Disclaimer: sample of one, a correlation is not a causation.
I dont have it bad like some but I have it mild or moderate all of the time. Acyclovir is not all that effective for me but it is very very cheap, especially the 400mg tabs. I got to thinking that we know the body clears that drug out quite quickly. But what if some of us clear it out quicker then others? What if you take it every eight hours but the body clears it after 4, leaving the virus to multiply uninterrupted for the next four?
As a test I cut my 400mg pills in half (not the coated ones) and took them every four hours instead. I even woke up in the night to take one. The reaction was dramatic.
I have hsv2 around my eyes. While it is super mild in itself, my body creates an allergic reaction to the presence of the viral antigen so I'm hyper aware of my viral load at any given moment. Like bad hayfever.
This is by far the best it has been in months. We all know the virus always comes and goes so it may just be a coincidence. But I'm going to keep doing it because it makes logical sense and seems to work really well for now.

I like crossovers, I like the idea of characters and powers colliding and having fun interactions.
But, in order for that to happen, you need to get the characters together. How do you do that?
I personally prefer the "world's collide" premise where universe crossing is a thing, because it prevents the characters' backstories and original shows from being messed with. BUT, there is an issue with this, which mainly comes from series with higher cosmologies, like DC and Marvel.
I was just doing a bit of wiki diving to get a sense to the Marvel and DC cosmologies. Both have their own pages on the Omniverse but before we get to that lets just look at the cosmologies
In Marvel, from what I have looked up (and this could be wrong/out of date so please correct me if I am) all the Universes (which should include all of the universes in the comics not just 616, all the movies, video games, and TV shows) all exist within the Superflow, and above that is the Neutral Zone, all of this is still within the Multiverse. Beyond that is the Far Shore and beyond that is the Outside/Mystery which contains the Overspace, the Beyond, the White Hot Room, the Land of Couldn't-Be-Shouldn't-Be, and the House of Ideas (where the One Above All is)
In DC, what I got was that all the Universes (again, every universe from the comics, TV shows, video games, and movies) are in the Orrery of Worlds surrounded by the Bleed, all contained in the Speed Force Wall, beyond which is the Sphere of the Gods (containing New Genesis, Apokolips, Heaven and Hell, Skyland and the Underworld, and Dream and Nightmare), Beyond which is Limbo, beyond that is the Monitor Sphere, and beyond that is the Source Wall (which got broken a little bit ago) beyond which is the Overvoid. Although I may be wrong on all universes being in the Orrery because I recall a few statements of there being a specific number of universes there (like 52) but then I wonder "What about the Snyderverse, Arrowverse, or the Animated Timmverse, or even the Arkhamverse? Where would they fit in?"
The point of all this is that these complex universes make me wonder if they are being considered when crossover happen, as we have had a few DC/Marvel crossovers, but what about the specific layers of reality.
In one of the DC/Marvel crossovers, Flash was able to head over to the Marvel-verse via vibrating to that dimension, using the whole "The universes occupy the same physical space just vibrating a different frequencies" explanation, but what does that mean for the greater multiverse? Where does Marvel's Earth exist in comparison to the DC Earth? Is one of them in the Marvel Superrflow or in the Orrery of Worlds?
Going outside of DC and Marvel, they have crossed over with a lot of stuff too, and those multiverses have crossed over with their own things as well. C has crossed over wth Mortal Kombat in MK vs DC, they recently had a RWBY crossover, Invincible swung over there and met Batman (he also met Agent Spider-Man), Batman encountered Spawn once, and then you got Teen Titans Go having that Crossover Nexus with Steven Universe, Ok KO, and the Ben 10 Reboot (there being a big Cartoon Network Multiverse) and Ben 10 has gone over to Generator Rex and there was one possibility that the Ben 10 universe could've interacted wth the Malgus universal cluster from the Transformers multiverse, and Transformers has crossed over with Marvel, and recently I learned that Marvel has crossed over with Doctor Who.
Now not EVERY crossover is canonical, they could be non-canon, or it could just be a cheeky reference, or the crossed over characters are just "That universe's/canon's version of those characters". That is just looking at crossovers that have been officially made by the official companies.
When looking at fanmade crossovers where characters are meeting, there becomes the issue of trying to fit in this cosmology. This doesn't just apply to DC/Marvel but any setting with higher cosmic laws.
If you are going to have the franchise you want to crossover take place on the same planet, you would now need to explain what the other characters were doing during the events of their series, especially if one of the shows' events have worldwide reach and aren't contained. Like if Ben 10 took place in the DC Universe, there would be SO many people who'd be getting involved with his stuff from the Omnitrix, to Vilgax, to the Highbreed stuff, etc.
If you are going to have them in the same multiverse, and this could even happen on the same planet, what about all these higher layers of reality that are the source of a lot of the crazy powers in comics? If you take another franchise for a crossover and imply that they are part of the grander DC/Marvel multiverse, then why haven't they ever had an encounter with stuff like the Speed Force, or the Lantern Corps, or anything special about DC's Cosmology, or in Marvel you got the X-Gene or the Phoenix Force. Now to be fair, it isn't like EVERY DC and Marvel story has those in them either, or at the very least not to the extent that we see them go in the comics. So having a crossover story be in the DC/Marvel Superflow/Orrery but not having any of the special stuff from those cosmologies MIGHT be okay but it gets weird if that series ALSO has its own higher dimensional layers.
And if you want to ignore all of that, say that the series you want to crossover is NOT a part of Marvel or DC in ANY way. How would they end up crossing over, because you now need to get through the massive layers of reality separating their multiverses from the outside (being the Outside/Mystery or the Overvoid)?
Sorry if you are annoyed by the Marvel/DC talk, they are just the easiest examples of "Super bullshit complex cosmology with lots of layers.
I just want to know if anyone else has thought about these kinds of things when making crossovers. I feel like the easy answer is just "Have them crossover and ignore all the higher dimensional BS", but I feel like that would just be ignoring a big part of the settings and leaves out a whole lot of fun stuff to talk about.
Again, I might've gotten some cosmology stuff wrong so please correct me if I did.

Hello everyone, just got into rendering Tallow a couple months ago. I have a question, I just rendered 7 lbs of it and the leftovers this time are very fatty, very little meat, mostly gristle. So it has very little flavor and is salty. So I can't make dog treats or food out of it. Any ideas on how I can use it?

This collaboration project between CommonPresent Games, Five Frights, 3D FredWare Studios, and an anonymous music producer have all collaborated to make the ultimate conclusion to the Five Nights at Bingo's games.
Explore the abandoned Bar & Grill that was said to be nothing but an urban legend... 55 years after it's closing.
Your name is Cory. You go to explore the ruins, inviting your friends Clyde and Jack to come along with you.
A large sinkhole has formed underneath the building in the show stage, leaving the place in ruins and mostly caving in, especially in the middle of it.
INTRODUCTION CINEMATIC
You arrive there at 11:30 PM, and you text Clyde and Jack to come. They say that they will be there by 12:00 AM. You then walk in, and you explore the place, and then you enter the security office at 11:59 AM. You then get a text from Clyde saying that he is almost there, and that he gave Jack a ride, as well.
NIGHT 1 - It is now officially 12:00 AM. The building has entered it's lockdown state, not letting anyone or anything get in.. or out. You run to look at your phone, and then you very quickly connect it to the barely functioning security cameras in the building, and once you go onto the Show Stage camera, you will see Moltenstein emerge from the old sinkhole, who is a melted together fusion of the extremely rotted Bingo and Blossom animatronics.
DIALOGUE: What even was that thing?! I have to get out of here! This bulletin board right here says that lockdowns can take 14-21 days to end?! 14-21 DAYS?! It's okay.. I can do this. I brought my portable wireless charger for my phone. I just need to get that.. thing... away from me.
Moltenstein will sometimes appear at one of your doorways. You have a left doorway, a right doorway, and an opened ceiling vent. Turn off your phone's flashlight if you see it, in order to get it not to kill you, and activate a nearby camera's flashlight in order to attract it towards that camera's location.
There are only 6 functioning cameras. They are all the Show Stage, New Lobby, Left Hall Entrance, Right Hall Corner, and the Dining Area.
The Show Stage is where Moltenstein will emerge from. It will then make it's way towards the New Lobby, Left Hall Entrance, or the Dining Area.
The Dining Area's camera is broken, forcing it to face the right side hallway, where there is a vent entrance nearby.
All of the cameras have an internal flashlight that was applied during the investigation of the premises right before it's closing. These internal flashlights all work surprisingly well on the still functional cameras, and they are good for attracting light sensitive animatronics nearby. Moltenstein is very, very sensitive to bright lights.
Your phone's flashlight will always be on by default. Hold down CTRL in order to shut off your phone's flashlight, making it incredibly hard to see, but stopling Moltenstein from killing you, and sometimes even making it leave.
Your phone will lose 1% battery power every 2 seconds (you instead will lose 1% of your phone's battery power every 5 seconds whenever your flashlight is turned off..). Using a camera's internal flashlight will make it lose an extra 3% of it's battery power.. immediately. You can recharge it to get an extra 35% but this takes roughly 5 seconds to do......
NIGHT 2 - Ugh.. I need to get out of here! I am starting to see things. I can't do this anymore, come on!! Why me??? It's whatever.. Clyde and Jack called me this morning, and they said that they were worried. I told them about my situation, and they said that they have notified the authorities, but they didn't believe them. Those people really think that this place is fake. How funny of them...
Memory Citrus and Memory Lizzy can now be seen. These are just hallucinations, however. If you ever see the original Citrus flying through the Dining Area, put down your phone quickly, or Memory Citrus will jumpscare you, causing for you to throw your phone onto the ground in panic, attracting Moltenstein towards the light, giving him a 20% chance to kill you after somewhere in betweenn 7.26310-8.54790 secondssss.
If you ever see the original Lizzy standing in the middle of the lobby, put your phone down quickly, otherwise Memory Lizzy will appear floating in front of both of your doorways, and all of your cameras, making you unable to see them, all while you lose 1% of your power every 0.552 seconds. This effects lasts.. just about..... 10 seconds. And yes, this does cause your phone's flashlight to glitch out as well, luring Moltenstein to your location.
NIGHT 3 - This has to be the last night.. Surely the police have realized that I have very suddenly gone missing... Right? Please, just let this end. No more!
Memory Buttercup can now sometimes appear in one of your doorways. Shine your phone's flashlight at her in order to make her go away, or else, she will jumpscare you very suddenly, causing for you to have a heart attack.. and... well, die.
Memory Caesar and Memory Chuck seek to both be always found together now, and they can now sometimes appear in one of your doorways. Pull out your phone and look at it in order to deter them away from the security office that you are hiding inside of.
NIGHT 4 - Hey, hey! It's me, Jack! I just wanted to tell you that Clyde called the police... yet again.. and now they are starting to take us WAY more seriously! They said that they are attempting to locate your phone.. But it needs to stay charged up to at least 50% from now (12 AM) up until 6 AM, or we will not able to locate you, AND YOU WILL DIE. You gave us the wrong directions for what reason, anyway, you idiot?!
If your phone's battery drops down below 50%, you will be immediately just.. killed by Moltenstein.
NIGHT 5 - Hey, hey! It's me, Jack! We got your location! The police are headed there, now... Let's go, man! You're gonna make it home, by tonight!!! But.. You need to stop yourself from using the camera's built-in internal flashlights. Apparently, the cameras share a union power generator system, hence why they still work, and they only have about.. 8 charges left. It is pretty crazy, actually, right??? So just.. be careful, dude. Bye, now!!!,,,
If you use the camera flashlights 8 times, they will be disabled, and Moltenstein will be immediately teleported to your door, and he will kill you after approximately 2.5-3.5 seconds.
NIGHT 6 - Listen, man. I'm sorry, okay? But you entering that establishment has awakened and set free the mess in there, and I cannot afford to be chased down by that thing... You see, my grandpa was at that place for a re-evaluation of it's safety.. for... an incident. And that was not even his first time there! I'm sorry.. But you will not be making it out of there alive. I have released an overwhelming amount of a special secret gas recipe into the building, causing your hallucations to feel the most real possible, meaning that they have a 50-50 chance of giving you a heart attack and.. well, kill you. I also adjusted the union power usage to only allow for 6 camera flashes, and.. now, you must also always keep your phone charged. You can NOT recharge it. Have fun, Cory.
(This night ends at 4 AM, as the police and Clyde will break into the building and save you at that time.. exactly.)
ALL ENDINGS
Good Ending - During Nights 1-5, keep your phone's battery above 30%, and do not ever use any more then 6 camera flashes in each night. This will give you access to the Old Lobby, where you will find Buttercup, Citrus, Lizzy, Caesar, Chuck, and an unused Endoskeleton during the Night 6 Escape Scene. You will then get the option to scrap or take with you each and every single one of them as you walk up to them, letting them rest now as nothing but legends if you scrap them all.
Bad Ending - Follow Jack's instructions, and leave with Clyde and the police on Night 6 without making any discoveries.
Happy Ending (Canon) - During Nights 1-5, keep your phone's battery above 30%, and do not ever use any more then 6 camera flashes in each night. This will give you access to the Old Lobby, where you will find Buttercup, Citrus, Lizzy, Caesar, Chuck, and an unused Endoskeleton during the Night 6 Escape Scene. You will then get the option to scrap or take with you each and every single one of them as you walk up to them, but if you take them all with you, you will then see the location rebuilt with the recovered and repaired Bingo, Blossom, Citrus, Buttercup, Lizzy, Caesar, Chuck, and the brand new Tropico The Toucan animatronics. Tropico The Toucan is an amazing newly built counterpart friend for the now happy Citrus The Toucan animatronic character.
We will be collaboratng on FNaB 6, just as we did with this game, to introduce

Dear Miss,
Guess what, when you said that you fully trusted me in the prelims, I felt such relief and said to myself that I'm going to prove that your trust is never going to be in vain. So, I actively responded to every question you asked because it was the first time someone had told me that I was trustworthy. Then, the midterm examination came. I was sitting where I could see outside during the exam, and I saw two ***** officers that I knew because I had talked to them and we were in the Cheer Dance group for ******************. They were taking videos, and here's the best part: when I saw them, I waved to them and made a gesture that I was looking at both sides of my classmates. I did that because I thought they were just taking a video for fun, so I acted a little funny because the camera was looking straight at me.
I guess I was really a fool for doing that. I just wanted to do something funny, and for your information, the test paper had just been distributed at that time, so the only things written on my paper were my name and answers to questions 1-4 if I remember correctly. I didn't think the video taken by the **** officer was going to be sent to you. Every part of the essay was answered wholeheartedly because I wanted to prove to you that I had improved. When the midterm started, I felt that you were disappointed in us when we didn't even reach 75 in our prelims test. I reviewed the pop culture the night before I slept, so I was prepared for the exam. Even though I didn't reach the 75 score, I told myself that I still did my best.
When I saw the test results in ELMS and saw a 0, I didn’t ask any questions because I thought you just hadn’t recorded it, so I stayed calm. When you distributed the midterm examination results, I celebrated silently because I got a 61. But when I checked my One STI to look for my grades for midterm, I saw my grade in pop culture and was shocked—it was 79.5. I said to myself, "What happened? I answered and passed all of my activities and quizzes during class, and my total chips are second to the highest. My test results are not that average."
Then I realized what really happened. It was like puzzle pieces coming together when I concluded a good reason for my grade being like this: I was accused of cheating on the test, so I didn’t have a record of it in ELMS. Because of the small gesture I made during the exam, my grade and your trust in me were shattered. I feel discouraged by it, I guess..

So I have never taken care of a cat before but this year I got a new roommate and he brought his cat and for the past 2 days she has been meowing endlessly and he isn't here (in typical guy fashion he got a new gf and has basically lived at hers since and showed up here for like an hour every 3-4 days to make sure the cat has her food machine thing filled and I can't get in contact with him) and its incessant to the point that I think I have slept maybe 4 hours in the past two days and I can't figure out what's wrong.
She seems healthy. She isn't throwing up or anything. I have tried everything I can think of. I tried cuddling with her, playing with her favorite tennis ball, getting her some canned cat food and feeding her (she wouldn't eat unless I literally hand-fed her), and I have checked every corner of the apartment (except my roommate's room) to see if there is something that could be distressing her. I have no idea what's wrong. I can't find anything useful on the internet.
Does anyone have any idea what's wrong or what I could do to soothe her? I have no idea what to do and she seems really unhappy and it's breaking my heart and I am also struggling with this (I nearly raised my voice with her this morning which I feel really ashamed of) and I just need some help, please.

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I (21M) have recently got back in contact with a girl (20F) I was really close with at one point in my life. It ended pretty badly, about 2.5 years ago, after 3 years of on and off type stuff, but about a week ago her name popped up and I figured it had been long enough that we could catch up and it not be weird or there be any emotional stuff.
We got to talking and after a few days, it got a bit flirty. Nothing crazy, but it was comfortable so, you know, why not? She was giving me the same energy back. I don’t really trust this girl after the way she hurt me in the past so I made it VERY clear early on that it was just flirty chatting, nothing more, and she was fine with that.
Aside from the flirting we spoke about a lot of things…her ex, my ex, our relationships that hadn’t worked out, why she was still working the same dead end job she had been since 16 even though she had qualifications in engineering, lots of things about her life both past and most definitely currently.
Fast forward to last night and we’re talking some more and I realised she kept disappearing. When I’d ask ‘what’ve you done today?’ she’d say ‘I’ve been out’, which is kind of out of character for her. Like I said we were super close to the point where I can read her like a book, and every time we’ve spoke since getting back into contact there’s been no evasiveness until I’d ask about her day.
I’m no idiot, and I know her well enough to know she was hiding something from me so I asked her straight up ‘what aren’t you telling me’ and she told me that she’s seeing someone. I asked ‘is he your boyfriend?’ She replied ‘kind of’.
I was more concerned with getting a straight yes or no, because if this guy is her boyfriend and not a situationship or something I’ve been unintentionally homewrecking for the past 3 weeks. She told me they broke up but she’s been seeing him again a lot recently but doesn’t know how she feels about it because me and her started talking again.
She told me he’s really controlling and it was nice for her to feel free again for a bit. I used to be a support worker for victims of abuse so I understand why people go back, but that’s even if it’s true and she’s not exaggerating as a form of damage control, I really don’t know.
I’ve tried to advise her and help her, in amongst the flirting we’ve had some really serious conversations about her life stagnating. She’s never looked for another job even though she’s hated hers for years (since 16), refuses to go to the gym because she’s scared of people, won’t eat more than 1 meal a day even though she knows she’s getting to a dangerous level and keeps going back to this abusive guy cos she’s scared of being alone, and the only thing that might change one of those things is her latching on to me rather than Mr control freak, which she admitted herself.
I feel slightly guilty for getting annoyed about it but it’s so frustrating trying day-in day-out to help someone who says they want your help but refuse to take even the smallest step. I feel a bit hopeless, and I don’t want to cut her off again but if it keeps draining me like this I don’t want to sacrifice my own happiness to help someone unwilling to accept the help she’s asking for.
She’s got no healthy coping mechanisms at all and every day I’m trying to at least start getting used to the idea, asking if she’s eaten or just chip away at that social anxiety so she starts working out and meeting new people, but I also don’t want her to attach herself to me because I don’t feel that way about her at all, emotionally anyway, something I’ve communicated to her multiple times in the past few weeks, and knowing I’ve technically helped her cheat even though the guys an asshole doesn’t make me feel good at all.
I care about her a lot, and I just see the potential she has, I know healing is a process, but it seems like the only time she’s willing to do anything is if I tell her to do it, all she says when I ask her what she’s been doing for 3 years I’ve not been around is ‘just nothing haha’ or ‘I don’t know’.
She won’t talk to her friends cos she’s the ‘happy friend’…but she’s never even tried talking to them, she’s just bottled it all up and then as soon as I’ve appeared again she’s dumped everything on me and it’s a little bit draining, on top of the dragging me into her messy relationship by not telling me about the other guy straight away.
Yeah, pretty crazy, and idk if that all even makes sense I’m sure you can grasp how messy it is from how all over the place that story is. There’s so much more to it but yeah, just needed to get it off my chest.

I (26 F) met my boyfriend (33M) on reddit a year ago. He's from West Africa and I'm from South Asia. He reached out to me regarding some comment I made on another sub. We got talking and started liking each other. He asked me to be his and I said yes.
Things were smooth for a while. But with each passing month, he'd talk less. Now, it's almost me who initiates the conversation 90 percent of the time. I communicated the same to him but he keeps saying he's unwell or he's dealing with hectic work schedule. I am tired of all this. I feel constantly sad and anxious. We did have fights about this, we tried to go no contact but we'd get back together everytime because he'd say he missed me and I'd give in. I thought these are compatibility and communication issues and gave all my efforts to fix these.
I am dealing with a lot in my life already. This just keeps making me upset. I make efforts to facetime or voicecall but he mostly declines citing some reason. He said he'd try and change but I don't see it. If I try to have a conversation about this, he says"For the 100th time, I don't function like this".
He says he has strong feelings for me but his actions speak otherwise. He ghosts me for 2 days and comes back messaging as if nothing happened. Any efforts towards confrontation will result into fights and I'm so exhausted, I'd rather not have any argument.
The last time I wanted to leave him, I almost had a panic attack and ended up going back to him. I don't want to lose him but there's this constant fear of "What if he's not interested in me anymore?" Or "What if he's actively pursuing someone irl?". I don't know if these are my irrational fears or I'm getting played. I feel like I am the only person holding this bond together. Do I let him go? Or do I give this a little more time? I'm so confused and sad. This is my first LDR.

Recently Refinanced with Sofi from Discover.
My situation is a little different from most. I am a DACA student, essentially no legal status, just legal presence. So for my original student loans I had to get a Cosigner. Every year of college cost me different due to the Nursing Program I would be going into and also dorming my last year. All in all every year of college I had to apply for a different loan which led to each loan having different amounts and interest rates. My interest rates at the time were anywhere from 6%-11%, I'm guessing cause of my poor credit history.
When I went to SoFi to preview the interest rate, my credit score at the time was roughly over 800 so they offered me a roughly 5% interest rate. I called and just clarified some questions I had such as pay off early fees or distribution question. So in the end, they would essentially lower my interest rate and lower my monthly payment. Also I would be relieving my Cosigner of any duties so it was a no brainer. I have since filled out and signed all the documents and just waiting on the funding to go through.
I will keep you guys updated after 6 months but so far everything has been great, customer service, ease of use, and their user interface while initially seeming like a lot, is very thorough with all your finances. They connect all your other bank accounts, credit cards, and loans so they're all viewable at the same place, all if you choose to connect them.

Hey, love the ideal of just throwing it all out there as a new member. Tabletop gamer here. My family was introduced to boardgames beyond what I knew as a child about 15 years ago by my brother-in-law, and that has really been the pool of players I've had to choose from. I try to get gamenight going around my hometown of Lebanon, and it fails miserably....no proper time commitments, people not having patience to learn new games and when someone is interested, really not a commitment to sitting aside time for it. I'm in Lebanon, KY, about 90 mins away from Louisville. MY daughter went to UL and now lives in Louisville, so I would not mind driving up. I have @ 150 board games at this point, ranging from Catan, Ticket to Ride, Pandemic, to Scythe and Twighlight Imperium. Twighlight Imperium is really what has caused me to seek out other groups. I'm starting a game in Lebanon that the group of players will meet about once every 2-3 months for a gameday lasting all of Saturday. We are all beginners here, but would welcome any other more experienced players trying to get a game of TI4 in. That being said, I've got the bug for this now, and am interested in joining any other TI4 groups and wouldn't mind driving up to play. At the same time, I'm interested in coming up for all sorts of games if there is an interest on my end. Thanks for allowing me in this space, and hope to hear from and maybe meet members of the group soon.

I trust her verry much! but sometimes she makes me question.
First of all you need to know some backstories, I'll try to keep this short.
1st Her past trauma So she had a toxic ex(18m not sure) she met him in 11th, He didn't treat her well and used to touch her inappropriately even when she said this makes her uncomfortable etc... But One day she was home alone and She told her that she is feeling bored and That guy suggested to watch movie together at her home! firtsly she didn't knew that He knew her address, She refused but after sometime that guy called her and Said he is standing out side her home! She didn't wanted but he instead and she end up letting him in. Than after some time that guy forced her and started tooking off her clothes and SA'd her She was scared and froze and couldn't able to do any thing to stop what happening and after some time when she came back to her senses She kicked him and that guy ran away! I don't know clearly about how her relationship was and when she brokeup or how long was this relationship with him, It's hard for her to recall things about that guy and I don't want to hurt her She never shared these things with anyone. It is really hard for her Whatever happened was traumatic and she is suffering from PTSD bcuz of that incident. And made her fear from physical touch even with her siblings or friends (As she said)
2nd About us. Let's say for now She lives in Kolkata and I live in Delhi So she came to Delhi to her Grandmother's home for some some exams in school! and we met there ( whole story is different and not necessary but we met in school through school exams) and We connected very quick It felt like we are made for each other our opinion preferences all are pretty much same, After 1 month of talking we are decided to commit each other and be in relationship on 2nd march!! and after some time we met and Kissed, Huged but no sexual stuffs, She said she feels safe with me and likes my physical touch and PTSD never triggers. And as of now she went back to her home Kolkata and we are in long distance.
3rd I tried helping her with trauma and that turned out bad. So once her Ex's guy friend tried to contact him and asked her if She is going to take offline test at her coaching or not, Her ex also studies their and gonna be there on that test day! She don't want to go there bcuz of him, And Her ex also contacted her but she blocked him immediately but those things made me feel bad for her and I wanted to help her, I suggested her for therapy but She got mad me for that, and after some research I tried help her my self but that also triggered her I tried several time but every time we get into argument. She told me She regrets sharing this to me and I always scratch those wounds! that hurted me very badly. I don't have any interest knowing her past or about her ex instead I want to help her with this requires some questioning and that's the problem! but from that day I promised her I'll never bring this topic ever again and let her heal by herself
4th My Problems So what bothers me is that when sometimes while she was telling me about her past some thing didn't makes sense and contradicting statements this feels like she don't want to tell me the truth and when I questioned her She told me to ask these from her sister angerly and when I asked her sister self stuff She told me that I don't trust her etc... but this makes me question what's the truth why she is not sharing, and most what bother me the most is that she misunderstands me that I have more interest in her past then our future. So bcuz of this I was hurt and decided to emotionally distant myself for a bit cuz this was bothering my studies and personal life and was unable to share my feelings to her and I told her this last week and again she got hurt and made more trust-issues between us
Those was some backstory now comes the current situation!
Her grandmothe's renter let's name him dogshit(not sure about age but he's below her age) for now, he lives in the same building So dogshit msged her on insta tomorrow that he's unable to move on! So my gf told me about this today that When she faced panic attack 3 times when she was at her grandmother's home, 1st time when her family found out about her ex 2nd when she was sharing about her past to me 3rd time when again cuz of family but this time she went to the Terrace and was crying there and that dogshit came and asked her what happened, but that time she hugged him and started crying more etc... I don't know all about what happened but she told me this And now that dogshit is msging her saying he is unable to move on etc... She sees him like a brother but idk what's in that guy's mind. She felt guilty what she did and unable to share about that to me about this. We are very transparent about every thing btw.
This thing hurted me again but I know that sometime you feel emotionally overwhelmed and do some stuffs that makes you regret. I want to let this go.
But how should I approach this situation? What should I do?

Hi everyone, I will be seeking professional help for this but am just curious about whether this has happened to anyone else.
I have never had driving anxiety except for the anxiety of first starting to drive 10+ years ago, of course. I live in a city. I commuted to work an hour plus away for close to 7 years. I don’t have to commute as far anymore, but all of a sudden, I am TERRIFIED of this bridge I need to cross to get to the next city for no reason.
I literally used to drive over it every single day, twice, to get to work. If you’re curious about the size of the bridge and feel like googling it, it’s called the James N. Allan Skyway and it goes over Lake Ontario. High winds, major fog, and transport trucks blowing over are not an entirely uncommon occurrences. But I’m not afraid of falling off the bridge - I cannot figure out what I am afraid of or why this came on all of a sudden.
I had my tire completely slash and explode on this bridge once in a snowstorm at night when alone about 10 years ago. I was alone and coming down the bridge and remember struggling to keep my car controlled. There is nowhere to pull over if something happens, and the speed limit is regular highway speed which makes it dangerous to just stop, which bothers me, but I just did my best, let off the gas, and dealt with the extremely loud thumping and not smooth drive until I got to the bottom. My tire recently went flat on the highway this year in April and I’m wondering if it’s less a fear of the bridge and more a fear of something happening to my car and not being able to pull over, which is triggered by the bridge because something happened ON the bridge. I get the same sort of anxiety when driving very narrow highways with no shoulder now.
Just curious if anyone else has had any sort of sudden onset fear come totally out of the blue like this that has been difficult to connect?
I used to just keep exposing myself to it but recently I had a panic attack on it and no longer feel safe driving it, as I don’t want to hurt anyone else.

Whatever you do, never drink to cure a mental issue.
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Memory Transcription Subject: Gillab, Gojid Citizen, Father
Date [Standardized Human Time]: March 28, 2142
I made sure to wake up as early as possible so I could do what I needed to do before Billy woke up. First things first, get rid of all the liquor in that fridge. If Billy was going to get better, the first thing he needed to do was stop drinking. He was only running from his problems and as long as he had that out he was going to take it.
I pulled a trash bag in front of the fridge, propped it open as best I could, and started stuffing it full of bottles. Cheap Venlilian liquor was being poured down the drain by the second, it almost made me feel bad for anything living in the sewers. This stuff had enough alcohol in it to kill someone, a rat would be dead in seconds.
By the time I poured the last bottle down the drain, I had probably sanitized the entirety of the New York sewer system. I hoisted the bag onto my back, making sure not to break the bag with my quills, and started to make my way to the dumpster. Thankfully Billy’s apartment was on the first floor so the journey wasn’t too long.
I tossed the bag into the dumpster carelessly, causing a few of the bottles to break when they hit the others that had been thrown in yesterday. It was only the second day, but I felt like we had already made some progress. I was able to make him admit he was just scared of feeling the pain of his memories, even if it was only accidental. Small steps were still steps, now all I had to do was make him realize that he didn’t deserve this. I have a feeling that once he jumps that hurdle, everything should come much easier.
A familiar song brought me out of my thoughts, drawing my attention to my phone. I had changed the ringtone to the first Human song I had ever heard, T-Shirt, to always remind me of my time on the Cradle. I pulled out my phone and accepted the call, smiling as I saw just who it was.
“High sweety, having a good morning?”
The camera shook up and down in sync with my daughter's face. “Yeah, but I wish you were here.”
“Oh sweety, I know you do, but I have some important work to do and I can’t come home. Just know that I will always love you. Now you have a good day at school, you hear?”
“Mmhm, I will. Here’s mommy.”
The camera shook again as it passed from my daughter’s claws to my wife’s. In the background, I could hear the chitter of my daughter’s voice and then rapid footsteps away. When the camera stopped shaking, I was met by the most beautiful woman in existence.
“Hello, Sweet-fruit.”
Kirala smiled and tilted her head. “Hello, my big guolo tree. I missed you this morning.”
“I missed you too. I had to sleep on an uncomfortable couch and I think it messed up my back a bit.”
“Oh, how the mighty veteran is felled! Surviving a plasma wound to the chest but felled by the mightier couch.”
I flicked an ear in amusement. “To be fair, it was one vicious couch.”
I couldn’t help but melt at her laugh, it was like sunshine during the darkest night. It was light and cheerful and genuine, and I couldn’t imagine myself living without it.
With a final few chuckles, Kirala pulled herself together enough to respond. “Well, it sounds like you need to wear some armor to bed then.”
I feigned a thoughtful expression. “Maybe I will, I already sleep with clothes on.”
She threw her head back in disgust. “Ugh, I still don’t know how you do that. I still feel a little uncomfortable when I wear them when I’m awake, I couldn’t imagine sleeping with them.”
“It’s an acquired taste, you’ll come around.”
“Mmhm, I’m suuure.”
I sighed. “How’s Julaly doing?”
“Well, she misses you, obviously, but it’s nothing I can’t handle. She was good yesterday, but we both wished you had given us a little more of a warning. I didn’t expect your little trip to the memorial to turn into an impromptu therapy session.”
“Sweet-fruit, you know I wish I could have too. It was sprung on me just as much as you. I’m just glad I found him when I did, do you know what I found in his room? A suicide note.”
Kirala gasped slightly. “Oh dear I… I really-”
“It’s fine. I didn’t know either. But just think, if I had come back for just one day, he would be dead. I made the right call here, even if I was torn at the time.”
“You need to get back to him then.”
“I’ve got a little longer. He’s still asleep. I was throwing away some alcohol when you called me, and when I get some free time I’m going to go to the nearby bars and tell them not to serve him. Today I’m thinking I’ll try and get him to go to a veterans’ meeting so he can connect with some others like him, let him know he’s not alone and it’s not just me who cares about him.”
“Still, you should go back to him. And stay safe. He sounds unstable, just keep an eye on him.”
“Sweet-fruit, he’s not dangerous.”
“You don’t know what’s going on in his head. Promise me you will stay safe.”
“I promise.”
“Like you mean it.”
“I promise with all of my heart that I will stay safe.”
“Good, now get back to it. Love you.”
“Love you too.”
The call blinked out and left me staring at my home screen. It was true that I missed them both dearly, even a day without them left me longing, but I knew what I was doing was right. Billy needed someone to save him, and I was the only one available. Kirala was right, I needed to get back to it. I couldn’t leave Billy alone for too long, it would only end in disaster.
As soon as the door clicked open, Billy descended upon me. “Gillab, what did you do?! Where’s the liquor?!”
I stepped past him and made my way to the living room. “I threw it all away. You were poisoning yourself and I needed to put an end to it.”
Billy was stunned for a moment. “You fucking- GILLAB! Get the FUCK out of my house!”
“I’m not going anywhere! Not until you heal!”
Billy looked back and forth, raising his arms in frustration. “What the FUCK does that even mean?! You keep spouting this fucking ‘healing’ word like it’s some catch-all miracle wonder word that means everything!”
“I mean, you need to come to terms with what you’ve done, accept them, and move on! Otherwise, you are just going to rot in this room for all eternity. You are so much better than this, and you know it. You are strong enough to carry on, and you know this. You know, deep down, that you don’t deserve this life. But you are stuck thinking that you do! I saw you at the memorial and I literally didn’t recognize you, remember? That is how much you have changed, but it doesn’t have to stay like this. You can end the pain, and not in that way, all you have to do is trust me. And not just say that you do.”
I paused for a moment to catch my breath. “You said that you would go through the motions for me, right? This is just another motion. The next one is to find other veterans who are or have been through what you have and talk to them. They will make you realize that you aren’t trash or a parasite or any of that! It’s just another motion, right?”
Billy growled and stormed towards me. “You are on thin fucking ice right now.”
“Good. It means you care. Now sit down, we are going to set up a meeting with a group of veterans.”
“I don’t want to go meet some fucking soldier. I’m fine without that.”
“It’s just the motions, right? Humor me.”
With a deep sigh, Billy sat in the chair across from me. That was all I needed to see to confirm it, Billy really did want help, he just couldn’t even admit it to himself.
“You still haven’t given me your promised speech from yesterday. The hour-long one about how much I don’t deserve what I’m doing to myself.”
“Oh trust me, it’s coming. But right now we are going to set up a date for you to meet a veterans’ group. After that, let’s clean up a little more, get some food, maybe go for a walk in a park, then you’ll get the speech. Okay?”
Billy rolled his eyes and waited for me to pull up a website. After a bit of scrolling, I found a phone number I could call to find a meeting time. I prepared everything and set the phone on the table, but didn’t call yet.
“Okay Billy, I’m leaving this up to you. All you have to do is say your name and ask for a time you can come to the meeting.”
“Why can’t you set it up for me?”
“That’s not how it works. You need to be the one that calls them, not me. Plus, I don’t think they would accept me signing you up. The person coming has to be the one to set it up. Are you ready?”
Billy sighed. “Yeah.”
I called the number, set the phone on a table between Billy and I, and waited. After a few rings, a man began to speak.
“Hello, you have reached Richard’s group therapy for veterans, how can I help you?”
Billy looked up to me for guidance, to which I only motioned for him to speak to the man. “H-hi Richard, m-my name is Billy. I was… wondering if I-I could join your next meeting.”
“Oh course, we are always open for more. You didn’t even need to call, you could have just shown up at the meeting. We accept anyone and everyone at any time. Our next meeting is tomorrow at noon if you are available. If not, the next one is that same day at six-thirty.”
Billy glanced at me twice before giving his answer. “The… six-thirty one sounds good.”
He was pushing it back as much as he could, but at least he would get to it eventually. There was some quiet clacking in the background before the man responded. “Great, I’ve reserved you a seat. I’m happy to have you join us. Is there anything else you need?”
“No, that’s all. See you tomorrow.”
Billy set his phone down and sighed deeply. His face quickly changed from concerned and awkward to angry and annoyed. I could see him prepare to say something, but it ended up dying in his throat. Instead, he stood up suddenly and stomped back to his room, wanting to be left alone.

I see so many people online saying how their relationships with their parents got totally destroyed after coming out, and my parents are both conservative immigrants and have expressed their feelings towards the LGBTQ community on countless occasions (all of which are not good, not in the slightest). I don’t want to ruin my relationship with my parents, but I know that being lesbian is an important part of my life and will be harder to hide once I start getting older and they see I’m not dating any men.
I’m going into college next year, but I’m planning to stay close to home. I definitely want to explore in college because I haven’t had the opportunity to in my small town. All the girls who are openly gay all have girlfriends. I don’t hide the fact that I’m gay but I also don’t tell a lot of people. I’ve only told my friends, and even that was nerve wracking. I get scared because what if I’m actually not gay and I’ve been lying to myself and I just lied to at least like seven people, or what if they tell everyone and then everyone knows I’m gay and hates me because I’m not like gay enough?? It’s stupid, but I’m like terrified of that.
I think my mom suspects something is going on because she’s asked me multiple times if I’m a lesbian, all of which I have denied with pounding heart. Like my stomach literally drops. She asked me if I have any guys into me or if I like any guys, and I reply no and she just give me a look. Sometimes, I think about just not telling them, and then one day, they’ll just receive a wedding invitation and it’s like surprise! Lesbian.

I’m wondering if anyone only takes Sinemet as needed, and just deals with PD without it when they can.
My MDS doesn’t understand why I’d want to not take it constantly, as he saw my scores go down when I was on 1.5 pills of c/l 3x a day for a month. When I went in for the appointment, I thought he was going to tell me they weren’t working. Yes I could type a little better but I don’t feel on/off periods. I just notice “hey I am a little less shaky when I unload the dishes” or “hey my shoulder is slightly less painful today and I can type a little better”. There’s never a great surge of relief, I never get my handwriting back, and tbh a stress free day and a good night sleep seems to do the same thing for my PD stiffness. So really, if the results aren’t impactful to me, I don’t see why I should take it all the time?
I went 24 hours without C/L last weekend and didn’t notice any difference. I don’t type on the weekends. So this work week I waited until noon each day when my hand started sucking and took a dose with a little bit of impact to finish up the work day. Seemed fine. Yesterday, I had lunch in the sun with an old friend if not seen in awhile, browsed shops with no agenda alone, and painted when I got home. Felt great.
So like, if it’s a stress free day or I don’t need my fine motor skills, why take it?
MDS said I could stop C/L cold turkey, but when I googled I found warnings saying not to. I’m not thrilled with him in general/there’s no trust there (getting a new one this winter). Anyway, curious if anyone takes as needed or if you’ve heard it’s dangerous to do so.
Specifics re: my general symptoms if needed: I have rigid dominant YOPD with action tremor that’s worse with cold/big feelings. My main issues are tremor when texting/unloading the dishes, slow typing, and reduced mobility and moderate pain in my affected side (right/dominant). Toe taps are slow and fatigue makes me feel the PD in my leg but no gait issues yet. Possibly related to something else, or possible that the disease is moving along a little quickly: both hands always have sore joints and feel swollen, and I have nerve pain down the backs of both legs/feet. Yes I had an abnormal DATscan.
Thanks!

Going through life, I have experienced a lot and have seen a lot. And one conclusion I have came to is: either I look at the world very differently than most, or I am dumb. I i’m talking about from average conversation with another person to thoughts of society, thoughts of the masses, government, even sometimes reality as we know it. So the conclusion I have came up with is, either I am really dumb or most of the world is really dumb. I often think that I should be shipped off to a deserted island, or I cannot complicate or deal with the world as it is. Anyone got any suggestions on an island for cheap?🤪

A while ago I made a post about my issues, with Sunlu PLA-CF and my 0.4 Nozzle [ Bambulab X1C]. People told me that I need a .6mm nozzle instead - so I finally got one yesterday, and it did absolutely nothing. The damn thing still clogs after extruding maybe 10cm of filament.
Back when i got it, I got 2 rolls of the filament - so I tried the other one, and got the same result. Yes, the filament was dry. And it doesn't seem to be related to any print settings, as even when I just let the printer extrude it mid-air , it clogs after a short while.
Does anyone here have experience with Sunlu PLA-CF? So far I've always been very pleased with my Sunlu results, so this is quite the let-down =(

We met in December through social media from the same area. I was in a place at that time after having 2 2 year relationships that ended when I was 21, I was ready to be open if something came along. I was single for 8 years. Initially I wasn’t 100% bought in on her. The lifestyle she portrayed on social media gave off the vibe she was like a fancy influencer which I’m not a fan of. Had a bit of a social media presence. I had one myself for a few years but pulled back because I realized it wasn’t for me knowing the mental health effects of it. I expressed that I don’t care for social media anymore and want a low key life. She seemed cool though so I pursued it. Off the bat our convos were deep. She was reading our comparability. And then I took her out. First date she was already saying she was admiring me and obsessed with me. Found out later she texted a friend on the side and said she was going to marry me. She traveled for this social media stuff almost every weekend. She also had her real job. I still didn’t see this going anywhere due to her circumstances but I was interested after the date however I wasn’t 100% bought in. Thinking back now, I think maybe my gut was telling me not to pursue.
I was supposed to run a marathon in another state and she said she wanted to fly down (second time meeting) and spend the weekend with me. She did and that’s when it started. I learned all her trauma. Everything moved so quickly that weekend. No relationship with family, father was a drug addict and left, mother was BPD and bipolar and so was the sister. Kicked her out at a young age was couch surfing for years. Never had a stable home. Didn’t seem to have any long term friends. Told me she had went to therapy and was all good but also told me she has fear of abandonment and ptsd. I thought she was squared away though and gave the benefit of the doubt. We already discussing futures together and the lovebombing started. Saying things to me no one’s ever said or noticed. Long story short she traveled almost every weekend for the next month and a half and i really wasn’t a fan of it. Aside from not liking the influencer stuff, it was just not the type of relationship I was looking for. Never being able to plan. Only spending a couple hours during the week because we worked opposite schedules. This went on for the first 2 months. She was supposed to travel the first 3 weeks in March but wound up telling me she’s having an identity crisis. Wants to stop traveling wants to stop on social media. It’s bad for her mental health she used it as a distraction bc she had nothing else and now being with me she has a different perspective on life and has a reason to be home. She also said she used it for validation for herself bc her family never gave it to her and people only praised her for her success and i was the first person to love her for who she is. I thought that was awesome and wanted the best for her because she told me how bad it was affecting her. She canceled all her upcoming trips and was bought in on living present, pulling back from being on her phone because she was addicted to it and just enjoying life. Would constantly express to me how much healthier she is, eating more, sleeping better etc. told everyone she knew the same thing. She’d express how she used to “self sabotage” with all this work. I would always say don’t do anything unless you truly want to and she’d emphasize how she felt this way before me, I just gave her a different perspective on life and she doesn’t want to bury herself in work anymore because she doesn’t have a reason to distract herself.
This is when the clingy stuff started. She wanted to be with me every second of every day which for some reason i didn’t see as bad at first. She started getting separation anxiety when I’d go to work and constantly fear that i was going to just abandon her. She’d take things and small jokes so seriously and somehow link it to me subliminally meaning i was going to leave her. If i wasn’t all over her in the morning she took it personal. We’d wind up in arguments of me explaining what i meant and it would either end with her insisting i take her emotions into account or she’d apologize but blame it on her past and fear of abandonment. I found myself completely losing myself constantly going above and beyond to show her how much i loved her and wasn’t going to leave her. Taking off of work spending time with her buying her things and also just constantly telling her and showing her love. It was never enough because when she had these spirals it was all forgotten about. Got to the point i was living with her basically and couldn’t go home and see my family without her coming.
Dealing with this for about 2 months fast forward to 3 weeks ago. A girl she met through social media deaded her out of nowhere and told her something she said she didn’t like. She remembered last time she spoke to her she was saying how she was pulling back from social media because it was bad for her mental health and how happy she is actually having a life outside of work and thinks this girl took that personal because social media is her life. She was upset but didn’t seem to distraught. I gave logical reasoning like If she can drop you like this clearly she’s not someone important. I kept reassuring her she doesn’t need someone like that. If she was a real friend she’d be happy for you. I made jokes about it that made her laugh. What i didn’t know until one night she was crying was that it triggered the abandonment issues and she was down another spiral and associating it with me leaving. Once i saw it was a big trigger i tried to really console her. Show her love and affection and be there for her. Everything seemed fine until a couple of days later. We woke up, i was tired maybe a little quiet (i really don’t know I’m blaming myself) and we were talking like normal. She kept asking me what’s wrong and i kept saying nothing nothing. I wound up leaving for work and i texted her. She was being very short with me until she just didn’t answer. Me thinking ok she’s busy at work no big deal. Normally she would check in during the day at work. She didn’t. I was still like okay no problem until i saw she was checking social media. So after the entire day passes without hearing from her i finally reach out and was like what’s the issue. She claimed she was busy but i said ok you were checking social media and im sure if you were to screen shot your texts you were texting other people and i was the only one ignored bc she was always on her phone(not actually saying send me your texts, I’ve never done that). She said that rubbed her the wrong way and we need to have a conversation. We hopped on the phone and BOOM everything came out. She needed me and i wasn’t there for her to comfort her i made jokes about it and didn’t take it seriously (i was there for her but didn’t realize the extent of why it was bothering her until she told me and i did everything i could to make her happy) then she started bringing up how she lost herself since she’s been with me. She can’t post on social media freely anymore because she feels like im going to judge her even though it was her who made the decision to pull back and praised how much of great decision it was(not to mention she never stopped posting 3 times a day regardless of everything she said) I went to her place and all my stuff was out and ready to go. We spoke again and the same things came up. I don’t like social media and was pulling back myself so that means i don’t support her and how i wasn’t there for her emotionally. It was literally just a big mind f. Brought up like 2 or 3 other completely random things as well as excuses as to why she was leaving again contradicting things she’s said or done. Anytime i would bring up but what about this and when i did this or said this or how you said this it was like deflected and didn’t matter. What matters is what she is perceiving and that’s it. Like I’m this horrible person who did nothing for her.
At first I blamed myself since this happened because I really don’t know what more i could’ve done. I reached out to someone who I’m friends with who knew her growing up and they told me that it seems like a reoccurring thing with her past friend ships and relationships that they all just ended randomly. It really messed with my head and I didn’t know how to deal with it. She isn’t diagnosed with anything as far as i know but it’s been brought to my attention about the BPD stuff and reading this forum a lot of the things are very familiar.
I know I’m not perfect but after years of not wanting to commit to anyone or open up i finally did and i really meant how i felt for her and it hurt me so much that i could just be discarded like that. But I’ve learned what it is and am accepting it for what it is. I’m not a codependent person normally, never have been. I truly just cared for her and thought that maybe she had a bad upbringing but we can make the next chapters happy. I truly had good intentions. Been NC for almost 3 weeks now. Would never reach out i really don’t care how much it hurt. I have a great support system and a lot to look forward to. There’s good days and bad days but the bad days are getting less and less. I think back and I recall how uneasy I felt the whole time. I thought maybe it was me. But I truly think I just always suspected something wasn’t right.
Just wanted to tell my story and see if anyone had any advice or could relate in anyway.

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