Hi apes,

Can you feel it? Its finally here. but its not really anything like what we thought, ITS BETTER! That said I know how unforgiving you are so ill start with my superstonk credentials . Its just a link to my first post here so you will know that I am a dumbass ape that thinks the orange crayons taste the best.
Even so i expect to get torn up but I cant stop thinking about this, however before we start.
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To Mr Roaring Kitty,
I want to take a moment to thank Roaring Kitty for everything. You made us a family, made us money and most important of all you gave us hope, there really was none. Even if we fail it was worth every penny.
Personally I had just lost my mom from COVID. We were so poor she died alone in a rehab bed since the beds were full in the hospital. We could not see her since it was a secure facility, she was just, gone. So many of us lost.
That is when I met the apes, your apes, your movement, and then it became our movement.
Kitty, you will never have to buy another beer again in your life. That goes double for your wife who also must have had to endured some shit, from both friend and foe. Hi Mrs. Kitty.
You didn't have to do any of this and you have inspired me and others to change the world, with or without tendies. You are not alone, we are on your motherfucking left!
Your Hamms is on us! Cheers!
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APES I don't care if you do it here or anywhere but you let him know how grateful you are. You may copy past the following "Thank you Roaring Kitty!".
alright so on with it, most of this is tin foil hat, but we are used to that.
Since we have so many new apes, many whom have felt the pain of being the victims of market manipulation this week, I will be defining things that are common knowledge for us Silverbacks.
all of this is, like my opinion man ok?
Disclaimer: Most everything I have learned of stocks I have learned with my fellow silverbacks. I am not a financial ANYTHING nor am I the algorithm Aladdin or the AI that reads these threads in order to change positions in the stock market. If you follow my advice you will end up naked in a small town in Mexico holding a banana in a moldy tortilla reciting Vogon poetry in Spanish pig latin (EFE)

WHATS WITH ALL THE MEMES FROM KITTY?

They are a genius move that do 2 things.
1- The Memes give us hints into what the plan is that cannot be stopped at the same time circumventing AI and the ALADDIN algorithm that reads these posts and adjusts the shorts position accordingly. While simultaneously making everyone ask "is it him?" this is called plausible deniability. Aladdin controls 70% of the market and is controlled at least laterally by a shithead named kenny, we don't like kenny, but he is irrelevant now.
2- The Memes are also a trap for the shorts who are thinking in an archaic way, spending literally billions to keep the price down using Synthetic shares. Maximizing the payoff by making them borrow more shares from us!
SEE GENIUS!
WAS E.T. HIS LAST POST?
You think a gangster like kitty goes out with a whimper like ET?

• V FOR VENDETTA (meme) the music is in overture.
• Run forest run, (meme) on a bridge 3/4 of the way over. Also a bridge is capital that you use to acquire businesses.
• 741 is everywhere which means the document filed for the 45 million shares and the possible use to exchange in stock for stock trade. also i saw the number 14.7 somewhere in there, percentage?

The last meme will be wonderous I expect nothing less from the man himself.
Selling him short like that, Shame on you!
But honestly I don't know.

WHAT IS A SYNTHETIC SHARE? WTF IS A DARKPOOL?

Synthetic shares, in the context of "seller boxing" and dark pool trading, refer to financial instruments that replicate the economic effects of owning actual shares without representing real equity ownership in a company. These shares are created through derivatives like options, swaps, or other financial instruments. When combined with seller boxing and dark pool trading, synthetic shares can play a significant role in market manipulation strategies. Here’s how this process generally works:
Seller Boxing Explained: Seller boxing is a strategy used to suppress the price of a stock by overwhelming the market with sell orders, often without actual stock changing hands. This keeps the stock price artificially low and can create a negative perception of the stock's value, making it unattractive to potential buyers.
Dark Pools Explained: Dark pools are private exchanges or forums for trading securities, not accessible by the public. They are often used by institutional investors to make large trades without exposure.
To KISS : Synthetic shares are just that, fake. But they important how we are going to the fucking moon, its how we are going to get paid. Last week a massive amount of dark pool synthetic shares were used.
At this moment you should understand that if the price is fake, and even buying at the tippy top last week is still a good bet, when MOASS happens.

OK SO WHEN IN THE FUCK IS MOASS?

According to the memes within a few weeks, be zen there is a plan.
This is the part where I get crucified by my fellow apes, and I am happy to take my licks.
I Believe that if MOASS could happen on the open "fair" market it would have in 2021 and again last week.
I believe that the only way to have MOASS is away from Aladdin, halts and dark pools. we must completely be out of the bog of eternal stench.
THE WORLD saw first hand last week, and it was maybe even for our benefit, that MOASS cannot happen in the fair market exchange with halts and the opposition illegal tactics.
So either GME cleans up the entire system that was created to work against us and take our homes, businesses and lives. Or we see what's in the box. (couldn't find the kitty "seven" meme)
I think that Kitty and the gang know this and we are all getting our tendies in a different way and Its bigger than we ever thought possible, BEAR with me please.

How would you communicate if anything you said was used against you? Ever had to prove you are human?

You see Aladdin and its bitch Ais ( I'm talking to you Aladdin, fuck you) can't understand memes, A computer does not know why Dickbutt is funny. SO the hedgies have weaponized social media against us with bots and AI. Anything you say or do is a product they can use against you, your words have value and sometimes determine what happens to your favorite stock.
Hence the Kitty Aladdin Meme
"They are fast but I am faster" Aladdin is the bad guy here. Go watch it again. "all you got to to is jump".
IF MOASS CANT HAPPEN ON THE fair MARKET THEN WHY ARE YOU SO HANDSOME AND CHIPPER?
Because of genetics and the filing of a document (prospectus supplement) and the EARLY preliminary earnings report.
It is not very common that earnings reports are released early. Very much less common that they are released early WITH A LOSS.
There was a big chunk of money "missing" "lost", where did it go?
Well put on your tin hat as this is what keeps me up at night.
KITTY/GME/TEDDY HOLDINGS/? wanted us to put together that they are creating a huge holding company conglomerate and we will be in it trading our shares for something that is shielded from the market manipulation of Aladdin.
The "missing" money is a hint along with the filing. The "LOSS" on the earnings report had the wonderful effect of triggering the algo to kick into gear and short the shit out of our beloved GME.
THIS MADE THE HEDGIES HIT THE LOWEST PRICE THEY COULD MAXIMIZING PROFIT GAINS FOR THOSE OF US NOT CHEATING THE SYSTEM
They used their own algorithm against them to put another nail in the coffin. I still am in shock from the move, bravo!!!
So what's it all mean?
I believe that Gmerica/TEDDY HOLDINGS (and others) has already been created, that the "missing" money was used in the deals. These were probably set in motion years ago, and cannot be stopped now.
For every 1 GameStop share, they'll get 4 of Another company they made the deal with. And for every 4 GameStop shares, they'll get 7 of say Shit, shower and shave shares, for example. (a real possibility, if you know you know)
This happens between companies attempting to purchase each other using stock as the currency.
As for the holders they will likely get to swap out their shares for the shares in the new massive holding company.
I think that we will be trading our stocks in for shares with blockchain attached and we will be shielded from market manipulation. (tin foil straight up guess)
Lets say this happens and they give a dividend. That would trigger THE MOTHERFUCKER OF ALL SHORT SQUEEZES. the MFOASS™
Oh and to get really APE kicked in the face here, since we would no longer need to lock the float to prove to some bought worthless politician, that they are doing something illegal DRS becomes less important. I say this having another 200 shares headed to the purple circle so be gentle.
Since they create shares from nothing then it does not matter how many are Street named.
I still say buy, hodl, DRS. but read the prospectus supplement. If I'm right it details not matter what you got you are in.
Add in the new CAT (consolidated audit trail) system still controlled by shitheads and we have ourselves more than a few tendies. Which jives with GME and kitty not leaving any ape behind, not a one.
WHAT IS THE BEST PART?
The best part is that the companies that would comprise this conglomerate will include SSSY, Lego, Chewy, sax 5th ave and many others (in the memes) and it would rival amazon. Only less heartless and possibly even a decent wage.
Many of the stores that we would have in the holding companies were shorted into oblivion by the very assholes that we are revolting against.
Sweeet Sweet JUSTICE!
.... what I am saying is that...
oooo look a penny...
QH
On your left.

[WEAPONS]
Anti armor:
AAE - 50Cal x2
AASs25 - Enforcer
AA50vhc25 - Harpoon
AASs90 - Handy buzz
AA25aim15r - Handmade
AA50c15r - Auto pipe
AA2515r - .44
AA2515r - Railway
AA2515r - Railway
AAE90 - Gat Gun
AAE50dr - Railway
AAE15R - Gat gun
AA2590 - Harpoon
AASs15b - Chainsaw
AA2590 - Fixer
AA2525 - Fixer
AAE1P - Fixer
AA2550dr - Gamma
AA50c25 - Lever action (lvl 25)
AA50C15R - Bolt Pipe (lvl 10)
AA2590R - ult laser rifle
AAEfms - 10MM Pistol
AAE - Pump shotgun
AA50C50B - Handmade
AA50C15R - 50 Cal*
AA50C90Rw - Crossbow*
AA2525 - Assaultron*
AA2525 - 44 Revolver*
AA2525 - Pipe AutoRifle*
AA40Ss1S - Hachet*
AA40Ss1S - Pitchfork*
AA40Ss90Rw - Super Sledge*
AA40Ss50B - Chinese sword
AASs1S - Grognak
AASs25 - Shepherd crook
AASs40B - Golf club
Aristocrat:
A2550B - AD
A50c25 - Fatman
AE250Dr - LMG*
A2515C - Enclave*
A2515C - Tesla*
AE100Ms - Fixer*
A40Ss50B - Cult dagger
Assassins:
As50c25 - AD
As2525 - Double barrel
As50c25 - Enclave rifle
As2525 - Radium
As2525 - Pepper*
As2515C - Radium*
As2515R - Gamma*
AsE250Dr - Fixer*
As50C15R - Fixer*
Berserker:
Ber25 - Auto Granade*
BerE1A - Powder Rifle*
Ber40Ss - Shishkebab*
Bloodied:
BSs1s - Mole Gauntlet
B2515c - lmg
B2515c - Rocket
BSs90 - Grognak
BE15r - Lmg
BE15c - Handmade
B50c15c - Double barrel
B2590rw - Enclave pistol
BE - 10mm
B50c15r - AD
B40Pa40% - Chainsaw
B50c25 - Fixer
BE15R - Railway
B2550Dr - Nu laser
B2550Dr - Ult laser
B50c25 - 50cal (level 25)
BE50Dr - Handmade
B2550Dr - Gamma
B50C15C - Railway
BE1A - Dragon
B25Aim50Dr - Bow*
B50Bash15R - MiniGun*
BE - Pipe Auto*
B25 - 50cal*
B50C15C - 50cal*
B2525 - Assault rifle*
B25250Dr - Plasma*
B40Ss1A - Baseball Bat*
B40Ss1E - Mole Gauntlet*
B40Ss15B - Sledge*
B40Ss1E - Shishkebab
B40Pa1S - Sheep club
Executioner:
E50c25 - 10mm Pistol
EE15R - Handmade*
EE100MS - Powder rifle*
E50C15C - Crossbow*
EE - Railway*
E2515C - Radium*
EE15C - Fixer*
E50C15C - Fixer*
EE250Dr - Fixer*
E50C15R - Fixer*
Exterminator:
Ex2525 - Gat Plasma
Ex50C15R - Gauss*
ExE25 - Handmade*
Furious:
F2525 - Combat rifle
FEGhost - 50cal*
FE1P - Railway*
F50C15C - Handmade*
Ghoul Slayer:
G50c25 - AD
GE25 - Western
GE25 - Submachine Gun
G2525 - Tesla*
G40Ss15c - Revolutionary sword (no blade)
Hunter:
H2525 - Assaultron
H1515R - Fixer*
Instigating:
I50C15C - Hunting rifle
I50c25 - Broadsider
IE1P - Powder rifle*
I2525 - Plasma*
Juggernaut:
Jug50c25 - 50cal
JugE - Pipe bolt
JugE1A - 50cal*
JugE - Handmade*
Jug25250Dr - Tesla*
JugE15R - Fixer*
Jug40 - Power fist*
Junkie:
JE15r - Lmg
JE250Dr - Minigun
JE - 10MM Pistol
J50c15R - Nu laser
JE - Pump
J2525 - Broadsider*
J2515R - Cryo*
J25Aim25 - Flamer*
JE50B - Handmade*
JE25 - Western*
J40Pa1A - BearArm
J40Ss40Pa - Grognak
J40Ss40Pa - Machete
J40Ss - Shishkebab
J40Ss15 - Sledgehammer
Medic:
M2590 - Flamer
Med2590rw - flamer
MedRap15c - AD
Med2525 - 50cal
MedE25 - Dragon
Mutant:
M2525 - Handmade
M50c25 - mini
M50c15c - Fatman
M2590 - Tesla
M2550dr - AD
ME15R - Radium
M2525 - 10MM SMG*
M50C25 - Handmade*
M2515C - Fixer*
Mutant slayer:
Ms40pa90 - Chainsaw
MsSs1s - Grognak
MsE25 - Handmade
MsE25 - Fixer
Troubleshooter:
TE15R - Fixer*
T2525 - Tesla*
Quad:
Q50c25 - Handmade
Q50c25 - Reguler Plasma rifle
Q50c25 - AB
Q2550b - AB
Q25fms - AD
QE25 - Mini
Q25fms - Mini
Q50c25 - Gat gun
QE250dr - Railway
Q2515c - Auto Enclave (all mods)
Q50vhc25 - Nu Laser
Q25 - Nu Laser (lvl 15)
QEFms - Gat gun
Q50c50b - Handmade
Q25Aim - Ult laser
QE90Rw - 10MM Pistol
QE - 10MM SMG*
Q25 - Radium*
Stalkers:
SE15 - Dragon
Troubleshooter:
Tr2515r - AD
TrE25 - Lmg
Two Shot:
Ts25aim - Agl
Ts50vhc50b - Cryo
Ts50vhc25 - Auto pipe
TsE - Handmade
Ts251a - Enclave Auto
Ts25 - Enclave pistol
Ts251a - Ult laser
TsE14c - Dragon
Ts2525 - Fixer
Ts25 - 10MM Pistol
TsE15R - 10MM Pistol
Ts251A - Nu laser
Ts50CGhost - Fixer*
Ts50c15 - Enclave Auto*
Ts25Aim50Dr - Gatling Plasma*
TsE100Ms - Lever*
Ts25 - Tesla*
Vampire:
V25aim1a - Lmg
VE - 50cal
Vrap15b - Chainsaw
VSs90 - Cult blade
V40pa25 - Drill
V50C15R - AB
VBash25 - Minigun
V25Aim15R - AD
VE50b - Fixer
VE25 - Fixer
V50C25 - Flamer
V50c15c - Nu laser
V2525 - Ult laser
VE25 - Powder Pistol*
V50C15C - Gatling Plasma*
VE - 10MM SMG*
VE - Lever*
V50C15R - Enclave Auto*
V40Ss15B - Boxing
V50c1S - Cult dagger
V40Pa1S - Mr.Handy
V40Ss1S - Meat hook
V - Revolutionary sword (no blade)
V40Ss - Shishkebab
V40Ss90Rw - Super Sledge
Zealot:
ZE15C - Fixer*
ZE15R - Fixer*
Z50C25 - Gatling laser*
Z2525 - Cryo*
[ARMOR]
Assassin:
A1aCav - Marine RL
A1iCav - Marine LA
AapCav - Light Combat Chest
Aap - Light Combat LL
AFireWwr - Light Metal RL
AapHtd - Heavy Leather RA
Aap15b - Light Metal RA
AapWwr - Light Raider LL
A1LCav - Heavy Combat LA
A1sSent - Ultra Chest
AutoStim:
Au1eWwr - Heavy Leather LL
Au1AWwr - Urban Scout Chest
Au1AWwr - Sturdy Combat LL
Au7%LedWwr Urban Scout LA
AuPJwr - Raider Power RL
Bolstering:
B1iSent - Sturdy Combat Chest
BapAwr - Sturdy Combat Chest
B1cSent - Heavy Combat RL
Bap - Light Combat LA
B1LSent - CE LL
BradSent - CE LL
BHungerSent - Heavy Leather RA
BHungerWwr - Heavy Leather RA
BapLock - Light Leather RA
BHazWwr - Marine LL
B1iSent - Marine LL
BapWwr - Marine RL
B1iSent - Urban Scout LA
B1iSent - Light Robot Chest
B1LSent - Marine RA
B1cSent - Urban Scout Chest
B1LWwr - Urban Scout LA
BapAwr - Wood Chest
B1sWwr - Wood LL
Bap50b - Wood RL
B1iCryo - Ultra LL
BhungerAwr - Ultra RA
B1cFdc - Ultra - RL
B1iWwr - T45 RA
B1sWwr - T45 RL
B1eWwr - T45 Chest
B1iFdc - T45 Chest
BapCav - Ultra LA
B1iSent - Ultra RL
BfireWwr - T60 Chest
B1LWwr - Ultra RA
B1iSent - Xo1 Chest
BapEnergy - T51 RA
B1sFdc - T51 Chest
Chameleon:
ChapHtd - Heavy combat Chest
ChHazSent - Heavy Robot RA
Cloaking:
CapSent - Urban Scout Chest
Lifesaving:
L1eFdc - CE Chest
L1iSent - CE Chest
L1sRadrec - Light Combat LA
L1aWwr - Forest Scout LA
L1pWwr - Forest Scout LL
L1eWwr - Forest Scout RL
Lap - Heavy Metal RA
L1eWwr - Heavy Metal RA
L1iFdc - Heavy Robot RA
L1iFdc - Marine LA
L7ledWwr - Marine LA
L7ledAwr - Marine RA
LapFdc - Sturdy Robot LA
LapWwr - Light Robot LA
LapFdc - Urban Scout LL
LapHtd - Urban Scout RA
LapSent - Trapper Chest
Mutants:
M7%LedSent - Heavy combat LL
Mutant slayer:
MS1iSent - Ult LL
Overeater:
O1iFall - Light Combat RA
O1iBlock - Forest Scout Chest
O1LWwr - Forest Scout RL
OapWater - Heavy Metal RL
O1iPoi - Heavy Raider LL
O1eFdc - Marine LA
Oap - Marine RA
OapBlock - Sturdy Combat LA
O1sFdc - Sturdy Combat LL
Oap - Sturdy Metal RL
O1sSent - Trapper RL
OcryoWwr - Trapper RL
O1iRadRec - Urban Scout LL
OapBlock - Urban Scout LL
Oap - Wood LA
O1cSent - Ultra LA
O1iCav - Ultra LL
O1pWwr - Ultra RA
O1iCav - Ultra Chest
O1iFdc - T45 Chest
O1iWwr - T45 LA
OpoisSent - Ultra LL
Regenerating:
RpoisonSent - CE RA
Rap - Forest Scout Chest
RapWwr - Forest Scout RA
Troubleshooter:
ThungerFdc - Light Robot RA
T1iFdc - Urban Scout RL
Unyielding:
UhazWwr - Heavy Robot LL
Uradres - CE Chest
UpoisonCav - CE LL
UapCav - Light Combat RA
Uap - Forest Scout LA
UapBlock - Forest Scout RL
U1cSent - Heavy Leather LL
U1cWwr - Light Leather Chest
U1pSent - Light Leather RA
UFireWwr - Marine RL
UcryoWwr - Light Metal Chest
UapJwr - Heavy Metal RL
UapFall - Heavy Robot Chest
U1LFdc - Light Leather LA
UapFall - Urban Scout Chest
U7ledWwr - Urban Scout Chest
U1aCav - Urban Scout LA
UapFire - Urban Scout LA
Uap - Urban Scout RL
UfireWwr - Wood Chest
URadWwr - Wood Chest
Vanguard:
VhungerFdc - Marine LL
Vap - Heavy combat RL
V1iLimb - CE Chest
V1iBlock - CE RA
VapSent - Light Combat LA
V7ledJwr - Light Combat RA
V1iSent - Light Combat RA
VradFdc - Forest Scout Chest
VapLimb - Forest Scout Chest
VPoisCav - Forest Scout Chest
VapStim - Forest Scout LA
VradSent - Forest Scout RL
VfireFdc - Heavy Combat RA
V1i - Heavy Combat Chest
V1iCav - Heavy Leather RA
V1iWwr - Trapper LA
VfireSent - Urban Scout Chest
VapRadrec - Urban Scout Chest
VapEnergy - Urban Scout LA
VapJwr - Urban Scout LL
V1eSent - T60 LL
V1iWwr - Ultra LA
VapWwr - T45 Chest
V1cSent - Exca LL
VapAwr - T51 LA
VapAwr - T51 Chest
VcryoFdc - Exca RL
V1iFdc - T45 Chest
Weightless:
Wap - Sturdy Combat RA
W1iCav - CE RA
W1iCav - Forest Scout LA
W1sWwr - Heavy Combat Chest
W1sAwr - Light Robot RL
W1iAwr - Sturdy Robot LA
W1sWwr - Urban Scout LA
WapSent - Wood Chest
WapCav - Wood LA
W1iSent - Wood LL
W1iWwr - Wood RA
Wap - Wood RL
Random:
Legacy Shishkebab 3* Ss15b
PSA - Ultra Set
[APPAREL]
Responders uniform
Buffoon
Crazy guy
Deathclaw
Skull lord set x2
[PLANS]
Behemoth Plushie
Pepper Shaker
Vintage Water cooler
Brahmin Plushie
All Alien plans

Just installed a Joying 8" Android 12.
So far great head unit. Sounds fantastic, puts out strong clean signals.
Replaced an older head unit and just swapped over necessary wires (12v, acc, illum, etc). Turns on and off with key just fine.
However with the key out and radio off, its still warm several hours after turning off. I've even made it "power down" with no acc (vs go into sleep mode).
I had a USB OBDII plugged into car and head unit. Just unplugged the OBD side of it, hoping that that power was keeping the head unit powered.
Any thoughts?

I'm a male in early thirties. I'm a non native speaker of English so I would appreciate talking to someone over voice calls with a native English speaker because that would also improve my spoken skills. Not that I am bad at it or anything. Just not super fluent, if I may.
A nice, platonic friend, someone level headed and grounded who can listen to me and be with me through thick and thin would be nice.
I have exams from next week so need some company. Even a couple or so of voice calls in the whole week would be really nice. Message me if you are interested and please don't ghost if we click because I don't want to waste my time. Rest is up to you, you may ghost if you like (can't force anyone right? :)

I have alot on my mind and alot of people will say "we'll so does everyone" . I understand that statement we'll but what I'm trying to say it that i have this tendency to have a an idea of a story and with in a few minutes I have the first 6 chapters ready to write in full detail. Now where do I get it from ?? No fu**ing idea . No clue. I just roll with it and see what keeps being written. Does this happen to anyone else?? A part of me feels like I have alot of creativity in my mind that I need to get out and another part of me feels like because I have trouble being able to articulate my feelings into words , which turns unto this super intense story i made up in my head to deal with the trauma 😅. Idk 🤷‍♂️ 🙃 but if anyone has the same experience. Please let me know 🙏
Also I would do love to go off writing alot. If you guys want to see some stuff let me know . I currently do have a finished/on going series done .

(mods took this down and said put it in discussion, but i can’t put it there because it’s too long i think. if it needs to get taken down i understand! but ive seen others up so im giving it another try)
doing a relisten as I write this :) ratings all /100
overcompensate - 78: incredible song on its own. people have been saying ALL the singles feel separate from this album, but i think that’s just because they’ve been out much longer. OC is the only song that truly feels separate. that being said, absolute banger and still a crazy way to start an album/live shows
next semester - 80: this was my most listened to song of all time three days after it dropped. love the 2000s punk vibes. that ending sells it for me. absolutely beautiful. was really surprised when paul did the “production peek” and there’s not a single guitar on this song😟
backslide - 82: looking back, this song gave us a huge look into what a lot of the album would sound like. dry delivery, passionate chorus, and filled to the brim with weird noises and synths. this one feels underrated because i know a lot of people aren’t a huge fan, but this became my favorite of the three singles after a few listens. that chorus is beautiful. the end is so weird too but it scratches my brain. thank you paul meany
midwest indigo - 93: that second verse is probably on of my favorites in their whole discography. CLOUD COVERAGE MATCHED MY OUTFIT TO A KNIFE (heavily processed scream) I REQUESTED COUNCIL WITH THE COUNSELOR AND HE CANCELED TWICE‼️‼️‼️ that’s all i have to say.
routines in the night - 95: my favorite here on first listen. the chorus is so catchy and the vocal production is so clean. i like the slightly autotuned second verse. his flow is great and the tricks they’re doing to the vocals is so cool. the prechorus on this song is also beautiful. “the space between a painful reminder and a terrible dream” the writing on this record is amazing
vignette - 100: masterpiece of a song. feels like im getting pushed out of a plane. i could not BELIEVE that chorus when i first heard it. one of tyler’s best falsettos and maybe best recorded vocal performances. it all feels very self titled, but if it were produced by modern twenty one pilots. im so glad they’re using real (or at least very convincing) string sections.
the craving - 72: beautiful love song. none of the previous album love songs were quite as “real” as this one. truly feels like the intersection between personal struggle, insecurity, and unrelenting love for another person. i’m a little iffy on some of the vocal deliveries and it does slow down the album a bit. however, after i listen to the album more, i feel like it’s a much needed slowdown and the placement is really thoughtful.
lavish - 75: this song is ridiculous. it grows on me every single time i listen. that beat truly does feel like a million dollars and it’s hilarious hearing tyler rap over it. i didn’t like the chorus initially but again, after more listens, it works so well and it adds so much to the song. and then of course there’s the proctologist line. it took me so long to get it and even now i only have a vague understanding of what it could mean😭 either way it makes me laugh every time and im grateful for the inclusion
navigating - 85: ive seen the next semester music video so many times that the bass lick from navigating has been drilled into my head as the start of next semester. now it’s forever tied to that song and it’s so jarring hearing that part here. anyways this song ROCKS. feels super interpol to me. the drumming on this whole album is fantastic and a step up from previous albums but josh stands out here like he never really has. i can’t wait to hear this live and see josh going crazy on the drums. MY OH MY‼️
snap back - 55: i think the thing that gets me is that silly mallet synth in the background. it’s not bad, but it pulls me out of the song and album a little bit. i actually like tyler’s vocal delivery a lot, but unlike most of the vocal tricks on the album, the weird panning high shifted vocals don’t do it for me. all of the sung parts that occur in the first minute and 55 seconds kinda bother me. the song really gets better for me after 1:55, but it isn’t enough to save it for me. i really hope that this one grows on me because there are a ton of cool ideas.
oldies station - 70: people were saying this sounded like AJR. i was confused until i heard those crowd vocals😔 i am not a fan of the way that was executed and it unfortunately does feel very AJR. i thought it was going to be repeated a ton of times, but i was happily very incorrect about that. the song builds out beautifully, and even with the crowd vocals part, this song is written incredibly. was the only song besides maybe next semester to have me holding back tears.
at the risk of feeling dumb - 75: was afraid seeing the name of this song when the tracklist was revealed. it felt a little immature? but knowing what it’s actually about puts me at ease. the intro feels a little silly for the subject matter, but the song it builds into what i was hoping for by the end of the first verse. i love the sentiment and i think it’s communicated perfectly in this song
paladin strait - 83: the only thing holding this back from a 100 is the fact that the bird part wasn’t 6 and a half minutes instead of one minute😔 but for real, JOSH SINGS? i think. i saw someone point it out in the discord, and it sounds like his voice in the “making my way towards you”. i hope that’s him, i really do. i wish this song was really 6 and a half minutes of material instead of 5, but we can only dream of the true 6.5 minute song. its a great closer to this album, but im a sucker for piano ballads so i wish there was at least a little bit of piano in here, but that goes with what i think about the lore. i will elaborate in full album review.
personal ranking:

1. routines
2. vignette
3. midwest indigo
4. backslide
5. lavish
6. navigating
7. next semester
8. overcompensate
9. paladin strait
10. the craving
11. at the risk of feeling dumb
12. oldies station
13. snap back

i love this album. it’s not trench, but it doesn’t have to be. i’m still a trench lover until the day i die, but this album has so many different ideas whereas trench had a cohesive sound palette. the reason i bring up trench at all is because so many people are comparing the two when i feel like they fill their own roles. anyways, this is an incredible collection of songs and i feel like josh truly gets a chance to shine here. tyler’s vocal performances are better than they ever have been, recording wise, and i think everything from the album cover, to the tracklist, to the singles were executed really well. one thing is for certain, this is not the end of the lore. only two songs were directly tied to the lore, being the first and last. whether it’s through videos, singles, concerts, or even another album, i can’t wait to see the true end to it all. personally, i wouldn’t like the non-lore songs to become videos that actually help end it all. it was fine on SAI with saturday and the outside, but i preferred lore related songs with lore related videos like on trench. i don’t believe there will be a double album just because they’ve already done all the promotion, music videos, sold physical copies, and are touring THIS album for the coming year. the only thing they could do immediately in terms of new music would be to release clancy 2 or clancy deluxe with the same aesthetic, but that’s no fun. i simply think tyler and josh are lying and we’ll get another album that’s more lore heavy. paladin strait does not feel like an ending to even the story this album is trying to set up. closer? yes. but not an ending. it’s very transitional and i’d be genuinely surprised if it doesn’t lead into a future album. especially with blurryface popping up at the end. if you got this far, thank you for listening to the ramblings.
album rating: 84/100

Weapons

• Unrolled Aligned Auto Enclave Plasma (x2)
• Two Shot / Last Shot / 25AP Enclave Plasma
• B / +50% Limb / +1 AGI 10mm Pistol
• B / +40% Speed / -25% AP Cost Board
• AA / +40% Speed / -40% Damage While Attacking Ski Sword

Armor

• BOL / Warming / AWR Combat Armor Left Leg
• OE / +1 Int. / Sneak Sturdy Robot Right Leg
• EXT +5% AP / WWR Ultracite Right Arm
• MS / +1 Luck / Food Drink Chem Weight Reduction Botsmith Left Arm
• Nocturnal / +1 Int. / Sneak Botsmith Right Arm
• UNY / +1 Int. Covert Scout Armor Chest
• Life Saving / +1 Str. / WWR Wood Right Leg
• VAN / 25 Poison / Doctor's Marine Left Arm
• VAN / +1 Per. / AWR Heavy Metal Chest
• VAN / +5% AP / Food Drink Chem Weight Reduction Raider Power Left Leg
• VAN / +1 Agi. / 0.25% Rad Damage Recovery Forest Scout Armor Chest
• VAN / +5% AP / Junk Weight Reduction Trapper Right Leg

Plans

• Alien Blaster
• Alien Corpse Operating Bed
• Alien Disintegrator
• Alien Disintegrator High Powered Receiver
• Alien Head Lamp
• Alien Tube
• Astroid
• Barbed Wire Fences
• Blue Ridge Scout Outfit
• Cappy Smasher Super Sledge Paint
• Condemed Notification Sign
• Cryptid Hunter Boonie Hat
• Cultist Adept Hood
• Cultist Enlighted Robes
• Fluttering Moths
• Fuzzy Mothman Plushie
• Honeycomb Paper Holiday Tree A
• Honeycomb Paper Holiday Tree B
• Honeycomb Paper Icy Snowflake
• Honeycomb Paper Jolly Target
• Honeycomb Paper Ribbon Bell
• Honeycomb Paper Snowman
• Human Tube 1
• Human Tube 2
• Laser Gun Tuned Beta Wave Tuner
• Molerat Wind Chime
• Nuka Girl Area Rug
• Overcharged Electro Enforcer
• Plastiform Candle
• Plastiform Gingerbread
• Plastiform Nutcracker
• Plastiform Santa
• Plastiform Santa Sleigh
• Princess Castle Pink Sleeping Bag
• Red Rocket Gas Pump Wall Light
• Red Rocket Gas Station Lamp
• Red Truck Ceiling Light
• Star Light
• Straw Goats
• Tattered Curtains
• Wall Mounted Fan

I forced myself to be attracted to people because I thought that's what I was supposed to do because all the other kids my age were being in love; I just became really good friends with my 'crushes' and never wanted to kiss, hold hands, or do more than just hang out; I never thought any of my classmates were attractive; if society deems someone attractive, then so do I; I never realize people are genuinely drawn to people they think are attractive and want to DO things with them; I think romance is gross when I see it IRL or between live-action people and think it should just stay in books or non-live-action media. I just think people of any gender presentation look pretty. Growing up, I developed a 'crush' on anyone who was nice to me; I had a crush on ALL my friends and just wanted to hang out with them a lot; I got super uncomfortable and my attraction faded when we became 'intimate' with me like holding hands or wanting to date; and I feel this towards ALL genders, so I thought I was pan. But inside my head is the only place I feel sexual and romantic attraction, and it's only between non-live action characters and is always experienced from a 3rd-person perspective. Love and sex are just a storyline to me; I feel the romantic and sexual emotions of the character I'm telling the story's perspective from, but once the storyline ends, so does my attraction. I have a libido; I still experience personal desires, but I find that they can be managed easily on my own. I feel very repulsed by the idea of having sex with someone else. But, when I do get aroused, it's sexual attraction to anyone of any gender, but again, it's viewed from the 3rd-person perspective. After the solo mumbo jumbo, the arousal and sexual attraction fade into nothing; I even get repulsed by sex and romance for a long while after solo spicy adventures. I genuinely don't understand how somebody looks at someone else and wants to touch them, kiss them, and have sex with them. It's always been "Oh, they're pretty!"; it's never been "Oh, they're pretty; I want to date/have sex with them!". When I was a kid, I was a hopeless romantic; I wanted to find my soulmate, but the way of doing that was unrealistic. It was more like a remix of a Disney movie rather than something I actually wanted. I saw other kids my age have crushes, and adults always asked me if I was going to get a boyfriend, so I always thought it was something I was supposed to want, but I don't. I'm fine with being single forever. I'm happy this way, but I also don't want to do anything with anyone, so I feel as though I'm somehow on both the a-spec and m-spec. I’m not sure how exactly. All I know is that I consider both men and women attractive, but I don’t necessarily care about their gender identity when it comes to finding them attractive or not. I honestly can't understand how someone wants to do romantic or sexual things with another person. I dated this one guy in my freshman year, and it only lasted a week, and I avoided him like the plague the whole time. I felt all mushy and blushy when we talked and did things together, but once we started dating, I got super uncomfortable. We texted, and I was a huge flirt, saying we could hold hands and all that stuff , but when I went to school and he wanted to hold hands, I didn't want that. I didn't like being touched in a romantic way. I'm fine with my friends, though. What's confusing is that, at the same time as never wanting or feeling romantic attraction, I still want to do those things. I literally only feel romantic and sexual attraction to fictional characters. Because I am attracted to [female OC] and [male OC] (currently speaking, not speaking about past fictional crushes). I always have the strongest desire to be with [female OC], touch her, kiss her, and do other things, but I don't feel those things in the real world. She is literally my soulmate. Yes, romance and sex are still just a storyline to me, but I would say that I am in love with her. And sometimes the same can be said for [male OC]. There are some moments where I, Rowan, will get blushy and just smitten over him, but again, it's never in the real world. Would this even be considered a romantic or sexual attraction? I think it would. It's very rare when I feel something for real-world people, but it's always on the a-spectrum, like cupioromantic or grey-, for example.
— Rowan (they/he)

This is my first script. Please be kind. If it sucks, it sucks, but I had fun writing it nonetheless.
Please link me if you use/fill it. I would love to hear your take on it. Free to monetize, Youtube, Patreon, whatever, I just want to hear it. :)
Please give me credit: RE: My Darling / Remy Darling

Scene setter: Italics
SpeakeVA: Bold text with "quotes" outside of the sentence/phrases
Internal monologue: Bold/italics
Action of character or SFX: ((Double Parenthesis))
Response from a character: ((pause))

Speaker: You are Killian James a.k.a. Hook. Your eyes are the color of the sea, your hair is dark as night, and you are dashing, troubled, and flirtatious. The lilt of an accent gives you a melodic tone, and your personality is dark, playful, and direct. You are comfortable in three-piece suits, and are a dangerous man with many secrets.
Listener: Your name is Wendy. Your friends have convinced you to go to a bar downtown in the more dangerous part of the city due to rumors, only they end up bailing without you. You are going to go home after you finish your drink. The bar is called Never Land, Where, according to your friends rumors, the owner is a mysterious man that they all seem fascinated with. Apparently, he is tall, dark, and handsome – a devil of a man that goes by a strange name. They call him… Hook.

((SFX – The club is above this basement 'torture chamber' area-you can hear the music of the club playing muffled. The basement area is clean and not dungeon-y but is more of a modern torture chamber with drains for easy ah… clean up))
SCENE: There is a man chained/tied up. Hook enters the room, looking almost bored that he needs to be there. He takes off his jacket, handing it to one of his henchmen, leaving the vest on, before he unbuttons his cuffs and starts rolling the sleeves up.
“I’m not pleased that our shipment is late, Mr. Jukes. It was supposed to arrive on a super yacht named the ‘Jolly Roger’ today with a bunch of rich snobs who were none the wiser. Your men guaranteed me that it would arrive with the staff and be loaded off on the dock shortly after, however, that is yet to come to fruition, and I am not a patient man.”
((SFX: VA puts on leather gloves, stretches fingers and gets comfortable in them))
“I am aware that they have taken a detour due to a storm, Jukes – but your mismanagement of my time, and my money, are not to be forgotten. Bad form, Jukes! Bad form!”
((SFX: dragging knife sound – //our character uses a tactical Hook knife. It’s typically for gutting deer – not really necessary to know, it’s just to flesh out the character for you//, Hook approaches slowly))
“I know it won't happen again. Don’t worry, Jukes, since this is your first time having erred with me, I shall simply leave you with a small reminder. I expect the shipment to be directed to our port swiftly, otherwise, I won’t be nearly as lenient again.”
((SFX chains straining, screaming that becomes muffled screaming, as Hook takes his knife and leaves the man with a Cheshire Grin/Glasglow Smile up one side of his face, heavy breathing for a moment, as he returns and throws his knife down on the table))
“Get me my other three-piece suit from my office and a clean shirt. I’ve got this bastard’s blood all over me. He's not to be given his freedom until I hear that the shipment has come in from the Jolly Roger. If it does not go to plan – we will have to take further, more drastic actions and I don’t want to have to find this cad, Mr. Jukes, again. Do I make myself clear?”
((henchmen answer))
“Good.”
((SFX – him pulling off the leather gloves and getting changed))
“One of you stay here and watch him. Tonight I’ll be on the club floor. I’m not to be interrupted until The Crocodile has made contact. Is that understood?”
((pause))
“Good. That is all.”
((he leaves))

((SFX – transition to this however you like))
\*modern day, bar scene/sounds (*no* jazz or classical music - it's a nightclub), people mingling in the background. In enters our VA/Hook.*

“Tinkerbell, pour me my usual, will you, dear?”
((Tink is quick, and slides him his drink. Sip, sigh, and pause as he looks around)) (( This internal thought is not necessary but if you want to, go for it ))
\*internal thought*\** Who’s this? Oh my, sweet lamb, you are definitely in the wrong place.
“Tink, one last thing, could you possibly tell me anything about that young woman there? The one in light blue.”
((listening intently for a moment))
“Hm. Lovely. Thank you, dear.”
((SFX – he puts down his drink, footsteps/fine Italian leather shoes approaching the young lady who is at the bar))
“Well, well, well… Isn’t that a beautiful dress on an even more beautiful woman. That color of blue really suits you. You… are a piece of art. A fascinating and intriguing piece of art. However, you don’t quite seem like you belong here.”
((pause))
“Someone as divine as you, as *innocent* as you, dressed as you are, doesn’t really seem to fit in. Not in this kind of place. You look more like you would fit in one of the high-class jazz lounges uptown. Martinis, a piano player, velvet couches and the like. Do you think that you fit in amongst these gentlemen of fortune and these women dressed in their slinky club clothes? Look around, do you see the patrons here?”
((short pause as she looks around))
“Don’t you see? You are simply dressed too elegantly for a place like this. No, you, my dear, are definitely not the type that belongs amongst these fiends. You belong uptown. Not here, amongst the dregs of society like us. Your mannerisms are too graceful, you walk with pride and your chin up – this is not the body language of one of my people.”
((pause))
“Well, I happen to own this establishment, Never Land, so I am rather familiar with the likes of the people who tend to come through its doors, and I have never seen you before. You seem quite unforgettable. Could I have the pleasure of having your name?”
((pause))
“Wendy… What a lovely name for such a lovely woman. Well, Wendy, darling – my name is Killian. My friends call me Hook.”
((pause))
“So many questions! What an inquisitive slip of a thing you are. Perhaps, we could talk over a drink?”
((*VA snaps fingers* Bartender Tinkerbell approaches immediately and waits)) ((ListeneWendy begins to decline))
“Don’t fret, darling. It’s just a drink. Should you find yourself not interested in our conversation or in me, you are more than welcome to leave and go back uptown to the *safe* areas of the city, where the likes of people like me and my ilk will be of no bother to you ever again. But should I pique your interest, perhaps allow me the grace of your presence again in the future.”
((pause))
“Just one drink. And nothing more.”
((ListeneWendy accepts))
“Delightful! Tink, if you could get us another round. One of whatever the lady was drinking, and my usual.”
((short pause as he takes her in before sighing and leaning in closer to speak to her))
“Darling, do tell me, why have you wandered into the seedy underbelly of our city? What is it exactly that you are searching for? Mystery? Intrigue?"
((whispers // into her ear))
"...*Danger*?”
((VA leans back and there is a sly curling of his lips into a crooked smile))
“Mm, that blush really does make me think that you truly are as innocent as I originally thought, Darling. Albeit, I am sure you knew what kind of danger you could get into coming to a place like this. You may be looking for danger, but it seems danger has found you instead.”
((pause))
“Oh, yes, danger. There is plenty of danger here. However, it seems like that’s something you seem to be searching for. Should I inquire as to –“
((VA leans in once more))
“What *kind* of danger you are looking for? See, Darling, that’s the thing about danger… You may only want a little but you never truly know how much you’re going to get.”
((pause))
((VA - practically whispered across her lips or ear, you imagine how close you want to get))
“Ah, yes, Wendy, darling. I happen to be very… Very… Dangerous.”
((Listener steps back))
((he gives a low chuckle))
“Do I … make you … Nervous?”
((short pause and VA steps forward as Listener shakes her head defiantly))
“Or perhaps, I am not the kind of danger you are looking for?”
((closer))
“Do you even *know* what you are looking for, my little lamb?”
((dangerously close to her))
((pause))
((drinks come at this time delivered by Tink – VA returns to less invasive persona))
"Ah, thank you, Tink. You’ve impeccable timing. Shall we? I’d love to take this to a VIP booth I prefer to sit in. It will give us a little more privacy and won’t be as loud. Come now, pet."
((footsteps/music/whatever SFX have them move to a slightly quieter place, sit in a booth))
"Do you mind, Darling? I’d much rather be sitting next to you than across the table. That way I can hear you better. Yes, that’s it, just move in a little further."
((this gives no escape for Listener as James/Hook is between the easy exit and her – SFX of her moving over if you want to get technical and him sitting next to her))
((pause))
“Ah, *that*. The name Hook… It is simply from a childhood long ago. Raised in an orphanage with many other lost boys like myself. It’s a truly heartbreaking story, I’m sure, but I’d like you to remember our first meeting in a different light. Not melancholy and deep, dark secrets. Not yet, anyway. Perhaps, if you decide to embark on a journey with me in the future, or are willing to grace me with your presence again, we can discuss it then.”
((Listener nods, nervously))
((he leans in))
“But you, Wendy, darling –“
((whispered // reaches out to draw a finger down her jawline as he looks from her eyes to her mouth))
“You still haven’t answered me.”
((pause))
“About what *kind* of danger you are looking for…”
((pause // leaning in))
“Are you looking for something – just a wee bit threatening? Perhaps something that will get the heart pumping momentarily?”
((pause // leaning in))
“Or perhaps, a singular thrilling night before the sun rises and the fun is over?”
((pause // leaning in))
“Or… are you looking for something darker? Something much more dangerous. Something soul shattering that will devour you whole? Something that makes you question your morals… Your boundaries… Something that will burn you to ash and will leave you begging me for more even once I break you?”
((kisses Wendy))
“Do you know what kind of danger you want yet, darling? That last one… It is not a wise idea for a sweet little lamb like you, but I promise... You’ll love it.”

Today was super hard. I think about him all day ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT. Even in the moments I’m distracted somewhat I’m still replaying moments in my head. I didn’t think I’d make it past 24 but here I am. I’m fucking losing it I hate him so much I wish I never met him. I want to unblock him, text horrible shit, scream at him. All the while he hasn’t even tried to contact me at all and is probably fucking other girls. I hate this life I need a redo

It seems like since he’s essentially certain to play, Kohli’s batting position will largely determine the make-up of India’s XI. 6-11 is pretty much confirmed, with Siraj and Chahal likeliest to sit out, given their expensive form of late, and tendency to do the same in T20Is. So it is mainly the top 5 which Kohli’s batting position will determine, the main debates being Samson vs Pant and Jaiswal vs Dube (however, see below for a more out-there option)
If Kohli opens, which is what many people have been justifiably pushing for, then it will be with Rohit, so Surya will follow at 3. For the keeper-batter, Samson is a better bet at 3 or 4, and Pant at 5 or 6. So in this case, it will be Samson. This will mean Dube slots in at 5
1) So the line-up if Kohli opens would be: Rohit, Kohli, Surya, Samson, Dube, Hardik, Jadeja, Axar, Kuldeep, Arshdeep, Bumrah
6-8 is interchangeable, especially since Jadeja > Axar > Hardik in batting this IPL, also Arshdeep could come head of Kuldeep, if ever needed to tonk a few
However, if Kohli bats at 3, then it will be Jaiswal opening with Rohit, and Surya will follow Kohli at 4. This means Pant could well get the nod over Samson at 5, which many may argue is undeserved. Dube will likely miss out, given he is best off in the top 5, where he can primarily focus on dominating spinners. Similarly, Jaiswal over Dube may not be the fair call
2) So the line-up if Kohli bats at 3 would be: Rohit, Jaiswal, Kohli, Surya, Pant, Hardik, Jadeja, Axar, Kuldeep, Arshdeep, Bumrah (again lower part is interchangeable, as explained above)
The only alternative, out-of-the-box option is still having Kohli at 3, but playing both Dube and Jaiswal, going very batting-heavy and leaving out either Hardik or Axar instead. Although perhaps unfair, Hardik is likelier to stay even in this case, due to the need for enough overs of seam, and he is also the selected VC. Again, it would likely have to be Pant over Samson, this time at 6. This option leaves the batting order a little lopsided, and it will also be difficult to rely on Hardik and Dube as the 5th and 6th bowlers
3. The line-up here would be: Rohit, Jaiswal, Kohli, Surya, Dube, Pant, Hardik, Jadeja, Kuldeep, Arshdeep, Bumrah (lower part interchangeable)
To me, it seems that the first option is overall clearly better than the second and third. Kohli is probably best off opening like in this IPL, where he can dominate in the powerplay, and it also allows Surya to face as many balls as possible too. Then the spin-hitters and later the seam-hitters can come in and dominate the rest of the innings. Importantly, Samson and Dube are arguably more deserving of starting than Pant and Jaiswal respectively
So of the 13 main candidates, the XI that gets selected will be greatly determined by Kohli’s batting position. It basically settles the few main debates: Samson vs Pant and Jaiswal vs Dube (or AxaHardik if going batting-heavy). As I said, I’d go with the first line-up, with Kohli opening. What do you guys think?

So this guy and I have been talking for about three weeks. The first couple weeks that we started talking, he was a perfect gentleman. He took me out on dates and paid for every single date, Wouldn’t let me touch the car door etc. Very chivalrous guy.
After he showed a pattern of being very chivalrous and romantic, I decided to show him some reciprocity, and I invited him over to my apartment where I provided a meal and refreshments and we watched a show together. I did this just to show him that I liked him and to reward his generosity towards me. I also wanted to show him that I was appreciative of the times where he took me out and never once asked me to pay. Sometimes women use guys for free food and I just wanted to show him that that’s not the reason I was continuing to see him and that I actually enjoyed his company.
After this, we got into the habit of hanging out at my apartment together. He started coming over more and things progressed between us physically. We haven’t had sex, but we definitely fooled around a little bit if you know what I mean.
Anyways, fast-forward to this week. Because he noticed that chipotle was one of my favorite places to eat, when we first started talking he told me that if I was ever craving chipotle that he’s got me and I just have to let him know. So I figured that I would take him up on that because I had a bunch of meal prep in my fridge that I just really wasn’t excited about, so I figured I would just ask.
So I called him, and I asked him if he could cash app me for some chipotle, and he had a super odd reaction and basically told me that it was wild of me to ask him to cash app me for chipotle. I asked him why this was wild. He said that he was open to buying me food if we were on a date or if he was physically present, but that he wasn’t comfortable just sending me money for food. I was genuinely confused on what the difference would be in terms of paying for food for me when he’s physically there vs giving me money for the same food?
I say this because there have been times where we were at the gym together and when we finished working out and we both drove to chipotle and he paid. So I didn’t understand why giving me the money and me picking it up for myself was so drastically different. I also knew that he was busy so I didn’t want him to have to go and physically pick it up. That’s why I just asked him to cash app me.
Anyways, here’s where I feel like I personally messed up and I feel like I could’ve phrased it a lot better so I definitely do acknowledge that but basically when I saw how he reacted, I said something along the lines of “it’s wild of me to request you to cash app me for chipotle but it’s not wild of you to ask me to get on my knees and…….” ( You can use your imagination lol )
But yeah, basically he got super upset and felt like I was throwing that in his face and we’re currently not talking anymore because I said that. I do feel like I could’ve phrased it a lot better. I guess what I was trying to say in a roundabout way was that if we have been being intimate (to a certain extent) and I’ve been giving you access to my body (to a certain extent) why is it wild or weird for me to ask you to cash app me for food? Why would you make me feel weird about that? I definitely do take accountability for the way that I went about communicating that though I didn’t necessarily have to use that specific instance of intimacy between us to make that point.