⚠️TW, 22M
I hate talking about my trauma. I'm unable to clearly remember what happened to me and it is driving me crazy. I feel like I'm lying for attention or trying to get pity somehow, I don't believe myself and I'm just trying to make sense of it all because it all just seems too crazy. Every time I think about discussing my trauma a voice tells me “Stop feeling sorry for yourself you are pathetic”, and somehow this sentiment has been working very well for me up until now. I recently watched Baby Reindeer and I got the urge for the first time to write everything down. Just while writing all of this a lot of new memories have popped up, and I’m scared and not sure what to do.
For context, I have been diagnosed with c-PTSD (my ace score is 10) nevertheless, I am doing pretty well, graduating college now with two degrees and a near-perfect GPA. My diagnosis stems from extensive physical and mental abuse at home and in several foster homes due to drug and mental health-related issues my parents and foster parents were suffering from. Most of the trauma is unrelated to the trauma I'm seeking answers for in this post. It is relevant because I have very few memories from my childhood, not that I know what amount is “normal”, but I can't remember much up to the age of 11 years old, only fleeting memories, primarily traumatic ones. For some reason, I have managed to come out of all of my trauma very well, however, I have started to struggle more lately and I feel like I'm losing control of my mental health for the first time in my life.
I have memories of being held down and groped on the school playground when I was 6, while an adult was “keeping watch”. I also have memories of being locked in a room, but I don't have any specific memories of sexual abuse. I just have this feeling that it happened, I knew what a blowjob was, what anal sex was, and everything sex-related from the age of 5. I have memories of a guy making me blow him but it was all for fun, and he was my age, but in hindsight, I've realized that we were 6 years old and that is not normal behavior at all. This incident is unrelated to the others, and I'm not sure how we ended up in that situation, but it haunts me because we were having fun and laughing about it, it felt like a joke. It feels so wrong to think about it now.
Additionally, I almost had sex with a 24-year-old guy when I was 13, I didn't realize that this was abnormal until several years later. I freaked out and asked him to stop and he stopped, and in my eyes, he was a great guy for doing this, but I've come to realize that maybe he wasn't a great guy. This happened while traveling abroad with one of my foster families, she left me at some family friend's house in a very sketchy neighborhood while she was staying with their family. I was flirting with him, and I thought it was fun to try to get him to hook up with me, so I felt like it was my fault. While writing this I'm also questioning if this is normal behavior for a 13-year-old, I'm just realizing while writing this that I've had a messed up relationship with sex my entire life. My foster mom was yelling at me once because I was crying after my dad passed away right after our trip abroad (this was 6 months after, she said I had to get over it and stop crying) instead of saying this, I told her I was upset because that guy tried to have sex with me. She became extremely infuriated and said she was going to deal with it. A couple of days later, she told me she had “finished the business” with him, and said that her brothers had “dealt” with him and that he was gone from the city he lived in forever. I still have no idea what happened to him. He stopped posting on all social media afterward. I feel extremely guilty, and I'm still not sure what happened to him. Why did I tell her this?
Besides these memories, there is one incident (I don't know if it even happened) that has been tormenting me lately. The incident I'm about to describe triggered these memories. I hate writing about this more than anything. I was falsely accused by my foster mom, in the foster home I spent the most time in (several years, and the same one that left me stranded abroad) of sexually abusing their child. For context, she suffers from bipolar disorder and she would have breakdowns daily. This is just the tip of the iceberg, but I want to provide some examples of her behavior. She found porn on my foster brother's computer once and threw his computer out the front door, made him walk around a river for hours, and banished him from the house for two weeks to go live with his dad (her ex-husband, who she kicked down a flight of stairs which broke his arm).
She has not told anyone else in her family this, but she also confided in me that she was sexually abused by her uncle as a child. I feel like I need to provide context because I am extremely paranoid about being labeled as a predator, and have suffered extensively from paranoia (and still do) that people perceive me this way. I have never, and will never, and have absolutely zero urge to ever do anything inappropriate with a child. I feel like I haven't heard anyone going through this.
She took me out to a busy restaurant (the first time she ever did this) and while we were eating, out of the blue, she straight up asked me if I was sexually abusing her child. People around could hear our conversation, and their heads turned. I went into a state of shock, I was close with the child (he was born right after I moved in, three years old at the time) and viewed him like a brother.
After the shock wore off (I was 15 at the time) I just looked at her with teary eyes and said I would never do anything like that. Luckily, she immediately believed me and stated that she was suspicious because we fell asleep under a blanket together once, and she had noticed “weird” behavior from him (touching himself inappropriately, I was told later by my psychologist that this was normal behavior), and according to her because I was a foster child I had a greater likelihood of doing this. Afterward, she bought me a sweater and let me get dessert at the restaurant (this was a huge deal for me at the time, and I forgave her immediately, mostly because I was scared of her). She actually became extremely upset afterward and I had to console her.
(Side note, I was forced to live there for another year after, and she implemented specific rules for me. I was not allowed to be alone with him or be under the same blanket as him. This was extremely traumatizing, my relationship with him was ruined forever.)
On the car ride home, I was processing what had just happened and suddenly fell silent and felt an immense amount of anxiety, I felt like I was going to pass out. A memory from school, I was six at the time, of an older boy (15-16) who did extremely horrendous things to me, suddenly appeared. Feces and urine were involved. These memories are coming up again now, and I feel like I'm gonna have a panic attack every time they do.
My foster mom noticed that my mood suddenly switched, and asked me what was wrong. I told her I suddenly got flooded with all these memories of experiences I didn't know I had, and she told me that she was not surprised that her accusation triggered this. She also told me that she thought she knew what guy I was talking about (not that she did anything about it, she worked as a chef at the school while I was going there, but I was living with my parents at the time.) I have no idea if she is telling the truth, but this detail somehow made it worse.
I suppressed the memories and told myself that I was just making it up. I've done this my whole life, every time it pops up, it's not working anymore. I have this feeling a lot because I feel like what I've been through is unbelievable. That no one will believe me. I also remember that around this time, I had a complete shift in my personality. I went from being popular and outgoing to reserved and extremely shy. I became silent at school, I remember one day specifically, I didn't utter a single word all day, and I felt like I was out of my body. My teacher became so worried that she called CPS. I am not sure if this is related to the sexual abuse trauma (while writing this I still feel like I’m making it up) I may have gone through, or other trauma. I do not have a lot of other memories from this time, and I can't piece together the timeline of events. I'm not even sure what memories I have are real or not.
Another important aspect of all of this is that I had another foster brother who was the same age as me. We started having sex after I moved in at the age of 12. He would come into my room at night, without saying a word, and start doing sexual favors on me. I'm not sure and I don't remember what events if any led to this. He would make me do the same to him, even though I didn't want to, and told him no, I still did it. I didn't enjoy it and I didn't want to do it but for some reason I just did. I never enjoyed doing any favors for him, It made me feel disgusting, I hated it. We never kissed, cuddled, or did anything remotely romantic, no affection other than pure sexual acts. Was this sexual abuse? I don't understand. I'm so confused about all of this.
In hindsight, I guess I deeply suppressed it, I realized that the guy that made me blow him when I was 6, was him. We were in the same grade from 1st to 3rd grade. And now, I'm wondering if he was the one (if any) who did inappropriate things to my three-year-old foster brother. I've been suppressing all of this my whole life, and I'm shocked that I haven't realized this before writing all of this down. It happened in the same room when we were 6.
Recently, I've been feeling very depressed and anxious, and thoughts about all of this are coming back over and over again. I've noticed that I'm developing a weird relationship with sex, I can’t even put into words how I feel. Was I sexually abused or raped? How do I know what is real or not? I’m scared to go further into all of this because I don't want to uncover more memories, just while writing this I made several gut-wrenching realizations. Is there a specific type of therapy that helps with this? I just feel like it's getting worse every day. Thanks.

To start, let's talk about the Jacobs family, specifically Jeremy Jacobs.
He's one of the richest people in Western New York, former owner of the Boston Bruins, and current chairman of the University at Buffalo Council (wikipedia article).
On March 20, 1980, in a Jacobs family mansion on Nottingham Terrace, Jeremy’s fifteen-year-old nephew Seth (son of his brother Max) allegedly nearly beat to death Mary Kate O’Connell (sister of Buffalo TV newscaster Kevin). It was an unusual case:
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From the beginning of the O’Connell case, which began at 7:30 on the morning of March 20, 1980, when Ms. O’Connell called for help, her assault was handled differently from the thousands of other beatings each year in the city. Eight hours elapsed after Ms. O’Connell’s injuries were discovered before the Buffalo Police Department was allowed inside the Jacobs home to investigate and secure any evidence. . . . Seth Jacobs, now 25, an actor and a graduate of Yale University, told Ms. O’Connell’s attorneys during his deposition that he has trouble believing that people consider him a suspect in the beating. When his father first told him that police thought he had beat Ms. O’Connell, he said: “I was understandably stunned, very dismayed, and I wondered what to do.” He said he let his father’s attorneys handle it. And he told his mother, “I couldn’t believe that people actually believed that I could do such a thing.” (source)

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The Jacobs clan got lawyered up and counter-sued O’Connell. The excellent Jacobs family lawyers got him off, leading to the judgment that she was nearly beaten to death inside the Jacobs home by a person or persons unknown. So, racketeering without a racketeer, bludgeoning without a bludgeoner. See “O’Connell v. Jacobs” (1992). The Jacobs family then proceeded to sue Ms. O’Connell into bankruptcy.

But what happened to Seth Jacobs?

Well, we all know the Seth Jacobs that teaches history here. At first I thought that this just happened to be an unfortunate coincidence of two people having the same name. (Here he is!) However, I was horrified as I noticed more and more things line up.
Here's an article from 2020 about Seth Jacobs. Let's look at everything that matches.
Date of Birth

It was 1992 and the then-actor had $1.25 in his pocket, the exact price of the Documentary History of the United States. He read it on his commute to the famed Steppenwolf Theatre, where he was appearing in Twelfth Night. “I was 28 and I had never taken a college-level history class,”.

This would put his year of birth at around 1965, depending on when his birthday is and what month this happened. The Seth Jacobs who allegedly beat the teenage girl was 15 in 1980, putting his birthday around 1965 as well. But I see how this may also be an unfortunate coincidence. Let's continue.
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Actor + Son of Actor

I grew up in New York City. My father was an actor and I wanted to be an actor. I felt at the time I had talent.

Recall from earlier "Seth Jacobs, now 25, an actor and a graduate of Yale University". This aligns with the timeline of our Seth Jacobs being 28 at the time. Additionally, alleged assaulter Seth Jacob's father, Max Jacobs, was an actor as well! Another interesting coincidence!
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Education

I went to Yale as an undergraduate and majored in philosophy and psychology, but that was just because my parents told me they weren’t going to pay for a Yale education if I majored in theater.

Our Seth Jacobs indeed went to Yale and got their undergrad degree. And wouldn't you know it, alleged assaulter Seth Jacobs was a Yale graduate as well! Recall from earlier: "Seth Jacobs, now 25, an actor and a graduate of Yale University." These coincidences are starting to stack up...
Middle Name
This dissertation asserts that our Seth Jacob's middle name is Stephen. According to official court documents:

"Max William Jacobs as custodian for Seth Steven Jacobs under the New York Uniform Gifts to Minors Act, 703 Main St., at Tupper, Buffalo, N.Y."

Our two Seth's share the same middle name!
Maybe: Physical Appearance
This one is more of a maybe, but take a look at Max Jacobs and then compare him to our Seth Jacobs.
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Picture from Buffalo News
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A shitty pic but it gets the point across

What now?

I have some family members in Buffalo who've told me about Jeremy Jacobs and his shadiness, but I did not expect our Seth Jacobs to be involved in it. I'm like 99% certain that these are the same people, and while it was "alleged" that he nearly beat a teenage girl to death, the circumstances surrounding it are incredibly suspicious.

This place is a message... and part of a system of messages... pay attention to it!
Sending this message was important to us. We considered ourselves to be a powerful culture.
This place is not a place of honor... no highly esteemed deed is commemorated here... nothing valued is here.
What is here was dangerous and repulsive to us. This message is a warning about danger.
The danger is in a particular location... it increases towards a center... the center of danger is here... of a particular size and shape, and below us.
The danger is still present, in your time, as it was in ours.
The danger is to the body, and it can kill.
The form of the danger is an emanation of energy.
The danger is unleashed only if you substantially disturb this place physically. This place is best shunned and left uninhabited.

[Original source] [Wikipedia]
The above is from a 1993 study on how to warn people in the distant future about the dangers posed by a nuclear waste repository. This message needs to be communicated to people who stumble upon the site, and it needs to be done so non-verbally. As nuclear waste stays dangerous for tens of thousands of years, there will eventually be people who come upon the site who will not share a language with us. They will not share symbols with us. They will not share a culture with us. Yet they will be humans, and we are obligated to protect them.
I came upon this specific ... it's not quite a poem, but that's what Chelsea Weber-Smith of the podcast American Hysteria called it in her most recent episode, which I had the joy to listen to earlier this week. It's about the borderline-bonkers field of study (and one of my occasional obsessions) called nuclear semiotics, which analyzes this problem.
Coincidentally, I started my second playthrough of Tears of the Kingdom the day after listening to this story. As I descended the staircase, through the gloom, past the murals and to G-Do himself, I couldn't help but think... the ancient Hylians/Zonai had a similar problem to our civilization. There is a danger underground that must be contained, and people must be warned. It's interesting how some of the strategies they employ to convey this message are mirrored in the thoughts of nuclear semioticians, and how in other ways went against the most basic ideas of this field. In the end, did they fail? (Yes, the answer is yes) Will we fail to protect our own future people? (yes, but for different reasons)
Worth saying, they had it easy compared to us:

1. We know nothing of the people of 10,000 years from now. They literally had a princess from this future culture at their disposal.
2. All human languages currently in existence will be unintelligible to the people of 12024, more so than how Proto-Indo-European (spoken only ~6k years ago) is unintelligible to us today. Ancient Hylian, on the other hand, is basically Middle English.

They tried many strategies that nuclear semioticians have considered, some implemented better than others, with varying levels of success:

1. An "atomic priesthood", namely the Sheikah and the Royal Family. This is a group of people who are dedicated to the mission of preserving information about the threat across millennia, in the same way religious movements dating to the Iron Age and Classical Antiquity have managed to preserve the teachings of their founders into the present. We know Sheikah tech is seen in the imprisoning chamber, and the royal family pass down the story of the Imprisoning War. Unfortunately, this "priesthood" over the millennia proved small and unstable. Depending on how you place TotK in the timeline, the Sheikah and the royal line were nearly wiped out several times, reduced at one point to kindergarten teacher and a pre-teen pirate captain. Even if the movement survived, the message of "do not go below the castle" was eventually forgotten.
2. Physical monuments. There are three general threads of thought. One is to create some kind of frightening, ominous landscape that communicates "this is a bad place," like a forest of jagged concrete spikes. Another thread, as Weber-Smith put it, thinks that's some very American absurdity, and the best thing is to just hide it somewhere unimportant. Dig a hole in the Arctic, drop it in. Another (more interesting) idea is to make it the center of attention. Build a nuclear-themed amusement park, a nuclear temple, something people will tell stories of and preserve. No one wants to drill for oil on the Acropolis. The Hylians went and built a magnificent castle and their capitol city. It's not clear this helped since the original message was eventually lost.
3. Written and artistic representations of the message. Nuclear semioticians seem to think this is a challenge. Many proposals that do include written messages would start with it being in multiple languages, with broad, general terms are the periphery of the site (Bad! Malo!), getting more specific as you approach the center (plutonium 1.4km down). There's art, like this, which might not work, as we can't guarantee symbols like ☢️ or skulls will mean the same thing to future people. The Hylians/Zonai just... well they didn't think about any of this.
   1. They appear to have communicated the specifics primarily in writing, and in a single written language: Zonai, a system so obtuse that not even the Internet can crack it. Correct me if I am wrong, but we see no Gerudo hieroglyphs, no Sheikah characters, no other text in the game in any other language warning about what is under the castle. Almost none of this text is near the castle. Much of it is in the goddamn sky. There is text immediately adjacent to the Imprisoning Chamber, on and around statues of Zonai. Zelda just takes pictures and keeps walking.
      1. (I am trying to find a source, and I cannot, but I remember tales of a warning in the castle itself, a very nondescript stela that's like "don't go under the castle." I don't remember what language it is in, but in any case it's not exactly in a prominent place)
   2. The statues closest to the source of the danger are Zonai, a race completely forgotten. They are not in a position warning people off. They just stand there, arms at their sides, conveying nothing.
   3. Of course, a discussion of art would be incomplete without talking about the murals... they're a bit too close to the problem. G-Do is literally in the next room. If he was nuclear waste, you're already losing all your hair. The murals are only understandable by people with specific knowledge of the Royal Family's lore. They do not depict useful information (eg. he's literally in the next room), only a legend. And the structure of the space it was in was so poorly constructed that literally the most important bits were obscured by rubble.
4. Finally, there is the physical barrier between the environment and the threat. You bury it in concrete, deep underground, somewhere without a lot of rainfall and earthquakes. The last thing that needs to happen is a bit of groundwater to start carrying plutonium into a well. You don't just leave this stuff in a ditch (unless you do). And yet... there is apparently a staircase directly to G-Do. He keeps spitting out calamities. People are getting sick from the emanation of energy/gloom...

I am not sure I have a point exactly. The lore nerds will rightfully point out that containment failed at exactly the moment it was meant to: ie. when Zelda came upon it and closed the time loop. True fact. I'm just stirring these tropes together. The ancient Hylians/Zonai tried to communicate a danger and how to deal with it to people in their distant future, ultimately showing us a bunch of ways that this did not work.
Us in the real world will have nuclear semioticians have better ideas. Most of this stuff is sitting the parking lots of nuclear power plants as we argue about where to put it. Hopefully we put it underground with good signage before we have our own calamity.

Hey everyone, EzeDoesIt back at it again with a surprise spoiler breakdown of everything Creative Director of the Rules and Lore Team, Luis Loza ( u/Paizo_Luis ), talked about during his interview today from BadLuckGamer! This was a last minute notification for me, so I made sure to spend the time today detailing every spoiler Luis talked about. He held back a few times, due to how close PaizoCon was (coming up next weekend!). But he did spill some beans, so I'll be relaying what was said.
Please check out the VOD for the full interview, and all the interesting discussions I did not cover HERE!
Beware ye, for there do be spoilers:
Gorum was chosen as the god to die, since his death would result in a lot of interesting changes and developments in the setting. It was not due to Gorum being boring, but rather the possibilities of the stories his death would create made it so he was the one that needed to die.
At one point, the god that was slated to die was actually Torag, not Gorum! Luis cited the ending hidden message in Lost Omens: Highhelm as a hint for Torag's possible death, and also set up the Dwarven Pantheon without Torag as either another hint of his death, or as a possible explanation if he did go on living ("You need to learn to live without me"). There ARE changes to the dwarven pantheon in the coming months, though!
Nethys was never on the chopping block. Luis doesn't want to "pop that balloon", and feels that the mechanics around magic would've needed to be changed in response to him dying. So he's been safe since the beginning. Again, the update to the Archives of Nethys lining up to Nethys being marked safe was a coincidence, but a fun one at that!
Luis was asked if there was anything in Pathfinder that he worked on that he was particularly proud of? And Luis answered, saying he's the most proud of developing the Automaton ancestry, and was really proud of being able to secretly doubling the ancestry's feat count by having the Enhancements in the level 1-9 feats.
Luis' crown jewel book he's worked on is Lost Omens: Divine Mysteries! AND Divine Mysteries was actually conceived BEFORE the OGL fiasco! They always wanted to do a sequel to Lost Omens: Gods & Magic, and came up with Yvali to delve into what makes a god and what makes them tick. Having a good framing device/narrative makes writing books more exciting for writers, and that excitement can definitely be felt by those who read the books!
Different pantheons are gonna be talked about in depth. The Orc pantheon and the Crucible will be covered. The Goblin pantheon, due to the interesting bits with the Barghest Goblin gods will be covered (Eze Note: this was mentioned before the OGL stuff came up in conversation, so not sure if Barghest Goblin gods will still be around or if the Goblin gods will still be Barghests, given new Barghests in Monster Core). The Azlanti pantheon is being explored as well, talking about how previously prominent gods fell into obscurity.
Luis made sure to grab every god stat block he could find and update them for the Remaster. All of the domains across all the books and AP backmatter have been collected and updated as well. Luis wanted to make sure every god was covered, so players wouldn't be left out in the cold due to switching to the Remaster version of the rules.
Luis talked about his job as a Creative Director of the Rules and Lore team, and cited an example where he had to make the call on whether Centaurs should have pointed ears or rounded ears. After consulting previous artwork and seeing it was split in the middle, Luis decided that Centaurs will have rounded ears. That way, it's one less detail artists will have to worry about.
The freelancers working on Divine Mysteries didn't know about Gorum's death! Gorum was put in the outline, and Luis assigned Gorum to himself to help keep the scent off the trail. Only the freelancer working on Arazni's section knew about Gorum's death ahead of the announcement, due to Arazni's promotion to the Core 20.
Luis was asked why archetypes aren't playtested like classes are, and Luis answered that the designers know how to make archetypes due to their knowledge of how classes work, and generally archetypes don't have brand new tech in them that warrants playtesting like that of class playtests (Commanders' Tactics and Exemplars' Ikons being stated as a new tech that needed testing). Also, classes are the thing players are most likely to interact with. Most of the time, you're not getting an archetype at Level 1 (obvious exceptions not-withstanding). But classes are, and so classes need to be put through the paces the most.
Another reason too is, if every archetype needed to be playtested, they would either not be able to put out as many books as they are currently, or they'd have to release far fewer archetypes due to how long the playtest process works. If they needed to playest the archetypes in the APG, they'd only have 5 or 6 archetypes at most, instead of the 40 archetypes we did get.
"Which lore books are you doing for the foreseeable future?" Can't talk about that since they aren't announced, but regional books are a safe bet! Aside from that, just know that the people assigned to future books are assigned to them because they are excited to be leading/writing them, and that should hopefully come through in reading the books in the future.
The word "Bloodrager" is gonna be spoken at PaizoCon. Such a tease!
The Battle Harbinger in Lost Omens: Divine Mysteries is gonna have their spellcasting diminished a bit and have their Divine Font change significantly in order for them to gain new, interesting combat abilities to allow them into the frontlines (or engaging more directly) more so than Warpriests already do. Doing so as a class archetype, they aren't restricted by the small wiggle room of the Cleric's doctrines. Luis dropped the fact they will have "Battle Auras", and left it at that!
Luis answered several of my submitted questions! The first one is in regards to info about Apsu and Dahak. Apsu and Dahak are getting entries in Divine Mysteries, and they are still around. Their story is getting changed and retcon'd, due to the OGL situation. But it's also being expanded! Dahak is gonna have other siblings, so the idea of more Dragon gods are being teased out in Divine Mysteries.
An interesting detail that's not getting talked in full quite yet is about Apsu and Dahak's granted spells for Clerics. Typically, unless they're a god like Nethys or Abraxas who are all about being tied into magic, most gods only grant 3 spells to Clerics. But Dahak and Apsu are "setting a particular and unique standard that's tied to them specifically" in that both will have 4 granted spells each. It'll make sense when you see it, but they'll have that extra 4th spell that they share that is setting up this common theme.
Luis mentions, as a comparison, themes that come up with the gods that people might not be aware of that have come up in development for them. The example he gives is Mzali and the three sun gods. He decided, in development, that they each grant the Zeal domain due to how all three of them have such enthusiasm and drive to them. So they not only share their connection to the sun, but they also all have the Zeal domain. So Apsu/Dahak will be further connected by the spells they grant, as an additional way to associate them with each other.
Next, Luis talked about when content outside of the Core 4 books will see about being Remastered. When it makes sense to bring something forward, they will (like how they're Remastering all of the domains in Divine Mysteries). But he feels like they've done a good job overall with keeping the game compatible with the previous content, sanctification and wizard schools being the most egregious changes. They're gonna address the most glaring things that need adjustment, but he asks to not expect them to go back and adjust every single thing to the Remaster. As the large amount of time it'd take to Remaster 4-5 years of content, it would mean next-to-no time left to create new material.
As an example for the above with bringing forward old content into the Remaster, there'll be updated Witch patrons in Lost Omens: Divine Mysteries, and Baba Yaga's entry the one that was specifically called out! (Eze Note: that'd just leave Mosquito Witch and Pact Patrons left to update to the Remaster, so I wonder if one or both of them will be coming forward as well?)
Luis does encourage this: If there's something that needs to be updated and you want it to be done, he recommends letting them know so they can assess that and find the time and space to get those issues looked at and addressed. Also, it might take time for those opportunities to publish these things to happen! Some might even be happening right now, but until it's announced or published, people just need to be patient and wait for the books to come out.
Someone asked about the Ysoki Tailblade being in the game? Luis doesn't know! He does know there's ancestry weapons in PC2, and of course Ratfolk are in PC2 as well, but he honestly does not know if it's in there. The same person asked about new ancestry weapons in general later. Luis couldn't say for sure there was new ones, and didn't want to get people's hopes up by making a mistake remembering which ones are new or not.
"Who does Arazni have a weird bond with?" In Arazni's entry in Lost Omens: Divine Mysteries, it's confirmed she will have a Herald! Luis wouldn't say who they are. She will have a shared history of trauma with them, and it's said Arazni will be learning to trust others a little bit to explain why she now has a herald (in addition to her needing a herald now that she's a Core 20 god!).
Another of my questions is answered! I asked if Luis was excited that Wrestler is in Player Core 2, and he of course said yes! He's not sure if it's been expanded at all (he joked Mike Sayre might declare it's perfect the way it is, lmao), but he's glad it's in the Core book now for more people to look at.
Luis' favorite player options in Tian Xia Character Guide is some of the new Magus stuff coming, but he doesn't elaborate further as he feels that TXCG is more so James Case and Eleanor Ferron's baby, and they should be the ones to talk about all that's in that book. He's also excited with some of the new ancestry stuff, especially the Yaoguai!
"Has there been anything as a Creative Director that you wanted to change or add, but you weren't able to?" Luis, and maybe other people might have this feeling as well, feels that maybe the timeline for Golarion didn't need to go back 10,000 years. A ton of stuff has changed just within the past 2024 years, so to conceive 10,000 years of history without as much change stretching the suspension of disbelief quite a bit. Obviously there's fantasy tropes of long histories, but sometimes it complicates some matters.
Final question I asked got answered, which was if Luis has helped out the Starfinder team with stuff in regards to the lore, especially considering SF2E is gonna be 100% compatible with PF2E. I also mentioned knowing they both have separate continuities, but wondered if there was still some collaboration there. Luis said yeah, he does. He, James Jacobs and Thurston Hillman (hi Thursty!), the three Creative Directors, get into weekly meetings with each other to discuss what each side in the Pathfinder rules, Pathfinder adventures, and Starfinder teams are all doing. The two games try not to do the same kinds of stories at the same time, like not wanting them to tell a Runelords story that's exactly like Return of the Runelords. Likewise, Starfinder probably won't be killing any of their gods right after War of Immortals comes out.
Although they try to keep the timelines separate, everyone still keeps in touch in order to make sure they aren't breaking each others' toys and keep at least some kind of connection between the two games. And there's an interest in crossover potential, too! So maybe there's a desire for things to line up, regardless. And we'll likely see some of these developments in the coming years!
And the final question is about whether frog-centric content is coming to PF2E! Luis mentions the Tripkee (new name of the Grippli) being in Player Core 2, and since they'll have a bit more space in PC2 compared to before, they'll be expanded a little bit.
Finally, Luis leaves us with this. He's teased enough about Divine Mysteries in today's stream, but he's sure to tease a little bit more during the Keynote at PaizoCon this coming weekend, and if you end up liking that tease, then you should show up during the Godsrain panel that same day so he can talk some more about what is in Divine Mysteries and show off some of the cool art in that book.
And that's all the spoilers said during the interview! Next post will be all of the spoilers I'll collect in the Discord Events server during PaizoCon! If you got questions you wanna ask, feel free to let me know (preferably via DMs here). I'll try to ask as many as I can during the entire weekend. Until next time!

Hi everyone, I feel like I'm at an intersection in my LSAT studying journey and I need some advice!
So before we start here are some facts: 1- I only started studying for the LAST in the last 3 months. 2- English is my second language. 3- My undergrad was very technical & quantitative.
So early February I took a diagnostic test and scored 143. I tried to follow Khan Academy's curriculum, but it didn't feel structured enough for me, so I switched to 7Sage about two months ago. On average I'm putting around 8 hours a week into LSAT studying, and I'm planning to write the LSAT in August. My goal (although might be ambitious) is to score at least 170.
Two weeks into 7Sage and after I finished the foundation module, I took another PT and scored 149 & BR 151. Two weeks later, I was about 30% through the LR module, I took another PT and scored 156 and BR 158. This last weekend, I was a little over 60% through the LR module, I scored 153 and BR 162.
In RC, I'm facing the same issue as everyone else, TIME! I consistently find myself with only 1 min left for passage #4. However, for the three passages that I actually have enough time to read through. I'm scoring fairly well (I think). For example, in my last PT I got 16 questions right and only 3 wrong, that's for the first three passages in the first RC section, and these are fairly consistent with the results of the other RC sections.
In LR, I find myself running out of time but because I know I have a terrible time management strategy of skipping harder questions so I end up spending 3+ mins on one question, and then do not have time for the last 5 question in that section that I think I would have gotten, at least some of them right. Additionally, I found myself getting stagnant in my LR progress in the last few weeks.
My questions are: 1- Would it be wise to stop studying for LR for a bit and focus on RC? My reasoning is that I think there's a big room for improving my RC skills (considering I've never studied for it), and even a marginal improvement would boost my score by a few points. Also, I'm hoping that a break from LR might help me get a fresh perspective when I return to it after two weeks.
2- Considering my tight timeline to write the LSAT, I was thinking of getting private tutoring in about a month from now to hopefully help me boost my score, do you think that's worth it? From the people who did get private tutors, how was your experience?
3- Are my numbers good considering all the facts mentioned above? Is 170 an attainable goal for me? I know I need to improve my studying strategy and I need to put in more hours drilling and not just going through the curriculum. The question is, by how much do I need to increase the number of weekly studying hours in order to get to 170 by August?

Hi y'all. I've been lurking for a while now, reading a lot of other people's experiences and wondering how (or if) I relate. For context: I'm 23, post-transition and nonbinary (they/them), and I have been in therapy throughout my life for PTSD, C-PTSD, depression, anxiety, sleep disorders, EDs, and am seeking autism and OCD diagnoses currently. I keep getting hung up on the childhood trauma and dissociative amnesia aspects of OSDD and DID, and asking myself if the things I'm hearing in my head are "normal" voices or something I should be concerned about... I don't remember anything horrible happening to me before the age of 6, at least not something that would spiral into the symptoms of trauma I had growing up. I was abused and in multiple inescapable abusive situations throughout my childhood, but as far as I know, nothing before I was 10/11. I've dated people with OSDD and DID before and many of my friends have it, and always have, which is a pattern I didn't realize meant something until recently. All that is to say, I'm no stranger to what this can look like from an outsider's POV, which is what has made it hard to process on the inside.
About a week ago, I had an experience that is really hard to deny. For several months now, my stress levels have been building and my outlets and coping methods have been failing me. I really needed to decompress, but work and life was so stressful and overwhelming that I didn't have the time, energy, and privacy I needed to do so. My partner promised to help me relax by taking care of things for a night, but the day that was supposed to happen they blew up on me instead and I spent the entire day (already drained and running on empty) panicking and dissociating heavily while I tried to fix things. I ended up having two meltdowns, a panic attack, and diverted my brainpower to trying to help them instead of myself. I spent the weekend in a haze, and by the time I did get some time to decompress, it was too little too late. Before and following this in more severity, I was dissociating heavily, experiencing headfog that was at times debilitating, and literally forgot how to drive. It was a terrifying experience being behind the wheel and suddenly not knowing what I was doing. I had three experiences like that in a couple weeks, where I just could not drive, and no matter how hard I tried to check my peripherals I was still turning into oncoming traffic that felt like it had appeared out of nowhere. After one of these experiences, I swapped out with my partner and had a massive flashback, something I don't experience often. I began to realize that I was being triggered by my (normally very healthy) relationship, which is very distressing because I love my partner and they would never hurt me like my abusers did.
I knew my mind was falling apart, and I was terrified. I have always felt so in control, so self-aware, but suddenly I don't recognize myself, my thoughts, my feelings. I don't know how to act, what I'm meant to say at work or to my family/friends. I no longer know how to act "normal" most of the time, and that's so scary to me. I tried to take some time to rest last week, but then an unexpected family emergency threw those plans out the window, and I spent a few days (again, running on empty, dissociated, and burnt out to the point where I could no longer emote) in the ICU taking care of my partner and their family through a horrible time. My bank account info was also stolen during this time and all my money was drained. It was just one thing after another, and I was also grappling with the start of a new job that I wasn't fully trained for before my trainer disappeared. There was too much going on all at once, and I didn't know how I was still pushing through despite it all while I had already been struggling for weeks, months, with a serious mental health crisis that I had no help for.
Then on Sunday, we were going to a Mother's Day event and I was panicking again. I knew I had to pull myself together, because I had to go. I had no choice. I was spiraling, dissociating, and then I clicked on a link and when I came to awareness again on that webpage, I had forgotten how I'd gotten there. I felt completely different -- I was calm, the anxiety and rising nausea was gone. But it wasn't a mask, because there is no way I had the energy left for something like that, and it would have been intentional. It just felt like something had snapped, or clicked back into place, and suddenly I was confident and calm and I was able to get through the event with no issues. I was still somewhat spacey, but the emotional turmoil had vanished.
This was the first time I ever noticed such a thing happening to me, and I couldn't just let it slide. So I poked at my brain and kept thinking it over and a few days later, late at night, I started dissociating heavily again. Like vision going black at the edges and brain extremely loud dissociation. And that's when I finally heard it, or tuned in I guess? Growing up, I have always had music playing in my head 24/7, and I just thought that was somewhat normal. I had spent my teen years pacing and talking to myself, brainstorming solo, unable to sleep without medication because my brain was "too loud" and my thoughts raced. It had always been attributed to anxiety, but a few nights ago, I became aware of the voices in their entirety. As separate entities I could not control, or at least, I can't figure out definitely if they're real or imagined yet.
Now I'm torn. I don't know if what I'm experiencing is DID/OSDD or some kind of psychotic break. I don't know if I have control over the voices or if they're acting independently. Nothing I can do proves or disproves this to me. I've been thinking it over, and also trying to ignore it to see if they'll go away on their own (or continue to speak on their own too). I've gone to bed feeling like I'm making it all up and that tomorrow I will not think about the voices, only to wake up to them already talking in my head. I've had conversations internally and externally with them, journaled, tried to figure it out, and I'm coming up empty. I switch between believing I am experiencing OSDD/DID symptoms, believing I'm fine, and believing I'm going through a rough combination of OCD/PTSD/Autism symptoms. The thing that plagues me most though is not knowing what to do.
I'm going to meet with my therapist tomorrow and try to talk to her about it -- I've written up a log and a timeline with much difficulty so I can't forget what I need to tell her during our session (I am prone to this). My memory of the last month is horrible, and I was spacing out badly while trying to recall what had happened day to day for that timeline. I'm worried my therapist won't believe me, or she won't know what to do, or I will have to find a new therapist (it took all my spoons to get this one, it literally took months). I keep cycling through panic stages because I have no idea what to do. I think I've started to remember some early childhood trauma, and it scares me because if it's true, it's a very close family member. I just know that whatever happens, I can't bury my head in the sand again. My brain won't let me, even though it's been my sole coping method my whole life. Living day by day and never looking back, because my memory is a void. My partner says they don't think I have OSDD/DID because I don't have overt symptoms, but isn't that the point? I never would have entertained the idea myself until this week, and now I can't shake the symptoms I've come to recognize internally and externally.
I work four very demanding jobs to make ends meet, and I still don't make enough money to get above the poverty line. I can't afford to lose my jobs, but none of them allow time off. I might be able to work extra hard for a few weeks and scrape together a few days off, and then I could go get help if I need it. But I can't afford to go to a hospital, and I don't think they'd be able to do much for me either. It just doesn't feel like seeing a therapist online once a week is enough right now. I don't have support as my partner is going through a rough time as well, and I feel horrible that I'm unable to do my best job of taking care of them. I feel like I need to hurry up and get better so I can be a good partner, do my jobs, plan my upcoming wedding, etc. etc. etc. I don't feel like I have the time to fall apart or have a mental health crisis, and I'm not sure when I will have that time. I feel responsible for everything all the time, and like I can never catch a break, and that that is my role. To have my shit together so others can lean on me for support. Now that I need help, I feel very alone and like I have no right to seek any. I struggle to talk about what I'm going through and my thoughts/feelings with others already, but now my brain is so scrambled I can barely put things into words at all verbally. I've reread this whole post ten times already, and it is going to be a fight to go through with posting it even though I'm anon here. I just feel horribly guilty for burdening others with the weight of my own problems. I should be strong enough to deal with them all on my own, shouldn't I?
I'm just waiting for the other shoe to drop, I guess. I keep hearing "if you don't schedule time to take care of yourself, your body/brain will do it for you" but I don't know how it can get any worse than it is. And this is... manageable right now. Barely. I know I'm failing at caring of myself, but I just don't see how outside intervention could do anything more for me. There's a horrible desire in me though, that wants to see what would happen if I just keep trying to push through like I always do. I don't have blackouts, but if there's anything that would prove to me that I do have DID/OSDD, it would be that. The greyouts and dissociative memory loss and voices and other symptoms aren't enough, they aren't definitive, and I feel like I must be tricking myself into having them. Or blowing things out of proportion, or they're due to anxiety or panic or something other than DID/OSDD. I just don't know what to do, and even though talking with my therapist is a good start, it's just that. A start. And I am terrified of facing another week between meetings where things will spiral and get worse with no solutions, coping methods, or answers for what's going on with me.
Sorry. I know this is a lot. TLDR: I think I might be hearing voices. I think I might have always been hearing voices but there was a mental barrier preventing my full awareness of them. Now I don't know what to do, whether I need serious help or not, and where to go from here. Your commiseration and/or advice would be greatly appreciated. Thank you so much for reading all this nonsense.

33F, 5'10" & 145lbs, on 30mg of Lexapro for anxiety/depression, .5mg Ativan (very rarely), Yaz birth control, and Famotidine for reflux.
Hi there! I'm getting frustrated and a tad desperate here, and my doctors seem to be shrugging me off at this point. Let me try to be concise with a brief timeline.
Late June 2023 - I began experiencing what I am now 99% sure were severe reflux symptoms, since they stopped abruptly when I began taking Famotidine (sensation of being strangled, which escalated to a full-body general malaise, fatigue, chest pressure, clenching pain in the neck/throat, tongue fatigue, swallowing discomfort & pain)... lots of very scary things). I didn't know what was going on & went to my PCP. he ordered a thyroid ultrasound & I it uncovered two nodules, one labeled "moderately suspicious." this scared the hell out of me & my doctor didn't contact me to explain that it wasn't a big deal for more than two weeks. during this time I convinced myself I had thyroid cancer (I historically suffer from pretty severe anxiety) and my reflux symptoms worsened.
August 3rd 2023 - I decided to get back on an SSRI because of the anxiety I had been experiencing, so I contacted my psychiatrist and they put me back on a med that had worked in the past, Trintellix. I took a 5mg dose around dinnertime, but that night around 1:30am I woke abruptly with the first and only panic attack I've ever had. I started uncontrollably shaking, my heart raced, and my mind was 100% dominated by the certainty that my death was imminent.
After this, I stopped being able to sleep or eat properly. I lost about 20lbs very quickly (from about 145 to 125) and gradually developed a ton of new symptoms - left leg pain, particularly when sitting, seemingly originating from my glute/pelvic area; right shoulder pain that radiated down the whole arm on the outer side; a sensation of partial numbness without pins & needles in my left foot; and full-body muscle fasciculations. I would have these episodes where I'd begin tremoring, usually later in the afternoon, sometimes just my legs but sometimes my whole body.
for almost 2 months (August to the end of September) I was going days without sleeping, barely eating, and borderline catatonic when I wasn't crying. I took an extended leave from work and my brother essentially had to take care of me. I became convinced I was dying, particularly after I Googled muscle twitching. I went to many doctor's appointments and I had MANY tests done in the coming months, including: a limb EMG in September (100% unremarkable), a 2nd EMG in December (also 100% unremarkable), a brain MRI and later a c-spine MRI (former was clear, latter showed mild arthritic changes & mild stenosis), a laryngoscopy followed by a barium swallow study (redness, but normal swallowing), many blood tests from rheumatology, neurology, and my PCP, x-rays, ultrasounds... all clear. I can provide the specific findings if someone actually decides to try to help my sorry ass out.
Throughout all of this, I was experiencing very strong pain that was escalating in how constant it was. initially it flared up throughout the day and was at its worst in the evenings. at times it would seem very nerve-based, a shooting pain that would travel down my leg or arm from my shouldeglute and curl my toes/fingers. I finally started reflux meds in like... February and eliminated those symptoms, but the pain and twitching remained.
Now, in May of 2024, I am in almost constant pain every day. I am so tired of living like this. My right forearm and elbow region has been experiencing burning and sometimes cold sensations for a few weeks now, and I'm becoming paranoid that there is a new dent in the muscle in my inner arm where the burning is the worst, though I do not know if it was always there or not. my hypothenar muscle on my right also hurts almost 24/7. my left leg has begun tightening up (it isn't physically tensing and it's completely flexible, but it FEELS tight, like an overfilled water balloon). I've been in physical therapy for about 2 months and working on the arm and leg and nothing is happening. I have a neuro follow-up on 5/24 and another around the 1-year symptom mark (8/9), but I don't know what to think. I just know that my quality of life is massively depleted, I'm exhausted, and I just want to be active again without worrying that it'll put me out of commission (I like to hike & the last time I did, I hiked 8 miles & couldn't sleep because of the leg pain and tightness).
If anyone could give me SOME avenue to pursue, I would be so grateful. I am lost here, and things seem to be worsening. It is scary! I can answer any questions to clarify.

Title explanation: Mango's bloodwork came back. Mango has liver disease. They don't know what the lump is, but Jess thinks it's cancer. The vet suggested medications and a liquid diet with 1-2 bugs a week. Jess did that but Mango was so unhappy that Jess stopped the medications and all vet visits. Jess is still following the liquid diet. Jess is letting nature run its course.
Something super exciting is happening right now. Honey is getting groomed for the first time. Jess is really nervous about it. Honey is so big. She is almost 6 months old. Jess doesn’t know whether to put Honey on a leash. Chris thinks it is okay to just walk her outside. (It is a mobile groomer.)
It is an hour later, and Honey is still being groomed. Jess has no idea how long it takes to groom a dog. This is Jess’s first experience with dog grooming. This is also Honey’s first time being groomed so they have a lot of work to do. Initially Jess wanted Honey’s coat medium length but halfway through the groomer recommended to go shorter to have more of an even coat. So now they are going to go short which means a pretty drastic change. It is summer weather so Jess thinks it will be good and it will grow back if they hate it. Jess is scared to see how far they got. (Oh my gosh they totally shaved that poor dog down. No way is that a short coat. That is like totally shaved.)
Jess really likes Honey’s coat. It looks nice to her. Honey’s coat is soft. Honey looks like a different dog. (Yeah, because you shaved her down! That is not a “short coat.” that is a total shave down.) Honey hated it.
Honey looks like a different dog. Jess doesn’t recognize her. Jess isn’t sure how she feels about it. She needs to get used to it. It will take a few days for Jess to get used to Honey’s new look. Jess doesn’t know what she likes on Honey vs what she doesn’t like. Jess does like how the tail looks. The groomers did a great job with the cut. Jess will see if this is the style they end up with. It is a really big change. Honey looks so scrawny now. Honey had so much fur on her so she will be more comfortable now. Jess thinks it will take a while to get used to it.
The kids are about to be home from school. Jess can’t wait to see what they think. Jess thinks they will be shocked. Not all of the kids knew Honey was getting a haircut.
It took 3 hours to do it. Addie thinks Honey looks cute. Kaden liked it better when Honey was puffy. Kyson is glad Honey can see. That was exactly Jess’s thoughts. Jess liked it better fluffy, but she is glad Honey can see. Landen is confused on why Honey is so soft now. Kyson wants to know how long it will take to grow back. It will take 2 months. Kyson asked if Honey was good during her groom. Honey was pretty good but hated her face being cut.
Lilia thinks it’s different but cute. Addie also thinks it's different. Lilia misses the fluffiness but that it is cute. Jess also misses the fluffiness. Lilia is glad Honey is more comfortable. Jess is also glad.
It is the hottest day of the year. Addie got home and changed into her swimsuit. Mother's Day is in a couple days and the kids all came home with Mother's Day gifts. Usually, they give them to her on Friday, but this year Jess told them to wait until Mother's Day so Jess can get a Mother's Day morning. However, Addie is pretty eager and wants to give it to Jess today. In the meantime, for Mother's Day they are having a very laid-back pool party. Jess is so excited. She got a bunch of stuff for the pool. It is about to be pool season. Jess came up with the idea that with Mother's Day being all about mothers she wanted to do a barbie themed Mother's Day pool party. Jess isn’t going all out with the barbie theme. It is going to be Barbie inspired with a pink theme. Jess found a pool float on amazon. It is so cute for Mother's Day.
Projects for Chris arrived. Lilia is going to her friend’s house for a sleepover. Jess changed into the cutest bathing suit. She will change back into it when she gets home. She got the bathing suit for summer. It is pink themed for Mother's Day. Jess loves it. Jess, Addie and Lilia are going to go on a girl's trip across town. They have to stop at Target to get a gift for a birthday get together. Jess also needs to get a few things at target as well.
They stopped at Target to get a few different things not only for this weekend but also because Kyson is really upset about his knee injury, so Jess is going to surprise him with a teen care package. Kaden and Landen have games tomorrow and Kyson can’t play his last game. In addition to that they are going to get a few things for Mother's Day which is actually getting a few things for Addie for Mother's Day because of the barbie themed party. There are no pool party barbies.
Honey is going crazy with the zoomies. It is going to take a minute for Jess to get used to the haircut. Honey just looks so scrawny. Chris thinks it's because she is still 6 months old. (Well, you did get honey from a backyard breeder. So just maybe that might be the cause of the scrawniness.) Jess thinks Honey looks like a stray you find in a back alley. (Well, that’s kind of what you did. It's not like you got her from a reputable breeder. What kind of reputable breeder posts puppies for sale on the side of the road? Of course, Honey is going to look scrawny.) Jess hopes it will look better when Honey fills out a little more.
Making smores is Jess’s favorite way to end the night. (Oh my gosh Tommy looks way different. I didn’t even recognize him.)
Jess has a Mango update. Jess finally got the call from Mango’s vet’s office. Mango has been sick. It started with a lump on his head and now it has spread to the front of his head. His whole eye puffed up and got swollen for a while. His eye is looking better. They now have an idea of what is going on. Jess brought Mango to the emergency room several times. It was initially for the lump then it was because Mango was acting weird. For a while Mango was extremely uncomfortable. Mango has received lots of medications. They did blood work. They were waiting on the results to come back. The Lady was very thorough with explaining it all. Jess took a lot of notes. All of Mango’s levels checked out except 2 things which were his liver and his cholesterol. His cholesterol was a little on the low side but nothing crazy. His liver levels were completely whack. Mango has liver disease. His low cholesterol confirms that. Mango’s liver isn’t doing what it is supposed to, which means that his liver isn’t doing super well. Cancer cannot be ruled out. They wouldn’t know if it is unless they did more testing. More testing isn’t necessary. There is no solution. Mango is old and they are contributing his health issues to that. They don’t know his age. When they got Mango, he was a full-grown adult and severely malnourished. They got Mango from a reptile store which also doubled as a safe place to drop off reptiles who are no longer wanted or found. They have no idea what his early years looked like. All they know is that when they got him, he wasn’t in the best shape. That could potentially have something to do with it. When animals get old things start to not work anymore. That is what they are thinking. Their guesstimate age is at least 6. Age 7-8 is considered elderly. Mango could be 9. Once bearded dragons are fully grown there is no easy way to tell their age. Mango’s liver is not super happy. Several different things were suggested. Meds can be given which they did start doing. His diet should be changed because most bugs are higher in fat content. The vet wants Mango to be on a liquid diet with a certain brand of food and spoon fed. Mango can have 1-2 bugs twice a week. Bugs are Mango's happiness. Nothing is going to fix it. His liver is giving out. Initially they had been giving Mango meds and the meds made him really sick. He started throwing up and was extremely unhappy. The meds tasted really bad. After giving him meds for several days, spoon feeding him this new diet and watching him hate his life Jess decided to stop. Jess stopped the meds but not the diet. Jess is feeding him repashy. They spoon feed it to him. 2-3 days after Jess stopped the meds and all doctor visits things completely switched. Mango is not only active but happy. The medications are not going to change his age. At some point quality of life has to be considered over a few more years. Jess is letting Mango live his best life. The lump is potentially cancer. His liver is eventually going to stop working more and more. No amount of medication will reverse it. Jess decided to give Mango the best life possible. Mango is happy again. He is eating again; he isn’t throwing up and his beard isn’t black. Jess feels confident in the decision to take away the medications. Jess has been taking him outside more. When Jess stopped the medication Mango stopped throwing up. They don’t know what the lump is. Jess thinks it might be cancer. Jess decided to let nature take its course and give Mango the best life possible. They don’t know what this means regarding timeline. Mango could live another 2 years or another 2 weeks. Jess feels like this isn’t the end.

When I (24F) was 20 my father passed away very suddenly during covid. It was an extremely traumatic time, it happened in may of 2020 so beginning of COVID. My parents lived abroad so I had managed to fly to the country they lived in before borders shut, but my brother (35M) was stuck in the UK.
My grandma (father’s side) passed away 6 weeks ago before him from COVID. He went in to hospital for stent surgery but had a massive stroke and was in a coma for two weeks before passing away. It was just my mother and I dealing with the whole situation as my brother could not get into the country.
Since then, my mother and I are extremely close, I would say borderline co-dependent on my side. She is my best friend and biggest supporter and I genuinely cannot live without her. Since my brother is much older, far more independent and lives further away from us, I feel like I am closer to my mother than him.
Three years on from my father’s death, my mum finally got onto the dating apps. I was all for this as I know how left out she now feels with her ‘couple’ friends and deserves someone to go on adventures and have fun with. She started a relationship with a man in 2023. There were red flags from the start, and the first time I met him was a long weekend at home, the week before my final exams of university and also the anniversary of my dad’s death. The timing couldn’t be worse, and I absolutely hated the fact that he was in my house. At the end of the weekend I couldn’t hide my feelings and confided in my mum. She completely understood how I felt and regretted the way things happened.
Since then, I always had a bad feeling about him. I didn’t like spending time with him and hated it when she would go on and on about his life and his children. Eventually, things didn’t work out and I was happy for that. My mum was very concerned about how I felt. She couldn’t understand why I couldn’t be happy for her, and why I wouldn’t feel relieved that when I’m not around, she has someone to spend time with. I couldn’t put my finger on the reasoning, except for the horrible circumstances of how I had met her ex. I told her that in the future, when the situation is dealt with properly, things would be different.
6 months later, she has found a new love interest. He sounds nice and I can’t find any red flags, yet there’s still something inside me that hates it when she talks about him and their future together. She wants me to meet him soon, by going to his house and having him cook dinner for us. I know that this is the right way to do things, but I still do not know why I feel this way. It has been 4 years since my dad passed, I know there’s not a timeline for grief but it should be long enough for me to able to accept a new partner for my mum. I thought I didn’t like her ex because of the circumstances but I haven’t even met this one and still feel the same way. In my ideal scenario, she would have a boyfriend that she has fun with and travels with when I’m not around, but I would never have to meet him. I only want to spend time with her without him, like an out of site out of mind scenario. Why do I feel this way?? What can I do to get over it so I’m not in the way of my mums relationship???
If I said I didn’t like him, she would always pick me first, but i know it’s not fair. How do I find peace in this situation?? My brother is the complete opposite, he truly wants whatever makes mum happy and is more than willing to meet her partners.

Let's set the scene:
In this alternate universe, the Saiyan race from the Dragon Ball franchise exists in the Star Wars universe (primarily the Disney Canon), and is still ruled by King Vegeta on Planet Vegeta. Their power levels are scaled down to better match with the power levels of the Jedi and Sith. The saiyans would have a strong connection to the dark side of the Force, and they would still be planet conquerers, and sell them to the highest bidder after wiping out all life on said planet. This time however, the saiyans would be doing this under Emperor Palpatine's rule instead of Frieza's, during the years of the early rule of the Empire, years before the Battle Of Yavin.
Eventually, Palpatine, like Frieza in the original story of Dragon Ball, would come to realize that if the saiyans keep increasing their power in the Force, they could overthrow him, and would order for their extinction. Palpatine sends his apprentice, Darth Vader, to lead an army of stormtroopers to wipe out the saiyans, and one particular saiyan, Bardock, finds out about this, and he, alongside his wife, Gine, would attempt to send their young son, Kakarot (AKA Goku), away to another planet for him to be saved.
Vader would notice that Bardock and Gine were about to send Kakarot away, and before Kakarot could be sent, Vader kills Bardock and Gine, with a small amount of difficulty, since Bardock put up a fight. Right before Vader kills Bardock, Kakarot gets out of the escape pod he was in, and uses the Force to take Vader's lightsaber away from him, much to the shock of the dark lord of the sith. Bardock tells Kakarot to run, but Vader Force chokes him to death in front of his son.
Kakarot waves Vader's own lightsaber in front of him, with Vader crossing his arms at such a sight. As this is happening, an Imperial officer, along with 3 stormtroopers, arrive on the scene, and are about to kill Kakarot, but are killed by Vader as they fire upon the boy. After this, Vader walks over to Kakarot, and tells the child to come with him, as more will be here soon. This is where Vader will begin to raise Kakarot as his own son, training him in the ways of the Dark Side of the Force, and taking him as an apprentice to overthrow Palpatine. Of course, this is what he did to Galen Marek/Starkiller in Star Wars: The Force Unleashed in the Legends canon of Star Wars, and this is what has happened to Goku/Kakarot here as well.
How does Vader raising Kakarot as an apprentice affect the Star Wars timeline? How does the rest of this hypothetical scenario play out?

My ADHD has been terrible for the past month or so, like way more than usual. It’s especially been bad this week, & I’ve gotten almost nothing done for my job. Like literally, I haven’t been able to focus or put down my phone to save my life, even though my boss & I agreed on timelines for priority items this week & he called me out for it via email this morning (which I still haven’t answered). I think part of it is I don’t feel smart in my job because I literally have almost no idea what my colleagues are talking about even though I’m a top performer (see my profile for a post talking about this) so my anxiety is higher & I’ve been in a freeze, & part of it is that the fatigue & the brain fog are just so. Effing. Real right now. I’m just not motivated to do my job, because I don’t feel like doing work. I’m tired - eepy even! - and just want to nap, even though I know the reality is I need to get my work done, and I want to get it done.
The same thing goes for self-care this whole week - I’ve barely taken my non-ADHD medications or brushed my teeth this week, and I haven’t showered since Friday (thank GOODNESS I wfh most days). Uber Eats & Trader Joe’s snacks is all I’ve eaten this week. I was supposed to get some packing done for an upcoming move this week, and didn’t. My room looks terrible & I meant to go to the office today, & stay at my boyfriend’s place after work. But no… None of that happened. And my heart rate is sky high because I’m so anxious from doing nothing, or at least I think. At one point today I said to myself, “I’m so sick of feeling so terrible” - physically and mentally and I finally just was over it.
In trying to get out of my rut and set up a kickstart, I said F it, let me make a doctor’s appointment. “That way I can tell my boss I had a migraine yesterday which is why I didn’t work (which is true) & have an action plan in place to soften the blow and keep him from being annoyed,” I said to myself. So what did I do? I spent 15 minutes booking an appointment online with my GP, and explaining I want to see a new psychiatrist, endocrinologist (this referral was needed anyway) & dermatologist. And then I said you know what, I might as well make a dentist appointment too, I promised my boyfriend I would do it 2 months ago and I didn’t. So I freaking did that. And now? I’ve gotten 4 to-do list items done for my job!
I’m not sure how long this will last or if it’ll even work again, but WOW is the crawl/walk/run effect real. Who knows, I might even shower tonight!! In any case, I’m thrilled with today’s wins and hope I can keep capitalizing on them!

Tldr: A critical SYNDE coalition home hole is burned to the ground by HAWKS and hundreds of billions are lost or safelogged.

Starting Points

One of the more contentious elements of any major conflict is identifying when, precisely, it actually began. In EVE, as IRL, that is particularly challenging given the breadth of metagaming which takes place. Did the Wormhole War begin when SYNDE decided last summer that they wanted to replace HAWKS as the dominant high-class wormhole group and committed to making that a reality? Did it begin when they solidified their alliance with the Initiative? When they build their wormhole coalition? When they seeded HAWKS home with capitals? Any of those, had they been out in the open, would likely have triggered open hostilities. But those plans and the steps towards their ultimate objective were carefully and smartly hidden from view.
The widespread SYNDE coalition assault on HAWKS C5 and C6 holes began on March 24^th. With the information we now have available to us, the real start of the war was likely the eviction of Voidlings during the first week of March 2024. HAWKS and their future allies were almost certainly unaware of the significance of that eviction, but leaked internal SYNDE comms put truth to the notion that SYNDE viewed that as a critical first step in isolating and crippling HAWKS. It was, then, the first overt act of war by SYNDE – though its place in that broader campaign remained shrouded for several weeks.
Voidlings is a small to midsize wormhole group. A few years ago, they were a growing low class wormhole group living in a C2 with HS and C3 statics. In 2022, they moved into a new home, a C5 wormhole with a C5 static. For non-wormholers, nearly every high class PVP group lives in a C5 with a C5 static. C5 space is both where the majority of high class farms are. The abundance of C5 statics means that living on the “C5 Highway” is often the best route to all forms of high class pvp and pve content. Honor brawls also almost exclusively take place in C5 holes.
So Voidlings grew from a low-class group into a high-class group, and they continued recruiting in an effort to become one of the relevant high class PVP groups. Their zkillboard suggests they participated in most traditional high class activities – farming, feeding, fighting, evicting, ganking, skirmishing. It appears they were supported during this period of growth by one or more HAWKS members. As a result of this affiliation they were not approached by SYNDE during their coalition-building period. Instead, they were marked for pre-war eviction both to be a preliminary test of coalition coordination and also to eliminate a potential HAWKS ally. Isolating HAWKS was key to the entire war plan.
SYNDE began seeding the Voidlings home with dreads in Feb 2024, ultimately bringing in 6 to support their eviction. At the appropriate time, a robust joint fleet led by SYNDE but also including key coalition allies TURBO and Stay Feral infiltrated the Voidlings home hole, installed a staging POS and began their eviction. They diligently held hole control, adding another half-dozen capital ships to their arsenal over the next several hours. A Voidlings eviction seemed inevitable, as they simply lacked the manpower and experience needed to prevent a collection of wormhole groups that large from evicting them. As is often the case when a home hole is under threat of eviction, batphones rang out across wormhole space. HAWKS, NOVAC and SL0W answered the call for Voidlings. The future SYNDE coalition was on already on standby to support this eviction if necessary, as well as future neutral LUPUS. SYNDE had also secured a commitment from the Initiative to support should the need arise.
At first, it did not appears that the batphoning was likely to change anything. SYNDE maintained diligent hole control, not permitting either Voidlings or any allies from bringing in ships or pilots via the Voidlings static. HAWKS rage rolled from their home to get into the Voidlings home, but was unsuccessful.
For the non-wormholers, when you rage roll a C5 static in order to connect with a specific C5 wormhole, you have a 1 in 531 chance of getting connected to that specific hole with each rage roll. Rolling into a specific hole requires days of 24/7 rage rolling and even then the odds are against you. Wormhole groups really only engage in this level of commitment for really high-level situations, such as the historical eviction of HK’s home hole Rage back in 2018.
Midway through the eviction, however, a frig hole popped connecting the Voidlings home with Horde space. HAWKS, NOVAC and SL0W immediately burned in shuttles to that frig hole, and SYNDE was unable to stop the vast majority of them from jumping into the hole and docking in the besieged Voidlings fort.
Voidlings leadership distributed their home defense handout Ravens to their comrades and the stage was set for a glorious home eviction defense fight. SYNDE and friends had a large 100-ship Barghest fleet supported by nearly a dozen capitals (dreads/fax) while Voidlings and friends could field 100 cruise Ravens with FAX logi and nearly two dozen long-range dreads. Range control and capital placement was understood by both sides’ FCs to be critical to the outcome of the fight. SYNDE had a fleet advantage, but one that could be overcome. Unbeknownst to the Voidlings side, once the frig hole popped SYNDE leadership had invoked their war alliance with Initiative, The Initative pinged and mobilized a 200-man Tengu fleet, travelling quickly to the wormhole chain’s entrance. Jumping in, the Initiative fleet docked in a nearby SYNDE farm and waited.
As a critical citadel timer approached, SYNDE FC Cyrus Kurush fleet warped dreads to range the full Barghest comp along with them. Bubbles exploded all over the grid, aiming to stop the Voidlings defense fleet from warping to a good position. This was an effective stratagem, as SYNDE knew that the Voidlings defense fleet would rely on FAX logi – so pinging around grid was not a viable option. The Voidlings fleet needed a clean warp-in, to a position favorable for their cruise Ravens. The dreads began bashing the fortizar, forcing the Voidlings fleet to commit the fleet or watch their citadel burn. The Ravens and their FAX logi aligned and warped, accepting a mediocre initial position that would permit the SYNDE dreads to apply well. Once the FAX landed, the HAWKS FC leading the Voidlings fleet called for all dreads to undock, and they were warped in to support this all-in defense effort. Those dreads landed, activated siege modules, and began primarying the SYNDE dreads.
After one SYNDE dread exploded and another started taking damage, the trap was sprung. Reports on both comms noted that a 200-man tengu fleet was on dscan. Confusion turned into delight on SYNDE comms and resigned frustration on Voidlings comms as the Initiative fleet landed on grid and immediately began fragging Ravens. What might have been a closely-fought battle quickly turned into a complete rout. Voidlings was able to extract a small number of dreads – but the butcher’s toll was a heavy one. Voidlings – having supplied all the ships used by the defenders – lost the entire Raven fleet and nearly all the capitals, for a total of 327b lost against 1117b killed. https://br.evetools.org/related/31001880/202403020300
The remainder of the eviction proceeded to plan, and all Voidlings citadels were destroyed. SYNDE celebrated a successful test run of their broader vision and campaign. In recent leaks that cover the aftermath, SYNDE lead Cyrus Kurush noted that although SYNDE had shown they could take on HAWKS alone, they would take advantage of their massive alliance to simply speed the broader war goal of taking all the HAWKS high class farms and taking their rightful place atop a New Wormhole Oder.

Rallying Cries and Motivations

This leads to another critical element for how the war would unfold. Wars in EVE are won by motivated pilots first, and a war chest second. For some time, SYNDE and their primary allies had planted the seeds of resentment towards HAWKS among their members. This is not a challenging task, as most wormhole groups generally dislike each other to begin with. In casus belli discussions with HAWKS immediately prior to the war, and in coalition and leadership meetings with their side, SYNDE was fairly consistent about their war aims: take all HAWKS C6 farms, take HAWKS C5 farms, and take HAWKS home. Those farms were to be distributed to SYNDE and their allies, although the specifics were studiously avoided in discussions.
The leak of the SYNDE pre-war CTA gives real insight into members motivations going into the war. Typically, pre-war CTA meetings in EVE are full of hype, energy and enthusiasm. The Synde CTA, by contrast, seemed a much more pragmatic event. Members were concerned about their current farms, about the plan to deploy out of home and into a C6 staging, about working with blues, and about their ability to participate in NPSI fleets during the war. SYNDE lead Cyrus Kurush needed to make clear several times that the expectation was that even though many SYNDE members were also members of other LS and NS groups, they were expected to devote their full effort and focus to the upcoming war against HAWKS. It is almost impossible to take away from that CTA meeting anything other than a rather shocking lack of enthusiasm for the war from SYNDE line members.

The War in Heaven

On the other hand, HAWKS motivations were much easier to discern. This War presented an existential threat. In the eyes of the SYNDE coalition, HAWKS farms and home were both forfeit. Everything they had built over the preceding decade was destined for destruction. Isolated and outnumbered, this would be the ultimate test of HAWKS members’ commitment. The sudden and shocking rebirth of Hard Knocks was mirrored by a large number of longterm HAWKS members also resubbing.
Another critical and perhaps overlooked element of motivations on HAWKS side was the war vs peace element. Although “peace” in wormhole space is a decidedly violent affair in general, with pretty much every group killing every other group on a daily basis, it had been many years since there was a major, sustained conflict in wormhole space. Nullsec often differentiates between “Skirmish FCs” and “Strat FCs”, with the former leading normal day-to-day fleets of battlecruiser sized ships or smaller, and the latter leading the heavy fleets, cap fleets, super fleets or the sizeable, complicated fleets deployed in major conflicts. In the cartel world that is wormhole space, it might be more appropriate to differentiate between “Territory FCs” and “War FCs”. The former freely leads the wide range of fleets that fight, gank, camp and brawl throughout wormhole space on a daily basis. The latter wants to lead larger, more complicated fleets in direct support of a broader strategic initiative. In gaming as IRL, it is normal for highly skilled players to want to be challenged – and at some point, the normal day-to-day fights no longer satisfies those urges. In some cases, that leads to corps fading away (HK), in others, it leads to limited participation (many HAWKS members/FCs).
When this Wormhole War kicked off, it was promptly dubbed “The War in Heaven” by the HAWKS/HK side. This name refers directly to the biblical conflict between two rival groups of Angels – that led by Michael, and that led by Satan. Revelation 12:7-10:

7 Then war broke out in heaven. Michael and his angels fought against the dragon, and the dragon and his angels fought back. 8 But he was not strong enough, and they lost their place in heaven. 9 The great dragon was hurled down—that ancient serpent called the devil, or Satan, who leads the whole world astray. He was hurled to the earth, and his angels with him.

It is not particularly challenging to figure out which side HAWKS was associating themselves with, given that the name of their CEO is Michael1995.
Perhaps more pragmatically, among members in both HAWKS and the reborn HK, this war was indeed a gift from Heaven above – a chance to dive into a massive, complicated campaign against a foe who was willing to violate wormhole norms in order to achieve their goals. During the first two weeks when HAWKS farms were burning, there is a sense that many of the HAWKS and HK leads were genuinely giddy about the opportunity to take the field and leverage all their accumulated skills, knowledge and experience against an increasingly-reviled opponent. Yes, things looked dire from the outside but internally, there was a mixture of enthusiasm and cautious optimism.

Headshots and Flipping

During normal wormhole fights, both brawls and skirmishes, it is generally considered poor form to headshot the other side’s FC. It happens sometimes, but is definitely looked down upon in the wormhole community. This is the sort of norm that disappears in the context of a large war, or any sort of existential threat situation.
At the strategic level, “headshotting” generally refers to destroying or debilitating the other side’s capacity to fight by taking home holes or staging holes. This would be a key element in the HAWKS strategy, and one surprisingly absent from the SYNDE side. From the very first week, HAWKS looked to take advantage of any opportunity, however fleeting, to headshot SYNDE and their allies. The early ATRAX eviction was the first example of this. It would not be the last, not by a long shot.
Another key tactic is flipping. Not flipping as in changing sides, but rather flipping as in unanchoring and then re-anchoring an Upwell citadel. Recall that when a citadel dies in a wormhole, every pilot’s possessions that remain in that citadel drop as loot cans on the grid. 100% loot drop, 100% of the time. Over time, as pilots join and then leave a group, hangar containers accumulate. Over the years, in successful wormhole groups, this frozen hangar trash can reach into the tens or hundreds of billions. This can make evicting a wormhole resident or group an increasingly attractive over time. A hole that has been owned for a year will not have much loot drop. One owned for many years will likely have a great deal more.
Years ago, intrepid wormhole residents realized that a good way to counter this mechanic was to “flip” their citadels: unanchor, get all the AFG/left corp loot for yourself, then re-anchor. There is risk to this, but for a pvp corp that maintains hole control, the risk is quite minimal.
HAWKS had lived in their current home for nearly a decade. A large, successful group like HAWKS accumulates a large amount of hangar wealth over a period like that, much of it frozen as members AFG or leave corp. During the first week of the War, HAWKS recognized this large oversight and unanchored all the structures in their home hole. A neutral observer might have thought that HAWKS were self-evicting. Through their spy, SYNDE knew that they were planning to flip them and stay in the fight. Unwilling to entertain a HAWKS home eviction at this early stage in the war, SYNDE watched as HAWKS unanchored all their citadels and replaced them with a dozen newly anchored fortizars – and clearing their citadel grid of thousands of loot cans. A steady stream of DSTs transiting in and out of HAWKS home confirmed that wealth was quickly transferred out to kspace.
In that first week, by “flipping” their citadels, HAWKS eliminated the majority of the financial incentives that generally come with evicting a pvp corp’s home hole.

Seeding an Apple

During the period where HAWKS farms were burning and SYNDE was soaring, on Tuesday April 2^nd, HAWKS rolled into the SUGAR home hole. Some of SUGAR’s pvp toons were supporting SYNDE, some were farming, others were out participating in NPSI roams in kspace. Few of them were in their home hole. HAWKS sent in a bait RF fleet of a trio of Leshaks while at the same time pinging for a Nighthawk fleet. SUGAR panic pinged as the Leshaks began RFing one of the many citadels in their home. With confusion reigning, SUGAR undocked a kitchen sink fleet including armor and shield, capital and subcapital. Once SUGAR began engaging, HAWKS brought in their heavy shield fleet. HAWKS then began dismantling the haphazard SUGAR home defense fleet, as captured in the first 3 minutes of this video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9ZKgFPbSaLk
After fragging much of the SUGAR defenders, HAWKS proceeded to reinforce every citadel in the SUGAR home. SUGAR lost 35bn in ships in a one-sided fight. SYNDE was dismayed by the poor SUGAR showing. https://br.evetools.org/b66452e6803aec30012694316
Those structures all repaired over the coming week.
On April 12^th , HAWKS returned and again reinforced all SUGAR structures, this time with no opposition. Following that second round of reinforces, SUGAR pinged and directed its members to return to home and adopt a defensive posture with rigorous hole control to prevent a HAWKS return.
Many SUGAR members by this point were now opposing their corp’s direction. They certainly disliked HAWKS, but they had historically disliked SYNDE and their allies just as much. Joining them struck many members as a short-sighted, unwise adventure. They had actively participated in reinforcing and blowing up HAWKS structures, only to discover that SYNDE was most often dropping replacement citadels as they got cleared. SUGAR line members felt they were doing a lot of work for little or no benefit.
On April 13^th, HAWKS rolled into the SUGAR home hole for a third time – this time with amor timers only hours away. SUGAR immediately sought to roll that incoming wormhole, throwing yacht after yacht at it, as well as a lone praxis. They were able to crit the hole despite losing yachts every few passes.
Sigils are a common ship used most often by Nullsec farmers looking to roll wormholes that threaten their peaceful farming, These Sigils are referred to by wormholers almost universally as “suicide sigils”. The SUGAR FC directed his members to get into Sigils, undock, nullify, and warp to the hole. That hole needed to die. It needed to die now. “Even mains?” one member – Scott Appleblade - inquired. “Even mains,” replied the FC.
Scott hopped into the sigil, and warped to the hole, forgetting to nullify. He landed in the bubble, and was immediately fragged by the HAWKS on grid. https://zkillboard.com/kill/116986540/
Scott, now sitting in Jita, asked for a route back into his home. The FC replied they had no kspace entries at the minute. Scott asked if one could be found. The FC replied not now, quiet, we’re still dealing with this hole. Scott logged off, seething.
Scott had not wanted this war from the very start. Scott had recently upgrade from a Class 3 farm to a Class 5 farm of his own. Scott enjoyed farming combat sites in Leshaks and dreaming of a brighter future. Scott had always dreamed he might one day save up enough to afford a faction FAX: the Loggerhead. He knew they didn’t make much sense and were rarely used, but Scott loved the “Poggerhead” meme. Scott prided himself on his memes. He would often meet people and knew right away that they would become a meme. That was just life, but an elite meme could memorialize that. Scott just wanted to undock from his home fort in a Loggerhead and enjoy the moment. That seemed less and less likely now that the SUGAR home was being reinforced weekly. SUGAR leadership was either absent or, frankly, being dicks. Scott was over it. He had worked too hard. He deserved better. His fellow SUGAR members did, too.
Scott waited until later in the day when he was able to get a kspace entry for his main back into SUGAR’s home chain. He flew his inty in, still seething but with a plan for exacting revenge coalescing in Scott’s mind.
For the non-wormholers, it is important to explain that when you are a member of a wormhole corp, you have a lot more access to corp assets than you likely ever would in a Nullsec or Lowsec corp. Due to wormhole mechanics, wormhole corps almost always have a “Shared” corp hangar in each citadel where commonly used ships and modules are available to all members. This usually includes rolling ships, and handout pvp ships, among other things.
Scott docked in their home fort. He hesitated for a minute as he surveyed those familiar surroundings, but then the rage came back. He just wanted to farm, and now he might lose that. All because of SUGAR leadership. He knew his corp mates understood and would appreciate his actions. Scott proceeded to move everything in the SUGAR shared corp hangar to his personal hangar. He did a double take – he had just acquired over 30b of assets. That would go a long way towards a down payment on the Loggerhead if he could get that to a trade hub.
One good idea begets another, and Scott repackaged every assembled ship he had just taken. He then put the most valuable elements into his two DSTs. He shuttled those out to Jita and back, and then repeated the round trip several times. During the monotony of the transits, Scott realized that nobody – not leadership, not his corp mates – had noticed anything. Even though he was now much wealthier, SUGAR was still in need of a wakeup call.
As he warped to the next wormhole, it hit him – the bookmarks! This is another major difference between Nullsec / Lowsec and wormhole groups. In kspace, one can navigate very easily, or at least with confidence about where you’re going. In wormholes, one needs corp mates scanning wormholes and making bookmarks, basically a temporary map that wormhole pilots use to navigate the ever-changing wormhole landscape. All members need access to those bookmarks, and the ability to create, edit and delete them.
Scott deleted them. All of them. No more going to help SYNDE. No more warping your dread to a safe because HAWKS had bubbled the fort. No more finding your way back after getting rolled out. With no bookmarks, SUGAR would need to stop and consider where they were and why. Scott was pleased with the neat metaphor. At least he thought it was a metaphor. Might also be an analogy. He wasn’t sure, but he was sure it was brilliant.
His DSTs landed on the next hole and Scott jumped. It was then that Scott noticed he had no bookmarks in the next wormhole. That knowledge, combined with his decision not to fit probe launchers on either of his DSTs, was not a positive development. Scott, priding himself on his judgment, weighed his current situation against all he had achieved this evening – over 20b of ships and mods in Jita, and a powerful statement to SUGAR leadership. That was worth the loss of two DSTs that only had about 1.5B combined between them. Scott self-destructed the DSTs, returned to Jita, and went to bed contemplating a brighter future.

When Espionage Meets Opportunity

Prior to shutting the doors a few years ago, Hard Knocks had been regarded in the wormhole community as the top wormhole group for espionage. In a world where information is power, they have always had a remarkable abundance of critical information. Unlike HAWKS, HK was aware of the SYNDE plans and coalition building not long after they were conceived. As allies joined the SYNDE effort, HK sought to penetrate those groups. SUGAR accepted a key HK spy in January of this year. Over the next two months, this spy would quickly work his way up the SUGAR hierarchy, demonstrating strong FC and leadership abilities. When the war broke out, he was one of the main FCs. His background in HK and HAWKS affiliated groups was no concern for SUGAR leadership as they committed to the SYNDE coalition.
When Scott pilfered everything from SUGAR shared and deleted all bookmarks, the spy noticed both. He consulted with his HK mates and decided it might be a fantastic opportunity. The spy reached out to SUGAR directors and offered to do his part in resolving the matter – they needed to cut off access to Scott and his alts, they needed to do it 5 minutes ago and they needed to tighten things up. He knew how to do it, and he was happy to help. There was only one SUGAR director online. He was unsure of how to best resolve the Scott situation, so he called up the CEO on his cell. The CEO and director huddled up and agreed that their best FC was the man to fix it. They gave director roles to a spy who’d been in corp less than 3 months. During a war. A war against HAWKS and HK.
SUGAR members woke up the morning of Sunday April 14^th, logged on, and discovered that every one of the structures in their home hole had been transferred to an HK holding corp. Their implant sets were all gone. Every single one. They were unable to dock. Most of their combat pilots were not even in their home hole. What was in the SUGAR home was a massive HAWKS coalition fleet.
And NOVAC was in it.

Stay on the Sidelines and You Will Burn

SYNDE’s diplomatic efforts had been widespread for the months leading up to the Wormhole War. They had enlisted the support of both large wormhole groups and small in building their expansive anti-HAWKS coalition. Two of the biggest pvp groups in wormhole space had consistently declined their overtures: LUPUS and NOVAC. Strong, independent, brawling groups, they did not like HAWKS, but they also didn’t like SYNDE. In proper cartel fashion, they were not interested in helping either of those groups achieve more power or territory. Truth be told they wanted both sides to lose. Better to remain neutral and pick the best course at a later time.
SYNDE did not push much until the first two weeks of the war. During that first week of burning HAWKS farms, according to SYNDE lead Cyrus Kurush, 16 or 17 C6 farms were transferred from HAWKS to NOVAC. LUPUS was the beneficiary of a smaller number of HAWKS farms. It was clear that under the weight of the broad offensive, many HAWKS members had opted to sell their farms to neutral wormhole groups. In most cases, it was HAWKS members selling farms to long-term EVE friends in other wormhole groups.
Cyrus Kurush was livid. He had already earmarked every HAWKS C6, and now many of them seemed to be passing out of the war and into the hands of neutrals who continued to refuse to join his coalition. He directed his lead diplo Zelvig to reengage with NOVAC and clearly relay his message. Zelvig did so, informing NOVAC of two key things: one, further receipt of any HAWKS farm would be viewed as an act of war, and two, while NOVAC was welcome to remain a friendly neutral during this early part of the campaign, the C6s they had already received from HAWKS should be seen as being held in trust for the wormhole community. Following the now-inevitable HAWKS eviction and removal from high class space, NOVAC would have to settle their farm accounts with SYNDE. With his customary enthusiasm, Zelvig gave NOVAC a timeline for their decision to join the coalition: as soon as the last HAWKS C6 farm fell, SYNDE would turn to the NOVAC C6s unless they had already joined. Zelvig estimated that gave NOVAC 2 or 3 more weeks to make a decision.
NOVAC made their decision that night, informing HAWKS leadership that they would be joining the HAWKS side. They asked only that they have a week to get their group organized and prepared. At the end of that week, NOVAC joined HAWKS, HK, Voidlings, and 418 in infiltrating a Vulture fleet into SUGAR’s home hole.

Sugar Free: J104037 Bleeds and Falls

Two things happened from the jump: HAWKS took and held hole control in SUGAR’s home hole while infiltrating additional pilots, and SYNDE pinged hard to get their coalition members to consolidate in Waffle House, the C6 hole that they had made their staging at the start of the war. It was chosen due to its C6 static, which permitted SYNDE to roll into HAWKS C6 farms and reinforce then destroy them at will.
With the HAWKS fleet swelling in numbers with NOVAC’s addition to their alliance, they openly docked in SUGAR’s citadels – now owned by HK. SUGAR members could only watch in horror as the citadel showed more and more reds docking in their fortizar.
SYNDE began rage-rolling in earnest, hoping to connect to SUGAR’s home. Cyrus Kurush was eager to test the new coalition Cyclone Fleet Issue doctrine they had theorycrafted to counter the HAWKS Vuilture doctrine. He preferred their blaster Megathron Navy Issue doctrine, but that had proven ill-suited to deal with the Vultures in the earlier brawl in the HK staging C6.
As would happen often throughout this campaign, luck favored the bold. SYNDE rolled into SUGAR’s home at a high point for SYNDE fleet participation. SYNDE immediately jumped sabres into system and fully bubbled their “in” hole, giving them the time they needed to warp their entire fleet to the hole. They avoided a repeat of the prior fight where they were unable to get their entire fleet in due to poor hole control. The full SYNDE fleet jumped through the hole, rolling it as they sent in the full 3b+ in ship mass. All told, over 150 Cyclone Fleet Issues flooded into the SUGAR home, along with support. The HAWKS fleet undocked to reports of 20 dreads on dscan as the SYNDE fleet warped to the (former) SUGAR main fortizar. SUGAR members had logged on the caps they were still able to pilot – some undocked from that forts, others from deep safes in system. As the CFI fleet connected with the increasing dread bomb, siege modules were engaged and the battle was joined.
The fight was a back and forth affair for a short period before some aggressive FCing by the HAWKS/HK/NOVAC FC team forced the SYNDE fleet to extract. At that point, a dynamic unique to wormhole combat emerged. SYNDE, realizing they could not win on grid, focused on extracting as many SUGAR capitals as possible. They would scan the new static C5 connection – as would HAWKS – and then each would race subcap fleets to that new hole and contest it. If SYNDE was able to get there first and keep the hole clear of sabre bubbles, SUGAR would warp their capitals to that hole and jump 3 of them out. That would kill the hole, causing a new static wormhole to appear one minute later where the two sides could repeat the process. With each new static wormhole, SYNDE continued to feed ships and lose combat capability.
A highly comedic situation occurred on one such hole. HAWKS warped their lone rolling carrier to it blind. In so doing, they hoped to be able to jump the carrier and briefly assert hole control – preventing more than one SUGAR cap from getting out, and also giving the HAWKS fleet time to tackle the others. The carrier landed right after the SUGAR caps did – but in a critical communication gap, the SUGAR caps did not know which 3 were supposed to leave on this hole. SYNDE sabres bubbled up, but the carrier was already on the wormhole. It jumped the hole with its prop on. A clamor erupted on SYNDE comms as they awaited guidance about which cap, if any, should leave. The HAWKS rolling carrier burned untouched back to the hole on the other side. A SUGAR Moros Navy Issue, frustrated at the indecision, jumped anyway. Most of the time, that would have rolled the wormhole, trapping the Moros Navy and rolling carrier on the other side. Luckily for the HAWKS carrier, it was a high-mass hole. The wormhole went critical but did not close. The HAWKS rolling carrier jumped back.
The Moros Navy had extracted, but the remaining SUGAR caps were now sitting around the now-dead hole’s bookmark. Many began burning away and out of the bubbles from the SYNDE sabres who had tried to protect that hole. SYNDE FC Cyrus Kurush ordered his sabres to get off the hole and stop bubbling their dreads, and they did. Forgotten in the chaos and indecision, the HAWKS rolling carrier decloaked, aligned out, cycled prop and initiated wrap. It was immediately primaried by both dreads and the SYNDE CFI fleet. Chaotic calls to bubble the carrier were met with hesitation as those same sabres had only recently been told not to bubble. The carrier entered warp as the bubbles were deployed. The carrier pilot shared this video of the bold carrier roll and escape. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DDgzA8J6j44&t
The carrier escape from a heavily bubbled grid marked the final turning point in the SYNDE extraction efforts. HAWKS sabres flooded the grid, tackling most of the SUGAR caps. After more fighting, the SYNDE coalition CFIs extracted from the grid, leaving the caps to their fate. As the caps began exploding and with the HAWKS fleet committed to their destruction, the SYNDE subcap fleet left via the new static.
The final totals for that fight were 48b lost by the HAWKS side, 144b lost by the SYNDE coalition side. https://br.evetools.org/b6633f295132a2a0012c77eb6
SUGAR had extracted 4 dreads, but at a heavy price.

Blue Balls and Explosions

With the clock ticking on the armor and hull timers of the SUGAR structures, SYNDE tried to reset in their C6 staging. Again, they pinged for their coalition to reassemble in that system. Again, they began rolling. That process continued for many hours.
The following day, on April 15^th, SYNDE would roll into the SUGAR home not once but twice. Both times, SYNDE only had a partial CFI fleet docked in their fortizar while the HAWKS side maintained a full Vulture fleet ready to undock on a moment’s notice. The HAWKS, HK and NOVAC leadership team knew that this was a critical moment in the campaign, and every effort was made to complete the SUGAR eviction.
SYNDE rolled into SUGAR’s home twice on April 15^th. And they immediately rolled the connection both times.
SYNDE lead Cyrus Kurush was personally scanning and rolling. He knew exactly what HAWKS had on hand, knew he could not contest for hole control, and just rolled the connection off quietly. Twice.
Cyrus Kurush knew that the integrity of his coalition required him to make every effort to save a key member’s home hole – but he was also very frustrated by SUGAR’s lack of readiness to defend their home. He had expected a lot more caps, more ships, more support. He felt he had beaten the HAWKS fleet in that large initial brawl, and had been let down by SUGAR. He did not want to risk sacrificing another major loss for a group that could not stand on their own two feet.

The Initiative to Regain the Initiative

The SUGAR Fortizar hull timers were on Tuesday, April 16^th.
A key early-war HAWKS ally, a small EUTZ pvp group called Czarna-Kompania, had infiltrated two dreads overnight. Two other groups had brought in one each. That dread force would give HAWKS the flexibility of hitting concurrent hull timers. There were multiple structures that needed to get hit over a two hour period. The dreads would let the HAWKS side bash those citadels while also keeping their subcap fleet free to fight for and maintain hole control if at all possible.
Hours before those timers, disaster struck the HAWKS effort. An A009 wormhole connection popped into the SUGAR home.
For an eviction, the worst possible wormhole connection is an A009 wormhole. It is a 16-hour frigate-sized wormhole that connects to a shattered wormhole that will also have a number of frig holes connecting outward to kspace systems. Frig holes cannot be rolled.
This meant that for the time leading up to the critical hull timers, there would be an unrollable hole into the eviction target, into SUGAR’s home.
By this time, it was clear to all involved parties that SYNDE had a close partnership with the Initiative. Although this was fraying some of the wormhole groups in the coalition, it still afforded SYNDE a chance to salvage the situation. SYNDE lead Cyrus Kurush formed an attack plan with Initiative leadership. During the hours immediately prior to the hull timers, SYNDE would assemble a heavy fleet in their staging, and rage roll for the SUGAR home. The Initiative would form a full bomber fleet, and travel to the C13 shattered wormhole. The second that SYNDE rolled in, they would execute a lethal 3-pronged attack: the SYNDE fleet would explode into the SUGAR home, all remaining SUGAR capitals and subcapitals would undock, and the Initiative bomber fleet would jump the A009. They would time those 3 critical elements based on the location, strength and composition of the HAWKS fleet. It was a good plan. If they could connect those three prongs, they would have 3 times the number that HAWKS could muster. Pings went out and the fleets assembled. Init travelled with a 300 bomber fleet to the shattered hole. SYNDE began rage rolling. About 50 SUGAR pilots sat on logon screen and waited on SYNDE comms.
HAWKS was aware of all of the above. HAWKS, working closely with HK and NOVAC strategists, devised a counter for the two concerning prongs. The SYNDE rolling threat had two counters. Within the SYNDE staging, there was a small fleet of yachts and a seeded, cloaked rolling carrier. In the SUGAR home, another rolling carrier sat ready to suicide roll if needed. Should SYNDE warp their fleet from the fort to a new wormhole, HAWKS was prepared to simultaneously warp both carrier and yachts to that same hole. They were confident they could stop the majority of the SYNDE fleet from making it through the wormhole.
The real threat was the Initiative, and that damned frig hole. HAWKS placed three sniping fleets around the wormhole and dropped a massive number of anchorable bubbles around it. On the hole itself were a mixture of smartbombing battleships and suicide dictors, each orbiting patiently. When the report came of the 300 Initiative bombers entering the shattered hole on the other side, the HAWKS team was ready and waiting.
The Initiative FC team, with a scout already in SUGAR staging, saw all of this. War-seasoned FCs, there was no scenario where they were jumping their bombers into that future charnal house. Unless SYNDE could pull those fleets away from the hole, it was an impossible standoff. The HAWKS battlecruiser fleet could not jump the hole. The Initiative bombers would not jump the hole. The Initiative bombers sat there and waited for SYNDE to roll in.
Meanwhile, in SUGAR staging, citadels came out of reinforce for hull timers and the allied dreads went to work. And everyone else waited. The SYNDE fleet waited on their fort while their FC rage rolled. The Initiative fleet waited in the shattered. The HAWKS alliance fleet waited on the other side of the shattered. One by one, the citadels began blowing up.
The SYNDE fleet stood down. The Initiative left the shattered wormhole and headed back to Fountain. SYNDE had gotten the full Nullsec batphone allied response, but been unable to take advantage of it.
Unconfirmable reports are that the HAWKS alliance looted nearly 200b from the various structures, including a large number of capital ships, on top of the 150b+ exploded. https://br.evetools.org/b661f2a2eddb48200112d82c5 (The three “friendly” caps that were destroyed were looted SUGAR caps that the allies decided to blow up rather than keep and exfiltrate from the hole.)
Some SUGAR members would still try to participate, but SUGAR was done as a fighting unit in the Wormhole War.
The next part will focus on what would become the most important battlefield in the Wormhole War – Waffle House, the SYNDE coalition staging C6.

This is insanity. They’re putting the responsibility on us to file complaints while NOT offering any kind of solution or timeline. So we’re being both robbed and given a job to do for them.
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This is a story I've come up with my head for years It predates most things talked about so I've had to figure a way for it to fit in. This story was created basically to find a good way to blend Dbs with Naruto. There is a bit of a "timeline thing" but that will be explained and basically thrown away fairly early on. Also it starts a little overpowered but only due to the bigger things I started building up too. Also This is my first time "writing this down" and I'm not exactly a world class story teller so in ways this is more of a character.His name is Hachiman
This takes place in the Hidden Leaf Village but the current time is during Just before the 4th Great Ninja War. In this world The Kaguya clan has not yet gone extinct. A Prodigy child is born of the Kaguya Clan. A Rere Genetic Awakening has happened within the child's body Opening access to the Ötsutsuki genes within him of which being born with Byakugan and multiple charkra nature's are amongst a couple. His Ötsutsuki ability has the ability to manipulate time to a second difference Small but extremely reliable. Due to being such a a Prodigy at a young age as well as fascination with different Justu, as well as Frankly not being able to Beat or Captured he was Drafted into the Anbu. He shows hardly any emotion and Know's full well he can do what he wants to an extent but has no want for this as he Would rather just live peacefully and whatever brings him and everyone closer to peace he will due solemnly. He grows up with Hardly anybody but 1 girl named Kiriko (Kiri for short) In the middle of a mission The Hidden Stone attacks the Leaf! Hachiman hurry's back to the village quickly! Quickly he fends off quite an amount of Hidden Stone. A Shriek is heard in the distance! He rushes to Help! There he finds Kiriko with blood trickling the the hands of the enemy. Blind Rage awakens within Hachiman His Time related Kekkei genkai Erupts! White Surrounds the entire area it seems as if the world Is collapsed within it. When he comes to he awakes in a Forrest, "Where is the hidden leaf?" He thinks. Realizing his eyes have awakened Sharingan! Shinobi running through the Forrest stop him "Who are you they ask" As Hachiman looks up they meet eyes with the Sharingan. Immediately they attack! Hachiman defeats then. As he begins to walk around he notices the world and the chakra of the world itself is different? Eventually he stumbled into a camp and realizes this is an Original Uchiha Camp. He begins to ask questions blending in with the fact he has Sharingan they questioned nothing. He begins to put the pieces together His Kekkei genkai awakened and Swalllowed Him in time, He himself has Time traveled to before the Villages had begun. Thinking back in history eventually he works under the Uchiha but with minimal Killing as to protect time from being distorted and making an impact that never happened. As time continues he meets Madara Uchiha and studies him from the shadows Observing and Copying his every move. Hachiman learns his Sharingan's ability is able to Save and copy other Sharingan Formation (allowing Amaterasu, etc) Later he again Stay's in the shadows and does the same with the Tobirama. As time moves on he realizes he does not age anymore. He begins to not fully understand his situation but make the better of it instead. In the shadows he studies and copies all of the Legends from Naruto. Eventually Rinnegan awakens and Before the final Ninja war he abandons this dimension. "It is not my home anymore" he believes. He watches as Naruto and Sasuke beat Kaguya and Learns of the Ten tails. Trying to further his power he discovers a Ten tails abandoned in a random dimension. He decided to become a Ten Tailed Jinchūriki. Later Sasuke while traveling through his Rinnegan meets Hachiman. Hachiman explains everything. Sasuke already having his first run in with Otsutsuki explains everything that has been happening home. Hachiman has no interest as he feels a greater threat is coming. He tells Sasuke to leave him and he will stay out of all Trouble and wishes to be left alone.
Dragon Ball Super side of things
The Grand Priest has learned of a Universe Remnant that has survived Xeno's destruction. Immediately he sends a New Angel named Jin is sent to Investigate. Feeling a threat Incoming Hachiman meets Jin. Jin begins to explain why he was sent but Hachiman dosen't try to listen as he believes this might be an Otsutsuki threat. He fights to the Fullest ability! (Ten Tails Jinchūriki Awakening, Pure White Susanoo armor coated to his body, Lighting Style armor (similar to what The 3rd Raikage used), Sword of Nunoboko, as well as Multiple upon Multiple Shadow Clones) It is during this fight he awakes what he calls (Divine eyes) which allows him to use Divine Jutsu (which is basically just any Jutsu turned up to an 11) He is losing almost overwhelming however he is able to his a surprise Planetary Devastation. This surprises Jin to which he states that Hachiman is coming with him. Reluctantly Hachiman agrees. They leave to meet with The Grand Priest which has an Idea for the young Hachiman. During the 1st meeting with Universe 6 as well as Universe 7 Hachiman is brought to View and see if he can contend with such fighters. A sparing match is to be had the winner gains access to 1 wish from the Super Dragon Balls! The Fight begins! Hachiman Vs Vegeta!! To all Viewers the Fight ends Astonishingly Quick as Vegeta dosen't move everyone including Vegeta Unaware he is Locked in Genjustu. While The Fight unannounced to Vegeta is Over, Vegeta believes the fight is currently happening. Hachiman used Genjustu to obtain all Knowledge Vegeta has about everything. Quickly Hachiman learns of what sayians are as well as The circumstances as well as the Different sets of Dragon balls. Vegeta's body is set in the stands Senzu beans don't work as Vegeta's body is fine. The Fight with Goku Begins!! Using the Knowledge Hachiman now has He understands how to Fight A sayians better. While maintaining a "Mind Fight" with Vegeta Hachiman begins to Truly battle Goku. Using as many cheap trucks as he can to contend with a sayians of Goku's Caliber Eventually the fight ends with A Planetary Devastation Sealing Justsu. Goku can't escape. Announced as the winner Hachiman gains his wish! However with the knowledge gained from Vegeta he chooses to Use the Namekian Dragon Balls instead as a Win He makes his 3 wishes 1) He wishes to become a Half Blooded Sayians while maintaining all abilities he had Before 2) He wishes to unlock what his Bloodline Calls Tensigan 3) He does not care what this wish is and Gives it away Shortly after the The TOP is announced. Jin has been assigned to watch over Hachiman to keep eyes within his universe and Him. Hachiman decides he will be entering the TOP alone as he as already stated he will not intervene within what is happening with his universe The training with his New Found Divine Eyes mixed with the Blood of a Sayian has led him to become Overwhelmingly Powerful as well as unlock Ssj2 The TOP begins!! Immediately knowing the difference in power as well as being cunning Hachiman Buries himself within the Ground Funneling and Learning how to manipulate Kachi Katchin steel, as well as basically being a Clone summoning Factory that fight above ground. For the most part Hachiman keeps quiet until near the end. In a Fatal attempt he does try to fight Jiren thinking Genjustu might solve the problem IT does Not. Jiren let's it happen at first Letting Hachiman Speak to him. Later he breaks free however and Finds the real body of Hachiman. Seeing No way to win in a Sayian Anger fuled Rage he uses a Justu never been done before DIVINE STYLE: DIVINE REAPER DEATH SEAL Everything fades to black and seemingly Hachiman Disappears. In pure black A voice Speaks "My Slumber has been interrupted by whom" A Divine Reaper God appears before Hachiman Otsutsuki Honestly in Fear for the 1st time Hachiman has no words However The reaper Feels his energy and reads his based off this. "You ask for my power for such a weak Creature..... Pathetic" he states Hachiman responds " It was a sudden Idea I had no idea what would become of it Who are you?" " I am the What happens to God's and angels who have fallen, I am the manifestation of the Natural order Of things" Taking an Intrest in Hachiman The Reaper proposes an Offer "I have not been summoned in millennia as well as God's have not fallen in such time, I would like you to become my new Reaper You will gain access to my abilities as well as my Power" "& In Return?" Hachiman responds "I exist in all of time Past, Present, & Future you will be of use to me there will be interference from me in anything you do, so long as every now and then you fuel me with energy" Hachiman agrees Appearing back in the same spot as if Time stopped again Hachiman awakens with Black Energy pouring from his body He rushes Jiren Quickly however His body cannot take the duress and Gives out Hachiman is Eliminated The TOP proceeds regularly. When the Universes are Brought back Hachiman appears in the dimension he was Watching over back home in Universe 13 Jin arrives afterwards to Explain that the Grand Priest would like his presence. Hachiman goes with Jin to meet. The Grand Priest is alone with no Guards as well as no King Xeno He explains that he is unhappy with the way the Universes are being run. Tired of presiding over a Child with the Supreme power. He asks if That was the God Reapers energy he Felt within Hachiman. To which Hachiman says Yes. "Can you access it? Use it and your own will?" The Priest asks Hachiman responds No but it's still within him he could learn to harness it but why? Grand Priest has a plan to extract Xeno's energy and Give it to him to run this the Multiverse Correctly as a God should he also explains that when King Xeno destroyed the Multiverse is seems at that exact moment is when Hachiman's outburst happened and The moment destroyed Single handedly restarted his Universe through time. To help train Hachiman with his New Found power as well as the Fact Universe 13 has no current God of Destruction Hachiman is assigned as well as Given God of Destruction Power After a 4 years have passed Hachiman has traveled not only throughtout his universe but because his universe is still so Young there isn't much to Destroy or Watch he travels throught the other Universes. Every planet he has been too throught the Multiverse he places the Flying Rajin Seal A Coup has begun Grand Priest helps set the stage Hachiman's reaper energy has manifested through talking to the Reaper as well as practice. The Reaper energy as well as Reaper Saiyan Form has the ability to completely absorb Energy of all Kinds and Manifest it as Their Own. He uses Rope Kunai Energy weapons to predominantly absorb others energy. King Xeno is Stabbed at the same time as The Grand Priest the channel the energy from one blade to another. As the Energy is being drained Hachiman begins to see inside the Grand Priests Mind seeing that the Grand Priest plans to eradicate all of the Multiverse for Good Hachiman stops! The power is drained from Xeno but the Grand Priest has 75% of the power while Hachiman has the remaining 25%. Hachiman Escapes Labeled a Traitor Hachiman is Hunted by everyone the Grand Priest can get his hands on. Traveling from world to world Hiding Honing all of his abilities to One day fight The Grand Priest and Finally decide what should be done with The power of Xeno.
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My (M34) MIL called my wife (F28) about a week ago and told us that my FIL would be willing to buy us a house. Not just any house, but my wifes childhood home. The house is located near my ILs and some other relatives of my wife. Around 40 minutes from our current home. At first they tried to offer it to my wife only and with a condition that we get a postnup that covers it, but we shot that down quickly. Now they might be willing to buy it and rent it to us. I'm feeling somewhat pressured to say yes while I have absolutely no desire to move away from our current home and area.
Thing is, we already own our own house (50/50 ownership) that I (until now I thought "we") adore. We moved here about 5 years ago from our college town because we both got great jobs here. Our kids are in a fantastic daycare and we have everything that we need around 5 minutes away from us. Also my family lives nearby. I'm not ready to walk away from this to pay rent to my ILs or whatever they might propose next.
My wife has voiced some concerns about our current house and we have a timeline to fix everything (bathroom remodel, painting the house ...) but now we are offered an easy way out as she would put it. The offered house is in great shape and also obviously holds a lot of sentimental value for my wife but also for my FIL who had it built originally. I honestly don't know if it would ever really become a home for me.
What should I do? How would you try to avoid resentment from building up? I can't currently see a way to avoid that, no matter what we decide. Thank you all.
P.S. Sorry about my writing, I'm not a native speaker and it has been years since I've written something.

Just a theory, possibly totally unrelated. But there are some new confirmable pieces and connections that I haven’t seen mentioned at all yet. So if I’m wrong at least there is a partially correct timeline here that can be edited to correctness. My last attempt to connect any dots I think. Please feel free to find holes and debunk it and suggest edits.
TLDR: Maybe the big deal is that these items were from a robbery that took place nearby days prior. There were two bags taken and articles only mention one being found. The robbers were reported to have been seen else where on CCTV counting money, so they may have been able to make a sale in the area. The same bag could have ended up at the Mark. EP said he was given a big bag to dispose of. In EP’s case the chain of custody should be legally sound, but for someone else buying or possessing stolen property prior to that, it’s illegal in NY even if you’re unaware.
The robbery occurred on 1/18/23 and was reported on 1/21/23. This is on 83rd and The Mark Hotel is on 77th. Half a mile walk through the park away. EP mentioned a big bag that hotel staff was told to dispose of.
A NY post article about this murder mentions:
“A young woman — who was entering the building carrying a large bag that appeared to contain clothing - choked back tears when asked if she was related to the victim. ‘It's very, very hard for me and my family. We've already talked to the police and the district attorney. I don't want to talk anymore,’ the woman said, without identifying herself.”
The victim was SA’d. House was ransacked. “The two suspects loaded up Hernandez’s belongings into a blue rolling Jansport backpack and a green rolling bag and were on CCTV divvying up cash, prosecutors said.”.
Same day Drake is seen leaving The Mark hotel.. He is seen the next day at a listening party in New Jersey.
These were posted August 2023 by EP on his Facebook page. They look like older lady clothes. But ofc, this could just be things left behind at the hotel by others.These are the only clothes EP ever posted on his Facebook.
The victim being an upper east side woman she probably had some nice things, clothing and jewelry in particular as ladies do especially at her age. And the jewelry EP posted didn’t look new or like it would have been for a younger girl.
EP implies Drake/team only wanted one thing from a big bag and EP implies there was loads of jewelry left behind. They said the rest of the stuff in the big bag was trash. Because the items were expensive and not really just any random stuff, it was instead put into lost and found.
There’s an incident report from Mark security on July 20th. Probably when EP had to work as security with protests that Theodore organized.. EP appears to express frustration with the protestor situation for which he nearly got arrested. This was probably the next time he saw Drake since January. EP keeps mentioning 7/27/23. This is the day he was named the protestor lawsuit.
EP mentions Officer Viola had a CCRB citation for trying to contain the protest. Officer Viola and EP both impacted negatively. EP mentioned that this rapport with the officer probably saved him from getting arrested
EP is going thru it at this point. [EP cites many examples of why he takes offense for treatment of staff. And hubris. The man he almost got arrested he alleges staff isn’t being treated in a way that feels respectful He mentions he still has to give the friendly enjoy your evening. He cites cultural frustrations as well, echoing Kenny’s “not like us” sentiments.
At some point EP’s is instructed by his director to clean out the lost and found. By August he’s so fed up that he’s going to sell these things redacted lol figure it out ig. He posts them on Facebook.
Fast forward to now, and Kendrick drops a diss track. At some point, Akademiks told that EP had the items and accused theft, according to EP. or him and Drake both did not sure who he’s directing this at.
“Meet the Grahams” comes out and EP said I understood the assignment. Kenny at some point gets the album art from EP with item’s that appear to have belonged to Drake.
Drake releases “The Heart Part 6” said that he fed the cover art content to Kenny. Why would he lie about that? Why not say wow Kenny you got people going through my trash? Or is he telling the truth?
Buying stolen goods is illegal. But EP, on the other hand, obtained the items after they were disposed of, which should be legal if I understand correctly especially if unclaimed after x many days.
EP’s manager finds out about the album cover and questions him about how the items were obtained. But staff knew that EP had these items already according to EP. He was instructed to not throw them in the trash originally and then months later instructed to clean out the lost and found. EP implies that policy/practice allows him to claim the items at this point.
He claims he explains to his boss how the items were obtained. She advises him to get a lawyer which is strange because staff knew these items were in the lost and found and that by law, if they aren’t claimed within a certain amount of time they’re fair game. But if they’re stolen from a murdered scene, yeah you might want to speak to a lawyer because possession of stolen property is illegal even if you didn’t know it was stolen. It also may implicate you in a murder that took place nearby. It doesn’t make sense to me that EP’s boss would advise a lawyer when she would probably know the chain of possession and policies. It could be that it was only due to theft allegations from the album cover release but if policy and law was followed then this seems a little out of place, especially if they didn’t want the items back anyway.
EP alleges that police were called because someone got assaulted this night. I’m not sure who this is but It appears to be the same man pictured about a minute later.
EP tweeted
“Those were good men… One was from Texas. He loved cowboy boots, guns, and horses. other was from the Bronx, and well on his way to becoming a "Blue H.E.N.R.Y."
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I've been with my wife for about two and a half years. Before marriage, we discussed non-monogamy. It was often a subject on the table with non-romance, and with people in mind, it became a topic with romance, and it developed while going through our wedding. Shortly after our wedding, that quad situation crashed and burned, and wife closed off (she was always anti-social, so her closing off was even more extreme). She expressed a preference for monogamy, but it became kind of set in stone that her end goal was a monogamy that could co-exist with my polyamory.
A lot happened for that to crash and burn, but my interest in polyamory didn't die with that relationship. There was a period of about 9 months of emotional work of discussions restructuring the relationship and continual renegotiation and learning alongside each other before I felt comfortable that I could offer someone a partnership I could be content with. That work missed steps for sure, in retrospect, namely that it wasn't clear enough that our old relationship was killed and in the process of being rebuilt from the ground up. I think it felt that way to both of us, but there was a strong anchoring bias that is still present to some extent to this day from her.
The relationship I had to offer (that was agreed to be within bounds) threatened her in every way. She hated not being a part of it unlike the first one where she was, but that was part of the work. I think it came as a reality check to her that I was going to be autonomous from her. We were highly codependent, and in that process I had grieved it and cut away, but she hadn't yet. It came with many primal panics and she hated her meta at the time for it. We both knew it wasn't meta's fault. My relationship to that person fell apart for a separate reason, and it nearly took my relationship with my wife with it. It felt like divorce had finally entered the conversation as an option. She said she didn't view it as one, though, and I said she has to, because how else is she supposed to be able to consent or not consent to the relationship? She made me feel like I should trust that she is expressing her agency and is consenting in her full autonomy to everything we're ironing out in agreements together while also telling me that she strips away her last resort option and made me at times feel like I was simply subjecting her to a life she didn't want. I told her there are people who are just as emotionally competent, humerous, and whatever else as me, while also matching her hobbies more, who are monogamous, and I really needed to know she wasn't damning herself to me but rather that she was choosing me the same way I was choosing her. Choosing her has limited my polyamorous expression severely, and I've done it every day.
I began dating my current longest standing girlfriend in December. She initially doesn't like any new connections whatsoever, but tends to like them after putting a name and face together and having a meal or three with them. This girlfriend is largely very okay being secondary. We've ironed out our exact relationship agreements, know exactly how much we'll talk to each other and when we see each other, and I think wife benefits heavily from our consistency and has been proactively giving in her expressed comforts (such as nights that I wouldn't have spent with girlfriend out of an assumption it wouldn't be okay, but it was expressed as okay without my asking). I found myself in this relationship realizing that I wish I had a more solo polyamorous lifestyle, but I realize this after legal marriage, cohabitation, and financial enmeshment, and don't plan to do the life shattering necessary to disentangle all of that as of this moment, but it weighs on me that I have so much friction and feel a bit as though I need permission to sleep certain places or have someone sleep in my spaces. It makes sense given the current set-up, though. YEARNING!
There are so many actions that still cause so much insecurity to arise in my wife. Every action I take with another partner is measured within myself immediately on how it will affect her. Am I spending too much time away from her? Am I doing too much cool stuff without her? But then I try actively dating her and she doesn't show much enthusiasm for much other than default time together. We get a date or two a month maybe while I date my other partner once to twice weekly. I find myself falling in love with another person and being afraid because I know that'll only hurt my relationship with her. After two and a half years am I fooling myself? Is she fooling herself? Are we fooling each other? It's stupid because I'm in the middle of it, and so is she, and I'm pretty sure neither of us want to answer that question with all sincerity. There is also the potential that I'm just way too selfish and should be okay limiting my polyamory as much as I do or even more given my commitments to her. I've struggled with polyamorous guilt with her every time I want time away from her, but then we acknowledge that this much time away from her with friends would do a similar thing anyways?
The timeline: Non-monogamy talks mid 2021, marriage December 2021, first poly relationship beginning and end spring 2022, first autonomous polyamorous relationship began January 2023, ended summer 2023, began dating current partner who she's okay with December 2023, partnered temporary long distance with someone April 2024 and have had a majorly important person come back into my life in a will they won't they way this month that is bringing up a lot of insecurities as well
Thank you to anyone who reads this and puts in any emotional labor and literal time labor producing a response to my wordy ass (and this was me trying to be concise lmao)

Hi guys. 32F, U.S. citizen here. I recently applied a couple of weeks ago to a stage job for Princess (which as many of you may know is owned by the Holland-America Group). I don't believe the job listing specified on what ship the job would be on. Anyway, I opted to also get alerts from Holland-America about jobs that would best fit my background and qualifications by putting my resume in their online talent pool.
It's been only a couple weeks, and haven't yet heard anything either good or bad on their end, just silence, but I'd really like to get a job with Princess this year. If not this, than another position. I've been onboard a Princess ship in the past, and have heard they have a very good reputation in the industry.
However, I don't have any real understanding of the hiring and onboarding process for Princess / Holland-America as someone who's never worked in cruising or shipping before. Thought I'd post here to maybe get others' input and advice on the general expected timeline for having your resume reviewed / contacted by the hiring manager, interview process, and how long after that you might expect to get an offer. As well as any possible tips for how to really stand out and shine during the job search and entire hiring process, other than having the obvious professional, upbeat attitude that is de rigeur for any crew member?
I really do appreciate any and all insights.
Thank you so much.

I have a very valid misdiagnosis issue which caused me around 24 hours of absolute misery and pain. 2 other doctors diagnosed me correctly and prescribed me correctly and I am feeling better now. My doctor visits were in this order: Telehealth, Urgent care (this is the doctor I want to report and sue), and then ER (this could have been avoided if I was diagnosed correctly at urgent care).
I want to absolutely make this guy's professional life a misery, and also prevent him from mistreating other patients. When you compare his diagnosis to the valid ones, it is very obvious that he did not care to treat me even when I was in an urgent care room putting out a cough that filled the entire wing and would cause me to black out. I really truly believe this DO needs to be disciplined for how he treated me, and possibly others. It was an obvious misdiagnosis designed to just get me discharged, and I have the medical records to prove it.
Without going into much more detail on my issue, I am wondering if anyone here has experience with reporting a doctor specifically to the Osteopathic Medical Board of California. What should I expect regarding timeline? I don't want to refresh his license info page every day for a year, I would like to know a status of some sort. Am I going to get that?
I also plan to sue this doctor directly, and I am already talking to my attorney about it. Is it ideal to wait until after a medical board decision, or is it better to do the lawsuit asap and closer to the actual event?
I appreciate any thoughts and advice on all of this.
EDIT: Thank you all, the response in this sub was incredibly neutral, no negative responses at all just honest ones. I seriously appreciate that.
I am going to file a complaint with my health care provider for every possible thing I can possibly say about my experience.
I am potentially going to file a simple complaint with the medical board, stating gross negligence and intentional misdiagnosis.
I am potentially going to small claims for the same, presenting a full case, advised and prepped by my attorney.
Thank you again.

I know we all are watching it closely right now and every time trading gets halted you’re uneasy.
For those of us who were part of $GME in 2020/2021 it’s important to remember that was a 6 month timeline with lots of ups and downs. Those of us who rode it out made life changing money. Those who sold when things got hairy, lie to their friends about how they were in it and made a bunch of money when in reality they walked away with maybe 1 month rent.
I used my gains on a down payment for a house. You do have to exit at the right time. But you have to hold some conviction on where you believe this could go and whether you’re willing to lose money trying to get there.
Don’t put any money into this that you cannot afford to lose. Think about what you’d take out of the ATM if you were going to the casino. Personally, I had about $10k of safe investments sitting in Robinhood for some reason and too that and put it into this. I’m willing to lose that money. It’ll be a tax write off if I do. But don’t put your family at risk for hopes and dreams. Do put whatever you’re comfortable with in and hold. Don’t be nervous about the ebbs and flows just yet. It’s the first couple days, it’s volatile, and lots of novice investors are taking small gains so that they can go buy a lego set.

Hello! Hoping to get some feedback on my floor refinishing timeline with a future remodel.
We have narrow plank red oak floors throughout our house except in the kitchen where there’s tile. The floors are in good shape - definitely livable, but they’re that old orangey color with signs of wear, light scratches, tape marks, etc.
I want to refinish the floors now, but unfortunately we’re not able to remodel the kitchen for another couple years. When we do remodel I want to put in wood floors in the kitchen to match the rest of the house. Given the floors outside the kitchen will still be pretty new, I don’t want to have to refinish everything again during the kitchen remodel.
Do you think it’s possible to match new narrow plank red oak floors - refinished the same as the rest of the house - two years after the refinish everywhere else? When I ask this during quotes I’m told it’ll take a couple years for them to look the same, but no one has had pics to show me how different they’ll look during that time.
I’m really itching to refinish the floors but I can be patient if this is a terrible idea. I’d love feedback! Thank you.