First time poster, don't know the rules or etiquette so please bear with me.
It feels like my world has fallen apart. I found out last night that my (35f) husband (38M) and father of an almost 3 year old and soon to be 2nd (first trimester), has been cheating on my with men throughout almost our entire relationship (9 years together, 5 years married.) I went downstairs and startled him and he hid his phone very quickly. So I took it from him, demanded his password, and found his secret instagram accounts where he's been messaging with men some very explicit things.
I quickly realized he'd hooked up with one of the guys when he was out of the country last year. He further confessed that he's always been Bi and just never felt the courage to tell me before. That almost since the beginning of our relationship, he'd be meeting up with random guys on grindr to get sucked off or fuck. In "respect of me," he only met with guys. Everytime he was out of the country for a bachelor party, or traveling he'd met random guys to hookup. He even hooked up with a guy while on a trip with me and my family before we got married - I went to bed early one night and he found a guy on grindr to fuck at the same resort we were staying at. I sometimes went on work trips and he'd bring a guy back to our house (before we had a kid). Every once in awhile when he went partying with his friends and I didn't hear from him, that was probably the reason.
His hookups are very attractive, younger men. Like early 20s. I looked throughout his instagrams, and after I had him reinstall grindr, looked at his messages there. It was a lot, but not a lot. He said he often deletes messages. He also had a seperate snapchat, which he deleted in the middle of me investigating his phone. He said they mean nothing to him, that he uses protection, that he liked the attention and feeling like he was wanted.
I point blank asked if he was actually gay and he denied it. I believe him, because I once, caught him get hard while looking at photos of women on Instagram. He used to follow and like posts of scantily clothed female instagram models until I told him it bothered me and he stopped. I also saw him getting hard watching videos of girls giving blowjobs. He also has no issue getting hard for me when we have sex. However, no one in his life now, besides me knows he's not straight. He said his attraction is 50/50 between the men and women.
We have though had issues in the bedroom and a very low sex life... because of me. In the beginning I couldn't keep my hands off him and vice versa. I was a very sexual person. I liked to go like 5 times a night before I met him. But he could really only last 1 or maybe twice, due to an issue with his equipment that he was born with. It would physically hurt him to do more. Eventually, it petered off further as my sex drive took a dive after some of my own health issues. It would physically hurt me when we had sex. It started to get really uncomfortable for me which made me not really want to do it anymore unless I was drunk and it didn't hurt as much. I also have an aversion to giving head... so that didn't help. Eventually, we would go on increasingly long stints of not having sex.. like months. I guess that's when he started to find satisfaction elsewhere.
I (then 26) tested for STDs and nothing, so never found out why the sudden change. Retrospectively, i definitely should have pursued it further, but was shamed by my older female doctor- who said it was normal to gain 20lbs in a few months and to have a decrease in sex drive. "It's called getting older"..... but that's another story.
He asked me not to break up our family. He understands if i want to leave, but that he doesn't want me to, that he loves me and wants to make us work. He says he has an addiction. That if we went back to how often we had sex in the beginning, he wouldn't need to find it elsewhere. That he'll stop cold turkey, because we mean more to him. We've already scheduled for couples counseling, and individual counseling for him. We deleted his 2nd snapchat, grindr account, and one of the instagram accounts he used to chat with guys. I may ask him to delete his other snapchat and 3 of his remaining instagram accounts. But I didn't want to completely deprive him, since I wouldn't live with out my socials...
But what kills me is why he didn't just break up with me when i couldn't give him enough of what he needed. Why did he stay with me? Why did he marry me and start a family? He's actually the one that wanted to have kids. And now I feel stuck, because I still love him. He was the sweetest, kindest, funniest guy I ever went out with. He was a caring and considerate husband, and an absolutely amazing father to our toddler.
I love him, but I don't know how I could ever trust him again. I don't know how I could ever let him touch me and not think about all the betrayal, the lies, the gaslighting. If this is a sex addiction, will I and our family ever really be enough? I don't want to give up without trying, but I'm broken. I don't know how to move forward. I'm worried this shock and all the stress will affect my pregnancy. Even though we're hiding it from my toddler, I'm having a tough time not crying in front of them.
I turned to reddit to see if anyone else can relate, can provide advise, can help me see the light.

almost 18yo male (severe vata) require advice related to females and how to be more consistent
I spent 2 years studying for a collage entrance exam and got distracted and depressed half the time and wasn’t able to complete it 1st major failure in my life . I now have to study another year and redo it(about 60 percent of the people who succeed have to give it another year[consoling myself ig] )
There was a girl in who I knew since I was around 5-12yo (used to sit next to her in the school bus almost everyday) then she moved to usa in 6th grade
when i was in 8th grade I realized that I actually kind of liked the girl the whole time just didn’t know it then As there was no way of contacting her I tried to forget about her
The days when I completely did she would randomly come in my dreams and remind me of her existence (dreams weren't romantic in nature just had her in them)
in 11th i finally mustered up the courage to contact her just for the sake of contacting her
we texted for a bit and then i got busy
Ghosted her for almost a month because of how busy I got
then when i asked her about holi after a month of ghosting she randomly tells me that she liked me in 4rth and figured out that she did so in 9th
Mentally I was like what the fuck you could have told me before and I was also kind of glad that the feeling was mutual
I was also kind of sad because of the geographical restraints , hope and motivated to work harder to reach USA
i wrote her a long letter in a word document and sent it against my better judgement her response was favorable and she send the me a text
which ended with "can I claim you as mine"
later she said this
Hey {my name}- I realized that I sent you a message indicating my feelings for you but after thinking more about it today I came to the conclusion that I just can't be in any form of a relationship rn, casual or not. I'm so sorry if I led you on but I respect you as a person and care about u a lot which is why I wanted to be honest, but I would love for us continue to be friends because reconnecting with you has been so fun and I enjoy our convos (as long as you don't leave me on seen for 12 hours haha). Anyway I appreciate you understanding, I just don't have the capacity for anything more than friendship rn
after more texting
we can reconsider this after May cuz I’ll be busy till then
Sorry i didn’t respond today i just realized that I started talking a lot about you And idk why
i don’t understand female nature but what i one can assume from these snippets is that
either she really likes me and actually does not have the time to persue anything(neither do i honestly) fell for someone else closer to her trying to let me down gently and not completely obliterate my heart
i know that there is no possibility as of now to be with her .And I really need to work hard for a couple of years to create it and to set up a good life for myself
but I just want to know that that the feelings are not volatile and went away permanently in a jiffy on her end. I am too scared to ask (I tried to and got this as a response )
Hey I just wanted to say that I really I really like talking to you but I think that we need to address the fact that we live in completely different places and are in different stages of our lives. I only see you platonically but I really enjoy our friendship and conversations and don’t want to leave that. I really don’t have the capacity to be in a long term relationship right now, and I don’t know what will happen in the future. I’m really only thinking about right now, and I don’t want let you down, but that conversation is not in my head. I don’t want to keep leading you on, but I do enjoy our friendship and value it.
i just needed a place to vent and get help from someone who knows females better than I do the girl just keeps randomly infiltrating my dreams I kind of like the dreams but yeah they distract me a lot
ik meditation is supposed to help with emotional detachment I have tried to do it and improve myself so that I can be worthy of her I am trying my best to become a better human in all walks of life,its just that my vata gets the better of me and de-rails me a lot I am pretty sure I suffer with you tube addiction and try to hide away from the fact that I do so .I am trying to improve but I am scared of failure what if I fail in my entrance exams don’t reach USA stay distracted the rest of my life and then die after accomplishing nothing
Idk how this can be helped I just wanted to know that she may still have even a tiny amount of feelings form me (it would make me less distracted maybe)
the best possible outcome that I can possibly imagine is that she again randomly tells me that she does still like we call each other and talk once every week
i am able to study/work towards my goals for 8hrs a day Build muscle for 1hr a day Walk for 1 hr a day Listen to music only at the end of he day everyday for the next 10 years consistently
making me competent and giving me a good carrier(in electronics computer science or 3d(i like 3d the most rendering part of it making the tools that allow this to be done virtual worlds to be created i think i could learn about it and work for it just through my inherent inclination))
as of now i am only able to follow my timetable by 50 percent
i realize that this piece of text is completely incoherent and jumbled thanks for listening to me and if you have any advice that could help me achieve the my goals do tell

Hello. I hope I express myself well. I have been thinking about making this post for ages but I was thinking that maybe I would get better or he would get better and since I don't have anybody to talk to, here I am.
I am a very reactive person, but my most often reaction is that of crying. I cry with films, when I have anxiety, when someone speaks too loudly, when someone is mad at me, when I think about my body, etc. I might be depressed but I can't afford therapy.
We have been together for 3 years. My boyfriend has been depressed for around a year now, but he has been getting worse. He is saying that he can't deal with me anymore and any of these days he is going to dump me because I am a negative influence on him.
I'm going to describe to you what happened today as an example. I went to the doctor and I told him (my bf) that I got Vitamin D defienciency and that I might have chronic fatigue, but the doctor gave me supplements and I'm going to get tested for the latter, etc. The doctor also told me that (due to circumstances) I can't gain weight right now even though I want to (to look more attractive and have clothes fit me better). So I told this all to my boyfriend and he said why I bothered to tell him everything if I only have negative things to say. My first reaction was "????" because before I went to the doctor he asked me to tell him later how it went. I answered that they weren't negative things because I got a treatment and I am going to get better, he said yeah right, and why did you tell me about the weight thing? I answered that I was self-conscious because he is always saying that I'm too skinny and I wanted to confirm that it wasn't my fault that I'm too skinny but it's my metabolism and that I wanted him to reassure me that he still likes me even if I remain too skinny. He said "Why do I always have to tell you nice things? Why can't you never cheer me up" And he went on a long rant on how I am a negative person. Then I started crying and he said he was done with me because I cry everyday and I never cheer him up. I cry everyday because he raises his voice at me for something like this.
His standards for positive things and negative things are very different. I could tell him that I choked on an almond (negative) and he would just claim that I'm the worst person on earth because I'm trying to make him miserable. But if I tell him "a baby waved to me today" or "the weather is so good, let's go on a walk" or "our favourite tv show is getting another season" or "I love you you are so smart, I'm working hard to get a job/pass the exam/whatever" he doesn't consider that positive. For him, positive is that I win the lottery or something super big and important.
He left the conversation saying that sooner than later he will dump me and that I should stay with my mother because we are both, in his word, joy and cheer. My mother has been depressed since my father passed last year.
I told him that I won't tell him my negative feelings anymore, nothing that has a tint of negative in it. He says I'm not capable. If I can't cry with him, I can't complain about anything, but the things I consider happy and positive he dismisses, can we even spend time together?
I should mention that, he being depressed, I listen to him for hours crying and speaking about why he is sad. I don't have an answer, I have been depressed in the past and nobody could help me but myself, so I just try to reassure him as best as I can that everything will get better and offer my company, but he also gets mad at me because I don't offer a way out.
Tl;dr: My boyfriend gets mad at me when I say little negative-toned things but dismisses the positive things. He is depressed. He tells me to hide my feelings but doesn't believe that I can. What can we even talk about?

Hi guys, I'm from Kerala. I completed class 10th (ICSE) with a somewhat good percentage (92). Here's the thing: I was not even an average kid, and my whole friends group left me for another school when I was in class 8. I was alone, with zero female interaction, but I was okay with the guys. I still felt alone, so I started studying and eventually got good marks in 10th. I wanted to rejoin with my old friends so bad that I chose class 11th on state boards. But when I went there, they did not mind. They just didn't ignore me, but I felt the distance. They said I've changed a lot and almost said that I looked like a nerd (പുസ്‌തക പുഴു). But I knew what I had become because I was not being that much social. But anyway, I adjusted. Then came the knowledge of this JEE examination; I somewhat started my preparation in an academy in class 11. I'd go there on Sat, Sun, and other holidays. It almost felt like a waste of time not understanding anything. After that, I took an online course for JEE in class 12, but it was even worse than class 11. They scheduled their live classes during my study hours (peak time), and I was not able to concentrate. It felt so boring... like I wanted to study all day but couldn't (procrastinating). I still tried my level best, but then came an ankle injury in my right leg. I was playing football, and suddenly it snapped. It took me 2 months to recover from that pain; I couldn't study at all. This was the time I thought I screwed everything up. During October last year, I went to a psychologist with my father (after telling so much). I went there, and he was able to read me (not that well, of course). He told me to not prepare for JEE this year and go for it the next year and also told me to do some morning stuff. I stopped my preparation and went through my board examination, and now came the bigger injury of my life. I broke my crucial ligament completely while playing, and the doctor said I need surgery to replace the broken ligament. I was broken but was focused on my boards. I gave the JEE examination too, but it didn't really matter for me since I didn't study anything. As the psychologist said, I want to repeat the JEE examination, but I'm in the middle of surgery, for which I got an appointment on 27 May this month. I don't know when the surgery is. Here's the thing: should I repeat the JEE (first competitive attempt), or should I move on with this year's entrances (other exams like... KEAM, CUSAT, etc.) results? I don't know if I'm even able to say this, but I want to try this exam. I want to know what it feels like to be a JEE aspirant.

I went to the docs awhile back who preformed an exam and baso said I had hemorrhoids and there was nothing concerning.
Today after a BM I had no pain, but after wiping there was a lot of bright red blood comming out which did stop after about 5 minutes, almost like it “burst” ?
Is this normal for haemorrhoids Or should I be going back to dr to get a second opinion And what can I do to manage this ? As I’m sacred it can be cancer even though doctor said it wasn’t

Asalamualikum everyone. I hope you are all having a wonderful day. I have been following this subreddit for some while now (without actually having a Reddit account). Finally decided to make a Reddit account too, and I just need some help with what I am going through because I am indeed confused.
I 21M, have been talking to this potential 21F for the past 4 months now, things are going well and both have let parents know about each other, I have mentioned Nikkah to my parents and she has mentioned it to her parents too. Parents on both sides are a bit hesitant and saying we are a bit too young and are yet to get done with exams and all but they aren't completely opposed to the idea.
She is a beautiful girl, very intelligent and mature too. A few things I really like about her are that she is very responsible (takes care of her home alone and studies too) and caring, and actually respects all the boundaries I have set for our communication (she is foreign and for her shaking hands and even hugging is normal, but Ive told her I don't do that because its Haram and since then shes stopped doing it with other guys too like she used to just because its Haram to). Another thing is that she barely gossips or backbites and is always willing to communicate and talk through any issue. AND listens to understand rather than just answer. Honesty, respect, never playing the victim card when they’re in the wrong and taking accountability and willingness to better themselves are some other things I really liked about her. During the past 2 months life has not been easy for me but she has always trusted me and has believed in me and stayed with me even though she could have chosen to leave. She always mentions that she is really impressed by my character and has admitted that she's fallen in love with me being respectful, gentle, calm and that has made her feel safe and secure and apparently feminine too. I like that because she did not look into wealth, grades, beauty, and all as these things may fade away some day but prioritized character over everything which always stays. Prioritizing character also shows that she values the same things for herself too and is always working to be a good person. She also compliments me (prob a lot more than I do) and takes initiative and shows that she is interested too, rather than me just doing all the chasing. I myself am sometimes surprised that how and why does someone likes me this much when I am probably in one of the worst places I have been in life personally. She also tries to learn new things, and to improve herself religiously, mentally, emotionally, and physically. Shes also very trust worthy and has kept secrets really well and advised me in those matters to the best of her ability. Also she has interrupted a good conversation because its time for salaah multiple times, and once she met me with her sister and it was time for Maghrib prayer, so she told me to go offer salah even though her sister continuously insisted that I should OFFER IT LATER AS QAZAA with ISHA.
With that being said what actually bothers me is that there's A VERY EVIDENT difference between how practicing we both are, like for me Islam is the number 1 priority, and ALTHOUGH I am not perfect myself and commit a lot of sins and even sometimes struggle with whats fardh I STILL VALUE AND PRACTISE a lot more than she does. She however says she's been learning and I inspire her to learn more about Islam (she always mentions that I am willing to change everything for you), I dont want her to change for because of me tho I WANT HER TO DO THINGS FOR ALLAH SWT. Like for e.g she got to know that having male friends is not okay, but she still keeps contact with them and interacts very freely with other males too, and once asked me if its okay to go out with male friends alone, and I said Islamically it isnt. So she did not listen to that, but just said I would not go because if you went out alone with female friends (which I would never btw, Ive never had female friends ever) I would be jealous, so I expect you to be jealous too if i go out so I wont go. And there I felt like she did this not because its Haram but because I may feel bad. Other than that her family is also very anti-Islam, like she realized its fardh to wear hijab and I was soo happy about it too, I mean I never told her to but she said she found out its Fardh so she would do that and even did for 1-2 days but when her mom got to know, she forced her to remove it and not wear it again. So these are some things that are confusing me because for me its simple, YOU GOTTA DO WHAT Allah has commanded and even if you like it or not you should be doing it because selectively choosing parts of religion is not okay, which she tends to do a lot. Male friends, and interacting with males soo freely is also something that worries me, Ive gone through this reddit and everyones mentioned that it is a red flag. She says she will cut contact will all of them after nikkah but it makes no sense to me that IF YOU HAVE SET A TIME to end that friendship than why does it exist in first place. Me personally I have never had any female friends, and always interact with the opposite gender respectfully so theres a mismatch there too. And other than that I feel like theres some mismatch in values and morals too, and I dont think people change and you got to accept them for who they are right now, but she says shes changed so much since last year and since meeting me (which idk what to do about) and that she will be willing to change anything for me. But SHES BEEN BROUGHT UP in an anti-islamic family and always been told to keep religion away and its a personal thing, how can she change all what has been taught to her. And I dont think it is fun to teach someone your values and morals and what you think about every other thing, you just expect them to have a similar thinking to you (maybe im wrong here, but that sounds too taxing to me and from what ive seen on this sub reddit a human wanting to control someone’s behaviour and way of thinking is a MASSIVE red flag, so I dont want to be that RED FLAG). Their family is also a lot different to mine too, mines a lot more conservative and theirs is a lot more on the liberal side and I think that could be a problem too maybe in the future, and like when discussing the marriage ceremony I told her that my family would not prefer a mixed free gathering, instead we always have a segregated gathering however family members can be together, to which she said her family would probably not like that and she too would not want a seperate gathering. So its just some things like these that have been making me think over things. She also thinks that i am a bit too overprotective and resitrictive AND IVE never even been that way, I just act like how I normally do.
I dont want to have a long talking stage with a potential, since I think its not the best of things to do, shes the first girl I have EVER talked to with the intentions of nikkah and she says I am the first guy she has talked to who is actually willing to take this initiative too. I just want to decide what to do about this because I dont want to fall in any kind of haram, or do anything wrong/unjust, and neither do I want a LONGG TALKING STAGE (i mean 4 months is already a lot imo). I would be really happy if you people could suggest what should I be doing in this situation, and maybe suggest some questions or topics that I should be talking to her about to clarify things and to know more about who she actually is rather than who she is willing to be in the future. Also any advice related to this situation will BE VERYY HELPFUL THANK YOUUUU. JazakAllah, May Allah bless all you youu. Ameen

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I dont have time to swich antidepressant because I need to study "now"! I built tolerance for bupropion. I managed to puch it a little bit further with caffeine but now I feel close to no stimuli and are unable to focus. Are stimulants the way to go, and wich one? This is only gonna be for like 3-4 weeks. Then switch my main antidepressant to something else when school is finiched.

I have been to doctors for 2 years and only did I recently consider my symptoms to be pots. Doctors think I'm faking my symptoms. Or that I'm just anxious.
Iv been to the emergency room 2 times because of this. But both times they didn't even bother asking what's wrong they would just tell my I'm hyperventilating or I'm just anxious and wouldn't even ask what my symptoms are! And they would discharge me.
I'm 15 (female) and I really don't know what to do especially that I live in Jordan (middle east) and I don't know if any of the doctors even know what pots is. I'm starting to believe I'm just making this up or something. I don't know if I'm actually sick or not.
My parents don't even believe me anymore because of the amounts of time doctors said I was fine. I had a ton of blood work done and it all came back fine so I know it's not that but I have no clue what else I can do.
Any advice?

I’ve been single for a long time but why does this feel like going through a divorce?
Mahal na mahal ko ang subspec na to. May days lng talaga na di ko na alam ano bang dapat gawin kasi araw-araw na kaming pinapagalitan. There is a lack of ideal role models in this all-female cutting department. Yung feeling na nakadefensive medicine nalang lahat including consultants. So I’ve lost my passion for quite a bit. Next thing I knew, pinapaquit na ako straight to my face? Is this even legal? Walang maayos na warning. Alam ko naman wala akong alas. I didn’t come from a family of doctors unlike those of my coresidents. But I wanted to keep my peace and that of my consultants. Meron pa kaya akong pag-asa? Will it affect my future applications? Wala na akong ibang field gustong pasukan. In short, ganito ba talaga sa OB?
To add, sa mga consultants dito, would it be better to take nontraining governement posts nalang muna before going back to training? I just feel lost.

So I’m 18 FTM, pre-everything, no GD diagnosis but I know I have it, and no birth control. I haven’t spoken to a recruiter yet either. Not that this is relevant but I haven’t seen a doctor in years because of neglect by my parents. (I was told they’d do a standard health check-up before you go to basic or at basic so I’m not worried about that)
Originally, I was hoping to go through T and Top Surgery BEFORE joining the USMC. To wait the minimum 18-months or 2 years recovery time to join. But I’m starting to rethink my decision and it may be better to join as female and keep quiet before the year ends, in case Trump gets in and does his stupid ass ban.
I’ve been in a bad living situation for most of my life up to this point. As much as I want to get the gender-affirming care immediately, getting out of here is my biggest concern as of now and I’m willing to put my dysphoria on the side if that’s what it takes.
Is this something I should do? Or am I too paranoid about not having time to join lol

Hi everyone! I was wondering if anyone has experience or knowledge about the thing that’s happening to me. I’m a 19 year old female, no illnesses, I’m on the skinnier side, but not underweight. Like i said in the caption, while PMSing and during my period, I get hot and cold flashes and night sweats, combined with other heavy PMS symptoms like depression, sometimes even suicidal thoughts, extreme emotional sensitivity, bloating, etc. The hot and cold flashes are pretty uncomfortable and have been going on for about a week now. I’d go to the doctor’s but I fear they’re just gonna brush me off. I’m a bit of a hypochondriac so I’d just want to hear other people’s thoughts and experiences. I also have anxiety and would say I’m under a fair amount of stress at the moment, if important. Thank you in advance Reddit!

About 2 weeks ago I stopped taking 150 mg completely. After I stopped taking the medicine, I started to feel drowsy, sleepy and lacked energy.
In 2 months I have an important exam and my days are very busy, I live alone and when fatigue is added to this, life has become a little more difficult for me, do you think I should go back to the medication or do you have any other suggestions?
I had stopped taking it after talking to my doctor and he thought I should. I'm seeing him in about a month.

20 Female
i have been experiencing blood when wiping after pee/poop but i am confused where is the blood coming from since there is no traces of blood in my urine or stool but only when wiping.
I suspected it from my vagina area because it feel sore once i touch/rub it in the middle so i thought maybe it is irritated, and also notice blood when wiping after peeing and once had bleeding during sexual intercourse
I also suspected it from my anus area because when i first notice this sympyom, it was after i poop then when i wipe there is blood in my wipes and I feel like there is fluid or watery feeling betwen my butt cheeks even after wiping them off
I had no pain with my abdominal area tho and no other green/white/yellow discharge aside from I can see the blood in my undergarments
I am confused if the blood is due to hemorrhoids or some vaginal issues since I could feel a flow sometimes
note: around this month i have a feeling of urging to pee whenever after pooping or usually in the morning after the very first pee like i would come back atleast 3-5 times to pee for very small amount but after that scenario the urge to pee will just go away and went back to normal. Could this be a sign of UTI?
ever since around 2021, i also experienced some odor whenever after peeing but i thought maybe just because of the wet underwear after washing the vagina since it will just go away whenever i wear new/dry underwear. Could this be also a sign of untreated BV that may lead to UTI now?
what type of doctor should i see first?

Hey, have any of you found any actual, legally binding paragraphs online that explicitly say GPs can't prescribe HRT to a legally recognized female? Looking for paragraphs in the medical council of Ireland's guidelines and/ or the license/ professional indemnity insurance documents doctors hold. Much of what I have found seems to state that it is at the doctor's discretion to provide HRT (or not) if they deem it necessary. The only legal wall I hit so far was my docs not insured to inject HRT. Possible loophole to access HRT in Ireland here, but just checking with you peeps who have been so helpful with all my previous questions. Thanks for future answers!

26 y/o male here (out of two younger sisters) - for a lack of immediate depth and clarity, I sometimes feel as if my brain is, quite frankly, a Lvl. 45 Pokémon in my otherwise full party of normally leveled mons (in this case, other organs? IDK, my poetically 'PogChamp' metaphor kinda fell off after a certain point, admittedly enough, lol...) and because I don't have any 'gym badges', or rather, notable enough ones on 'this' profile to attain the respect of said OP 🧠 (dry reincarnation joke for ya) like anything above an associate's college degree, to where in which I've been shamelessly punishing myself for ever since. All in a familial structure founded off my Father immigrating here from Iran at 17 due to an ongoing war at the time, proceeding to speed run his ability to speak and understand English, and ultimately earn his Doctorate degree at UT Austin in Mathematics by age 24/25 y/o. My Mother, also having immigrated to TX from around the same area/time period to that of my father, learned most if not all of her English and Math by dad, eventually earning her own highly marketable and prestigious degree, allowing her to work as a laboratory scientist within an established Hospital ever since) I wake up each day with ~75-80% chance of my emotions/seemingly invisible yet insanely frictious (made up word of the day) force steering me not just off course with regards to productivity in any/all facets of my life, but in the opposite direction entirely; further, I find that it has oftentimes made a decision for me prior to any kind of a chance I should/would have had otherwise at deductively/rationally responding with an actual expression of what 'I' want and/or think is best, making it that much more difficult to break my current insomnia(-l?), burn out, depression, and productivity paralysis - all in which I've been experiencing this past year. For example: my mom telling me we have to go somewhere I don't want to in the morning, my replying 'consciously', usually in agreement in an attempt to avoid further arguments/conflicts, trading authenticity for emotional convenience, be it for better or for worse, only then for my 5Head brain to do what it likely does best (at least with regards to consistency) ala subconsciously 5Head'ing the situation in the background like an antivirus program would after downloading a sketchy Switch emulator onto one's hard drive, it's way of 'resolving' it's self proclaimed virus by having me stay up all night to where there's no way I can go after all, trading my misery for a more preferable, oftentimes comfortable solution as well as rebellion, especially towards those whom I feel can't look past their own selves when offering advice/ideas, which is one thing, but also forcing said solutions onto those concerned, be it due to frustration, which I can't blame them for given my like-mindedness towards my own self and scenario. Slightly more context in that I've always been told I'm super smart, 'could' be one of my best students if... (you know the rest ✌️🙂‍↕️), blah blah blah, but have genuinely been able to achieve things I seriously haven't heard of a single other person accomplishing especially with regards to my passions and career choices, tend to for whatever peculiar reason attract highly successful and oftentimes famous individuals i.e. content creators, musicians, general artists - weirdly/oftentimes VERY well known ones - into my life on both friendly and romantic levels (ironically, seeming to have had a strange ability to attract the upper eschalon of high functioning individuals from not much interesting initial interaction(s) from my perspective, in OR out of schooling, admittedly enough, always hoping I would become one myself, likely as a coping strategy/defense mechanism/compensatory coalition with respect to my lackluster grades/overall effort in highschool despite taking and consequently passing every advanced course possible in relation to my corresponding grade level i.e. AP Calculus in Senior yeaAP English/Government/History, you get the idea, and which was the case from 6th grade onwards, even getting into Health Careers HS upon making an exceptional grade on the entrance exam, along with pure luck I suppose, which, again, pretty prestigious or should have been if I cared, to which I basically had to provide my parents one of my first ultimatums of what would be many: 'I'm gonna get all zeroes if you don't let me go to designated Public HS', likely because it didn't resonate with me at the time - part of me regrets it looking back tbh - and/or I didn't feel like I deserved it/belonged there either) just off my personality alone, which is a lot more humble and sweet than the tonality of this passage provides, often times declared by sources external to that of my own, however believable or on the contrary at face-value. What's crazier is how empty I feel on the inside in spite of everything I've accomplished with regards to, well, again, all facets of my life. Ex: Getting fired at my Banking job last year after the initiation of the divorce for inconsistent attendance, which is fair enough, then getting a new job later at the start of July only to get promoted off my performance by the end of the month, which, for better or for worse, has generally been my same song and dance with regards to my numerous occupations likely due to my need for validation/even 'consolidation' for not having it in me to pursue a Bachelor's degree, only to then go on leave for, frankly, no longer 'having it in me' despite my undying (and disgusting) desire to still push and/or power through in an effort, forevermore, to - not even emotionally amymore but physiologically, at this point - cope with this seemingly snowballing shit-storm of a situation that is and has been 'life' as I know it to be (admittedly/notably, taking the break DID feel good as I haven't really prioritized my own wellbeing like that before) but however eventual/inevitable, got fired for repeatedly giving a date for my return each time my manager reached out to check in on my well-being, only for my first ever and repeated semblance of a panic attack arising in spite of wanting to will myself, tooth and nail, out the house each of those individual instances, ultimately preventing me from following through with my now broken promises to aforementioned ex-manager - all part of this fuck-headed prophecy. :) In an effort to wrap this very real, very frustrating fool's fairytale up, it's important to note I've been jobless ever since that day, locked in my room, still more productive in many important aspects barring perhaps socially, but I'm in huge debt, especially since I had to fire my divorce attorney last year around August for having a 30% response/hit rate for anything that wasn't the bill - I wish I was wrong - though, I was hired at a coffee shop back in February as my mom thought (and still thinks/pushes this notion) that my problem is 'I need to get out there and into the world', welp, I listened albeit after weeks of conflict/disagreements/yelling (which actions in of themselves make me feel terrible since I once took great pride in being the family peacekeeper (and from a reasonably young age too, unfortunately enough) like any good son whom in which values their own mother's reasonable enough hypothesis would, except for, well, that job too, eventually and inevitably (in my mind) 'I' ending up quitting due to - long story short - unruly junior managers and their annoyingly asinine egos'.
Wrapping up, between going through a divorce with my wife, having been forced to live back with my forever faulty family, namely, with regards to my stubborn mother and father (however much I love them to pieces, to which I feel I express well enough, consistently enough, though at the same time think is fair holding back a bit affectionately given the frequency and intensity of my current circumstances, frankly). Thankfully, I have been able to maintain my well above average athleticism/physique (my words, sure, though genuinely intended with as little ego as possible, in fact more often than not mentioned by someone other than myself, and consistently so at that ever since the 10th grade when I initially started lifting/getting into Nutrition) through daily weighted pushups of 55 lbs in a sturdy backpack, along with my self taught singing voice (worded that way to emphasize I had to basically fight my mom and dad on investing time/energy into that back during HS as well, only to, like my fitness discipline, attaining a very high level on my own and in spite of the needless and unnecessary friction provided by family), along with, and perhaps most importantly, keeping up with my mental and spiritual literacies through many renowned online University lectures, free programs, videos by Dr. K-ing himself, etc. - all to say I'm at a point, currently, where this once 'Superman' persona that I suppose never existed in the capacity seems way closer to that of a depressed, worn down Clark Kent than ever before...
Sigh
(P.S. To my 🧠: Thank you, sincerely, for giving me the courage/chutzpah to finally deliberately declassify, denote, and deliver this deconstruction of my mind, however flawed, over the internet. Further, it's imperative that I mention my confirmed diagnoses of ADHD/Borderline/Childhood & Family Trauma, along with a pending/potential Bipolar disorder as the metaphorically 'maniacal' cherry on top. I'm seeing a psychologist ATM and am prescribed Adderall which helps me tremendously, both with regards to mood and my ADHD symptoms. I've been taking medication for over 2 years now. Random but relevant side note: my insomnia started after the initiation of the divorce and again, I've basically slept once every other night throughout this whole duration)
(P.P.S. Forgive me for any inconsistencies/poor grammaseemingly unfinished statements and/or scenarios. I've had a couple hours of sleep the past 30ish hours, which has, give or take, been the case since June of last year.
(P.P.P.S. Crazy to acknowledge that I intended on sharing the first few sentences of this post when 'I' made the decision to write out this random Reddit post - I wonder, however hesitantly, what notable 'tomfoolery' my brain has planned as the potential outcome to this output and a half.)
(P.P.P.P.S. That's not even the full story LuL. Though I must mention I appreciate anyone bored/mad/strong-willed enough to muster their way from start to finish of my madness. I love this community with all of my heart, truly, and I'm sorry for coming across as brash or unapologetic at particular points, just not really feeling it ATM. Love and peace, always
Kindest regards,
Anotha One

I’m a junior in high school, female, looking to apply to USAFA and USMA to be Class of 2029. I feel pretty good about my application, and will be going to all three Summer Seminars this Summer, but I’m curious on what else I can add in my last year of high school. Here are my stats:
3.94 UW GPA, 4.33 W (will be 4.5 after this year) have taken maybe 5 honors and 5 APs (Euro, Calc AB, Seminar, Lang, Bio) and will take 5 Sr yr (Stats, Physics, CSP, Gov, Macro) School doesn’t do class rank but I would estimate myself to be top 20-30 out of 470.
35 ACT (34 math, 35 science, 36 english, 36 reading, and 9 writing, took it three times) 1450 SAT (700 math 750 english, took once bc school offered it for free)
By the time I graduate, I’ll have 4 years of varsity swim under my belt and 2 years of water polo. I’m not super good at either though so I don’t do club and haven’t won any league awards. But I can pass the CFA and will train hard for it this Summer. When I was younger up until age 12 I did martial arts for 5 years… but I don’t think that’s relevant anymore.
C/Capt in Civil Air Patrol, joined in 2020 and will be a Squadron Commander at my state encampment this Summer (will be leading 60+ cadets, it’s a big encampment). I will be Cadet Commander of my local squadron during my Senior year and have won two Gold Presidential volunteer service awards from 350+ service hours over 2022 and 2023. I’ll hit C/Maj before I apply to USAFA. I also do CyberPatriot competition, I did 5 years of it and my team made it to Semifinals every year.
I’m in the STEM leadership institute, which is a program at my school, and I’m in Mathletes club, and did Mock Trial for two years, was vice president before I quit to join water polo. I also teach kids from my parent’s country of origin English online for an hour once a week, have been since sophomore year spring.
I was hired as a lifeguard by my city and I’ll start working in a couple months when my paperwork goes through and hopefully I’ll do that until I graduate. Also, this Summer I’m trying to get EMT certified at a course in Texas. Ultimately I want to go into medicine in some capacity, majoring in biology at the Academy so I think this is a good step to take.
I think that’s everything. The biggest reason behind why I want to go into the military is because I’ve always wanted to be a doctor, and I feel like I have a sort of moral obligation to serve and make people’s lives better in any way I can. There’s more, I wrote my Summer Seminar essays about it a little bit.
Any input?

66, female, 80kgs, 5’7” tall, non-smoker, non-drinking, No medications and no significant health problems.
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My Mum has found this chunky thing on her head and she’s in a bit of a tizz. I have booked her a skin doctor appointment but I’m wondering if it looks similar to Seborrheic Keratosis? There is another spot growing beside it.
I’m hoping to ease her mind a bit as she’s very worried it’s a melanoma.
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Title. So, the doctor I (F) found sa NowServing app didn’t respond to my message. I was asking saang floor clinic niya and no response at all. Bayad na rin ako that time and didn’t give me a refund.
Looking for a good dermatologist sa Medical City Ortigas. Preferably female.

I've been thinking a lot about my journey. It's a confusing one. And I'm reminded of how scared and helpless I felt as a 16 year old deciding my entire future without proper guidance. I remember in my 11th class boards realising that not having maths is detrimental but not taking steps out of anxiety. I was never bad in maths. Just indifferent. The crux is that if you don't take maths, you're gonna suffer in any other career path except that of the elusive 'Doctor sahab'. Let this be a lesson for those of you who need it.
My journey started with me getting a 95 percent every year from class 6, consistently being the topper of my school with a 97% in 10th. But 11-12th was my downfall. I secured a 95% in my 12th boards but messed up NEET (rank over a lakh) and unsurprisingly so bcz I didn't want to be a doctor in India and work 24 hour shifts and be treated like crap in the worst conditions. Maybe that's why I never could focus. So I took up allied medicine and went for pharmacy from the top college. The truth, it was PATHETIC. The pay, the culture, the placements (there were none). Fyi 14 of my batchmates from school got into the best IITs on their first attempt. These are kids I was ahead of, all my life. It was a hard pill to swallow. But I chose to look forward.
Fast forward 5 years and I got into an MS program at Georgia Tech in the US for bioinformatics (a stream that needs maths and CS). Somehow I wasn't satisfied so I dropped that and sat for the MBA exams.
Now I'm headed to a top 10 college with close to a 30LPA avg salary with a 100% placement for the class and scored close to 99%ile in multiple MBA entrance exams.
If I sulked and continued to feel sad, I'd still be where I was. I published 4 international papers(one with 50+ citations), interned in the best labs, was the president of a national organisation, all while knowing full well I hate pharmacy and that I'm starting to have a disdain for the medical field at large.
Let this be a story for you. I remember being scared, I remember feeling helpless. But that doesn't mean your story ends there. Doesn't mean you need to give up. Work hard. Use the opportunity at hand as a stepping stone for greater things. YOU KIDDOS GOT THIS!🙌🏻
Regards, A fellow NEETard