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MERI STRONG GUT FEELING BATA RAHI HAI KI PAKKA AGLE SAAL CASE STUDY BASED QUESTIONS AA SAKTE HAIN

Bhai my parents, particularly my father, are the weirdest and most superstitious people I've ever met. Gaon ke 80 saal ki daadi log bhi itni superstitious nahi hoti hongi. They are so embarrassing ki mai apne doston k samne bhi nahi bol sakta ye sab isiliye Reddit par vent kar rha hun. So hua ye ki aaj subhah (2nd June) ko mere papa aake bol rahe hai "tune NEET ka answer key toh nahi dekha hai na, mai maulvi k paas jaake aata hun phir dekhna" ..... I was like??? Answer key dekhne ka toh window hi sirf kal tak tha, abhi maulvi k paas jaake kya fayda. And also answer key dekhne k liye maulvi k paas kaun jaata hai yaar, jo hona tha toh ho gaya, exam likh diya maine abhi maulvi mera answer change thodi kar deta. Aur answer key dekhne ka kya hai woh toh mai NEET k agle din ho dekh liya tha. Agar kisike paas jaane ke liye itna hi desperate the toh NTA officials ke paas jaate, unko paisa khilaate. Abhi mai bol diya ki dekha hun toh gussa ho gaye aur bol rahe ki apne city ke govt. Clg mai B.Sc m admission kara denge. Yahi karna hai toh baki 50 exams ka form kyu bhara???? Aur mummy meri egoistic (dono hi waise toh) 2nd drop tak lene nahi degi, ye Mera pehla drop tha. Ab mummy mujhe aake bol rahi hai ki tu jhooth kya nahi bola. Bhai agar woh maulvi itna powerful hai aur uske upar itna bharosa hai phir usko toh pata chal hi jaana hai ki mai jhooth bola hun na

Toh baat kuch aise hai ki roj coaching ke baad Library jati hu wha achhi padhai ho jati hai 11-1 pehle phir lunch karke 1:40-4:00 aur yhi dikkat hai 4 baje ke baad mujhse wha baitha hii nhi jaata pata nhi konsa kidaa ghus jata hai mere andar ki nhi abb bas bhout hua chalo yha se roj soch ke jati hu ki aaj kams kam 1 ghante adhik baithungi atleast evening snacks jab milte hai tab wapis aungi lakin ho hii nhi pata hai aur phir jab 5 baje tak nhi baith pati toh regret aur guilt alag hota hai ki yha ke bhi paise barbaad kar rhi hu aur inhi sab aur time waste hota hai toh bas itna bata do ki kya karu wha 4 baje tak hii baithu ki try Karu abhi bhi 5 ya 8 tak baithne ka (meri friend hai wo 8 Baje wapas aati hai aur ek mai hu) khaer bata do mujhe kya karna chahiye for context mai 3:15 karib uthti hu aur 9-10 baje tak jati hu toh bata do yrr 4 baje ke baad kya Karu.
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Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, Anjali, tum nahi samjhogi, Chalo aao main tumhe samjhaun! chhodo, tum nahi samjhogi.
Meri khamoshi mein jo awaaz hai, tum nahi samjhogi, Dil ke dard mein jo raaz hai, chhodo, tum nahi samjhogi.
Dil ke jazbaat ajeeb se hain, tum nahi samjhogi, Har ek dhadkan mein kuch raaz se hai, chhodo, tum nahi samjhogi.
Woh jo raaton ka sukoon gum hai, tum nahi samjhogi, Aankhon mein jo sapne hain, chhodo, tum nahi pehchano gi.
Zindagi ki raahon mein kuch khoya hai, tum nahi samjhogi, Par tumhar sati Har ek lamhe mein kuch paaya hai! chhodo, tum nahi samjhogi.
Mere khayalon ka rang, tum nahi pehchano gi, Dil ki gehraayi mein kuch chhupa hai, chhodo, tum nahi samjhogi.
Saaye mein jo roshni hai, tum nahi samjhogi, Khwabon ki jo baatein hain, chhodo, tum nahi jaanogi.
Aankhon mein jo aansoo hain, tum nahi dekhogi, Meri muskurahat mein kya kya chhupa hai, chhodo, tum nahi pehchano gi.
Meri tanhaayi mein jo saathi hai, tum nahi samjhogi, Is junoon ki inteha kya hai, chhodo, tum nahi samjhogi.
Raaton ko jo sapne sajte hain, tum nahi samjhogi, In khayalon mein jo rang bharti hai, chhodo, tum nahi pehchano gi.
Meri har saans mein jo gungunahat hai, tum nahi samjhogi, Is bekhudi mein jo karvaat hai, chhodo, tum nahi samjhogi.
Meri ankhon mein jo nam hai, tum nahi samjhogi, In khushiyon mein jo gham hai, chhodo, tum nahi pehchano gi.
Mere khwabon ka jo raaz hai, tum nahi samjhogi, Dil ke armaan ki aawaaz hai, chhodo, tum nahi samjhogi.
Kuch Kuch Hota Hai, Anjali, tum nahi samjhogi, Chalo aao main tumhe samjhaun, chhodo, tum nahi samjhogi.

(please read this in Suniel Shetty’s voice):
Main tumhe bhool jaun, ye ho nahi sakta, Tum mujhe bhool jao, ye main hone nahi dunga.
Teri yaadon ke charaagh se roshan hai dil ka aangan, In ujli raaton mein, main andhera hone nahi dunga.
Har ek pal mein basi hai teri meethi si khushboo, Is hawaon ko teri baat se khaali hone nahi dunga.
Tere ishq ka hai nasha meri rooh mein ghum sa, Main apni zindagi se ye suroor jaane nahi dunga.
Meri khushiyon ka savaal hai tu, meri har ek muskaan, Main apni hasraton ko kabhi phir udas hone nahi dunga.
Jo dard tune diye, woh hi ab zindagi ka aaina, Main apni zindagi ko ab be-rang hone nahi dunga.
Yeh jo judai ki raatein hain, yeh bhi guzar jayengi, Main apne khwabon ko kabhi tanha hone nahi dunga.
Main tumhe bhool jaun, ye ho nahi sakta, Tum mujhe bhool jao, ye main hone nahi dunga.
Meri ragon mein tera naam hai, har saans hai teri, Main apni rooh ko tere zikr se khaali hone nahi dunga.
Tere bina jeene ka khayal hi zehar lagta hai mujhe, Main apni zindagi ko kabhi marne nahi dunga.
Tere khwabon ki zanjeeron se bandh chuka hoon main, Main apne dil ko ab aazad hone nahi dunga.
Har raag mein teri awaaz ki jhankaar hai ab bhi, Main apne kanh har pal yeh mehkaas hone nahi dunga.
Tere ishq ka junoon hai mujhpar, jo kabhi utar nahi sakta, Main apne dard ko ab sukoon hone nahi dunga.
Main tujhmein jeeta hoon, tujhse hi meri wujud hai, Main apne hone ko kabhi adhoora hone nahi dunga.
Tu jo door bhi ho, teri nazar mujhpar hi rahegi, Main apni aarzoo ko kabhi kamzor hone nahi dunga.
Main tumhe bhool jaun, ye ho nahi sakta, Tum mujhe bhool jao, ye main hone nahi dunga.

Meri mains me 77k rank hai, according to last year cutoff it should be enough for COE. But I applied after first round and sab bol rahe hain ki 2nd round sirf boards waalon ke liye hai. Kya karu? Kab aayega result?

Got 99.3%ile in mains 1 , left studying for jee and played online games whole day, just did some basic pyqs for cbse boards, didn't revise anything for mains 2 still got 97%ile , then realised now its time, grinded my ass off till jee adv , gave mocks + revised pyqs of adv( i completed them during prep). Used to get 150 avg in allen mocks. Now comes the D-Day, My exam centre was 1.5 hrs away , I reached the exam centre at 7:30 am , exam was supposed to be started at 9:00 am but god had different plans for me. In that centre Biometric started at 8:30 due to some technical errors (according to inviligators) , they made us sit till 10:00 am , exam started at 10:30 am , till then I was completely exhausted( just sitting on the chair for 2-3 hrs straight in 45°C temp with no AC's in centre ) , somehow managed to do p1 with attempt of around 30 questions. P1 got over at 1:30 pm , after that we were informed that p2 would start by 3 pm so we literally had approximately 1 hr break, i had intense headache + back pain, took painkillers and ate some food went for p2 , then when I again went for the biometric I was alloted a pc but the portal software didn't launch , same issue occured with other few students, but these mfkers started exam at 3:00 pm only(reading time till 3:30 ) , Now I was literally pissed. Like Kuch baccho ka hi sirf PC chal rha tha kuch ka nhi how tf they started the exam. Somehow they made us sit in another lab where they alloted a different pc , I didn't get any reading time started the exam directly , and in between exam the inviligators started talking , I was like chutiya ho kya, meri gaand itni jyada fatt rkhi thi us time mai kuch bol bhi nhi paaya. Fir bhi I managed to do around 20-25 questions. Now I checked my response sheet , I'm getting 112±4 , I did mistakes of around almost 80-90 marks. Matlab itni galtiyan toh 2 saal mai kisi mock mai bhi nhi hui jitni isme ho gyi. I am completely hopeless now, feeling like ki sab khtm hogya, ghar waalo ko lag rha tha ki atleast 150 toh le hi aayega..... Also at 99.3 I got 11k rank so kisi top 7 NIT mai cs bhi nhi milega( I am gen male). Sorry thoda jyada likh diya but bhot regret ho rha hai ab ki ye kya ho gya mere saath.

I try revising but end up not revising, meri 11vi achi hai except for chemistry, not like others who keep crying on this subreddit, especially maths, jisme number aajate hain. Can someone explain to me dheere dheere kaise revise Karu? asked a teacher he said try notes and then solve either pyqs or vg sir ki book. Similarly physics ke pyqs are like very ghise pite, they kill our intuition I believe. Toh bc kaise revise Karu. Also I need reach on this post toh Bhai log dekhlo.

Not asking if i should take a drop, but ab yai baat dimaag mai bohot ghum rahi hai toh rant out kar raha hu
Back in 2022 mujhe kabhi science nahi leni thi, i was always interested in Computer Science, used to learn a shit load of things back then. But later i realized and decided ki yai ek baar JEE tak chodna hoga kyuki manage nahi ho pa raha tha and i did. Slowly yaar yai subjects bohot pasand aane lage, like mechanics really got me hooked learning about engineering behind vehicles and jets and similar for semiconductors and electromagnetism getting me interested in computer hardware and stuff, apni theories aur ideas banane laga dono mai, research papers pad liya karta tha free time mai. Mujhe kabhi IIT jaana tha nahi aur maine kabhi colleges pe dhyan nahi diya. Bolta tha ki "Bill Gates bhi toh college drop out tha" BUT vo college bhi Harvard tha. Now i am at this point ki mere liye bus ab BITSAT and IAT bacha hai, jo ki mai most probably nikal lunga, dono (for real mocks mai marks kam hai, uske apne reasons hai but itta toh mujhe khud pe bharosa hai ki ho jayega).
Yaar does it really make a difference based on what college i am in. Kyuki yaar placements never really mattered for me, but it does for my family. Humare liye BITS mahenga hai but mai try karunga scholarship uthane ki somehow. Ya toh mai ab drop leke IIT jau.
Not asking if i should take a drop
All i am asking is ki yaar jo abhi in exams k through jo colleges hai (IISc, IISEr, IIT-Madras, BITS) yaha pe jau toh mere liye vo environment hoga kya ki mai teeno mai apna haath daal saku. Sunke lagta hai ki IIT provide karta hai, but now its just not possible for me. Ofc itti nao mai rahunga toh dubunga but thora bohot time nikal ke, not just professionally but out of passion (CSE and ECE professionally). College ka culture meri expertise kabhi tha hi nahi.

Not asking if i should take a drop, but ab yai baat dimaag mai bohot ghum rahi hai toh rant out kar raha hu
Back in 2022 mujhe kabhi science nahi leni thi, i was always interested in Computer Science, used to learn a shit load of things back then. But later i realized and decided ki yai ek baar JEE tak chodna hoga kyuki manage nahi ho pa raha tha and i did. Slowly yaar yai subjects bohot pasand aane lage, like mechanics really got me hooked learning about engineering behind vehicles and jets and similar for semiconductors and electromagnetism getting me interested in computer hardware and stuff, apni theories aur ideas banane laga dono mai, research papers pad liya karta tha free time mai. Mujhe kabhi IIT jaana tha nahi aur maine kabhi colleges pe dhyan nahi diya. Bolta tha ki "Bill Gates bhi toh college drop out tha" BUT vo college bhi Harvard tha. Now i am at this point ki mere liye bus ab BITSAT and IAT bacha hai, jo ki mai most probably nikal lunga, dono (for real mocks mai marks kam hai, uske apne reasons hai but itta toh mujhe khud pe bharosa hai ki ho jayega).
Yaar does it really make a difference based on what college i am in. Kyuki yaar placements never really mattered for me, but it does for my family. Humare liye BITS mahenga hai but mai try karunga scholarship uthane ki somehow. Ya toh mai ab drop leke IIT jau.
Not asking if i should take a drop
All i am asking is ki yaar jo abhi in exams k through jo colleges hai (IISc, IISEr, IIT-Madras, BITS) yaha pe jau toh mere liye vo environment hoga kya ki mai teeno mai apna haath daal saku. Sunke lagta hai ki IIT provide karta hai, but now its just not possible for me. Ofc itti nao mai rahunga toh dubunga but thora bohot time nikal ke, not just professionally but out of passion (CSE and ECE professionally). College ka culture meri expertise kabhi tha hi nahi.

sorry for my bad narration
mei ek bihari hu aur bangalore mei rahetha hu , aur aapne sahi socha mere bhi papa labour hai aur meri mummy garments company mei kaam karti hai 10 tak life mei jada exposure nhi mila ,aur 11th mei mere papa ne sifarish laga ke mera admission bangalore ke one of best schools mei karvaya , parallely mera bhai 12th pass kar raha tha from bangalore's second best school ( again sifarish se)" jiska fees 1 saal ka 1 lakh hai " , 11th mei jee neet k baare mei pata chala because of competitive nature in my school and decide kiya jee prep karunga aur top iits mei jaunga aur yehi ek tarika hai meri engineering complete karne k liye without being a burden on my parents ,started studying after school hrs didn't make much friends and didnt participate in fest which where too good for a avg middle class guy
PARALLELY MERI LIFE MEI BHAUT KUCH CHAL RAHA THA mere bhai ne 11, 12 mei kuch nhi padha covid mei bus idhar udar time waste karta tha ignoring our finacial conditions aur mere papa ne gold loan le rakha tha uski fees barne k liye, fir kya mere bhai ke 12th results aaye he failed in 2 subs got 55% he attempted sucide by drinking phenyl ( drama tha aise muje lagtha hai daat se bachne k liye ) admitted in hospital, neighbours aur relative ne papa ko bhaut sunaya ki vo hamlog ko bhaut pressurize karte hai padhne k liye .
my father gave him another chance , chathe toh padhai likhai chuda ke aapne sath kaam pe laga sakthe the lekin mere papa visionary the unno suna tha bhaut se bade bade log aapne boards exams fail hoke bhi life mei bhaut kuch kar leta
mere bhai ne drop liya vaise bhi usse koi clg nhi milne wala tha iss marks pe , he started prep for NDA pata nhi kyuu knowing only 300 get selected out of 6lakh people ( he was in ncc may be he had some interest in military) since he wasnt good in academics by the time he could understand the gravity of an competive exam 6 months passed he couldnt even clear written in first attempt , but in last 6months something got into him he really started studying hard , me and my father were happy seeing it and YES miracle happens he cleared written in last attempt and started prepertion for ssb interview
since it was his last attempt my father didn't wanted to take risk and wanted best for my brother , so my brother took coaching for 2 weeks in cavilier's centre ( just for knowledge it is considered to be allen in nda coaching industry ) and again father took loan for this WHICH WAS 20K FOR 2 weeks
After few weeks he went for allahbaad which was his centre (again travelling and clothing expenses ) he some how survived the deadly first day of ssb , GOD fucking playing with my parents emotions and giving hopes for 5 days , after the 5th day he was screened out ( matlab nhi hua ) , my parents were crushed by this , but some how kept smiling thinking that there child being a 12th fail had came this far and reached till last date of SSB
by this my brother got admission in some local clg ,promised my father he will clear cds/ afcat after his 3yrs of graduation . Ye hone k baad , mere 12th start hone wala the mene decide kar liya tha dummy school karunga aur self study karunga ghar se since mera school bhaut reputed tha muje boards pe focus karne k liye force kar rahethe , mene papa ko ye sab bataya aur vo man gye even through bhaut sifarisho ke baad mera admission yeha karvaya tha
after 2 years of jee prep i scored 98.3(29jan) 97.7(8apr) and now in adv i got 110 marks (which im not statisified with) itna mei gen category koi bhi top iit nhi milegi In the mean time my brother had completed his 1st yr and lost all his motivation which he had duringhis nda prep, he does some partime job he earns 3k and spends 5k in things like good clothing and living good clg life even after confronting him he says college life never goona come again he wants to enjoy it little bit
after checking through jossa 2023 im getting ece in some teir2 nit ( not so satisfying) i always dreamed myself studying in top iit and always had this childish dream that i would sell my rank and jo paise aayenge ghar pe deke sare loan khatam kardu parents ka kaam chudha kar char saal loan se padh lunga
ADVICE chahiye now i have two options:

1. koi teir2 nit mei ece lelu aur aaram se 4saal loan se padhu (killing my dream to study at top iit) and leave my parents on there own they dont have any other source of income after than there daily work ( by the way my both the parents are in there late 40's they have some joint pains and diabetes) and i dont except my brother for some help since he has 2yrs for cds/afcat
2. drop lelu koi aachi si offline coaching se , adv mei top 500 rank liye prep karu aur aapna sapna pura karu , aab obviously iss k liye paisa chahiye and again my father being my father and is ready to give away the only asset left for me by my brother (i.e some piece of land)

my father left the decision on me says tum ko jo theek lage karo ham dekhlenge , but adviced not to drop because im already studying from 11th , studying 1 more yr might be tough and depressing
PLEASE GUYS NEEDED SOME GENUINE ADVICE

Hey All,
I live with my parents.I am a wfh guy who takes care of everything at home. I have elder sister as well she is expecting a baby and is 4 months pregnant. All is good no issues.. we have not lived together(me and sister) for atleast 10 plus years…
Problem:
Now that she is here at our home for sometime She literally doesn’t want to travel in cabs it is always me who is supposed to take here everywhere (please note i am a working professional and on weekends i also have a life i want to do what i feel like)
I have to take her and once they are done i am supposed to pick her up as well from wherever she went.. earlier i talked about it and it lead to an argument where i was alone and mom literally takes her side and dad does not care much tbh (mom be like she is pregnant) and i am like then why go outside if not urgent or necessary.. i mean i am fine with going out if it is urgent or required (doctor visit or any other stuff) but just to pass time and do shopping i cannot take u specially to one place then i come back home and once you are done you call me and ask me to pick u up is it right guys? She is so clever she always make people around here believe that it is zaruri and usko to large size ke clothes lene thee and i am like wait a minute liaa to apne kuch nhii and size to aisa increase hua e nhii (playing emotional card ki zrurat hai and all)
No one listens to me i tried talking to my dad but he is that kind who does not care (he be like koi baat nhi ye vo) guys seriously i dont drink i dont smoke i dnt have many friends as well all i do is do my work for 5 days and on weekends i like being lazy eating what i want and some random stuff… it has been a mess from so long and they end up fighting with me like “tu aisa hai “ “tu vaisa hai” “literally it made me feel like i am not a good son not a good brother they all gang up against me like everytime and all i am asking is meri bhi to personal life hai mere agr nhii mood to mai kyu jauu khii if not urgent mai koi cab driver hu? Whats my fault in all this and tbh i never fight with my parents ever we stay happy i do everything i can to make them feel good and my only reason to wfh is to take care of them only i hope you guys understand my situation i belive my sister is making a huge mess of things and due to it things are not right between me and my parents now and somehow it is always my fault in the end no matter what.
My family somehow is always right i am wrong. My sister literally talks about how i live how i eat basically my lifestyle usko har cheez se problem hai and i am like bhai live and let live (i cannot eat the same stuff you eat at home as i am a powerlifter to meri diet me bht cheeze hai jo mai ghr pr nhi bnata because i dont want to bother my mom as she is not that much active and full of energy) i am made a villain for no reason and I don’t like it a single bit i am grown up 27 years old man bhai meri b to koi life hai why make me feel like ye to teri responsibility hai and respect de merko because i am elder like i am so done with it the extreme step is i might leave wfh and settle in some other city because this is emotionally very draining.. please help me with your advice based on your experiences in life

Main bohot jyada negative sochta hu bc har chiz main kuch na kuch negative dhund he leta hu is sab ke chalte main padhai nhi kr para mere life main sab koi bohot positive aur supportive hai like main esa bolun ki jaisa relationship with parents, girlfriend, relative (dost nhi hai) ke sath chhate hai waisa hai mera fir bhi meri negative overthinking ke wajah se main padhai pe focus he nhi krra paraha hu 11th acchi nhi thi meri aur test main marks nhi aare uske wajah se yaar main 2 weeks se sir class pe jo teacher padhate usko bhi catch nhi krra paraha aur iss sab ke karun aur nhi padh pa rha main kya karu? please help me (I'm not joking 🙏 serious comments Krna please)

Hi can someone tell me ki class 12 ke sath class 11 ka revise kaise karna hai meri padhai thodi downhill Jaa Rahi hai class 12 ka bhi backlog lag raha hai aur class 11 bhi revise nhi ho paa Raha hai ...plz someone help me out

I am new to reddit. So, meri situation ye hai ki Mera 30 gaj ka Ghar hai 4 family member so no space for study uper se mere yaha on an average 6hr light jaati hai aur study table nhi hai toh bed par padhta hun aur phir bhi mene jaise taise 11th complete kar Li lekin ab overthinking bhi hone lagi hai bilkul dhyan nhi lagta padhai Mai cengage khol ke 4 ghante Mai 2 page karta hun , 1.5hr ka lec bhi nhi kar pata aas paas koi library nhi hai bilkul jindagi jhand ho rhi hai Aisa chalta rha toh dispression Mai jaunga yaar itni problem Hain. No friends, family se bhi sab share nhi kar pata. Offline coaching bhi nhi hai FTRE dia tha 75% mili thi scholarship lekin wo bhi nhi bhar paya. Itni tension hai ab batao koi solution kaise karun Mai JEE Advanced.

Dude his way of teaching is literally just ye wo ye wo jhamajham hogaya 😭. Ek ke upar ek samjhega nahi tumhe! Bro iski vajah se meri chemistry ki ma c*udgayi itna kharab sikhata hai ye! And nogger can't solve basic maths 🤣 in physical chemistry. And his way of teaching GOC is completely brain shattering. It's such a heaven maine iska counselling session buy nahi Kiya bkl hai ye pura.

For me,the few i can think of right away are
"Ajao meri tammana,bahon mein aoa
Ke ho na payein juda hum,aesey mujhmein samao"
"Thora sa mein khafa ho geya apne apse
Thora sa tujhpe bhi bewaja hi malal aye"
"Na hai wo bewafa,na hoon mein bewafa
Wo meri adaton ki tarhan choohta nahi"

So generally whenever my mom is in a situation be it my problematic relatives or some friends or people from our society, if there is anyone troubling my mom, my dad generally blames my mom for everything and he tends to believe that my mom is always wrong. Be it our relatives, whenever my aunts try to trouble my mom and try to indulge in politics against my mom, he always stands against my mom. Or if some aunt in the society troubles my mom or tries to put her down, even then he denies to rake a stand for her, he infact goes and very nicely and politely talks to them and he gives the logic that "teru mummy ki ladayi h unse meri to nai hai".
Looking at such behaviour by my father people tend to believe that since her husband never stands by her, maybe she is the wrong one and even considers her weak coz her husband doesn't take a stand for her even when she's right.
When we try to confront him, he just doesn't di that conversation, he disconnects the phone and we haven't talked about this face to face. Although my mom has asked him about it, he tends to fight with my mom and says "mujhe gyaan nai Dene ka" or "main to Aisa hi hu, aisa hi rahunga"
What do you think I can do about it? I don't want to shame him infront of relatives coz relatives just enjoy the gossip, they never do anything to solve it.