Two boys one horse

(really quickly the reason I have two vastly different locations is that there is a near 100% chance I am moving to the UK this year)
hi my name is Jack, I'm a recent cyber security and networking graduate and ideally will be moving to Scotland to do my masters :) my hobbies include games, photography, cars and F1!
if you wanna chat about anything or wanna play some games I'm down for anything
I haven't had much time recently for games since I've been studying but I really wanna get back into it! I have been playing some project zomboid though and I'll pretty much play most shooters, sandbox, open world, survival or RPG games! also really enjoyed elden ring so maybe some more souls like games (been loving helldivers 2!)
not sure what else to say, if you want to chat send me a message!
see ya!
oh and even if ur not near me I'd still be down to chat or game or whatever :)
(also my dms are open! no need to comment under my post!) (also please don't just send me a one word message, I'd like to chat but I also don't wanna interrogate you!)

This is a continuation to my Depression is a good thing post. I feel that I should delve deeper into it to clarify my point.
Approximately 280 million people in the world have depression. That is a LOT, that is the whole world population in year 1000AD. Just in 1024 years population rose 28928% and is now at 8.1 billion, that's a high rise, too high one might say, and how high can it go one might ask?
Depression is not a bad thing, but if we're not prepared to bear it(and we're not), and if anything that we identify as meaningless—then it is deemed a bad thing and bad things must be amputated, with sedatives, why would anyone give themselves a 'dark night of the soul'? No one would. So it must come to us.
And when it comes it begs us to ask the question 'Hello, why are you here?' And then we might say 'It seems you have authority as I cannot make you leave.' Then you might say 'If you are there, then where am I? Because I thought there was just me and I was the one driving'.
Establishing dialogue is important because the suffering(I will now stop using the clinical term depression) itself is the gauge for how wide is the disconnect.
Let's have a look around, is there a disconnect in the world? We can go back in history or try to predict it in the future, but we don't have to as we have it happening right now. If you call this planet with all of its people your home, usually when you have gained greater awareness, then how will you not feel threatened in your very soul when a disconnect that is not receding has began somewhere far away, you're not sure it can be contained, that it will not spread, should I bring cancer as analogy or that would be too on the nose?
I believe that collective fear or fear within the collective thought can take a powerful form within the unconscious, and as you know the mind and the body are one, hence when there is a disconnect there is suffering, and there will be disconnect when the body and the mind will try to do two different things instead of one, when they will try to adapt in two conflicting ways.
And it is almost certain to happen at some point, because there is no proactive regulating function that will always keep the interests of the biological and cultural dimension aligned, there is none, so suffering is a herald of the reactive function. What is the reactive function? It is an attempt to reconcile the conflict between the two conflicting adaptations. That function is watching isn't it? The are many names for it in spiritual practices.
I'll come back to this subject later.

People have biases. It's natural and expected. I listened to a podcast yesterday about the Irish Potato Famine. The podcaster was Irish and began with a disclaimer that he may not be able to see the issue clearly because of his heritage.
Jews are often very successful people. Part of the reason for their persecution in past centuries is because they are often a successful minority population, and their success creates a target for repressive regimes. They traditionally have not faced an outrageous amount of discrimination in the US and hence have acquired a good deal of power in the most powerful country in the world. They represent under 2.5% of the population, but are disproportionally represented in positions of power and the media. Half of the NY Times Opinion writers are Jewish or have Jewish people in their family.
Because of this power, they dominate the narrative around Israel in the US. There simply aren't many Palestinian billionaires entering the conversation to influence the argument and there seems to be endless pro-Israeli ones. And they're predictably very biased. While there has been a long history regarding the conflict in recent centuries, as of now, the root of the problem is very simple... the Palestinians don't have the right of self-determination. They're basically controlled by Israel. Those in the West Bank definitely are controlled by Israel and Gaza was locked down so tightly (outside of the terrorist attack) that they weren't allowed an airport or sea access, they could not control their own economy, etc. It was basically a small city isolated from the world by Israel. People will bring up the PA but they have very little power. Palestinians can barely travel miles in the West Bank without going through an Israeli controlled checkpoint. If believe the Palestinians do have the right of self-determination... then ask yourself.... why is there even a conversation about a "Two State Solution"? If the Palestinians control themselves, they have a state. But they don't.
Israel is an apartheid state, it's pretty hard to argue against that idea. You have to do a lot of mental gymnastics to get to a place where you think this situation is fine. Usually it involves blaming the Palestinians for not being perfect. But no population of repressed people in their state would be, especially one as highly educated as they are. If you listen the pro-Israeli side you would think the Palestinians have this horrific history of violence and are basically untamable. They have been military controlled by Israel since 1967. You know how many Israelis they've killed? Maybe 3 to 5k. Every death is a tragedy, but Israel has easily killed 10x that. Hamas took 100 hostages or so during the attacked, Israel has taken magnitudes more from the West Bank since this conflict started. But no one with power really advocates for the Palestinians. Israel gives some reason which could be real or fabricated, and those in power immediately accept it.
Many pro-Israeli Jewish people are simply unable to ever see the truth in this situation. 5 million Palestinians are just not going to ever accept being repressed and living without the right of self-determination. But most of the pro-Israeli arguments make that expectation as a foundation. Any real debate regarding this situation must begin with a discussion and plan on how to give Palestinians the right of self-determination to make any traction whatsoever, but that is usually ignored in popularized discussion, because the pro-Israeli side usually ignores it because the Palestinians are not their primary concern. People like Sam Harris describe themselves as the pinnacle of reason, but he is fundamentally unable to sympathize with the Palestinians and always comes back to the idea of antisemitism and Muslim violence. Same with Eli Lake, Brett Stephens, etc. They're Jewish and biased, and will side with any pro-Israeli explanation.
The Palestinians will eventually receive the right of self-determination and it will come from international pressure, but that may take decades to even 50 years or more. Whether Israel is scorned in any way for this, is another question. Likely not. But to be sure, those advocating for Palestinian rights will be proven right, eventually, and people will run video clips of the people advocating pro-Israeli arguments in the same way people highlight the people advocating the Iraq war decades ago.
But people in power are often very sensitive to their own causes and insensitive to those of their enemies. It's common and predictable. And Palestinians have very little power in the most powerful country in the world, while the pro-Israeli side does... to the point that laws advocating to control speech are being proposed and coming close to pass
This Gaza war is about vengeance, and they're doing it because they can. What is Hamas? An idea? Israel can't identify who is and isn't Hamas other than the leaders, and they're only radicalizing more youth with this war. In many ways, it's pointless. Israel doesn't have the same problem in the West Bank because that are is too fractured with Israeli settlements for a movement like Hamas to gain traction and actually do anything, but the problem with pursuing a similar idea in the West Bank is that it still leaves Israel with millions of Palestinians under military control it does not want to give rights too because doing so would make Israel no longer a Jewish majority state.
Most of the pro-Israeli arguments are logical fallacies and distractions. Why does everyone in the US concentrate on Israel when there are other repressive regimes around the world? Because the pro-Israeli people advocate for US aid and power and thus bring it to the country's attention. No one in the US pays attention to atrocities happening in Africa because no one with power is advocating for either side in the US. People will bring up the point that no other minority is treated like the Jews in the US or the focus of hate speech and that is 100% untrue. There are neo nazi and anti LGBTQ marches all the time... people just don't take them seriously. And much of the antisemitism talk is very overblown. The word has become meaningless in the US. Unless you're actually bringing up examples of Jews being systematically discriminated against because of their Jewishness... it's best to ignore the word. Which is a shame, because there is real antisemitism in the US too. But it's gotten to a point where using any word they frown upon is labeled as antisemitism. They're used to dominating the narrative to the point where they can control conversation and take exception to any infringement on that power. "From the River to the Sea"? That phrase was in the Likud party manifesto! But because that means infringement upon the Palestinian people, it's ok and tolerated. Palestinians are Semites! But the pro-Israeli voice has dominated the conversation so much they hijacked that term to only mean discrimination against Jews because the Palestinians don't matter.
Pro-Israeli society has too much pride and power to tell themselves the truth and admit they've made mistakes. The history is of Israel is taught to them in an extremely biased way that turns Palestinians into the enemy and themselves as blameless victims. You can't make a compromise when you're taught and expect to be blameless and shown preference in every way.
Netanyahu is obviously a smart man, but he and his leadership team simply don't possess the sophistication to see and lead their country through this crisis successfully. And unfortunately, I'm afraid he's a product of Israeli society. Israel is functioning like other emerging national countries have in the past, the problem is that they're about 100 years behind current international standards.

I'm 8 weeks post RALP and I'm trying to figure out diet. After my catheter came out I eliminated the recommended triggers, caffeine, alcohol and acid rich foods. I would like to start transitioning back to a "normal" diet.
Browsing the forums, many say they had no restrictions after surgery. That makes sense as I believe the big issue is pelvic floor mussels. However, a medical professional friend of mine suggested the issue is healing of the reattachment of the urethra to the bladder and removing the triggers are to allow time to heal.
I am drinking one to two cups of low acid half coffee a day and have been eating pizza (tomatos) to no ill effect. I now want to add sourdough bread.
Any thoughts on this issue?

Cheers all. I wanted to do a new night closer to where I live and was fortunate enough to find a suitable venue with great aesthetics and vibe. The first one was in early March and went way beyond what I expected for a city that has never seen it. 50+ people packed into an intimate back room with really good sound and projected visuals is what happened. The next one is in a couple weeks. I'm really excited!
Here is my set that I assembled on Spotify after listening to the recording. None of this was pre-planned as I like to read the crowd always. You can see/hear how the first 10 songs sit at an intentionally lower energy level. As I was trying to give space for people to arrive, belly up to the bar and settle in. Afterwards you can hear an energy shift and it's an ebb and flow from there. Most of what I play veers less towards goth rock and more in a darkwave direction. Lots of synths and drum machines. So I am hoping to play more things in the gothic rock vein next time. Things going well means I may have the budget to bring in guests who fill in the blanks of my own style. Anyway here is the full setlist. Only a couple things from here missing from Spotify. Thanks for reading and listening! 🖤
new order - the him
depeche mode - monument
tones on tail - lions
the frozen autumn - evening falls
hante - lies/light
siouxsie - the sweetest chill
the march violets - 1 2 I love you
southern death cult - moya (mercer mix)
japan - fall in love with me
medicine - time baby III
drab majesty - dot in the sky
principe valiente - strangers in the night
the danse society - heaven is waiting
the cure - play for today
actors - l’appel du vide
this is the bridge - no crime
red lorry yellow lorry - talk about the weather
xkat - the end
tst - colossal
health - identity
milliken chamber - figure in the night
the kvb - labyrinths
new order - blue monday
depeche mode - new dress
lovataraxx - ana venus
delta komplex - empty souls
christian death - spiritual cramp
corpus delicti - saraband
figure section - spectre
tones on tail - performance (7” mix)
twin tribes - monolith
13th chime - dug up
concrete blonde - bloodletting
boy harsher - lost
luminance - dimension wide
automelodi - la cigale
geneva jacuzzi - casket
oppenheimer analysis - subterranean desire
kaelan mikla - svört augu
give my remains to broadway - what a horrible night
second still - eternal love
portishead - cowboys
ministry - we believe
spike hellis - teardrops (moon 17 mix)
marion - I go to sleep

Hi everyone! I'm Platinum 1 and I play as a support (mid). After playing several matches, I have four suggestions that I believe could improve the game:
1) Zipline Placement Issue: As a mid, when placing the zipline, if you jump while trying to place it, you only hear the sound but it doesn't get placed. This feels frustrating and provides poor feedback to the player (you select the ability, click, hear the sound, but the zipline doesn't appear). I think either the sound should be removed if the zipline isn't placed, or better yet, allow it to be placed while jumping. This would enable a smoother experience, allowing you to place and jump on the zipline in a matter of seconds, enhancing the sense of fluidity and speed.
2) Reviving as Mid: Often, reviving gives false positives if you don't hold the click long enough. This doesn't happen occasionally, it happens in every match, all the time. There should be better feedback in some form. Maybe a indicator to show when it's ready to function, or make the animation X ms longer, so that visually even if you release the button earlier, it still works.
3) Communication Wheel Customization: The latest update changed the communication messages, and it's likely to happen again, which is very annoying. Each person, class, and game mode requires different communications, and fixed wheels are impractical. I think it should be possible to choose which quick messages and where to place them from the settings. I use the extra mouse button to select the message dial, and if I could choose which messages and where they appear on that dial, it would be much easier to communicate quickly with my teammates.
4) Quick Party Formation: After a good match with a great team, you want to play another one. Right now, the only way is to send a friend request, wait for both to accept, invite them... It's a long, tedious process, and many times you don't want to add them as friends, just play one more match. That's why it would be interesting to have a button to create a quick party, a rematch, or something similar. Something fast, without losing the adrenaline from winning or having a great match.
The last two suggestions are already implemented in a similar way in Rocket League. Choosing which quick messages to use, and creating a party with a simple button are very practical features that I believe would greatly enhance the experience and gameplay.
PS: I'm new here, so I'm not sure if these suggestions already existed. I just wanted to contribute after playing several hours and share my thoughts on how to improve the game.

One of my favorite scenarios, especially because I play a stax deck (tayam in this instance), is the unique position one is put in when you become aware that two to three people are capable of winning on their next turns - and so you are put into a position where you may end up kingmaking if you stop any one person from winning. There are tight scenarios like this constantly and they vary in complexity and in the amount of knowledge you actually have.
I solve this puzzle pretty consistently by opening up all information I have about the scenario on the table, including everything I find necessary to inform my opponents on what I am actually capable of doing to stop any one of their attempts to win. Before this I may also, if I need to, just force the conversation and begin discussing what each player is capable of doing to win. You would be surprised how honest people are when you ask them, "are you going to win next turn?" and/or "if our opponent(s) go for the win are you capable of stopping that?" etc...
A bonus tip is to always ask the players primed to win if they are capable of stopping the other from winning lol. This opening up of information can actually end the scenario here as they will know that they cannot go off without the other stopping it at this point. Which is a great way to get to your next turn.
This helps me prime my next proposition, which is then handled by my opponents; "So look, I know player A and player B are capable of winning on their next turns and are going to take that opportunity to do so. Whoever goes for the win first, if nobody else can stop you, I will and it will cause the game to be passed to the next person and they will win, and you will lose. So I implore you to choose a better window of opportunity to jam the win at a later turn."
If they don't respond to this, it's also a great way to bait out how they are going to attempt to win anyway with one of my favorite questions; "so what makes you confident that you are capable of winning through my interaction?"
Now idk if this will work for everyone, and I am not going into the utmost depth that I could regarding this conversational proposition, but it gets deeper and becomes a stronger way of preventing kingmaking and possibly securing the win for yourself depending on what kind of interaction you set up, and conversation you leverage to the table.
These aren't 2000iq plays, but I wanted to share for the cEDH players who are not as conversational or politically inclined as the rest of us because it will win you games to be a pleasant and cordial mouthpiece for your own gameplan.
That's all :)

(making this thread temporarily cause don't think mod is active to unlock the megathread)
thoughts on it? I didn't read it completely cause there seemed to be a lot of filler and ranting at times but even then I noticed a few things:

Complex human affairs and human relationships cannot be explained simply with a few cut-and-paste KakaoTalk characters, nor is it a matter for explanation. It's not something that can be simply dismissed and evaluated by people who don't know the joke style, the situation, or the subject of the conversation

is this not the woman that spent two whole hours dissecting 3-message-snippets of kakao chats to prove her point? how can she blatantly contradict herself so much and her fans still eat it up

” What I said before, “I didn’t meet the investor,” is, “ You probably already know that it means "we did not meet for the purpose of usurping management rights," but I say this in the hope that you will not be fooled by the obvious pun.

this subreddit had a few guesses at how she'd try to spin it but this is the funniest sounding one. fair point, just sounds funny

Immediately after being attacked with a patched-up KakaoTalk conversation, the members all sent me text messages of consolation. It wasn't just a text of comfort, it was full of love. The messages of comfort continued until the next morning. The reason I cried out loud was not because I was misunderstood and criticized by strangers, but because I felt sad that everyone in this situation had to go through this worst and most shitty thing. It's unfortunate that there are people who fall for a scheme with obvious intentions, but I think that's the problem of those inciting it and not the fault of those who accept it.

not going to send the whole snippet but she just goes on a 20 paragraph (not kidding) sympathy rant lol. is she referring to the messages where she called them f* fatasses who can't lose weight? if so, is this not an admission of guilt? and if so, why are the members sending her messages of consolation? like this is real time grooming. *they* need to be consoled but they've been made to treat the abuser as the victim. and all the bunnies are using the girls as a moral compass, saying if they support her, we do. cant describe how stupid that is

Hive used the laptop I received when I joined the company, initialized it, and returned it two years ago.

people are using this to 'prove' that the messages are not about NJ. again, one of the messages has a NJ member name redacted. and if that was the case, wouldn't she just tell us outright that they're false instead of leaving it to doubtful speculation? they're extremely incriminating messages

As such, it is inevitably difficult for the public to determine what is true, so it is correct to calmly wait for the court's ruling and organize the subsequent steps rather than being swayed by indiscriminate articles.

she writes, in her article that includes 20 paragraphs of an autobiographical compilation explaining why she's been so innocent from youth, and why she was born poor whilst HYBE was born rich so they don't have the same world view. surely this isn't an attempt at swaying the public !
she also seems to accuse them of engaging with prosti*ution at one point but I can't find the text

Hii, I’m Henry and I’m looking for a meaningful connection and eventually develop a relationship. Ngl, I’m quite new at Reddit, and have never used dating apps, but one friend recommended me trying over here so here I am. What I’m looking for is to get to know someone over here, have some talks, calls and some dates in the future. I speak Spanish and English fluently, I understand French and I,’ just learning Japanese, so if you speak any of those we can make it work. I’m ok doing long distance, with the idea of it going to a short distance relationship eventually.
About me: I’m 24 y.o., and I live in Mexico City. I’m currently finishing med school, halfway through my internship, so my schedule is a bit messy, but I promise I always make time for other things. I’m a bit nerdy, I like gaming (just playing Lies of Pi), and love games like LoL, Persona 5 and Stardew Valley. I also love series and movies, reading and singing, even if I don’t do it very well. I started to watch anime recently, but gotta say I love it. I’m listening to music 24/7, mainly rock/punk, but I listen to a bit of everything (love music recommendations), and I have a little dog that I love more than anything. I also like going out with my friends, we either go partying or go to play dnd haha. I’m and ENTP, 7w8. I’m 1.81 m. tall, black hair and dark eyes. I’ve been told I have a dad budd, so, I’m a big boy, I guess, so I promise I’m a great cuddle buddy.
Have a goodnight.

I was just thinking today about when I was younger and it's really kinda pissing me off. So not only was I brought up in this cult but I was also home educated so I was stuck at home all day with my mum and older sister. And we didn't get taught hardly anything we just played and watched TV. Because education wasnt important, ministry was. So most of my time was hanging around old people on the ministry as they talk about their arthritis while I was 8 years old longing to just be a kid. Had no friends growing up, only one or two odd ones that stuck around for a few months then we wouldn't hang out again. I remember crying and (praying lol) at the time as a kid for a friend to show up at the Sunday meeting (when a brother from another congregation would do the talk) I would hope he had kids so I could finally have a friend. It's sad and pathetic and makes me angry.
Now I struggle making friends and keeping them. I'm awkward and to be quite honest I find it easier alone. It's like I've just learnt to be my own company. And even though it sucks when I see other people with friends etc. I still find it easier alone and I hate that.
Thanks for reading.
If anyone else feels the same let me know. Also am I being dramatic like does not having friends as a kid really have an affect on people when they're older?

So it’s been a long 12-16 weeks, and your fitness has been hopefully getting better and better, and two to three weeks away from your race you have one last long run - do you think it should feel easy thanks to the fitness gains? Or really difficult thanks to the accumulated fatigue, with tapering hopefully making the race itself feel easier?
Today, two weeks away from my goal marathon, I had my last long run, and it was a FIGHT. Granted, it’s much warmer now than it has been for the rest of the block, but it felt so difficult. The run was 5km warm up, 5 steady, 15 at goal pace and 5 to cool down and shake out. And it felt so hard. Harder than any of the other long runs with higher amounts of marathon target pace work.
Of course, this has knocked my confidence a bit, but at the same time it comes off the back of many 100+km weeks and a 10km race last weekend, so maybe I’m reading too much into it.
But what do you guys think? Should the last long run feel like a slog? Or a walk in the park to tell you you’re ready to go the distance?

So my wife is doing an embryo transfer soon, and that means she's taking a cocktail of medications including a progesterone shot every morning at 8am which I administer. Our clinic says that the shot MUST be taken at EXACTLY 8am every morning with no wiggle room. First of all, I'm thinking they have to be speaking hyperbolically in order to make a point that the shots need to be consistent. I get that. However, I don't think there's anything magical about the 8am hour. So that means we have to have some wiggle room on the doses, right? My question is how much?
Is the issue just consistency? So if we did them at 9am every day is that fine? And is imperative to do the morning time instead of night? I may be wrong but I think our bodies are in a slightly different state when we've first woken up. Also how much wiggle room is there? So if I keep with 8am doses, then surely 8:05 would be fine? How about 7:50? How far does that go? If we push it to 9am one or two mornings during the cycle are we going to mess something up?
TIA

Hii, I’m Henry and I’m looking for a meaningful connection and eventually develop a relationship. Ngl, I’m quite new at Reddit, and have never used dating apps, but one friend recommended me trying over here so here I am. What I’m looking for is to get to know someone over here, have some talks, calls and some dates in the future. I speak Spanish and English fluently, I understand French and I,’ just learning Japanese, so if you speak any of those we can make it work. I’m ok doing long distance, with the idea of it going to a short distance relationship eventually.
About me: I’m 24 y.o., and I live in Mexico City. I’m currently finishing med school, halfway through my internship, so my schedule is a bit messy, but I promise I always make time for other things. I’m a bit nerdy, I like gaming (just playing Lies of Pi), and love games like LoL, Persona 5 and Stardew Valley. I also love series and movies, reading and singing, even if I don’t do it very well. I started to watch anime recently, but gotta say I love it. I’m listening to music 24/7, mainly rock/punk, but I listen to a bit of everything (love music recommendations), and I have a little dog that I love more than anything. I also like going out with my friends, we either go partying or go to play dnd haha. I’m and ENTP, 7w8. I’m 1.81 m. tall, black hair and dark eyes. I’ve been told I have a dad budd, so, I’m a big boy, I guess, so I promise I’m a great cuddle buddy.
Have a goodnight.

Hi! I want to know if there's a cost-efficient way to travel to Ayala Malls the 30th? Preferably via bus and like one to two rides lang sana. I'll be bringing kasi a lot of things and sana I don't want Grab to be my only option if ever.

I have a problem with my housemates and I just can’t wrap my head around it. I’m in my final year of uni, live with 4 other girls, two of which I was friends with beforehand. It’s the final stretch of uni and I’ve never been so stressed. I’m not going out clubbing with them, I’m not doing anything but studying or spending time with my bf. But they seem to take it the wrong way. Maybe it’s because I’m the only child and I love my alone time. I also asked the girl directly next door to me (professional yapper) to stop talking on the phone between the hours of 12 and the early morning. She gave me a sour face and ignored me. The girl who lives above me gets up at 6am and the ceiling is very thin so you can imagine I can’t get much sleep at all. So I ask her again, and again and again and eventually she ignores my texts so I start knocking on the wall gently a couple times. She stops sometimes. But it’s annoying that I have to do this most nights. And it’s a rule that I thought we would both keep in mind but she wasn’t having it. So I stay with my bf for two weeks where the sleep is much much better. I come back home. My kitchen stuff is strewn about the place and a few other annoying tidbits. So I send a polite message to the house chat asking people to leave my stuff alone. Oh no. They don’t like that. The professional yapper next door decides to talk about me in the kitchen with my other friend, saying that they don’t care so why should I and that I was harsh and rude for not talking to her directly 🙃 Idk how I was meant to know it was them, hence the general message. So, message complaints aren’t on the table. Few days later, professional yapper sends a complaint about a cardboard loo roll left in the bathroom. It was me. She knows it was me because she spoke to the only other girl who uses that toilet and they confirmed it wasn’t her. So, an indirect message to me calling me messy and I should act like an adult. A whole paragraph over a singular, cardboard, loo roll. So she’s allowed to complain in the group chat, talk shit about me in the kitchen, absolutely blank me in when I say hello or good morning. But when I do it, ahhhhh. This girl is out to get me in my own home and all I wanted was to live peacefully doing my studies. It’s not like I’m dirty either. I’m one of two people that clean this place. I was also crammed into the crappy room under the stairs like Harry Potter. But I’ll take the hit for the girlies! And then I get treated like a bitch. Genuinely so tired, all I want to do is move out.

Last paragraph is the main, if you don’t want to read the context.
My ex gf was my friend for almost 6 years. During those years she ghosted me twice without a reason at all and she would come back regretting it a lot what she did, telling me she loved me, that she kept my poems and letter and that she thought about me almost everyday. I forgave her both times.
The second time she came back she confessed she had been drug abusing and that her life was a mess. She told me doing drugs didn’t allow her to think about what she really cared as me.She started lovebombing me even we lived in two different countries of Europe and about 1500km away. She wanted to come to visit me so badly. Love is blind and I ended falling for her as she treated me so damn well. We talked everyday, a lot, and she finally came to my house in summer.
We started dating and came again in autumn. Everything was perfect but after she left on autumn she started went into a depressive episode where she wanted space and time for herself. We talked less than usual. She asked me if I would dump her for being depressed. I ensured her that wouldn’t happen at any case. At winter I got depressed after a bad medical new. At this point everything began to be complicated. She argued with me for no reason, she was mad at me for being depressed. I begged her for company to feel better which she said no all the time. I was preparing to visit her in a month but she always gave me excuses not to buy the flight ticket.
Two weeks after new year she broke up with me saying I made her life miserable. I begged for a break which she accepted and surprisingly she asked me the next day to give each other good night as she missed it. The first week she gave it and told me everyday she loved me, the next week she disappeared and when I stopped giving her good night she broke up with me. It was really traumatic as she went mad when I suggested she could have BPD as my psychiatrist and therapist know her since we met and for her bad childhood, drug abuse, other weird things she did, and how she treated me during all this time they believed in a high probability she had BPD.
I feel after 5 months I moved on, but I still feel sometimes the emptiness I have from having someone talking me everyday 24/7 to total blackness. I have my friends and I hang out with them having a really good time. I met a girl who I like and would like to date, but I feel empty. How have you dealt with this those who had been devalued and discarded from one day to another?
Thanks

Hi all, I’m 24F and in QLD, I’ve just returned back to Aus after being overseas for 6 months. I’m gradually running out of my Vyvanse stock and am needing to see my old psych again, but will need to redo my referral and reach out to their office etc.
My GP is the one who originally referred me to this psych approx 2 years ago and has also done two more referrals since, he’s aware of my medication and dosage. I also have a written letter from my psychiatrist that states my diagnosed conditions + current medications and dosages.
Would it be possible that he could renew my script in the meantime? I’m thinking about asking him when I see him for my updated referral, as I know it may be several weeks to months until I can see my psychiatrist again. My psychiatrist won’t refill a script for me remotely if I haven’t got an updated referral or haven’t been for an appointment for a while.

The people who used to live opposite us, garden to garden. I believe have moved away and they never used to have any pets.
I believe the new owners may have a dog.
I have two cats, who are outdoor, just like all the cats in the neighbourhood. My older cat is 8 and he is scared of dogs so he will run.
The younger one will be 6 in August. I found out today that there was a dog because there is a small gap, that the dog was looking through to see my younger cat.
My young cat was trying to hit him and possibly was going to jump the fence to hit him.
We rent this house so we can’t really make permanent changes.
Any advice?

So I will be honest.
I think I played this game in a different way than I should, but I am where I am.
I completed the elite 4 the second time, gained access to battle arcade.
What could be possible that I missed?

1. For starters, at certain point in the story I defeated the palette and gained the red uniform from him. Since then I have not done anything with it and I am not sure what is needed to do?
   
2. One thing I noticed I missed was the legendary Pokémon in prison. When you come back to the prison (don't ask me for location as can't recall), there are cells with Pokémon minatures there.
   

Unlock the one at the bottom, which has a unique avatar. When you talk to a Pokémon there, it will jump over you and escape.
He is in one of the caves between the two cities (water way).

1. Legendary hunt - I have only a few (Articuno, Moltres, this new guy), so have still a few to find.
   
2. Pokedex can be a thing to focus on, but this is a lengthy and time consuming.
   
3. Other activities?
   

Maybe you k ów or recall of something that is worth exploring in different regions?
I would welcome your inputs as this game is huge with content and there is not very much described in terms of guides.
I am happy to do the exploration on my own, but would appreciate a direction where to start.

A few days ago we fought from 1:30a till about 8am. We have lengthy arguments like this all the time. We used to date, and it played a key role in the end of our relationship along with us having different values in general. I made it clear before we started dating I can't handle much fighting, particularly yelling, because of aspects of my childhood.
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Two fights happened on my two birthdays- or before other important things like it's the night before a road trip or I'm ON the road trip. They happen when I want to go to bed or I'm about to run an errand. He monologs for literal hours at a time, and I can't speak up when he speaks incorrectly on my part because then I'm interrupting him and that causes more issues than me being misunderstood or remembered incorrectly.
In our relationship they were often caused by me not wanting him to pay my for my phone/phone bill before we'd been dating for even 3 months, though they were also caused by me being late to coming over and stuff like that as well. Sometimes I'd accidentally fall asleep after work instead of coming over, if I lay down after a shower, which I did a few times as I worked very early in the morning, and it made him feel like I didn't value his time.
I didn't talk to him for a few months after we broke up, even though he tried to contact me to apologize several times by texting/phonecalls/visiting several times at my apartment. Eventually someone knocked on my door and I opened it before I realized it was him. I didn't want to turn him away so we talked and he very sincerely apologized and talked about how he'd been going to therapy. I could recognize a great deal of change in him and we caught up on eachothers lives.
I moved to a different state like a week after we got in contact and i am struggling with this long distance friendship. He wants to talk all the time and I.. don't. I enjoy texting but sometimes I want to watch a show or play a game uninterrupted, but if I don't respond enough he feels ignored. He also likes to talk on the phone all the time and I really really don't enjoy talking on the phone at all, especially for hours at a time. We talked every night for a couple weeks in the beginning. But after a bad fight i reminded him I don't like being on the phone and said I wanted some space, which had been on my mind prior to the argument. The next week we talk on the phone for like 3 nights for a few hours, and maybe a few other little calls here and there, but he says it's not enough
But the thing is.. even when we talked for hours every night and texted pretty often it still wasn't enough. The only time it was enough was a short window when I checked my phone pretty obsessively to make sure I didn't miss a message from him and always stopped what I was doing to take his call
If my snap score goes up when we're not talking he asks me about it. I don't know why but I feel uncomfortable explaining to him the other people I talk to in the day. And often I'm not even talking to them when I'm not talking to him- they send me snaps when I'm not on my phone. I don't respond to anyone unless I make sure I respond to him first to avoid this exact issue. I feel anxious when my friends snap me because I know my score will go up and he's going to ask me about it
For the most part, our fights presently revolve around him feeling like I don't care enough about our friendship or he's feeling ignored by me. But I really really don't know what to do anymore. I was talking on the phone for hours at a time, I was texting all the time and keeping my responses as long as possible.. I was planning movie days, etc. It was never enough.
He's upset my responses are getting shorter. And to be honest they have. Often times I talk about my life, especially someone else in my life, it triggers a fight. Not always in the moment but it always comes back to bite me in the butt later. Particularly if I'm hanging out with my roommate, because in my friends eyes he and I get to hang out with all time. Which we kind of don't- my time is far more devoted to my friend than my roomate. But even if it wasn't- I like hanging out with my roomate because we can quietly sit in the same room together, and we don't have any conflict. He is a very kind presence and I'm grateful to have him as a friend.
It's hard talking about your life while also revealing the bare minimum about your life, and so I'm responding kind of shortly about my things and just try to focus on him.
The fight we had a few days ago was about us not talking enough. Sort of. The reasons our fights go on for hours is because I don't know how to respond to him when he brings up an issue. I sincerely try my best and I try it all. When he brings something up I explain to him I understand his concerns, both using his exact words and in my own words I explain why he's upset. If I agree with him I will apologize and tell him how I'm going to fix it and I fix it, after we fight for a few hours ofc, because he doesn't believe I can understand/apologize and fix something so early into a conversation.
Other times he keeps pushing me to explain myself, but if I explain my pov, things really really blow up because I don't always agree with him. And I think he confuses me not agreeing with him to not understanding. One of our fights came because he was upset when I got home with my roommate at 1am, when I had a 3 hour drive at 8am the next morning. Which blows my mind, because he fought with me literally all night before I drove across the state. I didn't tell him that though, I said I didn't mind getting home till 1 because I had fun when I was out and will still get plenty of sleep. But we still fought.
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Anyway... the other day he brought up he feels like we don't talk enough. And I said I understand it's hard but this is the boundary I'm setting because I don't enjoy being on the phone, but we're talking 3/4 days a week for several hours. We fight and he says that even when we do talk I'm not talking enough right now. We fight and I reluctantly told him I just don't feel comfortable opening up right now. We fight and fight and it's turning me into a person I dont know or how to control.
In the beginning of our relationship I was quiet and just agreed to everything he said to avoid the argument. This didnt always work but it tends to. Now I get so overwhelmed and angry after several hours I mute my phone and scream into my pillow. This last call I started hitting myself, which I've never done before, and the next day my cheeks were bumpy and itchy, my forehead was swollen, my scalp hurt to touch, and I'm still getting over my two black eyes. He did NOT cause me to hit myself and he doesn't know. I feel silly for doing it. But I find myself at my breaking point and I don't know how to manage these fights anymore.
After hours and hours I break down and I just start agreeing to whatever he says I'm wrong about because I want it to end. I repeat the very thing I said eight hours ago- what I'm wrong about and how I'm going to fix it, but only now after crying on the phone all night long is sort of enough.
At the end of the call he asked if our friendship was over and I said I don't know. He asks this all the time and I basically beg him to be my friend but I don't want to anymore.
He sent me a long apology the morning after the fight and said he wouldn't do it anymore. I thanked him for not wanting those fights anymore. He sent me a pic of his dog and I said she was cute. That night I let our streak die. He messaged me this morning "you let our streak die" and I sat at my phone for ten minutes thinking of how to respond and eventually I just decided not to. He called me twice tonight at around 8pm and texted that he wanted us to talk for a bit, but i had made plans with another friend of mine a week ago to play animal crossing, so I did that and didn't respond to him. At 3am I saw he was typing on snapchat and I'm anxious because I've been receiving snaps and know my score went up, even though I have sent zero snaps to keep the number as low as I can
I know he wants to be friends still
But I sort of don't want to be friends anymore???? I really love the positive things in our relationship. In a lot of ways he was the best boyfriend and best friend I've ever had. But I can't do this anymore. I hate the person I am in these fights. I know he does not control my actions, it is not his fault I scream in my pillow or gave myself black eyes. But I have never in my life had any sort of romantic or friendly relationship like this. And I don't enjoy it. I really really love not fighting with my loved ones. And I really feel like no matter what I do to make him feel heard when he brings up an issue it's not enough. Every fight we have damages our friendship, which I've told him several times. I used to get over them easily but I am just so drained I always feel wary for the next blow up.
But I don't want him to feel like I'm abandoning our friendship? I don't know how to end a friendship? I've never had one end that wasn't a result of just growing apart. I don't know what to do. Sometimes I wish I never opened my door when he came over. I'm supposed to go to my home state shortly and I'm very anxious about being in the same state as him