Big bulls mating with cows videos

I’ve been looking for a little palate cleanser book to hold me over until I start another big series and holy cow 😳 I saw a TikTok about a ebook that just dropped on KU and figured I’d give it a shot(with almost no expectations bc I think the author is new) but when I say I was entertained!!! It was not a work of art by any means but it was fun and spicy(wish there was more tbh)! It was fast paced but the tension and the smut was chefs kiss. I only read knotting in Bride so I was not intimidated this go around and omg 🥵… I think it’s free rn for ebooks so you best believe I downloaded it forever (it was at 2am when I was binge reading it anyway) Title is The Witch and The Rogue from Madison L. McRae

For background I’m 21F, he’s 23M. We’ve been together for 4 years now. It started out online and recently he’s moved in with me across states, he’s been here since around March. When we first started dating we both agreed that porn was s a big no no, and that we both felt it was a form of cheating. He’s never once made me feel that he’s been watching porn or anything like that, but I did catch him looking at a girls ass right in front of me in the third year of our relationship, and when I called him out on it he got defensive and then fessed up and apologized. We aren’t the most intimate couple as we are both virgins and just not ready for that big step yet but we do other things and he’s never once said or made me feel like he’s not satisfied and has always assured me he is. He’s been very loving and he’s been with me through some of the toughest parts of my life, and I love him dearly. The past week, he’s been a little touchy about his phone, and I found it odd since he put my face on his phone to unlock it at any time. Last night he fell asleep early, and as I rolled over to sleep with him I noticed his phone was underneath me. I picked it up to charge it and my immediate thought was to go through it, and I was absolutely disgusted by what I found. He had pornographic photos and sexual feet pics stashed in his saved section on Instagram, tiktok, and his recently deleted folder in photos, all were recent being on Saturday as well. The most disturbing thing I found was that he took 3 pictures of my sisters feet while she was sitting on the couch watching tv.. they were in his deleted, but I still can’t believe they were in there. I angrily woke him up, showed him what I found, said a lot of not so nice words and told him to get the F out of my house. He’s staying at a hotel now. All he could do was say how sorry he was, how much he loves me, and that he’s been struggling with this our entire relationship, and that I fueled the foot fetish when I sent him a silly Snapchat of my feet JOKINGLY and in a non sexual way when we first got together. I’ve actually talked to his older sister about this and I explained everything in detail, she agrees he is sick in the head and needs helps. We called for a few hours last night and all he could say was how sick he was for doing that, how much he wanted to tell me and couldn’t, how sorry he was and how much he wants a life with me and is willing to change and be better, but I can’t help feeling like it’s pure manipulation at this point.. his sister and my family also agree that I should try with him since they’ve seen our relationship and how great it’s been. I don’t know where to go from here. I’m afraid if I do move on with him it’ll either turn into physical cheating down the road or he will only find new ways to hide it. My family has done nothing but invalidate me and say I’m stupid for all of this. I understand porn addiction is a serious issue but now he’s brought my family into it and it’s personal now, and to spend all your free time screenshotting sexual pics is just insane to me. Not to mention I look nothing like these women and am very insecure now. I just feel so sick. His reaction looked like shell shock, as if I’d killed someone. He was ashamed but I still don’t know what’s genuine and what’s not now. he wants to take a drive later today and talk about everything and the next steps. He says he completely understands if I want him to go back home even though it’s not what he wants. I very much love this person but I feel so disrespected. I had a porn addiction myself but when I was a hormonal teen going through puberty, and he talked about how he always envied me for that because he so badly wanted to stop and just couldn’t. Using all of your free time to collect porn is beyond me, this is so much deeper than just casually watching porn to me. He is SAVING them, collecting them, and he doesn’t even use them and he admitted to that but I’m not so sure on that part, but at the same time he’s with me every second of everyday so he has no time or place to do anything. Some aren’t even sexual photos and just screenshots from tiktok videos where a girl is turned around so her ass is in the shot as well.

Alright, so… I (18F) kinda made this reddit account just to get some feedback about this situation, since I’m too ashamed to ask my parents. The girl in question is 16, and is probably one of the most annoying people I’ve ever met…
(TLDR: This girl I was pretending to be friends with in High School obsessively fantasized about murdering someone for an entire semester, is overbearing as a person, interrogates people on a daily basis and is nosy, injects herself into drama that isn’t her own, throws temper tantrums when she doesn’t get her way, constantly touches people and makes unwarranted comments about girl’s bodies, asked me to draw CP for her, and MADE FUN OF HER SUICIDAL BROTHER. And I wrote a hate-letter telling her that all of this stuff is a problem, but now I feel bad about it because I think she might actually have mental issues. It’s a really wild ride and a long story, so if you choose to read it, you should expect to be here for a while. And it’s High School drama, so I’ll try to discard the boring details.)
At the beginning of this year, I ended up in a small Sports Medicine class with literally 8 students total in it. That made things quiet, which gave us some room to start talking and getting to know each other after the teacher was done with the lesson and we had our small hands-on tests and assignments out of the way. (The classes took about 20 minutes every day. Really quick and easy. Laid back. It met curriculum requirements actually, because there wasn’t constant bullshit from other students making the lesson longer.). There’s this girl, who… I’ll call her Storm. You’ll find out why. Storm quickly became the most annoying person in the class. Any time she talked, she didn’t have anything interesting to say, but just kept going on and on and on endlessly. It was annoying, but we just kinda played along to be nice. Well… Around a month into school, Storme started opening up and became comfortable talking about personal topics. She told us this story about how one of her other friends (I’ll call her Katie) “betrayed” her the previous year, and then went on to talk about how much she hated Katie and didn’t care if she lived or died. (Honestly, Katie’s offense was miniscule. At most, she replaced Storm with someone else as her best friend. You know… Regular High School drama that wasn’t that deep. I honestly forgot all of what Katie did because it was just so miniscule.) Then Storme started saying ludicrous stuff like “I hope she falls into a volcano”, or “I hope she gets eaten by sharks falling from the sky. Like Sharknado.”. But like… She kept saying it constantly, out loud in class. She ranted about how she wanted Katie to get kidnapped by the Mafia, be flown up to the moon, and be dropped into a black hole to become “Katie-spaghetti”. It was honestly really funny at first, so me and a few other people in the class joined in a little bit and added our own stupid, childlike scenarios. (Katie has a reputation for being… A slut. That’s why it was funny at first.) But then after this schtick got old, Storm just kept going and going and going… She ranted about Katie until it physically hurt to hear her talk anymore. She was back to being annoying and boring again, but it was worse this time because it was obvious that she was trying to re-kindle our intrigue without realizing that she should move on to something else. Instead of assessing herself, she just kept yapping until everyone rolled their eyes every time she opened her mouth, because we knew she would just keep going on and on about all of the stupid ways she wanted Katie to die. Even the damn teacher told her to stop doing that, but she never listened and the teacher eventually just gave up telling her off (And honestly, I think the teacher started zoning her out.). Katie then gradually started to get more morbid with the things she was saying, to the point where I genuinely considered calling the cops and getting this girl some grippy socks. She talked until she became red-faced, started tweaking, and laughed in a neurotic, nervous angry way while she started wringing out her trembling hands. She genuinely looked and sounded unhinged, and what didn’t help was that she started saying stuff like “There aren’t metal detectors in this school, right?”, and “I wish I wasn’t such a good person, because if I wasn’t, I’d be acting on my impulse to cave her skull in the next time I see her. One of these days I’m going to snap and then just do it..” …Yeah, so I was genuinely considering getting the police involved in this because of those two sentences. Thankfully Katie is safe and sound to this day and Storm never acted on these “impulses”. I’m so glad it worked out that I didn’t have to call the cops, but I was seriously worried for a minute… One of my other friends in that class, (I’ll call him Mark), eventually kinda snapped and called her out for being the annoying piece of crap she is. Quickly, Storm and Mark started getting into arguments just about every day and started throwing things like wads of wrapping-tape at each other, and I was becoming worried that they were going to start actually full-on fighting. It doesn’t sound logical in hindsight, but I ended up taking it upon myself to step in and start acting friendly toward her and listening to her (or pretending to listen to her) just to draw her attention away from him. Pretty soon she started talking mostly to me, and this was intentionally done on my part so that the other people in the class could relax a little bit and start doing whatever on their phones and zone her out instead of having to pretend to listen in agony. Ultimately, it was an exchange that benefited everyone, because after Storme got that angry energy out of her, she shut up for the day. She continued to talk about Katie, but mostly to me. She talked about this topic endlessly, her words getting increasingly violent until Christmas break. Yeah… 5 months. She ranted about the ways she wanted Katie to die for 5 whole months. Months. But then when she was done ranting, she finally shut up. …Oh God, the silence sounded like angels singing. I didn’t even really retain any of the information she spewed onto me, but holy crap, when it was over it was like heaven on Earth. So that’s what I did – I acted like the “lightning rod” for this Storm of a person until it passed (kinda). She wrote a note to Katie explaining “You hurt me really badly, but I’m a Christian so I forgive you and I hope you the best”... As if she didn’t rant about her for 5 months straight. Make it make sense. But enough about that. Here’s where my fuck ups began. I gave Storm my number and we quickly started saying that we were friends, though I didn’t actually like her at all and just wanted to keep the peace. We had a few things in common, but I still didn’t like her whatsoever. She continued to rant to me nonstop about Katie, even over text, and I was burnt out listening after a while. So… To dampen the impact of this girl’s obsessive ramblings, I started sending her pictures of my drawings. (I’m an artist). I had characters that I liked to draw that are ocs of an anime fandom (all of which are underage), and she seemed to calm down a bit and hyper-focus on them. She even has a folder in her phone’s gallery completely dedicated to storing my artwork. That’s great and all, but… One day, the topic of Wattpad came up in one of our conversations. I, myself, was one of those cringy Wattpad 12 year olds who made the most illiterate fanfictions ever to be conceived by a human being (They’ve long since been deleted. Thank God, those were awful.) Then… The topic of “Wattpad smut” came up, because I admitted that I used to read those because of the awful grammar and I thought it was funny. I still do sometimes, actually. The way people on Wattpad can’t write to save their lives is just hilarious. Like the stupid “Shrek x Donald Trump” ones are the ones that make me wheeze. I don’t take them seriously, and I love it when the author doesn’t take it seriously either. It’s hilarious. …But then this asshole said: “I don’t like to read bad grammar, it makes me mad. But I do like to read that type of content… For a different reason”. So uhh… That’s… Weird. But then she asked: “Have you found any… Good ones? Do you have any recommendations? Asking for a friend.” …FUCK NO. No thank you. Nope, I’m done. No jerkoff material for you, ma’am. Nope. You’re done. Seriously, I put down my phone for a little bit and went outside to go stare at some birds at the bird feeder until my sickness went away. I fell nauseous because of that (though in hindsight, that seems like an overreaction). When I came back, I didn’t answer that question and kinda skated past it, and that seemed to be the end of it. …But there is NEVER an end with Storm. She DID forget about the resolution to that conversation, but since we talked about smut to begin with, she started asking me some questions about my art. She asked if I had ever drawn p0rn in my life. Of course, I didn’t really admit to anything. I skated past it too, but then she said: “I think (character 1) and (character 2) are really cute together… Like… Really, really cute together.”. That’s great, she likes my characters… Cool, cool. And then my worst nightmare: “Have you ever drawn p0rn of them?” …Of course I didn’t, because that would be CP… Plus I’ve never thought of those characters as being “sexual”... They’re literally 14 and 15 years old. Then basically, she made an indirect “suggestion” for me to draw them together. I said fuck no. Hell fucking no. She tried to convince me to draw them “aged up”, but again I refused. She eventually dropped it, but since then, she passively talked about things of that nature… Like if she saw a guy she thought was cute, she’d tell me she thought he’s cute or hot or gorgeous or whatever and allude to -other- awkward desires that I didn’t want to know about. She put me off from drawing those characters ever again. I haven’t drawn them since and I don’t take my sketchbook to school anymore because I don’t want her to see my drawings and be reminded of that BS.
But enough about that… Storm is a church-going girl, and so she has a few church-going friends. (This also makes everything I’ve said before all the more ironic.). One day when I was transitioning from my 5th to 6th period, I saw her talking angrily to one of her church friends (I’ll call her Isabelle) outside the school building. Storm was accusing Isabelle of lying about smoking weed/vaping and drinking, and she seemed to be so interested in it that you’d think it had an impact on her personally. Isabelle denied doing that, and they eventually parted ways to go to class. I walked with Storm to 6th period (the Sports Medicine period), and I asked her why she was so damn interested in Isabelle’s habits. Know what she said? Storm said “I just don’t like liars.”... So let me get this straight: She thought she had the right to interrogate someone half to death because she just “doesn’t like liars”? Make that make sense. I’ve heard many stories about how Storm interrogates other people, too. If she sees a guy/girl’s name pop up on the screen of someone she knows, she’ll pester them until they give her one of two answers: either “I’ll tell you later”, or the actual answer. She’s done that to me too, in front of everyone in class. The thing that upsets me about this is that she claims to be “nosy”, but thinks it’s a positive attribute rather than an annoying one. She brags about being “nosy” sometimes.
And the sexual assault… Since we were in a sports medicine class, our projects involved a lot of hands-on things. That didn’t bother me by itself, but with Storm, it was a nightmare. This girl, in the process of strapping an ice bag to my thigh, called my thighs “small”, and said that I have a “beautiful body”. We also did shoulder stretching stuff the next week, and I happened to fall under her care while she stared into my eyes and made weird faces at me, all the while she made sound effects and made the process much more uncomfortable than it needed to be. One week, we ended up as partners again and she ended up wrapping my shoulder. This shoulder-wrap wasn’t an issue for me, but having her as a partner made it an issue. As expected, she made sound effects, but this time she stated the obvious as if it was new information that nobody would have ever suspected: “Wow, this is squishing your boobies huh?”... Emphasis on the word “boobies”. Jesus Fucking Christ, it was already awkward as hell before she even brought that up, why would she say something like that?? I didn’t even realize that until she brought it up. In fear of being subjected to her uncomfortable BS again and feeling violated, I texted her and told her that she’s been making me feel uncomfortable, and to please stop being so…. Weird. I get it’s an awkward thing to wrap up your classmate’s thigh, but that’s a moment to keep comments to yourself. Her response? “I’M SORRY I’M SORRY I’M SORRY I’M SORRY I’M SORRY I’M SORRY I’M SORRY I’M SORRY I’M SORRY-” Just… Stop it. I didn’t introduce the topic as a big deal and told her not to worry about it, but she kept apologizing for it nonstop. Just endlessly, like everything else. Even when I tried to change the subject to something else, she just kept apologizing for it practically until she went to bed. (She has a bedtime at 9:30… At 16 years old.) All of this stuff contributed to my overall hatred toward her. I don’t like her at all, and it’s a wonder I didn’t explode and insult her entire personality and deplorable behavior to her face (Meg Griffin style). Things are just so awkward and awful whenever she opens her mouth, and it just doesn't ever stop. But because of all of this, when it came time for my Senior prom, I decided to secretly invite one of my friends from that class as a plus one, and NOT Storm. I was worried that if I told her that to her face, I would all of a sudden be the new “Katie” in her conversations, because the infraction Katie did was so miniscule that it seemed to be less like a “betrayal” than what I did. (In hindsight, it was probably the other way around.) So… I just kept the whole thing to myself and so did the friend I took to prom (I’ll call her Beyonce. Because… She loves Beyonce.).

If this wasn’t bad enough, strap in because not even three weeks ago, Beyonce was doing her usual schtick of making fun of random things. She once made fun of cool whip and the entire state of Texas at the same time and somehow made it make perfect sense. She should really have a comedy show, I swear. But this time, Beyonce was making fun of the name “Gage”, saying “Why would anyone name their kid after a 12-gage shotgun?” and “People named Gage seem untrustworthy. I wouldn’t want to be near one in a zombie apocalypse, because he’d just feed me to those fuckers.”. Funny stuff. Storm then said “My brother’s name is Gage”, and in order to preserve the flow of the conversation (and also to tick her off a little, I’m ngl), Beyonce asked her: “Is your brother untrustworthy?” And then without a single millisecond wasted, she said, in a Disney Channel comedy fashion: “Welll… We can’t trust him with his own life, sooo…”.. And then she laughed as if it was funny. Like.. Rib-stitches type of laughing. ….So then the others (understandably) went quiet, which left only me and her talking for a moment after her laughter quieted down. She complained about how confused she is that nobody finds her joke funny, and said that her joke had the “perfect timing and everything”... So then my idiot ass decided to say what I was thinking at that moment: “You don’t seem to be taking it seriously. That’s your brother, but you don’t sound sympathetic at all.” She tried to “defend” herself, but Mark interjected into the conversation and changed the course of it entirely, which just left her to sit there in silence, pouting. I felt bad for that statement, so I apologized for it over text when I got home from school. Quickly, we erupted into an argument, (with me holding back), and she ended up saying “What does it matter to you? He’s not your brother. If Beyonce said that about her brother, you’d laugh. But when I do, it’s bad.”. Beyonce’s brother is 8 years old…. So no, that would be even worse. …So then I had to explain to her how human decency works, and how making fun of your s*icidal siblings isn’t funny whatsoever and how that joke could be considered to be in very poor taste, even for people who like dark humor. When me, Beyonce or Mark made “suicide” jokes, it was about OURSELVES and it was usually in a statement like “I don’t want to take a test next period, I’m gonna kms.”... …Storm ended up getting so mad that we weren’t having a conversation anymore; we were just throwing shit around. I told her that if she was being livestreamed at that moment, she’d be bashed on the whole internet for a week or so and be called “evil” for that joke. In hindsight I shouldn’t have said that, but my goal was just to tell her how insensitive others might perceive her comment to be. She said that it wasn’t my business to tell her how to feel about her own brother, but I wasn’t doing that at all, that wasn’t my angle whatsoever – I was just explaining what people find funny. I even said repeatedly that I wasn’t trying to tell her how to feel, and that I know comedy can help lighten situations, but somehow she forgot about that part. And then she went on this whole thing about ending every massive text block with “Not that it’s YOUR business, or anything” to snap at me, despite me being in the room at the time of the joke... So I ended the conversation right then and there because it was pointless to keep going and I really didn’t want to spend any more energy on her. The next day, I apologized to her again. I retracted my statements and told her that I was sorry for talking out of line. She accepted the apology, and things went back to “normal”. She forgot about it, but I didn’t. …So here are the reasons why I feel bad, before I delve into the contents of the “hate letter” I wrote to her. Here’s a list of my crimes: 

I pretended to be her friend for an entire school year. - I hid the fact that I was going to prom with Beyonce from her, and then lied to her face repeatedly whenever she asked if I went to prom or not. - I got into business that wasn’t my own and criticized her. - I wrote a hate-letter to her that I directed her to read at home on the last day of school.
…Here’s why I feel bad: Storm doesn’t seem to be emotionally intelligent and is unable to control her mouth whenever she feels strong emotions. She talks nonstop about her second cousin’s friend’s pet hamster’s wife’s sister’s drama, hoping we’ll find something funny or interesting or impressive, while seeming unable to understand that she needs to change her tune. All she wants is to be listened to and understood, but nobody can and nobody truly wants to. She feigns confidence and goes overboard with compliments in the hopes of catching the attention of people who want to be friends with her. She’s not used to change and is very naive, to the point where (just yesterday) she quit her job at a fast food restaurant after only the first day of working there. For the longest time she didn’t have access to the internet, so she doesn’t really have a means to connect with other people through sharing videos or memes or whatever. …I feel like a bad person because I knowingly, intentionally played into all of this just for the pathetic reason of making her shut up in class. It’s despicable what I did, and I’m beating myself up for it every day. I was just originally going to leave the school, block her and never talk to her ever again in my life, but when she made that joke about her brother, I decided (stupidly) to take it upon myself to be the bearer of bad news. I gave her a letter. Within the “hate letter”, it isn’t actually hate, per se. It’s more like… A report on the behavior she needs to fix, as well as an admission to my lies over the course of this whole year. I told her the awful truth. I told her about everything I mentioned in this post and tried to keep it “professional”, though I did end up going as far as to say “you have all of the attributes of an obnoxious piece of stale bread”........... And what’s worse is… I told her to read it on the last day of school, and my reasoning is pathetic at best. I told her to read it on the last day of school because I didn’t want her to burden the class with her nonstop ranting about me, since she, Mark and Beyonce are sophomores and I’m the only senior in the “friend group”, which means that I left the school an entire week earlier than them. I’ve been intentionally delaying her pain and still talking to her over text acting like things are “normal” so that she doesn’t read it early, knowing damn well that on that last day of school, my words are going to hurt her so badly that she might not be able to recover for a while. In the letter, I told her that by the time she reads it, I would have already blocked her because I don’t want any more conversation with her due to me feeling so bad and having nothing more to say. If the plan goes right, she’ll read it on May 23rd, and on that day I will block her.

I feel awful for all of this. I feel like a monster for this. It’s painful knowing that I’m going to cause her pain and that I planned when it’s going to happen, but at the same time I feel like she deserves it. But at the same time, I know damn well that it wasn’t my place to do that. I should have left everything alone. Nobody I can talk to irl would even hear me out; they’d just stop at the words “hate letter”, which means my only option is to seek advice from people on Reddit. Do my motives for doing things make sense? Am I actually a bad person for this? Am I the asshole? Does she deserve what she’s getting? 

Edit 1: I removed some asterisks (they're annoying).

While the title might sound ridiculous, this idea has some interesting things pointing towards it as a possibility.
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CERN, or the European Organization for Nuclear Research, is an international organization based in Geneva, Switzerland. CERN’s primary mission is to explore the fundamental nature of the universe by investigating the basic building blocks of matter and the forces that govern their interactions. This research often involves studying subatomic particles like protons, neutrons, electrons, and various other particles that make up matter. One of the most prominent achievements of CERN is the construction and operation of the Large Hadron Collider (LHC), the world’s largest and most powerful particle accelerator. The LHC is a circular accelerator situated underground, spanning the border between Switzerland and France. It’s used to accelerate particles to extremely high energies and then collide them at incredibly high speeds. These collisions create conditions similar to those just moments after the Big Bang, allowing scientists to study the behaviour of matter in its most fundamental states. CERN was essentially created in order to recreate the conditions of the early universe after the Big Bang as a possible means of testing the Big Bang theory which has dominated physics since the middle of the last century. CERN’s experimental ‘test’ of the Big Bang theory has focused on the search for the elusive Higgs Boson (the “God Particle”) because the Big Bang theorists believe that the universe could not have been created without it. However, anyone who examines the Big Bang theory honestly and in sufficient depth can see that it does not hold water and contains holes in its logic so large that a galactic supercluster could be driven through them. It’s just like CAGW theory, but on a cosmic scale instead of merely a terrestrial one. No experimental ‘tests’ for this are needed and so it’s a wonder how this half-baked nonsense has become the holy cow of science. The experimental ‘tests’ provided by CERN are superfluous and the creation of their particle accelerator was not needed for the stated scientific purpose.
Investigative mythologist William Henry, who is a producer for the popular American TV show Ancient Aliens and author of over 18 books in alternative science, says: “If we take his [Leon Lederman’s] words literally, it suggests that the search for the “God Particle” and the creation of these amazing particle accelerators, such as the one at CERN, is actually a recreation of the Tower of Babel. Well, the Tower of Babel seems to have been humanity’s first attempt to blast open holes in Heaven, to open stargates and worm-holes”. Not many have made the connection, but the Shiva statue at CERN can be connected to the Tower of Babel. This is because Shiva is assumed by some to be the same person as Nimrod, and Nimrod was responsible for building the original Tower of Babel. According to Chris Relitz in his book ‘Antichrist Osiris: The History of the Luciferian Conspiracy’, Shiva and Nimrod are one and the same character. Quote: “By the time the character of Nimrod reached India, it seems he was known as Shiva. The legends of both are too similar to ignore. Both were associated with fire, destruction, wore bull’s horns, had profound phalluses and wore leopard skins. Both had a trident as a weapon, as the devil today is seen with a pitchfork”. This is also corroborated by Erica Nugent in her book ‘Clash of the Kingdoms’, where she says: “Nimrod became Shiva”. Could it be CERN’s goal to recreate the Tower of Babel, which might explain why they have a statue of Shiva (or Nimrod) as their mascot? Author of the book ‘Revising Reality’, Anthony Patch seems to think so, where he says: “Strangely, CERN constitutes a new Tower of Babel in several respects. The goal of CERN seeks to defy God, deify humankind, establish human supremacy, and create a stairway to Heaven”. Patch says that CERN is attempting to access the Saturn Polar Configuration and re-establish a worm-hole or link (he calls it a “plasma conduit”). Another name for this “plasma conduit” would be the Tower of Babel.
Similar to Patch, according to Nick Hinton, author of the book ‘The Saturn Time Cube Simulation’ and ‘The Aquarian Singularity’, CERN is attempting to access the worm-hole that existed during the Saturn Polar Configuration, as he explains in his Twitter article here (if that’s inaccessible to you) his Reddit article here. This worm-hole has been dubbed by some the “Saturn Stargate”. As Hinton says: “The Saturn Stargate is a theoretical celestial alignment (based on the Electric Universe theory) that supposedly causes a portal to open in the sky”. In the TechBubble article ‘How CERN plan to use the Large Hadron Collider to open portals to other dimensions’, researcher Adam Milton-Barker speculates (similar to Hinton) that CERN’s goal is to access the Saturn Polar Configuration, saying: “There are some very interesting theories connected to CERN. One theory is that there is a connection between CERN and Saturn. You may have heard of Jacob’s Ladder which is described in the Book of Genesis. One of CERN’s goals is to recreate Jacob’s Ladder and re-open a portal that is said to have existed between Earth, Venus, Mars, and Saturn, when the planets were in alignment many [thousands of] years ago”. As mentioned above, Talbott associates this alignment with the Tower of Babel. Various researchers have suggested that CERN are attempting to recreate the Tower of Babel, and some have speculated that the Tower of Babel was actually a worm-hole. The Saturn Polar Configuration (which Talbott associates with the Tower of Babel) was also represented by Atlas (see ‘Discourses on an Alien Sky#13’). In Greek mythology, Atlas bared the weight of the heavens on his shoulders. Curiously, CERN refers to the Large Hadron Collider as the “ATLAS EXPERIMENT” which connects them to the Tower of Babel, and may hint at their real objective.

I'm the same guy that posted that the Independent Order of Odd Fellows cemetery by Acker park was in disrepair and tried finding resources to help turn it around. Here's the link if anyone is interested. I'm still trying.
While walking through the cemetery I came across a gravestone marked "G.M. Robbins - The "End of the Trail" for "Yellowstone Pete" after 25,000 miles by mule train, may he rest in peace" and it got me interested in finding out more about the person. It turns out that Yellowstone Pete holds a place in Americana culture, and really did travel by mule train. There are several pictures linked here that have him, his wife, and mules. I'd love to hear more about him if anyone has more details.
Imgur album of photos I collected. The one that has "OH HOW WE HATE TO WORK" is a postcard that I ordered from Etsy while researching Yellowstone Pete.
There's even a poem about his only daughter.
Yellowstone Pete's Only Daughter was originally published in the book “Rhymes from a Round-up Camp, 1903, and written by Wallace David Coburn in 1894. The book of poetry has been published in 21 different editions. Coburn wrote the preface of the book in Malta, Montana.
Yes, this is the Milk River Valley,
And that's the old ranch that you see,
Where Yellowstone Pete lost his daughter,
The pride of the 7 U. P.
Was she pretty?-Well, stranger, your knowledge
Of these parts is shore incomplete,
When you ask such a comical question
'Bout the daughter of Yellowstone Pete.
Why, man! If the heavens were bluer,
And pansies were deeper in hue ,
They couldn't "size up" with her peepers,
Which shone like the spring poet's dew.
Her teeth were like snowdrops made whiter,
Her hair like the sealskin she wore,
Only softer and silkier and browner,
And she was true blue to the core.
Was old Yellowstone Pete's only daughter,
Whose voice was the envy of birds,
As she warbled at night to the long-horns,
Or when pointing her father's trail herds.
She was happy and good and as loving
As an angel could possibly be,
With always a smile and a greeting,
For tough old cow-punchers like me.
But what I was startin' to narrate,
Before you cut into the game,
Was a love affair she tangled up in,
And the tragical end of the same.
You see, she was borned in this country,
Her mother, a woman of gold,
Kissed her baby and lined out for Heaven,
When Beauty was seven days old.
The boys, you see, nicknamed her "Beauty,"
And each one, he fought for his turn
At feedin' her out of the bottle,
But dress her -- we never could learn.
So Pete he sent off for a nurse girl
And a teacher (not stunning for looks),
To give her the care of a woman,
And learn her the knowledge of books.
Thus Beauty grew up at the home ranch,
And learned how to shore ride and shoot,
Also play and sing on the pianer,
And to tie down a wild steer to boot.
And charming-- why, partner, the sunbeams
They scrapped for the sweets of her face,
And the alkali dust and the zephyrs
They jockeyed to get second place.
So was it a wonder young Dawson,
The son of a neighbor of Pete,
Lost his heart to this rose of the prairie,
And his love for her couldn't be beat?
“Buck"-- that was the handle he went by,
Had pre-empted some learnin' at school,
Was a handsome and big, manly feller,
And in a gun-fight was shore cool.
And there wasn't no man round the country,
Could ride with him down the Red Lane,
He could rope, fork, and ride with clean saddle
Any outlaw that ever wore mane.
They'd been youngsters and brought up together,
And Dawson was shorely dead game,
His father a wealthy old-timer,
All burdened with early-day fame.
Yes, Beauty loved "Buck," that was certain,
But a gal's ways are never foreseen,
And you can't tell what's liable to happen
Be-tween the betwixt and between.
So when a young feller from college
Comes a-romancin' like out this way,
Well, things looked a little promiscuous,
And there was the devil to pay.
Of course, he was welcomed by Beauty,
As the flowers are welcomed in May;
His college pin pleased her, I reckon,
And he had a girl-catchin' way.
But wait till I roll me a smoke, pard,
To filter my bad feelin's down,
Makes me wanter shore squander some powder
When I ponder on that sneakin' houn'.
Well, we was all out on the round-up,
When this college masher, you see,
Ran off with old Yellowstone's daughter,
The pride of the 7 U. P.
Now, old Pete he shore worshipped his daughter,
Loved her better than money or life,
For she was the pride of his old age--
The gift of his beautiful wife.
So he and young Dawson together,
With hearts like the lead in their guns,
Hit the trail of this college-bred villain,
And secured him before many suns.
The gal they found up in Butte City­-
He'd deserted her up there, you know;
But Dawson caught him near the border,
Where numerous cottonwoods grow.
And there, in the depths of the forest,
With the beasts and the birds lookin' on,
They fought to the death with their bowies,
Till the Eastern-bred feller was gone.
And Beauty-- she married "Buck" after,
But never seemed happy or gay,
Like the Beauty we'd worshipped from childhood,­-
She just drooped, shrunk, and withered away.
Yes, she paled like the flowers in summer,
And died with the leaves in the fall ;
And we buried her close to her mother,
While the sunshine went out of us all.
Poor old Pete, his hair white as the snowdrift,
And eyes that stare vacant and old,
Sits and sobs at the foot of two gravestones,
All alone, whether hot days or cold.
All alone? No, for Buck often joins him,
Grim and stern, with his face like a stone;
Never smiling nowdays like he used to,
When he tries he winds up with a moan.
No, the sun don't shine quite as it used to,
And the wind has a lonesomer sound,
As it sings soft and mournful in summer,
And howls when old winter comes round.
Here are the links to original photos:
https://www.gettyimages.com/detail/news-photo/yellowstone-pete-passes-through-yellowstone-pete-news-photo/161995779
https://www.worthpoint.com/worthopedia/rppc-goldie-marion-robbins-aka-1904877006
https://www.phillipscountynews.com/story/2016/09/14/news/yellowstone-petes-only-daughte4302.html
https://www.findagrave.com/memorial/52400720/goldie-marion-robbins/photo

Hi! I'm hoping for some advice. Disclaimer- while I'm by no means an expert, I am an experienced aquarist (16+ years, numerous species of fish, currently keeping 10 tanks ranging in size from 75g down to a 3g bowl). However I've never had pea puffers (or any puffers for that matter!). I'll be setting up this week/weekend a new tank, a 16 gallon fluval spec. I'll be taking down a 3 year old 10 gallon that currently houses 6 galaxy Rasbora, 6 dwarf emerald Rasboras, 4 Amano shrimp and a 'few' bladder snails, ramshorn snails and 2 juvenile mystery snails. All of the substrate, plants (fairly heavily planted), hardscape and the heater will be going directly into the new tank, with the addition of fresh aquasoil under the seasoned (old) substrate. There's room in the filtration area of the Spec (new tank) for some of the 'old' filter media (sponge and matrix). I've been wanting pea puffers for awhile now but just never did it for various reasons. In doing some research of pp's (lol pea puffers), it seems the bigger the shoal, the better they'll do. So I have a few questions: How many can I realistically put in a 16g tank? Can I safely keep pea puffers and the Rasboras and Amano shrimp together or should I move the Rasboras and Amanos to a different tank? I'm not worried about water parameters lining up, my Rasboras and Amanos are currently kept at 78-79degress, ph 7.6, and fairly hard water. If I CAN keep them all together (Rasboras, Amanos and pea puffers) I plan on acclimating the peas to those parameters right off the bat. I already do preventative prazipro treatments every 3 months in all my tanks so I'd do that to the tank regardless of if I kept the Rasboras and Amanos with the pp's or just the pp's on their own. From what I've read, people have mixed success and mixed opinions on tank mates for pea puffers however I see more people with multiple peas have success more often than not with tank mates that are A: pre established (before the pea puffers are introduced), B: of a similar size with shorter fins, and C: are quick, relatively peaceful and don't bother other species. So I'm thinking of all my current fish, my Rasboras probably for that formula basically perfectly...the Amanos, I'm not too sure of. They're big, approximately 2 inches. But they're still inverts so...idk. I'm looking for advice from anyone who has any experience with pea puffers shoal size/tank size and tankmate interactions. Thank you so much in advance!

I've(23F bi) been in a relationship with my boyfriend(28M cis) for over 5 years, and we have been living together for 3 years. I recently finished university and I'm unemployed, been doing the house chores since we moved together based on mutual agreement (it's our first time out of our parents house). He works for the both of us and pays for everything. (I've had jobs but not full time so I spent the money on hobbies so I didn't have to rely on him so much).
I'm a cosplayer, and I keep a separate IG account for posting and interacting. My bf has always been supportive and keeps me company at conventions because I don't have many friends and have bad social anxiety.
A while ago he too wanted to cosplay, I helped him with everything and he created a cosplay account, I started to feel insecure when he would follow cosplayers that were doing +18 content, I explained to him how this made me feel and he would brush it off saying that I too made that kind of content (I had an OF, that he encouraged me to create, and never really announced it in my socials, so I always had very few people subscribed). He unfollowed specific girls that I would tell him, but never addressed the whole issue so he kept following this type of accounts.
Eventually I grew tired and stopped nagging him with the issue, but it never left my brain, I used to compare myself to these girls and would regularly check his following to see if he followed someone new, it was consuming a large portion of my sanity. What really broke me was finding out that he was messaging (we had access to our phones) some girls and complimenting them in a sexual way, so I confronted him about it and he told me it was not a big deal, that at the end of the day the one he loves its me, and doing that was just a way of getting out of boredom.
I already had infidelity issues because earlier (2 year mark) I found out he was messaging his ex, telling her that we were in bad terms and we opened up the relationship (not true), I confronted him about this as well and now he keeps her blocked, but it left a big scar and I used to check this girl profile and stories everyday multiple times a day, I would have nightmares about him messaging her again and meeting with her for a whole 3 years.
There has been 2 main break points in our relationship, once when I found out about his ex, he told me that he was bored of our relationship (we already lived together, and had quarantine restrictions because of COVID, he worked remotely so it was us 24/7 in the same apartment) and that the was looking for excitement, then I found out that the had a secret Tinder account asking for casual sex, I never got to see the messages.
We broke up and I returned to my parents house, where he blasted my phone with messages telling me how regretful he felt, and that if I gave him another chance he would be better. I forgave him but on the condition that we shared phone's passcodes.
The second break point was when he proposed that in order for our relationship to endure this hardship we had to include a third girl (i believe they're called unicorns) because in his eyes, i asked for too much (regarding affection) and because he wasn't very affectionate a new girl could give me that. And obviously he would get to fuck us both. I rejected this strongly because I'm monogamous, and we settled that a threesome could work out, we installed dating apps to look for a girl, and to this day we haven't found anyone. Along the days of the search I started to become numb, irritated at the minimum, cried every week and started to document every little detail/behavior that was making me fall out of love. Then one day I decided that this was going nowhere, and I told him that I didn't want to do the threesome, and because it was the only thing that would fulfill him it was better that we parted ways. So we did, and I went to my parents house for the weekend to think things through. He messaged me saying that why didn't I come up with a solution for us to be together because I said nothing. I talked to my mom and she told me that relationships this long shouldn't end without exhausting every little option. She made me come back and I did.
When I came back we talked, we agreed on things. I needed to quit snapping so easily and being irritated all the time, I needed to get a job, so I began studying again so I could get back on track. I asked him to be honest and loving, that we could try the threesome but under my terms (I would manage the account). And he said that I needed to delete my OF, so I did. He overstepped multiple times before doing things that I told him not to (like creating dating profiles for the threesome, when I specifically told him that I wanted to manage that) He also confessed to subscribing to other girls +18 content and I cried in front of him like never before.
I became even more hyper vigilant, and he once again was anonymously asking inappropriate questions to cosplayers. I decided to tell him and he became defensive, telling me how TF did I found out, that I was being dramatic and it was just a playful question, and if I keep looking for things it's obvious that I'm gonna find something. I went non verbal (I have asd) and I tried to shut me in my room, he didn't allow me and asked to discuss but I had a meltdown and I told him that if he didn't want me to get into his phone we should change our phones passcodes, and he would have to delete his cosplay account, so we did.
I've been paranoid again and I started to have nightmares of him messaging other girls again, he told me he deleted all dating apps, he assured me he did. But I know it's not true and he lied to me because days ago I saw he paid a subscription to a dating app we haven't used before. I don't have the energy to talk about that anymore. I don't know why am I still here, have I lost my identity? He says he wants to travel to the office (that's on the capital city) for work because he usually meets with his colleagues, and he can't bring me because tickets are expensive. I can't help but overthink that he will cheat on me, but at the same time I try to keep a mentality that if he wants to cheat, he will, and there's nothing I could do to stop him.
I don't want you to think of me as an angel either, I have ASD and I don't take meds for my anxiety, I'm needy and sensitive, don't have many friends, I just leave the house to go shopping and occasionally meet up with girl friends so Im very boring, i dont have a lot to talk about. Recently he posted on reddit about us opening up our relationship and I think he resents me financially because of the way he talks about me. I try to give him everything I can, I serve him breakfast, lunch and dinner, sometimes I bake pastries, I try to keep the house clean (we have cats so it's hard) I wash the dishes, do the laundry, manage the pantry stock, stay in shape, I consider myself attractive and been told so, we have sex almost everyday.
It's like I'm not enough for him, but he just wants me to himself (the polyamory/threesome can only be with a girl, I have proposed that we try with a man and he says he'd feel emasculated)
I don't really know what I am searching for writing this here, give me your thoughts, am i dumb?
And I think I'm traumatized.
I've been masturbating to threesome porn videos, sometimes I imagine the cosplay girls he used to send messages to while we have sex and I get more turned on.. orz

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qpSy4p2WYjU&ab_channel=GlassMonarch
Video above. This is a build I played on league start and used to farm Harvest for a good bit before transitioning into something else.
The idea is simple: Plague Bearer makes you pay its mana cost both on incubation and infecting, and there's only a .5s cooldown between the two. If you get it up to above 100 mana, you can trigger Kitava's Thirst every .5 seconds.
To that end, all the supports and inc mana cost of skills are for that purpose. I also went with the mana engine of Replica Covenant + Tawhanuku's + Nexus to make it (somewhat) self sustaining.
Pros:
Very simple to set up, just need a 6 link and Fevered mind, and Kitava's thirst.
The supports for Plague Bearer don't actually matter, they are purely there for the mana multiplier (I also used like, most of the ones that actually work with it)
Theoretically very robust, Automation just triggers every .5 seconds, no questions asked.
Is an autobomber that doesn't do a billion damage to yourself.
Cons:
If you're doing what I'm doing with the Mana sustain, the loop can fail if you run out of mana/ES, but as soon as you get enough the loop will restart. I actually ran with The Burden Of Truth and a hybrid flask for a while to offset this.
50% chance to trigger, which is big but if you're using a duration skill like Tornado or Ball Lightning of Static, this is somewhat offset. Blade Vortex also works.
Limited to 4 link, but the + gem level corrupts on Kitava's Thirst should make up for this somewhat.
It is an autobomber that doesn't self damage, but that makes it cost a TON to sustain.
Other considerations:
Looking back on it, I think Hierophant or some other ascendancy would have been better. I just wanted to play with the double BLoS triggers from triggerbots (35% less damage on it probably also doesn't help).
This CAN work with archmage, though the insane amount of increased mana cost on top of a base 5% might make it unsustainable. Archmage is probably the best way to scale this, OR spellblade with Inquisitor Battlemage double stacking memes.
You don't actually NEED the trio of Replica Covenant/Tawhanuku/Nexus, so if you're fine with chugging a mana flask you can sustain that way and remove the ES cost. Or just index into mana regen heavily.
It's theoretically pretty freeform to do what you want with it, as long as you can sustain mana, so you can do Annihilating light with elemental spells, BV, Tornado of Elemental Turbulence ETC.
I'm just sharing this because I don't think this interaction has been widely known yet, and I think there are better build makers than me here who can take this and run with it. I'm done with the league so I don't have it in me to level a Heiro to see higher potential, but here's hoping Archmage isn't gutted next league I guess.

Hey, so this is my first post on Reddit and I don’t entirely know how to start it. I’ve been diving into a lot of political stuff online recently to further understand both sides. I grew up with a very left on the scale father, and a bit more middle ground mother, but both had intertwining beliefs with some “generalized” ideas you’d think of when you think of right people. I myself used to have very left considered beliefs. My intentions of looking into all of this are not to turn conservative, or to go backwards and try to make my before left ideas more secure, they are to more understand why the U.S. is at a place that it is politically right now. And I know already that I want to find a balance, a middle ground. I’m not the most educated on a lot of this, and need to do a lot of research. I believe research includes conversations with people from both sides, on every part of the scale, research into both sides, but also a better understanding of historical events in an unbiased manner. I have found a lot of clips and videos of right wing people talking, and I do love a lot of things about some of them. I enjoy listening to people have open ended conversations with others, without making fun of or belittling other people. That goes for BOTH sides. I know a big issue in the US right now is that both sides are super closed minded and won’t care to listen and learn, and on the other side of that coin a lot of people are like sheep and don’t know how to make their own minds up. Even once you do make your own mind up, you should always be willing to listen and talk maturely. Which I don’t think either side is doing a very good job at. My point is though, I’ve found a couple people online leaning more right that do what I’d consider as a “better” job at being more mature about these conversations. But I’m struggling to find people on the left, this isn’t an attack, I just think the way search engines are right now , if I search anything to do with a left person speaking, I either get “left person owned” or just people explaining the two sides and why they’re different and alike. Of course the ladder to that is important , but right now I want to find something or someone that explains to me exactly what leftist ideologies are and why they are with historical context and facts. And I’m struggling. So if anyone could point me in a good direction it would be helpful, books, audio books, podcasts, channels etc. I don’t care. I just want to learn.

Ok, I would need your help please, Ill go mad :D Either my sister has a mixed-up brain or I started to forget big time. She is asking me for the name of the song or a singer for which she can't remember anything just that on the beginning of the music video dude is chopping vegetables in the kitchen and dancing strangely or starting to dance. She tells me that I sent her the link to that video long time ago.
Sooooo...here are the parameters I tried to operate with: - She tells me I sent it to her at about 2013...so lets say the period is about 2010 - 2015 music hits - Dude is chopping vegetables in the kitchen and dancing - It had to be a well-known song or at least high production as I don't remember ever sharing something with low budget with her
That's about it...it pop to my mind maybe its "DJ Snake, Lil Jon - Turn Down for What" but its not that one, I tried with "Fatboy Slim - Push The Tempo" its not that also...I asked chatGPT too he doesn't know, tried to search google and youtube but I'm out of ideas.

Hi all.
I’ve had my 2022 Hyundai Tucson now for a few years with around 17,500-18,000 miles. I originally bought it originally from the dealership with around 6000 as used but had no previous owner.
It’s getting to the point where my original warranty’s for the car with the dealership are expiring and they are trying to sell me on all these expensive maintenance/renewal packages and I just have a gut feeling these have to be overpriced/ripping me off. They claim the software can be difficult to fix with the screen if anything were to happen (I have Apple car play and rely heavily on the big screen in my car for function) but I haven’t had any issues so far and don’t know why there would be any huge costly problems unless I don’t take care of my car.
I’m looking at all my options are trying to determine what’s best. What regular maintenance options do you typically use that doesn’t break the bank or find the most reliable and consistent that’s worth the money?
I am not a mechanic, but I can be handy whenever it’s a basic fix and a YouTube video is out and can explain it to me.
Thanks for your input

https://youtu.be/SyWC8ZFVxGo?si=AEwMq0ArBK0466lA
I've only commented in here but in some of my comments I've discussed my great interest in Carl Jungs work at addressing mental health concerns.
I'm not big in to Huberman himself but I have a lot of respect for James Hollis who is a Jungian PhD. This is a recently released interview with Hollis. I think Hollis explains how to get in touch with the self in an eloquent and effective way that may be helpful to others who feel they've no "true self".
I've also been asked how I can consider myself cluster B when I believe to have somewhat of a core sense of self. Part of that answer lies in the wisdom of Hollis. It's really a matter of stripping these persona traits (as Jung classified them as) and learning from our unconscious mind where our soul is willing us to. In the video Hollis teaches one how to listen to that instinctive bit of us that so many here feel they lack or are out of touch with.

Hi all.
I’ve had my 2022 Hyundai Tucson now for a few years with around 17,500-18,000 miles. I originally bought it originally from the dealership with around 6000 as used but had no previous owner.
It’s getting to the point where my original warranty’s for the car with the dealership are expiring and they are trying to sell me on all these expensive maintenance/renewal packages and I just have a gut feeling these have to be overpriced/ripping me off. They claim the software can be difficult to fix with the screen if anything were to happen (I have Apple car play and rely heavily on the big screen in my car for function) but I haven’t had any issues so far and don’t know why there would be any huge costly problems unless I don’t take care of my car.
I’m looking at all my options are trying to determine what’s best. What regular maintenance options do you typically use that doesn’t break the bank or find the most reliable and consistent that’s worth the money?
I am not a mechanic, but I can be handy whenever it’s a basic fix and a YouTube video is out and can explain it to me.
Thanks for your input

I live in Tennessee. Yesterday, my uncle and I got into a heater argument about several things that had accumulated over the past couple of days. He was mad that I took his clothes out of the dryer, that I clean the washing machine and dishwasher, that I called him and asshole, and his son overheard it, the list goes on. Multiple times during the argument, he got in my face and was spitting in it while he was talking to me. I could feel his breath on my face. I told him to back off and he said “no I’ll continue spitting in your goddamn face. What are you gonna do about it?” I warned him that I would spit back at him
Sure enough it got to that point. He got my face and spat in it one last time so I spit in his face back and from there he lunged at me, put his hand around my throat, choking me, elbowed me and threw a few punches in the face. I kicked him as hard as I could and slapped him in the face, and the fight ended by me pushing him into the table. He ripped my shirt and left marks on my neck. I also have a minor cut on the back of my right hand, but that was from his glasses. He apologized about my shirt and the scratch.
After telling my family about it, I was encouraged today call the police. I did and I showed them pictures of my injuries and the video I recorded (unbeknownst to my uncle). The officer said that they would talk to the judge and see what the judge would decide to do. The video is mostly just a blank screen and on and off muffled audio. You can see the phone fall down onto the floor and you can see my uncle in a standing position in the video. So because of how it was recorded, the police officer says that the judge may not count that as substantial enough evidence to bring about any charges. But if he does, it’s likely that we both could face charges for domestic assault, because the bottom line is it was we’re family and it happened in a family home, and we both did make physical contact with each other. Domestic violence and domestic assault policies in Tennessee are among the strictest in the country. My uncle and I have never been in any trouble with the law before.
One of the police officers requested that I email him the video and the picture, but I was not able to email him the video because the file size was too big, even though I had edited (shortened) versions of it.
Could this result in jail time for the both of us?

Hello everyone and thanks for your input!
I'm a prof at a university wanting to make Vox-style educational videos for use in my classroom. I have been trying to work with Canva because it has a couple very big and important features:

1. A huge library of assets that I can search and drop in
   
2. Built-in shapes, tables, etc. that I can use for my engineering problems
   

Unfortunately, Canva's actual video editing makes me want to rip my hair out. Is there any other video editing software out there with similar benefits to Canva but hopefully that is much better to use?

So another user posted how his progress was going and I liked that idea and am going to do that myself first. An introduction. My name is Jeremy deLong I am an American YouTuber who’s videos are primarily focused on a video game and it’s history how it got made how it did in the public and how to play the game. (I’ll have a link to my newest video thus my channel in the comments if you WANT to take a look) My channel started with some subs from friends and then I did a bunch of YouTube and google ads promos to boost my videos (bad idea) so it says I have 4.81k subs but out of people you can see it’s like I really only have 200-300 (for the others it says that their subscription has been made private) so currently my stats are and I’ll update at the start of next month Subs 4,819 Views 40.8k Watch time 454 Again these look like big numbers but I feel like google and YouTube have bot farms for the people that pay or something (but what do I know I’m just a dude from the internet) I HOPE ALL OF YOU GROW AND HAVE AN AMAZING DAY THANK YOU FOR BEING YOURSELF!!

Just noticed this, everytime I record on my phone, whilst recording a video ,the camera will shake and vibrate. Is there anyway to solve this problem , and is it that big of a problem or can I get by with it ,minus the annoying shaking on the lense

I m 26 have been friends with Cassie F 33 for close to 10 years now. Cassie is this wannabe influencer. She's very photogenic so we'd always take pics of each other and our outfits in whatever activity. Cassie is very picky on her pics and id always end up taking more photos of her. Over the years Cassie has been getting overbearing with trying to be like a influencer. Cassie always tries to copy the latest trendy posts on her social media and it gives off as a very try hard vibe. My social media always has to have at least several photos or videos on what Cassie is doing or done and it got kinda eye rollingly annoying. I muted her post but she noticed why I haven't liked or commented so I had to go back and like some to later on having to unmute her. Now onto the main issue, Cassie wants to go out to all these trendy places she's seen on tik tok and makes these plans for us and I end up driving and she doesn't cover the cost of gas or my food. We would go to some concerts and I ended up paying for both of us and our trip to the cities was hijacked by her in places she wanted to go to bc she seen it on tik tok and the places I wanted to go she wasn't too interested. Being at those places consisted of me being her photographevideographer and her half ass taking my pictures. This wasn't a big deal at first until a lot of my phone gallery is a lot pics of her and 5 pics of me sending them was dreadful. I had this concert that I’m going to and she found out about it and invited herself not knowing its a date w my bf. I don’t tell her my personal life anymore and kept that way. I did confirm that I’m going and already had plans for the day. She insisted in herself going and tried to tell me to sit close to her on other seats bc she couldn’t afford floor bc she just got back from Coachella. She even tried to convince me to sneak her in floor. I decline both ideas. Cassie texted me that day of and asked what time to meet her to pick her up. I told her that I wasn’t going to meet her as I get off work later still avoiding telling her I have a date. My bf and I got to the concert and we ignored her calls until the end. finally met up and my bf was just introduced as a mutual from work and Cassie wanted me to take pics. The same thing happened where she does more energy for her photos but only takes a few. Cassie asked if my bf was okay bc she felt a vibe that he didn't like her. I didn't notice but I guess my bf made a face to the way Cassie went about the photos. We left and we got in the car and my bf confessed that he didn't like her. He even asked why am I still friends with someone like her. My bf genuinely ask me why haven’t I blocked her yet as he says that’s she’s just using me. WIBTA if I just drop her without telling her why?

As the title says, I haven’t been here is 316 days. The last time I posted was upon returning from a foreign holiday, expressing my desire to return to sobriety, after a week long binge that I hated myself for. Some good news is that I did. I spent the best part of 9 months sober, I enjoyed every day of it. As someone who has always had issues with mental health, achieving longer periods of sobriety, exercise and routine are the only things that keep my mind in check.
Well, if you view my last couple of posts here, you will see there’s quite the pattern. Drinking on holiday. Twice this month I have trips outside of my country and both times I have slipped up. The first time I was away for 4 days with my closest friends. None of them pressured me to drink, they understand and offer me support in my issues. However, I cannot expect them to stop me, as I am a grown adult apparently. I made it through the first day fine, the second day started amazingly, I got to tick off visiting somewhere special to me and despite it not being that interesting to my friends, they all tagged along and had a great time too. After that we went for lunch and around a few bars, I started getting the itch to drink. We were out for around 3 hours, them enjoying a leisurely drink, me feeling envious but not showing it. I walked to the bar and saw a selection of my old favourites and lied to myself saying I could just have a few afternoon drinks and be back to our hotel for the evening and all would be fine…
Obviously, we all know how that story goes. 4 hours later, I am completely blackout drunk, vomiting in a family friendly bar, ruining other people’s day with my obnoxious behaviour and getting kicked out. Most of my friends had returned to our hotel before this point to relax before evening plans, one friend had stayed with me, also someone who has an issue with alcohol. We walked for a while before finding somewhere else to let us in and continued drinking until I was vomiting again. You would think this would be enough to get me to call it a night but once back at our hotel after 9 hours of drinking, I proceeded to stay in the hotel bar until closing. Luckily my pace had slowed by this point but I was still acting extremely obnoxiously, the bar was empty and the only employee was very understanding when I apologised for my behaviour the next day.
My 3rd day away was ruined. I managed to get up for a few hours for prearranged plans, but other that I was bed bound. On one hand, at least I wasn’t drinking, on the other what a waste.
I got home, got back to normal life and hoped it was a one off. However, I was due a week abroad again, which I am currently 5 days into. It is a family holiday, no big drinkers, siblings, cousins and their children at a family friendly resort. Surely, I could manage this? Wrong, of course.
The first day, the first hour we arrive and I’m ordering alcohol. My excuse? I didn’t have much sleep, a few won’t hurt to take the edge off. As history repeats itself, 10 hours later I have been drinking all day and I’m asking if anyone wants a night out, by this point I can already taste vomit coming back up on me.
Well my brother in law, a notorious light drinker takes me up on the offer to go out. After drinking rum all day, we head out at 10pm, I continue to drink for another 4.5 hours (at an increasingly fast pace, like I always do) before he heads back to our hotel. I didn’t realise he was leaving at the time and I was quite angry when I figured it out. Looking back, we had a miscommunication and I forget that despite his limited time drinking, he was also very drunk. I felt he had abandoned me, drunk, somewhere I did not know and figured my only solution was to find a club that was open until morning. As it turns out, nowhere was open that late, so I wonder the streets asking people for an after party. During this period, I managed to lose my phone, my hotel key card and my credit card. I don’t realise this until I have found someone going back to party so my drunken mind says who cares, I may as well carry on now.
I got back to their hotel, where let’s just say we all indulged in other things beyond alcohol. I don’t usually do this and it caused me to go off at the deep end, they said I lost my mind a little, accused them of trying to keep me against my will and then start kicking all the doors on their floor until they calmed me down. Somehow these people were still fine with me afterwards and as the alcohol wore of we talked all night and I explained my issues with alcohol and how I’m so embarrassed by my behaviour. I was so grateful for these people taking me in because I could have ended up in a very dangerous situation without them. They helped me get home the next morning and I wasted another day of another holiday in bed.
I came round on the 3rd day and of course, I need something to take the edge off. I have 3 drinks, I start talking myself into going out again, just for a quiet one. Luckily my siblings called me on my bull shit and shut that possibility down. I stopped at 3 and now hopefully I can see the rest of the week out. My mindset has changed back to how it was before this month now, I am ready to get back disciplined and I feel like I have managed that in day to day life now but my next trip away is in 4 months and I know I need to improve my mental strength and discipline before then. I can’t not travel for the rest of my life, it is the thing I enjoy most each year but I need to find a way to stop it leading to these downfalls.
I appreciate you all and well done if you have made it this far. I mainly have wrote this to refer back to when I have any thoughts on drinking again, to hold myself accountable and remind myself how I behave when under the influence. It obviously has not helped the last few times but I suppose it does not hurt to keep trying. I can put previous successful streaks down to actively reading here everyday and that’s something I am going to commit to doing again.

Me (25f) and my boyfriend (30m) have been together for roughly 2.5 years and distance from the very start. Since then we've managed to see each other rougly every 6 weeks but with both our financial situations being not great (I'm a full time student and we live in separate countries) it's generally hard to predict when we will be able to see each other, we very often say goodbye without a date for another meeting. At the moment I know we will be seeing each other in 3 weeks, then after 2.5 months apart we will be living together for 4 months roughly, during my semester abroad which he is joining me for. After that, we don't know when we will close the gap, but at some point after I graduate I guess, is the rough plan.
I've been struggling with my mental health, mostly with depression I guess, since before we met, and it's had a toll on the relationship. Conversely, the relationship has also had a toll on my mental health. Not being able to see each other, saying goodbye without knowing when we will see each other next, to him it isn't a big deal but to me it leaves me in bits for days after every meeting we have and I tend to pick fights while we're together because of the impending feeling of missing him and feeling bothered that he is so much more chill about this.
What makes it so much worse for me is the fact that my boyfriend isn't a caller, and I need calls to feel close. I've asked him many times to call me more often (in some kinder and in some decisively unkind ways, I'll admit), and his reply is that he doesn't think of it because it isn't his natural inclination (he doesn't like calls with anybody and is very introverted) but he will try, and basically that I should lower my expectations and be grateful for what we have, which is constant communication through text and sending each other things on instagram. It's true that we have very regular communication, we talk throughout everyday, say good morning and goodnight without fail, but for me this just isn't enough to feel the relationship closeness. He doesn't get it, and every time he says he would try, most of the time, he doesn't call me anyway. I'm always the one to initiate the calls, and every once in a while he will suggest a movie night or a study session over video call together but it's rare. He says that as it's something that is important to me and not him, I should be the one to make sure it happens.
The past couple of months have been particularly rough for me and I've been struggling a lot in the past weeks. I've been extremely depressed and having a really hard time coping, and I don't think he even realises just how hard it has been despite me telling him. Usually I'm not exactly happy to always be the one initiating calls but these days it's hard for me to even do that. I really am not well at all, and I wish he would be more supportive in this sense. We talked about it again today and he said he would try, but I don't trust that he will because it's the exact same thing he has always said and never done.
He is a lovely, caring and attentive person most of the time and I have no doubt that he loves me, but this aspect of our relationship is a real struggle for me and is making me feel worse in an already tough time. I've been crying almost every day for weeks and I wish I just had my boyfriend call sometimes just to have a short chat without me asking him to - I know it isn't his responsibility to take care of my mental health, but it would really make a small but significant difference to how I feel. I know you need to pick your battles in a relationship, but I fear letting go of this one will leave me in a place of feeling perpetually unhappy/unsupported for the rest of our long distance duration. I don't want to break up with him, but the fact is that right now the nature of the relationship is a rather large contributor to my poor mental state.
I'm not really sure how to approach this situation any longer, because I'm stuck between understanding that he simply doesn't enjoy calls and won't naturally do something he doesn't generally enjoy, but also being convinced that if your partner impresses upon you that something is important to them you should make an effort to do that thing, within reason (which I feel this is). I also feel guilty of asking him for more on the basis of helping my mental health as, as I said, it's not his responsibility, but again, the distance does make it harder to cope when you're already struggling.
Sidenote: I'm not currently in therapy but will be starting in a month or so.

Hi so I believe my partner has a porn addiction but he wont listen to me. He says since he doesnt masterbate to them and just looks its not a problem. However I have caught him 3 seperate major times of him doing it even though its a hard boundary in our relationship he isnt allowed. After the first 2 times i finally thought he stopped but i recently just found out he hasnt. Its everywhere, all the manga and anime he reads has to have girls with big boobs etc, he had a whole secret instagram just to follow a bunch of OF girls, he was finding hardcore porn on facebook:(. He says he tries to stop and has multiple times but he just cant, which to me sounds like a problem. Especially cause i am a borerline nudist and enjoy to tease him and send him videos literally almost everyday, so you are already seeing a naked women most your day yet you still have a need to spend so much effort and time to seek other naked women. Is there any advice to get him to realize he might have a problem? I love him and I dont want to give up on us but this problem of his destroys my self esteem and confidence, and its causing him to lie to me and try to manipulate me. Even if he doesnt stay with me if he is activly trying to not look at naked women and is saying he cant help it that is unhealthy and still needed to be adressed. Pls help and thank you for your time

Hello y'all!
I would like to post about my honest review of this game.
For context, PH was my very first Zelda ever, and I haven't tried many Zelda games besides PH and ST (currently on my way to finish it). It was a big part of my childhood, and going back to play it once more recently was so worth it.
Having said that, this is my review of the game:
Overall, I think the game is very well made. I was quite surprised to see that in the English Internet the game is not as liked as it was in the country I grew up in.
The strengths of the game are as follows. First, the dungeons. I know this game is often hated because of its heavy reliance on the Temple of the Ocean King, but I think this is the best part of the game (although all the criticisms are understandable). I will discuss TotOK in detail later. The other dungeons are pretty well made IMO. My least favorite dungeon is the Goron Temple, but even that was pretty good. Besides TotOK I also loved the Temple of Ice with the grappling hook being a very well made item, the Temple of Wind for the vibes, and Mutoh's temple for both gameplay and vibes. I didn't like the Temple of Courage as much for its complexity, but I understand there's gotta be a dungeon with that characterstics at certain points.
Another strength is the plot.My favourite part of this game is that it really feels like a story with the plot development and whatnot. I think the developers did a good job making this progress especially with information being continuously revealed over the plot (with almost none at the beginning). I think TotOK did a good job with this as well, which I'll explain in a separate section.
Needless to mention characters. All characters are good, but Linebeck alone makes the gameplay 100 times more interesting. I literally named my character 'Linebeck' once to make Linebeck say "Linebeck? That's an odd name. My name is Linebeck!!!! Cool right?".
Now the weaknesses. I think the game could have had better controls (a lot of which were improved in ST). Especially with somersault, it did not need to be that difficult, although as an expert-level player myself I'd love to master that XD
Lastly, the Temple of the Ocean King. I personally know some friends who love the game but absolutely hated TotOK, so I know the hate is quite widespread. I personally don't mind doing repetitive gameplay, so its 'issues' don't bother me at all. I absolutely agree with the idea of having a dungeon you must revisit over and over, so that you can kind of feel the progress. I, however, also agree that the dungeon could get repetitive for some people, and think the developers should've done a better job making the repetition less repetitive and actually focused on finding out puzzles.
Having said that, I would have to ask one question who criticize the game for being too easy and/or repetitive: after the Ghost Ship, have you tried getting both SE and NE sea charts in one run in the TotOK? That makes the game so much funner with that run being so much more difficult (B11 is batshit crazy without bombchus and grappling hook), and you can save yourself 1 run in the TotOK, which means you don't have to think about TotOK until the very end of the game! To give my personal anecdote, in my first play of the game as a child, I kept on going after I got the SE sea chart, and although I wasn't expecting to finish another section right away, I ended up getting the NE sea chart (although barely with no time left in the hourglass XD). That was one of the most memorable moments of my life, and probably one of the greatest reasons why the game sticks so much to me even today (and the TotOK doesn't feel as repetitive as people make out to be).
Upon that, I would like to review each section of the TotOK with a focus on 'repetitiveness':

• F1: 4 visits minimum, but only the first visit involves solving anything, and the other three are just 2 second walkovers to B1. Not repetitive at all.
  
• B1-B3: 3 visits minimum. For B1 and B2, the second visit opens a massive shortcut with the introduction of bombs, making both rooms very simple (solvable in less than 30 seconds and 1 minute respectively). However, after the second visit, there is not much of a shortcut added (there probably cannot be given how simple they have already got, although it would be better to have evenore shortcuts). For B3, it's actually a floor I'm very critical of. Even in the first visit B3 is the most complex and tedious floor out of all three, pand there is not much of a shortcut in the three mandatory visits. The floor becomes entirely skippable with the grappling hook, but it becomes optional with the yellow portal by then anyways. Expert-level players like myself know how to have fun and try new things for each visit in B3 (ie. giving force gems to Swift Phantoms to have them deliver it closer to the pedestal in the third visit), but that's not what it should've focused on.
  
• B4-B6: 2 visits minimum. B4 becomes much simpler in the second visit with the deactivation of wind walls with the bow and arrow, so not much to say here. B5 consists of 2 closed room fights that change between the first visit and the second visit and a 'shortcut' after the adoption of bombchus (which the yellow portal would've made the floor optional anyways). B6 consists of solving a mystery that is quite possibly the hardest riddle in the game (you know which one) but you know the answer in your second visit onwards, so it's not repetitive. My criticism for B6 is that the aforementioned riddle is in the TotOK out of all places in which people cannot save the progress until then and have to replay over and over again. The riddle itself is a gem though, it's one of my biggest video game regrets to have read the answer instead of figuring it out myself. Overall, the B4-B6 becomes extremely easy in the second visit onwards, so it's not super repetitive.
  
• B7-B9: Now it gets more fun! 2 visits minimum, although most people do 3 (I suggest against this). In the first visit, you must go back and forth between all three floors. In the second visit onwards (after bombchus and grappling hook), B7 and B8 become extremely skippable, and B9 becomes much simpler as well (but players can still be confused if they don't keep track of these three floors). If you know what you do, however, it becomes thrilling to know how much you can just skip by having two more items. Not only is this section not super repetitive, but it's where the intention of developers actually succeeded. The best part of the game IMO.
  
• B10-B12: 2 visits minimum. So this is the section you have the options: 'hard' option without bombchus and grappling hook and 'easy' option with the 2 items. Comparing how each of these 'options' differ, B10 and B12 are fairly consistent. Although B10 becomes somewhat easier, I don't think it's beyond the tolerable level. B12 is almost identical between the two options. My real problem is B11. As stated earlier, B11 is super hard without the 2 items . However, with the 2 items, it becomes a joke. This is where I think the developers failed to manage the difficulty between these two options. Having two options was a great idea, but their way of implementing it wasn't so great. In the second visit after the phantom sword, B11 becomes just skippable. I think if the difficulty of B11 remained the same between the two options making it skippable after the adoption of the hammer would've been more justifiable, but it just wasn't it. And needless to mention that B10 becomes less repetitive if you try it for the first time without these two items (they're pretty much all the shortcuts).
  
• B13: 2 visits minimum. The first one is literally getting NE sea chart and nothing else. Not repetitive at all.
  

Thoughts?