Hi all, I am typing this currently at an all time low with my girlfriend (ex girlfriend I am really not sure we have broken up but agreed to not talk to other people). We had just finished up having one of the best weeks we have ever had, laughing, happy, just an overall good time. Then 2 days before my birthday she leaves a letter after sleeping over and waking up before me saying how she doesn’t want to do this and she is so sorry, but she feels like she needs to leave and ghosted me on everything. I drove to her place and talked about it with her and she seems incredibly confused.
Some context: last June I found out she was emotionally cheating on me with her ex who she emotionally cheated on with me. She was equally confused then and seemed to have similar mood swings. She had these mood swings for our entire relationship and said she was unhappy and that’s why she cheated. But then after I found out she was distraught saying she wanted to make it work because the past month had been so great and reached out various ways.
We broke up for 2 weeks and reconnected after a lengthy email she sent to me, it was horrible for about 3 months. We were not back in the relationship and were friends with benefits and I had immense rage because I put my entire heart into that relationship and was torn apart by everything I heard during those months. I had so much love in my heart for her.
We broke up and went no contact for 2 months after that. We both did not like it and missed each other a lot. I was the one who reached out the last time and said I wanted to talk with her and re enter the relationship. After a lot of talking we decided to re enter and suffered from many ups and downs, it was so all over the place.
Anyways we really made a lot of improvements and went from not being able to have a good half of a day together to spending weeks together and having a great time. We both love each other again, but the mood swings have persistently appeared during the process of all of this and a week ago hit the worst one.
There is a lot more context, but essentially she says her therapist convinced her to break up with me despite her not wanting to leave and being unsure about things. She says the week before then was so great and it made her so sad to do this. We have been talking for a week now trying to figure things out and she keeps saying she doesn’t know what to do. There really is so much to this story, but I firmly believe she has some kind of mental illness that needs professional help more than what she is getting. She sees a therapist every other week but from what it sounds like, they gossip a lot and the therapist is very unprofessional. She sees a psychiatrist to get medication for depression, but has lately not been taking the medications as described and changes medication often or will choose to take certain ones and not others. She has a family history of mental disorders as well such as ocd.
I genuinely do care for this girl with all of my heart and it makes me so upset to see her like this. I do not feel like her thoughts are always rooted in reality and a lot of the things she says do not make sense logically. I am dealing with a lot of pain on my end from this. I am trying to help her and save our relationship with everything I have. I believe she has undiagnosed bipolar disorder and I have told her this and tried to have her seek help, but she refuses. I really don’t know what to do anymore, I am praying every day for a miracle or for her to come to her senses. I know she loves me and wants me, but she is so confused right now and not in the right state of mind.
What am I supposed to do?
TL;DR My girlfriend and I are currently going through and all time low week after an all time high week. Her changes in mood have very much so affected our relationship and I don’t know how to help. I believe she has bipolar and that she is not in the right state of mind right now as she keeps making illogical statements, contradictions, and is remembering things differently this week. I don’t know what all I can do to help her, I care for her very deeply and we both have a lot of love for each other.

Honestly i dont really know why im typing this post but to vent I'm losing all hope in humanity. I hope none of the people you care for ever need mental health in the markham area. The current system is broken all fake talk and propaganda for funding and donations$, the reality is a large majority of Healthcare leadership and workers are often completely apathetic careless, many of these hospitals including camh openly refer to their patients as "clients".
The law enforcement / policing system has made huge improvements in large thanks to more cameras and transparency making it more difficult now for those who are good talkers to hide their actions. The same cannot be said for the Healthcare industry since they can play the "personal, sensitive information" card let's them get away with murder quite literally.. I'm gonna keep ranting if I don't stop now. So many "intellects" with degrees getting big salaries to talk a big game but lack on any real substance or action.
All the talk about the "need" for "affordable housing" pm finally openly admits they "need" home values to stay high because government "needs" and has become addicted and dependant on higher property taxes to pay for all their inefficiencies and corporate welfare. We're paying more in interest on debt right now then to Healthcare, there are more real estate agents then Healthcare workers, if that doesn't make you sick then you're part of the problem.

Sorry if this is really basic for most of you. I’m in the event industry and I make allot of foam core cutouts (30x40”) printing prices are eating too much into my margins, I’m trying to figure out what’s the most economical laser to cut foam core + acrylic… I won’t be using many other substrates (maybe thin wood once and a while) and I will apply a vinyl after as these parties are only 2 hours, so quality and longevity aren’t a big deal…
What machine would you recommend? Price would be a factor as I would like to make an ROI asap… Something easy-ish to learn and use…
TIA

The title basically explains it.
I’m running Lost Mines of Phandelver with a lot of my own homebrew to flesh things out. We are currently in a very dry section of the book, so I’ve wanted to do some extra things. One of them is have a doppelgänger roleplay/combat session
I have already started putting ideas in the players head that their party members are off (the ones that aren’t at the session, like I have some of them like shown to be awake during a long rest, or like be rummaging through stuff, as I’ve been playing with a rule that any pc’s that have no player that session are still there but semi ignored/not relevant)
One idea I had was to have this one kid in town they have already met, lead them out into the forest (oops he’s a doppelgänger too) and then have this sort of mini game happen when they rest, where the party doubles, with a doppelgänger there for each PC. Each player would then get a question each “round” to ask another set of PC’s, and the player playing the questioned PC would send me their answer, and I would roleplay that answer, and a fake doppelgänger answer. It would then be the parties job to find out which is a doppelgänger, after a few questions.
The problem is, that seems really slow and a slog, with players thinking of answers and questions, and then typing them out. Plus I don’t wanna roleplay their characters that’s a big no no. Maybe I do one doppelgänger? but I don’t wanna show favoritism or smth.
Another idea was just one of the NPC’s close to them was actually replaced by a doppelgänger but idk how to do that well.
My group is also pretty new, and therefore not amazing (but trying somewhat) at roleplay, so I want to try to get them to get into their characters a little more instead of just themselves.
Any help?

After 1.5 to 2 years of sleep deprivation, I’ve had really good sleep for almost 6 months now. (Thank you to the person who recommended the BedJet!)
My attitude has changed so much that I feel like a new person. I used to have little to no patience and my fuse was incredibly short.
Even though I’m still dealing with hot and cold flashes, I have been able to deal with them much better because I’m well rested.
My libido is still in the toilet, but I’m handling that okay now too. Hubby understands and is incredibly supportive.
I’m no longer making mountain ranges out of mole hills.
I feel better even though I’m having the same symptoms. The big difference though is sleep.
I’m wondering if anyone else has experienced this as well. Were you severely sleep deprived and then found something that helped you to sleep well and did that change how you felt, even though you’ve still got all the same symptoms?

just a quick rant lol but please lmk if it gets better or what I can do to make it better
I feel that I grew up way too fast because I grew up in a setting where my parents barely spoke English, so I was constantly translating for them. Even receiving difficult news, I was the one who had to break it to my parents.
Since I was very little, I always wanted my parents to think I'm doing fine and that I am always happy. So, I never opened up to them and I also felt so uncomfortable showing any emotions to them. Even when I was being severely bullied for the first two years of middle school, I never said a word. However, they eventually found out from my guidance counselor, and even then I pretended that it was nothing. Even my past relationships, I kept a secret. I feel like my parents don't even know who I am. I know it's partially my fault for not telling them, but at the same time (I don't mean to blame my parents but..) they did not create that environment for me to feel comfortable to do so. Therefore, they overlook my feelings a lot and even claimed that I am not sympathetic enough. For example there has been situations where people I know have passed but I am so uncomfortable to expressing my emotions to the point where it came off as disrespectful. But the thing is, I am an extremely sensitive person. I just hide it very well. I feel things deeply and little words affect me a lot.
What hurts more is that I have younger siblings who I have always looked after. I literally felt like a mother to them even though our age gaps are not a big difference at all. But I see the difference in my life and their lives. I love them so much and I really do want to do anything to support them. But my whole life I have been making appointments for them, making an environment where they never have to feel like how I do and hide everything going on, and more, to the point where I am still like a mother. My parents also treat them so much differently. Everytime they go through a failure, my parents are there with open arms and rather worried about my siblings being stressed about it. Meanwhile, I feel the opposite way. Whenever I experience a failure that my parents know about, I feel stressed due to the way my parents will be stressed and worked up about it. I realized I never put myself first. Especially my mother, she will even sometimes yell at me for my mistakes and while she has never yelled at my siblings once but rather hugged them and told them it's fine. I have NEVER received that treatment.
I also feel that my parents have never been satisfied with me. Yk the classical AP. I'm not tall enough, I don't have a high enough GPA for them (even though at the moment I am in the top 3% in GPAs out of 800 people in a high achieving high school), I'm not skinny enough (even though I have a below average weight for my height), and etc etc. Once, my mom expected me to make the soccer team when I never even got training and I was competing against kids who have been training since they were young. When I didn't make it, she was so disappointed in me and I was freaking out so much because she gave me a silent treatment. This same thing happened with my brother for hockey, and he also did not make it. However, my mom reassured him and said it's fine and that it isn't fair that the other kids were already on teams for several years. It's just so so frustrating to see this. I know I'm being somewhat selfish and I am not at all saying I want my mom to be tougher on my brother. But it's rather that why didn't I get this treatment? Why do I always have to be on my toes and why do I always have to feel like a disappointment?
Regardless, I have so much love for my parents. I have a great relationship with them. They are always rooting for me and wanting the best for me. However, it's just so difficult especially because I live in an area that is white dominated and it's so so difficult for me to constantly wish I got the same treatment as the rest of the kids at my school. I am also fully aware that what I'm complaining about is nothing in comparison to some of the other stories here, but it's just that I am extremely fed up. I know I am being unfair by saying this, but if I try to communicate with my parents in English, it's English that is just jumbled up, pronounced wrong, and doesn't make sense. And I KNOW that they are trying their best, but it can just get so frustrating sometimes because my siblings cannot speak our native language as well as I do, so I ALWAYS translate back and forth to the point where I am so fed up. This isn't just about not knowing definitions, but rather the college process, banking related things, medical related things, etc etc. The only person in my family who is taking care of all this is me. And recently I have been so busy and I am just so tired. I have so much anger building up because nobody from my town has the same experience as me and neither do my siblings. So I am just constantly jealous.
I am going to be applying to colleges this Fall, and I have never been so stressed. My parents have extremely high expectations for me, and I have consistently not been meeting them. My parents will say stuff every once in a while that really hurt. They do not have faith in me for the college process and honestly I don't either. When they suggest some colleges (ofc all with super low acceptance rates) and if I say something like "I don't like the location" they will be shocked because for them it's only academics that matter. But I want to be happy and I want to enjoy it if I am spending four years of my life there. My dad has even said that I should apply because ofc it doesn't matter what I want but he emphasizes that he doesn't know if I am even going to have options from being accepted to many and being able to choose. It's just so frustrating especially because my whole life I have been doing everything myself (well it feels that way) and all of a sudden due to college applications coming up, my parents are somewhat trying to make sure I'm doing this and that. I know that this also sounds so bad of me but for example my parents asked me "did you ask for recommendation letters yet" or "did you participate in school today" and I know that this is nice of them but from my perspective, it frustrates me. This is because yes, I did already, and I have been in control my whole life and I just don't like how they decide to interfere now. They have been completely clueless about so many things and honestly I really know that they are trying to help me and I know that it's nice but pls someone say they understand my frustration lol. It's like my whole life I have been responsible about anything coming up, and them making sure I did something (which I did) just frustrates me because I know!!!!! Like ofcourse I did it already. I feel like it's too late for them to all of a sudden want to manage and be more involved in my responsibilities, and I just want them to back off. I know that this is the support that I want but they should've been like this when I was so much younger. I would now much rather just tell the good news and they don't need to know the process I took or setbacks that got in the way. I know I am being ungrateful but I am just so exhausted and done.
And again, yes my parents want the best for me, and yes they don't mean harm, and yes I am living a financially stable life because they work so hard...etc.. But all I want is emotionally available parents. That has been missing my entire life, and it's too late to reverse this. Btw, I have tried and tried multiple times to express my feelings. But the same events just repeat. They have apologized but there is no change. It was even to the point where I cried in front of them (which is so humiliating to me), and there is just no change. I also feel like since college applications are coming up, my whole conversations with my APs have been about that.

The title basically explains it.
I’m running Lost Mines of Phandelver with a lot of my own homebrew to flesh things out. We are currently in a very dry section of the book, so I’ve wanted to do some extra things. One of them is have a doppelgänger roleplay/combat session
I have already started putting ideas in the players head that their party members are off (the ones that aren’t at the session, like I have some of them like shown to be awake during a long rest, or like be rummaging through stuff, as I’ve been playing with a rule that any pc’s that have no player that session are still there but semi ignored/not relevant)
One idea I had was to have this one kid in town they have already met, lead them out into the forest (oops he’s a doppelgänger too) and then have this sort of mini game happen when they rest, where the party doubles, with a doppelgänger there for each PC. Each player would then get a question each “round” to ask another set of PC’s, and the player playing the questioned PC would send me their answer, and I would roleplay that answer, and a fake doppelgänger answer. It would then be the parties job to find out which is a doppelgänger, after a few questions.
The problem is, that seems really slow and a slog, with players thinking of answers and questions, and then typing them out. Plus I don’t wanna roleplay their characters that’s a big no no. Maybe I do one doppelgänger? but I don’t wanna show favoritism or smth.
Another idea was just one of the NPC’s close to them was actually replaced by a doppelgänger but idk how to do that well.
My group is also pretty new, and therefore not amazing (but trying somewhat) at roleplay, so I want to try to get them to get into their characters a little more instead of just themselves.
Any help?

Hello everyone, I am currently in 2nd year CSE in a So basically I have pretty much wasted my time before this, only language I have done decently is Python (Django) & MySQL with 1 major project, with some basics of HTML, CSS, JS, PHP (minor projects)

1. Where do I go from here:

• I really don't know which field should I choose. One thing I know is anything that interacts with the end user (Frontend UI/UX) is not my cup of tea. I have been doing backend which honestly I like but I fear it will not have a good job opportunity by the time I pass out.
• Should I switch to something else? If so, then what? I was thinking maybe to Data Science (then what) or maybe ML?
• What languages/domains actually have good scope in the real world?

1. How do I actually get there:

• To the best of my understanding, the best way to learn any language is to do projects. The problem I get is that I can't think of good ideas. If I look up on the net or gpt, it just shows generic ones. I would like to know how you guys come up with unique ideas that are actually relevant to the field
• Hackathons: (online ones) Are they worth it or should I prefer in-person ones (which are not that frequent). Regardless, how do I find the upcoming hackathons (online resources)

1. Internships:

• Lastly, internships. Everyone suggests the basic sites: LinkedIn, Internshala, Indeed, Glassdoor etc.
• But what I want to know is about the reputed big tech companies' internship. From my understanding, they do take in students but the opening window is very small. Any idea when they open and how to apply etc or where to track the openings.

Thanks in advance.
PS: I know I could search for a lot of these on google, but tbh I don't think it is suitable for these kinds of stuff, hence am asking here.

I saw someone on here comment a while ago about Jade being a terrible mom, and I’m wondering why people think that. I didn’t watch Y&P, so I’m just getting my intro to Jade on TM2. I’m on season 10 now, right after she graduated and got her own little room/studio, just had that big fight with her parents and Sean happen. For reference. Anyway, I’m wondering if everyone thinks she’s a terrible mom and why? I definitely get nervous as fuck whenever her mom has her kid (I had a chaotic addict parent and wouldn’t even trust him with my dog, much less a kid), but other than that I feel like there’s hardly any focus on parenting or Kloie in general. Was there more on Y&P? What am I missing?
Also, is the guy who is specified as her “grandpa” really her bio grandpa? I know drugs wreck folks, but he looks 5 years younger than her mom and a cool 20 years younger than her stepdad.

I (M23) have been with my girlfriend for a little bit over a year now. We just had a talk about body count. She was open and honest about it. I feel like her body count (13) is too high for someone her age. I don’t know whether to continue this relationship because it has changed my whole perception of her. I told her I will think about it but really and truly I don’t think I can continue. I’m a bit disappointed because that’s not the way she portrayed herself. She says that it’s her past and she is no longer like that. What do you guys think about my situation? If you already love someone, would something like this skew your opinion about them?
Also, my gf is still in University and and she has a ex of 2 years. A couple months ago I caught her texting him. She said she was just checking on him.

I (18F) am about to graduate from high school, with two weeks left in the year. To be honest, I’m kind of done with all of my friends. One of them, Kayla (19F) ditched me at prom the whole time even though she invited me and promised me we would be able to stay together, and the other friend this is concerning is Lila (18F), who only acknowledges my existence when her other friends aren’t around, and I always have to support her through every crisis and she never helps me with anything. They aren’t bad people, I’m just tired of them ignoring me and being their last choice friend, and I recently heard Kayla letting a girl insult me behind my back so idk. I don’t want to cut them off entirely or be mean to them, just distance myself. However, we sit next to each other in class and we are in a club together that we have been in since we were in kindergarten.
This club (the three of us and one other girl) is traveling to Europe this summer. We already paid and everything, so I will at least need to interact with them until then. I would loose a lot of money if I backed out, and the club leaders (53F and 61F) are very sweet and excited for this trip, and I would be letting them down if I didn’t come.
I’m not really sure how to approach removing myself from my friends lives. I’ve tried to talk to them about how they make me feel, but they either imply I’m being overdramatic or apologize in the moment but then talk bad about me behind my back. Also, Kayla and I text a lot, and giving her dry answers until the trip would probably result in her being confused and then we might fight and it would make it awkward for the the whole club.
Cutting them off cold turkey just isn’t reasonable for our lives together but I don’t want to keep existing as their friend when they treat me like I only exist to sometimes make them laugh.
So, how do I distance myself from my friends while still allowing us to remain amicable until our class and trip end?
TL; DR: I’m (18F) tired of being my friends’ (18F) last choice, so I want to distance myself. But how do I accomplish this when we have classes together and go to Europe together in the summer?

I feel i have alot of love to give inside me. I just want the person appreciates it and values it. My love language is :
40% Acts of Service
20% Quality Time
17% Physical Touch
13% Receiving materialistic things
10% Words of Affirmation
Also, I feel i don't really have alot to offer as a partner to someone , given that I'm a very average guy with ordinary life.
But i think I can be a good companion and friend although I always hope that even if things start from there , the woman develops a fondness for me to make me a permanent part of her life.

Here's what's good about me :

I'm hard working ( although I'm not working since awhile ), just waiting to get that clarity , opportunity and support to get started in the career aspect.
i am active in my workouts , from being sedentary earlier this year , I've become quite fit and in shape now.
I'm tall ( 6'0 ) , average looking , hygienic , good health , both physical and mental . Although it depends alot on my environment , the kind of opportunities I get to play sports , socialize etc. Being an extrovert , i derive my positivity and energy from friendly interactions.
I am honest. I understand it's pointless to say it because it's alot like a person saying " I don't ghost". You can never know until they stand the test of time.
I believe in doing loving acts of service for my partner. It gives me happiness to focus on her needs . Things like cooking , massaging her body , being her therapist, supporting her in her professional endeavors . And I'm quite open minded and adaptable .
In the modesty / confidence aspect , I'm balanced . I may have some ego , self admiration , self respect but not alot of it that it may become toxic
I'm not too selfish. I'm somewhat altruistic , kind , with a soft heart and clean conscience . And this is one reason why I'm choosing to be childfree. Because I don't want to become the cause of another human's suffering in this cruel world. I'm aware of my limitations and inability to be responsible or resourceful enough to give them a good upbringing . Like whenever the thought of having kids comes into my mind , the persistent question is "why". Would the kid want to be born given the state of my country ( and the world ).

what's not-so-good about me

A lot of things sadly. I'd love to give you a list but it's just too many things to write. Some shortcomings I'm not even self Aware of. Maybe you'd figure out as we talk more.
And it's okay if later you find me incompatible , or not a good match for you romantically . I'm okay with being friends too.
I do want to save your time though by being upfront.
I'm open to friends too but I would be more excited about the conversation if you are open to relationship possibilities as well . I live in india.

We (25F & 27M) are debating on how many days to stay in Kyoto vs Tokyo. We love food (not big fans of seafood though). We want to go to Disney one of the days. We’re debating really how long we should stay in Kyoto because I’m (27M) under the impression that Kyoto is going to be more of a history lesson, which I’m fine with and enjoy. But outside of that history lesson I’m not sure if there is much more to do or see. We also want to go to Nara for the deer for half a day. What do you guys recommend that have been there?
We’re not big party people, but I love technology and my 25 year old girlfriend loves shopping and photography.
I really wanted to hear from those that have been to both Tokyo and Kyoto which place they’d stay longer in if they had 9 days to split up among the two.
Also we’re planning on staying in Ginza. My thought was that it was a good spot to get to everything. Is my logic good on that? Like 15-20 to most places we’d want to go in Tokyo?

So to gather more information and build confidence in previous hypothesis/assumptions, I'm running the test bigger and bettemore granular. Though the sample size is still small, with hopefully repeated tests in the future, we can get some good learnings out of them. Speaking of learnings, based on the current findings; I am rather surprised by the results. Previously, I was lead to believe based on the testing that there was indeed a weighting, but test #2 seems to display otherwise. On with the numbers...
The testing was done with a lvl 100 rogue, 100 lvl 925 gauntlets, max temper rank, 600 straight attempts tempers. The available tempers include Critical Strike Damage (CSD), Markmanship Damage (MMD), Marksmanship Critical Strike Chance(MMCS), and Rain of Arrows damage(RoA).
In 600 attempts, the follow appeared X number of times:
CSD: 143
MMD: 159
MMCS: 150
RoA: 148
The ratio is quite different from the previous test where the distribution was about 20%/25%/ 25%/30% or (55,77,74,92). The current numbers breakdown to a much closer ~24%/26%/25%/25%. The part I find weird is that even if I looked at the data at 300 attempts of the current experiment, the distribution is still much more even than the previous test(79/70/74/77 or 26%/23%/25%/26%). The variance doesn't seem to make sense to me, but if any of the math/statistics people from the previous thread would like to chime in, I'd love to hear some possible reasonings. The only thing different in this test is the scale and that it was after the patch, but I somewhat doubt they touched tempering without saying anything.
On to the feel bads(back to back often unwanted affixes):
CSD: 19
MMD: 22
MMCS: 22
RoA: 15
With a much more equal number of overall appears of each affix roll, it would make sense the amount of repeated rolls would be similar, but it seems much more often than it should to me personally as the previous experiment had 5/11/9/10 of the back to back rolls respectively for each affix.
And the feels really bad back to back to back rolls:
CSD: 5
MMD: 6
MMCS: 4
RoA: 6
Another set of numbers I personally can't quite wrap my head around because while it makes sense the numbers would be fairly equal because of the near equal distribution, the frequency going up as much as it does seems really high to me. The previous numbers for 3 consecutive appearances were 1/1/2/2 respectively.
And an instance I did not see in the previous test, the big middle finger back to back to back to back rolls:
MMD: 2
MMCS: 1
These I find these surprising because given the distribution is actually pretty close to a flat 25% each affix, the chance of hitting 4 in a row is actually about .3 of a percent.
More granular observation #1:
The number of times each affix didn't appear in a roll for an item(out of 100 item):
CSD: 19
MMD: 17
MMCS: 15
RoA: 14
This one is interesting and also a headscratcher as the numbers don't align with the number of appearances as you would expect the affixes that appear the least would have more instances of this situation, so logically it should be CSD, RoA, MMCS, and then MMD from most instances to least.
more granular observation #2:
The max number of rolls in a row where the an affix does not appear(out of 600 rolls):
CSD: 24
MMD: 21
MMCS: 16
RoA: 15
This one is also interesting because it reflects the previous observation almost exactly as it goes against what would normally be expected as something to correlate with the number of overall appearances.
Overall, the results are quite interesting since they're in a stark contrast to the last test. The numbers this time around seem to reflect an almost even weight to all affixes(at least based on number of appearances). Though with the more granular observations, there does appear to be some bias involved. However, that's speculation as there is a lot we don't know like if there is a pity system or other factors involved in rolling. If there is some other pattern or information I should be looking for, let me know and I'll go over it again. Also, this testing is a pain in the ass since I right before I started; I realized I needed 4200 veiled crystals for it. So, if I run it again, it'll be in a bit as the farming part was way more tedious than the recording of the information.

Hi all, I am typing this currently at an all time low with my girlfriend (ex girlfriend I am really not sure we have broken up but agreed to not talk to other people). We had just finished up having one of the best weeks we have ever had, laughing, happy, just an overall good time. Then 2 days before my birthday she leaves a letter after sleeping over and waking up before me saying how she doesn’t want to do this and she is so sorry, but she feels like she needs to leave and ghosted me on everything. I drove to her place and talked about it with her and she seems incredibly confused.
Some context: last June I found out she was emotionally cheating on me with her ex who she emotionally cheated on with me. She was equally confused then and seemed to have similar mood swings. She had these mood swings for our entire relationship and said she was unhappy and that’s why she cheated. But then after I found out she was distraught saying she wanted to make it work because the past month had been so great and reached out various ways.
We broke up for 2 weeks and reconnected after a lengthy email she sent to me, it was horrible for about 3 months. We were not back in the relationship and were friends with benefits and I had immense rage because I put my entire heart into that relationship and was torn apart by everything I heard during those months. I had so much love in my heart for her.
We broke up and went no contact for 2 months after that. We both did not like it and missed each other a lot. I was the one who reached out the last time and said I wanted to talk with her and re enter the relationship. After a lot of talking we decided to re enter and suffered from many ups and downs, it was so all over the place.
Anyways we really made a lot of improvements and went from not being able to have a good half of a day together to spending weeks together and having a great time. We both love each other again, but the mood swings have persistently appeared during the process of all of this and a week ago hit the worst one.
There is a lot more context, but essentially she says her therapist convinced her to break up with me despite her not wanting to leave and being unsure about things. She says the week before then was so great and it made her so sad to do this. We have been talking for a week now trying to figure things out and she keeps saying she doesn’t know what to do. There really is so much to this story, but I firmly believe she has some kind of mental illness that needs professional help more than what she is getting. She sees a therapist every other week but from what it sounds like, they gossip a lot and the therapist is very unprofessional. She sees a psychiatrist to get medication for depression, but has lately not been taking the medications as described and changes medication often or will choose to take certain ones and not others. She has a family history of mental disorders as well such as ocd.
I genuinely do care for this girl with all of my heart and it makes me so upset to see her like this. I do not feel like her thoughts are always rooted in reality and a lot of the things she says do not make sense logically. I am dealing with a lot of pain on my end from this. I am trying to help her and save our relationship with everything I have. I believe she has undiagnosed bipolar disorder and I have told her this and tried to have her seek help, but she refuses. I really don’t know what to do anymore, I am praying every day for a miracle or for her to come to her senses. I know she loves me and wants me, but she is so confused right now and not in the right state of mind.
What am I supposed to do?

I had two cats 10M and 3F. They were cuddle buddies and loved each other. About 2 months about the male started losing weight and declining. He went through many tests and bloodwork and meds but ended up getting diagnosed with cancer on Tuesday and was put to sleep to end his suffering as he wasn’t himself. The entire time, my girl cat who is my entire heart and soul seemed so sad. She didn’t play with him anymore (it feels like she knew he didn’t feel good and didn’t want to bother him) and would cry at night for someone to play with as she would run around.
I’m feeling a lot of guilt and regret I didn’t spoil him in his last months. What if he had future symptoms and I didn’t register them as abnormal? I feel like I was in strong denial we would find something out and he would be fixed and healthy again. We would cuddle every night but I feel like I should’ve done more and spent more time focusing all my attention on him. He was such a sweet loving boy. I can barely eat and I’ve been throwing up I feel so sick for how it ended. When we brought him to the vet on Tuesday I feel like I got hit by a truck when the vet felt his abdomen and immediately said it’s not good and he thinks it’s rapidly spreading intestinal cancer. X-rays confirmed this. He was put to sleep with me and fiance in the room while he weakly laid there.
We stayed in the room for the process by his head petting and kissing him while he got injected with the anesthetic. I didn’t want him to look at what was going on and he kept his eyes on us the entire time. After the first injection, he started purring so loud. He hadn’t purred like this in weeks. I feel so guilty he was purring to comfort himself because he was scared or in pain but was too weak to vocalize or move.
We chose to do cremation. I’m scared they weren’t kind and gentle with his body. I’m personally so against cremation as it feels so cruel to do to a body even if they’ve passed. I’m scared he was just thrown into an incinerator and didn’t get the respect he deserves. My coworkers asked me if it was a solitary or mixed cremation. I didn’t even think about this. I don’t mind getting mixed ashes - it could be multiple animals whose owners chose not to keep their ashes and that’s so sad to me. But what if I get the ashes back and it’s barely his? How do I even know if it’s him? I want to ask the vet clinic but I’m so scared of the answer and how I’ll linger on it forever.
Then… I got two new outdoor kittens that were about to get trapped in storms happening and adopted them this week. I got one Monday and my male cat cuddled him and me the entire time before his appointment. After we euthanized him… we went back and got the other babies brother the same night so he wouldn’t be alone and scared and in the storms. It wasn’t to replace him - that was not our intention whatsoever. We just knew we could help this baby and it would be more comforting to the first kitten to have his brother.
They’re so sweet. But I feel so guilty my cat somehow feels replaced. But they could never be a replacement for him, they just needed help and we had the resources to do so. I feel like it looks really shitty of me to adopt so quickly and that it looks just forgetting my cat for some new babies. I know I shouldn’t care what people think and I would never judge someone else for helping out a cat after a loss.
My girl cat seems happy. She loves cuddling them when they’re calm during the day and plays with them at night which is her regular crazy hours. She sets her boundaries gently with them when they get a little wild and she’s not ready to play. But I feel so guilty and evil. They get lots of love but to be honest I can’t help but look at them and think that should’ve never happened with my male cat and he should be here. I applied to volunteer at my local shelter that needs help to help with their cats - they have a lot of senior and special needs cats I want to work with as they deserve love.
I’m really just rambling but I feel like I can’t talk to anyone about it without looking crazy. I’m in one on one therapy but it’s not until Tuesday and I feel weird going in and just dumping all my problems about cats. It feels so insignificant compared to issues people go through in life and we’ve been focusing on my OCD obsessions and rituals.
Am I a bad cat owner? Did I make too many wrong quick decisions?

I found the absolue love of my life. I’m 24F, been in several long-ish relationships, nothing that has ever been so right for me as this. Genuinely feel like I found my person who I want to be with for the rest of my life.
We’ve been together 9 months and started seriously talking about our future together, marriage kids and all that. He is very excited about having one or two kids one day and really talking about it made my heart sink. I have nothing against kids just never have had the desire to be a mom. I know I’m still young so who knows maybe I’ll change my mind.
I guess I’m just scared, I feel like I should know by now whether or not that’s something I’ll want for my future but I don’t know. All I can say is the older I’ve gotten and the more people I’ve known who have had kids themselves, the less I feel like I want to make all the sacrifices that I know it would take to be a good parent.
If I knew for certain I didn’t want kids, it would be a sad but easy decision that we are not compatible. I don’t want this relationship that’s so fulfilling to me to end because of an uncertainty. But I also don’t want to be with someone who is constantly hoping I’ll change my mind
I don’t know if I’m looking for advice or just want to get this off my chest because it’s weighing on me heavily right now. If anyone had a similar internal conflict I’d love to hear how things turned out for you

I'm at a loss. I need some perspective from people who don't know my situation. I 40 Female and my sister 27 are no contact with our mom. My mom and I have had a bumpy relationship since I got sober in 2017. We don't see eye to eye on anything anymore. My mom and step dad are big trumpers and it has impacted our relationship but that's a different subject. My sister just had a baby 8 months ago but when she was 8 months pregnant she was living at my mom's house. My mother had been bitching about her everything constant but never took my advice to speak to my sister. She didn't and crap hit the fan. She hates my sister baby dad and My mother threatened to smack my pregnant sister and kicked her out basically over having a few cups in her room and a plate or 2. Annoying but not worth losing your family. My mother made me pick sides her or my sister. I picked my sister she didn't do anything to cut her off that's insane my mom don't see it that way. I tried to have a relationship till 2 things happened my mom kept using my daughter 8 to get to my sister's oldest daughter 10. Kept saying tell her there are 2 sides to every story etc. Then it ended bc I let my sister her bf new baby and older kiddo borrow my new jeep so I knew they where safe on vacation. Mom stopped speaking to me after that. Fast forward a few months my mother dropped off 3 bags full of all our photos and a 3 page letter. The letter broke my heart she was cruel. (Ill share for more context if wanted)And now idk what to do. Do I give her what she wants and respond in kind or let it go and realize my mom isn't the mom I need or want. I can't deal with the hypocrisy gaslighting and I truly don't know what to do

Hey there, I'm Ari. That's not actually my name but I like how it sounds and I don't feel like sharing my real name on here yet. I'm really really bad at being open with my emotions and have literally no experience dating at all so I'm sorry in advance. I've never had a proper relationship really so I haven't gotten any practice in with flirting, taking hints, getting hit on, or anything you generally do in a relationship. I'm very awkward irl and only recently have I gotten to the point where I feel like I can kinda hold a conversation for a while. With that all being said, I'm here looking for someone I can feel comfortable around and hopefully make a decent relationship with.
About me:
I'm around 5'10" with long (I might be cutting it soon, sorry if you like long hair) black hair that I usually have tied up and brown eyes. I'm a heavier guy, usually sitting around 230-250lbs. Right now life has been very mean to me so I'm more like 260 currently. I have full-ish facial hair and almost never shave it fully. I mostly wear flannel and jeans. My wardrobe sucks honestly I usually wear the same 3-4 outfits. I have pretty basic hobbies. I game a lot, listen to music even more, and I used to play the piano back in high school. I still have one that I practice with occasionally. I usually play games like: Terraria, Minecraft, Stardew Valley, Helldivers 2, Dark Souls 3, Elden Ring, Bloodborne, Lies of P, Cyberpunk, Fallout NV/4, and Skyrim. My favorite musician is Porter Robinson, I listen to his stuff all the time. Some of my favorite songs are: I'm Not Crazy-Kevin Walkman, Feel-Lies of P, I Really Want to Stay at Your House-Rosa Walton, Bug Bear- Chloe Moriondo, The Fire-Puppet, Language-Porter Robinson, Favorite Liar-The Wreaks, and Cold Weather-Glass Beach. I also have been listening to Critical Roll on Spotify a lot recently during work. I've always wanted to play D&D but have never had the time or people to try. I also work, a lot. I'm usually working 35-45 hour weeks. I'm not really big on birthdays also. I don't want big surprise parties or celebrations. Sleeping in, getting some takeout and playing some games with you would be perfect in my mind.
About you:
I'm really not one to choose looks over personality. The only things appearance wise that are a plus for me are freckles, and if you are chubby. I love chubby women, I think they are soft and give the best cuddles and are so cute. Ideally I'm looking for someone who can be gentle and caring. I love women that give praise and cuddles. I also love people who are passionate about something, I would love to sit and listen to you ramble about your special interest for hours. It would also be nice if you were also a gamer, a lot of the games I listed would be nice to play with other people. I think it would help me open up too if we used gaming as a medium to socialize. I've always wanted a partner who also listens to Porter Robinson, but that is by no means a deal breaker for me. Just a pipedream I entertain the thought of sometimes. I'm only looking for people around 19-29. I would prefer that you live somewhat close to Illinois but It's not a deal breaker if you're further. The only hard stance I have is that you do not do any drugs. I have a really bad past with drugs and I cannot have a relationship with someone who does them, even if it's just casual use. I'm okay with alcohol but only very casual drinking. I would prefer someone who doesn't try to drop hints that they're interested in me, I would like it if you were more direct. I will not understand that the hints are hints. Unless I've been told otherwise to my face, I will assume that you're just being really nice to me today or something. I also would prefer it if you don't have anger issues. I respond very poorly to being yelled at and would not like a relationship with someone who makes me feel like that.
That's pretty much it. I'm sure I forgot something important but I guess that just leaves more to talk about. You can message me here on reddit. If things go well, we'll probably move to discord. Hope to see you soon!
(Also if any of my irl friends figure out that this is my post, no you didn't.)

Hello all! I'm working my way through some samples and wanted to drop some reviews for you! I'm a bit verbose lmao and I don't want the post to be too long, so I will be making additional posts in the coming days. Hope these are helpful or interesting!
Evil Eye - Arcana Wildcraft

Protection against malevolent forces. An opening of bright Sicilian aniseed leads to a creamy, addictive, gourmand heart of Mexican vanilla, dark cocoa, sugar-encrusted blonde woods, warm amber, sandalwood milk, Cetalox, and soft golden tobacco. A woody gourmand with anise and chocolate.

Wet and in the bottle: Very strong, tangy wood, to me it reads like cedar. Reminds me of my parents cedar closet in the attic. I suspect it's the sandalwood. It's very very strong, you get a sense of a sweetness but it's very overpowering in this form.
Wet and just applied to skin: The intense woody tang remains, but a lactonic, no an oaty sweetness starts creeping up more and more the drier it gets. A noticable musk is peeking out here as well.
Dried down on skin: Now the frag has arrived where it should be, it's creamy and woody and sweet. The cedarey sensation remains but it's swirled into steamed, sweetened vanilla oatmilk. Like a wood latte. Feels like something they sell at dryad cafes. The musk grows with wear. I don't get a "cashmere" note that you usually find in scents that mention that. It feels more like a soft, plush musk, something there to keep it from being just gourmand, because strangely the cedar feels kind of herbal like those flower lattes. Comes a long way from the very non gourmand WOOD opening to where it reads like wood, but wood you can eat.
Final thoughts: I'm actually deeply obsessed with this fragrance. I really really love it, even the intense opening of it. This gave me a sort of paradigm shift, where I realized all my recent faves have been perfumey gourmands and not the realistic gourmands I once thought I preferred. Fantastically imaginitive frag, I certainly would've never thought of it. Does it Vampire Blood? (This is the part where I admit I layer everything with BBW's Vampire Blood bc I'm obsessed. This section of my reviews will denote if it can be layered with VB) I did layer it, and it was fine. They both kind of exist at the same time but don't really create something together. But they don't clash, which is great news because you know me and my VB.
Fleeced Skeleton Onesie - BPAL

freshly-washed fleece skeleton onesie and a little bit of smeared eyeliner

Wet and in the bottle: Sweet laundry smell. Reminds me of hugging a friend in high school and you can smell their "vanilla orchid" scented laundry soap their mom picked out. Idk why that specifically, but that's what it's giving.
Wet and just applied to skin: I saw someone say it smelled like banana to them and I get what they mean. There's a floral sweetness (like a banana) cut by something slightly vegetal, just the tiniest bit green. Finishes with a lipsticky quality, but creamy not powdery. From afar, it smells like it did in the bottle - sweet laundry, but with a proper sniff you get the separate elements making that up. The makeup sensation seems to get stronger as it warms.
Dried down on skin: Very much like Avon lipstick. My grandma was an Avon lady and had so much Avon cosmetics, and it really reminds me of her lipsticks. White floral with a creamy quality, but not lactonic. I've smelled this in other things, someone said it's giving crisco and that's almost exactly right. A smooth but sort of aggressively quality-less creaminess. There's something here that reads as very slightly lemon-ey to me, but it mostly just serves to keep it from being sugary sweet. The laundry smell is strong from afar, similar to bedsheet ghost but more floral and less "hot". This isn't just dried laundry it's a clean shirt you folded and put away the night before. But any closer inspection of the frag, a deep sniff, and it's a heady white floral with creamy elements.
Final thoughts: I usually don't like white florals, but I like this one! I wouldn't wear it all the time, it won't become a regular thing, but I do like it. It has a sense of nostalgia, and it really reminds me of scene kids for whatever reason, which I think is what she was going for. Does it Vampire Blood? (This is the part where I admit I layer everything with BBW's Vampire Blood bc I'm obsessed. This section of my reviews will denote if it can be layered with VB) Yes! I think the tangy fruity sweetness of VB calms some of the louder white florals, and it gives it maximum scene kid.
Asses Plus Long, Qu'un Siecle Platonique - BPAL

opal-gilded white rose petals, vanilla flower, and caramelized benzoin

Wet and in the bottle: Sharp, biting, headaching rose
Wet and just applied to skin: This is a true rose, leans more realistic than the kind of fantasy powder rose. It's a little peppery like fresh roses tend to be, a little astringent. Like floral in the most literal meaning of the word. Platonic ideal of a floral. Green, planty, smooth, peppery rose. Kind of arugula adjacent (this is how I feel about smelling most real roses).
Dried down on skin: I figured this would be pretty linear as a frag because of how almost solinote-ey it was for me for a good long while. It stays its perfect rose self, I can maybe get zome benzoin at the tail end, but it melds into the astringency of the rose to where it feels like it's mostly aiding in the solinote. But, after a good long while, like 3.5 hours, it becomes pure bitter zingy benzoin. Very very bitter. Like surprisingly bitter. I sniffed my wrist after a few hours to check on it and was like staggered a bit. Interesting touch, I feel like. Makes this kind of dark and spooky in a way.
Final thoughts: I like rose as an element often but I feel like this is too much rose. It's almost scary how much rose it is. I like it and I think it's well crafted and it's cool how realistic it is for me, but definitely not something I'll reach for often. I've been trying to give florals a fair shake recently, as for a long time I'd decided they were right out but for jasmine. And while this one didn't sell me on florals or rose as a whole, it made me think there's something more interesting there than I thought. Does it Vampire Blood? (This is the part where I admit I layer everything with BBW's Vampire Blood bc I'm obsessed. This section of my reviews will denote if it can be layered with VB) Yes! Makes it a bit more what I'm used to in terms of a rose. A kind of candied, fruity rose situation. More recognizable to me. I do think it gets weird with its endstage benzoin phase though.
We're Werewolves Not Swearwolves - S92

Ambroxan, trampled moss, soft tonka, boozy vanilla, smashed pumpkin, black coffee, acid-washed denim, wild grey musk

Wet and in the bottle: Dirty coffee, a bit of sweetness. Honestly not all that appealing in the bottle.
Wet and just applied to skin: Warm, delicious toasty coffee sweetened with damara sugar. Musk and something slightly salty make it read caramelled and also ground it. Amazing, almost smokey coffee gourmand here.
Dried down on skin: Becomes a spicy, salty coffee slush of sorts. So roasty toasty, but in a way that's super wearable. Doesn't smell like you just walked out of a coffee shop but rather than you ooze coffee, and it gets stuck in the threads of your lightly perfumed (choco musk perhaps) flannel. Smells like curling up to see the stars with a fancy starbucks coffee, the ones with the crunchy caramel bits on the top. So musky and addictive.
Final thoughts: Actually one of my new favorite frags, which is highly unfortunate because I have about half a slonk and don't feel comfortable ever ordering direct from S92. Will be looking for a fullsize in the swaps. I'm soso on coffee scents, I like them in theory but I think they're either very short lived or not gourmand enough for me, instead becoming a kind of interesting earthy note. But here it's all coffee ice cream type coffee but made round and full by some classical perfumey additions. Does it Vampire Blood? (This is the part where I admit I layer everything with BBW's Vampire Blood bc I'm obsessed. This section of my reviews will denote if it can be layered with VB) It's fine, not my favorite combination. They don't so much blend as sort of sit next to each other.
Boardwalk - S92

Coconut pulp, coconut milk, Coppertone, sand, sea breeze, driftwood, melted vanilla ice cream cone, sticky cotton candy

Wet and in the bottle: Very verbena-ey to me. That kind of smooth, almost creamy greenness. Touch of sunscreeney coconut, lots of sweetness. Reads like a fancy slushy summer drink.
Wet and just applied to skin: Much sweeter, coconut imparts a nice kind of nuttiness, very much like Coconut Lime Verbena from bath and body works, which I'm a fan of. Definitely has the sunscreen quality about it. I swear at the end of the sniff, it's exactly like fresh saltwater taffy. That kind of slight saltiness, nondairy creaminess. It reminds me of the blue ones in particular, which I think were blueberry but had a slight herbal quality about them. All of this comes together to really complete the "fancy, slurry summer drink" feeling.
Dried down on skin: This scent is pretty linear for its notes, it doesn't change much to me from the wet on skin phase. Maybe that taffy at the end becomes more the forefront. Not as coconuttey a drydown as I was hoping for.
Final thoughts: I like it, but I'm not a huge summer frag person these days. I think they tend to smell kind of samey to me unless they're doing something very specific. But it's very nice, very wearable, definitely sniffed myself a lot. I feel like it's missing something I'm wanting though, maybe just more coconut, or maybe it smelling like coconut lime verbena makes me want a limey note from it. Does it Vampire Blood? (This is the part where I admit I layer everything with BBW's Vampire Blood bc I'm obsessed. This section of my reviews will denote if it can be layered with VB) Yes! I love this combo bc VB reads very cotton candy to me, and I didn't really detect cotton candy in this frag, more just a general sweetness, and the VB helps to amp that.