Russian female skater husband died

Hello!
I'm going to be frank and say I've never made a game before. However, I've studied this particular game in and out nearly since the beginning of its development a year ago. It's taken a plateau and the dev has gone radio silent. I myself have taken an interest in game design (not enough that I would have immediately launched into a world of MMORPGs, of course; a story-heavy point-and-click or text adventure because I love text adventures maybe) and my sister went to school for it. I can learn how to use a program and I'll definitely have help. But right now, the dev has been silent for months. And it's killing the community and the game. It breaks my heart. He's already tried to sell the game once, but they didn't do anything except change the Discord art to something racially questionable (don't ask) and he took it back and went quiet again. So I want to propose to buy it.
Once I learn how to be a game developer, I'll propose to buy it. As this is his first game, too, and it's still young despite being over a year old (he's been on vacation for a while...), I'm confident I can learn the skills necessary to catch up if I put my mind to it. I've been a staff member on the team overseeing the community for a while, now. So, I'm learning how stuff on the community side works hands-on. I've studied every aspect of the game I could from my side of the screen. (Handy when catching cheaters who up their stats just enough to not be noticeable to the average person!)
A few problems I'm running into (aside from lack of experience with game development on my end, which I will rectify) would be not knowing what to offer him. I tried to look up what it takes to buy another game, but most results talk about very old games, stuff like ancient NES and Atari games. I'm trying to revive a dying game from an indie dev who likely is taking a permanent mental health vacation. Yes, he's a one-man army. He does everything himself. He left the Discord to a few other people (us) but doesn't care about it.
Any advice would be welcome! (If you're going to tell me I don't have enough experience to buy the right to an indie game, I know this already. I might not even go through with this, but I need to try. There are others in the community with game development experience, my sister went to school for it and her husband has family in the business. I can't watch this game die. I've met so many cool and wonderful people here. I don't want to see it end like this. Hey, maybe I offer to buy the game and he tells me no because he has a cool new overhaul on his computer he's been working on and just hasn't told anyone because he's awful with communication and he'll actually take interest in the game community again and start at least acknowledging the ideas and opinions of his players.)

Welcome to This Week In KPOP, a collection of everything you may have missed during the past week on kpop.

May 11, 2024 - May 17, 2024

TOP 10 STORIES

#	Votes	Thread	Comments
1	(+3146)	CL shares new 2NE1 pictures in honor of their 15th anniversary	125 comments
2	(+2423)	tripleS have earned their first ever music show win for "Girls Never Die" on SBS M The Show (240514)	129 comments
3	(+1941)	fromis_9 Receives Love Calls + Comeback After Calling Out Neglect from Agency	99 comments
4	(+1849)	Ailee to marry Single's Inferno's Choi Sihun	109 comments
5	(+1795)	29 year old sentenced to prison for posing as BTS members to obtain unreleased tracks	89 comments
6	(+1666)	7 Members' Agencies For Kep1er Reportedly Agree To Extend Contract — Yeseo And Mashiro To Join LIMELIGHT Instead	299 comments
7	(+1587)	TWICE Nayeon to have her comeback on June 14	55 comments
8	(+1552)	TWICE's Dahyun Reportedly Cast As Female Lead In Korean Remake Of Taiwanese Film "You Are the Apple of My Eye"	83 comments
9	(+1404)	KISS OF LIFE Confirmed To Make Summer Comeback	54 comments
10	(+1193)	Fire At M! Countdown Filming Studio Results In aespa's Comeback Recording Cancellation	81 comments

HYBE vs. ADOR

Votes	Thread	Comments
(+361)	Megathread 5: HYBE vs. ADOR - Ongoing Dispute, Meetings Ahead, and More	6276 comments
(+437)	Megathread 6: HYBE vs. ADOR - Insider Trading allegations, MHJ Injunction Hearing, and More	6338 comments

TOP ANNIVERSARIES

#	Votes	Thread	Comments
1	(+3141)	CL shares new 2NE1 pictures in honor of their 15th anniversary	125 comments
2	(+370)	Happy 9th Anniversary to MONSTA X!	14 comments
3	(+209)	Happy 6th anniversary to UNI.T!	18 comments

TOP 10 PERFORMANCES

#	Votes	Thread	Comments
1	(+1031)	[Live] Comeback Stage: aespa - Supernova @ Mnet M Countdown (240516)	63 comments
2	(+557)	[Song Cover] XG Chisa, Hinata, Juria - Losing You (orig. FLO) (XG Vox #6)	39 comments
3	(+336)	[Performance] IVE - Accendio (1theKILLPO)	18 comments
4	(+295)	[Live] Follow-up Stage: IVE - Accendio @ Mnet M! Countdown (240516)	16 comments
5	(+279)	[Performance] tripleS - Girls Never Die (M2 Relay Dance)	16 comments
6	(+238)	[Live] Follow-Up Stage: tripleS - Non Scale @ SBS M The Show (240514)	7 comments
7	(+214)	[Live] NMIXX - Love Me Like This, Roller Coaster, DICE, Run For Roses, DASH @ 2024 Sungkyunkwan University Natural Science Campus Festival (240516)	19 comments
8	(+110)	[Song Cover] NMIXX Bae - Flower (orig. Johnny Stimson) (MIXXTAPE: Track 06)	2 comments
9	(+109)	[Performance] BADVILLAIN - Hurricane (Live Clip)	1 comments
10	(+105)	[Song Cover] Ailee and NMIXX Haewon - Wild Flower (orig. Park Hyo Shin) @ KBS Synchro U Episode 2 (240517)	2 comments

TOP 5 DANCE CHALLENGES

#	Votes	Thread	Comments
1	(+167)	tripleS Xinyu (with SEVENTEEN JUN) - Girls Never Die (Dance Challenge) (240511)	2 comments
2	(+148)	TripleS Xinyu (with ZB1 Zhang Hao) - 'Girls Never Die' (Dance Challenge) (240517)	7 comments
3	(+93)	SEVENTEEN Jun (with tripleS Xinyu) - MAESTRO (Dance Challenge) (240511)	1 comments
4	(+89)	aespa WINTER & CHUNGHA - Supernova (Dance Challenge) (240514)	0 comments
5	(+82)	tripleS Nien & Xinyu (with NMIXX Sullyoon) - Girls Never Die (Dance Challenge) (240512)	0 comments

TOP DISCUSSIONS / FEATURES

#	Votes	Thread	Comments
1	(+42)	Throwback: JUN HYO SEONG made her solo debut with "Good-night Kiss" this week in 2014	1 comments
2	(+24)	/kpop Top Ten Tuesdays Results: P1Harmony (2024)	4 comments
3	(+21)	JTBC Girls On Fire - Episode 5 (Post-Episode Discussion + Preliminary Ranking + 72-Hour Survival Game Performances Part 3 + Second Elimination + Rival Death Match Performances Part 1) (240514)	7 comments
4	(+24)	What Are You Listening To? - May 15, 2024	30 comments

MUSIC SHOWS

Date	Performances	Discussion Thread	Winner
20240511	Music Core	Thread	SEVENTEEN
20240512	Inkigayo	Thread	ZICO / JENNIE
20240514	The Show	Thread	tripleS
20240515	Show Champion	No Broadcast.	No Winner.
20240516	M!Countdown	Thread	SEVENTEEN
20240517	Music Bank	Thread	SEVENTEEN

 

NEW RELEASES

Day	Artist	Album Title	Type	Music Video	Streaming
11th	You Dayeon (ex-LIPBUBBLE)	keep it low	digital single	keep it low
12th	JO1	Love seeker	Japanese pre-release single	Love seeker
13th	Stray Kids	Lose My Breath (Remixes)	remix single	Lose My Breath (Stray Kids Ver.)
	aespa	Supernova	pre-release single	Supernova
	ALICE	MILKY WAY	digital single	MILKY WAY
	ZEROBASEONE	You had me at HELLO	mini album	Feel the POP
14th	Chaewon (CLASS:y)	Americano on a rainy day	digital single	Americano on a rainy day
	DXMON	HYPERSPACE 911	single album	Girls, Love boys, Love girls
	WHIB	ETERNAL YOUTH : KICK IT	single album	KICK IT
15th	ITZY	Algorhythm	Japanese single album	Algorhythm
	We;Na	Step like We;Na	mini album	Baby Step / Valhalla
	The Wind	Sirius Part. 2	anniversary single	Sirius Part. 2
16th	UmYull	Love Innocence	digital single	Love Innocence
	Mark (NCT)	200	digital single	200
	Ryu Sujeong (Lovelyz)	Orange Juice	digital single	Orange Juice (feat. Yein (Lovelyz))
17th	Sorn (CLC)	crazy stupid lovers	digital single	crazy stupid lovers (feat. Hongseok (PENTAGON), WILD)
	257	BLACK OUT	debut single album	BLACK OUT
	MEANSHOCK	The Promised Flower	digital single	the Promised Flower (feat. Byeol Eun (ex-Melody Pink Eunbee))

"This Week in KPOP" Archive

So, I've (30 f) been with mostly men for a huge majority of my life. I felt I was meant to service men, not for any specific religious reason, but moreso trauma from my childhood. Anyway, I tried hard to fit the mold. Even married a textbook narcissist at 19 and going through an abusive rollercoaster. With them, I came out as queer for the first time, though he didn't like that much. Fastfoward past our divorce and many other men I dated to fit the mold of what I was supposed to be- in service of men- I finally started dating women. I came out as a lesbian at 26, or around that time, and got into a three-year relationship with a horrible abusive woman I met online and moved states to be with, only to watch her spend money on weed and neglect her son. After that, I dated a few other women; one was even an engagement, but that ended on a raw-end. I dated one man a final time, trying to fix myself, but I couldn't fake the motions and he fit the narcissistic mold my exes tend to fit, I met my current spouse while living with my ex (we were no longer together) and his then girlfriend. They are nonbinary and swept in to save me from the chaos that was my life. Since meeting them, my relationship with women have changed to become healthier and I feel more confident. Through their patience and self love, I finally came out fully as a lesbian and haven't looked back. People judge just because my partner is amab nonbinary, but I feel the title of a polyamorous lesbian fits me best because they have been the only person I've ever felt a genuine romantic attachment to, including my ex-husband, who isn't a female. I love them very much, to the ends of the earth, and they've accepted my sexuality as a best friend and lover should, with joy and acceptance. They have been who has helped me grow more confident and I'm just using subreddits for lesbians for the first time and it's exhilarating! Thank you for listening to me ramble <3

throw way so he cant see this
i 18(female ) just graduated from highschool the last month of my school year my best friend leo (17 ftm) and i have been friends for 6 years . he was upset with me over leaving afterprom early. i had left becuse my hearing aids were dieing i appogized and he accepted it. i thought that was the end of it but our other friend alice(15 f) who is the biggest narcissistic asshole ever like the type to make every single conversation and event be on her, decided that becuse i could give leo and my date a ride to afterprom and home from afterprom but not her that i suddenly yelled at leo and called him a bitch. all our friends including leos date agreed this never happened. i appogized anyways as i didnt want drama however alice still continued to cause drama.
alice was released from jubie ( for aggregated assault) about a year ago and ever since meeting leo they grew very close. we remained a trio. every single day wed sit together and call everynight. alice said she had a ride to afterprom so i shurged it off and didnt save a spot in MY car.
now for some more content i have a younger sister with severy autism ,there was a case of abuse on her bus she wasnt effected thankful but still saw it. she is nonverbal/nonspeaking and uses sign and a talker on rare occasions. she has the mind of a 3 year old as well.alice thought it would be a great idea to causlly say to me that my sister should have been reporting said abuse and should be appart of the guilty. this was completely random and uncalled for. i ingored her becuse i wasnt in the mood to ague.
leo had asked me to send him videos and ohotos of me and him during the years yesterday (friday) . i had a question on if he wanted a photo so naturally i walked over to his lunch table to show him and ask. instead of leting me askbleo the question and show him a photo alice grabed by phone and threw it across the cafeteria scratching the brand new screen protector and damging my case. she called be a bitch . i causlly sent in our group chat to fix drama before the assembly at the end of the day and was sent a simple. "No you should recognize your a complete birch" from both alice and leo. after that leo started claiming all i did was lie and i should just ki// my self.
I was shocked still am,my other friends have convinced me to break off my friendship with them before i go.to college over text. would that make me the asshole? but i really dont want to be friends with them any more.
edit: This isnt the first time i have been told to off myself by them ,they both pull this every dance my school hosts.every time its something about my deafness causing the issue
(note op has dyslexia post was speech to text mostly, op is deaf )

I truly think it's easier to die now than be the one left living.
Last November, I watched my grandma die with my grandpa by her side. Watching him break down and say goodbye to her was heart wrenching. I said to myself, "I never want my husband to feel this pain."
Two weeks later, my husband died. He will never have to feel that pain over me. Sitting here on the couch, I am incapable of getting up because the pain is too deep. The only thing that brings me comfort is that my husband isn't the one laying on the couch feeling the pain of losing me, if our roles had been reversed. That is still more painful to think about then the pain I am I am in right now.
I love and miss him so much.

In proper English said "niece" is my second cousin once removed who lives a couple hours' flight from me. But in my culture "once removed" is the same as niece/nephew or aunt/uncle, so I will refer to this 16-year-old girl as Niece.
I am very close to her mother, my second cousin (42F). She recently flew in to attend a funeral in our family. While staying with me I learned that Cousin intends to move out tonight and file for divorce this coming week.
Cousin does have an affair and is leaving for her AP. In general I usually oppose affairs vehemently, as I have survived my own father's affair and know how it hurts the family. But please refrain from judging my cousin, because the point of my post is about what I could do to support her daughter, rather than debating the morality of my cousin's infidelity.
With proper context, I understand why Cousin went there. She's been enduring chronic emotional abuse from her own STBXH (43M) including rape, and being silenced and shamed for grieving for her father who died earlier this year.
Cousin has had trouble leaving because like many survivors of abusive marriages it takes time and enormous effort and willpower to pull off leaving. Not to mention that she and STBXH run a business together and have been striving to brave a presentable face for their delicate professional network.
Cousin's marriage has been dead for years, but before she managed to completely pull off leaving, her AP came into the picture and catalysed her exit. While I would never condone cheating to betray a loving spouse, I do find myself sympathetic to this particular grey area, especially because I see that the AP happens to have goals, values and capabilities that align with what Cousin needs in order to pursue a fulfilling future and not live the rest of her life as a zombie in an undead marriage.
Cousin has informed her 21-year-old son of the upcoming divorce and her affair. Although Nephew is a devout Christian who in principle does not condone divorce and affairs, he understands that this marriage has killed his mother's spirit, and he supports whatever his mother needs to do in order to reclaim her own autonomy, confidence and identity. He promises to look out for his sister in this difficult and potentially traumatising transitional period. He also told his mother that he loves her no matter what, though he is also honest and firm about boundaries like being unwilling to meet the AP because he does feel that AP has robbed him of his mother.
Niece has not been informed of what is about to happen in the coming days, and my heart breaks for her. Like her older brother, she is an intelligent and hard working young person with big dreams for her future, and a good heart. And I know she also loves her mother to the moon and back. My heart breaks for her because she will be blindsided by her parents' upcoming divorce.
Despite the marriage troubles, Cousin describes STBXH as an otherwise good father and provider. He will contest the fault divorce, but Cousin will offer him a full share of the house and custody of their daughter, because she will be moving to the countryside for her next job.
My Aunt (Cousin's motheNiece's grandmother) also lives in Cousin's STBXH's house, but will also be blindsided by this upcoming divorce. Aunt is a good person who I know will do her best to support her granddaughter, but she will also struggle with her own grief and strong emotions, and often speaks unfiltered before thinking.
While Cousin was staying with me, I addressed preparing Niece with some other good key people in her support system. I suggested hooking Niece up with a psychologist to see on a fortnightly or monthly basis so that she has a reliable adult figure to help her process her complicated emotions in a non-judgmental safe space, develop healthy coping skills and overcoming strategies, disarm traumas before they have a chance of festering, and gets empowered by someone who can model reclaiming her identity and self-worth in a world that's changing overnight.
I also offered to check in with Niece and to be there for her through this difficult transitional period.
I'm not half as close to Niece as I am to her mother, but we are on friendly terms. My ex husband is a novelist/filmmaker and my Niece is a huge fan of his, so at one point she texted me lovely compliments and expressed enthusastic interest in my ex's newer works-in-progress. I also offered her words of support when her now late grandfather was hospitalised and her family moved to his city to care for him.
I guess this brings me to my questions. Because I care about my Cousin, I'm interested in contributing to Niece's support system by offering to be there for her as a safe adult she can trust and approach anytime for perspective, a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on and a voice of reason. What can I do for a teenage girl in my extended family who is going through a parents' divorce blindsided?
For those of you who have been in these aunty/uncle shoes before, what are some do's and don'ts and key lessons you have learned from your experience?
And for those of you who survived parents' divorce as blindsided teenagers, who were the best safe adults in your support system at the time, and what did they do for you? Or if you weren't as lucky, what kind of support did you wish you had, and what do you wish adults in your life back then did differently?
Finally, what can I do to facilitate recovering my niece's love and respect for her parents in spite of their faults and her anger and grief about it?
Thank you!

I have a positive story to share. I avoid this sub for the most part unless I’m in a bad place mentally, but I’ve been wanting to share. I will try to keep a very long story short.
I’ve had emetophobia since I was as young as 4. It only cropped up if someone got sick near me or if someone in my house was sick, but for the most part it didn’t bother me on a daily basis.
Shortly after having my daughter, my husband got a series of sb* right in a row. I was already dealing with PPD/PPA, and this sent me over the edge. It got BAD. I barely remember the first two years of my daughter’s life. At my worst, I spent an entire trip in New York in the hotel room because I was convinced I was sick (I wasn’t). My husband actually got sick on another trip, and I left him in another state, booked him a separate flight home, to avoid sitting next to him. Just painting a picture of how bad it was. For a period of time, I was suicidal, I was taking Xanax around the clock just to get through the day, and I got on Zoloft to help manage. I was in a case study to do EMDR for emet, which also helped a lot.
I took up a pretty strict lifestyle where I went to therapy weekly (still do), took an MBSR (mindfulness based stress reduction) course, and took up yoga. Over the course of a year and a half doing that, I was able to get off medication completely and deal with my symptoms as they crop up.
Since my daughter started school, it’s been tough, but I make it through. My husband handles when she does get sick (not often) and I usually go to my mom’s house.
UNTIL. We were recently on a camping trip in our camper. My daughter got sick on the FIRST night we were there, the only night we didn’t have a campsite with hookups. No running water, we discovered we didn’t have bleach, and I had a panic attack and decided I couldn’t do it. I got a hotel room across the street, literally bought a separate hotel room for her to shower in, and I was 100% prepared to get an Uber to the airport and fly home the next morning. There was no way I would be able to stay for a whole week in a confined space like that. What if my husband or I got it next?
The next morning I checked on her and had my finger on the button to call an Uber. She told me she felt bad for ruining the trip. I realized in that moment that if I left, I would be proving her right. My husband was extremely supportive and told me he would not be upset if I left but that he would love if I would stay. So I made the decision to stay. I went to Walmart, bought bleach and Lysol and new sheets, cleaned the camper from top to bottom, and tried to enjoy the day outside.
We actually had the BEST trip. No one else got sick. We made SO MANY MEMORIES that I would’ve missed out on by leaving. I’m so so glad I stayed. It was an emotional week for me, and I was so glad everyone in my life realized what a huge step it was for me.
I’m sharing this because I know there are people here like me who believe they can’t do it and that it will never get better. But it CAN. Since I got back, I haven’t been constantly washing my hands or using Zylast like usual. It hasn’t been on my mind 24/7 like usual. I still get anxious when I hear about it, but it’s not occupying my brain all day long anymore.
Tonight, my husband is out of town. The worst time she could possibly get sick. We’re watching a movie and she tells me she thinks she’s going to get sick. I freaked out for a moment, took a Xanax (I rarely take them now) to calm myself, but was able to calm down and figure out a plan. I got everything ready in case it happened. I called my mom and she came over for a while. I still don’t know if she’s going to be okay, but I’m sitting here NOT wanting to die over it. Knowing that whatever happens, we will be okay. Knowing that I can do it.

Hi, One of my female friends is coming to UNT as a PhD student from this Fall 2024. She is looking for a female roommate and willing to move in from Late July/ August 2024. Her husband lives in Oklahoma and he may visit her on weekends. She is a very nice person , keeps everything clean and calm, and minds her own business.She loves to watch Korean drama.
Her budget is 650$ max and She is interested in a 2 bed apartment. Interested ones please DM and we can discuss details, then I will connect her to you.
I would really appreciate your help because it is really hard to find an apartment/ suitable roommate in Denton.

I am a 26 year old female who got diagnosed with asthma when I was 21 (I suspect I have it much longer though.) My husband works at a school and I think brings a lot of sicknesses home, and we have a toddler and between it all we have been sick about once a month with a respiratory illness the past 6 months. I am going to be kind of social distancing a bit and trying to raise my immune system with supplements and good health (open to any suggestions!) This past week we have had some sort of upper respiratory infection or virus. Covid, flu, and RSV negative as well as a clear chest x ray. But my asthma was the worst it had ever been. After maxing out what is basically “allowed” with using my inhaler and nebulizer I decided to go to the emergency room.
I wanted to share what going to the hospital with asthma entailed for me to give anyone looking a better idea of what to expect. I had looked for a post like this before and didn’t easily find one.
When I got to the ED they asked about my symptoms and took my blood pressure, oxygen, and heart rate.
Then they took me back for an EKG to just be safe because of shortness of breath.
Then I had a little area to myself with a chair and was able to talk to the nurse and Dr’s. They listened to my lungs and ordered a chest x ray.
While I was waiting for the x ray they gave me an IV of fluid to hydrate and lower heart rate (it can get high from asthma and anxiety), magnesium to relax the lungs and airways. And Decadron (a steroid) as well as setting up a saline nebulizer for me to break up some of the mucus.
They saw my chest x ray was clear, said it was an asthma flare up from being sick and reassured me that the steroid should help a lot.
They gave me a hydroxyzine to help me relax and help my anxiety.
And they monitored me with the pulse oximeter on my finger for a couple hours while I napped to make sure my oxygen was in a good place before going home.
I am glad I went in and that they were able to help me! I was also sent home with extra saline for my nebulizer the Dr just gave me.
I do also already have albuterol at home of course in inhaler and nebulizer form as well as Symbicort that I take daily and I was on a prednisone taper from when I first got sick.
I hope this helps! Let me know if you have any questions!

BEHOLD!
ETERNAL GESTATOR!
Absolutely zero maintainance needed, only needs 2 herb meds to activate and you'll have a perfectly natural and healthy baby in no time!,
no need to deal with the power, food draining and health complicating shenanigans of growthvats, we make em naturally!,
To make the factories you'll need:
-a willing(optional) fertile female pawn
-a fertile male slave permanently in deathrest or a cryptosleep casket until needed,
-Deathrest, deathless, and gene implanter genes(optional),
Once you have these, here's how to build one!
First! enslave the female pawn, feed her lots and lots of food till her food bar is full!, then order her to deathrest on a bed immediately to pause her food needs at full,
Next! Imprison the slave, strip her of her clothes(she wont need it), harvest her ovum, then order a male slave to fertilize said ovum,
Once pregnant, do whatever, harvest ALL of her organs for some silver, chop off her limbs, do whatever it takes to lessen her weath contribution as much as possible,
because the best usage for this factory is it's modular and cost efficient trait, we can have multiple factories running at the same time!
This way we can mass produce high subcores, human meat, leather and slaves etc!, the reason why we keep a male slave in a paused state is so we dont have to deal with his dramatic breaks because of the amount of his children we harvested.
Notes:
to kill children without it being considered a "kill" use a vampire to drink them dry, game will think they died from a mere bloodlost yohoho,
Always remember to reactivate the farm every 18 days!

Preface: I know how much harder it is for guys to find love w/ societal expectations of 'masculinity' and all. My heart goes out to you guys. I feel like it's definitely harder for males to be alone than it is women
I'm 21 and have never had a boyfriend. Have never even held hands with a guy. It's so shocking when my college friends hear this and people are sort of condescending when I tell them. I have no male friends and my interactions with males is awkward. I think there is something actually wrong with me because when I find out a guy likes me I'm disgusted.. not with them.. but with myself. The idea of a man perceiving me as attractive makes him less attractive to me because I have such a low opinion of myself. I can't talk to guys at all btw, but steadfastly make friends w/ other women. Not being able to interact with the opposite sex is going to be a problem in the long-run since I want to become a physician in the future... and oh boy, it's just going to be harder to get in a relationship from here.
I can only make friendships with guys online... its so easy.. like in video games where the stakes are low. IRL I'm just too self-conscious. The one and only time I fell 'in love' (was never explicitly mentioned by me bc I kept it friendly/professional) was with a foreign guy that I met on a language exchange app. He was just so smart and kind, and he was the only guy I'd ever really told my true opinions about things.. but I was catching feelings for someone across the globe with completely different dreams from a completely different culture so I just told him I was taking a break from the app ..
Besides that, I think female friendships are just better and we have more to talk about.
I'd rather be alone forever than be in bad company. I want to find THE ONE. not just someone.. but my whole perception of romance is f'ed up. I also have unrealistic standards for a man... It's not like I want him to make 6 figures and be 6'5. no.. i just want him to be smart, ambitious and morally outstanding. Like, the idea of having a husband/bf watching porn.. an immediate ick to me and would ruin my perception of that person. Moreover, even though I'm feminine appearing my mindset is extraordinarily masculine, which I feel would cause a clash if I were with a really masculine guy. It's weird, but I desire to be the one protecting my husband. I wouldn't be the type to be turned off by the guy being vulnerable. I'm pretty pragmatic.
What I want from a man more than anything is not even sexual attraction but respect. I just have so much love to give but Im afraid I won't find someone truly compatible with me. I know that if I married someone, so long as that person did not change out of their own choice, I would never leave them. Im sorry for this rant lol, idk what I'm even getting at, but I can't tell any of this to my friends because they simply wouldn't understand. Maybe I just take myself too seriously.

We have so many different ways to express our appreciation for things. This series is an expensive list of the subgenres you can use as a writer to describe the projects you are working with.
Respond with anything you think might be missing, or comments on whatever you have that may fit one, or more, of these awesome definitions of subgenres!
This is supposed to be fun, so no rude Dolphin hate!

1. Ergodic Literature: Requires effort from the reader beyond typical reading, often involving non-linear narratives or physical interaction with the book.
   
2. Bildungsroman: A novel that focuses on the psychological and moral growth of the protagonist from youth to adulthood.
   
3. Eco-Horror: Blends elements of horror and environmental issues, often featuring nature as a malevolent force.
   
4. Biopunk: Explores the impact of biotechnology, genetic engineering, and biometrics on society.
   
5. Cli-Fi (Climate Fiction): Focuses on climate change and its effects on the environment and humanity.
   
6. Chick Lit Noir: Merges elements of women's fiction, mystery, and noir, typically featuring a female protagonist.
   
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12. Kaiju Erotica: Involves giant monsters (kaiju) in explicit or erotic contexts.
    
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14. Biopunk: Explores the societal implications of biotechnology, genetic engineering, and biometrics.
    
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25. Mannerpunk: Focuses on manners, social structures, and etiquette in a fantastical setting.
    
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So to start off this isn't my story but one of my best friend's (Alyssa) but I was there when it happened. It's something that happened a years ago but we were reminiscing about the past & then after seeing a couple other posts similar to this situation, got talking about it. I have been given permission to talk/post about it.
My best friend, who we'll call, James, met the love of his life, Alyssa when we were teenagers. Unfortunately they ended up breaking up over a misunderstanding. A few years later they ended up meeting again through a mutual friend of ours, Alan, who was her cousin at his birthday party. After reconnecting, they fell back in love & got back together. When they wanted to get married not even a year after dating, his family (mainly parents) thought they were moving too fast along with the fact they thought she was only after his money. Which wasn't true because she had her own money as she was doing very well in her career just as he was. And when his family realized that they apologized & warmed up to her. Unfortunately roughly 4 years after they were married, he died in a car accident. The house (which he bought not even a month before they got back together) was in his will to go to her and the daughter they shared together.
Roughly 6 months after his funeral, his sister, who we'll call Josie, showed up at the house. (Alyssa has allowed & still does allow James family to see their daughter along with letting them have her for occasional holidays or almost anytime they want or the daughter wants to go over)
When Josie said that she, her husband & 2 children needed a place, Alyssa was quick to offer them a place to stay until they got back on their feet. (The house is a 3 bedroom with a finished walk-out basement) Here's where it gets amusing in our eyes. Josie, started going off on her, saying how Alyssa needs to move out & find somewhere else to live. That it was only right for Josie & her family to be the one that has her brother's house. She even said that Alyssa only had it because of him and now that he's gone, there's no reason for her to be still living there.
Josie even went as far as saying James would be rolling in his grave Knowing there's "lesbian lovers" living in his house. (I wasn't living there but was there quite a bit to help out) That it was wrong because she (Alyssa) was cheating on James even before he died with me & Josie didn't know why he even stuck with her. Which surprised us both to hear her say cause she always appeared that she liked us both. After they argued more Alyssa tried multiple times to get her to leave but of course Josie said she wasn't going to until "the house was given to her like it should have been all along." Alyssa eventually called Josie's parents & had asked them to come remove their daughter from the house & if they couldn't she'd be forced to get the authorities involved. Thankfully they did but unfortunately over the next month Josie showed up & tried multiple times arguing with Alyssa more over who should be living in the house until her parents threatened to take her out of the will.

I have a positive story to share. I avoid this sub for the most part unless I’m in a bad place mentally, but I’ve been wanting to share. I will try to keep a very long story short.
I’ve had emetophobia since I was as young as 4. It only cropped up if someone got sick near me or if someone in my house was sick, but for the most part it didn’t bother me on a daily basis.
Shortly after having my daughter, my husband got a series of sb* right in a row. I was already dealing with PPD/PPA, and this sent me over the edge. It got BAD. I barely remember the first two years of my daughter’s life. At my worst, I spent an entire trip in New York in the hotel room because I was convinced I was sick (I wasn’t). My husband actually got sick on another trip, and I left him in another state, booked him a separate flight home, to avoid sitting next to him. Just painting a picture of how bad it was. For a period of time, I was suicidal, I was taking Xanax around the clock just to get through the day, and I got on Zoloft to help manage. I was in a case study to do EMDR for emet, which also helped a lot.
I took up a pretty strict lifestyle where I went to therapy weekly (still do), took an MBSR (mindfulness based stress reduction) course, and took up yoga. Over the course of a year and a half doing that, I was able to get off medication completely and deal with my symptoms as they crop up.
Since my daughter started school, it’s been tough, but I make it through. My husband handles when she does get sick (not often) and I usually go to my mom’s house.
UNTIL. We were recently on a camping trip in our camper. My daughter got sick on the FIRST night we were there, the only night we didn’t have a campsite with hookups. No running water, we discovered we didn’t have bleach, and I had a panic attack and decided I couldn’t do it. I got a hotel room across the street, literally bought a separate hotel room for her to shower in, and I was 100% prepared to get an Uber to the airport and fly home the next morning. There was no way I would be able to stay for a whole week in a confined space like that. What if my husband or I got it next?
The next morning I checked on her and had my finger on the button to call an Uber. She told me she felt bad for ruining the trip. I realized in that moment that if I left, I would be proving her right. My husband was extremely supportive and told me he would not be upset if I left but that he would love if I would stay. So I made the decision to stay. I went to Walmart, bought bleach and Lysol and new sheets, cleaned the camper from top to bottom, and tried to enjoy the day outside.
We actually had the BEST trip. No one else got sick. We made SO MANY MEMORIES that I would’ve missed out on by leaving. I’m so so glad I stayed. It was an emotional week for me, and I was so glad everyone in my life realized what a huge step it was for me.
I’m sharing this because I know there are people here like me who believe they can’t do it and that it will never get better. But it CAN. Since I got back, I haven’t been constantly washing my hands or using Zylast like usual. It hasn’t been on my mind 24/7 like usual. I still get anxious when I hear about it, but it’s not occupying my brain all day long anymore.
Tonight, my husband is out of town. The worst time she could possibly get sick. We’re watching a movie and she tells me she thinks she’s going to get sick. I freaked out for a moment, took a Xanax (I rarely take them now) to calm myself, but was able to calm down and figure out a plan. I got everything ready in case it happened. I called my mom and she came over for a while. I still don’t know if she’s going to be okay, but I’m sitting here NOT wanting to die over it. Knowing that whatever happens, we will be okay. Knowing that I can do it.

Tier List: https://imgur.com/a/SPm0Fjl
This one hits different. Right from the start, with those ominous vocals giving the whole thing a feeling of foreboding and momentousness. Donald Trump lurking around the stage for his titlecard, even staying onscreen as his titlecard goes away is hilarious and a great visual touch. Then we get Hillary sitting in her debate chair; this battle committing so hard to a location both rappers are present in is pretty unique.
"I've been in this game too long; I'm a public servant! Have been since I met MLK in person!" Serviceable opening on paper, but the guest actor, Kimmy Gatewood, makes it stick out with her performance. Love the intensity of her voice and facial expressions. "I'm a woman of the people; that's for certain. You're a man of the people who don't like turbans!" This is a great line, very accurate, and I love the look on Hillary's face. "I was living in the West Wing while you were professional wrestling. Got skin like Russian dressing from too much Russian investing!" Good lines, in particular I really dig the Russian dressing/Russian investing parallel. Also, while I don't think Kimmy bears a super strong resemblance to Hillary Clinton(the guest actress from Clinton v. Henry VIII was much more on-point) she does look a lot like her as she does the Russian dance in the background. Something about her wide-open smile. "You been going bankrupt since the 90s; if I was in Iran you couldn't find me." Very true on both counts, very solid line. I don't know what more there is to say. Is it gonna be controversial to acknowledge the reality that Trump's gone bankrupt lots of times and probably couldn't point to Iran on a map, even now that he's been president? "You don't care about the job, Trump, you just think the desk is shiny." I think it's accurate that Trump really only cares about the prestige, but this still seems like a pretty weak attack. Hell, you could argue the vast majority of presidential candidates care more about the prestige than actually doing anything. "I said that I respect your children but that wasn't quite right, yo! Looking like some extras on American Psycho!" This line is pretty fucking great. I didn't get it when this battle first released, but I've seen American Psycho more recently, and comparing the Trump kids to the useless trust fund posers surrounding Patrick Bateman is hilarious. The hyper-aggressive hip thrusting Hillary's doing is also a great visual. For the most part this portrayal doesn't resemble Hillary much, but I think there's some truth in how she's portrayed as being very try-hard here. "First name is Hillary, middle name Rodham, last name is Clinton, and lyrics I got 'em! You fire celebrities on The Apprentice, motha fucka I fire Bin Laden! (Crack!) cough" Being tryhard again. The lines are pretty good, the flow is pretty good. The reference to her coughing is a fun touch. "How do I say this? You're racist! Ooh, you must get so pissed that your hands are too small to stop and frisk!" The asking/answering of that question at the beginning is really funny, and I like the way they worked Trump's small hands into this attack on him for being racist. "So you use your fingers to touch chicks. (She's only 12 years old.) That's enough, shit! (But she's married, sir.) Just gotta get pushy. (That's your daughter.) Well, grab her by the pussy!" One of the highlights of the battle, love the way they worked in the secret service agent here. Pointing out Trump being a creep at child beauty pageants and towards Ivanka are great lines of attack. "That's assault, brotha! Don't tell me the victim's at fault, sucka! You don't know shit about steaks! Yucka! But the ones on the 8th are great! Motha fucka!" Really fun delivery, good attacks, I like that they threw the Trump Steaks jab in between the more serious sentiments. I don't know what the fuck is going on with the background in this section, though they're really going hard on the tryhardness of Hillary. "Better save the date; I'm gonna rock the vote! Bad bitch on the scene like Murder, She Wrote!" Hillary trying to compare herself to that character is pretty cringe, as is highlighted by her attempting to dab with the biggest "look, aren't I cool, kids?!" look on her face. Real "Pokemon Go to the polls" moment. "So go ahead, Donald, let me see you flow. I brought Michelle's speech; borrow some quotes!" It's a pretty great line, though this line is moreso an attack at Melania than Trump himself; she should have ended with a more Trump-focused attack.
"Let me just say I respect all females. But your rhymes are trash; put 'em next to your emails." The first line is funny in how flagrantly untrue it is, the second line is just plain funny. Good opener. "Our country's in crisis. Who wants to vote for the mother of ISIS? That might not be exactly true, but I don't do politeness." Trump talks out of his ass and lies a lot, yes. "(Believe me!) You wanna talk about misogyny? Your Bill's worse than Cosby! He left a mess on that dress like you left in Benghazi!" The comparison of the rapist Bills is a great line, and I'm not sure whether the whole Benghazi thing was actually something that was Hillary's fault or just a Fox News talking head talking point, but it's a good line regardless. Also by this point it's clear that Lloid's Trump impression is on-point, much better than Peter's. "(Terrible!) You wanna break the glass ceiling, Hillary, I sense it. But the only crack you'll find is my ass pressed against it." The gesturing Lloid is doing during the "I sense it" line is fucking hilarious. The second line is also pretty funny, and did turn out to be true. "The numbers are in and I'm right on your tail. You don't have the stamina, baby, you're frail! This will be just like '08 when you fail! But Trump will appoint you to jail!" Fun parallel to Hillary's "First name is Hillary" segment from before going on here. The lines themselves are fine, nothing amazing. The second-to-last one turned out to be true, the last one did not. "How do I say this? You're a 2. And you almost lost the primary to a socialist Jew!" It's pretty funny how Trump mimics Hillary's "How do I say this?" bit, and "you're a 2" is such a simple but funny jab. He's got a point that Hillary was so weak a candidate that Bernie Sanders came outta nowhere and was able to put up a serious competition in a race that was supposed to have no real competition for her. "What do the American people gotta yankee doodle doo, to get it through your fat face, that they're just not that into you?!" The use of 'yankee doodle doo' is funny and he's got a real point that Hillary needs to accept she's very unpopular, though that 'fat face' line is such a pot calling the kettle black moment. No doubt intended as such. "They want a strong male leader who can stand up to China! Not a crooked, little, wishy-washy bleeding heart vagina!" These lines, of course, exist purely to point out that Trump is a giant sexist. The "China, China, China... bloody vagina!" in the background is a very funny touch. Little bits like that just add so much to this battle. "I'm gonna run these streets like I run my casinos; more police and less Latinos!" These lines, of course, exist purely to point out that Trump is a giant racist. "While you bury us in debt buying poor people socks, I'll create jobs, tearing down mosques!" Trump is against programs that help the impoverished and hates Muslims. "Then I'll use all the best rocks from the site to build a wall, dip it in gold and make Mexico pay for it all!" The thing Lloid does with his eyes as he smiles when he says "build a wall" is just... SO Trumpian. This really is one of the greatest Trump impressions I've ever seen, Lloid did an amazing job. As for the line... Trump says he's gonna build a wall. He built a partial wall. A partial, really unimpressive wall. "I'll make this country great again! We'll all be living large! And I'll tell Congress you're fired, and put Charles in charge!" Trump's slogan is MAGA and Charles in Charge was a TV show whose main actor is a Trump supporter. Also apparently there was a Supreme Court judge named Charles Trump once wanted nominated. Alright. "'Cause this whole system's rigged! And we all know the riggers! For the last eight years this country's been run by- (CAW!)" The point of this line is that Trump is a giant racist. I like the touch that the crowd is cheering wildly for Trump while Hillary looks disturbed in the background.
Then Lincoln comes soaring in on an eagle, as he did in Obama v. Romney. "Are you fucking kidding me with this blah blah blah? I've half a mind to feed you both to my oversized - (CAW!)" The use of 'CAW!' as a censor is amusing. "I've heard more thoughtful discussion up in TMZ! You two got brother blocking brother on their Facebook feed!" This isn't fun anymore, it's just real. "I'm so sick and tired of this ridiculous shit! If this is the best my party gets, then my party should quit!" The Republican Party is a nightmare and Lincoln would be ashamed of it today, is what is being said. "I'm sorry, did I say something that you found funny? Wipe that creepy-ass smile off your face and beat this dummy!" Clinton is a shitty politician who didn't take Trump seriously enough, and she comes across as cold and inhuman. And in case you somehow failed to pick up on it before, ERB makes clear here their endorsement for which candidate to vote for. "And if she does win the White House, be a man and hold the door. Don't get your fans stirred up in some sorta Twitter civil war!" Too real, especially after January 6th. "Here's an equal opportunity smack down in the sequel! That's of the people, by the people, for the people, eagle!" Some people have debated whether Lincoln slapped Trump twice in place of slapping Clinton at all because he's a gentleman and wouldn't hit a woman, or because ERB favors Clinton over Trump. The latter is definitely true, but the former is also probably true. So... both! Then Lincoln yells "Eagle!" and fucks off.
Let's talk about bias. There's two camps of people I've seen in discussions about certain ERB battles, especially this one, and they both irk me. So let's address both of them.
First off: YES, ERB is biased against Trump. And are biased against Republicans generally, and much more sympathetic to the Democrats. They've made that completely obvious from the beginning. And you know what? That's totally fine! They're right to be biased against them! But for some reason, some people in the fanbase can't just admit that. For some reason, there's a lot of people in the fanbase who will bend over backwards trying to explain how it's actually totally unbiased(false) and they attack both sides equally(false) and people complaining are being salty(true). But if you think ERB is unbiased, then society has failed you, because you are a woeful media illiterate. They're screaming Vote for Hillary, Don't Let Trump Win! at you and somehow you haven't managed to decipher what they're saying. I hope for your sake you're, like, twelve years old if you actually think they're unbiased. Here's an important lesson for you to learn as you grow up: 'biased' does not equate to 'bad'! For example, you SHOULD be 'biased' against Hitler! If you look at someone like Hitler and compare him to someone like MLK and treat them as equally valid figures whose ideas are both worthy of consideration, then you're at best a useful idiot and at worst a Nazi apologist! Stop feeling like you have to defend ERB's honor by feverishly denying any claims of bias!
But even worse than those jokers are the fuckers who love to bitch about how ERB has gotten "too political" or "too woke" nowadays. NEWSFLASH, DUMBASS: the very FIRST battle was John Lennon vs Bill O'Reilly, and Bill O'Reilly literally says "Because I'm evil! Heart blacker than Don Cheadle!" Their very foundation as a series is shitting on Republicans! They didn't suddenly 'go woke' just because they stopped doing gay jokes and shat on Trump even more explicitly than they already did to Romney.
Anyway, I've got mixed feelings about this battle. The 'mixed' part of those feelings come from how heavy it is; I have to be in a certain mood to want to listen to this, and most times I see this pop up in my playlist I just skip on to the next one. It's uncomfortable. It's real. Maybe a little too real. But then again, maybe they were right to take it so seriously. It's still a great battle, even if it can be a little hard to come back to. The only big issue I have with it is that Lincoln coming in at the end is kind of a drag. It was funny the first time; this doesn't recapture the magic. He doesn't really have any great lines either. I tend to stop listening by the time he comes in. But besides that, this battle has an amazing instrumental track, great visuals, peak performances from both Lloid and Kimmy, and good, sometimes great, writing.
I used to think Trump won this battle despite always having been anti-Trump. Revisiting it now, I'm not sure why I thought that. Maybe it was because his part was just so entertaining, even moreso than Hillary's. Maybe it's because I, like many others, harbor a strong resentment and bitterness towards Hillary Clinton(muh Bernie) that would lead me to not be entirely honest about her performance here. Maybe it's just because that hardly anybody said Clinton won back in the day; Trump had either a majority or a clear plural majority of votes in polls, then Lincoln with a fair amount, then Clinton with a small fraction. Now I see that that is utter bullshit. The only reason anybody votes for Lincoln is either because of the Last Word Effect or because they want to be centrists about it and not side with either candidate; even if you could argue he was the best part of Obama v. Romney, here his verse falls well short of both Clinton and Trump's. On the question of Clinton v. Trump... I can kind of see how someone might think Trump won on account of how hilarious he was, but a ton of his stuff just makes himself look bad, and if we're being honest I think Clinton had better burns and more substantive lines of attack. I say Clinton>Trump>Lincoln.
inb4 someone says I got "too political" in my presidential election battle analysis

without failure my economy always dies at 1870 was getting green constantly again then at 1870 just constantly losing money, part of russian market as romania, left still losing money, joined austrian still losing money, anyone know why im not the best at the game either could be me

Salutations and greetings brothers and sisters in Christ.
Having posted last week about the current situation and end state/long term objectives, I would like to identity what the current state of the country is in relative openness to meeting our criteria. A lot of what I write comes from research sources from government websites (such as the US Census Data), research websites from trusted sources (such as the PRRI), or good primary source content from creators or first-person perspectives. Today I want to share a report from PRRI that I references previously in my post about end state and objectives. This will lay out what states have the highest concentrations of support for Christian Nationalism based on research, large groups/concentrations of Orthodox Churches, Large groups/Concentrations of Mainline Protestant churches, and then large groups/concentrations of Evangelical concentrations/groups. Using this data we can distil down to the various different states that would have the highest success rate for growing support for our objectives and end states.

• Large groups of mainline protestants function as a potential recruiting opprotunity. As these churches become liberalized and lose membership/die out, it allows for those aligned with our values to recruit and convert these individuals co-oping them into the cause.
• Large congregations of Orthodox Churches can be used as a staging ground for the Neo-Orthodoxy revival within America and support the conversion of these churches into an Autocephalous Western Right Apostolic Holy Orthodox Church of America. Our objective number 1 for achieving our end state.
• Large support for Christian Nationalism already exists within Evangelical Christianity. This means while conversion to the Neo-Orthodoxy movement to achieve our first objective, it is not strictly necessary if individuals join Evangelical Christian groups which support Christian Nationalism.
• These three sources of Christian believers to support the desired end state for Christian Nationalism is essential.

If you recall from my previous post Objective 2 to meet our end state for the Nation is as follows: "38 out of 50 states within the United States must have greater than 50% Christian Nationalists adherents living within them by 2058. (creates super majority)." In this post I identified that we have to focus on 38 states to build up a primary base for changing the geo-political landscape by altering the socio-cultural landscape via Western Anglosphere focus Christian values. Specifically, I call out for a Western Right Orthodox Church of America but any congregation which aligns with Christian Nationalism would suffice. Just that Western Right Orthodoxy would be a solid cornerstone/foundation which would have the structure and adherence rate to survive greater than 80+ years rather than the mercurial protestants denominations which shift like sand. However, if those denominations can stand firm long enough to enact true political reform, amending the constitution, then it is worth to bring those denominations into the fold and act as one body of Christ.
Looking at the data from PRRI: Data Here You can see the breakdown of the different states which have high or higher percentage of support to the cause of Christian Nationalism. What this means for us, is it allows us to narrow down to our targeted 38 states we need to achieve our objectives. While we want to be advancing on all fronts, these 38 will have the highest chance of making mounting or achievable impact on Christendom at large.

• As previously stated: "New York, Massachusetts, Oregon, Nevada, Maryland, Virginia, Illinois, California, Washington, Connecticut, and New Jersey are below the 25% general support for Christian Nationalism." What this means is that while we should try and spread the cause in all directions to all different states, these states have the lowest chance of it catching flame or finding a foundation.
• Interestingly enough however, many of these states have large concentrations of old Orthodoxy residing within them: California, Massachusetts, Illinois, New York, and New Jersey all have large amounts of Orthodox Concentrations. Data Here Sadly they are drowned out by large amounts of non-Christians within these locations. New York, Illinois, and California have large amounts of Mainline Protestant which have the highest amounts of potential pickups of those leaving the denominations after becoming super liberalized towards Orthodox/Christian Nationalists sympathetic groups. Data Here
• What this means is that while growth opportunity exists in New York, California, and Illinois we will struggle to gain and maintain a majority within the state just do to the demographic nature and the percentage game. Not that it is not worth our time, but we cannot rely on it. That said we could focus efforts in select swing districts at the local/congressional level in New York, California, and Illinois to possibly bring about pushing them towards the bubble and eroding hyper liberal power bases.

With the date for mentioned, we would have to conclude that these 11 states are not reliable for our growth and target objectives. Again, as with the case of New York, Illinois, and California, growth opportunity exists but not enough to justify targeting those states. Our focus now shifts to the bubble/swing states that we can make a difference to bring to the fold.

• As previously stated: "Wisconsin, New Hampshire, Vermont, Maine, Arizona, Utah, Rhode Island, Delaware, Colorado, Hawaii, Pennsylvania, and Michigan are on the 25-29% cusp of supporting Christian Nationalism. Growth opportunity exists but could easily swing the other way.". What this means is that we would need to focus on these swing states and select at least one to focus our attention to bring it above the 30% thresh-hold for sustained and consistent push towards the cause to for fill our objectives.
• The largest concentrations of Mainline Protestant denominations and Orthodoxy residing within them is Pennsylvania, with Michigan and Wisconsin in solid second place leading the others. Arizona and Colorado are behind Michigan and Wisconsin but hold a solid base in both Mainline and Orthodoxy. Meaning it would not take much to swing Colorado and Arizona to be more inline with our stated goals that we need to achieve.
• Out of the rest, Hawaii might be the biggest outlier and most difficult to change do to geographic reasons. While a solid base for what we wish to accomplish exists, the demographics of such a place are working against us in % of population vs base. I would advocate for throwing out Hawaii and placing it into the below general support category.
• Utah is a special case. Mormons, which would best be classified as a wild card, dominate Utah politics along with other Christian denominations. Forward progress will be difficult in Utah, but it might be more of a dialogue than a genuine need for conversion/bringing Utah into alignment.
• What this means is that Delaware, Vermont, Rhode Island, New Hampshire, and Maine will be the long haul in this process to round out our 38 required states to align with the Anglosphere Western Right Orthodoxy / support for Christian nationalism. Naturally Vermont and Delaware will present interesting challenges. It would require demographic changes and construction of large amounts of mission work and proselytizing. Alternatives would have to be sought for these two otherwise if needed: Viriginia and New Jersey are likely candidates given the high number of Orthodoxy or Mainline protestants vs Delaware and Vermont.

This leaves us to the 38 states that we have to focus on to achieve our objectives on the strategic level for the United States to regain the conceptualization of Christian nationalism dominated by our Western Right Orthodox Church of America focused on preserving the ideals of Anglosphere cultural and societal roots forward for the next 80-120 years.

• Alabama, Alaksa, Arizonia, Arkansas, Colorado, Delaware*, Florida, Georgia, Idaho, Indiana, Iowa, Kansas, Kentucky, Louisiana, Maine, Michigan, Minnesota, Mississippi, Missouri, Montana, Nebraska, New Hampshire, New Jersey*, New Mexico, North Carolina, North Dakota, Ohio, Oklahoma, Pennsylvania, Rhode Island, South Carolina, South Dakota, Tennessee, Texas, Utah**, Vermont*, Virgina*, West Virginia, Wisconsin, and Wyoming.
• Delaware and Vermont can be changed for New Jersey and Virgina respectively which is the reason for the call out. Utah is also a special case given its high Mormon population.
• Colorado, New Mexico, Texas, and Arizona have unique opportunities with the largest growing non-white Christian Nationalists groups: Hispanics who are Evangelicals. Continued growth in this area can eventually turn all four corners into solid supporters for our socio-cultural fabric which we wish to layout. Of them, Colorado faces the most pushback but growing areas of support.
• Different regions within the 38 states are going to have to move/work in different ways to achieve our objectives. Just because a state has +30% of Christian Nationalists support already AND might traditionally thought politically as a "red" state, that does not mean they align with our core values or end state. New Mexico and Arizona are wildly different than Tennessee, Alabama, and Georgia. Requiring different approaches to changing the views on a local level.
• The flexibility of Mainline and Evangelical Protestantism is simultaneously a blessing and a curse. The common faith shared across state borders and regions does not always align culturally or politically. One socio-cultural norm must exist. While sub-cultures are welcome, they cannot deviate from the overarching Anglosphere cultural norm which must dominate to align the whole country with our values and preserve the Republic.

This goes into the objective number 1 to meet our end state for the United States and Christian Nationalism. As stated previously: "Establish one Autocephalous Western Right Apostolic Holy Orthodox Church of America with Romanian, Russian, and Antiochian ceding to this new Orthodox Church with establishment of a Patriarch of America." This will create a large common Holy and Orthodox Church of America that will allow for Anglosphere dominate cultural to thrive from the local/micro level all the way to the macro-country wide level. The church will function both culturally and religiously to preserve our common Anglosphere dominated values and Western conceptualizations of rights within our Republic.
As always, please let me know what you think and what can be done to improve. Is this too wordy? Is everyone able to follow along fairly well? Let me know or join the conversation!

Okay, I started doing sometimes cool today, and I think it can bring me good benefits.
I'm reading books everyday, and today I started doing something different. Instead of just read, I pause sometimes and think about what I just read.
For example, I'll paste here a short part of the last page I've just read from one of Freida McFadden books:
"I am so lucky. I have a beautiful house, a fulfilling career, and a husband who is kind and mild mannered and incredibly handsome. And as Nate pulls the car onto the road and starts driving in the direction of the school, all I can think to myself is that I hope a truck blows through a stop sign, plows into the Honda, and kills us both instantly."
After reading that I paused and thought:
...Wait a minute, she was just talking about how she's lucky of having a good life, and now she said she wants to die, and worse, she wants her husband dead too... does she has psychological problems? Or maybe her life wasn't so good, and maybe she was being ironic....
I also applied this technique on videos, where I pause the video, made some comments of what I was seeing and sometimes gave my opinions about what I was watching.
Does someone here does this too? Is it good in the long term?

Tomorrow is also the 18th anniversary since seeing my older brother die, which kicked off a whole lot of similarly close losses for myself, and my family.
I hate that I now share this experience with one of my dearest friends, and I just hope that I can be there for him, in the ways I wished I could have had someone guiding me after losing my brother.
Our families have always been close, both in terms of where we lived, and supporting each other through things like this. I’ve been through too many of these, and their entire family has always been one of the first to support mine, even as it shrunk over a few years, and continued to.
I don’t really know how to feel, knowing this wonderful man, with beautiful children and wife/family of his own is no longer here. He survived heart surgeries as a literal newborn, and having a high risk surgery years later to replace some parts of his heart. We had some close calls, but he’d managed a happy, full and healthy life. Sadly, with heart issues you’re going to be at a higher risk for most of your life, especially with artifice parts that need replacing.
Both of our brothers died with some similar circumstances, but underlying conditions. It’s hurting my brain as well as my heart, knowing this kid (in my brain) went through his final hours similarly to my own brother, whom I’ve missed every day since I was his last breaths.
I will probably delete this in a few days as the news from this afternoons settles in, but I just.. wanted to get this out, to no one in particular for some reason.
The next time I see this friend, this man I’ve always considered a brother to me, I think we are going to watch *The IronClaw”. It ends pretty depressingly with the main character looking at his kids playing, after being the final brother after a lifetime of losses. He cries watching his two boys playing, and they come by to check on him. He tells them “I used to be a brother, and now I’m not a brother anymore.” His boys tell him they can be brothers now, and it’s such a beautiful moment, despite being soul crushing.
That’s something I wish I’d seen in the darkest days after losing my older brother, the person I shared a room with my first 17 years. You can never replace what you lose, but because of my friends and family like this one going through a horrible loss tonight, being there next to me, and behind me when I’d fall, you can bet your ass I’m going to do everything I can to do the same for them.
It hurts losing your peers and even family. But even in the face of the tragedies I’ve seen and felt, I’m having a difficult time with this one. I lost my older brother, not a younger sibling. That’s a grief even I can barely comprehend. I will always remember this “kid” as the token Kid Brother, and as this adorable, tinier version of my first friend from the first day of kindergarten. This little kid following around his own big brother, adoring him at all moments, always smiling when we all hung together. He grew to be an excellent human being and man, husband, father of two amongst so many other things, but I’ll always see him in my mind as a “little” kid.
Rest well, wherever you are, Hammer. We’ll all do our best to look after your brother and family. I’ll miss you, little dude. I love you.
🖤
(Sorry about any mistakes, I’m not re-reading and editing this)

The term is literally just the female equivalent of master yet when you use mistress people attribute it as a woman a husband is cheating on their wife with.

I know everyone’s probably sick of theorizing which Evanuris is paired with which Old God, and it’s gonna be answered soon anyway, but I still figured I might as well fill out the bingo card and see how close I get. Plus, I also like seeing other people’s pairings and their reasons for them.
One pairing I’m less confident about is June and Toth. Toth’s high priest was called the “forgewright of fire” and so that automatically makes think of smithing and forges, which would connect immediately to June since he’s the elven god of crafts. But Sylaise is also a really good match since she’s the elven goddess of the hearth, so I wouldn’t be surprised if she’s actually connected to Toth. Ultimately though, I think her domain makes more sense with Andoral’s because most of the time, slaves are tasked with domestic chores, such as cooking and cleaning.
As for the others, I think Ghil Dirthalen is right about Elgar’nan being connected to Lusacan. He killed his father the sun, and the second image is what his codex entry from the wiki says happened after. “The world was covered in shadow,” and at the end, the sky was filled with stars. Elgar’nan literally brought night down onto the world, plus I think Ghil is right in that “beetle” is just in too much of a leadership position to be Falon’din.
As for Falon’din, I also agree with Ghil in that he’s connected to Urthemiel, but not JUST because of the Dalish origin triad statue in Origins. In the unused elven mosaics she found in the DAI files, there’s a headshape of an owl, which is Falon’din’s animal, and it has 3 points exactly like triad (3rd image), which has strong connections with Urthemiel since the triad statue can be found in the Architect’s layer, who was his high priest. I know a lot of this is based on cut content, but honestly, I don’t know who else pairs with Falon’din well. Maybe death and beauty are connected because the ancient elves were immortal and so that meant they died young and beautiful? I don’t know, but I’m going with it.
Dirthamen with Dumat is obvious: secrets are kept by being silent. Plus, his mosaic literally shows him with his hands covering his mouth (fourth image), so this is just a no-brainer. I admit I don’t know which headshape he would be though.
Ghilan’nain (and Sylaise) ended up being my last two I got stuck on, but the two old gods I was also stuck with seem to fit neatly with them. I think Ghilan’nain being the mad scientist she was with combining creatures and making monsters goes perfectly with the old god of chaos, Zazikale. His high priest was even called the “madman of chaos,” so the mad scientist thing Ghilan’nain has going for her just works. Also, I used to think the “Horns” headshape was June, but now I’m pretty sure it’s hers because of the mural from The Missing comic (fifth image). People immediately thought it was Ghilan’nain and Andruil for good reason, because not only is it two women wearing headshapes associated with the elven gods in a romantic pose, it’s also a very unequal pose. The woman on the right is kneeling in reverence for the women on the left, and we know Ghilan’nain was originally a follower (therefore, slave?) of Andruil. Plus, the kneeling woman has much lighter hair, and Ghilan’nain was described as having snowy white hair in a codex entry, so I really don’t see how it can’t be her as the “Horns” headshape.
Andruil with Razikale is also one I’m less confident about. This is more so just a result of another process of elimination. Everyone’s sure that “Beetle” and “Moonhead” in the mural of the Dreadwold attacking the Black City are Lusacan and Razikale because those are the only old gods still sleeping. Plus, one of the figures look more feminine, and we know that Razikale was the only female god. With “Moonhead” being connected to Razikale that way, and the woman wearing the same headshape the The Missing mural probably being Andruil (again, image 5), this one kind of just seems like it was answered for us. I’ll admit though, before I settled on this, I could not stop going back and forth on whether I thought Moonhead was Andruil or Ghilan’nain, especially because DAI and the Horror of Hormak in Tevinter Nights have set up the latter so much. But still, if I am somehow wrong about Moonhead being Andruil, then my second choice is still Ghilan’nain, especially because of that picture of a giant sea monster with the same headshape in the Dreadwold marketing (image 6). Ghilan’nain made sea monsters, but then again, I’ve also seen people use this image as proof that Moonhead is Andruil since it has a burning spear described to be hers. Like I said, it could really go either way, but The Missing mural was the tiebreaker for me.
And that’s my line up. Feel free to disagree and tell me why, I love theorizing on this!