear You Say Nigga No Mooooooorrrrreeee), the quotables and refrains are all disses directed towards Drake. And there are more of them than any other song on this list. (Freaky Ass Nigga he the 69 God, Say OV-HOE, Say Drake….I hear you like them young, A Minoooooorrrrrrr etc.) It already has seen play during an MLB game and during the NBA playoffs as of recent. It’s the biggest hip hop debut in Spotify history as well. Super catchy and unlike Push Ups or Like That, it’s very focused on one person and hitting them with the most damaging accusation you can. Even better, this song is hilarious throughout while also containing a really good verse reframing Drake’s relationship with Atlanta rappers. It manages to both be a really good diss and arguably the best pure song on this list.
Final Grade: A
1.Meet the Grahams - Genuinely what the fuck. This might be the most vile, malicious, damaging track I’ve ever heard. Now obviously the validity of the claims in the track is very much up in the air. I definitely have my doubts regarding lil miss Adonia being real at the very least. But honestly just taking the first and last verses alone would have me put this at number one. Kendrick is evil as shit for making this but it’s a piece of art. It was a systematic character assassination that for a lot of people ended the beef. This will never be played in a club. It probably won’t be played by anyone more than once in most cases. It’s uncomfortable, dark, and menacing in a way the lower ranked THE HEART PART 6 attempts to be but fails at. He talks about Drake’s (alleged) drug addiction, sex addiction, gambling addiction, poor parenting, insecurities regarding his body, insecurities regarding his culture and masculinity, inauthenticity, insecurities regarding his parents etc. without even getting into the pedophilia/fake child stuff. I don’t think we’ll ever get a track this cruel and poignant for a very long time. This is a classic.
Final Grade: A+
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2024.05.07 23:23 randallw9 The near future is kind of bleak
I am native born, over 50, not among the unlucky folks born poor.
I've spent time over the last 7 months looking into stats for the city, and it just make me sad, angry, even a bit infuriated. WE ALL SHOULD BE.
In a society working like it should, people with a lower quality of life can move up. Education is life, or some form of that. Here? People seem stuck. The masses of family trees that are poor or working class don't seem to get to a form of middle class. And so we have this daily chaos mess suffering malaise.
There is some amount of trying going on. The small academies are relatively young. On a website ( Niche ) with information on schools, there are anonymous students who are trying. I have no clear idea what percentage of people who need to care, are.
Where are the masses of savior-kids? Large amounts of kids raised poor, but with some amount of dignity, discipline, and focus, trying to pull their families into a better life? For every one of those, there seem untold amounts that aren't prepared to succeed.
The American history classes mentioned segregation. As a silly teenager I figured since it was no longer basic policy the black and Latino kids will do better in school now..........right?
JOKE'S ON US
"In the overall Oakland Unified test results for 2023, 33.06% of students met or exceeded the state standard in English, while 66.93% did not, a change of -2.27% from 2022. In math, 25.41% of students met or exceeded the state standard, with 74.59% not meeting it: a change of -0.46% from 2022."
https://caaspp.edsource.org/sbac/oakland-unified-01612590000000
That's lot of people who don't seem decently prepared to stand on their feet.
Are we hoping that smarter kids of the city will be future leaders, in whatever field they choose? The % of kids who exceed state standards for English is about 14%; for math it's about 12%. For both areas the numbers for specific grade levels get worse as the grade levels go up. The 11th graders who exceed state math standards is under 4%.
The high schools have a graduation rate running around 76 or 82%. So that's around 500 old teenagers ( young adults ) being plopped into the city society every year without a high school diploma. On top of the massive pile of people who don't have steady lives.
The city isn't completely poor. And of course the non-poor kids do better than the poor ones. So if some school of non-poor kids is at 65 or 75% passing, some poor school is a good bit under a city average of 33 or 25.
https://caaspp.edsource.org/sbac/westlake-middle-01612596057095
Westlake Middle School, known as Westlake Junior High during my time there.
In the overall Westlake Middle test results for 2023, 13.94% of students met or exceeded the state standard in English, while 86.06% did not, a change of -5.72% from 2022. In math, 7.97% of students met or exceeded the state standard, with 92.03% not meeting it: a change of 0.21% from 2022.
Good God.
For a couple grade levels, the amount of kids exceeding the state standard in a discipline is small enough that it registers as a 0.0
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I've spent time over the last 7 months looking into stats for the city, and it just make me sad, angry, even a bit infuriated. WE ALL SHOULD BE.
In a society working like it should, people with a lower quality of life can move up. Education is life, or some form of that. Here? People seem stuck. The masses of family trees that are poor or working class don't seem to get to a form of middle class. And so we have this daily chaos mess suffering malaise.
There is some amount of trying going on. The small academies are relatively young. On a website ( Niche ) with information on schools, there are anonymous students who are trying. I have no clear idea what percentage of people who need to care, are.
Where are the masses of savior-kids? Large amounts of kids raised poor, but with some amount of dignity, discipline, and focus, trying to pull their families into a better life? For every one of those, there seem untold amounts that aren't prepared to succeed.
The American history classes mentioned segregation. As a silly teenager I figured since it was no longer basic policy the black and Latino kids will do better in school now..........right?
JOKE'S ON US
"In the overall Oakland Unified test results for 2023, 33.06% of students met or exceeded the state standard in English, while 66.93% did not, a change of -2.27% from 2022. In math, 25.41% of students met or exceeded the state standard, with 74.59% not meeting it: a change of -0.46% from 2022."
https://caaspp.edsource.org/sbac/oakland-unified-01612590000000
That's lot of people who don't seem decently prepared to stand on their feet.
Are we hoping that smarter kids of the city will be future leaders, in whatever field they choose? The % of kids who exceed state standards for English is about 14%; for math it's about 12%. For both areas the numbers for specific grade levels get worse as the grade levels go up. The 11th graders who exceed state math standards is under 4%.
The high schools have a graduation rate running around 76 or 82%. So that's around 500 old teenagers ( young adults ) being plopped into the city society every year without a high school diploma. On top of the massive pile of people who don't have steady lives.
The city isn't completely poor. And of course the non-poor kids do better than the poor ones. So if some school of non-poor kids is at 65 or 75% passing, some poor school is a good bit under a city average of 33 or 25.
https://caaspp.edsource.org/sbac/westlake-middle-01612596057095
Westlake Middle School, known as Westlake Junior High during my time there.
In the overall Westlake Middle test results for 2023, 13.94% of students met or exceeded the state standard in English, while 86.06% did not, a change of -5.72% from 2022. In math, 7.97% of students met or exceeded the state standard, with 92.03% not meeting it: a change of 0.21% from 2022.
Good God.
For a couple grade levels, the amount of kids exceeding the state standard in a discipline is small enough that it registers as a 0.0
2024.05.07 23:22 WCInvestor The White Coat Investor Philosophy: 12 Timeless Financial Principles for Doctors
It's important to distinguish underlying principles from the minutiae of investing. I am often asked my opinion on a topic or an investment, and I readily share those opinions. However, it is easy for a casual reader or listener to mistake the trees for the forest. Today, I'm going to tell you about the forest. These are the hills I'm willing to die on.
It turns out that frugality matters. Try to resist living like a doctor. Save 20% of your gross income and grow into your income as slowly as you can. Make as much money as you can, especially early in your career. Negotiate your contracts well; work hard; and, if you're interested, do a side hustle.
This approach allows you to focus your efforts where they matter most (see #2 above). Since nobody actually knows the future, there's no sense in worrying about it or listening to those who are trying to predict it. Avoid market timing and individual stock picking. It is extremely hard to do either successfully long term, especially after-tax and after accounting for the value of your time and additional worry.
Maybe you want to get a little fancy here and there. Fine. Maybe you want to build a real estate empire on the side. That's a viable pathway to wealth, and done properly, it can help you reach financial independence earlier. Go for it. If you want to speculate on precious metals or crypto assets or commodities, limit that to a single-digit percentage of your portfolio.
But the foundation should be index funds. It's better for most of you, and it's certainly much easier for your heirs. Index funds don't buy ads at The White Coat Investor. Don't get me wrong. I'm very happy with the performance of our private real estate investments overall, but 85% of our portfolio is still in index funds and similar investments. You should have a very good reason to invest in anything that is not an index fund.
Remember that insurance is, on average, a bad deal. Think about it. Insurance companies do not pay out every dollar they take in in premiums. They cannot do so and stay in business. They have expenses and want to make a profit. So, on average, an insurance purchaser is losing money. Don't buy more than you need.
That period of time—right when you come out of residency and you're all fired up about your new career and excited to work hard and you're used to working hard and not spending much—is the time to become wealthy. Earn like an attending and spend like a resident. You can take the difference between those two, which is likely a six-figure amount, and pay off your student loans very quickly, catch up to your college peers with retirement savings, and maybe even save up a down payment for your dream home. It's really a great way to become very wealthy very quickly. Nearly every doctor will want options to cut back in some way by mid-career. The best way to ensure you have those options is to live like a resident in your early career.
These are all tax-advantaged accounts. They all have different contribution limits and different rules. You need to understand how they work and which ones are available to you—and you need to use them. They will help your money grow faster. They will protect your assets from your creditors and make your estate planning easier. They are the single greatest tax break available to you as a practicing physician.
“Would you rather earn interest or pay interest?”
That's right. You'd rather earn it. Get in the habit of not buying stuff that you can't afford. How do you know if you can afford it? If you can pay cash for it, you can afford it. Yes, I understand the math behind borrowing at a low rate and hopefully earning at a higher rate. If you're in one of those situations and you're convinced that you're actually investing the difference, go right ahead. But most of the time, we're human. We borrow at a low rate, we forget to invest at the higher rate, we spend it on something we want, and we end up poorer because of it. Don't do that.
That same drive that causes wealthy people to invest also drives them to pay off debt. Make enough and save enough that you can do both while still living a life where you do not feel deprived.
I'm always amazed to talk to people who really don't understand how the tax code works, and they just parrot things they hear in the media and assume that they're actually true when they aren't. It's important to understand the tax code. You can't win this game without knowing the rules. Unless your favorite charity is the US government, you would do well to remember what Judge Learned Hand said:
“Anyone may so arrange his affairs that his taxes shall be as low as possible; he is not bound to choose that pattern which will best pay the Treasury; there is not even a patriotic duty to increase one's taxes.”
That doesn't excuse you from doing the simple, effective asset protection stuff. Buy professional and personal (umbrella) liability insurance. Title your property properly (tenants by the entirety). Max out your retirement accounts. Understand your state asset protection laws. Put your rental properties into LLCs. When it makes sense, form LLCs and corporations. Once you're wealthy, use sensible irrevocable trusts for estate planning purposes and reap the asset protection benefits, too. Most importantly, remember that your biggest asset protection risk is lying in that bed next to you each night. Given divorce rates ranging from 10% (two-doc couples) to 50% (general population), date night is the best asset protection technique.
If you want my opinion on a niche personal finance or investing topic, I'll give it to you. But these timeless principles are the hills I'm willing to die on and the ones that the White Coat Investor blog will continue to promote.
What do you think are the most important principles in personal finance and investing?
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#1 Financial Planning Makes You Happier
I am 100% convinced that financially secure doctors are better partners, parents, and physicians. By doing real financial planning, you will have less stress, less burnout, less divorce, and less suicide. You will be happier. You will provide better patient care. Just do it.#2 Wealth Comes Mostly from Making a Lot and Saving a Lot
Wealth comes mostly from making a lot of money and saving a big chunk of it—not from your investing prowess. When I started The White Coat Investor blog, I thought I'd be writing all about investing. I thought I'd spend a lot of time on estate planning and asset protection. But what really makes the difference is good personal finance habits. Your goal should be to be a good earner and saver and an adequate investor. If you can do that, you will become wealthy and meet all of your financial goals.It turns out that frugality matters. Try to resist living like a doctor. Save 20% of your gross income and grow into your income as slowly as you can. Make as much money as you can, especially early in your career. Negotiate your contracts well; work hard; and, if you're interested, do a side hustle.
#3 You Need a Reasonable Written Investing Plan
There are many roads to Dublin. I am not going to prescribe an asset allocation to you that you must follow to be successful. I've seen lots of books that have been written like that, giving you the reasons behind some particular asset allocation plan. The truth is that any reasonable plan will do. There is no perfect portfolio, and if there was, you couldn't know what it was in advance. It turns out that the investor matters more than the investment. So, make a detailed investing plan and write it down. If you can't write it down, take our Fire Your Financial Advisor online course and/or hire help until you can. Then, implement it and follow it. As long as it's a reasonable plan and it's adequately funded, it will lead you to reach your investing goals.#4 Index Funds Are the Best Foundation for a Portfolio
Buying and holding a fixed asset allocation of low-cost, broadly diversified index mutual funds is the best foundation for a portfolio. This method of investing is basically free. There is barely any monetary cost, time, or effort required. Expense ratios are now under 10 basis points a year. That's basically free. Once you put your assets into there, it takes almost no time and effort to maintain them. You put your contributions in each month and perhaps rebalance once a year. This sort of portfolio can literally be managed in as little as an hour per year. It's a great foundation for an investing plan.This approach allows you to focus your efforts where they matter most (see #2 above). Since nobody actually knows the future, there's no sense in worrying about it or listening to those who are trying to predict it. Avoid market timing and individual stock picking. It is extremely hard to do either successfully long term, especially after-tax and after accounting for the value of your time and additional worry.
Maybe you want to get a little fancy here and there. Fine. Maybe you want to build a real estate empire on the side. That's a viable pathway to wealth, and done properly, it can help you reach financial independence earlier. Go for it. If you want to speculate on precious metals or crypto assets or commodities, limit that to a single-digit percentage of your portfolio.
But the foundation should be index funds. It's better for most of you, and it's certainly much easier for your heirs. Index funds don't buy ads at The White Coat Investor. Don't get me wrong. I'm very happy with the performance of our private real estate investments overall, but 85% of our portfolio is still in index funds and similar investments. You should have a very good reason to invest in anything that is not an index fund.
#5 Insure Well But Only Against Financial Catastrophes
I am not anti-insurance. I think you should insure well but only against those things that really are financial catastrophes. What are the financial catastrophes?- Disability, if you are depending on your income.
- Death, if anyone else depends on your income.
- Health. Illnesses and injuries can get very expensive very quickly, especially when they also keep you from working.
- Liability, both professional and personal.
- Property loss. Most people can't afford to replace their house if it burns down, so they should insure it.
Remember that insurance is, on average, a bad deal. Think about it. Insurance companies do not pay out every dollar they take in in premiums. They cannot do so and stay in business. They have expenses and want to make a profit. So, on average, an insurance purchaser is losing money. Don't buy more than you need.
#6 Live Like a Resident for 2-5 Years Out of Residency
Whether you're going for public service loan forgiveness, or whatever else is happening, it is so much easier not to grow into your income than it is to cut back once you have grown into your income.That period of time—right when you come out of residency and you're all fired up about your new career and excited to work hard and you're used to working hard and not spending much—is the time to become wealthy. Earn like an attending and spend like a resident. You can take the difference between those two, which is likely a six-figure amount, and pay off your student loans very quickly, catch up to your college peers with retirement savings, and maybe even save up a down payment for your dream home. It's really a great way to become very wealthy very quickly. Nearly every doctor will want options to cut back in some way by mid-career. The best way to ensure you have those options is to live like a resident in your early career.
#7 Spend Intentionally
I don't really care what you value. I don't care if it's a wakeboat, a Tesla, fancy vacations to Europe, $10,000 handbags, Michelin three-star restaurants, or a nice house. I don't care if you're retiring at 40 or putting your kids in private school. I do care that you're spending your money on what you care about most. When you have both financial literacy and financial discipline, you will spend intentionally by being generally frugal and selectively extravagant. You can have anything you want but not everything you want. Choose wisely.#8 Get Good Advice at a Fair Price
Get good advice at a fair price or learn how to be your own financial planner and investment manager. That is certainly a doable task for somebody with the intellect of a physician, but you have to be interested. If you're interested, you will gain the knowledge required to do this task, and you will gain the discipline required to do it well. If you're not interested enough to consider this at least a minor hobby, you should hire a financial advisor. Get one that's offering good advice at a fair price. Good advice means they're telling you the same sorts of things that you read on this blog and with other reliable sources of investing information. A fair price is a four-figure amount per year. If you're paying more than $10,000 a year, we can almost surely find you an advisor that will give you as good or better advice for less money. Do the math on AUM fees. If you are a millionaire and you're paying 1% a year, you're already paying more than $10,000 a year. Good financial advice and service are expensive, but not that expensive.#9 Understand and Use Your Tax-Advantaged Accounts
Each of us has tax-advantaged accounts available to us, as long as we have earned income. These include employer-provided accounts like 401(k)s, 403(b)s, 457(b)s, and 401(a)s. They include self-employed accounts like individual 401(k)s and personal cash balance plans. They also include personal accounts like Roth IRAs, HSAs, and 529s. Get your plan documents and read them. You have a second job as a pension fund manager, and you need to actually do something about that job despite the fact that you weren't given any training for it in medical school or residency.These are all tax-advantaged accounts. They all have different contribution limits and different rules. You need to understand how they work and which ones are available to you—and you need to use them. They will help your money grow faster. They will protect your assets from your creditors and make your estate planning easier. They are the single greatest tax break available to you as a practicing physician.
#10 Pay Cash and Avoid Debt
Doctors generally have enough income that they can waste quite a bit of it and make quite a few financial mistakes and still be OK. However, the principles are the same whether you make $50,000 or $500,000. Here's the principle. It's so simple that even my young kids understand it.“Would you rather earn interest or pay interest?”
That's right. You'd rather earn it. Get in the habit of not buying stuff that you can't afford. How do you know if you can afford it? If you can pay cash for it, you can afford it. Yes, I understand the math behind borrowing at a low rate and hopefully earning at a higher rate. If you're in one of those situations and you're convinced that you're actually investing the difference, go right ahead. But most of the time, we're human. We borrow at a low rate, we forget to invest at the higher rate, we spend it on something we want, and we end up poorer because of it. Don't do that.
That same drive that causes wealthy people to invest also drives them to pay off debt. Make enough and save enough that you can do both while still living a life where you do not feel deprived.
#11 Minimize Your Taxes and Know the Tax Code
While the tax code can be incredibly complicated, the basics are easily understood. Know the difference between a deduction and a credit. Know an above-the-line vs. a below-the-line or itemized deduction. Know where the various schedules and forms feed into the 1040. There are smaller or larger changes every year, but it's going to be mostly the same system every year of your life. Understand how it works today, and you'll find it much easier to understand the changes as they occur over the years.I'm always amazed to talk to people who really don't understand how the tax code works, and they just parrot things they hear in the media and assume that they're actually true when they aren't. It's important to understand the tax code. You can't win this game without knowing the rules. Unless your favorite charity is the US government, you would do well to remember what Judge Learned Hand said:
“Anyone may so arrange his affairs that his taxes shall be as low as possible; he is not bound to choose that pattern which will best pay the Treasury; there is not even a patriotic duty to increase one's taxes.”
#12 Asset Protection Is Easy and Matters Less Than You Think
Too many doctors are terribly afraid of losing everything to a malpractice lawsuit. It is actually incredibly rare for a doctor to lose any personal money in a lawsuit. For the most part in a malpractice lawsuit, you're serving as a defense witness for an insurance company.That doesn't excuse you from doing the simple, effective asset protection stuff. Buy professional and personal (umbrella) liability insurance. Title your property properly (tenants by the entirety). Max out your retirement accounts. Understand your state asset protection laws. Put your rental properties into LLCs. When it makes sense, form LLCs and corporations. Once you're wealthy, use sensible irrevocable trusts for estate planning purposes and reap the asset protection benefits, too. Most importantly, remember that your biggest asset protection risk is lying in that bed next to you each night. Given divorce rates ranging from 10% (two-doc couples) to 50% (general population), date night is the best asset protection technique.
If you want my opinion on a niche personal finance or investing topic, I'll give it to you. But these timeless principles are the hills I'm willing to die on and the ones that the White Coat Investor blog will continue to promote.
What do you think are the most important principles in personal finance and investing?
2024.05.07 23:21 Imwhateverhonestly Am I cooked?
I wanted to leave the state, but it's impossible now. So, I applied here.
I'm a 17-year-old woman who immigrated from Bangladesh.
Class rank: 56 / 510.
GPA (Unweighted): 3.5/4
SAT: 1160, Math= 600, English= 560
Freshmen year: Final Grades
WORLD HIST= A, HOPE-PE V= A, PHY SCI= A, GEO HON= B, ENG 1= A, INTENS READ= A, DIGITAL INFO TECH= A
Sophomore year: Final Grades
AMER GOVT HON= A, ECON FIN LIT HON= A, AICE GLBL PERSP 1 AS= A, BIO 1= A, ALG 2 HON= A. AVID 1= A, INTENS READ 2= B, AICE ENG GEN PAPER 1= A
Junior Year: Final
RESEARCH 1= A, BIOSCIENCE 1 HON= A, AICE DIG MEDIA&DES1= A, AICE US HIST AS= B, AICE ENG LANG AS= B, CHEM 1= A, PRE-CALCULUS HON= C
Extra: Chinese 1= A
Senior Year: Semester 1 (I did the worse this year)
ADV PL CALCULUS AB= B, AFR AMER HIST HONORS= B, AICE MARINE SCI 1 AS= B, AP COMPUTER SCI PRIN= B, AICE ENG LIT 1 AS= A, GAME & SIM PROGRAM= B
Extra: AP physics 1= D, Chinese 2= B
Dual Enrollment: MICROCOMPUTER= F, COLLEGE ALGEBRA: B
[So far, I have 1 C, 1 D, and 1 F. I don't think I ever wanted to rip my hair out before][I'm sorry][Legit just venting]
Activities:
1) Member of Newspaper Club/Newspaper Club
2) Member of Art Club, Art Club
3) Participant of Palm Beach Regional Science Fair, Palm Beach Regional Science and Engineering Fair
4) The Junior Academy Research Project, The Junior Academy Research Project
5) Street Art Festival
6) Palm Beach Museum of Natural History, Volunteer
7) Tutor
8) SAC Student Representative, School Advisory Council
AICE Test:
Digital Media & Design= E (Fail)
English General Paper AS= C
AS English Language A= D
History (American) A= E
Global Perspectives A= D
I wrote a pretty good essay/ personal essay. I wanted to go to either Virginia Tech or SBU (the ones I got accepted to), But my uncle started nagging about how it's too far. My uncle doesn't care, though. Then, they started guilt-tripping me about how I'm costing him so much by going out of state. Surprisingly, I felt guilty. Then, I got into UWF. But that place kinda looks isolated. Then applied to FIU, but there's a chance I might get the term entry of 2025 spring, which doesn't sit well with me. Not I'm really hoping for UCF. I did apply for FAU as a backup, which I know I'll get into and later transfer somewhere else. But UCF is just better than FAU, and I don't wanna go through the hassle of transfer. So, yeah. Just give me your honest thoughts. Honestly, might run into a hight way. My dumb ass also forgot to apply for the AP physics exam. So, I cried till 2 every night this whole year over momentum and sh*t for no reason.
I'm my biggest enemy. frfr.
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I'm a 17-year-old woman who immigrated from Bangladesh.
Class rank: 56 / 510.
GPA (Unweighted): 3.5/4
SAT: 1160, Math= 600, English= 560
Freshmen year: Final Grades
WORLD HIST= A, HOPE-PE V= A, PHY SCI= A, GEO HON= B, ENG 1= A, INTENS READ= A, DIGITAL INFO TECH= A
Sophomore year: Final Grades
AMER GOVT HON= A, ECON FIN LIT HON= A, AICE GLBL PERSP 1 AS= A, BIO 1= A, ALG 2 HON= A. AVID 1= A, INTENS READ 2= B, AICE ENG GEN PAPER 1= A
Junior Year: Final
RESEARCH 1= A, BIOSCIENCE 1 HON= A, AICE DIG MEDIA&DES1= A, AICE US HIST AS= B, AICE ENG LANG AS= B, CHEM 1= A, PRE-CALCULUS HON= C
Extra: Chinese 1= A
Senior Year: Semester 1 (I did the worse this year)
ADV PL CALCULUS AB= B, AFR AMER HIST HONORS= B, AICE MARINE SCI 1 AS= B, AP COMPUTER SCI PRIN= B, AICE ENG LIT 1 AS= A, GAME & SIM PROGRAM= B
Extra: AP physics 1= D, Chinese 2= B
Dual Enrollment: MICROCOMPUTER= F, COLLEGE ALGEBRA: B
[So far, I have 1 C, 1 D, and 1 F. I don't think I ever wanted to rip my hair out before][I'm sorry][Legit just venting]
Activities:
1) Member of Newspaper Club/Newspaper Club
2) Member of Art Club, Art Club
3) Participant of Palm Beach Regional Science Fair, Palm Beach Regional Science and Engineering Fair
4) The Junior Academy Research Project, The Junior Academy Research Project
5) Street Art Festival
6) Palm Beach Museum of Natural History, Volunteer
7) Tutor
8) SAC Student Representative, School Advisory Council
AICE Test:
Digital Media & Design= E (Fail)
English General Paper AS= C
AS English Language A= D
History (American) A= E
Global Perspectives A= D
I wrote a pretty good essay/ personal essay. I wanted to go to either Virginia Tech or SBU (the ones I got accepted to), But my uncle started nagging about how it's too far. My uncle doesn't care, though. Then, they started guilt-tripping me about how I'm costing him so much by going out of state. Surprisingly, I felt guilty. Then, I got into UWF. But that place kinda looks isolated. Then applied to FIU, but there's a chance I might get the term entry of 2025 spring, which doesn't sit well with me. Not I'm really hoping for UCF. I did apply for FAU as a backup, which I know I'll get into and later transfer somewhere else. But UCF is just better than FAU, and I don't wanna go through the hassle of transfer. So, yeah. Just give me your honest thoughts. Honestly, might run into a hight way. My dumb ass also forgot to apply for the AP physics exam. So, I cried till 2 every night this whole year over momentum and sh*t for no reason.
I'm my biggest enemy. frfr.
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2024.05.07 23:17 luxxevy AITA for disliking my parents?
I (15F) live with my parents and a younger brother (13M). For context, I have my first GCSE exam on Friday, it becomes relevant later on. I apologise for how unorganised this is, my head is all over the place at the moment.
My father is lazy, does objectively nothing to help around the house and essentially gets paid to sit on his arse all day. My mother works with disabled children and believes she's a saint for doing so. My brother is incredibly annoying, speaks fluent skibidi toilet brain rot and usually ignores my existence. Recently my mother has hit breaking point with my father's laziness and things have only gotten worse. From the age of 11, we've been expected to clean the kitchen daily - no big deal, every kid has chores.
Where I began to get annoyed was by the fact that every single day it's been me and me alone doing the job. My brother stands to the side and lets me clean everything. Before now I've tried simply doing the half he insists on me doing and then leaving (which is of course the bigger jobs that take longer to do) however, I've continuously watched him slap the crumbs off the counter with a towel and then just leave. This ends in me being yelled at because the job hasn't been done to the standard to which they expect it to be done, and when I complain that when it is done properly it's only me doing it, I get yelled at for that too - usually something like "grow up" or "when I was your age...".
To make things worse, my mother's justification that she did the same things at my age is entirely false. I have a very good relationship with my grandparents and they have time and time again told me she's lying - as has her sister who she also insists did the same jobs. According to them, her only job was to keep her room clean - she didn't even do that efficiently. This has been going on for years, but as I said, recently it's gotten much worse. In essence, my mom hates mess, but won't take any action against it. Instead, despite the fact she boasts about the fact her new job means less workload, she instead spends the time she could be using on tidying the house she hates so much on watching Harry Potter and leaving it to me.
To reduce her workload, she decided me and my brother need to do our washing, which I found fair enough until I realised I was still expected to fold the mountains of clothing she generates, which again, because my brother is so lazy and uses weaponised incompetence to an extent I never thought possible, is again entirely left to me. No matter how much I complain about just how much of the work is left to me, nothing ever changes. I was told she would take over my jobs so I could revise during exam season - this hasn't happened and I am still spending more time trying to appease my mother's stupid expectations than revising for the biology paper I sit on Friday - a subject I'm continuing at A Level.
Despite the personal choice to have not just one, but two children, she has decided I also have to fund my living on £10 a week. This includes but is not limited to shower gel, feminine hygiene, deodorant, clothes etc. This money, despite the ongoing cost of living crisis, is also supposed to fund trips with friends. This puts me in constant debt to my grandparents or friends, to the point where I've had to stop going out entirely to be able to fund my lifestyle - I don't buy expensive stuff, I simply take my hygiene very seriously, and my paranoia of being dirty or smelling bad is beginning to cost me a hell of a lot more than I believed it would.
My mom never used to be this insufferable and I fully believe it's down to her unhappy marriage. Time and time again I have begged my dad to do something to help out, but he simply believes that because he does the garden once a year he is excused from all housework - even wiping the sideboards after making breakfast, which probably takes around about 2 minutes. He's very big on meat and the keto diet which produces a lot of fat left on pans and spit around the kitchen. I'm autistic with pretty bad sensory problems and I HATE the texture of fat and having to clean it off of things, of course, this is left to me to fix again. I've asked him so often to just wipe out his plates and pans before putting them in the sink to be washed, and not once has he ever done as I have asked. This is the same man who'd yell at me in year 2 (6-7 years old) because I was too young to realise I had to scrape my food into the bin when I was done eating and I hadn't been doing so. In addition to not cleaning fat off of plates and pans, I have quite a few times cut myself on broken glass in the sink while attempting to unblock it, which no one has ever alerted me to it being there.
My mom seems unhappy in the marriage. She's googled divorce and how much it costs (£600) and complained about my dad's inherent laziness to my grandparents, her friends and my girlfriend's mother. I genuinely cannot fathom why she won't just leave him. The extent to which it impacts her mood is concerningly huge, and I'm so tired of having it taken out on me when I feel I've done nothing to deserve it.
While the responsibilities thrown upon me are a large part of my unhappiness, that's not all. Academically, I've always been ambitious, but it doesn't come naturally. Despite the work I put in, the all-nighters, easter school and tutoring have never been enough to give me a grade 9 (A++/A**). In my best subjects, I am capped at a 7 (A), and in my worst, I'm capped at 5s (Cs). While I understand that these arent bad grades and that many would be pleased by it, I have very high expectations for myself and I am never satisfied regardless of how much work I put in. Rather than helping despite the fact this has over time demotivated me to the point of depression and contemplation of ending my life as I never feel good enough, I've been met with "that's life"s and "get over it"s. Furthermore, they take great interest in my brother's life, asking how he's doing with a girl he mentioned he was into, but despite the fact they are aware of my girlfriend and that I have one, they have NEVER asked me how my life is or what my relationships are like. I get the idea that they don't care, and while I don't think it is, I think it could have something to do with my orientation (me and my girlfriend are of course in a lesbian relationship). I think this because when I have dated the opposite sex, they DO ask me about my relationships and are desperate to meet the boyfriend in question.
I don't feel I'm a bad daughter. I don't stay out late, I get academic awards (intermediate maths challenge, certificate of general academic excellence, personal postcards from teachers congratulating my work ethic etc.) and grades most parents would be delighted to hear their children are getting. I've never been a problem child, I've been caught doing something I shouldn't a total of once, I don't drink much, I've never done drugs, I'm still a virgin and am not at any risk of teen pregnancy, I do my absolute best, if not even more, and somehow despite this, I am still never enough. If anything they find small things to berate me over, such as slut shaming me for being on and off with the same two boys over a period couple of months - again, I am still a virgin, unlike MANY girls my age to the point where I am the only girl who hasn't done that at all in my whole friend group. Overall, the fact that no matter what I do is never enough for them has made me start to hate them, but they always apologise with money. My dad bought me a new bass guitar for yelling at me once, but never once has he ever said the word sorry to me, and honestly I would rather just them admit to having done something wrong or validate my feelings that I don't deserve what they give me. I know it's not huge, and I know so many people have it worse. They've never hit me and that's why I feel so ridiculous for hating them, but I'm so miserable at home and I've had so many friends tell me I can stay with them that I've seriously begun considering it. I'm desperate to move out, but with property prices in the UK that don't seem to be going down anytime soon, my only hope is surviving another 2 years and then moving into student accommodation, and I have no idea what I'll do after that.
Again, sorry for the jumbled-up mess, I just really needed to get it off my chest. I feel so unreasonable for hating them but then when I tell my friends about my home life they seem horrified as they either have absolutely nothing to do or less than a quarter of my responsibility. AITA?
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My father is lazy, does objectively nothing to help around the house and essentially gets paid to sit on his arse all day. My mother works with disabled children and believes she's a saint for doing so. My brother is incredibly annoying, speaks fluent skibidi toilet brain rot and usually ignores my existence. Recently my mother has hit breaking point with my father's laziness and things have only gotten worse. From the age of 11, we've been expected to clean the kitchen daily - no big deal, every kid has chores.
Where I began to get annoyed was by the fact that every single day it's been me and me alone doing the job. My brother stands to the side and lets me clean everything. Before now I've tried simply doing the half he insists on me doing and then leaving (which is of course the bigger jobs that take longer to do) however, I've continuously watched him slap the crumbs off the counter with a towel and then just leave. This ends in me being yelled at because the job hasn't been done to the standard to which they expect it to be done, and when I complain that when it is done properly it's only me doing it, I get yelled at for that too - usually something like "grow up" or "when I was your age...".
To make things worse, my mother's justification that she did the same things at my age is entirely false. I have a very good relationship with my grandparents and they have time and time again told me she's lying - as has her sister who she also insists did the same jobs. According to them, her only job was to keep her room clean - she didn't even do that efficiently. This has been going on for years, but as I said, recently it's gotten much worse. In essence, my mom hates mess, but won't take any action against it. Instead, despite the fact she boasts about the fact her new job means less workload, she instead spends the time she could be using on tidying the house she hates so much on watching Harry Potter and leaving it to me.
To reduce her workload, she decided me and my brother need to do our washing, which I found fair enough until I realised I was still expected to fold the mountains of clothing she generates, which again, because my brother is so lazy and uses weaponised incompetence to an extent I never thought possible, is again entirely left to me. No matter how much I complain about just how much of the work is left to me, nothing ever changes. I was told she would take over my jobs so I could revise during exam season - this hasn't happened and I am still spending more time trying to appease my mother's stupid expectations than revising for the biology paper I sit on Friday - a subject I'm continuing at A Level.
Despite the personal choice to have not just one, but two children, she has decided I also have to fund my living on £10 a week. This includes but is not limited to shower gel, feminine hygiene, deodorant, clothes etc. This money, despite the ongoing cost of living crisis, is also supposed to fund trips with friends. This puts me in constant debt to my grandparents or friends, to the point where I've had to stop going out entirely to be able to fund my lifestyle - I don't buy expensive stuff, I simply take my hygiene very seriously, and my paranoia of being dirty or smelling bad is beginning to cost me a hell of a lot more than I believed it would.
My mom never used to be this insufferable and I fully believe it's down to her unhappy marriage. Time and time again I have begged my dad to do something to help out, but he simply believes that because he does the garden once a year he is excused from all housework - even wiping the sideboards after making breakfast, which probably takes around about 2 minutes. He's very big on meat and the keto diet which produces a lot of fat left on pans and spit around the kitchen. I'm autistic with pretty bad sensory problems and I HATE the texture of fat and having to clean it off of things, of course, this is left to me to fix again. I've asked him so often to just wipe out his plates and pans before putting them in the sink to be washed, and not once has he ever done as I have asked. This is the same man who'd yell at me in year 2 (6-7 years old) because I was too young to realise I had to scrape my food into the bin when I was done eating and I hadn't been doing so. In addition to not cleaning fat off of plates and pans, I have quite a few times cut myself on broken glass in the sink while attempting to unblock it, which no one has ever alerted me to it being there.
My mom seems unhappy in the marriage. She's googled divorce and how much it costs (£600) and complained about my dad's inherent laziness to my grandparents, her friends and my girlfriend's mother. I genuinely cannot fathom why she won't just leave him. The extent to which it impacts her mood is concerningly huge, and I'm so tired of having it taken out on me when I feel I've done nothing to deserve it.
While the responsibilities thrown upon me are a large part of my unhappiness, that's not all. Academically, I've always been ambitious, but it doesn't come naturally. Despite the work I put in, the all-nighters, easter school and tutoring have never been enough to give me a grade 9 (A++/A**). In my best subjects, I am capped at a 7 (A), and in my worst, I'm capped at 5s (Cs). While I understand that these arent bad grades and that many would be pleased by it, I have very high expectations for myself and I am never satisfied regardless of how much work I put in. Rather than helping despite the fact this has over time demotivated me to the point of depression and contemplation of ending my life as I never feel good enough, I've been met with "that's life"s and "get over it"s. Furthermore, they take great interest in my brother's life, asking how he's doing with a girl he mentioned he was into, but despite the fact they are aware of my girlfriend and that I have one, they have NEVER asked me how my life is or what my relationships are like. I get the idea that they don't care, and while I don't think it is, I think it could have something to do with my orientation (me and my girlfriend are of course in a lesbian relationship). I think this because when I have dated the opposite sex, they DO ask me about my relationships and are desperate to meet the boyfriend in question.
I don't feel I'm a bad daughter. I don't stay out late, I get academic awards (intermediate maths challenge, certificate of general academic excellence, personal postcards from teachers congratulating my work ethic etc.) and grades most parents would be delighted to hear their children are getting. I've never been a problem child, I've been caught doing something I shouldn't a total of once, I don't drink much, I've never done drugs, I'm still a virgin and am not at any risk of teen pregnancy, I do my absolute best, if not even more, and somehow despite this, I am still never enough. If anything they find small things to berate me over, such as slut shaming me for being on and off with the same two boys over a period couple of months - again, I am still a virgin, unlike MANY girls my age to the point where I am the only girl who hasn't done that at all in my whole friend group. Overall, the fact that no matter what I do is never enough for them has made me start to hate them, but they always apologise with money. My dad bought me a new bass guitar for yelling at me once, but never once has he ever said the word sorry to me, and honestly I would rather just them admit to having done something wrong or validate my feelings that I don't deserve what they give me. I know it's not huge, and I know so many people have it worse. They've never hit me and that's why I feel so ridiculous for hating them, but I'm so miserable at home and I've had so many friends tell me I can stay with them that I've seriously begun considering it. I'm desperate to move out, but with property prices in the UK that don't seem to be going down anytime soon, my only hope is surviving another 2 years and then moving into student accommodation, and I have no idea what I'll do after that.
Again, sorry for the jumbled-up mess, I just really needed to get it off my chest. I feel so unreasonable for hating them but then when I tell my friends about my home life they seem horrified as they either have absolutely nothing to do or less than a quarter of my responsibility. AITA?
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- I write my ad in proper American English, the same way I always text and email people.
- I can guide students on formatting & writing term papers, essays, and discussion posts in APA MLA Chicago Harvard format.
- If the tutor you’re checking out consistently writes using egregiously horrendous grammar, do you honestly think it’s a good idea to trust them to help you do well in your class?
- I have absolutely no reservations with allowing interested students the opportunity to analyze & assess my intonations & inflections my erudite diction my unique vocabulary & word choice suburban upper-middle-class American accent my tone & pitch my articulation to get a better idea of the way I present myself.
- If you call my phone number and I don't pick up the phone in time, my voicemail recording will play.
- I recorded my voicemail message in my own voice introducing myself as Jim O'Hara and explaining my services.
- A professional tutor running a serious business should have a unique voicemail greeting regarding their services.
- I consider myself to be a very well-mannered and polite person.
- I always try to speak & text in a clean proper matter without using any obscenities or R-rated language.
- Please be wary of anyone using inappropriate R-rated language (example: f-bombs, C U Next Tuesday, sh*t).
- A professional tutor should carry themselves with dignity and class.
- Depending on my availability, I can accommodate immediate tutoring requests, 1-24 hour, and 1-30-day deadlines.
- I can schedule live real-time online sessions and meet deadlines in an impressively timely fashion.
- I can provide quick notifications and updates of progress made in the student's class via email text phone calls.
- I can also be available to tutor students for Fall 2021 Spring 2022 Summer 2022 semesters.
- I am very knowledgeable and well-versed in a wide range of educational software to tutor students in including but not limited to: Acellus ALEKS APEX Learning Aplia Blackboard Brightspace Canvas Cengage CengageNow Connect ConnectMath Connexus CPM D2L Discord Edmentum Eviews Examity Excel Hawkes Learning Honorlock Khan Academy Knewton LimeSpring Lumen Maple MasteringChemistry MasteringPhysics MathXL (XL) MATLAB McGraw-Hill Microsoft Word Minitab Moodle MyAccountingLab MyEconLab MyITLab MyLab My Lab MyMathLab My Math Lab MyOpenMath MyPsychLab MySocLab MyStatLab My Stat Lab NCSS Open Source Software Pearson PERT PlatoWeb PowerPoint Prezi R Respondus Lockdown Browser with Webcam Sapling SPSS Stata StraighterLine Straighter Line WebAssign Web Assign Webex (Cisco) WebWork Wiley WileyPlus Wonderlic Zoom
As of 2021, I have tutored and helped students enrolled at the following U.S. universities community colleges county & city colleges schools for-profit institutions listed below in alphabetical order:
- A - C: American Public University System (APUS) Arizona State Ashford Brigham Young Brown Broward California State (Fullerton) Capella Chamberlain (Illinois) Colorado Technical Columbia Columbia Southern Cornell
- D - K: Dallas College Dartmouth DeVry Excelsior College Florida International Florida State Full Sail Georgia State Grand Canyon Harvard Houston Community College Ivy Tech Community College Kaplan Kennesaw State Kent State
- L - T: Liberty Lone Star College System Kaplan Miami Dade Michigan State CUNY State University of New York (SUNY) Northern Virginia Ohio State University of Phoenix (UOP) Penn State Princeton Purdue (Davenport) San Diego State San Francisco State San Jose State Southern New Hampshire Southern Nevada Stanford St. Petersburg Strayer Texas Tech
- UNIVERSITY OF: Alabama Arizona California (UC) Central Florida Chicago Cincinnati Florida Houston Illinois (Urbana-Champaign) Iowa Maryland Minnesota Michigan North Texas Pennsylvania Southern Florida Texas Toronto
- U - Z: UCLA Extension Utah State Utah Valley Valencia Walden U Wake Technical Western Governors Wilmington Yale
- I offer several unique payment plans, including a weekly plan, a discounted monthly plan, a discounted half-now / half-later plan, and highly discounted up-front rates.
- I can accept the following payment methods for my services: PayPal Debit Cards Square Cash Credit Cards Cash App Venmo.
- Only people located in North America have access to Venmo Cash App Zelle.
- This is an excellent way to determine if the person you're dealing with is from the United States.
- Within reason, I offer a partial or full money-Back guarantee if the student is very unsatisfied with my academic services.
- For other subjects, you can reach out to me, and I can connect you with one of my tutoring partners who can provide general academic assistance for the following subjects:
- Art & Design: Art History Design Film Studies
- Business: Accounting (Acc) Biz Courses Business Administration (Biz Admn) Business Calculus Business Law Business Statistics Corporate Finance Economics (Econ) Finance (Fin) Financial Accounting Intermediate Accounting Intermediate Microeconomics (Micro) Macroeconomics (Macro) Management (Mgmt) Managerial Accounting Marketing MBA
- Computer Science: C C++ Computer Programming (Comp) Java Python R (Introduction & Intermediate Level Only)
- Humanities: Communications (Comm) English Literature Essay & Term Paper Writing, Editing, Proofreading Essays History Papers Philosophy (Phil) Religious Studies Theology (Theo)
- Mathematics: A.P. Calculus AB & BC Psychology Statistics AP Statistics Bio statistics Calculus I (1) Calculus II (2) Calculus III (3) College Algebra Differential Equations Discrete Math Finite Math Functions General Math Geometry Liberal Arts Math Linear Algebra Multi-variable Calculus Partial Differential Equations Precalculus Probability Quantitative Reasoning Real Analysis Statistics Trigonometry (Trig) Vector Calculus
- Science & Medicine: Anatomy & Physiology (A & P) Biochemistry Biology (Bio) Biostatistics Earth Science Environmental Science General Chemistry (Chem) Healthcare Medicine Nursing Nutrition Organic Chemistry Physics (Phys)
- Social Sciences: Anthropology Economics (Econ) Geology Law & Justice Liberal Arts Liberal Studies Political Science Psychology Sociology
Considering the fact that you found my contact information online, it’s understandable to be skeptical regarding the legitimacy of my services. Therefore, I’m willing to do all of the following to help you feel more secure in trusting me with your academic needs:
- 1) Speak with you on the phone and answer any questions you may have so that you have the opportunity to assess and analyze my tone, articulation, accent, diction, dialect, regionalisms, pitch, vocabulary, word choice, intonations, and inflections.
- NOTE: I’m a New Jersey-born Irish/Italian-American, but I have been told that I speak in an erudite & articulate suburban American accent with a “professor style” voice somewhat resembling the voice of actor: Ben Stein.
- 2) Agree to do some homework questions of yours upfront with the work fully shown in real-time to prove my mastery of the course content.
- 3) Send you screenshots of at least five past scores I attained from completing exams & homework assignments for other students in the same type of class you need help with.
- 4) Send you full screenshots of written exam solutions I wrote up by hand for students in the past in the same course that you need help with so that you can see my neat handwriting.
- 5) Provide you with the contact information of students who have utilized my services in the past who would be more than willing to vouch for my skills.
At the risk of sounding arrogant, I consider myself to be at least marginally more intelligent (both academically & socially) than the average person. Therefore, if I ever decided to suddenly risk prison time, risk my reputation, and risk enduring the wrath of modern-day “cancel culture” by scamming people out of their money:
- I certainly wouldn’t do it for such paltry amounts of money. (i.e., anything less than $1,000 per victim.)
- I certainly wouldn’t choose high school & college students as my “target audience” to scam, considering that most people without college degrees have abysmally low annual incomes. Why choose low-income victims when it would be much more profitable to target high-income, high-net-worth individuals earning at least six figures a year? I have knowledge in business consulting, and I promise you that a business owner would be a MUCH more lucrative mark than a low-income college student.
- I wouldn’t choose such a time & energy-draining method of scamming people. Also, communicating back and forth with potential clients is an absurdly long time sink since only less than 10% of all potential clients who reach out to me actually become paying clients of mine. This means that 90% of my time communicating with potential clients ultimately proves to be a colossal waste of my irretrievable time & energy.
- If you pay me to provide academic services and I don’t deliver, you can always dispute the payment with the payment app and easily get your money refunded. If I were in the habit of swindling money from people, then all of my payment accounts would have been investigated and be completely shut down by now. And I would have been permanently banned from opening new accounts. Therefore, the fact that all my payment apps have been fully active for years should be sufficient proof that I haven’t had people consistently disputing payments sent to me.
- If you are interested in my services and would like to learn more info, please feel free to reach out to me.
- Text messages and email are the fastest and easiest ways to get in touch with me. However, I gladly accept phone calls.
- If I don't respond right away, I am most likely helping a student at the time and not currently available to speak on the phone. But I always make a solid effort to reply to texts, emails, and phone calls within an hour.
- I take my work as a tutor very seriously, and I always aim to do my best to help my students excel in school. I have a solid and sincere passion for academic achievement, and with my help, I am positive that I can help students obtain very high grades with minimal stress and effort.
- Please feel free to contact me if you're interested in my services and would like to learn more. I'm available 24/7 via phone call, email, and text. Again, thank you for taking the time to read my Reddit tutoring ad, and I hope to hear from you soon!
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- Call: +1 727 456 9641
- Important: Please contact me via text or call to get the fastest response possible. I don't check Reddit Messenger very often.
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I am very knowledgeable and proficient in assisting students in a wide range of mathematics classes. I can help students complete their homework assignments and other projects get an A on quizzes, tests, and exams (including proctored assessments) answer online discussion posts write essays & papers in MLA APA Chicago format and provide general overall academic help in each math course listed below:
As of 2021, I have tutored and helped students enrolled at the following U.S. universities community colleges county & city colleges schools for-profit institutions listed below in alphabetical order:
Considering the fact that you found my contact information online, it’s understandable to be skeptical regarding the legitimacy of my services. Therefore, I’m willing to do all of the following to help you feel more secure in trusting me with your academic needs:
At the risk of sounding arrogant, I consider myself to be at least marginally more intelligent (both academically & socially) than the average person. Therefore, if I ever decided to suddenly risk prison time, risk my reputation, and risk enduring the wrath of modern-day “cancel culture” by scamming people out of their money:
MY CONTACT INFO:
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- Email: info@hiraedu. com
- WhatsApp: +1 (213) 594-5657
- Call: +1 727 456 9641
- Important: Please contact me via text or call to get the fastest response possible. I don't check Reddit Messenger very often.
- Online Courses (1 - 20 Weeks Long)
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I am very knowledgeable and proficient in assisting students in a wide range of mathematics classes. I can help students complete their homework assignments and other projects get an A on quizzes, tests, and exams (including proctored assessments) answer online discussion posts write essays & papers in MLA APA Chicago format and provide general overall academic help in each math course listed below:
- Advanced Placement Honors High School Level Math
- AP Calculus AB A.P. Calculus BC
- AP Statistics
- Biostatistics Bio-Statistics
- College Algebra Intermediate Algebra
- Business Calculus
- Business Statistics
- Business Math
- Calculus I Calculus II Calculus III (Calc)
- Geometry
- International Baccalaureate (IB) Maths
- Liberal Arts Math
- Logic & Reasoning
- Multivariable Calculus Multi variable Calculus
- Precalculus Pre-calculus
- Probability & Statistics
- Psychology Statistics Psych Stats
- Quantitative Reasoning Quantitative Methods Quantitative Literacy (Quant)
- Statistics (Stats)
- Statistics for Social Sciences
- Trigonometry (Trig)
- I have a master's degree in Applied Statistics from a university in New Jersey, USA. As a result, I am very proficient in helping students with various types of Statistics courses including Biostatistics Business Statistics Elementary Statistics Probability & Statistics Psychology Statistics.
- I have extensive knowledge and skill with helping students get through various statistical concepts including all of the following in alphabetical order:
- ANOVA Bar Graph, Boxplot, Dot Plot, Histogram, Pie Chart Bias Binomial, Exponential, Poisson, Gamma, Uniform Distribution Central Limit Theorem Chi-Square Test Coefficient of Determination (R^2) Conditional & Relative Probability Confidence Interval Correlation Coefficient (r) Critical Region Critical Value Descriptive & Inferential Statistics Effect Size Expected Value Experiment vs Observation Goodness of Fit Test Hypothesis Testing Interpolation & Extrapolation Interquartile Range (IQR) Kurtosis Left, Negative, Right, Positive Skewed Distribution Logistic Regression Mean, Median, Mode, Midrange Multiple Regression Nominal, Ordinal, Interval, Ratio I Population Parameter Normal, Symmetric & Bell Shaped Distribution Null & Alternate Hypothesis One & Two Sample T-Test One & Two Sample Z-Test Ordinary Least Squares Outliers P-Value Pooled Variance (Equal Variances) Proportion R^2 Range Regression Regression Line Reject & Fail to Reject Ho Relative & Cumulative Frequency Distributions Relativity & Reliability Right, Left, One, Two Tailed Tailed Hypothesis Test Sample Statistics Sampling Methods (Convenience, Stratified, Simple, Cluster, Systematic) Significance Level (1%, 5%, 10%) Skewness Standard Deviation& Variance T-Score Test Statistic Time Series Type I & Type II Errors Unbiased Estimators Z-Score
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- Absolute Values Circle Equation Domain Exponents Graphing Horizontal & Vertical Asymptotes Inequalities, Equations & Functions Inverse Functions Linear, Exponential, Logarithmic, Quadratic Equations Logarithms Maximum & Minimum Values of a Graph Number Lines One-to-One Functions Parallel & Perpendicular Lines Plotting Points & Ordered Pairs Point-Slope Form Polynomial Division Polynomials Radicals Range Rational & Irrational Expressions Rational Functions Real Roots Real Zeros Relations & Functions Slope Slope-Intercept Form Square Roots Standard Form of a Line System of Equations System of Inequalities Variables X and Y Intercepts
- I am well-versed in helping students do well in Calculus I, II & III, Calculus 1, 2 & 3, Business Calculus, Multivariable Calculus, Vector Calculus and I am very knowledgeable and proficient in the following calculus topics in alphabetical order:
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- Proficient in CollegeBoard AP Calculus AB, AP Calculus BC & AP Statistics exams.
- Skilled with International Baccalaureate Math Exams: IB Maths HL & IB Maths SL
- Can intentionally answer a few problems incorrectly at the student's request.
- Can text solutions to the student while they are taking a proctored exam.
- Upon request, can purposely obtain grades below an A (ex: B+, B, C+, C-).
- I can stretch out the time to a plausible length for timed exams and assignments before submitting them.
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- I have no problem with requests to solve sample problems upfront to prove my knowledge & proficiency of the course concepts.
- I can provide glowing references & strong examples of work done for past clients to verify my academic skills.
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- I am quite skilled and adept in using multiple modernized educational platforms and software, including but not limited to: Brightspace MyStatLab D2L WebAssign Canvas MyMathLab Blackboard ALEKS
- Can format term papers and discussion posts in APA MLA Harvard Chicago Vancouver OSCOLA IEEE format.
- I have multiple paid subscriptions to a wide range of academic tutoring resources, including Chegg, Quizlet, CourseHero, Brainly, Grammarly, Bartleby, Slader, Transtutors, Slideshare, StudocU, Turnitin, Academia, SymboLab, WolframAlpha, and Scribd to help guide to solve exam & homework questions that I may not immediately know.
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- I have access to a very sophisticated graphing calculator and various mathematical software that provides step-by-step solutions to complex mathematical problems within seconds, allowing me to provide exact solutions to the student in a timely manner.
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- Email: info@hiraedu. com
- WhatsApp: +1 (213) 594-5657
- Call: +1 727 456 9641
- Important: Please contact me via text or call to get the fastest response possible. I don't check Reddit Messenger very often.
- Unlike some tutors advertising on Reddit, I am a native-born and raised American citizen with an authentic natural U.S. American accent.
- I am half Irish, half Italian, but 100% American.
- I have received a complete American education from an NJ Elementary School, an NJ middle school, an NJ high school, and 2 NJ universities.
- I have no problem speaking with potential clients on the phone.
- I have an authentic suburban upper-middle-class American accent, similar to the actor: Ben Stein.
- However, be wary of so-called “tutors” who refuse to accept any phone calls or have a strict “text / email only” policy.
- These “text-only” / “email-only” tutors are usually located outside the U.S. and are afraid their foreign accent will expose their true nationality.
- Approximately 98% of the time, I write all my texts & emails in grammatically correct U.S. English with proper punctuation and occasional typo.
- Unlike some alleged “U.S.-based tutors,” I do NOT write using broken English or grammatically incorrect texting shorthand (example: "wut u need help wit??").
- I write my ad in proper American English, the same way I always text and email people.
- I can guide students on formatting & writing term papers, essays, and discussion posts in APA MLA Chicago Harvard format.
- If the tutor you’re checking out consistently writes using egregiously horrendous grammar, do you honestly think it’s a good idea to trust them to help you do well in your class?
- I have absolutely no reservations with allowing interested students the opportunity to analyze & assess my intonations & inflections my erudite diction my unique vocabulary & word choice suburban upper-middle-class American accent my tone & pitch my articulation to get a better idea of the way I present myself.
- If you call my phone number and I don't pick up the phone in time, my voicemail recording will play.
- I recorded my voicemail message in my own voice introducing myself as Jim O'Hara and explaining my services.
- A professional tutor running a serious business should have a unique voicemail greeting regarding their services.
- I consider myself to be a very well-mannered and polite person.
- I always try to speak & text in a clean proper matter without using any obscenities or R-rated language.
- Please be wary of anyone using inappropriate R-rated language (example: f-bombs, C U Next Tuesday, sh*t).
- A professional tutor should carry themselves with dignity and class.
- Depending on my availability, I can accommodate immediate tutoring requests, 1-24 hour, and 1-30-day deadlines.
- I can schedule live real-time online sessions and meet deadlines in an impressively timely fashion.
- I can provide quick notifications and updates of progress made in the student's class via email text phone calls.
- I can also be available to tutor students for Fall 2021 Spring 2022 Summer 2022 semesters.
- I am very knowledgeable and well-versed in a wide range of educational software to tutor students in including but not limited to: Acellus ALEKS APEX Learning Aplia Blackboard Brightspace Canvas Cengage CengageNow Connect ConnectMath Connexus CPM D2L Discord Edmentum Eviews Examity Excel Hawkes Learning Honorlock Khan Academy Knewton LimeSpring Lumen Maple MasteringChemistry MasteringPhysics MathXL (XL) MATLAB McGraw-Hill Microsoft Word Minitab Moodle MyAccountingLab MyEconLab MyITLab MyLab My Lab MyMathLab My Math Lab MyOpenMath MyPsychLab MySocLab MyStatLab My Stat Lab NCSS Open Source Software Pearson PERT PlatoWeb PowerPoint Prezi R Respondus Lockdown Browser with Webcam Sapling SPSS Stata StraighterLine Straighter Line WebAssign Web Assign Webex (Cisco) WebWork Wiley WileyPlus Wonderlic Zoom
As of 2021, I have tutored and helped students enrolled at the following U.S. universities community colleges county & city colleges schools for-profit institutions listed below in alphabetical order:
- A - C: American Public University System (APUS) Arizona State Ashford Brigham Young Brown Broward California State (Fullerton) Capella Chamberlain (Illinois) Colorado Technical Columbia Columbia Southern Cornell
- D - K: Dallas College Dartmouth DeVry Excelsior College Florida International Florida State Full Sail Georgia State Grand Canyon Harvard Houston Community College Ivy Tech Community College Kaplan Kennesaw State Kent State
- L - T: Liberty Lone Star College System Kaplan Miami Dade Michigan State CUNY State University of New York (SUNY) Northern Virginia Ohio State University of Phoenix (UOP) Penn State Princeton Purdue (Davenport) San Diego State San Francisco State San Jose State Southern New Hampshire Southern Nevada Stanford St. Petersburg Strayer Texas Tech
- UNIVERSITY OF: Alabama Arizona California (UC) Central Florida Chicago Cincinnati Florida Houston Illinois (Urbana-Champaign) Iowa Maryland Minnesota Michigan North Texas Pennsylvania Southern Florida Texas Toronto
- U - Z: UCLA Extension Utah State Utah Valley Valencia Walden U Wake Technical Western Governors Wilmington Yale
- I offer several unique payment plans, including a weekly plan, a discounted monthly plan, a discounted half-now / half-later plan, and highly discounted up-front rates.
- I can accept the following payment methods for my services: PayPal Debit Cards Square Cash Credit Cards Cash App Venmo.
- Only people located in North America have access to Venmo Cash App Zelle.
- This is an excellent way to determine if the person you're dealing with is from the United States.
- Within reason, I offer a partial or full money-Back guarantee if the student is very unsatisfied with my academic services.
- For other subjects, you can reach out to me, and I can connect you with one of my tutoring partners who can provide general academic assistance for the following subjects:
- Art & Design: Art History Design Film Studies
- Business: Accounting (Acc) Biz Courses Business Administration (Biz Admn) Business Calculus Business Law Business Statistics Corporate Finance Economics (Econ) Finance (Fin) Financial Accounting Intermediate Accounting Intermediate Microeconomics (Micro) Macroeconomics (Macro) Management (Mgmt) Managerial Accounting Marketing MBA
- Computer Science: C C++ Computer Programming (Comp) Java Python R (Introduction & Intermediate Level Only)
- Humanities: Communications (Comm) English Literature Essay & Term Paper Writing, Editing, Proofreading Essays History Papers Philosophy (Phil) Religious Studies Theology (Theo)
- Mathematics: A.P. Calculus AB & BC Psychology Statistics AP Statistics Bio statistics Calculus I (1) Calculus II (2) Calculus III (3) College Algebra Differential Equations Discrete Math Finite Math Functions General Math Geometry Liberal Arts Math Linear Algebra Multi-variable Calculus Partial Differential Equations Precalculus Probability Quantitative Reasoning Real Analysis Statistics Trigonometry (Trig) Vector Calculus
- Science & Medicine: Anatomy & Physiology (A & P) Biochemistry Biology (Bio) Biostatistics Earth Science Environmental Science General Chemistry (Chem) Healthcare Medicine Nursing Nutrition Organic Chemistry Physics (Phys)
- Social Sciences: Anthropology Economics (Econ) Geology Law & Justice Liberal Arts Liberal Studies Political Science Psychology Sociology
Considering the fact that you found my contact information online, it’s understandable to be skeptical regarding the legitimacy of my services. Therefore, I’m willing to do all of the following to help you feel more secure in trusting me with your academic needs:
- 1) Speak with you on the phone and answer any questions you may have so that you have the opportunity to assess and analyze my tone, articulation, accent, diction, dialect, regionalisms, pitch, vocabulary, word choice, intonations, and inflections.
- NOTE: I’m a New Jersey-born Irish/Italian-American, but I have been told that I speak in an erudite & articulate suburban American accent with a “professor style” voice somewhat resembling the voice of actor: Ben Stein.
- 2) Agree to do some homework questions of yours upfront with the work fully shown in real-time to prove my mastery of the course content.
- 3) Send you screenshots of at least five past scores I attained from completing exams & homework assignments for other students in the same type of class you need help with.
- 4) Send you full screenshots of written exam solutions I wrote up by hand for students in the past in the same course that you need help with so that you can see my neat handwriting.
- 5) Provide you with the contact information of students who have utilized my services in the past who would be more than willing to vouch for my skills.
At the risk of sounding arrogant, I consider myself to be at least marginally more intelligent (both academically & socially) than the average person. Therefore, if I ever decided to suddenly risk prison time, risk my reputation, and risk enduring the wrath of modern-day “cancel culture” by scamming people out of their money:
- I certainly wouldn’t do it for such paltry amounts of money. (i.e., anything less than $1,000 per victim.)
- I certainly wouldn’t choose high school & college students as my “target audience” to scam, considering that most people without college degrees have abysmally low annual incomes. Why choose low-income victims when it would be much more profitable to target high-income, high-net-worth individuals earning at least six figures a year? I have knowledge in business consulting, and I promise you that a business owner would be a MUCH more lucrative mark than a low-income college student.
- I wouldn’t choose such a time & energy-draining method of scamming people. Also, communicating back and forth with potential clients is an absurdly long time sink since only less than 10% of all potential clients who reach out to me actually become paying clients of mine. This means that 90% of my time communicating with potential clients ultimately proves to be a colossal waste of my irretrievable time & energy.
- If you pay me to provide academic services and I don’t deliver, you can always dispute the payment with the payment app and easily get your money refunded. If I were in the habit of swindling money from people, then all of my payment accounts would have been investigated and be completely shut down by now. And I would have been permanently banned from opening new accounts. Therefore, the fact that all my payment apps have been fully active for years should be sufficient proof that I haven’t had people consistently disputing payments sent to me.
- If you are interested in my services and would like to learn more info, please feel free to reach out to me.
- Text messages and email are the fastest and easiest ways to get in touch with me. However, I gladly accept phone calls.
- If I don't respond right away, I am most likely helping a student at the time and not currently available to speak on the phone. But I always make a solid effort to reply to texts, emails, and phone calls within an hour.
- I take my work as a tutor very seriously, and I always aim to do my best to help my students excel in school. I have a solid and sincere passion for academic achievement, and with my help, I am positive that I can help students obtain very high grades with minimal stress and effort.
- Please feel free to contact me if you're interested in my services and would like to learn more. I'm available 24/7 via phone call, email, and text. Again, thank you for taking the time to read my Reddit tutoring ad, and I hope to hear from you soon!
MY CONTACT INFO:
- Email: info@hiraedu. com
- WhatsApp: +1 (213) 594-5657
- Call: +1 727 456 9641
- Important: Please contact me via text or call to get the fastest response possible. I don't check Reddit Messenger very often.
- Name You Prefer to Be Called
- Name of the Class You Need Help With
- Type of Assessment Help Needed: (Entire Course, Exams Only, HW Assignment, Essay, etc.)
2024.05.07 22:44 Turbulent-Sweet-4786 Is it over?
I want to get into medicine. I’m currently about to take my gcse’s. Worst case scenario these are my grades English Lang-6 English Lit-6 Maths-8 Physics-7 Chemistry-8 Biology-8 Computing-7 Engineering-6 Geography-8 Statistics-8 So overall, 8888877666 Am i finished? I get a-levels are more important but i’ve heard that gcses are decently important too. my best case scenario is 9988888766
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2024.05.07 22:19 HungryAnswer1776 It feels like I'm living a lie fabricated by the people around me and I don't know how to know that's not true
It feels like there's always a camera or microphone on me wherever I go, and everyone around me is keeping up appearances of being "friends" but it feels like they're all keeping masks on and acting friendly to me even though they don't mean it. Even my own family isn't excluded from this, and I feel like it all started in my infant years. If you've seen the 1998 film "The Truman Show" I feel like the main character except I feel far more aware than he is.
When I(25M) was 4, I was diagnosed with high-functioning autism and was looked over constantly for the next 7-9 years. This was purely because I kept to myself and caused no harm to no one. It never physically or mentally impaired me, only socially. That diagnosis has cursed me to this day. For those next several years, there were people who were tasked and paid by the school district purely to keep tabs on me and keep me in their sights. I didn't feel safe, and I just wanted to be normal like mostly every other kid in my grade. I never wanted to get pulled out of classrooms to attend "speech therapy" lessons, attend summer "social skills" programs, or get called into annual obligatory meetings where my parents and a handful of school employees, but I had to anyway. It just goes to show how many people really knew about my "condition" and they could tell whoever they wanted. Everywhere I went, at least in my schools within K-12, there was always a feeling that someone was always watching my every move. If no one was around, I suspected they installed cameras, microphones, or other devices in my room or car to watch and listen to everything I did.
When I was in high school, I tried my absolute best to attain multiple leadership positions and work my way up in organizations like my church group and my marching band. However, I never got them. I chalked it up to people not believing in me or not having enough popularity, but now I think that they were all wanting me to never attain a position to keep my self esteem low and to keep me in my "place" because they already knew everything about me from what the group told all of them. I feel like they also wanted to make me suffer as well. If that's indeed what happened, then it reinforces what I already know: everyone knows everything about me and they are all against me on achievements I try to make to keep me in line with their “game”. It's also probably the reason why I've never had a girlfriend in my life, because they already know everything about me and are put off by me.
Once I turned 18 and graduated, I wanted to have a fresh start in a college around 4 hours away from where I lived. I chose a different living arrangement each year, but, looking back on it now, I have this new working theory: The people who watched over me and kept tabs on me in high school told employees and faculty in my college everything about me, and in turn, they told every student I got close with all about me, so they're keeping up the lie and the game around me. This is probably why I still never attained a leadership position in my college's extracurricular activities or still never got a girlfriend.
I feel like this watchful initiative game never went away even to this day, with everyone who's watched me before telling my current employers and my coworkers about me. The reason I don't see them now is because as I got smarter and grew up, they decided to become more hidden while their technology improved. For all I know, they could tap this very computer or install an invisible camera in my room or office this very moment to know what I'm saying, so I'm saying this now.
It also feels like every choice I ever made wasn't my own, but rather influenced in a certain direction by this organization. They orchestrate events around me to influence my line of thought and my subsequent decisions like what time I go to sleep at night, what movies I like to watch, what friends I make, what college I go to, etc. I'm willing to bet they also put drugs in my food to keep me thinking a certain way as well. It feels like I'm not in control of my very life and everyone around me is only either obligated or paid to be around me. It's never genuine. I don't know what this watching group's endgame is, but I have the mindset that if I stop this line of thinking, then they win. Maybe my "diagnosis" was just an excuse for them to watch over me my whole life for whatever sick master plan they have.
I don't want to think like this anymore, but I don't know what to do to absolutely debunk this line of thought I have now. I obviously don't want to live a lie, and even if I'm not, I want the people around me to genuinely enjoy my company and not just be obligated to. What can I do to know this isn't true, and what can I do to know that everyone wants to truly genuinely be around me?
submitted by HungryAnswer1776 to depression [link] [comments]
When I(25M) was 4, I was diagnosed with high-functioning autism and was looked over constantly for the next 7-9 years. This was purely because I kept to myself and caused no harm to no one. It never physically or mentally impaired me, only socially. That diagnosis has cursed me to this day. For those next several years, there were people who were tasked and paid by the school district purely to keep tabs on me and keep me in their sights. I didn't feel safe, and I just wanted to be normal like mostly every other kid in my grade. I never wanted to get pulled out of classrooms to attend "speech therapy" lessons, attend summer "social skills" programs, or get called into annual obligatory meetings where my parents and a handful of school employees, but I had to anyway. It just goes to show how many people really knew about my "condition" and they could tell whoever they wanted. Everywhere I went, at least in my schools within K-12, there was always a feeling that someone was always watching my every move. If no one was around, I suspected they installed cameras, microphones, or other devices in my room or car to watch and listen to everything I did.
When I was in high school, I tried my absolute best to attain multiple leadership positions and work my way up in organizations like my church group and my marching band. However, I never got them. I chalked it up to people not believing in me or not having enough popularity, but now I think that they were all wanting me to never attain a position to keep my self esteem low and to keep me in my "place" because they already knew everything about me from what the group told all of them. I feel like they also wanted to make me suffer as well. If that's indeed what happened, then it reinforces what I already know: everyone knows everything about me and they are all against me on achievements I try to make to keep me in line with their “game”. It's also probably the reason why I've never had a girlfriend in my life, because they already know everything about me and are put off by me.
Once I turned 18 and graduated, I wanted to have a fresh start in a college around 4 hours away from where I lived. I chose a different living arrangement each year, but, looking back on it now, I have this new working theory: The people who watched over me and kept tabs on me in high school told employees and faculty in my college everything about me, and in turn, they told every student I got close with all about me, so they're keeping up the lie and the game around me. This is probably why I still never attained a leadership position in my college's extracurricular activities or still never got a girlfriend.
I feel like this watchful initiative game never went away even to this day, with everyone who's watched me before telling my current employers and my coworkers about me. The reason I don't see them now is because as I got smarter and grew up, they decided to become more hidden while their technology improved. For all I know, they could tap this very computer or install an invisible camera in my room or office this very moment to know what I'm saying, so I'm saying this now.
It also feels like every choice I ever made wasn't my own, but rather influenced in a certain direction by this organization. They orchestrate events around me to influence my line of thought and my subsequent decisions like what time I go to sleep at night, what movies I like to watch, what friends I make, what college I go to, etc. I'm willing to bet they also put drugs in my food to keep me thinking a certain way as well. It feels like I'm not in control of my very life and everyone around me is only either obligated or paid to be around me. It's never genuine. I don't know what this watching group's endgame is, but I have the mindset that if I stop this line of thinking, then they win. Maybe my "diagnosis" was just an excuse for them to watch over me my whole life for whatever sick master plan they have.
I don't want to think like this anymore, but I don't know what to do to absolutely debunk this line of thought I have now. I obviously don't want to live a lie, and even if I'm not, I want the people around me to genuinely enjoy my company and not just be obligated to. What can I do to know this isn't true, and what can I do to know that everyone wants to truly genuinely be around me?
2024.05.07 22:12 livmak18 Destiny 2 Research Project - Update
Hey everyone, sorry for the super late update. I have been super behind with my work at school and exams, so it's been difficult to find time to sit down and write an update.
I wanted to first say thank you to everyone who participated in my study! Thank you so much for all the interest and engagement is really meant a lot to me and helped me with this project.
Second, while I had originally promised to post the full paper in April, I found out recently that I cannot publish my paper online until July of 2024. This is because my paper was submitted to College Board for grading, and they technically own my paper until July once my score has been released. So, for everyone who has been waiting to see the paper, I am very sorry, but it looks like you will have to wait another 2 months.
However, I was allowed to share my results and overall conclusions from my research. With that being said, I would like to introduce a little bit of my research and my findings to you all! Additionally, I have attached some of my charts and graphs to this post so that you all can see parts of my data.
LINK IS HERE TO VIEW: https://docs.google.com/document/d/16AxoJEBjlxxpOG9zaSpcMmGeMbjhQu0PE9GEX1do13A/edit?usp=sharing
Research Overview My research goal was to determine the correlation between Player Satisfaction and Success in Destiny 2. Using a survey which I personally created and other data from Bungie and Steam charts I was able to determine the correlation between them. My survey data was not as impactful as I had originally intended for it to be. While I had so much amazing data and it was all impactful, when it came down to my research question, I couldn't find a good use for the data because the question my research was aiming to answer was simply "is there a correlation?". While much of the data is included in my paper, there are only select parts that help prove any type of correlation. So, when it comes down to reading my paper that might be apparent and some things might not be relevant to the conclusion, but I did really want to include my survey data because I was very proud of my whole process of collection and analysis. I gathered a total of 635 responses which was amazing, I only excluded 4 responses for the final analysis, leaving me with 631 reliable responses. I analyzed each question turning them into charts and then determining the significance. It was a super time-consuming process, but ultimately, I think my most interesting data was the data on what areas of the game needed to be updated according to players. I had 22 categories which split up this free response question. You can see it in "CHART 7". The results are all color-coded so it's a mess of colors. I would love to further explain the categories and results but am a little worried that I am overstepping the barrier set by College Board and my teacher (I cannot share direct content from my paper and while I would explain I am scared. I am not allowed to use the same wording and other things so yea sorry about that). It is well explained in my paper so once I have access again you will be able to see it posted.
Result I determined my result/correlation by taking a few charts and comparing them to data from Steam Charts and data I found posted on Destiny Bulletin on X (twitter). I found that there was a trend in which player populations decrease during the seasonal content in Destiny 2 and increase during the expansions. My chart which asked, "Do you plan to play final shape?" helped prove this trend to be correct (implying it repeats yearly) because 83% of players said they would be playing it. I go into more detail in my paper obviously but to keep it a little shorter here, I found that there was a positive correlation between Destiny 2 Player Satisfaction and Success. While I cannot directly say they affect one another (because that would require more research in order to claim that as fact), it basically implies that the relationship is positive (so i like to believe they do affect one another in certain aspects).
This whole process was a huge learning experience for me, and this project was super fun for me to work on. I would love to share my final work with you all once I am allowed too, after scores have been released. Look forward to that if you would like to read my final work! And thank you to everyone who has showed interest in this process and motivated me along the way. I appreciate it :)
submitted by livmak18 to raidsecrets [link] [comments]
I wanted to first say thank you to everyone who participated in my study! Thank you so much for all the interest and engagement is really meant a lot to me and helped me with this project.
Second, while I had originally promised to post the full paper in April, I found out recently that I cannot publish my paper online until July of 2024. This is because my paper was submitted to College Board for grading, and they technically own my paper until July once my score has been released. So, for everyone who has been waiting to see the paper, I am very sorry, but it looks like you will have to wait another 2 months.
However, I was allowed to share my results and overall conclusions from my research. With that being said, I would like to introduce a little bit of my research and my findings to you all! Additionally, I have attached some of my charts and graphs to this post so that you all can see parts of my data.
LINK IS HERE TO VIEW: https://docs.google.com/document/d/16AxoJEBjlxxpOG9zaSpcMmGeMbjhQu0PE9GEX1do13A/edit?usp=sharing
Research Overview My research goal was to determine the correlation between Player Satisfaction and Success in Destiny 2. Using a survey which I personally created and other data from Bungie and Steam charts I was able to determine the correlation between them. My survey data was not as impactful as I had originally intended for it to be. While I had so much amazing data and it was all impactful, when it came down to my research question, I couldn't find a good use for the data because the question my research was aiming to answer was simply "is there a correlation?". While much of the data is included in my paper, there are only select parts that help prove any type of correlation. So, when it comes down to reading my paper that might be apparent and some things might not be relevant to the conclusion, but I did really want to include my survey data because I was very proud of my whole process of collection and analysis. I gathered a total of 635 responses which was amazing, I only excluded 4 responses for the final analysis, leaving me with 631 reliable responses. I analyzed each question turning them into charts and then determining the significance. It was a super time-consuming process, but ultimately, I think my most interesting data was the data on what areas of the game needed to be updated according to players. I had 22 categories which split up this free response question. You can see it in "CHART 7". The results are all color-coded so it's a mess of colors. I would love to further explain the categories and results but am a little worried that I am overstepping the barrier set by College Board and my teacher (I cannot share direct content from my paper and while I would explain I am scared. I am not allowed to use the same wording and other things so yea sorry about that). It is well explained in my paper so once I have access again you will be able to see it posted.
Result I determined my result/correlation by taking a few charts and comparing them to data from Steam Charts and data I found posted on Destiny Bulletin on X (twitter). I found that there was a trend in which player populations decrease during the seasonal content in Destiny 2 and increase during the expansions. My chart which asked, "Do you plan to play final shape?" helped prove this trend to be correct (implying it repeats yearly) because 83% of players said they would be playing it. I go into more detail in my paper obviously but to keep it a little shorter here, I found that there was a positive correlation between Destiny 2 Player Satisfaction and Success. While I cannot directly say they affect one another (because that would require more research in order to claim that as fact), it basically implies that the relationship is positive (so i like to believe they do affect one another in certain aspects).
This whole process was a huge learning experience for me, and this project was super fun for me to work on. I would love to share my final work with you all once I am allowed too, after scores have been released. Look forward to that if you would like to read my final work! And thank you to everyone who has showed interest in this process and motivated me along the way. I appreciate it :)
2024.05.07 22:09 livmak18 Research Project Player Satisfaction - Update!
Hey everyone,
sorry for the super late update. I have been super behind with my work at school and exams, so it's been difficult to find time to sit down and write an update.
I wanted to first say thank you to everyone who participated in my study! Thank you so much for all the interest and engagement is really meant a lot to me and helped me with this project.
Second, while I had originally promised to post the full paper in April, I found out recently that I cannot publish my paper online until July of 2024. This is because my paper was submitted to College Board for grading, and they technically own my paper until July once my score has been released. So, for everyone who has been waiting to see the paper, I am very sorry, but it looks like you will have to wait another 2 months.
However, I was allowed to share my results and overall conclusions from my research. With that being said, I would like to introduce a little bit of my research and my findings to you all! Additionally, I have attached some of my charts and graphs to this post so that you all can see parts of my data.
LINK IS HERE TO VIEW:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/16AxoJEBjlxxpOG9zaSpcMmGeMbjhQu0PE9GEX1do13A/edit?usp=sharing
Research Overview My research goal was to determine the correlation between Player Satisfaction and Success in Destiny 2. Using a survey which I personally created and other data from Bungie and Steam charts I was able to determine the correlation between them. My survey data was not as impactful as I had originally intended for it to be. While I had so much amazing data and it was all impactful, when it came down to my research question, I couldn't find a good use for the data because the question my research was aiming to answer was simply "is there a correlation?". While much of the data is included in my paper, there are only select parts that help prove any type of correlation. So, when it comes down to reading my paper that might be apparent and some things might not be relevant to the conclusion, but I did really want to include my survey data because I was very proud of my whole process of collection and analysis. I gathered a total of 635 responses which was amazing, I only excluded 4 responses for the final analysis, leaving me with 631 reliable responses. I analyzed each question turning them into charts and then determining the significance. It was a super time-consuming process, but ultimately, I think my most interesting data was the data on what areas of the game needed to be updated according to players. I had 22 categories which split up this free response question. You can see it in "CHART 7". The results are all color-coded so it's a mess of colors. I would love to further explain the categories and results but am a little worried that I am overstepping the barrier set by College Board and my teacher (I cannot share direct content from my paper and while I would explain I am scared. I am not allowed to use the same wording and other things so yea sorry about that). It is well explained in my paper so once I have access again you will be able to see it posted.
Result I determined my result/correlation by taking a few charts and comparing them to data from Steam Charts and data I found posted on Destiny Bulletin on X (twitter). I found that there was a trend in which player populations decrease during the seasonal content in Destiny 2 and increase during the expansions. My chart which asked, "Do you plan to play final shape?" helped prove this trend to be correct (implying it repeats yearly) because 83% of players said they would be playing it. I go into more detail in my paper obviously but to keep it a little shorter here, I found that there was a positive correlation between Destiny 2 Player Satisfaction and Success. While I cannot directly say they affect one another (because that would require more research in order to claim that as fact), it basically implies that the relationship is positive (so i like to believe they do affect one another in certain aspects).
This whole process was a huge learning experience for me, and this project was super fun for me to work on. I would love to share my final work with you all once I am allowed too, after scores have been released. Look forward to that if you would like to read my final work! And thank you to everyone who has showed interest in this process and motivated me along the way. I appreciate it :)
submitted by livmak18 to CrucibleGuidebook [link] [comments]
sorry for the super late update. I have been super behind with my work at school and exams, so it's been difficult to find time to sit down and write an update.
I wanted to first say thank you to everyone who participated in my study! Thank you so much for all the interest and engagement is really meant a lot to me and helped me with this project.
Second, while I had originally promised to post the full paper in April, I found out recently that I cannot publish my paper online until July of 2024. This is because my paper was submitted to College Board for grading, and they technically own my paper until July once my score has been released. So, for everyone who has been waiting to see the paper, I am very sorry, but it looks like you will have to wait another 2 months.
However, I was allowed to share my results and overall conclusions from my research. With that being said, I would like to introduce a little bit of my research and my findings to you all! Additionally, I have attached some of my charts and graphs to this post so that you all can see parts of my data.
LINK IS HERE TO VIEW:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/16AxoJEBjlxxpOG9zaSpcMmGeMbjhQu0PE9GEX1do13A/edit?usp=sharing
Research Overview My research goal was to determine the correlation between Player Satisfaction and Success in Destiny 2. Using a survey which I personally created and other data from Bungie and Steam charts I was able to determine the correlation between them. My survey data was not as impactful as I had originally intended for it to be. While I had so much amazing data and it was all impactful, when it came down to my research question, I couldn't find a good use for the data because the question my research was aiming to answer was simply "is there a correlation?". While much of the data is included in my paper, there are only select parts that help prove any type of correlation. So, when it comes down to reading my paper that might be apparent and some things might not be relevant to the conclusion, but I did really want to include my survey data because I was very proud of my whole process of collection and analysis. I gathered a total of 635 responses which was amazing, I only excluded 4 responses for the final analysis, leaving me with 631 reliable responses. I analyzed each question turning them into charts and then determining the significance. It was a super time-consuming process, but ultimately, I think my most interesting data was the data on what areas of the game needed to be updated according to players. I had 22 categories which split up this free response question. You can see it in "CHART 7". The results are all color-coded so it's a mess of colors. I would love to further explain the categories and results but am a little worried that I am overstepping the barrier set by College Board and my teacher (I cannot share direct content from my paper and while I would explain I am scared. I am not allowed to use the same wording and other things so yea sorry about that). It is well explained in my paper so once I have access again you will be able to see it posted.
Result I determined my result/correlation by taking a few charts and comparing them to data from Steam Charts and data I found posted on Destiny Bulletin on X (twitter). I found that there was a trend in which player populations decrease during the seasonal content in Destiny 2 and increase during the expansions. My chart which asked, "Do you plan to play final shape?" helped prove this trend to be correct (implying it repeats yearly) because 83% of players said they would be playing it. I go into more detail in my paper obviously but to keep it a little shorter here, I found that there was a positive correlation between Destiny 2 Player Satisfaction and Success. While I cannot directly say they affect one another (because that would require more research in order to claim that as fact), it basically implies that the relationship is positive (so i like to believe they do affect one another in certain aspects).
This whole process was a huge learning experience for me, and this project was super fun for me to work on. I would love to share my final work with you all once I am allowed too, after scores have been released. Look forward to that if you would like to read my final work! And thank you to everyone who has showed interest in this process and motivated me along the way. I appreciate it :)
2024.05.07 22:07 livmak18 Destiny 2 Research Project - Update :)
Hey everyone,
sorry for the super late update. I have been super behind with my work at school and exams, so it's been difficult to find time to sit down and write an update.
I wanted to first say thank you to everyone who participated in my study! Thank you so much for all the interest and engagement is really meant a lot to me and helped me with this project.
Second, while I had originally promised to post the full paper in April, I found out recently that I cannot publish my paper online until July of 2024. This is because my paper was submitted to College Board for grading, and they technically own my paper until July once my score has been released. So, for everyone who has been waiting to see the paper, I am very sorry, but it looks like you will have to wait another 2 months.
However, I was allowed to share my results and overall conclusions from my research. With that being said, I would like to introduce a little bit of my research and my findings to you all! Additionally, I have attached some of my charts and graphs to this post so that you all can see parts of my data.
LINK IS HERE TO VIEW:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/16AxoJEBjlxxpOG9zaSpcMmGeMbjhQu0PE9GEX1do13A/edit?usp=sharing
Research Overview My research goal was to determine the correlation between Player Satisfaction and Success in Destiny 2. Using a survey which I personally created and other data from Bungie and Steam charts I was able to determine the correlation between them. My survey data was not as impactful as I had originally intended for it to be. While I had so much amazing data and it was all impactful, when it came down to my research question, I couldn't find a good use for the data because the question my research was aiming to answer was simply "is there a correlation?". While much of the data is included in my paper, there are only select parts that help prove any type of correlation. So, when it comes down to reading my paper that might be apparent and some things might not be relevant to the conclusion, but I did really want to include my survey data because I was very proud of my whole process of collection and analysis. I gathered a total of 635 responses which was amazing, I only excluded 4 responses for the final analysis, leaving me with 631 reliable responses. I analyzed each question turning them into charts and then determining the significance. It was a super time-consuming process, but ultimately, I think my most interesting data was the data on what areas of the game needed to be updated according to players. I had 22 categories which split up this free response question. You can see it in "CHART 7". The results are all color-coded so it's a mess of colors. I would love to further explain the categories and results but am a little worried that I am overstepping the barrier set by College Board and my teacher (I cannot share direct content from my paper and while I would explain I am scared. I am not allowed to use the same wording and other things so yea sorry about that). It is well explained in my paper so once I have access again you will be able to see it posted.
Result I determined my result/correlation by taking a few charts and comparing them to data from Steam Charts and data I found posted on Destiny Bulletin on X (twitter). I found that there was a trend in which player populations decrease during the seasonal content in Destiny 2 and increase during the expansions. My chart which asked, "Do you plan to play final shape?" helped prove this trend to be correct (implying it repeats yearly) because 83% of players said they would be playing it. I go into more detail in my paper obviously but to keep it a little shorter here, I found that there was a positive correlation between Destiny 2 Player Satisfaction and Success. While I cannot directly say they affect one another (because that would require more research in order to claim that as fact), it basically implies that the relationship is positive (so i like to believe they do affect one another in certain aspects).
This whole process was a huge learning experience for me, and this project was super fun for me to work on. I would love to share my final work with you all once I am allowed too, after scores have been released. Look forward to that if you would like to read my final work! And thank you to everyone who has showed interest in this process and motivated me along the way. I appreciate it :)
submitted by livmak18 to LowSodiumDestiny [link] [comments]
sorry for the super late update. I have been super behind with my work at school and exams, so it's been difficult to find time to sit down and write an update.
I wanted to first say thank you to everyone who participated in my study! Thank you so much for all the interest and engagement is really meant a lot to me and helped me with this project.
Second, while I had originally promised to post the full paper in April, I found out recently that I cannot publish my paper online until July of 2024. This is because my paper was submitted to College Board for grading, and they technically own my paper until July once my score has been released. So, for everyone who has been waiting to see the paper, I am very sorry, but it looks like you will have to wait another 2 months.
However, I was allowed to share my results and overall conclusions from my research. With that being said, I would like to introduce a little bit of my research and my findings to you all! Additionally, I have attached some of my charts and graphs to this post so that you all can see parts of my data.
LINK IS HERE TO VIEW:
https://docs.google.com/document/d/16AxoJEBjlxxpOG9zaSpcMmGeMbjhQu0PE9GEX1do13A/edit?usp=sharing
Research Overview My research goal was to determine the correlation between Player Satisfaction and Success in Destiny 2. Using a survey which I personally created and other data from Bungie and Steam charts I was able to determine the correlation between them. My survey data was not as impactful as I had originally intended for it to be. While I had so much amazing data and it was all impactful, when it came down to my research question, I couldn't find a good use for the data because the question my research was aiming to answer was simply "is there a correlation?". While much of the data is included in my paper, there are only select parts that help prove any type of correlation. So, when it comes down to reading my paper that might be apparent and some things might not be relevant to the conclusion, but I did really want to include my survey data because I was very proud of my whole process of collection and analysis. I gathered a total of 635 responses which was amazing, I only excluded 4 responses for the final analysis, leaving me with 631 reliable responses. I analyzed each question turning them into charts and then determining the significance. It was a super time-consuming process, but ultimately, I think my most interesting data was the data on what areas of the game needed to be updated according to players. I had 22 categories which split up this free response question. You can see it in "CHART 7". The results are all color-coded so it's a mess of colors. I would love to further explain the categories and results but am a little worried that I am overstepping the barrier set by College Board and my teacher (I cannot share direct content from my paper and while I would explain I am scared. I am not allowed to use the same wording and other things so yea sorry about that). It is well explained in my paper so once I have access again you will be able to see it posted.
Result I determined my result/correlation by taking a few charts and comparing them to data from Steam Charts and data I found posted on Destiny Bulletin on X (twitter). I found that there was a trend in which player populations decrease during the seasonal content in Destiny 2 and increase during the expansions. My chart which asked, "Do you plan to play final shape?" helped prove this trend to be correct (implying it repeats yearly) because 83% of players said they would be playing it. I go into more detail in my paper obviously but to keep it a little shorter here, I found that there was a positive correlation between Destiny 2 Player Satisfaction and Success. While I cannot directly say they affect one another (because that would require more research in order to claim that as fact), it basically implies that the relationship is positive (so i like to believe they do affect one another in certain aspects).
This whole process was a huge learning experience for me, and this project was super fun for me to work on. I would love to share my final work with you all once I am allowed too, after scores have been released. Look forward to that if you would like to read my final work! And thank you to everyone who has showed interest in this process and motivated me along the way. I appreciate it :)
2024.05.07 21:38 SuspiciousDelivery25 Story of my life.
I just wanted to talk to someone, truly, I hate reddit because of the verity of opinions but l have to respect. And I except you to be supportive and let me freely discuss about the things l have never discussed about, l am truly sorry if l upset you.
I was born 17 years ago in a little city, (l'd rather not say the country) l wanna be straight. At the age of 5 my parents divorced and l witnessed fights and betrayals. When l was 5 the court gave me to my mom (but every weekend l should have visited my father) those times l was just a child and my only friend was my mom side cousin (which is still my best friend) he was in the same school as me too. Those times my mom (my dad threatened her so she went to another city) used to go to another city for work and at the time l was in the mother side, l saw her for a little time and l mostly spend time with my grandma and grandpa and my aunt and cousin. At the age of 7 my dad protested to the court and they gave me to him (I could visit my mom only in weekends). Those times, my dad had another house and he used to invite different women there so he left me with his mom (my dad side grandma) and his sister (my youngest aunt, which was about early 20 those times and she was studying). My grandma's house is in a very dangerous neighborhood, so l used to here gunshots and screams all night, all people there was either a gang member or a junky, and at the age of 11 or 12 l was like gangster for myself, spending times in the gang fights, smoking and so on. I got several scars and injuries from those times too. I was so drown in my desire and ego that l actually forgot who l was. I remember one day, there was a thing about my cousin (dad side, she was a whore though) and some gangsters was coming after me and I was so scared that time. I remember l was walking and they came to me and threatened me but there was a mysterious man in our neighborhood which nobody really know who he was. And l remember he saved me from those bastards, it was like a divine gift and a warning for me to stop that stupidity. So I stopped being a dick and such a bad person, when l was 14 l talked with my mom and we planned to get me out of there and we did also, l was freed from that shithole for ever (and l never returned). Court gave me to my mother and l lived with her to know. We moved from that little city and came to another one. My character from a nasty, disrespectful and a dangerous man was changed into a huge thinker and bookworm, and an athlete. a person who thinks and have a unique ideology. i got good grades and now l am 17 yo (10th grade in my country) l live with my mom in a small apartment. I am in the one of the best school of my country. But l faced many problems in these years. People usually see me as a villainous and dark character in school, a emotioless monster and a cold master. I usually don't go out and don't play games. I study too much and read books and play football (soccer) in a team, and l am in shape too. I'm finding my redemption and fixing my problems. I believe in killing feelings and desires, but one thing has happened to me through this 8 months....
I go to English class, everything was good until the day l was sitting on my chair and that girl came and sat near me... Her face was stunning, for like 4 months she was keep trying to make connections with me and l was keep rejecting and answering her coldly. One day she got angry and changed her seat, l felt happy that time and l thought l am free again. but now our time is coming to an end (3 sessions remaining) and l am feeling really strong towards here, l am deeply in love with her now but now she's taking a revenge and keep ignoring, actually she's not doing it on purpose, l think she just feels like l don't like her, and that's why she doesn't talk to me (she's not disrespectful and a lizard unlike me), what l done was so bad, l accept it, l am a dick. But now l am literally scared to talk to her. I don't like her personality (she's too happy for me) but her beauty is killing me everytime l see her. No matter anything l do she won't pay attention to me, l am wearing different clothes and styles, throwing jokes in the middle of class, l can't think about not seeing her again...
She's also 2 years older than me but way shorter in height (l am 194 cm). But there's a hope. After this term is finished, there will be a 1 year course for IELTS, l will take the course, my only hope is that she come too. If she does that l will have more time to communicate with her and the class will be more empty so l can talk to her more freely...
Guys, l am asking you for help. Guide me so l can talk to her somehow, l want to be with her or just forget her. Pls help give me some helpful suggestions, l will be so much happier. Help me forget her or help me get her heart.
Thanks for reading.
Sorry for the bad English tho.
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I was born 17 years ago in a little city, (l'd rather not say the country) l wanna be straight. At the age of 5 my parents divorced and l witnessed fights and betrayals. When l was 5 the court gave me to my mom (but every weekend l should have visited my father) those times l was just a child and my only friend was my mom side cousin (which is still my best friend) he was in the same school as me too. Those times my mom (my dad threatened her so she went to another city) used to go to another city for work and at the time l was in the mother side, l saw her for a little time and l mostly spend time with my grandma and grandpa and my aunt and cousin. At the age of 7 my dad protested to the court and they gave me to him (I could visit my mom only in weekends). Those times, my dad had another house and he used to invite different women there so he left me with his mom (my dad side grandma) and his sister (my youngest aunt, which was about early 20 those times and she was studying). My grandma's house is in a very dangerous neighborhood, so l used to here gunshots and screams all night, all people there was either a gang member or a junky, and at the age of 11 or 12 l was like gangster for myself, spending times in the gang fights, smoking and so on. I got several scars and injuries from those times too. I was so drown in my desire and ego that l actually forgot who l was. I remember one day, there was a thing about my cousin (dad side, she was a whore though) and some gangsters was coming after me and I was so scared that time. I remember l was walking and they came to me and threatened me but there was a mysterious man in our neighborhood which nobody really know who he was. And l remember he saved me from those bastards, it was like a divine gift and a warning for me to stop that stupidity. So I stopped being a dick and such a bad person, when l was 14 l talked with my mom and we planned to get me out of there and we did also, l was freed from that shithole for ever (and l never returned). Court gave me to my mother and l lived with her to know. We moved from that little city and came to another one. My character from a nasty, disrespectful and a dangerous man was changed into a huge thinker and bookworm, and an athlete. a person who thinks and have a unique ideology. i got good grades and now l am 17 yo (10th grade in my country) l live with my mom in a small apartment. I am in the one of the best school of my country. But l faced many problems in these years. People usually see me as a villainous and dark character in school, a emotioless monster and a cold master. I usually don't go out and don't play games. I study too much and read books and play football (soccer) in a team, and l am in shape too. I'm finding my redemption and fixing my problems. I believe in killing feelings and desires, but one thing has happened to me through this 8 months....
I go to English class, everything was good until the day l was sitting on my chair and that girl came and sat near me... Her face was stunning, for like 4 months she was keep trying to make connections with me and l was keep rejecting and answering her coldly. One day she got angry and changed her seat, l felt happy that time and l thought l am free again. but now our time is coming to an end (3 sessions remaining) and l am feeling really strong towards here, l am deeply in love with her now but now she's taking a revenge and keep ignoring, actually she's not doing it on purpose, l think she just feels like l don't like her, and that's why she doesn't talk to me (she's not disrespectful and a lizard unlike me), what l done was so bad, l accept it, l am a dick. But now l am literally scared to talk to her. I don't like her personality (she's too happy for me) but her beauty is killing me everytime l see her. No matter anything l do she won't pay attention to me, l am wearing different clothes and styles, throwing jokes in the middle of class, l can't think about not seeing her again...
She's also 2 years older than me but way shorter in height (l am 194 cm). But there's a hope. After this term is finished, there will be a 1 year course for IELTS, l will take the course, my only hope is that she come too. If she does that l will have more time to communicate with her and the class will be more empty so l can talk to her more freely...
Guys, l am asking you for help. Guide me so l can talk to her somehow, l want to be with her or just forget her. Pls help give me some helpful suggestions, l will be so much happier. Help me forget her or help me get her heart.
Thanks for reading.
Sorry for the bad English tho.
2024.05.07 21:27 Worried-Ad3627 feeling like sh*t
it sucks, mocks in a month’s time , i was much more focused early september to december than i am now. (year 12) GCSE grade profile: 888877766544 A levels: Maths, Further Maths, Econ
I wanted to study PPE/ Econ at uni, and although i especially was interested in oxford, seeing the stats and comparing it to my own results put me off (ig it’s better to be reasonable). Cambridge has similar acceptance rates for bsc Econ, but are less focused on gcses which is a plus.
I’ve been stuck between two phases; feeling like sht because i haven’t done what i wanted to do in a day, and #feeling2 is feeling like sht because im enjoying life a bit but not studying. It’s always those two constant feelings. idk if im picky but i sometimes feel guilty for listening to music whilst studying, because it isn’t “optimal”, and yet im actually doing less work.
I just need brutal advice on what to do next, econs easy, pure year 1 is easy, but chapter 7 of stats is diabolical and cus of fm year 2 pure maths integration is a struggle. i need 3 a* to have a reasonably good chance to get in for cambridge, but further maths (i.e pure year 2) is horrid.
Thanks :)
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I wanted to study PPE/ Econ at uni, and although i especially was interested in oxford, seeing the stats and comparing it to my own results put me off (ig it’s better to be reasonable). Cambridge has similar acceptance rates for bsc Econ, but are less focused on gcses which is a plus.
I’ve been stuck between two phases; feeling like sht because i haven’t done what i wanted to do in a day, and #feeling2 is feeling like sht because im enjoying life a bit but not studying. It’s always those two constant feelings. idk if im picky but i sometimes feel guilty for listening to music whilst studying, because it isn’t “optimal”, and yet im actually doing less work.
I just need brutal advice on what to do next, econs easy, pure year 1 is easy, but chapter 7 of stats is diabolical and cus of fm year 2 pure maths integration is a struggle. i need 3 a* to have a reasonably good chance to get in for cambridge, but further maths (i.e pure year 2) is horrid.
Thanks :)