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2024.05.18 23:28 Advanced-Ad7780 Why are some people so mean to bi guys?

Hello. I'm a bi guy and i made a topic earlier that i never experiencied atraction to masculine men and i was mostly into women, young boys and femboys. However, one day at pride i meet a muscle bear and we had an affair, i enjoyed his body and i had fun, and while i wouldn't say i was atracted to him, i didn't mind him at all, he was ok looking, his body was fun to play with and he was a chill man, so i was thinking if i should date him to see if i might awaken something more. But all i got was troll replies and downvotes and i just don't understand why? And a lot of people were saying that i was bi guys like me are toxic and i don't get it? Thanks for reading.
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2024.05.18 23:25 ExpressionGeneral418 Why am I now a wreck when I wanted this all along?

First of all, I’d like to preface this story with a piece I wrote in my journal 2 months ago while still in my relationship.
Here it is:
I’m almost 30M, and wonder how you would deal with this situation?
Backstory: I didn’t have my first girlfriend or even sex until age 20. I was very sheltered when I was younger and shy. I also moved several times so never got the chance to meet girls from social circles. I had almost a 2 year long distance relationship from age 20-22 (seeing each other in person only a few times a year). Well that didn’t work out and it devastated me. I did truly love that girl and she was also my first so it took 3 years to get over.
In that time following the relationship, I slept with more than 10 people, gained experience, and eventually found another girlfriend in person at age 25. That ended at age 26, but was off and on until age 27. It ended for good reason, because it was a tumultuous relationship with a lot of fun, but also arguments. She was super attractive which made it hard to let her go even though I knew it had to be done.
Following that relationship, I yet again worked on myself, dated and slept around, and eventually met my current girlfriend midway through age 28. It was one of those situations where you start out just hanging out and eventually see each other every week… then the question of “what are we happens”… I went along with it even though my eyes were still peeled.
Well now, I’m almost 30, a few months away and I’m scared. A part of me feels like I missed a part of my youth and I’ll never find that stunner I’ve always looked for. Being sheltered all my life and not meeting anyone via social circle messes with me emotionally. I’ve dated beautiful woman, but it’s not like I can change time and go back to 25 again and date around 20 year olds… right?
I also moved to a completely different state and started a new life 2 years ago. But every day I think about my last relationship and the life I used to live in that state. “The good old days” I like to say. I have a new life now and good situation, but a part of me feels lost.
That’s what I wrote back in March. I knew I had a good situation, a very stable relationship and job, but I almost felt like I was still unfulfilled. Mostly because I never really experienced the kind of girls that truly interest me I guess? I hate to sound superficial, but if you read below it will make further sense. It wasn’t all about looks. While she was nice and sweet, she was rather boring and didn’t banter with me.
So fast forward the story to today, my recent ex broke up with me a few weeks ago. We had been dating about a year and a half.
I met her about a year and a half after that toxic relationship to a really manipulative, yet attractive girl I talked about above. This new relationship was the complete opposite, almost to the point of being cringey. She was really loving but it was almost overwhelming. She also was not as atractive as my last gf in terms of looks. Not unattractive by any means, but I certainly didn’t feel super proud walking around with her or introducing her to people. For much of the early part of meeting this new girl, I did still constantly think of the toxic ex and compare, but I was ready for something new and thought I was so far removed from the last relationship - I went along with it.
Anyway, Eventually she asked if I would be her bf at about the 3 month point after meeting. At first I was apprehensive of the idea because I wasn’t sure about committing and if I wanted to keep “searching.” I got to the point that I was done with hunting as I had tried tirelessly to find someone for over a year. She was a great girl but I wasn’t sold on a full on relationship. Instead of being excited to be official like I was in past relationships, with her I was hoping for more a fwb situation like it was the first 3 months. But I decided to go along with it. I told her I still wanted to be able to approach or work on social skills with other girls even if just plutonicly. I didn’t do that and did commit. Fast forward another several months and the I love you statement came up. I wasn’t entirely sure about how I felt but I again went along with it, even though I didn’t actually feel it at at the time.
This gf was a very loving, loyal, committed gf, and did anything for me. Unfortunately I didn’t really find her incredibly magnetizing. She was cute, but not crazy attractive in my eye. Like I mentioned above, I didn’t feel that proud feeling when going out.
I found that taking pictures with her also made me unsure. The first couple weeks of hanging out we never took pics. And then I took a picture with her and looked at it and was repulsed. When she would send me pictures of her with with her family, I didn’t like what she sent. Maybe she’s just not photogenic and actually good in person, but whenever she would send me a photo or FaceTime me I’d get turned off.
Also, the fact that she was so wholesome, it didn’t allow for much banter. Conversations were mostly plutonic, where I’m more of the sarcastic type.
She always wanted to pull out the calendar and schedule plans months in advance every week, even after telling her I prefered being spontaneous. She did all of these crazy google calendar overlays and I felt like I was always being sucked into things I didn’t want to do. She became more clingy than I had realized when I first met her. She asked me about 3 months ago, if we could spend not just weekends together, but also Wednesday nights. (We lived just over an hour apart). I suggested it could be every other week (the opposite)…I didn’t like going to her place because of the road noise where she lived and I would really only see her when she would visit me. I know, all of this sounds really one sided and like I’m an asshole. But I was very loving to her in person and she knows that, hence why it lasted so long.
Unfortunately a lot of things she did turned me off. She was too readily available, always trying to lock up my calendar, talk about marriage and kids in the next 3-5 years and I felt trapped. I was unsure.
We had great sex but it wasn’t crazy passionate, neither was our kissing. When alone, and was feeling aroused, I generally didn’t think of my ex. I constantly found myself checking out other girls places I went (but never talked to them). I felt like wow I wish that was the kind of girl I was with.
It wasn’t all bad though. The sex was phenomenal in terms of the movements. She made $100k plus which is phenomenal for someone at 24, but also had over $100k in student loans. With her wanting to get married within 5 years, I considered those loans as a big issue. She was super loving and would have been a great mother.
In the end she left me. She said we weren’t compatible. I have been a wreck and now I’m wishing I had her. Maybe not for the right reasons though?
I’m trying to figure out why if I wanted to end things myself and that I felt trapped for so long, how come all of a sudden I want her back? Is it just the void of not having someone loyal who’s there for me? The loss of a potential good wife and mother? Who can make plans and bake me things? The fear of not meeting someone as smart? She’s already talking to other guys and I’m just a wreck and need some advice. I can’t go an hour without thinking of her. I think I need to rewire the way I am thinking. I can’t stop thinking that maybe I made a mistake and should have put in more effort, but I feel like if I truly loved/had that spark for her I would have tried more all along. I would have been excited to make plans with her instead of going a week at a time seeing her. Now all I want to do is see her. Should I have stayed in it and worked harder? Are my standards too high? I feel like my first ex and my recent one were so polar opposite. One had the looks and I thought of her when thinking of sex but was toxic and the other was sweet but not as attractive. It even got to the point that to feel emotion, I had to finish inside her. Which did help.
At the time of the breakup, I tried very hard to tell her how I was looking forward to making a fun summer filled with plans together. Just 2 weeks prior she was about it. Now nothing. It’s been total silence on the other end for weeks. I know she loved me more than any guy.
Do you think this was a good thing this happened? How do I rewrire my brain? She was my only friend. This was a relationship that I went into going through the motions, and even a couple weeks before we broke up I wrote that journal entry / question that I shared above. What is going on?
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2024.05.18 23:19 triferg 27 [R4R] M - East Midlands UK - hello to those who love gaming, hip-hop, and more!

good morning/afternoon/evening/night, whatever time you're reading this!
FYI: if you're thinking of messaging me, please read until the end. people with little to no karma (<50), or with no relevance to my original post, will probably not get a response, sorry!
with that being said...
hello, I'm triferg - I'm 27, living in the east midlands (UK) and work in finance. I am also a carer for my disabled partner outside of work hours.
more about me:
•music - I am a MASSIVE hip-hop fan. old school, trap, UK drill, grime, new school, experimental, you name it. •some favourites include; Wu-Tang Clan, Freddie Gibbs, JME, Danny Brown, Flatbush Zombies, Travis Scott, Mos Def, Ye, Headie One, RV, A Tribe Called Quest, P Money, Nate Dogg, Nas, Trapx10, Mick Jenkins, Loyle Carner, Pa Salieu, 50 Cent, Aesop Rock, Run The Jewels, M1llionz, Joey Bada$$, Denzel Curry, JID, Potter Payper, redveil, Slick Rick, French The Kid, Harlem Spartans, Griselda
•gaming - I primarily play on PC, however I also have a Switch and a PS5 • at the moment - I'm switching between WoW (mythic raider), Slay The Spire, OSRS, Fortnite and Overwatch (tank main!)
•420 - you already know what it is. I am currently weed-free due to a chest problem unfortunately. my partner is a big stoner right now due to it helping with her medical condition, and is in the process of getting a medical prescription!
•creative writing - not something I have generally done in the past, but it's something fun to do between the monotonous general routine!
looking for long-term pals who ideally live relatively near (i.e. near Northampton/LeicesteCambridge in the UK) and like the look of what they read. very much looking forward to all the responses!
super love discussing music, gaming, or any other of the topics i've mentioned - so if you're thinking of messaging me & you're not too sure what to lead with, go ahead with one of those!
cheers!
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2024.05.18 23:16 triferg 27 - East Midlands UK - hello to those who love gaming, hip-hop, and more!

good morning/afternoon/evening/night, whatever time you're reading this!
FYI: if you're thinking of messaging me, please read until the end. people with little to no karma (<50), or with no relevance to my original post, will probably not get a response, sorry!
with that being said...
hello, I'm triferg - I'm 27, living in the east midlands (UK) and work in finance. I am also a carer for my disabled partner outside of work hours.
more about me:
•music - I am a MASSIVE hip-hop fan. old school, trap, UK drill, grime, new school, experimental, you name it. •some favourites include; Wu-Tang Clan, Freddie Gibbs, JME, Danny Brown, Flatbush Zombies, Travis Scott, Mos Def, Ye, Headie One, RV, A Tribe Called Quest, P Money, Nate Dogg, Nas, Trapx10, Mick Jenkins, Loyle Carner, Pa Salieu, 50 Cent, Aesop Rock, Run The Jewels, M1llionz, Joey Bada$$, Denzel Curry, JID, Potter Payper, redveil, Slick Rick, French The Kid, Harlem Spartans, Griselda
•gaming - I primarily play on PC, however I also have a Switch and a PS5 • at the moment - I'm switching between WoW (mythic raider), Slay The Spire, OSRS, Fortnite and Overwatch (tank main!)
•420 - you already know what it is. I am currently weed-free due to a chest problem unfortunately. my partner is a big stoner right now due to it helping with her medical condition, and is in the process of getting a medical prescription!
•creative writing - not something I have generally done in the past, but it's something fun to do between the monotonous general routine!
looking for long-term pals who ideally live relatively near (i.e. near Northampton/LeicesteCambridge in the UK) and like the look of what they read. very much looking forward to all the responses!
super love discussing music, gaming, or any other of the topics i've mentioned - so if you're thinking of messaging me & you're not too sure what to lead with, go ahead with one of those!
cheers!
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2024.05.18 23:13 triferg 27 [R4R] - East Midlands UK - hello to those who love gaming, hip-hop, and more!

good morning/afternoon/evening/night, whatever time you're reading this!
FYI: if you're thinking of messaging me, please read until the end. people with little to no karma (<50), or with no relevance to my original post, will probably not get a response, sorry!
with that being said...
hello, I'm triferg - I'm 27, living in the east midlands (UK) and work in finance. I am also a carer for my disabled partner outside of work hours.
more about me:
•music - I am a MASSIVE hip-hop fan. old school, trap, UK drill, grime, new school, experimental, you name it. •some favourites include; Wu-Tang Clan, Freddie Gibbs, JME, Danny Brown, Flatbush Zombies, Travis Scott, Mos Def, Ye, Headie One, RV, A Tribe Called Quest, P Money, Nate Dogg, Nas, Trapx10, Mick Jenkins, Loyle Carner, Pa Salieu, 50 Cent, Aesop Rock, Run The Jewels, M1llionz, Joey Bada$$, Denzel Curry, JID, Potter Payper, redveil, Slick Rick, French The Kid, Harlem Spartans, Griselda
•gaming - I primarily play on PC, however I also have a Switch and a PS5 • at the moment - I'm switching between WoW (mythic raider), Slay The Spire, OSRS, Fortnite and Overwatch (tank main!)
•420 - you already know what it is. I am currently weed-free due to a chest problem unfortunately. my partner is a big stoner right now due to it helping with her medical condition, and is in the process of getting a medical prescription!
•creative writing - not something I have generally done in the past, but it's something fun to do between the monotonous general routine!
looking for long-term pals who ideally live relatively near (i.e. near Northampton/LeicesteCambridge in the UK) and like the look of what they read. very much looking forward to all the responses!
super love discussing music, gaming, or any other of the topics i've mentioned - so if you're thinking of messaging me & you're not too sure what to lead with, go ahead with one of those!
cheers!
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2024.05.18 23:11 triferg 27 [R4R] - East Midlands UK - hello to those who love gaming, hip-hop, and more!

good morning/afternoon/evening/night, whatever time you're reading this!
FYI: if you're thinking of messaging me, please read until the end. people with little to no karma (<50), or with no relevance to my original post, will probably not get a response, sorry!
with that being said...
hello, I'm triferg - I'm 27, living in the east midlands (UK) and work in finance. I am also a carer for my disabled partner outside of work hours.
more about me:
•music - I am a MASSIVE hip-hop fan. old school, trap, UK drill, grime, new school, experimental, you name it. •some favourites include; Wu-Tang Clan, Freddie Gibbs, JME, Danny Brown, Flatbush Zombies, Travis Scott, Mos Def, Ye, Headie One, RV, A Tribe Called Quest, P Money, Nate Dogg, Nas, Trapx10, Mick Jenkins, Loyle Carner, Pa Salieu, 50 Cent, Aesop Rock, Run The Jewels, M1llionz, Joey Bada$$, Denzel Curry, JID, Potter Payper, redveil, Slick Rick, French The Kid, Harlem Spartans, Griselda
•gaming - I primarily play on PC, however I also have a Switch and a PS5 • at the moment - I'm switching between WoW (mythic raider), Slay The Spire, OSRS, Fortnite and Overwatch (tank main!)
•420 - you already know what it is. I am currently weed-free due to a chest problem unfortunately. my partner is a big stoner right now due to it helping with her medical condition, and is in the process of getting a medical prescription!
•creative writing - not something I have generally done in the past, but it's something fun to do between the monotonous general routine!
looking for long-term pals who ideally live relatively near (i.e. near Northampton/LeicesteCambridge in the UK) and like the look of what they read. very much looking forward to all the responses!
super love discussing music, gaming, or any other of the topics i've mentioned - so if you're thinking of messaging me & you're not too sure what to lead with, go ahead with one of those!
cheers!
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2024.05.18 23:10 subredditsummarybot Your weekly /r/metalcore roundup for the week of May 11 - May 17, 2024

Saturday, May 11 - Friday, May 17, 2024

Top New

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1,025 373 comments [Discussion] Shut the fuck up when the bands are playing.
841 181 comments [LFG!] Knocked Loose hits 2 million monthly listeners!
688 196 comments [Discussion] Knocked Loose is fulfilling the destiny that was intended for Code Orange.
316 97 comments [LFG!] Tabs for the new knocked loose album are up on songster!
307 80 comments [Discussion] Holy shit, JOHNNY FUCKING BOOTH
271 217 comments [Discussion] Saw Veil of Maya last night and hated it.
267 382 comments [Discussion] Pro athletes who are into metalcore?
 

Top Mod Recommended

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99 8 comments [Mod Recommended] Johnny Booth - Bright Future [Sp] [AM] [BC] [Dzr]
 

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234 38 comments Boundaries - My Body Is a Cage [Sp] [AM] [Dzr]
220 36 comments The End of Heartache Turns 20 (May 11, 2004)
219 78 comments [Discussion] Miss May I, Apologies for the Weak 15 year Us Tour Announced
205 21 comments [News] New Darko album "Starfire" out June 5th
204 37 comments It Dies Today - Freak Gasoline Fight Accident (FFO: male models)
174 117 comments [Discussion] Whose face is that on the subreddit photo?
173 94 comments [Discussion] How much am I missing out when it comes to album art?
153 119 comments [Discussion] Concert friends
152 182 comments [Discussion] Who do you think was the first true metalcore band?
149 102 comments [News] Furnace Fest full lineup dropped
 

Top 5 Most Commented

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147 533 comments [Discussion] What's an older album you can't stop listening to on repeat?
109 324 comments [Discussion] Best live frontman?
68 266 comments [Discussion] Here is a fun question! If you were a UFC fighter, boxer, WWE star, etc. What would be your walkout song?
79 218 comments [Discussion] Which concert have you been to where the supporting acts were better than the main act?
120 134 comments [Discussion] Have any of you ever been to a concert where the bass and breakdowns made you nauseated?
 
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2024.05.18 23:09 triferg 27 - East Midlands UK - hello to those who love gaming, hip-hop, and more!

good morning/afternoon/evening/night, whatever time you're reading this!
FYI: if you're thinking of messaging me, please read until the end. people with little to no karma (<50), or with no relevance to my original post, will probably not get a response, sorry!
with that being said...
hello, I'm triferg - I'm 27, living in the east midlands (UK) and work in finance. I am also a carer for my disabled partner outside of work hours.
more about me:
•music - I am a MASSIVE hip-hop fan. old school, trap, UK drill, grime, new school, experimental, you name it. •some favourites include; Wu-Tang Clan, Freddie Gibbs, JME, Danny Brown, Flatbush Zombies, Travis Scott, Mos Def, Ye, Headie One, RV, A Tribe Called Quest, P Money, Nate Dogg, Nas, Trapx10, Mick Jenkins, Loyle Carner, Pa Salieu, 50 Cent, Aesop Rock, Run The Jewels, M1llionz, Joey Bada$$, Denzel Curry, JID, Potter Payper, redveil, Slick Rick, French The Kid, Harlem Spartans, Griselda
•gaming - I primarily play on PC, however I also have a Switch and a PS5 • at the moment - I'm switching between WoW (mythic raider), Slay The Spire, OSRS, Fortnite and Overwatch (tank main!)
•420 - you already know what it is. I am currently weed-free due to a chest problem unfortunately. my partner is a big stoner right now due to it helping with her medical condition, and is in the process of getting a medical prescription!
•creative writing - not something I have generally done in the past, but it's something fun to do between the monotonous general routine!
looking for long-term pals who ideally live relatively near (i.e. near Northampton/LeicesteCambridge in the UK) and like the look of what they read. very much looking forward to all the responses!
super love discussing music, gaming, or any other of the topics i've mentioned - so if you're thinking of messaging me & you're not too sure what to lead with, go ahead with one of those!
cheers!
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2024.05.18 23:08 triferg [27/M] - East Midlands UK - hello to those who love gaming, hip-hop, and more!

good morning/afternoon/evening/night, whatever time you're reading this!
FYI: if you're thinking of messaging me, please read until the end. people with little to no karma (<50), or with no relevance to my original post, will probably not get a response, sorry!
with that being said...
hello, I'm triferg - I'm 27, living in the east midlands (UK) and work in finance. I am also a carer for my disabled partner outside of work hours.
more about me:
•music - I am a MASSIVE hip-hop fan. old school, trap, UK drill, grime, new school, experimental, you name it. •some favourites include; Wu-Tang Clan, Freddie Gibbs, JME, Danny Brown, Flatbush Zombies, Travis Scott, Mos Def, Ye, Headie One, RV, A Tribe Called Quest, P Money, Nate Dogg, Nas, Trapx10, Mick Jenkins, Loyle Carner, Pa Salieu, 50 Cent, Aesop Rock, Run The Jewels, M1llionz, Joey Bada$$, Denzel Curry, JID, Potter Payper, redveil, Slick Rick, French The Kid, Harlem Spartans, Griselda
•gaming - I primarily play on PC, however I also have a Switch and a PS5 • at the moment - I'm switching between WoW (mythic raider), Slay The Spire, OSRS, Fortnite and Overwatch (tank main!)
•420 - you already know what it is. I am currently weed-free due to a chest problem unfortunately. my partner is a big stoner right now due to it helping with her medical condition, and is in the process of getting a medical prescription!
•creative writing - not something I have generally done in the past, but it's something fun to do between the monotonous general routine!
looking for long-term pals who ideally live relatively near (i.e. near Northampton/LeicesteCambridge in the UK) and like the look of what they read. very much looking forward to all the responses!
super love discussing music, gaming, or any other of the topics i've mentioned - so if you're thinking of messaging me & you're not too sure what to lead with, go ahead with one of those!
cheers!
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2024.05.18 23:07 _Paisl3y101_ AITA for punching my ex friend in the face two months after a incident?

First off, lets note that this year has been extremly challenging and traumatic for me. It is some heavy topics that I would rather not talk about.
This go back to when I met the ex friend, we’ll call them A. They were a friend at first, I meet them last year during the end of school. I began defending A because people made fun of them for being transgender. I am very against any hate towards anyone, and will defend people with my life, even if it costs me some. Days went by and I began feeling uncomfortable due to the drama they were purposely putting me through. I also dislike drama unless its again defending someone.
Fast forward to february of this year, I was in a studyhall/win with A. There was a guy at a another table during this, we’ll call him L. A and I were working in the studyhall, note that I was dating someone else at the time. L handed A a note. It was for me, I don’t remember exactly what it wrote but it was something along the lines of ‘you’re cute’ or ‘hey baby’. I told him I was taken back on the note. A handed it back, and L wrote back again. Again, don’t remember the exact words but it went along the lines of ‘He doesn’t have to know’ or ‘You’re still cute’ again Im not sure as this whole situation was traumatic for me. Then I wrote back again I wasn’t intrested, and I thougut that was the end of it.
As the bell rings, A heard him say something extremely inappropriate and I thought I did too. We reported the incident and L got in trouble. Again, thought that would be the end of this.
The next day A gets a note that would be an extremely important part to this whole situation. Apparently L had given A a note that he had written, saying ‘Lets f in the bathroom’ then his number on it. Scared, I ran to the office to report it. I don’t remember exactly how much time passed, but as it did the most shocking thing had happened.
IT WAS A’s HAND WRITING.
A had written a fake note, saying it was L. A had lied to me, betrayed me. Then A, TRIED BLAMING ME. Saying I told them too when they had no proof I did!! Thankfully, that staff there are amazing and know me well, so they know I didnt do it. And that was the end of that. We haven’t spoke since.. until a few days ago.
On may 16th, I was having a shit day. First my brother was being a butt, then all my stuff fell out of my bag, I had nausea and cramps and realized I had forgotten my pads that morning, all under thirty minutes. Then I had almost passed out, nausea got worse and other problems. Then studyhall/win came. I had win with both L and A. That whole time, my mind was saying punch A. I tried to hold myself during it but my intrusive thoughts won, and I stood up. Went up to A,
And punched him in cheek.
I had cried because I had never really did anything like that and was scared of being in trouble.
I dont regret what I did, my parents were surprisingly not angry. Nor was any of the staff. Even the detention teacher was proud of me, saying that she would but me icecream. Apparently, that was the second time he had gotten punched that week. If that doesn’t say much about A I don’t know what will.
Along with that, a different friend told me that apparently they said that they didn’t deserve being punched and that my friend wanted to punch them too, again if that doesn’t say much I don’t know what will.
There probably won’t be updating this story unless something drastic changes.
In the end, AITA for punching my ex friend?
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2024.05.18 22:57 mostlymossyman I hath been smite by Łukasz...

I was having fun on the forums chatting being annoying when suddenly its hone. The topic went poof, so I dm the creator of the topic and he starts a new one I chat for a bit until I'm suddenly banned. Łukasz has sliced me, I should have taken the first smiling of the topic as a warning, now I must use reddit. :-[
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2024.05.18 22:49 Possible-Wrap-4681 highschool friendship advice

I’m in a group of four friends. It’s super fun hanging out with them and stuff. Actually, the THOUGHT of hanging out with them is fun. Once we actually are together, I feel drained? I don’t know why.
We got really close junior year, but there is a duo in the group. For instance, they tag each other in tiktoks like “you are the chocolate to my vanilla”, somebody talking abt how they love their best friend, etc. Like yeah, they are closer, but is it wrong of me to be jealous? They have their own inside jokes that I don’t understand and I just kinda laugh it off when they avoid telling me what their jokes mean. I get because it’s something between them and it was probably about something that was only funny in the moment, but it just sucks not feeling included.
My other friend, outside of the duo, makes very offensive and strange comments towards my eating habits. I am embarrassed to eat in front of other people in public, so I usually eat a lot at home and little when we hang out. I am very open about this too. But if I ever reject food because I am either not hungry or don’t like it (I’m a picky eater) she ALWAYS butts into the conversation to say “she doesn’t eat anything anyways”. And if I talk about how I really liked a pizza (I had two slices) she goes “you barely ate it”. No matter what I say about any topic regarding food, she always has to bring me down in some way. The thing I find most odd about this is she barely eats in front of people either. Before school and during school she eats absolutely nothing. I have never said anything about it. And even the other day she bragged to me about how she “only ate a rice crispy today”. But I’m the one who doesn’t eat?
I love to crochet. I make crochet room decor and stuffed animals for my friends for their birthdays. I’m always really proud of it. However, I was recently talking to two of my friends how I want to crochet something for my other friend for her birthday, and they burst out laughing. They started telling me to stop crocheting stuff because nobody knows what to do with “dumb room decor and stuffed animals”. I just laughed but it actually really hurt. I thought they liked that stuff because for one, they all have a tower of stuffed animals in their room, and two, they have all have a pinterest board full of similar room decor. I put so much effort into crocheting that it was so hurtful to see that they don’t even care about what I made. I understand not everybody likes crochet stuff, and maybe I am sensitive, but I feel they were being a little harsh about it?
I feel like if I disappeared one day, the only thing different in their lives would be their grades. Otherwise, they wouldn’t even feel a difference. They always ask me for homework answers, which I usually give because I am a people pleaser. It’s just upsetting to see that when I ask for a favor in return, like maybe I just want them to send me the answer key for my homework so that I can check my work, they don’t help. They stop answering my texts and change the subject. Also to add on, I am only seen for my intelligence and not my personality. I don’t even talk about grades unless somebody asks me what I got on a test. I just want to be seen as a real person with real interests, and not just somebody who does well in school.
I’m always out of the loop. My friend keeps going back to her ex and then breaking up with him. It seems that all my friends know when they are back together but me. It’s always a surprise to me when I hear her say boyfriend instead of ex, but everybody else looks as if they already knew. I’m sitting there trying to process when she got back with him, while they continue the conversation as normal.
One of them constantly makes fun of me. She refuses to eat anything I eat, drink anything I drink, or wear anything I wear in fear of “turning into” me. I can never tell if it’s a joke or not. She always comments on my “grandma“ clothes and makes fun of them, when it’s literally just jeans and a graphic sweatshirt? This might sound really stupid, but she’ll drink out of ANYBODYS water. If they are sick, a stranger, whoever. But when she said “I’m soooo thirsty” and I offered her my water bottle she said “Ew I don’t want your water I’ll turn into you”. And she seriously refused my water. I’m sorry this probably sounds so dumb.
There’s a lot more, but am I sensitive or is there actually an issue?
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2024.05.18 22:33 SquintyEyedChris Overthinking

I started seeing this girl a couple of months ago. We met while I was on orders with the Army Reserves. We matched on Hinge and just got to talking while I wasn’t working. She’s funny and so well spoken, I really didn’t expect to meet someone like her. My intentions were to go on a single date, have a fun evening, and move on with my life. I lived over 500 miles from the area, so a relationship didn’t seem all that realistic.
Fast forward a week from us matching, and we went on our date. I remember seeing her get out of her car, she was a little shy and nervous, I was too. We spent so much time talking over text that we built the other person up so much in our heads. Neither one of us wanted to mess it up. Admittedly, the dinner was a bit awkward, we already did all the small talk through the week prior. Luckily, our server was a little more awkward than us, and it was a launching pad for us to talk about something. We laughed, told each other a bit more about ourselves, and had an amazing evening. I remember the feeling I had, this warm sensation in my chest, like everything was okay. On our way back to her apartment, I knew I had to tell her the truth. I didn’t want to just have one night with her and let it be a memory of my youth. When we parked, I took a deep breath, and told her everything. How I wasn’t a local, how I travel for military work, and I told her I’ve been in a long term divorce.
It was a lot to throw at someone after a first date. She had me elaborate more on certain topics, and I understood where she was coming from. At the end of it, she told me she needed to think. I told her to have a goodnight, and to do whatever is going to be healthy for her. Ultimately, I want what’s best for her, but I’d like to be that good thing for her.
To my surprise, she asked me to see her the next day, and the day after, and so on. I had roughly a week with her before I left for home. And while I was scared at first that she was just going to put me down gently, it didn’t take long for me to understand she did have interest in me. We kept texting, called a few times in between, and things were good. I still came up to the area fairly regularly for work. So anytime I did I made sure to make time for her. Any moment that wasn’t on the clock I dedicated to her. I started to have feelings for her so fast. It felt like she did for me too. She’s the first person I met since my ex wife that made me feel like I could be fine with any situation life threw at me, as long she was by my side.
We started making plans, going camping, maybe see some concerts, meet my family. Just the regular couple’s thing. Last week, I came up for work. The weekend with her was great. We ate good food, went to a light festival, laughed, and just enjoyed each other. But when I left, something felt wrong.
First and foremost, when we went to the light festival I met her best friend for the first time. At the time I was tired and irritated from work. I didn’t put the best foot forward. I did reach out to her to apologize. If she ever saw that apology, I don’t know. I told my s/o I probably just needed to eat. Finding food was a whole ordeal. Long story short, the lines were incredibly long and I didn’t want to waste my evening waiting for over priced mediocre food. I told her I don’t want to be at the light festival and I’d rather be home, but I know she wanted to come to this and be with her friend. With that in mind, I don’t want to wait for the food and rather do what we paid to do. After that, she got quiet for a bit. After some time passed she was a bit more lively and it felt normal again. Until I got to her apartment. I went and got food after we were done and she was already in bed. I figured she was just tired, but looking back at it maybe she just didn’t want to talk to me.
The next day we got to her apartment around the same time. Her sister borrowed her car so we were waiting on her to bring it back. I got to meet her and her husband. Mostly spoke with the husband, we got along fine. We’re both military so we had an easy topic to relate to. My s/o mostly stayed on the couch. She looked exhausted and she just wanted to get food. Eventually they left and we went to one of her favorite restaurants. We brought it home, watched tv, and had a romantic evening in.
The next day, we woke up together, got ready, had some breakfast, and I left to get home. When I was leaving something felt off. Like I could feel that she had something on her mind. I asked her if she was okay and she assured me that she was. But since I got home the text started getting shorter and further apart from each other. I know she was a bit scared starting a relationship with me. I’m a little bit older than her and she’s a bit scared of commitment. I told her I’d meet her needs as much as I can and she can always ask for space from me. But this last week she’s lost motivation for her hobbies and hasn’t been going out as much as she use to. I talked to her a little but I didn’t want to pressure her to talk unless she wanted to. Sometimes I feel like that was the wrong decision, I don’t want her to feel like I wasn’t interested in checking on her well being. But I also know some people don’t want to talk about it unless it’s on their terms.
No fights, no disagreements, but just a feeling of distance. More than just the physical aspect of it. I don’t expect her to talk to me 24/7, but it just felt off. I grew concerned I did something wrong. I know she wants to go a bit slower and I’m trying my best to do so for her, but I’m head over heels for this girl. Today, she said she wanted to talk. We haven’t had the conversation yet, but I’m scared. Maybe I’m just over thinking, but I don’t want to think about the possibility that I pushed her away by smothering her.
So now we wait, chest tight from the anxiety. In trying my best to calm myself, but fuck man, I really like this girl. I hope I’m just over analyzing a situation, and that everything is okay.
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2024.05.18 22:29 xlilcx My ex cheated on me and got exposed red handed and i took a petty revenge.

I(f24) dated a guy years ago, we were in a good relationship, only lasted for a lil while tho. he went on a work trip for a week with his family(family company). while he was gone he sent a picture of himself and i saw a hickey on the far side on his neck, and i went on saying ‘what’s that on your neck?’ he answered ‘what’s on my neck?’ (dumb F) he tried to excuse himself away from the topic, i just left it at that for a while. but, later on i got a message from a mutual friend about him cheating on me at a party WITH 3 GIRLS the same night!! he didnt mention he went to the party at all. then the mutual friend told me that my ex said he didnt want our mutual friend to tell on him cause he ‘DiDn’T mEaN tO’ cheat. but he did still(bless this dudes heart for snitching) i then took up the topic about the hickey and he still went on to lie and excuse it, then i told my ex our mutual friend snitched and he didnt take that well, he got mad at me for that and blamed me for everything (lol not a shocker) then i took the perfect petty revenge😈 me and some friends (two guys and two girls)planned a cabin trip the weekend after(was still together with the dumb F) and so we went, we had a great time, drank and had fun, i slept with one of the guys, took a picture with both boys with their hands on my chest kissing my cheeks and i sent it to my ex, he then screenshotted it, edited the picture(to cover my chest) went on soundcloud and made a song about me cheating on him and had the picture i sent as the cover on the song(lol) and posted it everywhere. some of the lyrics went like ‘you were my dream girl, i loved you to death, how could you cheat on me and send me a picture of you and the guys kissing you and holding your breasts’ ‘f’ing, drinking, the boys will leave you and you’re the victim’ ‘you ruined the relationship like a destroyed toy’ mans really went into a heartbreak story in that song and i just literally had a blast hearing it, the whole damn hometown heard it and everyone couldn’t wrap their heads around as to why he went on writing a darn song about me LOL. Till this day i still think about it and it makes me giggle so much bc he cheated first, i took petty revenge to a whole new level.
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2024.05.18 22:09 Potato1284 AITA For going no contact with my aunt?

First lf all, hello potatoes! This is my first ever post on anything, so bear with me!
I (21f), have an aunt who I've finally decided to go no contact with after years of her bs. For the sake of this post, let's call her EA. EA has always been a narcissist, though none of us really did anything about it for a while.
For instance, when I was young, about 12 or 13, she decided it would be a good idea to take me and my three siblings to a youth group, even though we never wanted to. She pretty much dragged us over there and would act like she was doing something good for us so we could pay her back later. We never wanted to go, because of some issues we had with the last religious group we went to, and it became painful for us to deal with.
Anyway, we ended up being late to an event one night, and the entire 30 minute drive down, she had been complaining about how late we were. Once we had gotten to the building, she went inside and talked to the person in charge about it. My siblings and I had come in and she locked eyes with me.
"Thanks a lot, kids."
That's all she had to say to us, then proceeded to complain to the person in charge over the whole ordeal. Being as young as I was and as sensitive as I was at the time, I held on to that feeling. Eventually, we stopped going, again because it was hard for us and EA made it unbearable.
Several years went by, and not long after I had graduated, she had come back into my life, in a much more violent way than before. I had moved out for school and work, so I wasn't physically there, but I heard about it after the fact. It turns out, while my parents and EA had gone to an appointment they both had in the nearest city (3+ hour drive), she had attacked my mother. Not verbally, but physically. She had pounced on her and left scratches and bruises. The cause of the fight? Some water on her butt. She threw a whole fit and physically attacked my mother, over a little bit of water on her butt.
Let me tell you, I was fuming when I had heard about it. She even went so far as to insult us when she attacked my mother, and I'll never forget it.
"You're raising your kids to be just like you!"
She made it sound like a bad thing for us to turn out like my mother. Now, my mother is a kind woman with a soft heart and a soft spot for dogs and cats. She loves crystals and plants, and she loves cloudy days and being by the ocean. She accepts all of us for who we are, and makes inappropriate jokes for us to laugh at. To hear EA insult my mother made me angry, but she had told me not to put any energy into it.
EA began to get worse afterwards. I was working a job that was slowly killing me, and whenever she'd visit, she had that sickly sweet 'I'm tolerating you enough to talk to you' look on her face and tone in her voice. When I was moved to nights, I was hoping to never deal with her again. But then, my grandmother fell down.
I heard about it during one of my shifts, and when I had gotten off, I couldn't sleep. I was afraid something would happen to her if I was asleep, so I stayed awake until my bf (21m) woke up. I told him the situation and we had a talk about it, and we both agreed that it would be best if I moved back to take care of her. So, on my first day off, I packed all my stuff and left. I texted my boss, who I wasn't on good terms with, and told her the situation. I pretty much handed in my two week notice, but only gave her two days.
So, I came home and moved in with my grandma so I could take care of her. Cooking, cleaning, laundry, dishes, anything and everything she needed done, I would do it. I was lucky enough to be able to bring my dog, a chihuahua dashund pug mix, to live with me. Spud made things a bit easier for me, considering everything that I had given up and what was going on. It felt like things were gonna get better.
Until my grandmother had to go to the hospital. I wish I was kidding, but I'm not. She couldn't get out of bed one morning, and since I didn't know what to do, I panicked and called my father. He came and checked on her, gave her an oxygen treatment, and when things didn't improve, he called EA so they could go to the hospital. I was freaking out and pacing around on the balcony, trying to calm down as they carried her to the car and drove to the hospital two towns over. She got better, so that helped, but it scared me so badly I couldn't sleep for a while. We were given an oxygen machine and told to have her on it as often as possible. That first night was terrible. I hadn't slept at all that night, or for the next few nights, because I was afraid of what would happen if I did.
To help with this, my father bought a baby monitor so I could make sure she was okay, and after a few days, I was feeling much better. EA began showing up, when she hadn't come at all before the hospital visit. When she did, the first thing she did was complain.
My little sis (11f), was helping me clean, and we had finished doing what my grandmother needed us to do when EA had come in. The first thing she said to us was that we should be cleaning, and began cleaning the stuff we didn't get to. She then started to complain about how we weren't doing these tasks that my grandmother never asked us to do. My sister and I just looked at each other with confusion. I could tell she was feeling bad, but it wasn't her job to do in the first place. EA took her cleaning to my grandmother's bedroom, and she stayed in there for a long time.
I began to get worried, so I ended up heading to my room downstairs to check the monitor, only to find EA had covered it. I sat, confused by what she had done. It's not like I had the monitor there to snoop around, it was only there to make sure my grandmother was okay. I shrugged it off and uncovered it before I went to bed that night. After a few days, I had decided to make the trip to see my bf. It was almost a 2 hour drive, so I wanted to leave early. I asked my little brother (18), to watch over everything while I was gone for a few days. He agreed for the price of some dark chocolate for his own mochas in the morning. I agreed, and made sure he knew what medications my grandparents had to take and when, where the blood pressure cuff was and how to use it, and the device to check my grandmother's oxygen. After that, I packed the clothes I'd need for four days, and left.
Things were going smoothly for a while. I was laughing and relaxing with my bf, watching videos he had saved to show me, and going on dates, talking and catching up. On the third day, I got a text from my brother saying that he was angry. I asked why, and he explained everything.
He said EA had showed up, and was trying to make me and my sister sound like thieves. She claimed we had gotten into some drinks meant for my uncle, who's diabetic and also lives with my grandmother. I told him I don't drink that particular brand anymore, and my sister only ever got into the milk and some cold water. I showed my bf the messages, and we both had a good laugh over it. He knew that I don't drink that particular brand, and that I enjoy a different brand altogether, so we thought it was just ridiculous.
It continued like this for a while. EA would make little comments and talk with my grandmother about certain topics, trying to make me and my sister sound like we were against her. All the while, I was doing my usual job of cooking and cleaning for her and making sure she was okay. I was pretty much untouchable in her eyes.
My mother had come by to visit for a while and make sure everything was okay one day. We talked, she helped me cook, and we just had a good time, until EA popped in unannounced. My grandmother, wanting them to fix their relationship as sisters, stopped my mother from leaving the kitchen and told them to hug. I was watching the whole thing and heard EA say something thst just made me want to yell.
"Are you gonna attack me again?"
She made herself sound like the victim, and made it seem like my mother had attacked her. They hugged, and things proceeded to get worse from there. I refused to talk to EA when she came by, and I'd watch when she started her random cleaning. If she went into my grandmother's bedroom, I'd go downstairs, watch the monitor and try to make sure she wasn't stealing anything. She coveted the camera again and again, which slowly drove me crazy. I regret not talking to her about it.
She did it again when I was on another trip to see my bf, and this time, my brother called her out on it. He told her to stop covering the camera, that it was only there to make sure my grandmother was okay at night, nothing more. According to him, EA began yelling at him and puffing her chest out over the whole thing, while my brother acted more mature and waited for her to finish. He then asked if she was done, to which she huffed. He was getting pretty angry over it. I had him tell me everything thst was going on, so I was up to date while I was gone.
This would continue for a few more weeks, and again, while I was away, EA would confront my brother, but this time, she said something thst made me lose it. My brother was telling my uncle that it probably wasn't a good idea to take a pastry with him downstairs, since it had a bunch of sugar. EA went ballistic over this and started getting in my brother's face, yelling about it and calling him a few names like r-tard, and said, and I quote, "No wonder you were bullied, you deserved it."
For context, my brother faced severe bullying when we were in school. He was thrown around, threatened, hit, and more. He also has an accent due to having multiple earaches as a baby, so sometimes, it's hard to understand him. He's a smart kid, with a good heart, and having a middle aged swamp monster with a superiority complex getting in his face and yelling at him about how stupid he was and saying he deserved to be bullied broke me and hurt him. He didn't show it, but I know it hurt him.
When I found out, I was angry, sad, and an all around mess. My bf read the messages and didn't know what to do. I was ranting and rambling angrily by this point, in tears and just about seeing red. I was getting more angry as I talked about it, completely unaware that while my bf was playing a game, he was playing with a friend, and they could hear everything. They heard my voice beginning to shake as I let out all my frustrations, and they heard how angry I was that this haggard hoghag of a woman could treat my little brother like that. I ended up crying myself to sleep that night, I was so furious.
After that, she kept coming around and trying to make all of us sound like the villains of the tale while she was the goodie two shoes. I cut all contact with her, refused to talk to her or even acknowledge her existence, and just continued to enjoy myself. My sister had some other plans
EA is diabetic, so she can't really have sugar, so my sister had an idea to pay her back, at least a little. EA had come over to open oysters with us. My grandmother had ordered them for me and my sister, because we enjoyed them so much. My sister decided to get some Popsicles from the freezer upstairs and started to eat one in front of EA. She also handed one to me, so I could enjoy too. We got some looks from EA, but I don't remember hearing her say anything. Later on, we even went so far as to make delicious chocolate chip banana bread while she was there, so she couldn't have some but had to deal with the temptation. I guess this could count as a petty revenge story, but I don't know where else to put this. I just wanted to get this story off of my chest and hear what the other petty potatoes think about this.
So, AITA for going to contact with my aunt? And for going so far as to make treats she can't have?
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2024.05.18 21:56 CuriousAnachronism 24 [M4M] Germany/Europe/Online - Fiat iustitia, et pereat mundus

Prologue

Hello and welcome to my post. I will subdivide this into two large parts. One will cover my thoughts, feelings, my hopes and dreams...While the other will tell you the specifics of how I pass the time, what topics interest me, what passions do I posses. I believe that at the end of this leap into my inner world, you dear reader, will have all the necessary information to judge whether we are compatible or not.

Part I
I am writing this in the hopes of finding something that I lack. Lately I have had this feeling, this tinge of melancholy within the dephts of my being, this yearning to find a kindred spirit, another Soul, much like mine, to form a bond with. Perhaps Loneliness is the right word for what is bothering me, but to use it seems to carry with it a connotation of ungratefulness. Ungratefulness for the people that I do have in my life, although none of them, of course, have the connection to me that I seek here.

I have found it increasingly necessary to seek in this Life a sort of purity of thought. What I mean is, I have began to undestand what ideas and concepts are ultimately compatible with my inner most Self, ergo what guidelines I have to follow to feel the most whole. Naturally I have likewise realised what I cannot add to my Self and what I will henceforth reject with all the power that I posses.

With this new context in mind, I now follow on the path of self improvement. I will now begin to mold my Self into my perfected idea of how the Self should be. This is certainly a significant undertaking, one that will not be easy to follow through on but one that I ultimately have to do. To me such context is essential. It is akin to a Guiding Star shining in the night. I will follow this Star for without it I am lost in the vast Darkness.

Looking back at my life, it was suboptimal, especially if one compares the way it molded me to how I will now mold myself. I suppose I must look on with a hint of regret at all that time which one might consider to be lost. Still... I try to stave off such decisively negative interpretations, after all, I have ultimately came to these conclusions. That means that somewhere along the line I had to have picked up on enough of such ideas for them to become so cemented in my consciousness. Well, either that or I was always like this, but in that case I can at least thank my life up to this point for not being able to supress such manifestations of my inner most Self.

To add to the topic of my life, I must admit that not all the battles have yet been won, not all the Demons vanquished, not every Mountain climbed. I want you to keep such things in mind when deciding whether or not to approach me. Many will shy away, I undestand that much, but the pursuit of true Companionship is just another such battle. Having said all that I do believe that being able to overcome hurdles together carries with it a certain appeal. That is to say, what's the fun in joining once the Game is already over?

I don't shy away from such challenges, perhaps to a fault. Certain troubles that I faced in the past carry with them a long shadow over my current health and well being. Still, I intend to change little in this regard other than the proficiency with which I will clash the current of my Will against the cliffs of Life.
Part II
In this part of my post I will tell you about my interests and hobbies, I will try to be thorough, commonality in this regard is rather important to build a relationship
History. I have had an interest in history for almost a decade now, it started back in school and developed from there. Well, now that I think about it one could argue that it started even earlier in my life as I liked watching the odd historic documentary or film aired on television but it wasn't regular back then, I never actively sought it out. I am mostly interested in European history in the period between the 18th-20th century but I sometimes branch out to other time periods and other parts of the world. I watch various channels related to history and read articles and sometimes books. I have recently got a few books on the German revolution of 1848/1849 and a historical magazine on the Thirty Years' War. Besides that I try to visit museums sometimes.
Literature. Especially old novels. I like to immerse myself in the Worlds of these books, I tend to read them while listening to thematically fitting music and take my time with them. One time you are following a troubled Youth in his quest for spiritual understanding of the world, another you see the aged and decrepit Doctor gambling his very Soul on the promises of abtaining satisfaction in earthy pleasures, then again your olfaction notices the most pleasant scent known to man even as the one eminating it has the appearance of a revolting Frog. These and many other stories open up to you once you decide to set foot into the literary World.
Languages. I know three, with one being a bit rusty. I am currently working intently on strengthening it. I believe that if I continue to apply myself in this regard then I should be able to finally conquer it. What language am I working on? Well, if you were to stack all the major works in it they would be as tall as a house... It is fun to go through different works in multiple languages, the same goes for film, games and such.
Games. I recently played Cyberpunk 2077. Well as recently as I played any major story centric game. Now that the dust has settled and the bugs mostly removed...It's not that bad. The main questline at least. Besides that I tried Fallout 76 (Very average, I'm dissapointed with what they made the "RPG" system) and I might give Deus Ex Manking Divided another spin (since it's somewhat similar to Cyberpunk when it comes to its aesthetics). Dark Souls is one of my favorite series, I still haven't beaten Elden Ring though. When it came out I wasn't in the right mindset to invest a hundred hours into it, with all those bosses and difficult locations. I think I'll only consider playing it if I am streaming it to someone. I am generally interested in either streaming games or having the person I am talking to stream them to me. To be specific I mean streaming to a single person while being on call. Besides that I'm a big fan of Paradox strategy games, especially Europa Universalis IV and Heats of Iron IV, I tend to only play single player since I find multiplayer with many people to be rather stressful but on the other hand I have nothing against a co-op game. I'm not the best player though, despite the ammount of hours I have in them. Another great game I would mention would be Dragon's Dogma. A very underrated RPG. I recently beat it again and it was an atmospheric and interesting experience. It is one of those games that feel like they have an endless ammount of depth and constant new secrets to discover.
Anime and Manga. In recent times my interest in them has waned but I still watch the occasional series here and there. Like Cyberpunk Edgerunners (Which I found to be rather mediocre) and the very good first season from the new arc of Bleach. Some of my favourite series include: Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, Death Note, Fate;Zero, Psycho Pass, Code Geass and Attack on Titan. I wouldn't mind if you were to introduce me to some new series, maybe based on the ones I mentioned. My favourite Manga is Berserk which I still follow, althought I am still not certain on the direction that the new author is taking. I suppose it really is a matter of contention whether a somewhat (or considerably warped) vision is better than an unfinished work. One could argue that a few novels remain unfinished and possess a macabre appeal to them as such.
Music. Classical music has a very special place in my heart. A few of my favourite pieces would be: Clair de Lune, Nocturne Op. 9 No.2, Devil's Trill Sonata, Danse Macabre, Valse Sentimentale, Symphony No. 7 in A Major, Op. 92: II. Alegreto (by Beethoven) and Suite from Swan Lake, Op. 20a: I. Scene. Moderato. There are more but these ones always invoke something in me when I listen to them. Besides Classical I also enjoy listening to Synthwave, old Western pop and J-pop, both modern and from the 20th century.
Esotericism. I am interested in things spiritual, mystical, magical and esoteric. I have read religios texts, magical grimoires, introductions to various schools of thought. It is interesting to me.
Epilogue
Hopefully I was able to cast the spotlight upon my inner World in a clear and unequivocal manner. I feel the need to add to the aforementioned that I am rather introverted, which means that I tend to dislike large social gatherings. I managed to condition myself to be able to endure the presense of large groups of people but it isn't something that I would seek out in most cases. Besides that I am neurodivergent and suffer from certain issues with mental health. I have to take medication to keep myself under control. They work well enough but certain days are harder than others. I respect the struggle that others have with mental health but in the context of a relationship I have my limits, no one with BDP for instance. I am also not looking for anything casual. I understand than one cannot demand depth and meaning from a conversation with an absolute stranger, that is akin to trying to build a sand castle right before the waves strike but I ask at least that you enter with a mindset that this might become something of significance. I also do want to say that I am completely Monogamous. My preference? The sickly, pale, intellectual who watches rain droplets slide down the window in Autumn. Lastly, if I enjoy the company of a person I tend to not want to let them go.
Thank you for taking the time to read my post and have a good day. I ask that you send a DM instead of a chat and that you give the English translation of my title as your own.
Goodbye...Or perhaps untill we meet again
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2024.05.18 21:54 slsgill What to do next?

Hi, well here I am on the internet asking for help. SICK! Thank you anyone who responds! Anyways, I am 29, I have a masters in OT and a bachelor degree in psych and Spanish. I was diagnosed in grad school with ADHD and developed anxiety. Recently broke up with gf, decided to do travel therapy. It did not work out. So now am trying to figure out what is next. I don't necessarily know what I would be good at, but I know that OT is not for me. I have been kind of interested in UX design, I like the adaptation/tech side of accessibility. I have always liked computers and technology diving into the details of settings, and trying to customize things, and I used to be a lot more creative have let that slack a bit. I really enjoyed working with people with adults with disabilities in a fun setting not necessarily the therapy part. I once dabbled in videography as a creative outlet, but I dunno. I have gone through lots of hobbies, which I love learning the process of, I can dive so deep and hyperfocus on a topic, often it fades when the main events of life get distracting. I also want something that earns a decent living which for me would be above 60k with potential to grow. Does anyone have recommendations for resources that can help figure out what I would be good at. I have too many ideas flowing through my brain -they all have varying amounts of time and money required to achieve them. I don't want to make a big mistake like I feel how I did with my current career which leaves me in over 100k of debt, with forgiveness in 25 years. Props to anyone who reads through this lol, and extra props if you have any good advice or resources. I also get those ideas of just like spending all my money and traveling, or buying a van lol, maybe taking a part time low stress job for a while at like REI or something. I dunno. Thanks people.
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2024.05.18 21:43 Pickledmitski Should I quit?

I live in a small city and we have a local youth movement in here. (Btw in here it’s cool to be in it and the popular kids are the ones there) Anyways everybody wants to be a counselor and last year when we got our roles I got something that is sort of “semi counselor” (it’s bad) I had a lot of fun with my group and I became friends with people I hated before but I’m not popular and I don’t have many friends who go to the movement. To get the role next year i should’ve went to the movement and befriended older kids and kids from my grade but I didn’t and now it’s the end of the year and I could try to give it all I got but I don’t really have fun there when I’m outside my role. I don’t have many friends and I always feel like I’m trying to hard. Next week we are going to sleep at the movement for 4 nights and when we’re not in school we’re supposed to be there and I can just imagine me being there alone and feeling left out and I don’t know if I should do It for the slight chance of getting the role I want (I don’t have that much chance because I didn’t make friends)
Anyway I want to decide with myself if I give it up and then I’ll be happier now but I’ll lose my chance or u they for a little longer and suffer right now (might not) for a very slim chance
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2024.05.18 21:40 Al3x_Rul3z Why is my autistic brother so hard to deal with?

I love my brother, I really do, But he gets on my nerves. A lot. My brother has autism, which by itself is really hard to deal with as his sibling, because deep down you know you will never have a normal sibling relationship.
  1. We hang out, but whenever it’s done, he just pushes me away and tells me to get out of his room. I always feel like it’s my fault, wondering if I did or said something wrong. We don’t even act like siblings, more like awkward roommates, or just friends.
  2. He makes me feel bad. I always feel like he’s judging me, even though we’re literally family. For example: If I simply even take interest or talk about a topic for too long, he practically makes fun of me for it and will use it against me.
  3. No privacy. Whenever I’ll be in my room, doing nothing except on my phone, he’ll barge in without asking, pick up my stuff (Action figures, Comic books, Pencils, Etc.), Asking what I’m watching, who I’m texting, even though It’s none of his business, and doesn’t leave after the 5th time I ask, or I make him leave with force. Although if I walk in his room without an invitation, he IMMEDIATELY gets annoyed and will kick me out.
Every time I talk to my mom about this, she just says it’s his autism. Am I being dramatic? Should I just deal with it? Is it ALL really just his autism?
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2024.05.18 21:38 birdsandboutique AITAH for telling my bf I regret staying with him?

Yesterday was my 37th birthday and I was thinking about regrets I have. I have been with my boyfriend for 13 years. we have 4 children together (we welcomed another 4th earlier this year).
We couldn’t go out and celebrate my birthday the way I wanted to because we don’t have the money to do what I wanted to do which started the fight.
I am a SAHM but I do have a side business making clothes. My bf on the other hand is fully capable of working full time, he just chooses not to. He even went to school to be a internet coder but never looked for work and chose to be a bartender.
Even when we found out we were expecting again last year, my partner kept promising he was going to look for a better job and he never did. He just kept making excuses.
Since we have no money, we couldn’t do anything on my birthday and I took it out on him. The other thing is my partner had ti ask his brother Jeremy to borrow some money too help us pay off our debts n so that he could take me out for a fun birthday.
Jeremy said no because he needs to use his money for his own family and I’m sure for the wedding they supposedly are going to have.
Admittedly, I was upset that his brother said no because we are also family and he should take care of us too . And I know his dad is giving him money for his wedding since he’s the golden boy now and got engaged. But I know he’s doing what’s best.
honesty… I think I was more mad and regretful for choosing the wrong brother.
15 years ago I was dating Jeremy first, but I had a crush on his brother for a long time before that (my bf right now). I broke it off with Jeremy and a few years later started dating his brother who’s my bf now. I was young and dumb and more about physical attraction stuff.
I love my bf n our kids together, but I have regrets not choosing Jeremy... I have been thinking about it for the few years.
Besides the fact that Jeremy is a hard worker with a good job , he has more qualities that would have been better in the long term for a family.
I always thought that there might be a day where Jeremy n I might find our way back to each other, especially because he was single for so long and part of me thought he might’ve still had some feelings for me still.
But I know that’s not gonna happen because he is planning a wedding with this girl.
last night I was tempted to call him and ask him if he ever thinks about me like that but I ddciddd against it and kept it in. I didn’t want to cause drama.
I have excepted Jeremy is going to get married and my situation is what it is.
But, I did get into a fight with my boyfriend and I told him that I regret wasting my youth on him and wish I would’ve left that a younger age. He started having this issues after our first child together and I thought he would change. But he just got worse. We haven’t been talking since.
I’m 37 and I just have a lot of regrets and I just wish he would step it up and support us.
Idk if it’s just turning 37, if I really want Jeremy, or if I’m just angry at my situation. But I defjnitely feel my bf hasn’t proven himself to be the person I hoped for.
Am I the asshole?
EDIT**: I am not saying I want Jeremy for his money. I was just giving context to what my situation is.
There’s a lot of good qualities about Jeremy, he’s sweet, he’s kind, he’s generous, loyal, very smart, and hardworking. My bf used to be the same way. But over the last few years, he just gave up on life and seems to have given up on everything. And that’s why I’m having a lot of doubts and regrets.
I talked to my bf about the fact that he doesn’t seem to want to work, doesn’t want to marry, etc., and he shuts down.
I told him I should’ve maybe left years ago before we had our last child. I wasn’t trying to say I don’t love him or all I want is money.
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2024.05.18 21:37 sinomaltanews "Elvas: Malta Ġdida tiċċelebra fil-Festival taż-Żgħażagħ u Akkademiku

"Elvas: Malta Ġdida tiċċelebra fil-Festival taż-Żgħażagħ u Akkademiku
L-edizzjoni tal-2024 tal-Festival Akkademiku u taż-Żgħażagħ Elvas twiegħed iljieli ta’ divertiment kbir sat-18 ta’ Mejju.
Hemm tlett iljieli ta’ mużika tajba u gost. Il-Ħamis, 16, Alentuna u t-tonn mistiedna, Miguel Azevedo, Dj Brat u Dj Diazz, telgħu fuq il-palk fil-Coliseu. Illum il-Ġimgħa, 17, il-palk kien ta’ Bunny Wonders, Deejay Telio, Dj Zanova u Dj Cuba u Quintas Percussion. L-aħħar jum tal-avveniment, is-Sibt, 18 ta’ Mejju, jibda b’Budafe, Bárbara Bandeiras, Danni Gato u jintemm il-lejl ma’ John Bandeiras.
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"埃爾瓦斯:新馬耳他在青年和學術節上慶祝
2024 年埃爾瓦斯青年學術節承諾在 5 月 18 日之前為您帶來精彩的娛樂之夜。
三個晚上都有美妙的音樂和樂趣。 16 日星期四,阿倫圖納 (Alentuna) 和特邀金槍魚米格爾·阿澤維多 (Miguel Azevedo)、Dj Brat 和 Dj Diazz 登上了 Coliseu 的舞台。 17 號星期五,這個舞台屬於 Bunny Wonders、Deejay Telio、Dj Zanova 和 Dj Cuba 以及 Quintas Percussion。活動的最後一天,即 5 月 18 日星期六,由布達菲、芭芭拉·班戴拉斯、丹尼·加托開始,到約翰·班戴拉斯當晚結束。
印刷版照片報告
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"Elvas: New Malta celebrating at the Youth and Academic Festival
The 2024 edition of the Elvas Youth and Academic Festival promises nights of great entertainment until May 18th.
There are three nights of good music and fun. On Thursday, the 16th, Alentuna and guest tunas, Miguel Azevedo, Dj Brat and Dj Diazz, took to the stage at the Coliseu. This Friday, the 17th, the stage belonged to Bunny Wonders, Deejay Telio, Dj Zanova and Dj Cuba and Quintas Percussion. The last day of the event, Saturday, May 18th, starts with Budafe, Bárbara Bandeiras, Danni Gato and ends the night with John Bandeiras.
Photoreport in the printed edition
https://nortealentejo.pt/2024/05/17/elvas-malta-nova-em-festa-no-festival-da-juventude-e-academico/

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"एल्वास: न्यू माल्टा युवा और शैक्षणिक महोत्सव में जश्न मना रहा है
एल्वास यूथ एंड एकेडमिक फेस्टिवल का 2024 संस्करण 18 मई तक शानदार मनोरंजन की रातों का वादा करता है।
अच्छे संगीत और मनोरंजन की तीन रातें हैं। गुरुवार, 16 तारीख को, एलेंटुना और अतिथि ट्यूना, मिगुएल अज़ेवेदो, डीजे ब्रैट और डीजे डियाज़, कोलिसेउ में मंच पर आए। इस शुक्रवार, 17वें, मंच बन्नी वंडर्स, डीजे टेलियो, डीजे ज़ानोवा और डीजे क्यूबा और क्विंटास पर्कशन का था। कार्यक्रम का अंतिम दिन, शनिवार, 18 मई, बुडाफे, बारबरा बांदीरास, डैनी गाटो के साथ शुरू होता है और रात जॉन बांदीरास के साथ समाप्त होता है।
मुद्रित संस्करण में फोटोरिपोर्ट
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"Elvas: Nueva Malta celebrando en el Festival Académico y Juvenil
La edición 2024 del Festival Académico y Juvenil de Elvas promete noches de gran entretenimiento hasta el 18 de mayo.
Son tres noches de buena música y diversión. El jueves 16, Alentuna y los túnidos invitados, Miguel Azevedo, Dj Brat y Dj Diazz, subieron al escenario del Coliseu. Este viernes 17 el escenario perteneció a Bunny Wonders, Deejay Telio, Dj Zanova y Dj Cuba y Quintas Percussion. El último día del evento, el sábado 18 de mayo, comienza con Budafe, Bárbara Bandeiras, Danni Gato y finaliza la noche con John Bandeiras.
Fotorreportaje en la edición impresa.
https://nortealentejo.pt/2024/05/17/elvas-malta-nova-em-festa-no-festival-da-juventude-e-academico/

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"Elvas : Nouvelle Malte en fête au Festival de la Jeunesse et de l'Académique
L'édition 2024 du Festival Jeunesse et Académique d'Elvas promet des soirées de grand divertissement jusqu'au 18 mai.
Il y a trois nuits de bonne musique et de plaisir. Le jeudi 16, Alentuna et les invités Miguel Azevedo, Dj Brat et Dj Diazz sont montés sur la scène du Coliseu. Ce vendredi 17, la scène appartenait à Bunny Wonders, Deejay Telio, Dj Zanova et Dj Cuba et Quintas Percussion. Le dernier jour de l'événement, le samedi 18 mai, commence avec Budafe, Bárbara Bandeiras, Danni Gato et termine la soirée avec John Bandeiras.
Reportage photo dans l'édition imprimée
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2024.05.18 21:33 RagZ_413 The realities of the world hitting hard on a geek

So this isn’t a post really asking for anything or even really about the core topic of the sub. But as I’m out on a leisure pass from the halfway house today something I experienced just really hit me and frankly I don’t really have anywhere else to share it.
I grew up as a pretty normal, “closetted” geek. Role playing games, comic books, anime, magic the gathering, etc. Closetted because those things were pretty clearly in the “weirdo” realm of society at the time.
I had noticed before the slow trend of it becoming more acceptable publicly, and while in I saw signs through news stories and current events. But while walking around on my leisure pass today I stopped in Barnes & Nobles.
They’re doing a fantasy/D&D themed event in there today. The whole store has some fun little things setup, like a d20 random book generator station. They had two fantasy authors out front signing books. They have games of D&D going on in the coffee shop area. Shoppers and staff are walking around in cosplay.
and two things kind of hit me. Due to my poor decisions, I put myself away from society during a period where I could’ve really enjoyed just being myself out in the world. And it makes me think of my former best friend of 28 years that I no longer have due to this situation. And it’s causing that wonderful sledgehammer of guilt and regret to come slamming down hard for the first time since getting out.
Not really expecting or looking for any kind of response. Just needed to expressed the feelings and this seemed the only safe place to do it. Thanks.
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