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I go by either Jordan or Eden right now but I don't feel like either of those are right for me. I was gonna name myself after a musician or a song or something but they usually have very "gendered" names (ex. Mark, David, Kat) and the ones with gender neutral names are typically very generic like Sam or stuff like that. I mostly listen to grunge music as well as some other genres of rock. I liked Francis (technically I would be naming myself after Francis Farmer but that's besides the point), Theo, Ziggy, and Stevie. I also liked Layne but it doesn't work with my last name. I'm open to suggestions as well so if you have any names in mind please tell me anything helps at this point. I've been trying to pick a name for 3 years and I'm still not sure what name I want to go by.

I Accepted a Job to Film on the Dark Web
Man, I am pumped to tell you chronically online content addicts my story. Wait is that too mean of an intro? Will this get taken down for harassment since I painted too accurate a picture of the people on this site? Sorry, everyone, I’m sure you all smell like an expensive bakery and have touched grass this morning. Anyway, I promise I have something interesting. It even involves the dark web you uncreative writers cream yourselves over! I mean, totally real people speaking about their strangely similar experiences. Okay, fine I’ll stop bullying you through the screen before you click off.
This all started when I was seven years old and my parents were killed in front of me in an anti-indigenous hate crime, but let's be real you don’t care. I’m just some annoying Cherokee kid with dead parents so I’ll skip to the good parts. I spent years in an orphanage, gradually becoming more interested in death and violence. As bad as it is, I went out of my way to expose myself to that content in the hopes of desensitizing myself. Which ended up working too well, since now I’m obsessed with causing and viewing pain, though I don’t find any joy in hurting myself.
I got adopted at twelve and after a few months of staying at my new family’s home on the reservation, I went with them to a state sweatier than the average Reddit user, California. Long story short, both of my caretakers, whom I referred to as Uncle and Auntie because they could never be my parents, died. Leaving me in the care of their older son, who I call cousin. I’m not stupid enough to give up any real names, so I’ll call him Brick, cause he’s as dumb as one. He was in his early 20s when he was tasked with taking care of me and is the world’s worst excuse for a babysitter.
I’m almost always alone at the apartment, with him only coming by to drop off supplies and stay for a few hours so the neighbors don’t get too worried. Unless I get in trouble at school, then he’d suddenly give a shit. It's useful because he doesn't about the gory stuff I look at, but some display of interest would be nice. Oh well, ninety percent of the population sucks so he’s just part of the majority. Now, with that said, you’ll be able to understand the perfect storm that led me here. During my time on the deep web, I found a particular website that caught my eye. They had new footage relatively consistently and they were the easiest for me to access since I didn't go too far into the dark web, especially with all the honey pots lying around.
I even bought a couple of files for myself to study and admire. One thing irritated me though, the cameraman. He was always sobbing, breathing, shaking, or some combination of those. It seriously killed the vibe of the killings. Something I commented on under many videos, often saying I would do a better job filming. A choice that in hindsight was me asking to end up in one of those recordings. I didn't think anything of it at the time. I was mostly the only one who commented but I was sure they wouldn't care. I was embarrassingly wrong.
I was staying up like usual, but it was past one AM on a school night, and back then that was a lot so I tried to sleep. Closing my eyes, tossing and turning, the works. I had just started drifting off when I heard the front door open. I remained calm but immediately found it weird since Brick never showed up this late. The thuds of the individual's feet grew louder as they got closer to my bedroom. I tried to convince myself it wasn't a stranger, especially since they got in with ease, but I knew that was wishful thinking.
They hummed as they opened my door. My dumbass had left it unlocked. I remained on my side, trying to look like I was asleep. They turned on the flashlight of their phone, shining it in my face. It was hard but I stayed still while they traced it over my features. I could tell they were smiling as they clicked their tongue.
“Heh, I knew it was a brat,” they whispered to themselves, pulling tangles out of my hair. Something I struggled not to groan from. They pulled up the hair over my ear and got so close spit got on my ear lobe.
“I know you’re awake kid,” they murmured, putting a blade to my neck. I let them grab my shoulder and move me onto my back, I knew how to fight but I wasn't about to take that big a risk with the position they had me in.
“You think you’re so cool saying you can do better than our guy.” they snickered, kneeling, their flashlight still shining in my face.
“Do you seriously believe that?” they questioned, moving the light away.
“Yeah, I do.” I stood my ground, they might have been intimidating but I wasn't gonna let that stop me from being honest.
“I wouldn't sound like I’m gonna piss myself every time it gets gory. I’m confident I could get better footage too, getting up close is something I’ve fantasized about.”
They clicked their tongue again and ran their finger over the bridge of my nose.
”Well, I know you’re a big fan of what we do, and you’re confidence makes me think you got something to back those claims up, so how’d you like a deal?”
I was surprised by how civil they were being aside from the touching and weapon against my throat.
“What kind of deal?” I asked, for all I knew this guy wanted me to lick their feet or some weird shit like that. They placed a finger underneath my eye, tracing a half moon with their nail.
“You have till this Friday to film a video of you killing an animal and put it on a flash drive that I’ll pick up here. If it impresses me and the crew we’ll hire ya with a handsome salary.” They began, moving their hand down to my cheek.
“But if you don't show, or it doesn't meet our standards, then I’m fucking up one of the parts of your face.” They warned, pinching my skin harshly.
“And if I say no to this deal?”
They put their hand over my mouth, scratching my lips.
“That’s cute, if you say no I’ll just slit your throat.” they grinned.
“Or rip it open with my teeth if you got a preference,” they smirked, before running their tongue across their sharp teeth.
“Okay, since I have no choice I’ll go with it, but I’m telling you now I can give you something way better than what you likely expect of me.” I prefaced, looking into their sunken eyes. They scratched my scalp, including the side of my head that was shaved.
“Good choice, I’ll be back to pick it up and if you're not here I’ll assume you don’t have the video. I genuinely wish you luck, because you’ll need it.” they removed the blade from my neck and walked away. I sat still for a few minutes in the dark, processing what had happened and wondering how they got into my apartment with such ease. I was confident I could blow their sniveling excuse of a cameraman out of the water, but I was worried about the people I was getting caught up with.
Sure, I had been on a lot of gore sites over the years but I was always just watching and occasionally commenting. Compared to most in the scene I wasn't much of a threat. I could defend myself and have contemplated killing for years but I hadn't murdered anyone or worse. Plus, I am part of way too many targeted groups to not be constantly at risk. Teenage, fem-leaning, two-spirit, indigenous kid with trauma? Yeah, I might as well be walking sign screaming “Hate crime me”.
So yeah, there was a lot to worry about. Regardless, I couldn't let that fear hold me back. I had a job to do and a group of sickos to appease. The next morning was rough, I got no sleep cause I’d spent all night brainstorming. I barely mustered the energy to change and drank straight mouthwash instead of brushing my teeth. Slogging onto the bus with drool on my cheek, I went to the back like usual. No one sat there cause, the seats were extra worn down, and I scared off anyone who attempted to with my active, rabies-infected bitch face. That day was different though.
I blanked on his name and where I knew him from, but I recognized his wavy hair and prominent curved nose. He glanced at each seat on the bus, before somehow settling on my area. He tried to give me space but ultimately seated himself beside me after realizing it was the only spot that didn't look like it would give him cancer. I glared at him as I did with everyone, but it didn't phase him.
“You know you could pick anywhere else right?” I murmured. He stared at the floor, then at me.
“I’m aware, but a few months ago I started a mission to sit on every part of this bus, and this is the last place.” he smiled, his lips softly curving at the sides.
“What’s the point of that?”
His mouth moved into a more neutral position, but his eyes kept smiling.
“I just thought it would be neat to see the same place from a bunch of different perspectives.” he took out his phone and snapped a photo from the point of view where he was sitting. Maybe my sleepiness made my bitch face less effective, cause he hadn't shown a hint of fear, which kind of annoyed me.
“That’s cool I guess, but I wouldn't do that if I were you. I’ve done some back here alone that would make your skin crawl.” in hindsight my attempt at unnerving him just made me sound like a pervert, which is probably why he held back laughter. Trying to hide a chuckle by clearing his throat.
“Hey, it's not my business what you do, no matter how Haram it is. It’s your life so that’s between you and whatever you believe in. Just don’t shake hands with me.” he joked, playfully putting his hands up. Strangely, I remembered his name at that moment.
“Oh shit, you’re Abdul! We have art together.” I sat up, haphazardly slamming my hand down on my leg.
“Uh yeah, I’ve seen some of your paintings, they’re pretty cool. I like the way you texture them, I’m trying to work on that.” he complimented, seeming more weirded out by my sudden energy than my accidental insinuation. I felt a little stupid for yelling his name but decided not to dwell on it.
“Thanks, you’re stuff is nice, and you’re good at shading.”
He stretched his arms while thanking me. We talked for a few more minutes, taking jabs at each other throughout. Turns out he was better at being an asshole than his artsy charismatic appearance made me think. The thing setting our insults apart being that you could tell he was a loving person underneath. It was the nicest conversation I had with anyone in a while. Though he could tell I was tired so he quieted down, letting me sleep, waking me when we got to school. We went our separate ways until the last two periods we shared. All that time, I spent my remaining energy plotting how I was going to handle the video. What I’d kill, record with, and how to dispose of the evidence. It was a lot to consider, but through three classes I devised a plan.
I’d find a stray around my apartment complex and take it out in my room. Record it on a portable camera since I broke the ones on my phone, no, I will not be answering how that happened. Then once I had my footage I’d put the body in a trash bag, throw it in the complex’s garbage, and clean the blood off my floor. It didn't seem like Brick would come by so he wasn't a factor I thought I’d have to consider. The plan was almost too easy, but I decided to believe in Occam’s razor. I got so lost in thought that by the time I reached Art, which was my second-to-last period, I didn't process that we were moving seats.
“She called your name,” Abdul reminded me. Our teacher placed us next to each other at our four-person table. The two girls sitting with us were already friends, so I didn't bother to say anything, but I was interested in talking to him more.
“So, what do you think of this assignment?” He shrugged, taking out his sketchbook.
“I’m not that good at drawing people, but the idea of combining two people’s faces into a portrait seems interesting. Any ideas on who you’ll pick?”
“Probably the members of the music duo Brain Tumor, they’re my favorite artists and they both look weird as hell.”
“Wow way to talk about your favorites, if that’s what you say about them I can‘t imagine what you have to say about me.” he joked, pulling up reference pictures.
“First, it’s not an insult, second I don’t have anything to say about you. Brain and Tumor have features and styles that make them stand out. Sure they’re ugly, but it just adds to their visual charm. Hot people are boring, there’s nothing to pick at.” I explained, unzipping my bag.
“Oh, so you’re saying you think I’m hot.”
His comment wasn’t serious but it kind of got to me.
“Shit, that’s not what I meant, I was trying to say you’re boring. All hot people are boring, but not all boring people are hot, okay?” I explained, flipping to a clean page.
“Alright, but if I’m so bland then why talk to me?”
I hesitated, contemplating how much of a dick I was gonna be.
“Because it means you probably need some spice in your life, which I can provide.”
He began sketching a head on his paper.
“I like spices, but I feel like you’re the kind of person to dump a cabinet’s worth onto me.”
I flicked my pencil over to his side of the desk, putting on a mocking grin.
“Aww, you scared I’m gonna get you into trouble?”
He picked up the pencil and started using it, putting his on my side.
“No, ‘cause I’m good at setting boundaries. I’m more concerned that you’ll get annoyed with how unafraid of you I am.”
I stared at him for a moment, I hadn't expected to hear that.
“Jeez, man you didn't have to read me like that.”
He shrugged, observing the red paint from past projects that lay on my pencil.
“It's not hard to figure out, just this morning you were trying to push me away on the bus. Lucky, or unlucky, for you I want you to have a friend and you seem like a fun person.”
“Wait are you saying I have no friends?” I squinted at him.
“Well, do you?”
I didn't answer.
“If your response is silence I suggest you take up my offer.”
I was stunned, to be honest. No one had offered to be my friend since 6th grade, and that didn't last long. Of course, I accepted it, but for the rest of the period, there was an awkwardness in my mind. As pathetic as it sounds I wasn't used to others genuinely enjoying my company like he did. Which was partly by design cause I get joy out of scaring people away, but still. I forgot how it felt to have conversations about normal things like art. He had such a nice smile too, usually when I see a grin I want to slap it off, but I liked his. His voice was also nice, it’s hard to describe what in particular but it was easy on the ears.
Okay, I’m starting to get off-topic. I’ll skip to the important part. Toward the end of class, he started talking about how he was interested in filmmaking and got a portable video camera as a gift at last year’s Eid. He didn't have it on him, but he showed me a picture.
“Heh, that’s funny, I bought the same one a month ago.” I pointed out.
“Yeah, it's a popular model, I’m still getting the hang of it though cause I’m so used to using my phone.”
“Well, maybe I could bring you over to my place or vice versa after school and I can help you out.” I suggested.
He smiled, putting his phone back in his pocket.
“I thought you said you’ve only had it for a month? You know I can always look up tutorials from trained professionals.” he reminded me with a notable smugness that I'd used with him before.
“Well those guys are stuffy and I’m a fast learner.”
He redirected his attention back to his page, picking his pencil up.
“Alright, I suggest we go somewhere public instead. You’re not exactly the kind of person I want to bring home to my parents right away. Plus they always need to meet my friends and their guardians before I hang out at their home.”
I gave an exaggerated sigh, stretching my back.
“Aw man, looks like we can’t get high in my murder pit during our first hangout.”
He didn't respond for a solid few seconds.
“Wait, you do know I'm joking right?”
He shrugged, the smile in his eyes appearing again.
“I mean, one of those things is a little less believable than the other.” he snickered, and I laughed with him.
We set up a time and a date, which is where I screwed myself. He ended up being busy with projects from his other classes and family which just left us with Friday, the same day I had to submit the video. Now, did I tell him I wouldn't be able to make it? No, of course not, because I decided to be stupid and even more overconfident. I said that I’d one hundred percent be able to hang out with him after school like I didn't have a mutilator who was going to drop by my place at an unknown time.
The rest of the day went over fine but that bad timing led me to feel like a dick later. When I got home I was able to write out my plan, even sketching a few specifics of what I’d do. It was more exciting than when I’d been brainstorming, but this is when the gravity of the situation began to set in. When I said I’d fantasized about killings I meant it. I mean my teddy with twenty-five stab wounds should say enough. Regardless this would be the first time real blood was on my hands.
It made me feel powerful, but a little afraid. I’ve heard stories of people thinking that it would be an awesome experience and then feeling like shit. I doubted I’d be one of those people but still. Plus, I didn't exactly trust the guy who gave me this job. There was a good chance that this whole situation was rigged and they’d kill me no matter how good the video was. Or worse turn me into the feds and expose my collection. Honestly, if that happened I’d probably eat a shot to avoid going to jail. Wait, can I say that on this platform? Okay to the mods, that was a joke, I want to live a long life. Ugh, I’m doing a terrible job of staying on track. The point is there was a lot up in the air despite it being a matter of life or death.
I knew I’d go through with it but it was still a lot less straightforward than it initially seemed. I wracked my brain to remember where most of the cats stayed and tried to come up with a good way to lure one without raising suspicion. This also proved harder than first thought because I didn't think to account for the cat man, an old guy who lived alone and fed all the cats in our dingy complex while also housing a few. Knowing how obsessive he was he’d probably notice if one of them disappeared. Then again not all the cats return consistently or at all. It makes more sense that he’d think one of them was run over rather than slaughtered. It was getting late again so I rested my head for a moment, a bad move cause I ended up falling asleep at my desk. Not even changing out of the clothes I’d worn before, I woke up late and barely caught the bus the next morning.
I went to my usual spot but Abdul had already taken it. He patted the area next to it, which he’d covered in a towel, a smart move knowing how nasty it was. People gave me a few dirty looks as normal, which I smiled at. I stretched, my mind slightly less out of it than the previous morning.
“Uh, you do realize that-”
“Yeah, I know I’m wearing the same clothes.”
Abdul looked me up and down, his eyes remaining soft, but with a mix of concern and judgment. He set his backpack down and took off his sweater handing it to me.
“Dude what are you-”
“Look I don't know what led to you not being able to change but I think you should at least have a fresh top.”
I was surprised he was offering me something to wear but I took it.
“Uh, thanks, I’ll change into it later.”
He nodded as I put it in my backpack.
“You know you didn't have to do that.” I reminded him.
“Well there’s a lot of stuff I don’t have to do, but I do it because I want to, and I wanted to help you out.”
He smiled, his face still warmer than an Arizona summer. I got a strange feeling in my chest at that moment, I still can’t tell if it was good or bad.
“Well, thanks, I'll give it back to you tomorrow.”
We talked a little more and he mentioned something that caught my attention.
“Have you heard about all the animals that have been turning up dead?”
My eyes widened with surprise.
“No, I haven't, when did you hear about that?”
He pulled on his long-sleeve shirt.
“My sister said her friend who works at a shelter noticed a bunch of animals were getting adopted by people around the same time, and since then gore videos with them have been showing up. She found out through her co-worker who was emailed it by some random creep.”
I covered my mouth and looked away to hide the smile growing on my face. He had just given me the perfect cover-up without knowing. Now if I killed an animal people had an entire violent ring to connect it to instead of me! I stayed quiet for a minute because I could tell he’d likely see through any phony sad sounds I made.
“Oh wow, that’s awful, do you think they’ll ever find out the people behind it?”
He sighed, running his hand through his wavy hair.
“I hope so, for now, all we can do is pray that no more animals get hurt.”
I couldn't contain my grin as he said that so sincerely like animals and people didn't die constantly and that taking down one group would somehow stop the issue.
“Is there some joke I don’t get?” he furrowed his brow.
“Uh, no, sorry I smile when nervous.”
His gaze softened again, and he didn't press further.
His bringing up the animal killings ended up being the exact push I needed to get my hands dirty. I’d spent the entire day before planning so it was time to put that plan into action. I stole some cat treats that the cat man had laid out and spread them around my apartment which was on the bottom floor. Waiting for one of them to take the bate outside my window was pretty boring but one of them came after a few minutes. A scraggly brown and black cat with a tuft of fur missing on one side of his head. It's messed up but I felt like a little less of an asshole for taking him in since he looked like he was already struggling. I scooped him up and he didn't attempt to fight back.
“Hey there buddy” I waved, feeding him some more food. His eyes had a lot of crust on them, it was kinda gross but I don’t have the right to say with how often I wash my jeans. After a minute or two he let me pet him. I knew making any kind of attachment was bad but I thought it was the right thing to do so he’d fall into a sense of security. I was just about to take him into my room when the door opened.
“Hey, I’m back with groceries!” my shithead cousin announced with two plastic bags in his hands. He looked down to see me with the cat, his eyebrows raising.
“Aw come on, you know we can’t afford a pet.”
He groaned placing the bags on a table and unloading them.
“I know, but he doesn't look like he’s got a lot of life in him I at least want to help him feel better before he kicks the bucket!”
Brick rolled his eyes, putting the cereal box on top of the fridge
“Jeez, did you even think about what diseases he might have? His eyes look puffy what if he has something that can get you sick?”
He had valid concerns which was surprising since he’s usually stupid, but I was still annoyed with him.
“I’m sure he’s fine, I’ll even try to wash him, just please let me hold onto him for a little.”
He folded his arms looking down at us.
“Have you even named him?”
I froze for a second, before using the first thing that came to mind, which ended up being pretty awful knowing my plans.
“Cash cow.” I blurted, awkwardly patting his head.
“Honestly that’s better than what I was expecting. I was sure you’d pick ‘Hellspawn Mcgee’ or something else corny.”
He meant to make fun of me but honestly, I would have named him that if I had more time.
“Ugh, anyway I got those dumb chips you like.”
He then pulled out a bag of the wrong chips.
“Dude those are the wrong ones, this is the third time you’ve mixed up the flavors.”
He threw them at me, scaring the cat slightly.
“Well, I pay for it so you shouldn't be so picky. Anyway, while I was in line I picked up something you might be into.”
He then tossed me a trashy teen magazine. One of my least favorite sorry excuses for an influencer on the cover.
“This is a joke, right?”
I couldn't believe my own adopted brother gave such little shit in my interests.
“I don't know, you decided to start being a girl for real this time so I thought the makeup tips on page ten would help you out.”
I scrunched my face at his comment.
“Dude I’ve been this way for years, just because I started wearing more makeup and dresses doesn't mean I’m more of a girl than when I didn't. I know you won’t get the two-spirit thing but come on.”
He shrugged, seeing me done with me even though he’d just shown up.
“Yeah well hey I’m trying. Anyway, just so you know a friend of mine is coming here Friday.”
My heart stopped.
“Wait why here? You live elsewhere why can’t you assholes go there or their place!”
He slammed his fist on the table.
“Will you shut the fuck up!”
He screamed with a phrase I’d grown numb to.
“I don't know, to be honest, something about wanting to move into this complex and this being a way to scout it out. I’m just letting you know now so you don’t act like a complete freak.”
“Jokes on you I’ll piss in whatever shitty beer you bring just cause you said that!”
I yelled back raising my voice higher than his. He face-palmed before putting the plastic bags in the drawer under the sink.
“Whatever, you and your ketamine-addict-looking cat have fun,” he told me while seating himself on the couch. I picked up the cat and walked into the bathroom to clean it. I closed the door and placed him in the dry tub. Using a small disposable mouthwash cup I got a little bit of water. I hadn't had a pet before so I wasn't sure how to approach the task. I dipped my fingers in the water and carefully pet it while pouring s small bit down his back. Any other cat would fight back but he just made pissed-off noises without doing anything.
I scrapped my old shampoo bottle and kneaded it into his thin fur. His skin was bumpy and dry beneath the hair so scrubbing it was uncomfortable. I made sure to avoid getting soap in its eyes but I did pull away some of the crust on its lids. His pupils were so clouded I was surprised that he could see at all, making me feel even more sure that he would be on its way out with or without me.
After drying him I set him on a beat-up shirt I wore when modifying clothes. He sunk his claws into it a few times, playing with a loose string. I ignored him for the rest of the night, hopping into the shower and changing for bed. His meows woke me up a few times but I tuned it out after a while, reminding myself that he wouldn’t be my cat for long.
The next day was Thursday and there wasn't a second that passed by where the weight of the murder I’d have to commit didn't weigh on me. I seriously shot myself in the foot by taking care of that scruffy, pubic hair pile. I was supposed to be hyped about killing it, after all, I’d dreamed and seen way worse than what I was going to do. Yet once I got home and started setting up I felt grosser with each step. I decided to record it in my bathroom instead of my bedroom so it would be harder to connect to me. I set down a few fabric scraps and a worn-out beach towel, placing it all inside a tub for easier cleanup later.
“Okay, I guess it's time,” I mumbled to myself. I brought the cat in and placed it down, setting up my camera once it was comfortable. I also wore my most generic clothes in addition to a mask, putting my hair in a bun for sanitation. When I saw the flicker of red showing that the camera was on I felt I was dreaming. I smiled, excited that I’d get to live out my violent desires. Yet, when I looked down at its pathetic frame and confused expression those urges left me.
I rationalized what I was doing, reminding myself how many animals die all the time and that I’d been forced into this, but it didn't help much in the end. I won’t get into it but under the pressure of impressing the group Cash Cow didn't go out as fast as I would have liked for a first task. Getting rid of the evidence was especially rough, the textures were pretty nasty, to put it mildly. It was surreal watching the blood go down the tub drain and gradually drip off my hands as I rinsed them. I couldn't conjure a single thought the entire time I cleaned it up.
Whether I was wringing out the clothes or putting the remains in plastic bags, it didn't matter. All I could focus on was the task at hand, with hints of disgust along the way. I ended up finishing at three AM. My hands were wrinkled and shook once I settled. I won’t deny that during the murder I didn't hate it. Slashing into something was fun and it made me feel strong. Still, it wasn't nearly as fulfilling as I expected it to be. Part of it was guilt, but it was mostly disappointment. I’d built it up for years and it wasn't earth shatteringly good or bad.
Overall, I expected to feel more, but it just left me hollow with an uncomfortable itch. There was no way I’d ever be able to see the tub the same way, hell I don’t think I’ll ever use it again. Luckily I almost always shower anyway so it's not too big of a deal. I watched a few horror game videos, trashed everything, changed and went to bed.
My scalp hurt like a bitch the morning since I kept my hair in that stupid bun. Despite getting less sleep than the past two days I held myself together a bit better in the morning. I brushed my teeth, changed, and had some fried bread before getting on the bus. Regardless I looked like complete shit and struggled to slump into my seat.
“Rough night?” Abdul asked
“Uh, yeah.” I quietly responded looking to the floor.
He frowned, looking at me with concern.
“You can talk about it if you're comfortable,” he assured me. I contemplated giving him a thinly veiled metaphor or vague explanation so he'd comfort me but stopped myself before my mouth could run a muck. He wouldn't be able to do much of anything and I don’t like opening up.
“Uhm, thanks but it's something I have to deal with alone.”
He nodded, respecting my boundaries.
“You know, I understand if you can’t hang out today it seems like you have a lot going on.”
I avoided eye contact with him as he spoke. For once I was feeling hints of guilt toward a person. I wanted to spend time with him, but I knew that I wasn't in the state to do that.
“Yeah, I think it’ll have to wait, I’m-” I cut myself off before apologizing. A fact about me that should surprise no one is that I hate apologizing. Even when I do feel kinda bad the act fills me with embarrassment.
“You what?” he asked, his eyes telling me that he knew what I was going to say.
“I’m emotionally not great.” I spat out in an admittedly poor attempt to get out of saying sorry. As always he remained calm but I could tell he saw through me.
“Okay, like I said I understand, whatever it is I hope you feel better.”
I told him thank you and we didn't speak for the rest of the day. At home I changed into more comfortable clothes and brushed my teeth. Unfortunately, I wasn't bouncing back from killing nearly as much as I expected.
“It wasn't even that bad! That thing was on its last legs anyway.” I grumbled to myself, smacking my forehead. I was feeling worse than when I did it which is weird. I ended up spontaneously decorating a ratty tie from the bottom of an accessory drawer to distract myself. It helped me get my mind off things, for a little. I had zero plan, just wanting to make something needlessly complex. Hours that felt like minutes passed and soon it was covered in patches, frills, and beads. I just tried it on when I heard the front door open.
“Man, that shit was wild!” I heard Brick laugh groggily. I didn't have to see or smell him to know he’d gotten lit. I rolled my eyes, closing my bedroom door.
“Hey, who’s there?” his friend asked, seemingly referring to me.
“Oh, that’s my little sis, don’t mind her she’s just on her emo shit!” he joked, which pissed me off for the petty reason that I didn't even listen or dress emo.
“Hey, that’s alright with me, I went through one of those phases,” they responded, their words less slurred than my cousin’s.
I fucked up and forgot to lock it when I closed it so they were able to swing it open, almost smacking my desk.
“Hey emo girl!” they waved as Brick haphazardly pulled them back.
“Okay, man, seriously I think she wants to be left alone.”
The way his friend looked at me made me uncomfortable. Like they’d snap my neck if I pissed them off. They clicked their tongue while stepping through the door frame.
“Alright, but I gotta say calling her an emo is inaccurate, they look like they watch gore and most emos just say they do.” they flashed a sharp toothy grin. At that moment I began to connect the dots.
“Easy, she’ll get pissy with you dude, now come on.” Brick warned tugging their opened button pushed him away. They looked me dead in the eyes.
“I don’t think she minds, in truth, I feel like we’ll have a lot to discuss later.” they smiled again, finally walking back into the living room. A chill ran up my spine when I saw them. The sharp teeth, New York accent, unsettling gaze, that motherfucker was the person who recruited me! They were able to get into my place so easily cause my dumbass cousin probably gave them a spare key or the opportunity to make one, and now they were a room away from me!
I dug my hands into my pillow as I contemplated what to do, no matter what happened next, I knew it was gonna be a rough visit.

First time poster here, I tried reading the guide, but to no avail, so I thought to post here!
I'm writing and making a bot for the first time and I'm stumped on how to get to that mystical 1,000 tokens that people recommend all the time. I MIGHT be able to get to 300-400 tokens by the time I'm done with the personality and scenario, but I don't know what else to put in there! Name, age, relations, appearance, personality, the works, it's all in there!
The scenario is also a little confusing, especially with the guide telling me to be both generic and specific? I'm not sure if I'm reading it right.

Besides the questions in the title I tired to elaborate a little and also each question(s) has two, a. and b. sections. Section a. is meant for sort of a broad understanding. Section b. is my personal, specific case example (active claim, CA ~10 months).
I'm sure who you'll see will depend on state law, your injury, among other things. Regardless of who you see, more importantly: How do we (the injured worker) know if who we've been assigned to is doing their job correctly or just having an off day, since we know it's not required to have good bedside manner, what are they required by definition AND law? That said:

1a. Despite case by case variations; who are personnel that everyone will see no matter what? What should you expect from them, and is there more they can do...but only if you know how to ask? I'm imagining a knowledgeable answer would be a long list of all the possible outcomes within the maximum allowed in WC, but probably more helpful is to address the most common. A small list may only include a companies HR, Claims adjustor, and an Occupational Health doctor for example. Then continuing the list after those essential people is there typically a usual process where if once your case goes for a certain amount of time or ______ happens, you could expect to meet these ______ job title? I'm hoping to help other people at least have an idea of what to expect out of said people.

1b. TLDR: Here's one of the biggest examples of not knowing who to talk to and whether that information is correct. I have not been given crucial test results from 3 months ago. Original test (Neuropathy) doc said to get my results from my doctor, who sends me to therapist, who sends me back to doctor, my adjustor says doctor, doctor sends me to "Specialist", turns out not specialist, who sends me back to my doctor...ummmm....WTF do I do at my next doctors visits in a few days??

1b (cont.) It has come to my attention that I'm completely unaware of exactly what a large majority of the people I've been assigned to see do. In fact, in what capacity do I "have to see them"? Can I request a swap, or how do I make a complaint? I have been MORE than patient, and I've given the benefit of the doubt for so long that I can no longer accept being passed along. I'm already back where I started, for the 3rd time. Uh...so, besides just wanting information for myself, I'd think the test results should help me heal. I've been denied more treatments (Appeal's denied too) where I'd think that those test results could play a crucial role. Where once I thought there has there been a miscommunication, now feels like I'm in an echo chamber, or worse. This is quite alarming as it also shines light into the fact that I am also unaware of how "my doctor" can best help me, if at all. "My doctor", the one I'm required to see at Occupational Health, (I'm told I not allowed to see my family doctor) doesn't seem to do anything other than fill out the "Return to work form". Is that correct? How would I know?? They seem to just write whatever I tell them. Similarly the same goes for what treatments I've gotten. Best I can tell, there is no indication they have reviewed any of the information from other doctors and therapists. It's now going on 3 months where I haven't been given test results.

Unfortunately it's not just my doctor who I'm not getting information from. "Generic Adjustor" Enters the chat. or maybe not, because to top off the confusion, I can't get ahold of my adjustor who so far been the one steering me into the .... direction. Unfortunately I believe I'm waking up too late. I've called multiple times a day for a week straight while leaving messages and follow up emails noting that I've called. They do respond to email, which usually consists of one line stating something like "call anytime, I'll be in the office all week".. Funny thing is I'm not sure what exactly they are even supposed to do or bare minimum required to do. Even when I get ahold of them, I'm questioning if I can even trust them. I'm not saying "it's conspiracy". However due to the most recent info I've gotten, I do think the run around could be very deliberate play. How do I know if they're simply bad at their job or leaving me in the dark. It sure feels like it's purposeful. This all came to a head when after reviewing our last few emails, I see a pattern where they only respond to some of the questions, and even have given verifiably incorrect, contradictory information. How do I check these facts? Should I talk to a supervisor? Is there a system to check and balance these things? Who do I talk to? It all came to a head when I opened mail to find: Request of QME with the reason being "Objection to Primary Treating Physician's determination regarding temporary disability, permanent disability, or the need for future medical care." Aggravating but I'm sure they followed the (rules I was unaware of) book. It's questions like this that have me really, really upset: What is even meant by "Objection to Primary Treating Physician's determination"? 1. Quick sidebar - is that decision made by the "my doctor" that I described earlier - or the "Provider"? > Meaning, those two terms have been used interchangeably, and I fear that, and why I used quotes for "my doctor" earlier, I'm wondering if this other name (who happens to be another doctor at the Occupational Health office) a person I have never met let alone seen is the one calling the shots. Either way I'm pretty worried. 2. Here is another example which shows only a part of the circle of "who do I talk to". Here is a quote from my adjustor 10 days after the letter had been officiated, but before I got it states "you have not seen a specialist, attended a QME, or have a clear treatment plan defined by your primary treating physician.". Am I wrong to have read that to believe I'd still be seeing a specialist? Doesn't it read that the information the specialist decides would be what determines the next step? Isn't it safe to say that by month 10 I'd have a treatment plan --of course unless your not privy to your own test results?
Ending note: There is so many more examples I could give which to me paint a picture of neglect. From what I can tell, I either already signed my rights away or it's just not worth the fight. I don't even want to fight, or believed there would be a reason for a disagreement due to my injury but since that bubble of disillusionment has popped, how can I reproach getting the best medical treatment. I was lead to believe that after seeing a specialist I would have the option to get a second opinion before the QME. I haven't even seen the first specialist (I was sent to an office with a specialist in it, but the person I saw was just a family practitioner).and since both my doctor and my adjutor are not helping ---Who the fuck do I talk to?

Well guys I feel like shit. Today at work, a customer accidently left a hip flask full of whisky at my place of employment. Now normally, I would find a way to return the item, however in this case we were not given enough information to reach out to them, and we didn't know the customers name.
Normally in this situation we would hold the lost property in a generic storage area for up to 3 months (dependent on the assumed value, I.e. if we had an ipad, we are much more inclined to hold on to the item for the whole 3 months than let's say a baseball cap). However this time around, I am admittedly in a rough position mentally, and even going to work today was a great deal of effort and drinking is something I do during these periods to cope. So as we had no details on the owner, I siphoned the alcohol into my own container for me to drink at home. Leaving the flask empty.
I don't know why I did it, and I feel like shit for doing it, but I couldn't help myself. I don't know the owner, but I do know that the alcohol is good quality, but I wish he knew how bad I feel for stealing his alcohol.

The days are short, the nights are extensively long. Those who survive, do so thanks to the endless charity of the ruling class, but none thrive. Those who are mighty, get inducted. Those who are a threat, get ended. Bounty hunters are aplenty, and all those who are scorned from all corners of society are welcomed under the embrace of Lenssle's darkened skies.

Campaign Info

• Scheduling - Scheduling is fairly flexible around GMT timezones. 5 PM GMT and after is generally the go to. Thursdays/Saturdays/Mondays are the available days. The time is fairly flexible, and the day/time of sessions will be determined based on the availability of attendees, that's to say, once the players are decided, we'll figure out a consistent schedule.
• Requirements - A working mic, a computer, and time.
• Campaign - The campaign is set in a homebrew city adjacent to Faerun. It's a city cursed with ancient, inexplicable magic that forces it to only ever get about two hours of shitty sunlight a day, and the rest is just clouds and general darkness. This has made it a haven for all those rejected by society, whether due to taboo or due to their nature or afflictions. It's ruled by a set of noble vampire families, a mercenary company, and a family of cutthroat werewolves. The city serves as a central location for bounty hunters, loreseekers, and those interested in arcane arts that are banned everywhere else.
• Rulings - As a DM, I'm incredibly flexible with game rules as I tend to favour fun a lot more. I also have a habit of homebrewing absolutely insane magic items for my players and my general goal is to let each player "do the cool thing" so to speak. I don't actually give much of a damn about official rulings if they get in the way of people enjoying the game.
• Questions - If you have any further inquiries, feel free to either leave a comment or text me directly. I will respond to things as soon as I can, however do not expect a very swift response.

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The Setting:
The setting is largely centred around subverting the general themes of what you'd expect from a high fantasy campaign. This isn't exactly dark fantasy, but it leans very heavily into the themes. There is also an aspect of cosmic horror attached at higher levels.

• The City - The central focus of the campaign. Technically there is a main storyline to follow, however if the party doesn't wish to stick with that, there's a quest board and a bounty board. The environment is highly reactive, and the goal is to build a narrative centred around the PCs and not the other way around.
• The Story - Beyond the introductory quest that gets everyone together, the story follows a web of lies, questions, and secrets untangle themselves as the PCs explore. The idea is that each portion of the city has its own reasons to tie into the story, so ultimately the experience wouldn't be lost, but a lot of angles are provided to come at the story from.
• The People - Most NPCs aren't meant to be generic. Everyone in this city has a story and a reason to be here. Be it that they were born here, escaped a previous life, or have chosen to settle down somewhere less temperamental than the average village or city within Faerun. Each family has its own history and lore, however I'll only dive into those if asked. Lore dumping isn't to be expected unless prompted.

The campaign will likely stay within the confines of the city, but I'm open to suggestions about going beyond at higher levels.
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About me: Name's Yusuf. I'm 23 years old. I live in Egypt. I've been running 5e consistently (1/2 sessions a week save for skips) for the past 4.5 years, and have experimented a lot with other systems. The reason I like 5e is because it offers a lot of flexibility for both player and DM, allowing a curated experience outside of the Intended Game Design™ of most TTRPGs. Having said that, it comes with an ungodly amount of jank that you have to weave through. Funnily enough, that is a very fair description of me as well, since I have a fairly fringe sense of humour but I do dabble into most things in life if just to try them. Ultimately, I don't judge anyone for doing anything long as it isn't too degenerate or outright criminal.
Application link: https://forms.gle/MddwwowQ5m9otW7BA

Start date: May 15, 2024.
Total investment: € 9996.59.
Total current return: € ? (?%).
Total elapsed weeks: ?.
Next update: May 23, 2024.
End date: December 31, 2024.
Here is the .csv file:

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CRS.N,CRS,US,Carpenter Technology Corporation,USD,EQUITY,NYQ,Industrials,Metal Fabrication,2024-05-15,109.550003051758,100.741196856369,2024-05-15,109.550003051758,100.741196856369,1,109.550003051758,100.741196856369,34.0476120260581,31.3165509226119 DIS.MI,DIS.MI,IT,d'Amico International Shipping S.A.,EUR,EQUITY,MIL,Industrials,Marine Shipping,2024-05-15,7.69999980926514,7.69999980926514,2024-05-15,7.69999980926514,7.69999980926514,13,100.099997520447,100.099997520447,1.48521744342503,1.48521744342503 DNG.TO,DNG.TO,CA,Dynacor Group Inc.,CAD,EQUITY,TOR,Basic Materials,Other Precious Metals & Mining,2024-05-15,5.42000007629395,3.65986216555364,2024-05-15,5.42000007629395,3.65986216555364,27,146.340002059937,98.8162784699483,2.73996555376442,1.8489169198717 DRX.TO,DRX.TO,CA,ADF Group Inc.,CAD,EQUITY,TOR,Industrials,Metal Fabrication,2024-05-15,16.3299999237061,11.0268538824693,2024-05-15,16.3299999237061,11.0268538824693,9,146.969999313355,99.2416849422234,0.816499996185303,0.550970670396969 E.TO,E.TO,CA,"Enterprise Group, Inc.",CAD,EQUITY,TOR,Energy,Oil & Gas Equipment & Services,2024-05-15,1.21000003814697,0.817054113947654,2024-05-15,1.21000003814697,0.817054113947654,122,147.620004653931,99.6806019016138,0.210420134172571,0.141990597589385 ENO.MC,ENO.MC,ES,"Elecnor, S.A.",EUR,EQUITY,MCE,Industrials,Infrastructure Operations,2024-05-15,21.2000007629395,21.2000007629395,2024-05-15,21.2000007629395,21.2000007629395,5,106.000003814697,106.000003814697,12.551528826266,12.551528826266 ENVI.AS,ENVI.AS,NL,Envipco Holding N.V.,EUR,EQUITY,AMS,Industrials,Pollution & Treatment Controls,2024-05-15,5.80000019073486,5.80000019073486,2024-05-15,5.80000019073486,5.80000019073486,17,98.6000032424927,98.6000032424927,1.67603432587419,1.67603432587419 EVISO.MI,EVISO.MI,IT,eVISO S.p.A.,EUR,EQUITY,MIL,Utilities,Utilities—Regulated Electric,2024-05-15,4.90999984741211,4.90999984741211,2024-05-15,4.90999984741211,4.90999984741211,20,98.1999969482422,98.1999969482422,1.86293823453707,1.86293823453707 FTC.L,FTC.L,GB,Filtronic plc,GBp,EQUITY,LSE,Technology,Communication Equipment,2024-05-15,58.5,0.682131213331186,2024-05-15,58.5,0.682131213331186,147,8599.5,100.273288359684,2.925,0.0340851321595671 GAMC.O,GAMC,US,Golden Arrow Merger Corp.,USD,EQUITY,NCM,Financial Services,Shell Companies,2024-05-15,11.0299997329712,10.1430884844427,2024-05-15,11.0299997329712,10.1430884844427,10,110.299997329712,101.430884844427,10.1468770873948,9.33296563558359 IDR.MC,IDR.MC,ES,"Indra Sistemas, S.A.",EUR,EQUITY,MCE,Technology,Information Technology Services,2024-05-15,20.1200008392334,20.1200008392334,2024-05-15,20.1200008392334,20.1200008392334,5,100.600004196167,100.600004196167,10.8941912325836,10.8941912325836 IGIC.O,IGIC,US,International General Insurance Holdings Ltd.,USD,EQUITY,NCM,Financial Services,Insurance—Diversified,2024-05-15,14.6700000762939,13.4904000401592,2024-05-15,14.6700000762939,13.4904000401592,7,102.690000534058,94.4328002811146,9.30404677312841,8.55774126931546 III.L,III.L,GB,3i Group Ord,GBp,EQUITY,LSE,,,2024-05-15,2966,34.5846355340222,2024-05-15,2966,34.5846355340222,3,8898,103.753906602067,1447.85882812435,16.8719519675262 IQG.L,IQG.L,GB,IQGeo Group plc,GBp,EQUITY,LSE,Technology,Software—Application,2024-05-15,472,5.50369115713367,2024-05-15,472,5.50369115713367,18,8496,99.0664408284061,114.359449092067,1.33263484991398 IVN.TO,IVN.TO,CA,Ivanhoe Mines Ltd.,CAD,EQUITY,TOR,Basic Materials,Other Industrial Metals & Mining,2024-05-15,19.9300003051758,13.4577588652472,2024-05-15,19.9300003051758,13.4577588652472,7,139.51000213623,94.2043120567304,8.61605916585422,5.81407950639264 JAM.L,JAM.L,GB,JPMorgan American Ord,GBp,EQUITY,LSE,,,2024-05-15,987,11.5087779069723,2024-05-15,987,11.5087779069723,9,8883,103.579001162751,734.693023539479,8.56140471933505 KKR.N,KKR,US,KKR & Co. Inc.,USD,EQUITY,NYQ,Financial Services,Asset Management,2024-05-15,107.669998168945,99.0123612861786,2024-05-15,107.669998168945,99.0123612861786,1,107.669998168945,99.0123612861786,51.1494689660835,47.0466166119071 KMER.MI,KMER.MI,IT,KME Group S.p.A.,EUR,EQUITY,MIL,,,2024-05-15,1.55999994277954,1.55999994277954,2024-05-15,1.55999994277954,1.55999994277954,64,99.8399963378906,99.8399963378906,0.800465071994058,0.800465071994058 KRNL.O,KRNL,US,"Kernel Group Holdings, Inc.",USD,EQUITY,NCM,Financial Services,Shell Companies,2024-05-15,10.9200000762939,10.0419337901592,2024-05-15,10.9200000762939,10.0419337901592,10,109.200000762939,100.419337901592,10.269285944972,9.44555571146799 KURN.VX,KURN.SW,CH,Kuros Biosciences AG,CHF,EQUITY,EBS,Healthcare,Medical Devices,2024-05-15,8,8.17366088441458,2024-05-15,8,8.17366088441458,12,96,98.083930612975,0.530445807104744,0.540606867796476 L.TO,L.TO,CA,Loblaw Companies Limited,CAD,EQUITY,TOR,Consumer Defensive,Grocery Stores,2024-05-15,155.139999389648,104.758488217297,2024-05-15,155.139999389648,104.758488217297,1,155.139999389648,104.758488217297,108.795430497776,73.4146865370985 LDO.MI,LDO.MI,IT,Leonardo S.p.a.,EUR,EQUITY,MIL,Industrials,Aerospace & Defense,2024-05-15,22.5,22.5,2024-05-15,22.5,22.5,4,90,90,9.15905866550776,9.15905866550776 LMB.O,LMB,US,"Limbach Holdings, Inc.",USD,EQUITY,NCM,Industrials,Building Products & Equipment,2024-05-15,50.6599998474121,46.5864799196816,2024-05-15,50.6599998474121,46.5864799196816,2,101.319999694824,93.1729598393631,3.1283030409755,2.87737246914973 MEMS.EQ,MEMS.PA,FR,"MEMSCAP, S.A.",EUR,EQUITY,PAR,Technology,Semiconductor Equipment & Materials,2024-05-15,7.75,7.75,2024-05-15,7.75,7.75,13,100.75,100.75,1.24829618687214,1.24829618687214 MEPK.N,MER-PK,US,Merrill Lynch Capital Trust I GTD CAP 6.45%,USD,EQUITY,NYQ,,,2024-05-15,25.3899993896484,23.3484149287262,2024-05-15,25.3899993896484,23.3484149287262,4,101.559997558594,93.3936597149048,23.4660902117283,21.5838047175749 MIKN.VX,MIKN.SW,CH,Mikron Holding AG,CHF,EQUITY,EBS,Industrials,Specialty Industrial Machinery,2024-05-15,16.9500007629395,17.3179447783545,2024-05-15,16.9500007629395,17.3179447783545,6,101.700004577637,103.907668670127,10.1066015477761,10.3002005739888 MLI.N,MLI,US,"Mueller Industries, Inc.",USD,EQUITY,NYQ,Industrials,Metal Fabrication,2024-05-15,59.0800018310547,54.3294379638214,2024-05-15,59.0800018310547,54.3294379638214,2,118.160003662109,108.658875927643,28.864001244309,26.5487331124992 MOD.N,MOD,US,Modine Manufacturing Company,USD,EQUITY,NYQ,Consumer Cyclical,Auto Parts,2024-05-15,109.419998168945,100.621645536179,2024-05-15,109.419998168945,100.621645536179,1,109.419998168945,100.621645536179,5.47099990844727,5.03215459279099 MSI.L,MSI.L,GB,MS INTERNATIONAL plc,GBp,EQUITY,LSE,Industrials,Conglomerates,2024-05-15,995,11.6020608079407,2024-05-15,995,11.6020608079407,9,8955,104.418547271466,299.053984032638,3.48488703199915 NBST.O,NBST,US,Newbury Street Acquisition Corporation,USD,EQUITY,NCM,Financial Services,Shell Companies,2024-05-15,10.8400001525879,9.96836658031845,2024-05-15,10.8400001525879,9.96836658031845,10,108.400001525879,99.6836658031845,10.203750702138,9.38527724706745 NGEX.TO,NGEX.TO,CA,NGEx Minerals Ltd.,CAD,EQUITY,TOR,Basic Materials,Other Industrial Metals & Mining,2024-05-15,9.57999992370606,6.46890752273802,2024-05-15,9.57999992370606,6.46890752273802,15,143.699998855591,97.0336128410703,0.478999996185303,0.323227128293172 OCAX.O,OCAX,US,OCA Acquisition Corp.,USD,EQUITY,NCM,Financial Services,Shell Companies,2024-05-15,11.1750001907349,10.2764296003981,2024-05-15,11.1750001907349,10.2764296003981,10,111.750001907349,102.764296003981,10.3482390933432,9.51817579094888 OPXS.O,OPXS,US,"Optex Systems Holdings, Inc",USD,EQUITY,NCM,Industrials,Aerospace & Defense,2024-05-15,8.56999969482422,7.8808945893631,2024-05-15,8.56999969482422,7.8808945893631,13,111.409996032715,102.45162966172,1.37396433534202,1.26375453411123 OSG.N,OSG,US,"Overseas Shipholding Group, Inc.",USD,EQUITY,NYQ,Energy,Oil & Gas Midstream,2024-05-15,6.8899998664856,6.33598186722136,2024-05-15,6.8899998664856,6.33598186722136,16,110.23999786377,101.375709875542,3.08423975967902,2.83684363583589 PLMI.O,PLMI,US,Plum Acquisition Corp. I,USD,EQUITY,NCM,Financial Services,Shell Companies,2024-05-15,11.1199998855591,10.2258518147612,2024-05-15,11.1199998855591,10.2258518147612,10,111.199998855591,102.258518147612,10.3122527077106,9.48507598126697 PMGM.O,PMGM,US,Priveterra Acquisition Corp. II,USD,EQUITY,NCM,Financial Services,Shell Companies,2024-05-15,11.0500001907349,10.1614807253981,2024-05-15,11.0500001907349,10.1614807253981,10,110.500001907349,101.614807253981,10.4066804048251,9.57192934951286 PNL.L,PNL.L,GB,Personal Assets Ord,GBp,EQUITY,LSE,,,2024-05-15,490,5.7135776843125,2024-05-15,490,5.7135776843125,18,8820,102.844398317625,205.388023341194,2.39339416053909 PSH.L,PSH.L,GB,Pershing Square Holdings Ord,GBp,EQUITY,LSE,,,2024-05-15,4058,47.3177515162043,2024-05-15,4058,47.3177515162043,2,8116,94.6355030324087,2760.24210472501,32.1652023698986 PUB.EQ,PUB.PA,FR,Publicis Groupe S.A.,EUR,EQUITY,PAR,Communication Services,Advertising Agencies,2024-05-15,106.150001525879,106.150001525879,2024-05-15,106.150001525879,106.150001525879,1,106.150001525879,106.150001525879,62.7854557332542,62.7854557332542 PUCK.O,PUCK,US,Goal Acquisitions Corp.,USD,EQUITY,NCM,Financial Services,Shell Companies,2024-05-15,10.8500003814697,9.97756270079613,2024-05-15,10.8500003814697,9.97756270079613,10,108.500003814697,99.7756270079613,10.2216440084575,9.40173527760708 PWS.MI,PWS.MI,IT,Powersoft S.p.A.,EUR,EQUITY,MIL,Technology,Consumer Electronics,2024-05-15,16.2000007629395,16.2000007629395,2024-05-15,16.2000007629395,16.2000007629395,6,97.2000045776367,97.2000045776367,3.72774791732638,3.72774791732638 QDRO.O,QDRO,US,Quadro Acquisition One Corp.,USD,EQUITY,NCM,Financial Services,Shell Companies,2024-05-15,11.0500001907349,10.1614807253981,2024-05-15,11.0500001907349,10.1614807253981,10,110.500001907349,101.614807253981,10.2946317689515,9.46886847086858 RDNT.O,RDNT,US,"RadNet, Inc.",USD,EQUITY,NGM,Healthcare,Diagnostics & Research,2024-05-15,58.2400016784668,53.556981383503,2024-05-15,58.2400016784668,53.556981383503,2,116.480003356934,107.113962767006,19.3818445183282,17.8271686239796 REAX.O,REAX,US,The Real Brokerage Inc.,USD,EQUITY,NCM,Real Estate,Real Estate Services,2024-05-15,5,4.597955,2024-05-15,5,4.597955,22,110,101.15501,0.25,0.22994675 RNWH.L,RNWH.L,GB,Renew Holdings plc,GBp,EQUITY,LSE,Industrials,Engineering & Construction,2024-05-15,1054,12.2900222025824,2024-05-15,1054,12.2900222025824,8,8432,98.3201776206592,681.809806634346,7.94515465532326 RR.FRA,RRU.F,DE,Rolls-Royce Holdings plc,EUR,EQUITY,FRA,Industrials,Aerospace & Defense,2024-05-15,4.94899988174439,4.94899988174439,2024-05-15,4.94899988174439,4.94899988174439,20,98.9799976348877,98.9799976348877,1.15474766444009,1.15474766444009 SAB.MC,SAB.MC,ES,"Banco de Sabadell, S.A.",EUR,EQUITY,MCE,Financial Services,Banks—Diversified,2024-05-15,1.90400004386902,1.90400004386902,2024-05-15,1.90400004386902,1.90400004386902,53,100.912002325058,100.912002325058,0.770675500087932,0.770675500087932 SLAM.O,SLAM,US,Slam Corp.,USD,EQUITY,NCM,Financial Services,Shell Companies,2024-05-15,11.0500001907349,10.1614807253981,2024-05-15,11.0500001907349,10.1614807253981,10,110.500001907349,101.614807253981,10.3152097299573,9.48779581188824 SMHN.EQ,SMHN.F,DE,SÜSS MicroTec SE,EUR,EQUITY,FRA,Technology,Semiconductor Equipment & Materials,2024-05-15,51.2999992370606,51.2999992370606,2024-05-15,51.2999992370606,51.2999992370606,2,102.599998474121,102.599998474121,12.952163633103,12.952163633103 SOL.MI,SOL.MI,IT,SOL S.p.A.,EUR,EQUITY,MIL,Basic Materials,Specialty Chemicals,2024-05-15,33.7000007629395,33.7000007629395,2024-05-15,33.7000007629395,33.7000007629395,3,101.100002288818,101.100002288818,20.3776094280299,20.3776094280299 SPIE.EQ,SPIE.PA,FR,SPIE SA,EUR,EQUITY,PAR,Industrials,Engineering & Construction,2024-05-15,36.2200012207031,36.2200012207031,2024-05-15,36.2200012207031,36.2200012207031,3,108.660003662109,108.660003662109,24.4525122007507,24.4525122007507 TAYD.O,TAYD,US,"Taylor Devices, Inc.",USD,EQUITY,NCM,Industrials,Specialty Industrial Machinery,2024-05-15,51.3800010681152,47.2485865622292,2024-05-15,51.3800010681152,47.2485865622292,2,102.76000213623,94.4971731244583,5.60221111549934,5.15284095529179 TDW.N,TDW,US,Tidewater Inc.,USD,EQUITY,NYQ,Energy,Oil & Gas Equipment & Services,2024-05-15,108.110000610352,99.4169835712738,2024-05-15,108.110000610352,99.4169835712738,1,108.110000610352,99.4169835712738,8.89739581168513,8.18370900144243 TRD.L,TRD.L,GB,Triad Group plc,GBp,EQUITY,LSE,Technology,Information Technology Services,2024-05-15,277,3.22992044602972,2024-05-15,277,3.22992044602972,31,8587,100.127533826921,79.9188268645001,0.931297017338134 TRMD.O,TRMD,US,TORM plc,USD,EQUITY,NMS,Energy,Oil & Gas Midstream,2024-05-15,38.0400009155273,34.9812424819107,2024-05-15,38.0400009155273,34.9812424819107,3,114.120002746582,104.943727445732,15.7437186157142,14.4808677143919 TVK.TO,TVK.TO,CA,TerraVest Industries Inc.,CAD,EQUITY,TOR,Energy,Oil & Gas Equipment & Services,2024-05-15,78.879997253418,53.26382167953,2024-05-15,78.879997253418,53.26382167953,2,157.759994506836,106.52764335906,11.8947657049186,8.02653651594938 TWLV.O,TWLV,US,Twelve Seas Investment Company II,USD,EQUITY,NCM,Financial Services,Shell Companies,2024-05-15,10.8000001907349,9.93158297539806,2024-05-15,10.8000001907349,9.93158297539806,10,108.000001907349,99.3158297539806,10.1645252912436,9.34919822405708 UCG.MI,UCG.MI,IT,UniCredit S.p.A.,EUR,EQUITY,MIL,Financial Services,Banks—Regional,2024-05-15,36.2799987792969,36.2799987792969,2024-05-15,36.2799987792969,36.2799987792969,3,108.839996337891,108.839996337891,12.8251828408082,12.8251828408082 UNI.MI,UNI.MI,IT,Unipol Gruppo S.p.A.,EUR,EQUITY,MIL,Financial Services,Insurance—Diversified,2024-05-15,8.90499973297119,8.90499973297119,2024-05-15,8.90499973297119,8.90499973297119,11,97.9549970626831,97.9549970626831,4.53438024653025,4.53438024653025 URB.TO,URB.TO,CA,Urbana Corporation,CAD,EQUITY,TOR,Financial Services,Asset Management,2024-05-15,5.48000001907349,3.70037720566862,2024-05-15,5.48000001907349,3.70037720566862,27,147.960000514984,99.9101845530527,4.01565374986276,2.70974580401818 USAP.O,USAP,US,"Universal Stainless & Alloy Products, Inc.",USD,EQUITY,NMS,Basic Materials,Steel,2024-05-15,33.7299995422363,31.0178040090447,2024-05-15,33.7299995422363,31.0178040090447,3,101.189998626709,93.0534120271339,4.8737430358326,4.48280548569936 VCTR.O,VCTR,US,"Victory Capital Holdings, Inc.",USD,EQUITY,NMS,Financial Services,Asset Management,2024-05-15,52.1399993896484,47.9474741787262,2024-05-15,52.1399993896484,47.9474741787262,2,104.279998779297,95.8949483574524,27.0128366318881,24.8460559671344 VIL.EQ,VIL.PA,FR,"VIEL & Cie, société anonyme",EUR,EQUITY,PAR,Financial Services,Capital Markets,2024-05-15,10.75,10.75,2024-05-15,10.75,10.75,9,96.75,96.75,6.6231134232085,6.6231134232085 VIRC.O,VIRC,US,Virco Mfg. 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I am NOT the Original Poster. That is u/SparkMandrill90. He posted in AITAH
Mood Spoiler: Good ending.
Original Post: May 9, 2024
My (33M) ex-wife (30F) and I got divorced 3 years ago. In college, we worked at the same restaurant, that's where we met. We were together for 7 years, and married for a little over 3 and half. We divorced because she cheated twice.
2 years into our marriage I discover she is having an affair with a former classmate. I collect enough evidence and confront her. She confesses everything. The affair was about 2 months long. This was a really terrible time, and was really hard to work through with her. You can call me an idiot, but I am a forgiving person. I do believe in 2nd chances and that people can change. We agreed to reconcile. We did the work. We had marriage counseling. We read some of the books, she went no contact with classmate right away, open phone policy, we told our parents. She was doing the right things and our relationship was recovering.
1 year into our reconciliation, her Aunt dies. I am very busy with work and cannot attend the services as they are on Thursday and Friday, back in her hometown 5 hours away. Her parents and brother no longer live there, so she stayed with a good friend from HS. I had met this friend a few times and was comfortable with that.
On Saturday morning my wife text me that the car was loaded, and she was about to start making the drive home. About an hour after that I got a Facebook message from the friend. Who stated she wouldn't be able to live with herself if she just let this go, but informed me that my wife had gone out Friday night with some old friends from HS. The friend thought nothing of this until she discovered my wife had left her phone behind, and that she didnt come back until the following morning. I had gotten a text that Friday night from my wife that she was going to bed early since the past few days had been emotionally draining.
I confronted my wife soon as she got home. She was really hesitant to tell me anything so I lied to her and told her if we were going to work through this, I needed to know everything like the last time. That got her to confess that she had gone out, and had gone home with an old friend from high school. She said they didn't have sex but did do "stuff" that I won't go into detail about here. It didn't matter, once I got enough of the truth I left for my parents house. That week, my Dad called my landlord and paid all the termination fees and got me out of the lease. We went and got my stuff while she was at work. My parents set me up with a friend of theirs that was a divorce attorney and he cut me a deal. Took about 7 months for divorce to go final.
That was 3 years ago. I have an awesome girlfriend, and am doing well. This past weekend I got a Facebook message from a guy who is now engaged to my ex-wife. He introduced himself and said he was probably just being crazy, but he wanted to know why we had gotten divorced. He said he had broached the subject a few times, and she always "gets weird." She had told him we had divorced because we grew apart, but mostly she just deflects or is really really vague.
I told him the truth, and offered evidence if he would like. He declined, and thanked me for my time and story.
A day later I get a phone call from a local, but unknown number. I answer and it's my ex-wife. She is really upset and asking me why I am trying to ruin her future. I get her to calm down and talk. She says her fiancee has asked for some space and is staying with his parents this week. That he is saying he needs to reevaluate their relationship. She wants to know why I told him all about their past and why I'm still punishing her. She tells me she's not that person anymore, and has done all this work, and been in therapy. That she deserves another chance and I'm being petty and hateful. There were a few generic insults thrown. I got a little pissed and told her if she really changed for the better she would have been upfront with him about heour past and owned up to cheating in her prior marriage, and then gone about showing her fiancee that she was ready to be a worthy partner to him unlike she was with me. Instead she tried to lie and hide the truth, and now it's blowing up in her face again. She said a few choice words and hung up.
I haven't heard anything since. I told my girlfriend and she reassured how I handled it. But I find myself feeling guilty. I still believe in 2nd chances and that people can change. While I would have felt wrong lying to the guy, I wonder if I should have handled the whole thing differently or just not responded. If she is truly different and this is just a blip, I don't want to be the thing that prevents her from finding happiness, but also believe I'm not what's hurting her engagement. AITA?
Relevant Comments:
Commenter: The fiancé called you and asked you what happened, you are under no obligation to lie to him for her sake, as a matter of fact, anything that you told him besides the truth would be suspect as you have no idea what she told him. Don’t feel bad, she is only feeling the consequences of her actions. NTA. Kiss your wife, tell her you love her, and live a good life together

OOP: Yeah, I don't know what she's told him exactly. He made it sound like she will do anything NOT to talk about it. He did say the most he's ever gotten out of her when bringing it up was "We grew apart". Which is a lie in itself.

Commenter: NTAH, imagine if you had lied to the guy and said you had just grown apart. Would you want thar on your conscience? I’d have told him rather than been part of a lie that will lead to someone else getting hurt. She hasn’t changed at all.

OOP: No, you're right, I would not have lied to him. I think I was largely wondering if I should have just told him "it wasn't my place and he needs to get it from his fiancee", but after the amount of feedback, I'm feeling really good with my decision.

Commenter: NTA. I’m like you. I would feel guilty because at a glance it seems like being honest about your experience caused your ex to potentially lose her relationship. However you are holding yourself accountable for someone else’s actions. Your ex cheated. Your ex withheld information from her current partner. Your ex is still avoiding accountability. You are not responsible for her actions. Anything that happens in her relationship is her problem, not yours.

OOP: Thank you for this, I got to remind myself of that. I hate causing others pain, so I'm glad to hear from someone who can relate

There is no consensus bot on AITAH, but a majority of votes are NTA
Update Post: May 12, 2024 (3 days later)
I really didn't expect to give an update because I assumed I'd never hear anything from my ex wife or her fiancee again. First Post
Last night I received a very very long text from my ex-wife. I'll summarize it below, because it was long and did have personal details.
She started off by apologizing for the way she talked to me the other day and said I didn't deserve to be insulted like that. She then went onto explain herself, and her situation.
She started by acknowledging that this whole situation wasn't my concern or business, and apologized for me being drawn into it, and said she was embarrassed that their issues were being "aired out." She said it was her fault this happened. Since she began dating her fiancee she has hidden the details of our marriage out of shame and guilt. For the most part it was never brought up until he proposed a couple months ago. That's when he first really asked and seemed to want to know. She said she wasn't ready to deal with that and kept trying to rug sweep it, but he persisted. This is when she started therapy (so apparently she's only had a few therapy sessions and all are recent). She never thought he would reach out to me.
She then stated that none of this was my fault, and apologized for blaming me. She said she should have faced this a long time ago, gotten therapy for ruining our marriage, and come to terms with her own feelings of guilt.
Then she apologized for her affairs, and way I was treated during our marriage.
The last part was just her stating that she was not expecting a response back, wishing me the best, and saying that hopefully her and her fiancee will never "bother me" again.
This morning when I got up and read this, I sent back a brief message:
"I appreciate the apologies and am glad you are working on yourself. I have moved on from what happened, and hope you can move on from this. The only bit of advice I have is I think this text needs to go to your fiancee."
She responded back just by saying "Thank you" and that he's received far more and far longer texts.
I doubt there'll ever be another update. I actually hope there isn't. I don't believe in closure, but I will say it was refreshing, to hear her apologize without an asterisk. That's what I always got before, the "I'm so sorry, I just drank too much and..." "I'm so sorry, I was just really depressed and stressed and...". Doesn't mean a whole lot really, maybe just unexpected for me, but it was nice to hear an apology that has no excuse trailing behind it. I'm going to enjoy the rest of my day now and leave all this behind me.
Wanted to address a small sets of commenters from the first post though. I had several people hung up on that my Dad paid my termination fees and got me out of my lease. He did that of his own accord, to take a lot of the stress of the separation off me. I included that to show how I had a support system that was behind me, and willing to help in any way no questions asked. It really helped me through the healing process, and I got back on my feet pretty quickly after. I'm sorry if you don't have anyone there for you when you're at your lowest, but it doesn't make you better or manlier or whatever you were going for when you made those comments. Having to face any and every challenge on your own, is really just kind of a sad existence in my opinion. I hope that changes for you and you'll find someone to be in your corner someday.
Relevant Comments:
Commenter: She seems to be taking some accountability for her actions which is a surprise if she is sincere. They almost never take any responsibility for anything.
Go on and have a wonderful life.

OOP: Yep that's what I'm going to do.
I don't have much thought on the texts she sent me, I mean this whole thing is really nothing more than a weird few days in my otherwise routine life. But I will admit, it was nice to hear her take some accountability without making an excuse right after. That had never happened before.

Commenter: I honestly don't see why people were jumping on you for having someone in your corner to help you out, seems like a weird thing to get hung up on.

OOP: That's how I felt too, but there were a handful of people who were trying to imply that I was some sort of crybaby man child because my Dad took care of that for me.

Commenter: What accountability exactly do you think that she is taking here? She’s basically just playing defense to try to save her current relationship. It’s easy to be honest when there’s no other choice.

OOP: Her motivations are her own.
But to address your questions on accountability. When she first got caught having an affair, and we decided to work it out. She did everything "right." She came to every counseling appointment and fully participated, she read the books we got, she gave me every password, and so on. She would apologize profusely, but every time she would also give an excuse along with it. "I am so sorry I did this to us, I don't know what I was thinking, I was just so caught up in the validation" or the attention, or I was just so depressed and he was just there, and so on. She would put her self down, beg for forgiveness, and each time there was always just a little "asterisk" added on. A little reason/excuse/deflection as to why she did it. An outside factor that pushed her into it to some degree
When she did the second time, there wasn't much discussion because I ended things and left as soon as I got enough confession out of her. But when she was bombarding me with texts, emails, snaps, you name it trying to explain and beg, and ask for one more chance and all that, she apologized a 1000 times, all 1000 times had its little "asterisk.". I was just so drunk I wasn't thinking, I really thought he just wanted to keep hanging out, we didn't have sex (whether this was true or not I really don't care) and so on.
I'm going to assume you've never dealt with a betrayal like this, and I hope you never do, but when you are a person like me, who has been betrayed, even years later, to finally get an apology that has no excuses, no asterisks attached to it, it is incredibly refreshing. I truly thought it would never happen, thought she would never be capable.
Now, it doesn't mean much, our lives haven't crossed paths in 2.5 years, and may never again. I'm not going to be reaching out and I assume neither is she, but for that to actually happen, I'll take the win today.

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Prompt: Imagine a dystopian world where an oppressive government has successfully erased all forms of personal identity and history. In this society, individuals are assigned generic roles and are forbidden from expressing their unique thoughts, emotions, or experiences. Write a short story or reflective essay exploring the life of a character who discovers a hidden underground community that encourages self-expression and reignites the importance of personal narratives.
In your response, consider the following:

1. Character and World Building:
   • Describe the protagonist's background, their assigned role, and their initial perception of the oppressive world they inhabit.
   • Develop the hidden underground community, including its purpose, structure, and the means through which it safeguards personal stories.
   • Create a contrast between the protagonist's initial world and the underground community, highlighting the impact of personal narratives on shaping identity and resisting oppression.
2. Plot Analysis:
   • Outline the protagonist's journey of discovery, including their initial skepticism, the influential encounters they have within the underground community, and the personal sacrifices they make to preserve their identity.
   • Explore the challenges and conflicts faced by the protagonist, both externally (e.g., encounters with government authorities) and internally (e.g., the struggle to confront their identity).
3. Deep Introspection:
   • Prompt the protagonist to reflect deeply on the uncomfortable subjects that the government's erasure of personal narratives seeks to suppress. These could include topics such as individuality, memory, trauma, and the power of storytelling as a tool for empathy and resistance.
   • Encourage the protagonist to evolve their thoughts and perceptions throughout the narrative, considering the consequences of silence and the potential for personal growth through self-expression and sharing.
4. Requirements for Responses:
   • Conduct research to explore real-world examples of societies that suppress personal narratives or attempt to erase collective memory.
5. Prompt: In a post-apocalyptic world, a devastating pandemic has wiped out most of humanity. The survivors are forced to live in isolated communities, each with its own set of strict rules and customs. Write a short story or reflective essay exploring the life of a character who questions the existing order and embarks on a journey to unite these fragmented communities. Consider the role of unity, diversity, and collaboration in rebuilding a shattered world.
6. Prompt: Set in a future where advanced AI technology has permeated every aspect of society, write a story or reflective essay following a protagonist who begins to question the boundaries between human and machine. Delve into the ethical implications of human-AI relationships, the erosion of human emotions, and the potential consequences of blurring the line between artificial and genuine experiences.
7. Prompt: Imagine a world where climate change and environmental degradation have irreversibly altered the planet. Write a story or reflective essay from the perspective of a character who is part of a group striving to restore balance and heal the damaged Earth. Explore the connections between personal responsibility, collective action, and the intersections of social and environmental justice.
8. Prompt: Transport yourself to a society where strict social hierarchies are based on a person's genetic makeup. Write a short story or reflective essay following a character who challenges this system and advocates for equality and inclusivity. Examine the role of genetic determinism, discrimination, and the power of individual agency in reshaping social structures.
9. Prompt: Imagine a world where art and creativity are considered illegal, seen as tools of subversion and chaos. Write a story or reflective essay from the perspective of an artist who risks everything to defy this oppressive regime and reclaim the power of artistic expression. Analyze the significance of art as a form of resistance, its ability to inspire change, and its impact on personal and societal transformation.

Remember to consider the following for each of the prompts to insure a well rounded and thought out premise that will engage the audience and allow room for growth in the plot.
Prompt 1 - Post-Apocalyptic Community Building:

• Consider the unique customs, rules, and societal structures of each isolated community.
• Explore the protagonist's motivation for questioning the existing order and their vision for uniting the communities.
• Analyze the challenges and conflicts faced in the journey of uniting fragmented communities and the potential benefits and drawbacks of unity.

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• Reflect on the protagonist's personal experiences and interactions with AI, including the blurring of boundaries between human and machine.
• Explore the ethical dilemmas and consequences of advancing AI technology.
• Analyze the impact of human emotions, genuine experiences, and the potential loss or transformation of human qualities in a society heavily influenced by AI.

Prompt 3 - Environmental Restoration and Social Justice:

• Consider the protagonist's role in the restoration of the damaged Earth and their motivations for taking action.
• Explore the intersections of social justice and the environment, including the disproportionate impacts of climate change on marginalized communities.
• Analyze the challenges of collective action, personal responsibility, and the potential for transformative change in healing the planet and addressing social inequalities.

Prompt 4 - Genetic Hierarchy and Social Change:

• Reflect on the protagonist's experience within the rigid social hierarchy based on genetics.
• Analyze the implications of genetic determinism and discrimination in shaping social structures.
• Explore the role of individual agency, activism, and the potential strategies for challenging and reshaping the genetic-based hierarchy.

Prompt 5 - Artistic Expression as Resistance:

• Consider the protagonist's personal experiences as an artist within an oppressive regime.
• Reflect on the significance of artistic expression as a form of resistance and its power to inspire change and challenge societal norms.
• Analyze the risks, sacrifices, and potential outcomes associated with defying an oppressive regime through art.

1. Chick Lit: Write a chick lit novel or short story following a relatable protagonist navigating the challenges of love, career, and self-discovery. Explore themes of friendship, personal growth, and finding balance in a fast-paced, modern world.
2. Young Readers' Adventure: Imagine a group of young friends who stumble upon a hidden portal to another realm. Write an adventure novel or short story as they embark on a quest to save a magical world from darkness. Delve into themes of friendship, bravery, and the power of imagination.
3. Historical Fiction: Set in a time of significant historical events, write a novel or short story highlighting a lesser-known figure or group of people. Research the historical context meticulously and emphasize the character's resilience, struggles, and contributions during that tumultuous period.
4. Fantasy: Create a fantastical world filled with mythical creatures, magic, and ancient prophecies. Write a novel or short story following a young protagonist who discovers their extraordinary abilities and must navigate a treacherous journey to fulfill their destiny. Explore themes of self-discovery, heroism, and the blurred lines between good and evil.
5. Mystery/Thriller: Write a gripping mystery or thriller novel following a seasoned detective or amateur sleuth investigating a perplexing crime. Develop complex characters, suspenseful plot twists, and an intricate web of clues and red herrings that keep readers guessing until the very end.
6. Science Fiction: Set in a future where technological advancements have transformed society, write a novel or short story exploring the ethical and societal implications of groundbreaking inventions. Examine themes such as artificial intelligence, genetic engineering, or virtual reality and their impact on humanity's future.
7. Romance: Craft a heartwarming romance novel or short story centered around two individuals from different backgrounds or opposing sides. Explore themes of love, forgiveness, and the triumph of the human spirit in the face of adversity.
8. Coming-of-Age: Write a coming-of-age novel or short story following a young protagonist's journey of self-discovery, identity formation, and navigating the complexities of adolescence. Explore themes of friendship, personal growth, and the challenges of transitioning into adulthood.
9. Psychological Thriller: Create a psychological thriller novel or short story that delves into the intricacies of the human mind. Focus on a protagonist who becomes entangled in a web of deception, manipulation, and paranoia. Explore themes of trust, perception, and the blurred lines between reality and illusion.
10. Family Drama: Write a novel or short story exploring the dynamics and complexities within a multi-generational family. Include themes of love, secrets, and conflicts that arise as family members navigate their relationships, face past traumas, and strive for reconciliation.

Considerations for each prompt:

• Genre-specific elements: Ensure your story incorporates the defining characteristics and tropes of the chosen genre, such as the tone, pacing, and narrative conventions.
• Character development: Develop dynamic and relatable characters who undergo significant growth or transformation throughout the story.
• Plot structure: Create a compelling plot that introduces conflict, builds tension, and resolves in a satisfying manner, adhering to the common structure of the chosen genre.
• Themes and messages: Select themes that resonate with the genre and explore them through the characters' experiences and narrative development.
• Reader engagement: Craft a story that captivates the intended audience, keeping them invested in the characters and eager to uncover what happens next.

1. Historical Romance: Write a one-page historical romance set in a lavish ballroom during the Victorian era. Focus on the forbidden love between a spirited debutante and a mysterious gentleman from a different social class.
2. Science Fiction Comedy: Craft a one-page comedic story set in a futuristic space station. Follow the misadventures of a clumsy maintenance technician who unwittingly saves the day against all odds.
3. Paranormal Mystery: Pen a one-page mystery story set in a haunted mansion. Introduce a skeptical paranormal investigator who must solve the mystery of a ghostly apparition that has been terrorizing the inhabitants.
4. Literary Fiction: Write a one-page literary fiction piece centered around a character's contemplation of the fleeting nature of life and the importance of cherishing the present moment.
5. Action Adventure: Craft a one-page action-packed adventure story set in the jungles of an unexplored island. Follow a daring archaeologist's quest for a hidden treasure while battling against treacherous obstacles and rival adventurers.
6. Psychological Drama: Create a one-page psychological drama following the internal struggles of a troubled artist as they grapple with their inner demons and seek redemption.
7. Magical Realism: Write a one-page magical realism story set in a sleepy coastal town. Explore the extraordinary occurrences that happen when an enigmatic mermaid washes ashore and disrupts the mundane lives of the townsfolk.
8. Thriller: Craft a one-page thriller story involving a race against time. Follow a determined protagonist as they try to decipher cryptic clues and prevent a citywide disaster.
9. Fantasy Adventure: Pen a one-page fantasy adventure story set in a whimsical realm. Follow a young hero's quest to retrieve a stolen artifact and restore balance to the land, encountering fantastical creatures and overcoming obstacles along the way.
10. Historical Fiction Mystery: Write a one-page historical fiction mystery set during the Roaring Twenties. Follow a quick-witted detective as they unravel a web of deceit and intrigue surrounding a glamorous underground speakeasy in the heart of the city.

Considerations for each prompt:

• Engaging Beginning: Choose a compelling starting point that grabs the reader's attention and hooks them into the story from the very first sentence.
• Concise Plot: Craft a tightly woven plot that can be fully developed within one page, with an introduction, rising action, climax, and resolution.
• Strong Characterization: Develop distinct and memorable characters, even within the limited space, by providing key details that bring them to life and make them relatable to the reader.
• Descriptive Language: Use vivid and sensory language to paint a clear picture of the setting, engage the reader's imagination, and create an immersive reading experience.
• Resolution or Twist: Provide a satisfying resolution to the story or introduce an unexpected twist that leaves the reader intrigued and wanting more.

Protagonist Character Profile:

1. Name:
2. Age:
3. Gender:
4. Physical appearance:
5. Background:
6. Personality traits (list at least five):
7. Core values and beliefs:
8. Motivations and goals:
9. Biggest fear:
10. Internal conflicts:
11. External conflicts:
12. Strengths:
13. Weaknesses:
14. Childhood experiences and their impact:
15. Education and professional background:
16. Relationship status and dynamics:
17. Quirks or peculiar habits:
18. Psychological disorders, if any:
19. Familial relationships and dynamics:
20. Support system (friends, mentors, etc.):
21. Traumatic experiences and their effects:
22. Coping mechanisms:
23. Emotional vulnerabilities:
24. Resilience and determination:
25. Personal growth throughout the story:

Protagonist Character Questions:

1. What drives the protagonist to take action and pursue their goals?
2. How does the protagonist's childhood shape their behaviors and choices?
3. What values does the protagonist hold dear, and how do they influence their decision-making process?
4. What inner conflicts does the protagonist face, and how do they attempt to reconcile them?
5. How does the protagonist's education and professional background contribute to their strengths and weaknesses?
6. What traumatic experiences has the protagonist overcome, and how have these experiences shaped their worldview?
7. How does the protagonist cope with stress or adversity?
8. What relationships and dynamics are most significant to the protagonist, and how do these relationships evolve throughout the story?
9. In what ways does the protagonist exhibit resilience and determination in the face of challenges?
10. How does the protagonist approach personal growth and self-improvement?
11. What psychological disorders, if any, does the protagonist struggle with, and how do these disorders impact their thoughts and actions?
12. How does the protagonist's physical appearance contribute to their self-perception and interactions with others?
13. What unique quirks or habits does the protagonist possess that make them stand out?
14. What are the protagonist's primary desires and aspirations?
15. How does the protagonist's internalized fear drive or hinder their actions?
16. How does the protagonist navigate and resolve external conflicts?
17. What coping mechanisms does the protagonist rely on during times of stress or emotional turmoil?
18. How do familial relationships and dynamics influence the protagonist's actions and decisions?
19. What significant life choices or dilemmas does the protagonist face throughout the story, and how do they respond?
20. In what ways does the protagonist's support system impact their growth and resilience?
21. How does the protagonist's personal development and self-discovery contribute to the overall narrative arc?
22. How does the protagonist's background and experiences shape their perception of the world?
23. What are the protagonist's core beliefs and values, and how do these impact their interactions with others?
24. How does the protagonist handle setbacks or failures, and what lessons do they learn from these experiences?
25. What external influences or societal pressures affect the protagonist's decision-making process?

Antagonist Character Profile:

1. Name:
2. Age:
3. Gender:
4. Physical appearance:
5. Background:
6. Personality traits (list at least five):
7. Core values and beliefs:
8. Motivations and goals:
9. Biggest fear:
10. Internal conflicts:
11. External conflicts:
12. Strengths:
13. Weaknesses:
14. Childhood experiences and their impact $ Go on

1. Education and professional background: 16. Relationship status and dynamics: 17. Quirks or peculiar habits: 18. Psychological disorders, if any: 19. Familial relationships and dynamics: 20. Support system (friends, mentors, etc.): 21. Traumatic experiences and their effects: 22. Coping mechanisms: 23. Emotional vulnerabilities: 24. Strategies for achieving their goals: 25. Methods they employ to antagonize the protagonist:

Antagonist Character Questions:

1. What drives the antagonist to oppose the protagonist and act as an obstacle in their journey?
2. How does the antagonist's background and upbringing contribute to their negative behaviors and motivations?
3. What core values and beliefs does the antagonist hold that align with their antagonistic actions?
4. What personal goals or desires does the antagonist seek to fulfill?
5. What is the biggest fear or insecurity that drives the antagonist's actions?
6. How does the antagonist's internal conflicts manifest and impact their decisions?
7. What external conflicts arise as a result of the antagonist's actions, and how do they handle these conflicts?
8. In what ways does the antagonist exhibit strength and power, and how do these traits affect their interactions with others?
9. What are the antagonist's weaknesses or vulnerabilities that can be exploited by the protagonist?
10. How have childhood experiences shaped the antagonist's worldview and motivations?
11. How does the antagonist's education and professional background contribute to their methods and strategies?
12. What familial relationships or dynamics influence the antagonist's actions and choices?
13. What unique quirks or habits does the antagonist possess that make them distinct or memorable?
14. Are there any psychological disorders or conditions that contribute to the antagonist's behavior?
15. How does the antagonist cope with stress or emotional turmoil?
16. What strategies or tactics does the antagonist employ to achieve their goals and antagonize the protagonist?
17. How do the antagonist's actions impact their relationships and interactions with other characters in the story?

18.How does the antagonist perceive and justify their actions, even if they are considered morally or ethically wrong?

1. What external influences or societal pressures contribute to the antagonist's motivations or actions?
   
2. How does the antagonist's physical appearance contribute to their demeanor and portrayal in the story?
   
3. What significant life choices or dilemmas has the antagonist faced, and how have these shaped their character?
   
4. What is the antagonist's reaction to setbacks or failures, and how do they adapt their strategies?
   
5. How does the antagonist's support system or lack thereof impact their actions and decisions?
   
6. What past traumatic experiences or events have influenced the antagonist's worldview and behaviors?
   
7. How does the antagonist's emotional state or emotional vulnerabilities influence their actions and interactions with others?
   

This is a long one. I (f37) am thinking about not going to my great nieces first birthday.
My niece (19) and I have always been quite close. I have always been there for her growing up and was heavily involved since the day she was born. I actually watched her be born. I always held my nieces and nephews as babies, changed their nappies, bathed them, looked after them, took them places, bought them things etc. Now my niece has had a baby and it’s the total opposite of how things were when my niece was a baby. She never wants people to hold baby, do things for baby,look after her or do ANY of the things I did when she was little. Every time I tried to hold her or be involved in any way it was as if I was a stranger trying to hold her baby. I always felt like I was a nobody and my niece didn’t want me to acknowledge her daughter at all. I began to feel guilty for even looking at her. It all came to a head when I asked what kind of baby seat she used as I wanted to get one just incase me or my parents ever needed to have or pick up my great niece for any reason. I got shut down and was told that there was no point as she would never be in anyone else’s car so there was no need to buy a baby seat. I was over trying at that point. I had put so much energy and effort into trying to be the best great aunt I could be just as I had been the best aunt I could be for my niece but I was getting rejected left right and centre. I made a generic post on Facebook saying that I was giving up trying which she obviously knew was about this situation. She wouldn’t answer any of my texts or phone calls. I should mention that I suffer from depression and mental illness and was on the verge of a breakdown. I was at a very low point and decided I needed to get away. I spontaneously bought a ticket to Germany for the next day for four weeks. (My sister lives in Germany) I then get a text from my niece saying the following.
Hey (name removed) Look i’m not mad at you i’m just disappointed that something as simple as telling you not to buy a car seat for baby as it’s not necessary caused you to posted things on facebook and etc. It’s disappointing you haven’t respected husband and I’s boundaries, privacy and personal choice for us and our family. On my multiple occasions you haven’t taken no for an answer and I feel like i’m walking on egg shells quite frankly trying not to upset you. I feel as though I can’t say “no don’t buy a car seat” or no to a cuddle with baby without offending you. It’s really draining constantly feeling like husband and my decisions for our baby are not being respected or understood by you at family gatherings, which doesn’t bring joy and happiness into my life and my family. I understand you might mean well but at the end of the day it’s not your decision on anything to do with baby it’s up to husband and I and unfortunately if you can’t respect that then we aren’t going to want to see you, and want to catch up with you and ect. We are a private family and like to have our space we also do not have time for drama and etc in our lives. I’m sorry if this upsets you but husband and I only want the best for our baby and that includes the people around her. And it is so negative and upsetting to see that one of our family members have posted about us on her facebook and is not the type of energy we want in are daughters life. We are currently in the middle of moving house so I don’t have time for long conversations like this, and that’s why I haven’t answered you yet but when we have settled down in our new house and everything we can catch up and talk in person. Hope you understand where we are coming from and think and process what I have said Thank you. love you 🫶🫶
It was like a gut punch. I totally broke down after that. The time away was good but it was super awkward when I returned home. I didn’t want to engage at all. Over time things slowly improved and I felt like things were getting better. Then one day a weeks back we were having a family bbq and she had put baby on the ground while holding her hands. I put my arms out to pick her up and my niece held babies hands tighter and said something along the lines of why do you always have to pick her up when I put her down. I was taken aback and left the room for a while. I kept my distance the rest of the day and haven’t reached out since. I should also add that my sister and niece are very similar in the sense that if I don’t reach out to them (eg call or text) I NEVER hear from them. I am so drained and tired of trying and have become distant. I don’t want to socialise with them or talk. My great nieces first birthday is next week and I don’t want to go. I don’t t have the energy to pretend everything is ok. I don’t see the point in me being there. So would I be the asshole if I didn’t attend.

Hey all,
I'm in my early 30s and I've had a slew of different jobs post-graduating college after doing a career change from Marketing Operations > Web Development a few years after starting my career. I'm currently about 4 months into my current position as a Senior Front End developer, but the environment is awful and my mental health is taking a toll and I desperately want to leave. My hesitation is obviously around how future hiring managers are going to perceive my work history.
For the sake of keeping somewhat anonymous, I'll keep the company/job names relatively generic when going through my job history:

• Company A - Fortune 500
  • Junior Marketing Operations Analyst - December 2015 - December 2016
  • Senior Marketing Operations Analyst - January 2017 - October 2018
  • Front End Web Developer - October 2018 - September 2019 - This role was within a different department and was kind of a mix of my previous job but with a heavier emphasis on Web Dev which allowed me to get my foot in the door with actual web development. I quickly discovered that it was kind of a dead-end position after I realized I was still working within our marketing team and not alongside other Front End Developers/Engineers
• Company B - Series B Startup
  • Front End Engineer - September 2019 - February 2021 - Joined a smaller startup and was working alongside 2 other engineers on our company's website. Enjoyed working here but ultimately decided to leave as my other 2 coworkers left the company during COVID and a hiring freeze meant that I didn't have anyone to mentor me which I desperately wanted. I obtained a ton of experience which gave me the confidence to apply for senior positions
• Company A - Same company as my original jobs
  • Senior Front End Developer - February 2021 - October 2021 - My former team at Company A ended up getting re-organized into the Product and Engineering department instead of Marketing Operations and a position opened up which an old teammate referred me for and I ended up returning for a short stint. Ironically, this teammate ended up leaving to start a new team at a separate company and ended up poaching me (selfishly on my part) for an almost 50% pay bump)
• Company C - Mid-Stage Startup
  • Front End Engineer II - November 2021 - March - 2023 - Awesome team and awesome work, but the company was massively affected by COVID and went through several rounds of layoffs during my time there. I fortunately wasn't impacted by any of them, but my mental health was taking a toll as it was almost like clockwork that a layoff would happen every quarter and I needed to find something with more stability.
• Company D - Late-Stage Startup
  • Senior Front End Engineer - April 2023 - March 2024- Took a big pay cut here from Company C to get something that was more stable and that wouldn't leave me wondering whether I was going to have a job every 90 days. While this company was great to work for, I felt like the role and team itself had severe title inflation and the experience of the team skewed very junior. Despite having other "Senior" members, their skillsets themselves were severely lacking when compared to prior teams I worked on and lots of core competencies were missing and weren't willing to be learned. I knew working here long term would detrimentally affect how my skillset progressed and ended up leaving. While I had a great rapport with my boss and he ultimately liked me a lot, I definitely could tell me leaving so quickly left a bad taste in his mouth as he went to bat to hire me despite my Executive Director being apprehensive due to my prior history of job hopping.
• Company E - Mid-Stage Startup
  • Senior Front End Engineer - March 2024 - Current - I had an old coworker refer me to this role and despite the caliber of other engineers and pay being significantly better than my previous team, the company culture here is an absolute nightmare and I'm now severely regretting leaving my previous team. Leadership here is quick to backstab and throw people under the bus for even the most minor of mistakes, the average tenure for employees is probably 7ish months, and despite only having been here for 2 months, I'm already getting told (read forced) to lead massive customer facing projects despite still barely knowing our codebase. From a senior eng perspective, I understand the expectation to jump into building features quickly, but some of the stuff I've been expected to lead while barely having been a month into my tenure is completely unrealistic and I've already had leadership berate me on calls for how long it's taking me to get up to speed and get features out the door.

Obviously, I understand this environment is incredibly unhealthy and not something I foresee changing, but I also naturally have some reservations about how people will perceive my job hopping. I've always gotten excellent reviews in all of my positions so I can definitely "walk the walk", but I know people have biases when they see history like mine. Any feedback on how you'd approach my situation you'd view this history would be helpful

Starting with WirePlumber 0.5, the configuration system has changed and there is no automatic migration or import of the old Lua scripts into the new system. See:
https://pipewire.pages.freedesktop.org/wireplumbedaemon/configuration/migration.html#config-migration
You may have customized your audio Lua scripts to fix, for example, the subwoofer and center speakers being swapped in their output. This causes the output of the center speaker to be garbled. This is a common problem with Linux and audio cards, such as for USB-attached Dolby 7.1 surround sound cards.
To see whether you have version 0.5 or later of WirePlumber:

wireplumber --version 

On my computer, the following steps are how I fixed the problem of my center speaker and subwoofer outputs being swapped after applying the latest updates on my Trixie machine today.
Get the exact node.description property string of your sound card:

pw-cli list-objects Node 

Make a backup copy of the relevant conf file:

cd /usshare/wireplumbewireplumber.conf.d/ sudo cp alsa-vm.conf alsa-vm.conf.BACKUP 

Edit the alsa-vm.conf file and add another matches section, similar to this:

{ matches = [ { node.description = "CM106 Like Sound Device Analog Surround 7.1" } ] actions = { update-props = { audio.position = ["FL","FR","RL","RR","LFE","FC","SL","SR"] } } } 

The description of your sound card is not likely to be the same as mine ("CM106..."), so replace that string with your own. Note that using a wildcard ("CM106*") used to work in the past, but, at least on my computer, the wildcard method did not work and the exact description had to be used instead.
Hence, your entire alsa-vm.conf file might look like this now, but with your own sound card description substituted in for mine:

# ALSA node property overrides for virtual machine hardware monitor.alsa.rules = [ # Generic PCI cards on any VM type { matches = [ { node.name = "~alsa_input.pci.*" cpu.vm.name = "~.*" } { node.name = "~alsa_output.pci.*" cpu.vm.name = "~.*" } ] actions = { update-props = { api.alsa.period-size = 1024 api.alsa.headroom = 2048 } } } { matches = [ { node.description = "CM106 Like Sound Device Analog Surround 7.1" } ] actions = { update-props = { audio.position = ["FL","FR","RL","RR","LFE","FC","SL","SR"] } } } ] 

Restart the WirePlumber service:

systemctl --user restart wireplumber.service 

Test your audio output to confirm that the center speaker and subwoofer speaker are being used correctly; for example, in Gnome Settings, go to Audio and click the Test button. If they are still swapped, edit the above alsa-vm.conf file again. Experiment with the relative order of "LFE" and "FC" in the audio.position property. These represent your low-frequency subwoofer and center speaker. If your front left/right, side left/right and rear left/right speaker outputs are incorrect too, then experiment with changing all of their relative orderings.
After saving your edits, restart the WirePlumber service and test again.
I hope the above is helpful. It took me a non-trivial amount of time to figure this out...

Okay hear me out, I know that Metal Gear Acid 1 & Metal Gear Acid 2 were not consider part of the Metal Gear Solid Series in general, in terms of Cannoncity. So if I am not allowed to post it here, I appologize.
I liked Metal Gear Acid 2 purely because of the Gameplay mechanic card system, it was the most refined one compared to ACID 1.
But now I seem to recall there was another Metal Gear (Solid) card game. I do recall it was not part of the Acid series and was more of an App? It also had the more generic Metal Gear (Solid) name, without any adjectives...I think? Though I might rememeber this incorrectly.
If the game is still playable, that would be nice, but I also seem to recall that game is no longer playable and it was only Japanesse I believe? That is all I can really remember.

As someone who hasn't played since season 1, they've done a lot to get this game in a better state. I just hit 100 and had a much more enjoyable time getting there than what I played in S1. Trimmed a lot of fat, lots of QoL stuff (inventory, codex, gem/crafting mats, teleporting to nightmare dungeons, glyph xp, etc), mob density, variety of activities, all that stuff.
I still think the itemization is, at it's core, bad.
Finding, and specifically identifying that you've found, a good item is tedious and honestly kind of tiring. The number one issue with items in this game is that you can't immediately tell that they're good when they drop. While they've done a lot of good getting rid of useless affixes, you're still just swimming in a sea of generically named unidentified items. By the time you've established that an item is good any excitement that would be there is gone. Here's the process of finding a good weapon in Diablo 4, from a Necro's perspective:
-Find a bunch of items across a few Nightmare dungeons, some of them were 2h Swords/Scythes
-Look through the items one by one, finding the swords/scythes. Look at them all individually, checking all three affixes to see if you got a good roll
-None of them have the three affixes you need, but two of them have 2/3. Discard the ones that didn't get 2/3.
-Enchant the two that got 2/3, try to get the right one. One bricks, discard. The other got what you needed.
-Temper the good one. At this point it either bricks, or you get a usable item. If it bricked, get back out there. If it's usable, equip it and probably see a marginal gain across the board. Now get to masterworking.
Compare this to Diablo 2, from a Sorc's perspective:
-Hell yeah, 4OS Crystal Sword, gonna make a Spirit
OR
-Oh shit, a Unique Swirling Crystal!!
OR
-Holy fuck, a Unique Dimensional Shard
Obviously the drop rate in the D2 example is at odds with modern gaming sensibilities, but there's so many steps involved with even establishing viability of a drop in D4 that it makes everything feel immediately bland. Add to this the slow and steady power creep of your character (largely offset by the power creep of the content you're progressing through) and it leaves very little excitement in a playthrough.
Leaning more into Uniques and Sets/Runewords (which need to be added) would go a long way to solving this problem. As well as having the base of the item being meaningful (not just "2H Sword"). I would love to be looking for a handful of specific uniques as opposed to just sifting through every generically named 2H weapon that drops trying to find a fit.
I like tempering a lot, but I do think that Masterworking just feels like padding for people that really want to min/max.
I'd also say that personal loot is lame for a game like this. Completely at odds with the mmo-lite world they're trying to build. Non-personal loot with better itemizaiton, and a solid trading system would be great. As it stands, once you hit 100 there's very little reason for most to continue playing.

It just will be. Stop trying to make it a thing, it's not catching on good at all. It's the most generic name ever in existence.

You gotta wonder if the generics are really as good as the brand names.
Years ago I took Cialis, worked incredibly well, also got the stuffy nose side effect.
Since then, I’ve tried generic tadalafil, max dose, not only does it not work as well or as reliably, zero side effects.
Also have used Staxyn (oral dissolving vardenafil), incredible erections within 15 minutes, even without stimulation. Similar stuffy nose side effect.
Now I’ve tried the generic version, same dose, not nearly as good, no side effects either.
Generics missing something the brand names have?