Limerick friend poem
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2014.03.26 04:52 freedreamer Poetry Critics: for constructive criticism of your poetry
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2018.11.04 23:32 vege12 Limericks created one line at a time
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2012.07.09 02:55 Poedditor Honest poetry criticism.
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2024.05.28 19:25 Lingchen8012 Couplet
A poem that I wrote around the middle of my crushing.
I wrote the most of it in midnight so don’t mind if it sounds stupid.
Day and night you are always on my mind
The sight of you is what I always try to find
Just a glance at you can pause my heart
No matter how far we are apart
My heart melts every time I see you smile
And I study at your side face once in a while
Your beauty stuns me again and again
But also stabs my heart again and again
Every night I miss you hard and deep
While you had no idea of them in sleep
Every time I stare at your beauty and fair
Is there any chance you were aware?
Even though you sit only a half meter away
Why are we still far apart in every way?
Even though we talk and you know my name
Why couldn’t you ever feel the same?
When you talk and laugh to someone else
My body and mind would froze as if in ice
I deeply envy every single friend of you
For they simply talk to you and see you true
I would call this poem unfinished, because I confessed and got rejected before I had time to finish it, and I won’t have the same mindset anymore so I’ll leave it unfinished I guess.
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I wrote the most of it in midnight so don’t mind if it sounds stupid.
Day and night you are always on my mind
The sight of you is what I always try to find
Just a glance at you can pause my heart
No matter how far we are apart
My heart melts every time I see you smile
And I study at your side face once in a while
Your beauty stuns me again and again
But also stabs my heart again and again
Every night I miss you hard and deep
While you had no idea of them in sleep
Every time I stare at your beauty and fair
Is there any chance you were aware?
Even though you sit only a half meter away
Why are we still far apart in every way?
Even though we talk and you know my name
Why couldn’t you ever feel the same?
When you talk and laugh to someone else
My body and mind would froze as if in ice
I deeply envy every single friend of you
For they simply talk to you and see you true
I would call this poem unfinished, because I confessed and got rejected before I had time to finish it, and I won’t have the same mindset anymore so I’ll leave it unfinished I guess.
2024.05.28 18:20 Athenaaa08 21F Looking for New Friends to Comverse with
Hello! I'm a 21F life science student from the Philippines. I'm very shy and introverted, but I'm open to making new friends online. College has been pretty stressful for me and I think meeting new people would allow me to expand my horizons, and prolly lessen my anxiety. A little about me: I like to read books (if my schedule allows it). I like fantasy, mystery, and thriller books. Currently, I enjoy reading classics. I also love, lovee to write. It's both my hobby and work. I write anything that comes into my mind: poems, essays, articles, you name it. I'd like to exchange some story/writing ideas if anyone is interested out there. My genre of music is mostly pop and rock, whatever hits my fancy really. Also! Currently dabbling into philosophy and psychology.
I'm studying German at the moment, so it will be helpful to converse with someone who speaks the language or is currently studying it as well. Nonetheless, I am very interested in learning about cultures from across the world.
If you relate to these (or if not, really, I'm open to new ideas) feel free to message me.
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I'm studying German at the moment, so it will be helpful to converse with someone who speaks the language or is currently studying it as well. Nonetheless, I am very interested in learning about cultures from across the world.
If you relate to these (or if not, really, I'm open to new ideas) feel free to message me.
2024.05.28 17:29 Athenaaa08 21 F Looking for new friends
Hello! I'm a 21F life science student from the Philippines. I'm very shy and introverted, but I'm open to making new friends online. College has been pretty stressful for me and I think meeting new people would allow me to expand my horizons, and prolly lessen my anxiety. A little about me: I like to read books (if my schedule allows it). I like fantasy, mystery, and thriller books. Currently, I enjoy reading classics. I also love, lovee to write. It's both my hobby and work. I write anything that comes into my mind: poems, essays, articles, you name it. I'd like to exchange some story/writing ideas if anyone is interested out there. My genre of music is mostly pop and rock, whatever hits my fancy really. Also! Currently dabbling into philosophy and psychology.
I'm studying German at the moment, so it will be helpful to converse with someone who speaks the language or is currently studying it as well. Nonetheless, I am very interested in learning about cultures from across the world.
If you relate to these (or if not, really, I'm open to new ideas) feel free to message me.
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I'm studying German at the moment, so it will be helpful to converse with someone who speaks the language or is currently studying it as well. Nonetheless, I am very interested in learning about cultures from across the world.
If you relate to these (or if not, really, I'm open to new ideas) feel free to message me.
2024.05.28 17:29 Unique_Bit824 Day of Remembrance for Lives Lost to Asthma and Anaphylaxis (this subreddit is sponsored by MamaBear Health Smartphone App. It provides a way to send your child's symptoms to your doctor via email)
Ways You Can Honor People Lost to Anaphylaxis and Asthma
- Blow bubbles in memoriam: Share a photo on social media blowing bubbles or of a loved one using the hashtags #AsthmaAwareness, #AllergyAwareness, or #FoodAllergyAwareness.
- Write a poem, draw a picture, photograph something your loved one would find beautiful, or sing a song. Post to social media using the hashtags #AsthmaAwareness, #AllergyAwareness, or #FoodAllergyAwareness.
- To share support and fond memories, send a card in the mail, make a phone call, or text friends or family.
2024.05.28 17:27 SufficientPaint9415 My first actual relationship!
I has fallen in love with my best friend, Ash, who did confessed to me that she loved me (but it was already revealed by her sister, so she felt it was forced out of her), but she then made herself uncontactable; she wouldn't answer and was hiding. I think she was afraid as I had never expressed (or at that point felt) romantic love for her. But from knowing about it, it bloomed into my chest and I just could stop thinking about her.
I choose to write a letter and gave it to her father. That day she sent a simple thanks, but to me it meant the world.
So I then made several physical photo albums and ecentric scrapbooks, over a couple weeks, and sent them to her. We then started to message each other again, but it was mostly pleasantries and nothing serious. I continued to create things that she liked; drawings, silly "scrap" scultures and some poems with her favorite references and inside jokes (they aren't great, so unsure if I want anyone else to read them) and gave them to her mother and/or father.
My sister kinda teased me about falling hard ("straight to the molten core") and she harped on me to try to visit Ash. But I'm a coward, at least when it comes to Ash.
She came to my home for exactly 6 days ago; taking with her several of the scrapbooks and homemade gifts, and we talked. Oh how we talked; spent the evening talking and even talked a couple of hours into the night. It all feels like a blurr, we discussed our entire past and when through the albums and scrapbooks. It was beyond refreshing. Over the time we talked we kinda attached to eachother. I'm not completely sure of the complete series of events, cause it happened so natural I didn't realize it, but first our hands touched eachother while looking through the album and we just completed each action, our hand meeting. I'm sure I blushed the first time but then it just got lost and she ended up half in my lap, her head on me should and my hand going from her back and into her hair and back down, while she softly held on to my left arm. We cuddled like that and then it happened! She kissed my cheek and we just stilled. At that point the rope that keept most of the affection at bay snapped. I turned her around and just kissed her, right on the lips. It was magical, and I just couldn't stop. Of course I had to be "adorkable" (her words, not mine) and professed my eternal love (so damn cheesy, looking back now its so embarassing) to her. She cried and sorta knocked me to "the ground" (couch, but that doesn't sound as dramatic). Well, she reciprocated my feelings (kinda obvious, but still, I need to mention it every time, I just can't believe it ❤️)
We have been spending some time together and recently had our first date and I can't stop smiling ❤️
Love you all ❤️ (maybe weird to say, but I just want everyone to feel at least on ounce of what I feel) ❤️
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I choose to write a letter and gave it to her father. That day she sent a simple thanks, but to me it meant the world.
So I then made several physical photo albums and ecentric scrapbooks, over a couple weeks, and sent them to her. We then started to message each other again, but it was mostly pleasantries and nothing serious. I continued to create things that she liked; drawings, silly "scrap" scultures and some poems with her favorite references and inside jokes (they aren't great, so unsure if I want anyone else to read them) and gave them to her mother and/or father.
My sister kinda teased me about falling hard ("straight to the molten core") and she harped on me to try to visit Ash. But I'm a coward, at least when it comes to Ash.
She came to my home for exactly 6 days ago; taking with her several of the scrapbooks and homemade gifts, and we talked. Oh how we talked; spent the evening talking and even talked a couple of hours into the night. It all feels like a blurr, we discussed our entire past and when through the albums and scrapbooks. It was beyond refreshing. Over the time we talked we kinda attached to eachother. I'm not completely sure of the complete series of events, cause it happened so natural I didn't realize it, but first our hands touched eachother while looking through the album and we just completed each action, our hand meeting. I'm sure I blushed the first time but then it just got lost and she ended up half in my lap, her head on me should and my hand going from her back and into her hair and back down, while she softly held on to my left arm. We cuddled like that and then it happened! She kissed my cheek and we just stilled. At that point the rope that keept most of the affection at bay snapped. I turned her around and just kissed her, right on the lips. It was magical, and I just couldn't stop. Of course I had to be "adorkable" (her words, not mine) and professed my eternal love (so damn cheesy, looking back now its so embarassing) to her. She cried and sorta knocked me to "the ground" (couch, but that doesn't sound as dramatic). Well, she reciprocated my feelings (kinda obvious, but still, I need to mention it every time, I just can't believe it ❤️)
We have been spending some time together and recently had our first date and I can't stop smiling ❤️
Love you all ❤️ (maybe weird to say, but I just want everyone to feel at least on ounce of what I feel) ❤️
2024.05.28 17:22 CrabbyTots [QCRIT] BLIND HORSE HOLLER Upper Middle Grade 35,000 words
Hello - I've read many of the queries on here before joining and am wondering now if mine is too short. My first few drafts read more like a synopsis, so I shortened it. Maybe too much? Thanks in advance for your critiques.
Dear Agent,
In the Appalachian heartland, where the shadows of moonshiners still linger, twelve-year-old twins Ransom and Splendid “Plennie” McCauley uncover secrets that threaten to unravel their tight-knit community.
When their friend Leamon “Rabbit” Neal stumbles upon a crime scene involving the town’s most menacing figure, Billy Banks, their lives are irrevocably changed. Rabbit’s discovery of a bloodied knife and his subsequent disappearance spark a desperate search for the truth. But in Blind Horse, some truths are as slippery as river stones, and the deeper you wade, the more dangerous the currents become.
With the local sheriff appearing to shield Billy Banks from suspicion, it’s up to Ransom and Plennie to piece together clues left behind, guided by a centuries-old poem about a blind horse and moonshiners. Their quest for justice leads them through the rugged landscape of their Appalachian Kentucky home, where folklore and reality intertwine so closely that they often become indistinguishable.
Complete at 35,000 words, Blind Horse Holler is an upper middle-grade book that blends mystery and adventure, speaking to the enduring questions of how well we really know those around us and what it takes to stand against wrongdoing in a community where everyone knows your name.
Thank you for your time and consideration.
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Dear Agent,
In the Appalachian heartland, where the shadows of moonshiners still linger, twelve-year-old twins Ransom and Splendid “Plennie” McCauley uncover secrets that threaten to unravel their tight-knit community.
When their friend Leamon “Rabbit” Neal stumbles upon a crime scene involving the town’s most menacing figure, Billy Banks, their lives are irrevocably changed. Rabbit’s discovery of a bloodied knife and his subsequent disappearance spark a desperate search for the truth. But in Blind Horse, some truths are as slippery as river stones, and the deeper you wade, the more dangerous the currents become.
With the local sheriff appearing to shield Billy Banks from suspicion, it’s up to Ransom and Plennie to piece together clues left behind, guided by a centuries-old poem about a blind horse and moonshiners. Their quest for justice leads them through the rugged landscape of their Appalachian Kentucky home, where folklore and reality intertwine so closely that they often become indistinguishable.
Complete at 35,000 words, Blind Horse Holler is an upper middle-grade book that blends mystery and adventure, speaking to the enduring questions of how well we really know those around us and what it takes to stand against wrongdoing in a community where everyone knows your name.
Thank you for your time and consideration.
2024.05.28 15:53 SugarBerrySundae 20/EST/US Looking for gamer friends or anime fans (all is welcome!)
I am looking for some like minded friends from anywhere who are also open minded and just want to talk through the day about anything. Hopefully you’ll read to the end :)
Here’s some things about me to strike a conversation:
Writing - i love writing about my emotions, experiences or horror stories, most comfortable with poems
Psychology - i currently major in n psychology, if you are interested we can talk more about that
Fashion - i love to cosplay mostly Anime characters
Fitness/health - I love to work out and take care of my health, i can go on about whats good for certain people and what exercise might help them. Im like your uncertified nutritionist :)
Anime - currently enjoying psychological animes, or anything mysterious such as angels of death, Tokyo ghoul, danganronpa
Games - I love different types of games, i have played stardew valley, minecraft, Apex, Valorant, Neverwinter, OSU etc i mainly like fantasy or horror games
I enjoy deep conversations and real people, if youre interested in that or found something that relates to you, just dm and give an intro of yourself with your age and a selfie if you like.
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Here’s some things about me to strike a conversation:
Writing - i love writing about my emotions, experiences or horror stories, most comfortable with poems
Psychology - i currently major in n psychology, if you are interested we can talk more about that
Fashion - i love to cosplay mostly Anime characters
Fitness/health - I love to work out and take care of my health, i can go on about whats good for certain people and what exercise might help them. Im like your uncertified nutritionist :)
Anime - currently enjoying psychological animes, or anything mysterious such as angels of death, Tokyo ghoul, danganronpa
Games - I love different types of games, i have played stardew valley, minecraft, Apex, Valorant, Neverwinter, OSU etc i mainly like fantasy or horror games
I enjoy deep conversations and real people, if youre interested in that or found something that relates to you, just dm and give an intro of yourself with your age and a selfie if you like.
2024.05.28 14:29 adulting4kids Poetry Course Week Three and Four
Week 3: Limericks and the Art of Humor
Day 1: Decoding Limericks - Activity: Analyze classic limericks for rhythm and humor. - Lecture: Discuss the AABBA rhyme scheme and distinctive rhythm. - Discussion: Share favorite humorous poems and discuss elements that make them funny.
Day 2: Crafting Limericks with Wit - Activity: Write limericks individually, focusing on humor and rhythm. - Lecture: Explore the balance of humor and structure in limericks. - Discussion: Share and discuss individual limericks, highlighting successful elements.
Day 3: Understanding Free Verse - Activity: Analyze free verse poems for structure and expression. - Lecture: Introduce the concept of free verse and its flexibility. - Discussion: Discuss the liberation and challenges of writing without a strict structure.
Day 4: Writing Exercise - Expressing Emotions in Free Verse - Activity: Explore emotions and write a free verse poem. - Assignment: Craft a free verse poem exploring a personal experience or emotion. - Vocabulary Words: Enjambment, Cadence, Anapest.
Day 5: Peer Review and Feedback - Activity: Peer review workshop for free verse poems. - Lecture: Discuss the artistic freedom and impact of free verse. - Discussion: Share insights gained from reviewing peers' free verse poems.
Study Guide Questions for Week 3: 1. What defines a limerick, and how does its rhythm contribute to its humor? 2. Discuss the importance of the AABBA rhyme scheme in limericks. 3. How does free verse differ from structured forms of poetry? 4. Explore the challenges and benefits of writing without a strict form in free verse. 5. Reflect on the emotions and experiences expressed in your free verse poem.
Quiz: Assessment on limericks, the AABBA rhyme scheme, and the principles of free verse.
Week 4: Free Verse and Acrostic Poetry
Day 1: Embracing Free Verse - Activity: Analyze diverse free verse poems for individual expression. - Lecture: Discuss famous free verse poets and their impact on the genre. - Discussion: Share personal reactions to the artistic freedom of free verse.
Day 2: Crafting Emotion in Free Verse - Activity: Write a free verse poem expressing a specific emotion. - Lecture: Explore the role of emotions in free verse and the use of vivid imagery. - Discussion: Share and discuss individual poems, highlighting emotional impact.
Day 3: Understanding Acrostic Poetry - Activity: Analyze acrostic poems for clever wordplay. - Lecture: Explain the concept of acrostic poetry and its various forms. - Discussion: Share examples of creative acrostic poems.
Day 4: Writing Exercise - Personal Acrostic - Activity: Craft an acrostic poem using your name or a chosen word. - Assignment: Write an acrostic poem exploring a theme or concept. - Vocabulary Words: Strophe, Stanza, Consonance.
Day 5: Peer Review and Feedback - Activity: Peer review workshop for acrostic poems. - Lecture: Discuss the playfulness and creativity of acrostic poetry. - Discussion: Share insights gained from reviewing peers' acrostic poems.
Study Guide Questions for Week 4: 1. Explore the role of emotions in free verse poetry. How does it differ from structured forms? 2. Discuss the impact of vivid imagery in free verse. How does it contribute to the overall message? 3. What defines acrostic poetry, and how is it different from other forms? 4. How can clever wordplay enhance the impact of an acrostic poem? 5. Reflect on the creative process and thematic exploration in your acrostic poem.
Quiz: Assessment on understanding free verse, emotional expression in poetry, and the principles of acrostic poetry.
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Day 1: Decoding Limericks - Activity: Analyze classic limericks for rhythm and humor. - Lecture: Discuss the AABBA rhyme scheme and distinctive rhythm. - Discussion: Share favorite humorous poems and discuss elements that make them funny.
Day 2: Crafting Limericks with Wit - Activity: Write limericks individually, focusing on humor and rhythm. - Lecture: Explore the balance of humor and structure in limericks. - Discussion: Share and discuss individual limericks, highlighting successful elements.
Day 3: Understanding Free Verse - Activity: Analyze free verse poems for structure and expression. - Lecture: Introduce the concept of free verse and its flexibility. - Discussion: Discuss the liberation and challenges of writing without a strict structure.
Day 4: Writing Exercise - Expressing Emotions in Free Verse - Activity: Explore emotions and write a free verse poem. - Assignment: Craft a free verse poem exploring a personal experience or emotion. - Vocabulary Words: Enjambment, Cadence, Anapest.
Day 5: Peer Review and Feedback - Activity: Peer review workshop for free verse poems. - Lecture: Discuss the artistic freedom and impact of free verse. - Discussion: Share insights gained from reviewing peers' free verse poems.
Study Guide Questions for Week 3: 1. What defines a limerick, and how does its rhythm contribute to its humor? 2. Discuss the importance of the AABBA rhyme scheme in limericks. 3. How does free verse differ from structured forms of poetry? 4. Explore the challenges and benefits of writing without a strict form in free verse. 5. Reflect on the emotions and experiences expressed in your free verse poem.
Quiz: Assessment on limericks, the AABBA rhyme scheme, and the principles of free verse.
Week 4: Free Verse and Acrostic Poetry
Day 1: Embracing Free Verse - Activity: Analyze diverse free verse poems for individual expression. - Lecture: Discuss famous free verse poets and their impact on the genre. - Discussion: Share personal reactions to the artistic freedom of free verse.
Day 2: Crafting Emotion in Free Verse - Activity: Write a free verse poem expressing a specific emotion. - Lecture: Explore the role of emotions in free verse and the use of vivid imagery. - Discussion: Share and discuss individual poems, highlighting emotional impact.
Day 3: Understanding Acrostic Poetry - Activity: Analyze acrostic poems for clever wordplay. - Lecture: Explain the concept of acrostic poetry and its various forms. - Discussion: Share examples of creative acrostic poems.
Day 4: Writing Exercise - Personal Acrostic - Activity: Craft an acrostic poem using your name or a chosen word. - Assignment: Write an acrostic poem exploring a theme or concept. - Vocabulary Words: Strophe, Stanza, Consonance.
Day 5: Peer Review and Feedback - Activity: Peer review workshop for acrostic poems. - Lecture: Discuss the playfulness and creativity of acrostic poetry. - Discussion: Share insights gained from reviewing peers' acrostic poems.
Study Guide Questions for Week 4: 1. Explore the role of emotions in free verse poetry. How does it differ from structured forms? 2. Discuss the impact of vivid imagery in free verse. How does it contribute to the overall message? 3. What defines acrostic poetry, and how is it different from other forms? 4. How can clever wordplay enhance the impact of an acrostic poem? 5. Reflect on the creative process and thematic exploration in your acrostic poem.
Quiz: Assessment on understanding free verse, emotional expression in poetry, and the principles of acrostic poetry.
2024.05.28 13:46 strawbeylamb What type does this sound most like?
I’m really stuck between a few but won’t say what they are to avoid bias. I’ve tried to be as in depth as possible here.
Here ya go:
Melancholy, imaginative, creative, playful, daydreamy, naive, desperate for ideas and experiences, I LOVE planning things…. but the idea is always more fun than executing the plan. Refusal to grow up and settle down and be boring… yet longing to have what they have…security, safety, a group to belong to, fun friends, the elite “in crowd”.
The world is full of beauty and wonder! My imagination is my playground. There are so many wonderful things to see and do, tiny magic everywhere! But it’s so sad at the same time. I wish I could only have the beautiful bits. Why do I have to feel sad so often? Bipolar emotions, mood swings, this sense of “life is so unfair, I just want to feel joyful all the time”. I swing between extreme optimism and extreme pessimism.
Easily enchanted by everything. I find meaning in cloud patterns and angel numbers. A bit spiritual and very identity seeking. Everything must have a meaning. Constantly exploring myself and my inner workings. I can be very cerebral, trapped in my own head and thoughts. Too much longing and envy…. “I’d be so happy if only I had whatever THAT person has!” and then the determination to acquire it for myself.
For some reason, identity and image is so important to me. I get very offended when people misinterpret who I am as a person, or assume that I like a band/artist/movie when I really hate it… a feeling of “how dare you associate me with regular folk who like that stuff”. It’s a childish reaction I guess, but this is the warts and all of my personality.
Yearning to belong to a cool, artsy, intellectually stimulating and fun group of people, a chosen family. Always needing others approval and admiration. Always feeling outside the group and so different to everyone around me. Desperate to belong to the crowd but often too intimidated and insecure to try and join. “I’ll never find my people or my place in this world”. Wanting to be individualistic but only within a group.
How I interact with people: I need another person around to encourage me to be social in new situations, otherwise I can be very withdrawn. Extroverted introvert, but once I get talking I can’t stop. Very picky with what I like in a person, social snob, prefers artsy and interesting people, hates negative, shallow or “fake” people. My mind is very agile, constant puns and wordplay, trying to please the crowd and make them laugh but also secretly outsmart my opponent in being the “funniest” in the room.
As a child I was hyperactive, talkative, stubborn, independent and imaginative at home, deeply shy and mute at school, felt emotions extremely strongly. Always writing poems and stories to escape from how misunderstood I felt. Grew up thinking something was deeply wrong with me. Honestly, I had a very difficult turbulent childhood because of my parents, but I’ve noticed that sometimes I weirdly try and “reframe” it to be beautiful and rosy.
I look after myself first and other people second…. because I was taught that nobody would care for me as a child, and I had to fend for myself by playing in my imagination and creating stories. I am my own best friend. I am my own parent, because I had to be.
I’m at my happiest when I’m planning, getting excited about new ideas, researching places to travel to and new hobbies and crafts to take up. God knows I won’t actually ever do half of them, but the idea stage is the most fun.
Negative aspects of myself: dramatic, hyper-reactive, deeply emotional, withdrawn, too greedy for new things and ideas, moody, insecure, depressive, self-hating. I want to be seen as cool and unique so badly. My image on social media is tailored to be aesthetically pleasing and unique. Other people must think my life is beautiful and a big romantic adventure.
I experience shame very intensely, which makes me think I could be in the heart triad. Shame about my lack of “traditional” accomplishments, shame about not being impressive to family members because they don’t accept me, shame about who I am fundamentally as a person. When I’m feeling extremely down, I will often say things like “I’m so shameful” and “I’m such a failure” and I truly hate myself for not being a “good” person deserving of love. I am inherently unworthy and bad and shameful.
Deep down I feel that… I’m just such a freak. I’m broken and weird and people can tell there’s something wrong with me. I don’t fit in and everyone can tell. I don’t really belong anywhere, even amongst people who think they know me best. Nobody really knows me. Maybe I don’t want anyone to know me? I’m very comfortable with myself and my own company, sometimes too stuck in my head.
I have new hobbies every week which I then immediately drop for something more exciting, and the pattern repeats. Mental liberation is more fun than physical liberation. Verbal sparring and intellectual debates are very fun to me.
I’m prone to extreme depressive episodes. I’m always feeling outcast and different. I can be very melancholy and depressed. I hibernate from life when I’m miserable because I can’t stand anything to be infected with sadness... I can’t stand to experience the world when I’m depressed. I rip out diary entries I wrote when I was sad because I don’t want the sadness to be a part of my larger story of life and infect me. I don’t want to remember it. My diary is only allowed to be full of joy. Fully indulging in pain is good though because it purges it. I never bottle up my emotions. I never hide them, not ever. I wear my heart on my sleeve all the time. I’m extremely in touch with my emotions. They’re my compass, my guide, my everything. But sometimes they’re so painful that after they pass I have to erase them from my memory and my diaries.
I’m extremely harsh on myself. “I’m not doing enough, I’m useless, I’m so unloveable because I can’t be like everyone else… but I don’t want to be like everyone else!” sense of inner confusion, push/pull of identity. I can be very security seeking but in denial of it, because I want to be perceived as a free spirit but deep down I need people.
When stressed, I become a workaholic perfectionist, snappy, irritable, hyperfocussed, making quick decisions, working myself into the ground. I have to be impressive. I have to be worth something. I have to be worthy of love, or I don’t deserve to live.
More than anything I want a life full of freedom, creativity and beautiful experiences and people. I want peace. I want to be part of the in crowd. I want to belong to a chosen family who see me for who I am and love me. I want to be worthy of love, full stop.
If you’ve read this far, thank you! Now please evaluate my soul and tell me who I am
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Here ya go:
Melancholy, imaginative, creative, playful, daydreamy, naive, desperate for ideas and experiences, I LOVE planning things…. but the idea is always more fun than executing the plan. Refusal to grow up and settle down and be boring… yet longing to have what they have…security, safety, a group to belong to, fun friends, the elite “in crowd”.
The world is full of beauty and wonder! My imagination is my playground. There are so many wonderful things to see and do, tiny magic everywhere! But it’s so sad at the same time. I wish I could only have the beautiful bits. Why do I have to feel sad so often? Bipolar emotions, mood swings, this sense of “life is so unfair, I just want to feel joyful all the time”. I swing between extreme optimism and extreme pessimism.
Easily enchanted by everything. I find meaning in cloud patterns and angel numbers. A bit spiritual and very identity seeking. Everything must have a meaning. Constantly exploring myself and my inner workings. I can be very cerebral, trapped in my own head and thoughts. Too much longing and envy…. “I’d be so happy if only I had whatever THAT person has!” and then the determination to acquire it for myself.
For some reason, identity and image is so important to me. I get very offended when people misinterpret who I am as a person, or assume that I like a band/artist/movie when I really hate it… a feeling of “how dare you associate me with regular folk who like that stuff”. It’s a childish reaction I guess, but this is the warts and all of my personality.
Yearning to belong to a cool, artsy, intellectually stimulating and fun group of people, a chosen family. Always needing others approval and admiration. Always feeling outside the group and so different to everyone around me. Desperate to belong to the crowd but often too intimidated and insecure to try and join. “I’ll never find my people or my place in this world”. Wanting to be individualistic but only within a group.
How I interact with people: I need another person around to encourage me to be social in new situations, otherwise I can be very withdrawn. Extroverted introvert, but once I get talking I can’t stop. Very picky with what I like in a person, social snob, prefers artsy and interesting people, hates negative, shallow or “fake” people. My mind is very agile, constant puns and wordplay, trying to please the crowd and make them laugh but also secretly outsmart my opponent in being the “funniest” in the room.
As a child I was hyperactive, talkative, stubborn, independent and imaginative at home, deeply shy and mute at school, felt emotions extremely strongly. Always writing poems and stories to escape from how misunderstood I felt. Grew up thinking something was deeply wrong with me. Honestly, I had a very difficult turbulent childhood because of my parents, but I’ve noticed that sometimes I weirdly try and “reframe” it to be beautiful and rosy.
I look after myself first and other people second…. because I was taught that nobody would care for me as a child, and I had to fend for myself by playing in my imagination and creating stories. I am my own best friend. I am my own parent, because I had to be.
I’m at my happiest when I’m planning, getting excited about new ideas, researching places to travel to and new hobbies and crafts to take up. God knows I won’t actually ever do half of them, but the idea stage is the most fun.
Negative aspects of myself: dramatic, hyper-reactive, deeply emotional, withdrawn, too greedy for new things and ideas, moody, insecure, depressive, self-hating. I want to be seen as cool and unique so badly. My image on social media is tailored to be aesthetically pleasing and unique. Other people must think my life is beautiful and a big romantic adventure.
I experience shame very intensely, which makes me think I could be in the heart triad. Shame about my lack of “traditional” accomplishments, shame about not being impressive to family members because they don’t accept me, shame about who I am fundamentally as a person. When I’m feeling extremely down, I will often say things like “I’m so shameful” and “I’m such a failure” and I truly hate myself for not being a “good” person deserving of love. I am inherently unworthy and bad and shameful.
Deep down I feel that… I’m just such a freak. I’m broken and weird and people can tell there’s something wrong with me. I don’t fit in and everyone can tell. I don’t really belong anywhere, even amongst people who think they know me best. Nobody really knows me. Maybe I don’t want anyone to know me? I’m very comfortable with myself and my own company, sometimes too stuck in my head.
I have new hobbies every week which I then immediately drop for something more exciting, and the pattern repeats. Mental liberation is more fun than physical liberation. Verbal sparring and intellectual debates are very fun to me.
I’m prone to extreme depressive episodes. I’m always feeling outcast and different. I can be very melancholy and depressed. I hibernate from life when I’m miserable because I can’t stand anything to be infected with sadness... I can’t stand to experience the world when I’m depressed. I rip out diary entries I wrote when I was sad because I don’t want the sadness to be a part of my larger story of life and infect me. I don’t want to remember it. My diary is only allowed to be full of joy. Fully indulging in pain is good though because it purges it. I never bottle up my emotions. I never hide them, not ever. I wear my heart on my sleeve all the time. I’m extremely in touch with my emotions. They’re my compass, my guide, my everything. But sometimes they’re so painful that after they pass I have to erase them from my memory and my diaries.
I’m extremely harsh on myself. “I’m not doing enough, I’m useless, I’m so unloveable because I can’t be like everyone else… but I don’t want to be like everyone else!” sense of inner confusion, push/pull of identity. I can be very security seeking but in denial of it, because I want to be perceived as a free spirit but deep down I need people.
When stressed, I become a workaholic perfectionist, snappy, irritable, hyperfocussed, making quick decisions, working myself into the ground. I have to be impressive. I have to be worth something. I have to be worthy of love, or I don’t deserve to live.
More than anything I want a life full of freedom, creativity and beautiful experiences and people. I want peace. I want to be part of the in crowd. I want to belong to a chosen family who see me for who I am and love me. I want to be worthy of love, full stop.
If you’ve read this far, thank you! Now please evaluate my soul and tell me who I am
2024.05.28 12:05 orbollyorb Nun fatally injured after car 'crossed the white line' and crashed into JCB tractor in Clare
She said: “It was not coming at any speed towards us and as the car hit the tyre of the tractor it bounced back towards the ditch.” Ms Hayes stopped and got out of her own car and said that she saw an unresponsive female in the Picanto car.
Ms Hayes said: “I was talking to the driver and said ‘we are here, don't worry’ but I knew she was gone.” At the time of her death in March 2023, Sr Cecilia was living at Castletroy in Limerick and had served as a nun for 50 years in Australia.
In his deposition, farmer and contractor, Christopher Keane (50) of Bella, Kilkee told how he could see Sr Cecilia’s car “weaving on the road”.
The driver of the JCD tractor said: “I slowed my vehicle and started to mount the ditch.” Mr Keane said that “I was in the ditch as far as I could go but I knew that the car was going to collide with my vehicle”. Mr Keane said before he saw the grey car approaching, he was moving "at a maximum speed of 15km per hour as I was driving on the road".
Sr Keating’s road death is the second fatal accident Mr Keane has been involved in in west Clare. In July 2023 at Ennis Circuit Court, Mr Keane was fined €30,000 after he pleaded guilty to two health and safety breaches connected to the death of ‘very good friend’ and full time farmer, Damien Carmody (36) on January 21st 2021.
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Ms Hayes said: “I was talking to the driver and said ‘we are here, don't worry’ but I knew she was gone.” At the time of her death in March 2023, Sr Cecilia was living at Castletroy in Limerick and had served as a nun for 50 years in Australia.
In his deposition, farmer and contractor, Christopher Keane (50) of Bella, Kilkee told how he could see Sr Cecilia’s car “weaving on the road”.
The driver of the JCD tractor said: “I slowed my vehicle and started to mount the ditch.” Mr Keane said that “I was in the ditch as far as I could go but I knew that the car was going to collide with my vehicle”. Mr Keane said before he saw the grey car approaching, he was moving "at a maximum speed of 15km per hour as I was driving on the road".
Sr Keating’s road death is the second fatal accident Mr Keane has been involved in in west Clare. In July 2023 at Ennis Circuit Court, Mr Keane was fined €30,000 after he pleaded guilty to two health and safety breaches connected to the death of ‘very good friend’ and full time farmer, Damien Carmody (36) on January 21st 2021.
2024.05.28 11:43 mkn19787mkn Top Things You Can Do with the New AI Chatbot: OpenAI GPT-4
 | Artificial Intelligence (AI) has transformed various aspects of our lives, and chatbots have become a significant part of this transformation. The latest development in this field, OpenAI's GPT-4, represents a substantial leap forward in chatbot technology. In this comprehensive article, we will explore the top things you can do with the new AI chatbot, GPT-4. From everyday practical applications to advanced uses in professional settings, GPT-4 offers an impressive array of capabilities. submitted by mkn19787mkn to technolog11 [link] [comments] Introduction to GPT-4GPT-4, short for Generative Pre-trained Transformer 4, is the latest version of OpenAI's language model. It builds upon the success of its predecessors by incorporating more sophisticated algorithms, a larger training dataset, and advanced natural language processing (NLP) techniques. GPT-4 can understand and generate human-like text, making it a powerful tool for various applications.https://preview.redd.it/1g73xhud153d1.png?width=512&format=png&auto=webp&s=524b6aeb91cba01d71ca76e9f98db87b7195083d 1. Personal AssistantOne of the most popular uses of GPT-4 is as a personal assistant. Its ability to understand and respond to natural language queries makes it an excellent tool for managing daily tasks. Here are some ways GPT-4 can assist you personally:A. Scheduling and RemindersGPT-4 can help you manage your schedule by setting reminders, appointments, and deadlines. Simply tell the chatbot what you need to remember, and it will keep track of it for you. For example, you can say, "Remind me to call John at 3 PM tomorrow," and GPT-4 will ensure you don't forget.B. To-Do ListsCreating and managing to-do lists has never been easier. You can ask GPT-4 to add tasks to your list, mark them as complete, or remind you of pending items. This feature helps you stay organized and productive.C. Travel PlanningPlanning a trip can be a hassle, but GPT-4 simplifies the process. It can help you find flights, book hotels, and even suggest itineraries based on your preferences. Just provide the necessary details, and GPT-4 will handle the rest.https://preview.redd.it/8smm4cih153d1.png?width=512&format=png&auto=webp&s=eca188cfa43e60448c2e0b8ffaf04a1af250467b 2. Education and LearningGPT-4 is a valuable resource for students and lifelong learners. Its vast knowledge base and ability to explain complex concepts in simple terms make it an excellent educational tool.A. Homework HelpStudents can use GPT-4 to get assistance with their homework. Whether it's solving math problems, understanding scientific concepts, or writing essays, GPT-4 can provide guidance and explanations to help students grasp the material better.B. Language LearningLearning a new language is challenging, but GPT-4 can make it more manageable. The chatbot can assist with vocabulary, grammar, and pronunciation. You can practice conversations in the target language and receive instant feedback.C. Research AssistanceFor more advanced learners and researchers, GPT-4 can help with gathering information and conducting research. It can provide summaries of academic papers, suggest relevant sources, and even generate research questions based on your area of interest.https://preview.redd.it/aw0kl1nj153d1.png?width=512&format=png&auto=webp&s=cf442775e68fa84eb840c693bb7db36df353a558 3. Professional ApplicationsIn the professional world, GPT-4 offers numerous applications that can enhance productivity and streamline workflows. Here are some key areas where GPT-4 can be beneficial:A. Content CreationContent creators can leverage GPT-4 to generate high-quality written material. Whether you need blog posts, articles, or social media content, GPT-4 can assist in drafting and editing, ensuring your content is engaging and well-written.B. Customer SupportMany businesses use chatbots for customer support, and GPT-4 takes this to the next level. It can handle customer inquiries, provide product information, and even troubleshoot common issues. This reduces the workload on human support agents and improves customer satisfaction.C. Data AnalysisProfessionals dealing with large datasets can use GPT-4 for data analysis. The chatbot can help interpret data, generate reports, and provide insights based on the information provided. This is particularly useful for analysts and data scientists.4. Creative Writing and EntertainmentGPT-4 is not just for practical applications; it also excels in creative writing and entertainment. Here are some fun and creative ways to use the chatbot:https://preview.redd.it/oxbrzlfl153d1.png?width=512&format=png&auto=webp&s=2d8db4b1f6e3ccd41bebad60d72f0b7954f8a5c3 A. StorytellingGPT-4 can be a co-writer for your stories. Whether you're writing a novel, a screenplay, or a short story, the chatbot can help develop plots, create characters, and even write dialogue. Its ability to generate imaginative and coherent text makes it an invaluable tool for writers.B. PoetryFor those who enjoy poetry, GPT-4 can generate poems based on themes, emotions, or specific prompts. You can use it to create original poetry or to find inspiration for your own work.C. Game DevelopmentGame developers can use GPT-4 to create engaging narratives and dialogue for their games. The chatbot can help design quests, develop character backstories, and write in-game text, enhancing the overall gaming experience.5. Health and WellnessGPT-4 can also play a role in improving your health and wellness. Here are some ways the chatbot can assist in this area:A. Mental Health SupportWhile not a substitute for professional therapy, GPT-4 can provide mental health support by offering a listening ear and suggesting coping strategies for stress and anxiety. It can guide mindfulness exercises and provide resources for seeking further help.B. Fitness GuidanceGPT-4 can act as a virtual fitness coach, offering workout plans, exercise tips, and nutritional advice. You can ask for specific exercises, meal plans, or general fitness guidance to help you achieve your health goals.C. Medical InformationFor general medical inquiries, GPT-4 can provide information on symptoms, conditions, and treatments. It can help you understand medical terminology and suggest when it's necessary to consult a healthcare professional.6. Language TranslationGPT-4's advanced language capabilities make it a powerful tool for translation. It can translate text between multiple languages, making it useful for travelers, international business, and multicultural communication.A. Real-Time TranslationYou can use GPT-4 for real-time translation during conversations. Whether you're chatting with someone who speaks a different language or attending a meeting with international colleagues, GPT-4 can help bridge the language gap.B. Document TranslationFor longer texts, such as documents or articles, GPT-4 can provide accurate translations while maintaining the original context and meaning. This is particularly useful for businesses that need to translate content for global audiences.C. Learning New LanguagesAs mentioned earlier, GPT-4 can assist in language learning. By providing translations and explanations, it helps learners understand the nuances of new languages and practice their skills.7. Personal Finance ManagementManaging personal finances can be challenging, but GPT-4 can simplify the process. Here are some ways the chatbot can assist with financial management:A. BudgetingGPT-4 can help you create and stick to a budget. By tracking your income and expenses, it provides insights into your spending habits and suggests ways to save money.B. Investment AdviceFor those interested in investing, GPT-4 can offer basic investment advice and explain different investment options. While it cannot replace a financial advisor, it can provide useful information to help you make informed decisions.C. Expense TrackingYou can use GPT-4 to track your expenses and categorize them. This helps you understand where your money is going and identify areas where you can cut costs.8. Social Interaction and EntertainmentGPT-4 can enhance your social life and entertainment experiences in various ways. Here are some fun and engaging uses:A. Virtual CompanionshipFor those feeling lonely or in need of conversation, GPT-4 can act as a virtual companion. It can engage in meaningful conversations, share interesting facts, and even tell jokes to keep you entertained.B. Trivia and GamesGPT-4 can host trivia games and quizzes on a wide range of topics. You can challenge your knowledge and have fun with friends or family by playing these interactive games.C. Movie and Book RecommendationsIf you're looking for something to watch or read, GPT-4 can provide personalized recommendations based on your preferences. Whether you're in the mood for a thriller, a romance, or a documentary, the chatbot can suggest options that match your interests.9. Advanced Customization and DevelopmentFor developers and tech enthusiasts, GPT-4 offers advanced customization and integration options. Here are some ways to leverage its capabilities:A. API IntegrationDevelopers can integrate GPT-4 into their applications using the API provided by OpenAI. This allows for seamless incorporation of natural language processing capabilities into various software and platforms.B. Custom TrainingWhile GPT-4 is already highly capable, developers can fine-tune the model for specific applications by providing custom training data. This enhances the chatbot's performance in specialized domains, such as legal, medical, or technical fields.C. AutomationGPT-4 can be used to automate repetitive tasks and processes. By integrating the chatbot with other tools and systems, businesses can streamline workflows and improve efficiency.10. Ethical Considerations and Responsible UseAs with any advanced technology, it's essential to consider ethical implications and ensure responsible use of GPT-4. Here are some key points to keep in mind:A. Bias and FairnessAI models like GPT-4 can inadvertently perpetuate biases present in the training data. It's crucial to be aware of this issue and take steps to mitigate bias, ensuring fair and equitable treatment for all users.B. Privacy and SecurityWhen using GPT-4 for sensitive applications, such as personal finance or health information, it's important to prioritize privacy and security. Ensure that data is handled securely and that users' privacy is protected.C. TransparencyBeing transparent about the capabilities and limitations of GPT-4 helps set realistic expectations. Users should understand that while the chatbot is highly advanced, it is not infallible and may occasionally produce incorrector misleading information. ConclusionOpenAI's GPT-4 represents a significant advancement in AI chatbot technology, offering a wide range of applications that enhance productivity, creativity, and everyday life. From acting as a personal assistant to providing educational support, from aiding in professional tasks to offering entertainment and companionship, GPT-4 is a versatile tool with immense potential.As we continue to explore and utilize this powerful technology, it's essential to approach it with a sense of responsibility and awareness of its ethical implications. By doing so, we can harness the full potential of GPT-4 to improve our lives while ensuring that it is used fairly and ethically. |
2024.05.28 10:50 Bea-N-Art Happy Birthday Kotias - Bean
 | A poem dedicated to the always impressive kotias. Have a lovely fun filled birthday! You do so much for our community, you arE a rarity, a guardian of the writers, organiser of goblins, supporter of artists, a smut peddler and a lovely friend. submitted by Bea-N-Art to GoodOmensAfterDark [link] [comments] ❤️ |
2024.05.28 09:27 voixdelion Where to ask for help finding info on an unknown poem via excerpt?
Full text of an old (negro?) poem maybe called "Glad" excerpt
I know it only from how it was recited by my Chinese grandmother, which maybe added a bit of additional flavor to the seemingly southern negro/Song of the South/Uncle Remus-like dialect with her own Cantonese accent coming into play on top of that, so try and understand what I was working with to get this transcribed from memory myself 😆 I lnow it only from her oral retelling, from memory, and I did write it down once, somewhere I can no longer find, but its about a duck who is happy and doesn't feel the need to have a reason why.
Here's what I recall of it, (capital emphasis hers, as I hear her recitation in my head whenever it comes to mind. and specifically the word "striped" pronounced in two syllables with a t in the middle, as she made it clear in her correcting my more academically proper rendering to fit the accented jargon)
Don't ask ME,
ask the robin up the tree,
What make HIM so joyful like,
his feet all full of dance?
He ain't got no new straw hat,
no strip-ted Sunday pants.
No more than me...
You think I'M gonna mope around,
while he's all Halleluia
about the bug and worm he found?
What I feel so good about?
How's I gonna tell?
You think the rose blossom know where it get its smell?
It doesn't shut itself up,"
(there's probably I line I can't remember goes here)
"How you expect me then,
to hold the laugh inside of me,
and keep MY foot still?
When the bee pick the banjo
and the grass it tickles my feet,
and the bright and golden sun
shines down like laugh of His?
I'm just naturally a happy ducky.
I's happy CASE I IS!"
The crux of it was always the finale, which she would deliver with particular satisfaction , with hands on hips, chest held high, and a final nod of the head for emphasis, punctuating each of the last three words with slight pause between them. (and 'case' being pronounced as written like meaning a box or container, which may have been her oral interpretation of an abbreviated 'because' in writing, or may have been how it was spoken to her, I will never know, but it never rhymed with "was" which is how I would have said it)
It is the essence of everything she was. And I daresay, not a bad way to be. When she passed, at 91 or 92 years old, there was a full house of mourners of all ages and creeds, and nary a dry eye among them. Most folks who live that long have smaller turnouts just because they have outlived a lot of those who knew them. She kept making new friends all the time till the end.
If anyone can help me learn the source of this piece, I would love to know where it came from and if I am missing any pieces of it through holes in my memory ...
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I know it only from how it was recited by my Chinese grandmother, which maybe added a bit of additional flavor to the seemingly southern negro/Song of the South/Uncle Remus-like dialect with her own Cantonese accent coming into play on top of that, so try and understand what I was working with to get this transcribed from memory myself 😆 I lnow it only from her oral retelling, from memory, and I did write it down once, somewhere I can no longer find, but its about a duck who is happy and doesn't feel the need to have a reason why.
Here's what I recall of it, (capital emphasis hers, as I hear her recitation in my head whenever it comes to mind. and specifically the word "striped" pronounced in two syllables with a t in the middle, as she made it clear in her correcting my more academically proper rendering to fit the accented jargon)
-Glad-"What feel so good about?
Don't ask ME,
ask the robin up the tree,
What make HIM so joyful like,
his feet all full of dance?
He ain't got no new straw hat,
no strip-ted Sunday pants.
No more than me...
You think I'M gonna mope around,
while he's all Halleluia
about the bug and worm he found?
What I feel so good about?
How's I gonna tell?
You think the rose blossom know where it get its smell?
It doesn't shut itself up,"
(there's probably I line I can't remember goes here)
"How you expect me then,
to hold the laugh inside of me,
and keep MY foot still?
When the bee pick the banjo
and the grass it tickles my feet,
and the bright and golden sun
shines down like laugh of His?
I'm just naturally a happy ducky.
I's happy CASE I IS!"
The crux of it was always the finale, which she would deliver with particular satisfaction , with hands on hips, chest held high, and a final nod of the head for emphasis, punctuating each of the last three words with slight pause between them. (and 'case' being pronounced as written like meaning a box or container, which may have been her oral interpretation of an abbreviated 'because' in writing, or may have been how it was spoken to her, I will never know, but it never rhymed with "was" which is how I would have said it)
It is the essence of everything she was. And I daresay, not a bad way to be. When she passed, at 91 or 92 years old, there was a full house of mourners of all ages and creeds, and nary a dry eye among them. Most folks who live that long have smaller turnouts just because they have outlived a lot of those who knew them. She kept making new friends all the time till the end.
If anyone can help me learn the source of this piece, I would love to know where it came from and if I am missing any pieces of it through holes in my memory ...
2024.05.28 09:03 BlockWinter8423 Where is the gpt 4 option???
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2024.05.28 08:40 Comprehensive5432 What should i do in my life, this is hard the past 5 months
Hey guys 5 months ago i had my first panic attacks while on lexapro dealt with debilitating fatigue, many panic attacks over time. I weaned off, fatigue slowly went away but i would get crashes everyday that were horrible and scary feeling at times like hypotension or something that made me want to lay down.
During these last 5 months i spent a lot of time trying to get into a relationship as it felt like one of the only things i could do to improve myself and help myself, because i haven’t been able to get a job or do school like normal. i got into a relationship that was mainly over the phone with someone from tinder, met twice in person but talked everyday for a month. Never had we done anything the second time we hung out we cuddled than after age broke up with me. We were friends for a bit but eventually i said something rude and she blocked me. I was sad but got over it.
Later on like months later im just doing my thing hanging out with my buddy as often as i can who is like my only friend really i hangout with anymore and i play video games and thats my life but i still tried to get into a relationship on dating apps.
Eventually one girls matches with me on bumble shes obsessed with me and pushes me to hangout with her, i start hanging out with her and lose my virginity to her, im also able to ejaculate for the first time in my life because theres something wrong with me and im not that sensitive but basically me and this girl go through a lot within a month and we do it a million times but theres times where we go to the ER for my panic attacks, possibly caused by addisons disease who knows but shes still obsessed with me right until later she breaks up with me over the phone while she goes to visit family friends to her, one of which is her ex, and shes been doing this every weekend.
Its an hour away she breaks up with me at 1 am. Turns out shes “in love with him” still and she was confused being in a relationship with me, she’d tried covering up that fact but later admitted. I treated her good and didn’t deserve that bla bla bla. I wrote her a poem she left at her house cus she hasnt been home but has been with that guy. Also this dudes basically homeless and a major downgrade from me in many ways. She messages me everyday for some lame reason calls me bestie today and fucks with me with her friends and the guy calling me gay. I explain to her that its fucked and context matters, she acts like she has no reason to talk to me then and i agree if she wants to fuck with me than we should be talking. I’ve been very respectful but have my limits, i told that guy i’d bitch slap him also.
Anyways she blocked me temporarily until friday so i can get my stuff from her house. Or she removed me as a friend on snap but i got her on other stuff still.
Anyways i’ve obviously felt like shit and been sad i didn’t even know i loved her as much as i did until i lost her, she still hasnt read my poem, she hasnt been home.
My question: how do i deal with myself i feel like i have derealization my mindset bad now from being debilitated for months even tho i feel like im starting to get slightly better, im still afraid to have a job and improve myself. Trying to find a another relationship feels stupid now and i keep crying over her. So all and all i dont know what to do, also i think about how everything pintless because of ai and shit and i just want to be in a normal mindset and be out of my grandmas trailer where ive been for years, im 19 btw. And everything feels fucked, i ask myself “what now” i’ve done so much and dont know if things are gonna ever get where i want because each years becomes worse than the last sense covid happened in 2020.
If i havent expressed the severity of my situation i wouldnt be writing this if it wasnt absolutely an uncomfortable world to be in right now. Like its been aweful, had a bad mental breakdown yesterday, girlfriend broke up like 5 days ago. I just dont know what to do, life was already difficult while were together now that just made the few things i enjoy feel almost pointless. I cant stop thinking about her, waking up in the morning coming to the realization of this is the hardest. Trust me i do absolutely everything to get better. I feel like lonely, scared, uncertain, and demotivated about life and what should i do guys, like i feel im doing better than i should but its still just like aweful.
Say whatever you want guys, like i just need help with this, like will this actually get better, how? Why? Love you people so much like you have no idea.
D
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During these last 5 months i spent a lot of time trying to get into a relationship as it felt like one of the only things i could do to improve myself and help myself, because i haven’t been able to get a job or do school like normal. i got into a relationship that was mainly over the phone with someone from tinder, met twice in person but talked everyday for a month. Never had we done anything the second time we hung out we cuddled than after age broke up with me. We were friends for a bit but eventually i said something rude and she blocked me. I was sad but got over it.
Later on like months later im just doing my thing hanging out with my buddy as often as i can who is like my only friend really i hangout with anymore and i play video games and thats my life but i still tried to get into a relationship on dating apps.
Eventually one girls matches with me on bumble shes obsessed with me and pushes me to hangout with her, i start hanging out with her and lose my virginity to her, im also able to ejaculate for the first time in my life because theres something wrong with me and im not that sensitive but basically me and this girl go through a lot within a month and we do it a million times but theres times where we go to the ER for my panic attacks, possibly caused by addisons disease who knows but shes still obsessed with me right until later she breaks up with me over the phone while she goes to visit family friends to her, one of which is her ex, and shes been doing this every weekend.
Its an hour away she breaks up with me at 1 am. Turns out shes “in love with him” still and she was confused being in a relationship with me, she’d tried covering up that fact but later admitted. I treated her good and didn’t deserve that bla bla bla. I wrote her a poem she left at her house cus she hasnt been home but has been with that guy. Also this dudes basically homeless and a major downgrade from me in many ways. She messages me everyday for some lame reason calls me bestie today and fucks with me with her friends and the guy calling me gay. I explain to her that its fucked and context matters, she acts like she has no reason to talk to me then and i agree if she wants to fuck with me than we should be talking. I’ve been very respectful but have my limits, i told that guy i’d bitch slap him also.
Anyways she blocked me temporarily until friday so i can get my stuff from her house. Or she removed me as a friend on snap but i got her on other stuff still.
Anyways i’ve obviously felt like shit and been sad i didn’t even know i loved her as much as i did until i lost her, she still hasnt read my poem, she hasnt been home.
My question: how do i deal with myself i feel like i have derealization my mindset bad now from being debilitated for months even tho i feel like im starting to get slightly better, im still afraid to have a job and improve myself. Trying to find a another relationship feels stupid now and i keep crying over her. So all and all i dont know what to do, also i think about how everything pintless because of ai and shit and i just want to be in a normal mindset and be out of my grandmas trailer where ive been for years, im 19 btw. And everything feels fucked, i ask myself “what now” i’ve done so much and dont know if things are gonna ever get where i want because each years becomes worse than the last sense covid happened in 2020.
If i havent expressed the severity of my situation i wouldnt be writing this if it wasnt absolutely an uncomfortable world to be in right now. Like its been aweful, had a bad mental breakdown yesterday, girlfriend broke up like 5 days ago. I just dont know what to do, life was already difficult while were together now that just made the few things i enjoy feel almost pointless. I cant stop thinking about her, waking up in the morning coming to the realization of this is the hardest. Trust me i do absolutely everything to get better. I feel like lonely, scared, uncertain, and demotivated about life and what should i do guys, like i feel im doing better than i should but its still just like aweful.
Say whatever you want guys, like i just need help with this, like will this actually get better, how? Why? Love you people so much like you have no idea.
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2024.05.28 08:39 Comprehensive5432 My life the past 5 months, horrible
Hey guys 5 months ago i had my first panic attacks while on lexapro dealt with debilitating fatigue, many panic attacks over time. I weaned off, fatigue slowly went away but i would get crashes everyday that were horrible and scary feeling at times like hypotension or something that made me want to lay down.
During these last 5 months i spent a lot of time trying to get into a relationship as it felt like one of the only things i could do to improve myself and help myself, because i haven’t been able to get a job or do school like normal. i got into a relationship that was mainly over the phone with someone from tinder, met twice in person but talked everyday for a month. Never had we done anything the second time we hung out we cuddled than after age broke up with me. We were friends for a bit but eventually i said something rude and she blocked me. I was sad but got over it.
Later on like months later im just doing my thing hanging out with my buddy as often as i can who is like my only friend really i hangout with anymore and i play video games and thats my life but i still tried to get into a relationship on dating apps.
Eventually one girls matches with me on bumble shes obsessed with me and pushes me to hangout with her, i start hanging out with her and lose my virginity to her, im also able to ejaculate for the first time in my life because theres something wrong with me and im not that sensitive but basically me and this girl go through a lot within a month and we do it a million times but theres times where we go to the ER for my panic attacks, possibly caused by addisons disease who knows but shes still obsessed with me right until later she breaks up with me over the phone while she goes to visit family friends to her, one of which is her ex, and shes been doing this every weekend.
Its an hour away she breaks up with me at 1 am. Turns out shes “in love with him” still and she was confused being in a relationship with me, she’d tried covering up that fact but later admitted. I treated her good and didn’t deserve that bla bla bla. I wrote her a poem she left at her house cus she hasnt been home but has been with that guy. Also this dudes basically homeless and a major downgrade from me in many ways. She messages me everyday for some lame reason calls me bestie today and fucks with me with her friends and the guy calling me gay. I explain to her that its fucked and context matters, she acts like she has no reason to talk to me then and i agree if she wants to fuck with me than we should be talking. I’ve been very respectful but have my limits, i told that guy i’d bitch slap him also.
Anyways she blocked me temporarily until friday so i can get my stuff from her house. Or she removed me as a friend on snap but i got her on other stuff still.
Anyways i’ve obviously felt like shit and been sad i didn’t even know i loved her as much as i did until i lost her, she still hasnt read my poem, she hasnt been home.
My question: how do i deal with myself i feel like i have derealization my mindset bad now from being debilitated for months even tho i feel like im starting to get slightly better, im still afraid to have a job and improve myself. Trying to find a another relationship feels stupid now and i keep crying over her. So all and all i dont know what to do, also i think about how everything pintless because of ai and shit and i just want to be in a normal mindset and be out of my grandmas trailer where ive been for years, im 19 btw. And everything feels fucked, i ask myself “what now” i’ve done so much and dont know if things are gonna ever get where i want because each years becomes worse than the last sense covid happened in 2020.
If i havent expressed the severity of my situation i wouldnt be writing this if it wasnt absolutely an uncomfortable world to be in right now. Like its been aweful, had a bad mental breakdown yesterday, girlfriend broke up like 5 days ago. I just dont know what to do, life was already difficult while were together now that just made the few things i enjoy feel almost pointless. I cant stop thinking about her, waking up in the morning coming to the realization of this is the hardest. Trust me i do absolutely everything to get better. I feel like lonely, scared, uncertain, and demotivated about life and what should i do guys, like i feel im doing better than i should but its still just like aweful.
Say whatever you want guys, like i just need help with this, like will this actually get better, how? Why? Love you people so much like you have no idea.
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During these last 5 months i spent a lot of time trying to get into a relationship as it felt like one of the only things i could do to improve myself and help myself, because i haven’t been able to get a job or do school like normal. i got into a relationship that was mainly over the phone with someone from tinder, met twice in person but talked everyday for a month. Never had we done anything the second time we hung out we cuddled than after age broke up with me. We were friends for a bit but eventually i said something rude and she blocked me. I was sad but got over it.
Later on like months later im just doing my thing hanging out with my buddy as often as i can who is like my only friend really i hangout with anymore and i play video games and thats my life but i still tried to get into a relationship on dating apps.
Eventually one girls matches with me on bumble shes obsessed with me and pushes me to hangout with her, i start hanging out with her and lose my virginity to her, im also able to ejaculate for the first time in my life because theres something wrong with me and im not that sensitive but basically me and this girl go through a lot within a month and we do it a million times but theres times where we go to the ER for my panic attacks, possibly caused by addisons disease who knows but shes still obsessed with me right until later she breaks up with me over the phone while she goes to visit family friends to her, one of which is her ex, and shes been doing this every weekend.
Its an hour away she breaks up with me at 1 am. Turns out shes “in love with him” still and she was confused being in a relationship with me, she’d tried covering up that fact but later admitted. I treated her good and didn’t deserve that bla bla bla. I wrote her a poem she left at her house cus she hasnt been home but has been with that guy. Also this dudes basically homeless and a major downgrade from me in many ways. She messages me everyday for some lame reason calls me bestie today and fucks with me with her friends and the guy calling me gay. I explain to her that its fucked and context matters, she acts like she has no reason to talk to me then and i agree if she wants to fuck with me than we should be talking. I’ve been very respectful but have my limits, i told that guy i’d bitch slap him also.
Anyways she blocked me temporarily until friday so i can get my stuff from her house. Or she removed me as a friend on snap but i got her on other stuff still.
Anyways i’ve obviously felt like shit and been sad i didn’t even know i loved her as much as i did until i lost her, she still hasnt read my poem, she hasnt been home.
My question: how do i deal with myself i feel like i have derealization my mindset bad now from being debilitated for months even tho i feel like im starting to get slightly better, im still afraid to have a job and improve myself. Trying to find a another relationship feels stupid now and i keep crying over her. So all and all i dont know what to do, also i think about how everything pintless because of ai and shit and i just want to be in a normal mindset and be out of my grandmas trailer where ive been for years, im 19 btw. And everything feels fucked, i ask myself “what now” i’ve done so much and dont know if things are gonna ever get where i want because each years becomes worse than the last sense covid happened in 2020.
If i havent expressed the severity of my situation i wouldnt be writing this if it wasnt absolutely an uncomfortable world to be in right now. Like its been aweful, had a bad mental breakdown yesterday, girlfriend broke up like 5 days ago. I just dont know what to do, life was already difficult while were together now that just made the few things i enjoy feel almost pointless. I cant stop thinking about her, waking up in the morning coming to the realization of this is the hardest. Trust me i do absolutely everything to get better. I feel like lonely, scared, uncertain, and demotivated about life and what should i do guys, like i feel im doing better than i should but its still just like aweful.
Say whatever you want guys, like i just need help with this, like will this actually get better, how? Why? Love you people so much like you have no idea.
2024.05.28 08:38 Comprehensive5432 My life the past 5 months horrible
Hey guys 5 months ago i had my first panic attacks while on lexapro dealt with debilitating fatigue, many panic attacks over time. I weaned off, fatigue slowly went away but i would get crashes everyday that were horrible and scary feeling at times like hypotension or something that made me want to lay down.
During these last 5 months i spent a lot of time trying to get into a relationship as it felt like one of the only things i could do to improve myself and help myself, because i haven’t been able to get a job or do school like normal. i got into a relationship that was mainly over the phone with someone from tinder, met twice in person but talked everyday for a month. Never had we done anything the second time we hung out we cuddled than after age broke up with me. We were friends for a bit but eventually i said something rude and she blocked me. I was sad but got over it.
Later on like months later im just doing my thing hanging out with my buddy as often as i can who is like my only friend really i hangout with anymore and i play video games and thats my life but i still tried to get into a relationship on dating apps.
Eventually one girls matches with me on bumble shes obsessed with me and pushes me to hangout with her, i start hanging out with her and lose my virginity to her, im also able to ejaculate for the first time in my life because theres something wrong with me and im not that sensitive but basically me and this girl go through a lot within a month and we do it a million times but theres times where we go to the ER for my panic attacks, possibly caused by addisons disease who knows but shes still obsessed with me right until later she breaks up with me over the phone while she goes to visit family friends to her, one of which is her ex, and shes been doing this every weekend.
Its an hour away she breaks up with me at 1 am. Turns out shes “in love with him” still and she was confused being in a relationship with me, she’d tried covering up that fact but later admitted. I treated her good and didn’t deserve that bla bla bla. I wrote her a poem she left at her house cus she hasnt been home but has been with that guy. Also this dudes basically homeless and a major downgrade from me in many ways. She messages me everyday for some lame reason calls me bestie today and fucks with me with her friends and the guy calling me gay. I explain to her that its fucked and context matters, she acts like she has no reason to talk to me then and i agree if she wants to fuck with me than we should be talking. I’ve been very respectful but have my limits, i told that guy i’d bitch slap him also.
Anyways she blocked me temporarily until friday so i can get my stuff from her house. Or she removed me as a friend on snap but i got her on other stuff still.
Anyways i’ve obviously felt like shit and been sad i didn’t even know i loved her as much as i did until i lost her, she still hasnt read my poem, she hasnt been home.
My question: how do i deal with myself i feel like i have derealization my mindset bad now from being debilitated for months even tho i feel like im starting to get slightly better, im still afraid to have a job and improve myself. Trying to find a another relationship feels stupid now and i keep crying over her. So all and all i dont know what to do, also i think about how everything pintless because of ai and shit and i just want to be in a normal mindset and be out of my grandmas trailer where ive been for years, im 19 btw. And everything feels fucked, i ask myself “what now” i’ve done so much and dont know if things are gonna ever get where i want because each years becomes worse than the last sense covid happened in 2020.
If i havent expressed the severity of my situation i wouldnt be writing this if it wasnt absolutely an uncomfortable world to be in right now. Like its been aweful, had a bad mental breakdown yesterday, girlfriend broke up like 5 days ago. I just dont know what to do, life was already difficult while were together now that just made the few things i enjoy feel almost pointless. I cant stop thinking about her, waking up in the morning coming to the realization of this is the hardest. Trust me i do absolutely everything to get better. I feel like lonely, scared, uncertain, and demotivated about life and what should i do guys, like i feel im doing better than i should but its still just like aweful.
Say whatever you want guys, like i just need help with this, like will this actually get better, how? Why? Love you people so much like you have no idea.
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During these last 5 months i spent a lot of time trying to get into a relationship as it felt like one of the only things i could do to improve myself and help myself, because i haven’t been able to get a job or do school like normal. i got into a relationship that was mainly over the phone with someone from tinder, met twice in person but talked everyday for a month. Never had we done anything the second time we hung out we cuddled than after age broke up with me. We were friends for a bit but eventually i said something rude and she blocked me. I was sad but got over it.
Later on like months later im just doing my thing hanging out with my buddy as often as i can who is like my only friend really i hangout with anymore and i play video games and thats my life but i still tried to get into a relationship on dating apps.
Eventually one girls matches with me on bumble shes obsessed with me and pushes me to hangout with her, i start hanging out with her and lose my virginity to her, im also able to ejaculate for the first time in my life because theres something wrong with me and im not that sensitive but basically me and this girl go through a lot within a month and we do it a million times but theres times where we go to the ER for my panic attacks, possibly caused by addisons disease who knows but shes still obsessed with me right until later she breaks up with me over the phone while she goes to visit family friends to her, one of which is her ex, and shes been doing this every weekend.
Its an hour away she breaks up with me at 1 am. Turns out shes “in love with him” still and she was confused being in a relationship with me, she’d tried covering up that fact but later admitted. I treated her good and didn’t deserve that bla bla bla. I wrote her a poem she left at her house cus she hasnt been home but has been with that guy. Also this dudes basically homeless and a major downgrade from me in many ways. She messages me everyday for some lame reason calls me bestie today and fucks with me with her friends and the guy calling me gay. I explain to her that its fucked and context matters, she acts like she has no reason to talk to me then and i agree if she wants to fuck with me than we should be talking. I’ve been very respectful but have my limits, i told that guy i’d bitch slap him also.
Anyways she blocked me temporarily until friday so i can get my stuff from her house. Or she removed me as a friend on snap but i got her on other stuff still.
Anyways i’ve obviously felt like shit and been sad i didn’t even know i loved her as much as i did until i lost her, she still hasnt read my poem, she hasnt been home.
My question: how do i deal with myself i feel like i have derealization my mindset bad now from being debilitated for months even tho i feel like im starting to get slightly better, im still afraid to have a job and improve myself. Trying to find a another relationship feels stupid now and i keep crying over her. So all and all i dont know what to do, also i think about how everything pintless because of ai and shit and i just want to be in a normal mindset and be out of my grandmas trailer where ive been for years, im 19 btw. And everything feels fucked, i ask myself “what now” i’ve done so much and dont know if things are gonna ever get where i want because each years becomes worse than the last sense covid happened in 2020.
If i havent expressed the severity of my situation i wouldnt be writing this if it wasnt absolutely an uncomfortable world to be in right now. Like its been aweful, had a bad mental breakdown yesterday, girlfriend broke up like 5 days ago. I just dont know what to do, life was already difficult while were together now that just made the few things i enjoy feel almost pointless. I cant stop thinking about her, waking up in the morning coming to the realization of this is the hardest. Trust me i do absolutely everything to get better. I feel like lonely, scared, uncertain, and demotivated about life and what should i do guys, like i feel im doing better than i should but its still just like aweful.
Say whatever you want guys, like i just need help with this, like will this actually get better, how? Why? Love you people so much like you have no idea.
2024.05.28 08:37 Comprehensive5432 19 M, 19 F what should i do?
Hey guys 5 months ago i had my first panic attacks while on lexapro dealt with debilitating fatigue, many panic attacks over time. I weaned off, fatigue slowly went away but i would get crashes everyday that were horrible and scary feeling at times like hypotension or something that made me want to lay down.
During these last 5 months i spent a lot of time trying to get into a relationship as it felt like one of the only things i could do to improve myself and help myself, because i haven’t been able to get a job or do school like normal. i got into a relationship that was mainly over the phone with someone from tinder, met twice in person but talked everyday for a month. Never had we done anything the second time we hung out we cuddled than after age broke up with me. We were friends for a bit but eventually i said something rude and she blocked me. I was sad but got over it.
Later on like months later im just doing my thing hanging out with my buddy as often as i can who is like my only friend really i hangout with anymore and i play video games and thats my life but i still tried to get into a relationship on dating apps.
Eventually one girls matches with me on bumble shes obsessed with me and pushes me to hangout with her, i start hanging out with her and lose my virginity to her, im also able to ejaculate for the first time in my life because theres something wrong with me and im not that sensitive but basically me and this girl go through a lot within a month and we do it a million times but theres times where we go to the ER for my panic attacks, possibly caused by addisons disease who knows but shes still obsessed with me right until later she breaks up with me over the phone while she goes to visit family friends to her, one of which is her ex, and shes been doing this every weekend.
Its an hour away she breaks up with me at 1 am. Turns out shes “in love with him” still and she was confused being in a relationship with me, she’d tried covering up that fact but later admitted. I treated her good and didn’t deserve that bla bla bla. I wrote her a poem she left at her house cus she hasnt been home but has been with that guy. Also this dudes basically homeless and a major downgrade from me in many ways. She messages me everyday for some lame reason calls me bestie today and fucks with me with her friends and the guy calling me gay. I explain to her that its fucked and context matters, she acts like she has no reason to talk to me then and i agree if she wants to fuck with me than we should be talking. I’ve been very respectful but have my limits, i told that guy i’d bitch slap him also.
Anyways she blocked me temporarily until friday so i can get my stuff from her house. Or she removed me as a friend on snap but i got her on other stuff still.
Anyways i’ve obviously felt like shit and been sad i didn’t even know i loved her as much as i did until i lost her, she still hasnt read my poem, she hasnt been home.
My question: how do i deal with myself i feel like i have derealization my mindset bad now from being debilitated for months even tho i feel like im starting to get slightly better, im still afraid to have a job and improve myself. Trying to find a another relationship feels stupid now and i keep crying over her. So all and all i dont know what to do, also i think about how everything pintless because of ai and shit and i just want to be in a normal mindset and be out of my grandmas trailer where ive been for years, im 19 btw. And everything feels fucked, i ask myself “what now” i’ve done so much and dont know if things are gonna ever get where i want because each years becomes worse than the last sense covid happened in 2020.
If i havent expressed the severity of my situation i wouldnt be writing this if it wasnt absolutely an uncomfortable world to be in right now. Like its been aweful, had a bad mental breakdown yesterday, girlfriend broke up like 5 days ago. I just dont know what to do, life was already difficult while were together now that just made the few things i enjoy feel almost pointless. I cant stop thinking about her, waking up in the morning coming to the realization of this is the hardest. Trust me i do absolutely everything to get better. I feel like lonely, scared, uncertain, and demotivated about life and what should i do guys, like i feel im doing better than i should but its still just like aweful.
Say whatever you want guys, like i just need help with this, like will this actually get better, how? Why? Love you people so much like you have no idea.
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During these last 5 months i spent a lot of time trying to get into a relationship as it felt like one of the only things i could do to improve myself and help myself, because i haven’t been able to get a job or do school like normal. i got into a relationship that was mainly over the phone with someone from tinder, met twice in person but talked everyday for a month. Never had we done anything the second time we hung out we cuddled than after age broke up with me. We were friends for a bit but eventually i said something rude and she blocked me. I was sad but got over it.
Later on like months later im just doing my thing hanging out with my buddy as often as i can who is like my only friend really i hangout with anymore and i play video games and thats my life but i still tried to get into a relationship on dating apps.
Eventually one girls matches with me on bumble shes obsessed with me and pushes me to hangout with her, i start hanging out with her and lose my virginity to her, im also able to ejaculate for the first time in my life because theres something wrong with me and im not that sensitive but basically me and this girl go through a lot within a month and we do it a million times but theres times where we go to the ER for my panic attacks, possibly caused by addisons disease who knows but shes still obsessed with me right until later she breaks up with me over the phone while she goes to visit family friends to her, one of which is her ex, and shes been doing this every weekend.
Its an hour away she breaks up with me at 1 am. Turns out shes “in love with him” still and she was confused being in a relationship with me, she’d tried covering up that fact but later admitted. I treated her good and didn’t deserve that bla bla bla. I wrote her a poem she left at her house cus she hasnt been home but has been with that guy. Also this dudes basically homeless and a major downgrade from me in many ways. She messages me everyday for some lame reason calls me bestie today and fucks with me with her friends and the guy calling me gay. I explain to her that its fucked and context matters, she acts like she has no reason to talk to me then and i agree if she wants to fuck with me than we should be talking. I’ve been very respectful but have my limits, i told that guy i’d bitch slap him also.
Anyways she blocked me temporarily until friday so i can get my stuff from her house. Or she removed me as a friend on snap but i got her on other stuff still.
Anyways i’ve obviously felt like shit and been sad i didn’t even know i loved her as much as i did until i lost her, she still hasnt read my poem, she hasnt been home.
My question: how do i deal with myself i feel like i have derealization my mindset bad now from being debilitated for months even tho i feel like im starting to get slightly better, im still afraid to have a job and improve myself. Trying to find a another relationship feels stupid now and i keep crying over her. So all and all i dont know what to do, also i think about how everything pintless because of ai and shit and i just want to be in a normal mindset and be out of my grandmas trailer where ive been for years, im 19 btw. And everything feels fucked, i ask myself “what now” i’ve done so much and dont know if things are gonna ever get where i want because each years becomes worse than the last sense covid happened in 2020.
If i havent expressed the severity of my situation i wouldnt be writing this if it wasnt absolutely an uncomfortable world to be in right now. Like its been aweful, had a bad mental breakdown yesterday, girlfriend broke up like 5 days ago. I just dont know what to do, life was already difficult while were together now that just made the few things i enjoy feel almost pointless. I cant stop thinking about her, waking up in the morning coming to the realization of this is the hardest. Trust me i do absolutely everything to get better. I feel like lonely, scared, uncertain, and demotivated about life and what should i do guys, like i feel im doing better than i should but its still just like aweful.
Say whatever you want guys, like i just need help with this, like will this actually get better, how? Why? Love you people so much like you have no idea.
2024.05.28 08:36 Comprehensive5432 My lifes been unbearable for five months (please help)
Hey guys 5 months ago i had my first panic attacks while on lexapro dealt with debilitating fatigue, many panic attacks over time. I weaned off, fatigue slowly went away but i would get crashes everyday that were horrible and scary feeling at times like hypotension or something that made me want to lay down.
During these last 5 months i spent a lot of time trying to get into a relationship as it felt like one of the only things i could do to improve myself and help myself, because i haven’t been able to get a job or do school like normal. i got into a relationship that was mainly over the phone with someone from tinder, met twice in person but talked everyday for a month. Never had we done anything the second time we hung out we cuddled than after age broke up with me. We were friends for a bit but eventually i said something rude and she blocked me. I was sad but got over it.
Later on like months later im just doing my thing hanging out with my buddy as often as i can who is like my only friend really i hangout with anymore and i play video games and thats my life but i still tried to get into a relationship on dating apps.
Eventually one girls matches with me on bumble shes obsessed with me and pushes me to hangout with her, i start hanging out with her and lose my virginity to her, im also able to ejaculate for the first time in my life because theres something wrong with me and im not that sensitive but basically me and this girl go through a lot within a month and we do it a million times but theres times where we go to the ER for my panic attacks, possibly caused by addisons disease who knows but shes still obsessed with me right until later she breaks up with me over the phone while she goes to visit family friends to her, one of which is her ex, and shes been doing this every weekend.
Its an hour away she breaks up with me at 1 am. Turns out shes “in love with him” still and she was confused being in a relationship with me, she’d tried covering up that fact but later admitted. I treated her good and didn’t deserve that bla bla bla. I wrote her a poem she left at her house cus she hasnt been home but has been with that guy. Also this dudes basically homeless and a major downgrade from me in many ways. She messages me everyday for some lame reason calls me bestie today and fucks with me with her friends and the guy calling me gay. I explain to her that its fucked and context matters, she acts like she has no reason to talk to me then and i agree if she wants to fuck with me than we should be talking. I’ve been very respectful but have my limits, i told that guy i’d bitch slap him also.
Anyways she blocked me temporarily until friday so i can get my stuff from her house. Or she removed me as a friend on snap but i got her on other stuff still.
Anyways i’ve obviously felt like shit and been sad i didn’t even know i loved her as much as i did until i lost her, she still hasnt read my poem, she hasnt been home.
My question: how do i deal with myself i feel like i have derealization my mindset bad now from being debilitated for months even tho i feel like im starting to get slightly better, im still afraid to have a job and improve myself. Trying to find a another relationship feels stupid now and i keep crying over her. So all and all i dont know what to do, also i think about how everything pintless because of ai and shit and i just want to be in a normal mindset and be out of my grandmas trailer where ive been for years, im 19 btw. And everything feels fucked, i ask myself “what now” i’ve done so much and dont know if things are gonna ever get where i want because each years becomes worse than the last sense covid happened in 2020.
If i havent expressed the severity of my situation i wouldnt be writing this if it wasnt absolutely an uncomfortable world to be in right now. Like its been aweful, had a bad mental breakdown yesterday, girlfriend broke up like 5 days ago. I just dont know what to do, life was already difficult while were together now that just made the few things i enjoy feel almost pointless. I cant stop thinking about her, waking up in the morning coming to the realization of this is the hardest. Trust me i do absolutely everything to get better. I feel like lonely, scared, uncertain, and demotivated about life and what should i do guys, like i feel im doing better than i should but its still just like aweful.
Say whatever you want guys, like i just need help with this, like will this actually get better, how? Why? Love you people so much like you have no idea.
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During these last 5 months i spent a lot of time trying to get into a relationship as it felt like one of the only things i could do to improve myself and help myself, because i haven’t been able to get a job or do school like normal. i got into a relationship that was mainly over the phone with someone from tinder, met twice in person but talked everyday for a month. Never had we done anything the second time we hung out we cuddled than after age broke up with me. We were friends for a bit but eventually i said something rude and she blocked me. I was sad but got over it.
Later on like months later im just doing my thing hanging out with my buddy as often as i can who is like my only friend really i hangout with anymore and i play video games and thats my life but i still tried to get into a relationship on dating apps.
Eventually one girls matches with me on bumble shes obsessed with me and pushes me to hangout with her, i start hanging out with her and lose my virginity to her, im also able to ejaculate for the first time in my life because theres something wrong with me and im not that sensitive but basically me and this girl go through a lot within a month and we do it a million times but theres times where we go to the ER for my panic attacks, possibly caused by addisons disease who knows but shes still obsessed with me right until later she breaks up with me over the phone while she goes to visit family friends to her, one of which is her ex, and shes been doing this every weekend.
Its an hour away she breaks up with me at 1 am. Turns out shes “in love with him” still and she was confused being in a relationship with me, she’d tried covering up that fact but later admitted. I treated her good and didn’t deserve that bla bla bla. I wrote her a poem she left at her house cus she hasnt been home but has been with that guy. Also this dudes basically homeless and a major downgrade from me in many ways. She messages me everyday for some lame reason calls me bestie today and fucks with me with her friends and the guy calling me gay. I explain to her that its fucked and context matters, she acts like she has no reason to talk to me then and i agree if she wants to fuck with me than we should be talking. I’ve been very respectful but have my limits, i told that guy i’d bitch slap him also.
Anyways she blocked me temporarily until friday so i can get my stuff from her house. Or she removed me as a friend on snap but i got her on other stuff still.
Anyways i’ve obviously felt like shit and been sad i didn’t even know i loved her as much as i did until i lost her, she still hasnt read my poem, she hasnt been home.
My question: how do i deal with myself i feel like i have derealization my mindset bad now from being debilitated for months even tho i feel like im starting to get slightly better, im still afraid to have a job and improve myself. Trying to find a another relationship feels stupid now and i keep crying over her. So all and all i dont know what to do, also i think about how everything pintless because of ai and shit and i just want to be in a normal mindset and be out of my grandmas trailer where ive been for years, im 19 btw. And everything feels fucked, i ask myself “what now” i’ve done so much and dont know if things are gonna ever get where i want because each years becomes worse than the last sense covid happened in 2020.
If i havent expressed the severity of my situation i wouldnt be writing this if it wasnt absolutely an uncomfortable world to be in right now. Like its been aweful, had a bad mental breakdown yesterday, girlfriend broke up like 5 days ago. I just dont know what to do, life was already difficult while were together now that just made the few things i enjoy feel almost pointless. I cant stop thinking about her, waking up in the morning coming to the realization of this is the hardest. Trust me i do absolutely everything to get better. I feel like lonely, scared, uncertain, and demotivated about life and what should i do guys, like i feel im doing better than i should but its still just like aweful.
Say whatever you want guys, like i just need help with this, like will this actually get better, how? Why? Love you people so much like you have no idea.
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Take a moment to check in with a loved one, friend, or acquaintance. Ask them how they're doing, ask them about their mental health. Keep in mind that while we may not all be mentally ill, we all have mental health.
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Remember, you are human, it's OK to not be OK. Life can be very difficult and there's no how-to guide for any of this. Try to be kind to yourself and remember that people need people. No one is a lone island and you need not struggle alone. Remember to practice self-care and alone time as well. You can't pour from an empty cup and your life is worth it.
Take a moment to check in with a loved one, friend, or acquaintance. Ask them how they're doing, ask them about their mental health. Keep in mind that while we may not all be mentally ill, we all have mental health.
If you find yourself in particular struggling to go on, please take a moment to read and reflect on this poem.
IMPORTANT DISCLAIMER: This mental health check-in thread is NOT a substitute for real-world professional help/support. MensLib is NOT a mental health support sub, and we are NOT professionals! This space solely exists to hold space for the community and help keep each other accountable.
2024.05.28 06:37 Wayne_Throwe69 They’re moving in together.
There goes the love of my life, doing with another man what she refused to do when she was with me.
She was afraid of planes, I would always go see her when we lived long distance, but now she takes six hour flights to Texas just to see him.
She was a picky eater, never dined where I would want. Now she posts photos with him at every restaurant in town.
She said she was too busy, that she couldn’t give me the love I deserved, yet now she gives him more love than I’d ever seen from her.
We talked about our marriage, about our children and our home. Now she’s moving in, but with a man who’s terrible.
One year and several months ago, the absolute love of my life, one week shy of Valentine’s, ended our relationship. “I’m too busy,” she cited, her pursuit of a law degree interfering with the quality time she could share with me. I was foolish, I had been doing everything to see her and to spend time with her, yet it was when I was without her that bit by bit the rest of my life was being stolen from me. My wife, my children, all gone in an instant that cold February evening.
I had just performed live in concert for the first time in little over ten years. The crowd cheered and applauded for me, men and women clamored to me once I left the stage to praise my performance, and I sent photos to my beloved, who could not make it. It was only later that I would learn that she hadn’t been studying, but rather had been going out with someone else.
“Hey…” I read her message in the morning, sent at high hours of the night as I slept. “I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can commit to our relationship any further.”
My heart sank in my chest. I went dizzy, my legs were numb, if I wasn’t already in bed I would have fallen over. Once I got my bearings, I continued reading.
“The workload this semester is much more than I anticipated, and we usually talk so much that I don’t think I can keep up with both. You’re such a sweet and caring boy, any woman would be so lucky to have you, I can’t give you the love you deserve at this time. Please understand my decision and I hope you find your person.”
I was gutted. I tried to talk back, but the silence echoed louder than the racing thoughts through my mind. Immediately I suspected there was someone else, but my better sense convinced me that there couldn’t have been, that she’s not that type of woman.
So months passed. We remained friends on social media, but a massive hole had opened in my life. This was the woman I intended to propose to. Never before and never since have I met someone with her grace, beauty, and acumen. My life was devoid of meaning. Fruitlessly I dated countless other women, a thousand first dates, a handful of second ones, and only one new relationship that did not outlast six months. It was in. That period that I found out.
“Happy birthday to your sister!” I messaged her, remembering her special day.
“Thank you,” she responded. “I hope you are well.”
I did not have the heart to tell her how much I missed her, especially being in another relationship at the time. One that did not hold a candle to the genuine happiness I felt in the previous one.
“Could be better, could be worse,” as I always said.
“I heard you have a new girlfriend,” she commented, surely given away by a mutual friend of ours in their hours of private gossip. “How’s that going?”
“Oh you know,” my heart wept. “It’s… going. It’s certainly going. Hey, now that your semester ended, have you given any thought to… getting back together sometime? Not now, obviously. We’re thousands of miles apart after all. I just meant… some time.”
“Sure, I’d love to!” She replied, putting my soul at ease, just for a brief moment. “But yeah as you said not now, seeing as we’re so far away and we’re both in relationships and all.”
I was, for the first time, truly frozen in shock. I thought it was an exaggeration from the movies, but if I could relate my reaction to any film clip, it would be when Star-Lord finds out the cancer in his mother was implanted by his father, only much longer. I stared at the screen for what must have been forty seconds, but felt like days.
“Both in relationships?” I wrote back. “What do you mean? I thought you were too busy with the semester. I thought you would call me if that changed.”
“Yeah, it was a weird thing, we met at a lighter point in the semester. Anyway, let’s put a pin on that. I’ll tell my sister you wished her a happy birthday.”
As more time passed, more of the truth came to light. They had started seeing each other some time before she broke up with me, and decided that instead of cheating, she would just leave me for him. What’s more, it was a guy from my class. The biggest dickhead I had ever met in my life, with the most precious princess on the planet. My world was shattered with every bit of info I gathered or was fed. And each time, I cried.
I wrote poems for her, I wrote songs for her, I even wrote a novel for her, I did everything in an effort to show her that she was my one and only. I became the best version of myself to show her I’d improved, that every pursuit is worthy if she would only be by my side. I ended my relationship with the new girl, because it didn’t feel right for me to be seeing someone for corporeal and affectionate needs while truly loving another woman. One year later, I was still at square one.
Today, I found out they’re moving in together. She’s twenty-four, he’s God-knows-how old, probably between twenty-three and twenty-five. Before I know it they’ll be married, and I’ll be here, lamenting myself over a mistake I did not even know I made.
There goes the woman of my dreams, the one made for me, the one I hoped and prayed for since infancy. There she goes, away from me, from the arm of a monster clad in human skin. Lord God, why have you forsaken me? Why have you forsaken me? Why have you forsaken me?
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She was afraid of planes, I would always go see her when we lived long distance, but now she takes six hour flights to Texas just to see him.
She was a picky eater, never dined where I would want. Now she posts photos with him at every restaurant in town.
She said she was too busy, that she couldn’t give me the love I deserved, yet now she gives him more love than I’d ever seen from her.
We talked about our marriage, about our children and our home. Now she’s moving in, but with a man who’s terrible.
One year and several months ago, the absolute love of my life, one week shy of Valentine’s, ended our relationship. “I’m too busy,” she cited, her pursuit of a law degree interfering with the quality time she could share with me. I was foolish, I had been doing everything to see her and to spend time with her, yet it was when I was without her that bit by bit the rest of my life was being stolen from me. My wife, my children, all gone in an instant that cold February evening.
I had just performed live in concert for the first time in little over ten years. The crowd cheered and applauded for me, men and women clamored to me once I left the stage to praise my performance, and I sent photos to my beloved, who could not make it. It was only later that I would learn that she hadn’t been studying, but rather had been going out with someone else.
“Hey…” I read her message in the morning, sent at high hours of the night as I slept. “I’m sorry, but I don’t think I can commit to our relationship any further.”
My heart sank in my chest. I went dizzy, my legs were numb, if I wasn’t already in bed I would have fallen over. Once I got my bearings, I continued reading.
“The workload this semester is much more than I anticipated, and we usually talk so much that I don’t think I can keep up with both. You’re such a sweet and caring boy, any woman would be so lucky to have you, I can’t give you the love you deserve at this time. Please understand my decision and I hope you find your person.”
I was gutted. I tried to talk back, but the silence echoed louder than the racing thoughts through my mind. Immediately I suspected there was someone else, but my better sense convinced me that there couldn’t have been, that she’s not that type of woman.
So months passed. We remained friends on social media, but a massive hole had opened in my life. This was the woman I intended to propose to. Never before and never since have I met someone with her grace, beauty, and acumen. My life was devoid of meaning. Fruitlessly I dated countless other women, a thousand first dates, a handful of second ones, and only one new relationship that did not outlast six months. It was in. That period that I found out.
“Happy birthday to your sister!” I messaged her, remembering her special day.
“Thank you,” she responded. “I hope you are well.”
I did not have the heart to tell her how much I missed her, especially being in another relationship at the time. One that did not hold a candle to the genuine happiness I felt in the previous one.
“Could be better, could be worse,” as I always said.
“I heard you have a new girlfriend,” she commented, surely given away by a mutual friend of ours in their hours of private gossip. “How’s that going?”
“Oh you know,” my heart wept. “It’s… going. It’s certainly going. Hey, now that your semester ended, have you given any thought to… getting back together sometime? Not now, obviously. We’re thousands of miles apart after all. I just meant… some time.”
“Sure, I’d love to!” She replied, putting my soul at ease, just for a brief moment. “But yeah as you said not now, seeing as we’re so far away and we’re both in relationships and all.”
I was, for the first time, truly frozen in shock. I thought it was an exaggeration from the movies, but if I could relate my reaction to any film clip, it would be when Star-Lord finds out the cancer in his mother was implanted by his father, only much longer. I stared at the screen for what must have been forty seconds, but felt like days.
“Both in relationships?” I wrote back. “What do you mean? I thought you were too busy with the semester. I thought you would call me if that changed.”
“Yeah, it was a weird thing, we met at a lighter point in the semester. Anyway, let’s put a pin on that. I’ll tell my sister you wished her a happy birthday.”
As more time passed, more of the truth came to light. They had started seeing each other some time before she broke up with me, and decided that instead of cheating, she would just leave me for him. What’s more, it was a guy from my class. The biggest dickhead I had ever met in my life, with the most precious princess on the planet. My world was shattered with every bit of info I gathered or was fed. And each time, I cried.
I wrote poems for her, I wrote songs for her, I even wrote a novel for her, I did everything in an effort to show her that she was my one and only. I became the best version of myself to show her I’d improved, that every pursuit is worthy if she would only be by my side. I ended my relationship with the new girl, because it didn’t feel right for me to be seeing someone for corporeal and affectionate needs while truly loving another woman. One year later, I was still at square one.
Today, I found out they’re moving in together. She’s twenty-four, he’s God-knows-how old, probably between twenty-three and twenty-five. Before I know it they’ll be married, and I’ll be here, lamenting myself over a mistake I did not even know I made.
There goes the woman of my dreams, the one made for me, the one I hoped and prayed for since infancy. There she goes, away from me, from the arm of a monster clad in human skin. Lord God, why have you forsaken me? Why have you forsaken me? Why have you forsaken me?
2024.05.28 05:56 Hot-Statement-5405 Untitled Poem
-Poem about losing friends, that are still alive.
“An empty glass, a point of time.
Thinking back, the smiling faces.
Distance grows, hearts divide.
Better place, peace of mind.”
“An empty stool, a glimpse in time.
Turning back, faded faces.
Nothing grows, piercing divide.
Out of place, absent mind.”
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“An empty glass, a point of time.
Thinking back, the smiling faces.
Distance grows, hearts divide.
Better place, peace of mind.”
“An empty stool, a glimpse in time.
Turning back, faded faces.
Nothing grows, piercing divide.
Out of place, absent mind.”