I'm going to explain everything because I can't keep running it through my mind and I don't know what to do. My boyfriend (24m) and I (21f) have been together for 1.5 years. Half of it being "unofficial" but exclusive, or so I thought. After finding out he was spending time and being sexual with someone else while being with me, I ended it but he fought it and wanted us to be in a real relationship. I know really dumb but l was in love :. I decided to give it a try because I wanted a relationship with him. Two months later he moved very far for school, we decided to try the long distance with me visiting as I work and go to school online, so it was easier. The flights were extremely long and it took effort but I loved him and wanted to make it work so I didn't mind it. During one of my trips there I looked through his messages with his best friend and found him saying disgusting things about wanting to be with other women and going to the club and dancing with other women, which he denied and said he was "exaggerating". I don't know why but I let it go and made the excuse that we were long distance and temptations are normal and I believed he didn't act on them. But something just happened when I saw those messages, I felt myself become emotionally numb with him. This was in March and I have been trying to ignore that feeling and just try to make it work. Now in May he came back for the summer, we got into a fight about me posting a picture, no ass or tits were showing, but he wants me to ask for approval before I post any picture and I refuse to. After this fight we got pretty close to breaking up, which I was hoping deep inside of me would happen. I didn't see him for two weeks after the fight and kept communication very minimal, without effort, I just felt I was done with it. Now this week we saw each other and talked a lot and he is telling me all this talk about how he loves me and these past two weeks made him realize how much I do for him/how much I mean to him and he can't lose me, and making plans for the summer and future but I just don't feel the same way I did when I met him. When I'm with him I have so much fun and I can be myself and I feel like everything is fine. But when we're apart I don't feel anything towards him, I dread having to see him again bc I know I'll just fall for it bc I have love for him still. I find myself making excuses to not see him but when I'm with him I feel fine. I don't know if I am just scared and lost trust or have attachment issues and i keep thinking I should try to make the relationship work because he seems more serious than he's ever been. But I also feel like my gut has been telling me something I keep ignoring. It's both our first relationships and I feel like I have wanted this relationship with him for so long that now that I have it, breaking up would be throwing my dream away. And I worry of the hurt I will cause him after getting him to be in a relationship when he didn't want one. But I feel numb, and a mixture of emotions back and forth and I need some adult advice. What should I do?
TL;DR: I keep going between breaking up with my boyfriend or staying. I have lost trust and don’t feel emotions with him anymore.

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Hey everyone,
I don't know why I decided to make this post, but I guess it's a way for me to vent and calm my mind a little bit. I appreciate anyone who would give some of their precious time to read this and leave a kind comment. I think I'm genuinely on the verge here; I'm desperate to feel some light. I'm sorry it will be long.
A little bit of context: The past months have been quite jarring and unkind to me. I won't get into why that is because I wouldn't stop talking. But as a consequence of those horrible issues, my mental health has been quite low. To the point that I developed an antisocial phase where I couldn't talk to people as I used to before. This forced me to drift away from friends, stop talking to people I genuinely care about, and struggle to answer their messages. I genuinely can't stop blaming myself and feeling bad about it, but I mean it when I say I had no choice. I couldn't bring myself to do it, no matter how much I tried.
Unfortunately, this included someone extremely important, my best friend. While this best friend has been an online best friend and someone I haven't met in real life yet, we have known each other for years. I have seen how she looks, and we have phone called. To me, she has been my chosen family and sister, someone I genuinely deeply love. No matter how bad it has been, I always made sure to text her, but this time I couldn't. I did make sure to express to her that my life hasn't been kind and explain to her what’s going on, and communicate that I might not be my communicative self anymore. She seemed to understand.
Now to why I'm making this post mainly: The last message she sent me was on May 11th, and admittedly and shamefully, I responded way later, on May 29th. But I haven't received an answer back. I want to note that on May 16th, she posted something on her TikTok, so I knew she was okay until that moment. I texted both her Discord accounts, the new and old one, I texted her on WhatsApp, I texted her via Messages, I called multiple times via WhatsApp and normal call, and I even texted her via TikTok.
So my best friend has been absolutely MIA for 5 days now, which never happened before. And there are no signs of life—her profile pictures haven't been changed, she hasn't come online, and her last post was 2 weeks ago. This made me develop absolutely horrendous thoughts that I can't get out of my mind: What if she's dead? What if she got kidnapped? What if she's sick in a coma?
Unfortunately, I don't have the phone number of any family member because she is the eldest daughter and all her siblings are kids. There is absolutely no way for me to know if she is okay or not. All I have is her number, her two Discord accounts, her TikTok account, and her address. I can't simply travel and go look for her in her country due to being a caregiver to both my parents, which is another thing that has been stressing me out.
I have been trying to think about other reasons why she's not answering, but I'm struggling to believe: 1. Maybe her phone got stolen. (I feel like she'd still find a way to tell me.) 2. Maybe she lost her WiFi. (Then why do the messages on WhatsApp get delivered? And who loses their WiFi for this long?) 3. Maybe she traveled somewhere without WiFi. (Maybe, but I feel like she would tell me.) 4. Maybe she's upset with me and wants to punish me for not being around. (I don't think her heart would be this harsh on me.) 5. Maybe she had a family problem since her dad isn't always kind. (Again, I feel like she would find a way to reach me.)
All these options fall and fail. I don't know why I'm thinking about death, but I can't stop. I feel like I'm begging to grieve and mourn her. I feel like if she actually is dead, I will never forgive myself for not being around as much as I wanted. I don't think I will be strong enough to handle it. I may genuinely follow her.

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A few weeks ago my middle sister came to visit me with her friend, I live with my mother and my younger sister
Her friend is really pretty and extroverted, according to my sister, she only dated one guy and got quite traumatized with the relationship, with made her not want to date anyone else anymore.
Later at that night, while we were having dinner, my mother started saying she was beautiful and asking her some personal questions, like if she planned to have kids in the near future, she said she never wants kids, but could change her mind after 35 (she is 25 now btw).
But let's talk about her body language, which made me a bit confused...
They stayed for 7 days, and one thing I noticed is that she constantly avoided eye contact with me when we were talking with each other, she would either look somewhere else or look at my sister, but for a few moments when I was paying attention to my sister or my mother talking, I could noticed that she quickly looked at me. She also never said my name, always asking my sister like "does he want a gum?", instead of offering me directly, but that's ok I guess since we don't have any intimacy.
In one moment though, I was right at her side and instead of asking directly to me, she looked at my sister asking her to ask to me, even my sister said: "Why don't you ask to him? He is just at your side"
I was wondering if I made something to make her feel uncomfortable or she just didn't like me, anyway, my younger sister heard mother talking with the girl saying how me and her would be a great couple and that I never had a girlfriend (yes, my mother actually thought this was a great thing to say...), and the girl said she wasn't looking for a relationship right now, but could change her mind later.
According to my sister, she only had this one boyfriend (who traumatized her, treating her badly), and that a lot of guys give her gifts but she doesn't want anyone
Another thing is that every time my sister came to talk to me in my room, she would come together, sometimes just to stay there, then she started showing me her own pictures in her cellphone, comparing and asking in which one she looked better, showing her with different hair and showing her family
In another moment, while she was talking with my younger sister about relationships, she started talking about age gaps, she said she would date someone up to 29 years old, but said 32 would be too old for her (I am 30 btw, and I was right at her side, don't know if it meant anything)
Anyway, she gave me 2 hugs before they left and a few days later I followed her in Instagram, she followed me back but didn't show much interest when I messaged her, I asked what she thought about the city and other stuff, she didn't respond for 2 days and I deleted the message thinking I was bothering her, but she noticed it and apologized saying she was busy, I then just said some more stuff, gave a goodbye and stopped talking with her.
Based on all that, what can be said about her body language? Did she show any interest on me, or was just avoiding me to not give the wrong impression?
Despite her being very attractive, can't say I am really interested in her, we have a few things in common but I am introverted and she is very extroverted, my younger sister says we matched each other, but I don't think so.
Anyway, I am just asking because her behavior was quite weird sometimes, also think it's an opportunity to understand women's body language better, I admit I am terrible at it, in the past I had girls who were interested in me, but I couldn't notice until it was too late, and girls I thought were interested, but were not.

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I can’t sleep so small and last update. I sat down with Nicole and her girlfriend about what happened, and she’s upset of course. She’s upset because she’s losing someone she considered a sister, someone she thought she could trust. She’s also upset she had to rush her announcement in fear of retaliation. As for my exe’s male best friend and his girl, I am not sure what is going to happen. I sent her the messages through Instagram. She saw them but didn’t react to them, so who knows what is going to happen. Also I do have a question for you guys, how do I tell Nicole that this is not her fault? She thinks all this happening is because of her but it’s not. Thanks for the Nice comments and the not so nice comments.

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I am going to work on being calm and nice and try to be nice to make a community because I need some questions easily answered I will not click links someone linked on someone’s post led to spam I want to know if someone knows of therapy or therapy groups out of the normal traditional mental health with mental health my experiences in the health system was horrible I am pretty much healthy many vegetable’s I barley ingest sugar went from 200 to 145 pounds I am also not sick in my system I use to have anemia, but I eat so many vegetables and the green ones are none to be rich in iron I do not have anemia anymore plus my views on non sick bodies are meaning anemic, diabetes, cancer you get the gist no one of them can have chemical imbalances I believe chronic stress can lead anyone to insanity oh the question is do you know of any other kind of of groups I will research them a small tidbit with little complaining from me this year I lost my best friend my dog and money problems and also past stress I will only add important post I will not except anything. Furthermore, I will talk on public forums not private messages it is the internet you know safety first I am an adult I would appreciate 18 up, but I will not make my way I will not stop who comments or what is what is said I will not babysit.

I am going to work on being calm and nice and try to be nice to make a community because I need some questions easily answered I will not click links someone linked on someone’s post led to spam I want to know if someone knows of therapy or therapy groups out of the normal traditional mental health with mental health my experiences in the health system was horrible I am pretty much healthy many vegetable’s I barley ingest sugar went from 200 to 145 pounds I am also not sick in my system I use to have anemia, but I eat so many vegetables and the green ones are none to be rich in iron I do not have anemia anymore plus my views on non sick bodies are meaning anemic, diabetes, cancer you get the gist no one of them can have chemical imbalances I believe chronic stress can lead anyone to insanity oh the question is do you know of any other kind of of groups I will research them a small tidbit with little complaining from me this year I lost my best friend my dog and money problems and also past stress I will only add important post I will not except anything. Furthermore, I will talk on public forums not private messages it is the internet you know safety first I am an adult I would appreciate 18 up, but I will not make my way I will not stop who comments or what is what is said I will not babysit.

Let's be real, seeing an ex who treated you like trash is never fun and easy, especially if they were heavily narcissistic and manipulative. After you finally went no contact to escape their mind games, running into them in public can stir up all those old feelings of anger, hurt, and confusion. You may feel panicky and anxious, not knowing what to do. Should you greet them, smile, or just walk away as if you don’t even know them? So, what do you do when you see your narcissistic ex in a public setting, especially when you’re practicing full no contact with them?
First thing's first, don't break no contact. I know the urge to scream at them or rehash the past might be strong, but engaging with a narc never ends well. They'll just suck you back into their toxic world of manipulation. The smartest move is to act like they don't even exist. Give them no acknowledgement, no reaction, non-whatsoever. Gray rock your way in that public place if you can.
If you have to be in the same space, avoid them as much as possible. Don't make eye contact, don't linger near them, just go about your business. If they try to approach you or get a rise out of you, keep calm and walk away. Narcs thrive on getting an emotional reaction, so denying them that takes away their power. Narcissists know how to press your buttons and may go to great lengths, even resorting to public humiliation, to provoke you. You don't have to play the hero or waste your energy explaining logical nuances to them. It’s wiser to look foolish or even run away than to stand there trying to call them out or engage in a verbal fight. There's no point in fighting; by staying away, you’re already winning, and there’s much more to gain by maintaining your distance.
Chances are they'll try to bait you by pretending everything is all right or playing the victim. Don't fall for it! They're just fishing for supply and haven't changed one bit behind that fake facade. Your mind might try to compare your current life with their seemingly flamboyant and "clean" appearance, but don't listen to that voice. It's the same voice that hooked you during the love-bombing phase, when you fell for their looks and superficial charm, ignoring the underlying emptiness. Stay strong in the knowledge that their issues have nothing to do with you. You broke free, and they're just bitter they can't control you anymore.
If you start feeling triggered by their presence, take a breather. Go to the bathroom, call a friend, do some deep breathing - whatever you need to recenter yourself. Remind yourself how far you've come in your healing and that this narc holds no power over you now.
The bottom line is, you're the one who got out. Don't let one accidental run-in erase all your progress. Stay cool, stay strong, and keep looking towards your bright, narc-free future. You've got this!
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So, I (23F) recently jumped into this interactive gaming platform, and while playing Mic Grab, I heard this guy sing. His voice was totally mesmerizing, and maybe he liked my voice too. We started chatting a lot, and he kept sharing more about his life and pictures. Turns out, he's super rich and a social media sensation (26M). He kept asking to see my pics too. I really like this guy, and he seems perfect. But, I'm just a regular girl. Anyway, I finally shared my Instagram with him, and he went on a liking spree with his famous IG account. But now, he's been ghosting my messages. Am I being paranoid? Does he like me or not? How can I find out for sure?

3.30pm na, wala pa akong kinain. I'm just in my room, taking my 4th nap today. I nap nalang as much as I can kase if I'm not asleep I palpitate and get anxious.
Months na din na rocky yung relationship namin. Months na akong nagcocommunicate and umaasa na may magbabago. At times I feel like things are about to get better, pero may mangyayari or may gagawin sya that will make me feel like he doesn't know me or care about me even after 2 years of being together.
I want to call him and beg for him to promise to fix this, pero pinipigilan ko. I've done that multiple times before, na ako yung nagpapasensya and nagbubrush off ng needs ko to meet him on his side of things (di na nga in the middle). Yesterday I asked only for him to send me an ig reel, something he used to do a lot but not anymore, a simple thing that makes me happy. He ignored my messages and I saw that he was on ig multiple times during the day, but no reel.
I broke up with him kase awang awa na ako sa sarili ko. I'm not even asking for flowers na kailangan pang bilhin. Just a reel, a few seconds of his time to click a few buttons. Apparently that's too much parin.
Nagpapakatatag ako ngayon. Sabi nga nila, if he wanted to, he would diba. Ayoko nang maging the girl who isn't even worth sending reels to.

I am going to clear this right now and say yes, I am pro-choice, she would be the one growing a baby inside her so she has the right to make whatever choice she wants. At the same time, anyone has the right to end a relationship whenever and for whatever reason they want.
This is going to be a long story, my apologies in advance.
Onto the actual story, my ex-girlfriend Jas (25F) and I (24M) were together for two years. We had an amazing relationship. It just felt like we understood each other perfectly. We’re both Punjabi-Canadian/American currently living on the west coast so there are some cultural stigmas at play here that we overcame. My parents absolutely loved Jas and basically considered her to be a daughter. Her parents and siblings were amazing and very welcoming to me. When we wanted to move in together, literally no one objected and while some people in our community criticized the move, our parents didn’t care. Anyway, last week, I was away on a trip for work and came home Friday evening. I got her parents’ blessing to propose before I left and my plan was to take her to our spot, the highest point of a hill that oversees our city, on Saturday and ask her to marry me. I had a few of our friends get to the spot about 30 minutes before us to take some pictures.
Saturday:
When we get there, I propose, Jas starts crying, I think it’s happy crying, she gets down on her knees, hugs me, and says she has to tell me something. Turns out she found out she was pregnant the day I left for the trip and took an abortion pill the next day. Everyday for the last three months, Jas has been telling me she can’t wait for us to become parents and experimenting with what our kids are going to be named. So now, she finds out she is pregnant and we are going to be parents, she decides to not even tell me that she was pregnant and gets an abortion. We talked every single day while I was away so she had every chance to tell me 1) she was pregnant, 2) she wanted to get an abortion, 3) she got an abortion. Obviously, the choice to keep or abort the baby is hers but she chose to hide it. On top of that, were those three months of her fantasizing about becoming parents and starting a family a lie? All the trust I had in her was lost in that moment.
One of her friends came over to where we were talking and asked if everything was ok. Jas told her that we needed to talk and everyone should leave. I didn’t really know what to say and I just held Jas’ hand and we walked back down to my car and drove home. She was crying and begging me to talk the whole way. I just asked her two questions. Why hide the pregnancy from me? Why get an abortion? My initial guess was that she was afraid of what our parents would say (fair enough) about having a baby before marriage but I was so wrong.
She said she told her parents the night she found out and they were supportive of whatever she chose to do. She admitted that she lied to her parents that she told me. Anyway, she also told her best friend Lily (who did not show up to the hilltop proposal which I thought was weird but didn’t think too much of it) and asked for her advice. Lily told her that I was cheating (I have never cheated) and she should abort the baby as she didn’t deserve to be tied to me for 18 years. Jas didn’t believe her but said she would get a PI to look into me and get an abortion in the meanwhile. By the time we got home, I knew the full truth and decided that our relationship was done. She hid that she was pregnant from me, she hid getting an abortion, she lied to her parents about telling me, on top of that, she trusted her friend more than me and decided to have a PI look into me.
The love I had for Jas was gone. I calmly told her that we were done and asked her to pack her things and be gone by the next morning (it’s my apartment since before we met and her parents live 20 minutes away and she has her own car) and left to go stay in a hotel room for the night. She begged me to not leave her and try to see things from her angle. I had texts and calls from our friends asking what happened but I didn’t respond to anything. I just ate and fell asleep.
Sunday:
I go back home the next morning and see she hasn’t packed anything. We have the exact same conversation as the day before. I tell her that she has two options. She can either pack her things and leave on her own or I will put all her things into some garbage bags and go drop it off at her parents’ place. I leave and spend the night at a hotel again.
Monday:
I woke up to a text from her telling me that she left and she was sorry. I also got a text from her parents saying they’re sorry on behalf of Jas. I responded saying there was nothing for them to apologize for and asked them to take care of Jas and thanked them for their love and support.
Later, she announced to our friends that we broke up in our group chat. She didn’t specify the reason and just said we wanted different things. That evening, I got a message from Lily, asking to meet up and saying she is worried and wants to check up on me with a red heart emoji. I had no interest in this and didn’t reply and sent a screenshot of the message to Jas. Jas and Lily got into a heated argument in the girls-only group chat. As per a screenshot I received from one of the other girls (Emma) in the group, Jas blamed Lily for manipulating her into getting an abortion and for ruining our relationship and Lily admitted that she was jealous of Jas and had a crush on me and tried apologizing. I got a lot of crying voice notes from Jas that night apologizing more and begging me to take her back. I felt bad for her but I can’t trust her anymore. I didn’t respond and asked Emma to check up on Jas and make sure she is okay.
Tuesday, Wednesday:
Emma told me that Jas is okay and I thanked her for checking on her on Tuesday. Nothing on Wednesday
Thursday:
I meet a girl at the gym and we start talking and we make plans to meet up the following day. Nothing from Jas, Emma, or anyone regarding the situation.
Friday:
I go for a walk in the city with the new girl and we grab dinner together. Before anyone asks, I was up front to her about my situation with Jas and she said she didn’t mind.
Saturday:
I walk to my favorite cafe to get some work done on a personal project. As I’m working, Jas sits down across the table from me. She admits to following me for the last few days. She’s crying, yelling, and apologizing all at once. She says she’s “willing to overlook” me going on a date with someone else. I packed up my stuff and grabbed her hand and went outside where we could talk without causing a scene. I tell her calmly that I will always love her but I can no longer be with her. I told her I hope she heals, moves on, and finds someone new who brings her all the happiness in the world. She was following me on foot so I drove her to her parents’ place and she asked me to hug her one last time and I did and we said our goodbyes.
As soon as I get home, I’m bombarded by messages and calls from Jas’ friends except Lily and Emma accusing me of destroying her mental wellbeing and self-esteem. To be completely honest, I have no idea what I did now that they're all mad about? Telling her I hope she finds someone else and finds happiness? I don’t know anymore. I’ve silenced my phone and I’m here typing this, wondering if I went about this the wrong way. I’ve never used Reddit before and I’m hoping I could get some unbiased opinions here.
AITA?

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Another thread reminded me that I saw this 45-min documentary was broadcast on May 18th 2024 on UK Channel 5 but I didn't catch it at the time. I've gone through it now on Sky catch up - nothing really new here imo, mainly fluff, but I am posting so people can see what is being broadcast here about George / the RF. Quotes are exact quotes, the rest is my summary but pretty close to what was said.
Narrator (N): George's story begins on 29/4/2011 - W & K wedding. Simon Vigar (Royal Correspondent 5 News - SV): W & K wedding was a happy moment for the country in the midst of the financial crisis of the late 00s. Afua Hagan (Royal commentator - AH): PW was hugely popular as was Kate.
Section about Queen Elizabeth doing the Olympic ceremony - N: "the Royal Family found themselves enjoying a surge in popularity", echoed by the other talking heads
N: In Dec 2012 KM announced pregnancy. AF: "it was hugely exciting because we knew this was going to be another heir"
N: they chose St Marys Hospital for the birth, same place Diana went. Weeks of anticipation, George born on 22/7/2013, Archive footage of W & K outside the hospital with newborn George etc.
SV: "the arrival of George meant that the line of succession was secure"
SV: "this 'Lion King' moment with the king in waiting"
N: "although their choice of name drew from centuries of tradition it soon became clear that their approach to parenting was more modern" - covers William with the car seat, driving Kate back from hospital himself, etc - more hands on, they are being more 'normal'.
N: W & K had always had a close relationship with Kate's parents. In first few months of George's life they retreated to the Middletons' family home in Bucklebury [Berkshire]. George's baptism - following tradition but more modern approach to the rest of it - choice of godparents (only Zara as a royal, all the others were non royals), "cosy, child-first atmosphere".
N: Australia/NZ tour (10 days) when George was 8 months, contrasted with Queen Elizabeth's tour of NZ where Charles was left at home age 5. Footage of them on the plane steps etc. William and George travelled together which was a break with protocol (usually avoided due to risk if anything goes wrong), had to persuade Queen Elizabeth.
N: they are following tradition in having a nanny. They recruited the nanny Maria Borrallo in 2014 - from a school that's produced many Royal nannies - Norland College (Bath) - the world's foremost Nanny college. The nannies can earn six figures and are trained on all sorts: evasive driving, self-defence, lifesaving, etc.
Royal historian: "We know that she's [Maria] been with Prince George since he was around 8 months old. So she's built a real bond with him. The fact that she's still with them, she's doing something very very right for that family."
Education - break with tradition, heirs were never sent to school historically. King Charles broke with that tradition by going to Gordonstoun, was miserable & bullied though. AF: William has learned from that and wants to make sure that doesn't happen to George. George's first school (Thomas's) focuses on building character, creativity, kindness, etc as well as academics. Age 9 - went to Lambrook School - ethos of happiness, kindness, concern about the world.
Privacy - age just 2 William was put in front of the press, body language expert says he was visibly uncomfortable, regular press intrusion throughout his life. Agreements between RF & media weren't in place then - talks about the agreement they have now with the press, they issue their own family pictures at Christmas etc, thus devaluing 'pap' pictures. Describes Kate taking a lot of pictures, they're more "intimate", candid, family pictures rather than pro.
Age 2 - meeting with Obama (visit to KP) - [nothing notable here, just fluff]
George included on trips to Commonwealth countries, early exposure.
2015 - Charlotte born, then, Louis 3 years later. Fluff about George as a big brother, close knit family.
Piece about William and George watching football (Aston Villa). Body language expert describes the 'mirroring' of body language between W & G at these type of events - facial expressions, movements, wear the same suits - twins/mini-me. Narrator says Charles, William also learned by imitation in the same way.
Talks about W & K involvement with charities, Charles & the environment etc. - George will follow.
N: "KC has big plans to shake up the monarchy as a whole, with the young prince front and centre"
Prof. Robert Hazell (Professor of Constitution UCL - RH): "Charles before he became King expressed the wish for the monarchy to become more streamlined, and that is happening. And happening perhaps rather faster than he expected, because of the disappearance of Harry & Meghan, and also of Prince Andrew. I think it's possible that Prince George will be pressed into service rather sooner than he or his parents might have wished".
Tangent about the streamlined monarchy, photos etc. Queen's Xmas broadcast - family video footage from inside the Palace.
2022 - Queen Platinum Jubilee - George started to be given more exposure, talking heads say he seems comfortable with it.
George will be 11 in 2024, need to plan next stage of his education - where next? Eton (William's school), Marlborough (Kate's, also Zara's)? George is part of the decision making process. Marlborough is co-ed (mixed sex), this would be another break with tradition if he goes there - would allow Charlotte to be at the same school. SV thinks Eton must be in "prime position" due to proximity to Windsor etc, but "we shall see", will be "a tussle between mum and dad".
N: In future where will George go to university? W & K both went to St Andrews so that is a possibility - or could he go to Cambridge? No decisions yet.
Queen Elizabeth death - George now 2nd in line. SV: "it's all about succession, this is a family firm that's been doing the same thing for around 1000 years".
Background about first 'solo'/major royal engagement being a rite of passage for future monarchs. William at 23. George at 9 at the Coronation - footage of Charles & Camilla etc - George was one of 4 "pages of honour" for this ceremony, Charles wanted him involved, new era of family first. Talking heads say he took it in his stride, carried it out well, dutiful, confident, 'got on with it'
About contingency planning - RH: "If anything were to happen to Charles as King, and to William as the heir apparent, formally George could not become King until he reaches the age of 18. If George were not old enough himself to become King, that would trigger a Regency." N: "That scenario is thankfully highly unlikely".
Military involvement - many royals still choose to serve in the military e.g. Charles (navy) William (helicopter pilot) - N: "it's still early days and there are rumours that when the day comes George may choose to break the royal mould" - he might not serve in the military, no decisions yet though.
N: "The reign of King George is likely many decades away. But it's clear the monarchy he will inherit is undergoing a transformation." - Talking heads: monarchy is changing, slimmed down, we are no longer an empire, monarchy will become more like the ones in mainland Europe.

I am going to work on being calm and nice and try to be nice to make a community because I need some questions easily answered I will not click links someone linked on someone’s post led to spam I want to know if someone knows of therapy or therapy groups out of the normal traditional mental health with mental health my experiences in the health system was horrible I am pretty much healthy many vegetable’s I barley ingest sugar went from 200 to 145 pounds I am also not sick in my system I use to have anemia, but I eat so many vegetables and the green ones are none to be rich in iron I do not have anemia anymore plus my views on non sick bodies are meaning anemic, diabetes, cancer you get the gist no one of them can have chemical imbalances I believe chronic stress can lead anyone to insanity oh the question is do you know of any other kind of of groups I will research them a small tidbit with little complaining from me this year I lost my best friend my dog and money problems and also past stress I will only add important post I will not except anything. Furthermore, I will talk on public forums not private messages it is the internet you know safety first I am an adult I would appreciate 18 up, but I will not make my way I will not stop who comments or what is what is said I will not babysit.