Good dare ideas for guys

I posted this https://old.reddit.com/IndianGaming/comments/1c7vsq6/gigabyte_has_the_worst_support/ previously of my experience with Gigabyte Support.
TLDR: Support process sucks and their Quality check for BIOS sucks even more.
Now if you want to read the whole experience, see below:
Issue TLDR: PC crashes ~6 to ~7 out of 10 times when resuming from sleep.
I have an update to the story.
I received the card back during 1st week of May, issues were worse, sometimes I did not get any display and PC would stay black screen. Attempting to restart, display would be blank but keyboard numlock/capslock did respond.
Note that I did not have issues with 1060 which was my daily driver and 3070 I used for a day that I tested by putting it to sleep and resuming multiple times.
My seller was aware of this, shared them video of the issue and continued to argue the card was the issue. They tried to push from their side and Gigabyte did not agree, it was back and forth with them.
Meanwhile, I dual booted Nobara and issue was even worse. After sleep the PC display wont even turn on consistently (tried only 2 times though) and PC was laggy as hell.
Apparently, Gigabyte wanted them to test and showcase the issue and so I sent the card to my seller. They were no able to replicate (not sure what build they were using as they said similar)
I got my PC on Feb 27th or so and the card was experiencing issues within a few days (I reported issues to MS forums on 6th March after I was unable to fix it for 4 to 5 days). So either I was having issues or running my build without the card for 2 and a half months.
I finally gave up and fought with my seller to give the card back so I can sell it online. They gave me the card back.
As my whole build was Gigabyte I took my PC to the collection center with the card installed and told them to fix the issue or replace whatever part they see as the issue.
Issue was reproducible. And I was told, that even if the guy at Bangalore sends the GPU for replacement same process (test and Chennai) will be followed and replacement will be rejected if they cannot simulate in their setup. WOW!
I called a Gigabyte employee who had discussed this with me before and he instructed that it could be PSU or MB causing this and they began testing.
I asked them to put a spare 40 Series card they had to test. The issue was reproducible with another 4070 (not 4070 Super).
Finally realized that this could be an incompatibility issue(10 series or 30 series did not have issues) and tried the oldest firmware that Gigabyte had for the MB B650M DS3H rev1.3 and the issue was no longer reproducible.
I have the card with me for almost a week now and I dont have issues. Feels damn Good!
Hopefully no other soul has to go through the same after buying a product with hard earned money. Apparently the card is rated for around 100 reseats, not sure how many this card went through in 3 months.
Gigabyte Support if you just listened and ran the same build (with rev1.3 MB and firmware you would have seen the issue). When you try reproducing the problem to confirm or deny, use the whole damn build as you neglect any tshoot a customer does.
This was a pure miss on the Gigabyte BIOS QA part which led to me having such a frustrating / nightmare experience. Good thing is I found about their Support process through this. I dont think I will build another PC with any Gigabyte part.

i took the sat in march 9, scored 690 in math. Just got my may 4th score, another 690 😭 ill be taking the sat in june, ive been prepping ever since november, i had a tutor who prepped me for the march and may one, but i decided to change my tutor in may. So its been a month, and ive been prepping with my new tutor (this guy’s THE best in town), but i need a higher math score since im a stem major. I need good math recourses. Ive tried everything - Khan, John Chung, Collegepanda, the question bank. I need good resources, that have the same format as the digital sat. pls help and give me tips if u can

First I want to apologize for the long post that you're about to read but I'm really losing my sanity at this point.
I (f 21) was dating a guy (20) for about two months, he was a virgin and I was his first ever , everything was going so so well , we are very compatible and I really liked him a lot and still do like him , he also liked me a lot , until..
Before we had sex for the first and last time ever he had talked to me about STDs and I told him that he has nothing to worry about because I have never had an STD , so two weeks later we have unprotected sex , and it was really really good , ten days later he started experiencing some symptoms like a burning sensation when he pees , white or clear discharge, his penis was red and swollen, and he was going crazy and he was very very anxious and scared (rightfully so) he went to a doctor and the doctor told him that it's probably gonorrhea and he told him to start with the medication that he prescribed to him after he got a test , the test came back negative, and I also did all the STDs tests and all of them came back negative as well . (For the record we are syrians and we live in syria , so we are very tight on money and the whole process of going to doctors and taking all the std tests was very dangerous because any kind of sexual activity before marriage is not okay here) .
This guy is now convinced that I gave him something and he doesn't want anything to do with me anymore, and he keeps calling me reckless (which I know I am I was diagnosed with BPD 5 years ago but my parents refused to believe it and didn't get me medication or treatment) .
My problem is that I was also too ignorant to believe it (because mental health is not really a thing in Syria) and now I feel like I desperately want him to stay in my life because I didn't do anything wrong, and I feel like my world is collapsing, and I know that I need to go to therapy and get treatment but I don't have any money, therapy is very expensive here and I don't know how to cope anymore, I truly saw something in him , and I feel like shit for losing him as a friend and as a lover , I didn't want things to go that way at all , and I don't know what to do.

Hi guys! I’ve finally reached the point where I have to decide what type of surgery I want which is why it hasn’t been scheduled yet. I want to make my decision asap to make the appt.
TLDR: - pros/cons of mirena iud for adenomyosis? - Pros/cons of hysterectomy at age 24 for adenomyosis? - excision robotic vs traditional laparoscopic surgery If I’m flexible with either I’ll be seen earlier. If I choose to do a traditional lap surgery he said that availability is further away. Inputs/Opinions before I make my decision?
For a little context I am a Bengali female, age 24. Other than endometriosis and adenomyosis that I suffer from. I do have a mildly enlarged liver and I hi highly suspect my gallbladder does not function. I also suffer from severe eczema and I have no idea if it’s related or unrelated to the endometriosis. I also suffer from dry eyes and I’m allergic to contacts and metal. I also have mental health disorders such as anxiety, depression, PMDD, OCD, mild psychosis, paranoia (yes these are self diagnosed right now until I see a psychiatrist but just like i self diagnosed myself w endo awhile ago here we are now). I also suffer from trichotillomania.
I have DIE, kissing ovaries, adenomyosis, multiple endometriomas on my ovaries. Overall it looks FUCKED up in there. It’s bad. I think I have stage 4 based on what he went over with me.
I am NOT interested in having kids and I CANNOT regret it. A lot of these shitty diseases and illnesses run in my family. I will never want to bring a child into this world to suffer the way I did. Even if we have medical advances in the future.
( I gave this backstory on me because i feel like my body is just too sensitive)
SO ANYWAY, I was given these options:

1. Choose to have a mirena iud placed or have a hysterectomy (I would keep my cervix and ovaries just because I have to. He isn’t sure if my left ovary can be salvaged because it really looks messed up). I have heard bad things about the mirena iud. People have expelled it through blood clots. I feel like I would too since my body has rejected A LOT of things. And a hysterectomy seems great but I don’t know how it would affect me at age 24? Would I need HRT? Or is that only if I removed both my ovaries? I don’t even want to keep my ovaries because they’re riddled with so much endometriomas. But again I know I have to and I’ll have to deal with endo coming back.
   
2. I have to choose excision surgery either by using the robot or the traditional way. I’m thinking even if I wait longer the traditional way is better? Maybe he’ll see more things because he will have to feel everything? He has a lot of experience but I’m just not sure if I want to do robotic.
   

I was thinking of staying the day here. I'm going to be eating breakfast, lunch, and dinner and just wanted to know if anyone had any suggestions on where to go? I was thinking Features for breakfast, maybe the Shakespearean Gardens, Avon Boat Rentals to go on a paddle boat, if those are good ideas? I've never been here. Looking for nice suggestions, romantic ones too. Any lunch/dinner suggestions, or maybe even breakfast if there's a place that much better than features? Not very into fine dining, but if there's fine dining at a reasonable price I could be down.
I love art as well. I'm just really lost on what to do and if there's enough to do to fill an entire day. Thank you. :)

Hello guys, I’m new to this world I already read the buyer’s guide, however I need a bit of help for my first purchase
I wanted a Rolex Daydate but I don’t know where to buy it, do any of you know a good seller?

Hello everyone,
I'm having a major issue with a client of a customer. Every time I open a certain Project with Trimble Scan Viewer, they crash. The affected applications include Trimble Scan Explorer and Vectorworks 2022. Here are some details from the Event Viewer:
APPCRASH: Trimble Scan Explorer
Faulting application name: Trimble Scan Explorer.exe
Version: 1.10.0.1091
Faulting module: RWSCore_x64.dll
Exception code: c00000fd
Fault offset: 000000000073af87
APPCRASH: Vectorworks 2022
Faulting application name: Vectorworks2022.exe
Version: 27.0.6.0
Faulting module: libcef.dll
Exception code: 80000003
Fault offset: 0000000002be2b49
BEX64: Explorer
Faulting application name: explorer.exe
Version: 10.0.19041.4355
Faulting module: KERNELBASE.dll
Exception code: c0000409
Fault offset: 000000000012d332
Additional context:

• This issue only happens with a specific project in Trimble Scan Viewer.
• The problem does not occur with other projects on the same device.
• Other users in the office can open the project without issues.
• The problematic project works fine on other computers.
• The Machine has enough free RAM, the processor is good enough, it includes a rtx2080 and enough space on the Hard Drive

I have already tried:

• Updating Windows and the applications to the latest versions.
• Temporarily disabling antivirus software.
• Checking system files with sfc /scannow.
• Reinstalling the affected programs.
• Running memory and disk diagnostics.

Unfortunately, nothing has worked so far.
Do you have any tips or ideas on how I can resolve this issue? Thank you in advance for your help!

Hi all,
Amateur here building websites for fun.
My current directory website has a performance score of 26/100 on mobile which is pretty bad. Bizarrely it’s over twice as good on desktop at 61/100.
Anyways, I reached out to my hosting provider (siteground) and they have suggested paying for their “premium CDN service”. Any ideas if this is worth it?
I’ve done everything else they’ve suggested - siteground optimiser plugin etc etc but not really seen much improvement

post was originally made January 16th, 2029
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Ive been working on my own Daily Undulating Periodization (DUP) program and am in the beginning stages of DUP. Heres what I have so far let me know if you guys like it or would change anything.
Day 1: Hypertrophy Squats, Hypertrophy Bench Press
Day 2: Strength Deadlifts, Lower Body Accessory
Day 3: Off
Day 4: Strength Squats, Power Bench Press
Day 5: Power Deadlifts, Upper Body Pulling Accessory Work
Day 6: Strength Bench Press, Power Squats, Upper Body Pushing Accessory Work
Day 7: Off
Training Emphasis
Hypertrophy= Moderate-High repetitions (8-12) reps Low - Moderate intensity(70-75%) 3-4 sets
Strength= Low-Moderate repetitions (< 6) High intensity (80-95%) 4-6 sets
Power= Low repetitions (1-3) High intensity (75-85%) 6-7 sets
Starting percentages Bench and Squat
Power – 6 sets of 3 at 75% 1RM
Strength – 4 sets of 6 at 80% 1RM
Hypertrophy – 3 sets of 8 at 70% 1RM
Starting percentages Deadlift
Because this is a completely concentric movement training in high reps is not needed and emphasis should be placed on set up rather than multiple reps.
Power – 6 sets of 4 at 65% 1RM (maximal speed)
Strength – 6 sets of 2 at 85% 1RM
Week-by-Week Progressions The idea of DUP is to add volume every week. This can be done in one of two ways

• Add weight and keep sets and reps the same
  
• Keep the weight the same, but add sets and reps, while sticking in the given ranges
  
• A key component here is not to decrease weight (intensity) and rather change reps and sets
  

When moving across weeks adjust strength days ultimately working up to 4-6 sets of 1-2 reps @ ~95% 1RM for bench and squat. Strength deadlifts should be peaking at 6 sets of 1-2 reps using ~95% 1RM. When moving across hypertrophy days try not to use a percentage higher than 75%. The main goal here is to increase rep ranges training between 8-12 reps. If feeling extremely well the last set of either strength or hypertrophy days can be an AMRAP. Power days should not change much in reps or sets. Focus here should be intent to move weight maximally with maximal speed.
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The Accessory Work Accessory work should be tough, and focus on areas that the big lifts don’t hit directly. All optional and depends on time and energy levels. Ideally, it won’t have any negative impact on your strength for the main sessions. This is why keeping everything at around an 8 to 9 out of 10 in terms of intensity, and not pushing to failure is recommended.
Lower body accessory work:

• Front squats: 3-5 sets of 5
  
• RDL’s: 3-5 sets of 8-12
  
• Hamstring curls: 5 sets of 10-15
  
• Quad extensions: 5 sets of 10-15
  

Upper body pushing accessory work:

• Military press: 3-5 sets of 5-8
  
• Chest flys: 3-5 sets of 8-12
  
• Triceps extensions: 5 sets of 10-15
  
• Tate press: 5 sets of 10-15
  

Upper body pulling accessory work:

• Barbell rows/ single are dumbbell rows: 3-5 sets of 5-8
  
• Lat pull down: 5-7 sets of 10-15
  
• Standing barbell Biceps curls: 5 sets of 10-15
  
• Incline Biceps curls: 5 sets of 10-15
  

I know this specific combo (or combos) have been discussed a lot, but when i see these posts i often see either an answer between the lines of "Just go full Rune Knight, speak with the DM for flavours" or one like "I am doing this specific combo which works well because of this thing"
So i decided to ask more clearly the question in his own post.
If you are here, it's because you like Blacksmiths. You just do. And Dwarves. Dwarves good.
And i like the concept too. It would feel really good being the literal smith of your party, not in a "sciency" way like the Artificer (which feels more like a cyborg inventor or steampunk smith) and neither in a specific "niche" like the Rune Knight, which just uses runes, or the Forge Cleric, which basically just buffs an item till you sleep.
We want to be a full blown Blacksmith, the full package. A true smith is capable of doing all of the above, maybe by sacrificing his own combat strength: after all, we ain't warriors.
So....how can we make this work? That's what i'm asking. I'll explain what i think but keep in mind that this is what i am asking: make a TRUE BLACKSMITH, not just some guy buffing things temporarily or a freaking Tony Stark with power armor. Take Ornn from League of Legends as an example
My idea is Rune Knight 12/Forge Cleric 6/Artificer 2. The order would be Cleric 2 -> Artificer 2 -> Fighter 7 -> Cleric 6 -> Fighter 11
Artificer - 2 Levels is really just enough. Going too much into Artificer would need us to have a good INT score and we already need STR, CON and WIS. We don't need to be more MAD. We can still make a +1 Shield and +1 Weapon permanently (for flavour reasons, it would make sense to do this on our own ArmoShield and Weapon. Until we change our items it would feel like we actually permanently improved our items, instead of infusing them)
Cleric - 6 Levels, +1 AC, temporary buffs (THIS is the infusion: as blacksmith, we prepare our party for battle: sharpen the weapons, make armors more sturdy, and infuse just a bit of magic when needed). We can also create things as long as it's not over 100 GP, and we are resistant to fire. We won't use that many spells of the cleric, and if we do, we will avoid Spell Attack Rolls and Spell DCs. Focus on bless, healing word, aid or any spell that doesn't use your wisdom: it's our third primary stat, it won't be high
Fighter: We get our three attacks, all the important stuff, and we can now actually inscribe runes.
Tips? Suggestions? Problems? I just want to be a blacksmith xD

i work late nights every friday, and after my shift, i head to a nearby convinience store to get some food. for the past few weeks, ive noticed a really cute guy working there every friday night.
i don’t know why — but i get this weird feeling every time i see him. i’ve never had a crush or relationship before i don’t even know how to go on. i feel like it would be creepy if i said something — i don’t know him at all, or his age, where he’s from, or maybe he’s already taken. i’m just assuming he’s around my age based on looks and mannerisms 😭
and i know most girls don’t make the first move too. i don’t want to come off as needy or weird, but honestly i do want to have a relationship. i hated the idea of dating when i was in school, so i never got the experience the awkward teen crush phase thing. but now im just hopeless at talking to any guys about dating
i don’t know where to on from here. should i visit the store more often? spend more time in there? start a conversation? how would i even start a conversation with a stranger??

I 25f married 34m. Our sex life is weird, I'm not satisfied. I lost my virginity to him after getting married to him and he had more girls. I'm not good at sex at all and he is doing more work during sex. I'm not sure what i like in bed, and we both do not use sex toys and I don't think he's comfortable with me buying sex toys. Sex feels quick like after he cums, we are done. He has never asked me what I liked or wanted, but if I told him I needed to cum, he would try and make me cum and I know If I told him that I liked something, he would do it. He showed me some sexy outfits I could order, but I feel these outfits are pointless if he is not even satisfying me. I get myself off all the time. I did briefly tell him that we just rush into sex and he told me it's because I tell him I want it in so suppose he feels rushed because of me as well. Told him we need to do more foreplay and he agreed.
Thing is I'm not sure if I get anxious to cum during sex or why can't I? I'm not even sure if it's because the sex happens quick and randomly, we don't plan sex and maybe I could tell my partner that we should plan sex. For women, I know it takes more time and though I haven't had sexual intercoure before with him because I struggled with vaginismus, my ex partners asked me why I didn't cum or if they should make me cum. I know many guys do make their woman cum first before they do. I just don't know how to bring up sex because of how life is for us. Like, he works long hours or does overtime, we do spend time together of course but when we have sex, it's pretty much rushed. My partner is understanding and he does listen to what I want. I think I feel anxious to cum during sex idk

Guys, (Mireczki, we use that on "Polish Reddit")
How fluent/natural are you in a long-term relationships? I'm trying to actually heal now, accept my flaws and follow tips for a good marriage (if I don't forget or don't fall into a hole of an emotional flashback), but, sh... I make so many mistakes. Even if I try to aknowledge my spouse feelings, say that I'm sorry it made him feel XYZ way I get that I don't understand at all what he meant. If I did or did care I knew what to do... I really don't :( 12years together and I don't :/ I know that I'm probably somewhere in the B cluster of PD (under diagnose process) and that I have an avoidant attachment style, plus got really depressed in the past 4 years. I want to make it up for him, but I HONESTLY don't know what I'm doing wrong sometimes....
How is it going for you?

Thought some of it was quite interesting, particularly the bit about the rise in literary agents, that all editors are middle-class white women which creates a kind of ‘groupthink’ and the nostalgia of it all.
I think the success of Fitcarraldo is a reflection of this complete lack of innovation in publishing. The idea behind it is so simple, I’m like was no one in British publishing translating novels before? The guy who founded it said that ‘British publishing or anglophone publishing is pretty conservative when it comes to translation’.
I looked at a career change into publishing but the salary for an editorial assistant in London is 25-27k with no room for progression unless you’re the lucky one. Interest to hear from anyone works in the industry.
https://www.versobooks.com/blogs/news/bad-nostalgia

CONTEXT:
My boyfriend and I (F) have been dating for almost 9 months. When we first started dating, I started spending more time with him rather than with my friend group (lets call it friend group A), which is a bad move on my part to be honest but I have strict parents and not enough time in the day to hang out with both of them. It's not like I completely ditched them, I tried to split my time half half but it was really difficult to. None of them really had a problem with this except my best friend (Also F). Now, again back then we just started dating, and I was blinded to see that I was ditching my best friend. SO again. That's my fault.
A few months after we started dating, my boyfriend and I hung out with some more people as well, and soon we became something close to a friend group (friend group B). (btw: I hadn't ditched friend group A, I still spent time with both of them.) Friend group B consisted of most of my bgs friends, though I'm pretty much friends with his friends so it was fine for me. One day, I invited my best friend to join friend group B because she was closer to 2 of the friends in friend group B than A anyways. Everything was going pretty good with friend group B until my parents thought they were bad influences and told me to stop hanging out with them. Of course, I listened because well, they're my parents and I didn't want to make them mad. I ended up going back to friend group A, sometimes visiting friend group B mainly to see my bf, but here's the funny part. My best friend didn't come with me.
Now, I get that she was closer with some of the people in friend group B than A, and I wanted to be happy for her, because she seemed happy, but I was already really unhappy getting forced to leave friend group B, and it just sucks she didn't seem to care. We barely talked because we never saw each other anymore, and when we did see each other it seemed awkward or forced, nothing like how "best friends" are supposed to act. I always tried to muster up the courage to speak to her about it, but I was always scared it would ruin our friendship, even if it was dangling by a thread. As I couldn't do anything about it, I decided to just leave it alone, and perhaps things will just fall into place one day. Oh how wrong I was.
So I left it alone. I just hung out with friend group A and minded my own business, and I was completely out of the loop of friend group B, beside the occasional visits. When these visits happened, I noticed my boyfriend and my "best friend" starting to get kinda close. They knew a lot about each other and each others weird 'eras' (eg. my "best friends" old anime phase) and had a lot of inside jokes. I, being the one who introduced them to each other, of course tried to ignore it and be happy for them since I HAD originally wanted them to be friends, but now I was really regretting it. Soon enough, I noticed them texting constantly (snap number one best friend for 2months+ goes crazy), playing video games together (even with my "best friends" little sister like what!?!?!), and hanging out and going to lunch together (okay this was usually with friend group B as well but I thought it was weird my "best friend" was able to go out so much since she had strict parents like I did (even stricter actually) and we went out like once a month, but suddenly she was able to go out with friend group B so often?) Also, whenever I went to go visit my boyfriend and friend group B, I would see them interacting and felt like I was being left out. (Honestly I felt left out of friend group B entirely but that's another story) To be fair, these activities were pretty "friendly" but I just felt like there were some weird areas (I wont get into it since this is getting way too long). Or maybe I'm just a really really jealous person (actually that might be it).
I thought about two solutions. 1. I tell my boyfriend how uncomfortable I feel around the two of them, and make him cut her off, but this could risk my best friend getting mad at me idk. (Okay I'm making this whole thing out to be like my best friends an evil villain and im sure shes not (or she wasn't I'm not sure anymore) but I'm just really uncomfortable with what could be going on behind my back. I do trust my boyfriend, I'm just worried about how much my "best friend" has changed and if she'll backstab me). Also I'd feel really controlling even though I know he would 100% understand, it just feels weird to me if that makes sense? Like he has told me to cut contact with people and I've had no problem with that but I've never told anyone to do that before and I'm scared he'll get offended I don't trust him. And they're so close I feel like I'd be ruining their friendship? I DONT KNOW OKAY I have no idea what to do. 2. I tell my best friend everything she's done and how it really hurt me and try to make her understand. Yeah that seems like a better solution so I did just that. I told her everything that pissed me off and how I felt uncomfortable around them. She seemed to have understood (key word: "seemed to") and apologised and felt the same way as I did about our friendship drifting. She also emphasized how she and my boyfriend were "not that close anymore", but I definitely disagree with that (also agreed by another close friend in friend group B). And though she "seemed to" understand and said she would change, I do see changes in our friendship and out dynamic, even if its not a big one, but I don't think she understood JUST HOW uncomfortable I was with her and my boyfriend, because I didn't see a change there.
So the conclusion is, my boyfriend is really close friends with my best friend (now ex best friend ig) even if they don't admit it but its fairly obvious. I'm trying to be okay with it since I introduced them to eachother because I wanted them to get to know eachother, but I'm really struggling to not break into tears everytime I see them talking or sitting together or honestly everything they do together... I have no idea what to do to stop feeling like this. Am I making it sound really serious when its not? What do you guys think? What should I do?!
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PS: sorry this is so long, I haven't talked to anyone about the true depth of this but its seriously unhealthy. this is my first reddit post so if i should make any changes let me know! also let me know if you guys have any questions! thank you !!!!

I think it's time to go. I''m being abused at work, getting help from the union and fair work are taking too long. I'm being underpaid. I can't get a a new job in my industry as there are no other jobs in my industry where I am. I can't move. I can't afford to leave work and look for a new job. My husband is exhausted, stress and just done mentally physically and emotionally. We can't make our bills. My parents will not stop criticising us. I have no friends. I got into a fight with my sister and we're not talking. I hate that. I feel like I lack social skills and I can't sort out myself. I just don't know how to be what everyone wants me to be. Or what that even is. I can't trust anyone. There is no help. I don't see a way out. I'm done.
My kids are sleeping and I am done. Do I just let them sleep or wake them up to say good bye? I have no idea how to feed them and give them the life they deserve. I feel like they're better off without me. I got too much baggage to be a good mum. I think I need to go now. I want to give them a good life. I can't do that. Maybe there are foster parents out there who can care for them. I think they are better off without me.
I want to stay maybe one more day and do something special with my kids. Should I just go now. Do I leave something special behind. What do you leave your kids? I want them to be happy and ok. How do I let them know I'm sorry and I love them and I wish that I could have done better. I tried. I failed. So bad. I'm so damn sorry.

LONG READING JUST TRYING TO EXPLAIN EVERYTHING
I started dating this girl last year in March 9 and everything was going smooth until I got cheated on a week before my birthday. she ended up getting pregnant but she got an abortion. Until now I never found if that child was mine or not.
we stopped talking in July and we started talking/seeing each other again in September but we weren’t dating but I had a lot of things inside me about what she did. during her birthday in September 16 a lot of stuff went down between her and I
I was depressed about the abortion so I ended up leaving the country and went to Mexico for 3 months during them months she kept watching my story without me not knowing until December 18 i caught her red handed and sent her the screenshot. We started talking again for 3-4 days and she cut me off saying that she kept thinking about the past and everything that happened in between us. so I let it be
I Came back to United States in January (2024) and she kept watching my story. she noticed that I was back around. She messaged me and we started talking again. everything was going good until I got arrested in January 29 and she stuck around until March 25 she decided to break up with me because she kept thinking about the past and everything that happened in between us.
I ended up getting released in abril 26 so I was the one that messaged her trying to see her again. she was already doing her things but I didn’t had a problem as long as I was seeing her.could care less about who she was seeing. Just last week may 8 she met this dude for the first time and slept with him the same night all because her emotions got to her thinking I was with a girl drinking bubble tea. On May 14 she texted me saying that “I can’t stop thinking about everything that had happened in the past” and blocked me from everything
We always run back to each other. I just don’t understand why?
my question are
Why does she let guys have sex with her the same night? this isn’t the first time that happens
How does she really feel about me?
Can we work things out in the future?
When will I hear from her again?

As the title says, i got sick only for 1 day(4 days before my big 10k race) had fever and was sleepy but no cough or anything else, i feel good today(3 days before) but wont run, since I want to rest, might do a 5k easy run tomorrow with 2x400 meter race pace to test myself. What do you guys think? Should I just rest? Am I doomed? Please give me some advice