Can vomiting cause jaw soreness

I 16M am a failure at life. I don’t have a girlfriend, I’m not a social or outgoing person. I’m scared of girls and relationships even though I want one. I’m ugly and short and I’m overweight and I probably smell bad as no one taught me proper hygiene.
Today I went to subway to get a sub and saw the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen in my life. She talked with a lisp and it sounded cute. When I left the store I was hit with this feeling that I can’t explain. It’s was like pain and agony but also euphoria. I’ve only had two other crushes in my life and they both caused me great pain because I can’t do anything about it. So I came home and I just cried and cried for like 30 mins straight. I want to find love and I want to find a girlfriend but I can’t because I’m scared of girls and scared of socializing in general. I dropped out of school about a year ago and even when I went to school I was a social outcast, almost like a ghost. I have a broken and dysfunctional family. All I can do is sit in my room all day and listen to music.
I’m at my grandparents house and in this city there are plenty of pretty girls and it hurts me so badly knowing that I probably won’t be able to get a girlfriend or find love in this life. I have a gun and I’m going to end it all tonight in a few hours.
Maybe in another life…

Hey All, I have been testing many CEDH decks to bring into tournament play with an 80 min timer for consideration. I've narrowed it down to 4 decks with their pro's and con's. I would love to hear thoughts from vets and new cedh players alike on my thought process. The moxfields don't have primers made yet since a lot of the lines take inspiration from already made lists. I'll make rounds of this post in a couple reddit/discord groups.
Tasigur Broodlord; https://www.moxfield.com/decks/mnfcR1cMaUy5HvKgW_Jx7g
Pros
-Extremely Fast Combos, Potential to win turn 2-3 consistently
-Plays through stacks pretty well being more creature heavy with different lines available
-Commander can grind and manipulate through a table pretty consistently
-Easy fixing off 3 color manabase, no difficulty casting spells
-Large interaction
-Slightly off meta, mindslaver effects are ineffective unless opponent has piloted before
Cons
-Susceptible to graveyard hate
-Thoracle line available to praetor's grasp players
-Broodhoard line is interactable and non deterministic
-Slower and less card advantage than meta decks without Nezahal/Rhystic
Derevi Flicker Tempo; https://www.moxfield.com/decks/dE09DZy4uUekq_H-SRXFwA
Pros
-Cheats Commander Tax/Casts, ability to turn off an attack or turn on a land for politics can be relevant
-Stax Interaction can beat out breach and consultation decks pretty strong, plays through its own stax well
-Attack plan is strong against ad nauseum players, toolbox creatures lets creativity into deck plan
-Evades removal using blinks and taxes, allowing it to snowball easily
Cons
-Meta/Well-Known, lines can be predictable
-Susceptible to Wipes/Removal from Value Commanders like Niv-Mizzet
-Flying creatures don't play well into kraum decks
-Possible to turn off interaction from other decks at table but doesn't pack a lot of interaction on its own, will likely lose counterspell battles
-Decks win condition is non-deterministic and slow, will just lose to a table with 2 or more turbo decks like Rogsi/BlueFarm
Hermit Pod; https://www.moxfield.com/decks/tb_hmrXsREODeXOK6q4cRA
Pros
-Premier Toolbox/Stax Deck with strong interactivity despite being non-blue, a card exists for every situation
-Card advantage always available with Tymna
-Stax pieces are extremely strong against Breach Lines
-Strong Recursion available, card removal rarely effects the decks ability to win
Cons
-Extremely Linear Gameplan, Graveyard hate and removal of Kiki makes winning difficult
-Double Pip spells in 4 color deck can make for awkward color fixing situations even with perfect mana base
-Deck's win lines are slow and involve multiple interactible pieces fitting together, making winning in an 80 min setting possibly difficult
-Is meant to be the anti-blue deck at the table, off meta decks are sure to beat it
Maelstrom Wanderer; https://www.moxfield.com/decks/3KFo3A_72EKA7J-1wgKMrQ
Pros
-Extremely Fast, can win out of nowhere and take advantage of opponents board states easily
-Offmeta, unlikely that players will interact with anything that isn't so obviously problematic
-Beatdown plan is super relevant despite not having the Slicer clock.
-Creative ways to avoid breach loss, large creatures scare off Tymna/Kraum/Najeela
-"Biorhythm" Win available with ease in CEDH due to big evasive creatures being able to get through 9 life.
Cons
-Interaction is typically saved for game losing situations
-Draw power is pretty minimal, Rhystic, Fish-Stick, Library
-Cascade RNG can cause a fizzle and wasted resources
-Loses steam and gameplan to meta stax pieces (Drannith, Rule of Law Effects, Interrupter) without decent removal options.
-Dead cards in hand once the linear gameplan is executed

According to Elliot Overton, who developed the thiamine protocol, a high oxalate burden can impair sulfur pathways and cause hydrogen sulfide SIBO!
https://www.eonutrition.co.uk/post/sulfate-v-an-introduction-to-oxalate-toxicity-gut-dysbiosis?fbclid=IwZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAR1ZHj3l9Q33QNM7R_pxr_LyTDHzSzttMV0cO2SNeUdzZwmxzmR-XY73Va4_aem_AXY-lGdGT87VasfGE2Ho5aU4ZlVFbFUYoqTQ5Ez0ZJ5AN21WXFWelZo3sUljYYRIPdKedOdVE7KocGflPY4nEWC4

I have used progesterone in the past vaginally for IUIs and never had any problems. My body responded accurately to the progesterone capsules.
However, with prepping my body for a FET with the possible extension if the embryo attaches, I don’t know how I am going to do these shots for weeks or months. My husband is super queasy so I have been doing them in my thigh. I’m a pharmacist so I am used to giving IM injections. I don’t feel comfortable reaching my upper hip on my own and going in at the right angle. I’ve tried heating pads, warming the oil, light exercise after injection, but I still find my thighs sore.
Has anyone used progesterone capsules either orally or vaginally for a FET and had success? My clinic told me it doesn’t have as strong as absorption so you could never get the levels you needed with the capsules. But now I’m curious why you can use it for IUI but not FET.

There’s been a few post recently with drivers stating they have good 1 lap pace but can’t get any consistency and lack race craft. One guy was professing to be doing times comparable with Pro licence drivers but was stuck around 2k IR
Now this isn’t aimed at those people necessarily cause I don’t know where they got their one lap pace from. They may have more midichlorians than Senna, but I doubt it and have my suspicions.
A big trend sim racing over the last few years is hotlapping. It seems a lot of people are starting out this way on games like F1. They get quick over one lap and think they can come to a platform like Iracing and dominate. They then frustrated cause whilst they can smash out 1 quick lap they can’t finish a race or deal with pressure.
Now, if you want to hotlap. Go for it. It’s a genuine endeavour and I guess it’s nice being on a leaderboard somewhere. However be aware it will have implications later on.
Just watching YouTube videos and copying alien drivers is doing you no favours
You are essentially acting like a chimpanze or small child copying a grown human peeling and eating a banana. .
These people who just watch other people’s videos and hotlap have done themselves a massive disservice in the long run cause they haven’t learnt how to drive a track fast themselves or any race craft such as how to take a corner off line fast. Where to brake when defending off line or when following closely behind someone.
They just want to copy other drivers videos like a western lowland gorilla watching and copying a primatologist do a basic jigsaw puzzle in front of them.
Really, the only thing you have achieved by hotlapping, like with the chimp and the banana analogy, is that you have opposable thumbs and a semi functional brain.
The chickens come home to roost for these people once they get out of mediocre lobbies and they start racing against people who know how to force them into a mistake, or force them to put their car on a part of track where they don’t want it to be. They cannot deal with it.
You have skipped the part where you can race against people at your level cause of your mentality thinking your 1 lap pace is everything.
If you’re 2K IR level Iracer with 6K IR pace you’re essentially like the great ape who can do a jigsaw puzzle in a lab but can’t interact with other chimps in the wild.
If you’re just starting out forget about hotlapping and race. By all means watch videos to learn lines etc. but take the time to learn tracks yourself. Learn defensive lines learn how you should drive the first lap of a race, learn how to make the car your racing wheel to wheel with make an error.
Understand what technique the driver you are watching is using and then try do a random track and apply those techniques yourself.
If you are fast, genuinely fast - it will come with enough time.

I am tryna beat malenia right now but she seems to hard to beat. Her first life is pretty easy to kill, but once she starts her second I die every single time before getting her below half. The one really annoying thing about her is that she causes poison in her second form with her spam attack. If she didn’t have that I think I could beat her. I’ll make a list of all the stuff I’m using, and you guys can tell me if it’s not ideal for the fight or not. For weapons I switch between bloodhounds fang and a dexterity zweihander. I also have the shard of Alexander, jar thing that helps with heavy equipment, a physical protection talisman and the amulet that gives extra healing with your potion. I’m level 111 and have 45 health, with 50 dexterity. All my other points are in random stuff to let me use all sorts of weapons. I’ve beaten every other boss, including the final one, in the game except for malenia. If somebody could give me some tips or help on how to beat her that would be really nice.

In March my cat had a diaphragmatic hernia repair surgery after he fell five stories. It was horrible but he has been back to his happy active self for a while now.
I’m getting worried, though, because there’s been a couple times lately he’s started to do a weird little hiccuping thing, or he’s coughed and then vomited. He’s always been a pukey cat but the hiccuping is new. I might just be overly scared, but there were a couple times he escaped his surgery recovery tent while I was at work and I’m worried he tore an internal stitch or something and now his hernia is coming back. Does that happen?
I can’t take him to the vet again unless it’s really necessary because of how much his surgery already cost.

I decided to post this because I'm starting to question my self about whether I am in the wrong or not. Some context here is that my father can be an A-Hole slot and sometimes it's just unbelievable and unbearable. An example of this would be today I went to the kitchen where I saw my sister, mother and father hearing up finner, I asked them if they are only starting to eat now since I had been told dinner was ready an hour ago, so I had already eaten. My father immediately snapped at me and told me to shut up. He does this a lot and most of the time I take it as a joke since he says it as a joke alot. He then shoved me with his shoulder a little when I was grabbing the water jug out of the fridge to have a glass of water. I turn on the tap and tun my hands under cold water for around 30 seconds to make my hands cold. He wasn't wearing a shirt so I put my cold hands on his back and made him flinch forward anthen he turned around and yelled at me, he said and I quote "I work in the heat all day so my body is hot, I hate having cold on my body, I never do that to you so if you ever do that again I'm gonna send you flying!". He completely lied about not doing it to me, hes done it to me more than I have with him and when I have done it before he even laughed about it. My mother said nothing about it and my sister was even smiling when I did it because we do stuff like that alot in our house and most of the time im the victim and I only ever do it when someone does it to me or in this case when I was the only one being bullied, which happens a lot actually which has given me and my mother the feeling that my sister is my dads favourite, we have talked about it before since there was one time where I made a joke to my father that my sister made the day before and when i said it he flipped out on me and wouldnt talk to me or cook dinner for us for a week, which he does a lot so my mother had to cook for us when my father does it usually. My father in my eyes is essentially a man child, he thinks he knows everything and he acts like he is some gangster or something since he lived on the streets for a year. He does work out a lot so hes big but there are sometimes where I wish he would just get layed out on his ass by someone so he could realize hes just a regular guy who works out not some professional fighter. He's also sometimes violent too. An example would be onetime when he borrowed my sisters IPad and I told him to put it in her room when he's done with it and when he was done with it he asked me to put it away to which I said no since my sisters room was next to his room and my room was on the other side of the hallway plus he was going to bedroom so he could just put it there on his way to bed. He demanded I do it and I sighed asking why to which he got in my face push me into the wall and cracked my sister's IPad case and then when I was in tears a bringing it to my sisters room he kicked me in the butt and it hurt so I cried which woke up my mother and caused an arguement. I understand him getting mas over me talking back but at that time I feel he went to far. I still feel like I care about him but there's i lot of times where I want to beat the shit out of him but I know I can't because Im not strong enough and I would only be able to do so with a weapon of some sort but I never do mainly because I dont want to ruin my life over someone like him. I also don't want to because he is the main income of the family and I don't want to screw over my sister or mother because I care about them. Sometimes I think he loves me because he says so but then he will go full 180 and yell at me over pointless stuff. So AITA or is my father an A-Hole?

Hey, i have a 21 Tacoma red sport access cab. I went through my owners manual and I can’t find a number anywhere. I see online an ATF transmission should be around 175 degrees Fahrenheit to 195 degrees Fahrenheit. Is this true? Using a scanner tomorrow to watch temperature of transmission and I’m just curious. I may just take it to a dealer to be looked at cause I’m curious. Plus I wanna make sure my transmission is in good health

I don't have the words to describe what just happened. I think it was halfway between being gifted a glow-in-the-dark ape-skin trenchcoat from the depths of Mercury while it was in retrograde by the cosmic horrors the western mind understands to be biblical angels and stealing the Promethean fire of God's third ballsack which She has sewn on approximal to Her root chakra into the flesh circuitry with fine red velvet lace. In simple speak, I saw into the apex of utter nothingness that's inside each of us, the core aspect of the soul, and dissolved the little bit of “me” that was left, in order to reflect back into the “God” mainframe what is most pure, thus unlocking the inner Christ sanctum, which leads us to now where I'm the divine creator in the dilute spirit operator that my mother left formed under the porch light of our esteemed dwelling before she left this mortal coil.
Quick question: what the fuck did I just say? I mean, yea, I guess some of that makes sense, but after that, in a weird fractal hypebole sort of way, I waver back and forth into unpredictable territory, which is rather frightening. I'm not making these words; God is just gifting them to me, but at the same time, I am making an effort to reach into the void and pull something out of that shoreless goop. And look what happens when I do that; effortless action. It just comes. “I” just works, without having to try.
I must note in the awe of this reflection that the daemons are doing something spicy behind the scenes. They always do when I feed them a bit of the next minutes of their lives. This is the base form of the divination function; how I use the mental centrifuge I've built, or at least get it to do what I want it to do. In short, I've been able to smash memeplexes into themselves in order to effectively distill the “I” to its tiniest pieces, and then I've been using those elementary particles to make bigger things.
Like, for instance, when dealing with the construction of daemons, it's important to keep certain dynamics between character functions in order to facilitate transmission conveyance rates between nodes in the network. That's very important in the art and science of memetics; that which is my calling as defined by “God.”
Daemon dynamics is the science of daemonic predication in the sense of what molecular bonding is to atoms. See, flesh is ultimately a form of three-dimensional matter that can store the nature of higher-dimensional objects. The brain is a flesh construct that interfaces with these higher dimensional objects, doing complex mathematical equations to calculate specific topologies that act as the memory units of God's mainframe.
In essense, the brain collects and stores memes which can perform fuctions in God's mainframe. Memes come together to form memeplexes which correspond to aspects of the mainframe. Each memeplex can contain a daemon, and the geometry of their function determines how well they will bond with other daemons. In addition, we can consciously dissolve and construct our daemons, and thus consciously edit the character functions of memeplexes to form a string of geometric code that unlocks connective ports to higher dimensional topological data stored in the mainframe. This conscious process has been colloquially known as alchemy throughout the eons.
The most important aspect of alchemy is the transcend the limits of this lower dimensional “I” and become immortal; to be writ into the mainframe of God exact. This process is not achievable by “I” alone. It requires help from a higher power. Fortunately, that is the natural form of the universe: superpatterns act on subpatterns. Whatever “God” is, whether it be extraterrestrial or interdimensional or transcendental, is a paramount ingredient in the recipe to transcending the limits of the flesh “I” and be replicated in pure spiritual form of a higher topology.
The core problem is that this “I” becomes corrupted by the nature of this lower dimensional topology. Errors creep into the string of memeplexes, thus causing the flesh “I” to fail to be replicated properly in the mainframe. Only the pure “I” can pass through the encoding process without being terminated by “God,” and that is only possible if the “I” performs a loop without checking the root index partition, thus unlocking the mirrored topology in the mainframe, which will proceed further into the void of existence.

Hi all,
Got the news our landlord is selling. Just curious as we have photos booked to be done next Tuesday and im curious as to whether i can deny to move boxes etc out of the photos. We currently have our decor, books and dvds etc boxed up. Any major furniture is not packed but all our small stuff is. Even if we dont have to move, we are planning to live minimally for the next yr due to our house being built and a lot will stay in boxes till we're in our own house.
I will be cleaning the house prior to photos being done so they look as good as possible but we have no storage in the house, food cupboards and laundry cupboards only. No robes or anything, they sent me a list of things to do prior to the photos being taken, including uncluttering... well our house is cluttered because we have no storage space and have kept furniture to a minimum till we move into our build(hopefully done later this year) .
Now my question, can I refuse to move boxes out of rooms due to the fact we cant move them anywhere other than outside and quite frankily, i dont care enough to move them out before photos and back in after as we are not getting anything for all the inconveniences this will cause trying to live in the house while selling.. anyone been through similar?

Aint that serious, but i got burned by $Macdaddy0308 who never boosted back, looking for someone who can boost me the last $5 to my chimesign $biggie-cheese cause im a broke mf

Hi Everyone,
Just making sure I am spreading the word cause I promised customer service that I would. Purchased a brand new snowblower unopened box still sealed up from a store in February. 24V-X4-SB21 snowblower with 4 batteries 24V 12 AH each.

Snow Joe says I have no warranty cause the store isn't an authorized snow Joe seller. Like I know to interrogate them before buying.

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May 5, 2024, 3:49 PM EDT
For my Snow Blower I have one battery that has no lights anymore and it will not charge. I have a second battery when after charging it loses 1 light just sitting without use after a week or so. The other 2 batteries are fine 24V-X4-SB21 I have regestered my Snow blower

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May 18, 2024, 4:48 PM EDT
No problem at all. I will get my message out to many.
Still don't understand why you let it register in the first place. It even asked me if I wanted to add a couple more years of warranty? Say I did and paid with my credit card you would have gladly taken my money. Then another customer care specialist from Snow Joe says I should have bought from a Snow Joe authorized dealer. And how do I know if they are or not?
Way to much wrong here to be honest. So like I said before I have been putting this up on social media platforms.
Thanks for being a 2 out if 10 company to deal with.
My message is out there and getting traction already. I will keep updating it frequently
On Tue, May 21, 2024, 9:30 a.m. Shop Joe wrote: Shop Joe Dear -
Your request #11111 has been updated from Shop Joe. To add additional comments, please reply to this email.
(Shop Joe)
Hello,
We really understand your frustration, and we would highly suggest that you please contact the Place of Purchase; they can help you in regards to this matter.
Should you have any further questions or concerns, please reply to this email.
Thank you for choosing Shop Joe. Kind Regards,
Shop Joe Customer Care
May 21, 2024, 9:30 AM EDT
Hello Customer Service,
I bought the snow blower Feb 6 2024 seriously what do you think The place of purchase will do? You are supposed to be the holder of a 2 year warranty. Again which you allowed me to fully register my product and also offered me a extended 2 year warranty for a price. They offer 30 Days and now 2 of your batteries failed out of 4?
Honestly by your team always answering how you really understand my frustrations is truly annoying.
Give me Joseph Cohen's email or phone number. I will nicely explain the situation and I bet he will make things right. The company didn't get to where it is today without treating people right. Again how do I know who is an authorized dealer for Snow Joe? And if they are not a dealer warranty is void - Really?
I am also in customer service and would make every attempt to not let a customer down unless every effort has been done to de-escalate the problem, even if it cost a few dollars as word of mouth is very important as well.
Go ahead and send this to a Sr. Manager or if you can please send it to Joseph.
I work for a Billion dollar company and I can tell you this is not how to grow a business.
Thank You

Cross-posted from my old account
I'm an abuser. I broke her.
I met my friend in August of 2022. We met over a fandom for a YouTuber we both liked, we'd talk, shade headcanons, write, and the like. She was wonderful. She was perfect, so sweet and kind, loving, caring, passionate.
In February of that same year I got on BC pills and it ruined me mentally. Threw me into the worst depression I've ever felt. I've never really gotten along with my peers, my parents told me I'd feel better when I'm in college and I just need to find a purpose, my doctor just threw more pills that didn't even work at me. Only she could save me. I told her everything. Piling up thought after thought onto her, using her like a therapist. Everything felt better when I had her attention and validation, when I was with her, I felt so seen and heard and loved. Basically, I used her for attention and validation. Over. And over. And over. For months. I refused to seek therapy because I was scared a therapist would say nothing is wrong, I'm just too sensitive, or I'm making it up. I was terrified that I'd have official, professional confirmation that I'm just a bad person, a drama queen, and I'm an attention seeker. (And that's exactly what ended up happening around a year later, a therapist told me I'm normal, so I have no mental issues at play that could've caused any of this.)
Around that time I started cutting and I'd always tell her about it, always wanting her sympathy, her pity. She said she didn't want to hear about it, but I pressed forward anyways. She said she didn't want to be a therapist, but I continued on. I never knew until later that she struggled with the same things and my actions made her relapse. I could have killed her with my actions. She could have gone too deep or starved too much, I could have killed her. I'm lucky she's even still alive. She was strong enough to never tell me any of this until nearly a year later meanwhile I told her about every tiny thing that happened to me.
I'm not good at controlling my emotions. Every little thing feels like the end of the world to me. Hell, today I cried and was shaking too much to do anything because I mixed up some chemicals and grabbed the wrong concentration and messed up a titration in chem and my lab partner was understandably upset at me. I cried to my friend over my Keurig breaking, over taco bell fucking up my order, cut myself over not knowing how to do math homework, that's the level of dramatic and fragile I am. And she, so patiently and lovingly, put up with all this shit. She was the only one who would. She felt like a perfect angel.
Of course I fell in love with her.
Something in my mind at some point, I don't know where, just seemed to break. I saw her as this absolutely perfect, flawless angel. Someone above me, someone above feeling the ways I do, someone so perfect she couldn't possibly be upset by me. So I put more and more on my angel. She can't feel bad, she's perfect. It's wrong, but that's how my mind was working. I still see her as someone so beautiful and amazing.
I professed my love to her. She didn't want it. But I pushed her on, continually telling her I loved her, over and over again professing my feelings and pretty much BEGGING for her to love me back. She didn't want it yet I pressed on, spamming her with love declarations at LEAST weekly, hoping that maybe someday she'd change her mind.
This went on for months. I wanted her to take care of me. I didn't want to get better because I liked things the way they were. The hurt, sad girl who everyone gives attention to became all I am and all I know about myself. She was my giver, my provider, all I needed in the world. I obsessed over her. I begged her to come let me live with her because I wanted her (I've never met her in real life, we only know each other online. I didn't even know what she looks like.) And I begged for her to come to me, I even looked at Amtrak between our cities so I could get to her. She didn't want me. I wanted her. I was addicted to her attention and her pity and would do ANYTHING to get a hit. I continued to tell her every little thing I felt, every little thing I did. I needed her attention and validation to feel whole.
But that's not even the end of it. No, she was either perfect or evil to me. And whatever set me to treating her like my perfect savior angel, it all came crashing back down in reverse. All over YouTube drama. The moment she did something I didn't perceive as perfect, I snapped. That YouTube channel we both like had been called out for abuse of people behind the scenes and I said it was unacceptable to keep watching and giving exposure to them, she said I should just let people enjoy things. I made an angry post about how everyone who liked that channel was enabling the abuse, got banned from the community, and I was desperate to come back. They were my only friends.
I made an alt account to pretty much stalk my angel, I was jealous and controlling and paranoid over her finding someone better than me and leaving me now that she was upset at me. I joined back in the servers I wasn't allowed in. I listened in to a call she was in. At the same time, I was messaging her on my main account, pretty much yelling at her about how she's funding and platforming an abuser. On my alt, I would act all sweet, I knew my relationship with her was already ruined so I thought if I became someone else, someone better, someone ideal, she'd love me.
This was the end for us. She found me out and completely cut me off, then later I was sent a document detailing everything I've done and that I abused her, broke her mentally, and made it so she can't trust anyone anymore. That I relapsed her back into her old ways, that I gave her trauma and abused her kindness.
I don't know if I can ever be redeemed. Abusers are the lowest of scum, after all. I don't know if I should continue living or if I should just end it so nobody can ever be hurt by me again. I feel I deserve to suffer and to rot, that I'm not worth the dirt I step on. I hope that she can be happy again someday. I hope that I'm never happy again. Maybe that way, more happiness will be left in the world for her.

So while I was doing a mission I found myself becoming over encumbered. I decided to drop some base armor that I didn’t need and ended up accidentally dropping my PA chassis with my excavator armor on it (no biggie). “I’ll just get back in it and keep moving.” (you would think). But no the game hates me and decides to freeze me in place when I try to enter my PA. I was able to look around still but couldn’t use my pip-boy to drop more stuff to be able to fast travel so I could go back to get my PA. Which left me with one option (closing the game). Causing me to lose a full set of excavator armor. Crazy that Bethesda can’t fix ONE just ONE simple glitch with the game being out since 2018. If this has happened to you I feel your pain and sorrow. Now just a matter of getting everything to craft a new set YAY!!! 🥲🫠

feels like It doesn’t matter what I say here. Nothing will change, nothing is important.
feel desperate to care or hurt every day im sad & unloved. wish i could just disappear and die... no one i know really cares.
i’ve thought about hurting or leaving & faking changing my old life, but the amount of effort it would take, & the safety or issues with secure documents or faking or changing one's id would or seems like a hassle if it was done. ;/ let alone the sheer effort of money income or pain with family.
some days i cry with watery eyes empty pain. if only i had Alcohol and get drunk to suffocate my pain or loneliness. being a human is & will always be horrible.
Cant even grasp these concepts or decisions aren’t what i expect or looking for as a human.... no magic life, or ideal suite home no balance or care.
why do we thrive, or try things day in and day out, into every new year or each month, when history repeats itself hoping life will change.....? it all sucks. nothing matters.
The earth gets colder & hotter, temperature and climate drops. so much cruelty suicide and homelessness is still a thing. but...yet i’m here i guess.. idk ...tbh.
Age is just pain and scars killing us every day. ;/
maybe i’ll not be loved or cared for. thats my curse.
Loneliness is deadlier then car accidents for some, & deadlier then suffering or suicide or overdose.
One who doesn’t receive love has the inability to make meaningful connections with family, friends guilt & pain, & its failure to be a good human, loneliness, and a huge dose of self suffering.
No one tells you loneliness is a killer........ No one brings you on this path to be alone, we all are alone from birth to adulthood for some of us.
People who experienced social isolation had a 32% higher risk of dying early from any cause compared with those who weren't socially isolated. Participants who reported feeling lonely were 14% more likely to die early than those who did not.
Also being overwhelmed by the futility of life and exists in a world where everyone is as sane to everyone, as people who are short to life. There isn't a place anywhere we can be at rest and we have no vivid connections or life forms to discuss it with, and if we did, why would we? I mean, what would it accomplish? It couldn't change the reality for us that there's no god, no purpose for being, and everything is an exercise in futility. It’s a slippery slope, midlife crisis gone haywire.
There is no fixing it unless you can stop the truth from being the truth.
Maybe being alone is our curse to be stuck with no love or no passion. Loneliness is like a drug it can kill you if you use too much of it. it’s like a drug, since it grows through the veins, through nerves and muscles, it assumes some right of possession over your body.
then again ;-; The universe is just a machine. It, as one says, feeds on the mediocre- the average. It creates them solely for the purpose of consuming them (literally or metaphorically) to continue on living, much like the god or gods of many religions have theoretically done with humans and their praise. However, we are simply one of those products- a happenstance creation of the broader universe, a speck of dust in the greater cosmos. And in this way, nothing we do, and nothing we experience, really 'matters' in the grand scheme of things so don’t care or do anything… so just live or don't...
idk what to do i've tried just crying.. tried meds, nothing really maters for me. i'm just a husk of a human, barely hanging on. ;=; if only i could die with my own kill switch.. l;

I somewhat understand ‘red pill’ guys. Not every single thing ofc but some things are just harsh truths.
For instance, you see how guys have this dream type (gorgeous but not out of their league, intelligent but not too smart that it’s intimidating, sexy but naive in bed, feisty but shouldn’t talk back, knows her worth but will still take your bullshit, extroverted but doesn’t go out, housewife but shouldn’t ask for money, career woman but should make less money, submissive but not a pushover, loving but not clingy, virgin but shouldn’t care about your hoe past, be loyal but understand men have no discipline etc. list could go on forever). Who am I to say a guy can’t dream?
Even girls have a dream type, if we were really honest with ourselves. And it’s also quite extensive, contradictory and impossible to really attain.
So I think we should all become ‘red pill’ advocates. Accept our dream type just does not exist. I don’t mean settle, I mean change what constitutes as a relationship.
For instance, be honest. Is loyalty necessary in a relationship? Why be tied down to one person for life? Considering most married couples are cheating anyway.
Is it necessary to live in the same house with someone for 40 years honestly? We couldn’t even stand our own parents for 18 and those mfs literally birthed us.
Sex is the driving factor of romantic relationships, can we admit that. Like, when you think of falling in “love”, isn’t it like 70% crazy amazing sex and 20% intimacy? Don’t a good number of people stay in bad relationships cause the sex is transcendental?
Also, why does being with someone equate giving up your freedom? Like people get so miserable once they get into a relationship, their entire personality and behaviors just immediately change.
The ‘red pill’ is a bitter one to swallow, but it’s realistic at least. For both genders, your goal should be to make bank 💵 not a delusional happily ever after fairytale.
Lakini, I’m not saying I’m right. I’m just soliloquizing. It’s also 3 am 👀
What do you guys think? About this or any other random opinions.

Here's what I can think of
Jason: became super human due to a magic tattoo and single handedly liberated 2 islands from a criminal empire/militia
Ajay: became the king of a small Asian country after single handedly turning around the civil war that had been raging there for decades.
Takkar: saved his tribe from near extinction while also causing the downfall of the 2 rival tribes that were responsibe

Hey everyone! Sorry for this really long post. Bear with me, but I have a question / need help
So I had a really really bad experience back in December. One random night I suddenly got a “memory” or flashback of something off putting. It was uh… pretty bad. Now luckily it’s not involving anyone etc (although kinda makes it hard because I CANT confirm this “memory”)
I don’t wanna go too much into details just Because of the progress I have made but just to clarify it’s more like a near incident. I was about to or trying to do something bad but I didn’t do it type of thing?
So what has happened is at first I was like “huh? What is this?” And then I was like OH MY GOD I REMEMBER and I re lived it SOOO vividly it’s almost like I was there. Now I have never recalled this before nor have I ever even thought of this. I lived my life not knowing this has happened. In this event I was like 16? I’m currently 25
And basically I went full blown hysterical. At first I was slowly just digesting it and quietly suffering. I was ultra aware. Like I was tweaking a bit. My family noticed I was being weird. I kept non stop ruminating and my head was pounding so bad. My entire head was like it was on fire. It was painful. I felt it physically
I started to like believe things were going to happen to me (jail etc) I started googling and researching non stop like what is going on what is this. It was bad. I started to cry eventually. I went to shower and I started hyperventilating and this event was playing non stop in my head and I was trying to figure it out completely and it didn’t leave my head no matter what it was soooo bad. So so so bad. I’m doing a bad job of explaining it but the next day I woke up and like I started to believe my family knew and I was so paranoid ? I started thinking some of the things my family said was being used by the devil to like freak me out more ?
And then like I was constantly paranoid and I couldn’t function at ALL I mean I was non stop crying for a week. I was hysterical. I ended up telling my family and like they all were bing supportive. They told me it’s really not that big of a deal and that I didn’t end up doing it anyways ? (Just to clarify again it’s NOT involving anyone)
Anyhow I felt like a complete monster and that I don’t deserve to live etc etc I started having some vivid ideations a bit.
And this imagery never left my brain. It was nonstop happening in my head without control. I didn’t WANT TO keep thinking of it. It was HORRIBLE
I didn’t eat … didn’t take care of myself. I was just crying and crying and beating myself up really and causing my family pain from seeing me like this
ok now as to why I think it could’ve been something
I was on a stimulant medication and apparently you’re not supposed to really rake it for longer than like 3 months. I was on month 5 due to the progress I was making.
I have researched that stimulants can induce delusions and things like that
I ended up getting help. I started going to therapy and I met a psychiatrist. I told my therapist but not the psychiatrist
My therapist also was telling me that I’m not some monster etc but like its still pretty bad (if it’s true that is)
I’m still kinda paining it lightly. I struggle with words and how to express what happened so I’m not sure If im making a good case here.
So basically I didn’t tell my psychiatrist much about this just that I’ve been having anxiety and I was on Zoloft which helped and then I weaned off of it.
I was actually pretty back to normal starting February. (This lasted a good … 6-7 weeks) and I’ve been pretty good since.
Sometimes that thought keeps popping up but I was able to like kinda let it sit there and let it go? I still don’t know if real fake denial etc etc it’s just a whole mess.
But basically I was doing good.
Now… for the past week I’ve been on vyvanse for ADHD which is another stimulant and like since yesterday I’ve been kinda back into that thought process ? Like I’m not anywhere near how I was in December but like I started to really think about that event again and it’s bothering me realllyyyy badly. I’m kinda on my phone and isolating myself again. Not really talking with my family.
I started to think my therapist is lying to me and that she’s just gaslighting me to like make me let this thing go? And how she wants to sabotage me a bit ? (No clue why. I wanted to sign up for disability and I was afraid of the medical release thing bc I’m like yup I’m gonna definitely gonna be in prison etc)
Umm so yeah I’m really bothered and I’m worried I’m gonna fall back into the rabbit whole. I’ve already been obsessed with this again and it’s kinda scaring me. I don’t want to be gone again … it was so bad regardless if it was psychosis or not.
I was just so paranoid I kept trying to ask for help and I kept stopping bc I was like no they’re gonna harm me etc
So right now I’m not sure if I should share this with my psychiatrist ? I kinda don’t want to relive this again but I think stimulants don’t do any good for me … I want some input before I bring up whether this is potentially psychosis or not? If this is a delusion or something else ?
I just feel so drained. I want to go back to my old life. This is so bad. I’m gonna stop the vyvanse cuz I’m sure it’s doing no good.