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2014.05.22 01:49 crankasaurus-rex Wax Sealers Anonymous

If you haven't lost the love for letter writing and LOVE to seal them with a wax seal, this is the place for you!
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2024.05.03 04:08 Lrkinpssysnfferz I tried to commit suicide when I was 9. AMA

When I was 9 years old I was bullied bad for a speech impediment I had my whole life and it ruined me. I would dread waking up everyday and just going to school, I would get hit, made fron of, spit on at times and my teachers wouldn't bother to call on me because of my stutter. Life sucked, but I had one love... WWE/ WWF! I loved wrestling, me and my older brother watched it everyday and had a load of fun, I loved Stone Cold Steve Austin and The Rock! Just one day I couldn't take it no more...I took a shirt tied it to my stairs banister and put it around my neck and jumped down my stairs and the banister just broke and I had a mark around my neck. I cried on the floor for what felt like forever and just used makeup to cover the mark up. My parents never noticed, they were always busy and I was very much to myself. After this happened I needed some motivation and strength so I wrote a letter to stone Cole steve austin in crayon and told him what I was going through, my struggles, how I felt, how I thought he was the strongest man in the world and what I should do. I mailed it to wwe adress and everyday for 5 years straight I waited for a respond running to the mailbox looking for a reply and never got one but eh I was a kid! Now I'm 28 years old I'm a veteran, I work as a custodian at a school and life is good! I even got a family! The thing is I think about my childhood alot and wonder where I could of been if I just had the motivation amd stood up for myself
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2024.05.03 04:08 panmanwithnoplan Anothher Day, Another Argument With My Victim Mentality Mother

Hi, I'm a 24 y/o male, Canadian, still living at home (glamorous, I know). I have ADHD and have suspisions I may be on the Autism spectrum as well, but no proof without getting a diagnosis.
I've gone to both college and University, switched career paths twice, worked for 3 and 1/2 years to pay off my debt, buy a car, and pay for my current college course whcih I hope lands me a decemt career. I've also been the deciding (monetary) factor many times in our being able to keep the house that we currently live in. I even paid to replace our washing machine.
I cannot afford to leave home without ending up in debt and ending up homeless, getting stuck in a dead end job for the rest of my life, or (I live on the East Coast of Canada and the economy keeps getting worse).
My mom is a career woman (albeit with some bad luck in that departmemt lately) in her 50s who is going throught the challenges of menopause.
I'm not quite sure if my mom is a narcissist, but she definitely shares a few traits with them.
i.e. -Fishes for sympathy by constantly being hard on herself out loud -Takes any difference of a opinion as a personal offence/slight against her -Always beleive's she's right -If proven wrong, she gets angry and huffy about it -If more than one person disagrees with her at once, she says we're all "ganging up on her" -Constantly talks out loud; sometimes to herself, and sometimes to whoever is there -Depending on her mood, she'll either get annoyed at you for interupting her giant rhetorical rant, or annoyed at you for not listening to the entire thing while she was speaking without making eye contact
That's just a brief overview of the problems that led to our argument though.
You see, my mother definitely has some form of what could be called a "victim complex". She had a bad childhood with abusive parents. One was an alcoholic, the other hit her head on the ice in her 20s(?), and was never the same since. A lifetime of beatings and emotional abuse combined with neglect, and clear favoritism towards her 2 siblings over her, culminated in her dysfunction as an adult. Now, any joke, jab, or mild disagreement reminds her of her horrible childhood when everyone really WAS against her. I understand why she is the way she is, but that doesn't make her any easier to deal with.
I know she has problems. My sister knows she has a problems. My dad, her own husband, has agreed with me that she has problems. We are all in agreement on this.
The only one either unaware of, or refusing to acknowledge, her emotional isssues is my mom herself.
We were picking out something to watch on Netflix together before bed. She mentions "what was that one called again?" I respond "I'm not sure which movie you're talking about🤔, you'll have to clarify". "Maybe you could describe the movie to me?" I ask, assuming ahe had something in mind, but didn't want to force me into watching it assuming it would bore me. "What? No I didn't say anything" she responds in anger. "Oh, sorry, I thought there was some other movie or show you had in mind" I say. "God okay, would you just drop it?" she says, annoyed again. "Why do you always have to keep going and going like that?" she says. "I don't like it when you speak to me like that, all condescending like that, it hurts my feelings, god".
Now, at this point I probably should have said nothing. Unfortunately, two of the things I inherited from her are her stubbornness and her short fuse.
So, I respond "it hurts my feelings too". This sets her off. "You always pick on me like that!" she says. "You speak to me so condescendingly, like I'm a 5-year-old, you're so disrespectful to me!". "Well, I'm sorry, I don't mean to do that, it's just that you're hard to speak to sometimes" I respond as calmly as I can. She scoffs "how dare you, I am your mother! I work hard, I help you, I pay for this house, I help you get through college. You are so arrogant sometimes!"she says. "You're right, I am arrogant" I respond. "But that does not mean that you are completely free of fault either". "I feel like I can't say anything around you without setting you off, because you always seem to think disagee with anyone that doesn't fjt your perfect standards". This REALLY pisses her off. "I DO NOT think I'm perfect!"
I'll spare you from an entire poorly-remembered transcript of the event typed on my phone hastily after, but you get the point. A "you never liked me!" here. A "you're the only one who thinks this way about me!" there. One adult trying to be calm, but, apparently, coming off as condescending. Another refusing to listen to any grivences or concerns, seeing the calm tone as disrepect and vitriol.
I tried mentioning that maybe we should both go to some sort of family (or individual) therapist about this, but she hates even the IDEA of therapy, because she takes it as an insult. She immeditely dismissed the idea, as she always has.
I'd go to therapy myself if I could afford it (broke college student).
She's right about one thing.
She mentioned that she doesn't think I've liked her for a very long time, since my teenage years. I still love her but, given her behavior being that of a walking minefield, it is HARD to like her most of the time.
She's going to be crying about this for a while, but I stopped being able to cry about it years ago.
Instead, I seriously contemplate just running outside and driving my car as far away from here as possible. She mentioned, during our argument, having thought the same, multiple times in the past.
I've gone so far past "sad", that I've entered the realm of "numb".
After years of similar arguments, I'm no longer mad at her actions. I'm just dissapointed.
...thank you for anyone who took the time to read my ramblings. This will probably boil over eventually, just like it always does (assuming I'm not kicked out of the house for this). More than anything else, this was a method to vent. I've been reading this Sub for a few years now, but this is the first time I've actually posted anything.
It's definitely better therapy than the "let it boil inside and do absolutely nothing" method.
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2024.05.03 04:07 daxelkurtz Miquella, Body of Malenia

I'm (finally) playing Elden Ring - not finished yet - and I had a thought. Wondering if this has come up before / why it's wrong :-)
So:
All the demigods are real huge except for Malenia. This seems weird.
Especially because Miquella is huge. His body (judging by his arm) is ginormous, totally to scale with the other demigods. And they're twins! But Malenia is small.
And also... Miquella is supposed to be the one who was eternally youthful. He's portrayed in a statue as being way smaller than Malenia. But in Mohg's cocoon, Miquella is huge, and in the Haligtree, Malenia is small.
Is it crazy to wonder if there's more going on here?
There are a lot things in this game that talk about severing body and soul. It happened with Godwyn. It happened with Miquella too, right? It's right there with Ranni and the doll. Hell, Shabriri walks right up to you and says "yeah I'm Yura - Yura bitch ohhhhh" All this tells us, over and over, that bodies and souls can be severed
She's Malenia The Severed. That could be referring to her missing arm (which is also the only part of Miquella's body that's visible). Or it could be her connection to her brother. Or, it could be referring to her body and her soul.
Look at her dialogue. She "dreamt so long." She "awaited his return." Why is she not just herself, but "Malenia, Blade of Miquella"?
Something's not right.
I kinda think maybe the boss of the Haligtree that we know as "Malenia, Blade of Miquella" is Miquella's body with Malenia's spirit inside of it - and the big corpse in Mohg's place is actually Malenia's body.
And either is has Miquella's spirit inside of it... or it was supposed to, but Miquella's spirit wasn't there.
Why did this switch happen? It could have been done to lock away Malenia's Scarlet Rot. But this did not work. In Caelid, it was Malenia's soul but Miquella's body that fought Radagon - and so it was Malenia's soul that bloomed in Caelid, showing that the Scarlet Rot is not of her body, but of her very being.
Hell, 'Malenia' says "My blood, rotted." Maybe that's a big clue. Maybe that's why Mohg is feeding blood to 'Miquella's' body - because it's actually Malenia's body, but absent her soul, and so Mohg is trying to purge the rot from the body, so that Miquella's spirit can safely inhabit it.
This would be a very Miyazaki thing to do, I think, for two reasons.
On the one hand, he like Surprise Different Gender (Marika/Radagon, Gwyndolin from DS1). The cut content about St. Trina seems to reflect that this is going here - this could be why.
On the other hand, Miyazaki loves bosses that you fight in a broken-down form. Going back to DS1 there's blinded Gough, scaleless blind Seath, burnt Gwyn, Dark-rotted Artorias (who on the box art is clearly right-handed, but when you fight him his right hand is broken and he holds his sword in his left) - all to show you that these bosses who are so hard for you are only remnants of their former power and glory?
What I mean is: If "Malenia, Blade of Miquella" is Malenia's mighty spirit in Miquella's little body, can you imagine what that fight would be like if she was in her own body - a giant dancing the waterfowl dance?
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2024.05.03 04:06 aztechnically Does this sequence have a name or a way to write it as a function?

1 2 1 3 1 2 1 4 1 2 1 3 1 2 1 5 1 2 1 3 1 2 1 4 1 2 1 3 1 2 1 6 1 2 1 3 1 2 1 4 1 2 1 3 1 2 1 5 1 2 1 3.....
The sequence is made like this:
Every other spot gets a 1: 1 _ 1 _ 1 _ 1 _
Of the remaining spaces, every other spot gets a 2: 1 2 1 _ 1 2 1 _
Of the STILL remaining spaces, every other spot gets a 3: 1 2 1 3 1 2 1 _
Sorry I don't know what category to flair this as!
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2024.05.03 04:06 kinisi_fit30 Really need some insight here. Environmental law/ JD + interest in changing policies relating to toxins.

Loc is Fort Worth TX If that matters.
My primary interest is the environment relating to toxins allowed in the air, water, soil, food, personal care products. I care about this because when consumers are exposed to certain toxins it causes hormonal imbalances (amongst other things) and decreases our quality of life.
I want to end up in public policy so I can impact policies relating to this topic.
I’m currently studying political science and felt like a great Segway into the space I want to end up in is being an environmental attorney. I’ve looked at a handful of people whose positions I would love to be in and they studied PS and started out as a lawyer.
I’d love to also (way down the line) do public speaking on the topic and educate the public on why they should care about these policies/ environmental problems and how it affects them.
However, I’m currently in the fitness industry and from time to time I look online to see if there is a job I could do right now that aligns with my long term goals. I frequently see the environmental organizations requesting a bachelors degree in environmental science (makes sense) or at the very least a degree in public policy.
I previously considered studying environmental science instead of PS but it would double the time it would take me to earn the degree because I cannot go to school full time (I work FT and am a single mom). For reference I have roughly 34 credits until my bachelors in PS. I would have 80 more credits going for a bachelors in ES. I’m also 32 and am slightly discouraged that I still haven’t earned a bachelors, so the notion of getting PS in half the time pulls me in that direction. Not to mention my GPA would absolutely be higher doing PS, which of course helps with LS admission.
I’ve considered getting an MPP instead of a JD, but I’ve very frequently read that people with JDs are taking the jobs of the people with MPPs. It just seems like getting a JD makes people MUCH more marketable.
When I look for volunteer opportunities involving the environment it seems like the highest yield orgs want the bachelors degree that I don’t have.
I really don’t know what the best option is moving forward.
Stay at my job that’s completely unrelated to what I want to do, earn a bachelors in PS and apply to law school to be an environmental attorney then work for an environmental agency afterwards? All the while establishing connections and ultimately positioning myself to have an impact on policies that directly deal with my above mentioned focus?
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2024.05.03 04:06 Maleficent_Load6709 Is anyone else tired of so much ridiculous discourse?

I know it's part of the nature of social media to create as much outrage as possible about whatever topic brings the most clicks and reactions, but it's getting to the point where it's becoming almost impossible to have any actual proper discussions about not just gaming but about movies, art, etc.
Every single time anything comes out, there's always some type of unhinged political discourse about it and there's someone getting mad. The worst thing is that most of the time, it doesn't have anything to do with the actual quality or content of the piece but with some type of aesthetic choice that people deem as representing a side in the so-called "culture wars"
You get where I'm going at. It's very easy to cross your arms and claim that it's the other side doing it or that when you do it it's actually righteous because you're fighting for the right cause.
And look, I'll be the first to admit that I'm a biased person in many ways. I have my own political positions which are pretty clear if you know me, but I'm not going to sit down and pretend that this is a left or right-wing issue. People will just look for whatever detail they perceive as not aligning with their values and just lash out while ignoring any artistic merits that a piece might have and completely disregarding the artist's intent.
It's tiresome, it's pointless, it's dumb and it's making it impossible to be able to enjoy media and have normal conversations about it.
A lot of people will claim that it's a matter of "freedom of expression" but the same people won't care about freedom of expression when the content that isn't on "their side" is actually censored. For instance, a lot of the same people who complain about Stellar Blade being censored applaud it when LGBTQ characters are censored in countries like Russia and China or in localizations (and before you go "ha! you're woke." This is just an example of hypocrisy for one side but there are many on both sides).
I think it's completely valid and necessary to take a stance for free expression. I also believe that it's ok for people to criticize or like games for whatever reason they choose, but what's tiresome is the absurdity of tribalist agendas that make it seem like you have to "take a side" for enjoying or not enjoying some piece of media. The same tribalist agendas that so often result in video game developers receiving insults and death threats simply for the creative choices that they make.
Maybe we should all learn to put our own political agendas and biases aside for one moment and look at games and other media for their actual merits, instead of based on which "side" they supposedly take on the "culture war." This should be the case even if a piece of media does have a political message or agenda because, at the end of the day, that's part of freedom of expression too. You can criticize a piece of media's politics and how it plays into the narrative without making it part of some grand conspiracy or some grand culture war and without attacking the people who enjoy it.
Hell, maybe you can even enjoy things that don't "align with your side" if you actually try to take them by their own merits. I know I enjoy a lot of games and movies whose politics I disagree with.
Anyway, these are just my two cents. Sorry for the venting and the long post. I do it here since I know this is one of the few gaming communities that has people with different opinions where these topics are openly discussed.
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2024.05.03 04:06 Master-Fault1711 Who wrote the ending of season 3?

Season was great but that last part where Butcher for no REAL reason starts attacking Soldier Boy made everything shit. Fuckin' 'ell the problem all along was Homelander, now you stop and side, momentarily, with him just because he pushed a lilttle the kid? I mean this makes no fucking sense at all lads. I don't care about the "son" thing because this is a poor excuse for a writer to make Butcher side with Homelander. And for God's sake it's not even Butcher but the whole team, I swear the ONLY guy that can act like that, because he emotional af in this case and I can't blame him, is M.M., he has a real reason to side with anyone if it means killing Soldier Boy, but everyone else? Why Starlight? What the actual fuck where you doin' darling? The man that threatened to kill millions, the man that threatened to kill your love, the man that threatened to kill your friends is right there and you "defend" him? Like come on, you all givin' me a laugh at this point.
What I'm trying to say is that you can't make everyone afraid of Homelander (not for 1 episode, not for 1 season but for 3 SEASONS), so much terrified that they want to kill him and then at the end make them side with him (yeah saying "siding" is not totally correct but he was the target, he was the one that everyone, exept M.M. wanted dead)... I'm going to see how S4 is going to be but this last episode was the worst one out of ALL the 3 seasons, and I'm not even joking. It's not even about "yeah, but they (the writers) had to make the story longer" because there would have been 1000 better ways to do it, this is just bullshit.
P.S. Someone gotta tell me how Maeva survived. We saw few episodes prior, when everyone was in Russia, that with a single blast Soldier Boy not only took away from the Supes their powers but that every single damage even a split second after that, couldn't be healed... Now tell me how a human being, because that's what she became 0.1 seconds after she got blasted, could survive the post-explosion (so the impact force, the fire exc), no real burns seen, and how she could survive THE FALL. Soldier Boy "exploded" mid air, so prolly at least 20m in hight (even more prolly), so after the explosion she had to fall somewhere and somehow right? And as I already said, she lost her powers the moment Soldier Boy "exploded"... You, writers of this show, want to tell me that she magically survived all that and that fall without broking her legs, her back while A-Train's brother got a little pushed and became paralyzed? Sure...
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2024.05.03 04:05 Great_Profession_705 Childhood SA is Ruining My Mental Health

I (21, F) spent a majority of my early childhood being SA'd by my older sister (27 F). I don't know who to talk to this about or how I should even go about fixing this. I thought I had successfully repressed that portion of my life, but after a prominent youtuber who would catch these predators was outted as a fraud it all just came flooding back. As a teenager I used the videos to help bring her to justice in my head, but after he said they were apart of a universe he made up, I had essentially a mental episode in my dorm room.
My parents weren't the best, and even though they'd split before I was born, they thought they'd give living together a shot. The SA started before that when I was 4 and my sister was 10. She posed it as a game. Every night after my grandparents went to sleep and my younger brother crawled out of bed and into my moms room. He would close the door as he left leaving us alone. I was always uncomfortable and I always said no, but she would hit me a several times until I gave in. This persisted for almost 10 years. And I know people will be like "well why didn't you tell anyone?" I did. There was an evening my cousin was over and we had all been put into the loft for the evening (my parents got back together and moved into a shitty townhouse and popped out twins) and we all had to share the upstairs queen. My younger brother woke up and saw what my older sister was doing to me. She asked if he wanted to join and he immediately told my parents. My cousin was awake at that point as well and followed my brother. I finally felt like I was going to be saved. I was wrong. My dad came upstairs and I ran to him. My mom tore us apart and they started asking what happened. I remember my sister vehemently denying it and then my memory turns to black fuzz. The next thing I remember was sitting on the floor of my parents bedroom downstairs a few days later watching Scooby Doo (I wasn't allowed to watch this so it really stuck with me). My dad quietly entered and sat next to me in the edge of his bed. With tears in his eyes and told me if something like that happened again to tell him. I nodded and hugged his calf and cried the rest of the episode. My mother and grandmother thought it was entirely my fault. They told me if I wore pants to bed (I had a serious bed wetting issue that started after the first event) and not just a sleep diaper that it wouldn't have led my sister to temptation. I was 7 the first time she was caught so she was 14.
When she started it again, I told my parents. They even caught her completely naked the second time I'd told them. None of the punishments worked. Saying No didn't work. Telling an adult didn't work. Hitting her back didn't work. This persisted until she got a boyfriend and ran away the third time, finally leaving me alone. I'd rather drink every cleaning solution under the bathroom sink before neurons could even form the thought of doing that to my 5 other siblings (my parents popped out a girl 2 years later and a boy 2 years after that). She was never fully punished, and the entire family swept the ordeal under the rug. Later in life she'd show me nudes she'd send to other guys or would try to spend alone time with me, but after she turned around and accused my dad, her non-biological father, of SA we cut contact with her. She ended up admitting she made it up bc she saw the uproar that happened when I admitted it and she didn't particularly like my father.
Now she's back in my life as if nothing happened. She has 2 young beautiful boys and I'm terrified she might put them through what I went through. This has been eating away at me since he was born. I've been in a relationship with a boy I've loved for 3 years, about to be 4, and I haven't told him the real reason my SAD really spiraled out of control this last winter. I feel dirty. I feel sick. I threw up while writing this but I don't know what to tell him, or even if I should. My sex drive used to be through the roof but it's essentially shot. The memories will start to play during things and Ill shut my eyes tight and drown everything out. He's a very loving partner. Very attractive and i feel so safe with him. He'll ask for consent multiple times and will stop when needed. I've hinted at SA to him before but never told him any of this. I dont know how. He worried for me a lot and I dont want the dynamic of our relationship to become Therapist and patient.
I was spiraling so bad I almost took my life this past march. I told my dad. He suspected I was depressed and I feel like he knows why. I just needed a place to scream this into the void. My parents split a week before I moved to college (surprise surprise she cheated) and my dads been going to therapy. He's at the end tail of the boomer gen, born in '79, so I was thrilled to learn he started taking mental health seriously. Not just for him, but his children as well. He's got full custody of my other siblings so I don't want to burden him with my issues as well. I'm probably going to continue dealing with this privately. Just needed a place to scream into the void.
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2024.05.03 04:05 Longjumping_Bag4666 Review: KID FAKES As Smart FOR A GIRL, What Happens Is Shocking

Welcome back to my review series. I know last week I said I would be doing them on Saturdays, but I decided to do this week's review early because I'm bored tonight. Today's video will be a 2022 video titled "KID FAKES As Smart FOR A GIRL, What Happens Is Shocking". One new thing about these reviews, not only will I be giving the video a score from 0-10, but I will now also be listing off the common Dhar Mann tropes(ego stroke, typecasting, etc.) that I come across in each video. Anyway, let's get into today's video.
The video starts with our main antagonist Adam(Dylan Harris) complaining to his friend about failing his Chemistry exam and he's doing worse than he did when he took Chemistry last year. Friend offers to help him study since she got an A of course, Adam agrees to go over her house later. Adam is cleaning out his mess of a backpack when he drops a bunch of scantrons and friend says "I wonder is Mr. Johnson(teacher) uses the answers each year for his tests". Adam compares friend's scantron to his old ones and finds an exact match, he then says he can use the old scantrons to cheat on his tests. Adam says chemistry will be his favorite class this year and teacher(Sean Harris) overhears him and tells him hopefully he can pass his class this year. Friend then tells Adam she hopes he doesn't plan on cheating on his tests. Um, you're the one who brought up that your teacher uses the same answers, he got the idea from YOU.
Later, Adam and friend are outside and Adam is FaceTiming his mom and says he passed the test. But because he is such a bad liar, mom knows he didn't really pass. Adam admits to failing the first test but says he'll pass all the other ones(which means this is the first test, remember that later). Mom reminds him if he doesn't pass the class she's taking away his car. As Adam is hanging up on his mom, his car gets hit and he is all angry. But then a pretty girl(Sarah Noelle) gets out of the car and starts apologizing. Adam is immediately in love and instantly forgives her for hitting his car and asks why he's never seen her in school before. Girl says she transferred schools and introduces herself then compliments Adam's car. Adam can barely talk to her and tells her he is investing in crypto, which is why he has the car. After girl leaves, friend reminds Adam his parents got him the car as an early graduation gift.
We then cut to class when we learned Adam got an A- on his exam. Why didn't he get an A or A+ you ask? Because he got a few questions wrong on purpose to not make his cheating look obvious. Pretty smart way to cheat if you ask me. I don't condone cheating in most cases, but if you're going to cheat, you might as well be smart about it. Adam brags to girl about his grade, then girl says she got a C and used to be great at chemistry when her now ex boyfriend would help her out. Adam agrees to help girl study and says he knows chemistry like the back of his hand. Teacher then asks the class a question about noble gasses because the class is confused about them and calls on Adam to answer since he's "picking this stuff up quickly". Adam doesn't know the answer and makes a funny joke instead. Teacher just laughs and ignores the fact that Adam didn't answer the question.
We then cut to the library, where Adam is meeting up with girl to "study". Friend is there too and tells Adam the cliche message that is "lying always catches up to you". Girl then sits down to study and asks Adam the difference between ionic and covalent bonds. Adam says to look in the book for the answer, and girl says "You don't know this off the top of your head?". Even if he doesn't, why does that matter? Just because he did well on one test doesn't mean he has to remember all the answers off the top of his head. Adam continues trying to make jokes and change the subject, but girl wants to study more and says she is confused with chemical formulas. She is confused as to what NaClO means. Adam tells her NaClO is salt water since salt is NaCl and water is H2O and he uses salt water to get stains off his clothes. Girl just believes him even though there's a textbook RIGHT IN FRONT OF HER that probably has all these formulas and what they are. And again, Adam is a terrible liar. She seems pretty stupid herself if you ask me. After a bit more filler conversation, they agree to study later and leave the library. A scantron falls out of Adam's backpack that says D, and Girl asks him if he got a D on the test. Adam tells her it's his brother's scantron who he's helping out and she believes him again. Is his name not on the scantron? Wow this character is an idiot. But we're not done yet.
We cut to chemistry class as apparently, this is their only class, and teacher says he needs a volunteer for a fun experiment. Girl agrees to volunteer and teacher explains the experiment. After spilling chemicals on her pants, Girl attempts to clean it with liquid from a beaker labeled NaClO. Girl rats out Adam and tells teacher he told her NaClO was salt water. Teacher informs her it is indeed bleach which he had out for another demonstration, so Girl's clothes are now ruined. Girl is annoyed at Adam for giving her wrong information before teacher says he graded last week's midterms. In a stronger effort to impress Girl, Adam decided to ditch his original plan of get a few wrong to look less suspicious and just goes for an A+. Girl got a D and told Adam they should've spent more time studying. You mean the test that you JUST studied for? The pacing of this video makes no sense, but more on that later. Adam asks teacher where his test is, and teacher asks him the difference between ionic and covalent bonds. Adam doesn't know the answer and attempts to change the subject and crack a joke again, but teacher is not having it this time. Then teacher asks Adam what chemical H2O2 is and Adam answers incorrectly. Now Girl is really pissed at Adam since he isn't really smart with chemistry. Teacher then exposes him for cheating in front of the whole class. Teacher says he uses the same answer key each year to make it easier for him to grade, but because he was suspicious of Adam's A-, he changed the answers and of course, like in the driving test video, Adam got them all wrong. Couple things wrong here. First, why are you exposing him in front of the whole fucking class instead of having a private chat with him? Second, him doing well on one test doesn't prove he's cheating. This teacher had no reason to believe Adam was cheating aside from an improvement. Friend repeats the message of the video about lying, and Adam asks girl to hang out later. Girl tells Adam she never wants to see him again and then makes a joke about him in front of the class. You never want to see him again because he cheated on a couple tests and pretended to be good at chemistry? Adam, I know this hurts, but you dodged a bullet here. She clearly only liked you because she thought you were smart.
We then go outside where Adam is locked out of his car which his mom has. Mom tells Adam since he's not graduating he's not getting the gift and she is selling the car and using the money for her and Adam's dad. What? He took three tests over the span of like a few weeks and he failed for the whole year? This is what I meant when I said the pacing of this video makes no sense. Also, the most recent test was a midterm, meaning Adam should still have at least half the course to improve his grade. But what's worse is mom gives Adam a bus pass and not only takes his car, but won't drive him home. And that's the end.
Thoughts? Another bad one. Everyone but Adam was an asshole here, the girl is very shallow like Daisy from the iPhone 15 video and Alicia from the report card video, the mom leaves him abandoned in a parking lot like Alex's mom from the iPhone 15 video, and the teacher exposed him in front of the whole class instead of having a conversation with him. The friend also gave Adam the idea to cheat and did nothing to stop him other than throw cliche messages at him. 3/10
Tropes I found: Extreme karmic retribution, antagonist punished harshly for minor offenses, narc/goody two shoed friend, message of the video repeated over and over, bad parent, plot makes little to no sense
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2024.05.03 04:05 lavidaloco123 Any current reviews for Mercat a la Planxa?

Mercat used to be one of our top spots, but the last two times we went it was very meh. In all fairness that was over a year ago. Anyone have a more recent review? Would love to go back if they have taken their game back up. They were great way back when.
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2024.05.03 04:05 Fun-Inspector-5739 37 [M4R] #Socal / California - Looking for new friends! We can voicechat, watch shows/movies/anime, or play games!

Hi hi there! Been finding myself kind of lonely and friendless lately and late so I'm trying to make some new connections out here. Whether it be platonic (with men or women) or if it goes that way naturally, I'm also open to maybe something more (with women only). Just be honest what you're looking for is all I'm asking. Definitely more of an introvert but I can be a yapper! (don't say I didn't warn ya)
Some info about me that might be relevant:
Looking for someone chill and more laid back to chat with. We can game, watch shows/movies or just talk. Maybe we can even meet one day! We can hit up an arcade, get some korean bbq or watch something together if we vibe well together! Please send me a message with the name of your favorite song, movie, book, or game if you wanna chat! :]
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2024.05.03 04:05 102gab Group parts WITHOUT creating a sub-assembly for BOM purposes?

Lets say you have a kit that includes 1 nut, 1 bolt, 1 washer. You buy that kit under a certain part number. But you are also able to buy each individual component under their own part number. The thing is, each nut bolt and washer can be used differently and may not have the same mates (sometimes the nut may be further along the threads of the bolt).
Is there any way to group these (3) parts without making a sub assembly that would "FIX" all my parts to my main model (fixing the mates)? I would love for my BOM to say "ITEM 1. KIT, ITEM 1.1 BOLT, ETC".
The only way I think I can achieve this is by making a empty assembly file that contains the 3 empty part files already with the proper custom properties. Afterwards, I would have to insert copies of this empty assembly into my main assembly file while demoting the real modeled hardware to not show in my BOM. This also means I can't balloon these real parts...
Thank you!
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2024.05.03 04:04 GreenSpace57 TECEP Exams and Law School GPA

I would like to take the Technical Writing TECEP exam at Thomas Edison State University, but I was wondering if I fail, will it affect my law school admissions GPA? It looks like it isn't even counted on the transcript if you fail, but if anyone who has done this can confirm, it would be appreciated.
This is the exam I would like to take: https://www2.tesu.edu/tecep.php?CourseCode=ENG-201
Excerpt from website:
Grades TECEP® grades are recorded as CR (Credit) or NC (No Credit) and do not affect the grade point average (GPA). Students who register but don't test or withdraw by the last day of the term will receive an NT (Not Taken) grade. An official transcript will not show a numeric score, a letter grade, an NC or NT grade, only exams successfully completed and the number of credits earned.
Students can view their TECEP® grades in their Online Student Services account and will be mailed a hard copy grade report.
The minimum score required to earn credit on a TECEP® exam is equivalent to a letter grade of C.
Thank you!
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2024.05.03 04:04 SubstantialHat2091 what are some actually well written romances???

pls give me recs for novels that center romance that are actually well written with a strong storyline outside of ridiculous and unrealistic inconveniences.
when i look up romances, i tend to see books like emily henry so i tried beach read and it wasnt outright offensive, just not for me. idk. it didnt completely disgust me like some booktok books i see, but i think id not read by that author again and id like suggestions for great love stories that are different
i have a hard time taking present time romances seriously because often the characters are so obnoxious (like why is the girl always insecure and i love characters being driven by their personal struggle but its so obnoxious when they make the girl worship the guy in a way where shes like ‘oh my god i cant believe he likes me hes so chiseled i dont deserve him’) and/or theres no real plot outside of ‘these two are not getting together based on some ridiculous hurdle and unrealistic misunderstandings/reactions for the sake of driving the plot’
if i read modern romances im mostly likely to read lgbt ones bc theres a little bit less internalized misogyny. im not even saying they have to be confident but why is it always some obviously conventionally attractive woman seeing a big buff man and being shy and weak and insecure and just generally the woman being a symbol to live vicariously through rather than real storytelling. i also hate like in fourth wing for example where shes kinda obnoxiously confident almost defensively? like the author was overcompensating and its like. God. No self respecting adult woman thinks this way pls be normal
like sometimes these books are less love stories and theyre more like, to satisfy a fantasy because so many authors miss the mark as far as making the reader become invested in the romance rather than just expressing the physical attraction
im not hating on these kinds of books bc i get it, its fun and i dont think it has to meet my interests to have a right to exist but i do want something else right now. The last romances i enjoyed were song of achilles, seven husbands of evelyn hugo, captive prince if thats what u can categorize them as (i realize these are all lgbt but that is not a requirement)
it can be M/F,F/F,M/M,etc modern, time piece, tragedy, scifi, fantasy, etc. my only requirement is that it be well written . just good
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2024.05.03 04:04 Good_verbal6 I had a baby six months ago, and it killed my sex life.

I had my beautiful baby girl 6 months ago with my husband of almost 3 years. We each had 2 kids with other people prior to getting married, making this baby #5 between us. Our kids are 9- girl, 8- boy, 5- boy, 3- girl, and the 6 month old baby. Needless to say, it can be very chaotic most days. Gymnastics, kickboxing, school, daycare… and we both work full time and I’m also in online school for certifications to enhance my career. Before the baby, we couldn’t keep our hands off each other. Constantly touching and spending actual quality time and going on dates. But since the baby, we barely kiss once a day. No more holding my hand in bed just because or coming up behind me while I’m making dinner to kiss my neck… it’s destroying my self- esteem, confidence in myself and in my marriage, and it’s slowly started chipping away at my general morale. I don’t know where to even start to be the couple we were before. I miss us so much. My husband is an incredible active and present father, loyal and uncomplaining provider, and I love him with all my heart. But how do I even start to get back to where we were? Does it come back? I’m so in my head that it feels awkward to initiate anything. Please help. I love my husband and my marriage and our life together. How do I get back to being someone that he wants in that way again?
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2024.05.03 04:04 Vaaren96 I know I'm a moron. I got task scammed outta ~8k

Before I write this. Yes I know I'm stupid. No, I don't need to hear you say it. I am already telling myself it. If you wanna be charitable you can call me desperate or greedy. This just happened. After writing this out I feel even more stupid
I might do a more high-effort post w/ screenshots but after I process this. I'm writing it because I have to do something otherwise I'm gonna go crazy/cry/slam my face against a wall.
I received a WhatsApp message from a recruiter with a company pretending to be ULAM Labs. It's a Polish company that does crypto stuff. Looked at their website and looked good enough to me. To be honest I got time on my hands and I need a way to pay for my Masters so I just jumped at the chance without thinking. My gut was telling my something was off but my greed overrode it.
It's what I learned a few hours ago is called a task scam. They say you are helping boost ratings in the app store. So they discreetly hire people to go through their webapp and download various apps that occur in a different environment but are connected to your internet. They start you off with a trial account where you earn cash, and then they send you like 95 bucks on the platform. To begin the work you need a minimum of 100 bucks on the platform. (This is where I shoulda went SKETCHY stop, don't waste your money!) So I gave them the 5 bucks worth of Etherium. I thought HEY! if I get scammed it's just 5 bucks.
I do the tasks and surprisingly when I withdrew funds I earned a decent profit at like 140 bucks. Wow!, I thought. I actually got paid? This might not be a scam? So I went back the next day. I earned a bit more, I hit like 300 bucks?
Now I have to tell you about something that if I wasn't a moron would have been my signal to get out with the profit I made... combination apps Combination apps were explained as batch tasks that pay more but you have to stick in more money as each task requires a certain amount of capital. You cannot continue without balancing the account to 0. And you cannot withdraw your money until you complete all tasks. So the first few times it was only like 10 bucks.... then 100... Well I already earned a decent chunk. They wouldn't risk giving away so much money for a couple hundred right? There's no way a scammer would make profits off of that right? And you're probably right. If dumbasses like me didn't go further...
So the next day I do it again, I pull out my money. It's fine. But then we get to today... To play it safe I did an initial deposit of 200 bucks. After all I earned 500 the day prior. But then the combination tasks got wacky... First it was 200 bucks... okay fine it made my uneasy but I did it. Then It was another 500... okay fishy... But I private messaged some people in the whatsapp group that were also new... I got some reassurance and they were skeptical too, but they were still going for it. So I put in the money... Then some tasks later it asked me for 2400. I REALLY thought on this one but my greed got the best of me. I did it and as soon as I did it I knew it was a mistake. That's a pretty chunk of change for me since I'm a grad student. But I saw there was a group meet up in DC at the end of the month... they wouldn't go through the effort of faking that right? And I checked the phone numbers. No VoIPs they looked like legit numbers. But then the next one was 4500... okay NOW I'm suspicious... This is where I started furiously googling and found out what a Task scam was... So I messaged a new person in the group chat I had been talking too. They also said they were sketched out. They had a discussion in the group chat and told me they were suspicious but they were gonna see if they could get their money out. So they put in 7k. And they showed me screenshots showing they got their cash. They said they were out. And then asked me if I was gonna go for it or just take it on the chin? I asked customer service to let me withdraw my money early, and that I would sell my stocks to get more liquid capital for the next time I did it. They didn't buy it... and said that they could not release funds that were tied up in the apps.
Now... this is where you all are facepalming... Well I went for it... I put in the 4.5k and said well I'm already screwed might as well go for it and see if I can salvage it. They said you can only get a certain amount of combination apps so I thought...okay I'll play dumb and act like I have more money than I do. In fact! The person I was messaging told me to do that. They said if you're going for it then play it smart. Little did I know... they were one of the scammers.
I put in 4.5k I made it to the last task and.... it wanted 13k. I stopped here... better late than never?
The person I messaged who I thought was a fellow victim sent me a message in Dutch saying "your avatar is jinxing you, think twice before you make a deposit" with laugh emojis. I totally didn't cry at all... So I begged them for atleast some of the money back... I gave sob stories about how it was everything I had and that I sold all my stocks to pay for it... And well... they are scammers so they tried squeezing me for a little more. Jokes on them I'm broke.
I exported all the WhatsApp chat logs... I figured I'd email it to scam youtubers and see if they wanted it. So if you got suggestions hit me up.
Honestly I'm crushed but I deserve it for being so dumb. I'd like to blame it on desperation but there are way more desperate people that wouldn't fall for this. Writing it out makes me feel even more stupid. I'd like to say the humiliation is worse than the cash loss but both hurt pretty bad lmao.
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2024.05.03 04:03 HistoricalCrab1533 My step son has an internet addiction. Help

I’ve been involved with my husband and his two sons lives for nearly 8 years now. Married for 4 years. The oldest is now 15 and the youngest is 13. To give a bit of background, my husband and I both went through a period of addiction throughout the beginning of our relationship. However we have both been sober for now 5 years. It was a process to change our lives around but we have beaten the odds and have stable jobs, a home of our own and have been regained our lives. Due to own addiction we weren’t fully present in the boys lives like we should’ve been but their dad and myself were still in contact. Onto today’s events. The boys have lived with their mom their whole lives up until the past two years. While living with their mom, neither of the boys were taught anything about basic hygiene, how to properly shower, how to clean up after themselves or any of life’s basics lessons on how to take care of themselves. Not to down their mother in any way, I just don’t think she herself was taught most of those things either. She absolutely loves her children and looks out for their best interest before anything else. Which led the boys to living with us for the past two years now. The beginning was kind of rough, but they have been taught hygiene, how to do their own laundry, how to cook and now have daily chores to help with responsibilities. The younger boy has adapted well. Good grades, doesn’t need reminding about his chores, very social, well mannered etc. The oldest however has not. He has been defiant for as long as I have been present and from my understanding since he was born. Since before he lived with us, he has done the bare minimum with his school work and has never socialized with anyone other than AI. He hit an age where he began not only having outbursts with his mom, but began assaulting her. She had lost her stability in ways I will not elaborate because that’s her business. But she asked their father and I for help by taking the boys and showing them both how to be men now that they’re at that age and no longer being able to handle the oldest. The oldest has been defiant on everything, down to showering. The worst of it is his obsession with electronics. My husband and I have done everything we could to help them both adjust to the new structure in their lives that they’ve been without. The oldest began lying about schoolwork to the point of hiding his untouched homework in his backpack. Due to his grades being failing we grounded him from his laptop. This did not sit well with him, so he has taken it upon himself to use his school issued laptop for his activities rather than schoolwork. He would bring the laptop home,and once his school work was done(which took hours due to us having to constantly monitor what he was doing because he would try to do anything but his school work) we would take it. He would end up sneaking to get it in the middle of the night and stay up all night and refusing to get up for school. After a month of pleading with the school to issue him books rather than a laptop they finally relented and took the laptop once he got put in ISS for yelling at his teacher for blocking a non school website. Now he has broken our door off the hinges to steal back his laptop/phone and has physically attacked his brother to steal his brother devices to the point of us having to install a security camera to have eyes on him at all times(background my husband works thirds and I work first shift) this past week he got into a fight on the bus for assaulting a girl over her turning his laptop off for the bus driver due to him playing music so loud the bus driver couldn’t concentrate (he had his school laptop for testing for a couple of days). Today he was suspended from school for attempting to steal another student’s laptop and is now pending felony charges for theft from the school. My husband and I have tried everything, he’s in therapy, he’s been grounded , we’ve given him more chores. I’m at a loss on what else we can possibly do. Please help.
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2024.05.03 04:03 ExtensionBox8375 Am I asking for too much?

Just looking for different perspectives as I don't really have anyone in my real life I can talk to about things.
I (F24) have been in a relationship with Turtle (M34) for coming up to 4 years now, we are very long distance. I have known Turtle is married to Butterfly since we started talking. The past year has been rocky for us, I haven't been able to be with Turtle in person since May of last year and me bringing it up has been a source of guilt for Turtle which has meant we've been arguing a lot over it. From my understanding Butterfly doesn't feel able to have me visit again and that doesn't seem to be changing anytime soon. I've tried to find out what I did wrong the last visit that has lead to this change but Butterfly doesn't feel ready to talk to me about it.
I've tried to find a compromise, where maybe Turtle and I can have a weekend trip somewhere together or something of the sort, but Turtle tells me that's not possible either.
Turtle's life has been busier the past year, so he has less time and attention to give to me. I understand that, but it hurts. We've argued about that too; I ask if we can have more time together and Turtle tells me he doesn't have the time or attention to give to me. I recently had to make the decision to step away from our d/s dynamic for my wellbeing, because with less time together I don't think my emotional needs are being met in a way that that's sustainable. I feel like everything is crumbling around me and I don't know if I'm being unreasonable in asking for more time and attention or continuing to ask Turtle when I can visit again. I love Turtle very deeply and I've been very open about wanting to build a life together, wanting to live together, I see Turtle as part of my family. Turtle has told me he wants those things too.
I don't know how much longer I can compromise on my need for physical affection and in-person time with my partner, but I don't know if that's just me not being very experienced with relationships and asking for too much. So I'm asking, am I asking for too much from Turtle?
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2024.05.03 04:02 MindAffectionate9897 My girlfriend 25F finds me 25M less (physically) attractive now. What do I do?

UPDATE:
Update on this: https://www.reddit.com/cheating_stories/s/kQPloTPH8U
TLDR SUMMARY:
A quick summary on my previous post, my LDR girlfriend (25F) has a crush and kept and hid it from me (25M). They have zero interaction now even when we were talking. They’re friends on social media and only unfriended him half of our labeled relationship. I keep flying to her (1 hour away separated by sea) every month and we go on trips for novelty. We’re together for more than a year, talked for half a year before we got together.
HER STRUGGLE:
So we had a very difficult and honest conversation. She told me she doesnt find me that attractive (physically) anymore than before we got together and had a label.
She said she is still attracted to me. There are just days where she finds me unattractive (idk if this is hormones or bc of the pills). And on those days, she said she is unexcited to be with me.
And she has felt this for a long time but did not communicate to me. This then manifested into her checking other guys who are more attractive than me (hence the daydreaming from my previous post). She said sometimes she craves to be with someone more attractive. She’s curious.
She said on those days, even when I treat her right, she feels unexcited to be with me when she finds me unattractive.
That’s why she kept the crush. She said sometimes she’s imagining what it is like to be with her crush. Attraction is uncontrollable, I know. But imagining to be with someone else tells something.
Sometimes she feels she’s dating someone less attractive than her. And she sometimes questions why she’s with me.
I do everything for her. She said she might have gotten used to my efforts and did not realize it’s wrong. But I think there’s nothing I can do to make her appreciate me if she cant find me that attractive anymore to the point of wanting to be with someone else.
She said she feels guilty for having those feelings. She said she will work on herself.
Again, she only feels this on the days im not THAT attractive.
HER CHOICE:
She told me even though I dont look attractive 100% of the time, she still wants to be with me. She can only compare the physical, but that she’s not in this relationship with me JUST for physical. And that she still find me physically attractive, just not as intense as before. She adores the person that I am and she loves me and she loves herself when she’s with me. And that she will work ok her boundaries.
she said she sees herself marrying me and that she still wants a future with me. she wants to work it out.
MY TAKE:
Tbh at fist she wasnt pretty 100% of the time. That did not make me want to be with someone else or be curious. But as we progressed, I came to love, appreciate, and find her attractive even on the days she’s not trying. I love her in every way. I thought she would feel the same.
I workout all the time (she doesnt), Im more stable than her financially, I am more emotionally intelligent, I have a skin care, I am half of my master’s degree, I give her time, I let her have an alone time, we do new things for novelty, I see her as often, we have an amazing sex life and we both have high libido for each other and I make her finish all the time, I crave growth.
so I am pretty confident with who I am and how I treat her. She admits im doing everything right tho she said she feels like she doesnt deserve me (might the cause of the problem?)
suspect it’s the honeymoon phase dying? overfamiliarity? complacency?
HELP:
  1. So for those who stayed and worked through this struggle (less physical attracion) as an individual and as a couple, what did you do? And did it get better?
I have read that at first , it’s effortlessly intense. But as you’re together for long term, you have to work to keep the relationship. Is that right?
Again, she said she still finds me attractive, just finds me less (physically) attractive on some days. but that's not the only reason why she wants to be in a relationship and that she is choosing me still.
  1. For the obvious answer to break up now, I’d like to hear your thoughts. Please be gentle
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2024.05.03 04:02 iifinch How’s this for a blurb? Dark Fantasy/ Horror novel

TRAGEDY OR MAJESTY
You are destined to fail forever in Division’s Hand. This country is made for monsters that haunt outside your door and those with the powers of monsters. Velli can’t fail anymore. He’s at risk of losing the woman he loves, his friends have been slaughtered, and his mom is on the edge of death. And yet, there is a path forward. In this world, where most have powers, he has a curse holding him back from everything he wants in life. He can trade his curse for power though. But first, he must defeat legends, monsters, and murderers. It’ll only take a few lies and a little violence. Or so he thinks. Velli risks losing his soul for a chance at survival. This ends one of two ways; Tragedy or Majesty.
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2024.05.03 04:02 laustic Your go-to TJ’s hangover cures?

I’m not currently hungover, but have some events coming up that are hangovers waiting to happen: weddings, music festivals, etc. And hangovers come way too easily nowadays, especially the insatiable hangover appetite after the nausea dies down. (So long, invincible 20s). TJ’s is great cuz it has a ton of quick and easy options I can microwave/air fry, instead of waiting in agony for a food delivery driver with a zillion other stops on the way.
So, what are your fave TJ’s products for a hangover? Whether it’s a weird cure you swear by, something to eat/drink beforehand that’s preventative, or something that just hits the hungover spot, let’s hear your faves! I’ll be stocking up.
I think their cold pressed pineapple juice might help hangovers, but I also might just love that pineapple juice so much that it temporarily distracts from the pain…
(Obviously not seeking actual medical/scientific advice here, just your personal go-tos.)
Thanks!
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2024.05.03 04:02 Ill_Possession_3833 He said he is not attracted to me, l won’t have sex till i figure things out with him

This will be a long one, I apologoise for the verbosity. My life is spiralling and I just need someone to give me outside perspective, sane advice.
To lay the groundwork of my story: I 26f got married to my husband 25m last year. 6 months into our marriage I found out he was in an emotional and slightly physical (a few kisses) affair with a coworker at the TIME OF OUR WEDDING. The months leading up to it, till her wedding, which was a month before ours. The A did not continue after our weddings but they did meet in group settings (both had left the job but had a friend group from there) and maybe a couple of times alone or one time, where he asked to meet her to say “ what we did was wrong and now that we are married it is long on a whole other level so we shouldn’t stay in touch” i am not taking his word for it, she says his words back to him on a message that I read. After this, he told me himself about the affair. We separated, i wanted a divorce and gave him hell for it, he did everything he could to get me to R, and for various reasons i eventually chose to reconcile.
All this ofcourse took a huge toll on the both of us, and this is where the porn dependency started forming. He is dealing with shame, guilt, depression, lack of self-respect and self worth. Our sex life started to feel off when he began initiating less and less since december, this is when he started using porn more.
Last month he confessed that this is the case, and since he has gone into his shell completely i was relieved that he came to me with this. He said he was using porn almost regularly or every other day and didnt want that to be the case, i was supportive and we discussed things but I didn’t draw a boundary of “no porn” only for him to cut back. It went down to every 4,5 days but it began to bother me so i asked him to quit cold turkey. I told him i have a high sex drive and he has no reason to want to use porn.
A couple days ago after a week long break he said he had watched porn again, I asked him why to which he had no answer. I asked him if he was still attracted to me, to which he said no in other words. That is what led me to make my first post here.
The next morning he brought me his phone and asked me to put restrictions on it and change the screen time passcode. He deleted reddit and said he wants to take a break from insta for some time too.
However, i just cannot get over the attraction comment, and I have thought to send him this message. I need honest guidance and advice I am really unsure what happens next.
This is the message:
“I do not want to have sex with you anymore: - This does not have to primarily do with porn dependency, I had an idea of that always and that never icked me out of sex before. - The reason i do not want to have sex with you anymore is because i do not want to have sex with anyone who is not attracted to me. - Sex is sacred to me, it is an act of literally permitting someone to enter your body, I do not want to give someone access to me like that when they do not honour me or value me enough. - I feel degraded, i thought my self-respect and self-worth had already hit rock bottom but this feels like a newer low. - I understand that you do not find me nice to look at/ have no interest in looking at me because I have gained a lot of weight and don’t look good. But if your attraction to me is solely limited to looks then this is doomed anyway because one should be attracted to spouse for reasons other than just their body, i.e; their face, their laugh, their mannerisms, what they are like in bed, their personality, their mind, etc. Moreover even though now i feel like I am hideous, I know I am not, even complete strangers remind me of that fact. - Now when people compliment me or tell me i am really cool, or funny or smart or witty or pretty, i feel like they are lying because if it was true, you would feel that way about me too. The logical part of my brain knows knows i am a woman of high value and my self-worth should not be attached to you but my research tells me betrayal trauma often has this effect on betrayed spouses who choose reconciliation. - I always had sex with you because I wanted you. No other reason besides that, yes on some occasions it may have been out of lust or anger or whatever but primarily it was because i wanted you, sex was never just a means to orgasm for me. However since you have mentioned that you prefer porn to sex as it is easier, you come quicker so it is not tiring, etc, I will not stop you from engaging with porn, whatever rocks your boat. But I will not be having sex with you knowing you can find a random stranger on the internet attractive and not me.
Way forward: - You can either work on yourself to figure out why would you do every damaging thing you can to someone who has loved you so much. You can figure out how you can build your self worth back enough to hold your partner valuable and to finish this inherent dissatisfaction you seem to have with me. - Or you can continue as it is, and revert back to damaging behaviors and bad habits without putting in the work to be your best possible self, in turn increasing your unhappiness and dissatisfaction with life, yourself and your wife.
Research: According to my research, depression, betrayal trauma and porn addiction are all studied and proven factors in loss of self-belief, self-worth and increased dissatisfaction in life. Studies have shown that people with porn dependency are increasingly dissatisfied with their sex lives and their partners and lose attraction for their partners completely, in often cases leading to severe addiction and accelerated use. I will share that with you.”
Edit to add: We are both struggling to find therapists that would be good fits for our situation, where we are from it is difficult to find a therapist who is skilled and experienced in betrayal trauma or addictions, and some people we have seen just go on to make things worse than better, so I would appreciate online resources instead of therapy as a suggestion please, as that is already being worked on, any good online therapists would also be a greatt suggestion!
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