Between all of these styles, which one would you like to see or would most likely use? Descriptions for what I think the styles could be like are below. Critique and commentary welcome. (yes, some of them may be op/far fetched, but it's for fun.)
(Legendary)
Nekota: Your overwhelming speed and sharp instincts make you an excellent fighter capable of taking down even the strongest opponents. However, accumulated damage causes you to lose control of your body and your senses. (Gimmick: At max health, you have the some of the fastest dodges in the game, and fast start-up. At 50% or lower, dodges become only slightly above average, and attack speed reduces by a bit. At 20% or lower, your dashes become slow and your start-up speed reduces greatly, roughly to the same level as corkscrew. Buffs return if you regen your health.)
Ultimate[Hope of the People]: Dodge multiple of your opponent's punches, then close in and hit them repeatedly once they're tired and vulnerable before dealing a finishing blow.
Nekota's damage is average, if not, slightly lower. He does a bit of extra counter damage. Nekota's damage would remain the same no matter the state he's in. No major weaknesses other than a below average guard and his debuffs when his health gets low.
Titles: [Agile💨], [Faithful💫], [Burning Candle🕯️]
(Legendary)
Anderson: You will win by any means necessary. Naturally strong attacks, including a powerful heavy called the Artillery Strike, and a special last resort for when the occasion arises. Rabbit Punch: A cheating punch that can hit opponents during a perfect dodge. (The Rabbit Punch can be triggered when the enemy perfect dodges. The hit itself won't do much damage at all, but will cancel an opponent's dodge and also stun them like the Ghost Jab. Cooldown is quite long and doesn't go down by itself, similar to Ghost or Ippo.)
Ultimate[Dirty Tactics]: Throw a punch that gets dodged by the opponent, before Rabbit Punching them and dealing a brutal barrage, finishing off with a full power Artillery Strike/Chopping Right.
Anderson would have high damage but would also take high counter damage, almost like shotgun. Start-up, dashes, and movement would be below average, but would also have a fairly strong block. Rabbit Punch cannot knock down opponents even if they're at 1% percent, nor is it guaranteed to set up an m1/m2 if it connects(potentially if ping is good enough).
Titles: [Sergeant🪖], [War Hero 🇺🇸], [Dishonorable 🎭]
(Mythic)
Switch-Hit(Randy Boy Jr.): An unpredictable and versatile fighter that embodies multiple boxers in one body. Ability: You can switch between three stances to change the trajectory and properties of your punches. Punch highlights are dimmed heavily. (Switching stances will have no cooldown like Freedom. There is no practical difference between left and right other than the direction of the punches. Middle stance will, however, have stronger attacks at the cost of slower start-up than left or right stance. You can also cancel a heavy by swapping stances in the middle of it, similar to a feint.)
Ultimate[Asura]: You will take the form of Asura and look like you have multiple arms as your opponent gets hit by various punches from all sides, before reverting to normal and lunging in to hit a finishing blow.
Well-rounded stats. No major weaknesses, but being in the left or right stances reduces damage and guard sturdiness.
Titles: [Unpredictable🔮], [Switch-Hitter👥], [Asura☯️]
(Legendary)
Vagabond(Joe Yabuki): Your punches are just as strong as your fighting spirit. Your cross-counters deal extreme damage, but your defense is equally as weak. Ability: You can assume the No-Guard Stance, disabling your block but unlocking new fighting capabilities. (Can switch between Base and No-Guard freely. When in No-Guard, movement and dodge speed is increased, but you take immensely increased counter damage, comparable to shotgun's. Additionally, you cannot block, like Focused Chronos. Your m2s can no longer be interrupted from being hit by m1s, and will fire regardless, unless hit by an ult or style ability. All dashes, except forward dashes, now keep you in place thanks to the usage of Konnyaku Tactics; similar to Hawk's swayback, though the dodge margin is smaller than Hawk's.)
Ultimate[For Tomorrow]: You drop your arms, baiting your opponent into throwing their strongest punch. The background will darken and both fighters will go in slow-mo, before you unleash a devastating cross-counter.
Base form does good damage with slightly below average start-up, like Ippo. Guard is quite weak, like Ghost's. M2 counters do damage on par or even slightly more than bullet. Regen is also a bit faster in base, like corkscrew. Dodges are average. Switching to No Guard doesn't change damage or start-up speed, but health regen goes slower while in No-Guard.
Titles: [Drifter🧣], [No Guard🚫], [Pure White Ash♨️]
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This incident had occurred 6 weeks ago. Objectively, my (40M) intoxicated ex girlfriend (37M), at an already rocky phase of our relationship, once we all returned from a dinner party at my parents house, had demanded that i did not follow the routine of putting my autistic son (from the previous marriage) to be and instead attended to her. Given that this was a typical, angry, relentless demand, that hours prior to it she had caused a scene at my parent, and that a week prior she stormed out of the house dispensing wishes that my kids should die of diabetes, i lost it and told her to eff off. I did and i regret it. I should not have said anything. In response to that she:

• got out of bed and walked into my sons room, grabbed the book that we were going to read, bear hugged and it laid down on the unoccupied bottom bunk of the bunk bed in my sons room, stating that we are not going to read.
• i laughed, asked for the book with various polite verbal persuasions, and as soon as i leaned towards her to try and take the book, i received several kicks in my stomach.
• She then walked from the room to the living room, and laid on the couch. I've followed her, and as she was laying down, she let go of the book. as i was walking back to my son's room now with the book, she had followed me, but stopped at the kitchen table, grabbed my phone and tried to unlock it (she has the password, nothing is hidden), but stated that she is doing it to delete the messages that proved that a week prior she wished that my kids died. I did try to grab the phone, but could not, and as she also could not unlock it she had thrown it, twice, i suppose in an effort to destroy it. On her third attempt i was able to grab my phone from her hands.
• She had then started grabbing me, my hands mostly, in order o get the phone. I don't think she was hitting me, but the risk that i was now facing is that this had turned into a violent confrontation. I was trying to get away from her, swerving my body and my phone in my hands out of the way and attempted to distance myself from her. I've managed to make it to the front door with her being all over me (physically trying to grab me) and i've exited the house. In my mind i was doing it as a deterrent so she would then be forced to prioritize on preventing our dogs from running out instead of focusing on me. This worked. I ended up with my phone on the front lawn and she went back into the house.
• I've then realized that she could lock me out, which is a risk with my son still being home, so i immediately went back inside. When i entered the house i say her at the kitchen table: she lifter my work laptop and smashed in on the table, and as i started to approach her, she lifted it again and threw it against the wall. As i was now near her, she again turned on me in an attempt to get my phone from me.
• I again had to repeat my steps of exiting the house as she was clawing at my hands and grabbing me to get my phone. This time it was more challenging and forceful and i actually fell out of the house and down the steps )
• I did not know what to do next. I dialed 911. I've reported domestic disturbance.

I can think of several paths that i could have taken. I could have stood there and done nothing, allowing her to damage things at will. I could have also attempted to verbally persuade her as i would have watched her being uncivil. I could have applied force and this is what would have been interpreted as an assault and i would have been arrested. I could have tried physically comforting her, with a hug, that would have also been interpreted as an assault. I could have grabbed my kid and left the house, but how ? She was technically attacking me.
Any hard that she would have sustained would have been used against me.
The phone call to 911 was an attempt for me to persuade her to stop, and it worked. As soon as she had heard the operator, she simply went back inside that house and went to bed.
I am regretting that this had occurred. Should it be assumed that relationships come with a risk of loosing freedom? What would you have done differently when in such situation ?

I just beat it a couple of days ago and got the true ending. I can now say with confidence that, in my opinion, it was one of the best feeling and playing Metroidvanias I’ve played in recent memory. Since it’s on sale now on the PS store (until 5/23), you would be doing yourself a disservice if you haven’t already picked it up.
From what I’ve heard, the original DG was solid in its own right (albeit with a rocky launch), but Afterlife adds so much more to the point where it feels significantly different and more polished. The combat is some of the best I’ve seen in a 2D soulslike, with parrying and perfect blocking feeling just as fun to pull off as they do in 3D FromSoft games, the controls are tight, the MV exploration and abilities (although most feel like standard fare for the genre) are utilized flawlessly and only add to the combat. Also, a couple of these bosses are some of the most cleverly designed I’ve seen in a while (e.g. fighting the Tundra Lord on an icy seesaw, and the polarity mechanic with Bysurge).
Also, in my opinion, the story, writing, and voice acting (shout out to the 🐐s Matt Mercer and Aleks Le) blew me away with how excellent they were. If you plan on playing this game, I urge you to go in as blind as possible, especially if you plan on going for the true ending. Trust me when I say that you do not want anything pertaining to Ending A and this game’s main antagonist ruined for you.
However, some non-spoiler advice I can give is to start with the soldier class (prioritize blocking and perfect guarding), and if you want the aforementioned true ending, beat 5 heroic boss rematches, keep “that” stat below 100 before the final boss fight and go from there.
My only real gripes are that there are a couple of noticeable bugs that had me stuck in the geometry from time to time and made me utilize the suicide blade to get out of it, and that unless you choose to play as the Acolyte class and can mend broken death idols, the boss runbacks can get annoying if you’re reckless. Also, the platinum trophy is a pain to unlock thanks to the Perfect Run trophy.
That aside, I urge you, beg you, to give this game a try if you haven’t already, especially for the price. Show Jean Canellas and Alex Kubodera some love.

Plague Marine
Captain Wolfer initiates a dark ritual to call for assistance. The Inquisition forces are tipped off, and task a strike force to go in and raze the ritual site to the ground as they conduct other strikes to divert attention. However, when they make it there, the ritual is successful, and out of a warp portal walks a Plague Marine.
The ritual site would be an excellent arena. The plague marine will be slow, plodding, and nearly invulnerable, with slow Crusher-like overheads in melee. He will call out his target and mark them and shoot at them with his bolter. There's plenty of cover in the arena, and his marked target will have to take cover or risk being torn apart very quickly as his bolter hits also adds corruption. We'll have canisters of holy water dropped off in the area. This can also be a new mechanic for use in other maps, the players grab them and toss them near the plague marine before attacking them and setting them off. Being in the AoE of a holy water canister when it goes off knocks people back, but also heals a bit of corruption. Detonating a holy water canister near the Plague Marine staggers him and makes him vulnerable to taking damage normally. Once the Plague Marine is dead, the team runs for the extraction point chased by a vengeful army Hab Dreyko style.
Yes, this is kind of like the War Encampment in Vermintide 2. It fits very well, I think.

Tank Escort
A Leman Russ Demolisher needs to be escorted from one front to another to shore up defenses. Problem is, the Moebians want to get their hands on an active tank, do as Chaos does, corrupt it a bit, put in some vats of really vile pathogens, make a pus spewing tank or something like that. Just nasty stuff.
The strike team fights in a location parallel to the Leman Russ Demolisher with lots of checkpoints that once they reach and clear out the enemy, the tank can "advance" on its rails. The whole time the strike team is fighting that can see the the Leman Russ firing its weapons at unseen enemies or smoked out areas and hear chatter from the tank crew. It'd be easy to set up an area where the strike team will have to move or clear out obstacles, and set up a mid-mission objective where the strike team has to range ahead to destroy some anti-tank lascannon emplacements. We'll top the scenario off by the enemy sending a plague ogryn at the tank, only for the strike team to watch the Demolisher wipe it out in one devastating cannon blast and cheer before extraction.
Discuss the ideas you have and downvote mine away rejects!

I started writing this last month after realizing the kind of time I was wasting and how I was basically living weekend to weekend. I had similar experience while I was working during college. At the time I just left the work I was doing and focused on learning something else but now its different. Stakes are higher and markets are volatile and I am not in college anymore.

Agenda

1. Detailed plan for next 2 years
2. Broader plan for 5 years

Date: 20 April 2024

Goals

• What do I want by 20 April 2026?
  • Net worth of INR 1.5Cr
  • Be away from parents' home
  • Social life
  • Have a relationship (casual/serious anything, preferably casual)
  • Be physically fit (if possible mentally too but not a priority)
  • Read regularly and regular journaling
  • Buy a car too (Only when I can pay for it fully cash)
• What do I want by 20 April 2029?
  • All of the above
  • Net worth of INR 10Cr
  • Not working for money
  • 3B house in good society

Current

• I live in parents' house (not out of need but convenience, saves a lot of time)
• I have a remote coding job which takes 8-9 hrs everyday
• I make INR 30L/year before tax, about INR 24L after tax
• Most likely the income will double in next 3 months
• I am 22.8 years old
• Rest of my time goes in social media scrolling (I intend to cut this) and started reading books recently.

How

• Keep going on current path
  • Pros
    • Likely to help the 2 year goal
    • A fish in hand is worth more than the thousands in the lake
  • Cons
    • Likely to help the 2 year goal
    • A fish in hand is worth more than the thousands in the lake
• Higher education in AI/ML
  • Pros
    • Looks sustainable for at least next 10 years.
    • Pretty much guaranteed success considering market trends
  • Cons
    • Declining student interest (applicant numbers decreasing)
    • Possible recession in the next 3 years
    • Going in negative net worth (Student debt)
• Higher education in MBA (Business/Finance)
  • Pros
    • Relatively old profession (GMAT is conducted since 1950s), so looks sustainable.
    • Something new and challenging for me.
  • Cons
    • Would current AI trend take over this profession? Can't say
    • Declining number of applicants
    • Going in negative net worth (Student debt)
• Pack bags and roam around the country to find answers (Possible due to remote job)
  • Pros
    • Sounds good
  • Cons
    • Inconvenient

After trying to find answers by myself for sometime. I have now decided to get opinions from strangers on the internet and see what next steps should be. Please comment on which is best path according to you and why? Or If there is something else other than listed above.

I'm 18f and I'm the eldest daughter and middle child, probably a nasty mix but regardless.
I have 6 siblings but only really interact with 4 of them because we live together along with our parents 0
every since I was younger I've always felt like I was a second priority.
Since I was the child that wasn't trouble and obedient I guess I just was given as much attention as my siblings.
My dad isn't to consistent with being around us but me more, he acted like he was annoyed or didn't care or he did care but didn't bother.
When I was born I guess he was happy, he and my mom and grandma named me after a chick who was allegedly murdered.
When I was 2 he sat me down infront of horror movies and by the time my younger sister Emily was born(i was 4), he was already having me watch things like snapped or talking about a case were children like me were murdered. I was practically desensitized to horror and gore by 8 years old.
My sister and other siblings occupied his attention.
Even my 2 eldest brother who aren't his occupied his attention more than I did.
As tike went on I grew distant and I went through thing I refused to mention. When my sister started dating he was protective, but when I was being stalked he simply couldn't care less, actually none of my family cared.
Apparently being the ugly child means I can't have that stuff happen to me, that's what I got from there lack of concern.
Graduation came and he came and I was happy but quickly left and hung out with my sister after while I went out and ate with my mom and her now ex, and then went home, teared up and went to sleep, because while I was home and sad that I wasn't the center of attention at my graduation my dad and sister were hanging out, my brothers were gone and my mom also left.
As time continued to go on I just gave up on life, lacked hygiene, any substance of importance and just wasted away. He didn't notice and all my mom did was complain I have no life.
When ever he got home and wanted to go somewhere he would let my sister tag along but I was a second though, even when I was next to her, he would only ask her, and they would go.
When my mom confronted this behavior my dad was shocked and stuttered by I could tell he was annoyed.
The behavior continued.
When ever I was around my dad he would do the bare minimum to pay attention to me and more so pay attention to my sister.
Meanwhile on the other hand my sister would give me attitude, probably because she didn't wanna lose dad's attention but regardless, it wasn't a excuse to treat me like that.
Today something happened, I was decluttering, My dad force me to come out Into the kitchen while I was already stress and mad over decluttering things, to strip corn, he already knew I had been trying to get rid and clean. then while helping my sister with the corn I said "instead of lathering thw corn in butter, just put a glob on and roll it up in the tin foil, because wee gonna put more on anyway"
We started to debate on it which let to her says she was right and was gonna be the bigger person since I wanted to argue like a brat.
I told her "no your not the bigger person and I'm not angry I'm just say this way is more efficient, and quick, and this is the way I did it with dad last time"
She keep say she was the bigger person and better than me, I couldn't even respond and then my dad came into the kitchen, I asked him about it and he said the same thing i did to my sister about the way I mention being the quicker way and ther being no wrong way nessacarily.
But my sister continued to spout that she was right and alway gonna be better than me. I turned to him and looked him dead in the eye while my sister was still spouting bs about being better and bigger person. And said "she makes me wanna hang my self" I said it so it would end the now, because I say it jokingly when I start to get annoyance wanna move topics. And then from behind me I hear her say " I hope you do"
And I kinda froze, me and my dad were still making eye contact, I knew he saw my eyes start to water, but he ignored it, walked away and started to cut potatoes. I stayed calm, trying not to cry in front of them, I was also in shock, like my body just froze and I started to tear up more, so I calmly spoke as I held in my tears and ask if I could go to my room. He Asked me if I want to I said yes and got up but he ask for a hug so I walk up to him, hugged him and then went to my room.
I got into my room turn off my lights and rolled up into a blanket and cried, I cried so hard I couldn't breathe
The worst part is that my thought process was "I hope my dad comes to comfort me like he dose my sister"
But already knew that wouldn't happen.
He just stay in the kitchen and continues what he was doing with my sister.
So I'm laying on my bed angry and crying, because of them and crying harder because I'm thinking of the most grotesque ways die, and even more angry because I lost the keys To my safe which my knife was in.
I never was able to get the knife out of my safe, I fell asleep crying and then when I woke up I just layed there, thinking "I don't understand why dad didn't come to comfort me, but I already knew he wouldnt"
When I got up for dinner I decide I wasn't going to speak, so I tired to eat and thye left soon after.
And so while eating i kept thinking about the situation and I spat up for back on to my plate. I couldn't eat. So I threw away the food away and left back to my room and now I'm here.
I haven't spoken a word to my sister in 5 hours and haven't spoken a word to my dad either.
The situation dosnt feel real, I cant believe she would say for me to do it over corn.
Maybe It's a bad joke to make when I wanna change topic, but that coldness and anger in her voice.
It's surreal, I feel fuzzy and hungry, I still haven't eaten. And have a headache.
My body feels restless and I feel tired.
Urge for death has left me now and I've only every wanted to die passively, but regardless.
I thank my cats for playing with those keys and losing them, because my head wasn't in the right state.
It is now but I'm still recovering, I'm gonna go to bed, sleep it off. Maybe things will be back to normal.
Even now, I can help but feel remorse for my sister, our mom excuses her behavior as being a Teenager and out mom might wanna move out of our childhood home, meanwhile my dad is still acting like it's fine. She feels like our parents coddle her, and I feel bad, more than I should considering what's she's said and how she's treated me.
I don't know what to do.

I've been trying to go through the PWT in triple battle mode and I've retrying and trying different strategies and damn is it tough. Here are some I struggled with while playing (My team is Espeon, Drifblim, Heracross, Roserade, Crustle and Azumarill):
Kanto: Blaine is very hard. His Magmortar, Rapidash, Arcanine and Ninetales hit hard. I have 3 Pokémon with coverage against fire (Crustle, Azumarill and Heracross with Earthquake) but his team is just too fast and hard hitting for me. I've completed the Kanto tournament a couple times but haven't won against him once. Misty, Sabrina and Brock are pretty hard too. Misty's Starmie very fast and has strong attacks, Lapras is bulky and hits hard and weirdly enough her Seaking's given me trouble since it's fast and will assist it's team members in taking me out. Sabrina uses sleep strats which sucks for me, plus her team is full of glass canons. Brock is hard too, his Aerodactyl is fast and uses Rock slide which hits all opposing team members and has a chance to flinch.
Johto: I haven't won against Falkner, Bugsy, or Clair. Falkner's team is fast and hits hard, Bugsy's hard because I don't have a fire type, and Clair uses 3 pseudo legendaries with Salamence, Dragonie and Garchomp. I haven't beaten this one yet, but I plan to usr a flygon with fire punch, earthquake, stone edge and dragon claw.
Hoenn: Flannery is very hard, Magmortar hits like a truck and Torkoal is bulky and has yawn. I haven't won against her once. The other leaders can be tricky if I get unlucky like Juan and Norman. Norman's spinda uses confusion strats, Zangoose hits hard, Castform has moves like hydro pump and fire blast for coverage and that damn Kecleon has skill swap for Slaking.
Sinnoh: I haven't won against Fantina yet and have only one against Candice once in the dozens of times I attempted the sinnoh tournament. Both have a mix of very hard hitting glass canons and tanks. Fantina's Gengar has hypnosis and dream eater, and it's tough to quickly take out her glass canons like Drifblim, Mismagius, Rotom and Gengar when her Dusknoir and Spiritomb keep trolling me with status ailments and pain split. I only won against Candice by getting very lucky. The strat is to quickly get rid of the Froslass, Weavile and Mamoswine because they wreck my team and I have to remove the major threats and deal with the less threatening Pokémon like Abomasnow, Glalie and Glaceon later. Problem is they'll take me out before I take them out.
Unova: I haven't beaten Drayden or Chili yet and only defeated Burgh once. Yes, Burgh is very difficult. I thought he'd be easy since his Leavanny has so many weaknesses, and yeah it's usually a one hit KO, but it's that damn Durant that causes me trouble. Durant is quick, has high attack, and is weak to a type that I don't have on my team. On most of my attempts beating him, I'll usually have an easy time dealing with his team and have more Pokémon than him, but then he'll send out Durant as one of his last Pokémon and sweep me. It has Rock slide which hits all opposing targets PLUS a chance to flinch. That thing hits hard, and I can't take it out quickly due to lack of a fire type. Chili's hard for the same reasons as Flannery and Blaine. Drayden's team is crazy. Haxorus, Flygon, Salamence and Hydreigon on one time. A Haxorus with a dragon gem boosted Outrage, mind you.

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In June, it will be 15 years since the first 16 and Pregnant episode aired. I never thought 15 years later, we’d still be getting new content. I’ve kinda felt like they would end it eventually, but in about three years the kids are going to start to turn 18 and I think MTV is going to run with it. My ideas on what they may do:
I think for sure they will reach out to Carly and offer her money. Some sort of special at the very least.
A show with the kids similar to how they do Teen Mom Reunion, all the kids together.
I really hope all the kids wait until they are older to have kids, but if anyone doesn’t, they will follow that for sure.
They could just follow the kids, without the parents. Leaving home. Going to collage. Joining the work force.
At this point, with the kids almost being 18, I think they will get everything they can out of the franchise.
Now that my serious predictions are outta the way, here is what I would want to see, if they keep this going.
The Challange: Parents vs Kids.
Having the parents and kids sit down and watch the show together and we get to see their reactions.
The Real World. We could get a few seasons outta this one. Throw all the mom’s, dad’s, grandparent’s and adult kid’s names in a hat. Draw ten, season one. Draw ten more, season two. They could do just the parents. Just the grandparents. Just the kids. Mix ‘em all up. The possibilities are endless.
The last one is my favorite. Imagine Debs OG, Papa Randy, Butch and Barbara in a house together 😂😂

I used to write about my mental health. I used to let the gravity of it guide me everywhere. And now Im stable.
What is stable?
Is it the silence from the constant screams?
Is it the beauty I can now see? Is it the time Im finally present for? Is it just the feeling to breathe?
Quietly. Without the constant interruption of shame Spiraling Me down back into my voluntary cage Rapidly Making me question my own sanity Until Finally I let it go with therapy
And medication Both required for this sickness that inflicts My brain The poor thing that struggles violently To keep my body from further shouting out From the pain From this pain
The mental anguish that tries to corrupt my soul Into delving deeper into nefarious goals To gather that which will only gives me pleasure For a little while.
Bliss that lies.
And oh does it lie You right down into cascading waters As you drift away from all you held dear And you wont even care or bother
All is well at the bottom of the bottle.
Until its not.
Silence.
Now its only silence. No longer will I chase that bliss Because it doesnt exist And never has.
Instead Ill wander towards the ink of a pen And write down my survival From my medicated mind To my former sickened self Hoping she hears me when I say itll all be fine In time
And with the time spinning faster Ill finish this poem in fashion Get help if your mind is lying And never taking it lying Down Fight until you have no voice And then fight harder still Because we all certainly deserve To advocate for ourselves.

About a month ago, my 18(M) boyfriend broke up with me and it was very amicable. We didn't fight or argue over the break up as I had felt the same way. Throughout the three weeks after our break up, he would continue to text me that he misses me and would ask if I missed him, of course I did. We ended up deciding that we should stay friends with benefits and I felt fine with that. He would text me every week asking if we could see each other, asking when the next time I'll be free was. I finally set a date and it was supposed to be this Thursday. I forgot all about it as I had an exam on Thursday and afterschool he got upset that I didn't follow through with my plan. I told him that we can see on Friday but I'll need to confirm it first with my friends as I also had plans with them. I took a nap before I could confirm it with my friends and when I woke up 6 hours later, I texted him saying the plans were a go.
He texted me back and said, "I messed up." Turns out, he slept with his co-worker because over the 6 hours I was not texting him about the plans, he thought I had lost interest and he said it, "happened out of nowhere." Of course, I called him out on his BS saying how it can't possibly "happen out of nowhere," but now, I feel so hurt. We weren't even dating but it felt like I was cheated on. He apologized numerous times over and my people-pleasing heart kept reassuring him that it was okay and I understood that he was sorry. I slept on it and I realized in the morning how disrespected I feel.
The fact that HE was the one to break up with me, HE was the one who CONTINUOUSLY reached out to me asking to see me and saying how he missed me--mind you, I only texted him first once throughout our three weeks of being apart, he was the one always initiating conversation and I'd have to remind him that HE set a no-contact boundary. Note, the no-contact boundary was that we'd only dm each other if we had something dire to tell the other person or we were looking for a hookup. He consistently said how he feels like he would never get over me and it'll take him some time to move on. Yet, he threw all that away in 6 hours when I was asleep and didn't reassure him that I wanted him.
My friends and family all disliked this guy, they said how he wasn't good to me and I continuously defended him. I always said how he's not the "jerk" that everyone thinks he is but I'm starting to realize that maybe I was blind to it all. He treated me so amazingly when we were together but now that we're apart, I've felt like nothing but a piece of flesh for him. I've texted him earlier and I think I'm going to end everything with him, unfollow him on everything, no-contact fully for real this time. I miss him, I really do and I'm doing all this so I can move on, I can't stop thinking about him having this affair with his co-worker. I keep asking, "was she prettier than me? What does she have that I didn't, what drew him in to her." I just feel so betrayed and disrespected. I feel like I should've stuck to no-contact in the beginning.

I only wish that you were fully honest with me from the beginning we really could’ve blossomed into something truly amazing yet here we are and i accept my portion of the blame even if you’ll never accept yours it’s lyfe. Maybe you were just my karma for the women I’ve ran through and the “happy” homes I’ve burned down while I sat grinning. All I know is I only blame myself for all of it I wish you would’ve communicated with me instead of fully shutting me out and the continuous lies even after the proof was shown to you you would always spin it to being my fault for something I did. I’m glad that I was finally was able to be open and honest and discuss my past and my hurts and most importantly my fears with someone and not feel like I was being judged for my life. Even if each of those things were constantly thrown in my face and you keeping everything about our relationship a secret but told me how none of your exes would post you so I made sure to always post you and yes sometimes they were angry posts but everyone knew how much i truly love you. And i found true happiness in you I don’t understand how or why but something just clicked with you immediately I mean I’ve told you my reasons on why I felt overwhelming feelings for you after the first week of us just speaking. There have been so many faceless nameless that have come before you but there will be none after you. I’m many things but no one can never say I’m not a man of my word. You are my forever and a day; even if forever is only a day away… I’m so thankful that I was able to experience something that I never experienced which is unconditional love that isn’t related to you because let’s face it even that is conditional. You will forever be my princess and I love you so much babygirl. You’ve made me feel so many raw emotions that I never really thought I had but that shit was also the most pain I’ve experienced and I hate myself everyday for it. Not the letting you in part but the things I’ve done being self destructive towards this relationship especially because of past bullshit with others and I’m truly sorry for all of my shortcomings C. I’ve been the shell of the man I once was for a little while now and you revitalized something inside of me but then it all came crashing down which I’ve expected for the last few months but it’s fully solidified now. Just know that I do not hate you I hold a small bit of resentment but only because even in the end you refused to just tell me why but I honestly believe you don’t even know. Depression been whooping me long before you and I meant and I never expected what i thought we had to be so amazing and yet so very very confusing and I miss the lighthouse you once were for me my little beacon on hope but I’ve always strived in the darkness. I’ll always be your biggest fan. I appreciate you for the person you are even if we had our bs I still seen how you were for everyone else. You do have a kind and loving soul. But if I can leave you with one thing it’s this. I know you don’t want to hurt peoples feelings but lying to them and faking and entire bond could absolutely destroy someone. Idk if you ever see this I still don’t know how this thing works… S signing out C💜

How would you deal with the following playesituation?
I, DM. They, party of 5, lv1, on riding horses. Fighter goes in, jumps off, hits a bandit, enters the bush for cover. Barbarian goes in, kills a bandit, goes to take cover behind a tree. Rogue shoots, goes with barbarian. Wizard charges in, casts sound effect of Minor Illusion in bandit captain's face to distract him and tramples him with the horse. Bandit captain takes d6 damage and falls prone. Druid charges in with spear against prone target. Next turn, Druid and Wizard are unconscious Wizard player argues that it's not realistic. Being trampled by a horse should kill you right away. He's very "angry" against the flawed game. Game is not real. Bandit Captain should have died in one shot under horse's hooves. I forward argument about mechanics that keep the game balanced and that I can't let a non damage cantrip plus a free charge action with a simple riding horse kill the captain (who has 65hp) like that. I appreciate the creativity, and found a compromise in a d6 damage + prone, why is he not happy with it? He concludes we should just agree to disagree that the game is "flawed" and it doesn't make sense.

Just a reminder to please be careful and keep your eyes open when moving around the city this weekend, whether by foot, by bike or by car! Between the warm weather and the upcoming holiday, this weekend is a perfect storm from a traffic safety standpoint: lots of people riding their bikes / scooters / you name it for the first time since last year. Lots of kids riding bikes for the first time ever. Big groups of pedestrians roving around the city without necessarily looking where they’re going. Lots of cars having to share the road for the first time since the winter. Many, many people out and about while drunk, high, wearing headphones or all of the above.
I spent about three hours crisscrossing the city today by bike and on foot and I saw SO MANY close calls between pedestrians, cars and cyclists — many of which went totally unnoticed by one or both participants. A car almost hit me on my bike while they were turning onto Rachel without checking the cross traffic on the bike lane, even though they had a stop sign and I didn’t and even though I had my eye on them and I thought they saw me. A fellow cyclist (electric Bixi, no helmet, earbuds) screamed at me for joining the bike lane in front of them, even though they saw me coming from 30 meters away and we were navigating a four-way stop where I stopped and they didn’t. A pedestrian cursed me out when I said “Attention monsieur!” after they stepped into the protected bike lane right in front of me without looking left OR right. At 10pm.
We can’t control the behavior of other people. All we can do is make decisions that will help keep us and our companions safe. Please, please, keep your eyes open this weekend!
Car drivers: use your turn signals. Check the bike lane AND the sidewalk before turning. Don’t speed up on busy roads just because you can.
Cyclists: signal your turns. Yield to cars even if you have the right of way if it means avoiding a dangerous situation. Don’t ride on the sidewalk, especially if you’re on an electric bike. Wear a helmet, and USE YOUR LIGHTS AT NIGHT.
Pedestrians: Watch where you’re going. Don’t assume everyone is looking out for you just because you have the right of way, or because you’re in a big group. Practice good sidewalk etiquette.
TL;DR: Be safe out there!

I've never been good at school, and since elementary school my teachers have been having a hard time trying to teach me stuff and getting me to remember it. I'm terrible at basically every subject, especially math. I remember there was so many times my teachers had to talk to my parents about me not being able to add or subtract as fast as the other kids, and from 1st-5th grade i basically spent all of my time after school sitting at the table with my parents yelling at me trying to get me to understand my homework but for some reason i was just too dumb to understand simple math.
With stuff like reading and writing, I was pretty average up until sixth grade, now I have to reread things a couple of times to fully process it because it feels like I'm just looking at the words and writing things like essays is very difficult for me because I will get bored or find it too hard and get distracted.
I graduated high school a year late because I failed every single class sophomore year, passed 2/6 classes junior year, and I spent my senior trying to make up the classes I failed but couldn't complete them all on time because I found the work really difficult. Before the start of my senior year, I was sent to an alternative school that was supposed to make things easier for me but I never made any progress, so I got put in independent study as a second time senior. In independent study, you don't actually have a teacher so you have to teach yourself, I got very lazy and bored of having to do my classes so I ended up just cheating which is the only reason I didn't become a third year senior.
I've also never had any interests or hobbies. As a kid I would just play with my dolls when I had time during school breaks or the weekend, but I was never in any clubs. I have no hobbies because honestly I don't like anything, and I never really have. I secretly don't want to do anything with my life and would rather spend it rotting away in bed and on my phone, but I know that's just because I'm incredibly lazy and unmotivated.
I've had tutors, I've been put in support classes, and I've made no progress. I have no idea what I want to do with my life, or what career I could tolerate having. Most of my friends are in college and even if they've changed their majors they at least have had some idea from the start what they want to do, or they're not as dumb as me. Also, this isn't an insecurity thing where I just think I'm dumb, I literally am. Most people think I'm so dumb that I lack common sense and can't do things that anyone with a brain could do, like being able to order my own food or driving a car.
I don't think it would be a good idea to take a gap year because I'm already turning 19, and don't want to be a 20 year old freshman. I'm also incredibly embarrassed about this because my friends don't really understand how I could possibly not like anything or have literally no idea what I want to do with my life and everyone just thinks I'm lazy (which I am but I really don't want to be). I have no idea what to do because I don't want to waste my parent's money and end up dropping out because I'll be too stupid for the work, but they're making me go. My parents are acting as if this is an easy decision to make and keep saying I'm the only girl in the world who doesn't know what she wants to do.
tl;dr
never been good at school, never had any hobbies, i don't like anything, and i'm very dumb. i need to go to college, but i'm not sure what i should go for and i'm afraid of dropping out and wasting my parent's money.

Well… it wasn’t like seein your grandma in a duck costume screaming “someone gets the wrench there is a raccoon in the tomato patch” weird but… at least somethin like it.
Anywho, I wanted to inform everyone of my first hike! It was today and it was quite nice! Except the bees and the teleporting deer and the feds and the bunker but WE WILL GET TO ALL OF THAT YALL I PROMISE I AINT MR. BANE WHO KEEPS THINGS NICE AND CONCISE I LIKE SPEAKIN!
So it all started when I put on my boots, I opted to get some nice dark green ones and paint and lil smiley face on it :) and when I got my gear that was so kindly left in the diner for me I went outside and began walkin to the mountain. It was quite a nice day too! The sun was shinin and the birds were doin their little do-op I even saw Mr. Tom! He don’t like me much though, he threw a bottle at me.
When I got to the mountain I was a little puzzled at how many different ent paths there were. Some where on the map and some weren’t, I could see some green flags in the distance but I watch late night television ain’t no way I’m goin off the beaten path (unless it’s to save my bff Claire) So I looked at the nice map and chose the red path I couldn’t see exactly where it was leadin but it seemed like it was nice and easy. That’s when I heard a buzz… and there on a small tree was a little honey bee nest!
Now… back in Alabama it was pretty rare to find some nice bees but these ones seemed super friendly! I was even able to get up real close to the nest with no issue at all! (Don’t do this at home kids) but then somethin truly odd happened… there was a smell… like a… metallic smell… mixed with like bleach… it started freakin me out a bit so I left them as is and went up the path. I saw some beautiful views and got to use the compass I was gifted! It got me thinkin about this place… how much I love it… but also how much I don’t remember… that’s when I saw the deer.
Now I tell ya… I used to go hunting with my daddy and I’ve seen some bucks but this one… was MASSIVE. and it had little cute white hoofs!!!! It came up to me and gave me a little stare like it was trying to say hi. Or maybe not. Now this is when it gets weird… I swear on my daddy’s life this buck was right in front of me and then when I blinked… it was over 10 feet away from me! I was honestly surprised… I tried to step again but it ran away as soon as I made a sound :(
So I decided to carry on and I made it to the end of the trail! Yay me! I saw a nice pond with some cute frogsssss. I named one teddy and the other Lisa… if you find them, tell them “ribbit” for me!
Now this is when it gets a little intense (Mr. Bane I may need your help) I remember seeing that wonderfully interesting post about that bunker and goddarnit I found it! But it was really far away from me up a cliff. And I don’t know what made me decide to eat my lunch then and there but I did! I sat and unwrapped my pastrami sandwich ich and chowed down. Now folks up until this point I ain’t seen no other human being, so let me tell you when I jumped out of my skin when I heard a voice in the distance yelling “hey!” Aw man I jumped!
I remember having to squint my eyes to block the sun and look up the cliff. And there at the top was a man in a dark suit and sunglasses then another…. Then another… then ANOTHER. 4 FEDS ALL CROWDED AROUND THIS BUNKER. Now if this don’t smell like my dead cat then I don’t know what does! (Fishy)
Now folks get a load of this… I go “hey” FBI “what are you doing?” Me “eatin” FBI “why?” Me “cuz I am hungry… is there a problem sir”FBI “you can’t have pastrami here” Me “what the hell? Why not?” FBI “interference” Me “with what?” FBI “we suggest only eating cheese sandwiches in the woods… ungrilled they must be cold”
And you will NEVER GUESS WHAT HAPPENS NEXT…. THEY THROW 3 CHEESE SANDWICHES HIES AT ME. I got to many questions
Why do they have them? Why are they wrapped? Why are they on multigrain? Why did they give me three?
Wow I really do feel like Mr. Bane.
Anyway after that I lost my appetite and made my way down the mountain and back to my home.
I’m excited to do that again soon though!
Thanks for reading! Kisses SB

My entire life has been turned upside down.
On the 23rd April I suddenly lost my grandmother. She was completely well, went for a blood test and a walk and then when she got home she passed away sitting in her favourite seat. She was alone but it seemed peaceful. It was a shock because she was 69 and did not have.any health complications. We all got called and I think most of us had mentally prepared ourselves to try and handle losing my grandfather as he has dementia, and we were told he was at end of life. When I saw my nani laying there I was in deep shock. I'm still trying to deal with the trauma, and help my mother get through this loss.
Today, on the 18th May, my grandfather has passed away at the age of 81. Even though he has dementia, he could sense my nani was no longer with us. He was missing her a lot (the were extremely close and in love). I think they were real soulmates as he couldn't live without her. I think she too would have struggled if she lost him first.
Having lost both of them, suddenly and also back to back has been emotional exhausting. Every Friday I would go to see them and so have been blessed to have spent 26 years with them. I miss them so much and feel so depressed, demotivated and keep on disassociating.
How will my family and I get through this without the glue?

so i’ve only just finished queen charlotte (very late to the game i know), but i have some thoughts. firstly: overall i absolutely loved it. 70% of the series i’m thinking i actually might prefer this to bridgerton. the actors for charlotte and george (and of course everyone else, but these two in particular) just blew me away. i was absolutely captivated by their storyline. however, i actually really disliked how it all came to a close. the ending itself (the scene under the bed) was beautiful; made me tear up a bit.
but okay, what the heck was going on with the violet / lady danbury / ‘finding out my new bestie slept with my dad now it’s weird’ thing? i absolutely hated how that plot line ended with them just having a confrontational stare off. zero closure and that really irritated me. LD’s storyline was magnificent - the battle against the racism in the ton and setting the precedent for the future really moved me. but then it would just jump to horrible awkwardness (understandable) BUT WITH NO RESOLUTION??? having none of the other bridgertons around in the house kind of makes sense: presumably they were all off in the countryside and it is mentioned that Kanthony were on their honeymoon, but it just felt odd and empty.
then there was the scene where charlotte’s two kids confront her for being ‘cruel’ and ‘no mother’ to them. again, and understandable encounter - BUT WITH. NO. RESOLUTION. it just ends with: oh hey, we have an heir now so no worries! like no acknowledgement from the children toward charlotte at how much she has sacrificed and been through to be queen, or from her making any sort of amends with them. after all of that it would’ve been far better to have some kind of nice heartfelt family moment between them all.
i totally get the way charlotte is portrayed to have become evidently far colder toward those closest to her over the years, and as such an obvious family divide. but there should’ve been something.
overall i just found the final two episodes to be very drawn out and repetitive, with no satisfying conclusion - save LD keeping her title and the final scene. i feel like george should have had a final ‘kingly’ moment with parliament, not just a few sentences at a social event. idk the ending in the garden party just didn’t hit for me.
ALSO final thought: justice for my man brimsley. the scene with him dancing alone broke my heart. but again, there should have been some ode as to where his lover ended up or what happened or a moment of gratitude from charlotte or SOMETHING.
but yeah, rant over. thoughts?

Watched the playoffs and thought this. I actually think he fits really well.

• They can generally cover for his defensive problems.
  
• They struggle to score at times, especially in the clutch
  
• Giddey likely has to leave or have his minutes replaced
  
• Gives a secondary ball-handler whose more of a threat than Giddey
  

I'm not an expert on cap stuff, but it looks like they're pretty capped out. I wonder if we could do a sign & trade, bring back Giddey and maybe another asset? (Don't kill me if the value evaluation is off).
Everybody wins, the Thunder get clearly better & get off of Giddey's contract without really giving up any major pieces. They still have the assets to pivot off Demar worst case scenario but it'll likely only be a 2-3 year contract Bulls start the rebuild with decent project pieces and protect our pick from the Spurs in a strong draft. Demar gets to go closer to home, a chance to compete for a ring on a team that won't rack up ridiculous miles on him but still lean on him consistently & let him get buckets. And it Also allows him to kill the trash bros image if he wins or has success on a team that is a sure-fire WCF contender.
The main criticism I know you're going to hear is the standard "Uhh demar sucks in the playoffs bro" but I personally just think there's a huge difference in role & it's not that risky of a gamble for them if it doesn't work (Is Giddey's value very high right now?) & it's basically a win for us since Demar won't be on this team in 5-10 years no matter what.
It would also let us keep Lavine & try to rehab value if we wanted to & thought it'd be likely we'd get more in the regular season. We could play the whole "Oh we like this team now that we have a ball-handler, this is our squad" and wait for a team to get desperate again.
I don't know I actually think this would be one of the most win-win trades we've seen in a while. Am I delusional?

I was at a Skyzone with a few of my friends who were staying over, I have a liking for dodgeball and I decided to go to the dodgeball game. Well, practically the whole group of people who were playing were cussing, throwing dodgeballs at the staff member and disrespecting the staff member who was watching the game. The staff member got sick of it and told everyone to line up, these children were so disrespectful that it took 5-10 minutes just to line them up. One of the children even said, “If you separate me from my friends I’ll sue you.” And this kid is in the 11-13. [And for some clarification the staff member prior to lining them up had most likely talked to the person who either brought those kids or was one of the kids parents/guardian. Which conversation I didn’t hear but most likely the guardian didn’t find any wrong.] So, resuming. The staff member yelled and got everyone into their own team. But they started cussing more and disrespecting this staff member. The staff member didn’t know what to do so she decided to call security, security said something similar to, “No cussing on my court!” Etc stuff I didn’t hear. And by then I had left there. But the friends who came along which we’ll call XX had still been paying attention to the drama. So I asked, “Do you know what happened?” And XX said, “Yeah, when the security guy came in he yelled at them but even he was scared, kids were throwing dodgeballs at him.”
Eventually the situation was under control, me and XX already had left but while we were walking around we had still been discussing what we heard. Eventually we felt a bit bad for the staff member, and this may be on us for being a bit nosy. Me and XX went to this staff member and asked if she was OK. Staff member replied with, “I’m going to get fired.” Me and XX were obviously shocked, but we replied with something similar with, “Damn, that’s unfair.” And we walked away. Well, that scene was pretty big so we were still discussing it, and again we went over to the same staff member and said, “I’m sorry if this sounds insensitive, but I hope you get fired and get a new job at a better place, this place is really not worth the stress.”
I’m not sure if I’m in the wrong here, but the staff ember seemed a but shocked. I’m sorry if I made a lot of typos and told the story a bit oddly, I’m new to posting here as this is the only time I think I’ve needed to post here.

(TW:we were 14, now I'm 15 and she's still 14/uncensored words about s*xual assault/cussing, just putting this in here since I know someone would most likely report me for not adding it) So just around Christmas eve last year, I started dating with one of my long-time friends, and my life prior to this was just empty, but she brought light in me, she made me feel something I never felt before, I felt alive for the first time in a long while, and everything was going great, I loved her, and she loved me, so I promised her that I will love her as much as I can until my heart stops and my mind fades, however things took a terrible turn when L (first letter in his name) entered our lives, originally it was just a one time thing where me, my GF, friends and L would go out, and we were drinking and shit, just having fun, we'll now comes the worst part, L was 21 at the time, and so to hang out a little longer we went to his place to chill, but then everyone left, and it was just me, GF and L, and we were just chatting, having fun, but then he started talking about our relationship, he started undermining it, talking about how we were not made for each other, that the only reason we are still dating is because we were long-time friends and shit, and I had none of that, however (I will start calling the GF, S) S took those words to her heart and started crying, I tried to comfort her but then he started putting pressure on me, bombarding me with questions like:DO you really love her? What do you love about her, why do you love her, do you think you two will last together? And under the pressure I just said that I loved her, and that's enough, but at this point S needed to go home, so I offered to walk with her like a good bf, however L said that I should stay and let her be, so she can think about this, and once again under pressure I folded and I stayed and she went home sobbing with me not having the chance to console her (looking at it now I should've persisted on walking her home, because he would start laying his manipulation on me, once again undermining me, and my love to S, but I did send her a voice message telling her all the things I love about her, and that I found the purpose for why I'm with her, she completes me) so after a few moments I left and came home, the next day I talked to my sister that we two are "friends" and she started going batshit, because my sister also has long extensive history with L, as well as my sister's friend, and my cousins, so she started telling me all the things, he did including (allegedly but probably truthfully) giving alcohol to one of my sister's friends (who was also around 14) getting her drunk, and then letting one of his friends rape her while watching (he probably joined in as I think about it) and many other stains, same thing with the cousin and sister's friend, but the problem was that S started liking L, and we started going out every single day after school, I took the info from the sister, cousin etc and I wanted to talk with S about it, however when I was about to initiate the conversation, I started overthinking and got to my head that I'm probably just being possessive, so we would continue these meet-ups with L for 2 more days,, every day ending with S crying, L completely undermining our trust and love, and me ultimately feeling shit, but at the last meet-up, just before it, I found cracks in our love, since L was dating with a 14 year old before that (He's 21 by the fucking way) S told me that 14 and 21 isn't too crazy and bad, I knew what was gonna happen, it would ultimately end up with her coming up to me, and telling me that "we need to talk tommorow" and I knew, I knew this was it, and I knew I was now powerless to do anything, she broke up with me, i was inconsolable, however the reason why she did it was the sentence that he said, that would turn out to be the most mind numbing, shit filled junk I'd ever hear "you need a man that can show you the world" I came home told my sister, and since she had S added on Instagram she started messaging her, warning her about L, his history, how he is, even her friend tried to tell her, and what his true colors are, even my cousin started planning with me and some of his friends, who L also fucked over, that we would beat the shit out of L, however, I started messaging him about it and the shit that happened, it was mostly just me writing a paragraph about how he was the biggest mistake in our lives and that he never acted like a true friend, he started firing back with shit like he never said anything bad, he was always supportive, and that I just overlooked it, however nothing changed, around a month came by, I started cutting myself, had the worst depression I've ever had, (I just recently realized this so I'll just put this out here) L and S started dating, I don't know for how long, when it started or when it ended, but L apparently spread the word of them two dating, all around the city, also at that point, L's manipulation started cracking too, and too little too late, S finally realized who Really is, so she broke up with him, (also in the month I asked her 3 times to reconsider, to think about it, and to give me one more chance, dismissing me every time) and so the depression arc continued until around April when I started slightly healing and getting used to not being with S, but then me and S started talking again, as friends, and I got re-added to a group chat I haven't mentioned before, (since it wasn't important) from which I got removed by one of the friends because she called me out for being a Wretch, so I got re-added and when I was gone, there have been some drama that I didn't knew of (that's where I found out that S and L were dating, and at prom where I danced with S, I found out something horrible which is the reason I added truthfully to the part where L probably raped the 14 year old girl too, I'm not gonna specify ) I was in utter shock, but yeah, shit went, and well we started talking more, that's where the promise I made turned into a curse, no matter how hard i tried, no matter how much I insisted and promised, my feelings never went away, so some more happened, and just yesterday until 3 am today (it's 5 am when I'm writing this) me and S went on a bike trip, since I want to stay close to her, we rode for 7 hours, chatting, laughing and having a good time, while I tried to make it as comfortable and enjoyable to her as possible, and we threw around a conversation about L, she said that he was the worst thing to ever happen, which I completely agree with, but I couldn't shake off this feeling because (it may just be overthinking) but it seemed like she started liking me again, she would constantly smile at me, look at me, having fun and it was just great, but now as I'm writing this I realized the situation, she is the reason why I continue living, her smile, her eyes, her personality, and just her, the only thing driving me into another day is the thought that one day I could maybe be hers again, and she could be mine. However I can't tell anyone expect the stranger on reddit, since if I'd tell my family they'd probably scold me, my friends would laugh at me, and God forbid I'd tell her eyes to eyes. I'm just at a crossroad where every turn I take is wrong and I'm just hanging on something that will never be, but the feeling that the impossible could happen, is the only thing keeping me going. Sorry for this long ass vent but I just needed to take it out, and I'm nearly sure someone will go full on detective mode to try and find, names, locations and shit, but I could just care less

In case this is of any interest to anyone.
I'm 50 levels in to a Druid playthrough and it's been one the best times I've ever had in Skyrim. So I figured I'd list the mods I'm using for it and why--just the ones that give the feel and flavor, not graphic or combat overhauls or anything else.
Concept: A Druid, protector and defender of nature and the natural world. Not a fan of cities, less inclined to fire magic due to its destructive nature. Due to this I applied certain restrictions: no conjuring undead, no allying with Daedra, no missions that are rooted in harming the natural world (use the pilgrim to heal the Gildergreen, not Nettlebane, etc). For race, of course, I went with Bosmer, being a good thematic choice. For skills I focused largely on Archery, Conjuration (see below), Alchemy, One Handed, Restoration, and Alteration. I limited the use of Shouts to those that fit the build--Aura Whisper, Call Storm, Kyne's Peace, etc. I didn't tend to carry weapons much and used Bound Sword and Bound Bow quite a bit (along with a mod that made them green for that Druid look) until I could craft a dragonbone bow that outstripped damage on the bound bow dramatically. I started as a hunter in Live Another Life.
On to the mods!
1) Ordinator: the perk overhaul is one I love, and it gives some great perks for Druids. For example at Speech 50 you can take Speak With Animals, allowing you to tame and keep an animal follower. None of that 60 second racial ability foolishess.
2) Mannaz - Integrated Races of Skyrim: this overhaul improves racial abilities dramatically in a fair way. Check its description for more--worked well for my build and earned a permanent place in my mod list.
3) Freyr - Integrated Standing Stone Overhaul: Designed to work with Mannaz, it alters the way standing stones work to improve and alter racial abilities. Its synergy with Mannaz's Bosmer abilities really gave a great Druid vibe to the hawk-based powers and had me feeling like an ally of the natural world
4) Forgotten Magic Redone: While I also use Odin, Apocalypse, and Triumvirate, FMR gave some excellent Druid spells, such as Wolf Pack and Veil of Nature; these spells can level up! Wolf Pack was especially fun once I found a ring that allowed me to summon four wolves at once.
5) Wrath of Nature: Path of the Druid: What more can I say. Earning the ability to shape shift into a wolf, bear, tiger, or spriggan is about as Druidic as it gets. At higher levels I used it less and less, except for the wolf form, which runs at a high speed and meant I didn't need to bother with a horse.
6) DX Druid Armor: Honestly, I didn't find it overly sexualized like I thought it might be. In game it came across as just a great Druid look. It's also the reason I leveled up Smithing, as periodically I'd craft a new set for better stats as the game went along.
7) Song of the Green: Auri is a fantastic Druid follower. Recommended.
8) Anna's Druid Conjuration: If you're going to conjure, but no undead or Dremora, this is the mod you want. So good--summon elk, bears, wolves, spriggans, stags, etc.
9) Wintersun: being a follower of Kynareth just made complete sense, of course.
So how'd it all fit together?
A lot of fun. I use mods like Warzones to ensure Skyrim really is at war, and there was a special delight in charging into battle in Wolf or Spriggan form (Wrath of Nature) along with a conjured pack of wolves (FMR) and a bear (Ordinator's Speak with Animals perk) it really felt like nature was rising up and joining the fight. I used Survival Mode and Campfire for a while, and while I loved making camp and crafting, the stamina hit from needing rest got annoying after a while so I stopped. I did find Speak with Animals worked on the Chaurus, so for a while I had one in tow, and got to watch it be a pain in the ass for grounded dragons rather than for me.
Even with the extra abilities the game remained challenging (played on Master), but I had a lot to do--didn't even buy Breezehome until level 45, or visit High Hrothgar until the same time, but I did use the LC_BuildYourOwnNobleHouse mod to slowly build a town in the wilds of Falkreath, with my head canon being a Druid-lead back to nature community. Sadly you can't choose a god for the temple, but meh.
I've played a lot of builds, from two-hand, heavy armor warriors to sneaky thief/assassins to pure mages, but I had more fun with this Druid build than with any other. At this point I'm at 100 Alteration, Light Armor and One Handed, and mid 90s for Archery, around 70 for Conjuration and haven't yet hit that "hmm, what will my next build be..." phase.
If you're thinking of playing a Druid, I really think this mod list is a fantastic start to a really fun playthrough.