I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism and insulin resistance last summer and then Hashi in February. I have started levo but haven't gotten to a normal tsh value yet.
I don't know if it's because the hypo isnt under control yet, but I've had wild fluctuations in symptoms. Some weeks I felt great, and from one day to the other i will wake up with a puffy face, constant itchy/burning skin, severe bloating, fatigue and burning joints... Sometimes I get episodes of what I associate to a histamine overload: skin feels on fire, bloated upper belly, closed sinus and a physiological feeling of danger.
My endocrinologist is lovely but she also mentions nothing about inflammation, and when i ask how my symptoms could be related to Hashi, she says she has no idea. I have seen a rheumatologist and a nutriologist, and neither provides a clear answer or talks about inflammation. The rheumatologist diagnosed me with fibromyalgia and both her and the nutriologist dismissed anything related to inflammation.
Why is it that no doctor can give me answers about my inflammation symptoms or ever mention inflammation? Hashi is literally an inflammation reponse. Why do we only get our hormonal issues treated and not the root cause? We know how chronic inflammation damages the body, why is it not taken seriously by mainstream doctors?? I also find it hard to trust functional or naturopath doctors, like i dont know if Im gonna get a reasonable one, or one that will want to use my hair's energetic signal to profile my gut microbiota... it's exhausting to have to search our own answers!!!

I could type a simple message saying that I'd like to find a genuine female platonic best friend for life that feels like family, but it's more detailed than that. I just prefer to be transparent and detailed about a lot of things up front so there's minimal confusion and/or misunderstanding. So here we go.
About Me: - 47 years of age - black male - heterosexual - married with toddlers - USA / North Florida - introvert (INFJ-A for those into MB) - ex-Christian, agnostic / atheist - day job (Multimedia Developer) - ambitious entrepreneur (a builder) - neurodivergent - self-aware - reserved and level headed - silly, sarcastic, and corny - genuine, authentic, and an empath - very selective about the people in my life - very loyal to those I esteem a real friend - kind of a nerd/techie about filmmaking, music, new technology, crypto, AI, etc. - somewhat frugal and budget oriented
Interests & Hobbies: - filmmaking, composing music, animating, voice overs, photography, web development - bowling - billiards - game nights (card games, Jenga, Taboo, etc.) - movie nights (theater or binging at home) - sci-fi, thrillers, dystopian, comedy, horror, cartoons, superhero, space documentaries, action, adventure - chilling at the beach - even though I'm kind of a homebody, I enjoy walking and jogging - small road trips or cultural travel with a small group - trying new restaurants out - retro video games
Not Into: - not into smoking, vaping, 420, drinking, drugs - i have no tattoos or body piercings - never been the party type - not into big and overcrowded social events - not a dancer - not a huge risk taker
Lacking: - close friendships/family for in-person support and community
Needs: - someone that can genuinely understand/relate to the hardships of being an ex-Christian turned atheist - someone who can handle a deep level of openness (listening and sharing) without being judgmental and jumping to conclusions about things - someone who genuinely desires a close family like bond and is willing to put the time and effort into building it - someone that's not a smoker, drinker, and not into drugs and 420 products (I've spent too much time trying to fit in with people that smoke, drink, and do 420. I'm tired of making "I'll be the designated driver" jokes. I just need someone who's not into those things either.) - please be comfortable with my age if you are 15+ years younger. As I look maybe 10 years younger than my age and may be more open minded than many people my age, big age gaps can pose relatability issues. Just be mindful
As I'm open to platonic online friendships/family, I know I won't do as well with them long-term since I'm really hoping to make some long-term in-person friendships/family connections which would include meeting and hanging out in real life. Again, just being up front and transparent.
But with that being said, I haven't found anyone in my area that I feel connected to. So it only makes sense to consider people from anywhere. But the chemistry has to be there. But if anything is going to last, we'd have to figure a way to connect in person.
Also, I don't care about your orientation, if you are married, single, have children, are poly, or whatever. I'm just looking for someone I can connect with that feels like family.
Anyway, I always feel like I can't articulate what I'm looking for properly, but if this post piqued your interest and you feel you might be someone I'd like to connect with, send me a message.

I'm 19F and on thyroid medication since I was 8. I've been having headaches for 2 years now beside a few weeks break they have almost beem persistent. Sometimes I have them as soon as I wake up. They get so bad that my head starts spinning, sometimes I can't even fall sleep because of them. I also have hypothyroidism and recently got diagnosed with pcos. I have seen multiple doctors and taken multiple medicines even migraine ones. They also gave me SOS medicines which never work. Nothing works. During this span I've also been very lethargic and sleepy (have slept 14 hours straight sometimes) usually 10hrs. I also keep forgetting stuff but didn't notice it until now. I also tend to lose focus like someone's speaking to me and I just go blank and then realize that I didn't listen what they said. Lately, having a hard time comprehending what somebody said to me aswell. I had got a ct scan of my brain few months ago and the reports said sinusitis but the doctor completely ignored that. I'm not sure what is happening, I'm a student but can't study, no matter how hard I try can't form habits, cannot pull myself up to study and it's been hard, I have always been a nice student but I'm having a hard time lately. My parents don't think of it as anything major but I feel like there's some underlying problem. Also, my ESR levels are always high but doctors never showed any concern, in a report few months ago it was 70 and 2 years ago it was 98.

Good morning everyone,
I will start off by saying I am very ignorant about computers and somehow I managed to build one while video calling a friend. I don't know how delicate PC can be and if my handling was safe.
Anyways, after building my pc I managed to make it run and it was perfect until lately.
I am mainly playing Final Fantasy 7Remake, Deep Rock Galactica and some League of Legends with friends and I started noticing both in FF7R and LoL I have some weird stutter, I would run both games at 120 fps and then it would just drop for 1 second, sometimes half, to less than 30 fps. It feels like the game either skips some frames or it just doesn't go fluid anymore and I don't understand how I can fix this.
I have tried cleaning my pc from dust although it was built in February, I tried removing the RAM and replacing it since I thought it might have moved or something. Did the same with cables.
The problem still persists and it's only gone when I play Deep Rock Galactica with DLSS on.
I will leave my share a cart with all the items here: https://share-a-cart.com/get/JOS3Q
Is my pc underperforming? Do I need to replace anything on it? I am really clueless as you can probably tell from this whole post.

I studied a bit over 2 years in hardcore engineering/science in dutch uni for MSc. Then I become a kennismigrant.
Before I came here I learned the Netherlands by its reputation, open-minded, innovative and with nice people. However after I actually stayed here I have long been felt that this country doesn't really welcome anyone who's not Dutch.
I got random aggression on the street sometimes, this happens more often than you think. And it's not just coming from my own impression that Dutch are hard to make friends. I have other international friends but not a single Dutch friend after stayed for almost 3 years.
In my company, almost everyone on the tech side is not Dutch, some of which work remotely. I feel a nice interaction when I'm collaborating with my colleagues who's from Spain, UK or somewhere else. But when I go to the office once a week, which are mostly Dutch from non-tech side, e.g. product, sales, marcom, they would speak in Dutch and ignore me most of the time, also during lunch and other occasions, unless they want something from me. So I can only talk to one of my international colleague. And this scenario happens to many of my international friends, which I have never encountered with two of my Spanish speaking colleagues, they almost never speak Spanish and exclude me.
You would probably say "Well yOu ArE in the cOunTry yOu should sPeAk the LAngUage"
During my master's, the workload, stress, and financial consequences are incredibily high, comparing to local dutch students. Especially, when EU students could easily postpone their study and do intership freely, I can't. I need to pay €1800 per month if my graduation delays. Therefore I didn't take Dutch language class. But I gradually started to learn it when I was not that busy.
I also want to point out again that in tech industry, the local dutch cannot fulfill the market in hardcore tech. Many people and company came here to study and work due to the great English speaking environment. If this advantage is no longer there, with also the restriction on KM, I think top tier companies like Uber, ASML, booking, etc. would consider moving soon.
More importantly, with this kind of ring-wing coalition and the way they put in the propganda, I feel extremely unwelcomed and hostile. It disencourage my motivation of learning Dutch, I haven't opened Duolingo for weeks. Why would I learn the language if most people here is so unwelcoming and cold? Or if I have to learn another language why don't I move to Berlin, Munich? Or maybe Canada and Australia. All the Canadians I encounter are so nice.
Are there any other fellow internation kennismigrant in tech who's thinking about leaving? I would love to hear from you and grab a coffee or anything.

PRETEXT: This is the first poem I’ve written and I’m very nervous. I’ve written it for my partner for our anniversary, which is tomorrow. I’d love to get some feedback on this and reassurance that it isn’t terrible!
If you ever need me, I’ll be there, wherever And I’ll make sure the ever stays in forever When things are cold I’ll bring back the spring When things get rough I’ll pull out the sting
If you’re blown out then I’ll light your fuse When I am the painter, you are the muse And if you need me to sail the storm I’ll be your way, your shape, and form
I’ll make Fridays come around quick If things dont click, then Ill make them click I’ll make sure that your demons stay in the past And make sure no goodbye is ever the last
I’ll be the body and I’ll be the mind The drugs you need when the world isn’t kind I’ll sort the truth, out from the lies Give you the answers when you want to know why
I’ll be the one to forgive your mistakes Eat all the apples served up by the snakes Be the life support when you feel on deaths door When you’ve nothing to give I won’t let them take more
I’ll find the last bit of pace when you’re engine has gone Fight in your armies no matter which side of history you’re on Whatever your mood I will find you a song I’ll be your bark when the cats got your tongue
I’ll try to be the reason that there’s always something to lose Mix in green and red when all you’re seeing are blues I’d drink the oceans and stare out the sun Just to make sure your bad day is undone
And one day, I might need it too But if you have got me, then I have got you I might not be perfect but I promise to prove If you have got me, then I have got you

I should probably know this, and I’m sure I read about it but what is the policy for calling out? I have a few health issues and some days I am physically unable to leave my bed and work. I have been working at my tsc since march 13th of this year and have called out a total of 3 days. Is there a limit on sick days per month? I work full time, 5 days a week 40 hours. Idk if that matters. I mainly just cashier at my tsc. I always feel terrible for calling out, but there are just a few days where my nausea/pain is so bad I can’t make it. If there’s any team leads/AM/seasoned workers/etc. in here who could give me feedback, I’d appreciate it.

I never in my life thought I would be apart of this type of community but it seems that I might be considered apart of it.
Growing up, I’ve had a good amount of women that were interested in me but I was too much of a pussy to let them know that I liked them. This resulted in me not dating anyone in middle school or high school. In college I decided to make a change and start asking women out. I’ve so far asked out 3 girls and they’ve all said no. Every single one. This has caused me to have a hatred towards W because I got told no 3 times. There were girls in the past who showed interest but I didn’t ask them out cause I scared.
One girl who I knew would’ve probably said yes to me, I didn’t ask because I didn’t like her like that. I now regret not asking her out because at least she would’ve told me yes. Then I could’ve said the 2 girl I asked out said yes to me but I didn’t because I didn’t like her like that. I ended up asking another girl who didn’t show any interest in me hoping she would say yes and she said no. She told me no but I didn’t feel too bad about it.
Fast forward to 2024, another girl showed interest in me but I was too nervous to make a move right away. 2 months later I decided to talk to her and ask her out and she says she has boyfriend. Are you fucking serious? You acted like you were interested in me for 2 fucking months and then I finally build up the courage to talk to you, and you fucking say you have a boyfriend? I got so fucking behind in my school work thinking about how I should talk to her. And I told myself if I got rejected by her I wouldn’t care but I fucking do. I’ve never been this depressed/mad at a rejection like this 3rd one. This 3rd rejection makes me hate W. This 3rd rejected happed months ago too and I’m still not over it.
I never felt this way about women before either. Back when I never asked out a girl or was scared I never had a hatred towards W but now I do because I’ve been told no 3 fucking times. I don’t even want to approach anymore women unless I know she’ll say yes. I want a Yes so I can feel better about myself and know that it only took 4 fucking times to finally get a yes.
How do I stop feeling this way? I want to stop hating W but they’re all I think about now because I’ve been rejected 3 fucking times.
Edit: Also, I had a girlfriend in middle school but we only last 2-3 weeks so I don’t consider that a real relationship.

The last time she split was last Monday. She complained, insulted me, picked multiple fights, tried to use my credit card without asking, lied about it, then tried to manipulate me into feeling bad about the lie she just told to my face. When I called her out on the lie, she tried to DARVO and when that didn't work she threatened to leave me. I let her go.
After 8 months on and off together, that was the moment I finally realized that it was never about me or what I do—this is just who she is. Despite the recent inpatient stint at the mental health clinic, she's not actually getting better. The relationship will never be healthy or peaceful. I'll never be able to keep her happy. She's just a miserable person and when her emotions go haywire she seems determined to make me miserable too. That was when I decided to look further into BPD and found this subreddit, which made everything clear.
I showed no interest in reconciling for a week and finally blocked her number after her ~6th attempt manipulate me. After two days of being blocked she finally swallowed her pride and asked to come back. She's in my bed sleeping while I write this from another room.
I've lost all desire for a serious relationship with this woman but I want to keep having sex with her, so my plan is to just stop caring.
I'm not going to sacrifice my time, energy, and money trying to make her happy because she won't appreciate it anyway. I'm not going to walk on eggshells around her because she'll find a reason to lose her temper anyway. I'm never going to trust her to be honest or faithful. I'm not going to argue with her about anything. I'm not going to care when she complains, insults me, or picks fights. I'm not going to care when she threatens to leave me. Any time she tries to manipulate me with negativity, I'm just going to disengage and leave her alone.
If I can remain as calm and detached as I intend to be, it seems like this can only go one of two ways:

1. She accepts the new dynamic wherein we enjoy time together without emotional investment from me. I keep getting sex without participating in her bullshit drama.
2. She realizes I'm not going to feed her demons anymore and she decides to go find someone who will. She eventually leaves me alone for good.

Seems like a win-win situation for me. What do you guys think?
P.S: Yes, I realize that being deliberately withholding and inconsiderate to use someone for sex does not make for a healthy relationship. This does not come naturally to me or I would've started doing it in the beginning when she first started showing red flags. And with or without her I have no interest in dating other people for the foreseeable future

About three weeks ago my GP diagnosed me with anxiety after I had an emergency meeting with them from suffering two panic attacks in the space of a couple of days which at the time I thought was heart problems.
I was prescribed beta blockers to help with the chest pain and was asked to follow up with them soon. About a week later I started experiencing new physical symptoms, twitching mostly in my calfs, waking up in the middle of the night sometimes with a strange feeling down my left side and now currently I am dealing with mostly visual symptoms like flashes and floaters which I am finding it hard to cope with.
Last week I had a breakdown and spoke to the GP again which they then diagnosed me with GAD and also medical anxiety. They have prescribed me sertraline which I haven’t taken yet due to fear of becoming completely reliant on them and also the fact that it can make my anxiety worse.
This has completely taken over my life the past month, it has gotten to the point where it is the only thing i can think about 24/7. Constantly checking my body and googling everything I’m going through and eventually convincing myself I am 100% ill and will just drop dead one day.
I have even gotten to the point where doing things I use to enjoy doesn’t really take my mind off of it like going to the gym and playing football which are meant to help but i find my brain still not being able to switch off.
I haven’t even spoken to anyone else about this besides my GP, I have been referred to a service in the NHS that is sort of like therapy over the phone and also I am in contact with PIPS to receive support.
I just feel like i keep going in circles everyday with having no one to talk to so i thought I would post on here for a bit of help if anyone even bothers reading this long and convoluted post I would appreciate it.

Disclaimer: Please excuse any awkward English it’s not my first language. I will be summarizing my experience in a 7 month LDR.
We met on a dating app last fall and we instantly clicked. He lived in a city 3 hours from mine and was just there to visit his siblings. On his last day in my city he asked for us to be exclusive and to try doing LDR. I was very hesitant on this because he has a demanding schedule (med student) so I thought it would be difficult to maintain one. But he reassured me it could work out and I really liked him so I gave it a shot.
3 months in and the relationship was perfect. He came to visit me every 2 weeks and we would spend the weekend together. He would take me on a shopping spree and we would eat at all these lovely restaurants. It honestly felt like we weren’t in an LDR.
Once we reached 4 months (end of the honeymoon phase haha) I started to notice some things that began to bother me:

1. his communication drastically began to decline. We use to talk on the phone for hours once a week while also texting throughout the days but then it just became exclusively texting and no more calls. When I confronted him about this he told me it was because his schedule changed and school became more demanding. He warned me about this before we became exclusive but I had became so attached to him and use to our old routine it was hard on me to adjust.
2. He forgot to wish me a happy birthday. I had reminded him 2 weeks prior and he had said he had it saved on his calendar. He doesn’t care for birthdays but I communicated with him that I cared and would appreciate the acknowledgement no gifts or anything like that just a message. He apologized 2 days later and told me he had an exam that same week so he wasn’t on his phone at the time.

This is when I began to realize he isn’t able to prioritize me and med school at the same time anymore. I assumed he had lost interest and when we met up afterwards he began to look more and more stressed / worn out.

1. 5 months in is when I began to identify the bread crumbing. Bread crumbing means he began to show inconsistent interest in me aka emotional abuse. He was taking longer and longer to respond to my texts. I noticed he was also more active on Snapchat while he left me waiting on delivered. I was being ignored and it honestly hurt. I never confronted him on this because I didn’t want to look crazy for essentially monitoring his snap score lol please do not do that it’s not healthy.
2. Whenever he did respond to my texts they would be lengthy and of course med school was always the reason for the delays. I do believe it’s a valid reason but at the same time it’s an easy excuse to get away with not having to answer me.
3. 6 months in I mentally began to mourn the loss of the relationship before the break up officially happened. We talked about our future together and moving in together so it was a very hard time for me. I didn’t want to be with anyone else but him but I felt like I was the only one that cared enough to keep trying to make the relationship last and work.
4. During month 6 I became more distant. I use to reply almost instantly to his texts so when he noticed the change he began to increase his efforts in communicating with me (aka more bread crumbing).

Note: I did communicate with him twice on my expectations when it came to our communication and the relationship as a whole. I felt like I was very vocal on my needs and he simply refused to meet them despite saying he will try multiple times.

1. With bread crumbing you do not know where you stand in the relationship and that was my current issue. Month 7, I asked him if I could come to his city for a day and speak with him face to face. I wanted to end the relationship in person out of respect. He told me he would let me know when he was free. I gave him a timeline and I told him I must see him by the end of the month or this wouldn’t work out. I didn’t want to drag it out anymore than necessary.

Well, he never told me when he was free in time so I took that as a sign that he was unwilling to try to rebuild our relationship and texted him that it would not work out and thanked him for the memories we shared.
I will say he did show signs of depression but was in denial about having any mental issues. I do believe med school started taking a toll on him because a lot of the hobbies he loved to do he stopped doing them and he began to lose weight. He didn’t seem like he cared about much of anything anymore including me of course.
I wanted to share my story to let people know if you ever feel unsure about your relationship please trust your gut. I was in denial about it for a long time despite the signs being right in front of me. Your time is precious and the worst thing you could do is waste it on someone who doesn’t give you the bare minimum. Thanks for reading and good luck to you all.

I practice good oral posture since last year, but for some reason I could never maintain the tongue on the palate while sleeping, but today I could do it. I bought a vaporizer and set it up before going to bed, so I laid down on my left side, swallowed some saliva to sustain the suction and slept, and now I just opened my eyes and I realized my tongue was still in the same position. I even dreamed about it, In the dream I was texting to Kurt Cobain (lol) and I was feeling the pressure of my tongue on the palate the whole time.

I have been practicing mewing for two weeks. Initially, I struggled to position my tongue against my palate due to narrow back teeth. Yesterday, while engaging in hard mewing, I experienced pain at the base of my skull on the right side, as well as in my jaw. Despite the discomfort, I continued anyway. Suddenly, the pain subsided, and I found that I could easily position my tongue against my palate. It also feels that palate is higher than before. Additionally, I noticed that my back teeth are now touching symmetrically, whereas previously, the right side did not make contact. Can anyone explain what might have occurred? I am experiencing no pain or symptoms today.

Next weekend, I'm getting married. My parents won't be there.
My mum has Alzheimer's. She lives with my dad who cares for her. My partner and I got engaged and we planned our wedding such that it would be close to them and therefore it would be easier for my mum. It's been in the works for around a year and a half now.
For so long, everything looked fine. My mum was deteriorating, but all signs pointed that she would be okay for the wedding. Everything was fine until just a few weeks ago, and now it's not.
She took a massive downturn. Can't walk upstairs, can't sleep, can barely speak, can't eat/drink/swallow properly... You know the drill. Every single day, there's something else. I don't live with them, I live in southeast England and they live in the Southwest. We're about four hours apart. I get updates from my dad each day, and it just gets worse. She thinks her mum is still alive and keeps looking for her, and she keeps panicking that I'm not in my room, as she thinks I'm still a child and I've gone missing. I see her as often as I can, but it's not enough. I'm dreading the day she looks at me and can't recognise me.
I was talking to my dad about the wedding. I realised already that they probably won't be going, so I've come up with ways to livestream it so they can watch at home. When he agreed and said that it's a good idea, I was devastated. I want my mum to see me get married and she can't. Even if she could, she would be confused, she wouldn't remember it. I'm just heartbroken.
I've spent this morning in tears. It feels like my mum has already died.
Sorry for the rant.

I (26M) met this girl (24F) on hinge and things took off quite quickly and intense, we stayed up late to talk for days straight, we talked about everything passionately. She thought i was funny and charming, i thought she was interesting and genuine. She was always busy with work but still made time to reply and stay, i was the same way. The chemistry was unmatched, the sex talk and flirting overwhelmed me constantly in a good way. Everything really seemed better when I think about her, my work was less dull and things I hated suddenly seemed okay. She emphasized her interest in me plenty of times.
But i had to move for work temporarily and we couldn’t set up a date before i left so we were just texting and she even suggested she’d meet me half way, it was no big deal to her. She seemed quite serious about it too, not just a joke. And she kept saying how she liked me a lot and she could feel the feeling was mutual. I agreed.
But as long as i stepped up and tried to arrange a date, i wasn’t asking her to date me, just a casual meet up to see each other. It turned into an argument and then she told me she’s not that into me, and that I’m in this way deeper than she is, and that she’s not ready for a relationship. I mean we joked about dating and nasty stuffs we’d do to each other but i never emphasized that i was serious, just casual texting and flirting, like she was. Her attitude was completely different since i mention the date. Still tried to reply to me, but the way she talked was less flirty and passionate. She said her job is draining and she had family and friends to hang with and stuffs that but she tried her best to respond.
After that night we agreed to be friends for a while. I asked her why the feelings changed she said she thought there’d be romantic feelings towards me, but i didn’t happen, she just saw me as a friend now. I asked why still keep me as friend and make effort to text me everyday then, she said I’m too an interesting person to just let go and that’s just who she is when it comes to treating a friend.
I don’t get it, things were sexually heated before, we talked about things like exes, relationships downturns and deep shit in the past and really bonded. I even said i was with some chicks and she said she wasnt worried cause she knew the feeling is mutual, “i have confidence between us”. Now she “doesn’t feel romantic feelings” for me.
It was all within two weeks. I ended it, told her how i felt and let go. But i never felt this way before, even stronger than my last most serious relationship, struck by lightning type of feeling. She put LTR on her OLD profile and then said turnt out she wasn’t ready for a relationship, but before i brought up the date discussion, i swear she was acting like a gf, the lovey dovey language and names calling and the way she was so excited and reactive about anything i said.
Can someone help me make sense of this? Did i move too fast too intensely and freaked her out? Or is she just exhausted with work and life and can’t handle another relationship? Commitment issues?
TLDR: Met a girl on Hinge, had a thunderstruck type of feeling about her. Feeling was mutual until i mentioned a date. Her attitude changed and said she doesn’t feel a romantic feeling with me, wanna be friends instead. Did i freak her out or she has commitment issue?

hi yall, this is my first post here, super super fun. i have this roommate who has actually never really been a problem up until a couple months ago or so. buckle in because this one is kind of complicated.
when i originally moved in to this place i was in a long-term relationship, i was also pretty much a hermit and didn’t really enjoy going out drinking (i still don’t). my roommate during this time would constantly pressure me into going to bars i didn’t want to go to for MONTHS. i would always get made fun of for ‘letting my boyfriend control my life’, ‘having attachment issues’, etc. i never thought much of it because a) we’re not friends and her opinion really doesn’t affect me, and b) im happy with the way my life is.
fast forward to a couple months ago, this roommate started dating a new guy who is… very scarily similar to me? is the best way i can describe it. me and this boy have the same hair colour, eye colour, skin colour, music taste, fashion sense, shoes, introverted personality, etc. ever since she started dating this guy my life has been absolute fucking hell, i feel like their hotel room service or something at this point. they are always here during the day, having loud shower sex (in our shared shower), making a huge mess with MY personal plates and cutlery, leaving garbage everywhere, and then running away to his house to spend the night before i can say anything. she never does any chores, i have done absolutely everything around the house for the past 2 months, including taking out the garbage every single week, unclogging the shower drain twice a month, sweeping and mopping the floors, etc. i would have no problem doing these things on my own if the amount of cleaning reflected the amount of messes i make, but instead i am cleaning up after 3 people, on top of also working 6 days a week. i don’t think it’s unfair to expect my jobless roommate who is not in school and does nothing except fuck her boyfriend in my shower to AT LEAST clean up after herself.
additionally, my roommate, who a couple months ago would make fun of me for being the way i am, has now started to subtly copy me in a lot of different ways. for starters, she has changed every single one of her shower products to be the exact same as mine. her and her boyfriend spend every waking minute together, but they never go out, just like what i was made fun of for months prior. she changed from being a complete night owl (waking up at around 1pm every day) to setting her daily alarm at the exact same time as me (6;30am), she does not have a job or any classes so she had no reason to change her sleep schedule so suddenly. this one hit really close to home as i only started waking up early as a way to avoid social interaction in the house. she’s been shopping for clothing and shoes in my style, and intentionally leaving these new clothes and shoes around the house for me to see. the best way i can describe living here right now is that it feels like an intentional punishment for me being the person i am, like she’s trying to get me to either change my personality or move out. (neither of which are going to happen)
i have confronted her already about the dishes, the loud shower sex, and the chores, none of which have really improved. i guess i came here mostly to rant, but also to ask just genuinely wtf am i supposed to do in this situation? i just want to feel at home in the home i pay for, take care of, and clean. is that too much to ask? how should i approach this going forward?
i’m just so sick of having to dedicate so much of my free time to cleaning up messes i didn’t make, for people who treat me like shit. i also just cannot fucking stand laziness, and all of my alone time has been robbed of me. please help

Hi.
So I have been playing the hell out of MMX6 after buying the Legacy Collection and I just played all the other ones (except MMX7 and 8).
X6 has had some hate, including from myself. For me, I think I just played it at the end of an era, when I wanted another MMX1-3 or X4 or I just had enough of Megaman in general. The game also proved to be hard and after MMX5 I wasn't in the mood to get into it even if I did complete it at some point. It just never felt like any enjoyment at the time.
Later, when I played it again I started to really try to understand it. Some systems just confused me, like the nightmare system when I didn't know how to manipulate it and it always felt unfair and random. I never understood that the red stages on the screen were stages CHANGED, not stages I should avoid or something, because I was basing it off experience from things like MMX2, where I avoided stages where there were X Hunters for some time or something.
Now after understanding both the Parts system better and the nightmare system, the game just becomes, in fact, super easy.
The teleporters to the alternate routes were of course confusing at first also but in no way a system deserving of much criticism. MMX6 actually feels like a game that rewards you and is satisfying to get through, more so than any other MM game I've played. Seriously, the only game that made me feel like that is probably the fan made Megaman Unlimited.
The ranking system is actually better implemented than it was in MMX5. Now that was horrible. You are rewarded with more equipable parts for raising your ranks, yet the game never requires you to grind specifically. I got both X and Zero on separate playthroughs to 9999 souls for Rank UH and the only grinding I did was about three Dynamo fights or so.
The bosses are all quite easy. I remember struggling with High Max at first, but when you know how to damage him, you can realize that all his attacks are super easy to avoid.
Another thing that I underestimated was Limited Parts, usable once a life. When you find the Full Recover part that essentially works like a free sub tank you don't even need to refill just trivializes the whole game and now I've even found a way to unlock that part early on since stage 2. On my latest playthroughs, I've never had to even use it or a sub tank once in a single battle not even on Sigma.
The only thing I do hate when I think about first playthroughs, is all those extra lives. Like when you enter a portal and you can't backtrack to the normal stage if you find out Zero or High Max is too much for you or something. Also, one thing I think they messed up was Metal Shark's stage, they put the normal way through a teleporter, messing with your mind making you think you are going the alternate way, then you end up on the path where the actual alternate route is only to discover a dead end with a pit you can't cross, forcing you to die like....9 times to restart the entire slow grinding stage. There was no point whatsoever putting a teleporter there. Why not just make a regular path or a door or something......
My final playthrough, I decided to do it without rescuing Zero. Now I didn't realize that you can miss Zero by collecting 3000 souls, so I did it legit. I never entered an alternate route, not even to collect stuff and then kill myself to exit. Which means, I didn't even get either armor. So I finished the final stages only with Falcon armor. The only thing I did do was to get the awesome Jumper part from the alternate route in Blizzard Wolfgang's stage to make the first final level easy.
So my way through the game is as follows:
Take Ground Scaravich first and beat him. Reenter his stage a couple of times until you have the Heart, most likely the armor also, but most importantly, the Quick Charge part (if you are playing as X) and the Speedster part. I mostly keep those parts equipped the entire game. You enter Yammark's stage next and with Speedster, you can pick up both a sub tank and the Full Recover part.
From that point, the game is just fairly easy overall.
Due to having Ground Scaravich defeated, one might decide to go to Blaze Heatnix. But if you are suffering from the Nightmare Snakes, this is not necessary. You can easily beat Rainy Turtloid and from there (or before) take Metal Shark Player who for example gives you an insane weapon against the Nightmare Snakes. Also, don't forget your Giga Attack like I tend to do. It's there for a reason. That works for instance on Nightmare Snake, like the one in the vertical shaft.
As you gain more ranks and parts, as well as new weapons, there is no Megaman game that feels as rewarding to play. Your characters actually feel like they get stronger.
Now some people have said playing as Zero is hard.....but seriously, he is overpowered if anything. Did you see the difference fighting the Nightmare Snakes early as X and fighting them as Zero.
Nevermind when Zero gets the weapon from Rainy Turtloid, he decimates EVERYTHING. You're just on the ground crouching and pressing down+SM button and you're like hell.
And here's an unpopular opinion.......I think MMX5 is worse than MMX6. MMX5 is the game that feels rushed for me and it feels unfair and badly made. I have also just played 5 and did it getting all parts and all, with both X and Zero. The terrible boss fights like Shadow Devil, the terrible random spikes coming from the walls of Rangda Bangda (and I know, Gaea Armor, which I did). All of this feels more unfair and ridiculous, not like MMX6 which feels rewarding and fair. There can be a challenge but it's fair challenge. The instant death lasers in MMX5 which is pure and simply the WORST trial and error nonsense I've ever seen in any game.....Quick Man from MM2 is one thing, but that's only like 5 screens you can master in a few tries, but falling down that long shaft in MMX5, with platforms EVERYWHERE and impossible to so much as touch one without dying, could just as well litter them all in spikes.
Sigma in MMX6, like all Sigmas, used to give me trouble at first. But geez, the first form is easy as hell, every attack is easy to dodge. When I started using the Magma Blade on the second form instead of insisting to use the horrible horrible Ground Dash because I imprinted in myself that it's his weakness, everything changed. Last playthrough, I literally stood there and just attacked, taking all his attacks in my face and I still beat him. With Zero, that is just a joke. He OBLITARATES him with regular attacks.
I am seriously contemplating playing one more time, either using both characters and getting 8 heart tanks with each, so making it a more balanced play. Or collecting 3000 souls and seeing the cutscene and look at what happens.
OR......I should probably look at Hard mode I guess.....

This is a small update to my last post on here: https://www.reddit.com/asktransgendes/r2cOMBBEHz
So to get into it... yall were right. it's completely intentional lmfao.
my boyfriend and i had a long very emotional talk about how he should stand up for me more and that i was very disappointed that he would just let me be treated like this by his family. So with that talk he finally decided to have a talk with his father about the constant misgendering of me and how he won't just put up with it anymore.
it was a pretty heated argument, his dad cannot STAND accountability and will do and say anything to get out of it so this was very much trying to talk to a wall. after like 10 minutes of back and forth his father shouted out "I will not change my views for you, FUCK YOU!" in my BFs face. (very mature..) BF fell completely silent and in a genuine moment of pure hatred told him "You are not and will never be my father. you are dead to me. never speak to me again." and that basically was the end of it.
so yeah.. he's finally admitted it! woohoo🎉! at least now i don't have to doubt that anymore. he has been acting horrible to me no matter what age i was (hes been doing this to a 14 year old btw, hes always be awful. he only now admits it when im 18), no matter how nice i was to him, no matter what gifts i got him. he has hated me from the start. he hates me for existing.
that was basically their last conversation. over the last week FIL kept trying to talk to BF as if nothing happened and bf responded here and there at first. but couldn't stand it anymore. he told his father "i will not pretend like nothing happened. i do not want to talk to you or have any relationship with you anymore." and all his father had to say was.. "are you SURE about that..?" in the most snarky sounding way imaginable. as if BF was in the wrong, not him.
i have sent his father one final text that basically told him everything I've thought of him for years now. i will copy the text i have sent below:
"the fact that you're so proudly and openly bigoted disgusts me. your illiterate ass probably won't be able to read past the third sentence. i have tried nothing but be nice to you, and you have openly admitted that you no matter what i (or sean) try, i will NEVER be accepted by you. i have tried so hard to be understanding of you and tried to get on your good side, but i have had ENOUGH. you are an immature, lazy LEECH. that does nothing but make everyone around him miserable. i have tried so hard to see the best in you and give you the benefit of the doubt but the fact that you can openly say to sean "I will not change my views for you, fuck you" is absolutely INSANE. i hope you're fucking happy. you are dead to sean, and you are dead to me. i will never speak to you again, and don't you dare ever put my name in your filthy mouth either. never EVER speak of me again. pretend i am fucking dead for all i care. I can't even imagine the bullshit natalie had to endure from you. You have a queer son and a transgender daughter, and yet you still choose to be a hillbilly conservative daft cunt. Everyone around you fucking hates you, you are nothing but a freeloader pissbaby that leeches off his ex wife. You are pathetic and insane. i am more of a man than your cuck ass ever will be, you pathetic slob. kindly go fuck yourself, good day."
he has yet to respond in any way, but then again that's just like him.
his mother is desperately trying to defend FIL (they are not together btw. they live in the same house but are broken up for years now. IDK why she still defends him like her life depends on it) and saying that BF should be "nicer to FIL" and "Maybe hes trying to talk to you because he doesn't like the situation!!" (if he didn't like it he shouldn't have started it...) and BF has told her off too. she basically deflected it all with "i get your side... i understand your point..." blah blah blah. IDK if she also does it intentionally but it's starting to feel like it since she's so adamant on defending her ex husband. for now i am assuming they are the same way (sadly) but yeah, basically this has burnt down BFs whole relationship with his dad. he has hated him for so long but this was the final straw i guess.
not as happy of an update as i would've liked, but an update nonetheless. i wish i could tell you why he does this or what his reasoning is but we've got nothing.
TLDR: FIL admitted to misgendering me on purpose, he is now dead to BF, and MIL is desperately trying to defend FIL

I have been taking the approach of 90% input in my language learning. For the past 1 year or so I hardly speak (only once a week at a language cafe). But I've been listening and reading for about 3 hours a day.
I'm getting pretty good and quite impressed with how much I'm able to understand.
However I tried hanging out with a friend yesterday and we started with speaking in Swedish the whole time, until about 1 hour in and I realise I'm struggling a lot expressing myself complex ideas. I don't know how to be funny, to be sympathetic, etc. We switched to English halfway though. Then I went home and recorded myself and my pronunciation and accent still sound like shit.
So now I think it's probably time to switch to output. I dont have any specific questions but I just want to hear, if you guys have any experience and what have you done to make yourself better.

I’m 20 and haven’t been in a proper relationship but I had this situation with a guy. I thought I liked him but since it was my first experience with boys I couldn’t realize what my feelings were. I didn’t like him basically but I was forcing myself for like a month to like him.
One day something shifted and I realized that It was just the adrenaline and euphoria of me starting to date boys. I didn’t like anything about him. So I broke it off. Now when I think back at it, I am so disgusted. I don’t know why I am so disgusted to be honest. The fact that I kissed him makes me vomit. And the way he acted after I sincerely and (trust me) with so much empathy explained to him how I felt, was horrible. He still tried to pursue me and ran into me multiple times. He’s now blocked but still. He made me feel cringe on a whole other level. Immature, coward and acted like a little kid.(Not getting into details cuz this would be too long)
Now when I think of new dates and meeting new boys I keep thinking of this guy and about the cringe that I felt with him and I just can’t look at boys the same.I feel disgusted by kisses and I can’t imagine kissing someone. Too much info I know but I feel safe here lol. This boy left me with traima and I don’t understand why! Again, this was my first experience with a boy so that’s why I need some help figuring out what is happening…If someone went through the same experience please share them with me. Thanks!