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Didn't think I would be on reddit but looking for i guess public random help? If I ATA then I will accept it.
I am having issues with my girlfriend and was hoping within the next 10 days to pop the question, and as shitty as it is, she is bringing up and point of view in our relationship I do not agree with in any capacity.
We have known eachother 9 years, Started dating almost 3 years ago. I had strong reservations about this relationship even beginning because I had gotten out of something bad a year prior and she had gotten out fo a 5 year relationship before getting with me.
This is a rare and only time where the girl was asking me out and I was saying no. I had started to learn about boundaries and mental health and it felt like at that moment I could not handle any form of a relationship. She forgets to tell anyone in this story how the longest she has been in single is 6 months and basically hopped from relationship to relationship.
I had told her she needs to spend a year or more figuring out what she wants in life for herself and who she is outside of a relationship because it sounded like a person with no path or direction.
I will admit I was weak and definitely like her, come to find out we liked eachother when we first met it was just bad timing. The only reason I asked her out is because all my friends said we looked and seemed perfect together and they hadn't seen me that happy in a long time.
So far we have had it good, and of coure some fights, but if I am being fair her last few relationships have been very abusive and non loving and the abuse goes all the way back to her family as well. So after my many failings I learned how to, not lash out or scream or make instant judgements or start a argument with texts, I have learned a lot from my own short comings and it feels she is where I was years ago. When we fight 80% of her arguments come from a topic that isn't even the issue and that fights feel like , I made her hurt or upset so she is gonna hurt me the same if not worse...
An issue I was warned about when I started dating, was after I inherited some money. I had been told by most of my family that dating financially below me could be tough because they might always see the comparison. And in a couple relationships it has been thrown in my face. Its not great, but it was given to me and I know that isn't fair. I would say I spend most of my money on my friends or significant other well being, not to buy them, but gift giving is a strong love language and I guess I always felt guilty I did nothing to have this money.
The recent conversation has been about her making more money versus me. I stopped working about 6 years ago to try and get into home investments and real estate stuff, I got tired of not being promoted when I showed up early, stayed late kind of crap then being asked to do 100 tasks not in my job description, but the actual on paper description of the person who got promoted over me and was not doing. I don't mind working hard or even for free, but if on paper I meet qualifications and the person promoted doesn't, then I have a problem.
This is her first consistent job that pays okay and has benefits. She job hops year after year and when looking for jobs they want some form of loyalty more than 1 year and she keeps wanting to go back to a bar job downtown that when she first had it was making bank, like 1800.00 every weekend only two days of work, but then when every bar opened up downtown post covid her weekend pay was now like 1200, then 1000, then 900. Not to mention tons of shootings and scary phone calls I would get at 3 AM. So we made a deal if for the next three months the paycheck wouldn't increase beyond 1000 she would quit and not go back... So I have supported her through multiple jobs and quittings and her trying to start her own baking business that she tanked because anytime I set a price for her baked goods, she would give a massive discount and not breakeven... I have even done 24hr straight baking sessions to get massive orders to clients in which killed our oven that I had to fix. I just wish she'd stay somehwere for a while and build a resume that works. I know our whole country is fucked financially and the average survival salary of our state is 100k,.. I already cover everything and pay for everything else...
I have been doing the real estate investing on mostly my own, and obviously it is not going well, trying to be ethical and moral and in the housing market seems like an oxymoron. I still have more money than she brings in and I am working on my real estate license, but I bought the house, take care of her, our dogs, mow the lawn, help out with her family of 9, fix our appliances, take care of her indoor plants, gave her a garden for outside that I also maintain, cook dinner or buy dates most of the time, pay for trips, her dogs surgeries etc, She is saying I need to make even more money so she can take it easy and stop working as much... But she has complained multiple times about wanting to help out around the house mroe and with payments... Idk how she can help if she is gonna take an inconsistent paycheck, and have no benefits of any kind and drive farther...
Am I slacking as her man and better half or is she not stepping up to the plate and doing her share?

So basically, I was very overweight for most of my teens and 20s. I'm 6'1 and went from 265 to 147 pounds very quickly and I ended up with a tons of VERY visible purple stretch marks and loose skin. I ended up having a tummy tuck to get rid of the skin and it was definitely life changing but I have so many stretch marks and scars from the many other surgeries I've had in my life.
I have really fair skin so it's very noticable on me. They are on my stomach, hips, groin, legs, chest, arms and back. I probably have about 50 stretch marks plus another 8 surgical scars.
It really bothers me because I've now spent years weightlifting and sculpting an athletic physique but being covered in scars really takes away from it.
It has definitely hurt my confidence in dating because an ex of mine constantly tore me down about how she hated them and that really stuck with me after we broke up. Although no one else I've ever been with has said anything negative, I just know it looks really bad and I'm not quite sure how to get past this mental block.
Maybe I'm overestimating how much women actually care about this so I'm hoping I can get some opinions/advice from people here. I have tried countless creams and other treatments but nothing has worked for me. They have never faded or anything.

Hey guys, I'm probably going to be playing 1st for Chicago the musical next fall and I want to prepare over the summer. I found a free pdf of the original book(which will be different than the teen edition but I'm assuming similar enough) and i have to growl a lot. I'm confused on how exactly I should do it? Would it fit the style of Chicago more to flutter tongue or to actually hum? I can already hum while playing but I always feel like it sounds bad from behind the bell and I've never taken the time to record it or actually practice it. I can't flutter tongue but I can probably learn if I tried. What one would be more true to the style? Specifically the beginning trumpet solo- I want to make it as nasty as possible.
Also, any general tips for Chicago? Im generally a more classical player, I play in a youth orchestra and never did jazz band on trumpet at our school because we had too many trumpet players so I haven't had the chance to actually learn jazz. I plan on transcribing some solos over the summer as well as taking home some of our old jazz band music to play through but any tips would help a lot.

I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety when I was 11. In recent years, I've wondered if there was something "more". I really relate to a lot of neurodivergent folks, but was told I didn't have ADHD when I was 11. I got re-screened at 27, just last year, and was told again I don't have ADHD, but I seemed tired all the time. Through a sleep study, I figured out I have hypersomnia. I got that all taken care of, but still felt like I had something bigger. So I've been questioning autism. I told my couples therapist this, she sees signs of autism, but even more so OCD. So I got screened for OCD by my individual therapist, and it's not OCD. She did mention that due to my repeated trauma in my teen years, I could have CPTSD, and that may present in symptoms and behaviors similarly to neurodivergent people.
I don't know why it's so important to me that I have some sort of label. I just hate feeling so different than everyone, and this doesn't feel like only depression/anxiety. I also hate not being able to understand myself.
My trauma primarily stems from multiple deaths, from family and friends, and they were nearly all horrific, some I was present for or witnessed the aftermath of their accidents/abuse.
My symptoms and behaviors include intrusive, spiraling thoughts, mostly about my daughter being harmed, difficulty connecting to people emotionally when they're dealing with something heavy, sensitivity to loud noises, counting or singing the ABC's under my breath when I feel embarrassed or nervous, sometimes doing a physical motion when no one is in sight (pounding fists together, clapping, shaking my head). Sometimes I get the urge to do wiggle motions or shake my hands when I get excited, like listening to my favorite music or eating sushi. More recently, I've allowed myself to perform these motions out of sight of most people.
Does anyone else know this confusion and these feelings? I hate feeling like I can't relate to anyone.

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This is my first post here, most likely won't be posting much but this sub has helped me with lots of tips the weeks before surgery, but also made me scared of things that I really didn't have to be so I want to make a positive post to show you that yes you can do this and do well on the first 10 days.
Just for the reference I'm over 40 and had the surgery done because of a shoulde back problem, went from a DD to maybe a C, doctor said wouldn't take much more than that and although some days were tough I look back now and think that went by really fast. Another thing, I went to school for Nutrition so I tried to keep a very good diet pre and post op, I'm already getting out of the track but first week I did great LOL
So here's what worked for me:
Increase your protein intake before and after surgery. I don't really like to eat meat/ chicken every day but I've been doing just because I have to, also eating other kinds of protein.
High fiber diet and lots of water (and walk) - from the beginning I knew I didn't want to take stool softeners or laxatives and because of that I ate lots of salad, fresh fruits (stay away from apples), multigrain bread, ActiviA yogurt, probiotic juice, lots of liquids and I was walking since 1DPO, all started to work on 2DPO and by the 3rd day I was going to the bathroom normally. Also: this is pretty good, cook some dry apricots in water and eat, works better than prunes.
Things that I bought and used:
Couldn't shower for 48h so these rinse free bathing wipes worked amazing to keep me clean. I have to add a note here that I was very scared of showering, after the first shower (seating on a little stool, don't buy a shower chair, just use any little stool with a towel on the seat) I didn't shower for 2 days because I was way too scared and mostly because I was scared to look at my stitches and because I read horror stories here. With prayers and a good pep talk I took a shower all by myself after 2 days.
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B06XQ9NQPQ?psc=1&ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_product_details
I bought a mastectomy pillow just because I have 2 dogs and one of them loves to jump on me otherwise I wouldn't have bought
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0CPMFFVKP?ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_product_details&th=1
I used lots of pillow to sleep and worked fine, don't waste your money buying those pregnancy pillows, each day you're going to want a pillow in a different place.
These pads are the best to use inside your bra, you will have some drainage and these work perfectly
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09YVPCT6N?psc=1&ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_product_details
That leads to bras, what an ordeal. The bra I came from the surgery was some medical bra that is exactly the Carole Martin on Amazon (thanks for someone who wrote about it on this sub), I got an extra one but was horrible, digging on my armpits. That fruit of the loom that everyone raves about it also had the same problem for me, not mention the elastic on top of my incisions. This one is the best bra, it runs big so I have now 2 sizes. For reference Im a 42 on Carole Martin and I'm a L on this bra (bought an XL which works but it's a big too big), doctor said I could use and change my bra no problem
https://www.amazon.com/dp/B0CQLXQJS2?psc=1&ref=ppx_yo2ov_dt_b_product_details Yesterday a friend who is a RN told me that I could use cortisone cream + AD cream or DESITIN cream on top because most likely the pain on my armpits was because the bra was chaffing my armpits, now Im also using a chaffing gel and things are improving.
And here's the most important tip I'm going to give you, have people with you, tell friends and family that you are having a surgery, it's good to have people praying/ cheering on you, checking on you, bringing you food (although I said many times we didn't need cause I filled my freezer with meals), this part is the most important, makes you feel loved and cherished. You just went/ going through a major surgery and the first few days it's almost impossible to do something by yourself. Having someone helping you out and taking care of you makes a world of difference.
On the 4DPO I went to get my hair washed at the salon, it was great getting out the house, seeing people and being pampered a little bit. Made me feel special and pretty, believe me you will feel very yucky after hospital and surgery. Now I shower and my husband washes my hair, still hurts a lot put my arms up.
My last tip is rubbing alcohol helped clean the sticky from the EKG leads (the sticky pads for monitoring your heart during surgery) on my skin chest, it took a couple of days to realize I had that.
I hope and pray that you (whoever reads this post) have a great surgery and recovery, that you feel very proud of yourself for doing something so brave like this and that you feel pretty confident on yourself before and after the surgery.

This is a follow up to this post https://www.reddit.com/GayBroTeens/comments/1akyx0l/came_out_to_my_school_in_a_muslim_country_today/
Turns out, my class ain't exactly as accepting as I thought they were. They're currently now avoiding me like the plague. I feel like people now only care about who I wanna fuck as though it's the only side of me that exist.
I'm happy that I can be out to someone but now i'm just a one dimensional gay guy who creeps around. I've tried to talk to people but they seem to think that just talking to me would get me interested in them. Any time I think some guy would actually be (at the very least) treating me nicely, it turns out they have some kind of weird innate distrust of anything I do. I could literally walk around a room and they will speculate on my next 'target' when I was just going to the toilet.
I was once a pretty shy kid, never talking if I didn't have to. I'm semi out of my shell rn but I still don't really know how to interact with people. Anytime I wanna talk to people, it just becomes awkward. I just really want a friend but people seems to think that I just want a "friend" with the word "boy" preceding it.
Even when I get to talk to girls, they'll think of me as their mandatory "gay best friend". I constantly hear other people talk shit about me as though i'm just an imaginary rainbow powered robot that walks and talks, not like an actual human being.
Perhaps I pretended to hit on someone because people thought it was funny. I just wanted people to be happy and laugh. I don't want them to be sad or bored but perhaps I misplayed a move. I'm sorry if I played too far into the stereotype of the heart shaped pupil gay guy. It's my fault for being too short-sighted to see what kind of trouble my actions would bring.
Is it bad that I regret my actions and want to change it? Is it too late now and I should bear any bad repercussions that comes my way? Is it bad I want to change course because i'm afraid of the consequences?

Me (20MtF) and my boyfriend (25FtM) believe that I am emotionally unavailable. How can I be more mentally present and make him feel like a priority in my life?
My boyfriend and I have been together for just over a year, and are getting ready to move into an apartment together next month. I have somewhat severe ADHD, and I believe it is partially to blame for my inability to make him genuinely happy despite us both being in love with each other. When I make new friends, I often fixate on talking to them and spending time with them excessively, and this has at times taken away from time him and I can spend together. This started at the beginning of our relationship and has led to me stopping any attempts to meet new people until we get this sorted out, because we don't get much time together and I wanted to stop cutting into our time together with a random person who I don't actually care about. However, I still do things with my roommates some nights, but it usually turns out that that particular night was the night he wanted to spend with me, but I didn't ask if that's what he wanted to do, so he's just upset and says that I don't care about spending time with him and don't take our relationship seriously.
He works full time at a retail position and I have significantly more free time as a (now just graduated) college student. So I try to prioritize his days off to see him, but I tend to forget to ask about specifics, leading to misunderstandings. I told him last night (Friday) that I was going to head home to my house that night so I could continue packing for when we move, which should have been fine because he worked at 9 this morning (Saturday) anyways. Then tomorrow (Sunday), he has the whole day off so I can come over tonight and spend the night and all of tomorrow with him. However I didn't check this plan with him and it turned out that was not what he wanted me to do and was upset that I went home last night, leading to him texting me that he doesn't want to see me on Sunday either because he's bothered by how little time I attempt to spend with him. I clearly know that very clear communication is needed in this relationship, but my ADHD makes it difficult to remember to do this.
When we do get time together, we have days where I am fully mentally present and these are absolutely wonderful. Neither of us have ever been as in love with someone else as we are with each other. But on other days, my ADHD flares up even when I take my medication, and I end up being mentally completely distant from him during that time. This makes him feel like he isn't good enough to get my attention and is taken extremely personally. This breaks my heart because I of course don't want him to feel this way. I love him and love spending time with him, but my ways of interacting with him differ on certain days and don't always give him what he needs to be happy in our relationship. This leads him to feel like even when we do get time together, that a large amount of it is wasted doing nothing that is productive to our relationship or strengthening our bond as partners. He says he's been closer emotionally with past partners after a month than we currently are after a year. I reassure him that I have intentions to work on these things and I genuinely do try, but things haven't been completely fixed yet and it leads to recurring arguments over the same things.
So, sorry if any of that was unclear or rambling. What I'm wondering is a couple of things: What can I do to work on my emotional availability and being mentally present in our relationship and our time together, if anything? And, considering that this will take a decent amount of time to fully fix, what can I do to reassure him in the meantime and prove to him that I'm making progress? Thanks for reading <3

Well hi there! How's the weekend been treating you?
Mine's been alright, but that's not what you're here for is it?
You saw the title on this post and now you're all curious right?
I bet you're wondering what boyfriend stuff includes? Let's start with:

• Getting texted back regularly with an option for phone calls!
  
• Going out on dates with possible holding hands or making out!
  
• I'll make you laugh with all sorts of jokes from the sophisticated cynicism, cutting sarcasm to childish fart jokes I can do it all!
  
• You can get home cooked dinners! And breakfast too if I'm working overnights!
  
• You'll get all sorts of attention and compliments!
  
• I'm emotionally available and completely over my ex's!
  
• Flowers!
  

....and so much more!
Sounds pretty great right?
But who am I?
I'm a nearly middle aged divorced ex stand up comic that's worked himself into full on burnout working in hotels for the last twenty years. It's made into someone that's very empathetic and caring while still being to be cold as fuck when needed.
In my free time I'm kind of a traditional nerdy white guy. Gaming, cartoons (not anime though), science fiction, detective stories, alternative history, sketch comedy, various sitcoms, hiking, cooking and mowing the lawn occupy my off hours. I also tried getting back into writing again, but it's been challenging.
Now it's your turn! PM me and we can start planning the first date!

Backstory: A few months ago I decided to ask a tarot reader a free yes/no question. I asked if this girl would continue to talk to my boyfriend. I was really anxious in the moment and the girl said yes. I then asked the same question again only to hear that him and the girl would end up dating in the future.
Now this situation has really messed me up. I can’t stop thinking about this situation. Ever since, I have not really felt or been the same and I’m not sure what it is but I assume it’s because of that. I’ve been told multiple times that it won’t happen and that was just my fears playing in the cards and I thought that for a while and I was okay but for the past two weeks the feeling has came back and I don’t know how to get rid of it or how to feel better like I did before. I know it’s not true bc they don’t even talk anymore and I was just insecure but now I seriously need help bc every time I feel that feeling it makes me want to cry. The feeling is like something is wrong but I don’t know what. I’ve been told to journal, distract myself, practice self love + care but I’m scared nothing is gonna work. Now I’m not sure if I’m overthinking it and making it worse or what. I only believed it at first bc most of the readings I get are 70% accurate

So basically, I was very overweight for most of my teens and 20s. I'm 6'1 and went from 265 to 147 pounds very quickly and I ended up with a tons of VERY visible purple stretch marks and loose skin. I ended up having a tummy tuck to get rid of the skin and it was definitely life changing but I have so many stretch marks and scars from the many other surgeries I've had in my life.
I have really fair skin so it's very noticable on me. They are on my stomach, hips, groin, legs, chest, arms and back. I probably have about 50 stretch marks plus another 8 surgical scars.
It really bothers me because I've now spent years weightlifting and sculpting an athletic physique but being covered in scars really takes away from it.
It has definitely hurt my confidence in dating because an ex of mine constantly tore me down about how she hated them and that really stuck with me after we broke up. Although no one else I've ever been with has said anything negative, I just know it looks really bad and I'm not quite sure how to get past this mental block.
Maybe I'm overestimating how much women actually care about this so I'm hoping I can get some opinions/advice from people here. I have tried countless creams and other treatments but nothing has worked for me. They have never faded or anything.

Hello everyone! I wanted to write and share something constructive for this space, that hopefully goes beyond snarking specific names and personalities and helps those who have been harmed in one way or another find a bit of understanding around what happened to them and why.
I've shared pieces of my story here before but the gist is: I am not from the coaching world. I'm from the general spirituality world - from a spiritual modality that has an aspect of divine feminine and divine masculine that has always interested me, but few others in the community. I learned about this whole specific mess listening to love & light confessionals, and went deep into the rabbit hole. The perversion of understanding of masculine/feminine energy dynamics was horrifying but also enlightening. I'm big on learning how NOT to be from people who give me the major ick. This is why I've done a lot of deep diving in general on cults, gurus, and manipulative spirituality in general - and there's a lot to take away if you can go in with this mindset. I'm also hella autistic and love infiltrating niche internet subgroups whose experiences are much different than mine so I can - again - learn from the experieneces of others, and gain more empathy and understanding of the vast human experience.
I was a very forward facing person for the nonprofit I volunteered for for over 4 years. There was no "guru" that I supplicated, however there was a person formally in charge who abused their power and the willingness of others to help the organization, and was known to be cruel in private, when it suited them. I didn't see this person as above me - in fact in a lot of ways they were quite pitiful and needed a lot of help/support in their role - which is what I did, willingly and for practically free. At one point, the entire org sat down and did a call in of this person, however, they were able to push everyone that they couldn't control out of the way and rewrote the story with themselves as the victim (we all know this one). The final falling out happened at the end of 2019, so luckily for them Covid gave them some time to figure out how to run their events without me (they hired a paid staff).
Anyway, I gave many many hundreds of hours to this cause, and then the person in charge was able to take advantage of me and then push me out of the community I had served very seriously for 6 years with rumors that I had been trying to steal money. This is so far beyond the truth, and everyone involved directly knows this, but no one came to dispell the rumor. So, I've been heartbroken by supposedly "spiritual" leaders of a community, that's for sure. In fact listening to Katya was part of the cult deprogramming that me and a group who had left together went through (this group also used, abused, and betrayed me but that's another story!)
So, this isn't going to be about me, I just wanted to share my background. This is about what the divine feminine and the divine masculine "REALLY" are. This may get a bit woo in here but I can't imagine anyone here is afraid of woo. In fact it's the mystery of the spiritual experience that allows these people to cause so much harm. So let me try to remove some of that mystery.
The creation is polarized, in many ways. One of those ways is masculine/feminine. The masculine force is the will, the conscious mind, and that which puts the infinity of possible experience into order. It in and of itself is quite fallible. The feminine force is the subconscious mind - all that is - and the untapped potential of this reservoir. The masculine reaches for the feminine, and if the will (masculine) is properly configured, the unmanifest creation (feminine) will give him something in return. The masculine NEEDS the feminine but the feminine doesn't really NEED the masculine, however it does desire the masculine's attention being focused it its direction (instead of random mundane wordly experiences). And the feminine wants the masculine's attention consistently, lest the feminine will not be consistent at all in its response. This attention can be forceful or gentle, but it must be consistent.
Every human has a balance of masculine/feminine energy in them, and while women are socially conditioned to tend towards feminine expression and men towards masculine, biological sex really has very very little to do with it. There are of course, positive feminine expressions and negative, and positive male expressions and negative. What these polarity goons do is mostly focus on a mix of positive/negative masculine expression for the man, 0 female expression, and then only positive feminine expression for the woman with maybe, possibly, a bit of positive masculine expression (only during working hours when you're in seperate offices, and only if you're paying the bills, ofc)
Typically, we are attracted to partners who "balance" out our spiritual energy - so the "polarization" in a relationship can be anywhere from hyper masc/hyper femme to barely masc/barely femme - and again, this is NOT a hard and fast rule and has almost NOTHING to do with sex other than a general (mostly cultural) bias. The hyper femme/hyper masc scenario can definitely be more, well, exciting and dramatic than a relationship between two people who have very little polarized charge in that way between them. But that's likely why few of these polarity gurus have any experience in longevity of relationships - they are fueling their "twin flame" relationship with manufactured drama and trauma bonding. In reality, in a relationship, you are supposed to grow together and be more willing to meet each other where you are at in the moment, instead of demanding they be a near perfect idealized form before you offer them any attention/respect.
The reason these male teachers push polarity doctrine is literally because of their own wounding of the expression of the masculine/feminine. Men (especially USian men) have been taught that expressing any aspect of their feminine selves is repulsive and weak and probably gay. So, their solution to their own inability to be vulnerable is to attack women - for being "too masculine" - aka some balanced expression of both, normal! They want their women to be 100% pure unformed childlike energy with no will of their own, just a will that can be given to the man. They want them to embody this feminine space as close to 100% of the time so that they are forced into their masculine 100% of the time. Girlies, if you are in your masculine, this makes them feel more in their feminine and - gosh that's just icky and disgusting. You don't want your man to get a boner for you when you're in the masculine - that might make him GAY! In the very least it's totally beta to be attracted to a masculine woman and basically gay anyway. No thanks!
I'm sorry to be facetious, but this is in general a lot of the subconscious and even sometimes conscious thought processes behind these hyper polarity relationships. These are not evolved, embodied people. These are people who are still very invested in the old fashioned human status quo that has served them for a long time. We had the thread a few weeks back with the Desire on Fire lady (ugh her name escapes me) talking about how her husband had to "put her in her place" for being "too masculine" and how he really just "didnt want her" when she was in her masculine, when she was literally just running her business. Masculine wounding almost ALWAYS shows up as men being jealous of women being better at them in their own field - or really successful publicly at all - and this is why women STILL have a hard time breaking into male dominated spaces. We are systemically kept out because men die inside when they feel inferior to women. They were told this wasn't supposed to happen!!!! In fact, the person who spiritually abused me was a man - I see now how he "kept" me as a pet because of my high standing in the community. But this meant I was still firmly below him in certain ways - a much more comfortable place for me to be, someone who challenged him on his "expertise".
This polarity movement is taking a true spiritual concept and distorting it just to set women back. They don't want you to have an opinion or agency - other than "me want money" and "me want sex". They want you to play on Instagram all day and recruit ladies for them to sexually assault at your joint "retreats". They want you to only feel valued if you're made up and dressed up and "desired" by men. None of this internalized self worth stuff, only external male validation is allowed. Ladies, if any of you reading this are with some sort of this type of man, please, I beg you, choose the bear. This is the type of man who leaves you as soon as your body culminates too many signs of being aged. They are entitlted to a specific cartoon image of what they think a "woman" is, and sadly this culture has made young women INCREDIBLY easy to manipulate, so finding another partner is often quite easy for older men. It's all by design.
Here's another spiritual truth that is often obscured: One of the polarities of divinity is the left hand path and the right hand path. The left hand path is the path of control, wealth, using others, egocentrism, etc. The right hand path is about acceptance, generosity, helping others, and sacrifice. The middle path is a path with little to no power - it's the path of comfort, the path most people are on.
When one walks the middle path - i.e. has not really begun to truly develop their spiritual side - they do not yet have spiritual discernment. What happens when they come across someone who has been using spiritual principles to "build their wealth/power" is that they see someone with a spiritual light - and this isn't super common on social media. When we're hungry for it, we're like a moth to the flame. That's why they always know they'll be another mark. The problem then is when we don't have discernment, we cannot tell which "hand" the light is coming from, and often it's very easy to confuse the left hand for the right and vice versa. For instance, I am giving up a large part of my day to write this purely to help others in this community - Carly or MAL or someone might stumble upon this and see it as "evil". But that's because they see the light, but to them it's against their light, so I'm the evil one. But all I'm trying to offer is freedom of mind, and they're mad because they want your bag, and this is dependent on you being confused and them keeping a crumb of clarity behind a paywall. 💰
Now, some of these girlies are walking the "left hand path" a lot better than the others. I dont know many coaches beyond those talked about here, but I would say someone like MAL has a pretty firm grasp on who she is - a scam artist, a liar, and a user. She's always making up stories and whatnot - she's a pathological liar. She will do anything to get her way. This is pretty serious when you've been behaving this way for years and years. Her image is very rigid and polished, and despite showing up unprepared and offering word salad to her paying persons, her "outer circle" (social media feed etc) is much more curated than most of the other coaches I've seen. She's at the top of the pyramid so she has a huge amount of control and influence. If she cracks someday, we'll see it, and usually people struggle to return to the top once they falter. I'm sure she's already showing some signs of paranoia, which is the first sign a high control person is starting to become unhinged.
Then there are the messier girlies, like Carly, and Karen who has recently been more thoroughly exposed here. These ladies show up very vulnerable to social media, and often are struggling with illness - as someone has said here before, Carly's early coaching gigs were about health and dealing with chronic illness, until she realized that space wasn't sexy or profitable. I'm not saying this is the root of all illness, but transient illness can be a sign of a spiritual mismatch in intentions/action - especially with these people who claim to be "healers" or adjacent to that space. You have to walk your talk, or your body begins to show your hypocrisy. There is a part of these ladies who feel they are truly "helping the planet" and get confused internally when the reaction of their "offers" isn't for people to fall down at their feet worshipping them. This is why they say stuff like "wealth is a mindset!" and other magical thinking - most of them have lived privileged lives and have never been "out" of abundance. They think their "luck" is a carefully curated vibration that they can rub off on others. And like, while I believe that being in the vibrations of someone who is more spiritually mature can help "elevate" someone - these people are playing with spiritual practices and, while seeing some results, truly have no clue what they are talking about and dealing with. People who truly understand manifestation, whether left or right hand, are not busting their ass all day on Instagram trying to recruit lukewarm clients for peanuts. Carly tries SO HARD to sell that all of her work is "easy" and she can "take a walk in the middle of the day!" and not work while she's bleeding and whatnot. But girl, you're hustling and thirsty all over Insta all day every day - this is not abundance, this is not wealth and gratitude, it's giving "big empty black hole in my soul that will never be filled except with more money" energy, babe.
Then there are the girlies like xogingy and The Content Queen whose whole brand seems to be just being a mess all over the place. This sells because it makes people think "well I'm messy maybe I can be messy and rich/successful" but the mess for these girls is much more embraced and embodied than with the prim types like Carly and Karen, who want to be pure luxe and sexy and divine feminine perfection. But the luxe and sexy types are really doing the recruiting for their sexual in-person retreats (or clothing optional zooms) because they're just mega horny all the time (which - btw - is another sign of spiritual imbalance)
And that's the thing - being horny all of the time means your energy body is JACKED. It's not a sign of a free flow of creative energy to crave sex all of the time. Of course a major aspect of this is the sexual magic - yes, there is magic in sex, and I think it's where these folks get most of their magic, because they follow left hand sexual magic practice exclusively (control BDSM). They do play rapes (and borderline real rapes and, in some cases, actual real rapes on their clients/partners), orgasm denial, humiliation, pain rituals - all stuff that truly, objectively, isn't good for the soul. And notice how it's almost always one sided - the male being in total control of the female - though, Carly's substack did have a story about how they did a "role reversal" where she raped/humiliated him and that was um, something I read. 😳 But generally it's the women's job to always be turned on and "dripping wet" and whatnot, so that when her masculine partner gets a boner she's ready for him to slide it in. And then that's always the best sex, the sex that you "surrender" to.... On the contrary, sex between "right hand" practitioners tends to leave both partners feeling quite satisfied and sated - heck, even if only one happens to orgasm! Whereas control oriented sex often has orgasm denial which intentionally leaves the person craving more.
All this is to say, no one should feel guilty for being duped, or conned, or confused, even still. Almost all of these people have weaponized spiritual concepts in some ways and are wielding them with the intention to separate you from your money. They actually do have something that works. But they will NEVER sell you the whole story. And the fact is, this experience likely did happen to you because your soul was aching for some sort of uplevel - or initiation. It's just that initiation rarely looks like getting what we want. MAL et al makes it look like initiation is giving a rich lady 5 figures, popping a bottle of champagne, and roleplaying as that rich lady to which you just gave all that money (or at least, roleplaying as her social media feed). But if you're truly in it for the soul, your experience is going to help you uncover your soul. And part of uncovering our souls at this point in time seems to be having some serious spiritual trauma. And I know some people here probably only did this as "playing around" and not serious and unfortunately, playing with spirituality can be can be dangerous in and of itself. These is not to victim blame at all. It just is the nature of the spiritual path that it may growl and bite at you to test your growth. It's not just a sexy pleasure party 24/7, unless you want to step on a LOT of people to get there.
Anyway, this is very long and I'm not sure it's going to even fit into a reddit post at this point. But I just wanted to share some of the spiritual insights I've had over the years (been on my spiritual journey for over a decade at this point). I don't know it all, but I do know that I live with a general peace of mind that I wish I could sell in a coaching package or voxer group. But I can't/won't do that. So I'll keep to my lifelong duty of making longwinded, mega autistic posts on internet forums that might help a few people orient to a less painful or confused frame of mind, free of charge.
But on that note, before I finish, I'll offer my general spiritual advice: Firstly, take a short time every day to do some sort of sitting/meditation. Learning how to quiet the mind is a skill, and it's the first skill required to learn discernment. Once we can quiet the mind, we can start to learn which thoughts are our own and which thoughts we have absorbed from others - and if you haven't begun this process yet, you may be surprised to find out that the vast majority of your thoughts are actually just society, family, teachers, social media, advertising, etc etc, repeating in your mind and taking up valuable real estate. This is the real hurdle to "manifestation" - clearing away all the false desires that get in the way of our true desires. Subsequently, learning about chakras and tuning into my energy body has also given me a good base for insight and clarity that comes from within my own body.
Secondly, just try to think of others before yourself more often than not. Don't justify manipulating people for your own benefit. Oneness means you treat others how you want to be treated - in a gentle, and nurturing way. When we harm others, especially from a spiritual place, we perpetuate harm, and therefore accept that potential harmful treatment of ourselves. Treating others sincerely with reverence and respect, and setting boundaries so that we don't allow people to treat us with disrespect, is how we generate a reality that treats us with reverence and respect by default. A lot easier said than done, but it is possible.
Love and light to you all.

My therapist cancelled on me (no fault of her own, I understand life gets busy.) And I have no plans to reschedule more sessions. My work schedule is demanding. I can't seem to relax sometimes when I'm not working on a hobby. I don't know how ativan just took the edge off better than alcohol. I'm a lightweight drinker, and know not to mix alcohol with these kind of meds. But I need to be able to cope with the pressure and healthy coping is preferable to these two situations. I love what I do, but it demands so much of my time. I'm not a workaholic, I keep saying that. I just want to make sure things are done well and meets deadlines. However, the pressure can be a bit much. I don't know how to have fun when my brain is like this. It's why I need to be out in nature. It's why the birds singing and the wildlife and the wind and the sounds of life make me forget these responsibilities, make me forget the expectations of others, makes me forget being a screw in the machine. Make me forget all of these "important" things that really are so insignificant in my life. What makes me happy? It's not serving others for 8-10 hours a day. What makes me happy is being outdoors with plants and experiencing the rich sensations in a hospitable climate that earth and mother nature have to offer. Maybe I sound crazy, but I admire Jane Goodall. I love gorillas. I love orangutans. I'd love to be able to see them in their natural habitat some day. I am not my job. And yet people depend on me. And I feel a bit weighed down by that. How do you provide good service when you aren't taking care of yourself? My anxiety stems from fear of failure. Failure to meet the expectations of others. Failure to meet their needs. It's why I run away when I sense clinginess/suffocation. I am my own person. I need to be free from these 'social chains' so to speak. It's not to say, I can't be present with someone. I can. But when you get to know someone on an intimate level (in the case of caring for someone on hospice) when things go downhill, it breaks your heart too. You're there for the client, but your relationship with the client isn't singular, you're also there for their family then and what comes after.

Basically what the title says. I'm currently 22 years old and moved to a new city last year where I didn't know anyone to begin with (besides my parents' friends, but they're my parents' age). I've had trouble with friendships in the past, especially in high school, which caused me to completely shut down from all of my peers and essentially become mute. I went through college not having a single friend, and it didn't help that parties/alcohol/etc. have never interested me and thus I never participated in anything social (I would just stay in my room everyday doing my homework or watching a show). Covid certainly didn't help.
I'm currently in grad school and my classmates have been...nice enough, I suppose, but I never have anything to say to them because I just don't know how to talk to people anymore, which just makes them turn to someone else who actually knows how to carry a conversation. I also don't have anything in common with them besides our degree, which I don't really care for compared to a lot of them.
I've tried doing more social activities, like joining an improv class for people with anxiety and going to queer social groups with people that share the same queer identities as me. The people there are nice, but I've never had any interaction stand out to the point where I've been able to talk to someone outside of those activities. (I'm referring to something like leaving with someone after a class.)
I just feel so hopeless. I know there are people who don't mind spending their free time alone, and while I do enjoy my alone time, I just really want to make a friend out in the world who isn't over the internet. This might be TMI, but I don't have any siblings and my parents are getting old, and I'm scared of being alone for the rest of my life because of my social anxiety. I just wish my brain wasn't so dysfunctional. 😮‍💨

This may be a bit of a rant as well but there’s so much going on in my head right now, I have no real direction.
I never really thought I was neurodivergent until the last couple of years after I had my son. Started with depression due to my ex husband wanting a divorce and cheating on me while I was pregnant. My “symptoms” have exploded since then and continue to get worse. My PCP at the time didn’t think there was anything wrong and put me on sertraline to start. I weaned myself off and had been med free until this year when it would have been my 5 year wedding anniversary. i had found a drop of hope with my new job who effected housing and good pay for my experience in the field. I moved on site at the end of January 2024. I found a new pcp a month ago and she said I had to get evaluated by a specialist in order for her to prescribe medication, and she also put me on a new antidepressant: a Wellbutrin XL. Shortly after that visit I found out my health insurance was no longer valid. This past Monday, I was laid off my job and given a month to find new housing. My divorce/child possession decree stated I had to live in this county. No child support. I’m devastated. I don’t have any real family to help and nowhere to go. I feel like my brain has been rotting for the last couple of years. I get distracted super easily and it’s difficult for me to stay on task. With no official diagnosis, and I can’t afford to seek out a specialist, I’m feeling incredibly defeated and lost.
Does anyone have any advice on how to obtain any kind of assistance? Housing? Healthcare?
How do those of you with adhd/autism cope without medications? What kind of jobs do you have? My only job experience has been in veterinary clinics/customer care. I have no degree or certifications. Are there any work from home options that would allow me to make my own schedule, since I cannot afford childcare?
I’ve already gotten distracted from this, so I’ll end it here. Thank you so much for any help you may have to offer.